Heroin and Crack Addict interview-Cassandra
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- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Cassandra, a heroin and crack addict on Skid Row. Photographed on February 13, 2020.
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Cassandra passed away, yesterday April 28th of a drug overdose in Marina del Rey. May her pain stop. She was a very beautiful and wonderful women. A real knockout besides. We miss her so much.
WTF.
Dear God do I fucking hate Satan.
RIP My Dear
Appreciate the update, thank you
So sorry for your loss Thomas. Grew up with her in Farmington. Considered her a friend. I feel so bad not knowing about her struggles at home. She will be missed. She was an angel
@@VictorVulaj Thank you very much, Victor, we miss her greatly.
She wasn't for those streets.
@@michaelanthony6318 Yeah. Satan. He's definitely the culprit here. 🙄
Him letting these people tell their stories, is the most genuine art I’ve ever encountered.
You've been had.
Concept living Damien Hurst more like.
The comments are as big a part of the pieces as the videos themselves.
Q&DSing theres many channels like this
😍
She’s so poetic when she speaks like “they hated beautifully” and “silence had a sound too”. 😳 I think she should def write a book.
I thought exactly that, she has a gift with words.....
So true.
Agree
thought th sam thing
Girl gone
People are so shocked that a lot of the people on this channel are so “smart” and “well-spoken”. Why wouldn’t they be? Addiction can affect anyone and it’s not fair to assume that addicts aren’t normally smart people
Esther Rose yes yes yes!!!!!! A hundred times yes!
Yep. We get people from all walks of life in my recovery group. Addiction doesn't discriminate.
No but the drugs destroy organs like the brain.
Yea she hit me with that proclivity i m like ok i really like her illeteration.
Im so glad you pointed this out!
This poor woman keeps saying “I’m so embarrassed” whilst these things aren’t her fault. You are a surviver and a soldier.
WORD!
She's obviously lying.
@@devarionloyd2985 because kids never get abused?!
Amen
@@devarionloyd2985 U can hear the destroyed naval cavity... xD u get that type of voice from snorting to much shit. Look at all the famous people who did. All them sound like this. She says she may be lying in the video, but most likely because of the drugs
When she asked if she was telling too much I almost cried. It’s so sad to see that she’s been so unheard for so long, now that she has a voice and someone to tell her story to she feels like she’s oversharing. Continue sharing your story love
J R she is very coherent and prolific. Get over yourself. If she were a person of color, everyone would praise her just as much bc of her wit, character, and strength.
@J R Maybe the only way she can talk about her horrific past is to be high..Either way it doesn't take away from her story.....I can't stand it when people always have to make the color of someone's skin the issue...
Red, yellow, black or white all are precious in His sight, Jesus loves the children of the world..
@@michaelmueller7405 - Right on 😁😁😁
It frustrates me to no end that every minority has a voice but us bc we are so used to being stigmatized prejudiced and shamed.
You too… I thought it was only me...It was very painful to hear her say am I telling too much… You can see or actually you can hear how much potential lies within her… She has suffered so much😞
Please bring her back, I’d love to see where she’s at now, there’s something really special about her. I hope Cassie finds the happiness she deserves. I’m sending all my love and support her way
Cassie is so special. She has a beautiful soul. She is eloquent and well spoken. I hope she can heal and put her talent with words to use to help others by sharing her stories with others who need help healing. She has so much to offer this world.
I too would love to know where she is now.. and i hope her sisters are atleast well and she too is now getting help. i hope.
Adia Cascano not social distancing and staying inside
She's vulnerable
Shes gone
Yesssss
You just bought what shes selling.
"How does it feel to have your freedom in the hands of someone you said was so worthless?" BRAVO!
that was so powerful I got the chills
Time stamp ?
That was AWESOME
She’s amazing to just say it in the moment
@@Eivn-gq1dp 11:52
“Silence has a sound too”
Wasn't that so profound smh its so true
It took me 33 years to tell ANYONE I was molested as a small child. I'm 38 now. It truly does have a sound...... It's deafining, makes you dizzy, makes you feel shameful and worthless, silence is loud as a earthquake.....
Detroit FettyGhost I’m sorry people hurt you xx
@@detroitfettyghost8492 so am I
Norah Smith I caught that too!! So intensely profound.
So many people saw that she was broken and they all still took a piece.
Truly heartbreaking
I felt this in my soul.
Yes. Designated victim. They sicken me
The ppl who victimized her are Animals.
Wow this comment is deep, made me tear up :/
"I don't know which was worse the screaming for her in my head or the silence when I forgot she existed Because silence has a sound too"
That is quite possibly one of the most beautiful But saddest things I've ever heard.
O and Cassie you are welcome here down in Southern Louisiana if you ever need to escape the madness that is your world Wherever you are. I don't know you but I love you stay strong
It's beyond poetic isn't it? She'd be amazing songwriter.
