Opening Up About My Depression & Anxiety
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- I don't know why but I feel a bit scared to put this vlog up. I fear being vulnerable sometimes and this is the first time I've ever mentioned my struggles. I hope that this can help anyone who is going through a hard time. You are never alone xx
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Everything she said about depression is literally happening to me right now.
Maria Cinco same here.. the crazy part is that I feel spoiled in a way. I have food, I have a home. I have parents that care for me.. I have friends.. yet I feel the same way ig depressed..
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You’re so lucky that you have the freedom to move and choose what you want to do in life. I have depression because of my strict family. And i have 0 choice.
Nouf M same my parents are really strict and won’t give me any freedom 😞
i know how you feel. i live with a very strict dad that doesnt care about my deperssion what so ever. he continues to abuses me mentally. i hope things get better with your family
depressed bitch ty for your support
The same thing happens to me but my parents mentally verbally and physically abuse me if I do something wrong 😞T^T
depressed bitch that’s the story of my life we have similar lives damn 😞
Its so good to feel like people understand what you’re going through
I'm so broken... to overcome from depression start your day with coffee... now I'm on another level
When I’m suffering with depression and stress, which is nearly every week I keep trying to think of the bright side.
Because no matter what the problem is, there’s always a bright side to it
i feel like there is a weight on my chest holding me back from everything that little tasks are so hard and i wanna go out and do stuff my my anxiety keeps me in.
Wonkey donkey yep, same here. I can go to work, but just about everything else is so difficult to do, basically impossible.
I know you’re Right yess i finally got on medicine to help and now i’m able to do more! but i still get bad thoughts every once and awhile just not as much
Girl!!! I'm sorry you feel depressed, I have been so depressed that I can't get out of bed, can't brush my teeth or shower for days, house hasn't been cleaned in a month
Sorry to hear about your friend’s passing. That in itself can knock anyone into a funk, allow yourself to grieve. But darlin you are doing all the right things, this too shall pass, and sometimes we need to be in this space in order for things to move and change for the better. Big hugs 🤗
Thank you xx It will pass :)
I have depression and anxiety & nobody gets me at all but yet people judge you
There's people out there that will get you and understand you. They are just hard to come by sadly.... I feel the same a lot of the time as you do.
As a native Floridian, I felt this exact same way at 24yrs old. So I moved. I’ve lived in Chicago, San Diego, and Denver and traveled to 6 countries, all in the past 10 years. Chicago didn’t work for me. The weather was pretty rough. Although it snows in Denver, the snow is clean and white and the mountains are breathtaking. San Diego is gorgeous but expensive. Anywho, I loved my 10 years of travel and am now back in Florida and I appreciate it more than I ever did. Travel is everything but there’s no place like home. Good luck to you.
Jaimie if you ever want to come back to Colorado I’d suggest fountain colorado it gets less snow than Denver but it’s very nice
Renee :
First , i wanna thank you from the bottom of my heart , because your videos about law of attraction inspired me and guided me to change my entire negative life .♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
Second, do whatever you feel helpful in order to make you feel better and continue to inspire us , we love you so much and wish you good luck in your life .
Thanks
Thank you so much xx This truly means so much
Living Organs!
"I'm going to kill myself"
A man said this no lie,
"No one will miss me
So it's better if I die"
"My life ain't worth living
Nothing's going right,
Only I can stop this pain
If I die here tonight"
Many people tried this
Because life was insane,
Some are now disabled
Yet many died in pain.
You may want to die
But body it does not,
When you cut yourself
Blood will start to clot.
You can swallow pills
Thinking that's the trick,
But body wants to live
It will make you sick.
Think about your body
Your body is a shell,
Protecting many organs
Who want to live as well.
When you go to sleep
Your organs have a goal,
They want to stay alive
So now they're in control.
Think about your organs
You have quite a few,
Many die who want to live
Now we're back to you.
Life has many hurdles
And can cause us pain,
But don't give up so easy
Think about the chain.
Chain is linked together
Father, husband, son,
Mother, sister, daughter
Each and everyone.
Take away one link
Now chain will fall apart,
Circle has been broken
That is just the start.
Chain no longer strong
So much grief they cry,
If you end your life
Another link may die.
By
Will Mckechnie
The body wants to live, the heart wants to stop, and the mind wants to die ❤💔.
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This isn’t anywhere close to depression. Imagine that same negative down feeling non-stop for years on end, with no opportunity for a change, and no one to talk things through. That’s what I deal with. I can create opportunities for change but doing it in under such circumstances feels impossible most of time.
Well said m8
My ex had depression or still does (not sure), she broke it off with me saying I deserve better and I am better off after the death of a loved one. I did say it wasn't true and that I would support her no matter what, but she chose to end it. She had me to talk to any time of the day and she knew I would be there, yet she chose to ignore and put me out of her life. I don't understand, as all her life she had friends use her, yet this one person (me) who would do anything for her, she was the one who pushed me out for no reason.
