"In summary I've just always felt so lost," zomg that's me too! I feel like the female version of you and that makes me feel less alone...thank you Aaron for sharing your story ... know that you are not alone!...
My 8 yr old daughter is high functioning autistic. Watching your channel helps each of us in a different way. Thank You for what you do 🤟 Your vulnerability and honesty is appreciated.
Hey bro, glad to see you back. Everything that you said is relatable af. As a 24 year old Asperger male. I too am feeling lost in life. I was close to killing myself yesterday, but thankfully I stopped myself. I’ve been hurting myself because of all the trauma that I have been trough in my life. I too feel lost. But I’m doing everything in my power to get my life in track whilst I’m still in my 20s. Please don’t stop making videos. It’s so hard finding someone who I can genuinely relate to.
My dude, please don't hurt yourself. Trust me, things will get better. I have ADD and atypical autism and life really can be very challenging for us no one knows that more than me but mark my words you will find your own way and be so glad you kept fighting and it will make you very strong in the process. You're not alone never forget that it might feel like it but you're really not we all have our struggles. Keep going dude!
@braveheartproduction you matter man. While I might not be able to relate to what you’ve been through. Just know you are a worthwhile person and you matter. Things will get better!
I hear you. I’m on the spectrum and I relate to very few of the autistic creators on TH-cam.. I relate to Aaron, Jorden Owens and Adult with Autism. 24 is young and you have plenty of time to iron out the kinks and find something that will suit you
Hang in there brother. We all go through the dark times and thoughts you're going through. It's part of human existence unfortunately. Life can sometimes seem lonely and unfair. But I promise you, their are people who would love to have your life even if you're having a hard time seeing that. Try and keep that in mind and hang in there. Things will get better if you stay positive. 6 months ago I was in the same place as you in my life. I didn't think things could get better. They did and I'm so glad I stuck it out. I hope you do the same.
Hang in there brother, a lot of us our struggling and have no one to turn to that would genuinely care. At the end of the day the only person to show up for you, is you. Wish you better days I’m also hurting getting by
I relate… I’m autistic and in my 50s and a woman but have shared many of the same struggles as you with regards to employment and social interaction… the only place I truly thrived was when I ran my own business utilising all my strengths, no employees, and working my own hours… unfortunately I worked so hard and loved it so much that I got burnt out and ended up with crippling autoimmune disease and was put on disability and became homeless. Bought a cheap old camper and have been a wandering gypsy living in my tiny rolling home for the past 4 years. It’s not easy, but it’s a lot easier than feeling like a constant failure at meeting other people’s expectations of me. Keep shining…. Keep posting. ⭐️✨🌟 It helps a lot of us out here.
I'm not autistic but I have insane agrophobia and social anxiety. I'm 30 and I'm going to be applying for my first ever job. I know I will get denied as I have no experience but this is a huge step and I'm terrified and stopping myself already. Everyone thinks I'm lazy or not trying but I'm not on any benefits, I struggle just so much. It's really nice to hear other people trying to make small steps. I've had the sweeping incident at a hairdressers I tried to work in, "brush properly" but I thought, you aren't doing it properly you are doing it quick. I really struggle with traveling, I have licence but too scared to drive. So Im scared of getting the bus and public transport. I feel like my entire life is a mess.
same, im 31, female, but partially disabled and basically cant stand (among other things)... Ive only ever worked for either uber and my mom and self employed (selling stuff).. Im doing therapy stuff right now and wondering already what it would be like to have a real job with real employment for the first time in my life. totally scary, but im not there yet.
Security work on 3rd shift is a very good job for someone on the spectrum. Even more so nowadays with smartphones, do your hourly rounds quickly, and play on your phone and or watch movies for 45-50 minutes till next round. Easy and no stress.
Wow Aaron, this video is the one I relate to the most. The whole being slow at jobs, not fitting in, failure to launch romantically etc. I guess that's how it is for autistic men like us.
Don't forget to appreciate the stuff you did succeed at. There's not a huge percentage of TH-cam channels that have over 15K subscribers. There are also not too many men in your age group who have a steady gym routine and look this muscular.
Good rant. Definitely reminds me of my own situation. Alone at 61. Divorced in '99. Just never found another lady aside from short flings. Hopefully, you'll find someone good for you for the 2nd half of life.
Great video Aaron. We all struggle in life and I think you've done an amazing job getting through your 20's. I was a mess during mine and made a lot of the same mistakes. It's part of growing as a human. Don't be hard on yourself. I didn't hear anything in this video I wouldn't have probably done in your circumstances. I might not have gotten through it as well as you did. Just remember you're helping a lot of people with your honesty and insights. Keep going, good things are coming your way. Take care of yourself brother.
Your story is so relatable to mine Aaron, although I've never been in the army etc. keep on keeping on dude! you're helping more people than you probably realise with these videos
Love your videos dude. Highly appreciate your dialog and thought i'd leave a comment to let you know how much you're helping others through your videos 👍
Women’s loneliness is by choice because they rather be single than settle for an average guy like Aaron or others. Men are lonely because women refuse to give them a shot and only going for the top 10-20%.