Shes lying nothing connects or makes sense from the start
This is rambling Junkie Logic
@@DDios-ih9de What does that have to do in the slightest bit with what the fuck I said? Like it would have unpuckered your asshole to have made that dumb ass statement all on it's own rather than seek validation via hijacking someone else's genuine statement. Sounds like perhaps you have a bit of experience with what you call rambling junkie logic...maybe it's the junkie in you that prohibits you from comprehending the story she told. Was pretty clear to me from start to end. It was just a very complex series of events she recalled from her memory and past. I personally think she did a great job telling it like she did. I don't suppose you have a video up that bares your soul for the world to see...strips you totally and completely naked and leaves you utterly vulnerable and exposed...yeah didn't think so....shoo fly
Why are ppl so fucking judgemental wtf is wrong with ppl .Who cares if its from a book or whatever the fact that she even knows it speaks volume.
This lady has spoken for over an hour and I’ve hung onto every word. So eloquently spoken and classy despite everything she has been through. I would love to see a catch up video with her. Thank you for giving these people a voice.
And you still didn't realize she was probably schizophrenic? Listen again with the subtitles and really listen to the disconnected random deluded thoughts of hers
Very mentally ill woman
Thinking as you did is what prevents her n others getting proper medical help
Why,?
Because you don't think she looks crazy
She passed away from a drug overdose 😪
Rest in peace 😢
She was brilliant and articulate, I pray her soul is at peace now
This woman is brilliant, she could make movies or write books. I love her language in her descriptions. I hope she finds peace and happiness , she definitely deserves it.
You must be poorly educated to think she's brilliant. She's a conniving liar
Devarion Loyd please shut your ass up
Devarion Loyd I was a heroin addict who self medicated for 13+ years my last 3 years with heroin I'm well educated and not a liar and been through alot but now April 4th I'm bringing in my 5th year sober so your close minded and judgemental ass can keep those rude comments to yourself we will be happy but you will alone and just miserable. Hey I agree most people can't succeed or get safely to the other side but I conquered it with the amazing support of my family and kids and it's why I got far alot of people do not have that and it hurts their chances of making it. I just on March 3rd got a tattoo that says I played the most dangerous game called addiction, but I won with the help of my family and got everyone's name underneath. alot of addicts do not have family at all so they have noone like you it's unfortunate.
I don't think she spoke a single word of untruth. She comes off as quite eloquent and expressive, but also as someone who has lived a tortured existence. I wish I could just feel her pain for her, even if it's just for a few seconds, to relieve her but also to know what it's like. I'm amazed she hasn't killed herself yet, but sometimes addiction has a perverse, paradoxical life-extending property because seeking drugs and being high becomes the addict's new purpose in life, and they don't wanna give it up.
@@devarionloyd2985 Lol, who are you to judge about anyone?
I told myself I was going to watch 15 minutes of this video, then start my school work for the night. That didn't happen. Her story is more important than the busywork I was assigned. Cassandra, you're so captivating. Your story is just... There's not even a word for it. You are a lady. You are capable of everything and anything.
Demi Burley thats happening to me right now, I’m studying for finals and just wanted to take a 10 min break and watch something, I’ve been captivated for every second of her story !
"How does it feel to have your freedom in the hands of someone you said was worthless?" This woman has a gift. I hope she is doing ok.
Powerful saying, Abusers don't stop to think of the Leagal consequences of their violent actions will cause them to lose their freedom in some form or other.....ie KARMA.
Lets all take drugs and be famous , some people have
I am her younger sister, and I have to say, Cassie did always have a flair for storytelling. Most of what she is saying in this interview is true, though. She had an unusual and really amazing life in between the bad times. She fought her demons and mental illness like crazy, she really did, she wanted to have a "normal" life. So, for the commenters who wanted to know how she fared...obviously not well.. but she lived and loved and traveled this earth and read books and she was a beautiful person, when she wasn't trying to destroy herself. I hope her story brings solace to anyone reaching out for it.
Thanks for reaching out to those of us that fell in love with your sister by just watching her interview. My sister was found dead from drugs also. I think most of us who fight demons strive for the "normal" life. Like Cassie said silence does have a sound. Sorry for your loss.
I'm so sorry for your loss as well. Thank you for reaching out, it gives me comfort.
Monique, it brings some peace that she had a nice life in between her battles. I wonder if her dad and step-mother took any responsibility?
@@inishlor505- I am her oldest half sister. The stepmom is my biological mother. I can attest that I remember a lot of this, even at the young age. I remember the beating, the trial, the social workers, the threats. My parents do not take any responsibility. They maintain the older girls were liars and thieves. Once they moved out we were not allowed to speak about them again. I snuck and kept in touch with my older sisters, getting punished for doing so. I'm 40 now. I have a daughter of my own. When I was pregnant I cut off contact with my parents in an effort to break the cycles. My daughter has never met my parents and they have never reached out. One of the big issues is, of course their complete refusal to acknowledge any of this ever happening.
Thank you. Your sister was amazing. It’s so hard out there for some people, including myself. Trying to learn something from all this.
Stigma against addicts has to stop. Addicts are smart, intelligent, beautiful people. Addiction is a symptom of deep trauma. Please, please understand this.
