what it feels like to be hopeless (playlist)
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 17 พ.ค. 2024
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Tracklist:
0:00 reidenshi - snowfall w/ Øneheart (Slowed)
soundcloud.com/myabandonedhom...
2:07 Antent - October
/ s-v5ohycdze8y
4:09 Exodynamix, Vilaxxs - ethereal reverie
/ exodynamix-vilaxxs-eth...
6:33 Antent - hiding place w/ Tre Flip
/ hiding-place-w-tre-flip
8:41 nohssiwi, alixe. - luminary
/ luminary
10:41 nohssiwi, liminalyx - starlights
/ s-v5ohycdze8y
12:48 Imxone - Serenity (Slowed + Reverb)
/ serenity-slowed-reverb
15:24 my head is empty - novocaine
/ novocaine
17:07 layanari - everything is so different
/ s-v5ohycdze8y
20:26 🔁
#ambientmusic #snowfall #darkambient #sleepmusic - เพลง
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If you’re reading this, as someone who pulled themselves from the darkness I want you to hear it’s possible. I’ve been to 16 funerals lost friends from suicides. Violence. Over dose. Car crashes cancer; I buried my son after just having a day with him. I spiraled into drugs and alchohol reckless behavior actively trying to die because I was never able to take that step. I survived all that to be here to tell you I promise your life is worth it there is someone who will miss you when you’re gone. That pain you’re feeling must be unbearable and I’m so sorry it’s there. But on this night we’re all here remembering our pains, our battles our struggles. You survived those on your own strengths and merits and I’m so proud of you for making it this far ❤. Cry tonight my brothers and sisters let it out you don’t have to be the perception of yourself through this playlist. You won’t be a burden for letting all you been holding in out just this moment. You aren’t alone while you’re here, Goodnight I wish you peace when it’s over and I’ll see you tomorrow and I’ll be here again with you when those struggles eat at us just a little harder then we can handle. I’m proud of you.. thank you for being alive.
thank you.. truely.. just for putting the time to tell us all this:)
i love you thanks for this reassurance 🖤
@@kodashoots I love you too 😌 safe travels and happy holidays to you ❤️
This is amazing ❤…. I’m sorry your had that happen…. Thank u
No one has ever told me their proud of me so i thank you even though i dont know you i wish i did i might not have lost friends or had to put down my own son but i have been betrayed by those i thaught closest to me and my kindness and gentle nature been mistaken and i have been hiding it from loved ones but it does hurt me and its been hurting me alot lately but to read and see someone say their proud of me is hart warming for me treuly i thank you and my no person have to endure what you endured for it would treuly take gaping out of your soul and mentalhealth but you did and i am telling you that i am proud of you for endureing the physical and mental suffering for no one other than yourself wouldve made it and you did and alot of people with me hear in the comments section are really happy you did so one final time thank you.And may you under gods protection and voice for years to follow.
Everytime I wake up feels like I'm wasting another day
Relatable I think.
Jesus can heal you , and take away all the pain, all the heartache, all hopelessness. He can set you free and give you purpose, God woke you up today because He has a purpose for you whether you believe it or not, turn to Jesus Christ , He loves you , and He died and paid the price for all your sins so that you could stand in front of God and Him not see your sins, but see His son! The blood of Jesus wipes away all sins! “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”
John 3:16
True same
I just wanna barricade myself in my room all day and only come out to use the bathroom and shower.
At least we’re not the only ones
sometimes i think suffering is the only thing i'm good at
“Stop being a rainbow for someone who is blind”
What is the meaning of that because it is a good quote
@@Melanie91047 it means that you have to stop pretending about yourself for someone who doesn't even care that you are there.
Thank you for telling me👍
@@Melanie91047 you're welcome
Thx you for this one
My eyes hurt so much, I’ve been crying a lot. But I’m still going so to anyone reading this you can make it!!! You can do it!! God loves you and so do I!❤
4:04 in the morning, I cant sleep, Im overthinking so much that I consider it normal now.
Literally 4:02 rn.
dawg is in his emo phase🔥🔥🗣‼
@@somedude724XDD
2:15 in North Carolina for me, bud.
@@somedude724ha ha
“I have learned now that while those who speak about one's miseries usually hurt, those who keep silence hurt more..”
This is to true brother
For a few months now, i have loved this person in my classes. And recently, i told them, they were understanding more than anyone else, and we got pretty close after that. One of my best friends also really likes him, she said that she wouldn't come between us, but then she told him. Asked him to a hockey game and the movies. He dropped his plans with me and a few of my friends to go to the movies with her. Neither of them realized how much this hurts me. I have never felt this before, this heartbreak. I feel lost rn, i don't know what to do. This music helps so much, and i do want to say. For anyone and everyone. Even in scenarios like mine, just know, it won't stay like this, you will move on if it doesn't get better.