It's not a competition. DO NOT compare and discredit. Everyone's feelings and mental illnesses are valid.
I see a sparkle in her eye that I haven't seen in mine in years. Not the sunlight either dumbasses, I mean she has life in her eyes. hope. I feel a lot of the time the only point in my life is the drugs I do. My mom is pushing me further and further away and I can't stop it because I don't want to give up Xanax codein triple cs and cocaine. If you claim to have depression or anxiety because it's main stream or popular your taking away from those that have depression and anxiety so they can't be helped because your a little attention grabber, if your going to try to pretend to be depressed then atleast do it right, depression isn't being quiet and sad, it's about feeling no love for yourself so you hope to bring up others, always putting others first so you can try to take some happiness by giving it away, purely caring for people because you would never want them in your situation, always joking and laughing just hoping to feel something besides dread and pain. Sometimes the pain is so overwhelming you can't identify everything that hurts you just feel it seep through you, not just your chest hurting but your very energy or soul. This shit hurts so bad and it hurts worse knowing there's people not getting help because it's popular to be sad. If you do that, your the worst piece of shit to ever have been thrown upon this already terrible fucking earth and your very existence was a pure mistake.
Ian Mayman you don’t have to put her down because you feel like ur in worst situation. God my mom let my stepdad abuse me without doing anything but I want her to get better. I’m 6 feet under too. Sometimes u don’t have to look at ur issues and compare it to others.
Your videos are so inspiring and honestly bring my mood WAY up because you always have that beautiful smile on your face that brightens up any room and you’re always in a happy mood! I’ve been struggling with anxiety and depression for about 8 years now on and off and it’s not easy but you’re doing amazing at getting through it and by pushing yourself to make life changes and not letting fear take over, I’ve also struggled with fear and getting out of my comfort zone. You’re truly amazing and don’t ever think that you’re anything less than that!
I understand what you’re feeling. And even if it seems kind of daunting, new beginnings and challenges are the best thing because we end up finding so much more about ourselves.I hope you feel better, Ney! You’re truly an inspiration.
I moved from Colorado to Las Vegas after being uninspired and bored for a couple of months. I’m still settling but I like the new challenges and the new environments. Whatever you do, you’ll be ultra successful because you have a good awareness and are willing to try new methods of living.
Damn, didn't realise you had such anxieties... you always look so happy and inspired.
Not sure if 'moving to a city' will help. Sure it will enhance your life for a while, new people, new places, can inspire... but... after a couple of months, that will become 'normal' again, and... probably doesn't solve the root problem for your anxiety. Big cities can even enhance anxiety, since they are crowdy, noisy, way to much stimuli... difficult to 'focus' on yourself.
Same with travelling. Sure you meet other people, see other cultures, have wonderfull experiences, but... it also can just cloak your problems. And don't forget, the place where you live now, will be the 'dream' for others ,...
Always... have you seen her on a rainy day, or in the hospital, or in the toilet? You are so naive.
What Do you do then..
I’ve been dealing with dysthymia and I feel miserable. I cannot help but imagine how depression feels like.
I’m so sorry for everything that’s happening to you and I hope you get someone to support you all the way ‘till your full recovery.
Oh, how I know this. About 25 years ago (OMG!) I moved from CA to NY..never having even been there before. Best. Thing. Ever. I felt really unfulfilled and just waited for the next thing and knew I would regret not going. I believe that your emotions are a guideline from the larger you. In time, the right opportunity always presents itself. I've begun to work with a coach to help me gain clarity. Perhaps this type of work can also be helpful for you?
Thank you for sharing and giving me a success story xx
I hope you feel better. You really encourage me and teach me about LoA and inspire me to change. You taught me about scripting and I'm doing it now even as I'm watching this video. I'm sure you'll find your way back. Thank you for being so transparent .
1. I kept saying ‘this is so me’ multiple times during this video. Perfect timing.
2. What website do you use for your horoscope?
Thank you for being so open and transparent, I love that about you. May be take a rest from all that information you keep digesting, and go do something new, like eat something different, go hiking, etc. I think Abraham Hicks would say something like change your focus, stop focusing that you're in a low vibration and focus on something that excites you. I think that feeling sad is useful as it forces a needed change, so feel excited about that, because new and exciting things are coming you're way. I bet you'll post a new video soon telling us how high you feel.
Your vulnerability and genuine inner beauty is beyond inspiration to better myself so I can meet someone like you someday. May all the dreams that you seek come to you in the most harmonious manor. Your light will Shine again, thanks for the courage.
YOU’RE NOT ALONE!!!!! We’re all human and it’s perfectly okay to feel anxious sometimes. A very wise mall Santa that I met, back in 2018, once told me that “even on the cloudiest day the sun STILL shines behind those clouds meaning that no matter how dark it looks, the sun is STILL there and the joy and happiness is there for you as well”. No matter how scary or how uncomfortable things get for you, just know that everything’s going to be okay because you deserve to feel safe, loved, comforted, encouraged and for those who loved you and who really want to help u and be there for you and stay by your side either way. Whether from friends, family or anyone you trust and feel safe with.
