Therapist first time hearing Slipknot “Duality”
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The lead singer Corey Taylor founded in 2022 the "The Taylor Foundation". to help veterans who suffer from PTSD.
"During my career, I’ve been privileged to have many veterans and people in emergency service support me, telling me how much my music has helped them with everything they’ve had to endure- from combat to stress on the job to the inevitable repercussions that come from PTSD. Now, it’s my turn to give back as much as I can to them"
-Corey Taylor
As a Veteran with PTSD SLIPKNOT has help me push through the shit.
this is new information to me. In 2010 or 2011 I had the privilege of having several personal conversations with Corey while I was struggling with a divorce and Medical Discharge from USMC from a suicide attempt after finding out my wife had been unfaithful the whole time we were married. I wonder if those conversations way back may have been something Corey remembered. Slipknot has always been a voice I had stripped away as a kid raised in Church. Corey and I had some deep conversations about that. I will not be so vain to think I inspired anything, but I am humbled to think it is possible and I am thankful to know he is supporting my brothers and sisters who suffer from PTSD as I continue to fight through
Dam didn't know that that's cool as shit
"I loved that, how he hit the little Thang and it tinged." just summarized this man's career.
😂
he started the band and is it's original drummer as well as backing vocals and percussion. he also directs most of the music videos and etc
@@jakedergeist he also hits that thang and makes it ting.
@@jakedergeist You forgot, he fires people too, and "contracts" people to play for the band, they don't actually get to join. :P
@@jakedergeist sean is a business man, and is more into film than music. "Artistic" but not a very talented musician lol
“Everyone gets mad when I dance” it’s bloody adorable! Keep on dancing
🎵 don't stop dancin' 🎵
fun fact: this was filmed in a fan’s house while his parents were outa town and they gave them 50k for the damages
After over 40 years I'm convinced "happiness" isn't real. If it is, I probably don't have the ability to feel it. Just feel less horrible than other days.
From Micro: Yes, it is really discouraging when happiness seems to be nothing but a distant dream in our own journey. Everyone around us talk about it, so many self-help books and methods are overcrowding libraries shelves and social media, but as much as the recipe seems simple for some, it becomes a real challenhr for others. Then you start comparing yourself to others, you see them - seemingly happy - or at least having some sense of ownership in their life, and you wonder why you don't, feeling even more hurt and alone.
So many times I personally asked myself if I wasn't just too broken or too far gone for the very possibility of experiencing genuine happiness. Not just as some very short and fading experience, but as something that could feel a little bit tangible and lasting. Something to hold on to without fearing the moment it would be gone. It's definitely hard to live in a world where happiness is this goal that everyone is pressured to pursue, but to feel like being constantly walking on the wrong path, towards the wrong direction where nobody else seems to be. It feels like there is a piece of the puzzle that is missing and you have no clue how to get it, despite trying your best to find it.
I feel the exhaustion through your words, and the temptation to embrace some kind of resignation in the face of repeated hurt and disappointment. And honestly if that's how you feel, then that makes completely sense. There are seasons in our life when it feels like there's only so much we can take in again, only so much sorrow and brokenness we can process. It's not even the pain that hurts, it's this added feeling on top of it that you would be doomed to be stuck in an endless repetition, of having your hopes high only to see it turn to ashes over and over again. Somehow, it feels safer to just give up on hope itself, on the idea of reaching this seeingly unreachable goal one day. When you set your expectations to your level of disappointment, you avoid the possibility of being more hurt, at leastin theory.
For what it's worth, to me personally there have been barriers at play that I took a long time before acknowledging. Unprocessed traumas and clinical depression have been major obstacles to reaching happiness - at least in the way I was conceiving it. I spent a lot of time surviving before realizing that I was heading into a direction that was at the complete opposite of what I needed. But the moment I started to identify those struggles, the moment I started to be helped in recognizing it and working on it, I also started to see that I am not too broken - I was just dealt with cards I had yet to process. A unique story that also needed to be told, even if there are lots of ugly parts in it.
I guess my point in sharing this, is that you may not have to give up on hope, and even less on your right to live the life you aspire to get. Of course, it's okay to feel tired and even more to express it. There may paths in between though, complex and uncomfortable paths, but ones that could lead you to new ways to know and meet yourself at a deeper level. You are not the problem. Even if for example with depression my ability to feel happiness is affected, I can still see beauty in unexpected places and people that are a part of my life. Although it took - and will keep taking - practice in order to learn to see differently, with my own tools, resources, with who I am - and not from who others/society would want me to be. We can't all "just" do yoga and have walk outside to feel better, but we can still explore, experiment while being gentle with ourselves, and see what resonates the most with our heart.
My hope for you is that you will keep trying, for you, for the very possibility of *feeling* alive again and whole, even beyond any sense of specific joy. You deserve to feel wonder again through this beautiful heart of yours. You deserve to feel a renewed sense of discovery - within you and in resonance with the world around you. You really do.
Hold Fast, friend. I believe in you.
- Micro
I’m totally jaded. I don’t believe that love is real. Totally jaded from a 15 year marriage to a narcissist who gaslit me for 15 years.
I think I see where you are coming from. I found out that "happiness" is a not a goal or a place you reach, its a short term episode, a moment to cherish. Its not supposed to last for an extended period of time and its good that its that way!
