Honestly I was buying adderrall and anti depressants so I could be ok and make them happy but then I got caught and now I might get arrested like all I wanted to do is be ok for y'all because I couldn't get a prescription and it fucks up my life more and now I realize I should've just killed myself instead
The fact that there are people like you that can open our eyes to their kindness is also very nice ^·^ I want to thank you and them for the random support that I find in some of the most damaged places.
Hey I hope you're doing a lil better, I came to tell y'all that I'm so so proud of you ❤ You may feel like you're drowing right now but you'll feel the ground under your feet soon and you'll just have to kick it as hard as you can to get up to the surface ❤ I know how strong you are, you can do it ❤
I tried to tell my mom I think about suicide like everyday but she dœsn’t want to understand this, to believe it’s real, so I just feel I’m never be understood by someone
i’m always wondering why my life feels sm worse than other peoples. i try to gaslight myself and say i’m overreacting bc i know other ppl are going thru the exact same thing but are they really ?
It will end soon. I promise you it will. Whatever you’re going through is gonna end. One day you’ll look back and you’ll be so happy that you didn’t end it all. Because you met that special someone and met those trustworthy friends. And have that job that you enjoy so much. Everything will be calm. And your heart will be at peace
@@mike_morton_simp3080 When I tell my mom about how I've been feeling lately she just listens and decides to ignore it. Then they wonder why we don't leave our rooms
The truth this sentence holds though. While I do have people I can talk to, I usually end up talking to strangers more than my parents. Somehow they understand me more than my parents can.
You're right. Many still do not find the way to do it, so we resort to these thoughts so drowned and hasty that they drown us more every day. . . And more. I am not the one to speak for everyone, in my case I think so.
Honestly anyone who's seeing this video is not in a good place so ill tell you what.. @prety.punk thats my instagram and if you need a friend to talk to text me please, your amazing
I lost a few people... And for a while I had lost myself too. I would wake up every day scared that I wouldn't see the day after or that I would just lose somebody else again. I was so broken I couldn't even cry. The feeling of giving up would haunt me all the time and I was just about to stop it all. But then, i met my current best friend and he somehow got me through it all. I would have given up on life if it wasn't for him. I can't never thank him enough for what he has done and even if one day we stop talking I will never forget him. Thank you for saving me dude :,)
Luv, don’t even cmon sis (or whatever u identify as) u r just like anyone else u deserve every little thing on this planet and all the love in the world don’t let the little things bring u down it gets hard at times but I assure u it gets better I bet u hear that all the freaking time but I actually mean it I love u u will get through whatever is troubling u❤️
Please stop. Listen to yourself. You clearly need help, please talk to other people about it, close ones that understand you. If you may know the reason, talk about it... You don't deserve to be ignored, and particularly by yourself. You can also talk to me if you need, maybe i could help, or at least listen... Take care.
Even though we have never met, I know you can do this, and one day you will find something for you that makes life worth living. Sometimes the pain can be unbearable, but the one good thing, is that it can also go up from there. I love you, stay safe :)
Same. I think my friends are the only reason I'm alive. I don't want to hurt them. I've often fantasized about making them hate me, cause then it would be easier to die. However, I don't want to die. I just want to seize existence and take with me the memories everyone holds of me.
never think that because this is something that anyone can face. ur doing great and im so happy that ur still even alive, keep on pushing and never give up :(
@@MackieLars im not the person who commented on this but I'm sorry you heard that too ... you feel like your feelings aren't worth enough, but they do, so if you're feeling down lately, you can talk to me and I'll try to help you. ig: skmpthy
thommy !! i am very thankful that you're willing to lend a helping ear but i'm actually doing much better now. not to shun a hand that's helping but i really do appreciate it. thank you. 🥰
I hope u are ok and if not stay strong I need you WE need you as a community sure u might be one but thats a one in all those billions without u we have one less person and we will miss you i will defo bcs tbh ik what its like to hurt and cry but no one but u sees it i cant cry easily bcs im used to pain stay strong man we all need you
It sure does. And to me it’s felt like that ever since I was 6, people that I don’t know, Songs, art and the internet in general make me the person I am today, they make another reality that I escape too every chance I get. Because I don’t like the outside world. Because I don’t feel safe and loved by my own family and friends. But that’s just the truth, and even if it hurts I’ve come to accept the truth. I’m sorry if you feel the same way, because it’s a terrible way to feel and realisation to come to. But it’s ok, because you’ll find somebody someday or a reason to love the outside world. At least thats what I hope for... ❤️❤️
I have more online friends than real ones...and they all have issues, so they all understands me and I understand them..They're the only reason that I keep fighting on this never ending war.
Isn't it amazing how after a 100 years probably none of us would be here, but right now, at this moment, we're all here, listening to this beautiful masterpiece? Feeling the same pain in different forms?
I keep my hand over my mouth because my parents would hear me cry, and I don't want them to know how I'm feeling. And I'm sitting here struggling to breathe it's hard
This song is so unbelievably powerful and the emotions that she capsulates is just so raw and real. It’s such a shame that her lyricism isn’t taken seriously because some of Billie’s younger fans think having depression is a cool, trendy personality trait instead of a severe mental illness.
Pov: You're sitting on a rooftop with your legs hanging over the edge. Youre listening to your favorite song one last time and watch the police cars and their sirens rushing off to save someone who isn't too far gone. Someone who still has a chance. Someone who isn't you. You tilt your face to the sky and close your eyes as the rain falls down. You take off your rings and let them fall to the ground as you let down your hair and let it blow in the wind. You can feel your heart pounding as you wipe your tears and stand up. You look over the edge and and watch as a tear falls over. One tear among a thousand beautiful raindrops. The song ends and you know these are your last few seconds. You can see your first kiss in your head, your friends laughing with you, you can smell your grandmother's cookies she would make for you every Sunday before she died and you can almost feel her kiss on your forehead. You look down at your phone and you hesitantly press play again and slowly back away from the edge, you stay on the roof all night long listening until your phone runs out of battery. As the sun start to rise you find yourself sitting on the roof still singing and although you're wet you know the storm has passed. And the sun will shine again
Man please dont let go.... we are so proud of u and i hope u know how important you are to ur loved ones and us ❤i hope u have taken care of yourself and eaten properly ..... just remember that if u go ..... we all will miss u and u are sooo sooo important ❤❤
The number of times I’ve screamed this into the cold night air.... I promise, life gets better if you’ll just stick around to see it. Get a notebook and write/draw in it every time something makes you smile, or take pictures, or simply write down the date it happened. Just... give yourself some physical representation of all the little things that make you feel better, so you can remind yourself that it’s not all bad, even if it feels like it.
i am just not gonna tell her i hope that make her fell less pain,that she does not know what ive been true b t w good luke i hope its get better by the time
Hey love I know it’s so hard right now and yes life is upper hard but we only have one chance of living it so please make it beautiful go party go sneak out go wake your parents up for fun,just go have fun while it lasts and tell your loved ones that you love before it’s too late and you got this your so strong I will always believe in you no matter what:)
there is no definitive way. But you cant just give it back, you have to use it up, wich takes around 80 years, possibly longer or slightly shorter. Stay strong, get help if needed. Were here waiting if you wanna talk
“stop crying” *when you yell at me for crying, it just makes it worse.* “why are you so lazy: *look, im trying as hard as i can.* “i miss my happy little girl” *well sorry that im getting sick of your crap, plus everyone’s else.* i just wanna be happy again.
i get what you mean. i felt just like that a while ago. it's called apathy, and for me it was really damn scary. for me it was a phase. i hope you're feeling better now. i hope you can remember how to be happy.
