Ah Alyssa, as we age grief becomes a constant companion. I’ve lost both my parents, my husband, my daughter, my cousin, close friends. A long terrible list, but we will all die. I like to think I have loved ones waiting for me. And one important thing is it helps us let go of believing we are omnipotent. We aren’t. Every day is a gift, and they slip through our fingers faster and faster.
I shed a tear for you and your friend Jackie. Very moving, you must have loved your friend deeply. This is a poem I wrote for my friends when I reach the end of my journey: Don't weep and water the white flowers encircled wildly around my bed Deny any desires to drown in the dam of your own head Be joyful of the joyous and blissful draws of your breath Dont be down and dreadfilled because I lay in dreamless death Life is for the living , live it my love ,Live it. 💕
My self and my two brothers had to make a decision with our dad. He had reached a point in his cancer that he was alive but not living. When his doctors asked us to make a decision with his life support....... making that decision wasn't the hard part, the hard part was knowing we had to. As we stood by his bed , the last words I ever spoke to my dad was, " its time to get up or go home." I looked over to the nurse and gave her a nod as did my two brothers and she turned off his machine and 15 minutes later my daddy went home. Its been 6 years roughly now, I miss him every single day. There was no grief, there was no sorrow. There was no remorse . We are all born to die. We had a good life with our dad just as he did with us and others. We are all born to die. its how we live that matters. We get to keep our memories. And I cherish every single one of them I have of my dad and for those who have also died that had value to my life. My point Lyss is live every day like it is your last day and leave memories to those who you wish to and what it is that you want them to remember because the reality is that at some point, that is all they will have. ( yes I have kept material things of my fathers but its not him.) I do not need those things to remind me of the man he was to me. I don't stand over his tools and think about him or how he used them or what he even did with them, because that's all they are ...tools. what i think about was the houses we built or the camping and fishing or hunting trips we went on. The day he took my training wheels of my bike and pushed me across the yard before letting me go. drawing me the wiring sequence to my club house so I could put in in correctly. Material possesions of lost loved ones will never replace memories of them, keep sakes are fine but can also be misplaced, lost or stolen. Memories cant, no one can take them from you. Your true reminders are in your head and your heart. They are always with you .
@@JW-jl8iq People think saying " Sorry for your loss " is what is appropriate for that moment. I hated when people said or say that to me. My dads death was not a loss to me. He was alive but he wasn't living. And now, well Now he is. and I am sure he is fishing somewhere in Heaven, catching monster fish. How could I ever allow for that to become a loss to me. ? He can breath without a machine. He can walk without a scooter. He is alive and living. Its just not with me. But someday, Someday him and I will go fishing together and it will be as if no time has ever passed. I hope that for your dad as well. That he is happy, alive and living and a far better place than we are. And when your day comes he will be there waiting for you.
@@modwrath810 I totally understand. My cousin said it best. When her mom passed. I would like to hit them upside the head. She then passed in 2010 from suicide
Hi Lyss. I am so sorry for your loss. I to have had to deal with alot of grief. I lost my whole family and its been absolutely heartbreaking. Grief is one of the hardest parts of life that's very difficult to deal with. The pain never goes, you just try your hardest to live through it night and day. It's always there in your mind. I'm not afraid to say, that I cry through heartbreak, but it does help to release that anger etc. I hope your ok. I have some idea of what your feeling inside. Please take care. Your videos are great. Your awesome young lady.. God bless you Lyss. ❤ 🙏🙏
“There are people who are uncomfortable with a silence, who rush to fill it by saying anything, thinking that anything is better than nothing, but I am not one of those people. I am not at all disquieted by silence.” ~ Peter Cameron
Sorry for the loss of your dear friend! You seem like a very strong and resilient young lady! Hang in there! You inspire me and many others by what you do daily! Thank you!
I watched every single video. I am impressed with the willingness to stray from the traditional expected path. I am by most metrics successful, but lacking the enjoyment of all that is around us, that can be unseen when looking through a narrow vision of life, and what success should traditionally look like. Inspiring, and inspired to widen the lense and see what's already there, that is unseen. This is not the content I usually view, but am enjoying this more than anything to this point. Congrats and thankyou to you for sharing this journey....it has value. Oh, and Rio just makes me happy...
This might just be one of the best comments I have received. This has made all of the effort to make this videos worth it. Thank you bill, I'm really glad you're here.
Just came across your channel by accident . Loving your sincerity and your journey for purity in such a superficial world . You have a brave soul and I find your journey inspirational . Motivated me to take up meditation once more . Stay safe and keep sparkling..
I'm from Moab. My grandparents are buried there. I love red rock country! I'm glad you could find relief from your suffering because of the loss of your friend by communing with nature in the Arches and Canyonlands.
That’s too narrow for me. I’m mildly claustrophobic. So sorry for your loss. My 93 year old Mom just passed. Very sad. But I’ve survived the worst. My 42 year old son died 10 years ago. There’s no greater loss. So I’ll survive this. She lived a full life. I honored my son by living life. So honor your friend by living a full life.
Alyssa, I truly send my condolences and good energy to you and your friend Jackie. You seem to have such a beautiful soul, so I am absolutely sure she does too. Your thoughts and words you share in your journey and vlogs are really profound and full of wisdom. You are younger than I, but I am either reminded of, or learn of something new every time i watch and listen to your thoughtful and insightful vlogs. Thank you so much for sharing. And again, my condolences. Life certainly is precious as it so starkly reminds us when we least expect it. Take care out there.
Moab is crazy place. There are some nice places to get great views in that area. I love eating in that area when we travel through. Enjoy your time there. The greatest thing about love is the more you love the greater the losses. I've come to the conclusion that the more you love the world, the losses seem just that much bigger. It's because we care for something more than ourselves in a world that is full of lifeless voids. Take care, reflect and write the memories of your friend so that you can always reflect with a smile. Be safe. Prayers always, Chaplain.
Thanks for a sharing. I just saw a video about your friend Jackie. A friend is my other soul. I am learning English through your videos.You said Sometimes that I feel embarrassed when I press the record button. As a TH-camr, I have 50,000 subscribers, but I agree with you. Always travel safely
Thank you for sharing Alyssa. I've lost some important people over the past couple years. I take some comfort knowing that every action, every interaction they had while alive still ripples through the world affecting others. Intentional or not, everyone changes the world. My mother, grandmother, and your friend still move through the world as what they've given to it. I hope you feel that too.
