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Living on the edge and considering to end it multiple times feels like blood on my hands. Being with my Parents and thinking how they would suffer from that... feels like I have their blood on my hands too. Can you make a Song about that?
Thank you Citizen Soldier... my sister passed away a year ago. I'm holding on for my mom because I know if I don't she will be devastated and it will cause a chain...
*"Do you hold it together for somebody else?"* Yes, in fact, I do. I just wanna give up but I don't wanna leave them so thank you for yet another great song, Citizen Soldier!
So you have someone who is worth fighting for? If you have someone who is a good person important to you and good, then you are not alone and better times will come
@@lucygardiner7594nothing not angels or demons not stronghold thing that where or things to come nothing can separate you from the love that is in Christ Jesus our lord
I’m glad I am not alone. I am also a single mom of four kids and I’ve had a very bad past life you will get through this just take it one day at a time even one moment at a time if you have to.
"Die selfish or live with my head in a noose" The moment I heard those lyrics, tears instantly formed. Those lyrics, and this entire song, could not describe what I'm going through better. Thank you once again for being my voice, Citizen Soldier.
I pray for every single person who feels this close to the heart. I pray for healing and blessings and help to carry the burden you are carrying alone.
@@michellehale3290 it takes much to succeed, but if you continue your path and if you won’t give up, everything is still in. I learned my lesson, I continued and I am at peace
@@RustyDestroyer I don’t know how old you are my friend. But I did the same things, not many years ago. First it works, you’ll receive a good feeling, by sacrificing yourself for others.. but it turns out bad for you at the end. Your sacrifices will be unwelcome, it will destroy you more inside, than you could thought. You can’t heal yourself, when you’re only healing other people’s wounds. Walk that path, until you recognise its end. Make peace with the past, find other ways.. find someone that can fix you.. it’s absolutely hard to wait for that moment. Took me 24 years, but I never doubted.. there could be something. You got only one life my friend, continue to find the reason. And as long as you breath.. don’t give up on giving your best. Even tho nobody sees it, take it with you. I wish you the best.
I lost my daughter almost 5 years ago. She was 20 at the time. I haven’t been the same person since. I’ve read books, a few therapy sessions and some grief counseling. All saying it takes time. This song puts it in perspective. Through my worst nightmare, I’ve had to keep going. Thank you for making this song. ❤
I lost my son 5 years ago, and as gut wrenching painful as it is to live without him, this song truly helped me see the pain and struggles that he carried for the 10 years he fought the suicidal thoughts bless your heart. .
As someone dealing with depression and who made a commitment to keep on living for my grandma this song hits exceptionally hard Thanks Citizen Soldier for expressing my thoughts in this beautiful song ❤
I wasn't able to escape it for my grandma, but in the beginning she was the reason I stayed alive, she stopped my suicide a little over a year and a half ago, after countless therapy sessions I'm happy today, stay strong, it's worth it in the end
@@alexz3585Thanks for sharing those words since I am the one in my family who has made an attempt on their life I know very few people who understand how I feel maybe that’s why love Citizen Soldier so much
I have to thank you! This is the first group that: 1st) Stands behind its name! 2nd) Didn't just make one album for mental health issues 3rd) Each song sounds different from the others, filled with emotion giving us, the listeners, the lesson that emotions are okay! A true Citizen Soldier(s)!
@@RenewedAuroraI checked them. Not bad as a recommendation, but it's just not my cup of tea. Like I don't really see the harmony that citizen soldier have with lyrics and melody. I just can't feel them like a family, unlike this band here.
I know this will be buried but i think i should say the reason im still here is because of the people I love. I dont wnat to leave them alone to pick up my mess. I dont want to pass on my pain. As long as they live so will I. Thank you for making the songs that can be relateable. You guys make songs that need to be heard
My friends hav alredy told me they don't want me to die My family loves me so much, even though I can't love myslef. I hate myslef but I will do anything to my make my family proud, even living. We can do this guys ❤ ;
Yes, the picturing them alone with my ghost line gets me. I had another episode tonight and finally broke down and said that I felt like I could cut my throat in front the one I love and they would not notice or care and he adamitly said he didn't want that and most definitely would notice and care regardless of his health issues. Due to his stuff I've been holding that back for years. It's a weight off like nothing I can explain to know otherwise.
I HAVE WAITED FOR IT SINCE I FIRST HEARD IT!!!! It's so awesome omg!!!!! I LOVE IT SO MUCH! You did such a great work as always guys. Thank you for being with us and helping people get out of their hell
@@CitizenSoldierthank you for this song, sorry I didn't hear it sooner but it shows me not to give up on my brothers, I have done push-ups for over an hour now because I'm determined to do anything for my brothers. So thank you for this song it brought me back to senses and past.
@@tannergamet8656 🙏's for you especially. I am praying for everyone as I read these comments, lifting them up 2the Lord while praying over my son, who fights this battle every day. We basically had this same conversation just a few hours ago. Anyway, something just touched me when I read your post, & I just wanted to let you know. I don't know your situation or anything, but I am holding you up in prayer. You aren't alone. Thankful this excellent song found its way to you when it did. Timing is purposed, just like everything that we go through in our lives. Take care, and I know it's cliche, but hang in there. ✝⚔💜
You give a voice to those who don't know how to speak about our struggles and demons. You make us feel heard, loved, and not alone in this fight. For that, you should be proud! Beautiful song as always, and thank you for bringing us all together and helping us!
"Haunted by thoughts of the ones I love most, I picture them living alone with my ghost" & "Does it ever get better? Is this worth the fight?" hit me like a damn truck, i knew this would hit hard & this was certainly the song i was anticipating but MY GOD was this amazing. some of the best verses in melodies & lyrics yall have written as well
The question that remains though is, if you can’t be strong for yourself because of the struggle of what’s going on inside your head, then how can you be strong for somebody else?
I can only speak for myself, but I don't matter. When it comes to making sure those I care about are okay, that's my focus. My purpose. If I'm not okay, that's fine. As long as they are okay, that's what matters. Not me.
It's the same as being able to love someone without loving yourself, pure unadulterated selflessness. You hate yourself so much, but don't want to cause any suffering so you continue to exist in a personal hell, just to see the person you love smile and be happy until the day you die, knowing you made a difference
When somebody has experienced depression or addiction it’s easier to communicate with them vs someone who thinks reading a book answers the question and the think their way is right ITS NOT RIGHT & IT DONE DONT, went to nursing school and I threw the book out the window nothing I learned from the book conformed to the daily routine of taking care of someone’s life.
I'm strong enough to carry that burden, and strong enough to live on to help someone else carry it too. If I give up, who will lift the next person out of this hell?
I'm always strong for everyone. At times I want to be selfish and end it all. But this song now serves as a new reminder that I have people who would miss me. So I carry on for them and them alone.
I feel exactly like you. I am still here only because of my parents and my best friend. This song reminds me of the fact, that there are still some people who need me and who would be hit badly if I’d end it all, and “Suicide” by Ren tells, how exactly they would feel, I am holding on because I don’t want them to feel like this.
