Puscifer - "Bedlamite" (Official Video - from "Existential Reckoning: Live at Arcosanti")

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  • Puscifer’s video for “Bedlamite” from the album, “Existential Reckoning: Live at Arcosanti"
    Edited by Mat Mitchell. Shot by Tim Cadiente and Meats Meier.
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    Lyrics:
    Old man Wibble, lush diviner, duke of babble, mad soothsayer,
    & drunken oracle drinks the Liquid Jesus straight from the bottle.
    Spirituous Sancti, like God full throttle.
    The Bedlamite seer & fortune teller croons,
    “Write your own fable. Believe it’ll all work out.”
    “It’s gonna be all right. Everything will be all right."
    “Raise,” He says, “raise a glass to our heterogeneity, & our remarkable resilience through calamity.”
    Old man Wibble, duke of babble, drank straight from the bottle, danced on the table.
    Fortune teller croons, “The world may tipple. The world may wobble.
    Raise your bottle of God full throttle, the Liquid Jesus, Spiritous Sancti. Write your own
    fable & believe it’ll all work out.”
    “It’s gonna be all right. Everything will be all right.”
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    ©2020 Puscifer Entertainment under exclusive license to Alchemy Recordings, LLC / BMG Rights Management (US).
    #Puscifer #Bedlamite #Existential Reckoning
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  • @joshasunto27
    @joshasunto27 3 ปีที่แล้ว +402

    Anyone else get mad goosebumps when carina comes in with her oohs and awws.

    • @dans6127
      @dans6127 3 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      0:51 that one got me

    • @mrslane7990
      @mrslane7990 2 ปีที่แล้ว +18

      Her voice is rich buttercream in a strawberry fantasy floating upon the dandelion feathers of my lucid daydreams.

    • @kruse8888
      @kruse8888 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Sounds like she does😉

    • @jordanlewis4308
      @jordanlewis4308 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      oooooo000000OOOOO!!!

    • @2wayplebney
      @2wayplebney ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Every time.

  • @stevencoy
    @stevencoy 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1911

    Maynard softly saying everything will be alright is precisely what the world needs right now.

    • @FuriousJesse
      @FuriousJesse 3 ปีที่แล้ว +34

      Couldn't agree more.

    • @stnkfngr6109
      @stnkfngr6109 3 ปีที่แล้ว +54

      That only works when it's true

    • @ElishaEhrhardtModifiedTease
      @ElishaEhrhardtModifiedTease 3 ปีที่แล้ว +23

      it is already ‘all right’.

    • @railgap
      @railgap 3 ปีที่แล้ว +124

      yeah, um, in context with the rest of the lyrics, it's not a reassurance he's delivering, he's cynically critiquing reassurances coming from a sketchy source. Right?

    • @stevencoy
      @stevencoy 3 ปีที่แล้ว +38

      @@railgap I took it as a wise fool thing. What's cool about art though is it gets to mean what you need it to mean.

  • @stefanopani2848
    @stefanopani2848 3 ปีที่แล้ว +589

    Fibonacci sequence just like Lateralus:
    1 Raise
    2 he says
    3 Raise a glass
    5 Raise a glass to our
    8 our heterogeneity
    13 Our remarkable resilience through calamity

    • @bmanson626
      @bmanson626 3 ปีที่แล้ว +32

      Nice observation! He seems to do this kind of thing alot. Unintentionally also

    • @ericmcgee2386
      @ericmcgee2386 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Good catch man!

    • @SplendidFellow
      @SplendidFellow 3 ปีที่แล้ว +29

      "Resilience" has 4 syllables but he sings it as 3 so it counts

    • @stefanopani2848
      @stefanopani2848 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@SplendidFellow exactly!
      I had to count several times to figure it out

    • @stefanopani2848
      @stefanopani2848 3 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      @@bmanson626 perhaps this time it is unintentional
      Fibonacci sequence is 1 1 2 3...
      The first 1 here is missed

  • @hansikursch484
    @hansikursch484 3 ปีที่แล้ว +372

    Carina's voice is to Maynard what anneke is to devin. They just work so well together.

    • @oceanmachine1906
      @oceanmachine1906 3 ปีที่แล้ว +19

      Yes great comparison.
      Though in the past few years Che Dorval seems to become his more regular collaborator.

    • @sianwraith1984
      @sianwraith1984 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Carina Round and Chelsea Wolfe collaboration and tour.

    • @farstrider79
      @farstrider79 3 ปีที่แล้ว +28

      I'd like Maynard and Devin to just do one song together.

    • @joshuawilliams3609
      @joshuawilliams3609 3 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      @@farstrider79 do you want the world to implode?

    • @flataffect
      @flataffect 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@oceanmachine1906 luckily Che is fantastic as well. Highly recommend her solo stuff too. Saw devin and her live back in February and they put on a great show

  • @thebreadman
    @thebreadman 3 ปีที่แล้ว +188

    The angelic chorus, the sun rising over the desert, Maynard telling me it's all going to be alright. Tear jerker this one.

    • @shadow_finds_light
      @shadow_finds_light 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      🖤🙏

    • @jeffkurtz6011
      @jeffkurtz6011 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

      🍑 💋

    • @fiftybones
      @fiftybones 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      i just saw this shit live and the combination of maynard singing everything's gonna be alright while a dude in an alien suit at the front of the stage sticks his creepy 6" tongue out the mouthhole of his mask had me laughing and crying at the same time.

    • @benzina7
      @benzina7 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Sweet lies tailored in melody can be so heartwarming......