I just found your channel today. The day after the anniversary of my Mothers passing. It feels like she gifted me your channel. I live with a chronic illness that often leaves me bed bound. And Nature is my happy place but my illness unfortunately keeps me from being able to do the things I want to do. Watching just two videos of yours by now my Soul feel sparked alive as if I was able to be in nature and listening to your heartfelt wisdom also lifted my Spirits. Youre a magical being, I can tell. Thank you for healing the world simply by being you !
Hi Alyssa, One of my favorite poems is this, I walked a mile with pleasure, she chattered all the way, but none was I the wiser, for all she had to say. And then I walked a mile with sorrow, and ne'er a word said she, but oh the lessons learned, when sorrow walked with me. I have found the sorrows endured, expands my world to reach out in more compassion for others when they go through what we have been through. All the Best.
Hang in there sorry for your loss, Life is a Rollercoaster good days and bad days we just gotta enjoy life no matter what happens, cause life is so short
Hey sweetie, I’m so sorry for your loss Alyssa😞...your such a beautiful person inside and out I could listen to you for hours! Lots of love to you and Rio...take care xx💖
Lyss, I am so thankful for such a breath of fresh air and hope in the youthful generation who gets IT, HE has his hand on you and will guide you through these ruff patches and will work things out to the GREATER GOOD!!! Thank you for being REAL!!!😇🙏👍👌✌
My condolences to the family and your friend I will lift you and her family up in prayer I know that's a hard thing to swallow losing a love one and a friend, you have to keep her spirit a live I Love your journey Bless you.❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏
Hang tough kiddo. Life is so fragile. That's why it is so important to live it to the fullest every day. You are someone who understands that concept. Time is a healer. Best wishes
Lyss my heart is here for you I’m sorry for your loss Ik friends are key to us when things change in the blink of an eye it knocks the wind out of us and catches us off guard but when you least expect it life returns back to normal it’s hard to be prepared for things that are not expected
I am so sorry for your lost. I lost my father just over a year ago and when you lose someone so close to your, it takes a lot out of you. My father and I talk a lot, and one of the things we talked about is when he passes away. He told me to grief for him for a while, but don't grief for him the rest of my life, you need to get on with your life. Well, that's easier said then done. The pain might dull over time, but I'll think about him everyday intel I die. and see him again.
Sorry for your loss. I know it all to well. I lost a lot of men and woman in my unit over seas. And then I come back and have to fight now ptsd and demons of mine. I have depression,anxiety,ptsd,and I know hide away from people and towns. I hope you get better and glad you express how your battle then your own mental struggles. Thank you for what your doing on your adventurous videos of your life I know that it’s bound to be difficult to do.
Thank you so much for watching Randall, and thank you for your service. I hope your heart experiences healing and peace, throughout all you've experienced. ♥️
Hi Alyssa…. So sorry to learn of the loss of your friend Jackie. Unfortunately, none of us never know when we will experience grief. You seemed to have handled it well. Beautiful scenery through the canyon. I loved seeing it. And, it’s great that you love bookstores and stores. You and I have that love, for sure. Have a wonderful week and be careful and safe. Chet, Roanoke, Virginia
Your video work is amazing. You are amazing, thank you for you. Sorry if you are grieving, sending positive healing vibes and prayers. Hope to learn more from you.
I am sorry to hear of your loss. Grief is powerfully life changing. We need to choose how we grieve. Remembering one ultimate thing, the people we love that pass before us would not want us to be sad for ever: but to remember what they brought to our lives. Good to see you smile again.
So sorry for your loss. You should know that if you don't feel sorrow or grief, you aren't living. Grief is not negative, it is a part of life. I have lost both my parents and 6 beloved dogs. From time to time I still grieve for each, but I treasure that, because the memories attached are filled with love.
You are a beautiful and fantastic young lady. It appears to me that some time in the past you must have had someone near you that had an extremely negative effect on you and that can be extremely difficult to reverse. I can say the combination of taking time to meditate and being in such a beautiful place in the mountains and desert for the last month is one of the best possible ways for you to get a new outlook on life and I for one hope and pray that things go well for you. To succeed in life one needs to have the ability to love life and to love themselves and it appears to me that you are well on your way. All the best my friend and if I was there I would give you a good hug of encouragement for your future.
Sorry for your loss. RIP Jackie. Beautiful videography, stay safe out there. I worry about people , especially girls, out in these wilderness locations alone, there can be many peril, including a bad guy suddenly appearing. Please be safe, don’t be in desolate places alone. God bless you and your adorable scruffy pup, who is smart, and knows when to back away. Please listen to these words, feelings and reality are two different things, and they don’t often coincide. You could be out there doing therapy for yourself, but that has nothing to do with who else may be out there, or any natural hazards that may exist, separate and apart from your emotional need to challenge yourself. The belief that whatever you think is what you will manifest is not true, can border on delusion in some people. Reality is far less magical and romantic, it’s often science and statistics. I’m a spiritual person, an artist and a romantic, but I know that is me, and so I don’t project it onto the terrain set before me. My words are not to induce fear, just wisdom. With love.
I'm so sorry for you loss of your friend. RIP Jackie. We need to live our lives to the fullest everyday, because tomorrow's may not come. Grief is soul wrenching. Celebrate your friends life and be happy with the time you were aloud. We don't know when it is our time. Beautiful canyon.
So sorry to hear of your loss. I certainly understand the empty feelings you must be having trying to understand why. I lost 2 dear family members over the years and it still hurts. The best that you can do is keep a positive life outlook and cherish their memories. Keep smiling.
I'm so sorry about your loss and your right grief is something that we will all experience and it's important to keep reminding yourself that grief is not linear and you have to give yourself time to grieve, you are in my prayers but I also know you're more in tune with what you need to do than most people so just be kind to you
I'm sorry for your loss she was so fortunate to have you as a friend in her life. I lost both my parent an 8 friends in last 6 yrs. You are such a ray of hope sunshine an inspiration! All I want in this world is a family a home a place I belong an am wanted.. I'm totally alone in this world I hope our paths cross cuz your unique one of a kind.. you are wat sweetest of dreams are made of!!
