I'm 38. Broke, no independence, live at home, never been in a relationship or had a career. I struggle with high functioning autism, anxiety, OCD, insomnia, and a severe auto immune disorder. I, too, don't feel like an adult. The only thing that is keeping me hopeful is an online course that will hopefully lead to a stable career. Thank you for being open about how you feel. Sometimes I feel alone in my struggle.
are you trying to do work online? you should also consider consulting your local rehabilitation services if there is something like that in your area. they can help you find you work. The key to finding a good job is to network having SA can make that hard to do.
@@incubus_the_manThanks for reaching out. First, let me say I loved Incubus when Dirk was in the band, lol. I am taking an online course in data analytics, and, God willing, it will lead to financial independence and a greater sense of self-confidence. My brother, a former opioid addict, learned data extraction skills and makes over $90k/yr. I will look to him for tutelage when I am done with the course, as well as my best friend who works in network programming and has access to databases and SQL languages. Maybe they can help me get in touch with people who are looking to hire. I will use whatever resources are available to me. I am looking to work remote, as being around too many people for too long drives my anxiety. And, unfortunately yes, having SA can severely hinder your employment opportunities, as people can be very ignorant and hypercritical of those who struggle with it. My sister in law got me an interview with her department manager as a patient intake worker at a local hospital. My low-key demeanor rubbed her boss the wrong way and rejected me for not being "warm and fuzzy." The job only required basic technincal skills and soft skills, and she hired incompetent people who frequently had attendance issues. 🙄
Hi, Wing. I was thinking about you today. I'm struggling with my new job, because it requires you to have good auditory skills (listening and remembering things people tell you) and interacting with people. I had a panic attack at the end of my shift the other day. Today I was pulled into my boss's office, and they low-key told me that I'm not fitting in with the office and would try to find me a smaller, less busy office to work in. The people there are starting to lose their patience with me. There is just too much stimulation for me to handle-phones ringing, people asking non-stop questions that I can't answer, having to ask my coworkers how to do things, remembering and forgetting the things they tell me. I sat in my car in tears, wondering if there is anyone else who feels this way, and I remembered what you were brave enough to talk about in your videos. I may struggle with things that people expect adults to do, but I know that I am not alone. You've provided comfort and reassurance, and you're more valuable than you realize. I hope you're doing better. We do our very best, that's all any of us can really do. -Your friend, Daniel
I hope things goes well for you. Your story connects with me. I'm 26 and I'm seeing dark paths ahead. I have rich parents and I have a degree and a masters degree. But I don't feel like I'm capable of working with people, which my field of study was heavily reliant upon, and nor do I want to work for people anymore. My only saving grace is to either open up my own business or work in a job that has almost 0 or minimal human interaction.
Maybe working in a library or a job which requires less social interaction. INTROVERT find it hard to be social since we become depleted with too much social interaction.
As a 32 YO male Chinese "White washed/westernized speaking" man, I think I relate to you. Thanks for your video's. I'm not gay, but I resonate with many cool lgbt's in online communities and I really resonate with your story about social anxiety "sometimes" and being unique. Maybe find a friend/acquaintance you've met who you may not like overall as a person but admire as a person who can have confident conversation with "eye contact." And maybe keep a memory of their "energy" so you can summon it up and emulate it if you need to defend yourself in specific situations? Best of luck, keep your stories coming! (if you want I mean)
Wing, I commend you for reaching out in this way and sharing with us how things have been. With social anxiety I always want to just give up and close myself off from people because I think what's the point, no one cares how I'm doing, but this is simply not true. It takes a lot of strength to be open and willing to talk, just like you did in this video. I try to remind myself that I'm not alone and many other people are going through similar struggles, and so your video helped me for this reason. I just wish none of us had to struggle with social anxiety. We all deserve better, and we shouldn't have to be subjected to the lies that social anxiety tells us constantly. I hope we can all be more compassionate toward ourselves because we are just trying to get through life the best that we can.
Thanks Monica. I was struggling making this video because I had two voices in my head telling why I should and why I shouldn't be making a video. It's hard to remember how you're not alone when you're surrounded by people who can't relate and can't empathize with you.
@@Wing-wh5ih ..... ........ ......I had voices in my head before. .... I had a problem wanting to talk to anybody also. It took a lot of energy to make small talk too. ....... All of it went away. And positivity and trust came back when I...... ..... QUIT SUGAR.
Hi Wing! Thank you for sharing how you feel. I am 27 and do not feel like I am an adult. I can't keep a job and can't even go out in public alone. I tried therapy and feel like it does not work for me. I feel miserable because I feel like I am not living life like everyone else does.