I need to have these ups and downs, otherwise I cant appreciate the good moments in the same way when I do not experience the dark and bad moments. I see life as just like a heart-monitor by now - it needs to peak up and down, otherwise you´ll end up with a flat line - and a flatline means you´re dead, not necessarily physically but emotionally.
I know times when I'm down in a hole (which I quite often dug myself) and barely able to get a positive peak together, but these times go by.
For me a part of remedy is not to take myself and the world around me too serious and to not lose my sense of humor. Even when I have nothing to laugh about, I`m still able to laugh at my own stupidity, pettiness, close-mindedness, etc..
I´m not sure if you genuinely cant feel happiness or if you are searching for something that IMHO does not exist at all (happiness for a prolonged period of time) and keep overlooking the small moments of happiness along the way.
This I just how I feel about "the pursuit of happiness" and how I try to handle my depressive episodes and is not necessarily applicable to you and your situation!
That's about right
i think the problem is the desire of happiness. seek peace, not happiness.
*I push my fingers in to my eyes/it's the only thing that slowly stops the ache*
This is an alusion to the physiological phenomena of applying pressure to your eyes to reduce the pain of a migraine.
For some reason, it just works.
It also works with sinus headaches
maybe because headaches are mostly caused by pressure in your head, puting pressure on your eyes (wich are directly rellied to the brain) sends the signal tha there is more pressure elsewhere, like it changes the place of the pain and gives a releif on your nerves.
but i'm no specialist
it also works with my paroxysmal supraventricular tachycardia
@@hugofortintruchon5298 There is a hierarchy of sensation, with pain at the lowest priority. Next is pressure, it think, then awareness of where your body is in relation to itself ie the position its in. This is why walking it off is a real thing. It gets other stimuli going that are a higher priority than the pain. This is a very, very, basic representation of Pain Gate Theory. Check it out if you'd like to know more, or at least know the proper hierarchy, cause the way I ordered it may be wrong, I do know for a fact that pressure is a higher priority than pain. This video is a relatively brief explanation of how it works.
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The body is designed to survive, and if you are being attacked by a predator, pressure on your body give you more useful information for your escape than pain does. Pain tells you damage has been done. Pressure tells you where things are, and are not. Running doesn't do any good if you are trying to run through the tree at your back.
Also, knowing where your body is in space is critical to surviving as well. You can't escape if you don't know how to arrange yourself and limbs to be able to run or fight back.
“Bury all your secrets in my skin “ snuff hits hard 😔
For me "you can not kill what you did not create" has become a mantra of mine of sorts. To me it is more along the lines of "letting go of the things you have no control over", as much as you may wish you had the ability to just end something, sometimes that is not up to you and you have to control your actions towards it.
Love your take on this line. A powerful reminder of how important it can be to distinguish between what we can change from what we can't. So easy (and tempting) to fall into the trap of dwelling on things we have no control over... just for the illusion of control it gives, even if it's only an illusion.
Especially after "I've wished for this, I've bitched at that, I've left behind this little fad" brings more to this meaning. Complain all you want but eventually you just have to get on with life and let people ruin their own instead of yours.
It's funny because when I was younger I had this engraved on my iPod (yeah that old) but at the time it was more along the lines of "you didn't make me, I made me. No matter what you do only I can destroy me." It was more of an outward expressed rebellious tone but in time it became more internal wisdom like a reminder that " *I* can't kill what *I* did not create" so why worry about it?
Rest In Peace To My Drum Brother #JoeyJordison
And Paul Gray
Joey was sick on the drums it’s not the same with ought him r.i.p ❤
Snuff is a completely different vibe for Slipknot. It's a beautiful, tragic song with great lyrics. Corey Taylor performs it solo a lot. Slipknot changes the masks with each album they put out. I much prefer their first couple of albums over their new stuff, but there are some things that came out in between that are also good.
I agree. And most times I show someone Snuff, they don’t believe its really Slipknot.
The acoustic live performance Corey Taylor did is my favorite version for sure.
me personallyy i dont like snuff, dead memories is a much better non metal style song
I love .5 The Gray Chapter
Snuff is definitely one of my favorites
Just found your channel today, and love it! I always tell people “I listen to angry music so I won’t be angry”.
Well i dont think they are "angry music" ppl just listen to the "screams" but there's so much more behind all that.
A very therapeutic band, hope to see more 🤟
I just hate how the music video cuts so much audio from the studio tracks 😢
It's pretty funny when you realize the whole song is just about having a splitting headache, and how he's dealing with it.
Pushing your fingers around your eyes, especially on the bridge of the nose can help relieve the pain.
The first time I realised it was when I did it as I was listening to the song 😭 I was like hold on a second
I mean yeah, but also the reason behind the headache being the thoughts in your head repeating and killing your brain.
@@its-aydonus6842 Or allergies.
I thought it was about turning left onto a busy street from a parking lot 😂
I get migraines and cluster headaches. Sometimes I could swear my eye is going to explode, and you have to dig your fingers in to keep it contained.
I used to be really depressed, but when I started to listen to metal and heavy stuff, it slowly faded away, and kind of felt good to finally be out of it. Depression is not a good place people. Stay strong and listen to some metal if you are going through it. 👍
Tons of nu-metal bands talked openly about isolation, depression and other common issues that we don't (or didn't) talk about. Slipknot are fun rabbit hole
Not everyone gets mad when you dance. I rather enjoy watching you rock out!
