How to Break the Spell of Trauma Bond Relationships

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  • @spicychai
    @spicychai 3 ปีที่แล้ว +972

    What I love most about these videos is these people wrote their story out which probably helps them process a little, then they hear you read it out loud which probably gives them a new perspective on the matter and then you give advice in a 40 min video that they will always have for reference when they need help on their healing journey. Incredible

    • @hwhite2996
      @hwhite2996 3 ปีที่แล้ว +53

      And not to mention all of the kind and helpful comments!!🌬

    • @CamperEra
      @CamperEra 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      ♥️

    • @JAarde
      @JAarde 3 ปีที่แล้ว +42

      Agreed. She is more helpful than 75% of channels I’ve found. I’ve shared her channel with many lost ones

    • @carbine090909
      @carbine090909 3 ปีที่แล้ว +24

      I think she also contacts the writer and goes over the letter privately first. But yeah, having this as a permanent link to reference is a huge help.

    • @leeboriack8054
      @leeboriack8054 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Well said.

  • @MrsFurmata
    @MrsFurmata 3 ปีที่แล้ว +550

    “Watch what they do, not what they say they are going to do” At the end it is that simple.

    • @katarinatibai8396
      @katarinatibai8396 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      💯🎯 Best advise, that is the antidot for the narcissists poisen ❣😘👋

    • @msdemeanour
      @msdemeanour 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Yep. Talk is cheap.

    • @samxsara
      @samxsara ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Yeah I even told the npd I wanted actions and not words anymore

    • @tashmoobabe8704
      @tashmoobabe8704 ปีที่แล้ว

      Facts are facts.

  • @Amy-oy5hk
    @Amy-oy5hk 3 ปีที่แล้ว +454

    Trauma bonding from what I’ve learned, is biochemical. The same as a drug addiction. The honeymoon periods get you high, it releases the feel good chemicals in our brains. Oxytocin, serotonin, etc. so when they mistreat us, we want another hit of those feel good chemicals, that’s why we believe that the same person that’s hurting us, is the only one who can fix us, it’s a terrible place to find yourself in. It’s tough as hell to break. But when you start loving you, it makes it easier to let go of the illusion we were stuck in.

    • @Rockyourcolours
      @Rockyourcolours 2 ปีที่แล้ว +19

      Thank you so much for this coment. You nailed for me.

    • @Amy-oy5hk
      @Amy-oy5hk 2 ปีที่แล้ว +19

      @@Rockyourcolours you’re welcome. Best wishes on your journey of breaking free from the crazy making, and the opportunity to grow, heal, and allow yourself to be truly loved by someone far more deserving of you!

    • @simonclarke4156
      @simonclarke4156 2 ปีที่แล้ว +23

      Have a look at Dr Gabor Matés work on how trauma is wired into our biology.

    • @Amy-oy5hk
      @Amy-oy5hk 2 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      @@simonclarke4156 yes, I agree wholeheartedly with you! I am familiar with Dr Garbor Mates work. He is someone who I respect highly. His wisdom has helped me understand myself in many ways.

    • @judepoynter3850
      @judepoynter3850 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      @Amy so very perfectly put. I’ve taken a screenshot of this, so that when I feel wobbly I can refer back to it. Thank you so much 🙏🏼🌻

  • @kennethsilvestri5874
    @kennethsilvestri5874 3 ปีที่แล้ว +694

    Slow is so much healthier. Love bombing and future faking is a major red flag to create that trauma bond. They do follow that hot/cold, push/pull intermittent reinforcement. It's emotional torture where love, affection and sex are used as a tool to manipulate and control you. They put you on a pedestal and when you start to have flaws, feelings or needs, they no longer see you as special, but the opposite. They can't see someone as a whole person only through the lens of their needs, wants, boundaries and need for control and power.

    • @Sunny74-
      @Sunny74- 2 ปีที่แล้ว +24

      @Kevin Silverstri Wow, well written.

    • @carlamurphy7541
      @carlamurphy7541 2 ปีที่แล้ว +33

      You are spot on it's odd how I see the red flags and ignore them because it's all I know....

    • @justdev8965
      @justdev8965 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Very true, Kenneth!

    • @mineandmine4528
      @mineandmine4528 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Thank you for sharing this. I needed to read this.

    • @bridgetkeating6609
      @bridgetkeating6609 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Spot on, thanks I needed to hear that and it helps after a recent discard. ✨🍄🌸

  • @littlecupcakespuppies
    @littlecupcakespuppies 3 ปีที่แล้ว +572

    "This is not love, this is consumption". Bravo for this quote and the whole video!

    • @nickysaw01
      @nickysaw01 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      When she said I hollered. Made 💯 sense

    • @simonep1104
      @simonep1104 หลายเดือนก่อน

      That chick sounds batshit crazy!
      Her personality is abusive.

  • @gringbot
    @gringbot 3 ปีที่แล้ว +413

    Grieve. That's how you let go. Accept and see your situation exactly as it is, then you can gain the understanding and wisdom to move forward.

    • @evonne315
      @evonne315 3 ปีที่แล้ว +32

      Radical Acceptance. Your right. So hard. I had to get rid of everything I had from my ex to avoid triggering memories. I never had to do that with an ex, but it did really help to clear house. You have to do what is needed for your own mental health.

    • @VioletEmerald
      @VioletEmerald 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      @@evonne315 getting rid of triggers can be like avoiding grieving though and even when you DO grieve the wound and addiction can be reopened if the person wants you back. To grieve and commit to "we are never ever getting back together" (cue Taylor Swift) is extra tough to stick to sometimes.

    • @jennytaylor3324
      @jennytaylor3324 3 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      Well said. I think you imagine yourself falling in to an abyss after you 'let go', when in reality you grow wings as you fall, and touch down sooner and more smoothly than you imagined possible, as you're falling in to what is true and good and right for your own heart. That has been my experience when I've ended a bad relationship - regardless of its length.

    • @85Pesticat
      @85Pesticat 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@evonne315 I haven't got rid of my videos or conversations from my ex (LDR with someone I also knew IRL way back). Haven't watched the above video yet, so not sure how much it will resonate. But, as I felt closer to this partner than anyone, I have been finding the thought of getting rid of all the videos and conversations an impossible thought. I wanted to treasure them...... but now am starting to think maybe I shouldn't. The rship was only 4 or 5 months. Then he sent a very brutal, terrible email and disappeared. I've never been hurt like this. Not even by cheating at the end of a long relationship. Nothing has hurt as much as this. I was very in love and he appeared to be too. :/ Anyway, I think I might store all the stuff from him in place I can't access it.

    • @MCV-xg7kc
      @MCV-xg7kc 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@85Pesticat watch the video and get back with us. Ok?

  • @tbd5082
    @tbd5082 3 ปีที่แล้ว +692

    "People don't abandon people they love, they abandon people they were using." - someone
    Of course, life is more complicated than a one line quote. This one is mostly for someone who may be stuck in a trauma bond, obsessing over if the Narcissist actually loved them....They didn't, they were using you..

    • @36summers
      @36summers 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      Nicely put.

    • @oliviacadena2036
      @oliviacadena2036 3 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      Agree with you. 💕💟💕💟💕

    • @oliviacadena2036
      @oliviacadena2036 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@36summers Yes it was.

    • @barrydworak
      @barrydworak 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      Prefect summary and useful to me personally, too. Thanks.

    • @nancybartley4425
      @nancybartley4425 3 ปีที่แล้ว +46

      Life and people are more complicated than your words suggest. Some people go no contact because someone they love was hurting them too much. It does happen. Maybe people who get healthy abandon the people who used them. You can love someone deeply but know they are not capable of letting you love them. You have to leave if you have any self-respect. The difficulty is knowing why you were attracted to someone not capable of reciprocity in the first place. Answer probably lies in childhood (attachment). In the simplest sense, we all use each other because we need each other. Never allowing yourself to "be used" would result in living totally unconnected.

