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Cecillia!!! SAD - get a set of SAD lights!!! (True sunlight lights.) It will change your life during the black winter months. Seriously. SAD will CAUSE anxiety. Fix SAD, you will probably take care of your anxiety symptoms. I was on subs for 5 years. 3 1/2 months at a time. The lights on a sub are daylight lights. This PREVENTS SAD. You can by the special SAD lights and I recommend in the strongest of terms that you get some. You need 7-8 hours of SAD lights per day. This overcomes the lack of daylight. Some people are far more sensitive to SAD than others.
Living further south in Ireland I cannot see myself being without sunlight 24/7 for that long, I dont know how you do it. But kudos to you. I would be walking flying, sailing, towards the sun, just to know it's still there. Love you guys.
As someone who has lived a full life of anxiety and depression, I cannot imagine what it would be like to live without it. Although I have it much more under control, it will still pop up and then it’s me vs. me. That’s what it boils down to, it’s you against you. I love the way that you handled it with self realization and truth and a routine of things that work for you really helps! So glad you were so open and honest! I really enjoy your videos. Cindy 👱♀️🌸
I can’t imagine NEVER having experienced anxiety or depression for your whole life…if must be so amazing. Just…what is that even like?? LOL I literally don’t know life without it..one of my very first memories is of anxiety, and it’s only gotten worse from there.
Get more sleep if you can! It always helps, as does a walk in the great outdoors! If you like Cecilia, I mean, how can you not? Her stuff vlogs are terrific! There is another channel, called “Trout and Coffee” that I get very relaxing, nostalgic and much enjoyment from!
Sometimes the advices are the most annoying thing. ..You need to sleep more. Have you tried B vitamins? Have you ever try a doctor? You need more fresh air! Guys, you can save yourself the advice for people who are mentally seriously ill and who have been struggling with it for years. Most of them have already tried more than you can imagine. And sometimes, sad as it is, you just learn to live with it.
You said something very important...You said that you "listened to you Body", many times people will ignore our bodies signals and end up making matters worse, thank you for sharing this video !!!
Aspects of polar nights and midnight sun sound amazing and appealing. Yet, I know how simply going from the office to working from home for the past 2 years has affected me. And I love(d) being at home before. Now, it takes mental work beyond the normal. Exponentiating that to your unique and fantastic world would most definitely be a mind-game. And you do have the perfect outlook for that, but that doesn't make one immune. I love your channel, your optimism, how you view life. It's like 15 minutes of zen each week. Thank you.
I spent a year in Finnish Lapland and for me the Midnight Sun was far more challenging mentally. Human beings are such individuals it must be seriously challenging for mental health professionals to cater to each person. I always love your honesty ❤️
It's hard even for us who are from there. I was so fatigued already as a kid during polar night and the only way to really make it through is exercise and spending time outside when there's even a bit of lightness in the air.
Yeah, I also spent some months in northern Alaska during the summer and the constant sunlight can be very tiring. Hard to sleep. Especially since the temp gets to 30C, and nobody has air conditioning because hey, it's Alaska, right?
I need the daylight then night time darkness. I have that SAD and love, love sunlight; even some cloudy days makes me feel in a down mood. But, experiencing the part year darkness daily thru these videos. 😊
@@LittleTut yeah I’m pretty much the opposite… gloomy, dark , rain and snow lift my spirits. When my wife and I were first dating many many years ago we went to my parents for Christmas.My wife asked my Mum (RIP) which room used to be mine and if there were still claw marks on the ceiling from where I used to hang upside down 🦇 My mum and sister burst out laughing. From the age of 10 my room was known as The Cave!
I just turned 65 and have never suffered from anxiety until three years ago when my dad and my son, who was my only child died within a year of each other. Now it is a daily occurrence. I am taking medication but it is not 100% effective. Love and God Bless 🤗💖🙏
I can recommend a one week holiday in the Canary Islands. The weather is perfect, you can go hiking in the mountains and swimming in the ocean. The long, intense sunshine burns your winter tiredness away.
This is so true. I was away in Gran Canaria over Christmas and it made such a difference. If I hadn't been able to go I would have tried to get out in the light as much as possible though. I am not sure I could manage a whole polar night though. As magical ad Cecilia makes it look, it must be hard 💗
I lived in Mexico for a number of years and it only rains for several months out of the year. At the end of the dry period, we all collectively wait for it to rain for at least 6 weeks. It’s hot and dry and the anticipation for change is high. It bonds us a community and i am sure the pitch blackness returning to light is similar. Xxoo
Cecilia-I am desperately in love with Grim. Will you please do a video about him for Valentines Day? ❤️ What games does he like to play? What turns him into a bundle of energy? When is he most cuddly? What do you feed him? Is he spoiled? Is he an affectionate dog? Does he like Christoffer more than you? Do you take him to work?
Hi…I am a Canadian(north central) psychologist currently working in Florida USA because, you know, palm trees 🌴🌴🌴 You are insightful and I am glad you feel better. I am also grateful that you are so open. We all will likely struggle with mental health struggles at least once. It sounds like you have a good plan…keep listening to yourself & taking great care! Cheers.
Books: My son was a reluctant reader. In middle school he read the Golden Compass because he had read "no" books toward his grade. He solely picked that one for the points it held on the grading scale. He was so pulled into the book. Declaring it changed his life as a reader, he insisted I read it as well. Then he asked me to purchase, The Subtle Knife, which he devoured; and for the first time in his life he waited for a book release, The Amber Spyglass. He's never had a book that's had that effect on him since, and he's a little older than you now. What I am saying is to read those last two books. You will love them! Don't worry about the movies. As a teacher, I of course, always recommend the books. I am glad to see you up and running again mentally. I am one who easily can fall into a funk. It's important to safeguard one's mental health. I often use your videos as a pick me up. Thank you.
I taught myself how to solve the Rubik’s cube about 2 years ago. It’s been a lifelong wish and I did it!!It takes me about 2-3 minutes depending on how the cubes been messed up.’Anyway, thanks for your videos
Anxiety can be a positive thing: It may be your internal warning system sounding the alarms to take care of yourself. Plus, as you already know, the Polar Night is challenging - even for the sunniest of personalities! So glad to hear that you made yourself a priority vs posting a video.
It’s important to talk about how you feel to someone before it gets to a point that you can’t talk about how you feel. I’ve not long discovered you channel and I love it so much. I hope your mood has lifted.
I live in the USA in central Minnesota & I do experience anxiety & depression during the dark long days. Nothing of course like you do, but I appreciate that you talked so candidly about how the polar nights have been affecting you. I enjoy & love your videos. 💙🖤🤍🤎💚💛🧡❤️💜 Be well Cecilia 😘
I'm glad you're feeling better now ❤️ Don't think you have to be 'strong enough' to love polar night at all times. It's human not to. Sending love and inner light into your multidimensional darkness ❤️
As a person who has suffered severe panic, anxiety, and depression for all my life I can empathize. The panic became torturous at the age of 37 and lasted until 57. I worked everyday but it was a struggle. I am a self-employed upholsterer in a small town in North Carolina. Finally at 57 I was so physically tired from the struggle to stay sane and just go on, I sought medical help. I was prescribed Lexapro an anti-depressant that helped from day one. I had a life, I could function. It was such a blessing. I’m telling you this to help you know you are not alone, and if you ever need help do not hesitate to seek medical help. I’m 70 now and still on Lexapro and it’s still working. My oldest daughter has the same problem and after years of suffering she is also on an anti-depressant Paxil. I love your vlogs and admire you for living in this beautiful area. Take care of yourself, get close to God, and trust Him but know that He gives wisdom to doctors to help when we need it. God bless you and Christopher and Grim.
