The 6 stages of discovering your trans identity
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 2 มิ.ย. 2024
- In this video we cover the six stages as I see them in discovering my own trans self and we discuss how you might be able to understand yourself more.
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00:00 Intro
00:24 Stage 1 - Adherence
01:05 Stage 2 - Denial
01:41 Stage 3 - Curiosity
02:03 Stage 4 - Objections
03:01 Stage 5 - Inner Transphobia
03:49 Stage 6 - Acceptance
04:12 Recap
04:57 Conclusion
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I know I don’t want to be a boy and I can’t vision myself as a boy but I’m not a girl either. I don’t know at this point.
That’s OK to be confused the first step is really just to identify that you’re no longer what you were assigned at birth. Then you can figure things out. I was non-binary for several years. I have a bunch of videos on this if you need help.
@@AshleyxAdamson Okay this helped me a lot since I can’t talk to anyone about it and my sister doesn’t help. (She’s the only one who knows) thank you I will check out your other videos! Bless you! ❤️
@@AshleyxAdamson A little update and I’m very sure I’m non binary and bisexual but I only found this out in a month and I don’t feel valid because of that short period of time. I don’t know how to tell myself I am valid
@@Friday_The_Thirteenth You’re as valid as you want to be. There’s no one that needs to validate you except yourself. I understand the self-doubt in feeling like maybe it should take a long time or that may be your own uncertainty about your own identity doesn’t validate you. But if you know that you’re not CIS then that’s a start. Think of it like wearing a hat, you’re wearing a non-binary hat and it’s an experiment. Just keep wearing that non-binary hat as your experiment and see if things change. If things don’t change then great you can stay non-binary but if things do change it’s OK. You’re just trying to be yourself. So be it! That’s life.
@@AshleyxAdamson Thank you so much! ❤️
When I’m not having dysphoria, instead of feeling comforted by it being gone, I berate myself for not being valid because I don’t feel uncomfortable in my own body...
Oh the irony! You're valid if you feel good in your body that’s even better! It’s confusing because then you think you’re perhaps not transgender if you feel OK in your body. But that’s the thing! It’s fine to feel OK in your body in fact it’s more than OK it’s preferred! That doesn’t mean you’re not transgender though.
Omg I feel that, I've been stuck in stage 2 for quite a while now for that exact reason. When I don't hate every little thing about myself every time look in the mirror I assume that I'm just more of a feminine boy even though I know I would never be happy just living as a boy who likes to present more feminine because deep down I know that's not who I am. And there's nothing wrong with being confused or unsure about my identity cause I'm still figuring myself out and that's ok:)
@@braydenweaver7501 I relate to this so hard, but from an AFAB perspective
I definitely have this problem where I am comfortable being a hot boy, which I feel I am.
But I don’t feel at home…
I know I’d be more at peace with myself as a hot girl 😓
I was very lonely in my teenage years and 20s. I’m working up to coming out without transitioning now at 27. I think I would have worked it out sooner if I was more socially ept and wasn’t dealing with other issues of denial. It wasn’t until I was 14/15 that I really started to understand that it’s ok to be gay and I don’t think I truly understood what it means to be trans until I was an adult.
I don't remember asking you to call me out this hard. It was almost alarming how accurate this was for my experience. I have my consult to begin hrt this month after going back and forth for what felt like ages and as nervous as I feel sometimes. It's offset by this.. almost profound sense of rightness.
Funny u say that bc I was thinking the exact same thing
Thank you for this! I was assigned female at birth and I think I'm done with the denial stage... I've always seen a boy in the mirror but it felt impossible to "let him live outside", if you know what I mean... so I tried embracing "my womanhood" and lived as a gay girl for 5-6 years, trying to love my body and the way other women would see it and feel attracted to it... I actually had fun and I'm glad I got to live this life for a while but I had a breakdown during quarantine, and I started questionning my gender again. "Why couldn't I live my life as I would like to?" "It's not fair that everyone gets to live with a gender that they feel at home with and not me!"