Right! I work as a medical professional in Berlin and Addicts have allmost no Lobby! They are very stigmatized! To keep it real, there are a lot of cases where it is maybe true ..but there are more then enough " white west" hidden addicts! I know of colleagues in the hospital where I work who are addicted !
Truth, people judge abused people and dismiss them. A lot of ignorance out there
or some people just like to get high
I couldn’t of put it better myself..
Thank you 🙏
“I don’t know what was worse.
The screaming for her in my head or the silence where I forgot she existed. Cuz silence has a sound too."
Silence is deafening
Shew.
When she said that, it hit me like a fist.
This moment 💔😧
I felt that so much when she said it 😭
"Anything that is "wrong" with you, began as a survival mechanism in childhood." - Dr. Gabor Mate
I love Dr. Gabor Mate !!
This drugged out white isn't well spoken she is talking nonstop ugh .Ya are a bunch of druggies
@Horsey Daniels look don't post at me you aren't American and you don't live in America Learn English you little punk bitch
Iris Humphrey yea he is amazing in understanding trauma .
Jennifer Pauk does your mom know you watch this Channel😂🤦🏻♀️
She was a beautiful soul. I am glad she is free from her pain but so sad to hear she passed. Rest in your power, lady. You deseved so much better.
I wonder how different their lives would be if they were loved instead of abused.
Not sure I'm over worked and nothing EVER comes good of it. I'm way too good and a Tank hard worker, mom, a daughter to a evil Ass mother thats bed bound and treats me like shit!! She is very Abusive to me and my youngest, Mentally, environmentally, Phscialy, verbally. Big hearts get F ng crushed, ALL I ask is for help, never do i get any. She needs a home not with me, I've been doing it hard core since 2017 and the Shit NEVER Changes so I need to change it. Just like these stories. Everyone has one!!
Under paid. I’m sorry xx
Totally different.
touché!
@@blackmonday738 I'm sorry you are going thru such a hard time. Are you able to get help with a therapist or a psychiatrist? That may really help you.
These stories need to be on Netflix. This is like a Netflix Documentaries. I can't stop binge watching! So good.❤👀💜
Leslie Davis just curious, why Netflix, they’re on here
YES, I just want to hear more stories from these people. Especially Cassandra.
No they don't. They will change his format then. Then it's gonna be shit.
@bmcgmusic They don't really ruin anything. They have great programming and some shitty ones. But when you have something good, you'll want to keep it that way and his format.
Agree
"I wanted to be a lady." Girl you are a lady and you are a warrior queen. I could sit at Cassandra's feet and listen to her talk for days.
Same. She is strong as hell.
Me too
not sure about the feet bit
Uh, ok weirdo
True Queen 🌻👑👑👑
I am so deeply moved by Cassandra’s life story. She deserved so much better… I see such a beauty and grace, yet so much pain. May she be at peace. I am very grateful to have heard her story in her words…
She’s a beautiful, shining star compared to some people who only exist to live in the dark, dank shadows of the comments section...
Lisa Muhammad True! True! True!
Yup! There is no shortage of arsehole comments, that's for sure 😕
Lisa Muhammad This is one of the best comments I’ve ever read, Lisa.
Lisa Muhammad it really is one of the best comments!
I only exist to live in darkness of the comment section lol truff
Every one of these people are survivors of some horrific childhood abuse. I feel like these videos are really therapeutic for these people. They get to tell their story and the internet is listening. Validating them and their struggles. You're doing good work. Important work. I look at the homeless completely different now since finding this channel. Thank you.
I agree with everything you just said @dani Ruegg. I also look at the homeless different now. Everyone has a story
They ALL claim to have had traumatic childhoods. None of it has been verified so I am taking it with a pinch of salt; no one is going to come here and just admit to ending up on Skid Row as a result of their own lack of discipline.
@@tlig some actually have though. I've seen a few where they aren't blaming their childhood or anyone else. They know what they should be or should have been doing but they made a bad choice and they own it
Dani Ruegg Absolutely!
@@tlig even though there's no hard evidence to demonstrate they're telling the truth, there's also nothing to show you they're lying either, so it seems a little unfair to just not give people chance. There are a lot of addicts who've had a difficult upbringing like this ladies had, i see large groups of lost souls in my town, who drink and use drugs, i know they've all had troubled lives, and most have grown up in care with no real parents, that is a huge disadvantage, we shouldn't over look as a society.
she could be a model, a poet or even a teacher. she has a unique way with words and is full of wisdom, beauty. but also pain, so much pain..
True! shes definitely a beautiful person still.. She still got some good living in her. I hope she goes clean
I totally hope the best for her.This girl is really beautiful and I wish to see her clean on a cover in a great magazine❣
Greetings from Germany
Shes a HSP
Shes psychotic..the woman needs medical help
Shes going to end up dead soon if not helped
@@DDios-ih9de Do you know her?
She's very poetic. "They hate beautifully." "Silence has a sound." She carries a load of shame. She feels shame for things other people did to her; not for thing she has done.