Similar situation here but i was never diagnosed because my parents never cared to got me checked. I had to repeat 2 school years so therefore i was the oldest in the class but still one of the slowest in learning so they dragged me through the school system because the next step would have been special needs schooling (I dont know how its called in english). So my parents didn’t want that for me but i was always in trouble because teachers gotten stressed out by me because i didn’t understand a lot and also classmate told each other yeah hes stupid and all of that. I then had the same troubles at work and i broke up 2 apprenticeship and one boss even told my mother hes so stupid he cant even handle a vacuum cleaner although i can’t remember handling it wrong. My mother kicked me out when i was 17 because of psychological issues although i was a lovely shy boy/good kid so i started to work at my fathers construction painting business and i tried so hard to work good but it was never enough. Im now almost 32 and have to go to therapy because i want to be diagnosed. Also at work some people told me whats wrong why dont you get ‚this or that‘ and i couldn’t explain myself because i wasn’t diagnosed therefore i think its the right step for me to get myself checked..finally
Switching careers is always tough. I'm not even sure if I have enough experience to last in my current career if the job market doesn't improve massively.
As much as I hate it, social interaction has always been heavily recommended to me at every step. Maybe there's some sort of "wellness" center for adults that could help or local groups. One of my friends is in a local Pokemon GO group and they have meetups to do raids and stuff which I think is awesome. I think you'd do well as a streamer to be honest. You're well-spoken and calm. Also would like to mention that having some sort of objective helps. Maybe you can challenge yourself to make a cool 30 second beat everyday or something that will drive focus to your talents and interests? And if you particularly like a beat you've made, you can upload it as a TH-cam short? Idk, I'm just brainstorming ideas. I think it's also important to have patience and not rush to do things because I feel like I tend to do things like that and I just end up burning out.
I'm on the spectrum and ive had hundreds of jobs including day labor like you mentioned very physical tough work digging all day. I kept getting fired and i didn't know why. I became a serial job hopper. Till a year later a guy i knew at the gym got me into the oil field which it was a 6 figure job with no experience only because the guy knew me. I got fired for accidentally scraping a rig equipment it was real dark i was in a cat dump truck. I was sent home with a car i bought with the money i saves. Then i got my CDL been OTR ever since never looked back my parents let me stay with them. Best thing ive ever did got money saved through the roof no life but i got a skill where i don't have to work around people And fear getting fired and being micromanaged. I know a great deal where you come from aaron. Dont get down be strong.
Every time you post one of these videos talking about your situation, I'm struck by how much it parallels mine. So when you say you don't know anyone in your position, I know you mean personally, but man we are so much alike in so many ways. Like you, I don't know anyone personally in my situation. I have some coworkers who kind of are, but they are several years younger than me so it feels different. A key similarity with us is our age, but I'm slightly older than you, since I'll be turning 47 later this year. I've never been diagnosed as being on the spectrum, but it makes me think I probably am in much the same way you are. You talking about how slow you are at work sounds so familiar to me. It's funny, because my dad worked at the steel mill and he had the nickname 'speedy' because he was known to be so slow. Being around him actually made me feel like I was fast at getting things done, and I'm definitely not relative to other people. I was always slow at taking written tests but tended to do above average without trying. Of course, we definitely have our differences too. I think the skill you have driving the big rigs is an underappreciated skill. While obviously not rare since a lot of people do it, many of us would not be good at that, and I don't think it would've been a safe thing for me to do, I definitely romanticized and thought about doing that when I was younger, but someone would've probably gotten hurt in my learning process haha. Anyways, always good to get the updates from you. I wish we lived near each other because it'd be great to have someone like you as a friend. I hope we get to meet in person someday!
These videos are amazing. If life seems difficult and precarious, that's because it is. It's unlikely beyond comprehension that we should exist in the first place. The people who appear to have everything are often not happy, and social media projects a skewed version of reality. If you feel that something is wrong or missing, yet are unable to find it, then perhaps your starting assumption is incorrect? The idea that things are about to go wrong is another way of saying that things seem too good to be true. It all depends on how you look at it.
Aaron, your experience with the bloom is extremely relatable. For me, I get laughed at by my stepfather for not knowing how to mob the floor and he made fun of me saying stuff like you mob like a girl. My uncle from my mom side was no better and always put me down and made me feel worthless from not doing chores to his standard. Sad childhood but now that I don't have to deal with them anymore, my heart felt free.
Don't worry about it Aaron, I've always been "too slow" myself. I drove an airport shuttle and I've ended up doing CDL driving as well. Those low level jobs are shitty for everyone, less sensitive people are just less bothered by it.
The best girl for you would be one who grew up with an HFA brother. She’d understand when you’d be quiet or distant and just some of those special things. Siblings don’t think anything of it.
I too have extreme social anxiety and also extremey struggle with multitasking, i totally can relate to you 100 percent, aaron i would like to thank you for making these videos, your work history, i can so relate to you throughout my work career, i can so relate to you its so extremely relatable, i am also on the autism spectrum, and have Aspergers, thank you for making these videos, and god bless you. I also could never join the miltary because of my legal history and mental disorders, and going to a psychiatrist and that fucked up my entire childhood. Thank you aaron for making these videos, you are not alone.
