guys!! i didn’t make this video to encourage anyone to commit/attempt suicide. i made it when i was at a very low point in my life in order to express myself and i uploaded it thinking that no one would see it. if you’re suicidal, please reach out and talk to someone.
@@blackin4863 everything is going to be alright 🖤 patience is key and you are worth love..... Your life is the most precious..... You have to know darkness before you know light and you were given this life because you are strong enough to live it❤️ you may not understand today or tomorrow, but eventually god will reveal why you went through everything you did..... and when you think you should give up, remember the reason why you held on for so long❤️it can be very tough but you'll get through this and i have faith in you... You were put on this earth for a reason.... You are amazing and beautiful ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️👑
Hey, I care about you, a lot of people do. Please stay strong and dont give up. If not for yourself, for others. Live for the things and people you love, but dont give up.
Usually people would say that their depression would make them jump. Whereas my anxiety wants me too but then It also tells me...what if I survive and feel 100x more pain.
Amateurs. As a weeb I am unable to be emotionaly hurt again. Banana Fish. (Anime) Suicidal. (Ereri/Riren Fanfic) I’ll Hold You Tight. (Daisuga Fanfic) Inside. (Kagehina Fanfic) Wish I Were. (Daisuga Fanfic) In Another Life. (Bokuaka Fanfic) An Endless Galaxy. (Kuroken Fanfic) Ereased. (Anime) Given. (Anime)
Andy i’m sorry ik it can be tough but u need to understand that no matter how hard it may seem atm things will get better trust me. please know so many people love u, things will get better think about ur future, ur family, ur friends the people that mean the most to u, u will get through this trust me 🥰
Andy Same bruh,I have only one thing wrong with me which is my family calling me names like extra piece etc.and it is not even a big deal but bruh I never thought of cutting myself and Amy suicidal thoughts I just see grey and black for some reason bruh.I cry listening to songs imagining some other stories I make up.
ya know whats crazy, its like everybody hates u and nobody cares. but as soon as your gone, everybody loves u and knew u their whole life. *is that just me?*
i am afraid living life without doing something other will be proud of.I want people to know me for something good ,i don’t want to leave this word without people knowing I was here
my depression: jump! my heart: your mums gonna be sad tho my anxiety: what if you don’t actually die and just hurt yourself bad my eating disorder: yeah uhm hi yk they’ll see you naked right my maladaptive illness: bro what about all the fictional characters you will never see again huh? my dark humor: you can play football with hitler tho
Watch your profanities i am so sorry that people are not taking you seriously :(( you are so strong for battling your own mind everyday and i wish they could see that.
@@maxissad5823 thanks for the reply, I’m trying to recover on my own but it’s not easy. Nothing is impossible but it’s just really hard sometimes. People find it stupid that I’m scared of food but I’m trying to get over my fear. It won’t be long until I can move out and put myself into a hospital. So don’t worry :>
me: *sat on the edge of a cliff* me depression: jump. my anxiety: but imagine how it will feel. you will break your legs. you will break your neck. you will feel it all before your gone.
You'd be dead before hitting the ground. Either that or you wouldn't even expierence the fall because of adrenaline. The last thing you'll actually "feel" is the jump.q
Yesterday I saw you're comment and say: what such a hard shit, and now, I lost someone, now I'm crying, wondering why I'm not the dead, and it was just yesterday, yesterday, just yesterday!!!!!! Sorry TT
Let's be honest, we all had those moments when we wanted to end it all. Edit: I saw the replies and it made me sad. I know it can get hard at times but life will get better I promise.
my ex-best friend once said to me “i know your in pain but your ok because there’s plenty of time to get better and i’m here, i truly believe you can get through this alone but that’s not gonna stop me from leaving you” he left and i’m still not emotionally ok.
I also have said that to my friend, and I know she is dying right now, but I really want to careless about it, because I'm selfish, and I think they are better without me
song : call my friends and tell them that i love them my mind : hah, what friends? the friends who left you when I needed them most? it's sad how the people you thought they care about you, ( 'family' or 'friends') left you when you needed them the most. now, it's not even painful, im used to it.
They say "I'll be there for you no matter what" but you know yourself that it's all a lie and that you only can count on yourself...even that is difficult..
I remember when I was younger I would laugh so hard I cried... then a few more years later I hurt so bad I cried... Now I cried so hard I can't cry anymore...
Depression is like a rotten heart. It's dark and heavy, yet it's stilö besting. As it starts to replace your own, happy and healthy heart you notice the difference. You stop caring about anyone or anything, knowing that there is no point. It's just making others happy. So you pretend that your happy, even though you feel like your chest gets crushed by this invisible weight. You've gotten so used to have that rotten heart, beating in your chest that eventually the pain turns into numbness. You get so tired that even the strangers knows that your not fine. They can see it in your eyes. Your friends asks you what's going on, your family wonders why your not smiling anymore. Even though you know it's pointless, you say "it's nothing, just tired" and yes. You are tired. Tired of pretending, tired of carrying that heart of darkness you seem to embrace anyway. You are tired of livinf. The endless thoughts in your brain takes over, making you forget how beautiful life can be. You shut everyone out in fear of ruining it. Like yoi ruin everything else. As you are so used to it, you never notice that the rotten heart beats slower than usual. It's getting weaker and weaker. Scars covers your arms as the string of life, time to time reminding you that you still live. However, that reminder is quickly to be forgotten as you notice others around you starts to avoid you. They stop caring and you wonder.. did they ever even care? You go along with it. Until one day, that rotten heart stops beating at all and you succumb to the darkness. You make a plan. How can I go without hurting others? You wonder. In the end, you don't care about that. Your just so tired to even think about it. So you take pills, a knife, anything to make it stop. And if you don't succeed, you know that the people who stopped talking to you are faking the kindness. Why would they care now? But you have to go along with it, again. And some day, you start to notice that your original, pure heart takes over again. And the rotten one has no choice but to leave.