  • @LouisaWatt
    @LouisaWatt 3 ปีที่แล้ว +345

    There's a quote that I found very helpful when sorting out who should have access to my life and who shouldn't and it goes something like this:
    "Never forget the people who helped you in hard times,
    the people who left you in hard times,
    and the people who put you in hard times."
    Relationships only really fit into those three categories when it comes to figuring out who is reliable, consistent, authentic, and present in your life.

    • @anndevlin7411
      @anndevlin7411 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Hi Louisa, great quote. Can you remember who it was by?

    • @RachelSDay1982
      @RachelSDay1982 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Thank you, Louisa, for this wise reminder. God bless!! 😊💕🙏

    • @angelacoleman6580
      @angelacoleman6580 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@gill426 usually one is character trait is prevalent.

    • @melinatedvessel6840
      @melinatedvessel6840 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      I've had a person do ALL 3,what's that even mean?

    • @marte1376
      @marte1376 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @A M it can't be that 3, that person was inconsistent and that's why you supposedly feel you can't put them on a category. Be objective

  • @LBmerryxmas
    @LBmerryxmas ปีที่แล้ว +38

    Once drama, red flags , behaviour that robs you of your peace starts happening, run , get out.

  • @cherthompson2546
    @cherthompson2546 2 ปีที่แล้ว +67

    "It doesnt matter who we attract, it matters who we end uo getting together with." I felt that...

  • @jazmonianwithin
    @jazmonianwithin 3 ปีที่แล้ว +198

    Trauma bond with a Borderline/Narc. Bottom line: Healthy people don't act like Angela. He got tricked. No shame, it can happen to anyone who doesn't know the Red Flag signs! Tough lesson, but it highlights his own childhood trauma that allowed him to put up with Angela's nonsense. Go No Contact and remember Time Heals All Wounds.

    • @CS-hw2pd
      @CS-hw2pd 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Tricked is also unhelpful. There's a pattern at play here & a dynamic that both people interact with. Acknowledgement, compassion & faith that it can be changed and you deserve more is hopeful & inspiring

    • @elfglow4557
      @elfglow4557 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Time definitely dissent heal me at all. My trauma has ruined my life. People just like to say words that sounds semi true

    • @jennj9026
      @jennj9026 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @@KAT-dg6el yes that quote is partially true...time can be a healer as long as you are doing the WORK to heal..CPTSD book by Pete Walker is a good start. So is working with a trauma recovery coach and/or a trauma-informed therapist, somatic work and practices (trauma is stored in the body until it is worked out).

    • @americasariesson1862
      @americasariesson1862 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      lol ...YUUP!!!

    • @leahflower9924
      @leahflower9924 2 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      How do we lump borderlines and narcs together? I detach from myself a lot and have borderline symptoms but i have tons of empathy and guilt, narcs dont have those feelings

  • @i2ndsight
    @i2ndsight 3 ปีที่แล้ว +353

    Intermittent rewards are why gambling is addictive. When a person provides only Intermittent friendship/love, which hooks you, why not call it addiction?

    • @oliviacadena2036
      @oliviacadena2036 3 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      Good point to make!!!! 👍👍👍👍👍💛

    • @KoreaMojo
      @KoreaMojo 3 ปีที่แล้ว +48

      Dopamine spikes the highest at a potential reward compared to a guaranteed one. You're right.

    • @hardcopy5730
      @hardcopy5730 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      Agree and that is why there is withdrawal and relapse.

    • @MeMe-mt6xv
      @MeMe-mt6xv 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Truth. From a Ph.D psychiatrist.

    • @daviedood2503
      @daviedood2503 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      They should! Was hard for me to admit I was addicted to her for 13 years despite getting slapped, shoved on the ground (she's twice my size. Real line backer) forced to walk home for 3 hours in the middle of the night during a weekend full of drunks on the road, chilling in the park at 2-3am. they didn't care.
      The emotional withdraw with depression and HOPLESS feeling feels like till be that way forever. Just like the good times didn't last, the bad times won't last as well. It WILL shift damnit. And for the better. Soemthing WILL click and lift off you. You'll experience a good life without the toxic CRAP.

  • @godzillamanstreb524
    @godzillamanstreb524 3 ปีที่แล้ว +203

    When someone wants to be with you, you’ll know, because they are with you❤️❤️❤️❤️💚💚💚💚✨✨✨ty Anna🎄🎄

    • @CrappyChildhoodFairy
      @CrappyChildhoodFairy  3 ปีที่แล้ว +21

      LOL... obvious and perfectly true. :)

    • @godzillamanstreb524
      @godzillamanstreb524 3 ปีที่แล้ว +21

      @@CrappyChildhoodFairy I think I’ve commented this b4.....in high school when I was suffering over some nincompoop my older brother said “if a guy wants to see you, he’ll call you”.....took me years, but I finally got it😍

    • @leahflower9924
      @leahflower9924 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      @@godzillamanstreb524 there are people myself included that become fixated on the rejection i remember clearly all the guys that rejected me more than the guys who liked me

  • @aquariusstar7248
    @aquariusstar7248 3 ปีที่แล้ว +134

    Go totally "grey rock" on this woman! And then grieve the losses of yr inner child. That is what i did bc it didnt hv anything to do with the other person. When you allow emotional and mental abuse from others your inner child is hurting for love. Take some time to love on yourself; learn how to meet your own needs. This makes you resilient and immune to this kind of abuse and empowers you to be the love you are searching for. Then you can attract someone who is your healthy and equal match. Good luck, Mark!

    • @jcc9027
      @jcc9027 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Yaaass!!💕

    • @michaelcostello3460
      @michaelcostello3460 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      You da real MVP thanks 👍😊

    • @aquariusstar7248
      @aquariusstar7248 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@michaelcostello3460 😆 You're welcome!

  • @horacesilver5238
    @horacesilver5238 2 ปีที่แล้ว +59

    To everyone out there. You can heal, and you can and will get to the point where you won't stand for this any more.
    My last relationship, last 2...was a mirror image of this letter, in some way. Once it ended I started meditating, practicing mindfulness, got on my yoga mat...and read some great books on Trauma. "The Body Keeps The Score"...can't recommend it enough.
    Then...I started reprogramming my being by doing the things I never did before.
    1. Never neglect the relationships to myself. Always look inward for validation...never outward.
    2. I ask for what I need. Because I finally believe my needs are as important as my partner's. No more, no less.
    3. Set boundaries, with everyone...even family members who were the cause of how I ended up where I was in relational patterns
    4. No more people pleasing. That is an offshoot of boundaries. Once the boundaries are strong, you no longer feel the need to please. Not your responsibility.
    5. Take things slooooooooooow
    6. Reparent myself. I actually speak to my inner child, out loud. Tell him how much he's loved and valued...validate all the hurt he felt.
    Where am I now? I can see these red flags from a MILE away. I used to equate anxiety with love. No more. Now, this kind of behaviour repulses me and I feel nothing. What used to be 'boring and uninteresting'...i.e. secure attachment styles and real love....I now find exciting, comforting, reassuring and attractive. And I did this in a little under 3 months.
    I firmly....firmly believe that we attract a reflection of our inner state. And I'm so excited for the next relationship.

    • @jimdowney6773
      @jimdowney6773 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Congratulations and well put.

    • @mindfulminime7082
      @mindfulminime7082 ปีที่แล้ว

      do you really think you are healed in 3 months?