  • @TomPark1986
    @TomPark1986 3 ปีที่แล้ว +340

    This album is the kind where you can just play over and over.

    • @Itsunclegabby
      @Itsunclegabby 3 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      I can and I do.

    • @francisjames6996
      @francisjames6996 3 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      I have been. Listened on mushrooms last night. Holy shit. I heard things in there that went right by me the first 20times I listened.

    • @longerino
      @longerino 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      really

    • @angela2496
      @angela2496 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      For sure. I've probably listened at least 100x since its release. So mad I missed the live stream!! This album is other worldly. On first listen I thought aliens had invaded. Ha! 👽

    • @nadzyea9780
      @nadzyea9780 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      na its shit mate

  • @theamazingt4r468
    @theamazingt4r468 ปีที่แล้ว +29

    Can we talk about Mat's guitar tone?! Fucking perfect.

    • @thesolarengineer
      @thesolarengineer 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Sometimes ice-pick treble, dry is the sound de jour 👍👍👍

  • @depradaa
    @depradaa 3 ปีที่แล้ว +63

    I prefer this version over the album version. The voices feel more prominent

    • @unclegumbald989
      @unclegumbald989 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Those “alright”s from Carina at the end.... **mwah**

    • @R_Hansen
      @R_Hansen 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Whole music is more alive ...

  • @wizzardswing6258
    @wizzardswing6258 3 ปีที่แล้ว +426

    I can't even begin to explain the feeling I felt when I saw the sun rise In this video when I watched the livestream. Tears flowing I felt weightless and optimistic for the first time in a very long time. Thank you so much Puscifer!

    • @fauxtographic
      @fauxtographic 3 ปีที่แล้ว +83

      Imagine being there filming it. We began at 2 am and were delirious by this point, then the sun began to rise and “everything will be alright” refrained over and over. One of the best experiences I’ve had.

    • @hyperactiveoverdrive5184
      @hyperactiveoverdrive5184 3 ปีที่แล้ว +18

      I almost cried too, I can't believe a 5 minute piece of music can move an individual so much. They are creating magic from their minds and bringing it into reality.

    • @christinawaltman4229
      @christinawaltman4229 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      Agree totally..it was overwhelming to be moved like that. . their voices are perfect together and the backdrop for the whole thing is beautiful.

    • @taylorkrilanovich8415
      @taylorkrilanovich8415 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@fauxtographic That's incredible, I bet your'e gonna hold tight to those memories.

    • @fauxtographic
      @fauxtographic 3 ปีที่แล้ว +23

      @@taylorkrilanovich8415 absolutely. I feel like I got to be a part of something special for sure. This show was such a fantastic moment in time and I’m so glad that it effected people the way it has. Eternally grateful for the opportunity. (I was one of the guys on Steadicam, btw).

  • @holysmokes6566
    @holysmokes6566 3 ปีที่แล้ว +408

    What a radiant crescendo...

    • @danlee7923
      @danlee7923 3 ปีที่แล้ว +20

      Hip, hip hooray

    • @Hopium500
      @Hopium500 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Willeh wonkeh

    • @danlee7923
      @danlee7923 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@Hopium500 after radiant crescendo is tucker tape parade with our hair and skin like Marilyn Munroe in the afterwind

    • @ExploitedSurvivor
      @ExploitedSurvivor 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      What a perfect comment!

    • @gunnerseven7724
      @gunnerseven7724 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      eat the elephant is a brilliant album

  • @tonydownsouth7070
    @tonydownsouth7070 3 ปีที่แล้ว +157

    As great as Maynard & Corina are, Mat Michell deserves just as much credit. His sound is always tops in creativity and original

    • @cynzia_d
      @cynzia_d 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Totally agree

    • @jdubjdub645
      @jdubjdub645 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I love how he gets into it

    • @joshasunto27
      @joshasunto27 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      the whole fucking band, they make and decide their own input on instrument play. Unreal talent across the board.

    • @GRYNGE7
      @GRYNGE7 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Maynard chose a group of great musicians rather than dudes who looked like rock stars. They are fantastic live performers

    • @ginadavis5187
      @ginadavis5187 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Sono TUTTI BRAVISSIMI. Con Pushifer hanno creato queste cose qua. Il Genio,la sensibilità Artistica e soprattutto come persona,e la sua indiscutibile Professionalita e Talenti ,sono qualcosa di UNICO. Ma credetemi che TUTTE LE PERSONE che hanno lavorato a questo Progetto,sono anche loro dei Talenti.

  • @kjrandom4238
    @kjrandom4238 3 ปีที่แล้ว +241

    I lost my Dad and brother in 2020, listening to this brings comfort to my troubled mind. Thank you Puscifer.

    • @DocBree13
      @DocBree13 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      I’m so sorry for your losses - I hope you’re doing a little better.

    • @kjrandom4238
      @kjrandom4238 3 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      Thank you, it sucks, but i am learning cope with the loss. Any of Maynard's music i use as medicine, it works quite well. Thanks again for your kind words.

    • @freddyp07ify
      @freddyp07ify 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Hang in there bro 🙏🏼

    • @ANSELNaamehRahab
      @ANSELNaamehRahab 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      🙏

    • @niles8102
      @niles8102 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Sorry for your loss...I lost my grandpa and my cousin. 2020 was a really hard time!
      Keep your chin up

  • @mantistron
    @mantistron 3 ปีที่แล้ว +152

    "Eventually we’ll go the way of the dinosaurs, and it will be OK"
    - MJK 2020

    • @armbreaker
      @armbreaker 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Might be true

    • @IntooleranceRieg
      @IntooleranceRieg 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Actually the dinosaurs stayed on earth for a really long period of time. And sure we will all be gone someday.

