Glad to see you doing so well. I hope you continue your videos even as you complete your transition, I know that I would not be the only person to miss your bright smiling face! Seriously though, you are an inspiration and you have touched many lives. Best wishes for you.
Wow! 2.5 years. That's geat! My fiance has not yet started his transition but watching videos of you guys who have already started and even gotten years into it really gives me hope that just even getting on T will make him feel a little bit closer to who he feels he is. And he'll be happy. Because that's all I want is for him to be happy with himself and his life. Thanks so much for sharing this update. Look forward to your next. Congrats on 2.5 years!
Dade, As a professional counselor I must say that you are amazing role model for those youth that feel trapped in the wrong body! Please continue your updates on TH-cam. You have no idea how beneficial, education & inspirational your videos are to those challenged youth!
Dade, you are one awesome dude now! I don't even know you personally, but I feel a lot of happiness and joy for what you have accomplished. All your research, work, and determination have really paid off in your success. Kudos.
hey Dade, last night i was watching TH-cam videos at like 1 am because i have a sunburn and poison ivy so sleep was just not going to happen. anyway, an add for one of your videos came up, and i was about to click "Skip", because i didn't think i would care about what some shirtless guy was talking about in a TH-cam ad, and then my eyes flicked up to the title, and it was your 8 month video. i starred at that title, then back and you, and just said out loud "no way." and immediately clicked your channel, and literally spent the whole night, from about 2 am to 8 am watching almost all of your videos (once Zane was born, it was really hard not to skip to more videos of her.) it was a really life changing experience for me, (also, the atmosphere was quite cinematic: the sky got lighter with the sunrise as i watched your life change and improve so much.) when my mom woke up, and after she got over the initial shock of her 17 year old being awake at 8 am, i just talked and talked and talked about all the things i learned that night, and not just about transgendery transitiony things, but about going through life with someone beside you. The way you and Tiff were able to talk about how you two worked through the shit, i mean, respect doesn't even begin to cover what i feel. I'm not a sappy cheesy person, but honestly, It was gosh darn inspiring. literally, it inspired me. I made a list of things i want to remember to talk about with my boyfriend when i see him tomorrow and tell him about your videos. gah i can't form anymore coherent thoughts, it's been a loooong time since i slept, but i couldn't go to bed without telling you that I love your existence, and your family and, just yeah. just a lot of Platonic love man. okay. goodnight :) -Flo, 17, NYC.
Wow.. that's dedication! Thanks for being so interested, and for sharing the videos with others. I feel like education is the key to making transition normal. Peace, my friend!
Your videos are amazing. You are amazing. So happy for you and your little family. Tiffany is one lucky lady and you are one lucky man. Thank you for another "real talk" video.
So happy for you that everything is going well. You have such a great personality and I'm happy that you found a way back into writing again. It can be such a relief just writing everything that's going on in your head on paper. I wish you and your wife all of the happiness in the world, you guys are amazing people
I've been wondering how you're doing! Thanks for the update. Cool hair! Wow, what a long brain fog. That's awesome that you're feeling better now... I can see how getting the hysto could help with that... hormones are probably more peaceful now.
Congrats on reaching 2.5 years, man! You look amazing. You've been a huge inspiration and help to me through my transition thus far just by sharing your story and progress. I hope I'll be able to help other guys in the way you've helped me. Keep up the great work. 😊 Thanks very much.
It has really been my pleasure, man. Like you, I started documenting this because I wanted to help others like they had helped me. This is an amazing community.
I feel nothing but pure masculine vibes from you. You are and always have been a real man. I am glad your transition is going so well. I wish you the best. :)
Thank you very much for the update! I think I can relate a little to your brain fog relating to transition. Writing is a great tool. I enjoy writing too, especially poetry.
You and your wife have inspired me in more ways than you know. You're so courageous to share your story and educate others. I hope all the positive comments you receive outweigh any hate and ignorance you have to face. I wish you and your family much happiness.
Wow. That was very interesting since I'm mtf and I too went through an initial phase when I felt 'dumbed down'. I was on high estrogen doses during the brunt of my transition and have lowered them since, but the difference for me was that it was my abstract thinking that was shot. I noticed this because it was suddenly harder to keep up in debates with male colleagues at work (theoretical sciences). I tried not to pigeonhole my transition with preconceptions, but some of the cognitive changes I endured were surprisingly stereotypical. Some feminists, I suspect, would hate us for our insidious insights into the biological basis of gender :) . It also took me roughly the same time -- 3 years -- before everything felt normal again. You're a handsome man now btw. You ftm blokes always make us jealous with your 100% passable transitions :)
I'm so excited for you in knowing you won't have pre op and post op worries much longer and that your vacation days will be for relaxation and FUN! But for us out here in TH-cam, I hope you continue to share with us and still make videos. As well as write. Maybe share your writing! I LOVED when you did before.