"They hate beautifully" is a fantastic turn of phrase.
I used to live in the same building as Cassandra. Cassandra if you're reading this, it's Daniel from #301. I lived with Zack and then later with Sam in "The G" building in Koreatown. Sending you love and light. You were always so cool to me. Please get well, beautiful neighbor.
How come literally every video I watch on this page somebody comes and says something just like this 😒🤔🤥
@@Randymgie I can't speak for them but I can say you don't know how to use the term "literally" correctly. Try saying "so many" or "quite a few". I've watched most of these videos and saw maybe 3 other ppl say they know the subject.
Delta Homicide do you not know how to read properly??? You sound stupid as fuck. I said “literally every video I watch”. Do you know what that means? That means every video that I HAVE WATCHED (whether it’s two videos or ten videos) someone like you is under the comments claiming to know the person in one way or another. You sound stupid
@@Randymgie Don't lie just to win a petty argument on TH-cam. You're seriously trying to convince me that you have this incredible luck of only watching the videos where someone claims to know the subject? This channel easily has over 200 videos. Fine I'm stupid but please don't be a liar and a hot head. That's an ugly combo
Delta Homicide you’re trying to call me out for lying for TH-cam but you sat there and created a whole fake narrative about knowing some random homeless person on skid row to get likes on a comment lmao you’re not just stupid. You’re also weird and lame af. How sad is your life
"Am I talking too much?" Noooo 🥺 my love, your story is so worth telling and being listen to. Your eyes reflects so much kindness after all that you've been through. I'm sending you so much love from Argentina. Thanks Mark for your work 💖
Could listen to her for days
Jen Thompson Same here :)
Same , her voice is so soothing.
LUCIFER yes that part upset me too ❤️
@@losyle what your insta??
“Am I saying too much?”
“No you’re perfect.” ❤️
🤢🤮💩
@@kaogoogle1031 😂😂😂👌👌
This woman is high AF.
@@patrickl6932 not necessarily high, but she is a neglected, lost, abused and tortured soul with a very interesting story to tell. show some compassion.
@@petrichor8887 This woman is HIGH AF
She is a victim of a narcissist
Thats why she feels guilty.
Yes, you got it exactly
She’s 1000000% an empath & when you’re given that kind of childhood (a nightmare) it haunts you forever & it leaves you with pain nothing can cure. Especially when you have siblings you wanted to protect & couldn’t.
lol a sucker like you is born every minute. She's a manipulate liar
Devarion Loyd snd why would you say that
Devarion Loyd Lol true
I was thinking the same listening her talk ! About the dream she had and the other being next to her that told her to stop
@@devarionloyd2985 what her motive be???she's obviously in trauma
God bless this woman. She can still say she was “fortunate” even though her childhood was a tortured experience. What a peaceful, resilient and insightful soul.
Peaceful? Her soul is definitely not peaceful
I started with the interview of an alcoholic at about 830pm. Its 1230am
GetSober4You - every night I watch “a couple” of these... I start watching and hours go by! These interviews are so compelling and devastating at the same time..beautifully done interviews.
They're addictive.....
Same here.
Same. So much the same.
"If you don't know where you stand, you won't know where you'll land." I wish I was half as introspective and honest as this wonderful person.
This Lady Cassie..to me . Was one of the best testimonial stories I've watched. I have watched quite a few, and so many more to watch, but theres just something about her. You MUST get her back to talk more. You have captured the essence of these individuals. I can relate so much to Cassie. Fortunately, I never sucome to drugs because of my childhood home life. But, I carry the scars just like her, and can tell you like it happened yesterday. You NEVER forget no matter how much Therapy or drugs you use to forget. I LOVE watching, and listening to these stories. In ways, they are very therapeutic. I hope you continue this mission. Everyone has a story.
Me too girl. My child hood wasn't the best, but I knew someone's situation is worst than me.
That was an amazing comment. Thanks for letting us know.
watch Pauls interview if you havent. hes a crystal meth addict. his interview really touched me.
D. Dios she’s not rambling. Her story is long but if you have the patience and compassion you will see the hurt human in this video.
@@DDios-ih9de you are an idiot!
Cassandra, I've had college professors that were not as profound as you are, by a long shot. Your story really struck a chord in my soul. I send you love.
Her language is so elevated.. and she is so beautiful..
It truly is remarkable to hear her.
She is, so sad
I wouldn't say that but she's cute and petite.
Agreed. We have so many people in this society.
She is beautiful.
She’s a poet... a whole fucking poet. The way she speaks is beautiful, even when what she is saying isn’t. She just has a way about her.
Shes schizophrenic you should rewatch with subtitles several times then realize the contradictions the odd things bizzare even
The deluded thoughts the literly crazy things
Can't believe you didn't hear her wacked out things she said
That's why people never get the help they need
Wow
"The most basic of human needs is the need to understand and be understood. The best way to understand people is to listen to them."