    • @gravygravyjosh
      @gravygravyjosh 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Of course some dinos survived and became birds

    • @IntooleranceRieg
      @IntooleranceRieg 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      We have to beat a reign of 200 000 000 years, and we are at 300 000. I think they will beat us on this one but at least we have pretty girls, video games and Tool.
      Totaly worth the deal.

    • @gingerkline1244
      @gingerkline1244 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I think we still have dinosaurs here. They act it, anyway...

  • @heyshwa5102
    @heyshwa5102 3 ปีที่แล้ว +67

    My favorite song on the album. Lullaby me to sleep papi Maynard

    • @EveKatharsis
      @EveKatharsis 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      🤣

    • @Brian-iu7rd
      @Brian-iu7rd 12 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

      Tori Amos' burner account?

  • @javier019
    @javier019 3 ปีที่แล้ว +105

    After many listens...I think this is Puscifer's best album

    • @matty4941
      @matty4941 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Agreed

    • @DR.DisInfect
      @DR.DisInfect 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Agreed 👍

    • @longhuynh2773
      @longhuynh2773 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      It doesn't get you the first couple times but it will eventually grows in you, gotta say its their finest album yet!

    • @joshasunto27
      @joshasunto27 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      its so much different than earlier stuff, musically better but the old albums hold some serious tilt with creativity and meaning. this album seems aimed at the current state of our world. I like the unknown goodies from past, either way you cannot beat puscifer, by far my favorite MJK project.

    • @Master_Harrison86
      @Master_Harrison86 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      It is for sure a

  • @WeylerTomaszewski
    @WeylerTomaszewski 24 วันที่ผ่านมา +5

    I traveled from Portugal to Ireland to see their show. worth every cent/minute. Small theatre, no cellphones allowed. 100% immersion. Maynard and Carina are just eye magnets, cant stop looking at them. not just great singers, awesome entertainers

    • @bradmeeks407
      @bradmeeks407 10 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

      I traveled from San Antonio to a wretched place called Houston to see them. It was so worth it! 😂

    • @tomaszgie509
      @tomaszgie509 8 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

      So i guess we were at the same gig with one difference, there were no immersion. As usual about 50 drunk irish lads in the back didn't give a shit about music. Same noise as at Temple Bar.

    • @WeylerTomaszewski
      @WeylerTomaszewski 3 วันที่ผ่านมา

      @@tomaszgie509 fuckkkk, thats the place. So yes, we were at the same show. I was on the balcony, because the ground tickets were over. I guess i got lucky then

    • @WeylerTomaszewski
      @WeylerTomaszewski 3 วันที่ผ่านมา

      @@bradmeeks407 there is no such thing as ‘its too far’ for puscifer

  • @danpryce
    @danpryce 3 ปีที่แล้ว +209

    Timing this song to the sunrise...Simply brilliant! It's Gonna be Alright...

    • @Explosion-of-consciousness
      @Explosion-of-consciousness 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Beautifully poetic.. new day, all is cyclical and everything will be All right.

    • @50hertzproductions93
      @50hertzproductions93 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I agree, that was amazing

    • @arhael1
      @arhael1 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Work as much as listening before going to sleep ;)

    • @travismusser7409
      @travismusser7409 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Even more amazing was the fact that they timed it to the full moon rise for everyone watching. Though most were inside, being an internet show. But we happened to be outside and it was perfectly timed. They were positioned at the same part of the horizon. There was even a mountain beside us. A native american sacred mountain. The moon rises over to the right w us below and the sunrise and Puscifer gang to in front of sun left of the moon. Perfect alignment...Us all here together....

    • @chrisclevenger1582
      @chrisclevenger1582 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      The universe made this happen out of sheer luck one morning a week ago. I was at the end of a trip listening to the album, went to the beach for the sunrise, this song played as soon as I pulled up.

  • @HarperHealthAZ
    @HarperHealthAZ 3 ปีที่แล้ว +131

    Wow, I am amazed at how much effort went into this. The fact of catching the sunrise and all the natural elements of Arizona. I like how it zoomed out and showed all the equipment used and didn't try to hide those working the other cameras. Such a beautiful song.

    • @mikaelgaiason688
      @mikaelgaiason688 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      The sun rises every day... Photographers and film professionals get pretty good about catching the "golden hour." They also tend to really love the desert, since the atmosphere and weather there cooperate so much. If you're picking up what I'm throwing down...

    • @deltaunder1872
      @deltaunder1872 3 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      Maynard doesn’t accidentally do anything. He’s incredibly calculated.

    • @withmygoodeyeclosed
      @withmygoodeyeclosed ปีที่แล้ว

      Absolutely one of the most beautiful productions I've had the joy to lay eyes on.

  • @Dwendele
    @Dwendele 3 ปีที่แล้ว +31

    Maynard has an infinite number of voices. There's two in this song alone, that I can't recall ever hearing.

    • @Itsunclegabby
      @Itsunclegabby 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Doesn't he always look different too? Dude's a chameleon.

  • @PreLives171
    @PreLives171 3 ปีที่แล้ว +51

    Fucking. Beautiful. The cinematography, the setting, the music, Carina and Maynard's voices. Just perfect.