Then try to fill yourself, I know it’s hard, but there are many wonderful things to the terrible ones in this world, so go out and live. Carpe diem (seize the moment)
You got this baby! Dont think you can't do it cause you're so much stronger than what you think you are. You might wanna give up everything to taste the freedom for once atleast but believe me it's not worth it.. Give yourself another chance, you deserve it Give life another shot It'll be alright I love you along with millions of people on here so don't ever feel like you're alone 🖤 It's okay to feel weak and wanna give up but never forget you've got this and that we'll all get through this together :) 🖤
sitting on a rooftop rn, looking at the stars. it’s quite a relaxing night, no cars.. no noise. no disruptions. just me and my thoughts, yknow? part of me wishes to do a really cool anime death scene off this roof but another part of me wants to stay and live “the cool way of life.” if you get that reference, i love you.
I love you too and it might not mean anything but hopefully your still here to read this but I don’t know you, you don’t know me but I care about you and love you soooo try to hold on plz
and then they yell... and get mad... and say you do nothing around the house and that you never help. that you should stop being to lazy cause if your lazy you get no where? ye .. i get it
@@kikisupremacy6692 hey listen to me exiting this world is never the answer but you could be giving this pain to someone else but you may not know that but giving up is never the answer if you need to talk I'm here to listen here I will give you a virtual hug :)
This really hits different when you're in bed with your phone and headphones in while staring at the ceiling because no matter what you do you can't fall asleep, then end up with your face wet from your tears that just won't stop. EDIT: AND WHEN IT'S AT 3 IN THE MORNING
stay strong it WILL get better so stay strong until it does!! you are so loved and amazing!! you will be so grateful and happy that you stayed because it WILL get better!! you WILL get better so stay strong until it does!! stay strong!!❤❤
my mom is always saying that she want the old me to came back but I guess she doesn't know that my biggest wish is to her to came back cause I fckg miss her too
@Shenandoah Berghuis is nice to talk to other people to feel secure, understand, and all of that, my point there was just make a lil joke.. A lot of people of my family are depressed, so I can imagine what are you guys going through. If you want to talk, I'm here :)
I really hope that my mum knows that the internet isn’t just full of old men trying to kidnap you and that there can be people that are making you feel better than how you felt before you met them.
same, I tried telling my mom about this and she just couldn’t accept it. Everything was taken from me two months ago and I can’t even barely talk to my online friends anymore. I miss them so much including my bestfriend. He’s genuinely kind and caring and its so painful. My online friends really helped with making me happy and the time I spent with them made me the happiest ever. Now that they’re gone im back to my old sad self.
It sucks cus then your back to square one and now everyone bombards you with all these questions and you can’t even get the space to try again and it feels like your drowning all over again over and over
Gasp* you- woahhhhhh hold on let me make a POV . POV: You’re with your at the time best friend you’ve known them for what seems forever and maybe a little crush has sparked up in you , but they seem off today and not a normal off like a careless wreck kinda off . The day goes by and you realize how late it’s gotten and it’s just you two on an empty road now watching the sunset . Your stomach fills with butterflies and you think “ Nows the time , they should know about my feelings “ just as you open your mouth to speak their phone beeps . You look over In confused , “ oh sorry about that “ they say chuckling . “It was a timer? Why would they set a timer . “ you think . They stand up putting their phone in their back pocket. And softly mutters the words “ See you later” and walk away into the darkness, you smile thinking it was a nice being out here with them . So you plan to do it again the next day ... But it’s been years, no one knows why they did it but you’ll never stop trying to find out why even after everyone has given up. :) have fun with this
"No one cares unless you're pretty or dying" Such a simple saying but it holds so much truth. To anyone who may or may not see this i hope your day gets better
I have a friend She's very pretty..soo sweet..and have a lovely personality.she died a year ago..we miss her..i came back at this comment bcs i saw this a week ago before we found her suicide note... she's tired.. she's in pain..every day i remembered those words of her's i felt disgusted in myself.. I can't even help her.. she's like my own sister..we rushed her to the hospital the day we found her lying at her bed.. she's bleeding..she cut her own wrist..
Hey, I hope you’re day gets better too and I hope you’re doing okay. We’re all lost people who need each other because only we can understand how we feel.
It has, I got outed yesterday and have had panic attacks at my friends of my family finding me, I tend to be more open in text than with words so this helps just to vent a bit
@@savv3568 Talk about it. Ask her directly if they're having thoughts of suicide. Having someone care enough to ask these questions can help save your friend's life. If your friend asks you to keep these thoughts a secret, let them know you care about them and need to share this with a trusted adult. It may feel like you're betraying your friend, but you should always tell a trusted adult.
@@anon777... yo i dont know you but thank you so much, this is like the first time someone believe in me after this past years like not to get emotional but i woukd die for you 🤚🧎
me, at 8 yo: i want to die, theres nothing left for me. I remember that thing everytime i wake up. Thats not normal i guess? Or maybe yes...i always have been strange.
I swear to you, the second I read that my shoulders dropped, my true expression showed, I never frown because I don’t like people to see me like that, but I did, because it got to me way too much. I have this friend (whom I have a crush on) and we always speak about death, about life, about stuff like that, I wish I could trust him enough to tell him the way I feel, the way it hurts
Yes, but sometimes I feel like I still want to do it but the teacher who make me feel like crying whenever I think about him, says: you guys don't kill yourself, because you're still young and you still have school, everyone in my class of course they don't want to die but I do.
parents will never understand why some of us talk to strangers online. they'll never know why we keep our bedroom doors closed, or why we prefer to be alone in "a dark room".
dark rooms give me such relaxing vibes. you r all alone, sometimes it’s even quite. i feel alright in a dark room all by myself. the problems disappear for a second. and everybody wants me to come out of my room more and go outside more...
I was forced to leave my old room and to move into a new room that had no door led to the backyard and the garage, so I put up blankets, on the door and blankets on the windows, so no light would come in, so I had some dark space to lay all day
We want you to stay, need you to stay. Some people aren’t as good with words as they’d like to be, it’s not about guilt at all it’s about keeping your lovely space here with us for as long as possible.
@@sillierthangooberous I don’t really understand why you felt the need to comment this? Like why this person is just saying something that could be relatable to a lot of people and you call them “🖤 Edgy 🖤” Im sorry I didn’t know that being depressed was being Edgy. I guess I’m just Edgy then🤷🏻♀️
When I was 12 my friend committed suicide in a bathroom stall at school. She was an amazing friend that I had the pleasure of spending about 2 years knowing. For the first time in months I broke down while listening to this song. This song reminds me of her in so many ways. I'll never forget her.