You sat in the hospital bed hearing one of your relatives crying beside you as your heart monitor was showing your heart slowly beginning to stop, the last thing you heard was your relative cry out in sadness as your heart stopped completely.
hey, I hope you're doing okay. you aren't selfish, please dont think that. I know exactly how you feel but you aren't selfish, your life is the most important thing to you right now, and that's fine. it's okay to focus on ourselves, no one should expect you to have to take care of theirs. please hold on, itll get better.
@@jams1298 you don’t know how much i appreciate you. it’s been more than half a year that i commented this and luckily i’m much better. and you’re right it did get better. people like you deserve more appreciation. you don’t know me yet your still comforting me. i literally love you
**sitting on a bridge** Depression: jump already will you, I want you to be gone Anxiety: the waters gonna feel like cement and your neck will detach and you will have uncomfortable drowning sensation filling your lungs
please dont do that to urself, there is more people who love u than u think. they would be so sad, so hurt. i know, its hard now. i know u think u can't take all this, but look. after every rainy day or even days, sun rise again. if u're feeling sick, i mean psychically, find help, talk to others about what u feel. just font hurt urself. be safe, love u♡
Pov: Your talking to your mother beside you, shes sobbing, you tell her sorry that theres no way out, and theres no way to save you now. You hear the flatline, the doctors rushing, everything goes black, and your mothers panicked screeching as you slip away into darkness, one last time.
omg i´m literally crying now this is so good. The increasing crying and the heart monitor beeping make it so much better. Its like i could feel the pain of the person crying.
This brings back all my hospital memories, the painful surgeries, the crying, the medicine, the scars, the training to get back on my feet, it was hard and i still have surgeries in the future this hasnt done anything good for my mental health and im only 13... after my first surgery when i got home my grandparents and family were waiting for me in the living room... i broke down in to tears and everyone cried with me and told me "You are strong" at that time i was 8yo I dont remember when some of my surgeries were but i had 3 this year and one of my biggest supporters is my grandma but she is dead she died in 2019 i love her so much i made so many good memories i miss her.. now i have to stop telling about my life because i cant stop crying haha.. 👁️💧👄💧👁️
death sounds so peaceful to me, other people are scared of death but i love death, i can finally let go of all the pain & anger that’s been building up throughout my life. i can finally rest, death is so beautiful.
I relate, it doesn't bother me either. Especially in this society there's no hope left I'm humanity we're all waiting for this covid to take us out or natural situations i see it each day
Pov(based off a true story); The months passed, and you are afraid this might be your last day here. Your sister/family/friend/whoever visits you as they were informed. Your favorite song plays and your mother/sister/aunty/daughter/wife(or whoever) is sobbing. Praying that you live. This was your motivation. *Keep pushing! I will make it out of this emptiness* you pushed against the unbreaking surface. You cannot make it. *I should have never taken that drug..* your sister(or whoever) sobs louder as your heart starts beating slower. The song was almost ending. Slowly, the motivation fades. You were being dragged down, trying to reach for the surface. You failed. The music completely stopped, your sisters(whoever) cries start to get louder but muffled. The monitors loud, long siren like beep is the only thing that was loud and clear.. (i just based it off of when I watched someone die :) they were so close, but they died anyway)
I am so sorry for u. keep your positivity up and don't listen to haters. i bet your mom was one one the bestes and bravest soul. Don't let someone drag u down u are enought ❤️
@@maxissad5823 family doesn't forget. When I put my self in their shoes, I just see myself blaming myself. Yk? That's why I haven't taken a permanent step til now. Although I have tried. A few times.
Everyone here I want you to know that so many people care about you and even though I don’t know you, I care and would be horrible if anything happened, your life is precious and Jesus gave you this life not for you to take it but to do wonderful things, if you guys need to talk let me know
every night, even if i dont want to, i imagine this: my guy bestfried, secretly my crush, has depression. once we hang up together and i saw his scars on arms. i started to cry, while telling him: ,,tommy, u can tell me everything. if ur hurting, tell me. if ur sad, tell me. if u feel like u cant continue, tell me. i will always listen. always. i will always try to help u." i told his best friend dan about it. we both promised we will help him and care for him (as we always did). then, about month after dan came to my house. i opened the door. ,,he did it." ,,what? who did wha-" then i realize. *he* did *it*. i started crying. i fell on the floor. dan giving me his hand telling me: ,,they can save him, he is in hospital. we gonna visit him." then we drove to the hospital. he already was there, so he decided to leave me alone with him. this is me now. crying madly. because i feel failure. failure, because i couldnt save him. because i feel like i could help him, but i didnt. crying madly. because i want to bring him back. back to life. but i cant do anything about it. crying madly. because now i realize, how much it hurts others if i did this. so ill never do it. then, the alarm starts. he is dying. doctor came, but its too late. he died. *** few days after, on his funeral. me, being one of the most crying people here. me, having speech about him, because everyone in class felt like i should do that. and then adter it all ends, me, telling his parents and sister: *i was in love with your son* and me, nevefully recover from this. this is just what my head came up with, but it still hurts a lot. bonus: me, once looking at class photo with my kids, and them asking names of all my classmates. they point on him. im starting crying again. because even if i have husband now, i never really stopped loving him. PS: thank u for the likes, i never got that many!
You are me 😂 im imagine this too. About my best friend..... And it's so sad. She try to kill herself one time and now she's alive. And i know ahe gonna repeat it over and over
“Hey mom,do you know where those blades are?” “Hmm?” “The ones in the black box...” “Oh those are mine.” “Oh ok...” Why do you need them?” *i need to cut* “Just wanted to make sure you didn’t lose them.”
hey, you good? i see you haven’t answered the other person but i horp you’re ok, really i mean it. remember, God loves you and you have so much to live for
this is extremely accurate tbh, ive been there but THANKFULLY came out alive, the sounds of sobbing, the bpm machine beeping while you just lie there unable to do anything. Yea thats fuckin scary especially when u couldnt talk or move for the first 2 months of recovery, not to mention the lack of sleep due to overthinking and trauma. as a boy who survived 7 floors down, losing my eye and making tons of people cry. I wanna say its not worth it, you'll hurt others 100 times more than u hurt urself trust me. Suicide is soo fucking scary as well so please dont give up, if u need to talk to someone look for ur closest friends or uk, contact the suicide hotline. Hope you stay safe and sane out there and thanks for reading have a nice day :D
Me: on a roof My depression: Jump My anxiety: What if I survive and people will be disgusted by me Edit: MOM IM FAMOUS!... oh wait... you won't even care nvm.