4:00 It's not entirely your fault for sucking at time management, getting things done, and getting to work as a kid. Your parents failed to instill skills and mindsets into you while young to set you up for success as an adult. It's not entirely your fault but it is your responsibility. You've grown up now and picked up the pieces the best you can. You're doing great! Keep it up!!
This is great cos this is stuff I've struggled with. The executive functioning. I did similar with the broom. I was always on time but no, never good enough.
I've been single 99% too. Just had to let go of the one woman that turned up to see me because she was cruel. It's like you say, it's a path, well worn path I keep ending up falling back into
Same here. Three years ago I left the only relationship I’ve every had because she was emotionally abusive. It was a 10 year relationship but wanted to end it after 5 years but stuck with it because I didn’t want to be alone again. So I’m now 45 and probably be alone rest of my life
It’s very hard to relate to people(even if they are very nice) when you have autism and don’t have a wife/gf or kids. I have pretty good social skills but I just have little in common with most people around my age. It’s almost stranger running into old friends as I find it so difficult to explain my current situation .
@@brianmeen2158 I’m not even on the spectrum, although I don’t think I was ever diagnosed. But for some reason dating and relationships are basically nonexistent for me. I just don’t get any interest. Even from women below my smv
The thing people don't understand is if you deny other people certain milestones in life then they don't develop in those areas. As people age further from the expected age where that milestone should have been experienced/developed it becomes so much harder to catch up. People will say it's fine to have missed certain milestones but you'll find their actions say otherwise.
Yep and that’s a huge problem. Your past makes you who you are and If you grow up and didn’t achieve most of the normal life milestones that most achieve - you are going to feel like a splintered adult. You feel very uneven and past a certain point it doesn’t matter what you accomplish you will still feel awkward or off. I find it pretty much impossible to relate to peers at this point. Not good .
I have a similar lie experience as you, in some ways you're ahead of me (I'm envious of your apartment and music set up). I'm not on the spectrum but I have another health "ailment" that causes this sort of arrested development. I chuckled at you explaining your slow pace in doing tasks. I could never match the speed of my coworkers even when I made a conscious effort to. Even when I rushed through mundane tasks like cleanup I was still behind. It left me scratching my head and wondering if time functioned differently for me.
Hello Aaron, I am in the process of getting the Canadian equivalent of a CDL, and I am autistic. Do you have any advice for a guy who is just starting out? P.S. great video, I have drawn a lot of parallels between your life and mine especially when you said that all of your employers have said you were too slow.
At 19 I was signed up for the navy. I had taken my ASVAB and signed up for basic training. I got an MIP and was not able to go to Chicago for basic training. Due to being on probation and not being able to leave the state
IDK what it is, but I as a 30+ man on a spectrum can say we have similar faces... I think it's the eyes. The eyes are a window to the soul or something, they tell a lot. And I think some people with ASD have similar type of eyes. Also you look delicate and young for your age as well, I do too. I looked like a 3 year old when I was 7.
Anybody who is anybody had their Art Bell times. You have lived a life that a lot of us have. I wish you would have had some one with you who could have told you to enjoy the ride and not be so hard on yourself.
It’s always fascinating how thousands of people around the world can relate to these experiences so deeply - and yet in the real world you feel like the only one who thinks and feels this way. Getting resentful about it is a bad idea - but - something that you are never allowed to discuss is that this experience is defined by the unintentional impatience and cruelty of all these people around you in the real world who have no tolerance or understanding of the autistic experience. Like it’s as much if a ‘you’ problem as it is an ‘everyone else’ problem.
I think the only snag I have with your mindset Aaron is you said many “normals” give you “normie” advice and that it probably won’t work for you since you are on the spectrum. I guess I don’t understand what type of advice you expect? I mean, there’s only so many things you can realistically try in your situation .. while it is true that telling us to “just go out more and talk to women” largely doesn’t work what do we expect folks to recommend us do? That Guy(Jordan Owens?) said your best bet is to just reconcile that relationships aren’t in your future and to try and come to terms with that. That’s what I’m most likely going to do
@@michaelpawluk5475 I hear what you are saying and I get it. You are right it can’t be forced and I’m in Aaron’s spot almost identically. I really can’t imagine just completely giving up on normal relationships and instead focusing on B or C.. religion seems to work for Jordan but it doesn’t for me. Plus the Anhedonia makes it much more difficult
Have you ever thought about teaching yourself to code? I’ve been coding for two months and I got accepted by a government recognised training institution who are now putting me forward for apprenticeships. I’ve also seen a TH-cam channel of a 35 year old man - youtube channel called: code questing - who uploaded a TH-cam short every day documenting what he was learning and where he was learning from (from complete beginner level), and in 8 months he got a junior software developer role. If you need help with where to start I can let you know what I’m doing at the moment, how I got started, and what I think would be a good path for you (in terms of learning resources and courses)
@@aaronsjournal139well in that case, if you want to take up the offer let me know. I can look up my best resources and get back to you. Good thing is most of the modules can be completed a day each, so everyday you get to feel like you’ve accomplished something and grown as a programmer (because you have).