Thanks for posting, this was so inspirational! Also, that is a super high dose. I know how you feel thinking about what to do with all that spare time after transition. I'm not there yet, but I think about it all the time and it's very intimidating.
Dearest Dade. I've been following your journey for over a year now and I'm glad to hear you say " Geeze I think we're done." I'm so happy for you guys and I'm so glad to hear you say the word "normal" for a change. I think we all long for a little bit of peace and normalcy and no one deserves it more than you and Tiff. What to do in your newly found spare time? Live life with your wife and daughter. Live it to the fullest. I think you need to double up on the foot rubs and candlelight dinners for a while, my dude!
I love these update videos Dade. Also, no offense intended, but you look super hot in this video. I'm so happy that you're feeling better and that you've found a good dose of T for you. :)
Hi men! Your updates have been really useful, thanks for them a lot! I'm in my 4th month on T (250 mg each 2 weeks) and the "fog" is a really big deal to me now since I have a brain demanding job and I'm studying a master in engineering, so if my "money-maker" (brain) doesn't work... I'm in trouble! I hope you have some advice for me... I feel happy with all the changes but I miss my full metal skills... Bye the way... congratulations on the beautiful family you have.
Dade, you are such an incredible person, as with your wife and you are someone I look up to so highly. You look incredible now. Also, have you been working out recently? Your arms look more muscular/defined. Hope you and your family are doing well.
I feel a fog in terms of writing, "finding the right words" and in general articulating opinions since I've been back on testosterone. I still follow all the same trans women feminists on twitter and they seem a lot more intelligent and thoughtful than I am since I've been back on. I'm happier, though. I feel like I'm transitioning into a family dog.
I know exactly what you mean about the brain fog! I've been experiencing it for 2 years along with low energy and feeling generally less intelligent. I also feel like my thought process is significantly slower and that I can't seem to find words when I am talking. This was a very good insight and I will have to get my levels checked now. Also, is your blog still up cuz I haven't been able to find it for a while?
So good that the brain fog has cleared!! I experienced that too but not sure I attributed it to the actual hormones as much as just the transition process fogging my brain in general. Interesting about the high dose. Last time I had my levels checked and asked my doctor about it, she said my T was on the low end but that she would never prescribe more than the 100mg/week I'm on. I'm having them checked again in August so I will ask about it again. In what way did the low levels affect you? I feel great for the most part but I get way more tired and still need a lot of sleep almost 2 years in... I can easily sleep for 12 hours if I don't set an alarm. Maybe its just puberty :/
After my levels were raised I had more energy and stamina; I required less sleep as well. The higher dose has really helped with fat leaving my hips/butt area and has made muscle gains easier. I just feel a general sense of clarity that I didn't before. I have not had my levels checked since I've been on 140, but I'm going to next week.
This is going to sound a bit trite, but I wonder if the brain fog was partly due to the mental distraction that one has with transitioning?Now that it's almost complete...the " fog has lifted". So glad you're well.
Dade im losing my mind! I know I was able to send you private messages before but I just got a galaxy S5 and I can't figure out for the life of me where to go or how to do it now. But anyways...the point of my (supposed to be private) messsge was that I dont know if you remember bsck but I had asked you about the medical food you were taking for your cleanse and I took your advice snd googled it, looked some ip on smazon, snd it just seems like so many different price ranges and types, is there a certain brsnd you could suggest or multiple brands? They are fairly pricey and my guy and I (we are official now♡♡)don't have the funds to try a bunch that are no good. Thank you SOOOO much for helping me out with all these questions ive pestered you with over the year. And im SOOO happy things are finally settling down a bit. I LOVE the new haircut!!!