I maybe an autistic women whose probably may or may not have had a lot of panic attacks but I can honestly tell u. I’ve had anxiety attacks due to my fear of failure in school or at work and not being good enough as a person and losing my job and I’ve also struggled with anxiety and depression for quite a long time so I do understand perfectly well the feelings of worthlessness, lack of self esteem, anxiety, depression, self hatred, loneliness, feeling trapped, frustration, remorsefulness, insecurity and the feeling of wanting to get try to better yourself but always coming out as a failure. Plus having been through Covid and being forced to follow Covid safety protocols like many others, myself, has been deeply traumatizing and extremely difficult for me as well socially, mentally, physically and emotionally.
The point is, your anxieties, your depression and everything mental health related DOES NOT define u for who you are, it’s what’s inside your heart and all the things we’ve accomplished in life and the kind of person u REALLY are in your heart that truly defines u for who u are. Some people are not gonna always understand what you’re going through and maybe they never will but as long as you have the people in your life who loved and cared about you or that special someone whom deeply loves u and genuinely cares about u and will do anything in the world to help u to overcome this, you’re gonna come out even stronger and more courageous than ever and before you’ll know it, you’re gonna surprise people by how far you’ve come in the end.
Stay strong, have courage, be kind to yourself, take heart and NEVER EVER give up hope because you ARE beautiful and practically perfect just the way you are in every way . ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Renee, I know what dealing with depression and anxiety is like, so just want to tell you that you will get through this and send you a humongous hug!! 🤗. Wish you the best, your a beautiful woman ...so take it day by day, you’ll get through this foggy phase of your life. Love you!!! ❤️
I think this is something frequent with gemini people. We have our ups and downs. What has always helped me start afresh is a good long cry. Then the relief is instantaneous and new hopes appear. Try to find your answers within. If not problems will go on chasing you wherever you move.
Andrea Carina and scorpio
Hi Renee - thank you for being so honest about your struggles with anxiety and depression. It’s not easy to open up publicly about such a thing, but there are so many people who can relate, including me! I’d like to share with you about my own 20+ years of struggling with very serious depression, and how i am completely free of it today.
Since i was a small child, i grew up with problems at home. I had an emotionally abusive mother and a father who did nothing about it, which only got worse as the years went by. As a child, i remember having my first feelings of lonliness, isolation, and sadness - as a *child*. I was shy by nature, but due to my problems at home, the shyness quickly turned into antisocialism. I had no friends in school, and barely talked to anyone.
In my early teens i was already dealing with the beginnings of depression - i would cry easily, was extremely sensitive to criticism and felt extremely lonely. Because of my lonliness, i lived in my mind all the time, in my own world. It was also in my teens that i developed a compulsive stealing addiction.
By my late teens, i was depressed more often than i was not. I had had countless heavy bouts of crying for no reason, and was intensly lonely. I went from ‘relationship’ to ‘relationship’ desperately looking for fulfillment, and found none. I was angry all the time and hated everyone. I had constant and intense social anxiety, and just a great amount of fear/anxiety about life in general. I felt like an alien in a world full of normal people. Some days the depression was so bad, i couldn’t even pick myself up off the floor - like, the literal floor. The slightest wrong look or word said to me in the wrong tone would send me spiriling down into a crippling depression episode that could last days, or even weeks.
By my early twenties, i began to quickly develop a pornography addiction, and thought i could find fulfillment in those useless quick-fixes that porn has to offer. It was also at this time that i had my first thoughts of suicide. The rest of my twenties is lost in a haze of alcohol addiction.
In my late twenties, i very nearly killed myself. I had it all planned out, with notes written to my parents and everything. All i was doing was waiting for the car i needed to borrow to return to where i was. While i was waiting, someone who i hated that was with me touched me, bowed her head, and prayed. In that instant, i was stunned to feel every last bit of desire to kill myself leave my body. The transformation was so rapid and so complete that, afterward, i actually thought “Did God do that to me??” But, me being an atheist who made fun of that kind of belief, i abandoned the thought and moved on. I do need to mention, that not even 2 minutes after that prayer was said and those feelings left me, the car i had been waiting for returned.
In my thirties, i became a very dark person, both inside and outside. I had stolen so much stuff over the 15 years - from department stores, my jobs, even my own family - i couldn’t keep track! My porn addiction ruled my life - like, multiple times a day, every day - at home, at work, wherever. I had never once had any satisfying or loving relationships.
