I have often wanted Awakening for “others” close to me. Watching this video…I no longer wish this kind of terror/bliss rollercoaster on anyone who is not seeking it. Thanks for helping me drop that “helper” illusion for good 🙏❤️
That startling discovery that "I want people around me to be awake so I can feel comfortable and not challenged" 🙂It's a really freeing, if initially uncomfortable, moment when that motive comes fully into view.
Just wow! THIS, right here, this IS my experience. This is the battle for close to a year. This is what I’m habitually saying no to. This is where I’m stuck, this is where the story keeps replaying with no solution, this is where the mind just wants to manipulate. It’s so deep and so heavy. I’ve said I will need counseling when this is over in the material world because it’s changing something inside me and I can’t tell if it’s a good change or a bad change. I can’t tell if it will leave me in fear or hatred.
Just over a year ago, I began using the FetterWork method/model that Pernille Damore and Todd Lent use and teach. After many years of traditional Buddhist practice and teachings, things accelerated quickly, relatively speaking. After the first fetter dropped last July, motivation for most everything evaporated. This largely seems to center around all the things I enjoy, and even have passion for. I've been resisting this, fighting against it for almost a year. Upon hearing this, I wonder if what you're talking about here isn't the explanation for what I've been dealing with. I'm going to need to listen to what you're saying here at least twice. I'm not sure of it, but it sounds like you're explaining what has been happening to me.
Yep yep yep! I’ve been noticing this and calling it a ‘backlash’ or backdraft - it’s as if the old defence systems/identity senses it’s losing territory and arises with extra vigour to try to regain the lost ground by grabbing my attention. Happens most often when Ive spent time feeling stabilised in the new expansive state. Then wham. Everything goes from totally perfect to everything seems wrong, wrong house, wrong, job, wrong everything….and an avalanche of worries appear. I was wondering if I was imagining this pattern so this was very reassuring to hear this morning thank you. I see it with my therapy clients (kind of the same in all expansion into potential and the change that entails I think?) when they start to get better, that resistance. I address that right way from the start and I encourage compassion to those parts that thought they were looking after them all their lives, and build confidence towards a ‘thank you but I got this now’. Do you think a sense of compassion towards those resistant bits at this level is appropriate too? Or is that too ‘something’ for going o to ‘nothing’?!
Absolutely , compassion is never the wrong answer. At some point however it becomes clear that these resistance patterns that are naturally uncovered with expansion, are also just reality waking up to itself so compassion turns into something like reverence.
Everything in its time and place- and this is the time and place! Precisely(!) and with precision connection for this One, seemingly present here. We are SO grateful for this reassurance. SO supported. If you are reading this, keep trusting! You got this, you are this!!
Thanks for pointing me here. I wrote you on a different video and you recommended I watch. The objective event in my life is becoming a father and husband. And then all the financial/house/relationship situations that come with it that I am resisting deeply. Even blaming this for messing up my enlightenment 😂 And generally blaming my partner and circumstances.. Sometimes also feels that I am resisting the way I handle it, self critisism etc.. It does seem to be all about control, and seeing I can't really handle it! Which brings up fear and depression. That I can't be okay with everyone and everything, its not in my hands, and seeing that this is something I was trying to handle all along with huge amounts of pressure and suffering. So still struggling.. But it becomes clearer that there is no one and nothing to blame which helps to take responsibility and internalize. Which in a way is painful to admit, but also the only way out. It's really nice to hear your words, as I was exactly thinking that this whole waking up business is going haywire and completely wrong, after it being a source of refuge for a long time. ❤️
My brain , is ,again,experiencing the collapse of the ego structure, it’s an amazing feeling , everything falls down, structures of the trickster and her (seemingly) endless games. I feel a more ‘ heavy’ brain but not necessary is this negatif it’s more a equanimity and grounding , wholeness 💗
Wow! This really hit home. What you conveyed in this video is so real to me. It feels like this one issue that I have dealt with,and thought it was behind me ,keeps rising up. More so since I have said, I want to wake up. This is something that is very hard to sit with. I will probably have to time my time sitting with this. I’m scared it will overpower me. Hope this makes sense. Thank you so very much 🙏
It’s always freedom on “the other side”, but the limited view of false constructs makes it appear far scarier than the eventuality. Just another version of the fear of letting go of our expectations, mistrust of life etc.