The impact of the different hormones on the brain is very real essentially that's why all humans have a male brain and a female brain in varying ratios. Hormones affect different areas of the brain e.g testosterone is linked to spacial abilities. When we start adding and altering the hormones in our bodies our bodies/brain has to go through a stagnant process whereby the new hormone is trying to over ride messaging in our cells. So for FTM estrogen WAS giving the orders to the cells on how our body/brain should function, now it's testosterone. It's a bit like travelling forwards in your car and needing to reverse you first have to stop to change gear to go in your new direction. This happens to our cells when changing hormones and this process causes the mental 'lag' or essentially puberty.:)
How did you know that raising your dose was the right direction to go versus lowering it? I'm in the same boat that you were in with your testosterone levels. I've been on T a little over 2 years. I have been struggling for months with my endocrinologist to lower my testosterone levels because they are extremely high still and she is worried they are contributing to my fat retention around my hips. I have been told there was a point where you have such high T levels that it converts to estrogen and can contribute to "feminine" fat distribution. That is why I thought lower my dose would help. Thanks!
It's true - if your levels are too high it is converted into estrogen. When I have my levels checked I have both he T and the E checked. My T levels are good and my estrogen is still low, so I know that my dose is appropriate. I knew I needed to raise my dose because my T levels were low.
Less intelligent? YES! I associated it with getting older, but it seems more pronounced than one would expect at my age (48). I have a much more difficult time with word selection when speaking, which is frustrating as a public speaker!
Dude. Looking good. I hope the brain fog lifts all the way for ya...I'd hate to think that the same person may be not quite as bright or quick as a different gender; do you find yourself feeling more and more self-confidence, or does that still ebb and flow like before?
The brain fog has lifted, fortunately. I am happy about that. Generally speaking I am more confident now... mostly because I'm not constantly dealing with situations where some one questions my gender. Also, I just feel myself now - rather then self conscience.
I'm glad for ya! My kid has recently told me they are neither gender, and that's fine. The pronouns are the hardest thing; I just want my kid to be happy. I even felt that I should give them a name that could go for either male or female (The very beautiful name, Milyka, I thought, could be Mike or Mikey if they wanted, in high school, but it turns out they like Mihail. This is an adventure at the best of times, a hindrance sometimes as well. I am a gay man trapped in the body of a straight woman. And I'm looking for that rare guy who feels like a gay woman trapped in a straight man's body/IF that makes any sense! ;) Best of luck to you; please keep doing up-dates as you see fit. Bless you for sharing your experience. I have a feeling "god" may not be finished with some of us yet! ;)
I was wondering, also, about what time did you know you wanted to have the transition? And also, I am so curious(excuse me) but are your parents gender non-compliant(for lack of a better word; I know my 19 year old would correct me; they know everything, of course, as any teen does. ;)
Are or were you in Alaska or Oregon? I lived in Alaska for 16 years and Oregon for 2 and Ill be moving back in a couple of years cause I REALLY miss the west. Was wondering how you feel the community is regarding your change? Have you had a lot of positives? Im wondering cause I know Oregon is totally cool with it (western Oregon anyway) and Alaska is ok with it. Just curious how your found the comfort of others wherever you are.
wow really just OK? thats surprising! thats one of the reasons i love the PORTLAND area is that it was so very diverse and accepting. I had finally felt like i fit in there! :) It definitely differs from Eastern Oregon. I was in Portland and had a private practice in Beaverton in Griffith Park. Ill probably reopen upon my return. I truly miss living there. Just wanted to say that I appreciate your forthcomingness in your process and progress through this touchy subject. ;) Ive got your back. No worries.
Was your new dose you found worked for you an increase in your levels, and what were the T levels that were finally good for you? And since you've been on it, has it been easier to keep off body fat? I'm doing my own research right now to try and figure out what effect T levels have on body fat and fat redistribution, cause I know something's off with my fat redistribution, but it seems people are insisting upon the fact that if you're within the 300-1200 range there's no difference what your levels are, despite studies I'm finding that say otherwise, and clearly, your experience (unless your levels were super low). Anyway, if you don't mind answering, that'd be really helpful.
BowlMasterAsh Higher testosterone is directly responsible for fat loss. With that being said... some of us don't have the magic exodus of fat, I didn't. It seems like people who start later in life have a harder time losing the fat.
The brainfog is puberty too, dont you think? The dumbness, the crazy horniness, constant sleepy, we all have to go through it, our real puberty. A bit late. Closer to 3 years on T I feel Im maturing, clearing up and coming out of it, from boy to man.
I'm at this point where my own mental fog is lifting and I'm trying to start writing again. It feels great to know it wasn't just me feeling dumber and mentally slower. It's been both a blessing and a curse since I do want to continue writing, but the fog gave me calm too. And my brain doesn't function the exact same way - I have the same kind of thoughts, the same logical processes, but they just happen in a different way. Do you have a similar experience as well?
You know, most people experience a change in how they think and feel when they transition... I didn't/haven't. Other than feeling a bit dull for a while... everything else mentally stayed the same for me.