Wow. Powerful insights about grief. You're right - the positive/negative view on emotions isn't useful. They're just experiences and we can make up whatever stories we want about them. Loved seeing some familiar places. I recognized the general area you were in before you got to Moab. I drove from Arizona to Salt Lake and was amazed at how beautiful desert could be.
Lyss, Take all these times to grieve for you are human. Just know that with times and patience, you will eventually heal. I am sorry you had to go through this tough times but it is part of this life. I wish you well and the very best!!0
I’m so sorry Alyssa. This week marked two loss anniversaries for me as well. The way I look at it is the sadness is a true measure of the love. I’ll take and give the love every time. Sending a hug and letting you know you’re not alone.
I just recently found your channel and I love everything about it. You're living my dream and can't wait to see what's next on your journey. I think about leaving my career everyday to start my own journey! Your channel definitely isn't making my decision any easier as time passes. Keep up the amazing videos!
The lose of my fiancé was the hardest event I had ever went through. She was young, beautiful and smart. Our life was planned and in one moment that one horrible moment my whole life was changed. No following her to grad school where I would work and we both would care for our unborn child. Our dreams were gone life was gone for me. While I was being driven home it struck me the world was just going about it’s day when the most amazing woman was dead. Killed because I said yes to her when I should have insisted otherwise. My heart was truly broken and when it does it’s such a deep fracture it must be felt by the Lord himself. I was so estranged from my parents my mother had only seen her once and my father only saw her at the funeral. It didn’t bring us close but my father was sweet and kind that day. My mom who knows where she may have been. It would be many more years before I became close to them again. There is mercy in death but I’m not sure if it was for her, me or either of us. It brings no insight or heroic ends. It’s just gut wrenching heart breaking pain that even after 36 years 10 months 9 days the pain lessons yes but your mind relives it on its own time. I do wonder what my life would have been looked. But five years after she died and believing I would be am eternal bachelor I met a woman who God made nearly perfect for me. And all the loss I have endured and there is so much more. My wife has kept her vows for 31 years 11 months 8 days. I am the luckiest man in the world.
Grieving is terrible but its even more overwhelming and challenging I believe in a small space. I just lost my father and living full time in my camper. You got this my dear, times will make it easier but you always have the love you have for them.
Wow! Sorry for your loss 🙏 i was in that area recently and the red rocks look like they were melted. Huge megalithic structures destroyed. Also some of the Arches look like they are petrified portals and/or ancient generators of some long lost civilization. There's also some very peculiar dark spots near the roads minute 8:30 that look defaced by dynamite. As if to erase whatever shapes or carvings they might have had.
Loss is powerful and grieving is hard. I have experienced the loss of my dad and my dog recently. I was overcome with emotion when you shouted "I Love You!" I love you too. 😭
The art in your videos is so good. As you kneeled and laid out flowers, you were mirrored precisely by the distant mountains… like an ancient place were others have come to grieve, reminding you that are not alone.
Thank you for your words. You frame feelings in unique and thoughtful ways that change lives. The grief I experienced with both parents was so very different. Grieving began when Alzheimers began to take my mother's memory and dignity. It began when Parkinsons made it impossible for Dad to bring a thought to his mouth. Oddly, grieving ended when they passed. I love and miss them, but the freedom they experienced in leaving their tortured human shells was euphoric. I was with Dad and saw him leave. He never looked back. There was finality. Grieving is about those left behind. Often an uncertainty about our own mortality in this physically imperfect body, and no longer being able to give love to someone. This not feeling the love that immediately fills the void from the giving registers as a loss. Just continue to love one and all. Your friend continues to live her best life, but she is no longer here in this time with you. Obviously she is special, so celebrate her move to something better.
and as for loss, I find we all have our own way of handling it, it’s hard and sometimes harder to talk about. I’ve lost parents and friends and it all has it own requirements…. So with that I’m sorry for your loss.
Life can take you in many different directions and sometimes the pull is all at once. Sometimes it can feel like that pull snaps back on you too. Sorry for your loss. May your grief not burden your soul too tragically. Know that they have moved to a better place. We certainly do feel the loss. *hugs* Loved that slot canyon, they are so amazing. I only wish I could manage to explore them, but my spine will not allow anymore. I hope your journey to the mountains brings you something amazing.
Very sorry for your loss. Pain is the greatest teacher, as you know, and as we grow through every experience we BEcome Our Truth. I do a lot of traveling as a trucker and love the open road...there's a feeling of freedom and adventure that my spirit has always loved! The past several years I've thought a lot about living on the road and recently it's been on my mind a lot and even more so pulling at my heart. I'm happy to have found your channel, have subscribed and look forward to your adventures and life lessons ahead!
You’re a wonderful person , stay You . Beautiful video today. Your dog did a great job! I’m so sorry there is some sadness in your life right now . Hang in there. Look forward to your next video .
Sorry for your loss and the sadness. I believe this life is not our beginning, nor our end. Consider those that are now gone from here, grieve for us still apart of this matrix like confinement and long for us joining them. Take Care and Safe Travels
Lyss, First off, I am so sorry for your loss. I found your channel a few months ago. I was searching for TH-cam van/bus-lifers to distract me from my own life. I had no idea what I stumbled upon, but, by the end of the first video, I knew. You have inspired me and I do not have the words to express how much you have changed my life in the short time I've watched you. I went back and watched your videos with Dan & Lucky, and WOW, I was stunned. I'm almost 33 years old, and you guys showed me the healthiest relationship I've ever seen. Thank you. ❤
This made me cry. Whatever you're doing right now is helping you. Walk and breathe. And your dog? That is a buddy system. You can sleep all you want, and your dog will be your alert. I've never been to Grand Canyon. Your recording is incredible. Stay safe and be on the lookout. Your dog will do the same. Love ya. I'd love to travel with you. Travel is one of my hobbies.
Sorry for your loss. It's better to grieve than to bottle it up. I've done that all my life to the point I don't feel anything. I can feel alone in a room with 10,000 people. Then when I try to be friends with wonderful people like yourself I'm ignored that think I'm most likely some kind of nut when all I really want is FRIENDS like you.