Interesting! I have just recently found you and started listening to you and reading your book. I haven’t experienced anything like this but I feel something deep going on whether I listen or read. There seems to be a deep connection of some kind. I guess I had surrendered to the idea I’m on the awakening path but haven’t felt it imminent so keep myself in the path of grace and realize even my desire for it as grace. I am content to stay committed no matter what, I feel the end result is assured but see spiritual growth as eternal expansion and awakening just a steppingstone on that path. Thanks for commitment to those of us on the path.🙏❤️
Simply Always Awake - he felt like a pressure release valve. I am feeling some trepidation on this journey. I have been searching for the nature of “I” and the nature of reality since childhood and have always had a feeling of rejection towards approaching a guide/mentor/teacher, trusting more in my own intuition and path. Your communication feels more like a friendly face, waving from the opposite bank, telling me there are places to cross and how to spot them. I now have to deal with my caution of the water and what it may wash from me. Thank you Angelo. Also, thanks to Zdogg for having you as a guest and to covid for introducing me to his passion in a grounded open communication.
Jessica, I am from a family of dancers. My sister was Royal Ballet, my grandparents were Ballroom teachers, but I’m afraid I didn’t get that gene, it is missing from me LOL The creative gene was very strong for me, but I have no inclination to dance.
The “doer” and “seeker” in me feel they are getting stronger. I am experiencing these intense thoughts of failing at this- I am trying too hard, I’m doing it wrong, I’m resisting too much. I feel like even more of a prisoner in my own mind and body. These are all thoughts, but I can’t seem to separate myself from them. I feel so disoriented and lost. I feel like I am in a huge battle with myself and I don’t see how this can improve because I have come to a complete standstill. I have only just begun this “path” and am feeling overwhelmed and alone. Will it get better? Am I making this harder than it needs to be?
Watching this video around the 14:40 mark I feel a struggle between the desire to drop further perceptual filters and what feels like a survival-based need to retain agency. There's a fear of becoming placidly accepting of situations that won't have good outcomes if I renounce the option to say No. I think it's better to retain the option and understand what my actual reasons are for saying No... and then decide whether to keep the No or to drop it in that situation. I don't think the appropriateness of saying No can be generalized.
Hello Angelo. I usually have this experience in the small hours of the night. Again last night before seeing this video in the morning! It's like the split self is making something up about something it knows nothing about so it can stay afraid and separate. It seems helpful to stay with the experience without judgment to see through the spell.
This brought up a memory of whenI went into labor and it was so painful and I asked my OB if I could take something to stop it. But no, I had to go through it.
Well this whole not resisting thing is a bit of a bummer for me. I feel like that's what I'm meant to do, resist things that I find to be wrong. If an idea is wrong to me I resist it. If I'm being pushed into doing things I know are wrong I resist. I've never been big on trends. If the group is going one way I go the other way. I go against the flow, not with it, because I've always cherished my sense of being an individual Being in control is also very important to me due to the abuse I suffered as a child. I need to control people and events, or at least know that if I need to I can. It's not out of a desire for power or personal gain, but it's the only way I can feel safe since at one time I had no control at all and suffered greatly at the hands of someone else. So this idea that I must surrender and not resist couldn't be farther than what I think I am. Well it's not written anywhere that the process has to change to accommodate me so appears like I'll have to get over it.
Being aware of all of that as such is more important than you probably realize. The ability to see how identity structures have formed and being honest about it is actually pretty rare.
Also in practical terms acceptance and surrender don’t mean you’re a pushover or a victim, not at all. They just open up far more possibilities than seem available with a more narrowly defined identity structure. The knowledge gained from being a survivor doesn’t go away, it just doesn’t have to control and define who you are 😊
Yes, it seems to take over "something"! That means that the ox finds the "way" on its own? Just let go of, the reins? What "takes the lead" is the "uninvolved", the "unknown"? Is the job done ... can I dance? 🐂💃
Loved this one as well! Your video quality is so good I feel like I can almost tune into your words better - then Im not really even listening and feeling it all fall away. Weird that video resolution helps : )
I was so disciplined for so long and when I had a shift , I feel like I just completely surrendered because I realized there was nothing I could do .. I denied myself a lot of experience that now I’m like hey let me enjoy it
You may well be on the “other side” of this fixation. Sometimes we carry the discipline , self denial etc, farther than is necessary. At some point the realization carries itself forward and what a joy it is to not have to “do” anything anymore, finding that innocent interest in the depths of unfiltered reality is all that’s needed to penetrate all perceptual barriers. 😀
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake lmao “I”,” I” use “I” when “i” describes my story , in reality I am the no-thing , the formless in the form, “i” is a thought, an illusion, as is the thinker . Words suck lmao
Even the movement of attention is something that comes and goes, obviously. So my question is; Is what you are trying to point to 'something' that is 'here' even before I was born and after I die and in deep, unconscious sleep??
