i failed my medical school exams and it ruined my mental health
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 15 ก.ย. 2024
- trigger warning:
i mention anxiety and depression in this video
I was really really really hesitant to upload this bc it's such a touchy subject and it still affects me a lot 😭 but I just wanted to be open and honest about what I've been going through, in the hopes that it could help some of you in your journey
✨ your exam results do not define you ✨
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I FEEL YOU !! I failed my pharmacology exam in med school. I was feeling so dead inside. When the results came out I hoped I passed although it dint go well but when reality hit me that I failed I was devastated. I immediately took a cab and I came back home and on my way I felt dead. I saw people happy and I wished I was happy that moment, wishing I hadn't failed. When I reached home I just started crying so much. I told my dad that I can never become a doctor. Fast forward to years later I'm a doctor. I have to still prepare for my post graduation though. Hang in there. Med school can get so so stressful and crazy at times. And it's okay to fail. It doesn't make you less of a doctor. We learn from our failure .You'll do amazing for sure. I pray that you go ahead and do amazing in everything in life. Remember you are not alone. We are in this together❤. Lots of love from India 🇮🇳 ❤
Oh my gosh Dareen, this is such an inspirational story!! Knowing that you're now a Doctor after such a tough setback, thank you so much for sharing, that's really given me the motivation I needed today!
I just wanted to write same thing but the different that I’m going through this since 4 days I can’t stop crying , all my friends has passed the exams and I’m happy for them but…now i feel totally dead inside
@@user-jt1xf3xi7g I get you completely. I was there. I cried for days. I felt dead for days. Specially when everyone around you has passed and when you fail it's a different pain although you're happy for them. I doubted myself for so long. But I swear to God looking back at it, I realise how important that was for me to do well later in life. Hadn't I failed that exam I would take 3 more years of exams lightly and would never pass my final year in first class. That day I cried happy tears because it all flashed at once about how badly I wanted this and in how much pain I was years ago because of failing. Failing med school is not easy to take in. Because there's so much efforts that we put in. Please hang in there. Time will heal you. Later in life you'll look back at it and realise at how important are failures too in life. Praying that you get through this and Ik you will.♥
Thank you so much for your comment. I'm currently failing my course and I feel so empty inside but your comment reminded me that there are other paths I can take that will lead me to the same goal.
@@Nailah2 you'll reach your goal. It takes time, some days nothing might make sense and there will be hurdles in between. But isn't that life ? You'll cross them and you'll be stronger than ever. ♥
I first started med school when I was 18y/o, started failing pretty early on and was devastated. My mental health declined so fast that I left med school. I went to therapy, did a bachelors degree in political science and 6 years later went back to med school. Everything is going great now. Even if it wasn't, I would be mentally stable. Don't give up! You got this!
My course is killing me. I feel emotionally drained and exhausted. Its so nice to see someone who speaks about the struggle and I can relate to. Makes me feel less alone.
you're definitely not alone, I'm always here if you need anyone to speak to 🥺
My course is killing me. l feel
I got D+ and F on my first two blocks in med school and I don’t want anyone to have the terrible depression I had .. I hope I will get over it and find peace for once
same with me, i failed my second block today ! what did you do? I’ve no friends I’ll be alone in the university tomorrow! I don’t know how I’ll handle this
There is no success without failure. I must remind myself of that, too. Your video helped me manage feeling down after failing an OSCE, as I relate to every worry and train of thought you express. Thank you!
So true ❤ I'm so sorry about the OSCE, I had one a couple weeks ago and they can be tough! Is there a resit/another circuit for you?
It takes a lot of courage to tell the public, let alone strangers, about personal struggles, failures and shortcomings. Everything happening to us in life is for a reason and I remember failing most of my CSEC subjects in the 11th grade and some in the 12th. Thankfully my principal (one of the greatest men I have ever known who saw great potential in me) recommended me to study in teachers' college where I pursued my diploma and bachelor's in education. We don't have to lament on what we lacked or what didn't happen as planned because of our future is in the hands of Almighty God and he has a bright one planned for every one of us. Through us, He WILL accomplish great things!
Thanks so much Raimundo 💞💞
I think what your doing is an incredible thing! Medicine is a hard degree . And I think a lot of people forget that since there has now been a rise in medical students glamorising their degree ( as they should since it a wonderful degree) . But some are forgetting that it’s just as important to film the hard stuff then just solely filming the good . Being able to upload this shows a lot of maturity and growth. It lets young audiences know that medicine isn’t all gilts and glamour but also super stressful and draining. I just know that by you uploading this video you have at least helped another person not feel so alone . This video is so important to many medical students because it shows how we can overcome failures and grow from it . I’m so proud of you for doing this , Being the first (that I know of ) to fully show the complete picture of what medical school is actually like.
You’ve said this so beautifully 🙏🏽 It’s so true as much as this degree is amazing and I’m so grateful to be here, the failures can have such a huge impact on your mental health. And I’m so pleased that sharing this has been able to resonate with people. Thank you so much for leaving a comment, it means the world ❤️
Watch the TH-camr Tarvala she really shows her full journey and doesn’t glamourise her degree too!!
Glamour??? It is very difficult work!
@@Michelle-pn9xt It’s a doddle.
The part where you talked about karma was too real and I felt every word in that part. Every time something terrible happened, I always struggled with the anxious thought of whether I did something terrible to someone or was not good enough for something, and the "universe"(?) was kind of punishing me for not having learned whatever lesson I needed to learn. But I then changed my perspective on that and started to accept the rejections and failures as something that had to happen, because I was chosen for something else and the whole thing was just basically me learning and accepting myself as I am, and the thing that suits me will come later.