This is amazing! I admire you for your courage, congratz. But hey, I've seen your video about one year on t, you seemed to be getting married as a girl in one of the pictures, so, have you ever been married to someone else other than your current wife? (I don't mean to be butting in, u dont have to answer k) take care :)
i have come out to my mom and my cousins(but not like fully like i said I'm trans but i don't think they really understood what i said they are like 15, and 12.) but i guess my biggest concern is wether or not my dad my grandpa my other cousins timmy and danny ( cousins are like both 26 and 27 year olds) and my uncle mike. it seems like i am only interested in wether or not the cis male people in my family will "accept" me, because in a way i guess the only females in my family that might not "accept" me is both of my grandmas. but whats weird is i feel like my great grandparents (both past) would have accepted it. i don't know i guess its kind of weird. I'm going to come out to they at some point especially before i go on T but i guess me thinking they won't "accept" me is just me "judging" them on their personalities i guess.
The TH-cam email has been gaining a reputation for being unreliable, particularly in the last year or so.. It's interesting for me to hear you talk about secondary effects resulting from hormone manipulation.. Because of prostate cancer I'm now taking a drug known as Lupron. It's a testosterone destroyer and is doing a good job getting my PSA to zero, but I'm experiencing many side effects. Weight loss (horay), constant hot flashes, mood swings, "brain fog" just like you, memory problems (can't spell worth a hoot)...it's like I'm discovering what it feels like to be "stupid". Now I never considered myself a genius, but losing some of your intellectual facility is scary as hell. Shots every 6 months....each shot costs $4,600. Luckily my insurance covers the bulk of it So, in a different way, I can relate.
Wow, what a lot to go through. I'm sorry about all of your difficulties. It sounds like anytime hormones are messed with we dumb down... maybe that is part of the reason why teenagers have the problems they do?
Haha! What am I going to do with all my free time? Just you wait, Daddy. Zane will have so many school and personal activities, it will make your head spin! Lacrosse practice, horseback riding, play dates, track & field, poetry slams, marching band, etc. Hang on tight! Haha! Also known as...the best times ever! ENJOY!
Hey buddy, So will taking testosterone cause hair fall on the head region??....i mean usually guys experience hair fall right, so i was wondering weather taking hormones will cause hair fall on the head region.
dont you think the brain fog might actually be called puberty?^^ maybe its totally different for you, then im sorry about this comment, but it sound exactly like what i've experienced in my first and second puberty! so... i dont think T has made me more stupid, but i've experienced everything being harder, in terms of focusing and getting somewhere intellectually if that makes sense, and then that kinda clearing up again after around 1,5 years on T, and the first time when i was around 18, so... just my thoughts on this. sorry if i sound weird, not my first language :)
Has the comments been since you got your haircut? Or maybe your face is still changing a bit. Also, Is it possible that your voice is STILL getting deeper? I know I wont get in trouble for saying this so I will. You are beyond gorgeous dude.
Glad to see you doing so well. I hope you continue your videos even as you complete your transition, I know that I would not be the only person to miss your bright smiling face! Seriously though, you are an inspiration and you have touched many lives. Best wishes for you.
I don't know if being handsome was ever important to you but you are one good looking guy. I'm so happy for you.
Wow! 2.5 years. That's geat! My fiance has not yet started his transition but watching videos of you guys who have already started and even gotten years into it really gives me hope that just even getting on T will make him feel a little bit closer to who he feels he is. And he'll be happy. Because that's all I want is for him to be happy with himself and his life. Thanks so much for sharing this update. Look forward to your next. Congrats on 2.5 years!
Dade,
As a professional counselor I must say that you are amazing role model for those youth that feel trapped in the wrong body!
Please continue your updates on TH-cam.
You have no idea how beneficial, education & inspirational your videos are to those challenged youth!