Awesome. Is that integrated the indeterminacy, flow and freedom will be found to be none other than the physical world. And the physical world none other than the interplay of vivid senses , all interrelated and of one essence-less essence :)
"This is when things take unexpected turns in our life." If I'm understanding you correctly, awakening has visible effects (or at least correlations) in one's "external reality?" Thank you for this video!
Absolutely, at some point this becomes undeniably obvious. I think the sixth oxherding picture ilustrtes this beautifully: Mounting the bull, slowly I return homeward. The voice of my flute intones through the evening. Measuring with hand-beats the pulsating harmony, I direct the endless rhythm. Whoever hears this melody will join me. Comment: This struggle is over; gain and loss are assimilated. I sing the song of the village woodsman, and play the tunes of the children. Astride the bull, I observe the clouds above. Onward I go, no matter who may wish to call me back. This may sound like he's climbing onto the bull voluntarily, but the original woodblock showed him sitting backwards on the bull! Very illustrative in its poetic way. Once he's up there, might as well play the flute eh?
What's your take on kundalini? My kundalini process is teetering on completely clearing my body imminently and I never planned it this way. I had to go into spontaneous yoga postures and breath work the past year solid. I'm doing this and meditation 10 hours a day now, sprinting to clear my body. I'm almost cracking mentally in attempts to "get somewhere" because I'm back to work in 1.5 months. I might not even be functional when I transition into unity haha. Heck, I ravenously learned everything from Nisargadatta initially - obviously a different approach. A completely full kundalini clearing is relatively rare and the following refinements into enlightenment, I'm guessing, will give me the nothingness and fullness simultaneously, rather than a dry void with no bliss. And shaktipat, as crazy as it sounds, has been an enormous boost. I would not have believed this shit was real a few years back.
Awesome... yeah for some the kundalini movements are very pronounced. It sounds like you trust what is happening and intuit its intelligence so nothing to "do," but let it play out. You seem to have good insight as far as "middle way." I have nothing to add, this is a natural process :) The key is to trust it and not get in its way, try to control anything, or make it into what you think it is. You're in a good place ☺
@Nick Wilson what's your email? I have excellent people and some zoom groups that'll get your kundalini sorted. The resources aren't just informational, they will be tangible.
Doubt is bizarre. Not like anger, where there is heat, pressure, contraction, strong vibration etc. Seems to be purely thought-based yet very, very sticky with a "this is me" and "real" type quality. An unlocatable "tone". Nisargadatta gives repeated pointers to just discard it. It's a weird one to inquire into.
Ha! Well the best way is to put your info into the form at books.simplyalwaysawake.com where all retreat announcements are sent out :) Haven't planned public retreat this year yet but will soon likely
YES. Thanks for addressing this weird no-man’s land state!! After an excruciating childhood, depressed 20’s and sprinting towards the “safety“ of a professional career, mortgage and marriage only to discover that this whole identity and its crises was a steaming pile of BS feels like a cruel joke- like WTH is this body-mind even here?! Really pissed and feeling nihilistic. This state also feels kind of flat- like what’s the point of doing anything other than the bare minimum to be comfortable until the sweet release of death alternating with occasional moments of simple, intense joy at watching a butterfly or hummingbird feed on my pollinator garden or moments of emotional intimacy with my husband. This has been going on for months now. Kinda going through the motions here hoping that no one notices that I don’t give a F about anything anymore 🫠Any suggestions Angelo on how to navigate this phase?
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake Thank you! 🙏 There IS the reactivity of a "doer" ego - now really angry at being exposed as fairly irrelevant. The disillusionment you mention at 17:30 in your "Buddhism | Three Treasures" video is spot on; likewise the antidote - reverence for the unbelievable GRACE of this awakening happening in this body-mind. I have longed for liberation from suffering for decades and often fallen to my knees in tearful gratitude for finally finding Awakening. Thank you for reminding me of this!!!