I know this video is 1 year old already but I hope you've gotten better
I really really know the feeling 🥺 sometimes when we're low anxiety hits us 10x harder bc we''re so vulnerable. I'm so glad you've reached a state of acceptance, I found that when I accepted my failure later on it lost it's control over me and I wasn't controlled by it anymore. I'm glad this was helpful and I'm so glad this video found you 🦋
@@ChristinaAaliyah Thanks for the update. I am happy to hear you have moved onward and forward. God Bless!
Stay strong Christina you got this!!
From a "below-average performing" medical student I know how it feels like to fail an exam and not do so well - the worst part is seeing your ranking and valuing yourself less. I think with dealing with stresses at med school it's important to talk with other medical students to vent out and gain their perspective which may help you with any problems. Also, surround yourself with positive people - honestly it can make such a big difference being told by someone how you can do it and having someone to motivate you. Knowing that my parents are praying for me and that I have the support of my friends calms my nerves a lot.
So keep smashing it - YOU CAN DO IT! And If you need any help then make sure to reach out!
Thank you so much Taha 🥺 I made the mistake of thinking every other medical student was doing really well so I was really scared to open up, but since uploading this so many people have reached out to say they also failed the wriske or sba, so I realised I wasn't on my own, talking to other people really does help 😫Thanks so much for this comment, it really means a lot!
I struggle with second year. How would you advice someone like me?
@@asianism8127 my uni doesn’t have any past papers either so I just use quesmed
Quesmed’s great, I used it in combo with passmed ❤️
My sister failed in the subject pharmacology repeatedly. She was devastated and couldn't understand how.she is a brilliant student and watching ur video makes me feel happy and I know one day she'll become a great doctor
Aw thanks for sharing, I really hope your sister is okay. Failures like this can take a huge toll 🙏🏽
@@ChristinaAaliyah thankyou so much for sharing this on the Internet.It helped alot
No worries 💞
girl you articulated yourself so well- so much of what youve said is really relatable. im sure youre not the only one to go through this and feel this way. Really appreciate your honesty and hope youre doing better :) x
Thanks Aaliyah, we're never alone in our struggles once we open up 💘💘💘
You are so funny, it's like hearing a friend talk. Also, I think you speak very elegantly and your thoughts are very interesting. You convey all the emotions, situations, and your processing so well. I just chuckled my way through. This video was from a year ago, but I hope all is well! I believe in you.
Thank you so much Rita, I am definitely much better now, this was such a lovely comment, thank you!
This is so raw🥰🥰, it mist have taken a lot to share, thank you. We appreciate you, you don't understand how nice it is to know these things happen to everyone and anyone. Please honest and true to yourself, it sounds like you are doing all the right things....look after yourself always🤗
It really did 😫 I was torn about posting it for weeks. Thank you so much, I'm trying not to cry hahah comments like this make me so emotional. thanks mum 🥺💘💘
Failure has really messed up with my mental heal honestly
I’m filled with shame,depression,trauma you mention it
I even feel like ending it
And people at my school take failure like you have demons or something
I know the feeling 🥺🥺 one thing that helped me get through was knowing it doesn’t last forever ✨✨ you’ll get through to the other side x
@@ChristinaAaliyahthank you so much ❤️
I had failed one of my final year subjects, and it was devastating especially because I had to wait till I could re-sit my exam while all my batchmates were about to start their internship. This video is the most accurate representation of what it’s like to battle with the anxiety and self-doubt that comes along with failures, in medical school. I gave my re exam and learnt that I passed today, so to whoever stumbles upon this comment - it’s alright, give yourself the space to grieve, be kind to yourself. It might seem like a big deal now but I assure you, that you will get through it.
Thank you for putting out this video Christina, you’re an amazing TH-camr, never give that up :)
Thank you for being so transparent! It takes a lot of courage to make this video. Keep on going! 💕
Thank you Helena! ❤️❤️❤️
Literally been struggling with this since I started uni. I do classes online so im all alone every day teaching myself a science degree and man sometimes I doubt my capabilities and question if I should even be in my degree. Thank you for putting out a video that is so different from the mainstream idea that you have to be perfect to be smart!! Love every second of it!
I had to retake my pharmacology exam 2 times and I failed both of those attempts them the third attempted i passed I realized it takes time and determination to do well and number one rule is to always study hard.
Thank you for this video. Easier said than done, but pls don't feel embarrassed about failing exams in med school. It is so refreshing to see honest content like this because it's realistic, relatable and reassuring at the same time. There must be a lot of students who fail but just don't share it making it seem like if you fail you're the only one who is struggling. It's normal to fail and in fact, I have heard many doctors who fail speciality training exams and have to resit. As you said, we need more honest videos like this on youtube. Also, you mentioned how you felt like you were useless, weren't worth anything etc when you failed which is so relatable. What i try to do is not have medicine be my whole identity. I try to keep up with other hobbies, and it might mean I don't do as well as I perhaps could if I put all my focus on medicine, but I don't think it's worth not doing hobbies you enjoy. I'm glad you aren't stopping youtube completely bc you seem to really enjoy it. Sorry for the rambly comment. Hope you're doing okay xx
Thanks Jade, failure is so common but it's just never talked about in medicine. Like you said so many doctors fail speciality exams... and they're doctors!! We shouldn't be too hard on ourselves, it can happen to the smartest of people. I think you're right about the identity thing, I can't make medicine my whole identity (which it has been at times). I should probs get back into netball lol or at least get another hobby. Tysm for this xx
thank you so much for this video! just wanted to comment and let you know I completely relate to what you're going through - medical school is so tough and sadly people dont talk about failing enough! (i think i'm in a different base unit to you but sounds like we've been struggling with the same things) You should be so proud of yourself for getting through it, wishing you all the best for the rest of the year, you've got this xx
I'm so glad you were able to relate Rebecca, med school can be so tough it's nice to know we're not alone 🥺 It's weird being in different base units because you forget there's other people outside your little bubble also doing the same things 😅 but thank you so much for these kind words! I hope the rest of the year goes really well for you, wishing you the very very best Rebecca! xx
I respect you more for talking about failure than success, it's something I need to hear - thank you so much. Failure for me tends to come with an identity crisis but I'm starting to diversitise how I perceive myself.