It’s ok it’s a lesson it made u a different person life has to brake u to it some people can handle it some can’t unfortunately most don’t and it hurts but we are strong that’s y our hart looks for help I hope this helps u love u man stay safe and remember it’s ok move on it’s hard but that’s what make u more of a man
@@Jvyoungin18 thank you! I know things get better, and sometimes, it's ok to just stay friends I suppose
@@twilibug we won’t know what the future brings enjoy life that’s how u find people have u ever been to your favorite place and do what u love people that like u for u will be there
well I would suggest you to treat the situation as if it was taking of a band-aid, wich means, the faster, the better. in italian we say "rapido e indolore". you just gotta try to push yourself into letting out the magic words: "it hurts me, everyday, everytime", with your friend.
if she actually is a honest and loving friend, she will understand you, and hesitate to keep going.
if she isn't, you lost the battle of friendship, she's as fake as can be, and you've lost your boyfriend.
but wether it's the good ending (a) or the bad ending (b), know that if end defeated, you've only lost a battle, not the war itself, and from the errors you commit in battle, you improve your tactics in the real harsh war that you're always fighting, the one with no flags or sides opposing each other: the one with you, and you only.
hope you read that lol, and hope it made you feel better
@@Plague364 Thank you so much, I did end up reading all of it, so thank you. Everything that you just said was helpful, and beautiful. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
I suffer from a mental disorder called "Obsessive Compulsive Disorder" watching and listening to these types of videos calms me down a lot, I imagine a life without problems and I imagine myself living in an isolated place without neighbors, a place full of peace and security, I love this type of content
Hey don't be sad. And also imagine that your real life is also free of problems. ❤
You literally could have said I have OCD we all know what you're talking about you don't need to write a paragraph to explain that you like it. "I hAvE OcD." Sure you do buddy.🙄
Yeah me too 🖤🚶
Joseph, aprenda a usar el poder de su mente subconsciente y haga una reprogramación de su subconsciente, en TH-cam encuentra cómo hacerlo. Lo que usted anhela lo obtendra cuando Jesucristo venga por segunda vez e instaure el Reino de Dios (Daniel 2:44) en la tierra. Entonces habrá abundancia de paz, amor, justicia y seguridad.
i also have ocd, its a bitch
Your life is not something to carry, it's something to cherish. Don't think just because you're hopeless, that your life is not a hope in of itself, especially for other people. Take care of it. It won't last forever. That limited time and possibilities with it is what makes your life and you beautiful, regardless of who you are
The comment section is so wholesome,all the hopeless guys listening to the same playlist. Listening to each other. We all are going through the worst part of our life. But i really hope it will be alright.
Sometimes I go to bed and hope I don’t wake up…
I know this feeling, if you need someone to talk to I’m here for you
That's been me for awhile. I drink way too much on purpose. Like ngl I have work tm and I'm not gonna feel good at all in terms of energy. But fuckit we ball yk? Best advise that I can give, and take it from my demented brain with a grain of salt, is keep moving until you just utterly can't anymore. Put the most amount of effort you can muster into everything that you can. Yeah you'll get overwhelmed. Yeah you'll break down. But me, imma keep putting one foot in front of the other until I get the balls to end it all. And ik I'm blunt, and ik I might trigger your own compulsive thoughts amd actions and I'm sorry. But right here right now, words have inspired me. May I at least give you the strength and resolve to continue at a wounded stroll, or whatever pace you can take except stagnant. Much love to you friend. Whoever, whatever, however you are, know my words are true and given with as much love as I can muster.
@@alfakynkillu8330 thanks. But i really can’t keep going anymore. I just keep getting unlucky that my attempts don’t work. I’m on attempt number 7 now… I just don’t know how to get to the nearby bridge…
Nobody else wants that so stop it
I will be simply a beacon, for the dudes that just like me, aren't rlly depressed or that much sad, but have a lot of built-up tears and emotions. My life is aight, could be better you know, that is more or less my fault, im pretty lonely, just on that work and sleep routine, since i finished High-school i got distant from the already small group of friends, a failed relationship also took a bit of people i knew out of my life.
I dont even know anymore, im just trying to put something out here, a piece of this feeling that tugs ok my chest, that isnt rlly good, since its been hard to cry since what? 4 or 5 years now.
I'm going through the same, i may not understand the events, but i sure understand the outcome. You aren't alone in this grey space. Your color will form, you will gain vision, words for me and you. It'll be okay.
Life is like finding a way in dark forest full of stars
looking for the flower in the field of darkeness
I just want to go to sleep and never wake. I want to go back to whatever my existence was before i was born. I dont want the ramifications on my family and friends of not being around after this point in time.
