I Can't Get Pregnant | Our Fertility Journey Episode 1
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- I Can't Get Pregnant | Our Fertility Journey Episode 1
This is the first episode of our series documenting the rollercoaster of a ride infertility is. This footage was taken over the past 3 years and was filmed in hopes of making those struggling to conceive feel less alone (and their family/friends to understand it a little more), to help me get out my feelings and connect with you, and to show our (hopefully) future child how much we wished they would find us.
My clinic: The Women’s Clinic (Dr. Grace Kong and her Nurse Bonnie)
thewomensclinic.com.hk/en/index
*They’ve been wonderful, I highly recommend them if your looking for gynaecological or fertility services in Hong Kong
Some videos I found helpful:
Infertility TV: / @infertilitytv
Books:
It Starts with the Egg:
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Going to answer some common questions here.
1. Has Tom been tested? Yes. He has no issues.
2. Why don’t you adopt? I personally would love to have my own biological children, I want to feel my body growing a baby and breastfeed and the whole thing. Adoption is also a beautiful thing and something we have thought about and it may be an option in the future. Please know that I know this exists.
3. Any interpretation of our relationship/Tom not doing things: I’m going to be showing you me and my relationship at the most vulnerable states to show you the realities (from my perspective). My partner isn’t really comfortable being on camera so there isn’t much about his feelings/emotions, those talks are done privately. Although he doesn’t like the needles (which is fine because I’m completely ok with them!) he’s been there every step of the way cheering me on and doing the best he can.
Thank you for sharing your journey! To all those people asking 'why don't you adopt?' 🙄.. I know sometimes people don't know what to say but this is such a triggering thing to say to someone going through infertility and for people who are trying to adopt or are adopted. 1) adoption is often difficult, time consuming and expensive. Not everyone is cut out for it or can afford it. And children who are adopted should be placed with families who feel a calling that adoption is the right choice for them. 2) its not the infertility community's job to adopt all the children who need homes. Would you ask someone with biological children why they didn't adopt instead? 3) unless specifically asked, people going through infertility aren't asking for advice. Most of the time they just want someone to listen and feel heard.
Appreciate you taking the time to answer some questions for us ❤️ Thank you for including us in your journey!! Lots of love.
Everyone wants different things in life, sweet girl. If you wish to try until the end to be able to get pregnant yo do what you gotta do. There is never shame in going after your dreams. In exploring any avenue and options available. Some people provide what options they thinks can help and thankfully most of the time what they say comes from the heart and a genuine want to help you and see you happy. I don't know you personally, we live literally at the opposite sides of this big planet of ours but I had watch your videos for years now. You deserve to have your wishes come true. Your charisma and big heart, as well as what little you husband shows on camera, is something special and lovely. I am not religious and I am not sure if you are either but I still will try and put positive vibes to the universe so you can there and once you do, I will wish for you all to have all the happiness in the world.
Sorry for ur painful journey
Don't give up...luv u both
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My husband didn’t have any real issues either but his DR put him on Clomiphene which lowers estrogen and increases testosterone. We did this along with tracking ovulation and using Pre-seed. It’s an OTC in the USA. We tried for a year and nothing and then as soon as we did the combination of the three we were able to get pregnant. In my honest opinion I think it was the Pre-Seed that helped the most & it was recommended by a friend.
I hope you're posting this now because watching it back doesn't hurt you as much anymore. I hope you're in a better place regarding your journey now. I wish all the best to you!
What an underrated comment, you’re honestly such a sweet person if I was going through the same thing and I read your comment it would have filled my heart with peace
I hope it tooo
I am ❤️ you’re exactly right! Thank you
@@Taylor_R 😊
Would ne so fantastic of this ends with her, showing a little baby bump, but if not im glad that her passion helps her to therapy her and That she is happy whatever happens.
Im not wanting children in my future, but there's something about seeing a woman go through this kind of pain and endless hoping makes my heart hurt. I'm sorry for all of this and I'm constantly wishing for a new family member for you two!!!
same. I don't ever want children but it's so painful to watch someone struggle who wants to be a parent so badly. it's the constant cycle of hope and disappointment that's so heartbreaking.
@@jiojiojoj Personally, for me, I dont care for them. Im not a maternal person and Ive never had the urge or want to bring my own child into this world. I have a lot of healing to do from my own childhood and Im very selfish (which is okay) and I dont think a child is right for me. I hope everyone else who wants children can have their dreams come true. 💕
@@jiojiojoj Do you ask every person who wants children why they want children?
@@vaaance710 Na cuz it’s normal
@@ooxbj2746 And not wanting kids is not normal? You sound like the kinda person who would say gay is not normal.
When my husband and I had a miscarriage, we held it together at the hospital. We're in Japan, and tears are for private times, usually. But he knew to ask, "do you want to grab a coffee downstairs before we go?" It was just the right thing to say to me, for my personality. We cried a lot at home.
Since then, we've had a beautiful baby boy, and I hope the same for Taylor and Tom, and anyone out there who's trying
@Minnie M What an awful thing to say. You have no idea how far along I was. I held my foetus in my hands...
By the way, our beautiful son was born without a heartbeat, not breathing. The doctors were able to bring him back, and thanks to them, he is the light of our lives.
I say it because, similarly to Taylor, we knew that things would be very difficult (the difference being for her to get pregnant, and for me to carry a baby safely enough for him to be born - early but hopefully alive and well).
When someone shares that they've had a miscarriage, were *at the hospital miscarrying,* then they clearly *did* know they were pregnant, and were far enough along for it to "count."
But, shouldn't other, earlier losses count? Taylor, for example, finally had a positive pregnancy test after 2 years of trying. Only to discover that she'd need to go through everything again the next month. That is HARD.