"Mama..." "Yes honey?" "Is daddy sleepy?" "You could say that..." "Mama?" "Yes?..." "Will daddy wake up?" "I'm...Not sure..." "Oh..." ------------------------------- "Oh how I will miss you..." "You'll come back,right?" "I'll always be with you..." "Yeah..." "Honey don't cry..." "I'll miss you...Don't leave!" "Shhhh....here comes the sun..." "No...please..." "Do do do do~" "Here comes the sun..." "And I'll say..." *looks at sun through window* "It's alright..."
pov: you slowly open your eyes. you look around. it’s midnight, the only light is the one on the monitor. you then look to your right to see your friend crying at your bed side, then your mom to the left of them. panicking, you look at your arms only to see IV’s and tubes. confused you try to remember what happened. then it hits you. you start to have a feeling of dread wash over your entire body, as your heart rate gets faster, the more anxious you get. you know what’s happening. you look at your mom and friend and start crying. you don’t want to go. you don’t want to leave. i want to stay with you guys. i’m so sorry...i’m so so so sorry.. i regret this so much. i love you guys. i don’t want to go yet. please. you start balling and the only words you manage to get out is “thank you” everything begins to fade as you slowly see faces hover over your body. you try your best to stay conscious. this is it. your dying. you can’t escape.
Bruh this is the saddest thing I’ve listen to all year- I was fine scrolling through recommendations then this popped up and as soon as I listened to it and heard the person crying, and the beeping my mood and thoughts instantly changed to depression and sadness instantly....
for everyone in the comments: hi! my name is josh, it's going to be okay. i understand where you're coming from because I've been therebut please listen to me when i say you need to be patient, everything will be okay. i know you feel like no one will miss you but that's not true, whether you believe it or not there are people who care for and love you. there are people that become happy when they see your smile, there are people who don't know what they'll do without you, the universe itself will miss you because it lost someone so precious and beautiful. recovery is hard but one day you'll get there, you'll hit a milestone, you'll be able to fight the urges a little bit easier than before, you will be okay and you will get there. i know you will.
I wish everyone who knows me would totally forget me after my death. Then nobody would be sad and nobody would miss me. Nobody would cry. I really wish everyone would totally forget about me like i've never been born.
I am so so sorry!! You must be going through a lot. Maybe your best friend is now in peace and doesn’t have to go through the pain she was feeling here. I hope the best for you!! ❤️
That pain is hard to describe to other people who don't understand and I'm glad you could even speak of it. I can bet your friend is happy she stopped her constant headache and pain🙂. You don't have to be stable or be anything bc you don't owe anything but I think your friend would want you to keep going and have your memories with her treasured not missed but loved❤ time will change and so will you🙂
guys!! i didn’t make this video to encourage anyone to commit/attempt suicide. i made it when i was at a very low point in my life in order to express myself and i uploaded it thinking that no one would see it. if you’re suicidal, please reach out and talk to someone.
I’ve already talked about this with someone... but.... it doesn’t change the fact that I cut myself and that I wanna die...
@@blackin4863 everything is going to be alright 🖤 patience is key and you are worth love..... Your life is the most precious..... You have to know darkness before you know light and you were given this life because you are strong enough to live it❤️ you may not understand today or tomorrow, but eventually god will reveal why you went through everything you did..... and when you think you should give up, remember the reason why you held on for so long❤️it can be very tough but you'll get through this and i have faith in you... You were put on this earth for a reason.... You are amazing and beautiful ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️👑
Kaity -pooh thanks you... I just hope that this pain will gone soon...
@@blackin4863 it will go away ❤️ be patient with yourself and don't be too hard on yourself ..... Be positive❤️❤️❤️you are a strong person
EMMA MORRIS you’re NEVER useless. ever. that’s ur brain talking and it’s wrong. you deserve love and happiness, you deserve to be okay.
“My depression wants me to die but my anxiety is afraid to go.” - some guy I talked to
I felt this
Same
This 💯
i guess this is why anxiety comes with depression... nothing is for no reason. damn but my depression went away only anxiety stayed.
My case
I need "Lovely but your're slowly dying in the hospital" PLEASEEEEE.
Alessandra Paulina on it!
done!
Max Matters
The dedication...I respect.
Damn, its the next video for me... The cuincidence
I love how that’s the next recommendation for me lol
anxiety: they're gonna see your side profile in the casket
HAHA PLSS THIS MADE ME CACKLE AT 2 AM 😭
@@Goobergoomba
NOPE BYE!!!
BITCH I'M ALIVE!
NOOO
me: on a rooftop
my depression: jump just end it
my anxiety: what if you hurt the people you love
my dark humor: do a flip!
PLEAASEEHW
oh meee
me too I can't stop laughing at the dark humor tho
IS IT OKAY IF I LAUGH
LITEARLLY
I wish i had someone to cry for me ....
When the line is flat... everyone start loving you
.
Bruh im crying Rn Because im worried about you
Hey, I care about you, a lot of people do. Please stay strong and dont give up. If not for yourself, for others. Live for the things and people you love, but dont give up.
can i use your comment in my next song?
my family when i almost died before and then they start treating me like trash after i recovered
it’s not that i wanna die, it’s just that i wouldn’t care if i did.
i know that feel :( i just don't feel alive . and i would not care if i dies anyway
I thought i was better for not wanting to die but you're right, i feel the same way, it's just that i wouldn't care
this. this is it.