So now I'm experimenting with he/him pronouns and calling myself a different name, and it really feels like I'm meeting the boy I've always seen in the mirror...
And it's also really weird and unconfortable because I don't pass and I know my family will never understand, and also because maybe I'm not a lesbian anymore, and that community has been my home...
Huuuuh life is such a funny journey right!
Anyways, I think we're all beautiful and brave and that we are people who want to live in the truth, and that we deserve happiness!
We're awesome!
What a lovely and beautiful message! I’m glad to hear that you’re finally taking steps that are opening you up to the new you that you can be. It’s a beautiful blossoming and a moment to cherish! I hope that you can take some time to reflect and write down in your journal as he goes through this transformation, it’s a wonderful journey and I hope to be able to help in whatever way I can on your path. If you ever want to ask a question feel free to write me a comment in a video requesting a topic. Always open to them!
hey man, im exactly like you.
I really needed to hear this right now. Thank you so much for sharing.
oddlyk1 Oh yay I’m so glad! Thank you for watching and leaving a comment and I’m glad that it helped you :-)
Omg I've been in the non binary stage all year. Thank you so much for letting me know it's ok for me to move out of that stage and embrace I'm a trans woman now. 🤗
Ya!!!!! It's a weird feeling to grapple with for sure. It's totally fine and a really good approach as you get to feel everything out more iteratively than in one big jump
Eve you are so beautifullllll 💖
Same could be true here. Non-binary isn't enough for me.
I know she's a trans woman but as a trans guy I also went through these stages just kinda like reverse though as in ....guy MAN!
THATS SUPER VALIDATING to hear because the theory sticks!
That’s awesome!!!!
Me too!
Hi Ashley! I loved your presentation of discovering you're trans. I've watched a few people go through these stages. As I explained before, my experience is very different and, while I may feel like a fool for hiding so long, I never experienced these steps.
I can point to a specific memory from before I was three in which my knowledge that I was really a girl was a factor, but I have memories that predate this by about a year that would indicate I already knew. I have no memory of an aha moment - If there was one, it's gone. There is, however, room for a possible conflict over the matter when I was a year old (someday I'll tell you how I learned to read by 1½).
The one thing that I wish was clear to everyone is that no one chooses to be trans. People who are trans were always trans but realization could come at anytime in life, or maybe never. The choice is whether to transition or not. Lots of people choose not to transition for an infinite number or reasons and they are no less trans. The choice is to live as your true self or not. To be clear, trans men, trans women, and trans enbys are what they are, there is no choice - It's who you are at your core. You can choose to live up to expectations of other or live as your true self, or even find an acceptable compromise. You are what you are - there is nothing that can change that. It is what it is.
Francesca this is a prolific post! And so inspirational. I'm glad to hear that you had a different experience, I wasn't sure how many people had a similar experience to mine which sounds like there's a bunch but I was wondering who out there had a different one. Your example is one that I believe also happened to me on some other level. Like you said You can just know. I think I also just knew at an early age but I wasn't able to processor understood what it meant to her how it was.
Yeah no one chooses to be trans, but they do choose is how to respond to that knowledge. Because if it was possible to choose if you were trans I think most if not everyone will choose not to be trans Because it's a lot of work! And if you can avoid it that's great! However, I wouldn't trade my life now with having a CIS life because I'm so happy now and the transition has taught me so much about myself and the transformation. I love to hear from you as always thank you for sharing your story my dear. Maybe I'll see you in the next episode!
Also if you have topics to suggest please let me know!!! I wont see a reply, but if you post a new comment I get the notification ;) 🌹
Say it again for the folks in the back 🗣️🗣️🗣️👏👏👏👏
Yea!
I find it hard to know if I'm trans. I remember at 9 saying to a neighbour that I wished I was a girl. I also crossdressed throughout my teens, plus fantasised about being a woman. Recently I started crossdressing again and even confessed to my partner that I think I'm a woman (backpeddled and said my general identity is brittle). Yet unsure if I have really experienced dysphoria? I know I have felt socially incongruent but not necessarily physically incongruent. Just feel like an absolute mess. I did ask the miracle question and answered that I would be born a girl if I born again but still just have no idea where I sit. I wonder is it internalised phobia and fear? I keep watching videos like this but still cant get a clear picture...