Your comment may have been trying to uplift women - you're not alone, it happens, it's a natural process that's very common. Instead, it lacks empathy and tells women what they should or should not feel, and is frankly insulting. I really want you to read it again and try to understand just how hurtful it is.
@Minnie M WOW what an insensitive comment. Any woman who has gone through infertility or a miscarriage at any stage would find your comment rude and disrespectful. Any woman who is struggling with infertility is tracking every day of their cycle because many have had to take their temperature daily, are taking various medications to help support a pregnancy especially with IVF and other more invasive procedures where they know exactly when the embryo was transferred and how many dpo they are and how many days old the embryos are at the time of transfer. It doesn’t matter if you have a miscarriage in the first trimester or later because you still lost a baby and the hopes and dreams for the future of your child. By 5-6 weeks gestation that embryo has a beating heart and by 8 weeks they have fingers and toes. Women who are actively trying to get pregnant and know how their body feels at each stage of their cycle and after they have conceived will tell you how gut wrenching it is to have a miscarriage and you definitely know when you are having one even before you are 6-8 weeks pregnant. Yes scientifically there are women who have first trimester miscarriages and never knew that they were pregnant, but they were also not actively trying to get pregnant and probably have no clue if they have any issues with infertility or were told that they wouldn’t ever be able to get pregnant so they wouldn’t be looking for symptoms of pregnancy or taking a pregnancy test hoping to see a positive test result. Those women are in the minority now a days as more women are waiting until their late twenties and into their thirties to start trying to get pregnant and because of that they are dealing with infertility issues that they never expected to have to deal with and because of it they are seeing specialist and doing different treatments which means they are very connected with their cycle and and depending on which treatment they will know when they are pregnant very early into their pregnancy and a miscarriage at any stage would be gut wrenching to them and to have someone make a comment that trivializes their loss is beyond rude and disrespectful, but also painful because a miscarriage affects you mentally, physically, and emotionally. The only difference between an early miscarriage and one later in the pregnancy is not being able to hold your baby, take pictures or having something to remember them later on. I had 5 miscarriage during our 10 years of trying to get pregnant not knowing that I had PCOS until the last 4 years during which I took medication to help balance my hormones to conceive and maintain a pregnancy beyond the first trimester. I knew when I ovulated and when I conceived our daughter and I had multiple symptoms of pregnancy the biggest one being that my period never started which it had been for over a year. I didn’t get a positive pregnancy test result until I was 3.5 months pregnant and that was with multiple doctors doing both blood and urine test all were negative and yes I had been seen by both my Gynecologist and my endocrinologist. You can imagine their shock and surprise when I finally got a positive test result and an ultrasound that proved what I had been saying the whole time. I was almost 4 months pregnant the day of the ultrasound with a very healthy and active baby who rarely stopped moving. She arrived a little over a month before our 10th wedding anniversary. I had my last miscarriage shortly after she turned 2 and made the decision to stop trying to get pregnant because frankly I couldn’t go through another miscarriage.
God you are strong not to cry right then and there. I don't think I could do that. Japan is a bit too much for me when it comes to emotions and mental health overall. I feel like the country needs to evolve massively in those two categories. But in that moment I would have cried a whole waterfall and not given a single thought of what anyone else thinks of me because of that.
I am super glad your second time (more or less/I read your other comment and noticed it still wasn't an easy birth) worked out. Hopefully you three stay together and healthy!
But I am not too worried because after a strong low there is usually a rewarding big up as well :) Stay as strong as you are, you're a real amazon of a lady! (I am trying to say a real trooper,I mean it in a good way xD)
I was one of those who never believe in miracle until i get pregnant after 12 years of trying to conceive..I have been married for 12 years without a child, many means to get pregnant failed, one day I was online when I saw series of testimony about a great Priest called Priest Ose, Some testify he cure their infertility issues, some testify he gave them business spell that attract customers to their company and some testify he reunited their long broken relationship.. Immediately i contacted him, told him my story, he cast a pregnancy spell for me and conceive after having it with my husband.. i am now a mother of a handsome baby boy.. Many thanks to great Priest Ose.. if you're out there passing through similar issues don't be shy to call or WhatsApp him on: number: +2347030559372 or click on his page: facebook.com/Spiritual-helperspell-caster-100496481599995/
Honestly, I don't see why any woman would want to get pregnant. Pregnancy puts a lot of strain on a woman's body, and it is very dangerous, and has risks, and a pregnancy lasts 9 months. Also, childbirth is very painful. And also, raising children is very hard.
Personally, I think being childfree would be a lot better than having children.
I hope people see this and think twice before asking people “when are you having babies!?”. Thank you for sharing such a private part of your life. It takes a lot of courage to be soo honest and real with a bunch of people. Big hugs, I’m sooo sorry you have gone through this hurt and struggle.
Seriously people should never ask that even a visibly pregnant person. You just never know what's going on. I only talk about this stuff when the other person starts first.
Best case is you get a person like me who doesn't want kids and is just mildly annoyed at getting asked this question for the 100th time but I won't be mean unless someone is mean to me first.
Worst case you get someone who is trying so hard to get pregnant but just can't.
Yes! I can’t have kids and it’s one of the most hurtful questions someone can ask. And you either have to shut the conversation right down or explain personal stuff.
@@DieAlteistwiederda I don't really want kids, so I agree.. on my moms end she really wanted kids and also struggled to have babies. Seeing someone go through this makes me really want to hug my mom. She adopted my older sister then me, and we love her lots. And my dad.
Yea I cringe when people ask this even when I was a child and too young to even become pregnant or even know of all the complications that could come with it and heard people say it to others. It just didn't seem right to me. And now, though I really really would like to have children, I have to slowly get myself used to the fact that I might not even become pregnant.
There's nothing wrong with asking someone when or if they want kids so long as the setting is appropriate. If you're offended you simply decline to respond.