On a side note, I never reveal/check my results in a space that I don't have the space to express my disappointment (usually takes about an hour of chill time) and when it comes to people asking about how I did I either say that it was good enough for me or I wanted it to be better. I mean if your results are revealed in the morning, they aren't going to change by the time you get home to be able to take things at your own place (to be fair you weren't expecting it, on my Christmas one I got a bit of a shock for which I was grateful for being by myself and able to be disappointed)
Thank you again, and know that we're with you whether you do well or feel like your not doing well
It's so nice to hear this especially since you've had a similar experience. I like the way you phrase things afterwards too. I think going forward I'll do something similar to what you've mentioned, opening them in a time and space where I feel most comfortable, rather than just rushing to open them when they go live.
I'm sorry to hear about the shock of your Christmas result, I hope everything will be okay going forward ❤️ Thank you so much for this comment, I really liked this :)
@@ChristinaAaliyah Please don't be sorry about the shock, I think it was good for me - A reminder that I more than what I achieve etc. It was even bad it was just not what I was expecting :D which is something I should get used to lol
It takes a lot of courage to make a video like this, Christina! I really appreciate your honesty in showing the realities of medical school from all perspectives. I found your learning point really useful and I know you’re going to ace your next exams 💪
Thanks Chris! This means a lot coming from you, honesty is the best policy ✨
Christina, I have known you for many years now and you have always put your study first and I am so surprised that this has happened to you and how down you felt. This is such an amazing video to show students it’s ok to feel like this when you fail or struggling and even normal people to feel down!! I have felt like this. I am always here when you need to talk about anything. You have got this, I believe in you
Love you so much Millie ❤️ I found it so hard to open up about this initially because I really wasn't expecting it, it was such a blow to my self esteem. But I know everything happens for a reason and I'll come back stronger from this, I'm so lucky to have you with me on my journey ❤️❤️
Well done Darling!! Being vulnerable can be so freaking scary sometimes and I'm so so so proud of you for letting it out to us because you know deep down that it might help someone somewhere. I am also very proud of you for being strong and getting through it. You might think that because it was such a devastating period in your life that you weren't really being strong but you were. Being able to tell your mum, no matter how simple the convo was, was brave. Acknowledging everything you felt was brave. Trying to be positive was brave. Tackling the issue by trying to change your study methods and even considering stopping TH-cam was very brave. You're very very strong honey. Even just doing medicine alone and getting to 3rd year (you're prolly in 4th rn) is such an achievement. Keep going strong! Be proud of yourself because as you've seen in the comments, we're all proud of you. Thank you for sharing 💞💞
This has literally made my day tysm Shay 🥺🥺
Thank you so much for posting this. I’m so low rn. I failed my histology exam this week and I have a retake next week and feel so demotivated to study. Got physiology in 2 days but I cant get myself to study for all those
I just failed my first ever med school exam three months in and I will have to resit it in July - I was 2-3% off from the passing grade. It hit me hard and still not feeling good about it. It’s rough because it was my first one and now I can’t afford to mess up any other exam for the rest of the year. I feel motivated to do better, but at the same time a bit stressed because I HAVE to do good for the next ones. Also, I feel bad that I’ve disappointed some teachers and I haven’t told any of my close friends because I don’t want to disappoint them
So much respect for sharing this, it must have taken a lot of confidence to be so open. It's a side of medicine that no one really talks about, yet so many people deal with this. Hopefully you being so open about your experience will help other people realise that they aren't alone. I am working with a number of doctors who failed medical school (and postgraduate exams) and they are some of the best doctors out there. Your exams do not define you at all.
Thank you so much for sharing Angury ❤️ it’s reassuring to know that despite our failures we’ll still make good doctors (if anything it’s *because* we’ve failed that we’ll be great doctors). You’re right it’s not talked about that much especially so openly, I’m just over the moon that it’s been able to help a few people and shine light on a very real issue in medical school culture ✨
What sort of work do you do, if you don’t mind me asking? :)
@@ChristinaAaliyah I work as a doctor - graduated quite a while back though! I work in mental health so your story really resonated with me as well. We need more people like you being open about mental health.
@@Gnjsharma Ohh no way! That's amazing, I'm so glad this resonated :))
thanks for being so so honest like failure is so hard and hearing your experience was comforting. also youtube take so much time it's crazy so I hope you can keep suceeding❤
Thanks Leah, I’m glad this was comforting ☁️😌 it really does, feels like a full time job at times 😩😅
it must have been very difficult to share this and thanks for doing so, i wish you all the best :) and good luck🥰💗💗
Thank you Nazanin ❤️❤️ it took me a while to pluck up the courage but I’m glad I finally uploaded this :) xx
I'm just going through your mock mmi questions and I know from your answers that you are def talented and smart! I did law as my first degree and had two big exam hiccups but I graduated with a 2:1 (0.5 a mark shorg of a 1st) having ocd my mental health was awful in those times, make sure you have your outlets and support networks!