If I recall for the music video a Maggot told the band his house was being demolished and let them film the video wit more fans thrashing the place before the actual demolition! Love the dance, you're feeling the music!
A few things to know about Maggots (the slipknot fan base) we are generally very nice people... we get our aggression out in the mosh pit... we would also love to know what the song is(especially if you are using a thumbnail from a different Era/ album/song) maybe just put it in your title... and I doubt any of us will judge you for your dancing... you were vibeing we love that this is one of our favorite bands after all.
About the song, the chorus line "I push my fingers into my eyes, it's the only thing that slowly stops the ache" has been said to be a reference to chronic migraines. With certain types of migraines pressure on the eyes can relieve the pain of the headache
However, on their discography many of their songs are metaphorical digs at the mainstream music industry
@heartsupport I'm a recovering addict and have major depression disorder. Slipknot has been my catharsis for 20 years. Nero forte by Slipknot is a must listen. I would live to see a reaction by you.
From Micro: Congrats on the active recovery, friend. Really. Addictions are such tough beasts to tackle, and I imagine all the steps it took you to get to this very point of being in a stage of active recovery. From the recognition of the struggle itself, the brutal reality check it takes to say "I'm not okay and I need help", the willingness to change direction when something inside you insists on moving you towards sabotaging yourself, the welcoming of others help and support into your life, the recognition of your own strengths and resources... and the bravery to share it here. That's so many steps you've been taking, so many milestones reached, so much resilience gained over time. I don't know if you ever took time to celebrate it all - or even just some of it - but I really wanted to acknowldge it here. You are amazing, and I wholeheartedly believe in you as you are on this healing journey, especially as you also navigate the realms of depression. That's something I deeply resonate with - the days when you just don't feel much and want to stay stuck in bed are a real hurdle, too often invisible to others. For what it's worth from a stranger like me... I see you, I see your efforts, I see your strength through it all. The nights of utter loneliness and desperation you had to walk through, and the beauty of learning to bloom again now, differently.
May music keep being a catharsis, as much as you need, and may your path keep unfolding towards healing, towards the life you aspire to have, towards the emotional safety you deserve to know. You got this.
- Micro
From Micro: PS - Nero Forte is my fav - suuuch powerful energy and lyrics. +1 on seeing a reaction on it! :heart:
I've already seen some of your videos. It's like you're helping me listen to these songs for the first time again❤
This helped me out of a dark place of pain, pain, pain. Horrible ankle break and allergic to narcotics. Metal is good for the soul.
This is one of the coolest premises for music review videos. Using music as a tool to help people relate to their mental health is something I really jive with. As a long-time musician who has been a student and practitioner of Tibetan Buddhism, I really appreciate what you do. I see the beautiful light that shines through you and your intent to bring understanding and healing to troubled minds. Using popular music as a tool to help with that the way you do is awesome. There is a wealth of deep experience that artists express through their lyrics that people can use to relate to their own experience. Having someone like you to help draw the connection between a listener's experience and that of the artist, in a mental health context, is a precious thing.
Keep doing what you do.
I look forward to watching more of your videos.
Thank you!
"It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache ..." was a life changing sentence for me back in 2005: I had to move away from home because of work. I left my whole life behind me, all my friends, family, my whole familiar environment in which I had been able to live carefree for over 20 years. It felt so terribly empty and nothing made sense anymore. That was the time when I listened to a lot of Slipknot, Chimaira, Hatebreed and so on. This one line kept buzzing around in my head until I thought to myself ‘The only thing that slowly stops the ache’ is to find a woman and put down new roots here. What can I say? - Found a wife, got married, have 2 kids and bought a house. Thanks Corey!
My absolute lifelong battle with migraines and manic depression makes this song a life long lesson about feeling better. Screaming this is n the shower may annoy my neighbors but I still feel better
"You cannot kill what you did not create"
I've been listening to this track for 20 years and you made me think of this line in a whole different way. I've never thought of it as a resignation to what you've been given. Subscribed.
Slipknot changed my life. Started listening in middle school and have been a HUGE fan ever since. THANK YOU FOR THE 25 YEARS OF HARD FUCKING METAL BOYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When this CD came out. I was a senior in high school. And it pushed me forwarded toward graduating high school and pushing me through all the bull that is reality, understanding what life was and accepting the truth that you make life what it is. Pushed me through depression. Slipknot is my life now and forever. All I can say is Slipknot has allowed me to grow in my current life. And yes you can't kill what you did not create. Because you are not in charge of my reality and you can't take that away from me!
You are amazing and doing such a wonderful thing with your videos and community. It really touches my heart🥺. I like your little dances, it makes me smile😊
If you want Slipknot in its' brutal form, listen to "People = Shit", "Eeyore" or "Disasterpiece".
or “Gently” :)
What I’ve noticed is that the lyrics that stick out to you in your therapeutic songs can describe what you’re feeling. For me, Evanescence, We Are The Fallen had described what I was feeling at my lowest points and I actually took the time to write out the parts of the songs that made me feel. Music is definitely therapeutic.
Most of Slipknots early stuff is about depression, isolation, despair, revenge, addiction - its a little heavy to jump into cold so stick in this period for now!
