I am so sorry for your suffering.. My daughter suffers the same. She however, unable to get up on a stage. She unable to put roof over her head due to illness. Job and career loss. She has 2 children and grandchildren. I get mother cry. I am poor on housing. She can not afford a carnivore diet. Organic... She does everything possible for her health. Her co- pays. I have listened to Matt. You and Trent Horn As life long devout Catholic. My Faith never wavering. Of course can not afford to move to beach side home. Travel to Europe. Homeschool. We are very much a part of the Catholic community. Yet even in our own parishes are not seen.... Of little consequence... My 20$ wk. Probably worth more than someone's else's 200$. Sorry. I appreciate and know God gives us all different lives and purpose. You and your husband has reached millions for good of Christ. It just gets so frustrating. That even among clergy. We are faceless ... I suppose that does not matter. We are not faceless with Christ. Please be more sensitive. Matt obviously grew up in privilege. And still addicted to porn. God has used him. But many grow up in horrific deprivity. And maybe they eat to much Mc Donald's. So disconnected.
I'm very sorry to read this. I'm saying a prayer for you. My husband is in hospital for chronic illness, and we also cannot afford carnivore and a house in better weather. But I think all this makes us long for heaven more. All these things will pass away, earthly riches and fame, material comfort. All this is temporary. We fix our eyes on what is unseen. God is doing something in us and one day we will see it. One day we will see Him, with our eyes we shall see Him.
I really appreciated this video. I suffer from physical pain and from depression and anxiety. Everyday I remind myself that I must carry my crosses. Jesus suffered and so do we. Suffering is a part of this earthly life. But, I have hope that there will be no suffering in Heaven. 😊
The joy you’ll experience in Heaven is something you can’t even imagine it’s that beautiful. Please watch the warning or illumination of conscience by Christine Watkins. Then Following Padre Pio. God bless.
Thank you for this. I know the Lord has great plans for all of us. Your words and story help us so much, esp those of us with physical symptoms. God bless you and your family, Cameron
Thank you. I suffer a great deal but it's brought me closer to God. I know I'm suffering for a reason only God knows. I've cried out to him many times to help me get through, to carry me because I couldn't do it anymore and obviously he has
When I saw your talk pop up. I screamed and told my friend . Ooohhh I love this lady. After listening to this I even love your more.Thank you for your vulnerability. May our Lady grant you the smell of roses in every pain. Oh dulce Madre 🙏
Thank you for sharing. I don't suffer well either...especially when it's been self-inflicted. I'm not who I was but suffering has brought me closer to Christ blessing me with His fruits and Gifts. Prayers for you.
This is so good! I've got the same diagnoses as she does, so I get it. Embracing my cross has changed everything for me! It is like a fast lane. The only way to heaven is through calvary. Thank you for this!
@@lucky16ization beautiful! Yes but with the Gift of the Divine Will all that suffering fused with Jesus …Jesus suffering in you when you give him life in you …it becomes redemptive and a DIVINE act which is eternal ! Because Jesus us eternal so it’s not just a union with God where we just do the human will like the Saints did… it’s now a fusion with the Divine ( little Gods with God as ccc 460 tells us ) and that act is Divine and will be in action forever …this you become a co- redeemer like Mother Mary but it’s never you it’s always him doing it… but you have to sacrifice your human will … in order to do this you have to have knowledge, disposition, detachment but you can only learn about it in the Book of Heaven dictated to Luisa Piccarreta, Little daughter of the Divine Will … this is the second Pentecost, the Holy Spirit who sanctifies and it is the Divine Will that will renew the face of the earth …. Jesus has been waiting centuries and centuries to give it back to us but first he had to save us through redemption because we’re so weak and fallen but through the sacraments and his church and all the acts of the Saints and Martyrs he’s been paying and preparing us to receive this gift but we have to voluntarily give our FIAT as Mother Mary did and she guides us as well our Lady does … this is Grandiose !
Cameron, thank you for sharing your journey with us. What really resonated with me is your pointing out that without pain and suffering, we cannot become who the LORD is calling us to be. He desires to make us FULLY who we are. ~Many blessings.
I'm suffering from an ex that cheated on me. It's been 3 years and I still can't let go of the heartache and the bad past memories. Please pray for me. Thanks.
I'm sorry to hear this 😢 But just remember you're not meant to love anyone more than God. So if you're partner/ spouse cheated on you then you have to let that person go, because God doesn't want anyone obsessing over anyone else in this life. God created everyone's soul and everyone soul belongs to God. Nobody owns their own soul, that's why God is the only one that decides where you go after death. If we owned our own soul then we could decide where we go afterwards but we don't own it. So if God says to love him first before anyone else he created them follow God's commandments and let go of that person and slowly you'll find yourself healing. Just keep praying and possibly go to Adoration and stay in God's presence for as much as possible until you heal. Godbless and I hope this works for you. 🙏🙏🙏
I have been reading the Bible and seeing Jesus incredible and pure love for us. Has changed my heart and I now realize no one’s world love will compare to the father. You were beautifully and wonderfully made I pray that you feel that healing and your heart and confidence is restored.