I can't imagine going through this, let alone sharing it with the internet. I hope you realise how incredibly strong you are. Lots of healing to you and Tom ❤
The internet helps a lot! I’ve connected with so many incredible women going through a similar journey.. it’s really helped me cope with things ☺️🥰
@@Taylor_R YOUR HUSBAND IS IMPOTEND!!!
@@alightions9203 DONT BE A POO POO HEAD,
@@alightions9203 So opinions should be left unsaid. Otherwise it's cruel
@@Taylor_R Hey girl!! I’m so sorry you’re going through this! Keep trying! Never give up! I know someone who tried for yeaaaars- and then out of the blue she got twins! Sending you all love and positive vibes!!
Infertility is such a struggle. My husband and I have been trying for a baby for years. Last year we thought we might have been successful, it turned out to be colon cancer. We did emergency IVF to save some embryos. We managed to save 2 and hope once I am better we could use them. Good luck on your journey my heart goes out to you.
God bless you
i personally would love to help people have kids! specifically, couples who have genetic disorders that they're worried their baby will inherit. in the past few years, artificial wombs have been made that help with emergencies in pregnancies where the fetus is already established and well into the second trimester. If you ever find yourself wanting those embryos to be children but your body cannot handle them, then maybe waiting for an artificial womb to be made for humans is going to be your best shot.
If you don't mind me asking - how did colon cancer symptoms make you think you were pregnant?
Wishing you and your husband all the best
Hope you heal sister, praying you can have a beautiful baby girl or boy ❤️
My husband and me tried for eight years with no luck. We did the injections and all. Finally, we went through IVF. They put three embryos back in and one took. My first baby was born 2/2004. After him, we naturally started getting pregnant out of the blue and ended up with five children. I know this struggle and can tell you, anything is possible. I’m so happy you guys were blessed with your son. ❤️
Amazing :)
Who needs 5 children? Seriously
@@kai0tfoool I love every single one of them. Their amazing and loving. We can provide for them and it’s a wonderful blessing. ❤️😊
@@shesgoneforeverlife Wow! I'm so happy for you!!.. may god bless u and ur kids❤
Thank you, very much. Blessings for you and your family too. ❤️
It's not the right thing for everyone, but after 4 rounds of IVF with ICSI and 8 years of infertility, my husband and I just welcomed our son via adoption. I would not wish the infertility journey on my very worst enemy, it was truly some of the lowest days of my life. I wish you all the best Taylor and Tom
i feel like adoption should not be an alternative but a common thing, its such an incredibly beautifull thing.
@@LuNa-zw9wu Adoption is a beautiful thing, but I understand the struggle of those who wish to have a baby, that’s their blood. I’ve never wanted children, but I’m Native and Japanese, so furthering bloodlines is a huge part of my cultures.
@@LuNa-zw9wu while I’m sure the oc is way more versed than I am in this, from what I understand it’s a very difficult process on its own, not to mention pricey as hell.
I agree, it should be normalized. My mother wants me to have another child (I have one already) and I don’t want to. At least, I don’t want to birth another one. Pregnancy is hard on the the body and it was hard on me. I told her I’d rather adopt if it came down to it and she responded with the very outdated “but it’s not your own!” Which is not a sentiment I share nor have I ever. That’s the feeling I wish I could slap out of people. Your kid is your kid, adopted or not.
I honestly wish more would adopt. Don't get me wrong, I kind of want to experience birthing my child, but I'd be happy with adopting my child too. There's so many that need homes and help. Thanks for helping them out and being their parents. 😊
But yes, the process is so expensive. I don't mind it being lengthy and difficult as a safeguard but the amount it can cost is absolutely insane.
@@KrissyMeow I'm the other way. I've always wanted to adopt, and even though I would also want a child of my own, I think the pregnancy part and its side effects are just too much.
My heart broke for you when you said that Tom talks about wanting to have a baby everyday. I wouldnt be able to live with that much pressure..😔
Exactly. That constant pressure would drive me insane.
I found this cruel too 😩 she is already the one having to go through so much, health wise, all this invasive treatment, and mentally. I know he doesn’t mean bad but men are totally clueless sometimes 🤦🏻♀️
Totally. I felt bad when she said how much TOM wants a kid and she can’t give that to him. He should reassure her that she is enough and not talk about baby every day
@@Erienna872 Everytime I brought up not being able to have a child my husband always said that he would be disappointed if WE couldn't, but just wanted to be with me in the end, kids or no kids.
It is not fair to continue to bring it up like that, and adds more pressure, which can work against trying to have a baby (stress, and I also know this from personal experience) can imped getting pregnant.
exactly..I hope he reassured her that it's not the end of the word if they don't have kids:(
“Expectations are the source of disappointment” I felt that.
I am suffering same situation every month crying and again hopeful for good but Expectation are the source of disappointement.
I’m an IVF baby (my sister too!) and watching you go through this journey gives me a small glimpse of what my parents must have gone through 25 years ago. Thanks so much for sharing. Sending you big hugs xx
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@@Taylor_R hi, i need a little help.. i just started my IVF journey and today i take my 5th gonal F injection and suddenly i am feeling a lot of pain in my belly.. is that normal to have a pain on your 6th day of cycle? And i am wondering how much dosage you were taking?
Have you had an MRI of your pituitary gland yet? My Wife had the same condition as you and we struggled to get pregnant for a long time. We saw an Endocrinologist and it turned out her gland was producing too much prolactin and stopping her from ovulating. She took some medication to reduce the levels and after 1 month she was pregnant. I didn't notice you mentioning this so thought I would. Hope it helps and good luck!
I'm familiar with this condition, and it can actually mess with your hormones enough to cause PCOS. Usually it stops your period too. I'm sure Taylor has looked into this, but it's worth a mention. The fact is that PCOS can be triggered by various different hormonal conditions.