I dont know why i wrote this. Its 3am, maybe i should have written on paper or something instead
You good bro?
these playlists literally hypnotize me and put me in a derealization state somehow
There’s times when I feel alone and suicidal, snowfall really has helped me let alone all the other songs on this playlist. I know I have feelings I just want the pain to away. Sometimes life is just too hard and it seems so simple to fix it from the pull off a fucking trigger I’m tired of pain but just so scared to die, I wanna live.
You might not be councious of it but more pain to relief ratio you have every day, it just means that with patience litteraly the best things you can imagine will happen to you, im not even joking and this isnt some fake bs to give you hope, its litteraly true and all you have to do is be patient, i promise and i swear to God that will happen, you will get everything you ever wanted, just wait some time it will be worth it so much it will seem unfair, but on your side. Trust me bro, i went through that too, and i know it
@@GardenDemonHR thanks I know it’s hard for everybody who feels the things that I feel too, I’ve been taking counseling and am trying to better myself. I have three months clean so yay for me I guess.
Jesus can take all that away from you man, you just get him.
@@CalebMalloy816amen
Venting:
My friendship with my bff was hopeless.. I will forever mourn it when I think about it, but I was chained down by caring to much. It was so hurtful when I realized that I will never be enough and she will never feel satisfied with what I can give. From others pov I don't give much, but from my pov I neglected myself all the time to do things in her way. She was the one to take the first step away, it wouldn't have been hard to defuse the situation, but I just couldn't live like that anymore if what I gave wasn't enough. We wouldn't have gotten anywhere. I have been mourning a 7y friendship, but I'm able to live my life now. I'm even losing wait finaly. She had many other important people in her life so I think she will be fine. I can't tell this to her, but I wish the best for her. I hope she's happy in her life. And I'm sorry I ended it 60% for my own good and only 40% for you. You always struggled to cut of people that dont have good energy in your life, well I'll be the villain in our friendship once more.
A lil negativity..
I put you on a pedestal and thought that you didn't know how our friendship dynamic strangled me, but I'll never know for sure. You let your guard down around me so I know that you see people relationship dynamics and such, but I don't know if you were aware how hurt I was through out the years. You used me to check if people were decent just because I was fat. You started treating me worse when I was doing well, I will always be confused if it was in my head or if it was real. Idk maybe unconsciously you wanted a friend that was doing worse than you. Well I'll never know what you thought, but I know I wish you the best things.
im feeling down, trying to have a serious moment with myself, but then i go to my other tab and it's just a bunch of sonic memes. Life is hard, and while we may want the pain to end, and we may think that no one loves us, we should continue on. i hope that to anyone reading this comet or having a bad day, that they may be blessed with a sonic meme. good day or night to whomever reads this :)
Every day I wake up into a body that isn’t me. I lie again and again so I don’t have to tell people who count on me that I’m not all that great and that I do struggle. I think the reason I make so much jokes is so I can have an ounce of that long forgotten joy I used to have inside of me. There’s people who have been with me since my lowest and that I really appreciate but slowly more and more of my friends simply leave and don’t talk to me anymore. There’s friends I have known since we were both little kids that just one day leave and it hurts because I don’t know what I’m doing wrong people say stuff like, you used to be way funnier, and I miss how you used to act, and that shit hurts more than anything. Because I know I can’t go back and I always try and look on the bright side but sometimes you just can’t. And people are starting to see me as weak because I bottle up all my stress and one little thing just knocks it all down and all they see is that little thing making me so mad
Tell them the truth about you lowest they might able to help. People who joke around are fake. Tell them you have a problem ask them lend their ear for your worries. Pet are also good listener thy don't judge you even you talk a storm. But people sometimes have limit of what they take from your problems. Always not go back to that low point. Let go of it, it won't do you good either way. Look at the perspective of animals. Have you notice even if people kill their parents they maybe angry with you but in the long run you become their family & cherish them. They don't have material things to give you although they give you their heart. Never abandoned them please it will hurt them like you are now.
I'm a same way or more worse than you. I have trust issue all humans. I been betrayed many times I lost count. I'm trying my best to no dwell on things cause it will ruin your life. avoid social media it will add stress to your mind.
@@user-fd2eq7hp4p Thanks For The Advice.
