My Life Almost a Decade Into Transition
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 29 มี.ค. 2024
- Come along for a week in my life, almost a decade into transition -- including performing in experimental theater, visiting historic LGBT bars in NYC, attending an alternative St. Patrick’s Day parade that began as a protest against LGBT discrimination, and... cooking salmon.
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→ What I Missed Out On Being Raised a Girl (& What I Gained)
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→ Trans Dudes From History, Vol. 1
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👋 I'm Jackson Bird and I make (hopefully) funny, (sometimes) educational videos for LGBTQ+ nerds like me - and the people in our lives that want to understand us better.
Here on JACKISNOTABIRD, you can find new videos (roughly) once a month sharing my experiences as a bisexual trans guy, answering questions about LGBTQ+ issues, exploring trans history, and sometimes showing what happens when you put weird stuff on a waffle iron.
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I'm a 19 year old trans guy, I really can't imagine a future for myself yet but seeing this gave me hope that one day I too will want immortality. Thank you
I teared up at this, especially when you talked about how your view of immortality has changed. I've been following your videos since before your transition, and I'm so happy to see how obviously content and fulfilled you are now.
I had a crap moment, hours ago. This was just what I needed. ❤ ..ftm at 50 and still going. Thanks for the share.
Needed this, man. Thank you! Your videos have been a constant comfort. I didn't get the courage to transition (medically) until 2 years ago. I'm in my 30's and it feels like life has only just started. The political climate is terrifying, but seeing other guys so solidly in themselves gives me so much hope. Getting happier and more lively each day, wish I'd known how badly I needed to transition just to feel at home in myself. Your immortality view hits home, felt and feel the same way. All the best to you from an internet stranger! 🐦⬛🩵
Missed your presence (and your reflections) on the interwebs! Really glad to see you again. Rooting for everything you have planned for your future 😊 & thanks for continuing to share your stories with us!
I never leave comments on youtube videos but I needed to leave one here because I didn't know how much I needed to see this video. As a transmasc teen struggling with the seemingly endless wait until I turn 18 and can medically and legally transition, thank you. I have done theatre all of my life but don't know how it will play a role in my adult life, and I would love to go to school in NYC. thanks for this video, and thanks for changing lives.
Be careful with testosterone it can destroy your pancreas
Would love it if you did more vlogs like this! Really cool to see other trans folks just living their lives
I definitely want to!
no joke, every time the thought crosses my mind that i started hrt too late at 25, i remember that you also started at 25. i am so so so grateful for your presence online
Thank you so much for this video. I'm a very late transitioner and I think there's an expectation that adults know what we're doing and we can just transition and carry on and have everything figured out, because younger people just sort of grow into themselves naturally or something. It's so important to remember that it's a process, and figuring out what you want from your new life is a challenge. You are so right about focusing so much on transition that you lose track of everything else as far as future plans go. I'm still working through this and its great to know I'm not the only one!
I love this, thank you for this video. It’s so cool as a younger trans person to see people who aren’t going places with their gender, they’re just there (if that makes sense:)
1:56 Yes, absolutely! I am glad that you, Ty, and Jamie are all still around on YT. It is reassuring also for us who care about one or more transmasculine people.
Thank you Jackson for still being here after all these years!! I'm about 10 years into my transition as well and it still feels so surreal to say that. Your videos have been a great comfort to me from the early stages and onwards. I myself am very much leading a life that might look boring to some people but I am actually incredibly happy right now. However it is also good to reconnect with my trans self from time to time and this video was perfect for it!
thank you for making this video jackson! as a fellow new york trans guy whos a lot earlier in my journey than you its reassuring as hell and exciting! i agree with your sentiment about wanting to be immortal now because youre finally happy, and it feels incredible to have gotten here. i hope i get to see you perform, and im glad to be seeing your videos! ❤
I am about to have my first appointment talking about starting t and starting my transition. I’m nervous because I keep seeing detransition videos pop up. And I worry about the side effects to t. But I feel I’d be so much happier if I went through the transition. I also am not good with change and I worry what people would think of me if I did. Thanks for showing this. :3
I can only watch the first half right now, but I already love it! So awesome to see fellow trans dudes sharing their awesome lives!
OMG. I love your channel. I've missed seeing your videos. Thank you for giving us the update. And I love the introspection that you provided. So often we don't get to see trans people in this light. Getting to live full lives. And just be. Also, your production value on your Vlogs has greatly improved. The B roll alone left me very impressed. Keep doing your thing. Lots of love. ❤
On the book note, I managed to find a 1st ed Nancy Drew book from 1941 for like $10 on eBay. Only thing missing is the jacket (which I’ve been able to reassemble on my computer; just to, you know, print it). And, that old book smell!
I subbed after searching out how to refer to Viktor when he had presented as Vanya in older episodes (Umbrella Academy), and finding guidance here. I'm glad I've stayed subbed, happy to see you're doing well 👍
I will forever be grateful for your presence online, I took my first T shot today at 28! It's been years in the making after you had a hand in beginning to crack my egg 🏳️⚧️
Congrats!
congrats man!!