If only we realize that we are walking miracles to many people. I have the miracle of eyesight that the blind long for. I have the miracle of breathing on my own for those who need machines to do so in hospitals. But this does not mean I don't have a cross to carry. I agree, we all have to carry our cross and offer it to share with the passion of the Lord.
In the Netherlands we developed Magnificat90 for women. We love it! It is not the suffering but growing to Jesus with the help of Saint Teresa of Lisieux
I have schizophrenia and I had religious delusions and I believed sick things about God, and... a lot of spiritual things seem to have to do with our physical bodies... like I keep hearing "you can't love what you don't know," and when I was young, I was scared when I thought about people with alzheimers who forgot about God and then suffered the end of their life... I decided God must have mercy on them and preserve the memories that allow them to grow closer to God and prepare them for a holy death. Then I got schizophrenia... I don't know what is real when I have a bad day... I experienced hearing voices, and I thought it was Jesus, and then the voice got really evil and I literally thought Jesus was evil. I just get so scared because I want my suffering to unite me to God but instead it makes me forget who God is... It makes me forget that God loves me at all... When you are suffering, it takes a lot of strength to remember Jesus' suffering and that you are loved, and when I have a bad day my thoughts get so fractured that I can't follow one thought to the next to the point that I lose my grip on reality, and long before that I don't have the ability to bring to mind that God is God and God loves me. I feel like the sicker I get the further away from God I am inside. Jesus prayed the "My God why have you abandoned me" prayer on the cross, and it confuses me so much because I don't understand how the pain of being separated from God can be redemptive, when holiness is when you're united to God. I really want to be united to God and I believe Jesus when He said that means I have to take up my cross and follow Him, but when I look up at Jesus, and He shows me that by following Him I'm walking towards this "my God why have you abandoned me" instead of "Jesus in You I can do all things, when I'm weak that is when I'm strong because You are my strength, I'm your beloved daughter and You won't ever abandon me, my shepherd won't ever lead me off a cliff" it is too hard for me to understand even when I'm healthy, and the sicker I am the harder it is to grasp things. It makes me think God is going to heal me because I'm trying to trust God and a magical healing makes it a simpler math problem for me to understand, but then when I have a bad day I feel like God broke my trust when He actually didn't, I just used interesting logic because I had a bad mental illness day. I wish that the way it works was "the sicker I am the closer I feel to God." If my illness really brings me closer to God, that makes me feel like God doesn't care if my schizophrenia delusions make me think God is a sick evil creep, He still counts it as me being close to Him even if I subjectively am experiencing believing God is an evil creep. That can't be true. God must care that my relationship with Him is a 2 way street, not Him just watching me from the outside while I'm just lost in the world of my schizophrenia and talking to hallucinations. It feels like the opposite of reading the Bible, it's like if reading the Bible is encountering God through His divine revelation, then having a schizophrenic episode is like closing the Bible, no more divine revelation, no more regular revelation because your senses are lying, it just feels like getting shoved out to sea and getting struck blind and losing your memories and thinking that's how it always has been. it's like undoing all the conversion and character development and learning and stuff that I thought was deepening my relationship with God. I don't understand how to embrace that cross. I'm trying so hard but it is so scary and confusing. And when I have like physical pain on top of all the mental and emotional anguish I can't offer it up because who do you offer it up to when you believe God is toying with you because the hallucination voice you believed was Jesus literally told you God was toying with you and that you had to believe it or else you were disobeying God. Whoever said God will never give you more than you can handle seems like they are not on the same planet I've been living on, and idk which of us has lost the plot but losing the plot seems pretty typical for me. Losing track of reality has been my cross to embrace and right now I just can't understand why it all has to be so horrible. I know I need God's mercy but it feels like He said no. And when people say God's mercy is greater than His justice then I try to believe them and it feels like I'm trying to believe a delusion because it is contradicting with my lived experience and if that is a temptation from the devil then I wish God would protect me from experiencing that kind of temptation because I'm too schizophrenic to try to make a courageous act of faith that my perceptions are wrong when I'm already busy trying to hang on to those perceptions because I can tell from my therapy and medications and doctors and stuff that those are the perceptions taht are right about the physical reality even if they're wrong about the spiritual. I just really need lots of prayers. Give me all your prayer intentions because I think God gave me a really rough cross maybe unless I'm deluded about that I'm sorry...