  • @yuibot5998
    @yuibot5998 3 ปีที่แล้ว +45

    So this livestream was after he recovered (mostly) from his first bout of COVID. He got it a second time, though in late November. He kicked it again but still has coughing and lung damage....let's all hope that he recovers fully from that aspect as well for his sake and ours!

    • @iLLGetAlongWithYou
      @iLLGetAlongWithYou 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Who?

    • @ferrisbueller9991
      @ferrisbueller9991 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @ian If its Maynard's health I'd imagine we do; I didn't know. I understand the covid talk is getting played out but I know people in his age range who died. That and the possible perma damage to his voice. Although he thought his voice was fucked forever before but got it back in shape for the Tool album.

    • @matthewmartin5763
      @matthewmartin5763 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@ferrisbueller9991 Can confirm 8 mo later, he is just fine. Saw Puscifer in Dallas a couple weeks ago. They were as close to perfect as you can expect.

  • @IansRcFun
    @IansRcFun 3 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    Another perfect example of why Maynards voice is my all time favorite voice! If i had a last request at the time of my passing.. i would want to hear him say... everythings gonna be alright.

  • @NoChairs4
    @NoChairs4 ปีที่แล้ว +37

    I didn’t like the album on first listen but it grew and grew on me to be one of my favorite. I was listening to it while I’m a plane flying over Arizona. It was majestic. I’m going through a really hard time in my life right now. Wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. I’ve been betrayed by the one i thought would be in my life forever. The pain is deep. The angry is eating away at my soul. I keep coming back to this song. The ending makes me cry. No matter what you are feeling it’s gonna be alright. Everything will be alright.

    • @2wayplebney
      @2wayplebney ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I wish you well.

    • @suzycreamcheeze000
      @suzycreamcheeze000 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @Dman444 It's been a month since you left this comment,hopefully things are a bit better for you now..Take care Dman,everything will be alright!..Shit usually has a fukked up way of workin itself out...take care.🖤😘🖤

    • @NoChairs4
      @NoChairs4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@suzycreamcheeze000 thank you! slowly but surely getting better.

    • @soleclaw6521
      @soleclaw6521 ปีที่แล้ว

      Wishing you all the best.

    • @matthewmartin5763
      @matthewmartin5763 ปีที่แล้ว

      I feel the same way. Shit's been really tough lately. This song, or the whole album really, is keeping me together right now. Good wishes to everyone else out there struggling with seemingly insurmountable problems. We're gonna be alright.🥂 "Raise the glass"

  • @LittlePieceOfMoon
    @LittlePieceOfMoon 3 ปีที่แล้ว +127

    I love the comments, people who follow the work of Maynard or any of his bands are so smart and pure. Everything will be alright, guys, and we'll see each other watching them live, someday, I hope. 🤞🏻

    • @kimr.9035
      @kimr.9035 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I will be so happy I will buy my neighbors a drink to toast or share a nice breath of goodness together!

    • @chaddavid1037
      @chaddavid1037 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Yes in hell i guess, final destination.

    • @joec6660
      @joec6660 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Maybe vote republican if you want that.

    • @Noelsterrr
      @Noelsterrr 5 วันที่ผ่านมา

      I feel like you missed the point of the song... A bedlamite is a crazy person, so the song begs to question if it will, in fact, be alright or if people who say that are just crazy.

  • @chaosoul-seanleeriggs369
    @chaosoul-seanleeriggs369 3 ปีที่แล้ว +79

    Everything will be alright

    • @mikaelgaiason688
      @mikaelgaiason688 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      For some. Hopefully us, right? Screw those other unfortunate bastards, better them than me.

    • @sennstrato7281
      @sennstrato7281 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      No,it won't.

    • @coltonbailey5580
      @coltonbailey5580 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      You have echoed my feelings upon hearing this song.

    • @danlee7923
      @danlee7923 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      In Australia, it's she'll be right!

    • @laurencezemlick1979
      @laurencezemlick1979 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Everything will be alright. It always has been.

  • @mitchguh3659
    @mitchguh3659 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    0:52 Carina with that note does something powerful to me

  • @frumiousalice
    @frumiousalice 3 ปีที่แล้ว +91

    this song doesn't get stuck in my head. it gets stuck in my soul. ❤

  • @dr3wsky4003
    @dr3wsky4003 3 ปีที่แล้ว +61

    I KNEW his baselines sounded like a Rickenbacker

  • @annihilatedcanadian6506
    @annihilatedcanadian6506 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    I play this album constantly at work. When I listen to this, everyone does.

  • @TheNerdshire
    @TheNerdshire 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    This pandemic completely wreak havoc on my spouse and children. Hearing Maynard and Corina sing..."It's going be alright. Everything will be alright" and seeing the dawn in my beloved AZ..there were tears. All of us in tears...but the cathartic kind..♥️

    • @davazz9586
      @davazz9586 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      AZ has been my chosen state for 40 yrs - nothing better

  • @mwtimmins
    @mwtimmins 3 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    Only Maynard could write 'heterogeneity' into a song that actually rocks

    • @Parrish_Muhoberac
      @Parrish_Muhoberac ปีที่แล้ว

      HAHAHA thats so funny, yet so true. well said.

    • @Parrish_Muhoberac
      @Parrish_Muhoberac ปีที่แล้ว

      oh hey I have a song, if youre interested that has the word "Chameleonize: in a couple of places. (i looked it up - it isnt a word.)