Well, the fear of not knowing what came afterwards kept me alive.
thats exactly the perfect explanation of what i feel
Does anybody else have that feeling when they cry your heart feels like it’s breaking into pieces
I can’t physically cry
Had that feeling in 4th grade
@@cinarefendigil7234 God I'm sorry for you
@@Anna-vg6fw wdym?
no but must be nice tho
Why are we making ourselves sad on purpose lmao
LO LA i do not know😔✌️
LMAOO IDK ITS ACTUALLY KINDA FUN CRYING IN UR ROOM AT 1 AM
Cuz its fun for us😚✌
DONT EXPOSE ME LIKE THAT
Because crying releases endorphins that makes you feel good. It's like a built in drug
Me: crying really badly as the video ends
*a Pizza Hut add shows up*
I got tiktok adds :'
BAAHHAGSDH BRUHH 💀💀
I'm sorry I laughed so hard tho😭😭😭
the pizza hut ad would make me cry more
Ok it is 3 am I am about to make your comment like go from 665 to 666 😈
at this point i’m just living for the people around me🤷🏻♀️
Same
I'm only Living for my mom and my little twin siblings
living for my dad and my brother. if i die my dad will kill himself and my brother will have to live with my abusives mother
living for for my two best friends, who live thousands of miles away
I try to live for me please to the same its a little better
“do better in school”
“worthless”
“lazy”
“you never wanna go outside”
“you’re always cold”
“get all A+”
im sorry mom.
That’s my life but with more swears
@@thestrangeoneyt4692 im so sorry.
I actually started crying rn it just hits too close to home
yep thats me
@@thestrangeoneyt4692 same
Usually people would say that their depression would make them jump. Whereas my anxiety wants me too but then It also tells me...what if I survive and feel 100x more pain.
bruh this is the saddest shit ever
Jacob Hasegawa it be like that sometimes 😔
have u seen that one with sucide? that shit hurt. its the same song but pov ur on the top of a building breathing ur last breaths
@@heutemalmanierismus ah shit that video hurted me to the soul
@@heutemalmanierismus what's the name of the video
Amateurs.
As a weeb I am unable to be emotionaly hurt again.
Banana Fish. (Anime)
Suicidal. (Ereri/Riren Fanfic)
I’ll Hold You Tight. (Daisuga Fanfic)
Inside. (Kagehina Fanfic)
Wish I Were. (Daisuga Fanfic)
In Another Life. (Bokuaka Fanfic)
An Endless Galaxy. (Kuroken Fanfic)
Ereased. (Anime)
Given. (Anime)
I just don't want to die, but I want to stop feeling like this, is that too much to ask?
Andy hold on, andy. you’re stronger than you think. reach out and talk to someone, you got this
@@maxissad5823 I do, thank you again.
Andy i’m sorry ik it can be tough but u need to understand that no matter how hard it may seem atm things will get better trust me. please know so many people love u, things will get better think about ur future, ur family, ur friends the people that mean the most to u, u will get through this trust me 🥰
Andy Same bruh,I have only one thing wrong with me which is my family calling me names like extra piece etc.and it is not even a big deal but bruh I never thought of cutting myself and Amy suicidal thoughts I just see grey and black for some reason bruh.I cry listening to songs imagining some other stories I make up.
@@sanaali9626 you got this, I believe in you. Don't pay any attention to them. Just think of living life for yourself, we'll get through this together
POV: the cashier keeps scanning your item wrong, you're standing there like ._.
Jitoshu LMFAOOOO
Lmaooooo 😭
HDHABDHSBDHS how to unsee this hfbrhf
This both ruined the whole aesthetic AND made it better 😭😭✋🏻
Hahahahah I love this
ya know whats crazy, its like everybody hates u and nobody cares. but as soon as your gone, everybody loves u and knew u their whole life.
*is that just me?*
That's my life in a comment...
"Knew" you in their whole life.
Honestly I don’t want anyone to cry when I die throw a party and dance without me.
Shirly Deleg THIS.
HONESTLYYY
Max Matters YEA-
Oh my..YES.
CHA CHA REAL SMOOTH- 😂😂😂😂😂
I’m not afraid to die, i’m just afraid if i will have a painful death..
I don't even care about that all i am scared of is how much it will effect the people i love...thats the only thing that scares me about death
I don’t want to commit suicide or anything like that I just want to disappear to somewhere where my issues and that aren’t real
YES THANK YOU
@@klaradurisova3161 hold on to that. never let that go. you'll know you can
i am afraid living life without doing something other will be proud of.I want people to know me for something good ,i don’t want to leave this word without people knowing I was here
my depression: jump!
my heart: your mums gonna be sad tho
my anxiety: what if you don’t actually die and just hurt yourself bad
my eating disorder: yeah uhm hi yk they’ll see you naked right
my maladaptive illness: bro what about all the fictional characters you will never see again huh?
my dark humor: you can play football with hitler tho
man I’m fucked up
well its called dark humor for a reason right?
football w hitler🤣😭
I can relate with the characters in my maladaptive daydreaming. I will miss them if i die even though they are my fantasy
This gonna be me in hospital in a few years with everyone crying and wishing they had taken my eating disorder seriously
Watch your profanities i am so sorry that people are not taking you seriously :(( you are so strong for battling your own mind everyday and i wish they could see that.
@@maxissad5823 thanks for the reply, I’m trying to recover on my own but it’s not easy. Nothing is impossible but it’s just really hard sometimes. People find it stupid that I’m scared of food but I’m trying to get over my fear. It won’t be long until I can move out and put myself into a hospital. So don’t worry :>
@@crowsandlemons i hope you get out of there as soon as possible. i wish you the best
exaclty.
me: *sat on the edge of a cliff*
me depression: jump.
my anxiety: but imagine how it will feel. you will break your legs. you will break your neck. you will feel it all before your gone.