I as well am recently 30 going into 31. For some reason I’m more socially Anxious then before and its mostly from clinical depression hitting me. As much as i like to say i feel lonely and want to be part of something, i am. I just can’t see it well enough thru my clouded mind. My friends say they miss me. It’s been almost two years since i stopped going out casually to see them. I just feel poor i need to rest my life. Their lives are chaotic and i need that to feel normal with them since i too have a chaotic life. I wish you well and for the best. Not everyone had to socialize but we want company. I like being and having company. I guess that’s why i left you this post.
I can relate with the family stuff. I am living in my own, but its difficult. My parents had very difficult upbringings and there was emotional neglect and no affection in my childhood. I had to get out out of sheer stubbornness and not being comfy with my parents. I have a feeling that it is home life that has caused my social anxiety.
BEING 30 IS FKIN GREAT!!!! DONT LISTEN TO IDIOTS THAT 30 IS OLD LOL! ITS JUST A NUMBER! LETS JUST KEEP ON LIVING, WE JUST CANT DWELL ON NEGATIVITY. WHY NOT TAKE THE GOOD PART OF LIFE IF IT EXISTS? :D
I’m 21 but I relate to a lot of what you talk about here. I’ve felt very beat down and confused about how to do anything social anymore. I worked a job as a cook for a year and then quit a few months ago because it became rather miserable. I think I would like to be around people more and make more of my life, but everything has become so much more uncertain and unpredictable and it’s overwhelming to deal with. It’s made me feel nihilistic as well. I hope you get to find independence and a better environment, and I hope life works out for you.
I feel like such a mess myself. For the last 2 years I've tried and failed with so many weird business ideas just to give myself some hope. I'm extremely extroverted but the problem I have is I've developed this fear of confrontation bosses/ customers/ anyone that has that sort of power deferential. If one of these types of people is even a little bit rude I get that "I physically can't breathe enough to even talk why am I so out of breath" thing that precedes a panic attack. I don't know if it's at all a consolation but I'm 32 and my life is a mess too, I hope things improve for you
hi just found your video.. I just want to say thank you for posting this, sorry for my writing because english is not my native language but I deeply understand what you are saying because I also in the same boat.. struggling everyday with life.. I know the feelings.. your video made me not feel alone
Hi Wing, I have watched some of your videos since you have started this channel. I am Japanese, and I study English. I don't have confidence that if I understand what you say perfectly, but I have been encouraged the fact there is a person who struggles with social anxiety like me. I feel I am not alone. I turned 30 on March as well, and I will join a working holiday in the UK this year. It is very scary. Living with social anxiety is very tough, but I hope our futre is bright. Sorry for my bad English. I just want to say thank you for upload videos.
Thank you so much. Your english is perfect and you'll be fine in the UK. I've thought about doing a working holiday program in Japan before but I was too scared to speak Japanese during the interview. Hope you have fun there.
Right there in the same boat. Being Schizoid and Schizotypal on top of generalized anxiety disorder and major depression makes getting from one day to the next a big challenge. Trying to work, socialize, and "act like an adult", despite being 28, feels next to impossible. Living with family, because you kinda have to at present, while also feeling like they're going to drive you insane is definitely a precarious state. A mom who doesn't understand how she affects others is a familiar tune... I guess the consolation is that, even if they're few and far between, there are other folks who get it.
idk your videos are so therapeutic. I can listen to your videos from start to finish without getting bored. I wish you all the best. I can see you are taking baby steps in overcoming your personal hurdles. I'm doing the same as well. oh yeah I also just turned 30.
I've binged every single one of your videos and I'm sure I'm just repeating what everyone is saying. But I relate so much with you. Social anxiety has definitely been the single biggest thing that's held me back. Please keep making these video!
I just discovered your channel and subscribed. Wing, I definitely relate to so much of what you talk about! I really appreciate your honesty about your experiences and am sorry that things have been extra stressful for you lately. You have a lot of insight about yourself, and life, that most people don't. I just wanted you to know that your videos are meaningful to me and I'm thankful I came across them.
I think it’s awesome you create these videos Wing. I feel similar in a lot of ways… I’m 27 right now and still feel like a child living in an adults body. Anyway, well wishes to you and your parents. Sounds like there are some complicated feelings there
I don’t know. I’m in a similar situation, early twenties. I know one day I can’t be fully dependent on them because they’ll be gone. I don’t know what the fuck I’m going to do. I can barely live. Any job recommendations?