That inner transphobia really got me, is really hard fight against my own mind, but i hope one day i'll fully accept myself
That’s a great video Ashley. For years, decades even, I’d assumed that my desire to dress up in secret was a fetish. I think I’m early in stage 6 xx
Seraphina Olivia Wow that’s so nuts! It’s stuns me how there’s so much overlap in our experiences that seem so unique. Really glad to hear that you’re approaching the most important in the most amazing stage.
I always thought my desire to dress up as a girl was a fetish too, but it felt like there was always something more to it that I wasn’t addressing, it wasn’t until I watched this video that I realized I’m probably trans because our experiences are almost identical
This outlined my transition perfectly. It’s still nice and validating when you hear other trans women sharing similar experiences, even three years into my transition. Thank you 😊
When I turned 7 years I yearned to wear my little friends dresses. Of course as I was growing up I had no one to share my feelings with. Then 3yrs ago I actually spoke to a doctor and that’s when I knew I wasn’t crazy. Emotions set in and sobbed because of all those waisted years. I feel much better now going forward as my true self, I am a transgender woman and I love myself 💕
I keep seriously thinking things like “I’m still cis though” and the more and more I see things like this from trans people sharing their experiences the more I realize the more and more I am truly trans as I have experienced all of these….
Accept I never really felt inner transphobia
This was because I never really connected the dots as this meant I was trans. I looked at it soley as this was how I acted but not who I was so I guess I didn’t really feel that way because of that.
I think I'm at objections right now. You described my entire journey up to this point basically exactly how it was for me
This is it! Yes! I'm currently battling inner transphobia. Funnily enough, I don't struggle with this for others and regularly help people accept themselves. Its wild how deep and sneaky these beliefs are. This would have been real helpful to learn about in grad school, alongside racial identity. Did you come up with this? Are you a sociologist or therapist or just friggin' brilliant? This is a dissertation waiting to happen! Unlike the signs we were taught to look out for ("cross" behaviors- dress, play, etc) based solely on gender norms, and this actually makes sense!
Thank you for the high praise Abra! Oh my gosh! I just came up with this on the spot. I just reflected on my own journey what happened, pattern matched and then distilled it into these main points. The crazy part is that SO many people relate to it. It's not just my own personal process after all!! 💕
These videos are legitimately the most helpful thing about transitioning I've found
I didn't figure this all out till I was so set in my masc ways and I'm grateful I learned a lot of beneficial things as a "man" but I realize my biggest unhappiness is with my gender and identity and every single step you laid out has basically completely described my daily qualms and confusions
Thank you so much for making this short for affirmational content 🖤 you're amazing and I appreciate this so much
This is exactly what I went through/am going through! This would’ve been so helpful to my egg self. I’m currently on the “getting over internalized transphobia” stage
Oh I know that stage! It takes quite some time!
I'm in stage 4 and also dealing with my inner transphobia. I don't want to be trans, I've suffered so much to be the gay man I am now, and thinking about coming out again feels so exhausting... I'm lost in myself trying to figure out who or what the fuck I am. Thank you so much for sharing your experience!
Wow totally agree I feel your telling my life story, It was so hard to make the decision to trust myself with all the adversity and public pressure, back before hrt it was like I was kinda almost my own worst enemy at times. but I was never allowed the space and time to discover who I really was I only done this in private. But now Im out in spotlight and it feels good, but it is full on and scary at times.. I deal with it as Im only being me at the end of the day and thats all we ask to just be ourselves :) thanks for this video!
What a wonderful little story to share! I’m glad that you’ve been able to step out into your truth now! But yeah it does take a lot of getting used to and that doesn’t stop you from the internal fight that you have to work through. Glad the video was helpful!
I absolutely love this statement, "accepting that i'm a woman accepting that i don't have exactly the body that i want but i'm now starting to look towards the things that i want to change and the things that i can't change i work on accepting myself because why struggle with them when there's no way to change it" Thanks Ashley.