I'm so sorry that happened to you, I know a lot of people in my life that have died so I know how you feel, I promise it'll get better, it will still hurt, but not as much ❤❤
Sorry for this but; these are some of the saddest scenarios from hamilton lyrics. " I will never be satisfied." Never satisfied with your body, constantly wanting to be "better." " Suddenly im helpless!" When you're crying aggressively. Having reminders of why you aren't enough. " Eliza take your time" realizing that it takes time to heal. " It's quiet uptown." It's suffocating, being trapped in your mind.( Figurative)
trust me its not easy coming from a person who "accidentally" almost died a few times its not easy its painful and lonely and when ur already dying is the momet u realize u don't actually want to
I don't know why i'm sad. I don't have anything to be sad about. My life is fine. But everything hurts. It hurts really really bad and I don't know why. I feel so selfish for feeling like this when others have actual reasons to be sad. It hurts so bad. I'm having a panic attack. I can't breath. It's like I don't wanna live but I'm also terrified of dying so I have to go through all this pain cause I'm scared.
Your emotions are completely valid and I’m so sorry you’re in pain and it’s not selfish to feel pain or to feel hurt if you want or need to talk I’m all ears
same but i don't like how i switch moods every time it hurts inside.... MOM AND DAD: stop lieing your always happy your our baby gi- my head: i am not that "baby girl" u wanted im just want to press GAME OVER
Same and i do t know what to do, i dont want to tell anyone because then ill be bothering them but if i dont do something idk whats gonna happen. Honestly i dont even care if i live or die, i used to want to just end it but now i dont care enough to do it.
TW: mentions of suicide “Most suicidal people don’t want to end their life, that’s just the only way to end their pain.” That hit hard. edit:: hey guys! i’m almost 2 years clean and i’m proud to say i no longer relate to this comment! ilysm :)
So hey, you don’t know me but i have been suicidal since 4th grade i got over it for two years but it came back and i can say whatever I’ve done to myself i was thinking just like that and i still do sometimes. I am okay and i hope you are too💜
@@katzecollective I cant imagine how it would feel like but please stay strong! She would want you to end it too. You are not alone in this, talk with someone it will get better i promise!❤
I'm so proud of you, we're all going through a lot, and just know there will always be someone worried about you, whether you know them close, or a stranger like me, that person is and will always be there. 💞
I hesitate before I step in side my house after school every day. But the one thing I'll never forget to do is put on a smile and pretend. I think about killing myself even when I'm laughing. All my acts of 'joy' are fake. My personality is an act. I am not a person anymore.
@@milosmate oh love, I know what are you talking about, it’s going to be fine. Maybe if you thinks that your family don’t love you it’s not that, they just don’t know how to show it to you. This helped me a lot. And maybe you don’t feel safe but one day you are going to be happy and you’ll find a person that will understand you. I probably should say to you to talk but I know how hard it is, it’s been more than two years and an half and no one knows about my thoughts yet, but one day I’ll be ready. I just wanted to say that maybe if you want someone to talk to I’m here and I know that my problems are not that terrible, look I still struggle with it and I always think I am/was overacting, but maybe I can help you a little bit.
"I've got an idea, how about we become monsters? And we can tear up this rotten world together. Until there is no more evil, no more sadness, until there's nothing left. We'll break and smash and pound it into dust." Homura Akemi.
To the people that every so often come back to this video, after 2 years. I'm so proud of you for still being here after so long. You're strong. I believe in you, and soon enough, instead of listening to this song relating to it, you'll listen to it ro remember the times in which you felt like this.
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I'm not afraid to die...I'm afraid of hurting myself really bad in the process and causing further pressure on everybody...and not dying after all..
Soooo true I feel the exact same wayyy
Exactly so don’t do it and stay with me 🥺❤️✨
felt that
Same
THISS
"suicide isn't a option, but they never give you a better one"
that's hard...
Yes
therapy
@@SillyDolly sometimes therapy doesnt work, it can be too much. and not everyone has access to therapy
For real
Honestly I was buying adderrall and anti depressants so I could be ok and make them happy but then I got caught and now I might get arrested like all I wanted to do is be ok for y'all because I couldn't get a prescription and it fucks up my life more and now I realize I should've just killed myself instead
“dead people receive more flowers than the living ones because regret is stronger than gratitude.”
- anne frank
fav comment ever
Sad but true
It’s true I should’ve told my dad I loved him...
@@ilovedylanobrien3703 same with my mom.. but it will be ok
this is just me asking to please give me plants as your go to gift. or money. so i can buy plants. please. i like plants.
can we just take a moment and think about how strangers are the most supportive people to exist
oh they so are. they don't even know who you are or what you're going through but some take the time to talk to you.
The fact that there are people like you that can open our eyes to their kindness is also very nice ^·^
I want to thank you and them for the random support that I find in some of the most damaged places.
Because they don't have to take further responsibility by backing up their worlds with their actions. Because they are strangers.
bro it's so real
@nisa'#4918 if you wanna talk:>
It’s scary how many people don’t want to die, they just want to start *_living_*
That’s... honestly pretty true.
O-O
My whole life I’ve been looking for this answer, thank you.
I was feeling sad rn, but ur pfp just made my day.
Woah.... That's.... Deep.
That’s really deep...
“You can’t trust random people online!”
Those people online are the only reason I’m still here
I know it doesn’t mean much but I’m so proud of you luv :)
I can relate
Exactly how it is for me
I hope you're doing Ok! I hope all of you guys doing Ok! Y'all are Amazing💕I love you!❤️
Hey I hope you're doing a lil better, I came to tell y'all that I'm so so proud of you ❤ You may feel like you're drowing right now but you'll feel the ground under your feet soon and you'll just have to kick it as hard as you can to get up to the surface ❤ I know how strong you are, you can do it ❤
some people don't wish to die, they just wish they didn't exist.
me
Thats me for sure i didnt wanna be born since i dont remember.-
Same, don't want to die but definitely don't want to be here either
this.
Are u ok? 😔
Parents: Don't talk to strangers online, they're dangerous
Those strangers online: giving me the will to live
Relatable
I found someone on instagram and give him the will to live, he became my friend
(I still do give him will to live, plus he fuckin cute)
Facts
haha
Yeah....my parents took them away
They were my friends
It's an emotional day..
Too tired to live but too scared to die. We are just suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids that suicide is not the answer.
Aika Sakamaki how many times have I seen this comment-
yup...
it breaks my heart how many people can relate to this
This would have go viral in Tumblr
I tried to tell my mom I think about suicide like everyday but she dœsn’t want to understand this, to believe it’s real, so I just feel I’m never be understood by someone
and it sucks when you look in the mirror and say to yourself...
*“you’re just overreacting. life shouldn’t be this hard....”*
ikr :/
i’m always wondering why my life feels sm worse than other peoples. i try to gaslight myself and say i’m overreacting bc i know other ppl are going thru the exact same thing but are they really ?
felt
all the time lol : )
yeah ik :)
This feels so real that it’s scary
It will end soon. I promise you it will. Whatever you’re going through is gonna end. One day you’ll look back and you’ll be so happy that you didn’t end it all. Because you met that special someone and met those trustworthy friends. And have that job that you enjoy so much. Everything will be calm. And your heart will be at peace
yeh
@@rodainaayman4769 ur so kind
it's painful
Rodaina Ayman bro i love you
It's funny how strangers online comfort me more than my parents do.
my parents act like they understand. But they don't know anything.
@@yenym9055 My parents think i'm lying all the time, when i tell them something true. Is it because i used to lie everyday?...