    • @horacesilver5238
      @horacesilver5238 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@mindfulminime7082 10 months, and yes. I'm awake...no turning back

    • @horacesilver5238
      @horacesilver5238 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      right now i'ts coming up on 2 years in September...but 10 months later I met an incredible women and had a very healthy relationship for a year, that only ended because of distance. But when it ended I was like...oh so that's how those are supposed to feel when they end. Come across very few of these women since. I just don't attract them

    • @amnbvcxz8650
      @amnbvcxz8650 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      This is a great comment, wish it was liked to the top

  • @TranscendingTrauma
    @TranscendingTrauma 3 ปีที่แล้ว +90

    The substances are called dopamine, cortisol, oxytocin 🤷🏻‍♀️❤️

    • @TranscendingTrauma
      @TranscendingTrauma 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      I wonder why he left her alone at a festival. I think that triggered her and that’s when everything went downhill. To me she displays as someone with CPTSD. That back-and-forth behavior of hers can also be her own fears of whether or not she wants to be with him. Someone that we know left her alone at a festival! She may be really struggling with her own emotions over whether or not he is a good choice.

    • @mdot2213
      @mdot2213 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Yeah I don’t see her as being necessarily “bad” - she sounds like she has a lot of her own issues. I feel bad for her

    • @MadAboutBrows
      @MadAboutBrows 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      It's odd to see people defending such obvious manipulation

    • @aquariusstar7248
      @aquariusstar7248 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      A cocktail for insanity!

    • @aquariusstar7248
      @aquariusstar7248 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      She may have stayed behind because she met sb else there and was hooking up. You never know. Im sure they discussed the length of their trip. At any rate, it is her job to express her feelings if that is the case. And she had ample opportunity to do that but instead she hooked him with emotional promises she didn't follow up on.

  • @aviator1787
    @aviator1787 3 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    “don’t ask for it, declare it.” YES! we have power!

  • @monicaLynn7
    @monicaLynn7 3 ปีที่แล้ว +99

    Please don’t be angry at yourself; her behavior of; hot / cold, hovering (sucking you back in) bread crumbing and gaslighting, smear campaign ect is classic behavior of a narcissist. The way she was when you met wasn’t real, the traits you experienced however were real, the true her. It traps us and they know it. It’s abuse… the pain in intense… best to stay no-contact… it’s not always easy however we can’t heal while being manipulated…

    • @tiablasangoriti8347
      @tiablasangoriti8347 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Spot on the mark

    • @immers2410
      @immers2410 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Exactly. I just came out a very similar situation

  • @godzillamanstreb524
    @godzillamanstreb524 3 ปีที่แล้ว +32

    Block her & heal💔

  • @jasonfawley6585
    @jasonfawley6585 2 ปีที่แล้ว +36

    Trauma bonds are so painful! They can however teach you about yourself and what to watch for in future relationships. I needed to revisit this video today. Lots of love for this channel!

    • @CrappyChildhoodFairy
      @CrappyChildhoodFairy  2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Thank you for supporting the community!
      -Cara@TeamFairy

  • @annekenney6914
    @annekenney6914 3 ปีที่แล้ว +67

    Sounds like she wanted Friends with Benefits. She didn't want him but she wanted the option of his attention when she wasn't getting it from someone else.

    • @oliviacadena2036
      @oliviacadena2036 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      🤔🙄💜💙💜

    • @MeMe-mt6xv
      @MeMe-mt6xv 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Yes, she definitely had him on the backbones, then the front, then the back...smh

  • @Jadedgems
    @Jadedgems 3 ปีที่แล้ว +109

    Oh my God when you said “just reading this, I felt the energy being sucked out of me” I’ve never related to anything more :( I actually had to take a break from this video and come back, and when I came back, that’s the first thing you said 😂 what a horrible situation. Thank you so much for examining these stories and helping us out. You’re a Godsend

    • @Sunny74-
      @Sunny74- 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I had to step away too Bc it hits close to home…wow! She is truly a treasure 🙏🏽💕

    • @MaureenWHamblin
      @MaureenWHamblin 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Me too!! So energy sucking!!!

  • @barrydworak
    @barrydworak 3 ปีที่แล้ว +92

    I don't know if this is magnified by, or is a product of, social media, but this kind of behavior and these games seem to be commonplace in a way they weren't 10 or more years ago. And it's infecting all generations, Gen X and younger, at the same time.
    It's a shock to find out that people we are really attracted to, aren't acting in good faith, and are deliberately using trauma bonding tactics. Those of us with old unaddressed trauma, don't want to believe it.
    Thanks for this! It's really needed right now.

    • @julianbluefeather8491
      @julianbluefeather8491 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Because you can check social media for updates of them. Hell I was checking their moms page and the page for the team he coached to see updates. When I occasionally saw a picture with him in it, my brain would light up like I just won a gamble

    • @Cranberries87
      @Cranberries87 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      You are 100% correct, it is absolutely horrible now. And I think it’s even worse for women!

    • @barrydworak
      @barrydworak 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      @@Cranberries87 I'm not sure if this is gendered. I think there are polarities that may correlate with gender, but they may not. Maybe women experience trauma differently from men, or compensate differently, but I think this stuff is all rooted in old trauma, either way.
      It seems like trauma leaves us vulnerable, and perpetrators can see the vulnerability, whoever we are.
      Social media is also a way for manipulators to collect intel.
      Of course, the manipulators are probably also the products of trauma. And sometimes we are them, or it's multidirectional. Everyone is messing around with everyone else, and due to trauma and the way it distorts our thoughts and feelings, it's possible none of us even knows it while we're doing it!
      If I wrote this in a way that anyone can follow, that's what I meant by "these games."

    • @Dan_Chiron
      @Dan_Chiron 3 ปีที่แล้ว +22

      I dissagree with you, Barry. I think it's always been there, but social media makes it more evident, and somehow that's a good thing, because we can see it and call it out as bad behaviour. I went trough this for years when I was younger and the internet wasn't even a thing in my country. I knew something was off, but couldn't point out what, because everything looked "perfect" in the surface, so I thought I was broken for being unhappy. Spending time on the internet years later taught me what happended to me was emotional abuse, and how to avoid it.
      Lots of us, but especially women, are socialized to "make things work out", and that's how we end up in this awful relationships. It's good to know that we're not alone and that we can heal.

    • @barrydworak
      @barrydworak 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      @@Dan_Chiron Oh yeah, I know that homo sapiens didn't suddenly change with the advent of Facebook or anything.
      I just think it seems more widespread. But yeah, maybe that is just because now we see it more, not because there's more of it.

  • @76Pou
    @76Pou 3 ปีที่แล้ว +86

    Hang in there! The feeling of wanting to answer these manipulative people back will go away 💪💪❤️❤️

    • @CrappyChildhoodFairy
      @CrappyChildhoodFairy  3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Thanks for the support!
      -Cara@TeamFairy

    • @76Pou
      @76Pou 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@CrappyChildhoodFairy my pleasure! 😊

  • @SpeedbirdNine9
    @SpeedbirdNine9 3 ปีที่แล้ว +32

    He was "love-bombed" and subjected to intermittent reinforcement........idealized and devalued. There was not a full no contact regime in place. His emotional thinking was conning him.

  • @jeffreypmitchell
    @jeffreypmitchell 2 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    Exactly, this was done to me. Roller Coaster rides increased, hot/cold, and “I’m not relationship material”.
    I gave her grace in the beginning and noticed her moodiness.
    I was hopeful and she was also apologetic.
    I’m working on getting over her.

  • @charlesstanford1310
    @charlesstanford1310 3 ปีที่แล้ว +135

    Arguably our entire cultural concept of romance is founded on limerance. I enjoy listening to troubadour love songs from the Middle Ages, but I've come to see how unhealthy their idea of love was. Our very use of the words "romance" and "romantic" show how much our culture is still tied to archaic notions and expectations of drama and emotional sadomasochism.
    Romance is merely trauma bonding.