Amber
I never could have imagined that I would myself feel/experience inner Transphobia. The more I think about it I realize I'm basically at that stage, however I feel the inevitable of acceptance will happen as there is no other chance of a choice.
Well done Ashley, a short breakdown and to the point.
❤ Bree
I actually started to realize I was trans BECAUSE I started recognizing how much internalized misogyny/transphobia I had and deconstructing just a bit of it started to have an avalanche effect
This video made me cry. Sometimes your videos are just what I needed on that given day. You are such a strong woman. I don’t how you do it. ❤️
Ano! Wow thank you my love! I'm glad I can be there for you!
I think I've experienced the first four stages in the last 2 weeks...
Wow that was fast!!!
SAME PLEASE
My god I think I had mine in basically 1 month I wondered if I was weird.
I personally never experienced curiosity as part of my transition. When I first had came out as ‘having dysphoria’ to friends they had prodded me about whether I was interested in ‘dressing up.’ Which I wasn’t at all because I’m not a very feminine woman and I was never comfortable in those sorts of ‘dress up’ styles. They made me feel more inauthentic or like a gay man doing drag, which I’m not, making the idea more dysphoria inducing. They also made me draw attention to how masculine my body was, when all I wanted to do was not perceive the very body that distressed me so much. Being on hrt now I’m find comfort in the occasional femme item of dress, but before I always kept to women/unisex t shirt and jeans.
Interesting story! Thank you sharing a different perspective Luna :)
Wow, this is very affirming to me. I think I spent 38 years of my life in stages 1 and 2 due to a combination of ignorance and being born and raised in a fundamentalist, high-demand religion. Been out of the religion for two months and in the last three weeks I feel like I've been going through stages 3, 4, and 5 at an alarmingly fast rate. Exciting, but also anxiety-inducing.
glad to hear it Robyn and great name!
My egg cracked almost a year ago, last August, and honestly while I’ve accepted that who I am doesn’t fully align with my AGAB, I’m still in a weird place where I can fluctuate between every single one of these stages, sometimes even several times a day.
It’s so hard to know for sure if my life would actually be improved by transitioning…it seems like thanks to our heteronormative and transphobic society it would only get worse…
Every single stage you mentioned fits me to a tee.
At one point in my life I thought I was a trans woman. But I eventually moved away from it, thinking I was making it up in my mind.
Now I've come back into the LGBTQ world after figuring out that I'm Asexual.
Its lead me to try and figure out my gender identity. I've played around with being a demigirl, transfem or a paragirl. But you're video is sort of hitting home on the fact that I'm likely a trans women in denial with hidden transphobia towards myself (I love other trans people but I just have this weird thing about me being a trans women).
I'll have to really think about this and figure things out. But thank you for making this video. I know I'm like 2 years late in commenting but I feel I needed to say this to someone.
You are valid :)
I’m ftm and the video helped. I’m kinda between inner transphobia and acceptance, it’s good to know the thoughts I’m experiencing are normal.
Yea
Really needed this rn. You’re describing some of the stages of my life pretty accurately. Trying to go into acceptance
This was incredibly helpful, thank you so much for sharing 🙏🏼 it really put into perspective my whole process, especially the current stages I'm oscillating between: objections, transphobia, and acceptance. I was in adherence & curiosity for so long, but becoming aware is a lot harder than you would think, because now you have to battle within yourself all the internal transphobia and invalidation of who you truly are
I enjoy so much your depth of understanding and manner of communicating your thoughts and reflections. Please continue, I have no doubt that you are reaching people in our community that others do not resonate so well with. Peace and joy to you sister.
Ahhh thank you Megan! I love the positive encouragement! It really is needed to feel like I can keep doing it, it's a lot of work. But i'm so happy to be doing it. I love your comments btw, it always makes me smile! :)
This is such a great video. It really makes the whole process a lot simpler to understand. Thank you!
