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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 22 ก.ย. 2024
- I’m not sure when it started, but somewhere along the line, living turned into just... existing. Like I’m here, but not really. Going through the motions, saying the right things, doing what I’m supposed to, but inside? It’s like nothing hits the same anymore. Ever feel like that? Like you’re watching your life happen from the outside, wondering when it’s going to feel real again?
That’s what this is. It’s not polished, it’s not dressed up with answers-just me, talking through it, trying to figure out if there’s something more to this weird in-between place. Maybe you’re here too, or maybe you’ve been here before.
Track: Zerofuturism - Lotus (2023) w/ Rain Sounds
I feel like you know me more than I know myself already
LMAO SOMEONE COMMENTED "oil up"
I feel the same way. No one can ever tell...
Im really enjoying video montage itself. Apartament buildings, those yards. Lights in distance. I love that vibe.
You perfectly showed in video what there is to enjoy and more. It is small things and even more when you learn how to enjoy it all.
this is so true bro you described it perfectly bravo
jesus you just described my exact thoughts and kind of given me a greater perspective of it.
I started feeling like this about a year ago when i was 16 and I've been like this for the past two years now.
It’s rough going through that, especially so young. glad the video gave you some perspective though it’s weirdly comforting to know we’re not alone in feeling this way
I'm on the same journey. If I find it I'll let you know. Be safe man.
Don't worry you will feel real happiness once more
I had my existential crisis a couple years ago. I had to talk to a psychiatrist. I didn’t know what was going on. Turning 40 is weird. He diagnosed me with Massive Depressive Disorder and put me on meds. The meds didn’t answer any of my concerns, but they did make me get out of my depression and start seeing things in a lighter manner. Now I feel so much better even though my circumstances haven’t necessarily changed. Things don’t seem dark and dreary anymore and I look forward to things again, which had become a foreign feeling.
There’s help. It may or may not be in the form of medicinal intervention, but, regardless, you’re not stuck.
i’m glad you found something that helped, even if the circumstances stayed the same. sometimes it’s not about fixing everything but just finding a way to see things differently. everyone’s journey looks different, but yeah, that feeling of being stuck doesn’t last forever. appreciate you sharing your experience.
massive
You said you feel empty and disconnected, but the truth is, you can fix it by putting your mind to something and not giving up. Everyone today lives such comfortable lives that they’ve forgotten the power of discomfort. Pain is real, and so is the satisfaction of pushing through it.
Start by making yourself uncomfortable-run or train every morning. Try mountain climbing, fighting, or endurance sports. Extreme challenges force you to feel deeply, and through discomfort, you’ll rediscover yourself. Keep pushing, and you’ll never feel empty again.
i get what you're saying. there's something about discomfort that forces you to really face yourself. it’s just that sometimes, even when you push through, the emptiness doesn’t go away that easily. but yeah, pushing boundaries and doing the hard stuff does help you reconnect. everyone’s path is different, though.
As a society we were promised we could be anything. Only for it to be ripped away. We are told to let our dreams die. Dreaming is seen as unrealistic. More and more we’re being pushed to be cogs in a machine. It’s a tale as old as time. Demons are just angels that dared to dream. Fight on. Even if you don’t think it will get better, even if everything is screaming at you that you won’t amount to anything keep fighting. Even just out of spite for this existence. Never give up and never give in. Because in the end, all that matters is you tried. That is the only certainty you can garruntee.
I feel the exact same as you and while listening this makes my heart feel cold around
Can relate
Life is like a bumpy road, you just gotta ride over those bumps as they come.
Thank you for putting my life into words. 🥺
I have felt the same during some years now, for every person it's different, there is no magic answer, but, we have to think, much more people have done it before us, maybe if you got the courage to do it, ask, ask a familiar, friend, or a psychologist, the important thing it's, Do not desperate, do not jump, some parts of life are like that, and you just have to stick around, if you think that what you do, it's not what you should do, maybe you just need to take some time, just search for answers, you will find happyness,, I know it, only thing to know, every time, in every place, someone will help you out.
asking for help is brave, and sticking around to find those answers it’s worth it in the end. appreciate the reminder.
This is so relatable. I don't care about anything. I continue to do what I used to enjoy doing because it's easier than having to explain that I don't care at all and I know that I would only feel worse about myself if I just gave up completely. Still, I don't care. I don't care about my friends, I don't care about my family, my parents, my brother. I feel fake. I can't feel any sort of attachment to anyone or anything. If my parents went and died right now (I'm still in high school) the most worrying thing to me would be where I was going to go, how I would be taken care of. I don't think I would care at all that they had died and I would never see them again.