@@mike_morton_simp3080 When I tell my mom about how I've been feeling lately she just listens and decides to ignore it. Then they wonder why we don't leave our rooms
The truth this sentence holds though. While I do have people I can talk to, I usually end up talking to strangers more than my parents. Somehow they understand me more than my parents can.
@@yenym9055 same. they think im just a happy teenager with no worries at all when in reality its so much more
It’s not that people wanna die, they just want to escape.
this right here
You're right.
Many still do not find the way to do it, so we resort to these thoughts so drowned and hasty that they drown us more every day. . . And more.
I am not the one to speak for everyone, in my case I think so.
Amen
True.
yeah..
"who knew strangers can be nicer than people you know"
Honestly anyone who's seeing this video is not in a good place so ill tell you what.. @prety.punk thats my instagram and if you need a friend to talk to text me please, your amazing
@@osirisgomez3833 god bless you dear
@@avo1711 no your to nice, your welcomed into my chat anytime and anyday ^^
YOUR USERNAME
Yea strangers on internet and on person are more nicer than the people I know
I wish I had a friend to talk to
mom said “don’t talk to strangers online, it’s dangerous” little did she know they helped me through a lot.
Same here
They always say that but they are the ones who actually understand and help us get through most things
Sometimes they are right, cause we live in dangerous world with many pedophile's,killer's who's trying to get information about us
yeah they do
Welp the strange people ... sometime are better than friends
im not suicidal, I just want to close my eyes without waking up from my dream
✋🏻
✋🏻
@@suryanshisinghrajpoot3713 me too I haven't had a nice dream for years
Reality shifting.
@@bad_idea4 nothing can stop you. You are stopping yourself bestie GO SHIFT
You ever feel so sad and deppressd, that you cant even cry anymore..
Willy are you okay? 🥺
And all you could do is look into the void of nothingness
I lost a few people... And for a while I had lost myself too. I would wake up every day scared that I wouldn't see the day after or that I would just lose somebody else again. I was so broken I couldn't even cry. The feeling of giving up would haunt me all the time and I was just about to stop it all. But then, i met my current best friend and he somehow got me through it all. I would have given up on life if it wasn't for him. I can't never thank him enough for what he has done and even if one day we stop talking I will never forget him. Thank you for saving me dude :,)
Luv, don’t even cmon sis (or whatever u identify as) u r just like anyone else u deserve every little thing on this planet and all the love in the world don’t let the little things bring u down it gets hard at times but I assure u it gets better I bet u hear that all the freaking time but I actually mean it I love u u will get through whatever is troubling u❤️
me.
“You aren’t depressed you’re just dramatic now act happy and go pretend you’re ok.”
-me to myself everyday
It’s okay ur not alone I do this too...
I do this a lot
lmao me too
Never related to a stranger more in my life
Please stop. Listen to yourself. You clearly need help, please talk to other people about it, close ones that understand you. If you may know the reason, talk about it... You don't deserve to be ignored, and particularly by yourself. You can also talk to me if you need, maybe i could help, or at least listen...
Take care.
at this point im not living for myself, im living for the people that claim to love me.
That's exactly how I feel
Same here.
Even though we have never met, I know you can do this, and one day you will find something for you that makes life worth living. Sometimes the pain can be unbearable, but the one good thing, is that it can also go up from there. I love you, stay safe :)
Pretty much yeah
Same. I think my friends are the only reason I'm alive. I don't want to hurt them. I've often fantasized about making them hate me, cause then it would be easier to die. However, I don't want to die. I just want to seize existence and take with me the memories everyone holds of me.
I’m not suicidal I just want to be able to close my eyes knowing it’s ok.
Me too
oof that hit hard
Feltttt
“you’re not depressed, just acting immature. take things seriously”
never think that because this is something that anyone can face. ur doing great and im so happy that ur still even alive, keep on pushing and never give up :(
You put it in quotation marks, who are you quoting
i. i feel this. i've heard this. i am so sorry that they said that to you.
@@MackieLars im not the person who commented on this but I'm sorry you heard that too ... you feel like your feelings aren't worth enough, but they do, so if you're feeling down lately, you can talk to me and I'll try to help you. ig: skmpthy
thommy !! i am very thankful that you're willing to lend a helping ear but i'm actually doing much better now. not to shun a hand that's helping but i really do appreciate it. thank you. 🥰
it sucks when people you've never met make you feel safer than your family
I want to reply to you but its so true that i have no words.
That's only because unlike your family, you don't know how dark those strangers can get.
I hope u are ok and if not stay strong I need you WE need you as a community sure u might be one but thats a one in all those billions without u we have one less person and we will miss you i will defo bcs tbh ik what its like to hurt and cry but no one but u sees it i cant cry easily bcs im used to pain stay strong man we all need you
It sure does. And to me it’s felt like that ever since I was 6, people that I don’t know, Songs, art and the internet in general make me the person I am today, they make another reality that I escape too every chance I get. Because I don’t like the outside world. Because I don’t feel safe and loved by my own family and friends. But that’s just the truth, and even if it hurts I’ve come to accept the truth. I’m sorry if you feel the same way, because it’s a terrible way to feel and realisation to come to. But it’s ok, because you’ll find somebody someday or a reason to love the outside world. At least thats what I hope for... ❤️❤️
yea ,same but well i live with it ...
family: "try harder"
school: "you're just lazy"
friends: "my problems are worse than yours"
me: "do better in life."
i feel you, i really do.
It be like that I feel you😔
I might not know you but I understand and im here if you ever need anyone to talk to
I almost cried reading this.. it's so relatable.....
Fr every day is the same I can't take it anymore
"I have to go, my dad is calling me. I think I should go to him."
*But you dad is dead.*
"Exactly"
oh wow that hit
Now i am literally in tears
damn, that hit harder than a train
I-
The way this hit
This is the most depressing comment section...
the comments make me cry even harder🥺😞
Yeah. There’s a lot of broken people...
yeah, I clicked on this video for curiosity but the comment section made me break in tears
I knOW I'm just here to cope and boom, serious comments
Just let me make my suicide jokes in peace
Hey, I cut myself just because I have access to razors, im not sad, I just like blood, I bite My self wen Im scared, have a good day
the crying makes this really realistic
oh wait thats me
wait another voice oh thats you
@@landreeallen6000 kepp it quiet guys...lets just vibe no more talking and explaining, only vibe
How are you?
Are you okay..?
@@melissavicky7121 hey bro you mind if I get your opinion on this track it would really mean a lot th-cam.com/video/8Jx90DF51vs/w-d-xo.html
"Don't talk to strangers"
Me: *Looks at my online friends who gave me a will to live*
parents: strangers are dangerous dont talk to them!
in reality most strangers ik: You are a reason I live let me be one of yours
Ikr my online friends are so nice to me they’re caring
How are you now? hope you're doing great(I believe you are )
@@tejaxxgaming1189 I'm doing great ^^
I have more online friends than real ones...and they all have issues, so they all understands me and I understand them..They're the only reason that I keep fighting on this never ending war.
Isn't it amazing how after a 100 years probably none of us would be here, but right now, at this moment, we're all here, listening to this beautiful masterpiece? Feeling the same pain in different forms?