I'm so sorry to hear that you went through that, your right God ( the one and only ) not Jesus ( he is a prophet of God who preached us to worship the only creator of everything God) . Yes God is here for us always and love us and He is the only one who can help us through problems.
I got covid last week, and after being in quarantine or just being stuck in my room for 3 days alone, being sick and just laying in bed, I felt the anxiety came in once I got out of quarantine. Luckily I got to talk to my therapist to help me and exercise really does help. I feel much better now too.
Wow what an interesting lifestyle. Here in Florida it’s sunny much of the time, and I yearn for a cozy dark day. But I can see where a long polar period could really mess with your mind, not to mention the isolation. Your reaction is more than normal, in fact, if it only lasted a week I consider you a super human. Btw: Love your dog 🐕. Stay healthy.
Diana - I also live in Florida and I don’t know how she does it lol. Like you, I love a dreary, stormy day from time to time but I also love to walk outside and feel the sun on my face. I can’t imagine not being able to do that for months on end. 😬😬
Yes, please take care of yourself! I was born with the "dark clouds" in my head and I suffer greatly. I hope it helps you to know that your videos give me a respite from the darkness. You are light, Cecilia. Thank you.
Always take care of your mental health over work, no matter what! Your new clothes are so pretty and yes, you are so tall and long ( I may be a bit jealous, at 5 feet 3 inches tall 😀). Thanks for sharing so candidly about your struggles and how you deal with them. We love you, and your boys🧡Christoffer and Grim. Have a great week and stay warm! ✨✨
What a beautiful video (as always), I wonder if you know how many people, will genuinely be uplifted by your uploads Cecilia? I for one, look forward to each one, brings a relaxing chill to my anxious, overworked mind. To not feel 100%, to feel the darkness creeping in, is human. To post about, so honestly and heartfelt on here, is just epic. Someone with your huge following, being so honest and open about this, will have helped more than you can possibly know. I am so glad you have someone to talk to though in your awesome partner Christoffer. You, Christoffer and Grim, and the gorgeous place you call home, are a delight to millions. I hope at this moment, you feel a lot of that coming back to you. Thank you for all your uploads, and for this one in particular. You will have touched more people and made them better, than you will ever know. Take care and I hope all this passes very soon for you. The light is on its way back, for now, bask in the light from Christoffer and Grim, and all your family and friends, and the positive comments, that everyone has put on your upload here.
I'm glad you were able to recognize something was wrong and have the ability to take care of yourself. It can be so hard for me to do something about my mental health issues. I hate it so much. My mind is a dark place a lot, and it's terrifying. I don't wish it upon anyone. I have four children who keep me going, and they're the biggest reason I'm still around. I hope you are ok now, and I wish you good health. I love you!
My mother grew up on a farm which was then about an hour's drive south of Mosjøen. 🇳🇴She talked about how hard the winters were - and I think they had about 4 hours of daylight. She ended up moving to Sweden where she met a Jamaican, and I ended up growing up in Jamaica. She loved Jamaica! At least 12 hours of daylight - mostly sunny - every day. Sending you sunlight in your heart, even on dark days! Greetings from Canada!🇨🇦
Yes, the weather, daylight, and our crazy lives can affect our well-being...where I live in Michigan, USA, the cold, snowy and dreary weather can put you into a real funk. A lot of us here play the "count-down until Spring" game, go for walks, read and of course, visit You Tube and you! I am glad you are working on your plan for a better "YOU"...do things that bring you pleasure which is the most important...have a wonderful week!!
Adorable Grim🧡 Dogs love the squeaky toys because the sound reminds them of small preys dying breathes, that's also why they shake them cause that breaks their neck. So it's all just stuff left from the wolf times lol
I work in the mental health field, and I understand what you are saying. I was talking with my coworker about you and Chris and how we both wondered how you were. Thank you for keeping us aware.
More than half of the world is dealing with mental illness, depression and anxiety. This is a daily struggle for pretty much everyone and poverty and everything else. We are also living in one of the worst time periods possible. It is possible though to get through all of that. I’ve had a business 25 years finished three college degrees and deal with life and the difficulties with mental illness and anxiety etc. Also no one to rely upon only one person. So you are now feeling what the rest of us feel daily. But we all love your videos and you can put up as many or as little as you want because we’ll all be here to watch them and enjoy them as long as you are doing this. These are some of the most wonderful videos and they are very uplifting and happy in a time when things are quite difficult. God bless you and hope you feel better soon don’t stay away too long you are loved and admired! ❤️❤️
Having never known constant darkness, this summer in Australia - on the eastern side - we have had one of the wettest and dullest summers I've ever experienced. It has very much affected my mood but just want to let you know I prefer watching TH-camrs I follow putting out fabulous content whenever it suits them rather than on a schedule. Take care and I so much look forward to your future videos x
I agree about not needing to follow a schedule but I think if you depend on TH-cam for an income its algorhythms set it up for regularity. Recently I have noticed several TH-camrs apologizing for being off for mental health reasons...shouldn't they be allowed vacations just like everyone else? It is a shame!
I so much appreciate your honesty and openness with us, who are really just random people out in the world. So glad you were able to deal and had the support of that strong mountain man :) I've always heard of some people getting seasonal depression when it is cold, wet and dark out. But my nature seems to be completely opposite. Granted, I've never lived where there's polar night or Midnight Sun and anywhere near that in fact. I get depressed, tired and lethargic in SUMMER (the heat, the bright lights of the sun, the buzzing insects make me want to crawl inside a cave) but then when Autum begins, I immediately feel better and that happy, content but energetic feeling lasts until Spring. I can literally feel the depression descending on me as it gets brighter, sunnier and warmer. If I lived in a place like Svalbard, or even northern Europe etc, I'd probably fly south for summer so I could have some actual dark nights but then live in Svalbard from Oct to March.
It is okay to love the polar night and still need a break from it when it gets too long. Sounds like you needed a breath of fresh air and sunlight to recharge
For me your video's are the moments i prioritise my health. They are the sitback, relax and enjoy moment, be in the moment. Thank you so much for them and I'm sorry you felt that way, but so good you took action 💛
For me, January is always a bleak and dark (pun intended) month. The lights from Christmas are down, joy seems to fade, etc. It was nice of you to catch us up on how you're doing... thank you for your honesty.
Amo l'autunno e l'inverno, non capisco le persone che vanno in crisi perché fa buio molto presto. Ogni stagione ha la sua peculiarità, e questa che stiamo vivendo è "coccolosa". Che noia avere sempre il sole,mese dopo mese,come non potrei vivere in un posto così, bello,ma uniforme e monotono
Rubix cube is a great example of something that, pre internet, one would just have to accept not knowing. (Or, spend a ton of time tracking down someone to teach you.) Now the knowledge is just there for you whenever you want it. Awesome.
Sorry you are feeling this way. As someone whose been there, the best thing you can do is get out of your own head. Don’t be ashamed to ask for help. Hugs to Grim
I didn’t have anxiety until I was in my 40’s, I know you don’t want to lay in a tanning bed but I’m telling you if you went for one time for like 5 minutes it really helps not to get tan but to you soak up the warmth and the quiet! It helps me and I am not a person that wants to tan, I for one hate to get hot and sticky I’d rather be cold, but it just helps my mental health!