Somewhat of a challenging topic, but in the end it turns out to be a major turning point for most people.
I have often wanted Awakening for “others” close to me. Watching this video…I no longer wish this kind of terror/bliss rollercoaster on anyone who is not seeking it. Thanks for helping me drop that “helper” illusion for good 🙏❤️
Whoopee someone else on the same terrifying exhilarating Ride
That startling discovery that "I want people around me to be awake so I can feel comfortable and not challenged" 🙂It's a really freeing, if initially uncomfortable, moment when that motive comes fully into view.
Also there's no freewill so people will or wont wake up anyway..
Very helpful, appreciate your work always 🙏🏼🙏🏼
Just wow! THIS, right here, this IS my experience. This is the battle for close to a year. This is what I’m habitually saying no to. This is where I’m stuck, this is where the story keeps replaying with no solution, this is where the mind just wants to manipulate. It’s so deep and so heavy. I’ve said I will need counseling when this is over in the material world because it’s changing something inside me and I can’t tell if it’s a good change or a bad change. I can’t tell if it will leave me in fear or hatred.
feeling all of this is NO fun .... BUT it's grace. You feel it so you are not unconscious to it. There is a finite amount of these experiences...
Just over a year ago, I began using the FetterWork method/model that Pernille Damore and Todd Lent use and teach. After many years of traditional Buddhist practice and teachings, things accelerated quickly, relatively speaking. After the first fetter dropped last July, motivation for most everything evaporated. This largely seems to center around all the things I enjoy, and even have passion for. I've been resisting this, fighting against it for almost a year. Upon hearing this, I wonder if what you're talking about here isn't the explanation for what I've been dealing with. I'm going to need to listen to what you're saying here at least twice. I'm not sure of it, but it sounds like you're explaining what has been happening to me.
Great! More terrifying suffering to end the suffering!! 😅
😅😅
The only way out is in 😎
😄❤️👍
I don't doubt what's being said.Its a world of difference living from these realizations than trying to understand and see them.
Indeed!
Awesome background
Couldnt stop following the light
Thanks man… that’s the REAL transmission 😎
Yep yep yep! I’ve been noticing this and calling it a ‘backlash’ or backdraft - it’s as if the old defence systems/identity senses it’s losing territory and arises with extra vigour to try to regain the lost ground by grabbing my attention. Happens most often when Ive spent time feeling stabilised in the new expansive state. Then wham. Everything goes from totally perfect to everything seems wrong, wrong house, wrong, job, wrong everything….and an avalanche of worries appear. I was wondering if I was imagining this pattern so this was very reassuring to hear this morning thank you. I see it with my therapy clients (kind of the same in all expansion into potential and the change that entails I think?) when they start to get better, that resistance. I address that right way from the start and I encourage compassion to those parts that thought they were looking after them all their lives, and build confidence towards a ‘thank you but I got this now’. Do you think a sense of compassion towards those resistant bits at this level is appropriate too? Or is that too ‘something’ for going o to ‘nothing’?!
The TS Eliot line ‘ A condition of complete simplicity, costing not less than everything’ always stuck in my mind for what lay ahead.
Absolutely , compassion is never the wrong answer. At some point however it becomes clear that these resistance patterns that are naturally uncovered with expansion, are also just reality waking up to itself so compassion turns into something like reverence.
@@Susan-ol4ys TS is right on the money there
Gratitude.
I am laughing so hard at the end. Well done.
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Everything in its time and place- and this is the time and place! Precisely(!) and with precision connection for this One, seemingly present here. We are SO grateful for this reassurance. SO supported. If you are reading this, keep trusting! You got this, you are this!!
Thanks for pointing me here.
I wrote you on a different video and you recommended I watch.
The objective event in my life is becoming a father and husband.
And then all the financial/house/relationship situations that come with it that I am resisting deeply. Even blaming this for messing up my enlightenment 😂
And generally blaming my partner and circumstances..
Sometimes also feels that I am resisting the way I handle it, self critisism etc..
It does seem to be all about control, and seeing I can't really handle it!
Which brings up fear and depression.
That I can't be okay with everyone and everything, its not in my hands, and seeing that this is something I was trying to handle all along with huge amounts of pressure and suffering.
So still struggling.. But it becomes clearer that there is no one and nothing to blame which helps to take responsibility and internalize. Which in a way is painful to admit, but also the only way out.