Everyone has their tough spots and we can all pick ourselves up after and dust ourselves down recover and do great! I'm sure you can too!
Congratulations on your law degree Michael! That's amazing that you managed to get a high 2:1 despite your mental health struggles, uni can be so tough when you've got your own mental battles going on. Thank you so much for this comment, it really means a lot🥺 I've now realised the importance of having support and outlets like yous said (better late than never😅 )
We are always growing and learning just keep chipping away at your problems and you will make it!
And thank you for your kind words! 😀
@@michaelmcghee6594 you did a law degree and now you’re doing med? Woahhhh
It's perfectly normal to feel anxiety.You are extremely clever, and you look beautiful.You bring a lot of inspirational and happiness to all age groups (i'm 46 years old).Obviously don't let your videos interfere with your studies, but continue doing them when you have time.Everyone has 'off' days when they feel anxious.You will do brilliantly in your exams next time.💖
Thank you Adanne 🦋 I’ve learnt the hard way not to let my passions interfere with my studies. I’m gonna keep my head up because as you said everyone has off days, I can’t let those keep me down 💖💖
I can definitely relate! Failure isn’t the best feeling to experience! Because you go through so many emotions! The anxiety you feel and the pressure from society, peers and coworkers can take a toll. Some times we’re harder on ourselves. I just recently flunked out of a navigation school and I realized that I didn’t really prepare myself well for it. I get one more shot at it within a year. This school will determine if I can make Chief and continue in my particular field of work. I think the main thing to focus on is your mental health. Not see things as difficult obstacles but more so as achievable goals. Anything that’s a distraction in your life you have to be disciplined enough to ignore it! Continue to put in the work and use your failure as motivation.
Couldn't agree more! Focusing on your mental health is key 🔑 I'm glad you'e got another shot at your navigation school, I really hope things work our for you! 🏆🙌🏽
I'm so sorry about your result. It must have taken you a lot of courage to put this out. I can so relate to this. It was quite hard for me too and it took me time to fully recover. You're not alone in this.
Keep going, you got this.
I'm rooting for you, Christina❤.
Love from Nigeria
Thank you Precious, it took a lot for me to upload. But I’m just glad it’s been able to help some people ❤️❤️ it’s always reassuring knowing we’re not alone, love from a fellow nigerian 🇳🇬
I’m sorry that you’ve felt like this, alone, for a long time 🥺 you always have loved ones to lean on (like your mum 💞) & there’s always other people who are going through similar or same things - it’s always better to open up & then talk it out, cause it feels so sooo much better ❤️🔥
Regarding TH-cam & other hobbies, if you’ve got a passion & love it, I really think you should keep at it, but yes, try schedule it a bit better & prioritize. - just don’t stop. 💛
Let TH-cam be your video diary - ups & downs - you’ll be be glad to have it to look back at in the future when your even more successful! 😉😉
As dory says from finding Nemo - “just keep swimming” ✨✨
Thank you Arati! You're spot on, in terms of youtube i think i just need to get better at my scheduling, once I've got a better way to manage my time I can carry on making videos 🥰 I like the idea of using it as a diary, I might steal that haha
I’m so glad to know you’re doing better Christina. It’s so brave of you to make this video. This exam result isn’t a reflection of your immense potential. Of course we want to see you here on TH-cam as much as possible but definitely do what is right for you and take loads of care of yourself ❤️ always here to support you in anything you may need ❤️
Thank you Hiba, I’m so glad I have someone like you to call a friend ❤️🥺 I’m definitely in a better place now and I’m working on my exam technique and revision. I think on TH-cam I’ll just post as and when and then over the summer maybe post more 🥰
@@ChristinaAaliyah 😘😘😘❤️❤️❤️
You truly are so amazing. You are an inspiration to all of us! Keep going❤️
You’re so kind Marios! To hear that I’m an inspiration means the world, thank you 💫❤️❤️
I'd really recommend sleeping enough ik it's hard but it's really really important for our brains to process info and rest and to focus, from ur vid I can c that u r a hard working and responsible person so just try to get ur 8hrs of sleep and u will feel so good and c improvements mentally and physically
Wish u all the best❤️❤️
Hey Fouz, thank you so much! I definitely get 8 hours now that exams are over
Big fan here , hope you are better now , I always stick to my gut feeling when it comes to mcqs , and whatever happens happens.I’m sure you will turn out well , I don’t even doubt it for a second .ALWAYS REMEMEBR ! If you work hard you will eventually be rewarded
Hey Ezzat, thank you so much 🥺 honestly this means so much you don’t even know 😭 it’s been a while since I uploaded this vid, so I’m doing much better now. I feel like I know a lot more too 😇 I was on the wards with a Dr yesterday and he said he was impressed by my knowledge, I told him about how I didn’t do well in my last exams and he was like honestly don’t worry bc you’ll be fine - that made me feel loads better 😅❤️
@@ChristinaAaliyah I’m so glad you are doing better , just remember that the people who were the greatest doctors ever where Homo sapiens like you , you can be just as good if not better , I’m not even gonna tell you that you have to put in the work because I’m sure you already do !
Thank you 🥺🥺 are you a medic too? I’m getting med student vibes haha
You helped me get through a difficult time with your videos. Hope you can get through everything as well！🙏🏻
Thank you so much Allie ❤️❤️ you don’t know how much this means, I hope you’re in a better place now 🥺🦋
@@ChristinaAaliyah Thank you🥺💕💕💕
I’m failing all my exams I can’t stand it anymore, every time I fail it’s like a punch in the stomach and it tears my heart cause I work hard and I hope just a little bit , and than when I don’t pass it crashes me . I can’t
Same with me
Medicine isn't the be all and end all. There are plenty of other careers which can be just as satisfying, plus they actually give you free time. Medicine doesn't. It consumes your life. You have to really, really want it more than anything else in the world.