  • @sarahs.7211
    @sarahs.7211 3 ปีที่แล้ว +91

    So, I am forever fascinated by Maynard's theology. I like that he named it "Bedlamite," because a bedlamite is a madman. This came to be this way because of a a colloquialism referring to mental institutions as "Bedlam,'" a British bastardization of Bethlehem, the city where Jesus was born, scene of "Silent Night." Those places were supposed to be "calm and bright" places for mentally ill people to "recover," or at least to be held safely away.
    So, in this song, Maynard sort of blends the idea of a Bedlamite as a crazy old drunk AND a spiritus sancti/holy spirit. Is it anointed that "It's gonna be alright?" Or is it just some crazy old drunk street preacher howling at the moon? Is it both? Does it matter?
    This song is also, in my opinion, a direct response to UPGrade: How does one choose words so magical/they terminate or alleviate this morbid despair you feel? Well, you find an old drunk street preacher, in my mind the same character from Sour Grapes, and he tells us that everything'll be alright, that we live with a lot of people who are so, so different than we are, that we have survived 100% of our bad days so far, that the sun! will! come! up!
    Jesus. Am I the bedlamite?

    • @alexandercantdie.
      @alexandercantdie. ปีที่แล้ว +10

      I couldn't have said it better myself ♥ Maynard makes us think which helps us reflect on what we don't understand, the ignorance isn't bliss! To denounce YOUR experience YOUR belief YOU become NOTHING but what they want YOU to be, do and feel what's natural move comfortably with any unknown path as long as YOU seek creation and not destruction every step will be a light one made with a confident stride overcoming ALL no matter what figure heads spew no matter what divine celestial bigotry is unearthed the TRUTH can never be silenced..we only exist because of love of curiosity and the curiosity of love nothing more nothing less

    • @sarahs.7211
      @sarahs.7211 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@whenthestreetlightscameon9832 thanks for sharing. I hope you have a great day and get our for a walk.

    • @tiffanyackerman3861
      @tiffanyackerman3861 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Love this

  • @FuriousJesse
    @FuriousJesse 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    👽👽👽 HERE WE GO! 👽👽👽

  • @Aishiterueienh
    @Aishiterueienh 3 ปีที่แล้ว +28

    I needed this part...
    "It's gonna be alright
    Everything will be alright"
    "It's gonna be alright
    Everything will be alright"
    "It's gonna be alright
    Everything will be alright"
    "It's gonna be alright
    Everything will be alright"
    "Raise a glass
    Raise a glass to our, our heterogeneity
    Beautiful delirium
    Our remarkable resilience through calamity"
    "Raise a glass
    Raise a glass to our, our heterogeneity
    Our remarkable resilience through calamity"
    "It's gonna be alright
    It's gonna be alright
    It's gonna be alright
    Everything will be alright"

    • @ANDROLOMA
      @ANDROLOMA 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Didn't Modest Mouse say the same?

    • @kristinLFG
      @kristinLFG 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I don't think it means what you think it means though

    • @ANDROLOMA
      @ANDROLOMA 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@kristinLFG Then Maynard should have a disclaimer added at some point: "The lyrics to this song are meant to be sarcastic, not literal" in order to avoid misinterpretation. When relaying any message, care should be considered that the gist not be lost amidst prima facie structure. I'll admit that you could be correct, Kristin. Perhaps he meant: "Nothing is alright." I have problems interpreting the Bible because of the same vague ambiguities.

    • @kristinLFG
      @kristinLFG 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@ANDROLOMA I actually meant because in the lyrics it's in quotations. But sure, your thing is good too.

    • @WichitaJack
      @WichitaJack 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@ANDROLOMA The thing is, Maynard writes his lyrics with the intent of leaving it open for the listener to interpret in a way that's meaningful to their own life. To put the song itself in a box would also put the listener's experience in a box. Essentially the song means whatever you want it to mean, there is no misinterpretation.

  • @chriscary9269
    @chriscary9269 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    If you’re inspiring to be a musician, take note This is how you nail it

  • @Distance2Jupiter
    @Distance2Jupiter 3 ปีที่แล้ว +50

    Magnificent track, magnificent location, just... magnificent.

  • @jak9593
    @jak9593 3 ปีที่แล้ว +46

    Its so catchy, just a great song and I find myself listening to it multiple times easily. Sounds original and pleasing to the ear

  • @dmurphy303
    @dmurphy303 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    The bass!!! And Carina has such a perfect voice for this group of very talented musicians. Maynards lyrics are always thought inducing, the man can tell a story, but you have to pay attention, always more than 1 meaning. This is a great 1. I love Pucifer, not nearly as well known as they should be. I pray you are right MJK and everything will be alright bc right now the world is a mess. We need more positivity and love on this planet. Lead with your hearts, not your egos and doubts. Just love one another and things will be alright. MJK for POTUS 2024.

  • @amberthibodeaux3668
    @amberthibodeaux3668 2 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    Seeing others feel the same feeling from a song as you do yourself...gives me such a warm heart. 🖤 It's simply just a hauntingly beautiful song.

  • @danielkelley7548
    @danielkelley7548 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    The way he says “drink straight from the bottle”
    Chills

  • @OlegZhuravel
    @OlegZhuravel 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    OMG! What a voice! For 15 years I can't get used to it. Always amazes me.

  • @ChrisWithakay
    @ChrisWithakay 3 ปีที่แล้ว +28

    I didnt like this song on the album, but this video has made me fall in love with it....that Arizona sunrise....damn.

  • @thegreenxeno9430
    @thegreenxeno9430 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    "Write your own fables, believe it'll all work out." That gets me.