In a similar but different manner, I understand you. Growing up my relationships with my parents weren’t so loving so naturally it affected the way I view Jesus and Mama Mary. Then at a very young age I got diagnosed with severe JPRA & became bedridden at age 18 (I still am bedridden bc my legs are deformed & will break if I or anyone moves me) on top of that I have scrupulosity, & dealt with alot of spiritual attacks. My mind and spirit feel like a broken mirror bc on top of all that I’m dealing with demonic obsession, no sleep at al for more than a year now. I have not suffered well, I have trauma, wounds, complain & have blasphemy against God bc of the amount of suffering. In conclusion, I agree with you on disagreeing with ppl that God never gives you more that you can handle, LOL ok. And I too can relate to not knowing how to truly unite my sufferings with God. Sometimes I even feel resentment towards God but I have to remind myself that He IS love, Goodness, Mercy. That is a fact I can’t dispute even if I can’t see it. His ways our not our ways & sometimes I wonder why for many of us, abuse, trauma & torments, pain must be the way to draw closer to him? I still struggle with that, perhaps bc I don’t like suffering. But I think the fact that YOU and I are watching this video gives hope that we desire to love God & learn how to suffer well. I have not been to mass in more than 6 years bc I’m bedridden but if you’re still able to walk, I encourage you to sit in front of the blessed sacrament, I’ve heard many ppl feel Gods presence & healing there & hopefully you may find comfort there. And find a spiritual director (it’s hard bc I don’t even have one but maybe God will bless you with one). Sorry I have come on here to lay my burdens but I thank you for sharing your story bc I felt a little less alone in how I feel sometimes regarding suffering/God. I want you to know though with all sincerity, God loves YOU with an everlasting love. Your his child. And I hope one day you will allow yourself to feel loved by him completely as I hope one day i will too. God bless you!
I have severe depression and the only thing that keeps me going is the belief that offering up my suffering is helping some other soul, somehow, somewhere. If it can be used for good, then it's not all for nothing. That is my only comfort. God bless X
@@neromillie you are so courageous, those souls you offer it for are so loved, they are so blessed to have you. I’m praying that you have comfort and security and everything you need right now, physically and spiritually, just heal your whole heart
@@Aaalllyyysssaaaaa Thank you so much for your kind and sweet words, it touched my heart that you find my confidence & hope in God inspiring, that means much to me bc I didn’t even see that in myself. And yes I do have a priest who comes visits me at least twice a month for confession & he gave my mom permission to bring me the Eucharist whenever she attends mass. Though I’m really praying for a spiritual director who is able to help a little more my case & guide me, I’ve been praying it for years bc I’m just a mess haha & need help bc I’m burdened. But alas. Indeed I actually have been praying for you! And wow, I hope God may bless your marriage so much, I find marriage beautiful I hope you have a joyful marriage!! I pray the Good Lord will heal you if it be his will & grant you peace, grace and strength to continue. Thank you also for praying for me, means so much you have no idea. 🙏🏼🥹
Thank you so much for this. From what book are you reading? I'd like to read this. I have something that no one has seemed to be able to diagnose. I've suffered some days with excruciating pain and other days can walk - just as you said. No one understands. I've been going to PT for 10 straight years and they cannot understand why my muscles are in spasm no matter if they worked them all out two days before. Blood work doesn't point to anything. My husband is very supportive, and I am grateful for that. I offer all my pain for my children who are spiritually lost.
I never thought that my suffering was related to my walk with Christ. Jesus always knew what to do. He knew what to say. I thought suffering according to the Bible would come through persecution.
Read Mother Teresa's book, "Come, Be My Light"... she suffered so much and connected so much with Jesus for it, it has changed my way of seeing suffering
@@JoAnnFuir That's true, I find exercise and being outdoors to be very helpful. It doesn't make me feel good or normal, but it makes me able to function
@@thatsfunny2051 If you don't take medicine for your depression, you might want to see your doctor about it. Your doctor can prescribe an antidepressant medication for you. Just a thought...
I love this talk but when she compared the same sex attraction to a disease she lost me. I am a woman and was raised Catholic. I am very close to God, to Jesus, and Mother Mary. Unfortunately Catholicism is super patriarchal, shaming, and anti gay. I love you all dearly but just know that's why you've lost followers in your church. Many of us follow God and walk with Christ and are good people, some of us are LGBTQ and we're born that way, or women that are just as capable to be spiritual leaders. I just wanted to share my perspective. Much love. 🌈💫🤍🙏🏼
Many privileged Catholics are disconnected. I am and have always been pro- life however. Our church often drops the ball. These children do have value. Yet. Many growing up without fathers in the ghetto. Will end up in prison. Why? Just as planned patent hood is about diabolic greed. So is our prison state. Many big corps are investing in for profit private prisons. With a goal of 100% capacity. Our parish acts like a private club.. where is evangelizing. Facing reality. So many children in need of support and care. After birth
All suffering comes From Satan so why would you try to glorify It? There are over 100 hundred Bible verses that say ask for it in Jesus's name [not Mary's name] and you shall receive.