I'm actually so happy to know that I'm not alone in this i've been in stage 3 for the past few years now invalidating these feelings, writing them off as just a fetish or way for me to overwrite my life but this helps me so much and validates how I feel. Hopefully soon I can work through my internal objections and move onto finally being who I was all along, Thank You
You're such a good communicator, Ashley, great video as always! Also great job with the edition. Thanks for sharing! :)
Budapest looks like a lovely city, I hope you had a great time when you visited it.
Hi! It's nice to see you today :-) thank you so much I am working on my communication skills! I want to be a big speaker one day! So practicing with the teatime is really helping me get better!
It is a beautiful city, but there wasn't much to do because of Covid. Hopefully that'll change as we get a vaccine and such!
also, lovely to see you as always :)
wow, great video. i just recently started coming out, and this really vibed. you are right, it's one of the most amazing and powerful experiences. thank you for sharing!
This video was so affirming for me, thank you so much
Feeling a lot of imposter syndrome having just come out as enby and I feel better just having watched this
Hi Ashley. Loved the topic today and what a beautiful backdrop you chose for the video. I was in Budapest last in 1993 in the middle of winter. It was freezing standing in the grounds of the castle and everything was covered in snow. The entire city looked like a faerie tale - especially to someone like me who grew up in Australia and, almost, never saw snow. By the way you look lovely in that dress. It has such a beautiful back and the v neckline is very flattering for you.. Great video. Thanks.
Thank you so much! You can't see me riding right now but I have the biggest smile! Flattery never gets old! LOL!
Wow I would love to see Budapest in the winter it's such a beautiful city, to imagine it covered with snow sounds so romantic! I'm really glad you like the dress too! It is my favorite!
Lovely to see you as always. I hope you have a wonderful day!
I kind of cycled through these through years due to self doubt, fear, etc. for YEARS, and I know I came out way later than I should have, but at the same time I'm glad I finally did. It won't be easy, but I'm so happy at least to be here at this point, now both excited and nervous at the same time about that meeting with the endocrinologist and what finally transitioning will be like..... I guess more worried on how that will affect marriage, family relationships, etc. more than anything, but also want to do this more than anything else......
Well worth worrying about, but ultimately you cannot control their response so much as control what you do in response to their reactions. The control you have is whether or not to follow through on what you already know. You may not of been able to choose if you're trans but you can certaintly choose whether to follow through or not. Take time to reflect and consider the possible steps necessary to find support. If you want you can also check out my book. ashleyxadamson.com/collections/book-entire-program/products/trans-kung-fu-awakening-of-self-acceptance-book?variant=41015437459650
@@AshleyxAdamson Thank you so much
Thank you for this video, and for sharing your journey.
This was wonderfully broken down and well explained!
Ashley ... the "wandering around in interesting places" format is so cool!
Thanks!
Thank you so much! You’re so wise and supportive. My experience seems similar to yours (just years behind!), but others I’ve listened to seem to say you just know. Which is debilitating.
I’m sooo inspired by you; even if I don’t turn out to be a trans woman, thank you so much ❤
Thanks for this, i feel like so many of these videos are people who knew since birth and had only been waiting for a reason to transition, but not everyones feelings are so clear cut and obvious, dysphoria can be a quiet thing that lurks behind you and whispers, it clears alot of feelings up to know others feel this way.
i know this video’s a little old but i just want to say thank you. i’ve been questioning my gender (possibly fluid or ftm) and i think i’m in stage 2/3 right now. i’ve just been feeling so alone, like no one’s experienced this before. but this video and this comment section is showing me that i’m not alone and there’s a whole community of loving and accepting people that are going/have gone through the same things. makes me feel a little less scared about this whole thing. i hope i can find myself and one day be happy.
Ashley, thank you for this. It really speaks to me and my own experience. You are very open and fair in how you look at it, just what I needed.
YHYYYyayyyy! Thank you!
the end made me cry when i realized someone will guide me through my thoughts of intense chaos and dysphoria and unrequited true love
this is honestly the best video i found to help me define my situation, thank you so much!
Really happy to hear!
Super validating content, Ashley. Thank you for posting these videos.