Through your videos we see such magical beauty that takes us out of our own headspace and transports us to a place that most of us only dream of. We do not experience the downside to the extreme darkness, nor do we really know how that would affect us...which through your videos we see that it most definitely can have an adverse effect, both mentally and physically. This is why I truly enjoy watching you, you not only bring us the magnificent views but you also are real enough to share the not so beautiful side effects that come along with living in such an intriguing place. Thank you, Cecelia ~ Thank you so much for sharing yours, Kristoffers & Grims magical and not so magical life with us 💙💛🐻❄️🦭❄
Glad to know you don't suffer much, especially living in a region where you have months of darkness. I suffer anxiety so bad, ambulances have to be called, due to a racing heart, so thinking I am having a heart attack, or blood pressure so low, I can't move, never mind the endless nights of rip-roaring mental pain that seems to grip me to the point I feel like I am going mad. Thank you for your wonderful videos, I would love to travel there in the winter and again in the summer to experience all seasonal weather changes.
I suffer from HORRIBLE anxiety and am medicated for it. I understand how hard the struggle is and I sincerely hope you are feeling better. Please don't feel pressured either to constantly work on content. Your mental and emotional health come first. ❤️
I felt really pulled to finally comment on one of your videos because of your honesty with your mental health and new found anxiety. I’ve been watching your videos since mid-October when I was diagnosed with Panic Disorder with Agoraphobia (basically a fear of going outside and having panic attacks). Your videos have been some of the only things that helped calm me down while starting therapy and medication. Watching you and Christoffer and Grim in the snowy landscape has taken me away for brief moments in my day which has felt essential to starting recovery. I’m pretty sure I’ve watched every one of your videos during this time! I’ve even started to feel more comfortable going outside again and it’s on my bucket list for sometime in the future to visit Svalbard because of its significance during this tough time in my life. Thank you for being honest about not always having a sunny day and taking time to slow down and focus on you and your health. Also, I feel the woman’s clothing struggle with things not being long enough for my 5 foot 10 inches self. (: sending love to you, Christoffer, Grim, and Fenris!
Sending you sunshiny vibes from Texas! Good to know you have taken time to listen to your body and mind - and act accordingly. Also very happy you have such strong support from your partner - that helps a lot! Let yourself feel your feelings and acknowledge them. When it passes, be grateful for what this experience has taught you. Best wishes!
I think the fact that you chose to listen to your body and knew what would help in this situation helped you snap out of it. Glad you are feeling better ❤️
Christoffer is hysterical! That package that fell out of the sled🤣. Hope it wasn’t breakable🤣🤣. He tossed it back in as if it were a pillow🤣🤣 You are fabulous, Cecilia! Know that you are so loved & such an inspiration!!! Your honesty & openness is amazing!💗
Sending love and support for your mental health. As someone who faces anxiety and fogginess almost everyday, I’ve learned to lean into it and stop and listen to what my body is telling me. (And give Grim extra hugs!!) Glad you’re taking care of yourself and talking about it. You’re not alone!! Xoxo!!
I'm sorry the Polar Night had this effect on you. I know it must be hard! I hear my older neighbors complain that it is dark here around 5:30 pm but our sun comes back up around 7:30 or so. I think this virus also just has people feeling down. "Here comes another wave" has people so angry or depressed. I know it has bothered me that I can't hang out with my best friend, her husband has some medical issues so we don't want to take any risks there. I'm glad you are feeling better! We are planning our garden and that helps here. 🙂 Have a good week!
Sono fortunati coloro che possono lamentarsi del tempo...o del virus... Evidentemente non hanno altri problemi. A costoro direi di dedicarsi al prossimo bisognoso... Non è solo l'Africa terra di missione..anche le nostre piccole realtà lo sono. Basta guardarsi attorno.
I like it when you share a part of yourself in your videos. Your preferences for books, clothes, coffee. It's also good to hear your struggles bc then you open yourself up to being authentic and real. You are human and you are experiencing human feelings. It's nice to know that I am not alone in feeling this way during the winter. Also love Grimm's shenanigans in the background. He must cheer you up incredibly! He's a great dog!
Take Care of you Cecilia ….Please don’t ever worry about getting Vlogs out ….They are amazing and take a great deal of work ….but always well worth waiting for ….xx
Hi Cecilia, I accidentally found your amazing channel more than a year ago and have been enjoying it ever since. Thank you for your beautiful videos and honesty. Thanks to your videos, Svalbard is now on my travel list! Sending love from Lithuania
I loved Stoner. One of my daughter's teachers gave it to her as a present when she was at Uni. She did not like it and passed it on to me. I am grateful to that teacher for the book. I could not put my finger on why this book is so touching. It is an ordinary life, that might be reason why. It helped me out of low mood. That book and the movie "Manchester by the sea". They are about the value of ordinary life and self forgiveness.
Thank you for being open and honest about how you are feeling. I suffered from anxiety years ago when my boyfriend had passed away suddenly. Anxiety is very unsettling! You are doing all the right things. I’m so glad you have Christoffer and friends to help! I love the new clothing and blue coat!! My fiancé Mark and I love watching you vlogs and know sunlight is coming soon! Hugs to you both and Grim!
Good morning! So glad to see you today. Been thinking about you and hope you’re feeling more cheerful! Love you guys and thanks for sharing Svalbard with us 🤗
Finally - another woman who buys men's sizes in outdoor gear for the quality and fit, because she has long arms, trunk and legs!!! I have felt so alone on the planet in this! Now, thanks to you, I know what to buy to stay warm in these crazy times, when the US Deep South has become a deep freeze in winter. Merci beaucoups, Cecilia!
This winter has been a difficult one. My family and I usually leave our cold dark home for a few weeks during the winter months. This year because of the pandemic (I’m high risk) we are not traveling or leaving the house much altogether. It’s really taking a toll on me so I completely understand the SAD you might be experiencing. I haven’t dealt with it in several years but this year it got me. I hope you start feeling better as the days go by and as the daylight slowly creeps in🙏🤗hugs
As a now disabled, immunocompromised nurse living in the US alone, have had near constant anxiety for 3 yrs now. Had studied and prepared for pandemic in 2005 but 2016 my muscles gave out so no one listens to the brain anymore here. When muscles won't hold skis steady, balance is gone and muscles don't generate heat any more in deep cold my expansive world shrank terribly. I started spinning yarn, very calming. Was amazed you change winterwear so often, think this coat is 20 yrs old. Also buy mens size for the long torso and arms and you have me thinking I would like a different color after so long... in Feb the end of season will put things on sale but I suspect there is no such thing there. Take care.
I haven’t watched this yet but just know we all love you, Christoffer and of course Grim! Thank you for sharing your beautiful home and scenery with us. It takes a lot of work and we appreciate it. God bless.
I have a nephew living in Bergen. I often think of him and what his life must be like there. You have given me some insight into that. I hope you do better as the days get longer. My good wishes follow you.
We love you Cecilia! I am so glad you are taking the time you need to rest and have downtime, so important at all times and especially during winter when our bodies naturally just want to sleep and rest more 😴
I can see it in your eyes. The amount of insight you have, you’ll be ok. I have issues with it at times. I used to be a mental health care nurse, so I’m very familiar with it personally, professionally. I love watching your videos. You definitely have a positive outlook and a sunny disposition. Thank you for sharing. I’ll never be able to visit there, as I had a car wreck that caused some balance issues, but Svalbard sounds like my dream. I love cold weather and nighttime. Thank you for sharing your life. I feel like I’m right there. Also kiss Grim on the cheek for me. He’s pure sweetness.