(Posting this here because I don’t want these words to go unknown since I’m not so good at expressing my emotions let alone put it into words but this time I was able to in a long endless paragraph lol) Was js chilling and thought of a good moment with my brother and something just hit me, I miss my siblings so bad I want to check up on them I want to hug them I want to call out their name again tell them to come just to give them random kisses and tell them that I love them I want to dance with them again. They’re the ones who have truly seen me hurt, they have seen me bawl my eyes out, they have seen me laugh uncontrollably/made me, they have seen me mad, also have made me mad, we’d have fights ofc it’s the sibling norm but they have worried for me when I’m sick or when I sleep too much, this wholesome ass memory that I never forget is when I had the flu and was in bed all day, both randomly came into my room to ask where it hurts with their doctor toy gear on and my little sister playing nurse on me taking my temperature. They both have sat down held hands with each other and meditated with me because they believe their big sister knows best :) there’s so much more I can say I can go on and on on how they’re the reason I keep going,I hope I get to see them soon and tell them how much I missed them and love them, this time being apart from my family has made me realize how much I’ve distanced myself mentally from everyone yet every time I’d have my unbearable moments I still managed to be strong for them with the confidence that I will live up to the day I finally give them anything they need and continue to watch them grow up to be two independent amazing individuals, words cannot describe how much I miss my lil wueritos I promise I will come back home one day once I stabilize myself again I will come back as a better person I will continue to carry the big sister role for you guys and set out a good example so that life won’t be too rough on you guys and I won’t leave til the day you guys decide to start your own separate lives and won’t need me no more.I want to continue to make memories with my lil soulmates, watch them grow, teach them the things they don’t get taught and be there for them whenever that gloomy stage in life comes,when they feel like there’s no one there for them I want to lift them up, care and be by their sides on times when they don’t feel good.I will work my ass off and give them back more for the way they cared for me when I was hurting all alone.Those 2 pure souls deserve to be protected at all costs they helped me through the worst and don’t even know it yet but the day you guys are mature enough to understand how much your mentally unstable sister adores you I will tell you guys on how glad and happy I was to be your sister the day you were born.I talk and pray to God to allow me to grow up by your side, to give me the peaceful happy future that I see with my bloodline til the day my journey comes to an end ❤️
God bless you, i hope one day you get better and spend more time with your family, it will help you, your a good soul i can feel it. Stay strong positive and healthy, enjoy your journey in life until the end. Please take care, if you need to talk feel free. ❤
El sentimiento por los hermanos es lo más hermoso que puede existir
I dont know what I'm doing with myself I don't want to go to sleep anymore because when I try to I just can't my thoughts keep me awake my thoughts keep bringing me back to the same event over and over again its like I got to keep myself distracted so I don't have to think anymore in order to sleep so I just turn on my favorite TV shows until my eyes gave up but today that didnt work its already 9am in the morning of the next day I havent gotten an ounce of sleep I just feel so lost I don't know what I want in life anymore but I'm tired of living this way I want to stop being afraid i want to stop being such a coward I want to move on and stop over thinking everything and just leave the past behide but it hurts what I forget everything and trust people again and let my guard down then I get hurt again it scared me but maybe moving on is better i just want to enjoy life to the fullest I wish for next year to be an amazing year I hope I go to college and get good grades without making myself miserable to get them and I hope I find my dream career, my passion and hopefully I make friends and hang out and laugh till I have happy tear in my eyes well I guess I do know what I want it just hard to get there but I will try guys never gave up ok I believe in you you deserve to be happy never let anyone not even yourself feel worthless I believe that you can chase away the storm away
you trust one person with your everything. Every single detail of your life. You never felt so connected with someone ever before. She was your day in and day out. She became your best friend. Your partner, your solu mate. 4years had past you thought you are having the best of life.. Everything is good. You have few misunderstandings along the way but its fine. You know it can be fixed. You allowed one person in your life like no body else did. Then one christmas eve. You found out that she was trying to meet her ex. Then the christmas day itself you brought her to you own family gathering not knowing that info. Thne next day, you recieve someones message request. A screenahot of her conversation with her ex trying to meet at 3am of xmas. I was dumbfounded. I never felt so anxious before. I cant imagine she could do that thing. I never sensed it. I never see it in her eyes that she did something wrong. Coz she played it way too well. Someone you trust with everything, you realize you dont even know who she really is.. Its an evil world we live in.
The game is the game. You aren't at fault for being vulnerable and letting someone in. I know it hurts now, but in hindsight it's better for things to end now than years down the line with a house, kids etc. I'm going through something simila, together over 3 years and broke up around Xmas now I don't even recognise her anymore. All the sweet nothings whispered in the night will soon no longer haunt you, stay strong
I wish Covid wasn't a thing...I was genuinely happy in early 2020 or at least I think I was.
I just finished the middle school equivalent of Germany and had hope to find new friends in high school and have some wild adventures like actually partying for the first time...somehow I am becoming closer to a cliche doomer than I ever thought to be.
