Lost my dad to alcoholism. Been an addict since 14. Now 27 and clean for 4 months. Did it for him. We were best Friends. I’ve been lost without him 💔 miss you Padre
Been clean on big drugs for 2 years brother, cold turkey it when my god daughter was born, keep going, when I almost relapsed after they took my god daughter I remembered my kids wouldn’t want a dead beat, ik I didn’t, you got this brother, things feel like you can’t do it just remember you got that shit, it’s all in your head brother, don’t hurt your heart for it.
I bet your dad's happy your finding yourself even if it's though him! Pain was never meant to be numbed by drugs and alcohol. Pain is meant to be felt and for us to understand meaning of things. I have and still do things to mask mine, but I'm finally figuring out that when we lose someone or something we care about that there's no reason to add more Pain to a situation that was already painful, but to take pain and turn it into beauty and understanding.
As someone who lost my dad to his battle with addiction, then inheriting those same coping mechanisms, this song hits so different. You're helping people like me heal out here Av. Much love broski.
I feel this too much, my dad was bad on dope for a while, one night a few days before Father’s Day he was drinking that night and apparently got ahold of some methadone and didn’t see the morning… my last words to him where I was too tired to hang out and didn’t have a cig to give him even though I did…. The last words he told me was I was turning into my mother…. I’m severely addicted to Mary Jane to help coupe but haven’t touched anything else tho luckily…. You aren’t alone brother I love you
Absolutely same. I lost him at 12 when he was 36 to alcohol (and maybe pills I'm not sure). He was still in love with my mom and couldn't take when she got with my stepdad. Begged for her back, wouldn't sign the divorce papers, the whole gambit. He was so addicted to alcohol at that point I honestly think quitting cold turkey would have killed him. One day he called her (right after I left from visiting him for Father's Day weekend) and told her "I need you to hear something." Those were his last words. The next thing my mom heard was the gunshot reverberating around the room. Now here I am at 33 drinking like crazy wondering if I'll beat his lifetime high score or if I'm destined for the same end. I've done so much better lately, I think I have a good leash on my demon but I only do it for him and my family. HONESTAV speaks to my heart in ways no other artist has been able to capture. RIP Dad, 9/23/66 - 6/22/03 RIP
Same here dude. Dad drank himself to death, and heroin was mine but now fentanyl has a grip on my soul. I hope that all of us who are relating to this can find peace and happiness. I dont know you, but I just want you to know that if you feel like no one else does; I LOVE YOU AND YOU ARE IMPORTANT
I lost my mom in 2020 and we had this exact relationship. I was an addict since 13. when it came to drugs I didn't discriminate. ups, down never mattered. I never said no. it's hurt soo fucking much to ever let her see me like that, and even harder in the end when she wouldn't recognize me any more. (When your with me. Your not with me. Now your way up there do you miss me) OMFG man couldn't be put any better. I'll be 40 in 3 months and been clean since burying her after covid restrictions lifted. I haven't been able to cry it out until right now thank you so much for this release
My brother would have related so much to your music. Unfortunately he lost his battle with addiction after numbing himself from losing my dad to his battle. So now I find comfort in your music.
I feel this. My brother went first though, 3 days before the 2 year anniversary of my big bros loss I found my dad. Nothing numbs better than what I lost them to
IDK where you came from honestav, but why it take you so long? I am so grateful for your music... I wish I could articulate my feelings into words and beat, might spread some vicarious trauma but it'll move you for real for real... PLEASE DON'T STOP WRITING!!! ❤❤❤❤❤
This is real talent. Your music speaks to the soul. As an addict from a long line of addicts I feel like he knows exactly what I have felt all my life. Happy to say the cycle stops with me and I have been clean and sober for almost 4 years and my kids won’t know this kind of heartbreak.
Id rather Overdose has been the first and last song I listen to every day since you dropped it. Thanks for all the good vibes and helping us reminisce on good times. Keep doin you bros!
You speak directly to your fan base in words we relate to. Millions of us are addicts, are in recovery, or love some who is. Keep it up brother. We need you!!!