"Love better". Profound wisdom all of humanity needs to meditate on. Rio does as well as she does because she has a wise and loving companion who creates a safe place for her to confidently explore the world with. Another exquisitely beautiful video. Thank you. Namasté, James
I've been living own my on for 7 years. I've learnt several things about me. Sorting deep traumas, dealing with fear, loving myself more and more each day...It's so good to enjoy myself now! I'm really sorry for your loss, hope you look ahead and get stronger. You're a wonderful woman! Hugs!!
I was just in Moab about 5 weeks ago - loved the vibe there & all the BLM lands! I saw the ‘mighty 5’ national parks of Utah & boy, they didn’t disappoint… then I too headed to the mountains 🏔 Be well & safe travels ~ give Rio a big hug from me❣️ So nice meeting you both at Wind River!
I just found your channel today. Ironic since my dad passed the day this video was posted. I'm not sure I've given myself time to grieve yet. He'd had a stroke the Sunday before, and was put on hospice. The damage was so catastrophic they gave him 72 hours, and he lasted for 7 days, dying peacefully at home. Personally I have been trying to keep myself busy so it doesn't hit all at once, and focusing on helping my mother through her ...our loss. The one thing that is probably keeping us from breaking down is that we know hes no longer suffering. May we all find peace in that.
sending you love hugs and prayers; sincere condolences! I have learned in my life that when a close loved one dies, it is a chance to renew yourself through them. Memories become the gift of what holds us together. Take comfort that your loved one is no longer suffering and that they are forever your angel~
Im so sorry for your loss I do have to say what you are doing is incredible you are strong you make things look easy im an old truck driver, old biker now long hair, tattoos, just want to live free as we know nothing is free but what we feel in our hearts you do this and give people hope im just me but for those that you reach I will say thank you for them bless you and enjoy what life is
She love's you more. Loss in this world is a new start in another. You are a fantastic soul and she knows this. You will sense her more now then ever! Be well.
"Solitude" sounds great, I hope you enjoy it. I believe that you cannot have truly fulfilling relationships unless you first have your own grasp of solitude. And what a view!! WOW! (I like the cow too. I've worked with them a bit and find them very cool, inquisitive). Take care on your journey.......
Losing someone rather it be a family member or close friend is definitely a rollercoaster of emotions to deal with. One thing I've learned and I'm sure anyone who has lost someone has learned it takes a little time but it definitely makes you stronger.That person is never truly gone because they will forever live on in your memories and in your heart. Wishing you nothing but the best and safe travels. Oh yeah I've been hearing the call of the mountains for years now myself. Just trying to make it that way and hopefully one day I will.
So profound and personal but you still share. You are not alone on this journey. You have all these people there with you in spirit. Most you will never meet.
Alyssa, thanks for taking us along on this journey. I'm sorry about your loss of a dear friend, and it was obvious that you were grieving. I appreciate your thoughts on your life and finding peace even in a time of grief. Thanks for sharing those thoughts, I think you are such a beautiful person with your approach to life. God bless you and keep your chin up, will be praying for you, stay safe and happy 💖🙏
Hey, stay strong, try to take into account that you knew that person, you probably had nice moments, and in an eternity we cant grasp its something precious and powerful enough to make us happy and move on. Good luck on your way!
So very sorry for the loss of your friend. What an incredible adventure through the canyon. Life is such a journey and it can lead you to so many incredible times, whether happy or sad it is what builds us all.
Grief sucks. I'm sorry you are going through it. I lost my dad recently and my son at 17 to suicide before that. I am well versed in living with grief, unfortunately. I hope you find peace soon. ❤
Keep the places where you stay to yourself, especially the special ones or they won't be quiet in private anymore. Thank you for sharing. Bless you in your journeys.
Grieving someone will last as long as you need it to. We actually never lose anyone as long as they are remembered in thoughts, letters, cards or photos. I look at in this way, losing someone very dear opens a door for someone new to come into our lives not necessarily to diminish or replace what we lost but to strengthen ourselves emotionally and mentally. We are never truly alone in our daily adventures for someone is always there.
You are wise beyond your years. I have spent the last 2 years living alone and finding myself again, very much like you. Very much alone like you. I love your videos.
Profound loss visits all of us. Keep your friend alive in your memory and tell friends and family stories of the great times you had. Be grateful that you are blessed to have known her. She wants you to be happy. Being on your own, you can talk to her out loud as often as you want and nobody will think you are crazy. :)
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Can we all agree that Rio is living every dog’s dream life?
I sure think so 🥰
@@REGRETLYSS1 why u roaming mam like this do it marry and be happy in life find someone PlZ
@@khwajakapiya4857 She is very happy with her life.
Same thought
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Ah Alyssa, as we age grief becomes a constant companion. I’ve lost both my parents, my husband, my daughter, my cousin, close friends. A long terrible list, but we will all die. I like to think I have loved ones waiting for me. And one important thing is it helps us let go of believing we are omnipotent. We aren’t. Every day is a gift, and they slip through our fingers faster and faster.
Beautifully stated and true. Someday , we will be mourned. Until that day, make the most of all you can.
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I shed a tear for you and your friend Jackie. Very moving, you must have loved your friend deeply.
This is a poem I wrote for my friends when I reach the end of my journey:
Don't weep and water the white flowers encircled wildly around my bed
Deny any desires to drown in the dam of your own head
Be joyful of the joyous and blissful draws
of your breath
Dont be down and dreadfilled because I lay in dreamless death
Life is for the living , live it my love ,Live it. 💕
My self and my two brothers had to make a decision with our dad. He had reached a point in his cancer that he was alive but not living. When his doctors asked us to make a decision with his life support....... making that decision wasn't the hard part, the hard part was knowing we had to. As we stood by his bed , the last words I ever spoke to my dad was, " its time to get up or go home." I looked over to the nurse and gave her a nod as did my two brothers and she turned off his machine and 15 minutes later my daddy went home. Its been 6 years roughly now, I miss him every single day. There was no grief, there was no sorrow. There was no remorse . We are all born to die. We had a good life with our dad just as he did with us and others. We are all born to die. its how we live that matters. We get to keep our memories. And I cherish every single one of them I have of my dad and for those who have also died that had value to my life.