If you do get to the old Self Titled/Iowa stuff, deffo use the lyrics for the context of the aggression
Good to have you on the maggot train!
And then this one is about having a headache
Started from you reacting and breaking down The Search by NF and after 3 videos, ended up here. I am glad I did. NF and Slipknot is and has been my therapy whenever I needed. Thanks!
The pursuit of happiness has overtaken the satisfaction of contentment.
What i recognised in the music video is the fact that a lot of people go towards the house where slipknot sings maybe meaning that you are not the only one that strugles and there are ther people on the same track and in general the fact you arent the only one strugling and going in a good way towards better
Plus the fact that race/gender/social class/whatever, doesn’t matter. They are there for the music and to get some awesome catharsis though kick ass music.
@@Jim87_36 fr the video slaps so hard
I can relate to the song. “l push my fingers into my eyes, it’s the only thing that stops the ache.” Takes on a different meaning for me. My 24 year career of being a first responder, I’ve seen everything from murder scenes, suicides, to bodies twisted like pretzels in auto accidents. The digging fingers into my eyes part. Is me trying not see those scenes on a continuous loop in my mind nonstop. The stopping the ache part. Is knowing that there is four years left till retirement. The title Duality is the career I love Vs. the toll it takes on my mind and body.
I smile watching you dance. As long as you enjoy it. Keep doing it.
From Micro: @lucky13driver A career like yours is pursued out of passion, meaning, purpose. You don't get into it with only half of your soul involved. But along the way, it pushes you to feel as if you have to lose parts of yourself too, which freaking hurts. Life in general doesn't have the same shape once you see people in their darkest and most vulnerable moments. When you see in the eyes of someone the shock and despair someone can experience in a situation of emergency, as well as how fragile and uncertain life can be. There is, without a doubt, a before and an after when you witness all of this, and I imagine how much it must feel at times like this process gets repeated each time you are called for a new situation. The mind can block it all and creates a needed numbness at times, but there are moments when the day goes silent, when you can finally breathe more slowly, but also when it must feel like your start taking the measure of all the things you've seen.
I hope that you manage to rely on your loved ones, even possibly on professional support as much as you need. Helpers need help, and the job you are doing is definitely one of a kind. You make such a beautiful impact on people's lives by being there when they need you the most. But you also deserve the same care, and to have people supporting you. No matter how ugly it can be to talk about it, you deserve allies by your side who are ready to listen unconditionally and without any judgment. Just for you to have the possibility to breathe again at other stimes and seeing the beauty around you, even if retirement is in four years. You are not alone my friend.
Thank you for what you do, but even more thank you for sharing about how it affects you. Oftentimes, people are afraid of talking about the trauma they experience in the "care" field, for there is this unsaid expectations of having to be the strong one. But at the end of the day, we're all human beings. And when you recognize how your job affects your mental health, it's not only opening a door to help you, but also to offer an even better support to those who need it. There is something profoundly beautiful and transformative in expressing the burdens we've been carrying, and the images that get stuck in our mind at night. Proud of you for doing it here, friend. I'm rooting for you. :heart:
-Marie-Anne, Heartsupport Staff
@heartsupport You have a new solid fan! I am showing my wife your channel tonight
Always cool to see someone react to this song/video. I was at the filming of the video. Amazing experience, 19yr old me thought it was the high point of my entire life up to that moment.
Love what you’re doing ..let’s go maggotts 🔥
MAGGOTS - ASSEMBLE
My favorite is the song Purity. It's sung from the prospective of a young girl who was buried alive. Not sure if the story is true or not, but it's dark. Tis the season! 😁
Corey found the story online and thought it was a true story and wrote the song, then it turned out it was a copyrighted story for a fictional crime scene investigation website, the author sued the band, they removed Frail Limb Nursery (which directly sampled the story's audio files) and Purity, eventually the lawsuit and website went away and the band was able to use Purity again in albums (they played it live)
It’s interesting seeing a reaction to their music and not hearing one word towards their incredible musicianship, Joey (their late drummer) in particular. It’s refreshing, coming from a musician who’s watched breakdowns of this song about a million times.
Honestly I think you're one of the best things I ever found on youtube(even the best thing)
I really appreciate you, keep on going girl.
Also Radiohead songs might be good to react they are so relatable.
We make choices, and in that it's understood we have measured upsides and downsides, then made a choice... so it IS our responsibility... to always think it's not my fault when choices go sideways is an easy offramp to help avoid reckonings... somewhere, at sometime, a path has been entered upon that has led to predicaments that can trap us in depression, despair and a myriad of conditions that can lead to desperation to find a way out, a way back.... that's when people show up at the therapists' door for help... those are the lucky few that make it to your door... many, many never make it... just started watching you, you were a TH-cam suggestion. There's a lot going on in your videos, the mental health angle thru headbangers music is unique. Your expressive physicality, your comments, all engaging, watchable, important... and you have a solid sense of humor and that is key... rock on. I hit all the right buttons to see future work...
Only 5m into this, I just found you yesterday because of Tool's Parabola (then proceeded to watch the whole Tool Playlist, while cleaning/re-stringing my bass guitar), decided to comment, cuz you said people complain about you dancing... I Love That!!! I never finished my degree to become a therapist (wanted to be a Junior High Counselor, or specialize in pre-late teen age group), so Thank You for being You, and giving yourself the OK to do music reactions!! Loving You Sooooo Much!!