I’m also struggling with anxiety. Some days don’t even feel real - it can be scary. I’m so glad you were able to have others to talk to and find inner peace. I can’t imagine having all that AND polar nights! The sun gives me so much calm
I live near Seattle and the last couple of days we did not have rain, some fog, everything burned off mid afternoon and yeah, I noticed that it’s getting dark a little after 5 pm, so be patient, there is light around the corner. 😎
Thanks again for sharing a real side of the "ideal" living situation! Even in a paradise, there are challenges. I'm glad you are feeling better. I just love every video you make Cecilia! You make me want to move to Svalbard. Or at least visit a long while!
I’m fascinated with your channel! My sister in law who is a psychotherapist once told me to acknowledge whatever you feel, good, bad, or indifferent - which is exactly what you did. My favorite saying - love yourself through it, which you did as well. Long term anxiety sufferer here - so hard. But self love and self acknowledgment made a world of difference for me. 😊🙏✌️
It was so amazing to hear you say it’s always been sunny in your head. I just can’t imagine that! I wish I was that kind of person. I’ve always struggled with anxiety and depression.. it runs in my family. For me, working from home would never work I don’t think. I’m not mentally strong enough or self-motivated. So I admire your mental strength and upbeat nature. You’re amazing. I hope the days continue to lighten as I know they will. You have many friends on here! Grim loved his new toy 😍 I love that boy.
I am a yoga teacher and was diagnosed with a chronic panic disorder in my late 20s early 30s, and having eradicated it through breath and Yoga nidra I now work a lot with people experiencing the same. So happy to send you some links to breath and nidra if you like... On another note, where did you get your beautiful sheepskins butterfly chair! soooo cosy!
Cecilia, you are so lovely. Thank you for being so open & honest. I love your channel, your videos are all wonderful, & I’m sure I’m not alone when I say if you need a week without posting, we won’t mind and we will be sat here waiting patiently for when you do! Love from the UK x
I love your honesty Cecilia!! I have also experienced anxiety and mild depression and it's always worse in the winter months!! I am usually a happy person so I know this will pass!! Taking some me time always helps!! Take care of yourself and this season will pass and into the light we will come!!!
Thank you for your honesty and transparency. I don’t think I could ever live in darkened world, so kudos to you and everyone who can. Nice shopping and great choices. You look beautiful in all your clothing choices. Grimm was sooo excited too with his new toy. It won’t be long before the sun opens up for you all. Hang in there girl!
Books and reading is so important but a book must capture your mind in some way and awoke an interest! I hope you feel better now Cecilia! I have never solved the Rubiks cube and to me it have always felt just impossible! Greetings to you and Christoffer and a lot of loving pats to Grim ❤! Susanne 👱♀️ and Trollet 🐱.
Cecilia, you are not alone, nor have you ever been alone. Between Christoffer and Grim and sometimes Fenris, you have us, your viewers, who have come to know you through your vlogs and photography and we love you. I know that's not the same as having someone with you, but I think a lot of us have had the same struggles or similar ones that you speak of. My son suffers from severe anxiety. I think it's been about 6 months since he has last left our apartment, other than to take out the garbage. I feel myself getting anxious at times, but I am mostly able to shove it aside, by just being determined to not let it get the better of me. I will be 60 years old in February and I can tell you that life has it's way of throwing curve balls at you. One thing I have always had is "hope". I have always thought that when things were bad they will always get better. It seems to work for me. Even my son has noticed that things always get better when they turn bad....So there might be something to be said for positive thinking. Sorry for rambling on...Just know that you are loved around the world and that things will always get better. Much love from Canada.💖😊
I’m happy you are in tune with yourself and are able to do some introspection. Sometimes we just need to allow ourselves to experience the lows and learn from them. Also lovely that you have a good supportive partner. Christoffer is a good man. All the best to you as you make your way back into the light!
I have no polar night in Iowa, but felt a similar drain this week... ended up shutting myself in and doing nothing but binge watching shows all weekend and talking to no one in a quest to reboot. Thanks for sharing your story, best to you
Big Hug Cecilia! I understand anxiety 😥. It took me 5 months to get a handle on it. I was determined to get passed it because it is so not me to feel like that. I did what you did take care of myself, because truly there is only 1 me! As there is only 1 you 💕💕💕. The biggest hugs to you! The light will be back soon 💕☀️
Loved the final song. Love your channel. I lived in Alaska for many years but not as far north as you so we did get some hours of daylight in the deepest of winter and vice versa in the summer. I’m also old enough to be your mom and thus feel compelled to try and encourage. Give yourself a lot of grace during polar nights and days. You are doing all the right things by walking daily working out keeping your mind busy I really applaud you! You get “outside” to Portugal to see family and reset. That’s super important IMHO. You go on local adventures and have two loves in your life! Your beautiful home is a sanctuary. Also try asking yourself (you and Christoffer) daily what was the best part of your day? The worst? What was one kind thing did you do for someone today and one you witnessed? Mother Teresa said look for those doing good in times of trouble and follow them. You’ll love this. When anxious do something you’re already familiar with doing. It will help normalize and steady your thoughts. And when all else fails, have a glass of wine 🍷 or go shopping! Preferably not together. We get ourselves into trouble then. Lol!! Much continued joy is wished for you. Just know some days will hold more joy than others. You truly live in a heavenly magical beautiful place on earth. ❤❤
If only i can say thank u to u this gotta be my vibe everynight well not every single night , i just want u cecilia to know ur video just gives me good and cozy vibe feel like im in svalbard now so thank u
This blue coat is a nice color. Looks warm. It's not easy being in darkness 24 hrs people get depressed even suicidal so don't worry it's normal to feel down or anxious .
Loved that quite long orange jacket that you tried on towards the end of your shopping trip.... (12 mins). Nice! Thanks for another entertaining video. Ciao.
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Cecillia!!! SAD - get a set of SAD lights!!! (True sunlight lights.) It will change your life during the black winter months. Seriously. SAD will CAUSE anxiety. Fix SAD, you will probably take care of your anxiety symptoms. I was on subs for 5 years. 3 1/2 months at a time. The lights on a sub are daylight lights. This PREVENTS SAD. You can by the special SAD lights and I recommend in the strongest of terms that you get some. You need 7-8 hours of SAD lights per day. This overcomes the lack of daylight. Some people are far more sensitive to SAD than others.
im going 31 january to svalbard, i was wondering it would be possible have a meeting to show me the most interesting place up there
You're definitely something else Cecilia! Given that all this is charades for the already crazy, take it all the way sister!
Living further south in Ireland I cannot see myself being without sunlight 24/7 for that long, I dont know how you do it. But kudos to you. I would be walking flying, sailing, towards the sun, just to know it's still there. Love you guys.
@@Deodouranth but wear that mask!
As someone who has lived a full life of anxiety and depression, I cannot imagine what it would be like to live without it. Although I have it much more under control, it will still pop up and then it’s me vs. me. That’s what it boils down to, it’s you against you. I love the way that you handled it with self realization and truth and a routine of things that work for you really helps! So glad you were so open and honest! I really enjoy your videos. Cindy 👱♀️🌸
I can’t imagine NEVER having experienced anxiety or depression for your whole life…if must be so amazing. Just…what is that even like?? LOL I literally don’t know life without it..one of my very first memories is of anxiety, and it’s only gotten worse from there.
Get more sleep if you can! It always helps, as does a walk in the great outdoors! If you like Cecilia, I mean, how can you not? Her stuff vlogs are terrific! There is another channel, called “Trout and Coffee” that I get very relaxing,
nostalgic and much enjoyment from!
@@WeezerPort I also suffer from ME so unfortunately I have sleep issues and cannot leave the house (or my bed) much either. Thank you, though.
Same, can't remember not feeling anxious.