My point Lyss is live every day like it is your last day and leave memories to those who you wish to and what it is that you want them to remember because the reality is that at some point, that is all they will have. ( yes I have kept material things of my fathers but its not him.) I do not need those things to remind me of the man he was to me. I don't stand over his tools and think about him or how he used them or what he even did with them, because that's all they are ...tools. what i think about was the houses we built or the camping and fishing or hunting trips we went on. The day he took my training wheels of my bike and pushed me across the yard before letting me go. drawing me the wiring sequence to my club house so I could put in in correctly. Material possesions of lost loved ones will never replace memories of them, keep sakes are fine but can also be misplaced, lost or stolen. Memories cant, no one can take them from you. Your true reminders are in your head and your heart. They are always with you .
I can relate. The only difference 12 yrs ago apr 2nd. My dad passed in my arms after a 7yr fight with cancer
@@JW-jl8iq People think saying " Sorry for your loss " is what is appropriate for that moment. I hated when people said or say that to me. My dads death was not a loss to me. He was alive but he wasn't living. And now, well Now he is. and I am sure he is fishing somewhere in Heaven, catching monster fish.
How could I ever allow for that to become a loss to me. ? He can breath without a machine. He can walk without a scooter. He is alive and living. Its just not with me. But someday, Someday him and I will go fishing together and it will be as if no time has ever passed.
I hope that for your dad as well. That he is happy, alive and living and a far better place than we are. And when your day comes he will be there waiting for you.
@@modwrath810 I totally understand. My cousin said it best. When her mom passed. I would like to hit them upside the head. She then passed in 2010 from suicide
Profound words Alyssa, your voice overs are just brilliant and your maturity is well beyond your age. So sorry for your loss.
Life is full of surprises.. Sometimes when things are falling apart, they may actually be falling into place..i hope ur happy lyss 🙏💙 from London 🇦🇮
Thank you for this
So true
Hi Lyss. I am so sorry for your loss. I to have had to deal with alot of grief. I lost my whole family and its been absolutely heartbreaking. Grief is one of the hardest parts of life that's very difficult to deal with. The pain never goes, you just try your hardest to live through it night and day. It's always there in your mind. I'm not afraid to say, that I cry through heartbreak, but it does help to release that anger etc. I hope your ok. I have some idea of what your feeling inside. Please take care. Your videos are great. Your awesome young lady.. God bless you Lyss. ❤ 🙏🙏
Girl you just pop in on my screen and have you don't know then I tell you I got the feeling you dealing with some kind of depression
My deepest condolences on the loss of your friend. Sending strength.
Friend is still alive. 😉
“There are people who are uncomfortable with a silence, who rush to fill it by saying anything, thinking that anything is better than nothing, but I am not one of those people. I am not at all disquieted by silence.”
~ Peter Cameron
Sorry for the loss of your dear friend! You seem like a very strong and resilient young lady! Hang in there! You inspire me and many others by what you do daily! Thank you!
I watched every single video. I am impressed with the willingness to stray from the traditional expected path. I am by most metrics successful, but lacking the enjoyment of all that is around us, that can be unseen when looking through a narrow vision of life, and what success should traditionally look like. Inspiring, and inspired to widen the lense and see what's already there, that is unseen. This is not the content I usually view, but am enjoying this more than anything to this point. Congrats and thankyou to you for sharing this journey....it has value. Oh, and Rio just makes me happy...
This might just be one of the best comments I have received. This has made all of the effort to make this videos worth it. Thank you bill, I'm really glad you're here.
Just came across your channel by accident . Loving your sincerity and your journey for purity in such a superficial world . You have a brave soul and I find your journey inspirational . Motivated me to take up meditation once more . Stay safe and keep sparkling..
I'm from Moab. My grandparents are buried there. I love red rock country! I'm glad you could find relief from your suffering because of the loss of your friend by communing with nature in the Arches and Canyonlands.
That’s too narrow for me. I’m mildly claustrophobic.
So sorry for your loss. My 93 year old Mom just passed. Very sad. But I’ve survived the worst. My 42 year old son died 10 years ago. There’s no greater loss. So I’ll survive this. She lived a full life.
I honored my son by living life. So honor your friend by living a full life.
Alyssa, I truly send my condolences and good energy to you and your friend Jackie. You seem to have such a beautiful soul, so I am absolutely sure she does too. Your thoughts and words you share in your journey and vlogs are really profound and full of wisdom. You are younger than I, but I am either reminded of, or learn of something new every time i watch and listen to your thoughtful and insightful vlogs. Thank you so much for sharing. And again, my condolences. Life certainly is precious as it so starkly reminds us when we least expect it. Take care out there.
Moab is crazy place. There are some nice places to get great views in that area. I love eating in that area when we travel through. Enjoy your time there. The greatest thing about love is the more you love the greater the losses. I've come to the conclusion that the more you love the world, the losses seem just that much bigger. It's because we care for something more than ourselves in a world that is full of lifeless voids. Take care, reflect and write the memories of your friend so that you can always reflect with a smile. Be safe. Prayers always, Chaplain.
Thanks for a sharing.
I just saw a video about your friend Jackie.
A friend is my other soul. I am learning English through your videos.You said Sometimes that I feel embarrassed when I press the record button. As a TH-camr, I have 50,000 subscribers, but I agree with you. Always travel safely
Thank you for sharing Alyssa. I've lost some important people over the past couple years. I take some comfort knowing that every action, every interaction they had while alive still ripples through the world affecting others. Intentional or not, everyone changes the world. My mother, grandmother, and your friend still move through the world as what they've given to it. I hope you feel that too.
This comment, is so comforting. Thank you for being here Jordan ❤️
I just found your channel today. The day after the anniversary of my Mothers passing. It feels like she gifted me your channel. I live with a chronic illness that often leaves me bed bound. And Nature is my happy place but my illness unfortunately keeps me from being able to do the things I want to do. Watching just two videos of yours by now my Soul feel sparked alive as if I was able to be in nature and listening to your heartfelt wisdom also lifted my Spirits. Youre a magical being, I can tell. Thank you for healing the world simply by being you !