Dr. Ralph G. Nichols
PIN THIS!!!! ♡
👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼 Very well said
Right on well said
Listeners
She sounds like jazz, her story is blues. She Is pure art!
Gay
I dig her
Shes schizophrenic you fool
🙄
Like many of y'all, I've been bingeing these interview videos. Hookers, addicts, gang-bangers, all these people have a story, and what I realised is that before these interviews, these people are never heard. They are never understood. They hold all this pain in, and try to mask it with drugs and destructive behavior, because it's easier to mask the anguish and pain that way, then to face it alone. There needs to be better systems in place for abused kids, and those with mental issues. We can save so many people from a lifetime of pain, if only better and earlier help was available, and people didn't have to continue to self-medicate and rot themselves. I have felt for every man and woman I have watched so far, because I actually feel their pain, and am horrified how much some have gone through.
Cassie is a really beautiful person, eloquent, and very aware of her relationship with the world, but is stuck with the horror after horror that pains her til this day. Its painful to even know so many people took advantage of her, so I believe her when she says she hasn't said aloud some of the stories before, as she is just constantly numbing herself from remembering. Out of all the people I've watched, Cassie's story hit different. I am profoundly changed after listening to Cassie.
I agree, beautifully said.
So sad. I agree
U hit the nail on the head with this comment, I'm a struggling addict and this is exactly right, now we just have to make everyone else in this world understand this, bless u for being able to open ur mind and care to try to understand those of us who society deems worthless 💞
Very well worded. A comment I can appreciate. Not one of these racial/hateful comments you usually see here.
Not in this way. Your format disarms them. Great job. I'll keep watching from time to time for more insight.
“How does it feel to have your freedom in the hands of someone you said was so worthless” WOW that is incredibly powerful
Epic
Loved that!
She’s unintentionally charming.
Effortlessly endearing.
She's charismatic and honest and open. That's what you meant
I hope her bad story is real.
Agree. Hope she finds recovery
She is beautiful😊
The stigma of “drug addicts” should be demolished by this interview right here. She is so educated and intelligent and could give so much back in the world.
She has been broken. Not once, making herself out to be a victim.
Prime example of how wounds that don’t heal lead to oppression, pain and a devastating cycle of numbing out by addiction. And of course, stigma.
I hope for her ❤️.
Out of all the stories, this one pulled me in from beginning to end. Wow. This woman is so amazing. I’m praying for her. ❤️
Cassie if you ever read this, you are so beautiful. Your story had to be told and please don’t ever feel embarrassed or ashamed. I’m sure that you have touched so many peoples lives just by sharing what you have gone through. I wish you health and success and may God continue to bless you on your path. Don’t give up babygirl ❤️
God can she please write a novel? her way of storytelling is so captivating and sophisticated
I have watched several of these and this s is the first one where he is not asking questions. She is just speaking and he must be in awe with her eloquence.
LivingBeyondVision Ministries I noticed that too and truly appreciate the fact that he’s letting her voice be heard
Her and Alesha
I noticed the same. This one is long compare to other videos.
truth!
“GOD was my only friend” omg that really hit SO much! Why why does this happen to us. Dear Lord please help this woman...she needs peace, sobriety and to know that she is loved even like strangers like us.
This happens to us because in desparation for love our minds will create something real or fancied to belive in when we have nothing to believe in for comfort and love. ❤
Amen
Why has God treated her so poorly?
@@richardsherburne6889 God hasn't treated her poorly, man has. We were never promised we wouldn't suffer this world, we are promised eternal life through faith in Christ. This life isn't the end all be all, this is only an experience...a time to come to know you need a Savior, to know you need Jesus through the struggles here on earth. God bless you with the eyes to see and the ears to hear the Truth.
Physically Cassandra looks frail and fragile but comes across as incredibly strong and so erudite. The most beautiful monologue i've ever listened to.
I hope Michael sees this and realizes the part he played in bringing hope into her life.. 🦋
I know that part was so beautiful, sad and hopeful at the same time. She didn't say what happened just left it on their good night.
" I remembered there was the world again" wow !
Children eating food from the trash, despite having a house and a "family" , that's the most awful thing i've heard
Cruelty, to children especially, is astonishing to me...evil..
adults treat children the same way they were treated in childhood,, it’s a miserable cycle to witness and experience
She looks like a rockstar. I hope she can overcome her horrific childhood and drug addiction.
Shel Whitfield Courtney love ha
Crack'rockstar' yes
*No she doesn't, rockstars look like druggies.*
brittreidandkato i dont think so
Fans of them are the messed up ones
She kinda look like Madonna !
Sweet lady in heaven now, never to shed a tear again except in overwhelming happiness! The living hell she was put through while on this earth😢....Thank you Mark for giving her the opportunity to tell her life's story.
I hope she is in heaven
She is very likable...I had no issues following her story..she takes accountability for her life ,therefore its hope for her
This was the best therapy session she has ever had. Maybe she can find some peace after finally vocalizing the deep dark parts that she had tucked away for so long. I hope she can finally start to heal.