Haven’t listened to it yet, and won’t be able to until I get home. But I’ve heard the clips, and it’s relatable asf. I’m currently waiting in a respit room at court, being strong for somebody else. Speaking about my trauma all week and listening to trial, working like hell for the past 6 years to get this case to trial, all to save my little cousins from that man. Thank y’all for giving me the most relatable songs I’ve ever heard.
As someone who struggles with self-hatred and constant depression due to the way i grew up and what i went through in the military, this song just accurately says the words i can't bring myself to say. At one point, a therapist asked me how i cope with depression and i judt pulled this up on my phone, and even they teared up. Thank you, Citizen Soldier, for giving us a song that personally gave me the strength and a reason to keep going. You guys will never know how much this exact song saved me from myself. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
This song is exactly how I feel right now. Made me cry, throughout the whole song because every word expresses, everything I feel. Hits way too hard. I love the lyrics and the song. 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
In the bad times, my husband was the only thing that kept me alive. But he knew and I was not alone with the feeling. So I feel this song, but on a different vibe. Wishing everyone who is struggling rn a lot of strength, compassion and support.
As a single father who is recently separated from the mother and still dealing with the ordeals of life, I appreciate every SINGLE drop this band makes man. Yall keep myself and everyone else like myself pushing. Stay blessed
Another incredible song and lyric video from CS! Wasn't ready for it to hit me as hard as it did. Guess I should have known better by now😂 I hope everyone that sees this has an incredible day/night/ whenever you see this. Sending hugs to anyone that wants/needs them🤗🤗🤗
Hi Jake I am a student if it wasn't for my parents whom I loves the most I would have ended my pain . Their face and smile is what drives me to not give up on my life yet. So thank you for releasing the song I can relate with the most . ❤❤
I’m a teenager and live with both my parents and sibling. My dad has always had a drinking problem and is often intoxicated when upset. My younger sibling, who has grown up with this, gets increased anxiety and almost panic attacks when this happens. Because of this I always make sure to be there for him as the older sibling. I tend to keep my feelings on our situation under wraps due to this and I don’t want to give him more to worry about. I’ve been listening to your music for several years now and it voices the things I always feel but can never say. Thank you, and never stop.
You're my hero Jake. Just look at all these comments of people being saved by you and your music !! I am definitely one of them. Thank you for helping us all live another day on this painful earth. Just remember, not only are you here for us, but we are all here for you always. God bless you Jake....your voice is so beautiful and thank you for sharing such a great masterpiece....love & respect to you..🐨💜
Brother this song touches my soul on the deepest level. Your songs always do. Thank you so much for showing that none of us are alone in the fight 🔥🔥🔥💚💙💜
Your songs ALWAYS hit close, this one is on a whole other level of relatable. I'm a single mom and always have to be strong and keep pushing ahead for my son and my parents. I break down nightly when my son is sleeping. No ONE knows how much I cry and how hard I fight to stay alive. Thank you for being a voice to those of us who feel silenced or can't speak what we are feeling.
You must be so full of love and pride for your precious son, but of course you carry a heavy burden every day and it is not getting any less consuming when you keep it all by yourself. I am 19 today, so I won't tell you what to do. My age gives me no right to act like I could relate to your situation. But my experience on the other hand might show you that you are not alone. I jumped off a bridge near my school when I was 17 years old. Cause I did the same thing like you, bottled it up and acted happy for my parents and grandparents. No matter what I did, I was always tired and had no joy in doing it, but always kept the facade. And that facade, it was my doome. To the day I jumped noone knew how I was feeling. I could not move my legs or my arms at first, my feet were crushed like broken eggs. But it all came back eventually after six surgeries in total. And now I made it out of the wheelchair and graduated and go my way. I remember what it feels to want to give up and I'd be lying if I said I am healed, I don't have this thoughts anymore, that is just not true. But you seem like a very very special and selfless and couregous woman and I just want you to get the support you deserve. So, have you ever talked about your feelings with your parents? Or a therapist? Both can be very helpful in examing your feelings and learn ways how to cope with the darkest ones. I never wanted help before and I paid a high prize to notice, that I needed it. I just hope you realize sooner how much you are worth it. Sorry for the essay, but a woman like you deserves every good word directed to her.
What in heaven was that?! You are getting better and better. Even the verses have such a great vibe - I LOVE IT!!!❤ And the last part of the 2nd verse with the breaking point and getting ennerved until they find mine...GOOSEBUMPS, that's what I can say. Another banger, another masterpiece! Thank you!🙏🙌
This song couldn't have had better timing. Sometimes we don't have a choice but to be strong for someone else, no matter what it costs us...Thank you making yet another song that speaks to my heart and soul. This'll be on repeat for a while.
This song really hits home cause i feel like i have to be strong for everyone, bury all the pain and fake a smile otherwise they will judge me and run away from me cause they don't like who i am, and it hurts cause all i want to do is scream and cry but i can't. Citizen soldier this song and all your other songs mean the world to me cause they say what i can't so thank you 😭❤
Trust me not everyone will judge you or run away, if there is someone, there is definitely someone who will listen it is just sometimes hard to find them, but trust me, sou will find them
I have a similar feeling except I worry that my family will react in a hostile manner instead of just running away. I am sorry you feel this way and hope that you will find people who will not be judgmental! ❤
This song takes me to a place where i was given the gift of desperation. Sometimes you dont realize just how severe your trauma is, you practically desensitize yourself with how often you speak on it with a therapist or counselor..it almost feels like youre telling someone elses story. By the grace of God i have 5 months sober today. Incomprehensible demoralization is a real thing. Thank you citizen soldier.
Holy crap i found you guys today but everything ive listened to so far has resonated with me so much. Im living for somebody else. a few somebodys i guess, but a main one. my girlfriend. we made a promise. now we're both gonna live (assuming we can both keep holding on), and one day we'll get out of these places and we'll be able to be happy.
The lyrics, so dark and relatable. This is almost reaching the top 1 favourite for me. It just has this vibe to it that captivates me. Thank you again for giving us this masterpiece! It’s highly appreciated by so many people🧡
The reason citizen soldier's music speaks and helps us to heal is because unlike most instead of say he understands and everything will be fine, is that he gives the description of what we are feeling and this is an outlet and a way for us to tell loved ones exactly what we are going through without words
I promised myself that the light in me wouldn't go out until I made sure my brother was safe from the people who have hurt us, I've lost my way a few times but I will strengthen myself more than ever to achieve that goal, thank you for this amazing music❤
You can get help, you know. I mean I know I'm just a stranger on the internet, but you don't have to do it all alone. ❤️ There are people that can help
I feel you there I had to do the same but I also had to fight my abusive stepfather and make sure my siblings were well fed and bathed and also had to make sure to keep my grades up and make sure they were also getting good grades and I’m 14 years old now😔
Keep your heads up kids. I can tell you from personal experience it's the hardest thing to do in life. At 14 years old: My step-dad was in jail for 1Yr. My mom shut down and cried. I became the man of the house, without being asked, with 4 younger siblings. My grandfather passed on my birthday. I broke my back... My parents deny my claims of how bad it actually was sometimes. God sends his hardest battles to his strongest warriors. Keep your head held high, stay put of trouble and make the best of the situation you've been put in. NEVER fear asking for help, I'm now 29 and deathly afraid to be a burden, because I was conditioned to think "men need to suck it up" it's a load of BS! STAY STRONG! ❤❤❤
Thank you @CitizenSoldier. This is the is the only thing helping me right now with my extreme postpartum depression and the struggle of my baby in NICU.