Congrats on your 1st day of being your true self.
Emergency oranges. Just in case the scurvy rats want to nibble your toes. Your theatre adventures sound like a blast!
Sometimes you can just feel the scurvy a-comin’!
This is really weird because just last night I was thinking about how I haven’t seen any videos of you in a very long time. And now there is one. I’m so glad that you are thriving and also wish that young trans people and young gay people have more access to positivepeople like you
Its so nice to see a video by you pop up. I’ve been following you for several years now.
Im struggling to get top surgery cuz no place near me takes my insurance, and I really don’t want to spend a lot of money traveling 90 minutes down to nyc for the surgery. And I don’t have the money to stay in a hotel, so traveling through the subway and take the metro north train home right after the surgery while still groggy is not safe for me to do. But, a tiny good news, I did get my updated birth certificate with my gender marker change after waiting 5 months for it. So im now legally non-binary! Now just get through this final hurdle and i will finally be truly happy. Btw im 39 years old. Ive identified as non-binary since i was 30, and been working on get top surgery since 2022. The pressure is on cuz i will lose my current insurance this summer and have to start all over, and my dysphoria is already at its max and has me by the throat. So im really struggling with the race of time and my dysphoria.
Thank you for sharing. I've just started hrt at 29 and I am sometimes dreading this upcoming awkward phase i'll have to go through, both physically and socially. Seeing you being content in life reassures me that everything will be okay and to just give it time. Thank you once again! ((also, second hand books rocks - i have a few about aquariums from the 80's. The knowledge from them are golden!))
I am officially two years on T. And i just finished filling out the paperwork to change my legal name and gender and am going to file the paperwork this week when i get paid. I am also saving up for top surgery. One of the first youtube channels i watched about transitioning was yours. I feel so lucky to have gotten this far and it's because i had been able to see people who look like me transition, i think it gave me the confidence to take the first step, coming out, calling to set up an appointment at a gender clinic to start T, to now finally being able to find the paperwork and fill it out for a name change. Thank you for sharing your story and journey transitioning it helps so many people!
Omg it feels just like yesterday when i found your channel! I was a self-hating self denying person, now im nonbinary lol. Channels like yours def helped A LOT. Thanks for checking in!
Good to see you, Jack! Started watching your videos when you first started "Will it Waffle?" and your memoir (and interacting with you on social media) was one of the final catalysts to taking the leap of faith beyond the doubt and starting my transition. Just about 3 months post-op from top surgery and 1.5 years on T and life is better than ever. So glad you were able to find comfort and community in theatre again in your adult years! Looking forward to more content and updates from you. Happy TDOV!
Ooh yeeee me too almost. I came out August 2014... Let's _FLUFFIN' GOOO-O-OOOO!_
Glad to see you thriving! May the next decade be even better, and then the one after that, and after that, and
I’m in a similar place right now. Happy where transitioning got me, making plans for my future, just living life. Still no idea what I’m doing but that’s the reality of adulthood I guess!
awesome vid!
omg I thought the video was over prematurely and was pleasantly surprised when it continued
thank you jackson bird! My name's Jack He/Him and that completely brought a smile to face as an almost 20 year old trans guy in his first year of x-ray school and first year living without his parents it's always nice to see your videos
Loved this one!
Much love Jack
Hello! I’ve been following you and your story for about a year now. You’ve really helped answer a lot of questions and anxiety I had about transitioning.
After months of working towards it; I finally got testosterone. My first dose was yesterday and I just wanted to say thank you so much. You’ve helped me so much and as I celebrate this, I’m so excited to celebrate you coming up to 10 years! I hope you have an amazing year
You are who I want to be when I grow up
Thanks for sharing some bits of your life with us, Jackson. I've watched your videos here and also read your book and it's been such a privilage to witness your journey. Wishing you all the life you're dreaming of ❤
I am always happy to hear from you and even more so that you are feeling content and are doing well. Your theatre group looks fun!
Your life looks so rad! Books, theatre, and iconic LGBTQ monuments. Love it!!
A great video! So good to see you happy, doing well, and just living life. Sidenote: thanks for the hot tip about the peepholes at the IFC, I never knew they were there!
I remember watching your "trans doubt" video like 2 years ago and now I'm here, still doubting myself but in therapy (yay!) I've got a long way to go, or maybe I've got nowhere to go at all. I still have no idea if I need medical transition in my life. But you've helped. Thanks Jack.
Thank you so much for sharing all of that with us. I didn’t know how much i needed this. I cried. I was just thinking about the same thing with the immortality the other day.
Truly love watching your videos ❤ They’re so well crafted and well written - they speak to my experiences so well, and I relate so much. You’ve been a source of hope and inspiration for me for years ❤
Good to see you! Awesome video
Thank you so much for sharing this. I started hormones 6 days ago and it feels so good to see a guy thriving in the ways I want for myself too. It's so inspiring to see you living your truest self. Thank you!!!!!!