Go see your doctor. There is medication that can help.
Sometimes the advices are the most annoying thing. ..You need to sleep more. Have you tried B vitamins? Have you ever try a doctor? You need more fresh air! Guys, you can save yourself the advice for people who are mentally seriously ill and who have been struggling with it for years. Most of them have already tried more than you can imagine. And sometimes, sad as it is, you just learn to live with it.
Christoffer is such a gentleman, holding the doors open for you. Love a man with manners, who takes care of his lady love.
Hugs. I’m 45 and have had severe anxiety since I was 10. To be honest your videos help me and I thank you. 💙💙💙💙❄️❄️❄️❄️
You said something very important...You said that you "listened to you Body", many times people will ignore our bodies signals and end up making matters worse, thank you for sharing this video !!!
So cute watchin g Grim get his new toy! 💜
His Dark Materials is my absolute favorite book series. I would highly recommend all three. I’m not exaggerating when I say that it changed my life.
Aspects of polar nights and midnight sun sound amazing and appealing. Yet, I know how simply going from the office to working from home for the past 2 years has affected me. And I love(d) being at home before. Now, it takes mental work beyond the normal. Exponentiating that to your unique and fantastic world would most definitely be a mind-game. And you do have the perfect outlook for that, but that doesn't make one immune. I love your channel, your optimism, how you view life. It's like 15 minutes of zen each week. Thank you.
Thank you so so much for this wonderful comment 🧡🧡🧡
I spent a year in Finnish Lapland and for me the Midnight Sun was far more challenging mentally. Human beings are such individuals it must be seriously challenging for mental health professionals to cater to each person. I always love your honesty ❤️
Yeah the midnight sun just kind of makes you go crazy hahah 😂 Thank you so much 🧡🧡🧡
It's hard even for us who are from there. I was so fatigued already as a kid during polar night and the only way to really make it through is exercise and spending time outside when there's even a bit of lightness in the air.
Yeah, I also spent some months in northern Alaska during the summer and the constant sunlight can be very tiring. Hard to sleep. Especially since the temp gets to 30C, and nobody has air conditioning because hey, it's Alaska, right?
I need the daylight then night time darkness. I have that SAD and love, love sunlight; even some cloudy days makes me feel in a down mood. But, experiencing the part year darkness daily thru these videos. 😊
@@LittleTut yeah I’m pretty much the opposite… gloomy, dark , rain and snow lift my spirits. When my wife and I were first dating many many years ago we went to my parents for Christmas.My wife asked my Mum (RIP) which room used to be mine and if there were still claw marks on the ceiling from where I used to hang upside down 🦇 My mum and sister burst out laughing. From the age of 10 my room was known as The Cave!
I just turned 65 and have never suffered from anxiety until three years ago when my dad and my son, who was my only child died within a year of each other. Now it is a daily occurrence. I am taking medication but it is not 100% effective. Love and God Bless 🤗💖🙏
I can recommend a one week holiday in the Canary Islands. The weather is perfect, you can go hiking in the mountains and swimming in the ocean. The long, intense sunshine burns your winter tiredness away.
That’s a great idea to plan a fun vacation every winter!!
This is so true. I was away in Gran Canaria over Christmas and it made such a difference. If I hadn't been able to go I would have tried to get out in the light as much as possible though. I am not sure I could manage a whole polar night though. As magical ad Cecilia makes it look, it must be hard 💗
Wow I've never met anyone with such a sunny disposition. Here in America anxiety, depression is almost a national past time!
The Camo wool thermals are gorgeous! Kudos for talking about how you feel - it's important. Sending a big hug and good vibes your way!
I lived in Mexico for a number of years and it only rains for several months out of the year. At the end of the dry period, we all collectively wait for it to rain for at least 6 weeks. It’s hot and dry and the anticipation for change is high. It bonds us a community and i am sure the pitch blackness returning to light is similar. Xxoo
Cecilia-I am desperately in love with Grim. Will you please do a video about him for Valentines Day? ❤️ What games does he like to play? What turns him into a bundle of energy? When is he most cuddly? What do you feed him? Is he spoiled? Is he an affectionate dog? Does he like Christoffer more than you? Do you take him to work?
Hi…I am a Canadian(north central) psychologist currently working in Florida USA because, you know, palm trees 🌴🌴🌴 You are insightful and I am glad you feel better. I am also grateful that you are so open. We all will likely struggle with mental health struggles at least once. It sounds like you have a good plan…keep listening to yourself & taking great care! Cheers.
Where did you study??
@@SFVGIRL I did my doctorate in Florida.
Books: My son was a reluctant reader. In middle school he read the Golden Compass because he had read "no" books toward his grade. He solely picked that one for the points it held on the grading scale. He was so pulled into the book. Declaring it changed his life as a reader, he insisted I read it as well. Then he asked me to purchase, The Subtle Knife, which he devoured; and for the first time in his life he waited for a book release, The Amber Spyglass. He's never had a book that's had that effect on him since, and he's a little older than you now. What I am saying is to read those last two books. You will love them! Don't worry about the movies. As a teacher, I of course, always recommend the books. I am glad to see you up and running again mentally. I am one who easily can fall into a funk. It's important to safeguard one's mental health. I often use your videos as a pick me up. Thank you.
the BBC/HBO series is far better than the movies, honestly a really great experience that stays much truer to the books.
@@ferrarif3408 Thank you so much! I will check it out.
I taught myself how to solve the Rubik’s cube about 2 years ago. It’s been a lifelong wish and I did it!!It takes me about 2-3 minutes depending on how the cubes been messed up.’Anyway, thanks for your videos
Yeah! I can solve one in under 3 minutes now, my goal is under 1 min :)
Thank you for your openness. Always talk. It's good you can talk to the camera. We are all here for you.
Anxiety can be a positive thing: It may be your internal warning system sounding the alarms to take care of yourself. Plus, as you already know, the Polar Night is challenging - even for the sunniest of personalities! So glad to hear that you made yourself a priority vs posting a video.
It’s important to talk about how you feel to someone before it gets to a point that you can’t talk about how you feel. I’ve not long discovered you channel and I love it so much. I hope your mood has lifted.
Well said! 🧡🧡
I live in the USA in central Minnesota & I do experience anxiety & depression during the dark long days. Nothing of course like you do, but I appreciate that you talked so candidly about how the polar nights have been affecting you. I enjoy & love your videos. 💙🖤🤍🤎💚💛🧡❤️💜 Be well Cecilia 😘
I'm glad you're feeling better now ❤️ Don't think you have to be 'strong enough' to love polar night at all times. It's human not to. Sending love and inner light into your multidimensional darkness ❤️
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As a person who has suffered severe panic, anxiety, and depression for all my life I can empathize. The panic became torturous at the age of 37 and lasted until 57. I worked everyday but it was a struggle. I am a self-employed upholsterer in a small town in North Carolina. Finally at 57 I was so physically tired from the struggle to stay sane and just go on, I sought medical help. I was prescribed Lexapro an anti-depressant that helped from day one. I had a life, I could function. It was such a blessing. I’m telling you this to help you know you are not alone, and if you ever need help do not hesitate to seek medical help. I’m 70 now and still on Lexapro and it’s still working. My oldest daughter has the same problem and after years of suffering she is also on an anti-depressant Paxil.
I love your vlogs and admire you for living in this beautiful area. Take care of yourself, get close to God, and trust Him but know that He gives wisdom to doctors to help when we need it. God bless you and Christopher and Grim.
It's so great when we can get some help to rebalance our body chemistry!