Ohhh Christinna💖💘❤️.... You’ve got to be the definition of real! I don’t think I’ll get to see a youtuber or even a human as real as you are.... It’s a very nice trait and quality! I’ve told you repeatedly and I’ll keep reminding you of how smart, talented and intelligent you are! Results don’t define us in anyway...I know with all of me that you’d surely smash and crush your exams in May! That’s undebatable...Med school is really tough but we’ll definitely scale through! Please stay happy always and don’t forget to let me know If there are any issues I can help out with! I’ll literally always be here! Love you so much😘💘💖.... Adrams
I’m literally crying 😩❤️❤️ thank you so much 🥺 I’m gonna screenshot this and read it every time I need motivation 😂 This means the world Adrams! 🌎
You are not stupid!
You were disappointed with yourself!
Thanks for sharing this, really needed to see a video like this on TH-cam 🥺♥️ Never doubt your intelligence and hard work Christina because you’re gonna do amazing things!! You inspire me so much to study and work for my med school exams too!! 😂😭
Love you so much Regi ❤️❤️❤️ it means that world that I inspire you! So glad you to have you by my side 🥺💫💫
Ice Cream man!
@@ChristinaAaliyah do not feel embarrassed! Imagine all the people with embarrassing complaints!
I’m a 1st year med student about to fail all my finals next week and the week after 🥲😂😂🤣🤣🥲🥲😭😭😭😭 yeah I was diagnosed with adhd last year and decided “well I went unmedicated for so long I’ll be fine” well spoiler alert I was NOT fine, depression hit me like a truck and the brain fog was at an all time high, the days blended together and it took all i could just to LIVE, now I’m feeling better and starting to study and there’s just not enough time. I barelyyyy passed last semester and I studied a lot more then. Now, the content is a lot more sense and I just don’t have enough time to learn enough to pass. :( I’m just watching videos of ppl who have failed to cope. I can’t sleep at night knowing I’m going to wake up and have brain fog and depression for another day, I just never want to sleep. (Wish I could permanently but I know that feeling is just temporary I don’t actually want that, I just want this feeling of KNOWING I’m going to fail to go away)
Failure isn’t the end of the world 🥺🥺 that was my biggest lesson in this, I just wanna say too you’ve done so well to be unmedicated and manage all of this at the same time ❤️🩹 I know the period of time of waiting for your results is the worst too 😩 have you spoken to your GP or anything? I know the waiting list for adhd is so long but they might be able to help with the brain fog/depression side of things 🥺
You are amazing and inspiring 💗 It must of taken so much to film and post this but thank you for being so honest and sharing the vulnerable moments of your med school journey. Above all your mental health should be your biggest priority and I’m so glad you can see that. Sending lots of love, I hope you are being much kinder to yourself and always remember that you are bigger than any grade/exam/academic pressure! 💖
Thank you Temi ❤️ I’m working on being kinder to myself, I’ve realised now being so self critical is never helpful. And like you said mental health should be the biggest priority, thanks so much for this comment 🌿
@@ChristinaAaliyah Dont be too hard on yourself you will surely make it In the Medical School system.
It actually matters that some people struggle to make it in their courses.
The following is from an ongoing Netflix kdrama (twenty one, twenty five). I thought it might be somewhat motivating or uplifting?? 😅💛✨
“I don’t get disappointed when my dreams don’t come true. I’m used to losing and failing. That’s called having mental fortitude.”
-Na Hee Do
“You are by far the most experienced fencer when it comes to losing. Those losses were blocks to build yourself stairs leading up. Think about it. Now you’ve got the highest staircase.
Take your time to climb it and take whatever you want.
-Baek Yi Jin
Na Hee Do:
“Why do you root for me? Even my mom doesn’t.”
Baek Yi Jin:
“Because you give me hope. I want more for you.”
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This is so thoughtful Arati 🥺, you remind me of my friend who's oooobsessed with kdramas 😅 I can't remeber the name of the one she likes but thank you! This is such a lovely comment 🥺
This is the most thoughtful comment! I actually love you cos now I even feel motivated!
Aww that’s so cute 😭🧡
I just failed one of my final exams, I don’t have any strength to keep on going and chase a dream I’m not even sure I can achieve
Thanks for being so open about this topic i’m going through a similar thing right now xx
I hope and pray everything will work out eventually for you Hiba 🦋 we’re in this together! I’m only a DM away if you ever need anyone to speak to xx
Girl don’t worry I failed my SATs but am getting the best speller in the school I bet your going to get ur best job
Thanks queen
I will probably echo what others have said already. This took so much strength and courage to upload this. Thank you for doing so.
As you said in the latter part of your video - we are not defined by our med school or even professional membership exam grades. Unfortunately the culture in medicine (which itself is competitive and quite toxic) hasn’t caught on.
I’m a IMT trainee who has had multiple attempts at membership exams and gone through the same emotions you have. So you’re not alone at all.
Keep working hard, find your learning style and techniques and get into your grove. You will make it. You are living out your purpose and continue to walk in it!
Take care and God bless you 🙏🏾 x.
Thank you so much missakua1, I totally agree, it's not spoken about it medicine enough but I'm so pleased with all the support I've gotten from people as a result of this video. It really means so much.
Best of luck with the rest of your IMT training!