I just love your dog so much. Just adorable. I 💙🦮
Hi Alyssa, One of my favorite poems is this, I walked a mile with pleasure, she chattered all the way, but none was I the wiser, for all she had to say. And then I walked a mile with sorrow, and ne'er a word said she, but oh the lessons learned, when sorrow walked with me. I have found the sorrows endured, expands my world to reach out in more compassion for others when they go through what we have been through. All the Best.
Hang in there sorry for your loss, Life is a Rollercoaster good days and bad days we just gotta enjoy life no matter what happens, cause life is so short
Hey sweetie, I’m so sorry for your loss Alyssa😞...your such a beautiful person inside and out I could listen to you for hours! Lots of love to you and Rio...take care xx💖
Sending prayers so very sorry for the loss of your friend You are a warrior and an inspiration Stay safe
Wow Sorry for your loss I hope you are doing OK I've been praying for you Thank you for your videos
Safe travels. Sometimes we have to get lost to find our true selves. You are strong. You are resilient. You are free.
Lyss, I am so thankful for such a breath of fresh air and hope in the youthful generation who gets IT, HE has his hand on you and will guide you through these ruff patches and will work things out to the GREATER GOOD!!! Thank you for being REAL!!!😇🙏👍👌✌
I'm so sorry for the loss of your friend. My deepest condolences to you, and her family. 🙏❤
My heart hurts to see you upset. I'm so sorry for your loss. hugsss
"The mountains are calling and I must go" again, putting what my soul has felt for months into words. Thank you
I lost the last of my family last year. "I love you. I miss you." Thank you for this video.
My condolences to the family and your friend I will lift you and her family up in prayer I know that's a hard thing to swallow losing a love one and a friend, you have to keep her spirit a live I Love your journey Bless you.❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏
Hang tough kiddo. Life is so fragile. That's why it is so important to live it to the fullest every day. You are someone who understands that concept. Time is a healer. Best wishes
Sorry for your loss, condolences. Rio is adorable. Keep making these great inspiring videos.
Lyss my heart is here for you I’m sorry for your loss Ik friends are key to us when things change in the blink of an eye it knocks the wind out of us and catches us off guard but when you least expect it life returns back to normal it’s hard to be prepared for things that are not expected
I am so sorry for your lost. I lost my father just over a year ago and when you lose someone so close to your, it takes a lot out of you. My father and I talk a lot, and one of the things we talked about is when he passes away. He told me to grief for him for a while, but don't grief for him the rest of my life, you need to get on with your life. Well, that's easier said then done. The pain might dull over time, but I'll think about him everyday intel I die. and see him again.
Such awful news...😢 It's good that you have nature and the unconditional love of Rio to help you heal. You are so wise for someone so young.
Some one said for get yourself and get into helping others and you will find yourself through the process.
I am sorry for your loss your strength is truly an inspiration
Sorry for your loss. I know it all to well. I lost a lot of men and woman in my unit over seas. And then I come back and have to fight now ptsd and demons of mine. I have depression,anxiety,ptsd,and I know hide away from people and towns. I hope you get better and glad you express how your battle then your own mental struggles. Thank you for what your doing on your adventurous videos of your life I know that it’s bound to be difficult to do.
Thank you so much for watching Randall, and thank you for your service. I hope your heart experiences healing and peace, throughout all you've experienced. ♥️
@@REGRETLYSS1 thank you for responding back your a great inspiration. Thank you.
Hi Alyssa…. So sorry to learn of the loss of your friend Jackie. Unfortunately, none of us never know when we will experience grief. You seemed to have handled it well.
Beautiful scenery through the canyon. I loved seeing it.
And, it’s great that you love bookstores and stores. You and I have that love, for sure.
Have a wonderful week and be careful and safe. Chet, Roanoke, Virginia
Your video work is amazing. You are amazing, thank you for you. Sorry if you are grieving, sending positive healing vibes and prayers. Hope to learn more from you.
I am sorry to hear of your loss. Grief is powerfully life changing. We need to choose how we grieve. Remembering one ultimate thing, the people we love that pass before us would not want us to be sad for ever: but to remember what they brought to our lives. Good to see you smile again.
So sorry for your loss. You should know that if you don't feel sorrow or grief, you aren't living. Grief is not negative, it is a part of life. I have lost both my parents and 6 beloved dogs. From time to time I still grieve for each, but I treasure that, because the memories attached are filled with love.
You are a beautiful and fantastic young lady. It appears to me that some time in the past you must have had someone near you that had an extremely negative effect on you and that can be extremely difficult to reverse. I can say the combination of taking time to meditate and being in such a beautiful place in the mountains and desert for the last month is one of the best possible ways for you to get a new outlook on life and I for one hope and pray that things go well for you. To succeed in life one needs to have the ability to love life and to love themselves and it appears to me that you are well on your way. All the best my friend and if I was there I would give you a good hug of encouragement for your future.
Sorry for your loss. RIP Jackie. Beautiful videography, stay safe out there. I worry about people , especially girls, out in these wilderness locations alone, there can be many peril, including a bad guy suddenly appearing. Please be safe, don’t be in desolate places alone. God bless you and your adorable scruffy pup, who is smart, and knows when to back away. Please listen to these words, feelings and reality are two different things, and they don’t often coincide. You could be out there doing therapy for yourself, but that has nothing to do with who else may be out there, or any natural hazards that may exist, separate and apart from your emotional need to challenge yourself. The belief that whatever you think is what you will manifest is not true, can border on delusion in some people. Reality is far less magical and romantic, it’s often science and statistics. I’m a spiritual person, an artist and a romantic, but I know that is me, and so I don’t project it onto the terrain set before me. My words are not to induce fear, just wisdom. With love.
I'm so sorry for you loss of your friend. RIP Jackie. We need to live our lives to the fullest everyday, because tomorrow's may not come. Grief is soul wrenching. Celebrate your friends life and be happy with the time you were aloud. We don't know when it is our time. Beautiful canyon.
May your heart unleash the sorrow and make room for the happiness to come...sorry for your loss. 💔❤💕🙏
So sorry to hear of your loss. I certainly understand the empty feelings you must be having trying to understand why. I lost 2 dear family members over the years and it still hurts. The best that you can do is keep a positive life outlook and cherish their memories. Keep smiling.