1 year today 🎉 Previously had 4 years but lost it in 2021 and took me another 2 years to get sober again. Anyone who has relapsed, just keep on keeping on! One day at a time, thats all we have control over. Stay strong, y'all ❤
Bro over the last few months youve helped me so much mentally my girl is dealing with cronhs and ovarian cysts and it's been a battle watching her pain as it gets worse. The pain I feel eats away at my soul so I can only imagine hers. I can only say thank you for not letting us feel alone in these emotions I worry everyday I'm going to lose her to this battle.
Seriously!!!!!!! I found my mom fucking dead age 54 in her sleep 11 yrs ago when I was only 25. It fucked me up forever. I walked out her house with the same bottle that killed her. I've now been 7 yrs clean on herion and opioids and hard drugs. I miss her every fuckinggggg day. My youngest son ax was only 6months old and my oldest Riley her heart boy was 2 1/2.
@@amyeethomas2495 I lost my only brother to hard drugs in 2013, he was 37. He was less than 2 years older and my best friend...I completely understand ❤️❤️❤️
Omg every song I’ve heard him speak is my life!!! I’m so sorry you had had to endure all this heartbreak from your family but thank you for putting it into words. Much love man ❤
I lost my dad this February, he was stuck in the hospital for Christmas I got a tiny fake tree so we could have a Christmas inthe hospital knowing he wouldn't leave, the most selfless and gentle person I got to be able to call my dad this music makes me remember him in the best way I just want to hug him one last time
Claw and kick to get outta this hole!!!! I feel that on a spiritual level! You are amazing and I hope the whole world sees what we all see in u. Hope u blow all the way up this year!
I have never had music resonate with my entire life the way yours does. If all else I am so thankful for TikTok because I found your music. I know this life is so hard. Thank you for sharing your music with people like me, it really helps us feel.. not so alone.
Thank you for sharing your pain with us all. I don’t think i could have made it this week without finding your music. Been battling my headspace after losing my girl of 8 years you make it possible. 🙏
Don’t ever stop bro! There isn’t enough of your sound out there. Pave a way for more like you man. But don’t forget, don’t let the media, “how things should be” be the deciding factor of decisions or choices. Take this life and make it what you want!
im 2 months sober right now from a 28 year alcohol heroin and crack addiction!!! and the last month has been the best ive felt in my whole life, im such a better farther and husband right now that ive ever been to my wife and 3 beautiful kids, its really the best thing i have done for myself and my family, you can do this my friend you really can.
Keep going it gets better as you go. I've been clean for 5 yrs off Heroin, speed, and whatever pills. I even quit smoking cigs. I know your wife and kids appreciate you being there mentally
My dad committed suicide in 2013 after 49 years of just a hard life. He turned to pills, drugs, alcohol; whatever, to fill the void that he’d had since he was a kid. He was a great dad. This song hits so hard. I miss him so much. ❤
Thank you for expressing yourself to us. We appreciate the connections we have with you and your experiences. Stay safe. Be good and try to be happy. We love you.
Man, having struggled with what seems like the same profound issue of losing my father young to his addiction and finding myself In addiction as well as a side effect to loss your music always seems to reach right into my soul and bring out emotions and thoughts I've struggled to find and accept and attempt cope with I consider myself very fortunate to still be here and to of had someone turn me onto your art, man what I would do to just sit down and have a conversation with ya and see what it's all like for your point if view. It's all very beautifuly raw and a lot of artists don't have that real emotion to their work it's amazing man. Thank you for being here and sharing your art with the world
“ you were screaming for help no one listening” just found out one of my coworkers passes away reasons are unclear but depression was very much in his life. Be kind to and love your loved ones one never knows when they’re last day will be💔
My dad took his life july 4th of 01. I was 3. The way your music speaks into my soul is absurd. Bout joined him a couple times this year, last night being the second time i came the closest to following those footsteps. Found your music today and wow.