    • @lilafeldman8630
      @lilafeldman8630 3 ปีที่แล้ว +29

      Listen to country music, it's all codependency!

    • @lilafeldman8630
      @lilafeldman8630 3 ปีที่แล้ว +34

      I realize that now, too, as an adult. All the music I've listened to over the years on the radio is limerance, trauma bonds, and codependency.

    • @charlesstanford1310
      @charlesstanford1310 3 ปีที่แล้ว +26

      @@lilafeldman8630 And don't get me started on movies...

    • @Alinda1308
      @Alinda1308 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Yes, that's what I have noticed too

    • @lilafeldman8630
      @lilafeldman8630 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Country music is basically a descendant of all those troubador songs.

  • @carmenteohari3145
    @carmenteohari3145 3 ปีที่แล้ว +49

    I cried my eyes out listening to the guy's story, maybe it is because I've recently experienced something similar. I have decided to cut it off completely and as hard as it felt, I can't be more proud of myself. That liberating feeling is a blessing. Thank you so much for this video, it definetely responded to many of my questions and confirmed the way I should approach things in the future. 🙏

  • @tablescissors
    @tablescissors 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    "I don't even know which woman to grieve..." I so deeply understood that, the truth sir, is that you need to grieve YOURSELF for getting fooled and pulled in, for losing yourself and to find that again and a sense of trust in yourself. *
    * Stated with tons of compassion.

  • @meaculpa22
    @meaculpa22 2 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    No matter who we attract what matters is our boundaries
    Thanks a lot

  • @alisongreen7576
    @alisongreen7576 3 ปีที่แล้ว +48

    Oh, Martin who "doesn't want to diagnose" should diagnose away because he got Cluster B'ed good and proper!
    Things changed at the festival because she met someone else! Then she was on and off depending on how the new "thing" went! She behaved horribly- flouted Martin's boundaries, gaslit him and breadcrumbed him and ghosted- all mega-abusive.
    She called "from a cafe" because she had a date there that didn't go well so she soothed her ego with attention from Martin- just awful.
    She put on the Cluster B act of being a perfect fit- that word- "magical"- huge red flag- she just took on Martin's personality- because hers is disordered.
    I feel so sorry for Martin- it is so hard to get past- until you really get your head around how deceitful and manipulative these people are- then it is so painful and so sad. He has done a great job of seeing how unhealthy this was and deciding to stay out of it- but he's hurt and confused and grieving.
    It's so great that he has a very clear and healthy view of what he wants.

    • @americasariesson1862
      @americasariesson1862 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Best break down ever! Ima say borderline / narc ...I wish the world would wake up to these types. And thank you for having the courage to tell Martin to go ahead and diagnose - hell yes !

    • @immers2410
      @immers2410 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@americasariesson1862yes, def bit of borderline in there-too disordered to be classic narc.

  • @793lefty
    @793lefty 3 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    I have a relationship in my life with similar elements. For me, not posting about my relationship was about shame. I didn't want my friends and family knowing or even imagining the kind of love crumbs I accept.

    • @CrappyChildhoodFairy
      @CrappyChildhoodFairy  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      If you are struggling with accepting breadcrumbs, I can't recommend the 'Dating & Relationships' course enough courses.crappychildhoodfairy.com
      -Cara@TeamFairy

  • @DDzn-md6pb
    @DDzn-md6pb 3 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    I just recived a message from my ex , which get me so emotional , I think this is a sign

  • @stephaniemcguirk4973
    @stephaniemcguirk4973 3 ปีที่แล้ว +53

    What I love about the host reaction is that she’s using humor but she’s not dismissive . It’s done in the perfect way. It allows the person and the listener to feel like they’re not alone in their humanity and also that there’s hope after relapse.
    It’s a lot of work to undo patterns that were passed down for many generations. Just because we now have a new word for these things ,”trauma bond”, “nervous system hijack” etc mean we can instantly do right . Thank you for this community. I’ll have to say some days it’s actually triggering and I know it’s not day to watch a video other days it’s very helpful.

  • @charmee4045
    @charmee4045 3 ปีที่แล้ว +24

    He sent a very abrupt breakup text. I sent two loving texts to give myself closure. Then blocked him and went no contact. You never want to send a abusive text to someone. You always want your last words to anyone even your enemies to be kind so when and if something was to happen to them you have no regrets.

    • @immers2410
      @immers2410 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      The words should be honest rather than kind. You will never regret speaking your truth

    • @LouiseO78
      @LouiseO78 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      Better to be dignified in defeat and keep your standards. If you're abusive you give that person justification for their behaviour. If you leave on a kind note you show maturity and compassion. Weeks, months, years later they will remember you and realise what a good person they hurt and lost. They have to live with those regrets whilst you are living your life and healed.😊

  • @samantharuebel8932
    @samantharuebel8932 3 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    I've been doing this for over 20 years with my husband. I've been able to recognize that I trauma bonded with him before marriage. It's been 20 years of this kind of back and forth and I still can't bring myself to end it because the times he shows loving behavior I'm hooked and feel like I owe him the opportunity to show he's changed. (& yes I struggle with my mental health & feel like he uses it against me at times) I am so conflicted.

    • @annagrace1159
      @annagrace1159 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      21yr Marriage. The only hope and relief that has come to me is through that of establishing a relationship with Jesus Christ. I was brought to the difficult choice of accepting forgiveness in order to be forgiven. The Lord offered ME salvation and I tried to us it to pray away my sinful spouses sins! It was I who needed to get out of the way! So, I allowed my narcissistic husband to take on our children and focusing fulltime on my relationship with the Lord who is my strength. Through Him I can do all things.

    • @amnbvcxz8650
      @amnbvcxz8650 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Your bad mental health is a resulf ot his treatment and the trauma bond. When i was trauma bonded or emotionally abused i wanted to die so badly, was very depressed.

  • @melodyharcrow5940
    @melodyharcrow5940 2 ปีที่แล้ว +48

    Anna, I just adore you so much!!!!! Every session feels like having coffee with a good friend. Someone that loves you enough to tell you facts rather than want you want to hear. You have taught me so much. I am NOT broken. Thank you for not binging on netflix. And ALWAYS bringing such great truths.

    • @CrappyChildhoodFairy
      @CrappyChildhoodFairy  2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Thanks so much for supporting the Fairy :)
      -Cara@TeamFairy

  • @Alison-so9md
    @Alison-so9md 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    This is so powerful and I needed to hear it: “if it’s your power, nobody has to let you be in it.”

  • @Autumn-jz8bw
    @Autumn-jz8bw 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +15

    "When somebody wants to be with you, how you'll know is because they are with you cause they don't wanna risk losing you."

  • @isadoracruz2543
    @isadoracruz2543 3 ปีที่แล้ว +28

    She is trying every tactic in the book said the Fairy😊💛. I ve been through the same treatment and stayed for 6 years in an awful relationship with a covert borderline narcissist

  • @owllady88x8
    @owllady88x8 3 ปีที่แล้ว +66

    She was probably “triangulating” with the FB pics…i.e. making another guy(s) jealous. Unfortunately, I understand this all too well. I wish that I didn’t, but “possible” NPD usually includes triangulation and using SM makes that very easy. 😞

    • @aquariusstar7248
      @aquariusstar7248 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      I was thinking same thing. And when she thought she got the guy she really wanted she wld go cold on him. And when the guy she wanted wasnt really interested she wld come back. Smh...possible scenario.

    • @giovannaramello666
      @giovannaramello666 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      I wonder if my ex did that to me, our one on one/private communication wasn’t good nor stable as he wasn’t engaging at all and often left me on read but every other day he tweeted and posted on IG about me, from the first week on. I wonder if that was a mix of love bombing and triangulation since he has a harem of women in his IG and Twitter.