Thanks for sharing this with us🥺🥺
Thank you for watching Ruyina! 🦋
Hey!! Preface- I'm also a medical student & I also have quite bad anxiety. Now, I'd just like to say thank you so much for making this video- extremely brave on your behalf! I failed my first ever exam in my life a few months back and it tore my mental health to shreds - since, I've realised that realistically, doing medicine basically means singing up for life-long exams (this part I obvs knew before) but with that comes the fact that failing an exam or exams is so so high probability-wise, there is zero point in us beating ourselves up about it!!!! It may be an exam that people said was easy and so study hours went elsewhere, or it may be an exam where we know it's going to be super difficult and has alot of intricate facts to learn and then boom the exam comes and the intricate facts asked are the ones we least remember - it definitely does NOT define us! Wishing you well ♥️
Hey Katie, you’re spot on! 😭 The pressure we put on ourselves as medics can be so intense sometimes. I’ve learnt that failures can make you stronger and in medicine they’ll make us better doctors since we’ve learned from our mistakes and improved on them 💞 wishing you the very best in your med school journey! Xx
@@ChristinaAaliyah You too Christina! I found your channel via TH-cam recommendations for this video and needless to say I've since subscribed! Cannot wait to follow the rest of your journey ❤️ genuinely wishing you all the best!! X
aww thank you so much, this has literally made my day!! 🥹
@@ChristinaAaliyah aw so happy to hear that!! What uni are you in and year? Do you have an insta etc where I could send you a direct message? If not - no worries at all! It's just so reassuring to find another gal on same journey! In no way am I trying to be intrusive, I'm in UCD GEM2 and the Mater Dublin is my training hospital :)
Newcastle and 3rd year! My Instagram is @chrstinna GEM seems so intense especially since you do year 1 and 2 altogether 😭 kudos to you 🙌🏾
Hi Christina. I graduated college from Penn foster in Arizona and I got to my final exams and I failed 2 of my exams and I thought the world was just going to end for me and I waited 3 weeks to quit sulking and. Got the nerve to call my college and ask them. If I can retake the exams once I ask them to retake my exams. And they gave me the answer. And no I was devastated for a moment and then all of a sudden through the lady's voice. She says to me you don't have to take these exams again. You've already passed and you can graduate well from those 3 weeks that I didn't. Feel as if II could even talk or look Anyone in the face. Because I thought I felt. I put things together for myself and try to pick myself. Back up with the nose 3 weeks. Well, it ended up being 3 more weeks. Well, take your time and think first before you take the first step. Because once you take the first step, you gonna have to take another one and another 1 and another 1 and another 1 and another 1. And another one, thank you for listening, reading and take your time much. Love waiting for you as a alumnus❤
I used to be passionate about math, science and technology and my parents were supporting me and then this thing called middle school came and ruined everything, now I see my favourite subjects as something I'm forced to do and I have no other option...
I'm glad to know that there are people like me I wish we could change something about the system, but our voices don't matter since we are not adults.
Thank you for sharing 🥺🥺
I need to watch this video. I failed my IT exam, which i am studying to retake. I feel like CRAP right now.
I have just finished an Access Module and from the beginning i decided to be chilled about the results of my Assignments and be proud that i was studying with the Open University . I passed the Module with Distinction!! I am now going on to do a Degree in English Literature at Honours and hope to get a BA. I am just incredibly proud to be studying at this level and am going to enjoy the Course and come out with skills like Referencing, writing great pieces and get my dream degree in a subject i love.
That’s amazing Rachel 🥺 you should be so proud! 💞
I'm not taking medical school, but I am doing biological sciences, and theres a mix of biomed courses I have to take. I'm in my second half of my second year of a 3 year degree. Only three weeks into the new trimester and already stressing myself out with test, exams, scheduling and doubts of even passing this year, especially because of a really close call from last trimester. Only to realise I have to take an extra course from going over the reccommended points on a 100 level (first year of uni papers). I realised I wouldn't have enough points over level 100 to even graduate. I thought about it, and decided I'm going to take a break. Though amazingly, I haven't failed any courses yet, the stress from Uni is real, especially knowing you spend thousands or are in debt by thousands for tuition. And honestly, I don't even know if I'm gonna become a scientist, or even use my degree, so I'm gonna take a trimester break and find a job. Hopefully that will give me enough time to even decide if I want to continue university or not. I know I would only have a year left, and it will go by fast, but the amount of stress is breaking me and I don't think pushing through the last year is beneficial for me a the moment. I've actually been thinking about taking a break for a VERY long time, and figured if I don't then when will I every take that break and allow myself some peace. Not only that, but it would give me enough time to raise money for tuition so I wouldn't be in 30K debt, If I don't decide to go back to school then thats fine as well. I've come to the point where I'm in the mindset that I'm young. I have plenty of years to live, and that I'm in charge of my life, not my mother, not my friends. I should be able to make a choice and stand by it without the influences of others that will most likely go against what i'm saying, especially if they're not the ones experiencing my life.
All in all, to other univeristy students struggling and REALLY wondering if you should take the break, take it. It won't kill you, It won't cost you. And if you want to, you can always continue your studies.
Its fascinating how Im in the other side of the world and Im going through the same situation as yours ( I just feel depressed and awful about my self I don’t know how to reach out to my mom or how to open up about it and I even doubt is it really for me or did I choose the right pathway for me)..