@@trapdeezy23 c'mon trap, fall is coming, Halloween, Christmas, more beautiful sunsets, snow, watching people who are happy (I do) and beautiful men/women who would enjoy your company. I struggle with feelings too would love for u to check out my music too...just know there's people out there who care...I do....just know the world wouldn't shine as bright without u in it...I lost my father too. He gave up on me and my 3 brothers because he wanted to drink and cook meth. I still love and miss him but VERY disappointed on father's who abandon their children. I saw him pistol whip my mom when I was 9. A child should NEVER have to witness that
I really needed this, I lost my dad 7 years ago and Father’s Day is this Sunday & I need him more than ever and this song made me not feel so alone thank you🥺
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Lost my dad to alcoholism. Been an addict since 14. Now 27 and clean for 4 months. Did it for him. We were best Friends. I’ve been lost without him 💔 miss you Padre
Keep up the fight brother,shit is rough, but I have faith in us
Proud of you. And know your dad is too. Also lost my dad who battled alcoholism. I've been clean 19 months now.
What a way to honor your dad. Keep it up it’s worth it in every way, I’ve been there and never going back either!
Been clean on big drugs for 2 years brother, cold turkey it when my god daughter was born, keep going, when I almost relapsed after they took my god daughter I remembered my kids wouldn’t want a dead beat, ik I didn’t, you got this brother, things feel like you can’t do it just remember you got that shit, it’s all in your head brother, don’t hurt your heart for it.
I bet your dad's happy your finding yourself even if it's though him! Pain was never meant to be numbed by drugs and alcohol. Pain is meant to be felt and for us to understand meaning of things.
I have and still do things to mask mine, but I'm finally figuring out that when we lose someone or something we care about that there's no reason to add more Pain to a situation that was already painful, but to take pain and turn it into beauty and understanding.
People like Av are the people that deserve everything in the world. Stay golden brother
As someone who lost my dad to his battle with addiction, then inheriting those same coping mechanisms, this song hits so different. You're helping people like me heal out here Av. Much love broski.
I feel this too much, my dad was bad on dope for a while, one night a few days before Father’s Day he was drinking that night and apparently got ahold of some methadone and didn’t see the morning… my last words to him where I was too tired to hang out and didn’t have a cig to give him even though I did…. The last words he told me was I was turning into my mother…. I’m severely addicted to Mary Jane to help coupe but haven’t touched anything else tho luckily…. You aren’t alone brother I love you
Absolutely same. I lost him at 12 when he was 36 to alcohol (and maybe pills I'm not sure). He was still in love with my mom and couldn't take when she got with my stepdad. Begged for her back, wouldn't sign the divorce papers, the whole gambit. He was so addicted to alcohol at that point I honestly think quitting cold turkey would have killed him. One day he called her (right after I left from visiting him for Father's Day weekend) and told her "I need you to hear something." Those were his last words. The next thing my mom heard was the gunshot reverberating around the room.
Now here I am at 33 drinking like crazy wondering if I'll beat his lifetime high score or if I'm destined for the same end. I've done so much better lately, I think I have a good leash on my demon but I only do it for him and my family. HONESTAV speaks to my heart in ways no other artist has been able to capture.
RIP Dad, 9/23/66 - 6/22/03
RIP
Feel this so much
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Same here dude. Dad drank himself to death, and heroin was mine but now fentanyl has a grip on my soul.
I hope that all of us who are relating to this can find peace and happiness.
I dont know you, but I just want you to know that if you feel like no one else does; I LOVE YOU AND YOU ARE IMPORTANT
I lost my mom in 2020 and we had this exact relationship. I was an addict since 13. when it came to drugs I didn't discriminate. ups, down never mattered. I never said no. it's hurt soo fucking much to ever let her see me like that, and even harder in the end when she wouldn't recognize me any more. (When your with me. Your not with me. Now your way up there do you miss me) OMFG man couldn't be put any better. I'll be 40 in 3 months and been clean since burying her after covid restrictions lifted. I haven't been able to cry it out until right now thank you so much for this release
you can tell hes been thru some ish the way he hits the nail on the head. phenomenal man your songs really hit home for alot of ppl..
This guy has some of the most grounded and relatable music out rn
You're not wrong about it.
