I'm an old hard rocker and when I first heard this song, I rocked out. Had been drinking, doing drugs my whole life, never letting it control me. Until I met Her, The Dragon. She controlled me. My best friend, my wife left me, lost my job, was fixing to be homeless, 52 years old,worked my entire life and within a few years it was all gone. End of the road. So I'm chasing the dragon one night, rocking to this song. Im broke, didn't know how I was gonna get my fix the next day. Was so sick of myself. Sick of life. Sick of ruining everything I touch. And those words......never paid attention to the lyrics until that night. 'This suffocating feeling And the voice in my head is bleeding out And I don't think that I'll ever really change This is not how I'm made 'Cause I think I've lost half my mind Fighting my addiction I've been killing, wasting time I'm not alright" And I just let out an ocean of tears. So much came out. Soaked my shirt. I was so tired of life...but I thought of my soulmate, my best friend, she left me but she didn't abandon me. She was still helping me and I thought of those lyrics, '"This is not how I'm made" '"Cause I don't care if it hurts me I care if I hurt you" I didn't want to hurt her anymore. I quit cold turkey that night. It was tough. Alcohol and heroin are some tough cookies. That was March 2019, never relapsed and have been clean and sober since. Even tho she left me, she always stayed within reach and she is so proud of me. And we are working on it. I don't blame her for taking all this time and I'll give her more if I have to. She helped me quit and it took a toll on her. For 5 days I was on couch, barely moving except when I would flip the f*ck out and she would tackle me. She never left my side for 5 days.. She took off work for 5 days. 5 days of me screaming, kicking, cursing, crying, begging......I'll never forget her hugging me so tight as I was screaming. She would just lay on top of me to keep me from wigging out. It was her love and this song that saved my life. Thank you CJ, Aled, Rhys and Jamie. Peace and Love forever I love you guys..... "I've worked too hard My head and my heart got me this far ................. ............ A new beginning And I just want to make new waves And find a new way out I don't need another bug in my brain Just wanna feel myself again I'm off all those prodigal old ways I made a new start On new waves "New Waves"
I love her image... just casual clothes, no fake eyelashes and other shit. Simple look and focused on vocals not like many pop singers who wanna cover lack of singing skills by naked body on the stage.
unreal how much emotion she puts into this performance
Bruh . Holy shit
thats more than sick, awesome performance
And we now know.. the emotion was actually real. Hope shes doing ok now. 🙏
I'm an old hard rocker and when I first heard this song, I rocked out. Had been drinking, doing drugs my whole life, never letting it control me. Until I met Her, The Dragon. She controlled me. My best friend, my wife left me, lost my job, was fixing to be homeless, 52 years old,worked my entire life and within a few years it was all gone. End of the road.
So I'm chasing the dragon one night, rocking to this song. Im broke, didn't know how I was gonna get my fix the next day. Was so sick of myself. Sick of life. Sick of ruining everything I touch. And those words......never paid attention to the lyrics until that night.
'This suffocating feeling
And the voice in my head is bleeding out
And I don't think that I'll ever really change
This is not how I'm made
'Cause I think I've lost half my mind
Fighting my addiction
I've been killing, wasting time
I'm not alright"
And I just let out an ocean of tears. So much came out. Soaked my shirt. I was so tired of life...but I thought of my soulmate, my best friend, she left me but she didn't abandon me. She was still helping me and I thought of those lyrics, '"This is not how I'm made"
'"Cause I don't care if it hurts me
I care if I hurt you"
I didn't want to hurt her anymore. I quit cold turkey that night. It was tough. Alcohol and heroin are some tough cookies. That was March 2019, never relapsed and have been clean and sober since. Even tho she left me, she always stayed within reach and she is so proud of me. And we are working on it. I don't blame her for taking all this time and I'll give her more if I have to. She helped me quit and it took a toll on her. For 5 days I was on couch, barely moving except when I would flip the f*ck out and she would tackle me. She never left my side for 5 days.. She took off work for 5 days. 5 days of me screaming, kicking, cursing, crying, begging......I'll never forget her hugging me so tight as I was screaming. She would just lay on top of me to keep me from wigging out. It was her love and this song that saved my life. Thank you CJ, Aled, Rhys and Jamie. Peace and Love forever
I love you guys.....
"I've worked too hard
My head and my heart got me this far
.................
............
A new beginning
And I just want to make new waves
And find a new way out
I don't need another bug in my brain
Just wanna feel myself again
I'm off all those prodigal old ways
I made a new start
On new waves
"New Waves"
They truly are amazing
stay strong ❤
This comment is 3 years old, but I just wanted to say I hope you’re doing well and staying strong. ❤
Man, that was such a touching comment. I hope you‘re well!
love when lead singers no mater how many time they have sang the same song the still feel what they are saying
Exactly 💗🖤
I love her image... just casual clothes, no fake eyelashes and other shit. Simple look and focused on vocals not like many pop singers who wanna cover lack of singing skills by naked body on the stage.
People hear music .. but the music that sticks is the music they feel . Holy shit . Thanks for sharing your emotions!
Clean since August 2017
2:37 this part always gets me
She lives her song. Beautiful ❤
I will never be a prisoner of my past.
I will be the architect of my future
thank you
I have literal goosebumps listening to this! ❤️
take care of CJ guys ! her like comes around very rarely.
Unfortunately the band broke up :/
Im just a humble guy from Dallas TX early in recovery but you guys are amazing and helped me through some rough times!
Incredible!
I was so lucky to be here for this performance
Lucky
CJ will always be the front woman for Dream State for me.
I did not expect this
This hurts in a good way?
Emotion put in is unreal..
Damn, what a passionate song!!!! Girl you really sang your heart out. ❤❤❤
I miss her honestly
Very nice live acoustic ever heard... Love it...
SHE IS AMAZING LIVE
Your Voice Is so Powerfull and amazing, I love it
A emoção é única ♥️
beatifull guys love it
amazing!! really proud of them
This is leaving me speechless.
A MASTERPIECE!
I love it ..come to america
Gorgeous
That was a lot of emotion...
Essa novinha é zikaaaaaaaaaaaa 😍
I miss her
Идеально!
Уж очень
Стоп, кто Лукас поставил мгновенно????
@@verchielGold ну шо бы и нет)
#BRASIL
@DOWNLOAD PLAYLIST RB 228=911
Her voice is beautiful. Too sad they changed vocalist.
Not everyone bounced back after Covid and she was carrying a burden as it was.
Sounds like Ronnie Radke
No
F*ckin covid & lock down caused a very promising band to split up. A massive loss imo