Hey Wing, I love this video (sorry!). I've never watched a channel before that I related so closely to. I'm a similar age (29), also have social anxiety, and also have a weird relationship with my mother where we don't talk. I hated the environment at home, and finally moved out 2 months ago to a new job. I'm struggling more now that I'm out on my own (job is easy but the people make it hard), but I've at least got my independence and I'm growing more as a person. Here's hoping that we keep on keeping on and things will get better! Best wishes :-)
I haven't finished watching your video yet, but I can't help myself. I know exactly how you feel. I, myself have mental illnesses.. Depression, anxiety, and I'm on the spectrum. And more stuff.. And I have suicidal thoughts. Every minute of every day. Life is tough. It really is. Your life is tough. I just found out about you a couple of minutes ago. Sometimes, it doesn't get better.. For a lot of people, it doesn't. But what you have here, on your channel.. You speaking your mind, and people feeling a connection with you (albeit through a screen) is something special. So, yes your life is a mess. Yes you're probably in pain some of the time. But to get through the next day, what I've seen, is that you have to hold onto the things that make you... Complete. I hope this isn't your last video.
Thanks for uploading wing. My mom also deals with depression and is a constant struggle for me and my siblings who live with her. I relate to a lot of what you say, its hard to interact with others sometimes and it's really detrimental to my ability to be independent, even finding a job. Thankfully, I found a program to place young people into employment.
Thanks. Sometimes I wonder how I'm able to even have a job but I think I've just been lucky that I never had to deal with really shitty people at work.
I have been in the exact same situation as you.. It can hurt your ability to find and do work. My mom passed away from health issues a few years ago. My parents knew about my SA and they knew that it was holding me back in life. I have a college degree but struggled to get jobs because I didn't really network and my degree requires networking and connections to find work. It also took me a long time to get my driver's license. I failed 3 times over the course of several years because I was a nervous driver and the testers could see that. So i spent a lot of time with my parents as a young adult as well. I feel that I missed out on a lot of things in life because of that. I do currently have a job in a factory (not using my degree) but I have also recently started doing contract work (using my degree). I'm working on my socialization so that I can make connections. It's hard for me to network with people because I suck at making small talk. My facial expressions and body language don't help either. I fidget, go for my phone, and have trouble smiling when I'm with groups of people. I feel that I do better when I'm one on one with a person. I can also relate on not to not knowing what to say but being able to think of everything you would have said after the fact. I think the anxiety kind of puts me in a state of brain fog. I tend to feel more comfortable around people that I'm around daily. I feel more socially comfortable around my co-workers than I do my actual family because of that. I only see my extended family once or twice a year during the holidays. With that said, I can still be reserved when I talk to my coworkers because I don't feel comfortable talking about my life and my history. I also don't want to say anything too interesting because that might require more dialogue. Sometimes I'm chattier than others. Mood plays a factor in my anxiety level and how social I am. If I'm happy or excited about something, I will be more confident and chatty about it. When I'm depressed, I tend to shut down. I think that the situation with your mom might just be from the stress of your family situation. I think you understand that already. Stress can cause existing tensions to get worse. When you add money to it, things even get worse. Consider yourself fortunate to have enough parents that are willing to be there for you. I know that in the US, a lot of parents expect their children to be completely independent by a certain age. I was also fortunate in that respect because I wasn't able to move out as soon as I graduated high school or college either for that matter. It's rough out there and most jobs don't pay enough for you to be independent. You have to live with other people until you're able to go on your own and that's hard to do if you have SA. Eventually, I do think that you should try to make up with your mom or at least show her that you understand that life is stressful now. You could offer a kind gesture of understanding. but still, keep your distance if you need to. You could buy her flowers and a card or something and have it sent to her if you can't do it yourself. I think you should also consider joining a civic organization or some kind of interest group. You can make friends that way. It has worked for me. You can find people with similar interests as you and that could give you something to bond with them over. I hope your situation gets better. I wish the best for your dad. Take care of yourself and get out when you can.