It's really nice to hear your words, as I was exactly thinking that this whole waking up business is going haywire and completely wrong, after it being a source of refuge for a long time.
❤️
Your authenticity is refreshing :)
My brain , is ,again,experiencing the collapse of the ego structure, it’s an amazing feeling , everything falls down, structures of the trickster and her (seemingly) endless games. I feel a more ‘ heavy’ brain but not necessary is this negatif it’s more a equanimity and grounding , wholeness 💗
Wow! This really hit home. What you conveyed in this video is so real to me. It feels like this one issue that I have dealt with,and thought it was behind me ,keeps rising up. More so since I have said, I want to wake up. This is something that is very hard to sit with. I will probably have to time my time sitting with this. I’m scared it will overpower me. Hope this makes sense. Thank you so very much 🙏
It’s always freedom on “the other side”, but the limited view of false constructs makes it appear far scarier than the eventuality. Just another version of the fear of letting go of our expectations, mistrust of life etc.
Love the shirt as Seinfeld is about nothing.
😂. Indeed !
That is beautiful. thank you/me
Just brilliant 🤓
Very helpful. This is exactly where I am. 🙏
So great ~ thank you 🙏
The ending of this video reminded me not to take life too seriously 😂. Like I was focusing hard and then...
thanks for staying till the end... wondered if anyone had 🙃
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake i watch all your videos until the end, they're gold. thank you for what you are doing. or your character is doing haha
@@johntayor9511 welcome 😁
Yes. I laughed out loud at the dancing dragon. Thanks Angelo.
Interesting! I have just recently found you and started listening to you and reading your book. I haven’t experienced anything like this but I feel something deep going on whether I listen or read. There seems to be a deep connection of some kind. I guess I had surrendered to the idea I’m on the awakening path but haven’t felt it imminent so keep myself in the path of grace and realize even my desire for it as grace. I am content to stay committed no matter what, I feel the end result is assured but see spiritual growth as eternal expansion and awakening just a steppingstone on that path. Thanks for commitment to those of us on the path.🙏❤️
Awesome! This will go well for you with that commitment and sincerity :)
thank you. this is really helpful.
Connected so well with you on this, Thank you Angelo 💗
Welcome!
Watching this video, makes feel absolute terror that the worst fear of this ‘I’will come true.
Turns out more than ok in the end :)
I feel the dancing dinosaur grasped it fully
Yes!
Simply Always Awake - he felt like a pressure release valve.
I am feeling some trepidation on this journey.
I have been searching for the nature of “I” and the nature of reality since childhood and have always had a feeling of rejection towards approaching a guide/mentor/teacher, trusting more in my own intuition and path.
Your communication feels more like a friendly face, waving from the opposite bank, telling me there are places to cross and how to spot them. I now have to deal with my caution of the water and what it may wash from me.
Thank you Angelo.
Also, thanks to Zdogg for having you as a guest and to covid for introducing me to his passion in a grounded open communication.
@@youtoucan2312 you’re welcome ! It’s more than worth the trepidation, challenges etc in the end :)
…But did you dance 😃
Jessica, I am from a family of dancers. My sister was Royal Ballet, my grandparents were Ballroom teachers, but I’m afraid I didn’t get that gene, it is missing from me LOL
The creative gene was very strong for me, but I have no inclination to dance.
The “doer” and “seeker” in me feel they are getting stronger. I am experiencing these intense thoughts of failing at this- I am trying too hard, I’m doing it wrong, I’m resisting too much. I feel like even more of a prisoner in my own mind and body. These are all thoughts, but I can’t seem to separate myself from them. I feel so disoriented and lost. I feel like I am in a huge battle with myself and I don’t see how this can improve because I have come to a complete standstill. I have only just begun this “path” and am feeling overwhelmed and alone. Will it get better? Am I making this harder than it needs to be?
That Dragon made me laugh. Thank you. 😂
Saving this for later. I hope that aspect of expecting it might help make the blow softer
Hits home! 😊
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I love the dancing dino. 🦖 Made me laugh. 😆 Love the background too. ◉‿◉
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Watching this video around the 14:40 mark I feel a struggle between the desire to drop further perceptual filters and what feels like a survival-based need to retain agency. There's a fear of becoming placidly accepting of situations that won't have good outcomes if I renounce the option to say No. I think it's better to retain the option and understand what my actual reasons are for saying No... and then decide whether to keep the No or to drop it in that situation. I don't think the appropriateness of saying No can be generalized.