I totally get what you mean 🥺 you start questioning yourself so much when things don’t go your way. But you just need to know that you wholeheartedly deserve your place at university/college and opening up about how you feel is the first step in getting better. It’s tough but it’ll be so so worth it🦋
Thankyou so much for this! I am feeling the same way today also. This vid helped me alot
I'm in my first yr of med school and I just did my end of semester CAT and at the end of the paper my neighbor told me to change a certain answer coz he's my study partner and he was sure my answer was wrong . The lec who was invigilating us happened to see that and when I handed in my script ,he put it aside and now I hear all the people who's scripts were picked have a Y in the CAT . That has been stressing me out for almost the whole week now coz the CATs account for 40% of one's score at the end of the yr and I'll probably have a zero for that and to make matters worse, I can't explain myself. Now I'm in the same situation you were in coz I have to do extremely well in all my other CATs and exams or I'll get a supplementary exam at the end of the yr or a re-take and that traumatizes me coz that's just the worst thing that can happen to anyone in our school. I actually don't know what everyone will think if I get a Y coz the whole class knows I don't cheat I'm always studying in the library and online plus everyone knows I'm a Christian so my image will be completely tarnished . I know I shouldn't have listened to the guy but I did and now I'm in a mess and I honestly feel so unsure about my next papers coz the content will be wider and heavier in the coming semesters
You are so real❤️❤️
Thank you Fatim 🦋
I feel the same but I'm in pharmacy school and I literally feel so heartbroken, its formative but I'm scared I'll fail in the actual exam. :(
I dont even have friends on my course and everyone else is super competitive:/
I know the feeling 🥺 it’s tough when you’re all alone plus have to battle with the studying and hard work 😩 you’re strong to have made it this far though Zara ❤️🩹
@@ChristinaAaliyah thank you for the kind words sis, hopefully I'll make it through :") we got this ❤❤❤
I failed my mid years which meant I needed to do better in end of years. I failed those too and now have to repeat the year. It's a brutal process. But obviously I need more time with the content. We did orientation last week and my god, that was awful!
It really is brutal! I love how you've got a positive outlook though, I'm proud of you
You’ll be okay ❤
Really great video!! I genuinely believe that you are a really bright student, with a bright and fantastic future ahead of you!!❤❤ Never let anything or anyone make you think otherwise, keep on working hard, stay positive and everything else will fall into place❤❤
You’re gonna make me cry 😭😭 thank you Leslie, this is so sweet. I’ve screenshot this to read whenever I need a boost 🥺 I love what you said at the end ‘everything else will fall into place’ that’s so true ✨✨
@@ChristinaAaliyah ❤❤❤❤❤
I just had the result of my dental residency exam. I feel sad and drained even though I knew it went bad but now it hit me and I'm thinking about all the months I spent studying and depriving myself from going out, living my life.. I don't know what I'm gonna do right now
I just got an E in biochemistry. I've never gotten such poor score in my entire life and I don't think I passed anatomy as well. I don't know what to do with myself rn
am also undergrad med student and i have failed on my second year due to my sickness ...anyway that was in the past and i have learn 2nd year again and pass now i am now at my final exam studying to join to pre-clinical but i dont know why i am so stressed and its not allowing me to study i know that i shouldnt fail now bcz its do it or leave it situation ...i am struggling to study which i couldnt am so scared but still not doing anything its touching my mind i dont know wat to do its very hard that you have to study but not studying only sleep and sit alone
its very strssfull
Hey, I totally get how you feel, it’s so tough having to worry about the failure of your exams I’m always here if you need someone to speak to, feel free to dm me 💞
Sometimes people learn more from failures and mistakes than successes.
I totally agree
What I choose for my self is killing me 😮medical school is hell on earth 🌎 😢😢😢I feel exhausted drained am crying every day 😢😢
I got exam results today- I passed most things- and did better than I expected- the last 2 semesters have been hard for me as I was a victim of a very serious assault by another student and only had the hearing about it in October. I got my OSCE results and failed the first half, I really am beating myself up about it especially since everyone around me was bragging about getting such high scores and passing everything- and reading the feedback didn’t help (I had a really harsh examiner) I did have mitigating circumstances but they would only be considered if I had failed the 2nd half of my OSCEs (but I can now only get the lowest pass mark). I balled my eyes out and I know it’s stupid because it’s not a true “fail” but after everything I’ve gone through recently I just got knocked back down again
I’m so so sorry ❤️🩹❤️🩹 it’s so so annoying when big institutions like medical schools can’t even give you the right mitigation to cover everything 😔 Please don’t beat yourself up, you’ve performed so when for someone who was going through so much. I’m sure your next one will go so much better ❤️
Good luck x
Thank you ❤️
I feel bad for you mehn. I hope you do better next time
I feel so badly for you! Was it your burning desire to become a doctor, or were you pressured into it (i.e., parents?) It's surely not a question of intelligence or ability because you got in, which is already really tough. Remember that! If a medical degree is something you really want, relax, you've got this! If it isn't, however, get the hell out and do something you are truly passionate about! I know doctors, and it's a tougher grind after graduation. The money and prestige aren't worth it if you don't enjoy your job. Life's too short.
I agree with you 💯 trust me university ain’t for weak people 🙅🏾♂️🗣️
I've just failed my anatomy exam!! I don't know how ill be able to revise for everything within 3 weeks. so upset gr.
You can take the exam again, can't you? Just try again! I heard a Dr. once say she failed the MCAT like 6 times, but she tried and finally got a high enough score! Good luck to you!
That's what happened and I passed!! :))🤩🥳🙌🎊
Landed here after I got my results yesterday and realised I failed two modules. I had Covid during those two modules (didn’t know until after) but I can’t stop beating myself up for it. I also only have only 3 weeks until the resits and have to go abroad in a few days 😭
Does your uni have an appeal process? I'm sure you could use those as extenuating circumstances as a reason why you failed the modules :(
I’m in the process of talking with my student union to help me with an appeal, but it requires evidence & im not sure NHS111 call, a Covid test is enough
I got f from the High School like yesterday in 2017.