In November of 2014, i was going through something terrifying, and to my disgust, it was brought to my attention to call on the name of Jesus. I was so angry about hearing that, but i was also desperate, and the only way i can explain it is that something in me moved me to call on His name. When i did, the terrifying things i was experiencing stopped. They had been so severe, and stopped so abruptly when i called Jesus for help, that i *knew* He was real. I asked Him into my heart and confessed my sins, and when i did that - Renee i’m not kidding here. He is REAL. When i started believing and looking to Him, within *days* i felt changes in me that i didn’t even remotely understand.
My depression *stopped*
My desire to steal *stopped*
My pornography addiction *stopped*
I *stopped* feeling angry/hating everyone and started *loving* people i once hated!!
Please please think about this for a minute. Do you understand how many *years* of therapy it would take to ‘cure’ even one of those serious probelms?? And with no relapses?? I took no medications, had no therapy, and have had no relapses back into any of those problems - problems that i had for *decades*!
Jesus and God the Father are so real, they love you and they can fulfill your heart in ways that *nothing* in this world ever will! I know you may not have the problems i had, but we all go through this life looking for fulfillment in all the wrong places (even if it *feels* fulfilling at the time!)
If you are ever in need, just talk to Jesus - pour your heart out to Him, ask Him to show Himself to you, and persist in asking until He does. If you persist, with an honest heart, He absolutely will show Himself to you.
He said “seek and you *will* find, knock and the door *will* be open to you” as a promise! ❤️ (Matthew 7:7)
If you are interested, my full testimony is on my TH-cam channel. It’s called “Jesus Saved Me From Demons, Atheism, Porn Addiction and More!”
Peace
to the people saying that this isn’t even bad, it can be different then you think, yes others can be going through worse, this is the worst for her. just remember that you have no idea what someone else is going through.
have a nice day :)
Gosh, I relate to you so much. I'm not sure if you've ever done the Myers Briggs personality test but you sound a lot like me. I'm an INFJ and there's this thing called the Ni-Ti loop where you get so lost in your head overthinking and over analyzing. It tends to happen when you're a bit isolated from society and you just go round and round in your head, resulting in you feeling depressed and anxious all the time. I find getting out and doing more extroverted things help to get me out of my head and change is always good. Not sure if this is the case but I definitely relate to how you're feeling. Thank you for the video
Thank you for this video. I have some of the very same struggles with negative thoughts every day. Depression, Lack of motivation to create music, and many things that just take turns for the worst. So thank you for talking about what you’ve been struggling with so that others can feel related to and understood
I’ve been feeling this way a lot lately too. Like there is absolutely nothing wrong in my life, nothing to be anxious about, but my mind keeps creating anxiety for the drama of it all or something. and that sucks bc it leaves you feeling like you need to keep searching for fixes when nothing is wrong. ❤️
Omgg I got so excited when I saw you posted! You truly have inspired me so much!!😊 I’m sorry you have been feeling down!! I moved to the city a few months ago and it really has been such an amazing change and experience ! Can’t wait to see where life takes ya girl! :)
I def relate. I lived in Jacksonville Beach, FL for like 7 years and it was so nice but after awhile, I lost my ability to appreciate it. The state is beautiful but something about how spread out everything is and how absolutely uneventful it feels like to just be in a quiet and sleep-like environment all the time killed me. Fast forward years later and I’m in Phoenix/Scottsdale and rediscovered what it means to have a sense of adventure and thirst for life. The energy of an actual city is great because it feeds your appetite to socialize and better yourself. Also Sedona and the hikes nearby are awe-inspiring and rebuilds your motivation and inspiration for the world. Energy from a place like that really makes the unspiritual spiritual. Lastly its overlanding and jeeping nation here and being able to drive to Zion, Havasu, Grand Canyon and on and on makes every weekend a weekend to look forward to. For the first time in awhile, the idea of roadtripping to Oregon and seeing the pacific northwest was infinitely a more fun vacation idea than flying to the Bahamas and laying on the beach. Also the weirdest thing happened, on a recent weekend visit to San Diego, I totally appreciated the ocean again. It’s all a matter of perspective and we lose sight of certain ones when we’re so use to the same sights and sounds. We were meant to experience and live. Because you’re a Floridian:
“The world is a book, and those who do not travel read only one page.”
-Saint Augustine
Thanks for sharing your journey. I am going to visit Sedona and the Arizona spiritual hiking area.
I hope you find your inspiration and get out of this rut. I love your vlogs.
Please please please post them regularly.
Much love 💕
Ney, you are amazing
Thank you so much for opening up. I can really relate to your situation right now and this video helped validate my feelings. I have been feeling low this past week for no apparent reason. I have been more emotional than normal, as well. The weird thing there is nothing wrong going on externally and, actually, there are a lot of good things happening in my life but I can’t seem to focus on them and feel joy about them. A thing that grounds me and centers me is doing a mindful meditation. I feel all the excess, incessant energy up in mind slow down. You should try it to help you get out of your head a bit. Love you 💜
I totally get that need to change. Im 23 and have had 11 jobs since i was 14. I cannot sit still. Im always looking for new inspiration and it seems like what you do to. Be proud of yourself for having the willingness to evolve! Alot of people are so content that they never change or grow but you crave and actively seek it out. Good on you!