    • @SS-dy4tk
      @SS-dy4tk 3 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      Social media is a narcissist’s Nirvana.

    • @The-Finisher
      @The-Finisher 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@SS-dy4tk say it again louder for the folks in the back of the room!

    • @bunnykatsoracle3275
      @bunnykatsoracle3275 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Totally. That's what I was thinking. Ugh

  • @bronwyntanner4501
    @bronwyntanner4501 3 ปีที่แล้ว +50

    Oh oh oh had a relationship like this after my divorce from a passive aggressive covert narcissist. Oh oh oh the confusion. Push pull. Horrendous. After six months my heart was dismembered. I went no contact before I got sicker than I was. Adrenal fatigue. He died a year later. I was okay with that. Admitting that I was addicted to him was humbling to say the least. Free from narcs. Yay

  • @josun2222
    @josun2222 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    This video almost made me cry. I could relate so much with a toxic relationship I had. I blocked him right away after the hateful, childish behavior. I tried to look at it as a wake up call since I’ve had one toxic relationship after another. I so want to heal and have an adult relationship.

  • @crazymusicman13
    @crazymusicman13 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    Im a little unsettled my last relationship is being described through a letter I've never written.
    @36:14
    "a form of Limerence with somebody you actually did have a relationship with, but you're having a romance with the idea ... of that her, of that you, of that couple"
    Oh my god get out of my head. My recent fantasies of my ex contacting me and telling me I am special to her and that she has grown from our relationship and break up and maybe we can try again slowly...
    I'm addicted. "compartmentalizing abusive relationships"
    "how she treats you is unacceptable"
    Thanks so much CCF.
    May all beings find peace.

  • @d3402
    @d3402 3 ปีที่แล้ว +48

    This is EXACTLY what I just went through. Same things about Facebook, confusion for years, just now realizing I was just played. The last lie(s) gave me the strength to walk. Trying to heal.... very difficult, but I understand. Thank you for VALIDATING it. Seriously... I needed that..

    • @Sunny74-
      @Sunny74- 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I deleted Fakebook a year ago January…never felt better. My family lives out of state…oh well. Self preservation is important.

    • @TheSapphireLeo
      @TheSapphireLeo ปีที่แล้ว

      This is also the problem when people are either not open and/or in places, and/or don't know how to communicate and/or in awareness and/or contexts and of experiences, too?

    • @TheSapphireLeo
      @TheSapphireLeo ปีที่แล้ว

      Forgiveness for people's current (dis)abilities are also key, but also not an excuse, if it can be helped, even if only at a distance, if we consider how voluntary things are, currently?

  • @livelife32
    @livelife32 3 ปีที่แล้ว +31

    Really glad to have watched this. It felt so validating to hear her say that letting a relationship unfold over the course of 1.5-3 years was reasonable and healthy. Confirms that I was moving at a fair pace- not too slow at all. Slow burn over a raging forest fire.

  • @littleyellowcarrot1571
    @littleyellowcarrot1571 3 ปีที่แล้ว +24

    Thank you Anna for the video, it is really educative and graphic. The worst thing for me was that I didn't even realise I was being abused. I just knew I felt bad all the time. That is what you become when parents do not teach you how to love yourself and you think that abuse is a normal way of relating to others. Once I started going to therapy I realised I was my own problem and now I have tools when dealing with abusers...(and my conditioning to them). Abusers are really predictive once you learn their tactics and you can really feel so empowered knowing you can stand up to yourself.

  • @FriendofDorothy
    @FriendofDorothy 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    "this is not about love...you know that? ...this is about...consumption." Wonderful line! It is draining just to hear you read this letter! My god, there is a time to recognize one is being manipulated like a puppet and say ENOUGH. I left two crappy relationships when younger; yes, it was painful but it was also exhilarating to liberate myself from their abuse and inability to show reasonable respect. Interestingly, both tried to get me back but no, I was OUT. I knew I was just being used so I made my decision and declared my independence day. One last thing: have you ever noticed that there is one quality missing from these jerks and abusers? A sense of humor! My abuser as a child had no sense of humor, was no fun, no warmth, so I had to become aware I was attracting the same type of person for a relationship. Isn't his all so much fun? LOL!

  • @PaperMario64
    @PaperMario64 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Martín, if you’re reading the comments, just know you’re not alone. I went through a VERY similar situation with a man who knew he didn’t want anything serious with me, got a thrill from charming me and watching me fall for him without any desire or plan to reciprocate. I took me YEARS to get over him. But one thing that truly helped me was 1. Grieving, as you mentioned, the person you thought they were. It’s as if they died, so cry and mourn. 2. Making a list of all the ways they mistreated you and constantly reading and writing that list over and over and adding to it where necessary. - This step is essential because we tend to have euphoric recall and only dwell on the “good times”. You must remind yourself daily of the harm and pain they caused you. 3. Using that list to ACCEPT who they are. They are not going to change. Whatever charm they used on you initially was FAKE and it will NEVER be real. It was a lure and a trap to get their needs met without any regards to your needs. So think about if you want this insane back and forth, painful push and pull and breadcrumbs, because that’s all it will ever be. 4. Get MAD. Get ANGRY. Imagine if some stranger was treating a female or male relative this way. Imagine if they were being strung along and used and you saw it. Wouldn’t it make you angry? Wouldn’t you be disgusted and tell that loved one “Leave that crappy person alone! They don’t really care about you! You’re hurt and it’s because of them!” Now, feel that for yourself. See them for what they are - selfish, self centered, shallow, a user, reckless with your heart, the most precious thing a person can give another person. I’ll end with a quote from Bob Marley that stuck with me: “The biggest coward of a man is to awaken the love of a woman without the intention of loving her.” Applies to women too.

    • @CrappyChildhoodFairy
      @CrappyChildhoodFairy  2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Thank you so much for sharing your support with Martin. Appreciate you being here. - Ashley @ Team Fairy

    • @PaperMario64
      @PaperMario64 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@CrappyChildhoodFairy thank you more, Team Fairy!

  • @lorraineharvey3200
    @lorraineharvey3200 3 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    Wow, what an amazing description of trauma bonding. I was involved with someone just like this person, I never could understand how I got so attached. Thank you.

    • @Analysis_Paralysis
      @Analysis_Paralysis ปีที่แล้ว

      To me, it sounds like she was trauma bonded to him and not the other way round. He was triggering something in her that was making her try to protect herself from him and move away from him, but she wasn't able to walk away from him completely. She sounds like a traumatized person who wasn't ready for a relationship, but he was somehow able to hook her. Could very well be that he's actually the narcissist and he's trying to use the advice here to gaslight or manipulate her that she was the problem.
      I get a creepy feeling from his letter. The way he ended things with her reminds of a narcissist's discard, and the way she's desperate to try to make things work out reminds of someone who's still trauma-bonded to him. Something in this case feels off! He might very well be the manipulator in this case.

    • @Analysis_Paralysis
      @Analysis_Paralysis ปีที่แล้ว +1

      He's trying to paint her as a crazy person... I think he was the one who had power over her and he gets a power trip from manipulating the Fairy to affirm him!