I'm so sorry about your loss and your right grief is something that we will all experience and it's important to keep reminding yourself that grief is not linear and you have to give yourself time to grieve, you are in my prayers but I also know you're more in tune with what you need to do than most people so just be kind to you
You are a brave woman !💕 stay safe and strong 💕🌷
That was really genuine and we all share your pain as we face our own grief. I hope you find a peaceful place in your heart as you go though your loss
Condolences, prayers for you, your friend and her family! Gorgeous as always and the canyon was amazing :)
I'm sorry for your loss she was so fortunate to have you as a friend in her life. I lost both my parent an 8 friends in last 6 yrs. You are such a ray of hope sunshine an inspiration! All I want in this world is a family a home a place I belong an am wanted.. I'm totally alone in this world I hope our paths cross cuz your unique one of a kind.. you are wat sweetest of dreams are made of!!
My favorite saying perfect ending. Sorry for your loss
Wow. Powerful insights about grief. You're right - the positive/negative view on emotions isn't useful. They're just experiences and we can make up whatever stories we want about them. Loved seeing some familiar places. I recognized the general area you were in before you got to Moab. I drove from Arizona to Salt Lake and was amazed at how beautiful desert could be.
Lyss,
Take all these times to grieve for you are human. Just know that with times and patience, you will eventually heal. I am sorry you had to go through this tough times but it is part of this life. I wish you well and the very best!!0
Sorry for ur loss. Just never forget the good time u had with Ur friend. Vega TEXAS
I’m so sorry Alyssa. This week marked two loss anniversaries for me as well. The way I look at it is the sadness is a true measure of the love. I’ll take and give the love every time. Sending a hug and letting you know you’re not alone.
I just recently found your channel and I love everything about it. You're living my dream and can't wait to see what's next on your journey. I think about leaving my career everyday to start my own journey! Your channel definitely isn't making my decision any easier as time passes. Keep up the amazing videos!
The lose of my fiancé was the hardest event I had ever went through. She was young, beautiful and smart. Our life was planned and in one moment that one horrible moment my whole life was changed. No following her to grad school where I would work and we both would care for our unborn child. Our dreams were gone life was gone for me.
While I was being driven home it struck me the world was just going about it’s day when the most amazing woman was dead. Killed because I said yes to her when I should have insisted otherwise. My heart was truly broken and when it does it’s such a deep fracture it must be felt by the Lord himself.
I was so estranged from my parents my mother had only seen her once and my father only saw her at the funeral. It didn’t bring us close but my father was sweet and kind that day. My mom who knows where she may have been. It would be many more years before I became close to them again.
There is mercy in death but I’m not sure if it was for her, me or either of us. It brings no insight or heroic ends. It’s just gut wrenching heart breaking pain that even after 36 years 10 months 9 days the pain lessons yes but your mind relives it on its own time. I do wonder what my life would have been looked.
But five years after she died and believing I would be am eternal bachelor I met a woman who God made nearly perfect for me. And all the loss I have endured and there is so much more. My wife has kept her vows for 31 years 11 months 8 days. I am the luckiest man in the world.
To see the world from one’s perspective is a blessing ! My mom were here today she would have loved it as much as you
Grieving is terrible but its even more overwhelming and challenging I believe in a small space. I just lost my father and living full time in my camper. You got this my dear, times will make it easier but you always have the love you have for them.
Wow! Sorry for your loss 🙏
i was in that area recently and the red rocks look like they were melted. Huge megalithic structures destroyed. Also some of the Arches look like they are petrified portals and/or ancient generators of some long lost civilization. There's also some very peculiar dark spots near the roads minute 8:30 that look defaced by dynamite. As if to erase whatever shapes or carvings they might have had.
Sorry for your loss, Lyss. Rio is a stud muffin and both of you are very brave! xx~Cass
"Rio is a stud muffin" got a laugh out of me. Thanks for that. He really is though
Loss is powerful and grieving is hard. I have experienced the loss of my dad and my dog recently. I was overcome with emotion when you shouted "I Love You!"
I love you too. 😭
Can listen to you read all night thank you for those that can't sleep I appreciate it
The art in your videos is so good. As you kneeled and laid out flowers, you were mirrored precisely by the distant mountains… like an ancient place were others have come to grieve, reminding you that are not alone.
Wow, thank you Wayne. I didn't even recognize that visual. ♥️
@@REGRETLYSS1 You’re a natural artist lady. EDIT …reminding you that *you* are not alone.
My heart aches for you. Sharing your grief and vulnerability takes lots of courage. 🙏🏽❤️🙏🏽❤️
Thank you for your words. You frame feelings in unique and thoughtful ways that change lives. The grief I experienced with both parents was so very different. Grieving began when Alzheimers began to take my mother's memory and dignity. It began when Parkinsons made it impossible for Dad to bring a thought to his mouth. Oddly, grieving ended when they passed. I love and miss them, but the freedom they experienced in leaving their tortured human shells was euphoric. I was with Dad and saw him leave. He never looked back. There was finality. Grieving is about those left behind. Often an uncertainty about our own mortality in this physically imperfect body, and no longer being able to give love to someone. This not feeling the love that immediately fills the void from the giving registers as a loss. Just continue to love one and all. Your friend continues to live her best life, but she is no longer here in this time with you. Obviously she is special, so celebrate her move to something better.
So very very sorry for your loss I lost my brother on Mother’s Day yes grief is a private thing grief is hard
and as for loss, I find we all have our own way of handling it, it’s hard and sometimes harder to talk about. I’ve lost parents and friends and it all has it own requirements…. So with that I’m sorry for your loss.
Life can take you in many different directions and sometimes the pull is all at once. Sometimes it can feel like that pull snaps back on you too.
Sorry for your loss. May your grief not burden your soul too tragically. Know that they have moved to a better place. We certainly do feel the loss. *hugs*
Loved that slot canyon, they are so amazing. I only wish I could manage to explore them, but my spine will not allow anymore. I hope your journey to the mountains brings you something amazing.
Very sorry for your loss. Pain is the greatest teacher, as you know, and as we grow through every experience we BEcome Our Truth. I do a lot of traveling as a trucker and love the open road...there's a feeling of freedom and adventure that my spirit has always loved! The past several years I've thought a lot about living on the road and recently it's been on my mind a lot and even more so pulling at my heart. I'm happy to have found your channel, have subscribed and look forward to your adventures and life lessons ahead!