I don't have much hope currently sadly
When I can’t help anyone I know and hold dear to me.. I feel devoid of hope and alone, as if I’ve lost all of my soul
these songs make me feel hopeless and at the same time seeing a light at the end of a tunel
Jesus can be that light
@@CalebMalloy816it can but doesn't have to be, don't try and make others follow your religion
@@CloakedVultureIm not forcing it, but Jesus is the way. You have the option to go to him. im not forcing you to
@@CalebMalloy816 sorry I reacted that way I've been paranoid, stressed, and etc lately and I want to end it all for the sake of my friends and family so they don't have to deal with me when I can't hold the darkness back and act kind anymore
@@CloakedVulture Its ok man, stuff like that happens. And please don't end it all bro, make things right with your family, and those thoughts could possible be the devil (possible not to, but I had the same thoughts And I found out it was him) But Jesus took it all away in just a couple of minutes (instead of just trying on my own and waiting a couple years for it to go away) Im not trying to force you to go to him just because I said that just he did and Ik he can do it for u to. Its your choice man. Im just here to give the option to you. But please dont end it now. So many reasons to stay with ur family And to love them. God bless you.
Life is difficult.
No
I’m so tired, so so so tired of myself. I just want to lie down and disappear and not feel this pain anymore. I hurt all the people I love the most and I don’t even know how to get out of this darkness. I just want to disappear.
Giving someone my fullest love was the most painful thing I’ve experienced so far and the passing of my dad and losing all of my friends and childhood friends on top of that
Hope is like a lightbulb, it shines throughout the darkest of times.
Remember that.
The best channel for ambient chill mixes 😊💙
So grateful !
I feel ourselves sinking into an abyss. I feel the world crashing and burning. The bad out weighs the good. The irreversible changes happen too fast to counter.
I cannot do anything, I cannot stop the flow, I cannot stop my brain.
I cannot stop too much. Too much is out of my control.
I would not exactly say am in pain but more so pressure
Your channel is growing fast! Thank you for your wonderful playlists and equally wonderful support! 80k coming soonThank you for everything🖤
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I think I am okay with this music and in my loneliness
Hello!thank you so much 💓 i love your playlist😢❤
Thanks again for adding us into that playlist 🙏🙏
My darkest time was highschool, was I popular at school? Heck yeah, unfortunately that didn’t follow me home. I was never the kid to invite others over, I’d rather stay alone in my room and play Xbox. Didn’t even spend time with my parents, which I deeply regret now. As a 24 year old I look back at the mistakes I made.. I tried taking my life many many times throughout those 4 years. Fortunately, I’m terrified of Death. What if I mess up? My death would rock the very foundation of my family. I have 5 brothers and the thought of leaving them, having them lower me into an early grave is something I never want them to experience. No parent should bury their own kids.
If I’ve learned anything over the past 7 years is that you have to take every moment like it’s your last. It might not sound like a lot but when you look back at yourself, you’ll always find a deeper meaning to life. For me its life, does getting up everyday suck? Maybe, but take each day with steps, the future holds no boundaries because it hasn’t happened. You can’t stress what’s going to happen tomorrow, you may not feel loved, you may not feel pain, you may not feel Alive. But you are. You’re here. You’ve made it this far, do you know how important that is?
We all have doubts. The light of the mind cannot burn away all darkness. Think on it, and look in your heart. It will be for the best. When the walls come tumbling down, when you lose everything you have, you always have family.
I love you. And I wish you well on your Journey.
Never knew I could sleep so peacefully to this soundtrack even thought I have sleeping problems... Keep making these videos for all the people who desperately need it.
Snowfall music never disappoints
Every day feel the same
thank you for the consistent love and support, means so much to me more then you think. im glad this channel is growing and i wish you nothing but love, happiness, and success. more music on the way and i am glad to be on this journey with you all, thank you for everything.
If you're reading this, as someone who emerged from darkness, know it's possible. I've endured unimaginable losses and battles, even losing my son, spiraling into destructive behavior. But I survived to tell you: your life is worth it. Someone will miss you deeply. Tonight, as we remember our pains, know you're not alone. Let your tears flow; it's okay not to be okay. You've survived this far on your own strength, and I'm proud of you. Rest tonight, find peace. Tomorrow is a new day, and I'll be here with you through the struggles. I'm proud of you. Thank you for being alive. 🌟💖
Snowfall really hits different at 3 am 💔
I'm starting to think it's luxury nowadays to have a peaceful frame of mind....
same
5 years ago I lost two friends due to suicide and I felt so hopeless I wished it was me and not them two I still dream with them to this day
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I'm sorry, that's awful to know.. I hope you're doing alright
Its not how alone I feel that's the problem, its more that I just don't care anymore
Thats the secret to a happy life
No.@@dessire1803
The fact that this playlist motivated me to do my homework
This is so calming.🖤🖤
listening while studying
Yk whats weird is that i knew he was going to leave but i just couldn’t accept it. Not until he really broke it off, but with how long it went on and how fucking bad it fucked with my head i cant shake the feeling he’s going to leave again. We got back together and I understand why he left, ill be it for stupid reasons of “ill leave before she leaves me” EVEN THO I WAS NEVER GOING TO.