Yeah
this song exists:
depressed people who just want to cry: free real estate
LMAO STOP ARE YOU LOOKING THROUGH MY SCREEN
Stopppp I'm trynna cry you're making me choke on tears
I keep my hand over my mouth because my parents would hear me cry, and I don't want them to know how I'm feeling. And I'm sitting here struggling to breathe it's hard
I can't cry no matter how hard I try I just want to feel something...anything
@@galaxyexplorer9183 I have the same problem as well. It's like I can only be happy or angry, which makes it really hard to empathize with people.
"Death must be a very beautiful place... no one has ever returned"
Some have come back and still wish to die and never return
It’s a beautiful place so beautiful that I want to go- unknown
@VIKY yeah i kinda want to go there
@stinky ⊂(・▽・⊂)💜💜💜💜💜💜❤️❤️
oh wow.
it really hits when your parents tell you “you’re not my happy little girl anymore”
I wish my parents noticed
"But now ur our lil bo peep"
Hard to hear that when your mom never notices and your dads barely around to even notice..
"What happened to the girl who used to loved tinkerbell and was so happy"
my mom said that last year, not in the same words but very similar, "what happened to my bright little girl?"
This song is so unbelievably powerful and the emotions that she capsulates is just so raw and real. It’s such a shame that her lyricism isn’t taken seriously because some of Billie’s younger fans think having depression is a cool, trendy personality trait instead of a severe mental illness.
i absolutely agree with you :(
this is so true
true
Pov:
You're sitting on a rooftop with your legs hanging over the edge. Youre listening to your favorite song one last time and watch the police cars and their sirens rushing off to save someone who isn't too far gone. Someone who still has a chance. Someone who isn't you. You tilt your face to the sky and close your eyes as the rain falls down. You take off your rings and let them fall to the ground as you let down your hair and let it blow in the wind. You can feel your heart pounding as you wipe your tears and stand up. You look over the edge and and watch as a tear falls over. One tear among a thousand beautiful raindrops. The song ends and you know these are your last few seconds. You can see your first kiss in your head, your friends laughing with you, you can smell your grandmother's cookies she would make for you every Sunday before she died and you can almost feel her kiss on your forehead. You look down at your phone and you hesitantly press play again and slowly back away from the edge, you stay on the roof all night long listening until your phone runs out of battery. As the sun start to rise you find yourself sitting on the roof still singing and although you're wet you know the storm has passed. And the sun will shine again
ouch
Aw wow I loved that 💜
omg I thought my favorite song was 'one last time' -ariana grande and I was boutta be like tru
lmao my grandma died when I was 4 and was a drug addict who never made cookies so wrong
thank u
"how do i tell the woman who gave me life that i dont want it anymore..."
Man please dont let go.... we are so proud of u and i hope u know how important you are to ur loved ones and us ❤i hope u have taken care of yourself and eaten properly ..... just remember that if u go ..... we all will miss u and u are sooo sooo important ❤❤
The number of times I’ve screamed this into the cold night air....
I promise, life gets better if you’ll just stick around to see it.
Get a notebook and write/draw in it every time something makes you smile, or take pictures, or simply write down the date it happened. Just... give yourself some physical representation of all the little things that make you feel better, so you can remind yourself that it’s not all bad, even if it feels like it.
i am just not gonna tell her i hope that make her fell less pain,that she does not know what ive been true b t w good luke i hope its get better by the time
Hey love I know it’s so hard right now and yes life is upper hard but we only have one chance of living it so please make it beautiful go party go sneak out go wake your parents up for fun,just go have fun while it lasts and tell your loved ones that you love before it’s too late and you got this your so strong I will always believe in you no matter what:)
there is no definitive way. But you cant just give it back, you have to use it up, wich takes around 80 years, possibly longer or slightly shorter. Stay strong, get help if needed. Were here waiting if you wanna talk
“We’re all just suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids not to commit...”
u right bro u right
that’s sad
that’s...quite true.
I guess we’re hoping we can save one more life before ours is over
@@dismaltie7666 that’s my point
“stop crying”
*when you yell at me for crying, it just makes it worse.*
“why are you so lazy:
*look, im trying as hard as i can.*
“i miss my happy little girl”
*well sorry that im getting sick of your crap, plus everyone’s else.*
i just wanna be happy again.
Hey I understand how you feel I'm sorry you're parents are like this I swear you will get your happiness you deserve
ur gonna make it i promise. we both are.
Same, it’s not only that, but my mom or dad can’t accept that I’m apart of LGBTQIA+
Same here..
@@itsneon3313I'll support you
Its sad when parents notice a mess in the house, but not the sadness and hurt inside your heart...
:(
i wish they knew how much it really hurts to get up and clean my room.
I don’t want to show them.(:
@@sunnyroze6604 same😩
aaahhhhhhhhhhhh 😢😔
i dont feel sad or depressed, i just feel empty at this point
How are you?
me too, at-least i can go on auto pilot and go through life now even if its just passing by
i get what you mean. i felt just like that a while ago. it's called apathy, and for me it was really damn scary. for me it was a phase. i hope you're feeling better now. i hope you can remember how to be happy.
Then try to fill yourself, I know it’s hard, but there are many wonderful things to the terrible ones in this world, so go out and live. Carpe diem (seize the moment)
narancia with depression? what will he do?
this comment section is more understanding and doesn't feel like a stranger at all. its nice to be here..(:
Agreed, we all kniw hiw eachother feel so we just feel like home
Yeah 😶 it really is
Fr these stranger are understanding my depression more than me 🙃
hope you’re good,
@@oreeeana I am trying
I’m so numb that if I receive pain either physically or mentally I would laugh. And then cry.
Me right now, i don't feel pain, i just laughed and now I'm crying 🤷🏻♀️🙁
lets just shake hands
i do the same exact thing, whether it be me breaking down or me having an episode [SH]
Same
At this point I’m just convincing myself that everyone is just as sad as I am and that this is normal
You got this baby!
Dont think you can't do it cause you're so much stronger than what you think you are. You might wanna give up everything to taste the freedom for once atleast but believe me it's not worth it.. Give yourself another chance, you deserve it
Give life another shot
It'll be alright
I love you along with millions of people on here so don't ever feel like you're alone 🖤
It's okay to feel weak and wanna give up but never forget you've got this and that we'll all get through this together :) 🖤
lmao same.
we can be sad together :)
@@bongsubs6453 same.
yes ma'am
*I don't want to live.*
"Then why are you still here?"
*I'm to scared to die..*
Can't relate i'm Not even scared to die anymore
@@nevermindnope720 Lucky
me too, i want to die but i can't
@@Katelyn-i5v yuh i'm loved but not that much they could bear it i guess and its better for e few People if i die so why not
skellita 09 Same here
im not scared to die but I’m scared of what happens after.
The fact that I’m like this....I’m just terrified of anything after death..
I don't fear death or what comes after. I'm too numb to fear.