Dade, you are one awesome dude now! I don't even know you personally, but I feel a lot of happiness and joy for what you have accomplished. All your research, work, and determination have really paid off in your success. Kudos.
hey Dade, last night i was watching TH-cam videos at like 1 am because i have a sunburn and poison ivy so sleep was just not going to happen. anyway, an add for one of your videos came up, and i was about to click "Skip", because i didn't think i would care about what some shirtless guy was talking about in a TH-cam ad, and then my eyes flicked up to the title, and it was your 8 month video. i starred at that title, then back and you, and just said out loud "no way." and immediately clicked your channel, and literally spent the whole night, from about 2 am to 8 am watching almost all of your videos (once Zane was born, it was really hard not to skip to more videos of her.) it was a really life changing experience for me, (also, the atmosphere was quite cinematic: the sky got lighter with the sunrise as i watched your life change and improve so much.) when my mom woke up, and after she got over the initial shock of her 17 year old being awake at 8 am, i just talked and talked and talked about all the things i learned that night, and not just about transgendery transitiony things, but about going through life with someone beside you. The way you and Tiff were able to talk about how you two worked through the shit, i mean, respect doesn't even begin to cover what i feel. I'm not a sappy cheesy person, but honestly, It was gosh darn inspiring. literally, it inspired me. I made a list of things i want to remember to talk about with my boyfriend when i see him tomorrow and tell him about your videos. gah i can't form anymore coherent thoughts, it's been a loooong time since i slept, but i couldn't go to bed without telling you that I love your existence, and your family and, just yeah. just a lot of Platonic love man. okay. goodnight :) -Flo, 17, NYC.
Wow.. that's dedication! Thanks for being so interested, and for sharing the videos with others. I feel like education is the key to making transition normal. Peace, my friend!
Your videos are amazing. You are amazing. So happy for you and your little family. Tiffany is one lucky lady and you are one lucky man. Thank you for another "real talk" video.
You're looking so good, Dade! Thanks for the update!
So happy for you that everything is going well. You have such a great personality and I'm happy that you found a way back into writing again. It can be such a relief just writing everything that's going on in your head on paper. I wish you and your wife all of the happiness in the world, you guys are amazing people
What kind words. Thanks:)
I've been wondering how you're doing! Thanks for the update. Cool hair! Wow, what a long brain fog. That's awesome that you're feeling better now... I can see how getting the hysto could help with that... hormones are probably more peaceful now.
Congrats on reaching 2.5 years, man! You look amazing. You've been a huge inspiration and help to me through my transition thus far just by sharing your story and progress. I hope I'll be able to help other guys in the way you've helped me. Keep up the great work. 😊 Thanks very much.
It has really been my pleasure, man. Like you, I started documenting this because I wanted to help others like they had helped me. This is an amazing community.
That's awesome. And I completely agree. There is so much support.
I feel nothing but pure masculine vibes from you. You are and always have been a real man. I am glad your transition is going so well. I wish you the best. :)
Thank you very much for the update! I think I can relate a little to your brain fog relating to transition. Writing is a great tool. I enjoy writing too, especially poetry.
You and your wife have inspired me in more ways than you know. You're so courageous to share your story and educate others. I hope all the positive comments you receive outweigh any hate and ignorance you have to face. I wish you and your family much happiness.
Thank you for your kindness and support.
Wow. That was very interesting since I'm mtf and I too went through an initial phase when I felt 'dumbed down'. I was on high estrogen doses during the brunt of my transition and have lowered them since, but the difference for me was that it was my abstract thinking that was shot. I noticed this because it was suddenly harder to keep up in debates with male colleagues at work (theoretical sciences). I tried not to pigeonhole my transition with preconceptions, but some of the cognitive changes I endured were surprisingly stereotypical. Some feminists, I suspect, would hate us for our insidious insights into the biological basis of gender :) . It also took me roughly the same time -- 3 years -- before everything felt normal again. You're a handsome man now btw. You ftm blokes always make us jealous with your 100% passable transitions :)
I wonder if this is comparable to what teenagers go through when in puberty? It seems like any sudden hormone influx has this affect.
You look great! Also, you're evolving, seemingly more open and happier.
I'm so excited for you in knowing you won't have pre op and post op worries much longer and that your vacation days will be for relaxation and FUN! But for us out here in TH-cam, I hope you continue to share with us and still make videos. As well as write. Maybe share your writing! I LOVED when you did before.
Hey Dade. I just started watching your videos. I am new to this transition thing and you inspire me so much. Thank you for these videos!
Also, feel free to message me on here...I'd love to talk with you about everything.
Thanks for posting, this was so inspirational! Also, that is a super high dose.
I know how you feel thinking about what to do with all that spare time after transition. I'm not there yet, but I think about it all the time and it's very intimidating.
Dearest Dade. I've been following your journey for over a year now and I'm glad to hear you say " Geeze I think we're done." I'm so happy for you guys and I'm so glad to hear you say the word "normal" for a change. I think we all long for a little bit of peace and normalcy and no one deserves it more than you and Tiff. What to do in your newly found spare time? Live life with your wife and daughter. Live it to the fullest. I think you need to double up on the foot rubs and candlelight dinners for a while, my dude!