Loz xx
If you are reading this -
I wanna ask you how are you? I'm so sorry to hear about what you been through and I'm going to say you're the strongest person I have seen.
Personaly my situation is that when I was 17 years old i complete my high school from Boston in US and then i decide to go to college but couple of days after my graduation I was at home i got a call from hospital that my family-dad, mom and a brother are died in car accident. After that I struggled financially to support myself and to get into college or afford to go to college so I start working part time to support myself financially.
I'm 20 know I move to Texas because I'm starting college from the money that I saved, I'm going to attend South Texas community college.
I think I can relate to you, I as well when I was working part-time I start losing my mind been through depression in last 3 years in high school as well being bullied,have no friends after highschool, isolated myself from the world and tried to kill myself many times, cut my hands with blade. But now I'm trying to stay positive, complete my college degree and pushing myself to go out and start talking to new people and make some friends .
If you want to talk to someone I'm here and I also need someone to talk. ❤
That is quite a journey. I am proud that you are able to continue to do your best no matter what. God bless you lots! ❤
You saying that you have depression actually makes me feel like I'm not alone for some reason
I am at the time in life where I honestly don't care what happens to me anymore.
Thanks for opening up, it was so brave of you to share this with us. i hope you feel much better, reach for the best feeling you can in that moment, and everything will be fine. you are exactly where you need to be :)
You‘re speaking my mind with this video. I’ve been feeling exactly the same! Thank you so much for sharing 💕
I've found I get bored and usually get the moving bug every 5 to 10 years. I mean to move to a totally new state. I've moved all over the country and still get the moving bug. I've been planning a move for this February. Been looking at Denver CO and Winston-Salem NC, and possibly Memphis TN. Do it now because for some reason it gets harder the older you get. I have also gotten depressed-bored most of my life. Some of us really need challenges to stay happy. Because of it I have moved and gone back to school so many times my family makes fun of me. But the best thing to do is find a somewhat difficult challenge that you can immerse yourself in. Whatever it takes to pull yourself out. I even wrote and published a cookbook just to pull myself up. Find yourself a big challenge. Moving to another state works really well, going back for a whole new degree does also but sort of isn't worth the expense. Starting an entirely different business from your norm also works. Good luck. I think personally it's a sign of a high intelligence but I could be biased. Haha.
You may be younger than me but this video could not come at a better time. I too have been in a rut. Tho there were things that set me here, I am also a very sensitive person and have a lot going on around me. I know i need alil more rest and time for myself. You do the same. We will get thru this 🙌 🌻 Thank You 🌻
I know right?
I feel exactly the same as you do. Very down for no reason. Bored and sad. Uninspired. Wanna move. This is every day for me.
Take a moment to sort out your life and get clarity and silence that running thoughts in your mind Renee..you are awesome and I am so grateful to find your channel. There are so many people out there who really admire you and wants to be like you.. So indulge in some self care for some days and take a complete detox for your mind ....you will be back with a bang girl..lots of love dear...
Thank you so much xx Seriously.
i'm recently getting out of the military, and behavioral health providers truly do not care about how you're feeling. and all they really tell you is that if you think happy thoughts you'll feel happy.. it's sad but i reached out for help and no one wanted to help me..
I'm so happy hearing that you're getting better .... do what ever you feel is right , we're gonna support you with what we can...love you
Thanks for the video. I myself have the same issues but like you said getting out, and having a friend over helps alot. Stay strong💜
You have put into words all the things I’ve been feeling this past month. I have been uninspired lately. I haven’t been able to force myself to sit down and film or even do anything creative for awhile which is so not me. But maybe you’re right. I just need to do it and maybe I’ll feel better. Great video. Hopefully you are able to figure a way to get out of the rut you're in. I feel like change is needed sometimes so we don't feel stagnant or "stuck" in our everyday routine. So maybe a move or some traveling is needed!
ugh u are my soul sister. i have been having the same exact feelings. ESPECIALLY the negative thoughts telephone. I love u sm
I hope you get a better grip on your depression. I also have depression and I don't really speak up a lot, so telling people about my depression was so hard to do.
Absolutely beautiful and inspiring videos. THANK YOU for helping me through a hard time the last few months. Stay strong!
You too? You are perfect Renee-you taught me to write down a to do list-in my eyes you are perfect
I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and spoken word performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my TH-cam channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤
Thanks for sharing your struggles Renee, and sorry to hear you've been feeling this way. I've been so inspired by your videos as someone who also struggles with anxiety, you are such a light. Take the time you need for yourself. xx
Also the new living room setup is gorgeous, and loved the mac tribute at the end. So sad about his passing.