@@aaronsjournal139not sure if my comment got deleted or what, but if you are serious about getting into coding, I’d recommend the following above all else: Website - Udemy Course title - the complete 2024 Web Development bootcamp Instructor - Angela Yu You do have to pay for this course but it is usually on sale and well worth the money. I think it provides a level of progression I’ve not seen in any other free resource. It also advertises a 30 day money back guarantee if you’re unsatisfied. I would highly recommend doing one section a day, which amounts to about an hour and half of learning per day
Hello if you are needing some useful information and educational resources may I suggest you speak with your congress members about a proposal for a National Autism Strategy to help support the American autistic community
That friend of yours did you dirty. How is he gonna run away with his gf and just leave you at 10pm on new year's day ??? That is disrespectful as f..k. Friends don't do that to each other, if he invited you over how can he just leave you two hours before the actual new year ??? What do you think they talked afterwards ?? Of course they talked about leaving you alone and it went something like ''man, this Aaron is such a loner.. Bet he's gonna spend new year's alone, got no gf..''. Imagine if you did that to him, would you feel ok inviting a friend over to spend time with you and your gf and then a couple of hours before new year be like 'aight' we're off, just the two of us, have a nice rest of the evening, bro' :D LMAO it's ridiculous, I'd never talk to such piece of sh again
My thoughts exactly when I heard that. I figured out a long time ago that most so called friends are not worth even the shoes they walk on. That's why I seek only myself and learned to enjoy my own company.
Thanks for sharing your story. Life is hard when you are autistic, in all honesty you and I are mentalcells, I'd say you are a 6 out of 10 and if you could get to a 7 that's when autism doesn't matter to a woman - you will be considered dark, mysterious and quirky rather than awkward, offensive and "icky". I think you are a great guy but you and I are cursed with being autistic and we need to find women that are neurodiverse too, or alternatively looksmaxx to a 7 to the point where autism doesn't matter to a woman.
Yeah, I'm working on the looksmaxxing part. I've probably gone up a point already since I've gotten leaner and more muscular, but still have more leaning progress to make. I also plan to get invisalign and straighten my teeth.
I wonder if travelling to Asia or even Eastern Europe help? I reckon women there would find you appealing, perhaps get a remote job teaching English. Just a thought. Life is too short, and it seems you've exhausted options in America. Also a guy on the spectrum, so not normie advice as you say.
Yeah was thinking the same, native Americans can always find English teaching jobs and I guess driving trucks is not a skill you lose quickly so you always have a job waiting back home. Plus would be much cooler to see Aarons vlogging from an exotic place with a nice young lady 😉
I felt a lot of sympathy for you watching your video tonight, and prayed for you. I can tell you are a good person. I rally would recommend to try Jesus. Give Him a chance. If you don’t believe challenge Him to show you that He is real. All the best.
Young pretty escorts 6-8 times a year fit the bill nicely. And you’re done with them until you’re ready to see them again. No dates, goofy friends and family members of theirs to deal with, arguing and fighting etc.
"In summary I've just always felt so lost," zomg that's me too! I feel like the female version of you and that makes me feel less alone...thank you Aaron for sharing your story ... know that you are not alone!...
My 8 yr old daughter is high functioning autistic. Watching your channel helps each of us in a different way. Thank You for what you do 🤟 Your vulnerability and honesty is appreciated.
Hey bro, glad to see you back. Everything that you said is relatable af. As a 24 year old Asperger male. I too am feeling lost in life. I was close to killing myself yesterday, but thankfully I stopped myself. I’ve been hurting myself because of all the trauma that I have been trough in my life. I too feel lost. But I’m doing everything in my power to get my life in track whilst I’m still in my 20s. Please don’t stop making videos. It’s so hard finding someone who I can genuinely relate to.
My dude, please don't hurt yourself. Trust me, things will get better. I have ADD and atypical autism and life really can be very challenging for us no one knows that more than me but mark my words you will find your own way and be so glad you kept fighting and it will make you very strong in the process. You're not alone never forget that it might feel like it but you're really not we all have our struggles. Keep going dude!
@braveheartproduction you matter man. While I might not be able to relate to what you’ve been through. Just know you are a worthwhile person and you matter. Things will get better!
I hear you. I’m on the spectrum and I relate to very few of the autistic creators on TH-cam.. I relate to Aaron, Jorden Owens and Adult with Autism.
24 is young and you have plenty of time to iron out the kinks and find something that will suit you
Hang in there brother. We all go through the dark times and thoughts you're going through. It's part of human existence unfortunately. Life can sometimes seem lonely and unfair. But I promise you, their are people who would love to have your life even if you're having a hard time seeing that. Try and keep that in mind and hang in there. Things will get better if you stay positive. 6 months ago I was in the same place as you in my life. I didn't think things could get better. They did and I'm so glad I stuck it out. I hope you do the same.