@Kairi Chaparro25 hehe thanks
Im not scared to die, but I dont wanna let the love of my life alone in such a terrible world
Yea..
sitting on a rooftop rn, looking at the stars. it’s quite a relaxing night, no cars.. no noise. no disruptions. just me and my thoughts, yknow? part of me wishes to do a really cool anime death scene off this roof but another part of me wants to stay and live “the cool way of life.”
if you get that reference, i love you.
love you too 🤍
I love you too and it might not mean anything but hopefully your still here to read this but I don’t know you, you don’t know me but I care about you and love you soooo try to hold on plz
“why are you so lazy?“ - my parents
*i’m sorry, i lost the motivation to do anything. i’m trying my hardest.*
im here if u want to talk or we can be on the phone in silence just so u know that ur not alone
crybaby thank you
and then they yell... and get mad... and say you do nothing around the house and that you never help. that you should stop being to lazy cause if your lazy you get no where? ye .. i get it
they never understand. they are never there for me when i need them most.
what if I didn't even try? Then I have no right to behave and feel like this
This generation know how to cry without making a single sound
It's sad but true..But when we're alone(Might just be me) we tell or scream to let it out..
yea, but sometimes i just want to scream. i want to scream and cry so bad, but i cant.
I've trained myself for those nights alone in the dark
I use to cry in school silently because if everything but when I’m alone I scream and cry I just want to be free no worries or anything
is crying silently not normal?
I'm not suicidal, I just wish I could close my eyes and everything would be ok.
Everything will be okay I hope you best of luck with everything and one day your never going to stop smiling if you need someone I all ears ;)
"I'm not suicidal i just wish i would close my eyes and all the bad memories would flow out of my mind and take my scars away with it"
i wanna hug you until you feel okay
me 2, i just wanna escape this personal hell.. the only way out is exiting this cruel world, but im scared
@@kikisupremacy6692 hey listen to me exiting this world is never the answer but you could be giving this pain to someone else but you may not know that but giving up is never the answer if you need to talk I'm here to listen here I will give you a virtual hug :)
This really hits different when you're in bed with your phone and headphones in while staring at the ceiling because no matter what you do you can't fall asleep, then end up with your face wet from your tears that just won't stop.
EDIT: AND WHEN IT'S AT 3 IN THE MORNING
It really does hit different
Well at least I'm not the only one like this
@@Iavendear agree
Jokes on you, it's 2:40 for me
“When I say it doesn’t hurt me, it means I can bear it” - Killua
*INSERT SOBBING FOR KILLUA ZOLDYCK*
i mean that is the way it works.
Me every time I get ghosted by my friends
🥲
Not me wearing a killua sweatshirt sobbing 👍👍
“Death must be a beautiful journey, no one ever came back...”
"I wasn't asked to be born, but I'm afraid to die."
same
I can relate
stay strong it WILL get better so stay strong until it does!! you are so loved and amazing!! you will be so grateful and happy that you stayed because it WILL get better!! you WILL get better so stay strong until it does!! stay strong!!❤❤
"Just coz I'm carrying it well doesn't mean it's not heavy"
“what happened to my sweet happy little girl that used to wake up every morning with a smile?”
*you don’t think i miss her too?*
my mom is always saying that she want the old me to came back but I guess she doesn't know that my biggest wish is to her to came back cause I fckg miss her too
Same..! "𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑒𝑛𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑦 𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑒𝑡 𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑙𝑒 𝐸𝑙𝑙𝑎 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡𝑠 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑦-..?"
My mom never even noticed him leave
this.
Honestly what my mother says to me every day...
This song: exist
Depressed people: allow us to introduce ourselves
@Shenandoah Berghuis is nice to talk to other people to feel secure, understand, and all of that, my point there was just make a lil joke..
A lot of people of my family are depressed, so I can imagine what are you guys going through. If you want to talk, I'm here :)
@Shenandoah Berghuis that's fine :)
And thank you! You don't have idea of how much happy you made me, you're so sweet!
@Shenandoah Berghuis :3
Im so insecured ....
............
i don’t wanna die *that badly,* i just wish I never existed at all sometimes.
I feel like that every single second.
same.
I wanna disappear for a week and come back again :>
SAME
same.
I really hope that my mum knows that the internet isn’t just full of old men trying to kidnap you and that there can be people that are making you feel better than how you felt before you met them.
same, I tried telling my mom about this and she just couldn’t accept it. Everything was taken from me two months ago and I can’t even barely talk to my online friends anymore. I miss them so much including my bestfriend. He’s genuinely kind and caring and its so painful. My online friends really helped with making me happy and the time I spent with them made me the happiest ever. Now that they’re gone im back to my old sad self.
“Goodnight, i need some sleep”
*last seen: 5 years ago*
This hits hard...
This hits harder than anything I've read till nw
why u make me cwying nows
oh god thats hits so hard
dont even :')
Can we please have a moment of silence for anyone who was once here with us but sadly isn't anymore. 😔
We can
I litteraly got goosebumps reading this.
i had a friend commit suicide about three years ago...thanks for this.
RIP Joel Miller
@@grassybirb4152 I'm sorry that happened to you, I'm always here if you need to talk, I have Discord too if that helps :)
Am I the only person who isn't scared of dying but scared of failing the suicide? Only me? Well
No. I guess I am too. But eventually if I do ever fail several attempts it won’t be scary anymore...
here!
same im not afraid of dying im afraid of failing
Me too ☹️
It sucks cus then your back to square one and now everyone bombards you with all these questions and you can’t even get the space to try again and it feels like your drowning all over again over and over
a random person in the comments saying “i love you” means more than it ever did coming from my family
i love you
i love you.
Hey kiddo. I love you. Be safe, and be well. We need you here, okay?
"See you later"
Breaking News: There's been a suicide, the victim...
Gasp* you- woahhhhhh hold on let me make a POV .
POV: You’re with your at the time best friend you’ve known them for what seems forever and maybe a little crush has sparked up in you , but they seem off today and not a normal off like a careless wreck kinda off . The day goes by and you realize how late it’s gotten and it’s just you two on an empty road now watching the sunset . Your stomach fills with butterflies and you think “ Nows the time , they should know about my feelings “ just as you open your mouth to speak their phone beeps . You look over In confused , “ oh sorry about that “ they say chuckling . “It was a timer? Why would they set a timer . “ you think . They stand up putting their phone in their back pocket. And softly mutters the words “ See you later” and walk away into the darkness, you smile thinking it was a nice being out here with them . So you plan to do it again the next day ... But it’s been years, no one knows why they did it but you’ll never stop trying to find out why even after everyone has given up.
:) have fun with this
@@-nazaeri-7018 I love you, ok? Remember that please..
hey.... you ..okay? ummm if your not tell me ..........i guess
see you later
-Nazaeri - whoa.
"No one cares unless you're pretty or dying"
Such a simple saying but it holds so much truth.
To anyone who may or may not see this i hope your day gets better
I have a friend
She's very pretty..soo sweet..and have a lovely personality.she died a year ago..we miss her..i came back at this comment bcs i saw this a week ago before we found her suicide note... she's tired.. she's in pain..every day i remembered those words of her's i felt disgusted in myself.. I can't even help her.. she's like my own sister..we rushed her to the hospital the day we found her lying at her bed.. she's bleeding..she cut her own wrist..
Hey, I hope you’re day gets better too and I hope you’re doing okay. We’re all lost people who need each other because only we can understand how we feel.
It has, I got outed yesterday and have had panic attacks at my friends of my family finding me, I tend to be more open in text than with words so this helps just to vent a bit
@@mikuindasoup7202 Do you have any way of preventing this?- I have the exact same situation happening- She hasn't killed herself. Yet..
@@savv3568 Talk about it. Ask her directly if they're having thoughts of suicide. Having someone care enough to ask these questions can help save your friend's life.