I'm so sorry to hear that you went through that, your right God ( the one and only ) not Jesus ( he is a prophet of God who preached us to worship the only creator of everything God) . Yes God is here for us always and love us and He is the only one who can help us through problems.
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Im so glad you got yourself out of the anxiety so quickly. I've had it for 2 yrs now since the death of my Son. Its awful.
I’m so sorry for your loss.
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You have an amazing guy there Cecilia: Christoffer, and vice versa! And for both of you, that amazing dog-child: Grim!
I got covid last week, and after being in quarantine or just being stuck in my room for 3 days alone, being sick and just laying in bed, I felt the anxiety came in once I got out of quarantine. Luckily I got to talk to my therapist to help me and exercise really does help. I feel much better now too.
Wow what an interesting lifestyle. Here in Florida it’s sunny much of the time, and I yearn for a cozy dark day. But I can see where a long polar period could really mess with your mind, not to mention the isolation. Your reaction is more than normal, in fact, if it only lasted a week I consider you a super human.
Btw: Love your dog 🐕. Stay healthy.
Diana - I also live in Florida and I don’t know how she does it lol. Like you, I love a dreary, stormy day from time to time but I also love to walk outside and feel the sun on my face. I can’t imagine not being able to do that for months on end. 😬😬
Yes, please take care of yourself! I was born with the "dark clouds" in my head and I suffer greatly. I hope it helps you to know that your videos give me a respite from the darkness. You are light, Cecilia. Thank you.
Loveee your sweater!
Always take care of your mental health over work, no matter what! Your new clothes are so pretty and yes, you are so tall and long ( I may be a bit jealous, at 5 feet 3 inches tall 😀). Thanks for sharing so candidly about your struggles and how you deal with them.
We love you, and your boys🧡Christoffer and Grim. Have a great week and stay warm! ✨✨
What a beautiful video (as always), I wonder if you know how many people, will genuinely be uplifted by your uploads Cecilia? I for one, look forward to each one, brings a relaxing chill to my anxious, overworked mind. To not feel 100%, to feel the darkness creeping in, is human. To post about, so honestly and heartfelt on here, is just epic. Someone with your huge following, being so honest and open about this, will have helped more than you can possibly know. I am so glad you have someone to talk to though in your awesome partner Christoffer. You, Christoffer and Grim, and the gorgeous place you call home, are a delight to millions. I hope at this moment, you feel a lot of that coming back to you. Thank you for all your uploads, and for this one in particular. You will have touched more people and made them better, than you will ever know. Take care and I hope all this passes very soon for you. The light is on its way back, for now, bask in the light from Christoffer and Grim, and all your family and friends, and the positive comments, that everyone has put on your upload here.
I'm glad you were able to recognize something was wrong and have the ability to take care of yourself. It can be so hard for me to do something about my mental health issues. I hate it so much. My mind is a dark place a lot, and it's terrifying. I don't wish it upon anyone. I have four children who keep me going, and they're the biggest reason I'm still around. I hope you are ok now, and I wish you good health. I love you!
My mother grew up on a farm which was then about an hour's drive south of Mosjøen. 🇳🇴She talked about how hard the winters were - and I think they had about 4 hours of daylight. She ended up moving to Sweden where she met a Jamaican, and I ended up growing up in Jamaica. She loved Jamaica! At least 12 hours of daylight - mostly sunny - every day. Sending you sunlight in your heart, even on dark days! Greetings from Canada!🇨🇦
Yes, the weather, daylight, and our crazy lives can affect our well-being...where I live in Michigan, USA, the cold, snowy and dreary weather can put you into a real funk. A lot of us here play the "count-down until Spring" game, go for walks, read and of course, visit You Tube and you! I am glad you are working on your plan for a better "YOU"...do things that bring you pleasure which is the most important...have a wonderful week!!
Michigan here, yup so true.
Adorable Grim🧡
Dogs love the squeaky toys because the sound reminds them of small preys dying breathes, that's also why they shake them cause that breaks their neck. So it's all just stuff left from the wolf times lol
Health above all else , take care of your self ... Chris and Grim too, and thank’s for sharing your life with us, many kisses 😘❤️
Hope you feel better super soon. Maybe Polar Night baby? Ps also love the camo unders!
Sunny mind, cloudy mind. Sun and darkness. I think your description of your mental health and thoughts are so good.
I work in the mental health field, and I understand what you are saying. I was talking with my coworker about you and Chris and how we both wondered how you were. Thank you for keeping us aware.
More than half of the world is dealing with mental illness, depression and anxiety. This is a daily struggle for pretty much everyone and poverty and everything else. We are also living in one of the worst time periods possible. It is possible though to get through all of that. I’ve had a business 25 years finished three college degrees and deal with life and the difficulties with mental illness and anxiety etc. Also no one to rely upon only one person. So you are now feeling what the rest of us feel daily.
But we all love your videos and you can put up as many or as little as you want because we’ll all be here to watch them and enjoy them as long as you are doing this. These are some of the most wonderful videos and they are very uplifting and happy in a time when things are quite difficult. God bless you and hope you feel better soon don’t stay away too long you are loved and admired! ❤️❤️
Having never known constant darkness, this summer in Australia - on the eastern side - we have had one of the wettest and dullest summers I've ever experienced. It has very much affected my mood but just want to let you know I prefer watching TH-camrs I follow putting out fabulous content whenever it suits them rather than on a schedule. Take care and I so much look forward to your future videos x
I agree about not needing to follow a schedule but I think if you depend on TH-cam for an income its algorhythms set it up for regularity. Recently I have noticed several TH-camrs apologizing for being off for mental health reasons...shouldn't they be allowed vacations just like everyone else? It is a shame!
A shit summer here in New Zealand on the east coast too! Lol
I so much appreciate your honesty and openness with us, who are really just random people out in the world. So glad you were able to deal and had the support of that strong mountain man :) I've always heard of some people getting seasonal depression when it is cold, wet and dark out. But my nature seems to be completely opposite. Granted, I've never lived where there's polar night or Midnight Sun and anywhere near that in fact. I get depressed, tired and lethargic in SUMMER (the heat, the bright lights of the sun, the buzzing insects make me want to crawl inside a cave) but then when Autum begins, I immediately feel better and that happy, content but energetic feeling lasts until Spring. I can literally feel the depression descending on me as it gets brighter, sunnier and warmer. If I lived in a place like Svalbard, or even northern Europe etc, I'd probably fly south for summer so I could have some actual dark nights but then live in Svalbard from Oct to March.
It is okay to love the polar night and still need a break from it when it gets too long. Sounds like you needed a breath of fresh air and sunlight to recharge
For me your video's are the moments i prioritise my health. They are the sitback, relax and enjoy moment, be in the moment. Thank you so much for them and I'm sorry you felt that way, but so good you took action 💛
For me, January is always a bleak and dark (pun intended) month. The lights from Christmas are down, joy seems to fade, etc. It was nice of you to catch us up on how you're doing... thank you for your honesty.
Amo l'autunno e l'inverno, non capisco le persone che vanno in crisi perché fa buio molto presto.
Ogni stagione ha la sua peculiarità, e questa che stiamo vivendo è "coccolosa".
Che noia avere sempre il sole,mese dopo mese,come non potrei vivere in un posto così, bello,ma uniforme e monotono
Rubix cube is a great example of something that, pre internet, one would just have to accept not knowing. (Or, spend a ton of time tracking down someone to teach you.) Now the knowledge is just there for you whenever you want it. Awesome.