@@HaruTheGyaru Well PCOS IS in and of itself, a hormonal condition. It doesn't get triggered by hormonal conditions, it just is one that is caused by hormonal imbalances. It's also very normal to lose your period when you have PCOS cause of hormonal imbalances, as it is a hormonal condition that has no cure.
@@yulana990 Well yes but I mean the reason your hormones can go out of balance can be due to other factors, such as a tumor in your pituitary gland. Other times it's caused by lifestyle, drug intake, or just genetics unfortunately
As someone who doesn’t want to have children, I salute all women that do and how difficult it is to actually have a smooth pregnancy. I wish you the best, Taylor! Keep up all the good work and may you be able to have a child in the future. 💕
Same here. I don’t want kids but I also don’t think I can have them so it worked out well.
Me too! I'm so glad that adoption is my first choice even though I do get judged pretty harshly for it. I have tokophobia and even if I didn't I'd still prefer to adopt and my bf has known this since he first started dating me 7 years ago. Apparently, I'm a selfish bitch who's ruining his life even though he's had 7 years to leave me and find someone who wants to reproduce! People are hilarious! (-_-) My mom had to try for 10 years to have me at 37 and it still blows my mind that she never gave up! And then people judged her for having a "geriatric pregnancy" even though it was a super easy and healthy pregnancy for her.
@@KaylaNoelle1 he's the selfish a****le for wanting to force a pregnancy on an unwilling person ! you do you sweetie, you're amazing ❤️
@@Alexandra_Wolf Ob-Gyn diagnosed me with PCOS and asked me if I plan to get pregnant eventually because it will be difficult to conceive, I said nope, she kinda look surprised and was silent (I'm single and had never dated anyone) 😆 I said I'm just worried about cancer and illness coz that's painful and costly
@@maeannengo4908 here is a link on reversing Pcos I used th-cam.com/video/e5sP1iBTI7g/w-d-xo.html it worked for me!!!
It took me 10 years of trying to get pregnant. I had given up. I had accepted that I'd never have a child.. then a few months later I got pregnant. I can't say what will happen for you but I can tell how much love you have ready for a baby and how deserving of a baby you and Tom are. Thinking of you both, always. One day soon, I can feel it. ❤
I am so happy for you🍀I am a mother of a beautiful little girl due to ICSI. I am so happy and thankful.
I know your baby is or will be so loved and so wanted. Congratulations ❤️
Same thing happened to someone I know! She got pregnant and now has a son.
Wow!! So happy for you. And I don't even know ya! 😂❤
I literally searched TH-cam for an infertility journey to watch and feel less alone, and found this video. Thank you for sharing your story. 💛
When Taylor was on the phone talking about her grandfather and said, "Maybe he'll meet it before me." I started sobbing at this part. I just want Taylor and Tom to have everything, the life they've always dreamed of. Sending all the positive vibes and love your way!
Psychics say that is how it works! I believe her grandfather will meet their baby before they do and that is so cool!
@@Alexandra_Wolf Is there anywhere I could read about it? I love this idea ❤
I’m confused, how does this work? I didn’t quite understand the idea of the grandfather meeting the baby.
@@paulaberi2132 in heaven before the baby is sent down.
This! My sister had issues having kids and we lost our parents a while ago. I told her mom and dad are spending as much time as they can before giving them to you. About 5 months later she had my nephew Little John, named after our dad.
I also have PCOS and was told that getting pregnant would be difficult. Taylor you are so strong for sharing this. Also from Canada and lived in HK for many years (even heard about you from starzpeople). Getting IVF is not cheap there and the process is long. Wish you all the best! ❤️
Is it just me or has PCOS become more common? I feel like I know more people with it nowadays
@@SIGSEGV1337 I think its more so doctors aren’t dismissing women as much as they used to.
@@SIGSEGV1337 it is definitely being diagnosed more. Also women being told they can't have kids because of pcos is now considered so old school advice. Seriously so many things that can help pcos and the fertility nowadays.
@@jackieelizabeth8614 So it's just that we know more about it and are better able to treat it nowadays?
I have PCOS and got pregnant twice ...there are natural ways of curing PCOS it's all in your diet
My mom got married at 27, then had us at 38, 39 and 41 respectively. Soooo, I'm cheering for you both here! 🙏😘
Love that! ❤️
This gives hope to lot of us who crossed our 35's
Naturally?
I think the biggest thing that I learned during infertility treatments and pregnancy /deliveryis that afterward, there is literally no shame or embarrassment left to experience!
I feel like sometimes men truly don’t get how much pressure a woman can go through on her journey. Even if you say those treatments aren’t painful they can’t be easy. You are trying so hard, especially for Tom. I hope he understands that and let’s you take a break on baby talk and tells you that you and your love is enough. You’ve achieved great things, you are loved by your family and many people all over the world. Everything is going to be alright 🧡
yes!! this
yes, i feel like theres a huge pressure on her, even though Tom is coming from a totally loving point.
Yep! It really is a lot for women to go through
men dont understand fratility in general lol
@@Dominicn123 but here we are talking about men can be pregnant and get abortions 😞in US politics anyways
Imagine their child being older and seeing this video? The length that their parents went through to have them.... all the sacrifices and tears and incredible persistence. It will make them feel so loved
@@999littlethings9 yes but if it works one day they ARE having a child!
@@999littlethings9 I have hope that they will soon!!!! and when they do they'll have an amazing story to tell their child.