Wow.. talk myself off of this ledge I know so well.. the weight of the world... put my pain in a pill.. hits hard.. Thank you for this.. for all of us fighting our battles.. nice to know we're not alone..
Again, you are way ahead of anyone else who try connecting with their people. KoЯn, Disturbed, Breaking Benjamin etc. all have done very well in this aspect. The exactness of your lyrics/message and the band’s precision is second to none. I only wish I could be a guest bassist.❤ Thank you for all you do.
Firstly... I will never stop appreciating the work you guys put into all of the songs and messages you gift to us, a world who needs exactly what you have to offer: words to live for, hope made song, life made musical. Secondly, to anyone reading this who may be having a bad day or a rough patch in life: stay strong, stay hopeful, and keep up your fight. We, the Citizens, will stand with you. I, the poster, believe in you and your capability to find happiness. we are never truly alone, and in the words of my favorite book... "we are only as strong as we are united, and as weak as we are divided." You, the reader, are cherished and important, and you have more meaning than you'll ever know. Be safe, and hold on to those you love.
It's very rare that a song will actually make me emotional as I bury my emotions as deep as I can, but damn. This song did it. I absolutely love this song!
Thank you for making this song. I've always flet like I had to hide the thoughts in my head so the ones around me wouldn't worry, the darker my mind became, the more I hide behind a smile. Thank you so much for making a song thank makes me and others fell less alone and more understood!💜💕
This song hits so deep and honestly makes me feel like I'm not alone and like my feelings matter. I hope to one day be able to speak without feeling like my thoughts are wrong.
Every time they come out with a new song I always think there’s no way that this can be better than the last one and they always prove me wrong!!!Your music always touches my heart!! Much love ❤
I debated making this comment, but I had to share my appreciation for this song. It really resonated with me because in my darkest, most broken moments that's what I tell myself to keep going. It's not easy, and it often leads to putting others before yourself even when in better headspaces, but know your never alone. It's a hard and rough road but there are many of us here walking it with you.
This song more then explains exactly what I'm struggling with...always had depression but these past couple months have been the absolute hardest I've dealt with....I have no true safe space for myself...but for my son I stand up barely stable but for him I can't stop trying...this song hits so hard....
I been in a dark place fkr for quite a while, my 5 kids are what's kept me getting up everyday and going on." Weight of the world... I'll carry it." I know i got to be strong for somebody else.... Happy Father's Day to my fellow dads carrying ot all on their backs. 😢
I've been listening for you guys for some years. I'm happy to see how big you've grown and what fame you got. You totally deserve it. You have absolutely amazing music and absolutely amazing and inspiring lyrics.
The First Always❤❤ I became obsessed with this day because of you so all thanks and standing ovations to you 💖 I hope that "Good Enough for God" will be the next song
Please! Oh Gods please. I desperately need someone to be strong for. I just can't live trying to live for myself. I have never been able to. And the lighthouse for my soul has told me I cannot be this way anymore.
We are strangers, but if you still need someone you can be strong for, I volunteer 😊❤ This song hits deep, and we maybe come from different parts of perspective of wanting to be strong for someone.. But making friends and wanting to help isn’t the baddest thing, right?
My somebody else was my grandmother. She passed away in June and it's been hard to keep things going. I'm happy to have a song that encapsulates how I've felt. I've been looking forward to this full song ever since I heard the clip on tiktok. Great Job.
"Does it ever get better or is this worth the fight? Everyone has a breaking point, guess we'll find mine" Exactly what I've been thinking for years. Still not sure if it is worth the fight, but luckily haven't reached my breaking point yet.
It's not often that a song leaves me speechless, but just wow. Thank you for finding the strength to give voice to something so many others suffer through in silence.
Going through some rough patches and a first time mom with depression. Just found this song and it expresses how I'm feeling. Love the song. Keep up with the wonderful music and helping people express themselves.
My partner is a huge fan. She says this is by far her most relatable song you’ve released! She was severely abused by her so called mother and her mother’s boyfriends. Her mum let her older sisters abuse her too. She now suffers with CPTSD (complex post traumatic stress disorder) and BPD/EUPD (borderline personality disorder formally known and emotionally unstable personality disorder ) She says all the time that she is suicidal but she t want to die. To me that is showing her strength to carry on through her hell in her head
This is how i dealt with my dad, my grandpa and my best friends funerals all within 2 months of eachother. I didnt have time to feel my emotions, i didnt cry, i had to be there for mom, sister and everyone else who needed me. I now feel the repercussions of doing that as im fighting many battles. Great song to relate to to push through
Thank you so much. I really needed this today. Some people might think it’s weird to need to hear about someone hurting, but it’s a connection that you do within your music. This is how I feel all the time since I lost my daughter. Thank you for making me feel less alone.
Oh my goodness, this is beautiful. It hurts me even though I'm not personally going through things in such a way. I can almost imagine just a corner of some others struggles... I've been through a lot... This is deep and needed...
Lyrics: I've played out the scene so much in my head I have to wake up but I'd rather be dead Haunted by thoughts of the ones I love most I picture them living alone with my ghost Kill the pain and kill the family Choke the dark down, just be happy Talk myself off of this ledge I know all too well My personal hell, I'll bury it, bury it Weight of the world, I'll carry it, carry it Pile it all on, I've gotta be strong For somebody, for somebody Put my pain in a pill, I'll swallow it, swallow it Too numb to feel, I'm hollow, I'm hollow I have to hold on, I've gotta be strong For somebody, for somebody Somebody else This voice in my head, it wants me to choose Die selfish or live with my head in a noose Does it ever get better, is this worth the fight? Everyone has a breaking point, guess we'll find mine Kill the body, not the memory Wouldn't blame 'em, they'd resent me Kind of scares me what it takes to just save myself My personal hell, I'll bury it, bury it Weight of the world, I'll carry it, carry it Pile it all on, I've gotta be strong For somebody, for somebody Put my pain in a pill, I'll swallow it, swallow it Too numb to feel, I'm hollow, I'm hollow I have to hold on, I've gotta be strong For somebody, for somebody Somebody else Somebody else My personal hell, I'll bury it, bury it Weight of the world, I'll carry it, carry it Pile it all on, I've gotta be strong For somebody, for somebody Put my pain in a pill, I'll swallow it, swallow it Too numb to feel, I'm hollow, I'm hollow I have to hold on, I've gotta be strong For somebody, for somebody Somebody else For somebody, for somebody Somebody else For somebody, for somebody Somebody else
To hear this while struggling with PTSD and BPD, I can't believe that I found a song that takes the weight off my shoulders. I thought I was alone, but thank you. For basically making a song that can help heal me. Props to you CitizenSoldier. Props to you.