Don't do it. You'll be okay, I know it seems hard but you have to keep going for a brighter outcome, You can do this.. Your amazing and strong. ❤
I honestly think we’d be dead before all the pain
@@hello-ey9kd wow I wish
Nah I would just jump I wouldn’t have listened to my anxiety
You'd be dead before hitting the ground. Either that or you wouldn't even expierence the fall because of adrenaline. The last thing you'll actually "feel" is the jump.q
The fact that this felt real when I lost someone it feels like I was in their position but thank you I Love this
Javier Alfaro i’m sorry for ur loss
Max Matters thank you and I am doing well
Sameeeeeeeeeee
Yesterday I saw you're comment and say: what such a hard shit, and now, I lost someone, now I'm crying, wondering why I'm not the dead, and it was just yesterday, yesterday, just yesterday!!!!!! Sorry TT
@@rosycardona80 be strong.. ❤
Let's be honest, we all had those moments when we wanted to end it all.
Edit: I saw the replies and it made me sad. I know it can get hard at times but life will get better I promise.
i am in THAT moment
Yeah now
yeah :( but i’m glad i learned that i’m only living for my family :)
Going through it rn lol
I’m still in that moment and it won’t end for sure..
my ex-best friend once said to me “i know your in pain but your ok because there’s plenty of time to get better and i’m here, i truly believe you can get through this alone but that’s not gonna stop me from leaving you” he left and i’m still not emotionally ok.
I also have said that to my friend, and I know she is dying right now, but I really want to careless about it, because I'm selfish, and I think they are better without me
Pov: You're listening to the song while you read the comments and cry
Thats what i literaly did
that's literally me
me rn
me
Indeed.
this hits different when you lying on your bed with your eyes closed.
also. in another life... ifykyk
YOU REALLG WENT THERE HUH ✋🥲
Hearing that woman cring I imagine mom and that makes me cry harder
Ikr 😞 it made me think that too im crying even harder too
im so sorry
this hits different when you have missing assignments in school due tomorrow
edit: yes i am watching you.
dghsjk :( fck
we don’t talk abt it...
HAHA TRUE
or when your appendix just burst:,)
SHUT UP IM LITERSLLY SCREAMING
This hits different when your alone with headphones laying upwards at 3am
It really does
Me rn....
Thats what im doing rn
Thats what i doing rn with mh arms full with self harm scars
Hell, this hit different any time of day. It’s 4:48 p.m. on a beautiful autumn day with a slight breeze, and I feel empty.
The fact that I'm more afraid of living then I am of dying
song : call my friends and tell them that i love them
my mind : hah, what friends? the friends who left you when I needed them most?
it's sad how the people you thought they care about you, ( 'family' or 'friends') left you when you needed them the most.
now, it's not even painful, im used to it.
They say "I'll be there for you no matter what" but you know yourself that it's all a lie and that you only can count on yourself...even that is difficult..
right when you needed them. it sucks
Took my feelings and put them into words
Sound like me when I was crying when my best friend passed away 🕊 rip she died of cancer I hope to see her soon tho
I_love_cedric_and_draco i’m sorry for your loss 💗 stay strong, sweetheart, people love you.
omg im so sorry! if you need anything im here for you!🥺🖤
I’m so sorry that happened I hope your doing better, do you know if she was a Christian just wondering
I'm sure she is watching over you, and guiding you each step of the way.
omg im sorry for your loss 🥺 i want to give you a big hug right now i hope you feel better someday...ily babe dont cry . shes in a safe place
I remember when I was younger I would laugh so hard I cried... then a few more years later I hurt so bad I cried... Now I cried so hard I can't cry anymore...
Kitty Tail i know how that feels :(
i just stopped showing feelings alltogether. i dont feel any feelings most of the time either way.
I know a lot of people say this, but it does get better. Not always good, but better.
sometimes i need to cry to feel better, but i just cant shed the tears to be able to cry. but i want to and need to
same
Depression is like a rotten heart. It's dark and heavy, yet it's stilö besting. As it starts to replace your own, happy and healthy heart you notice the difference. You stop caring about anyone or anything, knowing that there is no point. It's just making others happy. So you pretend that your happy, even though you feel like your chest gets crushed by this invisible weight. You've gotten so used to have that rotten heart, beating in your chest that eventually the pain turns into numbness. You get so tired that even the strangers knows that your not fine. They can see it in your eyes. Your friends asks you what's going on, your family wonders why your not smiling anymore. Even though you know it's pointless, you say "it's nothing, just tired" and yes. You are tired. Tired of pretending, tired of carrying that heart of darkness you seem to embrace anyway. You are tired of livinf. The endless thoughts in your brain takes over, making you forget how beautiful life can be. You shut everyone out in fear of ruining it. Like yoi ruin everything else. As you are so used to it, you never notice that the rotten heart beats slower than usual. It's getting weaker and weaker. Scars covers your arms as the string of life, time to time reminding you that you still live. However, that reminder is quickly to be forgotten as you notice others around you starts to avoid you. They stop caring and you wonder.. did they ever even care? You go along with it. Until one day, that rotten heart stops beating at all and you succumb to the darkness. You make a plan. How can I go without hurting others? You wonder. In the end, you don't care about that. Your just so tired to even think about it. So you take pills, a knife, anything to make it stop. And if you don't succeed, you know that the people who stopped talking to you are faking the kindness. Why would they care now? But you have to go along with it, again. And some day, you start to notice that your original, pure heart takes over again. And the rotten one has no choice but to leave.
"Why doesn't it hurt?"
"It's supposed to hurt."
sometimes, it's not the song that make you emotional, it's the people and things that come to mind when you hear it
yes
never heard something more accurate
You sat in the hospital bed hearing one of your relatives crying beside you as your heart monitor was showing your heart slowly beginning to stop, the last thing you heard was your relative cry out in sadness as your heart stopped completely.
the indigenous ry bread damn😳
this is me except i was the one by the bed.
Wait I thought the person dieting was the one crying
Oops I meant dieing don't y'all go correcting my grammar I swear
My heart did stop cause u didn’t wanna see my grandma.... die but u suddenly came back to life......but is dying to much to ask for?
I wanna tell my parents how i feel but i know if i do they will want to "talk" which i hate talking to people about my feelings...
It’s okey I feel u❤️ if u wanna talk I’m here ily :)
same /:
I've never found someone who understood me that well...
They will only care about you when its too late and the line is flat...