Oh, my.. you give Satan too much credit and that Mary comment does come straight from his mouth. Jesus loved his mother. So under your logic, Satan was the one who crucified Jesus so since he caused God himself to suffer then Satan won? Jesus' suffering was satanic then? I mean, he could've chosen not to suffer, but he still did. Why do you think that was?
@@DianaThermopolis You need to study the Bible more. Satan did crucify Jesus and he would have won but Jesus was resurrected so he won over death. Show me one Bible verse that says Mary has the power to do anything for you. Yes Jesus did love his mother.
@@miltonreeths522well she did get Jesus to help at the wedding feast; that being an intersession. Mary is close to Jesus, closer than any human really. Catholics ask and pray nothing in the name of Mary. Catholics do not believe that the saints are dead, they are alive in heaven with Jesus. All Glory to God!
Wow talk about ignorance… really Satan crucified Jesus? Our Lord created him …no no get this straight… you and I and all of us crucified Jesus everytime we sin we crucify him all due to our human will because we lost the Divine Will
33 minute talk… 129 pauses with “ummmmmm” giving a staggering average of 3-4 “umms” per every 60 seconds of speech. I thought the carnivore diet got you off all your meds and healed you also? Why not tell these suffering people that? Seems a bit off?
This comment is so uncharitable. She's an amazing speaker especially because she's so truthful and authentic. Why don't you post a talk and let us see how amazing of a speaker you are?
@@DianaThermopolis 🤣 I’m not a public speaker & I don’t know if I’d be very good at it. However I do know I could avoid saying “ummmmm” every 20 seconds! Nepotism is simply annoying…let’s face it, speakers are usually chosen on merit, and this is not the case here, she has speech disfluency, and it’s hard to listen to. If her surname was not Fradd she would not be a public speaker. It doesn’t matter what the context of the speech is. And excuse me, I was very charitable because I didn’t even include the amount of times she said the filler words “like” and “right?”
@@tinygold772 I respect your opinion. I do teach public speaking and am a public speaker myself. Every month or so I speak in front of at least 80 people and most days I speak before 20-30 people. I can tell by your answer that you don’t know the first thing about this subject. However, my challenge stands. Record yourself speaking in front of a crowd and see if you can do it better than she did. It’s easy to sit behind a keyboard and criticize, but where’s your testimony? About the nepo comment: Don’t be envious of her last name. She wasn’t chosen for that. She was chosen for her story and her journey. If you couldn’t see that then you need to get better at listening. Communication is a two way street. It’s sad Satan closed your ears to a beautiful testimony and instead made you prideful pinpointing things you think are wrong. I was really inspired by this talk and I know about public speaking and the Catholic faith and she did a fantastic job. Was it technically perfect? Of course not, nobody is. But judging from the comments and my own feelings after hearing her speak, she achieved what she set out to do. That’s success. It’s incredibly brave what she shared and how she shared it. If you’ve gone through half of what she’s gone through, then come on, talk about it. But criticizing someone when you are not even a speaker and don’t have the guts to do what she’s doing is very low. I don’t know Cameron personally, I don’t care what her last name is, this testimony is incredibly powerful in and of itself. She’s a powerhouse and you should know better than to criticize what you yourself have not been brave enough to do.
Redemptive suffering has changed my journey with chronic illness and is ultimately what started me on the path into the Catholic Church.
Please watch the warning or illumination of conscience by Christine Watkins. Then Following Padre Pio. God bless.
@@cammos07 keep offering your pain for the Souls in Purgatory
Blessings
Thank you, Cameron. Especially, thank you for the end prayer to our Mother Mary. And may God bless you and your family.
Listening to this after a day in a wheelchair at the hospital! The weakest and most vulnerable ive ever felt!
Suffering betters us❤
I am so sorry for your suffering.. My daughter suffers the same.
She however, unable to get up on a stage. She unable to put roof over her head due to illness. Job and career loss. She has 2 children and grandchildren. I get mother cry. I am poor on housing. She can not afford a carnivore diet. Organic... She does everything possible for her health. Her co- pays. I have listened to Matt. You and Trent Horn
As life long devout Catholic. My Faith never wavering. Of course can not afford to move to beach side home. Travel to Europe. Homeschool. We are very much a part of the Catholic community. Yet even in our own parishes are not seen.... Of little consequence...
My 20$ wk. Probably worth more than someone's else's 200$. Sorry. I appreciate and know God gives us all different lives and purpose.
You and your husband has reached millions for good of Christ. It just gets so frustrating. That even among clergy. We are faceless ... I suppose that does not matter. We are not faceless with Christ. Please be more sensitive. Matt obviously grew up in privilege. And still addicted to porn. God has used him. But many grow up in horrific deprivity.