Thank you lord for this masterpiece......and Thank you guys for delivering legit perfection again and again....having SA trauma from my youth that still comes up every now and then...having to take the brunt of it so no one else would feel any pain...I needed this....needed something that speaks to me so perfectly.....thank you....❤️🩹
absolutely crazy hard hitting Lyrics. I feel like everyone can relate to this kind of situation in one way or another. This is why Citizen Soldier is an absolutely heart warming yet heavy hitting band which is amazing! Rock on everyone and For thoes of you who struggle. Stay strong, you are NEVER alone.
I've listened to this over and over. I have to deal with a suicidal best friend, other people around with stress of GCSE exams slowly approaching and none of them know I feel suicidal, I struggle with self harm, I have ptsd, have to look after a 3 year old and I'm only 15 😢
Another amazing song!! Just when I think that you guys are already the best band I’ve ever heard, you go and show that you’re even better than I could’ve ever hoped for. Your lyrics are impressive and impactful as always, and I can’t wait to listen to this song on loop for weeks to come. Thank you for all that you do 💚💚💚💚💚
I chose life for my friends, mom and siblings when I was 10. It's a heavy burden, but if the knowledge that someone needs you or would be devastated and possibly follow your path keeps you alive, then cling to it. I wouldn't have gotten to experience my amazing career and meet my amazing coworkers had I not clung to that little thread.
I found citizen soldier at the right time. I’m 25 and had to deal with my dads dementia for over 4. Now he’s dying in hospital, my mum practically gave up her whole life 2 years ago to take care of him leaving me the only one with a job. I’ll cry when he finally passes and I’m doing all I can to stay strong for them but it all gets too much sometimes, the pressure being the man of the house and coming to terms with the fact the life I once knew is gone. Not like my life was sunshine and rainbows beforehand going through abusive relationships and losing nearly everything to covid. Jake sings for us who suffer in silence, who feel uncared and unloved
MY GOD I litterally shivered at the beginning of the song. I don't know if you did anything different on the mixing or post processing idk the words or anything but the way your voice came in the song is absolutely gorgeous, I freaking love how your voice sounds in this song
I grew up without my real mother;she died when I was 1. I remember nothing about her, and she wasn't talked about. In my darkest days, I have 3 that I refuse to let grow up without their mama too. I pray one day I will go from they give me the strength to continue, to I have my own strength, and I help them become amazing adults without my problems 😢💔
Right when I think Im alone, they release a song of exactly how I feel . You know it hits you cause the tears dont stop, but if your feeling like this I encourage you to seek pro help. It might be me today but tomorrow it might be any of us, and Im sure your not alone. To you who reads my comment your special and unique. Shine bright and show the nay sayers you also got it within you.
Reminds me of my saying 'If not for me, Then for someone else.' If I do wake up to help myself I wake up to help others. I made this saying after I survived trying to jump off a bridge because I didn't want to be here anymore. I still don't but I will keep waking up to help others.
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the timing of this song, are you guys stalking me?
Living on the edge and considering to end it multiple times feels like blood on my hands.
Being with my Parents and thinking how they would suffer from that... feels like I have their blood on my hands too.
Can you make a Song about that?
@DasHeino2010 I second this comment its truly relatable
I hope you guys are all okay
Thank you Citizen Soldier... my sister passed away a year ago. I'm holding on for my mom because I know if I don't she will be devastated and it will cause a chain...
Without fail, you make a song your community can relate to. This is a prime example.
Glad to hear that 🫶
@@CitizenSoldiersuch a good song i can relate to some of these lyrics because here recently my cousin died and it was so sad 😭
@@mckaletdean1 Much love dude
*"Do you hold it together for somebody else?"*
Yes, in fact, I do. I just wanna give up but I don't wanna leave them so thank you for yet another great song, Citizen Soldier!
So you have someone who is worth fighting for? If you have someone who is a good person important to you and good, then you are not alone and better times will come
@@kingghidorah5213 wish that were true for everybody, there are some places too deep to reach from
@@lucygardiner7594 i know but maybe some day, someone will reach down for you?
Jesus held it all together for us turn to him repent and be saved
@@lucygardiner7594nothing not angels or demons not stronghold thing that where or things to come nothing can separate you from the love that is in Christ Jesus our lord
As a single mom of 4 and a traumatic past that still lives in my head... This is exactly how I feel. Thank you for making me feel less alone ❤
We are with u take it one day at a time
You got this, it's hard, but you got this.
I’m glad I am not alone. I am also a single mom of four kids and I’ve had a very bad past life you will get through this just take it one day at a time even one moment at a time if you have to.
I shall send a prayer for you and your children!
You are most definitely not alone! ❤
Always remember that you're never alone. Loneliness tricks us into thinking we're the only ones feeling alone but we're never alone
"Everyone has a breaking point, guess I'll find mine" Damn, that made me get chills
That line hit home like a ton of bricks
so true
Same
it felt way too real
"Die selfish or live with my head in a noose"
The moment I heard those lyrics, tears instantly formed. Those lyrics, and this entire song, could not describe what I'm going through better. Thank you once again for being my voice, Citizen Soldier.
I feel you, i hope it gets better, if you wanna talk i am here if not, just ignore this comment
@@kingghidorah5213 Based Ghidorah PFP
@@kingghidorah5213 I appreciate that so much. Same to you if you want to talk with me. 🖤
It never seems to fail that every song from Citizen Soldier hits home for me with all my mental struggles
Also I’m here if anyone wants someone to talk to
I pray for every single person who feels this close to the heart. I pray for healing and blessings and help to carry the burden you are carrying alone.
If you’re reading this. We gonna get through it all. No matter what type of hell is there and still waiting.
Thank you for this! I desperately needed this.
@@michellehale3290 it takes much to succeed, but if you continue your path and if you won’t give up, everything is still in. I learned my lesson, I continued and I am at peace
Nope I'm done fighting for myself so ill fight for others and if I die then so be it
@@RustyDestroyer I don’t know how old you are my friend. But I did the same things, not many years ago. First it works, you’ll receive a good feeling, by sacrificing yourself for others.. but it turns out bad for you at the end. Your sacrifices will be unwelcome, it will destroy you more inside, than you could thought. You can’t heal yourself, when you’re only healing other people’s wounds. Walk that path, until you recognise its end. Make peace with the past, find other ways.. find someone that can fix you.. it’s absolutely hard to wait for that moment. Took me 24 years, but I never doubted.. there could be something. You got only one life my friend, continue to find the reason. And as long as you breath.. don’t give up on giving your best. Even tho nobody sees it, take it with you. I wish you the best.