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It's good to see people with a platform coming forward about not only their natural fertility journey but what it is when you have to start seeing a specialist, and then on through IVF. Infertility is such a terrible thing to deal with and I don't care if you're two months in or 15 years, seeing that not pregnant every month is the hardest thing in the world. It breaks you in a way that I don't think anyone understands unless they've gone through it. Husband and I tried for 8 years, did all the fertility treatments we could, but we were told if we wanted it sooner rather than later we needed to do IVF and that was when we decided we were done. We never got a baby, but that's okay, because we have found that life can be fulfilling without kids. So if anyone reads this and you're going through it, or you've decided to stop. I promise you it gets better, grieve and be kind to yourself.
Thank you for sharing 🙏
Hang in there my husband and I have been dealing with infertility for the past 7 years we did 4 IVF embryo transfers and now 7 years later I am pregnant with twins 😊😊 one boy one girl. I am so grateful and happy we did not give up. Stay strong and keep on trying sending lots of love and support ❤️
Taylor my whole heart goes out to you 🥺 I’m wishing you so much strength and happiness and I know you two will get through this. Sending so much love and positive energy from me and my whole family!! My grandma and auntie also want to send so much love!! They love your videos and you ❤️
Thanks Blair! I had so much fun with you when you visited, I think you didn’t know at the time but it helped a lot! Was happy to insert your beautiful silly little face in here ❤️ say hi to the fam for me!
Blair ur so supportive ❤️ I didn’t know you guys knew each other!
I love this friendship so much 💗
Aw Taylor, you are so brave. You made me cry…😢 Thank you so much for sharing your story!!👏👏❤️❤️❤️
We love you!!
Dear Taylor… as someone who went through this multiple times, and often felt incapable to communicate it, misunderstood and extremely alone, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. It takes a lot of strength to be this vulnerable.
Whatever happens, I’m sure that you and Tom will find happiness. I wish you all the best, and more.
The world is such an unfortunate place. It makes me so upset that I can have kids and absolutely detest them,while there are people out there who wish for them and have troubles. Best of luck to you both wonderful people.
Before watching, I just want to say how brave you are for sharing this journey - for those who are currently going through the same process, or even for those who have yet to think of starting a family but may experience the same struggles in the future. Also, that we’re always with you, and will be praying that your little family will happen, just as you’ve been hoping for, for all these years. ❤️🍀
Can we just take a moment to appreciate what woman put their bodies through to have childeren.
no ♥
@@KaliDurga108 rude
Having kids is the single worst thing you can do to the environment. I could take 60 private jet flights a year and still not come close to the carbon foot print a child leaves on earth every year. So no.
@@mollyoxy 🙄girl u have to live, arnt we making the earth better place for US to live in ? Regardless there is a reason that China Isbthe only country that had the one child police and yet it seem people still haven't learnt from it huh.
@@vanillarose2907 yeah I’m living my life to the fullest by being child-free. The more people we add to the population the worse we’re making the earth. We’re not making it a better place to live… People haven’t learned from it because y’all think with your genitals and primal instincts instead of logic and rational thinking.
This all just looks very stressful and I can’t imagine what it feels like. I hope that everything works out for you in the end.
now she have levi < 3
A lot of woman can agree that we don't to be a mother, but also we can agree that we would do anything to support the ones who do desire to be a mother.
We are with you Taylor and we all hoping that you became a mama ❤️
You get it!!
My Mom has PCOS. She and my Dad spent the first 6 years of their marriage trying to conceive, having even separated for a short time. They used to refuse to attend family reunions, having grown sick of relatives being insensitive and making jokes of their frustration. After 6 years of attending endless treatments and medical procedures, going to different churches and doing so many other things as a last resort out of desperation, I was born. Thank you for sharing this journey, you are so brave to be sharing this with the world. Wishing you both the best in whatever the future may bring.
I mean, this went on to show your parent's love for you and how much they appreciate you.
I’m sorry you’re going through this Taylor. Sending a lot of love. ❤️
Hi Julia! I hope you and Taylor are successful in each of your fertility journeys! My sister tried for years to get pregnant and eventually did IVF and now she has two girls, it was tough but after seeing all that she and her husband went through I hope others who are trying for babies will find success!
Don’t be sorry for other folks suffering.
There is life on the other side of overcoming suffering.
Suffering is actually a blessing and should be welcomed like an old friend.
I’m curious, how do you send someone love?
What is Love?
Been on this same journey since I was 18, im 33 now and have had 4 miscarriages, no babies. It can be soul destroying so dont let it weigh you down x
My aunt had the same problem and she tried for over 13 years but now THANK GOD she is pregnant with a baby boy and I’m so happy so NEVER GIVE UP YOU ARE IN MY PRAYERS
I have PCOS, I was trying for three years to have a baby and it was the hardest time of my life. My little miracle turns seven next month - please don’t give up hope ❤️
I have a couple of friends who had trouble getting pregnant. One kept trying and finally got pregnant after 9 years. The other chose to adopt. Both are so happy and content with their choice. I’m really pulling for you and Tom, that you will be parents no matter how you get there!
As someone who also has PCOS and whose relationship broke apart because of it (after 7 years together and 2 married, he told me that he didn't want kids anymore and didn't want to go to the trouble of going to a fertility doctor) these videos really hit me. I'm crying my eyes out atm. I really wish all the woman out there who struggle with infertility all the luck in the world. I'm in several encouraging groups with woman who have the same disease and it has been so helpful.
People who has kids will never understand the stress and emotions we are going through. The fact that is happening to your own body, that you can feel when your period is about to come but that you have zero influence in to get pregnant.
Infertility is one of those experiences that is so unexplainable to people who haven’t experienced it. You feel so much pain, guilt, shame, responsibility, etc…thank you so much for sharing your experience. My heart has been hurting with you for the last several years, hearing little bits and pieces of treatments and TTC. We went through that too, and it’s such an isolating and painful experience…but hearing from others is so healing and helps people feel supported and not alone. I hope you have some peace and comfort, wherever you are in this journey.
Just know you can live a meaningful life without kids.