Sometimes I watch youtube, and occasionally it makes me laugh, sometimes even my "friends" make me laugh, but it's not real happiness---the smile, the laughter falls away almost instantly, and no feelings of mirth remain afterward. I pretend that I'm sick or that I can't go to school just so I can avoid them so I don't have to try to pretend like I care about them. I have really supportive, kind friends, and they know I'm depressed, but they don't know that I don't give a flying fuck whether I see them or not.
Occasionally this horrible feeling just envelops me, this existential horror and the unconscious rejection that anything is real. I just disconnect completely from reality, every single person becomes a total stranger to me. The thought that I am a person in this world is impossible to grasp, and I can't even function. Usually it passes, but it seems to be becoming permanent little by little, starting with just a little bit of uneasiness and anxiety and gradually worsening over time.
it takes a lot to put this out there, and I appreciate you sharing it. sometimes we disconnect just to survive, and I get how exhausting it can be pretending like everything's fine when it’s not. just know it’s okay to feel what you’re feeling, even if it’s nothing at all. you’re still here, and that means something.
Thank you for this video. Keep making content, man. Perhaps, writing and filmmaking is your calling.
i don’t know if writing or filmmaking is my calling, but I guess that’s part of the process just trying things and seeing what sticks. feels good to know it connects with people, though.
Some people have evil dreams though, for those individuals it’s probably good that they stay empty and forget their dreams as said dreams run from them
Then the emptiness can be filled with something else
what does it even mean to truly live, isn't it just existing anyways
same... just same
I was the same but I did fix it bro… I simple stopped looking at my phone, and did the things I found relaxing or peaceful. I went to the sea side alone and sat for hours and it didnt work. But I realized that the reason why I never found peace was because I had too much stuff on my mind. When I was on a hike I was thinking of a girl. When I was with friends I was trying to understand the meaning of life. But then it hit me. I needed to live in the moment instead of having all these distractions in my head. So I went to the sea side again and learnt to focus on the sea/ moment. And I felt happy for the first time in a long time. Just know that there is no real meaning to life so just live in the moment and enjoy the beauty of earth and life with no distractions. Live in the moment.
that’s real, man. it’s crazy how just being present can change things, but it’s hard when your mind’s always racing. thanks for sharing that perspective.
I have this problem too and i think it's getting better. I'm trying to try more things and find my passion by trying everything. And I also find doing stuff your younger self would do in this moment helps.
sometimes those old passions remind us of who we are. keep exploring, I think that’s the key.
I would say I'm recovering from feeling the exact same way; just empty. The thing that has helped me not just exist, is to surround myself with the things i love, like being around the people i love, hobbies i enjoy, and just the things that make me happiest. Try to think about what has or does make you feel the happiest, and if there's nothing you can think of, find one. Try working out, talking to people online, go fishing, try taking a hike, or just go on a walk. You'll eventually find something, and if you somehow don't, at least you're trying to look for something instead of just settling and doing nothing, just existing. I understand it's hard to get out of a place like that, but if you want something bad enough, in this case, happiness, then you'll eventually find something that makes life worth living. You're not the only person to even feel this way, and just that should be enough to push you to find something you love.
that’s real, man. i appreciate you sharing your journey. it’s true-sometimes it’s about finding even the smallest thing that brings you back to life. i’m working on it, just taking it day by day. thanks for the advice
@@alasta1rr Of course, man. Everyone goes through rough times and in todays age it's extremely hard to deal with sometimes, because we are so isolated. If you have anyone you can reach out to that you trust and feel safe with, I suggest trying to talk to them about how you're feeling. It can be really hard, but once you do you'll find out that everyone has been there, or at least knows of the feeling and can be there for you, and sometimes that's all you really needed all along. I hope you find what you're looking for, whether it's a job, a significant other, friend, hobby, or anything it could possibly be that means something to you. And sometimes, its when you're not looking for something is when you'll find it, I know you'll figure it out, it just takes time. I know these are just words, but I hope you can find something in them that can help, the thing that helped me actually is figuring out what I want my future to look like, I'd like to be a psychologist someday. Like i said, you'll find the thing that's worth living for, so just keep searching.
I have the sme feelings except I did solve the problem. I found someone I connected with hard and really understood and who understood me.