I lost my daughter almost 5 years ago. She was 20 at the time. I haven’t been the same person since. I’ve read books, a few therapy sessions and some grief counseling. All saying it takes time. This song puts it in perspective. Through my worst nightmare, I’ve had to keep going. Thank you for making this song. ❤
I lost my son 5 years ago, and as gut wrenching painful as it is to live without him, this song truly helped me see the pain and struggles that he carried for the 10 years he fought the suicidal thoughts bless your heart. .
I'm so sorry you lost your child. That's a different kind of pain
That's awful. I hope you can find peace ✌️
As someone dealing with depression and who made a commitment to keep on living for my grandma this song hits exceptionally hard Thanks Citizen Soldier for expressing my thoughts in this beautiful song ❤
I wasn't able to escape it for my grandma, but in the beginning she was the reason I stayed alive, she stopped my suicide a little over a year and a half ago, after countless therapy sessions I'm happy today, stay strong, it's worth it in the end
Grandma’s are special that way. I couldn’t go on without mine
I’m a lil late but do it for me too brotha/sister. Stick around cause there are more people that’ll be affected if you don’t. Hope the best for you 💜
@@logant5552Thanks for your encouraging words I wish you the best too 😊
@@alexz3585Thanks for sharing those words since I am the one in my family who has made an attempt on their life I know very few people who understand how I feel maybe that’s why love Citizen Soldier so much
I have to thank you! This is the first group that:
1st) Stands behind its name!
2nd) Didn't just make one album for mental health issues
3rd) Each song sounds different from the others, filled with emotion giving us, the listeners, the lesson that emotions are okay!
A true Citizen Soldier(s)!
Yer its crazy how theyre always so on point, an keep it up.
You should check out Silent Theory. Have a nice sound and imo have some of the strongest lyrics in music right now.
@@RenewedAuroraI checked them. Not bad as a recommendation, but it's just not my cup of tea. Like I don't really see the harmony that citizen soldier have with lyrics and melody. I just can't feel them like a family, unlike this band here.
100/10 it speaks perfectly for those who struggle with addiction and depression but also tells listeners that they are not alone😊
We'll said,I too still struggle.
I know this will be buried but i think i should say the reason im still here is because of the people I love. I dont wnat to leave them alone to pick up my mess. I dont want to pass on my pain. As long as they live so will I. Thank you for making the songs that can be relateable. You guys make songs that need to be heard
That's exactly how I feel too.
Honestly, if it wasn't for my siblings, then I would be dead by now
Same my siblings are the only thing keeping me on this god forsaken earth
My friends hav alredy told me they don't want me to die
My family loves me so much, even though I can't love myslef. I hate myslef but I will do anything to my make my family proud, even living. We can do this guys ❤ ;
Yes, the picturing them alone with my ghost line gets me. I had another episode tonight and finally broke down and said that I felt like I could cut my throat in front the one I love and they would not notice or care and he adamitly said he didn't want that and most definitely would notice and care regardless of his health issues. Due to his stuff I've been holding that back for years. It's a weight off like nothing I can explain to know otherwise.
I HAVE WAITED FOR IT SINCE I FIRST HEARD IT!!!! It's so awesome omg!!!!! I LOVE IT SO MUCH! You did such a great work as always guys. Thank you for being with us and helping people get out of their hell
Sending hugs back 🫶
@@CitizenSoldierthank you for this song, sorry I didn't hear it sooner but it shows me not to give up on my brothers, I have done push-ups for over an hour now because I'm determined to do anything for my brothers. So thank you for this song it brought me back to senses and past.
@@tannergamet8656 🙏's for you especially. I am praying for everyone as I read these comments, lifting them up 2the Lord while praying over my son, who fights this battle every day. We basically had this same conversation just a few hours ago. Anyway, something just touched me when I read your post, & I just wanted to let you know. I don't know your situation or anything, but I am holding you up in prayer. You aren't alone. Thankful this excellent song found its way to you when it did. Timing is purposed, just like everything that we go through in our lives. Take care, and I know it's cliche, but hang in there. ✝⚔💜
@@jakerbo amen brother
You give a voice to those who don't know how to speak about our struggles and demons. You make us feel heard, loved, and not alone in this fight. For that, you should be proud! Beautiful song as always, and thank you for bringing us all together and helping us!
Thank you for sharing this. 💙
Agree by a million.
"Haunted by thoughts of the ones I love most, I picture them living alone with my ghost" & "Does it ever get better? Is this worth the fight?" hit me like a damn truck, i knew this would hit hard & this was certainly the song i was anticipating but MY GOD was this amazing. some of the best verses in melodies & lyrics yall have written as well
A lot of their songs hit like a Truck, but this one truly hit me square face on,
The question that remains though is, if you can’t be strong for yourself because of the struggle of what’s going on inside your head, then how can you be strong for somebody else?
I can only speak for myself, but I don't matter. When it comes to making sure those I care about are okay, that's my focus. My purpose. If I'm not okay, that's fine. As long as they are okay, that's what matters. Not me.
I see and agree@@MrDarkfang
It's the same as being able to love someone without loving yourself, pure unadulterated selflessness. You hate yourself so much, but don't want to cause any suffering so you continue to exist in a personal hell, just to see the person you love smile and be happy until the day you die, knowing you made a difference
@@MrDarkfangwell put.
When somebody has experienced depression or addiction it’s easier to communicate with them vs someone who thinks reading a book answers the question and the think their way is right ITS NOT RIGHT & IT DONE DONT, went to nursing school and I threw the book out the window nothing I learned from the book conformed to the daily routine of taking care of someone’s life.
I'm strong enough to carry that burden, and strong enough to live on to help someone else carry it too. If I give up, who will lift the next person out of this hell?
I'm always strong for everyone. At times I want to be selfish and end it all. But this song now serves as a new reminder that I have people who would miss me. So I carry on for them and them alone.
I feel exactly like you. I am still here only because of my parents and my best friend. This song reminds me of the fact, that there are still some people who need me and who would be hit badly if I’d end it all, and “Suicide” by Ren tells, how exactly they would feel, I am holding on because I don’t want them to feel like this.
Haven’t listened to it yet, and won’t be able to until I get home. But I’ve heard the clips, and it’s relatable asf. I’m currently waiting in a respit room at court, being strong for somebody else. Speaking about my trauma all week and listening to trial, working like hell for the past 6 years to get this case to trial, all to save my little cousins from that man. Thank y’all for giving me the most relatable songs I’ve ever heard.
Much love. Sending hugs 🫶
@@CitizenSoldier thank you
STAY DETERMINED
As someone who struggles with self-hatred and constant depression due to the way i grew up and what i went through in the military, this song just accurately says the words i can't bring myself to say. At one point, a therapist asked me how i cope with depression and i judt pulled this up on my phone, and even they teared up. Thank you, Citizen Soldier, for giving us a song that personally gave me the strength and a reason to keep going. You guys will never know how much this exact song saved me from myself. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
It's so amazing! Thank you so much for making these songs for people who need them! Keep it up!❤❤❤
Glad the music helps 🫶
"Everyone has a breaking point, guess we'll find mine." My favorite line due to how relatable it is wont say how or why its just very, very relatable
Dont think ive ever heard a line that hit as hard as that
@@Tairaa91 yup
This song is exactly how I feel right now.