Turned 30 myself recently, broke up with old friends, struggling between staying in the country, where it seems like there will be no future, but there is my family, and relocation to places like Canada with the help from employer to become an immigrant, which is the whole other story. What is happening to you is at the same time normal and not normal. Not normal because you are not happy and don't see your place in the world, like the barista you mentioned, who seems to accepting who he is and where here is and just having fun. And normal, because there are objective things like very high housing prices, wage growth stalled, societies, communities and human interaction in general are broken and the world order is broken across the globe, probability of huge world war is waving around. All the people in the world are being confused. But I'm really glad to see that you are still around and able to express your feelings, that definitely made my day better :)
you seem like a really nice person and your videos are so comforting like I can relate to all the things you say. I turned 18 a few months ago and I feel terrified about life, I have no idea what’s my future going to look like, I feel like I’m wasting time If it makes sense. I have the same problems with anxiety and depression and also with my parents. I’m so scared every time I apply for a job I found peace in your videos and I wish you well. You have beautiful voice btw, I’m waiting for more covers if it’s possible for you to make,I feel like you have very much potential Sorry for my bad english ☠️ just felt like I must to write this comment
Where are you!!?? LOL I just found your channel, in my recommend feed, and I feel a close relation to a lot of things you say. I hope you're doing well and will continue to make content that I can actually relate to. All my love and prayers for you and yours, always 💙
thanks for your video 💓 always good to hear how u are going. would talking to you dad about the situation with ur mom help? he sounds like he could be the mediator.
Have you looked into getting professional help? Like therapy? Sounds like you have a lot you want to express and figure out. Sometimes we can't think ourselves into solutions. Sometimes we need someone to help guide us through and give us a different perspective than our own hardened one.
Hey I just heard your sinatra cover, and I just wanted to say it was really beautiful. Actually brought me to tears listening knowing your struggles with anxiety, and hearing you perform so well. :)
Wing 🤗 I hope your doing ok, I completely understand it feel as much as possible what your going through. People small talk 😴 😂 it never has interested me. What do you like to do if you don't mind me asking.
Have u tought about sign urself inna sportclub fitness take group lessons. Ask the time , or location u need to stramngers on street to practise talk Take a therapist or meditate self improvement try to excersize Hope u fwill do better I know this is tired
i think you should prepare financially , you hate working souse your channel to make money off of whatever you love, ifyou ever need any help with business stuff you could ask me its good that youre eating healthy
I'm definitely actively saving money instead of recklessly spending it now. I don't think I can make money off of youtube so I'll just have to live frugally I guess. Thanks
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I'm 38. Broke, no independence, live at home, never been in a relationship or had a career. I struggle with high functioning autism, anxiety, OCD, insomnia, and a severe auto immune disorder. I, too, don't feel like an adult. The only thing that is keeping me hopeful is an online course that will hopefully lead to a stable career.
Thank you for being open about how you feel. Sometimes I feel alone in my struggle.
are you trying to do work online? you should also consider consulting your local rehabilitation services if there is something like that in your area. they can help you find you work. The key to finding a good job is to network having SA can make that hard to do.
@@incubus_the_manThanks for reaching out. First, let me say I loved Incubus when Dirk was in the band, lol. I am taking an online course in data analytics, and, God willing, it will lead to financial independence and a greater sense of self-confidence. My brother, a former opioid addict, learned data extraction skills and makes over $90k/yr.
I will look to him for tutelage when I am done with the course, as well as my best friend who works in network programming and has access to databases and SQL languages. Maybe they can help me get in touch with people who are looking to hire. I will use whatever resources are available to me. I am looking to work remote, as being around too many people for too long drives my anxiety. And, unfortunately yes, having SA can severely hinder your employment opportunities, as people can be very ignorant and hypercritical of those who struggle with it.
My sister in law got me an interview with her department manager as a patient intake worker at a local hospital. My low-key demeanor rubbed her boss the wrong way and rejected me for not being "warm and fuzzy." The job only required basic technincal skills and soft skills, and she hired incompetent people who frequently had attendance issues. 🙄
Have you tried office temping?
@@Delilah513 I'm actually starting a job at a medical office with a career path as a data analyst. Things are looking up.
Hi, Wing. I was thinking about you today. I'm struggling with my new job, because it requires you to have good auditory skills (listening and remembering things people tell you) and interacting with people. I had a panic attack at the end of my shift the other day.
Today I was pulled into my boss's office, and they low-key told me that I'm not fitting in with the office and would try to find me a smaller, less busy office to work in. The people there are starting to lose their patience with me. There is just too much stimulation for me to handle-phones ringing, people asking non-stop questions that I can't answer, having to ask my coworkers how to do things, remembering and forgetting the things they tell me.
I sat in my car in tears, wondering if there is anyone else who feels this way, and I remembered what you were brave enough to talk about in your videos. I may struggle with things that people expect adults to do, but I know that I am not alone. You've provided comfort and reassurance, and you're more valuable than you realize. I hope you're doing better.
We do our very best, that's all any of us can really do.