I love you Angelo
Wow!!!
Hello Angelo. I usually have this experience in the small hours of the night. Again last night before seeing this video in the morning! It's like the split self is making something up about something it knows nothing about so it can stay afraid and separate. It seems helpful to stay with the experience without judgment to see through the spell.
This brought up a memory of whenI went into labor and it was so painful and I asked my OB if I could take something to stop it. But no, I had to go through it.
wow!
Perfect, and they never know we Did it!
Well this whole not resisting thing is a bit of a bummer for me. I feel like that's what I'm meant to do, resist things that I find to be wrong. If an idea is wrong to me I resist it. If I'm being pushed into doing things I know are wrong I resist. I've never been big on trends. If the group is going one way I go the other way. I go against the flow, not with it, because I've always cherished my sense of being an individual
Being in control is also very important to me due to the abuse I suffered as a child. I need to control people and events, or at least know that if I need to I can. It's not out of a desire for power or personal gain, but it's the only way I can feel safe since at one time I had no control at all and suffered greatly at the hands of someone else.
So this idea that I must surrender and not resist couldn't be farther than what I think I am. Well it's not written anywhere that the process has to change to accommodate me so appears like I'll have to get over it.
Being aware of all of that as such is more important than you probably realize. The ability to see how identity structures have formed and being honest about it is actually pretty rare.
Also in practical terms acceptance and surrender don’t mean you’re a pushover or a victim, not at all. They just open up far more possibilities than seem available with a more narrowly defined identity structure. The knowledge gained from being a survivor doesn’t go away, it just doesn’t have to control and define who you are 😊
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake brilliant!
Yes, it seems to take over "something"!
That means that the ox finds the "way" on its own?
Just let go of, the reins?
What "takes the lead" is the "uninvolved", the "unknown"?
Is the job done ... can I dance? 🐂💃
Of course you can dance , you are the flute player , the dancer and the ox. Have fun!
I'm curious what will show up .... no choice👀
Loved this one as well! Your video quality is so good I feel like I can almost tune into your words better - then Im not really even listening and feeling it all fall away. Weird that video resolution helps : )
your chroma key skills are giving me Shaktipat
lolo
Great to more. Most like them, occasionally someone doesn't
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake so? do we all get the code language eventually too. .grin
why the lack of commentary on the very end of the video?? Love it. Thanks, Angelo :)
I was so disciplined for so long and when I had a shift , I feel like I just completely surrendered because I realized there was nothing I could do .. I denied myself a lot of experience that now I’m like hey let me enjoy it
You may well be on the “other side” of this fixation. Sometimes we carry the discipline , self denial etc, farther than is necessary. At some point the realization carries itself forward and what a joy it is to not have to “do” anything anymore, finding that innocent interest in the depths of unfiltered reality is all that’s needed to penetrate all perceptual barriers. 😀
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake lmao “I”,” I” use “I” when “i” describes my story , in reality I am the no-thing , the formless in the form, “i” is a thought, an illusion, as is the thinker . Words suck lmao
@@mattbuchanan6729 such freedom beyond conceptual restraints ☺️
Your videos are perfect !!!!
Glad you like them!
Thanks
Welcome!
Even the movement of attention is something that comes and goes, obviously. So my question is;
Is what you are trying to point to 'something' that is 'here' even before I was born and after I die and in deep, unconscious sleep??
I feel like I've hit a wall
I know no going "back"...it feels like a blank state?
But I'm the most happiest I've been?
Awesome. Is that integrated the indeterminacy, flow and freedom will be found to be none other than the physical world. And the physical world none other than the interplay of vivid senses , all interrelated and of one essence-less essence :)
Scary as shit for me too!
started to hitting home
The backdrop in this video… the dots are awake, the helix asleep. Does abstract visualization get replaced?
Thanks for sharing
Hi! Thanks for stopping by :)
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My sleeping hours reduce drastically , but I am not feeling fatigue.. it's scary ..
It happens , just don’t make a problem of it. The body will adjust. I’ve been through many periods of far less sleep. Now it’s pretty stable.
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake really thanks
"This is when things take unexpected turns in our life." If I'm understanding you correctly, awakening has visible effects (or at least correlations) in one's "external reality?"
Thank you for this video!