And maybe they eat to much Mc Donald's. So disconnected.
I'm very sorry to read this. I'm saying a prayer for you. My husband is in hospital for chronic illness, and we also cannot afford carnivore and a house in better weather. But I think all this makes us long for heaven more. All these things will pass away, earthly riches and fame, material comfort. All this is temporary. We fix our eyes on what is unseen. God is doing something in us and one day we will see it. One day we will see Him, with our eyes we shall see Him.
Through adversity and pain we know better the journey of Jesus Christ! Thank you Cameron! 🙏❤️
I really appreciated this video. I suffer from physical pain and from depression and anxiety. Everyday I remind myself that I must carry my crosses. Jesus suffered and so do we. Suffering is a part of this earthly life. But, I have hope that there will be no suffering in Heaven. 😊
The joy you’ll experience in Heaven is something you can’t even imagine it’s that beautiful. Please watch the warning or illumination of conscience by Christine Watkins. Then Following Padre Pio. God bless.
Great sharing Cameron! Thank you!
Thank you for this. I know the Lord has great plans for all of us. Your words and story help us so much, esp those of us with physical symptoms. God bless you and your family, Cameron
Thank you. I suffer a great deal but it's brought me closer to God. I know I'm suffering for a reason only God knows. I've cried out to him many times to help me get through, to carry me because I couldn't do it anymore and obviously he has
Thank you Cameron. This helped me in ways I needed deeply. God Bless you.
When I saw your talk pop up. I screamed and told my friend . Ooohhh I love this lady. After listening to this I even love your more.Thank you for your vulnerability. May our Lady grant you the smell of roses in every pain. Oh dulce Madre 🙏
😊 Oh thanks so much!
Please watch the warning or illumination of conscience by Christine Watkins. Then Following Padre Pio. God bless.
@@cfraddplease watch the warning or illumination of conscience by Christine Watkins. Then Following Padre Pio. God bless.
Thank you for sharing. I don't suffer well either...especially when it's been self-inflicted. I'm not who I was but suffering has brought me closer to Christ blessing me with His fruits and Gifts. Prayers for you.
This is so good! I've got the same diagnoses as she does, so I get it. Embracing my cross has changed everything for me! It is like a fast lane. The only way to heaven is through calvary. Thank you for this!
@@lucky16ization beautiful! Yes but with the Gift of the Divine Will all that suffering fused with Jesus …Jesus suffering in you when you give him life in you …it becomes redemptive and a DIVINE act which is eternal ! Because Jesus us eternal so it’s not just a union with God where we just do the human will like the Saints did… it’s now a fusion with the Divine ( little Gods with God as ccc 460 tells us ) and that act is Divine and will be in action forever …this you become a co- redeemer like Mother Mary but it’s never you it’s always him doing it… but you have to sacrifice your human will … in order to do this you have to have knowledge, disposition, detachment but you can only learn about it in the Book of Heaven dictated to Luisa Piccarreta, Little daughter of the Divine Will … this is the second Pentecost, the Holy Spirit who sanctifies and it is the Divine Will that will renew the face of the earth …. Jesus has been waiting centuries and centuries to give it back to us but first he had to save us through redemption because we’re so weak and fallen but through the sacraments and his church and all the acts of the Saints and Martyrs he’s been paying and preparing us to receive this gift but we have to voluntarily give our FIAT as Mother Mary did and she guides us as well our Lady does … this is Grandiose !
@@lucky16ization paving*
@@AG-wh6jw What do you mean by that?
I have POTS and MCAS and a mother, so relatable. Thank you for this 🙏🏼
This was a good one to listen to. Not sure how you made it through without crying.
God bless you Cameron.
This talk is 🔥. So relatable. Thank you💜
Cameron, thank you for sharing your journey with us. What really resonated with me is your pointing out that without pain and suffering, we cannot become who the LORD is calling us to be. He desires to make us FULLY who we are. ~Many blessings.
So humbling, I needed to hear this.
I'm suffering from an ex that cheated on me. It's been 3 years and I still can't let go of the heartache and the bad past memories. Please pray for me. Thanks.
I’m sorry
I'm sorry to hear this 😢 But just remember you're not meant to love anyone more than God. So if you're partner/ spouse cheated on you then you have to let that person go, because God doesn't want anyone obsessing over anyone else in this life. God created everyone's soul and everyone soul belongs to God. Nobody owns their own soul, that's why God is the only one that decides where you go after death. If we owned our own soul then we could decide where we go afterwards but we don't own it. So if God says to love him first before anyone else he created them follow God's commandments and let go of that person and slowly you'll find yourself healing. Just keep praying and possibly go to Adoration and stay in God's presence for as much as possible until you heal. Godbless and I hope this works for you. 🙏🙏🙏
Yes we our souls belong the God , he is the creator, but we still have free will to choose him or not…so no we decide where we want to go
I have been reading the Bible and seeing Jesus incredible and pure love for us. Has changed my heart and I now realize no one’s world love will compare to the father. You were beautifully and wonderfully made I pray that you feel that healing and your heart and confidence is restored.