Hang in there brother, a lot of us our struggling and have no one to turn to that would genuinely care. At the end of the day the only person to show up for you, is you. Wish you better days I’m also hurting getting by
Dude your videos are legendary. We are here for it! Thank you for being a voice for us all.
I relate… I’m autistic and in my 50s and a woman but have shared many of the same struggles as you with regards to employment and social interaction… the only place I truly thrived was when I ran my own business utilising all my strengths, no employees, and working my own hours… unfortunately I worked so hard and loved it so much that I got burnt out and ended up with crippling autoimmune disease and was put on disability and became homeless. Bought a cheap old camper and have been a wandering gypsy living in my tiny rolling home for the past 4 years. It’s not easy, but it’s a lot easier than feeling like a constant failure at meeting other people’s expectations of me. Keep shining…. Keep posting. ⭐️✨🌟
It helps a lot of us out here.
It's incredible how relatable you are
I'm just tired of this system of mandatory participation
I'm not autistic but I have insane agrophobia and social anxiety. I'm 30 and I'm going to be applying for my first ever job.
I know I will get denied as I have no experience but this is a huge step and I'm terrified and stopping myself already.
Everyone thinks I'm lazy or not trying but I'm not on any benefits, I struggle just so much.
It's really nice to hear other people trying to make small steps.
I've had the sweeping incident at a hairdressers I tried to work in, "brush properly" but I thought, you aren't doing it properly you are doing it quick.
I really struggle with traveling, I have licence but too scared to drive. So Im scared of getting the bus and public transport.
I feel like my entire life is a mess.
Have you seen a doctor yet? A medication like Zoloft or therapy could help you
same, im 31, female, but partially disabled and basically cant stand (among other things)... Ive only ever worked for either uber and my mom and self employed (selling stuff).. Im doing therapy stuff right now and wondering already what it would be like to have a real job with real employment for the first time in my life. totally scary, but im not there yet.
How have you supported yourself this far?
Security work on 3rd shift is a very good job for someone on the spectrum. Even more so nowadays with smartphones, do your hourly rounds quickly, and play on your phone and or watch movies for 45-50 minutes till next round.
Easy and no stress.
Wow Aaron, this video is the one I relate to the most. The whole being slow at jobs, not fitting in, failure to launch romantically etc. I guess that's how it is for autistic men like us.
Don't forget to appreciate the stuff you did succeed at.
There's not a huge percentage of TH-cam channels that have over 15K subscribers.
There are also not too many men in your age group who have a steady gym routine and look this muscular.
the legend is back!
Love you brother, you are not alone. We are in this together, you got this!
Good rant. Definitely reminds me of my own situation. Alone at 61. Divorced in '99. Just never found another lady aside from short flings. Hopefully, you'll find someone good for you for the 2nd half of life.
Great video Aaron. We all struggle in life and I think you've done an amazing job getting through your 20's. I was a mess during mine and made a lot of the same mistakes. It's part of growing as a human. Don't be hard on yourself. I didn't hear anything in this video I wouldn't have probably done in your circumstances. I might not have gotten through it as well as you did. Just remember you're helping a lot of people with your honesty and insights. Keep going, good things are coming your way. Take care of yourself brother.
Your story is so relatable to mine Aaron, although I've never been in the army etc. keep on keeping on dude! you're helping more people than you probably realise with these videos
Love your videos dude. Highly appreciate your dialog and thought i'd leave a comment to let you know how much you're helping others through your videos 👍
Good to to get an update from you brother. 🙂Thanks for sharing, found myself relating along the way.
Experts now are saying there is now a Loneliness Epidemic for both men and women.
Women’s loneliness is by choice because they rather be single than settle for an average guy like Aaron or others. Men are lonely because women refuse to give them a shot and only going for the top 10-20%.
Men only. No such thing as a femcel unless they're morbidly obese or disabled.
Yeah 60% of men and 40% of women are spending there days alone.
I’m making sure I listen. I’ve missed your voice man xoxo
Similar situation here but i was never diagnosed because my parents never cared to got me checked. I had to repeat 2 school years so therefore i was the oldest in the class but still one of the slowest in learning so they dragged me through the school system because the next step would have been special needs schooling (I dont know how its called in english).
So my parents didn’t want that for me but i was always in trouble because teachers gotten stressed out by me because i didn’t understand a lot and also classmate told each other yeah hes stupid and all of that. I then had the same troubles at work and i broke up 2 apprenticeship and one boss even told my mother hes so stupid he cant even handle a vacuum cleaner although i can’t remember handling it wrong. My mother kicked me out when i was 17 because of psychological issues although i was a lovely shy boy/good kid so i started to work at my fathers construction painting business and i tried so hard to work good but it was never enough. Im now almost 32 and have to go to therapy because i want to be diagnosed. Also at work some people told me whats wrong why dont you get ‚this or that‘ and i couldn’t explain myself because i wasn’t diagnosed therefore i think its the right step for me to get myself checked..finally
When I was young the temp agency gave me ridiculous jobs like sweeping the factory floor, walking around the factory floor.