I'm tired of depression taking all my motivation, energy, and my hopes and dreams I'm tired of it. Sometimes I sleep only for 4 hours other times I sleep 10 1/2 hours. Even showering is hard and getting dressed. Even the little tasks become hard, I literally feel drained 100% mentally, physically, emotionally. I'm tired of life.
Hi! I know that you commented this 4 months ago but how are you now? I’m going through something very similar at the moment, my anxiety and depression going hand in hand. I just wanted to check how you are doing now, I’m always available to chat if anyone wants to!🧡
today iam here not to see this video or other's comments.believe me I don't see this video or read any comment.iam here only to say one thing that is don't look at other's life experiences or don't search for videos about depression.i can understand how you feel.you are seeking for a motivation to make you move forward.but all motivation and strength you are searching are hiding inside your mind itself.you just need to make it come out by your own positive thoughts.i also suffered this and my biggest drawback was searching videos about depression and worrying on other's worst experiences which made me feel may be I will be like that.once I started loving my own personality rather than others and completely avoided the use of social media and searching such videos,things changed.avoid this seeking motivation method instead discover the motivation inside you.if you always look for other's stories and start believing that you become like that (if you are worried about other's experience)then you cannot become an individual.show your own personality.
Ive been in a funk too because of a random medical condition that literally just came out of nowhere. haven't been leaving the house much but i'm trying to get myself remotivated to regroup and get myself back out there. it's definitely hard though when you let yourself slip. i know you'll get through it!
Thank you for this! Your vlog came at the perfect time cause I've been experiencing the same thing recently and felt guilty for feeling that way. I'm glad to know that I'm not alone.
Thank you for posting this! I feel the same exact way, depressed cause I’m bored, and it feels good knowing I’m not the only one
Thank You this is really help me out a lot thank you because im dealing with depression and my anxiety a lot so this video really helped
I am the same exact way. I've been married for 12 years and have 4 kids and we have moved 17 times! I always have to move and start fresh
You can call me a fake I dont care. In 2012 I basically went from dedicated workaholic, like work during lunch. And in one fall I'm disabled. And worse they make me reprove it daily for compensation. At that time I lost mom and grandma I was destroyed but I pulled out of it. But recently marriage issues, and the death of my last adult family member, my dad. And my body is taking toll of disability. Endurance is crap. So I now have nightmares daily, migraines daily, yes getting treated, I'm trapped in a bubble. I can't do for myself, my families dead, my one pilar is crumbling. My injury is getting worse. Sleep confusion, nerve issues, concussion occur easier, I'm massively depressed. And listening to this video, this girl reminds me of something I heard. Every few months people need to change the furniture around or do something to stimulate a new pattern. I dont think my issues and hers are even in the same stratosphere.
hi renee xx i have had the exact same thing going on, thank you posting this! looking forward to more videos :) big love xxxxxxxxx
Renée: your videos have helped me a lot during dark times, I really appreciate how much they have. I’m sad to know that you have been depressed too, I’ve been there and it’s so tough.
Regarding moving out from Florida, I recommend you Madrid. You’ll love it. Come here for a season, take a marketing course, whatever to keep you busy. It will change your life.
Fear of suffering is worse than suffering👌this is sooo true....
I appreciate your videos so much
I have severe depression from war time experiences, I've been homeless the past 3 years because of it. And there is no way out, cant even get a shower to get a job, cant afford a shower without a job...my day becomes filled with finding the next meal and safe spot to rest instead of things you would think I should do like get a job. It's harder than you think especially with crippling depression and PTSD. I'm fortunate enough to have my cellphone from a few years back so I can use wifi still. But I'm pretty much at the end, I've tried everything I can, and without having options to recooperate a d get back on track like most people, i have nobody to help me even a little. I've thought it through intensely, there would not be any way for me to get out of this, even on my best days. You're fortunate you have family that cares and helps you. I've come to the decision to kill myself. Very unemotional about it, I tried not to for the longest time, but theres truly no reason to keep going, just emptiness every day, just existing with no joy. it amazes me how people who have support and friends can feel suicidal. I'm not even suicidal, it's purely a logical choice due to realizing theres actually no options for me. You people have fucking options and still crying about your amazing lifes. Ffs...pansies...I'd kill to have even 1/5th of what most of you people have in your lifes. Fuck this I'm going to pull the trigger
I also have been feeling the urge to go somewhere new and revamp my life... I still have a year in the apartment I'm in, but I've never lived outside of FL and I'm starting to think I may be approaching the time to adventure elsewhere... you can always move back if anything!
Sending you lots of love. I know you will make the right decision. You are the best.