@@EchoBravo370 Hi there. I'm a therapist and need to respectfully disagree. Mental disorders are different than a disease like cancer. They are the adaptive coping strategies our nervous systems learn in response to our needs not being met as people. They're adaptive survival strategies that become wired in at a very deep level -- a behavioural language. So while it's true we can't just "snap out of them," or "choose happiness," therapy is THE treatment that will rewire these circuits. Psycho-therapy means "treatment of the psyche." It provides a corrective relational experience, and literally rewires the attachment system of the brain and nervous system through experiencing a safe, guided, restorative relationship. So yes, it IS a treatment for trauma and mental disorders
It's....so shallow that you think that. She is an intelligent person, this isn't stuff she's never thought about before.
When he told her to let the siren go by and she said “Am I talking too much?” Broke my heart because she probably thinks he is trying to shut her up but he’s not. I hope she’s okay, what a beautiful soul. The world ripped so many beautiful things away from her, like love and trust and innocence.
I know, so sad. :-(
Its a confirmation that she thinks she's a burden and feels she doesn't matter. I reckon the depression and addiction feed off each other, its so hard to watch 😥
This woman is so incredibly deep and really doesn’t deserve the life she has lived. My heart just breaks for her that the drugs finally won and landed here here... I wish I could get a message to her 😌
She’s giving me Madonna & Lady GaGa vibes😍 Such a sad existence as a child. She’s special...
YES!
Madonna ,another Michigander , there was ,and is a certain unique destruction in South east mich, A country within a country so to speak high crime per capita for a very long time
I was about to comment that
I was just thinking that. Madonna for sure. Younger version
She sounds like Lady Gaga to !
"My two sisters they hate and they hate beautifully... they have good lives."
Such a poetic and original phrase that has it's own statement within itself. People can react to things in productive "beautiful" ways or be broken by them. And this says that sometimes being broken by what happened makes you more real and more genuine than pushing it down with marriage and over achieving.
That phrase was powerful, indeed. It's gonna be stuck with me for a long time for sure
Please interview her again whenever it is safe and possible. I love this woman. I truly have a deep love for her.
J O U R D A N k - yes, PLEASE!!!!!!
I love that he lets her just speak and tell everything that has been hurting her for so long
Yes ❤️❤️❤️
THANK YOU, in other interviews when males do it the comments are always "he's such a narcissist, Mark didnt even have to ask him any questions.." Like no, he's releasing. Just goes to show how society perceives men who speak intimately about their lives.
i think this has been my favorite interview so far, she is such a sweet soul, and id love to see an update on her in the future. I love her positive energy
Same this is an awesome interview.
Kaci Olson told by a psychotic person
Yes, please Mark, @softwhiteunderbelly do an update with Cassie. I want to see her beat this.
I would love to see an update too.
To those who say she would only rob you if you helped her:
May you never have to know the pain, heartbreak and unending struggle of what it feels like in her shoes. Your cold arrogance and blatant lack of empathy are the antithesis of what it means to be human. There is a reason we call it manKIND. Whether her brand of life experience, wisdom through adversity and charity of heart are your cup of tea or not, none of us get out of this thing alive. None of us are exempt from tragedy. There is no weakness in suffering, only strength. Bless you Cassandra. I too, would love to get in touch with you somehow. Your story moved mountains and immediately went to work heal ing places in my soul I forgot were there. Thank you for taking this risk and bearing yours. You are truly amazing in every way. Remember, damaged people are stronger because they know they can survive.
Helping people selflessly is not fashionable these days.
I've run into friends I hadn't seen in 20 years, since grade school who were this bad off dope in Baltimore. Of course I've helped em out. Totally expected them to rob me, wouldn't have been mad if they had. They aren't in control
I’ve been through similar life experiences. She’s eloquent & well spoken. Do everything you can for her....but don’t let her rob your souls & don’t rob her of having the self esteem of doing it for herself. It’s a choice one must make. Hopefully she makes the right choice for her. I challenge her to do so.
You are an amazing person, I went through a similar life. I am sober now and finish my Bachelors May 2020 in behavioral science, with honors. Just know, I love and support you and you are so worthy.
My Alias congrats
My Alias congratulations 😊😊
Just saw this! I knew Cassandra. I met her in my early sobriety in 2006. She was beautiful and vibrant and fun. We were part of a small sober group of misfits who went to meetings and met up for coffee --- it was a special time in my life, and Cassy was a part of that. Very sad...
My god. Her pain. It hurts my soul.
She is a pretty yet damaged girl from evil people in this world. I hope she gets help. She seems strong enough to go on to help others. I wish her all the best.
These videos are so healing for me. Especially hers. Hearing other people talk about experiences that I can’t personally talk about myself, is helpful. Thank you
Alice Bennett - I thought the exact same. The food thing, saving it in her cheeks. I think I went white as a ghost- had to pause. I have never in my life heard anyone else have that in their past. We really aren’t alone... even when keeping it completely to ourselves. Hope & Healing to you. ✌️❤️
So true for me also. ♥️
I absolutely adore this woman. She is so thoughtful in her phrasing all while talking about her tumultuous life. She’s so smart and beautiful and I could listen to her tell her story all day. I hope for nothing but the best for her and a happier and more peaceful future.