Those jobs aren’t ridiculous at all . Many people that are high up in their career now started out sweeping floors or doing other basic jobs
Same. It was a joke.
Hell, I’m not on the spectrum but I struggle with the same stuff you do/did. Life is hard, man.
Switching careers is always tough. I'm not even sure if I have enough experience to last in my current career if the job market doesn't improve massively.
As much as I hate it, social interaction has always been heavily recommended to me at every step. Maybe there's some sort of "wellness" center for adults that could help or local groups. One of my friends is in a local Pokemon GO group and they have meetups to do raids and stuff which I think is awesome. I think you'd do well as a streamer to be honest. You're well-spoken and calm. Also would like to mention that having some sort of objective helps. Maybe you can challenge yourself to make a cool 30 second beat everyday or something that will drive focus to your talents and interests? And if you particularly like a beat you've made, you can upload it as a TH-cam short? Idk, I'm just brainstorming ideas. I think it's also important to have patience and not rush to do things because I feel like I tend to do things like that and I just end up burning out.
Oh, Aaron, I wish i could have given you a hug near the end 😢💔
Just remember that we all love you & are so grateful that you're here ❤️
I'm on the spectrum and ive had hundreds of jobs including day labor like you mentioned very physical tough work digging all day. I kept getting fired and i didn't know why. I became a serial job hopper. Till a year later a guy i knew at the gym got me into the oil field which it was a 6 figure job with no experience only because the guy knew me. I got fired for accidentally scraping a rig equipment it was real dark i was in a cat dump truck. I was sent home with a car i bought with the money i saves. Then i got my CDL been OTR ever since never looked back my parents let me stay with them. Best thing ive ever did got money saved through the roof no life but i got a skill where i don't have to work around people And fear getting fired and being micromanaged. I know a great deal where you come from aaron. Dont get down be strong.
I think we all all lost souls deep down wondering through life.
Every time you post one of these videos talking about your situation, I'm struck by how much it parallels mine. So when you say you don't know anyone in your position, I know you mean personally, but man we are so much alike in so many ways. Like you, I don't know anyone personally in my situation. I have some coworkers who kind of are, but they are several years younger than me so it feels different. A key similarity with us is our age, but I'm slightly older than you, since I'll be turning 47 later this year. I've never been diagnosed as being on the spectrum, but it makes me think I probably am in much the same way you are. You talking about how slow you are at work sounds so familiar to me. It's funny, because my dad worked at the steel mill and he had the nickname 'speedy' because he was known to be so slow. Being around him actually made me feel like I was fast at getting things done, and I'm definitely not relative to other people. I was always slow at taking written tests but tended to do above average without trying. Of course, we definitely have our differences too. I think the skill you have driving the big rigs is an underappreciated skill. While obviously not rare since a lot of people do it, many of us would not be good at that, and I don't think it would've been a safe thing for me to do, I definitely romanticized and thought about doing that when I was younger, but someone would've probably gotten hurt in my learning process haha. Anyways, always good to get the updates from you. I wish we lived near each other because it'd be great to have someone like you as a friend. I hope we get to meet in person someday!
These videos are amazing. If life seems difficult and precarious, that's because it is. It's unlikely beyond comprehension that we should exist in the first place. The people who appear to have everything are often not happy, and social media projects a skewed version of reality. If you feel that something is wrong or missing, yet are unable to find it, then perhaps your starting assumption is incorrect? The idea that things are about to go wrong is another way of saying that things seem too good to be true. It all depends on how you look at it.
I just watched one of your older videos and I’ve noticed how different you seem in this one. You seem happier and more focused.
I worked Target for 4 years in high school. Area managers made us clean the isles at night while they're in the parking lot weed smoking in a circle.
When you mentioned Target, I was expecting you to say parking lot circle jerk! 😂 Rainbow flags everywhere there.
Aaron, your experience with the bloom is extremely relatable. For me, I get laughed at by my stepfather for not knowing how to mob the floor and he made fun of me saying stuff like you mob like a girl. My uncle from my mom side was no better and always put me down and made me feel worthless from not doing chores to his standard. Sad childhood but now that I don't have to deal with them anymore, my heart felt free.
I don’t think the word “mob” means what you think it means.
Don't worry about it Aaron, I've always been "too slow" myself. I drove an airport shuttle and I've ended up doing CDL driving as well. Those low level jobs are shitty for everyone, less sensitive people are just less bothered by it.
The best girl for you would be one who grew up with an HFA brother. She’d understand when you’d be quiet or distant and just some of those special things. Siblings don’t think anything of it.
Love when u share ur thoughts man!
Yay, my favourite's back!💙
you have a calming voice
In Canada Employment rates for people with autism is only 14.3%.
Also on average we have a lower life expectancy 😥
Felt you brother man stay positive
I too have extreme social anxiety and also extremey struggle with multitasking, i totally can relate to you 100 percent, aaron i would like to thank you for making these videos, your work history, i can so relate to you throughout my work career, i can so relate to you its so extremely relatable, i am also on the autism spectrum, and have Aspergers, thank you for making these videos, and god bless you. I also could never join the miltary because of my legal history and mental disorders, and going to a psychiatrist and that fucked up my entire childhood. Thank you aaron for making these videos, you are not alone.