Honestly I need more videos like this TT_TT Seeing authentic life is so nice.
Good to see you doing well and being so happy! Your videos have been a big factor in my own journey. Thank you.
great to see you on this little corner of the internet again! the whole bit about immortality... phew that's deep, friend.
I just saw the NY neo-futurists like 2 weeks ago, on the birthday! It was amazing. You work with some amazing artists.
Thank you for letting us know about the St. Pat’s For All parade! I will make my way out there next year, for sure!
Happy Trans Day of Visibility Jack! Missed your videos
This is a great video. I'd love to see more like this, maybe following other trans adults real lives. I struggled a lot as a teenager with the concept of what a life might look like for a trans adult (spoilers, its pretty much the same as a life for a cis adult) so seeing videos like this of a trans person just living life and it not revolving around transition is super refreshing to see.
Love love love to see what you’re up to. Keep on keepin on 🤙🏻
Thanks, Val!!
thanks for masking on public transit, as someone who cannot access public indoor unmasked spaces, this was really encouraging to see. i legit almost cried. thanks for helping to make the world safer for us disabled trans guys out there
I don't know if you're still reading the comments, but I just want to thank you for your videos. You are probably the first trans male youtuber I've ever watched and you have had a tremendous impact on my life as a person starting his medical transition at 24. Great to see another video from you.
Happy to see you doing well ❤ wish nothing but further thriving for you going forward 🥰
Thank you Jackson, this was wonderful to see! 🤩
Theater is awesome, does your performances get posted anywhere for us to see?
This is one of my favorite videos on youtube ❤
Came for Trans Day of Visibility, stayed for the experimental theater
thanks so much for this i really needed it! one of my favourite poems is Being Boring by Wendy Cope - being a young trans adult pre-transition there's a lot of stuff and moving parts and uncertainty but videos like this give me hope that some day i'll get to build a life i love and just chill out a bit :)
Great video, dude! I'm a trans man who can't do any medical transitioning and so I just sit and dream of a better future. I hope I can be like this one day.
The message of this video is beautiful and it's cathartic to see you living in such an average yet unique way.
I'm at a point where I've been going through ebs and flows of questioning if I'm a man or a woman, but rather than repress and continue, I'm starting to really write it down and figure it out. Maybe gender fluid? Idk, but your video should be all the proof anyone needs that everyone should be allowed to find and become their true selves.
I'm going to be voting and fighting for these rights, even though I'm in my 30s and have never voted before. I doubt progress can actually be stopped, but I don't want it being slowed to a crawl thanks to an ignorant handful.
Thank you for this video!
Thank you so much for sharing
Your channel has helped me a lot in my life. My dad is incredibly unsupportive of me. Every time I think he’s getting better, he just ruins it by saying something that puts me down or invalidates me in the harshest way possible. Recently, my mental health has been getting much better due to more respect from him, but this afternoon he said to me “I’m as much a woman as you are a man. There is no difference between us. You are and always will be biologically female, all that’s changed is you SAYING that you’re a boy, so me saying I’m a girl is no different at all.” This guy is so fucking good at making me suicidal it’s actually crazy. I don’t think he realizes how much it affects me. Or maybe he does, I really can’t tell. I know he loves his daughter more than anything, but I get the feeling he regrets his son.
I love your videos, they’re so comforting. I just started exploring my gender these past few years and binged all your videos recently and honestly it’s what made me realize that I’m just a binary man
I loved the video 💜
Thank you! This video made my day!
thanks for sharing
Omg, I'm approaching a decade too :D
This gives me hope
now that you are pretty far in your transition, how much of your life revolves around your identity? how often do you find yourself in lgbt spaces and how often does your transness come up in everyday conversation/life?
i’ve seen that a lot of trans people later in their lives tend to decenter that part of themselves the further into transition they get and i’m not sure if that’s something i want to do
Seeing a grown trans man do theater makes me go "wow!!! I can do that!!!". 24 and just moved to a city to do theater professionally :')) also I saw the infinite wrench in Chicago and it was such a wonderful experience
first! congrats, jack!
First video in ever!
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Bro I have that same Nickelodeon alarm clock.
Been using it everyday since Christmas 1997 and it’s still kickin’!
Yes! Every channel I find is abandoned or brand new. Yeesh
This is exactly the kind of content I was looking for. Just existing as a trans person. Great vid ❤
As a cis woman, I very much appreciate your presence on youtube.
Keep on shining, beautiful star. 🌟
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Why are u so cute tho
yuk
Promo'SM 😪
Your voice has gotten more masculine
Trans man? Buddy you are 20. 👀
She’s a 34-year-old woman.
Wtf this is weird
Yes, a woman demanding that everyone call her a “man” is very weird.
One of the biggest things for you was making the mistake thinking your trans
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