I know I have anxiety and depression, but I’ve never gone to the doctors about it, I’m afraid that they won’t find anything or I won’t be able to explain my problems well enough to them. I’m used to hiding my anxiety and depression because my fiancé thinks you have to have a strong mindset and that mine is weak if I “think” I have anxiety and depression.. to some point he’s right but when you have these things it’s hard for you to control your mindset because your mind is fighting you and you’re fighting your mind
I'm in a kind of similar situation and i feel that my thoughts and emotions are like in a loop and generally lately i'm not in that good vibe place so i can relate to some degree to what you're saying. What i want to share with you is what came to me as a thought after meditation the other day , which may help( or not) ....so i thought that maybe i can attract someone in my life (friend or something) that is one of those people with this intense zest for life because whenever i'm with such a person i feel that has a good impact on me as if it's contagious and i get some of that as well. I don't know maybe that's dumb but i think that i will give it a go. Anyway i really hope you feel better soon! Namaste 😊
When our thoughts are in a loop, it can sometimes help to calm our mind and re-center. Have you tried meditation at all to help focus on your thoughts? Let me know if I can recommend any good places to find short meditation exercises.
thank you so much for sharing, I my self struggle with feeling low and unattached to everything and everyone. it was hard for me to come to terms with the fact that I was depressed because I thought that there was something wrong with me. I didn't want to tell anyone about it n so I only told two people...I don't even know them that well. but I would never tell anyone close to me I'm too scared that they will think of me differently and that may make it worst. but thank you ,its people like you that make me more open to sharing AND I DONT FEEL SO ALONE.
I have depression and anxiety and all I do half the time is think about death and loneliness. It really makes me sad because I use to have the best life back then. Family, pets, attention. But now I'm alone and Noone really cares. I'm poor so I can't even afford a therapist so it makes me incredibly scared knowing that my anxiety and deppression will never go away. My life will just be dark boring sad and alone. But at least I'm not the only one so thanks for that I guess.
BluSphinx stay strong I also deal with the same things. Find depression groups through social media. I have really tough days, but we can get through it. There’s always hope we have to take it one step at a time.
BluSphinx ok
Brittany Gordon ok
Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability ~ that takes alot of bravery and I commend you for that. I'm also glad you could talk with your Mom. You know she will always (always) be there for you no matter what. She also loves you beyond measure ❤💕❤
Love you more mama
Depression is the worst, and sadly it’s something that not many people talk about but I totally related to many things you said.
How to get over it ?
Thank you so much for sharing your story. Depression is so hard to "overcome" I say it like because its a lifelong cycle. Struggling pretty hard myself right now. It's nice to know I'm not alone.
I’m sorry for your friends’ passing. Good luck with your change be it moving, traveling. This video was helpful to me and I’m sure it has been to everyone else.
Sometimes being sad with no reason as you say can snowball out of control…and yes I come from a state with snow part of the year.
So big hugs for you for getting help figuring things out or at least on your way. If you need someone to talk to…well if you say hi then we can chat.
Always good to meet new people
I'm sorry that you seem sad and anxious. I'm glad you were bold enough to share these thoughts. I wish you well.
I respect the video. I have lost two people to suicide and and a few more to emotional manipulation. I have been told I’m worthless and stupid I deserve al of this. I have moved 6 times with a sick parent who has been in bed most of my life. I’m so sorry that you’re feeling bad and I understand the lack of motivation but I have nothing compared to you
Thank you for sharing your feeling and struggle. I wish you all the best and you will make it. I'm also fighting - we will win😊
I know exactly what you're going through, I'm experiencing the same. But I figured this must be my down time before I moved to my next journey and I need to process information to move on. Sometimes I feel like I'm in a holding pattern or black hole and can't move forward but it must be something I need to learn in order to move on to the next. I figure It will come in its right time.
really like this, have the same thing xx feels right to think this is happening for a reason and just part of the process
Exactly!
I do rekommend travelling!
I was poor but got an heritage. I bought a GPS for my sons car and asked him to immediately leave Sweden with me.
We visited Holland and Germany. I loved Holland and stayed there for several months. Everything was different and I loved it. I mostly hung out with English people in the pubs, but also Dutch and I became another person! Life was exciting, not boreing! Wish you luck!
tried ending my life very recently, years of depression on a different level, no help from anyone, significant other walked out on me, family members lost, no amount of drugs, alcohol and pills seem to work, i just want to end this pain, but is like no matter what it just keeps coming back, all i feel is nothing and empty, to the ones going through this only people like us know how hard it is.
This was the video that drew me to your channel!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️ from 🇿🇦🇿🇦🇿🇦🇿🇦!!!!
Being a Gemini myself I can totally relate to what you are saying..
..nd if you are planning for travelling do consider India..its a totally different culture and can give you a different spiritual experience altogether. You are so gonna love it🤗🕉
sending you lots of love and positive energy❤ 😇🍃💫
Being bored or uninspired isn't being depressed.
You should totally move to Chicago it would be a great change
How about if you are scared to interact to other people and you scared when someone (in general) eye to eye contact with you. Hoping that someone can notice me :(
Good luck hopefully that inspired uoy
And don't hope that someone notices you, make your self noticed
@@1subwithnovids22 im scared coz maybe they think that im not normal im scared :( i want to go back into a normal life. I encounter this since 2015 and my life is not normal since 2015
@@jelocabason5735 why would they think you're not normal?