Sorry for edit, but just got to the Self-Harm part... I did struggle with this during my teens-early 20's... one of my therapist said he'd never heard my view on it, that was... I cut because the physical damage was something I Could Do Something About, in that time I didn't know how to deal with the physiological issues (diagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder/Major Depressive) Again Thank You!!
Songs from their Iowa album are definitely heavier, but yeah, they never get super duper heavy.
I got into Slipknot when I was 12 and when I was 13 I came out as gay. Slipknot was my strength to be true to myself and how to deal with the bullies, and people who wouldn't accept it. When I was 14 when this song came out I was getting beat up alot for being gay. Duality got me through it, and gave me the power to fight back towards the homophobic students that afflicted pain on me. Now I'm 34 now and I'm a strong gay man and I thank Slipknot for that.❤
you may not kill what you did not create, but in order to create you must destroy. transformation is beautiful {:
Loved Slipknot for many years now. My interpretation of "You cannot kill what you did not create" is a message of perseverance. Life can try to push us around, take advantage of us, beat us down, but we're not going down without a fight. We can push back. We can become stronger. You didn't create me, and you can't kill me. I'll show you what I'm made of 💪😈🤘
I've always loved this song. And you refrencing self harm explains subcoutiousely why it's always been a favorite
@heartsupport
I always loved this song's lyrics.
The song is by a hardcore band called "Bane" and is called "Ali Vs. Frazier":
"how many more days will you sit
and talk about your ambitions
all that you can be
the person you are dying to be
the place you want to get to but always out of reach
before that fury swells inside of you
grows so big that it forever quiets you
stand up to your demons
make a run at your goliath
find the best, find the worst
waiting in both of you
it's not the who or the what that is lasting
but how you fight
that is the fight
the only mark that will not leave you
and i will feel my heart drum its final beat
if it meant that i have given this my all
there's nothing left for me to believe in
if not you, if not this...
what else is there but death?
(it's your call... it's all on you)
give more
give everything
give blood"
Edit: Corrected typo in lyrics
@heartsupport "It's strange, whenever I see a gun
I think about just how petty you are
And it blows my fxcking mind
Yeah, it blows my fxcking mind" These lyrics from the song Custer resonate with me on a personal level. I live in a city where gun violence is very bad. And I've had a gun pulled on me before.
From NateTriesAgain: Yeah, there's something cathartic when lyrics literally express these deep thoughts that get stored within us from traumatic experiences. It's scary AF when all of a sudden someone pulls a gun on you and you realize how vulnerable your life is. It's such a violent expression of powerlessness. And it is jarring to our normal human experience of mutual trust and respect - like on a base level...you're human, I'm human, life is hard, we're in this together...and yet when moments like that happen, it shatters that kind of fundamental humanity, and it makes life feel awkwardly fragile. And there's anger to that - it feels like such an injustice for someone to be so selfish to put you in that position. I feel like these lyrics really speak to that anger at the injustice of it - like why would you do that?! And it's something that your heart feels the need to shout, feelings that were birthed in fear and need an expression.
Thank you for sharing that here.
I’m pretty sure a lot of what the ‘I push my fingers into my eyes” part is talking practically about dealing with headaches because it does help and especially during a hangover, which Corey not only dealt with a lot in his life, but in the first three months they were together in the house they recorded this record in, most of the band was completely loaded on drugs and alcohol, and most of them, specifically Corey, turned themselves around and got sober during recording. He said at a live show that he got to a point where he was drinking three bottles of whiskey a day. That line definitely makes me think of that. He was a mess behind the scenes during their first and second records. And a lot of the second record he said he recorded drunk.
@heartsupport “Wishing” yes you made a very good point. I know I should have the ability to get out of this rut through internal strength but even meds don’t help. “Fingers in eyes” I know this feeling. It’s extreme frustration and stress from the world. It’s a kind of ache that sits behind the eyes.
“I’m not gonna make it” The pain, frustration and stress seems so overwhelming that a human shouldn’t be able to withstand it.
“My future seems like one big past” No hope for any positive change in the future.
People with ptsd and severe depression can relate to this song. It’s feels like a good pressure valve release but I question whether it’s helpful or harmful.
Either way, great song from a great band 🤘
@heartsupport, id be interested in thoughts about icp tracks. Its been a long dark life for me, but i truly feel like the dark carnival has helped keep me from going over the edge and completely losing myself.
Corey is the man!!! Anything the dude does. Slipknot.. Stone Sour… CMFT. His Veteran foundation. He’s the dude. His backstory to his success is unreal. Rock on Corey!! He is an inspiration and more people need to know who Corey is; where he came from and who he is today.
I was listening to this when it came out I was 16 or 17.. drinkin whiskey and workin in restaurants.. going to high school, runnin from the law and trying to stay out of psych system.. ha.. Slipknot 🤘🤘
Loved your little guitar wiggles. Keep up the great content
To speak on the subject of self harm....I personally engaged in such to see the damage that I felt inside. I fought through it without professional support. I moved to tattooing myself and have found such a seperation from self harm now. I keep my scars untouched to remind me of how bad it was and how far I have come.
Please try to 'Come On' by Oktaf Kanis 🤟🏻😊
Cool recommendation Sarah, love this 🔥
@@JesseLarrian of course dude!