I think you may be right!
You look so extremelly handsome!!!! :) And happy too! Congratulations!
I've seen you after 8 months on HRT and now 2,5 y. So good! you look awesome, enjoy life ;)
The next step after transition is finally living bud. Take it easy Dade! Glad you're finally feeling yourself!
Glad to hear from you Dade
Congratulations Dade!!!!
Super handsome dude. Glad to have been following you for some time now.
You look and sound great Dade!
I love these update videos Dade. Also, no offense intended, but you look super hot in this video. I'm so happy that you're feeling better and that you've found a good dose of T for you. :)
Best wishes and i hope you can finally enjoy your life.
I'm happy for you dude! :) you look great! - I'm struggling to get my arms to your size!! haha :D
Hi men! Your updates have been really useful, thanks for them a lot! I'm in my 4th month on T (250 mg each 2 weeks) and the "fog" is a really big deal to me now since I have a brain demanding job and I'm studying a master in engineering, so if my "money-maker" (brain) doesn't work... I'm in trouble! I hope you have some advice for me... I feel happy with all the changes but I miss my full metal skills... Bye the way... congratulations on the beautiful family you have.
Dade, you are such an incredible person, as with your wife and you are someone I look up to so highly. You look incredible now. Also, have you been working out recently? Your arms look more muscular/defined. Hope you and your family are doing well.
I have been working out. I had to stop for quite a while after surgery, but I'm starting to get back into it. Thanks for the kind words, my friend.
I feel a fog in terms of writing, "finding the right words" and in general articulating opinions since I've been back on testosterone. I still follow all the same trans women feminists on twitter and they seem a lot more intelligent and thoughtful than I am since I've been back on. I'm happier, though. I feel like I'm transitioning into a family dog.
I know exactly what you mean about the brain fog! I've been experiencing it for 2 years along with low energy and feeling generally less intelligent. I also feel like my thought process is significantly slower and that I can't seem to find words when I am talking. This was a very good insight and I will have to get my levels checked now. Also, is your blog still up cuz I haven't been able to find it for a while?
I changed the link. Message me for the new one.
Your looking pretty good Dade. I think your house looks beautiful.
So good that the brain fog has cleared!! I experienced that too but not sure I attributed it to the actual hormones as much as just the transition process fogging my brain in general. Interesting about the high dose. Last time I had my levels checked and asked my doctor about it, she said my T was on the low end but that she would never prescribe more than the 100mg/week I'm on. I'm having them checked again in August so I will ask about it again. In what way did the low levels affect you? I feel great for the most part but I get way more tired and still need a lot of sleep almost 2 years in... I can easily sleep for 12 hours if I don't set an alarm. Maybe its just puberty :/
After my levels were raised I had more energy and stamina; I required less sleep as well. The higher dose has really helped with fat leaving my hips/butt area and has made muscle gains easier. I just feel a general sense of clarity that I didn't before. I have not had my levels checked since I've been on 140, but I'm going to next week.
This is going to sound a bit trite, but I wonder if the brain fog was partly due to the mental distraction that one has with transitioning?Now that it's almost complete...the " fog has lifted". So glad you're well.
I hear what you're saying, but I don't think that was it. Honestly, I felt mentally buzzed (as in drunk)!
Dade im losing my mind! I know I was able to send you private messages before but I just got a galaxy S5 and I can't figure out for the life of me where to go or how to do it now. But anyways...the point of my (supposed to be private) messsge was that I dont know if you remember bsck but I had asked you about the medical food you were taking for your cleanse and I took your advice snd googled it, looked some ip on smazon, snd it just seems like so many different price ranges and types, is there a certain brsnd you could suggest or multiple brands? They are fairly pricey and my guy and I (we are official now♡♡)don't have the funds to try a bunch that are no good. Thank you SOOOO much for helping me out with all these questions ive pestered you with over the year. And im SOOO happy things are finally settling down a bit. I LOVE the new haircut!!!
0penYourEyez I'll message you.
