For me, I'm working so hard to get better - that sometimes I worry I'm becoming the 'I'm getting better person' so I make sure to also not make my journey to self improvement to be 'who I am' but it's hard with BPD because I feel like I often just 'become' what I'm focused on at the time because again, the emptiness. But I 100% agree with what you are saying here.
What a great video. So my wife of 16 years, mother if 3 kids left me a month ago. Its taken this long to understand why she left. I only discovered that i have all the characteristics of bpd this week. Ill be honest, im wallowing. Ive always known i was different. Now i see it for what it is. Watching loads of content, reading forums and articles, ive come to understand what ive done. I dont know what im going to do. But i know before i discovered this, i knew i wanted to be better for her. Now i want to be better for me. Booked my drs appointment this morning. Im gonna grab therapy with both hands. I know there's no quick fixes. Its all hard work and constant vigilance. Im starting to understand myself better than ever. But that understanding brings terrible guilt and shame. And ive not even uncovered half my cr@p. Itll be a long road. But i can see that whilst its not a fix, it is possible to live a better life than the one ive blundered through so far. Thanks for the awesome content bud.
This isn't a unique issue. But it is particularly damaging to those with mental health maladies. It's imperative to acknowledge, accept, and adjust... Not embody, whatever it is.
For me, I'm working so hard to get better - that sometimes I worry I'm becoming the 'I'm getting better person' so I make sure to also not make my journey to self improvement to be 'who I am' but it's hard with BPD because I feel like I often just 'become' what I'm focused on at the time because again, the emptiness. But I 100% agree with what you are saying here.
What a great video. So my wife of 16 years, mother if 3 kids left me a month ago. Its taken this long to understand why she left. I only discovered that i have all the characteristics of bpd this week.
Ill be honest, im wallowing.
Ive always known i was different. Now i see it for what it is. Watching loads of content, reading forums and articles, ive come to understand what ive done. I dont know what im going to do.
But i know before i discovered this, i knew i wanted to be better for her. Now i want to be better for me. Booked my drs appointment this morning. Im gonna grab therapy with both hands. I know there's no quick fixes. Its all hard work and constant vigilance.
Im starting to understand myself better than ever. But that understanding brings terrible guilt and shame. And ive not even uncovered half my cr@p.
Itll be a long road. But i can see that whilst its not a fix, it is possible to live a better life than the one ive blundered through so far.
Thanks for the awesome content bud.
I wish there was more understanding and support.
This isn't a unique issue. But it is particularly damaging to those with mental health maladies.
It's imperative to acknowledge, accept, and adjust... Not embody, whatever it is.