But either way it fucked my head up so badly that any fluctuations in his mood or mannerisms sends me shaking and feeling sick with anxiety.
Its gotten better thankfully, back in the beginning i couldn’t even think of it without breaking down but i can think of it now and only feel anxious.
I know hes not gonna leave and that he loves me but its the fact that he left once that makes me think he’ll do it again.
And really what can i do?
Nothing.
Helplessness is like drowning in yourself. No where to run or hide, no one to save you, you’re completely alone.
Its emotional and mental weakness x1000. Everything is telling you to fight but you know you can’t, yk that submission is easy but also impossible because who gives in to drowning?
Ive never experienced what he put me through and what i allowed myself to fall into.
Love is beautiful and love is horrible and love is terrifying and love is eternal and love is fucking worth the pain bevause at least you experienced it, something people kill, die, and live for.
Appreciate love even when it fucks you up but never allow urself to fall apart forever.
We’re currently having severe fog where I’m at walked to a field and sat down to this there’s something beautiful about it but a deep sadness
it hurts 💔
Keep rocking and spreading the musical joy! 🚀🎵🎉
80k soon 👀
i wish i was in some cabin far away from this world, place and i hope i could call it my home, and that is probably possible with the dog that was next to me in the 8 years and showed me what unconditional love and a true companion i had, and probably only will ever have for real.
я запутался в своих мыслях.. я думал, я избавился от этого, но это не так.. это всё не так.. воспоминания не греют больше..
как ты там?
Feels like those times when I force myself to wake up early anytime I have a day off because I don't want to waste my day even though I can't do anything when I wake up besides feeling worse and worse because I made myself too tired to do any work or even have fun. But I still do it every time because I'd feel like a waste otherwise. Though, now that I think about it, I'd still feel like a waste, even if I wake up early. I just end up feeling horrible for not doing anything.
No siempre debes ser un arcoiris, a veces los mas hermosos paisajes estan cubiertos por nubes negras.
I miss her old self...
Im so tired of all the unreasonable hatred for me. I dont want to live anymore.
I’m sorry that some people are being complete aholes to you. Keep going forward and say a little prayer to God every day ❤
Keep going, sport; there's a big ol' world out there, and it's all for you. I'm proud of you, kid. You're gonna do great things in this world. :)
I hope you heal from every wound you have dear reader 😊 keep going keep pushing 👍
I love this music ❤
I'm very sorry for all that you have lost all that you have lived through I know i have it bad but it's hurts me because I know people have it worse. People are so strong❤
nice one please do create more
"Lonelyness is about the scariest thing out there"
Feels to conquer the earth. Not anyone's power but just my beautiful earth. I want to live with her forever, because the beauty of it gives me hope to stay alive
toque perfeito pra dormir 😍😴💤🥰
Love it I been working out to this
Nice playlist
Essas músicas são ótimas para qualquer ocasião de está sozinho ou deitado, várias outras opções, eu penso já vida porque pareçe que eu me relaxo com os toques do som....
A 1 música da uma nostalgia e faz refletirmos na nossa vida toda é uma badzinha boa 😢❤
If your reading this i want you to know, there are so many battles that life will throw in your direction. Feeling unworthy, unhappy, lost, etc. is a normal part of life experience that we don't like. Everything can be hard if you think in that mindset and it can be very hard to change that mindset so it takes time. I'm so proud of everyone who's made it and whose still fighting those problems. I will be alongside with you. Take care sweet ones, don't let the bug beds bite ;)
good😔
this song makes me face the reality of self inflicting wounds destroying my life throughout the years. My stupidity always getting in the way of a successful life. Oh well.
Don't say such de grading things about yourself ! I know you're better than that !
I come bringing some good news to you today and that is the news our Lord and saviour Jesus Christ.
He is the only one who can bring peace upon man's heart, if you sincerely take him as your saviour and allow him into your heart, these feelings of hopelessness you will see begin to flourish into great feelings of love, joy, hope and courage.
It is a dark time for all, the world is full of darkness, and we are of the world, if the world is full of darkness and we are of the world, we become darkness, we become slaves to our flesh and feelings. But it is washing yourself with the blood of Jesus Christ that you can be saved. Believe in the good news I have come to spread today and you will soon be free, of body, of mind but most importantly, of heart.