@@mariasoto1837 yes, of course! I spent a lot of time in counseling working on being okay with just myself. But that doesn’t take away from the pain that women experience from that longing to grow and nurture their child on a biological level. Adoption and fostering is wonderful and fulfilling and should always be a consideration, along with just living child free, but that desire to carry your children is so natural and innate for some. Which makes infertility so much more painful for those that do desire to bear children.
In today's world adoption is much better than putting more people in this world to suffer , don't let that make you feel down
This was a lovely comment. Infertility is such a lonely and all-consuming experience, and having people who understand, and who are kind, means a lot. I hope Taylor and Tom get a lot of comfort and support from comments like yours.
I have PCOS and struggled to get pregnant for years. But after a few rounds of IVF (6), I have a happy healthy boy. I understand your journey and I know that at your age you have so much time to keep trying. It’s hard, but worth it in the end.
She looks younger, but she’s actually 32 years old.
my wife was diagnosed infertile at 19, told was never gonna have kids never had a regular period, pretty much checked off all the symptoms of PCOS BUT yesterday we celebrated my daughters first birthday conceived naturally with herbs remediesm. All thanks to God and doctor Elegunu..he is really God sent..m
Watching this absolutely bawling after seeing the news that you brought your little guy into the world today.
I am struggling to conceive myself and experienced a loss in December. I needed this, I needed hope. So thank you 🤍
Congratulations on the arrival of your beautiful boy ✨👼🏻
Oh this broke my heart I have pcos and went through 4 years of fertility treatment I went through all these emotions and honestly thought id never get my dream I now have 4 beautiful babies ! Please never lose hope I wish you both all the best and pray you get your little miracle ❤
Some of the comments sound a bit one sided to me, husbands that want to be fathers are doing anything wrong also Tom saying he wants to be a father is not a bad thing he should also be able to express the way he feels 💕💕 this is a hard situation for both of them. Putting him down to lift her up is not cool. Men also have feelings and should be able to express them💕 they are a strong couple and I wish them the best💕
Taylor: *carefully injecting*
Tom: euguhhg ewewuh ewykck
Also Tom: Do you want chocolate milk after?
He says some funny things 🤣
This was really heavy to watch. And I can't even imagine how hard you had to go through (even when it's in the video). Sending virtual hugs and support. Thank you for sharing your raw and very real experience. Your strength going through this whole experience and sharing it is really admirable. Hoping for the best for the both of you and your future family. ❤️
5 minutes and I’m crying my eyes out. I just really badly wanted for you and Tom to get everything you wanted in life. You are so inspiring Taylor and strong. Sending all my hopes, love, positivity to you both ✨
The feeling of being lost, not in control, despair, the injections, the endless waiting, so recognisable to many of us ❤️ when you feel like you can not go on, dear all, try one more time. My one last time at ivf/icsi is getting picked up from daycare in about 20 minutes. She is my world now, instead of the medical world.
I promise you, when it finally works out, you forget all of the misery you went through. Or at least for the most part 😊
Love all of you strugling, I know how strong you are 💪😘
Love this ❤️ thank you for sharing
i'm usually more of a silent viewer, but after watching this video, i just had to let you know how incredibly brave you are. Truly. It looks like it takes such a huge toll both physically and mentally. We are always here for you, Taylor! Hoping for a good ending to this series. Sending lots of luv and support, you strong woman🤍
Rewatching your videos. Just got my period after our 4th failed IUI and we are on the new path of IVF. Thank you for documenting your story, it helps when I'm down to feel less alone. ❤
I didn’t expect to get so emotional watching this. I can barely type this out but I just wanted to say that you are SO STRONG and so amazing! Thank you for sharing your story Taylor, you are truly an inspiration! ❤️🩹
I personally don’t feel like I’ll ever want children but I cried with you. Just know it’s not your fault at all, please don’t feel like a failure. You’re doing such a great job and taking such good care of yourself. I’m sure you’ll succeed sooner or later ♥️ you’re so strong!
Never say never!
I don’t either but it’s been very interesting seeing her process
@@matzohgirl Or we can respect people’s choices to not have children, just as we respect people who do
@@matzohgirl Please don’t be that person. Yes, sometimes some people do change their minds but many others don’t. You also have no idea what someone’s reasons are for not wanting kids. Maybe they don’t think they’d have the resources necessary to raise a child well or they have health issues which would make raising a child difficult or maybe they don’t want to pass said health issues onto a child (this is me). You have no idea what is going on in someone else’s life so it’s best not to pry into their reproductive choices and insist they’ll make a different one just because you personally think they’re making the wrong one.
@@Sajirah thank you for this ❤️ I’m 32 and my husband and I don’t want children. The people that say ‘you’ll change your mind’ or ‘but you don’t know what you’re missing!’ piss me right off 🤦🏻♀️
This feels like a weird thing to say - but you sharing your journey brings me joy and relief. Having fertility issues feels like a dirty secret, like you're not a 'real' woman - this is my feeling and I hope it doesn't offend. I'm so thankful that someone like you (ie someone with a large following) is using your platform to raise awareness and understanding. I truly hope your journey ends on a positive note.
Reallyyyyy hoping for a positive result at the end of this series. I applaud you for sharing this vulnerable journey. You and Tom literally deserve everything you could want!
Taylor, I know someone who has PCOS and had been trying to have a child for many years too. It never worked out. Until this year!!! She is on month 3 right now and super happy. I wish you the best outcome possible 🙏
We have been dealing with the same issues for the past 4 years. But now I’m pregnant with a baby girl, on my 15th week right now. Dont lose your hope. My best wishes goes to you 🧡
congratulations!!
We are trying for 1,5 year now...
Is your pregnancy natural? Or ivf?