  • @brightphoebesays
    @brightphoebesays 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    Mine got me at the failure of my marriage, and I got sucked in during my divorce year. He toyed with me for fun. I felt like the mouse in a game of cat and mouse. He wanted me, he didn't want me, then he'd taunt me, then be desperate for me. He'd let me believe, then slap me down, and my self worth was so low at that point that I was clamoring for attention and affection. My boundaries were weak and he crushed what was left of them, because "the more you hurt,. the more you love". I was absolutely addicted to him and determined to prove my love and make him better. I was sooooo wrong. A naive ragdoll. I was self-destructive. I hate that I trounced after him for so long. And I'm devastated that my Dad didn't give me the inner strength that I needed to resist. If I had had a better Dad, this wouldn't have happened in the first place. I'm lucky I didn't get more involved with him than I was. It was a grace that he let me go. I didn't want to watch this video right away cuz I didn't want to revisit these emotions, but clearly I still need healing from it. So sad for Martin. But I know what he feels. Best thing is no contact. It will take time. Avoid anything that reminds you of her. When you're ready, date someone else. It'll help you move on. It'll never go back to how it was before, but you will learn to live with it I think, like grief, like an injury. You're not the only one who's experienced this. You're not alone. Vampire is the right word.

  • @lauramonteiro702
    @lauramonteiro702 3 ปีที่แล้ว +68

    THANK YOU Anna!! I can’t get over the timing of your video. I am REALLY struggling with reliving all the good memories of my ex after 7 YEARS of a toxic and addictive dynamic. So much of this story resonates, though he didn’t have all the narcissistic tendencies. He could be so kind and loving. But….Definitely avoidant and much like Angela he would tell me how much he wanted to heal and work through his issues and request compassion and empathy when I would break things off. And I would let him back in with boundaries set and he would follow them…for a few months . The main issue was our values didn’t align. He wanted to move in and get married AFTER his kids graduated high school. That was 4 yrs ago and his son is now a senior. I thought I was fine with that (not really) but after awhile I realized I made assumptions and he actually didn’t want me to have a relationship with his children. He didn’t value family the same as I did and when all was said and done, he didn’t want to be apart of my children’s lives either. He would say so, but would engage with them minimally. So we’d go through another round!!! Rinse, wash, repeat.
    There was enough intermittent reinforcement of future faking and promises made of marriage and blending lives to convince myself (and probably himself too) that the fantasy of what he was promising was just a fantasy. We were supposed to move in together in a few months and we were planning to get married. But I was the one making the plans for us. It’s like he would agree to things but then sabotage or say that those were not the details he agreed to. I feel like what “sobered” me up from this addiction and toxic dynamic was the reality and empty space of not truly living daily life and actually blending families. After 7 years, I would think he would be sure about this and just do it …but there was always a “not yet”…still enough breadcrumbs and chemistry to keep me hooked with minimal actions to support us moving in that direction of engagement etc. It’s so challenging to describe this dynamic and make sense of it, not to mention the energy draining and confusion. Like you said…If someone wants to be with you, they will. If someone wants to build a life with you, they will and take their partners feelings in to consideration . It’s been a couple of months since I’ve engaged with him and we had couples therapy the last week we were together and he did gaslight me in therapy and told our therapist we had all these plans in place, which was not true. I was completely flooded and felt so unsafe after that. I just couldn’t do it anymore. I think Dr. Stan Tatkin said in his book “We Do”, that knowing your partners trauma and triggers is a love language.
    So, lately it’s been especially hard affirming this constant “do not engage with him” mantra with the holidays arriving. (my mom passed away on Christmas 2008, so this time of year can be a lot of emotional processing). This video has helped me make more sense of what I am needing to grieve and heal. I know with support like this channel and community, I am able to maneuver with more ease and shift what I will tolerate and what’s best for me and my children. I can choose differently this time. I CAN DO THIS. I CAN DETOX HIM! Washing him out of my hair! 🤣This is the longest I’ve gone with no contact and it’s soooo painful!! Thank you for reading to those who’ve gotten this far!
    Big healing hugs to all of you going through this. I see you and hear you. I wish us all healing and hope for the partnerships we truly deserve and desire. ♥️♥️✨

    • @juliamic1240
      @juliamic1240 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Big healing hug to you, too!💕

    • @MeMe-mt6xv
      @MeMe-mt6xv 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Laura, very hard story. Thanks for sharing and I sense it will help open someone's eyes. Wishing you a Merry Christmas and a healthy new year.

    • @katielykens2328
      @katielykens2328 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Right there w u. 8yr relationship :(

  • @jazznbluessinger
    @jazznbluessinger 3 ปีที่แล้ว +30

    Wow. I could so relate to this! Just ended a relationship very very similar to this. I never thought of it as a limerance really, it hit me more like a cognitive dissonance. Especially when I knew better than to get in relationship with this person, I just had a feeling. Well I was right! Going with my gut instinct is a big lesson for me as well as sticking with my boundaries. Martin and I sound like we're cut from the same cloth... I'm sure many here can relate to his situation. I am sick to death of meeting meeting people who gaslight, love bomb, manipulate and are narcissistic. I swear I've seen it all. How nice would it be to meet someone who gets this language, who gets trauma bonding, who gets you and who would never dream of hijacking you in any way! Sign me up for that group! Lol 😆

  • @Frejborg
    @Frejborg 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    "Oxygen from the outside world." I really like that. I'm involved with a woman in a relationship with strong resemblances to this one; trauma bond for sure.
    And numerous times I've lamented that we haven't had enough outside perspectives on her, and on her and I. We've been very isolated, where it's mostly all private between her and I.
    I think it's healthy to be around others more, because it helps individuals keep perspective on themselves and the relationship, by contrast, around other people, and by feedback from them also. Family and friends who can see dynamics that you might rationalize away or whatnot.
    When a relationship is abusive, keeping away others is part of that, for these reasons, to have a tunnel vision between only you and them, very important to gaslighting. Other people would quickly identify the bullshit and call it out.

  • @MaureenWHamblin
    @MaureenWHamblin 2 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    She was definitely a narcissist!! Sounds like my ex!! The love bombing and the discard is so real and confusing!! Well done for writing in and I wish you all the best on your healing journey!!! I love you crappy childhood fairy !! Your videos are so real and healing xxx

  • @GhostCrowBrother
    @GhostCrowBrother 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I've been listening to your videos for a few weeks now, but this morning I've binged quite a few in a row and I find myself in tears. I really feel for the people who write in to you, and it makes me realise how damaged I really am, and how much I'm scared of even beginning to heal.

  • @prant8998
    @prant8998 3 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    Addiction, has many forms. My ex GF was addicted to saying hurtful things, then observing the outcome. Would I stay, get upset, leave? The drama, and yes, the joy of denigration to someone that, cared for her. If I stayed, it would elevate her, in the sense, she could be mean, so she must be so important (attractive), she could do that and get away with it. Ms. Crappy Childhood Fairy, has a great common sense narrative that is easy to follow, vs the DSM/Phd types that need to put an obscure label on everything that is actually, a wild guess, and really, meaningless to the person going through it.

    • @meeraraj0
      @meeraraj0 ปีที่แล้ว

      Yess!! Covert narcissist

  • @AmethystDreaming
    @AmethystDreaming 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    This is pure gold. Thank you. I've been following you for a while now. Every single one of your videos has helped me immensely and continues to help me. Especially after I broke a very long period of no contact last year because of a death in his family. Although it may not have been a mistake to break no contact, given what happened, I have been pulled back into his manipulations. Waking up to reality again and breaking the toxic bond by radical acceptance of the reality that he will keep hurting me, over and over again. No more vampirism.