All the best !
I don’t want to feel hopeless ever again.
Never give up hope guys
I’m always here…nothing else helps. Don’t bother - this is the closest to peace I can get
Stop walking for someone with feet.
Stop controlling them in fear of losing them.
Stop thinking at all. Joke. Even if your hurt move forward don't look back. You cannot turn back time & fix things. Even if possible you can still break stuff up.
I am from vietnam. I really like this song that is snowfall and I listen to it everday. Finally, I want to say:' thank you so much'💌❤❤💖
I wanted to let you know that you are worth it, you are enough, and you deserve to be happy, loved, and you deserve to live. The world is a much better place with you in it, and you will get through this. I’m proud of you no matter what. You might not be perfect, but no one is, and you’re you. Being you is more than enough, and there’s only one of you in this whole entire world. Losing you would be losing something incredibly special. Suicide might seem like your only option, and though it might get rid of your pain, all it does is pass it on to the people who love and care about you. (It might be hard to feel this way but people do love and care about you, I know we haven’t met but I love and care about you.) And this is hard to see, but you have so so much to live for. You’re going to have so many good opportunities in the future and I know one day you’ll be able to look back on this and think: “I’m glad I never gave up.” You are strong. You are beautiful. You deserve everything good in life. I believe in you with all my heart, and hope that one day you’ll be able to say and believe I’m proud of myself, because you deserve it.
You can do anything bro it all starts today.
sound and pleces so hout touching
Each morning, the feeling of squandering another day upon waking can be disheartening. However, remember that each dawn brings with it a fresh opportunity for new beginnings and untapped possibilities. Embrace the potential that each day holds, and let it unfold as a canvas for your aspirations and endeavors. You have the power to shape your narrative and make each waking moment count towards a meaningful journey.
I think I listened all songs on this channel, bacuse the first music in this video is song that I heard before. That's kind of sad. Because we don't have more new music in this style.
But this isn't mean that music is bad. It still greatfull, no matter what.
i will never b good enough for them
Everytime i feel like im about to overdose off coke, i come here. Thank you whoever made this music, i hope i can listen to this aga i n ❤️
Life goes on...
who else's new years resolution is to not cry at all in 2024?
New years resolution of being happy for 2024, but 2024 tear it down with my dad passing away from stroke on 4th January... From getting hope from the doctors at the end of the year 2023 to getting the bad news at the beginning of the year 2024 was devastating for me. Now I wonder can I actually be happy for this year....
This came at the right time...
It's 1am, I'm considering quitting TH-cam (all channels) because despite trying SO many things none of it gets traction. I don't care about monetisation, but as a creative producer I need interaction.
My channel is quite similar to this one (and Dreamscape etc). Despite this I have 15 subscribers, almost no comments, almost no likes....
It's just depressing. It's hopeless.
It’s hard but consistent uploads help to get recommendations even if you help 1 2 3 6 people then isn’t it at least worth the effort
I can’t imagine the disappointment you feel but I hope it gets better
What's your channel called?
We will subscribe to your channel. What is it?
Never ever give up ❤
I just subscribed!
Thank you for your kind support @@ursy2566
You are not your depression.. you are the sky… clouds come , they cause storms. But they pass.. never give up. I believe in you.
i feel like my hearts empty
my stomach is uneasy
my brain cant process all thats going on
everything around me
my mind is flooded with everything i try to remember
what if i never went that night
i would have been saved
what is this plan in my life
this path im going on
i feel numb
i cant cry and when i do thats when i know im at my lowest
why does love and heartbreak make me feel this way
does everyone feel this way
is it my fault
i know it is
and i want to cry because of it
what plan is there for the rest of my life
i want to know whats going to happen next
and i wish i knew what was going to happen then.
its not a big deal
then why am i acting like it is
i cant control myself anyomore
i dont want to be lonely but i feel like being alone
can i take a walk at night or is that dangerous too
theres no more escape
im stuck and i cant feel anything
i dont recognize myself
i cry at a photo i see of myself young
can i go back in time but i remember everything happening now
i dont want to relate to people this way
i want to be normal
i want to be seen and heard in a good way
can i be left alone without being lonely
but no matter how hard i try i always fall back into that hole
that takes life out
where there are no colors
no emotions
im just numb
i can touch things but not feel anything
not anymore
not ever
maybe and just maybe not for a while
i know the reason for why i feel like this
but i cant make anyone look bad
only myself
if only i knew that was our last time together
only then would i savour the moment
Aveces reflexiono con esta playlist, cosas que hecho mal, mi vida no ha sido tan mala, solo que me cruce mucha gente que quiso dañarme o lo hizo sin esa intención, me acuerdo de cuando tenía 15 años y solo me hacía el malo para que no me lastimaron o trataran mal, después a los 18 decidí abrirme para poder ver el lado bueno de la vida y las personas.