If only we realize that we are walking miracles to many people. I have the miracle of eyesight that the blind long for. I have the miracle of breathing on my own for those who need machines to do so in hospitals. But this does not mean I don't have a cross to carry. I agree, we all have to carry our cross and offer it to share with the passion of the Lord.
Thank you Cameron🙏
You’re welcome
In the Netherlands we developed Magnificat90 for women. We love it! It is not the suffering but growing to Jesus with the help of Saint Teresa of Lisieux
I have schizophrenia and I had religious delusions and I believed sick things about God, and... a lot of spiritual things seem to have to do with our physical bodies... like I keep hearing "you can't love what you don't know," and when I was young, I was scared when I thought about people with alzheimers who forgot about God and then suffered the end of their life... I decided God must have mercy on them and preserve the memories that allow them to grow closer to God and prepare them for a holy death. Then I got schizophrenia... I don't know what is real when I have a bad day... I experienced hearing voices, and I thought it was Jesus, and then the voice got really evil and I literally thought Jesus was evil. I just get so scared because I want my suffering to unite me to God but instead it makes me forget who God is... It makes me forget that God loves me at all... When you are suffering, it takes a lot of strength to remember Jesus' suffering and that you are loved, and when I have a bad day my thoughts get so fractured that I can't follow one thought to the next to the point that I lose my grip on reality, and long before that I don't have the ability to bring to mind that God is God and God loves me. I feel like the sicker I get the further away from God I am inside. Jesus prayed the "My God why have you abandoned me" prayer on the cross, and it confuses me so much because I don't understand how the pain of being separated from God can be redemptive, when holiness is when you're united to God. I really want to be united to God and I believe Jesus when He said that means I have to take up my cross and follow Him, but when I look up at Jesus, and He shows me that by following Him I'm walking towards this "my God why have you abandoned me" instead of "Jesus in You I can do all things, when I'm weak that is when I'm strong because You are my strength, I'm your beloved daughter and You won't ever abandon me, my shepherd won't ever lead me off a cliff" it is too hard for me to understand even when I'm healthy, and the sicker I am the harder it is to grasp things. It makes me think God is going to heal me because I'm trying to trust God and a magical healing makes it a simpler math problem for me to understand, but then when I have a bad day I feel like God broke my trust when He actually didn't, I just used interesting logic because I had a bad mental illness day. I wish that the way it works was "the sicker I am the closer I feel to God." If my illness really brings me closer to God, that makes me feel like God doesn't care if my schizophrenia delusions make me think God is a sick evil creep, He still counts it as me being close to Him even if I subjectively am experiencing believing God is an evil creep. That can't be true. God must care that my relationship with Him is a 2 way street, not Him just watching me from the outside while I'm just lost in the world of my schizophrenia and talking to hallucinations. It feels like the opposite of reading the Bible, it's like if reading the Bible is encountering God through His divine revelation, then having a schizophrenic episode is like closing the Bible, no more divine revelation, no more regular revelation because your senses are lying, it just feels like getting shoved out to sea and getting struck blind and losing your memories and thinking that's how it always has been. it's like undoing all the conversion and character development and learning and stuff that I thought was deepening my relationship with God. I don't understand how to embrace that cross. I'm trying so hard but it is so scary and confusing. And when I have like physical pain on top of all the mental and emotional anguish I can't offer it up because who do you offer it up to when you believe God is toying with you because the hallucination voice you believed was Jesus literally told you God was toying with you and that you had to believe it or else you were disobeying God. Whoever said God will never give you more than you can handle seems like they are not on the same planet I've been living on, and idk which of us has lost the plot but losing the plot seems pretty typical for me. Losing track of reality has been my cross to embrace and right now I just can't understand why it all has to be so horrible. I know I need God's mercy but it feels like He said no. And when people say God's mercy is greater than His justice then I try to believe them and it feels like I'm trying to believe a delusion because it is contradicting with my lived experience and if that is a temptation from the devil then I wish God would protect me from experiencing that kind of temptation because I'm too schizophrenic to try to make a courageous act of faith that my perceptions are wrong when I'm already busy trying to hang on to those perceptions because I can tell from my therapy and medications and doctors and stuff that those are the perceptions taht are right about the physical reality even if they're wrong about the spiritual. I just really need lots of prayers. Give me all your prayer intentions because I think God gave me a really rough cross maybe unless I'm deluded about that I'm sorry...