Bro ibfeel like I know every song in my soul already
TRUTH 💯 ❤
Dude he is one of the guys that’s why 🫶🏻
i was about to say the same thing
My brother would have related so much to your music. Unfortunately he lost his battle with addiction after numbing himself from losing my dad to his battle. So now I find comfort in your music.
I feel this. My brother went first though, 3 days before the 2 year anniversary of my big bros loss I found my dad. Nothing numbs better than what I lost them to
That's my feeling. It's been 14 years n I just want/need a break
@@callliexxlost my bro on the year anniversary of our dad's death. I feel this so much friend
@@callliexx sorry for your loss. 😢
@@txrc8so sorry for your loss. That’s terrible. Hope you’re staying strong for them.
IDK where you came from honestav, but why it take you so long? I am so grateful for your music... I wish I could articulate my feelings into words and beat, might spread some vicarious trauma but it'll move you for real for real... PLEASE DON'T STOP WRITING!!! ❤❤❤❤❤
Right where did he come from!!love his lyrics and voice! Guitar is on point also 👌
“Doc told u to take one but you was taken 3”
Springfield Missouri
This is the music we need to keep for future generations, 🙏 praying for a vinyl release of these early songs
This is real talent. Your music speaks to the soul. As an addict from a long line of addicts I feel like he knows exactly what I have felt all my life. Happy to say the cycle stops with me and I have been clean and sober for almost 4 years and my kids won’t know this kind of heartbreak.
Love your life ❤
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Id rather Overdose has been the first and last song I listen to every day since you dropped it. Thanks for all the good vibes and helping us reminisce on good times. Keep doin you bros!
Your Dad is looking down and SO PROUD of you. Keep ur head up my brother
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It's nice to know that I'm not the only one who can relate to this. But it also sucks that we have to go through it. Grief is ineffable.
This one was deep. Thank you for putting some people's pain into a song. This is so real, goosebumps.... 😢
You speak directly to your fan base in words we relate to. Millions of us are addicts, are in recovery, or love some who is. Keep it up brother. We need you!!!
Exactly, every word I can relate to.
Who else here before the release?! ❤❤ much love man
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Been listening to this one on repeat for months I’m so glad it’s getting the recognition it deserves ❤️
Me
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1 year today 🎉
Previously had 4 years but lost it in 2021 and took me another 2 years to get sober again. Anyone who has relapsed, just keep on keeping on! One day at a time, thats all we have control over. Stay strong, y'all ❤
Bro over the last few months youve helped me so much mentally my girl is dealing with cronhs and ovarian cysts and it's been a battle watching her pain as it gets worse. The pain I feel eats away at my soul so I can only imagine hers. I can only say thank you for not letting us feel alone in these emotions I worry everyday I'm going to lose her to this battle.
As someone who grew up in the ozarks and lost his father to addiction I really fw this shit great stuff man
I’m in tears 🥺 this may be the best song I’ve heard this year it feels so real my little heart omg🥺💕
Thank you TH-cam for recommending this man’s music to me. Every song is so good!!
Love his music so much
This song is gonna BLOW UP I’m telling you AV this is so beautiful real fucking music that we fucking need stay true to yourself cause you got it ✨
YES 👌👏
It never hit big. Still a good fucking song. But it didn’t hit big like the overdose song
i love that music got put in the hands of people with no industry machine behind it, because we get raw emotions and feelings like this.
Your doctor seen you as a barcode is so real...I know u with me but u ain't with me ...I honestly love this dude...he is the real deal❤️
Seriously!!!!!!! I found my mom fucking dead age 54 in her sleep 11 yrs ago when I was only 25. It fucked me up forever. I walked out her house with the same bottle that killed her. I've now been 7 yrs clean on herion and opioids and hard drugs. I miss her every fuckinggggg day. My youngest son ax was only 6months old and my oldest Riley her heart boy was 2 1/2.