@heartsupport you're relaxed, you're sublime, you're amazing; and you don't even know the danger you're "phasing" 😢
I always felt like the tone in the line “you cannot kill what you did not create” felt super mocking like it was an internal voice trying to keep you in the the negative space in life
A great many slipknot songs are about mental health, likewise, Disturbed, Black Sabbath etc.
She said "Y'all"!!!!!!! Love it. I wish Metal was more popular in the South. Of course, I love country, too. LoL.
You should try listening to slipknots unsainted. But if you want something heavy but talks about some history listen to iron maidens run to the hills
If someone gets mad at you for dancing then they need to pull the stick out of their ass and feel for once.
I enjoy your vibe. Subscribed for more.
As someone who has been a Slipknot fan since their debut album and someone who has suffered from depression for as long as I can remember, the lyric "you cannot kill what you did not create" was not a defeat lyric. I always saw it as a call of defiance. You can't kill me because you didn't make me who I am. It was more of a middle finger to people trying to bring you down for being the person you are. It's part of the duality this song is named after. In my opinion, it's the big FU to people that want to pull you down while still being in a deep hole yourself.
@heartsupport, the lyrics in Nero Forte are amazing, there is a definite point where they use a double meaning in the lyrics (look at the lyrics, you will see where they do that), incredibly deep.
my favorite mask is the white mask with the black stripes. it was the one worn by the drummer :)
I swear I love your videos. They really help me love life.
Corey Taylor is a genius. He also has another band that is WAY different than the sound of Slipknot, called Stone Sour. He does my all time favorite song called 'Bother'. Bother has helped me through a lot. Another great song by Stone Sour is 'Through Glass'. Both are definitely recommended.
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As far as the lyric the hit new hard personally was not Slipknot but All That Remains “Become the Catalyst”
“Let the Fire consume me!
LET THE FIRE BURN!
Let the courage flow through me!
LET THE FIRE BURN!
I POUND THE WALLS
I SHAKE THE CAGE
I WILL NOT FALL
I WILL NOT FAIL!”
Makes me rethink everything i thought about the music i was listening to and sought more of that “punch-in-the-face” power that metal tends to have.
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“My heart is just to dark to care” Snuff. You’ve covered this song since this video was released but that line is one that seems to reverberate with me a lot. Personal context 10 years of DV and constant verbal and psychological abuse, which has resulted in depression and self harm
From ThriceTheThird: @glenndavis8937 I relate a lot to this too. I felt for a very long time that there were so many things I just couldn't share with people, because they were too dark/depressing, and I didn't want to bring that stuff to light for the people around me. I have since found that bringing it up, and letting it out can prove to be very therapeutic. As long as it is being done in a safe place, and with understanding people. I think that part is important, because sharing in an unsafe place, and to the wrong people can result in deterring us from sharing again, but here it is okay to share your dark heart and let it out, if you feel the need to do so. <3
From HC-PinGviini: @glenndavis8937 I'm sorry to hear about your struggles with DV. I found it so hard to relate to other people with all the darkness I experienced with my own traumas and it can be hard to make those first steps to get help, but you've done well to connect with us here. I don't know if you DV is something that's in your past or currently on-going, but I can relate to a similar pain for myself and hope you'll find yourself one day with less darkness in your heart.
From Micro: @glenndavis8937 That line is indeed so profound. It's such a beautiful yet heartbreaking way to express that there's only so much one soul can take. At some point, the pain is too suffocating, and it is as if your mind has to completely disconnect you from your feelings - the ones that hurt but also the ones that bring good things - in order to protect yourself. It's like having no choice but to renounce on life itself because the reality of the world would be too cruel and there would be no way to find peace in it. It's alsmot like condemning ourselves to live a cheap life that no longer has the same flavor, being aware of it, somehow regretting it, but also feeling like it's the only viable path moving forward. At some point welcoming others into our life feels too much like a risk - for love can also carry pain, hurt and suffering.
I'm so very sorry that you have experienced domestic violence and years of abuse. You have been treated in ways that no human being should ever be treated. In light of what happened to you, it makes completely sense to have been struggling with the aftermath of it, to have known firsthand the struggles of depression and self-harrm. What you've been through was highly truamatic, and it's hard to find our way in life when we feel like our own story has to be re-built somehow entirely. It's such a hard, heavy and unfair burden.
I have myself suffered years of abuse and voilence as a child, and to this day it keeps haunting me, even though there's been a lot of progress too. It's hard to dissociate the person we are from the wrong that was done to us, once we acknowledge how unfair and bad the situation was. It's hard to keep trusting others too. There are days when I feel unable to walk out of bed, and it's hard to accept that as being a part of my reality - especially when it stems from someone else's actions.
If this lyric resonate with you now, it may resonate differently in the future though. Your own healing may be composed of relearning to trust others with yourself, little by little, while knowing the reality of what you've been through and how deeply it has affected you. Your story isn't meant to be entirely conditioned by what happened to you in the hands of that person, for you are unique and beautiful individual who has a path ahead to keep forging. You have the capacity to unfold your wings and to keep shining your light, as you always deserved. You matter, so very much.
I am so thankful for you as you chose to share about it here today. Hold Fast, friend. <3
Corey Taylor is an Artist!
SlipKnot has got me through years of struggles,
I love your channel!!!!