You’re a wonderful person , stay You . Beautiful video today. Your dog did a great job! I’m so sorry there is some sadness in your life right now . Hang in there. Look forward to your next video .
Sorry for your loss and the sadness. I believe this life is not our beginning, nor our end. Consider those that are now gone from here, grieve for us still apart of this matrix like confinement and long for us joining them. Take Care and Safe Travels
Lyss,
First off, I am so sorry for your loss.
I found your channel a few months ago. I was searching for TH-cam van/bus-lifers to distract me from my own life. I had no idea what I stumbled upon, but, by the end of the first video, I knew.
You have inspired me and I do not have the words to express how much you have changed my life in the short time I've watched you.
I went back and watched your videos with Dan & Lucky, and WOW, I was stunned. I'm almost 33 years old, and you guys showed me the healthiest relationship I've ever seen.
Thank you. ❤
I'm so grateful to have you along for the ride. Thank you. ❤️
This made me cry. Whatever you're doing right now is helping you. Walk and breathe. And your dog? That is a buddy system. You can sleep all you want, and your dog will be your alert.
I've never been to Grand Canyon. Your recording is incredible. Stay safe and be on the lookout. Your dog will do the same. Love ya.
I'd love to travel with you. Travel is one of my hobbies.
Sorry for your loss. It's better to grieve than to bottle it up. I've done that all my life to the point I don't feel anything. I can feel alone in a room with 10,000 people. Then when I try to be friends with wonderful people like yourself I'm ignored that think I'm most likely some kind of nut when all I really want is FRIENDS like you.
"Love better". Profound wisdom all of humanity needs to meditate on. Rio does as well as she does because she has a wise and loving companion who creates a safe place for her to confidently explore the world with. Another exquisitely beautiful video. Thank you. Namasté, James
You are a beautiful soul. RIP to your friend.
I've been living own my on for 7 years. I've learnt several things about me. Sorting deep traumas, dealing with fear, loving myself more and more each day...It's so good to enjoy myself now! I'm really sorry for your loss, hope you look ahead and get stronger. You're a wonderful woman! Hugs!!
I was just in Moab about 5 weeks ago - loved the vibe there & all the BLM lands! I saw the ‘mighty 5’ national parks of Utah & boy, they didn’t disappoint… then I too headed to the mountains 🏔
Be well & safe travels ~ give Rio a big hug from me❣️ So nice meeting you both at Wind River!
I just found your channel today. Ironic since my dad passed the day this video was posted. I'm not sure I've given myself time to grieve yet. He'd had a stroke the Sunday before, and was put on hospice. The damage was so catastrophic they gave him 72 hours, and he lasted for 7 days, dying peacefully at home. Personally I have been trying to keep myself busy so it doesn't hit all at once, and focusing on helping my mother through her ...our loss. The one thing that is probably keeping us from breaking down is that we know hes no longer suffering. May we all find peace in that.
Prayers with you Wilem.
sending you love hugs and prayers; sincere condolences! I have learned in my life that when a close loved one dies, it is a chance to renew yourself through them. Memories become the gift of what holds us together. Take comfort that your loved one is no longer suffering and that they are forever your angel~
Im so sorry for your loss I do have to say what you are doing is incredible you are strong you make things look easy im an old truck driver, old biker now long hair, tattoos, just want to live free as we know nothing is free but what we feel in our hearts you do this and give people hope im just me but for those that you reach I will say thank you for them bless you and enjoy what life is
She love's you more. Loss in this world is a new start in another. You are a fantastic soul and she knows this. You will sense her more now then ever! Be well.
"Solitude" sounds great, I hope you enjoy it. I believe that you cannot have truly fulfilling relationships unless you first have your own grasp of solitude. And what a view!! WOW! (I like the cow too. I've worked with them a bit and find them very cool, inquisitive). Take care on your journey.......
Losing someone rather it be a family member or close friend is definitely a rollercoaster of emotions to deal with. One thing I've learned and I'm sure anyone who has lost someone has learned it takes a little time but it definitely makes you stronger.That person is never truly gone because they will forever live on in your memories and in your heart. Wishing you nothing but the best and safe travels. Oh yeah I've been hearing the call of the mountains for years now myself. Just trying to make it that way and hopefully one day I will.
So profound and personal but you still share. You are not alone on this journey. You have all these people there with you in spirit. Most you will never meet.
Alyssa, thanks for taking us along on this journey. I'm sorry about your loss of a dear friend, and it was obvious that you were grieving. I appreciate your thoughts on your life and finding peace even in a time of grief. Thanks for sharing those thoughts, I think you are such a beautiful person with your approach to life. God bless you and keep your chin up, will be praying for you, stay safe and happy 💖🙏
Sorry about your friend that living life is all about the up and downs be strong
Hey, stay strong, try to take into account that you knew that person, you probably had nice moments, and in an eternity we cant grasp its something precious and powerful enough to make us happy and move on. Good luck on your way!
So very sorry for the loss of your friend. What an incredible adventure through the canyon. Life is such a journey and it can lead you to so many incredible times, whether happy or sad it is what builds us all.
Grief sucks. I'm sorry you are going through it. I lost my dad recently and my son at 17 to suicide before that. I am well versed in living with grief, unfortunately. I hope you find peace soon. ❤
Keep the places where you stay to yourself, especially the special ones or they won't be quiet in private anymore.
Thank you for sharing. Bless you in your journeys.
Grieving someone will last as long as you need it to. We actually never lose anyone as long as they are remembered in thoughts, letters, cards or photos. I look at in this way, losing someone very dear opens a door for someone new to come into our lives not necessarily to diminish or replace what we lost but to strengthen ourselves emotionally and mentally. We are never truly alone in our daily adventures for someone is always there.
You are wise beyond your years. I have spent the last 2 years living alone and finding myself again, very much like you. Very much alone like you. I love your videos.
Profound loss visits all of us. Keep your friend alive in your memory and tell friends and family stories of the great times you had. Be grateful that you are blessed to have known her. She wants you to be happy. Being on your own, you can talk to her out loud as often as you want and nobody will think you are crazy. :)