  • @zak2807
    @zak2807 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    This song and A Singularity are my favorites when I’m high. So awesome.

    • @rugboy
      @rugboy 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      I quit hallucinogens 8 years ago when my daughter was born and these two songs are my favourites from the album as well. I imagine they would resonate with me on a whole different level if I was on acid or mushies but if I do ever have an opportunity to find out, their meaning to me and my sense of connection to them will be something completely different and evolved by then, if they will be anything at all.

  • @Noelsterrr
    @Noelsterrr ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Your music has really been helping me through my struggle to overcome addiction and mental illness,. Thank you, thank you very much.

    • @hashamagraw
      @hashamagraw ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Hope your journey is going well my friend

    • @stephendow7134
      @stephendow7134 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Keep truckin bumps or not

  • @Xxaion
    @Xxaion 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    I can't tell you how many times i've listened to this song on repeat, dude lmfao. I'm also semi-envious of the trips Maynard must have had and the places he's gone to bring us this almost otherworldly art. I fucking love EVERY bit of it!!!!

  • @crust_no_tuna
    @crust_no_tuna 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +25

    Why did I sleep on this track for 2 years? Now I can’t stop playing it.

    • @themostshaddy
      @themostshaddy 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      Same here finally coming around to it

    • @crust_no_tuna
      @crust_no_tuna 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@themostshaddyjust reminding you of it. In case you took a break from it like I did.

    • @raoulduke6093
      @raoulduke6093 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      ​@@crust_no_tunanow I'm reminding you of it. Get back in there Champ!

  • @cocochanelthesharpei3167
    @cocochanelthesharpei3167 3 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    I start my musical journey down the road of “Existential Reckoning” with this song first. Just hit play. 🤘🏼🤘🏼🤘🏼🤘🏾🖖

    • @itsberzerk9279
      @itsberzerk9279 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Nice

    • @RenegadeSith
      @RenegadeSith 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      It’s the last song on the album lol

    • @cocochanelthesharpei3167
      @cocochanelthesharpei3167 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@RenegadeSith yes. I make it my first. Give it a go, mate!

    • @jennifercampbell8032
      @jennifercampbell8032 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I put Tool on my headphones when i used to go grocery shopping...seemed to get me through, in and out, and safely home....

    • @cocochanelthesharpei3167
      @cocochanelthesharpei3167 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@jennifercampbell8032you’ve been inoculated against fear. 😜😐🤘🏼🤘🏾🤘🏻🖖

  • @HristoUzunov
    @HristoUzunov 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    Couldn't have picked a better ending and video to an already amazing album.

  • @gingerkline1244
    @gingerkline1244 3 ปีที่แล้ว +57

    Ok, I'll buy the damned CD. Just had to release this didncha!

    • @farcebook1836
      @farcebook1836 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Yeah, that's funny. I bought it on eBay last night. Lol...👾

    • @hyperactiveoverdrive5184
      @hyperactiveoverdrive5184 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Mood hahahah

    • @bmanson626
      @bmanson626 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Hahaha. Same here!

    • @mCblue79
      @mCblue79 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I love this comment hahaha

    • @angela2496
      @angela2496 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I want the vinyl!

  • @MikeMilKyBaxter
    @MikeMilKyBaxter ปีที่แล้ว +4

    "write your own fable. Believe it will all work out"
    One of my all time favorite lyrics

    • @mirialbagonzalezlopez5322
      @mirialbagonzalezlopez5322 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Awesome lyrics!
      I was scrolling down and read your comment as Maynard was singing it!!! Bullseye!!!! ⭐✨⭐✨ (Lyrics > 0:53 ✅)

  • @jxdet6072
    @jxdet6072 3 ปีที่แล้ว +42

    Beautiful. There is also a fine line between insanity and genius.

    • @FuriousJesse
      @FuriousJesse 3 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      Think of all the innovators, labeled crazy and insane by those without the intelligence or imagination to realize what's possible.

    • @Daniel-jc1wd
      @Daniel-jc1wd 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      don't trust ur eyes. most judging are insane. who is worthy/able to judge "genius", or "good"?...

    • @jxdet6072
      @jxdet6072 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@Daniel-jc1wd you know, I've taken all great deal of time to ponder what you said. Only thing I can summarize is, who sings a song to God in this day and age. The fact that this takes place during sunrise says everything they're trying to in the song.

  • @scottrobinson5269
    @scottrobinson5269 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    being a Soundguy for 30 plus years. and out of work since February I wish I coulda paid to see the entire event. im grateful for you guys doing this for us all. we need you to help us all through. much love and gratitude.

  • @stephanie-cl1md
    @stephanie-cl1md 3 ปีที่แล้ว +19

    This song came at the perfect moment for me, yes its gonna be alright

    • @tanksalot8002
      @tanksalot8002 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Did you end up being alright? It's been a year

    • @stephanie-cl1md
      @stephanie-cl1md ปีที่แล้ว

      @@tanksalot8002 hey Justin, thanks for asking. Yes definitely even though 1 year ago I was doubtful.. I feel better now and often happy.

  • @TherealSakuraKei
    @TherealSakuraKei 3 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    I'm obsessed with the arrangement of Carina's vocals. ~ It's both beautiful AF; and something I haven't really ever heard and it just ~ makes my brain and soul so happy. ♥ Thanks guys ~
    ~*raises glass*~

  • @justin4022
    @justin4022 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Maynard singing "its going to be alright" then me singing "its going to be alright" makes me feel like "its all gonna be alright"

  • @katydidmama
    @katydidmama 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    A roadmap out of Despair. Believe it'll all work out. It's gonna be all right. THANK YOU.