@@1subwithnovids22 here in my country (philippines) most of the people they didnt aware of the mental health problem they are judgemental if they noticed that you go in psychiatrist they will think that you are crazy and out of your mind. Compare to other country they implementing the mental health awareness
Do you have a video on attracting money? I have realized I have so much resistance towards attracting money. What exercises can I do
Hey there, new subscriber here. Just watching a couple of your videos, I feel like I instantly connected with you and now seeing you put Mac Miller at the end of this ensured me that we would be friend in real life. After his passing, I felt depressed and sad for a while because he did bring good music into a special time in my life. I've been thinking of moving somewhere new, I live in Cali and it's expensive but so beautiful. Anxiety and depression I think will always be something we battle with, but we will always get thru it. "New highs, followed by new lows, all for the balance I suppose"- Jhene Aiko. Anyways, great content so far.
Does anyone else feel like they don't want to get better? I mean: if anyone finds satisfaction in depression and anxiety? I would rather stay depressed, and I don't want to get better. The one person I have told that is supposed to be family says that it doesn't make any sense. I wanted to see what everyone else would think. I don't want to feel good. I'm happy being sad, if that makes any sense.
@@gloomy5823 😢😭😢
Ty for posting this vlog. I'm thinking about starting my own channel about dealing with life when having depression, anxiety and PTSD. This video gave me the motivation to do it.
I feel the exact way you do. Kinda glad to know i'm not the only one going through this.
sad is full of emotion, depression is a empty feeling.
My son is going through this ,, and you sound the same as him ,, racey mind ,, negatives thoughts , and being stuck ,, and he complains of boredom as well ,, and he say he feels sad inside to the point of crying ,, and he does quotes as well ,, he at the point of where he needs help ,, thank you for your posting ,, I am his mom and I diagnosed him just this evening ,, myself by writing down everything on paper and comparing time dates and when it first started to show , then the later on when he older ,, and how he felt ,, then I took the paper in my room and looks up depression and compare to what he he said to the check points, and realized he has depression,, acute now ,, but we will get help and hopefully the doc's can do something about it ,,
hello i want to tell you there is a way out of depression and anxiety
as a person who struggled with anxiety my whole life and struggled with depression for 15 years
i could not leave my house
i struggled with sucidal thoughts
i had been to many couselors
took many different antidepressants it only got worse
it was only when i started to pray the lord that my prayers were answered
im grateful to say that im 1 year and a half depression and anxiety free
thank you jesus for saving me from the bondage i was in
if it were not for him
i would not be alive today to tell others my testimony
i encourage to call out to jesus to help you with this he is the ONLY one that can save you from this
he wants to save you
but you have to ask him
god bless you
i will pray for you
have a blessed day
the ONLY one, that seems wrong
@@adirmiller2141
im just delivering the message of my testimony
its your free will to believe or not
jesus died for our sins he is the only one that can save you
because he is only one appointed by god
as the savior of our souls
amen
praise the lord
@@1313utuber pretty sure I helped kill him actually, well that's what most if you claim
@@adirmiller2141
you are not held accountable something that happened 2000 years ago
and jesus forgave them while he was on the cross
i encourage you not to listen to mans opinion of you
but the only way to the father is through jesus christ
i was a person who grew up with very little knowledge of god
and nothing of jesus
i knew of jesus
but not much about about his life here and his purpose
and how he loved us soo much that he gave his life for all of humanity sins
so that we may be saved thru him and have life abundantly
and true peace that surpasses understanding
amen
if you confess jesus is lord and he died for our sins and rose again
and truly repent of your sins
you can be forgiven of them
and saved too
Im a christian and i have asked god for a long time to take away depression but maybe he doesnt want to
Yes I think you do great ❤️I think you should to move and live your life and live your age instead of sitting in your home because when you getting old you’ll sit this is what I think and I live about ..thank you ❤️
I know I don't know what you do everyday, but I know you work from home and film youtube videos at home so you spend a lot of time there. I work from home as well and a part of the reason my depression has been so bad is because even though i'm technically working, I don't feel productive because I don't leave my house and I'm not interacting with others. It makes me feel secluded a lot. I'm in the process of finding a new job and I have been for months so hopefully there's change for me soon but in case you are wondering maybe why you're feeling bored i'm sure that might be a reason. A lot of people envy people who work from home but it's actually quite boring and lonesome. Definitely just try to stay active and busy and it helps!
The same thing happens to me when Im board I feel sad and depressed its so weird but Ive noticed that happens to me I get I'n this rut where I just feel down tired uninspired and uninterested. Im actually there now and Im kicking my life into gear no more wasting time no more going mindlessly, Im making things happen all the amazing things I want to do Im gonna do them like NOW! Best of luck hugs! 😊