I literally started crying
glittergrunge i used to always cry to this song before i literally ran out of tears
Yes I’m about to cry
@@maxissad5823 yes I can't cry anymore I feel sad and nothing I don't have another feelings
same :'(
Don’t cry because your a bad no
So your telling me billie jus came to my hospital bed and started singing while I die ?
I would love that tbh
AYO i’m tryna DIE HERE BILLIE
and when you die, suddenly everyone loves you...
ok but at this point in life i’m so lost and selfish and i’m not even thinking about the ones i love i just want my pain to end
hey, I hope you're doing okay. you aren't selfish, please dont think that. I know exactly how you feel but you aren't selfish, your life is the most important thing to you right now, and that's fine. it's okay to focus on ourselves, no one should expect you to have to take care of theirs. please hold on, itll get better.
@@jams1298 you don’t know how much i appreciate you. it’s been more than half a year that i commented this and luckily i’m much better. and you’re right it did get better. people like you deserve more appreciation. you don’t know me yet your still comforting me. i literally love you
_A girl that I knew and loved as taken by cancer yesterday. She was so strong._
i’m so sorry. 💗
i’m so sorry
She's look at your became young and have kid and be old. She's with you... Always
I am so sorry for your loss
I'm so sorry. I lost someone a few years ago to cancer. it is so unfair. I hope ur doing ok.
"Call my friends and tell them that I love them."
Just hearing the crying, actually broke my heart.
Why am i doing this to myself at 1 am?
I cant cry im infront of my sisters at 12 am ilysm❤🔫
me at almost 4 am- 🕳👩🦯
Oh please, like someone would cry while I'm dying
i would cry. i love you :((
**sitting on a bridge**
Depression: jump already will you, I want you to be gone
Anxiety: the waters gonna feel like cement and your neck will detach and you will have uncomfortable drowning sensation filling your lungs
POV: It's 3AM and your listening to music while crying over everything
Nooo you are wrong it is 2 am hahaja (sobbing loudly inside)
Yes
it’s actually 6 in the morning and i haven’t gone to bed yet ✨
@@briannamcclung7902 same but i’m quietly sobbing ✨
Exactly.
Nobody:
Me: literally wishing this scene happens but i am too afraid
are you ok?
Yep (i guess)
please dont do that to urself, there is more people who love u than u think. they would be so sad, so hurt. i know, its hard now. i know u think u can't take all this, but look. after every rainy day or even days, sun rise again. if u're feeling sick, i mean psychically, find help, talk to others about what u feel. just font hurt urself. be safe, love u♡
Look at the bright side plz
There's always a second solution 🖤
@@dianalovesu5162 thank you, i really needed this.🤍
This hits different when you have lost you loved in a hospital and you just couldn't say goodbye...
Pov:
Your talking to your mother beside you, shes sobbing, you tell her sorry that theres no way out, and theres no way to save you now.
You hear the flatline, the doctors rushing, everything goes black, and your mothers panicked screeching as you slip away into darkness, one last time.
me at the beginning: sad
me when I imagine that I'm dying with AirPods in: dont u laugh, it's the middle of the night dont you dare-
THIS COMMENT 😭😭😭😭😭
@@ionnoi8260 im crine bc thats what im doing rn
@@sethezequieldumlao7646 same
Fuq-HAHAHAA
a-are you stalking me 👀
gosh this made me rethink ending everything. i thought of the sobs being my mum as i pass away beside her. damn. thank you
i’m glad that i made you rethink about everything. your mom and so many other ppl would be devastated. you matter bby💗
This also made me think of how my bf wouldn’t be able to say bye cuz he lives rly far now:/
omg i´m literally crying now this is so good. The increasing crying and the heart monitor beeping make it so much better. Its like i could feel the pain of the person crying.
This brings back all my hospital memories, the painful surgeries, the crying, the medicine, the scars, the training to get back on my feet, it was hard and i still have surgeries in the future this hasnt done anything good for my mental health and im only 13...
after my first surgery when i got home my grandparents and family were waiting for me in the living room... i broke down in to tears and everyone cried with me and told me "You are strong" at that time i was 8yo
I dont remember when some of my surgeries were but i had 3 this year
and one of my biggest supporters is my grandma but she is dead she died in 2019 i love her so much i made so many good memories i miss her..
now i have to stop telling about my life because i cant stop crying haha.. 👁️💧👄💧👁️
death sounds so peaceful to me, other people are scared of death but i love death, i can finally let go of all the pain & anger that’s been building up throughout my life. i can finally rest, death is so beautiful.
but just dont come for it too early..
are u ok..?
me too. it’s the end of a cycle
it's beautiful, it's just not something u should want
I relate, it doesn't bother me either. Especially in this society there's no hope left I'm humanity we're all waiting for this covid to take us out or natural situations i see it each day
Pov(based off a true story); The months passed, and you are afraid this might be your last day here. Your sister/family/friend/whoever visits you as they were informed. Your favorite song plays and your mother/sister/aunty/daughter/wife(or whoever) is sobbing. Praying that you live. This was your motivation. *Keep pushing! I will make it out of this emptiness* you pushed against the unbreaking surface. You cannot make it. *I should have never taken that drug..* your sister(or whoever) sobs louder as your heart starts beating slower. The song was almost ending. Slowly, the motivation fades. You were being dragged down, trying to reach for the surface. You failed. The music completely stopped, your sisters(whoever) cries start to get louder but muffled. The monitors loud, long siren like beep is the only thing that was loud and clear..
(i just based it off of when I watched someone die :) they were so close, but they died anyway)
all i can say is, chills.
also
ly
@@andrea-ht8xz Aww ty, ily too :)
i wish i was as strong-
you’re so strong, and you write beautifully. take care
スベタbakuhoe you’re stronger than u know 💗
Listening to this after listening to the happier than ever album.
i want someone to cry for me. not just when the line is flat.
i’ve been crying for you💗
@@brielleblood7176
Me: slowly dying...