Gorgeous woman
Peace now..she's passed
🙏🙏🙏
Whoa. So much transparency. This was such a privilege to listen to. Thank you Cassie! One of my favorite interviews!
She is highly intelligent and so eloquently well spoken.
I disagree. She is all over the place and seems high or very confused. I didn't find her story genuine
Debra Johnson First few sentences in I detected lies and jumping around
Im wondering whats almost true or some random twisted truth shes made up and told so many times she belives it Or shes just making things up
Nothing connects
Shes kinda well honestly she sounds like
shes nuts
D. Dios got to agree very hard to follow
Leanda D_g because there random thought I think there other peoples stories and movies and TV and misquotes
For Example
"Like beaten 50 times with a belt buckle "
I think that comes from
40 lashes ..from the Bible Jesus's story
And "a rock star boy friend addicted to coke 20..No..50 years so i did it "
"My nose was falling out pieces of cartilage "
" he gave me a 5 carat diamond ring "
" i stayed at the Bristol in Paris"
" i was sold "
" they tied me up and bear me i woke up i didnt know what happened "
"Ive only been with 3 men they all had pianos in there home "
Her Dr visits
The Bible is free
A vampire cant enter your room ( yes they can and do..except on the TV show she watched
True Blood
And on and on around and pause breathe a new set of stories defined by years ..months
So many ....
WHAT?
things she said
There not real
Shes deluded and Psychotic
She rambled and the interviewer didnt bother to stop her ask for details because he knew there were none
Till finally asked her to stop
She would of talked on and ob and on..
D. Dios and to see a gynaecologist for your nose ??
"The reasons all have run away, but the feeling never did"
She quoted a Bright Eyes lyric
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I wrote that down! Thanks for the source.
She was captivating and so beautiful. I was looking for follow-ups for her and Caroline and stumbled across this post. May she find the love and peace in Heaven that tragically evaded her here on earth.
She's so beautiful and intelligent. She got me when she said " I screamed for my mother in my head but kept silent because she did not exist."😢😢 I was a motherless child I can relate to that.😢
So many people have taken a piece from her. Cassie is resilient as hell. She speaks very poetically, raw talent. Can you imagine what this woman could have contributed to make the world a more beautiful place? I hope her story doesn’t end here.
Why do such decent, intelligent and sensitive individuals have to endure so much cruelty and suffering? This is so sad ...
It's possible people *Become* decent and sensitive.... Because of what they endure.
People of any type, any walk of life can and are victims.......
Fabienne Ashraf it’s sad to say but I think this it what makes them so intelligent and empathetic. Only people who yearn for a better life though, some just give up
@@cre8trixG , I agree. People who have suffered terrble conditions don't all react the same way. Some decide consciously or unconsciously to take revenge on the world around them.
Bad things really do happen to good people!!😭
You don't know how lovely you are with your fluttering hands and your words of truth. "Your past is your greatest asset", those words are so powerful. You have so much to offer and can help others with, let your truth guide you.
She’s beautiful! I pray for healing and deliverance
@Mark
I just want to thank you for not cutting this lost soul short and allowing her to pour her broken heart out. As a struggling addict and someone who was sexually abused myself, I can almost promise you that although she was extremely embarrassed/ashamed during much of her interview, she needed to vent those horrific memories to rid them from her mind. She even said several times "That's the first time I've said that out loud."
**I would really like to hear more from her. She did an awesome job describing her life and all she's been through. ❤️❤️
This woman is so beautiful to me. She should be a professor of poetry or something idk but this amazing woman had my attention from the beginning to the end. Cassie you are amazing!
You can just see the beauty in her face. Pray she sees her worth and lives the life deserved.
The jevvs made all this happen to her
This is why addicts need help not jail.
Imagine if we spend as much money on helping as we do policeing, prosecuting and incarcerating addicts...
I wish enough people cared to demand the criminal justice system to stop throwing drug addicts in jail. It's a medical issue and we all know this government doesn't care a thing about the health of it's citizen's.
Agree
Spot on
Tracie Day there are a lot of people like myself dedicated to ending the war on drugs which isn’t a war on drugs at all it’s a war against our most vulnerable
@@IllicitMediaproductions that is so spot on. Thank you for what you do
Of all the videos I've watched thus far, she is definitely the most well-spoken. A wonderful vocabulary, and she really knows how to turn a phrase. What an interesting woman.
This series has taught me so much about empathy.
I can listen to Cassie speak for hours and hours. I love how she tells her story, trying to avoid lying to herself and trying to be honest. I really hope she takes all these things she’s learned and writes her story or becomes a motivational speaker. She isn’t on a high horse, she’s a fighter. She represents so much. Her strength is empowering. She’s been through this for a reason. She’s special.
She unfortunately passed before she could achieve sobriety. I loved her interview and could listen to her talk for hours
How do I find this girl to sponsor her? I have a farm in Florida I’d love to have her come live in an apartment on my property for a safer start up.