The impact of the different hormones on the brain is very real essentially that's why all humans have a male brain and a female brain in varying ratios. Hormones affect different areas of the brain e.g testosterone is linked to spacial abilities. When we start adding and altering the hormones in our bodies our bodies/brain has to go through a stagnant process whereby the new hormone is trying to over ride messaging in our cells. So for FTM estrogen WAS giving the orders to the cells on how our body/brain should function, now it's testosterone. It's a bit like travelling forwards in your car and needing to reverse you first have to stop to change gear to go in your new direction. This happens to our cells when changing hormones and this process causes the mental 'lag' or essentially puberty.:)
How did you know that raising your dose was the right direction to go versus lowering it? I'm in the same boat that you were in with your testosterone levels. I've been on T a little over 2 years. I have been struggling for months with my endocrinologist to lower my testosterone levels because they are extremely high still and she is worried they are contributing to my fat retention around my hips. I have been told there was a point where you have such high T levels that it converts to estrogen and can contribute to "feminine" fat distribution. That is why I thought lower my dose would help. Thanks!
It's true - if your levels are too high it is converted into estrogen. When I have my levels checked I have both he T and the E checked. My T levels are good and my estrogen is still low, so I know that my dose is appropriate. I knew I needed to raise my dose because my T levels were low.
Great vid!
As a gay man I never thought I would be attracted to a transgender guy but Dade you are a smoking hot guy.
I swear your soo good looking!!!!!
Less intelligent? YES! I associated it with getting older, but it seems more pronounced than one would expect at my age (48). I have a much more difficult time with word selection when speaking, which is frustrating as a public speaker!
Dude. Looking good. I hope the brain fog lifts all the way for ya...I'd hate to think that the same person may be not quite as bright or quick as a different gender; do you find yourself feeling more and more self-confidence, or does that still ebb and flow like before?
The brain fog has lifted, fortunately. I am happy about that. Generally speaking I am more confident now... mostly because I'm not constantly dealing with situations where some one questions my gender. Also, I just feel myself now - rather then self conscience.
I'm glad for ya! My kid has recently told me they are neither gender, and that's fine. The pronouns are the hardest thing; I just want my kid to be happy. I even felt that I should give them a name that could go for either male or female (The very beautiful name, Milyka, I thought, could be Mike or Mikey if they wanted, in high school, but it turns out they like Mihail. This is an adventure at the best of times, a hindrance sometimes as well. I am a gay man trapped in the body of a straight woman. And I'm looking for that rare guy who feels like a gay woman trapped in a straight man's body/IF that makes any sense! ;) Best of luck to you; please keep doing up-dates as you see fit. Bless you for sharing your experience. I have a feeling "god" may not be finished with some of us yet! ;)
I was wondering, also, about what time did you know you wanted to have the transition? And also, I am so curious(excuse me) but are your parents gender non-compliant(for lack of a better word; I know my 19 year old would correct me; they know everything, of course, as any teen does. ;)
Are or were you in Alaska or Oregon? I lived in Alaska for 16 years and Oregon for 2 and Ill be moving back in a couple of years cause I REALLY miss the west. Was wondering how you feel the community is regarding your change? Have you had a lot of positives? Im wondering cause I know Oregon is totally cool with it (western Oregon anyway) and Alaska is ok with it. Just curious how your found the comfort of others wherever you are.
I live in Oregon. The area I am in has been ok... not great, but ok. I haven't sought any comfort from others. I'm kind of a loner.
wow really just OK? thats surprising! thats one of the reasons i love the PORTLAND area is that it was so very diverse and accepting. I had finally felt like i fit in there! :) It definitely differs from Eastern Oregon. I was in Portland and had a private practice in Beaverton in Griffith Park. Ill probably reopen upon my return. I truly miss living there. Just wanted to say that I appreciate your forthcomingness in your process and progress through this touchy subject. ;) Ive got your back. No worries.
Was your new dose you found worked for you an increase in your levels, and what were the T levels that were finally good for you? And since you've been on it, has it been easier to keep off body fat? I'm doing my own research right now to try and figure out what effect T levels have on body fat and fat redistribution, cause I know something's off with my fat redistribution, but it seems people are insisting upon the fact that if you're within the 300-1200 range there's no difference what your levels are, despite studies I'm finding that say otherwise, and clearly, your experience (unless your levels were super low). Anyway, if you don't mind answering, that'd be really helpful.
BowlMasterAsh Higher testosterone is directly responsible for fat loss. With that being said... some of us don't have the magic exodus of fat, I didn't. It seems like people who start later in life have a harder time losing the fat.
The brainfog is puberty too, dont you think? The dumbness, the crazy horniness, constant sleepy, we all have to go through it, our real puberty. A bit late. Closer to 3 years on T I feel Im maturing, clearing up and coming out of it, from boy to man.