Made me cry, throughout the whole song because every word expresses, everything I feel. Hits way too hard.
I love the lyrics and the song.
🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
In the bad times, my husband was the only thing that kept me alive. But he knew and I was not alone with the feeling. So I feel this song, but on a different vibe. Wishing everyone who is struggling rn a lot of strength, compassion and support.
Thank you
As a single father who is recently separated from the mother and still dealing with the ordeals of life, I appreciate every SINGLE drop this band makes man. Yall keep myself and everyone else like myself pushing. Stay blessed
I'm the oldest of five siblings, and sometimes when I hide my emotions, I know that its hard.
But I do it for them, and for that, its worth it
You're a hell of a brother or sister. You carry more then anyone should have on their backs, but look at you go. Much love!
Another incredible song and lyric video from CS! Wasn't ready for it to hit me as hard as it did. Guess I should have known better by now😂 I hope everyone that sees this has an incredible day/night/ whenever you see this. Sending hugs to anyone that wants/needs them🤗🤗🤗
Same to you and sending hugs back in case you need some too! 🙂
This song helps with my thoughts. Thanks for putting a song like this up for us! ..thanks
Hi Jake I am a student if it wasn't for my parents whom I loves the most I would have ended my pain . Their face and smile is what drives me to not give up on my life yet. So thank you for releasing the song I can relate with the most . ❤❤
I dont know you but im so proud of you
I second the above comment, I'm so proud of you for sticking it out... Keep their love for you in your mind and heart ❤️
I’m a teenager and live with both my parents and sibling. My dad has always had a drinking problem and is often intoxicated when upset. My younger sibling, who has grown up with this, gets increased anxiety and almost panic attacks when this happens. Because of this I always make sure to be there for him as the older sibling. I tend to keep my feelings on our situation under wraps due to this and I don’t want to give him more to worry about. I’ve been listening to your music for several years now and it voices the things I always feel but can never say. Thank you, and never stop.
I have a very similar situation ❤
You are an amazing sibling, thank you ❤
The only time my parents are happy is when they drink
Honestly there's probably so many older siblings listening to this song
You're my hero Jake. Just look at all these comments of people being saved by you and your music !! I am definitely one of them. Thank you for helping us all live another day on this painful earth. Just remember, not only are you here for us, but we are all here for you always. God bless you Jake....your voice is so beautiful and thank you for sharing such a great masterpiece....love & respect to you..🐨💜
Thanks to my grandpa. He wants me to live my life. I’m doing fine and I keep pushing myself because I got to be strong for my kids and my husband ❤
Brother this song touches my soul on the deepest level. Your songs always do. Thank you so much for showing that none of us are alone in the fight 🔥🔥🔥💚💙💜
Your songs ALWAYS hit close, this one is on a whole other level of relatable. I'm a single mom and always have to be strong and keep pushing ahead for my son and my parents. I break down nightly when my son is sleeping. No ONE knows how much I cry and how hard I fight to stay alive. Thank you for being a voice to those of us who feel silenced or can't speak what we are feeling.
You must be so full of love and pride for your precious son, but of course you carry a heavy burden every day and it is not getting any less consuming when you keep it all by yourself. I am 19 today, so I won't tell you what to do. My age gives me no right to act like I could relate to your situation. But my experience on the other hand might show you that you are not alone.
I jumped off a bridge near my school when I was 17 years old. Cause I did the same thing like you, bottled it up and acted happy for my parents and grandparents. No matter what I did, I was always tired and had no joy in doing it, but always kept the facade. And that facade, it was my doome. To the day I jumped noone knew how I was feeling. I could not move my legs or my arms at first, my feet were crushed like broken eggs. But it all came back eventually after six surgeries in total. And now I made it out of the wheelchair and graduated and go my way. I remember what it feels to want to give up and I'd be lying if I said I am healed, I don't have this thoughts anymore, that is just not true.
But you seem like a very very special and selfless and couregous woman and I just want you to get the support you deserve. So, have you ever talked about your feelings with your parents? Or a therapist? Both can be very helpful in examing your feelings and learn ways how to cope with the darkest ones. I never wanted help before and I paid a high prize to notice, that I needed it. I just hope you realize sooner how much you are worth it.
Sorry for the essay, but a woman like you deserves every good word directed to her.
What in heaven was that?! You are getting better and better. Even the verses have such a great vibe - I LOVE IT!!!❤ And the last part of the 2nd verse with the breaking point and getting ennerved until they find mine...GOOSEBUMPS, that's what I can say. Another banger, another masterpiece! Thank you!🙏🙌
I thought they couldnt top "wired for worthless"....I was wrong
Thank you for these songs I really relate to these especially dead end life. Just stuck in the mud and can't escape.
This song couldn't have had better timing. Sometimes we don't have a choice but to be strong for someone else, no matter what it costs us...Thank you making yet another song that speaks to my heart and soul. This'll be on repeat for a while.
Thank you so much for this. I don't feel so alone anymore.
If my son ever reads this, just know that Dad loves you buddy. So much.
This song really hits home cause i feel like i have to be strong for everyone, bury all the pain and fake a smile otherwise they will judge me and run away from me cause they don't like who i am, and it hurts cause all i want to do is scream and cry but i can't. Citizen soldier this song and all your other songs mean the world to me cause they say what i can't so thank you 😭❤
Trust me not everyone will judge you or run away, if there is someone, there is definitely someone who will listen it is just sometimes hard to find them, but trust me, sou will find them
I have a similar feeling except I worry that my family will react in a hostile manner instead of just running away. I am sorry you feel this way and hope that you will find people who will not be judgmental! ❤
This song takes me to a place where i was given the gift of desperation. Sometimes you dont realize just how severe your trauma is, you practically desensitize yourself with how often you speak on it with a therapist or counselor..it almost feels like youre telling someone elses story. By the grace of God i have 5 months sober today. Incomprehensible demoralization is a real thing. Thank you citizen soldier.
As someone who chose to heal shattered people as a career I can relate to this song I've been waiting to get the energy from this song ❤
You're an angel on earth sent here to bless the unfortunate. Please please always remember that. 🧡🩷💜💙💚
Thank you I will always remember ❤❤
Holy crap i found you guys today but everything ive listened to so far has resonated with me so much.
Im living for somebody else. a few somebodys i guess, but a main one. my girlfriend. we made a promise. now we're both gonna live (assuming we can both keep holding on), and one day we'll get out of these places and we'll be able to be happy.
Staying strong for anyone girlfriend family friends matters becuase we are not one but many ones all alone but together in music or soul...
The lyrics, so dark and relatable.
This is almost reaching the top 1 favourite for me.
It just has this vibe to it that captivates me.
Thank you again for giving us this masterpiece!
It’s highly appreciated by so many people🧡
This song brings out the hidden Flame within me every time I listen to this.