Hoy tengo 26 años, pase por 3 relaciones que fueron fracasos, la primera me engaño con su mejor amigo, la segunda dejo de amarme y corte con ella porque si indiferencia me hacia morir por dentro, no tuvo el valor de cortar conmigo por eso corte yo, la última me uso como un juguete sexual y se fue con alguien más que frecuenta mi círculo de amigos.
Siento que hay algo mal en mi, siento que no puedo satisfacer a nadie, ni emocional, económica o sexualmente.
Siento que no sirvo, que soy un ignorante que tiene un trabajo promedio y no puede lograr que nadie se mantenga a su lado por más de 2 años.
Trato de mejorar, pero recuerdo todo esto, las veces que cambié, madure y mejore, pero aún así no soy suficiente para nadie.
Por fortuna tengo una familia que me quiere y apoya, son lo más importante para mi en la vida, porque a diferencia de amigos o novias.
Ellos siempre están ahí, incondicionalmente, tenga dinero o no, tenga trabajo o no, sea un desastre o no.
Solo me hace un huevo en el corazón que no voy a sentir un amor genuino como el de mi familia en nadie más, que mi compañera o compañero de vida va a estar ahí, mientras le sea útil, mientras pueda seguir siendo útil.
Y la razón por la que nadie se queda conmigo, es porque no debo estar siendo útil, o porque no soy suficiente persona para nadie...
Si no fuera por mi familia, creo que ya habría tomado la salida fácil.
Chicos, no se los dice alguien que superó estas cosas o alguien que no sabe como se siente, experimento mi repudio a mi mismo y mis ganas de dejar de existir cada segundo del día, quiero dejar de sufrir, quiero dejar de sentir dolor.
Pero piensen en sus familias o en quien sea para ustedes familia, ellos los aman, lo hacen sin condiciones, no les piden nada a cambio, el amor verdadero se siente así, cuidenlo, apareciendo y si sienten que aunque sean unas basuras humanas quieren devolverles ese amor sincero, sigan intentándolo, así como yo lo hago.
Cuídense todos, aguanten y amen a su familia, lo mas importante en este mundo.
Si de algo les sirve, los amo.
Porfavor les suplico, un alma barada en el infinito azul frío del mar de tristeza les implora, estén a salvo, cuídense y mejoren.
I just want to float in the silent sea of space. I want to drown in the pull of a black hole in which time and space is morphed. I want to feel all the stars around me, never leaving me alone. I want to feel a solar eclipse creep up and brush against my skin.. just so I can feel something..... anything.
i miss the old me
if dreams are more beautiful then i don't want to wake up
But life must go on. Try not think about negative thoughts it will drag you down & not able to function like everyone. But sometimes it's ok to not do anything. People need a break of those chaos in the world.
Thanks
There I was. Done with highschool. Was doing well at little Ceasars because I was working full time and a shift lead at 17. I had done well in school. I wanted to pursue college. Only a few months out of highschool, I had a psychotic break. I don't know exactly why. But I know that going off my meds cold turkey and smoking marijuana again was most likely to blame. There I was, at little Cesar's again almost a year later. And you wouldn't had known I'd worked there before. I could barely get through a 4 hour shift. The idea of college was gone. All that time getting good grades in school felt wasted. I'd have panic attacks all the time. Depresssion non stop. I was always concerned about my well being. Worrying if I was crazy still. I was unsure if I could do better than where I was. If I could date. If I would ever be myself again. I started gaining weight. But eventually. Luckily. Things turned around. At least for a while. I got in better shape. I tried to go to college a few times. I dated someone although the relationship was rocky. And didn't last after a year. Now I still struggle to have a career going at 27. The idea of college and higher education sounds impossible. That person I dated is now married and happy. And I still feel like I'm picking up the pieces of my broken mind and heart from these long grueling years since everything changed. I want to keep going. To be in a good spot and overcome all this depression, anger and self hatred. But lately I just feel like it's too much. That I'll never be able to have the things I want. I wish I could say that things always work out. But the older I get. The more it feels like everything is just statistics and random. And that you don't always survive the long battles. You just get as used as you can to the pain and chaos as you can. I wish I was pursing my stupid dreams, that I had ambition, that I was capable of succeeding in one thing in my life, that I didn't find everyone to be annoying, that I was my old, confident, loving self again, and that I could be content. Oh well..
I always wanted to isolate myself
Im broken… I’ve tried countless times to change to fix myself but nothing works
Just pushing myself through each day
Hoping it’ll come to me
Whatever it may be