@@amyeethomas2495 I lost my only brother to hard drugs in 2013, he was 37. He was less than 2 years older and my best friend...I completely understand ❤️❤️❤️
Omg every song I’ve heard him speak is my life!!! I’m so sorry you had had to endure all this heartbreak from your family but thank you for putting it into words. Much love man ❤
This was on of my favorite songs from HonestAv when I started listening to him a few months ago, so happy it got a video.
I lost my dad this February, he was stuck in the hospital for Christmas I got a tiny fake tree so we could have a Christmas inthe hospital knowing he wouldn't leave, the most selfless and gentle person I got to be able to call my dad this music makes me remember him in the best way I just want to hug him one last time
Reminds me fr of just playing music late af in the night time. I don't know if there is a word for that feeling.
this song speaks to my soul ! i hope you get eveerything you want in life my BOY!
Claw and kick to get outta this hole!!!!
I feel that on a spiritual level! You are amazing and I hope the whole world sees what we all see in u. Hope u blow all the way up this year!
you getting right up there with NF & Ren, to me. Real music, real shit, & healing generations.. thank you
I’ve been listening to your music on repeat. Keep it up my man.
song is massively underrated
I have never had music resonate with my entire life the way yours does. If all else I am so thankful for TikTok because I found your music. I know this life is so hard. Thank you for sharing your music with people like me, it really helps us feel.. not so alone.
The way I can’t stop playing this song over and over 💔
Thank you for sharing your pain with us all. I don’t think i could have made it this week without finding your music. Been battling my headspace after losing my girl of 8 years you make it possible. 🙏
Don’t ever stop bro! There isn’t enough of your sound out there. Pave a way for more like you man. But don’t forget, don’t let the media, “how things should be” be the deciding factor of decisions or choices. Take this life and make it what you want!
im 2 months sober right now from a 28 year alcohol heroin and crack addiction!!! and the last month has been the best ive felt in my whole life, im such a better farther and husband right now that ive ever been to my wife and 3 beautiful kids, its really the best thing i have done for myself and my family, you can do this my friend you really can.
Keep going it gets better as you go. I've been clean for 5 yrs off Heroin, speed, and whatever pills. I even quit smoking cigs. I know your wife and kids appreciate you being there mentally
Thank you @@enns5366 👍
she showed me "i'd rather overdose" and now i'm hooked to your music brother
This is so fucking beautiful!!! Such a great song!!! My guy!! You gonna BLOW up ! You're music is so real & touches my heart everytime!!!
Some of the most heartfelt music
AV GOING WORLDWIDE 🙌🎉🙌🎉
Never met my dad but I'm a father and a recovered alcoholic. But these pills don't fix a heart break, I hope my son don't lose me
Amen brother
@@beardedtigerThanks bro
Same boat brother, never met my dad & I'm a recovering opiate addict. Our son's need us brotha 💚 WE DO RECOVER 🫡💚
there's comfort in the way your voice captures pain for me. its magic and the songwriting is a chef's kiss. thank u for making music.
incredible. love this, so much love and respect for you. thank you for helping us heal 🙏🤍
Been loving this tune for a bit now Av ! Hits home bro . Wish you all the success in the world kid. Much love sent from Nova Scotia 🫶😎
My dad committed suicide in 2013 after 49 years of just a hard life. He turned to pills, drugs, alcohol; whatever, to fill the void that he’d had since he was a kid. He was a great dad. This song hits so hard. I miss him so much. ❤
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I’ve been listening to this song so much lately ❤ this is a beautiful video
Thank you for making me feel heard and less alone.
Just heard you for the first time 15 minutes ago. 3 out of 4 songs have me in tears. Literally bawling. Fuck.
I always felt like this song deserved more recognition than “I’d rather overdose”
Keep making music man your gonna help save so many people from letting a long term solution fix a short term problem thank you man🙏💯
Love you bubba...she misses you dearly
This hits home hard. Love your music
Sober 6/3/05. There is ALWAYS HOPE! You are a huge talent my dear..your songs touch the soul.. Thank you!
Youre helping me get through my darkest days. I love you wholeheartedly. ❤
Your songs never disappoint.