I’ve struggled with maths for all my life and college to be makes it worse. I’ve tried to get help from a tutor but maybe I wasn’t going enough. I also didn’t complete all my assignments and did poorly on the midterms
it's really tough feeling all alone when exam results don't go to plan
the messages you have been sending me omg 🥺🥺💘 it's not even been an hour since I uploaded this but to know that this has resonated with some of you means the absolute world! I'm so so so glad this has been helpful, we only ever see people's highlights on social media, please know that if you're struggling you're not alone at all!! reaching out is the best way to start to get help ! speak to someone, anyone a friend, a family member, a partner etc
if you need someone to talk to:
call samaritans for free at 116 123 💘
I wanted to be a doctor too the I quitters too hard
Am really down failing an exam.
I know the feeling ❤️🩹 you’ll get through this!!
u kno wut i noticed that dat if i succeed , success of exam is'nt makin me that much happy dat i'hve already lost during preparation .u kno when i watch movie and spend time with friend i am more happy rather than no one call me after my mexam success moreover i myself dont feel alroight i feel okay now lets prepare for upcoming futre and dis cycles continues to spin also i dont think this type of discipline or my daily stress is going to reducce in future . what i want or what society makes me to want(as they filled my brain with) i am no more enjoying that still i am studying regularly , i think i am uncertain of what i need or want to become in future and still discovering while keeping up with qualifications and marks for support in future. i dont know man i cant stop from what i am doing and i have to study still regularly
I totally agree with you, sometimes the things that make you happiest are the big goals that you're working towards, it's actually the little moments with friends/enjoying yourself 🥺 It's okay to not know what you want to do in the future, I'd say just keep working to get good grades, bc it will put you in a good position in the future 🌞
How many chances did you get & did you eventually pass?
I had to make up for it in the summer (so no resit) and yea I passed 🥹
@@ChristinaAaliyah did you take your board exams yet? Or are you still in school? I always think the worst and is it true you only get 3 times to take the boards and then you’re o it if luck after that?
Still in school :) I know it can be stressful but hopefully with enough practise everything will be okay
I struggle with exams. I have been feeling down since then. How would you advice someone like me?
@ASIANISM Heyy, I know how you're feeling 🥺 SBAs can be so hard, I made this list of practise questions when i was in 2nd yr christinaaaliyah.notion.site/Practise-Questions-for-1st-and-2nd-year-Medical-Students-433f26b58e0d4220b11fde00d1a1da97 I know some people use the year 1-3 www.passmedicine.com bank too, but my best advice would be to learn as much of the learning outcomes as you can and try to do some practise questions.
If you're unsure whether a topic is worth learning (i.e. will it actually come up in the exam) ask your medic parents! I still speak to mine and ask them plenty of questions relating to exams, they're there to help you and they'll remember lots of details from the SBA :)
@@ChristinaAaliyah thank you so much for the advice. I've been feeling so stressed out and depressed.
It's so hard to practise being at Newcastle bc they don't do past papers :(( I only found about about them this year but there's a bunch of Mock SBAs here www.peerteaching.co.uk/phase-2a1.html , going to Med Ed sessions is really helpful too. I think having your exam in August will give you more time to prepare, plus you can take things slow and steady rather than cramming in May.
@@ChristinaAaliyah thank you so much for the resources.
Yeah I have some from last year, I’ll find out how I can share them when I get home xx
so relatable
you're never on your own 💞
I just failed a module by 1%. I sent an appeal but they havent responded to me, i feel so defeated. My parents think im a failure
Something that helped me get through this was realising that just because you're actions failed, doesn't make you as a person a failure.
We all fail driving tests, exams, qualifications etc, doesn't mean out whole life of 70, 80+ years is a failure. I'm sorry your parents aren't really supported in this time, especially since you were so close. I hope everything works out for the appeal and you can find some positive people to surround yourself with 💗✨
So I got my end year final and I was like so sure I was going to pass my finals but when I saw that I failed I was heartbroken I really started doubting myself and start saying if medicine is for me 😭😭😭
It's part of the process girl 🥺 totally natural to question yourself after something like this, I was in that phase for months 😩 But I promise you're better and stronger than this dw 🙏🏽
i failed my Alevels but i have 1 final exam less. I need to revise now, sooo wish me luck :)
good luck 🥺🍀🍀🍀
Thanks so much for sharing. I can relate.
Of course 🥺 I’m glad this was helpful/relatable
You could have done worse! You went and did them! Keep on going!
🥺🥺🥺🥺 Thanks Irene !🧡
Today i failed my entrance exams i got 4 points from 150 and i fell horrible. Thankfully i didn't even what to go tu the school wher i needed the entrance exam and the one school i whant to go ther ar no entrance exams, but i still fell like i have failed and that i have disappointed myself and my family.(sorry for the bad spelling im not English)
Don't apologise! Your English is perfect, I know the feeling of being disappointed, it feels like you're all alone and no one can relate but trust me, you will become better and stronger because of this, it just takes time. Totally normal to cry for a while at first though 😭
U can got to school in the Caribbean and it’s way easier
Love you gal and always here if you need me xx
Love you so much ❤️❤️ will do 🦋
I did my my exams 2 day amd failed!! I feel like dying inside!!
I failed both Maths and my Python class this past semester 🤦🏾♂️
omg
I also just failed my exam to get into grammar school they said u needed to get 205 and I got... ... ... ...... 178....
I hope you're okay, I know the feeling :(((
@@ChristinaAaliyah ya I'm okay
💗💓💗
I failed and am really not okay
I’m so sorry 😣 I’ve been there, trust me the sadness doesn’t last forever, you grow and get stronger
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