Sorry you are feeling this way. As someone whose been there, the best thing you can do is get out of your own head. Don’t be ashamed to ask for help. Hugs to Grim
I didn’t have anxiety until I was in my 40’s, I know you don’t want to lay in a tanning bed but I’m telling you if you went for one time for like 5 minutes it really helps not to get tan but to you soak up the warmth and the quiet! It helps me and I am not a person that wants to tan, I for one hate to get hot and sticky I’d rather be cold, but it just helps my mental health!
Through your videos we see such magical beauty that takes us out of our own headspace and transports us to a place that most of us only dream of. We do not experience the downside to the extreme darkness, nor do we really know how that would affect us...which through your videos we see that it most definitely can have an adverse effect, both mentally and physically. This is why I truly enjoy watching you, you not only bring us the magnificent views but you also are real enough to share the not so beautiful side effects that come along with living in such an intriguing place.
Thank you, Cecelia ~ Thank you so much for sharing yours, Kristoffers & Grims magical and not so magical life with us 💙💛🐻❄️🦭❄
Magnifici panorami?..si,ma anche monotoni..una immensa distesa di ghiaccio e basta...non è un posto per tutti...
Glad to know you don't suffer much, especially living in a region where you have months of darkness. I suffer anxiety so bad, ambulances have to be called, due to a racing heart, so thinking I am having a heart attack, or blood pressure so low, I can't move, never mind the endless nights of rip-roaring mental pain that seems to grip me to the point I feel like I am going mad. Thank you for your wonderful videos, I would love to travel there in the winter and again in the summer to experience all seasonal weather changes.
I suffer from HORRIBLE anxiety and am medicated for it. I understand how hard the struggle is and I sincerely hope you are feeling better. Please don't feel pressured either to constantly work on content. Your mental and emotional health come first. ❤️
I felt really pulled to finally comment on one of your videos because of your honesty with your mental health and new found anxiety. I’ve been watching your videos since mid-October when I was diagnosed with Panic Disorder with Agoraphobia (basically a fear of going outside and having panic attacks). Your videos have been some of the only things that helped calm me down while starting therapy and medication. Watching you and Christoffer and Grim in the snowy landscape has taken me away for brief moments in my day which has felt essential to starting recovery. I’m pretty sure I’ve watched every one of your videos during this time! I’ve even started to feel more comfortable going outside again and it’s on my bucket list for sometime in the future to visit Svalbard because of its significance during this tough time in my life. Thank you for being honest about not always having a sunny day and taking time to slow down and focus on you and your health. Also, I feel the woman’s clothing struggle with things not being long enough for my 5 foot 10 inches self. (: sending love to you, Christoffer, Grim, and Fenris!
Sending you sunshiny vibes from Texas! Good to know you have taken time to listen to your body and mind - and act accordingly. Also very happy you have such strong support from your partner - that helps a lot! Let yourself feel your feelings and acknowledge them. When it passes, be grateful for what this experience has taught you. Best wishes!
New subscriber here from Oregon, USA. Love seeing life in another corner of the world, thanks for sharing!
I think the fact that you chose to listen to your body and knew what would help in this situation helped you snap out of it. Glad you are feeling better ❤️
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Christoffer is hysterical! That package that fell out of the sled🤣. Hope it wasn’t breakable🤣🤣. He tossed it back in as if it were a pillow🤣🤣
You are fabulous, Cecilia! Know that you are so loved & such an inspiration!!! Your honesty & openness is amazing!💗
Sending love and support for your mental health. As someone who faces anxiety and fogginess almost everyday, I’ve learned to lean into it and stop and listen to what my body is telling me. (And give Grim extra hugs!!) Glad you’re taking care of yourself and talking about it. You’re not alone!! Xoxo!!
Because I live in Australia I have no idea of the coldness and dark. I admire how you cope with it and wish you well.
I'm sorry the Polar Night had this effect on you. I know it must be hard! I hear my older neighbors complain that it is dark here around 5:30 pm but our sun comes back up around 7:30 or so. I think this virus also just has people feeling down. "Here comes another wave" has people so angry or depressed. I know it has bothered me that I can't hang out with my best friend, her husband has some medical issues so we don't want to take any risks there. I'm glad you are feeling better! We are planning our garden and that helps here. 🙂 Have a good week!
Sono fortunati coloro che possono lamentarsi del tempo...o del virus...
Evidentemente non hanno altri problemi.
A costoro direi di dedicarsi al prossimo bisognoso...
Non è solo l'Africa terra di missione..anche le nostre piccole realtà lo sono.
Basta guardarsi attorno.
I like it when you share a part of yourself in your videos. Your preferences for books, clothes, coffee. It's also good to hear your struggles bc then you open yourself up to being authentic and real. You are human and you are experiencing human feelings. It's nice to know that I am not alone in feeling this way during the winter. Also love Grimm's shenanigans in the background. He must cheer you up incredibly! He's a great dog!
Thank you Cecilia. Enjoyed shopping with you and Christopher and listening to your honest mental health talk.
Take Care of you Cecilia ….Please don’t ever worry about getting Vlogs out ….They are amazing and take a great deal of work ….but always well worth waiting for ….xx
I love Cecilia, I think she’s wonderful to watch. Amazing vlogs and very talented. She’s beautiful inside and out 🥰🥰
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I can't imagine living in a place so cold and dark, but your videos are so lovely. Thank you.
The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho is a must read as well, it definitely helps you escape. I highly recommend it!
Hi Cecilia,
I accidentally found your amazing channel more than a year ago and have been enjoying it ever since. Thank you for your beautiful videos and honesty. Thanks to your videos, Svalbard is now on my travel list!
Sending love from Lithuania
I’m glad you’re feeling better. 😊 Anxiety is really hard. Also, I love Cristoffer’s paw sweater! 🐾
I loved Stoner.
One of my daughter's teachers gave it to her as a present when she was at Uni. She did not like it and passed it on to me. I am grateful to that teacher for the book.
I could not put my finger on why this book is so touching. It is an ordinary life, that might be reason why.
It helped me out of low mood. That book and the movie "Manchester by the sea".
They are about the value of ordinary life and self forgiveness.
Thank you for being open and honest about how you are feeling. I suffered from anxiety years ago when my boyfriend had passed away suddenly. Anxiety is very unsettling! You are doing all the right things. I’m so glad you have Christoffer and friends to help! I love the new clothing and blue coat!! My fiancé Mark and I love watching you vlogs and know sunlight is coming soon! Hugs to you both and Grim!
We Canadians always head south for sunny vacations.
Good morning! So glad to see you today. Been thinking about you and hope you’re feeling more cheerful!
Love you guys and thanks for sharing Svalbard with us 🤗
I am feeling a lot better thank youuu! 🧡🧡🧡
Finally - another woman who buys men's sizes in outdoor gear for the quality and fit, because she has long arms, trunk and legs!!! I have felt so alone on the planet in this! Now, thanks to you, I know what to buy to stay warm in these crazy times, when the US Deep South has become a deep freeze in winter. Merci beaucoups, Cecilia!
This winter has been a difficult one. My family and I usually leave our cold dark home for a few weeks during the winter months. This year because of the pandemic (I’m high risk) we are not traveling or leaving the house much altogether. It’s really taking a toll on me so I completely understand the SAD you might be experiencing. I haven’t dealt with it in several years but this year it got me. I hope you start feeling better as the days go by and as the daylight slowly creeps in🙏🤗hugs
As a now disabled, immunocompromised nurse living in the US alone, have had near constant anxiety for 3 yrs now. Had studied and prepared for pandemic in 2005 but 2016 my muscles gave out so no one listens to the brain anymore here. When muscles won't hold skis steady, balance is gone and muscles don't generate heat any more in deep cold my expansive world shrank terribly. I started spinning yarn, very calming. Was amazed you change winterwear so often, think this coat is 20 yrs old. Also buy mens size for the long torso and arms and you have me thinking I would like a different color after so long... in Feb the end of season will put things on sale but I suspect there is no such thing there. Take care.