    • @katydidmama
      @katydidmama 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@jkeeneye3063 I don't think so--the punch isn't there. It's the last song on the album, and I really do think it's meant to offer some hope--to raise a glass to "our remarkable resilience to calamity".

    • @jamesmaynardkeenan-rg2lk
      @jamesmaynardkeenan-rg2lk 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Hello🌹how are you doing? Nice to meet you here..

  • @jlowrie33
    @jlowrie33 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    This might be one of the best songs of all time. This one hits me hard.

  • @tacomaamocat4309
    @tacomaamocat4309 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Carina crooning in sync with the lyric “fortune teller croons,” gives me the electric feels.

  • @Jfriedman420
    @Jfriedman420 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    when i found out i had cancer in my leg that was malignant, i listened to this song and cried openly. it always makes me feel better

  • @freddyp07ify
    @freddyp07ify 3 ปีที่แล้ว +25

    Divorced in 2020 and went thru it.
    2021 Maynard says
    Everything is gonna be alright
    So needed this
    Thank you

    • @kjrandom4238
      @kjrandom4238 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Hang in there, it's gonna be alright!

    • @joshasunto27
      @joshasunto27 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      going through it myself brother. hope all is well

    • @infinitemonkey917
      @infinitemonkey917 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      The song is about an insane person ( that is the title ) and how insane it is to believe everything will be alright.

    • @freddyp07ify
      @freddyp07ify 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      So here's an update folks. I have a new awesome girlfriend and everything is gonna be alright 🤟🏼 everyone deserves to be happy, however that is. Love you all and stay blessed

  • @laurebaudier5056
    @laurebaudier5056 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    They say: cling to your (this) success-story, heroes.
    Puscifer says: Live your fable, fools.
    I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

  • @justinboltseridge9716
    @justinboltseridge9716 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Everytime I listen to Puscifer I am more convinced it's Maynards best project.

  • @50hertzproductions93
    @50hertzproductions93 3 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    I believe the word we are all looking for is "masterpiece"

    • @Wolf-rc1tf
      @Wolf-rc1tf 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      The barbecue sauce?

  • @demon0neko0gal117
    @demon0neko0gal117 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Just two days after hearing this amazing song played in concert in chicago, im returning to it to try and regain some hope as i hear news updates about the 307th mass shooting this year, in the Chicago area where i live.
    even in this time this song gives me hope, as i hear 'raise a glass to our heterogeneity, our remarkable resilience through calamity' and remember all of the kindness and support the community has outpoured in this terrible, scary time. now we juat need to make change. we have power in our diversity and our numbers. its time to do something about this.

  • @phoebeeuphoric6522
    @phoebeeuphoric6522 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Been going through a really rough time this last year and my depression has been scary bad these last six months. Have had this song living rent free in my brain on and off for awhile, and especially now hearing again "It's gunna be alright, Everything will be alright, It's gonna be alright" when everything really does not feel like it's going to be alright at all brings me immense comfort. Hearing this song feels like getting a hug that I really need right now. So happy that this song even exists.

    • @possiblythedevil
      @possiblythedevil ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Even if it's just to experience music every day is a gift🤘🤘 it's gonna be all right!

    • @phoebeeuphoric6522
      @phoebeeuphoric6522 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@possiblythedevil ❤❤❤❤

  • @johnanderson1941
    @johnanderson1941 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I just saw the show in DC. I was all the way at the back where I had plenty of room to move around, since almost everyone else stayed properly seated. This encode was one of the best IVE EVER SEEN. They way the vocals and the frequency hit me deep in my soul. The way that the chorus was prolonged and the way those lyric were telling us that it's going to be alright made me cry. You guys mean to say that, and for that I want to thank you, from the deepest part of my soul where the light originates from. THANK YOU.

  • @itsme_roui
    @itsme_roui 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    TH-cam recommendations got me here. I have never been more grateful for it. I found beauty

  • @ronberringer4225
    @ronberringer4225 3 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    It's Gonna be Alright...
    ✌😎

    • @fanofeuler
      @fanofeuler 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Before we touch back down

  • @espo1898
    @espo1898 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Puscifer is more than just music. The path was in front of me the whole time, I just needed to look harder. God bless those that lended a hand when I finally saw it. God bless those already walking the path, that takes serious patience. Not ashamed of being wrong either, still learned a lot. My mind is blown right now...time for a nap. Alarm set for 1700hrs. Thank you to all the angelic beings coaching from the side lines!

    • @espo1898
      @espo1898 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@betazep absolutely!

  • @thomaskrieglstein3817
    @thomaskrieglstein3817 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    that guitar-riff in the middle of the song gets me EVERY time...

  • @Tanks.With.Teeth.Malloy
    @Tanks.With.Teeth.Malloy 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Normally with Puscifer album I am not a fan of every song. There are some I could skip without thinking about it. However this album is perfect from start to finish, and this song is incredible. Love it.

  •  2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    That mini scream from Carina at 0:52, is just an incredible detail in this song.

  • @JohnValentineMMU
    @JohnValentineMMU 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Just bought this from the Vimeo site and literally can't stop watching it. Absolutely one of the greatest shows I've ever seen. Incredible.

  • @PARRISHMELLOTT
    @PARRISHMELLOTT 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    god I wish I could hear them both tell me "it's gonna be alright" EVERYDAY!