In a similar but different manner, I understand you. Growing up my relationships with my parents weren’t so loving so naturally it affected the way I view Jesus and Mama Mary. Then at a very young age I got diagnosed with severe JPRA & became bedridden at age 18 (I still am bedridden bc my legs are deformed & will break if I or anyone moves me) on top of that I have scrupulosity, & dealt with alot of spiritual attacks. My mind and spirit feel like a broken mirror bc on top of all that I’m dealing with demonic obsession, no sleep at al for more than a year now. I have not suffered well, I have trauma, wounds, complain & have blasphemy against God bc of the amount of suffering. In conclusion, I agree with you on disagreeing with ppl that God never gives you more that you can handle, LOL ok. And I too can relate to not knowing how to truly unite my sufferings with God. Sometimes I even feel resentment towards God but I have to remind myself that He IS love, Goodness, Mercy. That is a fact I can’t dispute even if I can’t see it. His ways our not our ways & sometimes I wonder why for many of us, abuse, trauma & torments, pain must be the way to draw closer to him? I still struggle with that, perhaps bc I don’t like suffering. But I think the fact that YOU and I are watching this video gives hope that we desire to love God & learn how to suffer well. I have not been to mass in more than 6 years bc I’m bedridden but if you’re still able to walk, I encourage you to sit in front of the blessed sacrament, I’ve heard many ppl feel Gods presence & healing there & hopefully you may find comfort there. And find a spiritual director (it’s hard bc I don’t even have one but maybe God will bless you with one).
Sorry I have come on here to lay my burdens but I thank you for sharing your story bc I felt a little less alone in how I feel sometimes regarding suffering/God.
I want you to know though with all sincerity, God loves YOU with an everlasting love. Your his child. And I hope one day you will allow yourself to feel loved by him completely as I hope one day i will too.
God bless you!
@@Blossom13745 it's so inspiring to see someone else going through that kind of darkness and still having so much hope and confidence in God
I have severe depression and the only thing that keeps me going is the belief that offering up my suffering is helping some other soul, somehow, somewhere. If it can be used for good, then it's not all for nothing. That is my only comfort. God bless X
@@neromillie you are so courageous, those souls you offer it for are so loved, they are so blessed to have you. I’m praying that you have comfort and security and everything you need right now, physically and spiritually, just heal your whole heart
@@Aaalllyyysssaaaaa Thank you so much for your kind and sweet words, it touched my heart that you find my confidence & hope in God inspiring, that means much to me bc I didn’t even see that in myself. And yes I do have a priest who comes visits me at least twice a month for confession & he gave my mom permission to bring me the Eucharist whenever she attends mass.
Though I’m really praying for a spiritual director who is able to help a little more my case & guide me, I’ve been praying it for years bc I’m just a mess haha & need help bc I’m burdened. But alas.
Indeed I actually have been praying for you! And wow, I hope God may bless your marriage so much, I find marriage beautiful I hope you have a joyful marriage!! I pray the Good Lord will heal you if it be his will & grant you peace, grace and strength to continue. Thank you also for praying for me, means so much you have no idea. 🙏🏼🥹
Thank you so much for this. From what book are you reading? I'd like to read this. I have something that no one has seemed to be able to diagnose. I've suffered some days with excruciating pain and other days can walk - just as you said. No one understands. I've been going to PT for 10 straight years and they cannot understand why my muscles are in spasm no matter if they worked them all out two days before. Blood work doesn't point to anything. My husband is very supportive, and I am grateful for that. I offer all my pain for my children who are spiritually lost.
I never thought that my suffering was related to my walk with Christ. Jesus always knew what to do. He knew what to say. I thought suffering according to the Bible would come through persecution.
Read Mother Teresa's book, "Come, Be My Light"... she suffered so much and connected so much with Jesus for it, it has changed my way of seeing suffering
I want to know how to manage the suffering associated with low mood/depression
I take Zoloft for my Depression and Anxiety Disorder. It helps me to function. Prayer also helps and so does exercise and being in the outdoors. 😊
@@JoAnnFuir That's true, I find exercise and being outdoors to be very helpful. It doesn't make me feel good or normal, but it makes me able to function
@@thatsfunny2051 If you don't take medicine for your depression, you might want to see your doctor about it. Your doctor can prescribe an antidepressant medication for you. Just a thought...
Could I please request prayers for my marriage, my husband's spiritual and psychological healing and that I may get a good job soon. Thank you.
1 timoteo 2:12
Please watch The Passion of the Christ.
God does not want us to suffer
no he doesn't 😢 and yet we must learn to navigate through it when bad things inevitably happen because we are not in heaven yet ❤
@@leafletanon we are seated in Heavenly Places, and we have authority over what the devil throws at us
If he didn’t want us to suffer then he wouldn’t have made his only son suffer.