Great to see you back, Aaron!
4:00 It's not entirely your fault for sucking at time management, getting things done, and getting to work as a kid. Your parents failed to instill skills and mindsets into you while young to set you up for success as an adult. It's not entirely your fault but it is your responsibility. You've grown up now and picked up the pieces the best you can. You're doing great! Keep it up!!
This is great cos this is stuff I've struggled with.
The executive functioning.
I did similar with the broom.
I was always on time but no, never good enough.
This is my life story, funny thing though i uncovered so much because of this, sometimes i feel like it was meant to happen this way
Good to see you Aaron!
I've been single 99% too. Just had to let go of the one woman that turned up to see me because she was cruel. It's like you say, it's a path, well worn path I keep ending up falling back into
Same here. Three years ago I left the only relationship I’ve every had because she was emotionally abusive. It was a 10 year relationship but wanted to end it after 5 years but stuck with it because I didn’t want to be alone again. So I’m now 45 and probably be alone rest of my life
Try being in Utah being 45 single and no kids. My only friends are married. And most guys my age are grandparents here. I feel so out of place here.
It’s very hard to relate to people(even if they are very nice) when you have autism and don’t have a wife/gf or kids. I have pretty good social skills but I just have little in common with most people around my age. It’s almost stranger running into old friends as I find it so difficult to explain my current situation .
@@brianmeen2158 I’m not even on the spectrum, although I don’t think I was ever diagnosed. But for some reason dating and relationships are basically nonexistent for me. I just don’t get any interest. Even from women below my smv
The thing people don't understand is if you deny other people certain milestones in life then they don't develop in those areas. As people age further from the expected age where that milestone should have been experienced/developed it becomes so much harder to catch up. People will say it's fine to have missed certain milestones but you'll find their actions say otherwise.
Yep and that’s a huge problem. Your past makes you who you are and If you grow up and didn’t achieve most of the normal life milestones that most achieve - you are going to feel like a splintered adult. You feel very uneven and past a certain point it doesn’t matter what you accomplish you will still feel awkward or off. I find it pretty much impossible to relate to peers at this point. Not good .
I have a similar lie experience as you, in some ways you're ahead of me (I'm envious of your apartment and music set up). I'm not on the spectrum but I have another health "ailment" that causes this sort of arrested development. I chuckled at you explaining your slow pace in doing tasks. I could never match the speed of my coworkers even when I made a conscious effort to. Even when I rushed through mundane tasks like cleanup I was still behind. It left me scratching my head and wondering if time functioned differently for me.
Hey man off topic but your place looks clean and cool as hell.
Yikes that airport transport situation would be tough for anyone.
Hello Aaron,
I am in the process of getting the Canadian equivalent of a CDL, and I am autistic. Do you have any advice for a guy who is just starting out?
P.S. great video, I have drawn a lot of parallels between your life and mine especially when you said that all of your employers have said you were too slow.
Yeah I've had loads of temp jobs usually got fired for not talking to anyone or being too slow
Man, you've had some real hair raising work experiences!
At 19 I was signed up for the navy. I had taken my ASVAB and signed up for basic training. I got an MIP and was not able to go to Chicago for basic training. Due to being on probation and not being able to leave the state
I know the not fast enough all too well.
IDK what it is, but I as a 30+ man on a spectrum can say we have similar faces... I think it's the eyes. The eyes are a window to the soul or something, they tell a lot. And I think some people with ASD have similar type of eyes. Also you look delicate and young for your age as well, I do too. I looked like a 3 year old when I was 7.
you should produce an intro song
That's a really good idea
Anybody who is anybody had their Art Bell times. You have lived a life that a lot of us have. I wish you would have had some one with you who could have told you to enjoy the ride and not be so hard on yourself.
It’s always fascinating how thousands of people around the world can relate to these experiences so deeply - and yet in the real world you feel like the only one who thinks and feels this way.
Getting resentful about it is a bad idea - but - something that you are never allowed to discuss is that this experience is defined by the unintentional impatience and cruelty of all these people around you in the real world who have no tolerance or understanding of the autistic experience. Like it’s as much if a ‘you’ problem as it is an ‘everyone else’ problem.
Hey fella…I’m right there with ya in life…thanks…
You just described me
Lack incentive to “rock the boat”? But ur rockin the gym!!! 💪💪
I am like you, I understand why those couples left, but it's still very wrong. You are kind so you understand why, but it's definitely wrong.
Why dont you try travelling? I went to Thailand on my own for new year eve, just chatted to randoms and had a mad time out
Walmart and Target are the same that's why the employees always seem so angry because management is always barking orders that aren't attainable.
Did you attempt to go AWOL during basic or was this after you graduated and went to your first duty station?