So glad it helped!
Thank you so much for this video, it helped me a lot and made me feel more comfortable with myself, you have a beautiful soul
Hi, Ashley! I love your videos, you are so positive and your smile is absolutely contagious! At 34 yrs old I've recently begun to accept and even happily embrace my femininity(finally!). It's scary but makes soooo much sense! I'm currently in-between stages 3 and 4. I've been looking up videos and other resources to help me understand what I've been feeling, and affirm that I'm on the right track. I came across your channel from reddit and I'm so glad I did! This video in particular really spoke to my heart and I just had to let you know! A LOT of what you said here I've said to myself. "I'm happy as a man but something is off" "It would be easier if I was a woman but, oh well, I'm not." Your videos and you yourself are incredibly helpful and inspirational to me! Thank you so so much for making your videos! Thanks for reading and I hope you have a great day 💜💜💜
Awww thanks Larc! I'm so happy to hear that. Thank you my dear and I'm glad you're making your way through this!!!!
@@AshleyxAdamson thank you for your kind words ☺️ and me too! I can't believe it took me this long to realize what was "off". I've had thoughts in the past that I'd be happier as a woman but convinced myself it was too late for me or I would be ugly. But my feminine identity has gotten louder and more confident than I thought I was capable of and she's out to prove those thoughts wrong! I'm not quite ready to come out to anyone irl so I guess you're the first to know lol, and just saying these things out loud or typing them out is a small form of relief. Thanks again for making your videos and for your response. I really appreciate you taking the time to read this, I know I'm just an internet stranger but it's nice to get these thoughts out to someone 🙂 I hope you have a great day!
Thanks for this video. I finally managed to convince myself I was trans a couple days ago. This video helped with some doubts I was having. The steps sounded exactly like my experience so Im glad you've managed to help me.
Yes! You have explained this so perfectly!
I definitely feel this!! Getting to stage 6 is very hard but I'm coming to terms with it.. I love the content just subscribed earlier today 😘
Thanks for subbing!
thank you so much for sharing this. This opened my eyes. This made me understand transgenders more and I feel relieved. I love you ❤️
I relate to every step of this so hard. I'm definitely somewhere between Stage 4 and 5 at the moment. I don't hate my body that much, but thinking about living my life as a man forever fills me with sad feelings. I've always felt something was wrong.
same, good luck to you on this journey
I noticed that your video was on my recommended list. I am glad that I subscribed to your channel.
Violeine Hi! I’d love to hear that! Thanks for subscribing and I’m glad that you enjoyed the videos :-)
Thank you for this video. It's so helpful for me right now! I'm at the beginning of my journey...and i can recognize every step that you described... someone belongs to the past, others are the present...I think I'm in the 4/5 step 😅 but I don't think is strictly divided sometimes.
It's so difficult to accept myself cause I really hate my body, my voice and also my way to move my body... everything is so masculine...and I AM a woman! But knowing is not about sexual fetish or something like that, but is a feeling that is my personality, my real being, is a freedom sensation.
So thank you cause knowing that I'm not alone is so important for me, cause sometimes I feel so negative about my journey to became myself or what I really am.
What a wonderful descriptive vlog! 🙏💋
Glad you enjoyed it!
This was a really nice breakdown thank you
You sum it up so well. You are a beautiful girl and will get to where you are going and o your journey to womanhood that awaits you . Bless you my dear and look forward to watching you grow in to the wonderful I know is in you. Your steps are spot on and will help others to understand this a lot better for having shared your thoughts on this topic . Bless you my dear x
Wonderful video. Thank you.
This video was one of the biggest wake up calls of my life. Thank you.
Youre welcome babe!
Totally relate. I'm only in the early stages at the start of this journey but I can see the writing on the wall and know actually what you're saying is right and is slowly happening to me too. Zx
This has really helped me. Thanks xx
Thank you so much! I really wish that I had access to videos like this when I was younger and know in my late 30s. You sum it up perfectly! ❤
I'm stuck in stage 3 and 4 right now as an ftm and it's so hard to work through but this gives me hope that I will go forward in my journey.