Sheena Sorensen God Bless You Sheena!! 🙏🏽❤️
Within a week she would ride one of your horses away and sell it ,if you can deal w that God bless you .
@@fishfire_2999 Keep that trash ass opinion to yourself.!!! It's ppl like you that they're like this anyways.!!! Smh..
God bless you Sheena 🌺 I wish someone like Sheena could help me and my kids. I’m a single mom and going to be homeless very soon 😰
@@fishfire_2999 so sad that you are probably right. Heart sick that this woman who is so articulate and beautiful had her innocents taken away by her own family. If her family failed her, society failed her, why should she have faith in anyone. She has only herself for her survival. So yes. She would steal the horse and keep making her mistakes. I've had that happen in my own family. So very heartbreaking. I hope she survives the demons chasing her.
“How did he know i wouldn’t tell” that hurt to hear her say :(
That part got me too :(
You are right. I felt that so deeply.
Predators just know. It happened to me with two different men.
This is probably the most incredible personal story that has been recorded and posted on TH-cam
She is fascinating, honestly, her story would make an incredible book. I was searching for part 2 and hoping she is doing better. She deserves a better life after what she endured as a child, no child should ever be treated abusively.
I couldnt stop listening to Cassandra and I was so hopeful for a positive outcome. Rest in Peace beautiful lady 🙏🙏🙏
Not even close
"If I lied to someone it's probably because I lied to myself too"
that sentence screams a thousand words
SO DEEP
This women is absolutely beautiful. Her words are so poetic, she has a huge heart. I would love to hear from Cassandra again
I just noticed that alot of these people are quite gentle and graceful,,, even though they have walked along some really hard and rough paths.. 🙏😓
Oh my. I was scrolling through TH-cam suggestions and saw her face and wondered “wait... is that Cassandra?” I knew her about 11-12 years ago in LA. We were neighbors. She looks 20 years older than she is. Such an interesting woman then, and now. Remember Cass... the shadows go away in the light.
How old is she?
What was she like? Was she sober back then?
?
@@carissaexplainsitall8481 shes either 27 or 44
I’m from Bloomfield Hills. My heart stopped when she started talking about it. It’s exactly the kind of place where this could happen and no one would blink an eye; everyone’s rich and minds their own business. So sickening.
I truly believe that you can speak things into existence so I’m going to do so now.This is no ordinary woman she needs to write a book or have a documentary on her life and boy would it sell. Not only that but she will save others I speak that people who have the know how and the means to gather and find her and surround her with love and the help that she needs. The person who can put her story together as a documentary will also help and we will later see her story either in a book or tv and she will be well and healed. We will see and hear from you again Cassie......
Amen 🙏🏾
❤️
Excellent prayer, and I would add, that even if her story is simply here, and she finds a self-connection and trust in her own stable home and with loved ones surrounding her, that would be sufficient. She has given enough, been through enough, and maybe fame on top of it all is not her path. Either way, your words are a prayer, and if it is for her Soul's highest good, let it be done. So much love to her and to you for caring, Claire
I'm left speechless after her last line "I really didn't need to learn this lesson." My heart hurts after watching this. Such a heartbreaking story. I pray her and her sisters find peace within their hearts, and I hope Cassandra finds the strength to get the help she needs and deserves while she still has life to live. I pray for all the children around the world who suffer from the hands of those who are supposed to love them, take care of them, and protect them but cause them a life of trauma and destruction instead.
As an abused and unloved child myself, my heart goes out to her. I didn't suffer nearly as much as she did. Her suffering continues and that's hard to accept. I wish she could have a new childhood all over again. I wish I could too. I feel so badly for her.
This is the crazy part, addiction or not , when as a child we can experience things and certain types of behavior from adults we just settle for what we are used to because it's all we know. And we carry those behaviors into adulthood. We can hide our feelings and just pretend all the time to where we become emotionally numb to everything. For example, watching her talk about things like what she went through was normal. She deserves so much better. It's like I can see the little girl in her screaming so somebody can hear her story. I can relate somewhat to her. I had to learn when I was older to not face my problems as that 5 year old girl that got violated and was crying out for her dad that wasn't there. Nobody to protect her. I had to learn how to face situations as a woman who overcame those obstacles. I'm so glad and thankful I never turned to drugs bc half of my family were addicts . and I know I'm not perfect but I will always make sure my daughter lives her childhood as a kid . Not a child who has to suffer from my mistakes or and grow up so young and then struggle in her adult life bc she feels like she's been through more adult situations at a young age that there isn't a desire for life and living free and loving herself. I had her young but I will start my own tradition and not continue "what's ran in the family". Sorry for the paragraph. Lol I really love these videos , they are amazing because these wonderful people arnt viewed as gross or crazy. They are just normal people who are alittle broken and need to be heard. SWU you are an angel because you let their voice be heard. Because most people will look at them on the street and walk right over them. Thank you for all that you do.
So true.. 💔😓🙏😢