  • @tiptopdadddy
    @tiptopdadddy 2 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    I’ve had a couple situations since I got discarded 5 months ago that let me know my healing was beginning. One was a professional collaboration for mutual benefit that went off the rails when I attempted to make a plan. The other party lost it on me, accusations and wildly bizarre behavior followed that left me thoroughly confused. Another incident recently where I started talking to a prospective woman to date. She got really pushy-pully with me early on, gaslighting and inappropriate suggestions about the future. There’s a lot of wounded people out there who go into dysregulation when challenged or held to account in even a minor way. Now I recognize it and don’t take these incidents personally. You can have my sympathy, but not my time or emotional energy. F*** these people, sorry but I’m not your huckleberry. I wish you peace ✌️

  • @Lyrielonwind
    @Lyrielonwind 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    You're very good at analysing but what I like most about you is your tenderness. I wish I could have a friend like you. 🍀

    • @CrappyChildhoodFairy
      @CrappyChildhoodFairy  2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      You can have a lot more Anna access in our membership program :) courses.crappychildhoodfairy.com
      -Cara@TeamFairy

  • @lynnebucher6537
    @lynnebucher6537 2 ปีที่แล้ว +19

    It took 2 solid years of ignoring my BPD ex's contact attempts (calls, texts, letters, messages relayed via other people) before he finally stopped. Don't think you're being rude when you ignore them. They are the rude one when they attempt to breach your boundaries.

  • @wendyhutchinson457
    @wendyhutchinson457 3 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    Anna, I love you videos. Your voice is so gentle and caring, and your advice is always spot on. I don’t have a sister, but if I did I would hope she was just like you. Martin’s letter really resonated with me. I sympathize with him. I’m thinking I will seek some therapy after the holidays for my issues. I haven’t seen the man that I have feelings of limerence for in 2.5 years, yet I still hold on to the tiny grain of hope that he will one day come back. I’m in my late 40s, so time is slipping away for me. I need to move on, but it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever tried to do. Wish me luck. 🙏

    • @brooklynn5146
      @brooklynn5146 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Good luck, Wendy! Stay strong, 2.5 years is making so much headway 💖

    • @wendyhutchinson457
      @wendyhutchinson457 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@brooklynn5146 thank you so much. But I’m afraid the only reason I haven’t seen him is bc he doesn’t want to see me. There is never a waking moment that he isn’t somewhere in my thoughts (whether in the background or the forefront). I’ve started to do a lot of thinking about my childhood and what if anything might have predisposed me to connections like this. The only comparable feelings were those I had for my ex husband. But we’ve been divorced for 21 years now. But this has been infinitely harder to overcome. And in fact, I haven’t. I wanted to know him. Really know him. But he didn’t seem to want to know anything about me. I think that hurts as much as anything. No one has ever cared to know me. I feel pretty worthless. Like I say…I have lots to cover in therapy. 🤦🏻‍♀️

    • @chrisg7795
      @chrisg7795 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@wendyhutchinson457 I know how you feel, Wendy, we long for sb to finally be interested in us, and not in what they can profit from. We need to stay strong and support each other because the weird thing is that I can tell your great qualities like good heart, intelligence and strength from this small comment but struggle to see my own. That’s what we have been gaslit (in our childhood or intense past experiences) into, and if there’s nothing else we can do we can realise this and support each other so that, hopefully, we get to see and truly incorporate the real us behind the lies that others unfortunately managed to make us believe about ourselves. I’m sending you a big hug.

    • @wendyhutchinson457
      @wendyhutchinson457 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@chrisg7795 thank you so much. Sometimes it’s the knowing that I’m certainly not alone in my situation that keeps me going. I wish for us all to find peace in wherever life takes us. 🙂

  • @lilafeldman8630
    @lilafeldman8630 3 ปีที่แล้ว +52

    Talking marriage too soon is a huge red flag. Always ends in hurt. Also, those cut offs are never easy no matter what position you're in.

  • @jazibasi6677
    @jazibasi6677 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    Martin, you deserve wayyyy better!!

  • @areacode3816
    @areacode3816 3 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    Brilliant video. Wish I had watched this years ago when I experienced something similar. Wise advice.
    One important thing I have learned from these videos is the importance of setting and keeping boundaries.
    I have been so broken and rejected at one time I would have and did accept anything for the chance of feeling accepted or loved. I'm alone now do not see that changing but I am able to open my eyes to red flags more.

  • @___spiritofadventure___
    @___spiritofadventure___ 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    the phrase "being strung along" springs to mind. Definitely playing him good.

  • @wrathofviolets
    @wrathofviolets 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    You are so amazing

  • @robgordon7888
    @robgordon7888 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    when you say " having someone validate you by getting it" so powerful 🙂

  • @lilafeldman8630
    @lilafeldman8630 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    I've been through this many times, in both positions, and it's never easy. I know that pull, and it's so hard to break, no matter which side of the equation you're on.

    • @CrappyChildhoodFairy
      @CrappyChildhoodFairy  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      It is! That's why Anna has a whole course devoted to it :) courses.crappychildhoodfairy.com/
      -Cara@TeamFairy

  • @treeoflife2582
    @treeoflife2582 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    This is so true. The sad thing is this type of relationship also exists in situationships where there it's equally hard, if not harder because oftentimes in situationships more often that not, we're left wondering about the what-ifs or what could have been, which in and of itself is very unhealthy.

    • @basicinfo2022
      @basicinfo2022 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

      If it's meant to be, it would have been.

  • @erinpietrak6756
    @erinpietrak6756 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    OMG, I'm learning SO much from you. I feel like so many of these stories are like my past relationship. I had no idea about love bombing and trauma bonding until I experienced it. Thank you for sharing your experience and wisdom.

  • @jasongrob165
    @jasongrob165 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Thank you for this. I also was in a trauma bond. I was the anxious and she was the avoidant. Constant hot cold push pull, etc. what happened was horrible.

  • @Melissa-kw1sl
    @Melissa-kw1sl 3 ปีที่แล้ว +28

    This was such a helpful video. Thank you to the person who wrote in and Anna for her thoughts. I’ve been in a similar situation. I am one month no contact and focusing on my healing.🙏🙏❤️❤️

  • @patriciafoltting6761
    @patriciafoltting6761 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Wow! It sounds like you were telling my story. When I realized his toxicity I told him I wanted no contact, that it was best for both of us to just not talk to each other anymore. And then the texting started, first saying it was okay, then bashing me and telling me I was a narcissist and then after a day he would text me again and send me pictures. It has not let up. But I'm not responding to him and then he'll go for a week and not text me and then he starts up again trying to hook me back in. Even something simple like he hopes that I'm okay and doing good. I don't respond even though sometimes I want to just to tell him how I'm doing. But I know that I can never talk to him again because it would open the door. Thank you so much for sharing these videos!

  • @jordanbrown6253
    @jordanbrown6253 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    This video is an excellent reminder. I went through a relationship that warped my sense of reality. I'm one year out, and as I heal my wounds I struggle with the addiction of maybe I did things wrong. I'm learning the things I did wrong were different than the things he did, and it doesnt have to leave me thinking I'm broken. We uncover a lot about ourselves through removing ourselves from a trauma bond, and it may not be pretty. To anyone who is struggling, learn to listen to yourself again. Learn to find who you are, and what you want to be. Listen to yourself when you see red flags.
    The part about no contact is painful, but true. All you have to do is explicitly say "I am done with having contact with you" that is vital if you desire to get a restraining order later.(I learned that from the Sheriff's office)

    • @bunnykatsoracle3275
      @bunnykatsoracle3275 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Very wise advice. Thank you. Wishing you healing and happiness as you move forward in your life. And I hope you never have to go through this again 💗

  • @miss_whipps
    @miss_whipps 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

    "It doesn't matter who we attract, what matters who we end up getting together with."
    ...Mic drop🎤...
    That sentence is a literal life changer. 🔥

  • @raybroome
    @raybroome 3 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    Smelling like a duck! I'm just grateful I can see these things now. I didn't know about trauma bonding and the affect it was having on me. It can be stealthy but I'm catching it better. They never stop; it doesn't get better. It is a huge source of rumination. Believe me, they are NOT wasting their time on it.

    • @yvonneb-t3d
      @yvonneb-t3d 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      The ruminating is horrible, I agree that they are not thinking about us, they've moved on to their next victim.