The "I push my fingers into my eyes" part is not about self harm, its about self relief thru unconventional means. Follow the rest of the verse. If he doesnt stop the pain he wont survive, so he does what he must to stop the ache.
As someone with chronic migraines I get it, sticking thumbs in between the eye & upper orbital socket actually provides relief. Freaks ppl out but gives me a momentary pause. At the time of this song he was a major alcoholic with bad migraine issues.
The lyric from neil peart,
The lenses inside of me that paint the world black
The pools of poison, the scarlet mist, that spills over into rage
The things ive always been denied
An early promise that somehow died
The missing part of me that grows around me like a cage
Eyeless! Can wait to hear it!💚⚔💚
You dance! Groove out!
Fun fact to people who don’t know but this video was shot at a fans house and slipknot had to pay $50,000 to the fans parents due to the damages
@heartsupport i love these videos. I have been struggling with depression. Some of my comments were pleading; sorry.
"I push my fingers into my eyes" is just about pressing your eyes to relieve a head ache.
As others have said snuff is heart-wrenching.
But psychosocial is a great one for frustration and angst.
Had severe anxiety so bad I can't leave the house for 3 years due to hashimoto disease and don't know what to do. Stumbled onto your video. Hope I can get some help eventually
From DyllonKG: @georgesimmons4923 Hello my friend. Thanks so much for posting, Id never even heard of Hashimoto disease. And I've got to say, you're so incredibly strong.
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@HEARTSUPPORT I like what you said about “You cannot kill what you did not create.” Another way I like looking at it is from the alternate perspective of “You can only kill what you’ve created” 10:55
Slipknot it my favorite bands see them live and it was fucking amazing
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well, that song was my favorite during the time i was mourning about the loss of my beloved wife...
You are all amazing, regardless of your position. All we can do is improve. PTS, extreme introversion, ADHD, Anxiety beyond completing the necessaries of life. They have all taught me. Spent 22 years of my life giving to others. Fighting Fires, Critical Care Flight EMS. Helping everyone. But me. Just giving to those who just take, without cause. Just cause. BUT. I've learned "WE" are all OK. We are having normal reactions to obscene and overly extreme situations. WE are the normal ones, as we react. We Saw. We See. We heard felt absorbed... the right now. We feel the yesterday. We've feel the before. But that it what sets us apart - WE EMBRACE IT. WE FEEL IT. And that sets us apart from the common people. We endure the greatest of pains, in order to feel the Universal Love that exists amongst us. Feel Strong. Feel empowered. You have given. It's our job to see that in "Your" eyes and acknowledge it. Therefore you know you are welcome here, and are safe to be yourself.
Slipknot is not bad. I've been a fan of Slayer since 1983.
That’s a badass blankie.
Edit: DANCE THAT HEART OUT, T!!!
@heartsupport I feel like I've always had this very deep connection with Slipknot. There has just always been something about the lyrics and the conviction in the vocals. It seems to show that deep down those feelings are real and even if a person can't show them themselves, there are others out there that feel the same way. I've never been a person that's been able to really express how I feel with words, but at the same time, my attitude and expressions can be read like an open book. There's no pretending about how I feel. This song in particular has so many lyrics that strike a chord with me. My very first tattoo was the lyrics from this song "if the pain goes on, I'm not gonna make it." In the worst part of my depression, there were times that I really felt that if something didn't change, I wouldn't be able to continue trying and living. Not that there were ever any serious considerations of ending it all, but the thought starting creeping in my mind every so often. The other part that really meant alot in this song is when Corey says "I push my fingers into my eyes. It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache." I agree with what you said about self harm. The thing I've always taken from that lyric personally is that it could mean distraction from the bigger picture. Having or creating small pains takes your mind off the big pain. It's an escape. Yes it hurts, but not as much as the bigger picture. Which I guess in a way is what self harm does. Small distractions can help you heal yourself because 1. it shows that you can deal with small pains which can jumpstart confidence and 2. it shows that there are "better" things out there than that one big hurt you're feeling. Corey's conviction in how he sings also kind of allows me to get the rage out that I can't and don't want to let go of because I don't know how that would manifest itself. Not that I'm a violent person, but words cut much deeper than knives ever could. That would be my weapon. Those words can't be taken back and can do irreparable damage to the people that mean the most. I guess I'm expressing rage vicariously through Corey. He will always be high on my list of people that I admire and will continue to be.
Slipknot is my therapist
@heartsupport I have stage 3 liver cancer. The only thing that will save me is a liver transplant. At the same time I got diagnosed, my wife left me saying, "This means my needs aren't going to be taken care of, so I'm out." (Exact quote) I have my son (26) to help but its not the same. I'm alone and scared. Sometimes I think I'll just let it go and check out sooner rather than later. Sometimes I want to fight to get healthy. My doc says I have a 10% chance to make it 4 years post-diagnosis without a transplant and it quickly goes to zero after that. If I get a new liver, I could live another 30 years. Getting on the list and getting that new liver isn't as easy as you might think.
From AliceBlue: @gurumark10 I wish I had more to say than to send you my words of sorrow and empathy. I can only imagine the impact this is having on you mentally and physically.
I am glad that your son is taking care of you, but it’s totally understandable that you have these hurt and loss for your wife. It’s a different type of relationship that your son cannot fill in as much joy and love he brings.