Absolutely, at some point this becomes undeniably obvious. I think the sixth oxherding picture ilustrtes this beautifully:
Mounting the bull, slowly I return homeward. The voice of my flute intones through the evening. Measuring with hand-beats the pulsating harmony,
I direct the endless rhythm. Whoever hears this melody will join me.
Comment: This struggle is over; gain and loss are assimilated. I sing the song of the village woodsman, and play the tunes of the children. Astride the bull, I observe the clouds above. Onward I go, no matter who may wish to call me back.
This may sound like he's climbing onto the bull voluntarily, but the original woodblock showed him sitting backwards on the bull! Very illustrative in its poetic way. Once he's up there, might as well play the flute eh?
What's your take on kundalini?
My kundalini process is teetering on completely clearing my body imminently and I never planned it this way. I had to go into spontaneous yoga postures and breath work the past year solid. I'm doing this and meditation 10 hours a day now, sprinting to clear my body. I'm almost cracking mentally in attempts to "get somewhere" because I'm back to work in 1.5 months. I might not even be functional when I transition into unity haha.
Heck, I ravenously learned everything from Nisargadatta initially - obviously a different approach.
A completely full kundalini clearing is relatively rare and the following refinements into enlightenment, I'm guessing, will give me the nothingness and fullness simultaneously, rather than a dry void with no bliss.
And shaktipat, as crazy as it sounds, has been an enormous boost. I would not have believed this shit was real a few years back.
Awesome... yeah for some the kundalini movements are very pronounced. It sounds like you trust what is happening and intuit its intelligence so nothing to "do," but let it play out. You seem to have good insight as far as "middle way." I have nothing to add, this is a natural process :) The key is to trust it and not get in its way, try to control anything, or make it into what you think it is. You're in a good place ☺
@Nick Wilson what's your email? I have excellent people and some zoom groups that'll get your kundalini sorted. The resources aren't just informational, they will be tangible.
Seinfeld and a dinosaur. I am shook. It's too much :)
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Doubt is bizarre. Not like anger, where there is heat, pressure, contraction, strong vibration etc. Seems to be purely thought-based yet very, very sticky with a "this is me" and "real" type quality. An unlocatable "tone". Nisargadatta gives repeated pointers to just discard it. It's a weird one to inquire into.
yes you're right. Quite stuicky and Nis is right however even discarding it can be tricky bc we can doubt whether we are actually discarding it lol
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake Yeah, it's turtles all the way down 😂
@@instantjp 😂😂
Haha.. was thinking recently, maybe I'll watch some Seinfeld 🙂
Fear is shaking me from inside..
A lot of energetic changes. They also come and go :)
I don't know how, but suddenly your video pop up .. and it's really very helpful for me
@@anandbafna1511 glad to hear it :)
Angelo Anaesthesia
I need to meet you.
Ha! Well the best way is to put your info into the form at books.simplyalwaysawake.com where all retreat announcements are sent out :) Haven't planned public retreat this year yet but will soon likely
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake perfect, I’ll do that!
🤣 NO!
No way out 🤣
@@korneliaheidegger3116 😂
YES. Thanks for addressing this weird no-man’s land state!! After an excruciating childhood, depressed 20’s and sprinting towards the “safety“ of a professional career, mortgage and marriage only to discover that this whole identity and its crises was a steaming pile of BS feels like a cruel joke- like WTH is this body-mind even here?! Really pissed and feeling nihilistic. This state also feels kind of flat- like what’s the point of doing anything other than the bare minimum to be comfortable until the sweet release of death alternating with occasional moments of simple, intense joy at watching a butterfly or hummingbird feed on my pollinator garden or moments of emotional intimacy with my husband. This has been going on for months now. Kinda going through the motions here hoping that no one notices that I don’t give a F about anything anymore 🫠Any suggestions Angelo on how to navigate this phase?
Overall you are in a good place. You may want to look for latent reactivity with any approach in the equanimity playlist :)
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake Thank you! 🙏 There IS the reactivity of a "doer" ego - now really angry at being exposed as fairly irrelevant. The disillusionment you mention at 17:30 in your "Buddhism | Three Treasures" video is spot on; likewise the antidote - reverence for the unbelievable GRACE of this awakening happening in this body-mind. I have longed for liberation from suffering for decades and often fallen to my knees in tearful gratitude for finally finding Awakening. Thank you for reminding me of this!!!
@@LeftTheMatrix you’re welcome ☺️
Thanks
Thanks you so much!!!❤😊🌍