That was the most beautiful video I have ever seen, and after spending the morning in bed, angry, lasihing out, crying, drinking whiskey and wallowing in mega depression, the clouds began to lift as I watched. I am now going to put a dress on and have some coffee and go into the garden. Thank you so much for making, producing and sharing 😍
I'm being called out in this video and I am not sure if I like that 😂
I guess I just left stage 4 and reached stage 5 recently 🙈
It feels kind of validating to hear you talk about that because you litterally describe what I was going through in the past months 😊
growing up i always felt really off. there was nothing necessarily “different” about me, though. i wanted to be a boy, i hated anything associated with femininity. but as i got older, these feelings faded, but i still was never happy with myself. i turned to the femininity i saw in my happy, female friends. i dressed like them but it didn’t fix it, and i didn’t understand why. i do really like feminine things still, like makeup and nail polish. but she and her feel weird. i ALWAYS disliked my given name and high voice. i know who i am deep down, and i’m a man, but it’s hard to accept it. i think i’m in my objections phase. this video made me feel very sure of myself, though.
thank you for such a good video ^^ just wanted to share my journey so far here in the comments! sending love!
Thanks for sharing!
Wow! Thanks for showing us the city. It's beautiful just like you.
Really good video I’m at 6 just not fully out yet but soon as everything is set up I will be. Subbed xxx
Nooooo stop it ur reading my mind im gonna cryyyyy, but really thank you i was really panicking when i looked for a video like this love you and have a niceee day 😁
Oh my god that’s amazing! Isn’t it weird how we can have such similarities even though we have such unique experiences? Really glad this video could be helpful for you!
I am in stage 4 now, and feeling so struggling to fight with my inner me. 🥺🥺🥺 thank you so much for breaking this down, at least I know I am in getting better, but still feeling lost at the moment.
Thank you for breaking everything down for others to understand. My mind opened up to excepting Transgenders along time ago, but it wasn't safe to be excepted with a mind like that decades ago. I am happy that the transworld opened up a new world to a bigger brighter future. Thank you for sharing your story Ashley. I respect you for your honesty, and you are very beautiful as who you are🧚♂️😊👍👍👍♥️❣️. Don't let anybody get you down, as your amazing!!!🌟🌟🌟
I watched this video again, I think for me stage 4 and 5 kind of blurred together! I do think I'm starting to move into stage 6 these days... 💖✨ thanks so much for all your help! I hope you're doing awesome!
oh yayyy! Thanks Terra, I'm glad you're making great progress. Have you gone outside yet?
@@AshleyxAdamson sort of! I present as feminine when I go for drives. Just today I went with some light eye makeup on to the store (wearing androgynous clothes) for the first time 😚 everyone was either completely normal or sooooo niiice 💖✨
I am really encouraged to do more now and I feel a real desire to go out and be seen authentically. I think taking small steps like this has built my confidence to take larger ones! I'm having a hard time overcoming my fear because I have such deep trauma about it; I'm afraid I will have something horrible happen... but taking these small steps has shown me that it absolutely won't happen AND expressing myself authentically is connecting me to my body and my passions in ways I haven't experienced since I was like 10 years old.
@@terramauthe1521 amazing, baby steps always makes it easier :)
Thank you for that!
I just confessed to myself and started to explore this world since two months. That one is help me to see my journey clearer.
// 28 yrs old trans women from Hungary (not soo long)
Yayyy! Glad it helped.
Thank you so much this video opened my eyes more to my just started transition and coming out thank you so so so much I almost cried because you just hit every thought in my brain with this 😊😊😊
I think i just got stuck in stage 4 and i don’t know where to go from there, like a really big part of me wants to be a girl i want to feel like a girl, but then my brain is like: you sure? And that just destroys everything and go into a bunch of thoughts about myself and when i get to the thought that i might not be trans i just get extremely sad at the fact that I’m not trans, I really need someone in my life that personally knows me to talk about this but telling them that i might be trans is the scariest thing ever, like i don’t want to ruin my relationship with my mom or my brother which they are the two persons i trust the most and i love the most, and our relationship being ruined by being trans would be the worst. :(
Loving your channel and videos 🎉♥️
thank you!!!