Same can’t wait
Damn, those songs are freaking heartbreaking. Incredible talent for storyteling through music
Thank you for expressing yourself to us. We appreciate the connections we have with you and your experiences. Stay safe. Be good and try to be happy. We love you.
Damn man. Deep. ❤. Todays my dads bday. Lost him in 2012. Youre helping me a lot with your songs
I'm so proud of you. Thank you for the words so many of us search to express our pain
My mom took her life on 1-3-2024 and I have been so sad listening to the music is my way of healing. Mama was everything to me!!
Man, having struggled with what seems like the same profound issue of losing my father young to his addiction and finding myself In addiction as well as a side effect to loss your music always seems to reach right into my soul and bring out emotions and thoughts I've struggled to find and accept and attempt cope with I consider myself very fortunate to still be here and to of had someone turn me onto your art, man what I would do to just sit down and have a conversation with ya and see what it's all like for your point if view. It's all very beautifuly raw and a lot of artists don't have that real emotion to their work it's amazing man. Thank you for being here and sharing your art with the world
I heard this guy on an IG video… I’m a fan for sure! The story, voice, every damn bit of it!
“ you were screaming for help no one listening” just found out one of my coworkers passes away reasons are unclear but depression was very much in his life. Be kind to and love your loved ones one never knows when they’re last day will be💔
this hits different. all love brother
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This man and this song. Especially in the last few days. Thank you.
man... this dude is a whole vibe i can get behind.
Real shit. Looking forward to what else this dude brings. Thanks, man.
My dad took his life july 4th of 01. I was 3. The way your music speaks into my soul is absurd. Bout joined him a couple times this year, last night being the second time i came the closest to following those footsteps. Found your music today and wow.
@@trapdeezy23 c'mon trap, fall is coming, Halloween, Christmas, more beautiful sunsets, snow, watching people who are happy (I do) and beautiful men/women who would enjoy your company. I struggle with feelings too would love for u to check out my music too...just know there's people out there who care...I do....just know the world wouldn't shine as bright without u in it...I lost my father too. He gave up on me and my 3 brothers because he wanted to drink and cook meth. I still love and miss him but VERY disappointed on father's who abandon their children. I saw him pistol whip my mom when I was 9. A child should NEVER have to witness that
Much love bro coming from New Mexico! God bless my dude I wish all the blessings in the world for you!
Much love and respect, relate to your music so much..
im loving these songs man good job!
44 days sober today. Thx for the love and content, you inspire me to keep going
Soo good. Hits home so much. Keep doin u brother!!! ❤💯💯🙏🏼🙏🏼
Nothing but Great Music 🎶
This is a great song 🎵 deep and true and very needed! Love ya bro keep ya head up 💯
Here before the release🙋♂️ Keep going Av your gonna be at the top one day fr.❤👍
I really needed this, I lost my dad 7 years ago and Father’s Day is this Sunday & I need him more than ever and this song made me not feel so alone thank you🥺
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Damn. I had to sit down to watch this 😔 I wish I couldn’t relate to this song so much, but thanks for writing it ❤️
This is amazing..you are going to go big man.
Sounds great! Great voice, lyrics, visuals
I’ve listened to this a million times this week… ❤
Y you making me tear up at work 10 yr sober and this is still the only music that makes sense
Like 4th song I heard today from this cat... He goes hard. Best music ive heard in long time
Lost so many including my big brother in 2018 and dad. This muaic is so real.
Absolutely incredible music, thank you so much
my literal life. love you av.
One of my favorite music artists 🫶🏼
Thank you for the music seriously saving me daily. Thank you
we’ve needed avrey for a long time.
Amazing. Absolutely amazing.
I felt like.I am seeing my self on the song.❤
Great song man! I hope you get big
Brother thank you for your music and input and for what it's worth. I LOVE YOU BROTHER YOU GOT THIS X
loooooooooooooove how raw honestav is
You’re definitely one of my favorite artists, my kids love you too!!🤟🏼🤟🏼
How is this dude not the biggest recording star in America???
Tvá hudba zasáhla mé srdce i duši aniž bych rozuměla slovům,vím přesně o čem zpíváš❤Děkuji ❤