I've been waiting for this song to be released since I heard the snippets of the song. It's a MASTERPIECE!!
Thanks for patiently waiting 🫶
The reason citizen soldier's music speaks and helps us to heal is because unlike most instead of say he understands and everything will be fine, is that he gives the description of what we are feeling and this is an outlet and a way for us to tell loved ones exactly what we are going through without words
I promised myself that the light in me wouldn't go out until I made sure my brother was safe from the people who have hurt us, I've lost my way a few times but I will strengthen myself more than ever to achieve that goal, thank you for this amazing music❤
I'm a 12 year old boy who has to take care of my 51 year old drunk mom this song is me
You can get help, you know. I mean I know I'm just a stranger on the internet, but you don't have to do it all alone. ❤️
There are people that can help
Sweetheart, I'm so sorry 😢 I hope she opens her eyes soon and sees what she is putting you through.
😭 This makes my heart hurt because I know what you are going thru. You should listen to Citizen Soldiers song "Good enough". Stay strong
I feel you there I had to do the same but I also had to fight my abusive stepfather and make sure my siblings were well fed and bathed and also had to make sure to keep my grades up and make sure they were also getting good grades and I’m 14 years old now😔
Keep your heads up kids. I can tell you from personal experience it's the hardest thing to do in life.
At 14 years old:
My step-dad was in jail for 1Yr.
My mom shut down and cried.
I became the man of the house, without being asked, with 4 younger siblings.
My grandfather passed on my birthday.
I broke my back...
My parents deny my claims of how bad it actually was sometimes.
God sends his hardest battles to his strongest warriors. Keep your head held high, stay put of trouble and make the best of the situation you've been put in.
NEVER fear asking for help, I'm now 29 and deathly afraid to be a burden, because I was conditioned to think "men need to suck it up" it's a load of BS!
STAY STRONG! ❤❤❤
Thank you @CitizenSoldier. This is the is the only thing helping me right now with my extreme postpartum depression and the struggle of my baby in NICU.
I´ve been waiting so long for this song and IT WAS SO WORTH IT DAMN! Loving it ❤
Good to hear the wait was worth it 🫶
Wow.. talk myself off of this ledge I know so well.. the weight of the world... put my pain in a pill.. hits hard.. Thank you for this.. for all of us fighting our battles.. nice to know we're not alone..
Again, you are way ahead of anyone else who try connecting with their people. KoЯn, Disturbed, Breaking Benjamin etc. all have done very well in this aspect. The exactness of your lyrics/message and the band’s precision is second to none. I only wish I could be a guest bassist.❤
Thank you for all you do.
Firstly... I will never stop appreciating the work you guys put into all of the songs and messages you gift to us, a world who needs exactly what you have to offer: words to live for, hope made song, life made musical.
Secondly, to anyone reading this who may be having a bad day or a rough patch in life: stay strong, stay hopeful, and keep up your fight. We, the Citizens, will stand with you. I, the poster, believe in you and your capability to find happiness. we are never truly alone, and in the words of my favorite book... "we are only as strong as we are united, and as weak as we are divided." You, the reader, are cherished and important, and you have more meaning than you'll ever know. Be safe, and hold on to those you love.
Every single word is true 😭😭 I've been waiting sooo long for this song to drop.
Much love 🫶
It's very rare that a song will actually make me emotional as I bury my emotions as deep as I can, but damn. This song did it. I absolutely love this song!
Thank you for making this song. I've always flet like I had to hide the thoughts in my head so the ones around me wouldn't worry, the darker my mind became, the more I hide behind a smile. Thank you so much for making a song thank makes me and others fell less alone and more understood!💜💕
This song hits so deep and honestly makes me feel like I'm not alone and like my feelings matter. I hope to one day be able to speak without feeling like my thoughts are wrong.
Every time they come out with a new song I always think there’s no way that this can be better than the last one and they always prove me wrong!!!Your music always touches my heart!! Much love ❤
I debated making this comment, but I had to share my appreciation for this song. It really resonated with me because in my darkest, most broken moments that's what I tell myself to keep going. It's not easy, and it often leads to putting others before yourself even when in better headspaces, but know your never alone. It's a hard and rough road but there are many of us here walking it with you.
❤
Я вас люблю. Вы сейчас занимаете 90% моего плейлиста. Песни в самое сердце. Вокал под кожу. Невлзможно слушать без слез.
без слез xD , но песни зачетные
This song more then explains exactly what I'm struggling with...always had depression but these past couple months have been the absolute hardest I've dealt with....I have no true safe space for myself...but for my son I stand up barely stable but for him I can't stop trying...this song hits so hard....
I been in a dark place fkr for quite a while, my 5 kids are what's kept me getting up everyday and going on." Weight of the world... I'll carry it." I know i got to be strong for somebody else.... Happy Father's Day to my fellow dads carrying ot all on their backs. 😢
I've been listening for you guys for some years. I'm happy to see how big you've grown and what fame you got. You totally deserve it. You have absolutely amazing music and absolutely amazing and inspiring lyrics.
I'VE BEEN WAITING SO LONG FOR THIS TO DROP! And it's so much better than I imagined, I can't express how happy I am that I found you guys years ago!
FEEL every word so deep within myself... till tears! Thank you for being ALIVE and showind the fight within. I'm not alone!
The First Always❤❤
I became obsessed with this day because of you so all thanks and standing ovations to you 💖
I hope that "Good Enough for God" will be the next song
It's coming soon 🫶
I totally understand that.
I feel it too.
Personally can't wait for "Remembering" but "Good Enough for God" is a close second
Please! Oh Gods please.
I desperately need someone to be strong for. I just can't live trying to live for myself. I have never been able to. And the lighthouse for my soul has told me I cannot be this way anymore.
We are strangers, but if you still need someone you can be strong for, I volunteer 😊❤ This song hits deep, and we maybe come from different parts of perspective of wanting to be strong for someone.. But making friends and wanting to help isn’t the baddest thing, right?
My somebody else was my grandmother. She passed away in June and it's been hard to keep things going. I'm happy to have a song that encapsulates how I've felt. I've been looking forward to this full song ever since I heard the clip on tiktok. Great Job.
"Does it ever get better or is this worth the fight? Everyone has a breaking point, guess we'll find mine"
Exactly what I've been thinking for years. Still not sure if it is worth the fight, but luckily haven't reached my breaking point yet.
I’ve had this song on repeat for almost 2 hours now, an absolute Masterpiece with every note/lyric hitting in so many ways 👏👏
It's not often that a song leaves me speechless, but just wow. Thank you for finding the strength to give voice to something so many others suffer through in silence.
This song shattered my expectations. How do you guys make such relatable songs every time? Can’t wait for the rest of the album! ❤
Going through some rough patches and a first time mom with depression. Just found this song and it expresses how I'm feeling. Love the song. Keep up with the wonderful music and helping people express themselves.