Person: crying
Also me: *WHO PUT THE MUFFINS IN THE FREZZA*
I DID🦎
Don't make me laugh i'm trying to die 😾
•a n g e l• stop crying bitch😾😾😾
so im bawling my eyes out rn but I couldn't help but laugh at this
@@maxissad5823 WHATCA GONNA DO ABOUT IT
me: vibing
person: crying
me: AY YOU BETTER SHUT UP IM TRYNA VIBE
I was crying but this made me laugh
LMFAO
Omg same
@@mejustme6080 HOBI
@@lauravera7508 im your hope you're my hope im jhope 💜
you know it hurts when this was the most peaceful and like “finally” moment you’ve ever felt
my anxiety is actually saving my life
random girl: - crying -
me: please shut up, i can't hear the song.
She should save them for the funeral 🙄
@@staringatsun lmaoo it’s cause someone died and the girl is crying the entire time
The beeping's annoying too
girl i was thinking the same thing
@@syafinisabudin7452 just listen to the original then lmaoo
The fact that the crying sounds just like mine when my mom was dying....
She's with you
🥺💘 by ur side
She will always be by your side
I am so sorry for u. keep your positivity up and don't listen to haters. i bet your mom was one one the bestes and bravest soul. Don't let someone drag u down u are enought ❤️
Her soul is always with you.
Days like these are so comforting.
This made me think about my grandpa. He died in the hospital last year, I wonder if he could hear us talking the last time to him. I miss him...
Roses are red
Violets are blue
If you need to cry
I'll be here for you
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Aw❤
thx🤧🥺
@@mendrezjohncarloa.7194 any time dear
Thank you
Actually this makin me laugh ...well thanks ,:D
I’m listening this while the sky is crying... and this is so- 😔
Darely Chalamet “the sky is crying” 🥺
the fact that my name is sky and im crying rn is ;-;
Kim Haru i love your name!! so beautiful
somebody called the rain god a pussy
Darely Chalamet mijmnrfjncrnc
Listening to this while being in a hospital hits different..
The fact that my grand-grandma died at night in a hospital a few days ago just makes this a lot more “relatable“...
I want to. I really do. But my family is going to be so sad.
Maya i want to too. they’ll be devastated.
I think they will cry for a month and then they will forget~ yeah quite possibly
•a n g e l• no they would not, you’re more important than u think, girl, period
@@maxissad5823 family doesn't forget. When I put my self in their shoes, I just see myself blaming myself. Yk? That's why I haven't taken a permanent step til now. Although I have tried. A few times.
Everyone here I want you to know that so many people care about you and even though I don’t know you, I care and would be horrible if anything happened, your life is precious and Jesus gave you this life not for you to take it but to do wonderful things, if you guys need to talk let me know
every night, even if i dont want to, i imagine this:
my guy bestfried, secretly my crush, has depression. once we hang up together and i saw his scars on arms. i started to cry, while telling him: ,,tommy, u can tell me everything. if ur hurting, tell me. if ur sad, tell me. if u feel like u cant continue, tell me. i will always listen. always. i will always try to help u."
i told his best friend dan about it. we both promised we will help him and care for him (as we always did).
then, about month after dan came to my house. i opened the door.
,,he did it."
,,what? who did wha-"
then i realize. *he* did *it*. i started crying. i fell on the floor. dan giving me his hand telling me: ,,they can save him, he is in hospital. we gonna visit him."
then we drove to the hospital. he already was there, so he decided to leave me alone with him.
this is me now. crying madly. because i feel failure. failure, because i couldnt save him. because i feel like i could help him, but i didnt.
crying madly. because i want to bring him back. back to life. but i cant do anything about it.
crying madly. because now i realize, how much it hurts others if i did this. so ill never do it.
then, the alarm starts. he is dying. doctor came, but its too late. he died.
***
few days after, on his funeral. me, being one of the most crying people here. me, having speech about him, because everyone in class felt like i should do that. and then adter it all ends, me, telling his parents and sister: *i was in love with your son*
and me, nevefully recover from this.
this is just what my head came up with, but it still hurts a lot.
bonus:
me, once looking at class photo with my kids, and them asking names of all my classmates. they point on him. im starting crying again. because even if i have husband now, i never really stopped loving him.
PS: thank u for the likes, i never got that many!
Damn that made me cry so bad...
this is making me cry omg
im sorry i didnt mean to make u cry :((
@@dianalovesu5162 oh no! you’re fine. dw about it :)
You are me 😂 im imagine this too. About my best friend..... And it's so sad. She try to kill herself one time and now she's alive. And i know ahe gonna repeat it over and over
-What's holding you back?
*-Seconds of pain*
i've felt this happen in my dreams a thousand times. that's why i like sleeping so much. my nightmares are when i don't flatline. i just feel pain.
I don’t know why but this reminded me of In another life....
“I found you”
“You found me”
Oh my gosh I just read that and I’m still crying over it
and that's on "you are beautiful" :(
Icy Storm i can’t fucking escape that story😔
This just made me cry bro-
Can’t ever escape this story 😭
PAIN. ALL I KNOW IS PAIN.
Okay but like if I don’t get to haunt people I’m gonna be pissed
Edit: I- pls this is some shit I said at like 2am
Edit 2: YOU GUYS WILDIN PLS- ✋😩
Kōshi Sugawara EXACTLY LIKE WHAT WILL BE THE POINT DUDE
EXACTLY when i die i better be a ghost,, ghosts are epic aa fuck man
I'm gonna haunt all the evil people in the world.
SAMMEEEEE
Ok sugawara chill u still have kids to take care of 😭
“Hey mom,do you know where those blades are?”
“Hmm?”
“The ones in the black box...”
“Oh those are mine.”
“Oh ok...”
Why do you need them?”
*i need to cut*
“Just wanted to make sure you didn’t lose them.”
hey, you good? i see you haven’t answered the other person but i horp you’re ok, really i mean it. remember, God loves you and you have so much to live for
Uhm.. well it's been 5 months, you okay ?
ehi are you okay now?
It's been 5 months, are you ok? I'm really worried for you, please answer!
6 months.. I hope ur okay
Crying with this song in the background is therapeutic 😭🤝
POV: ur that Someone crying at 12:00 pm and no one hears u cry
Edit: y'all dont make me sad and DA FAQ i have never got this many likes!