If your friend asks you to keep these thoughts a secret, let them know you care about them and need to share this with a trusted adult. It may feel like you're betraying your friend, but you should always tell a trusted adult.
"Suicide doesn't end the pain, they give it to someone else"
-Good pass it back to them, they make my life is a living hell, go on .
literally i'm so done
@@anon777... But dying is now the only option left, the only option to feel something, to feel .. alive
@@anon777... lets just hang on as long as we can
@@anon777... yo i dont know you but thank you so much, this is like the first time someone believe in me after this past years like not to get emotional but i woukd die for you 🤚🧎
@@anon777... I WILL OMFG ILY
“Hurting someone’s feelings is like throwing a rock in a ocean, but do you know you deep that rock goes?”
“I’m scared to live, but I’m scared to die”
- NF
"and i don't wanna live but i'm too scared to die"
-Olivia o'brien
god his music hits so different 😔🤝
His music hits way too different, he’s so amazing. Saved my life.
"Sometimes we say that we want to disappear. But the truth is, all we want is to be found"
dang-
Damn. That hits hard.
That’s so deep😭
why do i relate to that
where is that quote from
That's true
It’s ironic to think that we were scared of death back when we were kids but when we grow up, we slowly realize that death isn’t so bad at all.
Nah, death is still pretty bad.
ouch but yea
Nah death is scary afff but so is living. So basically we’re torn. Or at least I am.
Death may be terrifying but so is being alive
me, at 8 yo: i want to die, theres nothing left for me.
I remember that thing everytime i wake up. Thats not normal i guess?
Or maybe yes...i always have been strange.
I swear to you, the second I read that my shoulders dropped, my true expression showed, I never frown because I don’t like people to see me like that, but I did, because it got to me way too much. I have this friend (whom I have a crush on) and we always speak about death, about life, about stuff like that, I wish I could trust him enough to tell him the way I feel, the way it hurts
" Hey, are you ok?"
" Yes of course, why you ask me that?"
" You know you can't lie to me right?"
That sentence really made me cry all night.
Heyy, do you need to vent to someone?
i don’t want to die. i just want to live in a dream where everything’s ok. i just want an escape.
same
Me to
I’ve never related to a comment harder than this 😔
life isn't easy, but it's worth it, okay? stay strong
We’re just suicidal kids, telling other suicidal kids that suicide isn’t the answer....
So true..
Unfortunately that is true cause we as people would never like to wish upon someone a bad life even if they were our enemy
Yes, but sometimes I feel like I still want to do it but the teacher who make me feel like crying whenever I think about him, says: you guys don't kill yourself, because you're still young and you still have school, everyone in my class of course they don't want to die but I do.
just because i want to die doesnt mean others have to
that hit hard...
My depression: just jump lol
My anxiety: But what if it hurts? What if you survive and people get disgusted by you?
you guys okay? you need to talk? im always here for you 💝💓💕💞💝
couldn't have put it into better words other than i am stuck
Jerusha D'Souza that my exact thoughts I have generalized anxiety disorder and bipolar disorder
Lmao same
Please stay strong. I Love you.
It's sad how my parents don't care about me
But my online friends care more about me they knew what I was going through they stopped me from commit.
Those are sum shmakin friends
I hope yall get really close n they help u through all your though times :)
Thnk u for continuing to breath
parents will never understand why some of us talk to strangers online. they'll never know why we keep our bedroom doors closed, or why we prefer to be alone in "a dark room".
dark rooms give me such relaxing vibes. you r all alone, sometimes it’s even quite. i feel alright in a dark room all by myself. the problems disappear for a second. and everybody wants me to come out of my room more and go outside more...
@@leahs.735 Exactly. My room is like my safe space. It stresses me out being out of it for too long.
I was forced to leave my old room and to move into a new room that had no door led to the backyard and the garage, so I put up blankets, on the door and blankets on the windows, so no light would come in, so I had some dark space to lay all day
@@RandomHeartsArt I'm so sorry, love. That sounds awful. At least the blankets came to aid though!
I hate it when they walk in and are like “open the curtains “ go downstairs you have been u here too ong” “get out of bed” “dont stay awake so late”
family: “you’re so lazy”
friends: “i feel more pain than you🙄”
school: “try harder.”
music: “it’s okay, just escape into your own reality with me”
In all honesty I can relate to this so much
I relate my teacher purposely picks on me and calls me out for being “lazy” or not taking part in activities but they don’t know what’s going on lol
and streamers 😳
@@venzq lmao ye i watch tubbo or sapnap and my day gets wayy better
@@user-cp5kx5qv8s yesss
"Suicide doesn't end the pain, they give it to someone else" do people want us to feel guilty for feeling like this?
Right like if I could I’d chose to not feel this way
@@styxsk4316 yes exactly 🤍
We want you to stay, need you to stay. Some people aren’t as good with words as they’d like to be, it’s not about guilt at all it’s about keeping your lovely space here with us for as long as possible.
@@muerte2748 🥺🥺🥺
@@persiawilson3103 ...
"I'm not afraid of death im afraid of who will take care of my mom and make sure she has everything she needs"
Living hurts.
It hurts so much that I feel like I'm dying.
it does hurt, but thats part of life.
i love you, and you are strong enough
@@bettybuehler3512 thank you, I really needed to hear that today
@@insomniac1184 im just a comment away xoxo, ur welcome.
ong
It consumes me, everything I do Im not happy anymore
This comments are so depressing. I wish I could just hold everybody who is hurt in a big hug and never let them go
Same
Same
hug me pls
@@gundhamtanakaismymom4120 -hugs-
@@gundhamtanakaismymom4120 lemme bby 🥺❤️ better things r coming
I feel like everyone is secretly sad some are just better at hiding it
well im not sad you 🖤 edgy 🖤 child
im also a child so i’m aloud to say this-
@@sillierthangooberous well atleast respect the people that are bitch
@@sillierthangooberous I am probably older than you andddd If you weren’t sad why are you here?
@@claire_bea_r claire gang! also ur right, and dont listen to her you're super valid
@@sillierthangooberous I don’t really understand why you felt the need to comment this? Like why this person is just saying something that could be relatable to a lot of people and you call them “🖤 Edgy 🖤” Im sorry I didn’t know that being depressed was being Edgy. I guess I’m just Edgy then🤷🏻♀️
When I was 12 my friend committed suicide in a bathroom stall at school. She was an amazing friend that I had the pleasure of spending about 2 years knowing. For the first time in months I broke down while listening to this song. This song reminds me of her in so many ways. I'll never forget her.
I'm so sorry for your loss..
nobody truly wishes to die, they just want their life to get better
i want to die because i know my life isnt going to get better
So you got all the answers huh?
No. I want to go to heaven.
candela valerio I understand ur not alone i cant tell u if things get better but feel free to talk if u want
@@i_am_a_rat437 nah its fine i dont want to burden you with my probkems lol
“ *It’s too late. I’m going to die, I just dont want to* ” Is the last thing the person that mattered the most ever said to me
I'm so sorry that happened to you, I know a lot of people in my life that have died so I know how you feel, I promise it'll get better, it will still hurt, but not as much ❤❤
"I love u jorrys, see you later"
Still hurts.
