Sierra Bryan - Weight of It All (NPR Tiny Desk 2025)

This is my submission for NPR's 2025 Tiny Desk Contest! "Weight of it All" is about the desperate exhaustion that comes with living with anxiety and depression. Its about trying to pray the depression away, while also wishing for a tangible excuse or reason to explain why you feel the way that you do, other than your own brain.
Musicians:
Daniel Byers - Keys/synth
Kurtis Adair - Drums
Danielle Durack - Back-up vocals
Laura Berens - Back-up vocals
Sierra Bryan - Vocals/guitar
Audio mixed by Jimmy Kavetas
Mastered by John Osborn
Video by Mason Solomon
with audio assistance from Nick Royall
Lyrics:
Sometimes I wish I’d get in a car crash
It would make things so much easier
Wouldn’t have all this shit to stress about
No one could tell me I should do better
Sometimes the weight of it all gets to me
Sometimes I lie awake at night praying for a savior
Sometimes I wish I would stop worrying about the little things
I’m giving up, fuck everything, until the weight . . . gets to me
Sometimes I wish I had some tragedy
That could excuse all of my crying
I’d have a reason to say I hate myself
No one could tell me I’m just being dramatic
Sometimes the weight of it all gets to me
Sometimes I lie awake at night praying for a savior
Sometimes I wish I would stop worrying about the little things
I’m giving up, fuck everything, until the weight . . . gets to me
I’m so tired of carrying, carrying all this pain
I’m so tired of managing all the thoughts in my brain
God won’t somebody take it all, take it away from me
God, please, anybody make me feel just a little less insane x2
Sometimes the weight of it all gets to me
Sometimes I lie awake at night praying for a savior
Sometimes I wish I would stop worrying about the little things
I’m giving up, fuck everything, until the weight . . . gets to me