Anthony Gonzalez noo dont cry🥺💗
its 11:36 a.m but yes :(
Half 3 where I am :’)
No need to narrate my life bro
@@StarboyJuno lol same
this is extremely accurate tbh, ive been there but THANKFULLY came out alive, the sounds of sobbing, the bpm machine beeping while you just lie there unable to do anything. Yea thats fuckin scary especially when u couldnt talk or move for the first 2 months of recovery, not to mention the lack of sleep due to overthinking and trauma.
as a boy who survived 7 floors down, losing my eye and making tons of people cry. I wanna say its not worth it, you'll hurt others 100 times more than u hurt urself trust me. Suicide is soo fucking scary as well so please dont give up, if u need to talk to someone look for ur closest friends or uk, contact the suicide hotline. Hope you stay safe and sane out there and thanks for reading have a nice day :D
RandomGD wow, you’re so strong for going through that. i’m glad you’re still with us. take care, i love you 💗
Wow this made my mood swing from „interesting what is that” to “would he even visit me if I were in that state and cry for me?”
Dang that hurt once I realized the beeping was slowing down.
Me: on a roof
My depression: Jump
My anxiety: What if I survive and people will be disgusted by me
Edit: MOM IM FAMOUS!... oh wait... you won't even care nvm.
This is what I feel like right now...
my anxiety: no it would be mad embarrassing to survive from it then...
facts
ooh that hit hard-
same i hope you get better bb i love you ❤️
"Mama..."
"Yes honey?"
"Is daddy sleepy?"
"You could say that..."
"Mama?"
"Yes?..."
"Will daddy wake up?"
"I'm...Not sure..."
"Oh..."
-------------------------------
"Oh how I will miss you..."
"You'll come back,right?"
"I'll always be with you..."
"Yeah..."
"Honey don't cry..."
"I'll miss you...Don't leave!"
"Shhhh....here comes the sun..."
"No...please..."
"Do do do do~"
"Here comes the sun..."
"And I'll say..."
*looks at sun through window*
"It's alright..."
oh. oh god. that’s beautiful.
i love this
S-shit man...
I literally cried
:( "here comes the sun" my fav song, now I'm imagining my die.
"If I want to die, I’ll strive to live as much as I want to die" - Moonchild
“One day you will hug your friends and family for the very last time and they might not know it’s the very last time.”
pov:
you slowly open your eyes. you look around. it’s midnight, the only light is the one on the monitor. you then look to your right to see your friend crying at your bed side, then your mom to the left of them. panicking, you look at your arms only to see IV’s and tubes. confused you try to remember what happened. then it hits you. you start to have a feeling of dread wash over your entire body, as your heart rate gets faster, the more anxious you get. you know what’s happening. you look at your mom and friend and start crying. you don’t want to go. you don’t want to leave. i want to stay with you guys. i’m so sorry...i’m so so so sorry.. i regret this so much. i love you guys. i don’t want to go yet. please. you start balling and the only words you manage to get out is “thank you”
everything begins to fade as you slowly see faces hover over your body. you try your best to stay conscious. this is it. your dying. you can’t escape.
I wish i had someone to cry after me
@@arandomperson1732 it’s okay bbs. it’ll be alright 🥺🥺 i loves you. keep your head up, you can do this ❤️❤️
This made me Suicidal
This hits hard knowing i have midterm exams tomorrow
Cómo te fue?
same
@Пламена Тодорова good luck!
And now its already finals... :/
SAME
Bruh this is the saddest thing I’ve listen to all year-
I was fine scrolling through recommendations then this popped up and as soon as I listened to it and heard the person crying, and the beeping my mood and thoughts instantly changed to depression and sadness instantly....
The fact that the girl who was crying reminded me my best friend's crying and that made me break down even more...
WHY DID I START LAUGHING WHEN I HEARD THE CRYING I THOUGHT THAT WAS ME GFUCHKEFYFEYIRFW BYE-
omgg sis u did notttt hahaha
I CANTJDJDJ
eye-
You make me laugh thank you
i want to cry until i read this comment SKSKSKSK BYE- 💀😭
for everyone in the comments: hi! my name is josh, it's going to be okay. i understand where you're coming from because I've been therebut please listen to me when i say you need to be patient, everything will be okay. i know you feel like no one will miss you but that's not true, whether you believe it or not there are people who care for and love you. there are people that become happy when they see your smile, there are people who don't know what they'll do without you, the universe itself will miss you because it lost someone so precious and beautiful. recovery is hard but one day you'll get there, you'll hit a milestone, you'll be able to fight the urges a little bit easier than before, you will be okay and you will get there. i know you will.
You made my day a little brighter, thanks (:
Bless your kind soul ☺️
I wish everyone who knows me would totally forget me after my death. Then nobody would be sad and nobody would miss me. Nobody would cry. I really wish everyone would totally forget about me like i've never been born.
POV: you think this is too depressing but you like it somehow
This sounds like the night I learned my best friend had killed herself, let's just say I haven't been stable since that night
I am so so sorry!! You must be going through a lot. Maybe your best friend is now in peace and doesn’t have to go through the pain she was feeling here. I hope the best for you!! ❤️
@Miu - Iruma thank you
@@dhritiratna7944 thank you
That pain is hard to describe to other people who don't understand and I'm glad you could even speak of it. I can bet your friend is happy she stopped her constant headache and pain🙂. You don't have to be stable or be anything bc you don't owe anything but I think your friend would want you to keep going and have your memories with her treasured not missed but loved❤ time will change and so will you🙂
i’m so so so sry, keeps your head up. she is watching over you!🖤
The 16 dislikes are people who couldn't see through their tears
I used to hear this a lot in my room but now it really gives a different vibe when you're actually in the hospital......and I'm in the hospital now🤍
I just hope that you get well soon.
Just remember that you are brave and strong.
Thank u ❤❤❤
I want to die but at the same time I can't I saved my friends and they lived for me:)
This is a good reason to live