  • @maryjanewolf7508
    @maryjanewolf7508 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Yes. At sunrise & they glory in the dawn. So perfect. I was expecting so much criticism, I usually see ppl whining that Puscifer & APC aren't Tool. Maynard & Carina are everything.

  • @Yenpox
    @Yenpox 3 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    That's a masterpiece!

  • @Eric_Tennant
    @Eric_Tennant 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    You sir get the A.B. Normal award.

  • @jcughan
    @jcughan 3 ปีที่แล้ว +22

    Maynard singing everything’s gonna be alright is making me cry. I needed this more than he will ever know.

    • @chrisclevenger1582
      @chrisclevenger1582 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Glad I'm not the only one, cheers brother.

    • @thisplaceisdeath1465
      @thisplaceisdeath1465 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Get. A. Fucking. Grip.

    • @jcughan
      @jcughan 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@thisplaceisdeath1465 Got plenty of grips, more than enough actually. It's ok bud, I know not everyone had a loving mother in their life. I feel for you, I really do. Don't worry, everything's going to be alright.

    • @thisplaceisdeath1465
      @thisplaceisdeath1465 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@jcughan don't project your family failings on me. Get a grip. 😀

    • @Itsunclegabby
      @Itsunclegabby 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@thisplaceisdeath1465 Can you read? His mom is fine.

  • @robertrectenwald9924
    @robertrectenwald9924 3 ปีที่แล้ว +25

    This just may be the most beautiful thing I've ever heard. Carina is a god.

  • @user-vr6mp9id2g
    @user-vr6mp9id2g 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    One of the best Live performance Maynard did ever

  • @bigboredthing
    @bigboredthing ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I love everything about this video. The way Mat's guitar kicks at 1:59, the way Carina mirrors Maynard's natural involuntary rocking, the way MJ and Carina's voices harmonise, and that sunrise. Just gorgeous all over, and one of the most calming songs I've ever heard.

  • @JDsgreatz28
    @JDsgreatz28 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    I wish I could feel like everything is going to be alright

    • @kenesis9299
      @kenesis9299 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Ifelt this comment. I hope you will man. I pray you will from the heart. Everything is gonna be alright. Peace yo.

    • @inscription8099
      @inscription8099 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      When all is said and done..

    • @bakerinthehouse5346
      @bakerinthehouse5346 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Me too

    • @good4gaby
      @good4gaby 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Same

    • @keenanstroud8208
      @keenanstroud8208 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      I think its why he repeats it... hard headedness demanding it into reality

  • @berlyngrey9242
    @berlyngrey9242 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Man Maynard how do you do it? How do you invoke such powerful emotions into a single song? I feel so many things all at the same time and it's dizzying confusing exciting and heartbreakingly, achingly beautiful. Thank you world for gifting us this multi faceted and talented man

  • @mas845
    @mas845 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    One of the most beautifull songs ever written and performed.

  • @heatherestes9630
    @heatherestes9630 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    My son asked if I heard of Puscifer. Its been a miraculous experience. Thank you.

  • @ssiowi
    @ssiowi 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Thank-you all! For Puscifer, my addiction, no 12 Step Program. Play us all through please to the other side of this pandemic!

  • @toowhitegangster5941
    @toowhitegangster5941 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    His lyrics are so important. I couldn't live without the words given to him to share with us. Thank u dude.

    • @mattin_together1889
      @mattin_together1889 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

      What are they, I keep looking can’t find them

  • @laciegunter9948
    @laciegunter9948 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I’ve been sick for 5 years and before every surgery I have I listen to this song it’s so comforting!!!

  • @louizifer8922
    @louizifer8922 26 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

    this song is a solid point i have to put pscifer in my daily playlist

  • @dryerlint17
    @dryerlint17 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    choo choo

  • @ooeeeeeoooo
    @ooeeeeeoooo 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Cannot stop digesting this song

  • @kaiobikeg8749
    @kaiobikeg8749 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Bought a ticket to the release of this show. Played it on the big screen In living room with surround sound. Was pretty drunk too lol. Was so good.

    • @Texus8
      @Texus8 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      I did the exact same lol, it was epic

  • @JpsbunnyApostle
    @JpsbunnyApostle 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Only Maynard saying " It's gonna be alright "could actually make me believe it .

  • @AirAssault7
    @AirAssault7 3 ปีที่แล้ว +25

    Man, this song is so soothing. God bless their singing.

  • @EternalShockxx
    @EternalShockxx ปีที่แล้ว +3

    This song was so amazing live, Carina is so badass dude.

  • @Will-gb9tp
    @Will-gb9tp 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Enjoy you and your family and all that surrounding you at this moment

  • @JB-qv9kl
    @JB-qv9kl 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    For those arguing over the message: The song is a mirror. It is showing you to you. If you take the words and analyze them, you will see the joke and cynicism. If you feel the music you will get something quite different. Which do you trust, your logical mind or your heart?

    • @MrSulfor
      @MrSulfor 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Well that's just like, your opinion man.

    • @JB-qv9kl
      @JB-qv9kl 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Not talking about the intent, just what it is, which is not a matter of opinion. It is a tautology.

  • @Sagittarius-81
    @Sagittarius-81 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    You're on the direct path, Maynard.

  • @EveKatharsis
    @EveKatharsis 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    When this played live , ill have you all know
    I cried. Really hard.
    At the state of things...and the reassurance . Was like a big ol back pat from Puscifer lol