I hate that the waiting is so long and that it’s so difficult to get on the list.
I wish you strength and send you my love and thoughts x
From taylor: @gurumark10 Hey friend,
Wow my heart aches for you. I imagine the grief you're experiencing right now feels overwhelming, from the loss of your wife to facing the reality of your diagnosis and the potential loss of your life. Grief for what was, and grief for what might never be.
And to be in a situation that so many people don't understand and never will, while losing the one person who was supposed to be with you in sickness and in health, it makes sense that you would feel incredibly alone and afraid of what's to come.
I imagine everyday that you're waiting to get on the list feels like you're watching your odds of a long life get smaller and smaller, making everyday feel scarier and scarier. And it has to be so frustrating because if you could just get on the list and get what you need it might be okay. It's like sitting in a room with a bomb and being able to see the key across the room, but being chained to a chair. It has to feel so helpless and frustrating.
I am so glad you have your son, and I hope that you have other people who are able to support you and make however long you have (hopefully 30+ years) feel beautiful and full of life and love. I hope that you are able to find spaces like this one where you can process your grief and all of the complicated emotions that must be arising with this diagnosis.
You seem like a fighter. I'm holding out hope that you'll win this fight too <3
Sending love
@@HeartSupport wow. You hut the nail on the head. No one has been able to articulate what I'm feeling so well!!! Tyvm!
The masks are a visual representation of each indivual member's internalized beings, something they cannot wear every day because of societies prejudices. Each member standing out as their own instead of just being "Slipknot," The whole IOWA album is really beautiful in the retrospect of genuinity in creatively releasing their inner hatred. Hte into 515, sid can be heard screaming all his pain away after being held back from being with his grandfather for his final moments due to being on tour
I took the lyric. "You cannot kill what you did not create" as my legacy, because it's mine. I created it with my choices good, or bad it's only mine.
Try a reaction for 'Come On' from Oktaf Kanis, thank you 🙌🏻
Dance away fellow metal head dance away 🤘🤘🤘
I get more therapy watching her videos than I do talking to my therapist
Idk. This one has always spoken to me and been a karaoke staple of mine for a long time. This song has helped me through a lot of pain and mental anguish their the years. At times when it feels like pushing your fingers into your eyes or hurting yourself somehow is the only thing that stops the internal pain. Love slipknot.
This music video was actually done at a fans house who offered it up for the video. These people are just from the town and wanted to me there and it just happened. Could you imagine just showing up to someone’s house to destroy it lol. Crazy story. Corey Taylor is such an amazing lyricist and uses his voice in so many ways, they really are great.
@HeartSupport I have been dealing with self destructive mental abuse and heavy depression since I was 13. For 23 years I have ruined almost every positive in my life. Seeing my father as the world and then him blaming my brother and I for his and my mom's divorce ripped me apart. I use "Escapist" by Oceans Ate Alaska to help me to move past certain negative thoughts and emotions. I hope this song helps others to get past any and all difficult times in their life.
From ThriceTheThird: Thank you for sharing what you are going though with us. I'm sorry that your father took out his emotional baggage on you and your sibling. You are not to blame for any divorce, and that situation is completely out of your control, because it is a situation between two other people. Your mother and father. You are innocent in the situation. I have also delt with severe depression, and destructive intrusive thoughts. If you ever want to share more, please do so. We are here. <3 Hope you can find some relief to what you are going through.
From Micro: Oh my heart. I'm so sorry friend that you have been through such a heartbreaking and traumatic experience. Seeing your parents divorcing must have already felt chaotic and somehow life-changing in itself. It's a brutal loss to deal with and a deep transformation in your life as well as of the ones you love. Everything is affected somehow, and everything has to grieve the life that was before it.
But on top of it being blamed for this decision must have been heart-shattering. It was a added layer of hurt to the pain the was already present. It's like suddenly the pain you see your parents and brother going through is put on your shoulders and you would have been the agent of what happened. That you would be at fault for being. That is so deeply unfair... Although hurt people hurt people, when it comes to divorce it is never the fault of the children - no matter what parents can say. Their relationship is their own, and the decisions they make for it too. It's understandable that they were hurting at the time, but that was not your fault.
It makes sense to feel like the perception of your dad completely changed after he said that. It must have felt like a deep betrayal somehow of the love that has been present between you. You have seen your dad at a high time of personal vulnerability, but unfortunately he didn't process it in a way that was safe and healthy for his children. And as much as the pain can be seen and understood, it doesn't change the fact that what he told you at the time was wrong.
I've had myself to grieve the perception I had of my dad after a very heavy conversation a year ago... and even though our relationship was already strained, it was like hitting the nail on the coffin somehow. I got to see how imperfect he was, and how he missed out on his role of father at crucial times. It's a tough reality to face, even more hard when one of the first people you would go to in order to find comfort in such situation... is them. My heart truly goes out to you as you process and navigate these experiences, still.
Please know that you are not at fault, you didn't cause their decision, and you absolutely belong in this world just as you are. What happened between them was on them, and you my friend deserve all the love and care in the world. You matter so very much and none of this ever defined you. It never will either. You are so much more and have so much beauty to bring into this world.
We struggle living life where it is, because the economic system we live in pressure us to always be thinking about where life will be, the next step, the next achievement, the next goal. We can't appreciate life well, living constantly on survival mode.