  • @janineplamondon8893
    @janineplamondon8893 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I am astounded at the parallels of Martin's story and my current 5 yr off/on relationship.. :/ ohh my stomach.
    I hope you heal well, healthy and find the relationship you wish to grow with your someone. Best wishes Martin

    • @CrappyChildhoodFairy
      @CrappyChildhoodFairy  3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Thanks for throwing Martin some support!
      -Cara@TeamFairy

  • @lancifur5508
    @lancifur5508 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    I watch Taylor Nicole Dean and she compared a lot of her habits as a victim of codependency and abusive partnerhood to her struggle and addiction to heroin. It felt validating to my struggle, finding myself in emotionally abusive too often 💔

    • @user-lk1qx7gb5o
      @user-lk1qx7gb5o 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      It's the same thing, just a different substance

  • @JustMe9670
    @JustMe9670 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    My god. It’s like a page out of what I got out of. This channel is a life saver

    • @CrappyChildhoodFairy
      @CrappyChildhoodFairy  2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Glad you're enjoying the videos. Thanks for watching! - Ashley, Team Fairy

  • @lollipop3136
    @lollipop3136 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    You have given away ur power and ur fate to another person. Rings true for me

    • @CrappyChildhoodFairy
      @CrappyChildhoodFairy  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Doesn't have to stay like that though :)
      -Cara@TeamFairy

  • @toddpsyk535
    @toddpsyk535 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Wow! This literally hit me like a ton of bricks!! Every word was spot in everything I ever felt about my ex and everything!! This is life saving!! God bless you!

  • @juliekennon8965
    @juliekennon8965 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    I was asked by someone who knew I was in a relationship that was horrible. They asked me if I thanked them...and my first thought was what the %@#$! But after thinking about it I realized I learned some many of my issues and my part of being there. But listening to your videos along with others, and reading as much as I could to understand. Sadly more people were hurt by this persons actions. They were toxic. It was hard like you brought out as an addition. I would do the same thinking as alcoholic use, 5 minutes at a time and hold on to not make contact. And when I wanted to reach out sit and think what is the outcome I’m looking to get from reaching out.at the end of thinking it always came back that it was to make the person be the person I wanted them to be. We fall in love with potential. Not who they are and that potential maybe our perception of them, if you wait long enough they will show you who they are, then believe them.
    Thanks for the videos!

  • @armeniansdoitbetter
    @armeniansdoitbetter 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I feel this very much. Having just ended a relationship with a very immature man whom i had doubts cohabitating with and thankfully did not; im very pragmatic and cynical about the idea of cohabitation in a relationship. Im 32 with my own home and the idea of dealing with such a complicated things is not appealing in the least bit.

  • @DiscordBeing
    @DiscordBeing 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    This feels so like my world, so much. Thank you for sharing the real story.

  • @isabelgalvao1713
    @isabelgalvao1713 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Hearing this story and I can relate this to my relationship. I’ve been through a lot so I developed a fearful attachment style and my boyfriend is just like Martin loving and kind.
    The more he loves me the more I reject myself and internalize I’m not good enough. I only dated him and was loyal. I tried to be with my boyfriend he was so loving but noticed I was hurting myself and accidentally hurting him. So to say in my case I loved him so much but I was so afraid of giving my heart and being abandoned and I’m hurting and only love him but he’s moving on and I’m healing. Not everyone is evil some people go through a lot.

  • @TamakiCherry
    @TamakiCherry 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I just wanted to let you know that the technique with letting go of resentments and fears work. I noticed how often I get triggered a couple weeks ago and then immediately found your video right after. It works! I don’t start looping into a sea of anger and resentment, especially OLD resentments, it goes away quick. I don’t write it because I find always having pen and paper ready inconvenient, but using my phone helps and provides relief

  • @pixie3458
    @pixie3458 หลายเดือนก่อน

    26:46 validation by someone who gets it is so important! I feel this is essential to healing. I am looking for a therapist and when I interview them, if they don't get it, I no longer go there. So many times in the past I thought i could get through to them, but like talking to my ex husband, it was pointless and left me more traumatised and alone than when I started

  • @charlieb6
    @charlieb6 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I've watched countless self help videos and have read many self help books,but none have made me feel so at ease as listening to your videos.
    I have been on the giving and receiving end of negative behavioural patterns.
    I use to think I don't deserve a loving relationship but your helping me to see that with healing in time that is possible. I hear love yourself first so much but with little insight on where to start.
    For me your videos are a stepping stone towards truly building a lasting foundation within myself that will allow for positive ongoing change to happen.
    I'm glad to have found you at this time.
    Thankyou

  • @tablescissors
    @tablescissors 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I also agree about feeling like you lost your energy and just wanting to get it back...well stated, been there, made that mistake, but didn't have those words then.

  • @marianbergroth8228
    @marianbergroth8228 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Thank you so much Anna!! I found your channel just a week ago, and since I have swum in your accurate, compassionate, and helpful content. In this specific video, when looking back at my life, I actually see myself in both people. Oh dear, this healing life! So grateful to live in a time where people can share and gather on the internet. Best wishes from Sweden

  • @MsLoila
    @MsLoila 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Hi, it's some amazing content you are putting out. Can you also please add videos about sexual trauma and feeling dirty and disgusted and how it may affect people with cptsd.

  • @milenamarushkina3195
    @milenamarushkina3195 3 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    Absolutely love your videos and the knowledge you’re putting out into the world! I finally feel so deeply understood in a way I never have before. Thank you ❤️

  • @simpatico4004
    @simpatico4004 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I’ve felt like I sacrifice all my critical reasoning skills to be in these relationships. Like my gut is screaming but I have to rationalize behaviors. It’s exhausting just listening to this.

  • @29poodle
    @29poodle 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I needed this video. It wasn't my letter, but wow!! I have had very similar experiences and this helps so much.

  • @dianeyoung8068
    @dianeyoung8068 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I can't even listen to the letter a second time, I feel my energy being drained by this situation. I just hope this man is able to free himself from this relationship. All I can say is that leaving, no matter how painful is what he needs to do.... don't expect it will be easy, take it one moment at a time when things are tough and really try not to communicate with her...it is like an alcoholic trying not to have a drink. Also, don't do this to your kids, get out from under this situation.

  • @somethingclever8916
    @somethingclever8916 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Changing my phone number was very hard into going no contact. But it worked and prevented me from reaching out

  • @MeMe-mt6xv
    @MeMe-mt6xv 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Yes, emotionally draining letter. The problem is that she, "Anna", is "normal" meaning CONSIDERATE at times when you think she will be off the rails. For example, texting she got your letter & will get back with you...very calm, very emotionally mature. Then later calling to say she won't be answering the letter. Anyone who I have sent a letter to or set a boundary, has retaliated with either anger or belittling me or my thought
    process.

  • @CS-hw2pd
    @CS-hw2pd 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    These vids r so great- breaking it down, u can c clearly where ur own experience matches up. Making complex concepts totally relatable. No mean feat, thanku so much💚

  • @DocIme
    @DocIme 2 ปีที่แล้ว +30

    Oh my!! Sounds so much like my experience with my narc!! It’s extremely difficult to get fully rehabilitated from this addiction. They definitely have mastered the art of victimizing innocent, trusting, loving empaths. I’m still trying to be free from this unbelievably cruel situation. Almost in my fourth year. God help us 🙏🙏

    • @CrappyChildhoodFairy
      @CrappyChildhoodFairy  2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      4 years healing is great work!
      -Cara@TeamFairy

    • @DocIme
      @DocIme 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@CrappyChildhoodFairy Not easy coz I always relapse/backslide and have to start from zero again. But listening to podcasts like these help me go back up again. Plus prayers, of course!