Thank you for this video
I think this is good in the way that you say you were in a way happy as you were, you hear a lot of stories about people struggling from an early age and I don’t think it’s like that for everyone, especially those who come out at a later age. I’m thinking that it may well be possible that I am trans, or non-binary with a strong feminine tendency at the age of 27. I didn’t piece it all together until recently. In large institutional environments such as school I struggled. I had a long period of trying to find work and doing a lot of work to distract me. I’m at Uni now and I’ve been struggling again, the interactions make me feel like I’m not treated as I want to be treated and I understand that now as I’m older and more aware of things.
Just found your channel. Absolutely love it
Welcome aboard!
This came at just the right moment for me this is so important to know and remember
I literly literly went "Hey that's where i am" on stage 4
Thx for sharing, 🌹
Always a pleasure!!! :) Thanks Melissa!
idk if i went through objections or adherence it started more with curiosity then recently jumping to acceptance
I LOVE YOU ASHLEY 😭😍
Thanks for educational video.
I love your channel. You can help a bunch of people.
Budapest eh? I read a book by a well known feminist Pulitzer Prize winning author, Susan Faludi, that was set in Budapest. Before reading that book, I didn’t know they were twin cities. it’s a true story. The book is titled, “In the Dark Room”. Her dad was a photo journalist in the days of film. It’s a story about her reconnecting with him/her, after many years of estrangement. Her father (currently living in Budapest) reaches out to her to out himself as trans. He’s fully transitioned to a woman and now wishes to have a relationship with his daughter. It’s a wonderful story and beautifully told.
Woah! What a twist! I love that to be related to Budapest what a concept. Lovely to see you here Sara!
Thanks do much. Now I understand it's completely normal what I think and feel.
excellent video !
Thank you for the video. I checked everyone of those stages. I've been crossdressing for several years. In the last two years I've imagined myself living as a woman with a job, husband, and getting married are daily thoughts.
I've researched feminizing my body and face with surgery and hormones. I find men so attractive. Your videos was very spot on for me. Thank You ❤
Wow this really revealed the phases I've experienced to get me where I'm at today. I may go as Mikey right now. Because where I'm at. But know I am going with Mia Jane Phoenix as myself.
Keeping a gender journal can really help! I'm genderfluid and I kept going back and forth and being confused, but the reality for me is that it changes so trying to choose one or the other doesn't work.
I was very skeptical when I clicked on this video but it actually makes sense and a lot of people seem to experience it the same or in a similar way. I think I might be in the objections stage.
I'm glad you found it useful!
this was something i needed to hear T_T like now I’m at the stage where i want to start hormones but scared of like not passing or not being pretty and dealing with a transphobic family
As always I like your video :-)
I got through all the stages and I'm so glad to see that this seems a reoccuring pattern for other trans ppl too.
See you tomorrow :-)
P.S.:
I never was in Budapest but it seems to be a nice city. But I'm so scared about their anti-trans laws so I'm quite unsure if I would feel comfortable there.
Hey! I'm glad you enjoyed it! And you've made it through all the stages! Congrats girl! That's a very special thing to achieve and I'm really happy for you. Good job!.
It's not bad if you're somewhat passing in Budapest, the city is also much more open then the laws would suggest it's well worth a visit! I have not felt uncomfortable, but then again I think I pass mostly.
@@AshleyxAdamson Thank you. I'm out since a few years now, so it sometimes feels like only a small part of my past. When I look back the most interesting part was to figuring out that the things I had done before were not just fetishes but a way to compensate my real needs and inner self.
Re: Budapest and passing:
I guess passing is mostly a necessity for safety. This statement can be applied globally I suspect.
I don't think I pass that much so I will delay such travel to a time when hormones and FFS helped me with passing.
Oh ya def! I wear less make up now if at all. My videos i dont wear makeup 50% of the time lol
Re: passing yeah it's such a safety thing.