Yeah, attempted to go AWOL in basic
I think the only snag I have with your mindset Aaron is you said many “normals” give you “normie” advice and that it probably won’t work for you since you are on the spectrum. I guess I don’t understand what type of advice you expect? I mean, there’s only so many things you can realistically try in your situation .. while it is true that telling us to “just go out more and talk to women” largely doesn’t work what do we expect folks to recommend us do? That Guy(Jordan Owens?) said your best bet is to just reconcile that relationships aren’t in your future and to try and come to terms with that. That’s what I’m most likely going to do
He probably does feel that way, but at the same time, that kind of reconciliation can't be forced. When hope is gone, what is left?
@@michaelpawluk5475 I hear what you are saying and I get it. You are right it can’t be forced and I’m in Aaron’s spot almost identically. I really can’t imagine just completely giving up on normal relationships and instead focusing on B or C.. religion seems to work for Jordan but it doesn’t for me. Plus the Anhedonia makes it much more difficult
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Have you ever thought about teaching yourself to code? I’ve been coding for two months and I got accepted by a government recognised training institution who are now putting me forward for apprenticeships. I’ve also seen a TH-cam channel of a 35 year old man - youtube channel called: code questing - who uploaded a TH-cam short every day documenting what he was learning and where he was learning from (from complete beginner level), and in 8 months he got a junior software developer role.
If you need help with where to start I can let you know what I’m doing at the moment, how I got started, and what I think would be a good path for you (in terms of learning resources and courses)
Actually, that is something I've been thinking about.
@@aaronsjournal139well in that case, if you want to take up the offer let me know. I can look up my best resources and get back to you. Good thing is most of the modules can be completed a day each, so everyday you get to feel like you’ve accomplished something and grown as a programmer (because you have).
@@aaronsjournal139not sure if my comment got deleted or what, but if you are serious about getting into coding, I’d recommend the following above all else:
Website - Udemy
Course title - the complete 2024 Web Development bootcamp
Instructor - Angela Yu
You do have to pay for this course but it is usually on sale and well worth the money. I think it provides a level of progression I’ve not seen in any other free resource. It also advertises a 30 day money back guarantee if you’re unsatisfied.
I would highly recommend doing one section a day, which amounts to about an hour and half of learning per day
Also, apologies, I know you didn’t delete my comment. My replies just aren’t showing for some reason
Thanks for the virtual hang dude
Hello if you are needing some useful information and educational resources may I suggest you speak with your congress members about a proposal for a National Autism Strategy to help support the American autistic community
I wish you would live in
Germany!
That friend of yours did you dirty. How is he gonna run away with his gf and just leave you at 10pm on new year's day ??? That is disrespectful as f..k. Friends don't do that to each other, if he invited you over how can he just leave you two hours before the actual new year ??? What do you think they talked afterwards ?? Of course they talked about leaving you alone and it went something like ''man, this Aaron is such a loner.. Bet he's gonna spend new year's alone, got no gf..''. Imagine if you did that to him, would you feel ok inviting a friend over to spend time with you and your gf and then a couple of hours before new year be like 'aight' we're off, just the two of us, have a nice rest of the evening, bro' :D LMAO it's ridiculous, I'd never talk to such piece of sh again
My thoughts exactly when I heard that. I figured out a long time ago that most so called friends are not worth even the shoes they walk on. That's why I seek only myself and learned to enjoy my own company.
Thanks for sharing your story. Life is hard when you are autistic, in all honesty you and I are mentalcells, I'd say you are a 6 out of 10 and if you could get to a 7 that's when autism doesn't matter to a woman - you will be considered dark, mysterious and quirky rather than awkward, offensive and "icky". I think you are a great guy but you and I are cursed with being autistic and we need to find women that are neurodiverse too, or alternatively looksmaxx to a 7 to the point where autism doesn't matter to a woman.
Yeah, I'm working on the looksmaxxing part. I've probably gone up a point already since I've gotten leaner and more muscular, but still have more leaning progress to make. I also plan to get invisalign and straighten my teeth.
I wonder if travelling to Asia or even Eastern Europe help? I reckon women there would find you appealing, perhaps get a remote job teaching English. Just a thought. Life is too short, and it seems you've exhausted options in America. Also a guy on the spectrum, so not normie advice as you say.
Yeah was thinking the same, native Americans can always find English teaching jobs and I guess driving trucks is not a skill you lose quickly so you always have a job waiting back home. Plus would be much cooler to see Aarons vlogging from an exotic place with a nice young lady 😉
He has said that he doesn’t want to do that. He has roots where he is now and traveling to another country to find a woman is just not realistic.
I felt a lot of sympathy for you watching your video tonight, and prayed for you. I can tell you are a good person. I rally would recommend to try Jesus.
Give Him a chance. If you don’t believe challenge Him to show you that He is real.
All the best.
adult ... a dolt, hmmm, I'd rather stay a kid
you need a woman
So do I, but unfortunately Amazon doesn’t sell them.
Young pretty escorts 6-8 times a year fit the bill nicely.
And you’re done with them until you’re ready to see them again. No dates, goofy friends and family members of theirs to deal with, arguing and fighting etc.
@@DG-nb6fe sounds fun, but I’ve never figured out how to do that.