My partner is a huge fan. She says this is by far her most relatable song you’ve released! She was severely abused by her so called mother and her mother’s boyfriends. Her mum let her older sisters abuse her too. She now suffers with CPTSD (complex post traumatic stress disorder) and BPD/EUPD (borderline personality disorder formally known and emotionally unstable personality disorder )
She says all the time that she is suicidal but she t want to die. To me that is showing her strength to carry on through her hell in her head
To all who read this, remember that you are not alone. I know it is easier said than done, but I hope you get through whatever you are going through
This is how i dealt with my dad, my grandpa and my best friends funerals all within 2 months of eachother. I didnt have time to feel my emotions, i didnt cry, i had to be there for mom, sister and everyone else who needed me. I now feel the repercussions of doing that as im fighting many battles. Great song to relate to to push through
Thank you so much. I really needed this today. Some people might think it’s weird to need to hear about someone hurting, but it’s a connection that you do within your music. This is how I feel all the time since I lost my daughter. Thank you for making me feel less alone.
As someone Who is struggling rn with My Past and PTSD and feeling like my mentality is going downhill ❤️🩹🔥🥺
This song describes it so well
Hang in there friend, I'm in that storm too, but I believe somehow we'll make it through.
It's like being stuck on a loop.
1 step fowerd and 2 steps back.
Each day Is a healing process.
Your not alone ❤
Oh my goodness, this is beautiful. It hurts me even though I'm not personally going through things in such a way. I can almost imagine just a corner of some others struggles... I've been through a lot... This is deep and needed...
Lyrics:
I've played out the scene so much in my head
I have to wake up but I'd rather be dead
Haunted by thoughts of the ones I love most
I picture them living alone with my ghost
Kill the pain and kill the family
Choke the dark down, just be happy
Talk myself off of this ledge I know all too well
My personal hell, I'll bury it, bury it
Weight of the world, I'll carry it, carry it
Pile it all on, I've gotta be strong
For somebody, for somebody
Put my pain in a pill, I'll swallow it, swallow it
Too numb to feel, I'm hollow, I'm hollow
I have to hold on, I've gotta be strong
For somebody, for somebody
Somebody else
This voice in my head, it wants me to choose
Die selfish or live with my head in a noose
Does it ever get better, is this worth the fight?
Everyone has a breaking point, guess we'll find mine
Kill the body, not the memory
Wouldn't blame 'em, they'd resent me
Kind of scares me what it takes to just save myself
My personal hell, I'll bury it, bury it
Weight of the world, I'll carry it, carry it
Pile it all on, I've gotta be strong
For somebody, for somebody
Put my pain in a pill, I'll swallow it, swallow it
Too numb to feel, I'm hollow, I'm hollow
I have to hold on, I've gotta be strong
For somebody, for somebody
Somebody else
Somebody else
My personal hell, I'll bury it, bury it
Weight of the world, I'll carry it, carry it
Pile it all on, I've gotta be strong
For somebody, for somebody
Put my pain in a pill, I'll swallow it, swallow it
Too numb to feel, I'm hollow, I'm hollow
I have to hold on, I've gotta be strong
For somebody, for somebody
Somebody else
For somebody, for somebody
Somebody else
For somebody, for somebody
Somebody else
To hear this while struggling with PTSD and BPD, I can't believe that I found a song that takes the weight off my shoulders. I thought I was alone, but thank you. For basically making a song that can help heal me. Props to you CitizenSoldier. Props to you.
Thank you lord for this masterpiece......and Thank you guys for delivering legit perfection again and again....having SA trauma from my youth that still comes up every now and then...having to take the brunt of it so no one else would feel any pain...I needed this....needed something that speaks to me so perfectly.....thank you....❤️🩹
Another banger and, tbh, this is probably the one I identify with the most.
OMG I LOVE IT
Glad to hear that 🫶
Wath 3 minuts music in 1 legend
You guys keep making songs for me oh my goodness 😍 tq
Yes!!! Exactly 💯...I have 6 kids ! This song ..the words outta my mouth! Love it❤ Another one for my collection 😊
absolutely crazy hard hitting Lyrics. I feel like everyone can relate to this kind of situation in one way or another. This is why Citizen Soldier is an absolutely heart warming yet heavy hitting band which is amazing! Rock on everyone and For thoes of you who struggle. Stay strong, you are NEVER alone.
I've listened to this over and over. I have to deal with a suicidal best friend, other people around with stress of GCSE exams slowly approaching and none of them know I feel suicidal, I struggle with self harm, I have ptsd, have to look after a 3 year old and I'm only 15 😢
Another amazing song!! Just when I think that you guys are already the best band I’ve ever heard, you go and show that you’re even better than I could’ve ever hoped for. Your lyrics are impressive and impactful as always, and I can’t wait to listen to this song on loop for weeks to come. Thank you for all that you do 💚💚💚💚💚
I chose life for my friends, mom and siblings when I was 10. It's a heavy burden, but if the knowledge that someone needs you or would be devastated and possibly follow your path keeps you alive, then cling to it. I wouldn't have gotten to experience my amazing career and meet my amazing coworkers had I not clung to that little thread.
Im glad you stayed strong for them, I wish you the best!❤
I found citizen soldier at the right time. I’m 25 and had to deal with my dads dementia for over 4. Now he’s dying in hospital, my mum practically gave up her whole life 2 years ago to take care of him leaving me the only one with a job. I’ll cry when he finally passes and I’m doing all I can to stay strong for them but it all gets too much sometimes, the pressure being the man of the house and coming to terms with the fact the life I once knew is gone. Not like my life was sunshine and rainbows beforehand going through abusive relationships and losing nearly everything to covid. Jake sings for us who suffer in silence, who feel uncared and unloved
This song made me tear up because its true. Thankyou for your beutiful meaning full songs.
MY GOD I litterally shivered at the beginning of the song. I don't know if you did anything different on the mixing or post processing idk the words or anything but the way your voice came in the song is absolutely gorgeous, I freaking love how your voice sounds in this song
I grew up without my real mother;she died when I was 1. I remember nothing about her, and she wasn't talked about. In my darkest days, I have 3 that I refuse to let grow up without their mama too. I pray one day I will go from they give me the strength to continue, to I have my own strength, and I help them become amazing adults without my problems 😢💔
As always.. thank you Citizen Soldier for putting words to feelings that sometimes just can't be vocalised. ❤
This. This is the reason why I'm still here, I love my loved ones too much to leave this world..
I don't have words for this one. I really like it as always and that "just be happy" is perfect in the lyrics! 💜
I've finally healed from my trauma but damn if this wasn't my life before I had the strength, courage and know how to face that trauma.
Right when I think Im alone, they release a song of exactly how I feel . You know it hits you cause the tears dont stop, but if your feeling like this I encourage you to seek pro help. It might be me today but tomorrow it might be any of us, and Im sure your not alone. To you who reads my comment your special and unique. Shine bright and show the nay sayers you also got it within you.
Reminds me of my saying 'If not for me, Then for someone else.' If I do wake up to help myself I wake up to help others. I made this saying after I survived trying to jump off a bridge because I didn't want to be here anymore. I still don't but I will keep waking up to help others.