Not like a boyfriend girlfriend thing but just a person who genuinely wanted me to succeed and who genuinely wanted to see succeed also.
I felt for a brief moment that it wasnt just pointless and that even if the world was shit I could enjoy it with someone who enjoyed me.
I lost that friend. I feel like I will never recoup that feeling. I am not living. I am older every day.
Never has enyone sayed whats going on in my life, fore the last sume years, more accuret then you have. I fee just as EMPTY
Lost in my own WORLD
Lost where i once belonged
Lost where i once was alive...
Where i lived...
Where i used to be
Where i was just me
Im LOST!
Im starting to get a gripp of myself again. Ive thats still still the person i am... or just was.
I think its been geting better for me.
Just... slowly...
Weary slowly
More then a year just trying to rewind my mind but yet im just at the start again.
Hope all of us lost Children can find oure (TRUE) selfs, find where we belonge, find what we lost and be who we want to be.
❤
I need to BREAK [FREE] !!!
I need to be [ME]
Somtimes i feel like im just playing a Character.
Made this comment before finishing the vid yet you where talking almost the exact thing i wrote after i conntinued. lol 😅
keep pushing, hope we all find that freedom
I'm going through the same feelings that you've talked about in every video. Always looking for a solution or an asnwer to everything about what's wrong or what living really is. I've looked for answers through a doctor, friends, family but none have come through to actually see the real problem. Instead I've been perscribed with antidepressants and been told I may just have ADHD, but I feel trapped even on medications. No matter what medication I take, person I talk to, or thought I make nothing truly changes and the next day comes around and the cycle repeats. There's always a feeling of want and desire but those seem so far out of my grasp that I will always just be in a stagnant state of being where nothing will change. I'm determined however to keep moving forward even if the path ahead is an infinite circle or simply just a treadmill. These may change in the future but it's truly hard to imagine a future as the thought of one is cloudy or foggy. As I'm in my early 20's I'm not certain of when this started all I know is all of a sudden around the time of late middle school my brain just randomly snapped as if it has shifted from one thought process to another in an instant. However with all I've said I feel a little bit better knowing there's at least someone and other people out there that feel the same way. Thank you for making these videos I will continue along your journy and maybe it just might help me get through mine.
it's rough when it feels like nothing's changing no matter what you try. that trapped feeling, it hits hard. but the fact that you're still pushing through, even when it feels pointless, that’s something real. we’re all out here trying to figure it out, and knowing we're not alone in it makes a difference. glad these videos resonate with you, keep going-you never know when that shift might happen🤍
i somehow know why do people do something that's going to harm them even if they know it's going to harm them. its to, well, feel something. they want that feeling of depth. one that anything else cant bring to the table.
and please, i really dont want to cater my life into that, but i feel like this life has been a prison, scheduled by the higher ups and no chance at living. no chance at letting all hells break loose.
but i just hope all of us get better man, eventually, one day.
we’ll all get there eventually
same.
real
Real
My solution would be to try and do new things and try to make friwnda
i honestly could write about what gives me sort of hype that feelings are but im not great with grammar, although for me it could be mental issue called depersonalizaction(feeling like my mind isnt connected to body, memory issues, almost no emoctions) not 100% sure. anyway that emptiness is like giving up on sugar, it will be hard at first and you will do everything to get that taste back but after while you wont feel any need anymore.(glad to answear any questions if needed)
doesn’t matter about the grammar, what you're saying is real. that emptiness hits hard, and yeah, sometimes it’s like chasing something you can’t get back
Do something out of the norm of the day to day, shock your existence back to life.
Ride a bike, it can be relaxing and it's also good for you
Appreciate the advice.
I know that you will
Oil up
💀
you will get over it.
you need to indulge in whatever wild side you may have live just a little bit to the extremes so you can see and enjoy the small things you need a break dude
appreciate the advice. maybe I do need to let loose a bit more
wah wah
emo ahh
Ok I know you’re only 8 but sometimes people get sad.
I know right big shocker
@@Lezzite womp
2:07 . .Are u on drugs 💀
nah hes real I feel the same way
@@nineveh17 yeah , i think the earth is cursed or smth (We just live in a different Multi-Universe , where we don't feel connected)
@@AcenoxiRiley 🙃idk about that but maybe its true we'll never know
@@nineveh17 yeeee skibidi universe
@@AcenoxiRiley 😐
less anime more touch grass
Buddy buddy buddy
If he enjoys anime, let him watch it.
I do agree with touching grass though, just try to find an outdoor hobby
real