I haven’t watched this yet but just know we all love you, Christoffer and of course Grim! Thank you for sharing your beautiful home and scenery with us. It takes a lot of work and we appreciate it. God bless.
I have a nephew living in Bergen. I often think of him and what his life must be like there. You have given me some insight into that. I hope you do better as the days get longer. My good wishes follow you.
We love you Cecilia! I am so glad you are taking the time you need to rest and have downtime, so important at all times and especially during winter when our bodies naturally just want to sleep and rest more 😴
I can see it in your eyes. The amount of insight you have, you’ll be ok. I have issues with it at times. I used to be a mental health care nurse, so I’m very familiar with it personally, professionally. I love watching your videos. You definitely have a positive outlook and a sunny disposition. Thank you for sharing. I’ll never be able to visit there, as I had a car wreck that caused some balance issues, but Svalbard sounds like my dream. I love cold weather and nighttime. Thank you for sharing your life. I feel like I’m right there. Also kiss Grim on the cheek for me. He’s pure sweetness.
I’m also struggling with anxiety. Some days don’t even feel real - it can be scary. I’m so glad you were able to have others to talk to and find inner peace. I can’t imagine having all that AND polar nights! The sun gives me so much calm
Same when we had shorter days and it got colder I was like noo.
Even in 32 F I and sun I appreciate the sun.
I live near Seattle and the last couple of days we did not have rain, some fog, everything burned off mid afternoon and yeah, I noticed that it’s getting dark a little after 5 pm, so be patient, there is light around the corner. 😎
Thanks again for sharing a real side of the "ideal" living situation! Even in a paradise, there are challenges. I'm glad you are feeling better. I just love every video you make Cecilia! You make me want to move to Svalbard. Or at least visit a long while!
I’m fascinated with your channel! My sister in law who is a psychotherapist once told me to acknowledge whatever you feel, good, bad, or indifferent - which is exactly what you did. My favorite saying - love yourself through it, which you did as well. Long term anxiety sufferer here - so hard. But self love and self acknowledgment made a world of difference for me. 😊🙏✌️
Love watching your channel. Love your honesty and fun. Thank you for sharing your journey in life with us
Thank you so much! 🧡🧡
It was so amazing to hear you say it’s always been sunny in your head. I just can’t imagine that! I wish I was that kind of person. I’ve always struggled with anxiety and depression.. it runs in my family. For me, working from home would never work I don’t think. I’m not mentally strong enough or self-motivated. So I admire your mental strength and upbeat nature. You’re amazing. I hope the days continue to lighten as I know they will. You have many friends on here! Grim loved his new toy 😍 I love that boy.
I am a yoga teacher and was diagnosed with a chronic panic disorder in my late 20s early 30s, and having eradicated it through breath and Yoga nidra I now work a lot with people experiencing the same. So happy to send you some links to breath and nidra if you like... On another note, where did you get your beautiful sheepskins butterfly chair! soooo cosy!
Cecilia, you are so lovely. Thank you for being so open & honest. I love your channel, your videos are all wonderful, & I’m sure I’m not alone when I say if you need a week without posting, we won’t mind and we will be sat here waiting patiently for when you do! Love from the UK x
I love your honesty Cecilia!! I have also experienced anxiety and mild depression and it's always worse in the winter months!! I am usually a happy person so I know this will pass!! Taking some me time always helps!! Take care of yourself and this season will pass and into the light we will come!!!
Thank you for your honesty and transparency. I don’t think I could ever live in darkened world, so kudos to you and everyone who can.
Nice shopping and great choices. You look beautiful in all your clothing choices. Grimm was sooo excited too with his new toy.
It won’t be long before the sun opens up for you all. Hang in there girl!
Books and reading is so important but a book must capture your mind in some way and awoke an interest! I hope you feel better now Cecilia! I have never solved the Rubiks cube and to me it have always felt just impossible! Greetings to you and Christoffer and a lot of loving pats to Grim ❤! Susanne 👱♀️ and Trollet 🐱.
Cecilia, you are not alone, nor have you ever been alone. Between Christoffer and Grim and sometimes Fenris, you have us, your viewers, who have come to know you through your vlogs and photography and we love you. I know that's not the same as having someone with you, but I think a lot of us have had the same struggles or similar ones that you speak of. My son suffers from severe anxiety. I think it's been about 6 months since he has last left our apartment, other than to take out the garbage. I feel myself getting anxious at times, but I am mostly able to shove it aside, by just being determined to not let it get the better of me. I will be 60 years old in February and I can tell you that life has it's way of throwing curve balls at you. One thing I have always had is "hope". I have always thought that when things were bad they will always get better. It seems to work for me. Even my son has noticed that things always get better when they turn bad....So there might be something to be said for positive thinking. Sorry for rambling on...Just know that you are loved around the world and that things will always get better. Much love from Canada.💖😊
I’m happy you are in tune with yourself and are able to do some introspection. Sometimes we just need to allow ourselves to experience the lows and learn from them. Also lovely that you have a good supportive partner. Christoffer is a good man. All the best to you as you make your way back into the light!
I have no polar night in Iowa, but felt a similar drain this week... ended up shutting myself in and doing nothing but binge watching shows all weekend and talking to no one in a quest to reboot. Thanks for sharing your story, best to you
Big Hug Cecilia! I understand anxiety 😥. It took me 5 months to get a handle on it. I was determined to get passed it because it is so not me to feel like that. I did what you did take care of myself, because truly there is only 1 me! As there is only 1 you 💕💕💕. The biggest hugs to you! The light will be back soon 💕☀️
Loved the final song. Love your channel.
I lived in Alaska for many years but not as far north as you so we did get some hours of daylight in the deepest of winter and vice versa in the summer. I’m also old enough to be your mom and thus feel compelled to try and encourage.
Give yourself a lot of grace during polar nights and days. You are doing all the right things by walking daily working out keeping your mind busy I really applaud you! You get “outside” to Portugal to see family and reset. That’s super important IMHO. You go on local adventures and have two loves in your life! Your beautiful home is a sanctuary.
Also try asking yourself (you and Christoffer) daily what was the best part of your day? The worst? What was one kind thing did you do for someone today and one you witnessed? Mother Teresa said look for those doing good in times of trouble and follow them. You’ll love this.
When anxious do something you’re already familiar with doing. It will help normalize and steady your thoughts.
And when all else fails, have a glass of wine 🍷 or go shopping! Preferably not together. We get ourselves into trouble then. Lol!!
Much continued joy is wished for you. Just know some days will hold more joy than others. You truly live in a heavenly magical beautiful place on earth. ❤❤
Nice to see you again, Cecilia. enjoy your shopping x
If only i can say thank u to u this gotta be my vibe everynight well not every single night , i just want u cecilia to know ur video just gives me good and cozy vibe feel like im in svalbard now so thank u
This blue coat is a nice color. Looks warm. It's not easy being in darkness 24 hrs people get depressed even suicidal so don't worry it's normal to feel down or anxious .
Loved that quite long orange jacket that you tried on towards the end of your shopping trip.... (12 mins). Nice!
Thanks for another entertaining video. Ciao.
I envy anyone who can conquer anxiety in one week! :) Your videos give me a calm place to go when life is stressful. Many blessings!