@@KasumiSan1989 Ivf. It’s my second run of ivf actually. We used our frozen embryo this time, finally everything goes well as of now. I wish all the best to you 🧡
Was hesitating if i shud go for ivf..reading all the commenta here..think i shud go for it
I’ve been watching you since your Japan days and when Tom was still a secret to your viewers. I’m so happy to see this journey and I wish you well on this entire journey. Good luck my love!!🥺💕
my wife was diagnosed infertile at 19, told was never gonna have kids never had a regular period, pretty much checked off all the symptoms of PCOS BUT yesterday we celebrated my daughters first birthday conceived naturally with herbs remediesm. All thanks to God and doctor Elegunu..he is really God sent
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Taylor, your bravery to be able to show how vulnerable you are during such a sensitive time period of your life really makes me want to cry. I want to wish you the best of luck and healthy both mentally and physically. You got this!
My heart goes out to you guys. There's so much I've realized I take advantage of and as I sit here and sob through this video. I wish you guys the absolute best in your journey. I don't have the words to describe how I feel. Thank you for showing such vulnerability here and helping other women that go through fertility issues not feel so alone. ❤️
It’s so brave of you to share your story, this series is going to make people who are struggling not feel alone. You two are so incredibly strong, I pray you have a baby one day ❤️ xx
I cried many times watching this, thank you for sharing this. Many women go through this situation and yet it can feel isolating cause it’s almost a taboo topic. I personally am not going through this ( I’m only a university student) but I am rooting for you and Tom and for the best health. Talking about this shows others that it’s okay to have fertility issues, that it’s normal. It doesn’t make you less of a woman, and it’s part of a journey. You’re so brave Taylor
My oldest sister had ivf done and ended up with fraternal twins, boy and girl ❤ I hope you can grow your family soon too
i wish no one had to struggle like this, but those who, like you, have had so good through such a long and arduous journey make the best mothers. not everyone deserves their child, not all parents are worthy of the life they bring, but you are. you’re going to be such an incredible mom because you wanted this baby more than anything. you brought this life into the world with purpose and love and strength. that makes the best kind of mothers.
I've not watched yet but I just want to say it took me 3 years of trying, and I finally gave birth to our baby girl last Tuesday after finally falling pregnant naturally. You are so brave sharing your journey because I suffered in silence and it was heart breaking every month. No one should suffer in silence and you are so strong. All my love ❤
Congratulations!
Congrats!! 🎉🎉🎉
Congratulations ❤️
this is so incredibly common and if i can bring you any kind of solace its that you are NOT alone what you are going through is experienced by SO MANY women. keep trying keep persevering. i work with women in infertility, its not just you. youre so strong. you are strong and you can do this. crying being sad grieving is okay.
Her husband is such goals, like, how sweet all he ever wanted was a family
Watching this brings back so many memories. It took two treatments but our baby is almost one now. I really hope your journey have a happy ending!
I have watched you through this time period and hoped along with you. I still hope for you. I was worried at times when you didn't speak about your journey, but I felt it wasn't my place to ask. You are amazing, you are strong. To be able to publish such a hard topic is proof. Love for you and Tom and whatever the future gives you.
“Do you want a chocolate milk after?” Omg 🥺🥺🥺 You guys are so adorable, I wish you all the success and luck and hope you get everything you ask for ♥️
I just discovered you guys, and I just want to say, I am absolutely in love with your relationship and how cute y’all are. You can just see the love your husband has for you and vice versa. ❤️
Hi Taylor, we've been through exactly what you went through: shots after shots, the endless amount of bloodwork (good god, I had never imagined the amount of time I had to go to the clinic to get bloodwork done), the tears, and somewhere along this, doubts and arguments. But there is indeed light at the end of the tunnel, and I wish the best for you and your husband. Sending you so much love.
As a man, I cant even imagine how hard it must be for ladies and their partner who are going through this.
All mom’s are heroes!
Dont give up hope Taylor! Love from Canada 🇨🇦
Men can be infertile also..
@@Hell.0itsMe yeah thats true
@@Hell.0itsMe o
@@Hell.0itsMe if you're going to correct someone on this, just say other afab/amab people, not everyone identifies as a man or a woman /nm
@@xzAcedia I don’t think that’s what they meant. Men as in amab can be infertile as well. It isn’t always the women in the relationship that struggles with fertility.
You're so strong for sharing your story. I wanted to say brave.. but it takes more than bravery to be this vulnerable. It takes strength. Thank you for forming a community for women in similar situations.
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My sister in law was practically born to be a mom, but struggled for a couple years with pcos. Multiple miscarriages, she almost gave up. Then boom, finally had a healthy baby girl back in 2015. She's had 3 more babies since and wants more still. Don't give up! I've heard the the first successful pregnancy can 'balance' your body and it won't be as hard after
I’ve been watching your videos since I was 15, just know you have so much love going towards you Taylor, we love and care about you so much. This is something so personal and our hearts are with you.
Watching you inject yourself was so emotional...it really makes you realize how badly couples who do IVF want kids and how much they love them...all the best for you and Tom!
I’m sending prayers your way. I have PCOS and endometriosis. I was told my whole adult life that I might never have kids. But I rebuked that and knew in Gods time I would. I had my son at 32 and then my daughter at 35. Anything is possible . I have faith that things will work out for you . You and Tom will be great parents. Can’t wait for the next episode.
Did you have any symptoms that indicated PCOS?
How incredible our god!. when we in this messy world , crazy time, many things come and make us confuse, worry, but so lucky we know God always beside us like he promised!.
@@tofusius27 they literally said they have it. what do u think?
Hearing stories like this give me hope 🥰I am 36 and have been trying for 2 years. Can’t afford infertility treatments. I would be crushed if I don’t get to experience pregnancy and motherhood
I really appreciate this video. Myself, I am also going through infertility. I’ve felt quite alone but watching this gives me reassurance that I’m not. Thank you. And I hope for blessings to come to you in the future
I recently got diagnosed with PCOS at 20. My heart fell out of my chest when you said you had it too.