I'm at this point where my own mental fog is lifting and I'm trying to start writing again. It feels great to know it wasn't just me feeling dumber and mentally slower. It's been both a blessing and a curse since I do want to continue writing, but the fog gave me calm too. And my brain doesn't function the exact same way - I have the same kind of thoughts, the same logical processes, but they just happen in a different way. Do you have a similar experience as well?
You know, most people experience a change in how they think and feel when they transition... I didn't/haven't. Other than feeling a bit dull for a while... everything else mentally stayed the same for me.
Looking good, bro! I was wondering if it is okay to take testosterone (ftm) if I have gallstones. Your response is appreciated. Thanks!
That is something to ask your doctor, man.
I'm getting crazy, I can not figure out how to make visible the "send message" ...
This is amazing! I admire you for your courage, congratz. But hey, I've seen your video about one year on t, you seemed to be getting married as a girl in one of the pictures, so, have you ever been married to someone else other than your current wife? (I don't mean to be butting in, u dont have to answer k) take care :)
Yes, Tiff is my second marriage.
Ah shit didn't even make 45 seconds in without breaking down
I'm so happy for you, sorry I can't Finish watching
i have come out to my mom and my cousins(but not like fully like i said I'm trans but i don't think they really understood what i said they are like 15, and 12.) but i guess my biggest concern is wether or not my dad my grandpa my other cousins timmy and danny ( cousins are like both 26 and 27 year olds) and my uncle mike. it seems like i am only interested in wether or not the cis male people in my family will "accept" me, because in a way i guess the only females in my family that might not "accept" me is both of my grandmas. but whats weird is i feel like my great grandparents (both past) would have accepted it. i don't know i guess its kind of weird. I'm going to come out to they at some point especially before i go on T but i guess me thinking they won't "accept" me is just me "judging" them on their personalities i guess.
Nice hair!
Your biceps are pretty big. What excerise u doing?
Mostly pull-ups and chin-ups.
Hey bro, where are you planning on getting your last surgery done?
All my surgeries are done, at this point.
The TH-cam email has been gaining a reputation for being unreliable, particularly in the last year or so.. It's interesting for me to hear you talk about secondary effects resulting from hormone manipulation.. Because of prostate cancer I'm now taking a drug known as Lupron. It's a testosterone destroyer and is doing a good job getting my PSA to zero, but I'm experiencing many side effects. Weight loss (horay), constant hot flashes, mood swings, "brain fog" just like you, memory problems (can't spell worth a hoot)...it's like I'm discovering what it feels like to be "stupid". Now I never considered myself a genius, but losing some of your intellectual facility is scary as hell. Shots every 6 months....each shot costs $4,600. Luckily my insurance covers the bulk of it So, in a different way, I can relate.
Wow, what a lot to go through. I'm sorry about all of your difficulties. It sounds like anytime hormones are messed with we dumb down... maybe that is part of the reason why teenagers have the problems they do?
Haha! What am I going to do with all my free time? Just you wait, Daddy. Zane will have so many school and personal activities, it will make your head spin! Lacrosse practice, horseback riding, play dates, track & field, poetry slams, marching band, etc. Hang on tight! Haha! Also known as...the best times ever! ENJOY!
You look great :))
Hey buddy, So will taking testosterone cause hair fall on the head region??....i mean usually guys experience hair fall right, so i was wondering weather taking hormones will cause hair fall on the head region.
Ramya Hegde If you are genetically predisposed for hairless, then yes.
Thank You ;)
dont you think the brain fog might actually be called puberty?^^ maybe its totally different for you, then im sorry about this comment, but it sound exactly like what i've experienced in my first and second puberty! so... i dont think T has made me more stupid, but i've experienced everything being harder, in terms of focusing and getting somewhere intellectually if that makes sense, and then that kinda clearing up again after around 1,5 years on T, and the first time when i was around 18, so... just my thoughts on this. sorry if i sound weird, not my first language :)
Elias Adrian Seeland Yes, definitely puberty.
ElectricDade.. can u sent me the blog to talk some..
loreto abalos Private message me for the link.
You're so handsome xD
I can tell you what your going to do with your time.... Enjoy your life, your family...travel a bit....maybe have another baby???
Has everyone ever told you that you look like Adam Levine?
Never... until the last two weeks - it has happened three times! Funny.
Has the comments been since you got your haircut? Or maybe your face is still changing a bit. Also, Is it possible that your voice is STILL getting deeper? I know I wont get in trouble for saying this so I will. You are beyond gorgeous dude.
Hey Dade, How old are you now? Thanks
he's 32
You make a really. Hot. Guy. omf.
wow, you really look like a man now, sweeetttttt, aha.