@@el.j.guerrero what about Isaiah 53:5. He took the suffering do we don't have to suffer
He saved us from the ultimate suffering which is being apart from
Him!! Praise be to Jesus who gives us the grace to pick up our cross daily
Protestant’s are NOT Christian! And they are NOT our so called separated brethren! Only Jesus can found a Church NOT man!
I love this talk but when she compared the same sex attraction to a disease she lost me. I am a woman and was raised Catholic. I am very close to God, to Jesus, and Mother Mary. Unfortunately Catholicism is super patriarchal, shaming, and anti gay. I love you all dearly but just know that's why you've lost followers in your church. Many of us follow God and walk with Christ and are good people, some of us are LGBTQ and we're born that way, or women that are just as capable to be spiritual leaders. I just wanted to share my perspective. Much love. 🌈💫🤍🙏🏼
Many privileged Catholics are disconnected. I am and have always been pro- life however. Our church often drops the ball. These children do have value. Yet. Many growing up without fathers in the ghetto. Will end up in prison. Why? Just as planned patent hood is about diabolic greed. So is our prison state. Many big corps are investing in for profit private prisons. With a goal of 100% capacity. Our parish acts like a private club.. where is evangelizing. Facing reality. So many children in need of support and care. After birth
Jesus did not intend for His Church to be a private club.
All suffering comes From Satan so why would you try to glorify It? There are over 100 hundred Bible verses that say ask for it in Jesus's name [not Mary's name] and you shall receive.
Oh, my.. you give Satan too much credit and that Mary comment does come straight from his mouth. Jesus loved his mother. So under your logic, Satan was the one who crucified Jesus so since he caused God himself to suffer then Satan won? Jesus' suffering was satanic then? I mean, he could've chosen not to suffer, but he still did. Why do you think that was?
@@DianaThermopolis You need to study the Bible more. Satan did crucify Jesus and he would have won but Jesus was resurrected so he won over death.
Show me one Bible verse that says Mary has the power to do anything for you.
Yes Jesus did love his mother.
@@miltonreeths522well she did get Jesus to help at the wedding feast; that being an intersession. Mary is close to Jesus, closer than any human really. Catholics ask and pray nothing in the name of Mary. Catholics do not believe that the saints are dead, they are alive in heaven with Jesus. All Glory to God!
Wow talk about ignorance… really Satan crucified Jesus? Our Lord created him …no no get this straight… you and I and all of us crucified Jesus everytime we sin we crucify him all due to our human will because we lost the Divine Will
@@AG-wh6jw And who is the source of all sin? Not as ignorant as you think.
33 minute talk…
129 pauses with “ummmmmm”
giving a staggering average of 3-4 “umms” per every 60 seconds of speech.
I thought the carnivore diet got you off all your meds and healed you also? Why not tell these suffering people that? Seems a bit off?
This comment is so uncharitable. She's an amazing speaker especially because she's so truthful and authentic. Why don't you post a talk and let us see how amazing of a speaker you are?
@@DianaThermopolis 🤣 I’m not a public speaker & I don’t know if I’d be very good at it. However I do know I could avoid saying “ummmmm” every 20 seconds! Nepotism is simply annoying…let’s face it, speakers are usually chosen on merit, and this is not the case here, she has speech disfluency, and it’s hard to listen to. If her surname was not Fradd she would not be a public speaker. It doesn’t matter what the context of the speech is. And excuse me, I was very charitable because I didn’t even include the amount of times she said the filler words “like” and “right?”
@@tinygold772 I respect your opinion. I do teach public speaking and am a public speaker myself. Every month or so I speak in front of at least 80 people and most days I speak before 20-30 people. I can tell by your answer that you don’t know the first thing about this subject. However, my challenge stands. Record yourself speaking in front of a crowd and see if you can do it better than she did. It’s easy to sit behind a keyboard and criticize, but where’s your testimony?
About the nepo comment: Don’t be envious of her last name. She wasn’t chosen for that. She was chosen for her story and her journey. If you couldn’t see that then you need to get better at listening. Communication is a two way street. It’s sad Satan closed your ears to a beautiful testimony and instead made you prideful pinpointing things you think are wrong. I was really inspired by this talk and I know about public speaking and the Catholic faith and she did a fantastic job. Was it technically perfect? Of course not, nobody is. But judging from the comments and my own feelings after hearing her speak, she achieved what she set out to do. That’s success. It’s incredibly brave what she shared and how she shared it. If you’ve gone through half of what she’s gone through, then come on, talk about it. But criticizing someone when you are not even a speaker and don’t have the guts to do what she’s doing is very low.
I don’t know Cameron personally, I don’t care what her last name is, this testimony is incredibly powerful in and of itself. She’s a powerhouse and you should know better than to criticize what you yourself have not been brave enough to do.
Are you doing okay over there?
@@thatsfunny2051 you know you really are not living up to your name 😀