I just want to say Taylor thank you for sharing this journey, many women struggle with fertility and its comforting to see it become a more public topic.
That cliff hanger
Don't ever lose faith, my mom tried to have babies for 12 years (yes, twelve), and here I am, an only and biological daughter of that brave mom of mine. Wishing u lots of luck from Mexico!
I wish you the absolute best on your journey it’s amazing that you are sharing something so raw, personal, and emotional with everyone. It’s very inspiring and truly appreciated. You are definitely helping people by sharing this.
I've never struggled with fertility, but this made me feel like I was right there on this rollercoaster ride with you. I'm so happy you guys are finally expecting!! Good luck
sameee taylor is amazing 😍
Taylor, I’m only 7mins53secs through the video and as a fellow “Cyster” I want to thank you so much for posting this. From the emotions you describe when hearing people say “just relax, stop trying so hard” to the disappointment on your face after the negative post hCG trigger shot....all of it is relatable and helps me feel less alone. Thank you❤️
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Prayers being sent your way.
Don't listen to those people saying not to talk about fertility and stuff it's YOUR channel!!
Ikr f**k Them!
Thank you so much for sharing your journey! I can't thank you enough for helping me feel less alone in my own journey and not feeling crazy for expecting it to happen easily at the start of the journey years ago! I think I may go crazy if another person says "just relax it will happen when you stop trying so hard" thank you for being honest and sharing the hard parts. Sending you all of my love and positive thoughts!
A long time follower here. I remember this journey and how emotional it was for you and I am proud of you for sharing the whole process (even the sad/bad stuff). You are so strong and always find a way to make the best out of a situation. Thank you for continuing to make wacky content and share your life with us. ❤️
I went through 4 years of infertility, also went through treatments with no luck. Last march when we decided to stop trying we got pregnant that month out of the blue. I miscarried at 10 weeks and now we are back to trying. I understand what you're going through ❤️ my fingers are crossed for you and sending lots of baby dust🌈
Sending hugs 🥺
May The Lord bless you with an amazing soul as a baby!
That's really, really painful. I really hope you get your baby, one way or another.
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❤️ sending prayers towards your way, in Jesus name
@@1lovetheocean Please write this as a separate comment because she might not see this since it is a reply. God bless your heart!
We love you Taylor! You are so strong and brave! We're with you! ❤❤❤
I'm scared to watch, please tell how the un born is by age 18 20 22 because your altering his Gene's with graphene oxide nanoparticles, or baby's fetuses depending on which gene therapy vaccine jab
Thank you for sharing this with us all. My husband and I also have been struggling with fertility issues for 3 years. It can be a really lonely internal struggle with so much disappointment. Thank you for helping me to feel that I am not alone in feeling this way ❤️
‘IT ONLY TAKES ONE’ So sorry to see your going through this, and I send you so much love. I was diagnosed with ovarian failure at 13, so had to have IVF myself and had a successful round with a donor egg - who is due to turn one in October. I wish you all the best, never give up on your dreams, it is possible. Don’t loose hope, I’ve got all my fingers crossed for you. I’ve done some videos of my journey on my channel - I do TH-cam as a hobby so it’s only a small channel, but your welcome to watch.
I'm not in a relationship or plan to ever have kids, but I do find it fascinating to watch your journey. It's very educational and it can help those like me better understand what's it like for those that struggle to conceive. I'm sure those in the same boat as you will feel relieved to know that they're not alone in their experience. Thank you for sharing!!
As someone who is dealing with a similar situation I’m sending so many hugs and so much positive energy.
Sorry you’re going through this ❤️
Every time you cried, I cried with you. Thank you for sharing your story, I'm sure you're helping many many people that are going through the same process. You're so strong, wishing the best for both of you.
Thank you so much for sharing such a vulnerable part of your life, Taylor!! I am cheering for you and Tom on your journey to parenthood. You are going to be amazing!!
Sending hugs. I had my one and only at 40 after thinking it was never ever going to happen and I was too old. Then I was worried being an “old egg” it wouldn’t be the best quality. Dear daughter is a high achieving STEM student so there goes that idea that old eggs aren’t as good. All I can say is keep hope in your heart. Breathe, breathe again.
I struggled for years as well. For me, it never happened. (I am 44 now, and still trying to adjust). I am happy for you. :)
old eggs in general aren't as good, it's scientifically a fact, but of course you can always get lucky, there are always exceptions to the rule and you were lucky enough to be it.
My heart just ached when you mentioned about Father’s Day; as someone with PCOS too, I know all too well the fear, and maybe even the thought and feeling of shame that comes with thinking you “can’t provide them a child”, or “what will their family think” or “will I disappoint my own family” - none of which are true. It’s so important to have grace for you and the process, and remember that Tom married you for who you are and his love for you - not what you can or can’t do for him. ♥️
I just wanted to say how proud you should be of yourself for keeping your head up, and for keeping your soul sweet through this all, where there are so many chances for bitterness to take root, and WHEN you have a kid (name it and claim it, can I get an amen? 😅), whether natural, surrogate, adoption, whatever route you take, they are going to be so blessed to have you as a mom ♥️
Tay you are my favorite youtuber, I've been such a huge fan since the beginning. As a women who is also in the same stage as you, wanting to have kids and move onto the next steps of our lives. I wish you all the positive energies so that you are able to have all the kids that you dream of, you are such an amazing & kind soul! I always wish you all the best
Currently at the start of our journey. I also have PCOS. I teared up at the start of your video when you posted about your emotional morning, I totally get you on that one. I’m hoping one day to have a beautiful family like you ❤️ I rewatch your journey to give me hope 🌻