"I dont wanna die, I sometimes wish that i was never born at all"
~ Freddie Mercury
I really do relate
“Dying is easy living is harder”- Hamilton musical
That's why we don't have to throw away our shot 💖
Sorry for this but; these are some of the saddest scenarios from hamilton lyrics.
" I will never be satisfied." Never satisfied with your body, constantly wanting to be "better."
" Suddenly im helpless!" When you're crying aggressively. Having reminders of why you aren't enough.
" Eliza take your time" realizing that it takes time to heal.
" It's quiet uptown." It's suffocating, being trapped in your mind.( Figurative)
And I'm not throwing away my shot
@@silvershort7121 I have faith in you
trust me its not easy coming from a person who "accidentally" almost died a few times its not easy its painful and lonely and when ur already dying is the momet u realize u don't actually want to
I don't know why i'm sad. I don't have anything to be sad about. My life is fine. But everything hurts. It hurts really really bad and I don't know why. I feel so selfish for feeling like this when others have actual reasons to be sad. It hurts so bad. I'm having a panic attack. I can't breath. It's like I don't wanna live but I'm also terrified of dying so I have to go through all this pain cause I'm scared.
Your emotions are completely valid and I’m so sorry you’re in pain and it’s not selfish to feel pain or to feel hurt if you want or need to talk I’m all ears
same but i don't like how i switch moods every time it hurts inside....
MOM AND DAD: stop lieing your always happy your our baby gi-
my head: i am not that "baby girl" u wanted im just want to press GAME OVER
Same and i do t know what to do, i dont want to tell anyone because then ill be bothering them but if i dont do something idk whats gonna happen. Honestly i dont even care if i live or die, i used to want to just end it but now i dont care enough to do it.
@@te495 Me too, it really sucks. I really think you should try to get help or talk to someone about how you feel though.
@@slay.6802 yea I'm trying a little now but how the miserableness i feel feels so normal ,i cant imagine anything feeling anything else.
TW: mentions of suicide
“Most suicidal people don’t want to end their life, that’s just the only way to end their pain.”
That hit hard.
edit:: hey guys! i’m almost 2 years clean and i’m proud to say i no longer relate to this comment! ilysm :)
Hi, I know you don’t know me but I hope your ok and I want you to know that you are loved!
@@peytonmccormick8678 Thank you!
@@isa-nu6ze of course ❤️
So hey, you don’t know me but i have been suicidal since 4th grade i got over it for two years but it came back and i can say whatever I’ve done to myself i was thinking just like that and i still do sometimes. I am okay and i hope you are too💜
Not entirely true.
my parents are always asking me “where did that happy little girl go?”
idk i’m trying to find her
I think we will never find that happy little girl
uhh same
Hope u find yourself, but I also love your profile pic [Hope u have a nice day~]
They tell me the same, I feel guilty because it’s my fault she’s gone.
Oh uhh... same actually...
what if we are actually all on the rooftop, We just dont know it
everyone always is. some people are stuck further to the edge and others get to stay in the middle. it's unfair.
(Sorry if thiz joke offends anyone, its how i cope with suicidal thoughts)
Lmao
So
Thats why i always have the urge to just fall back
Wait if we each have our own rooftops how come someone came on mine and tried to push me off?
that's so deep
plot twist: Were on the rooftop of a barbie doll house.
The dislikes are understandable, not everyone can see when they're crying.
"I'm scared of death but there's no life for me to live here."
This hurt.
felt
I have this horrible fear of whatever comes after death, and yet I'm constantly pushing myself to death everyday :l
That hit my heart alot
Felt that
dude . hits different when ur in a hotel, in the city, top floor, windows open, and the sun is setting ❤️
dudee.... i wanna experience that fr fr
wh0slyn? What hotel you In where the windows open?
amir riddle its openable bro
I was in a hotel in Florida
@@amirriddle I'm in one right now and the window is open, its the romanda hotel in utah nice place, very old
I was told that in Japan, saying "sayonara" was for if you'd might not ever see that person again. It kind of makes this hit different.
my friend ended it today, this hits different.
@@katzecollective I cant imagine how it would feel like but please stay strong! She would want you to end it too.
You are not alone in this, talk with someone it will get better i promise!❤
noya-san please dont be sad you have tanaka-senpai to talk to and hug! and kiyoko to think about!
Sayonara
@@katzecollective do you need someone to talk to? me and probably all the people in the replies are right here. C:
I don't want to die in early age cause i want to fulfill my dreams but I'm tired...
keep going you’ve got this, i love you.
I can’t put my family through this, never. Why did I have to exist
I understand
Keep your promise to ever let your family feel the pain of losing someone you could have saved, ok?
I know how it feels...
I relate to this..
I know how it feels....
Family: smile more
Classmates: shut up
Friends: no existent
Music: keeping me alive
Clean: 2 weeks
I’m proud of u :)
I'm so proud of you, we're all going through a lot, and just know there will always be someone worried about you, whether you know them close, or a stranger like me, that person is and will always be there. 💞
i’m so proud for you!! you got this!!
Yo, I'm so proud :D no wayy
@Rainbowcat55 that weird kid o:
I'm so proud!! :D
“Stop. You’re going out. They can’t see you like this, now smile.”
Me to myself everyday
Hii! Are you alright? I hope you're ok❤domt forget that i love you🥺❤
yeah..you have force yourself to smile so other people dont ask you about it...it hurts
you don't have to force yourself to do that. we love you, don't forget we are here to support you💜
I hesitate before I step in side my house after school every day. But the one thing I'll never forget to do is put on a smile and pretend. I think about killing myself even when I'm laughing. All my acts of 'joy' are fake. My personality is an act. I am not a person anymore.
@@milosmate oh love, I know what are you talking about, it’s going to be fine. Maybe if you thinks that your family don’t love you it’s not that, they just don’t know how to show it to you. This helped me a lot. And maybe you don’t feel safe but one day you are going to be happy and you’ll find a person that will understand you. I probably should say to you to talk but I know how hard it is, it’s been more than two years and an half and no one knows about my thoughts yet, but one day I’ll be ready. I just wanted to say that maybe if you want someone to talk to I’m here and I know that my problems are not that terrible, look I still struggle with it and I always think I am/was overacting, but maybe I can help you a little bit.
"I've got an idea, how about we become monsters? And we can tear up this rotten world together. Until there is no more evil, no more sadness, until there's nothing left. We'll break and smash and pound it into dust."
Homura Akemi.
“See you tomorrow!!”
“...Yeah see you tomorrow “
Those were her last words
I- 🥺 Stay safe ❤️🙏🏻
are you doing okay? im here for you! 💝💞💓💝💕💝💝💞
Here if you need a friend 💕 stay strong
Her: "See you tommorow?"
Me: "No."
hey, are you okay?
I don't feel at home in my own house. I feel out of place. I feel like I don't belong. Like I'm not part of the family.
Ouch, true, this hurts. :(
I feel like i don't belongs in this world
@@spero7675 😔
@@shinz0usasagey032 It's sad but it's the truth.
@@spero7675 yup
My mum: gives me life
Me: *take it back take it back take it back*
To the people that every so often come back to this video, after 2 years. I'm so proud of you for still being here after so long. You're strong. I believe in you, and soon enough, instead of listening to this song relating to it, you'll listen to it ro remember the times in which you felt like this.
🤍