-Your friend,
Daniel
"why are you quiet?" the most annoying fucking question ever
Also the question of "why aren't you smiling?"
I hope things goes well for you. Your story connects with me. I'm 26 and I'm seeing dark paths ahead. I have rich parents and I have a degree and a masters degree. But I don't feel like I'm capable of working with people, which my field of study was heavily reliant upon, and nor do I want to work for people anymore. My only saving grace is to either open up my own business or work in a job that has almost 0 or minimal human interaction.
Maybe working in a library or a job which requires less social interaction. INTROVERT find it hard to be social since we become depleted with too much social interaction.
I 100% relate to this
You're so well spoken.
Sorry you have to go through this social anxiety hell. I know it sucks.
As a 32 YO male Chinese "White washed/westernized speaking" man, I think I relate to you. Thanks for your video's. I'm not gay, but I resonate with many cool lgbt's in online communities and I really resonate with your story about social anxiety "sometimes" and being unique. Maybe find a friend/acquaintance you've met who you may not like overall as a person but admire as a person who can have confident conversation with "eye contact." And maybe keep a memory of their "energy" so you can summon it up and emulate it if you need to defend yourself in specific situations? Best of luck, keep your stories coming! (if you want I mean)
Wing, I commend you for reaching out in this way and sharing with us how things have been. With social anxiety I always want to just give up and close myself off from people because I think what's the point, no one cares how I'm doing, but this is simply not true. It takes a lot of strength to be open and willing to talk, just like you did in this video. I try to remind myself that I'm not alone and many other people are going through similar struggles, and so your video helped me for this reason. I just wish none of us had to struggle with social anxiety. We all deserve better, and we shouldn't have to be subjected to the lies that social anxiety tells us constantly. I hope we can all be more compassionate toward ourselves because we are just trying to get through life the best that we can.
Thanks Monica. I was struggling making this video because I had two voices in my head telling why I should and why I shouldn't be making a video. It's hard to remember how you're not alone when you're surrounded by people who can't relate and can't empathize with you.
@@Wing-wh5ih .....
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I had a problem wanting to talk to anybody also.
It took a lot of energy to make small talk too.
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All of it went away. And positivity and trust came back when I......
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QUIT SUGAR.
@@Wing-wh5ih you can message me anytime and I make home made pizza I respect you
Hi Wing! Thank you for sharing how you feel. I am 27 and do not feel like I am an adult. I can't keep a job and can't even go out in public alone. I tried therapy and feel like it does not work for me. I feel miserable because I feel like I am not living life like everyone else does.
I as well am recently 30 going into 31. For some reason I’m more socially Anxious then before and its mostly from clinical depression hitting me. As much as i like to say i feel lonely and want to be part of something, i am. I just can’t see it well enough thru my clouded mind. My friends say they miss me. It’s been almost two years since i stopped going out casually to see them. I just feel poor i need to rest my life. Their lives are chaotic and i need that to feel normal with them since i too have a chaotic life. I wish you well and for the best. Not everyone had to socialize but we want company. I like being and having company. I guess that’s why i left you this post.
I can relate with the family stuff. I am living in my own, but its difficult. My parents had very difficult upbringings and there was emotional neglect and no affection in my childhood. I had to get out out of sheer stubbornness and not being comfy with my parents. I have a feeling that it is home life that has caused my social anxiety.
BEING 30 IS FKIN GREAT!!!! DONT LISTEN TO IDIOTS THAT 30 IS OLD LOL! ITS JUST A NUMBER! LETS JUST KEEP ON LIVING, WE JUST CANT DWELL ON NEGATIVITY. WHY NOT TAKE THE GOOD PART OF LIFE IF IT EXISTS? :D
I’m 21 but I relate to a lot of what you talk about here. I’ve felt very beat down and confused about how to do anything social anymore. I worked a job as a cook for a year and then quit a few months ago because it became rather miserable. I think I would like to be around people more and make more of my life, but everything has become so much more uncertain and unpredictable and it’s overwhelming to deal with. It’s made me feel nihilistic as well. I hope you get to find independence and a better environment, and I hope life works out for you.
I'm just grateful for you life, Wing ❤
Aw thank you Pulane, I appreciate it
I feel like such a mess myself. For the last 2 years I've tried and failed with so many weird business ideas just to give myself some hope. I'm extremely extroverted but the problem I have is I've developed this fear of confrontation bosses/ customers/ anyone that has that sort of power deferential. If one of these types of people is even a little bit rude I get that "I physically can't breathe enough to even talk why am I so out of breath" thing that precedes a panic attack. I don't know if it's at all a consolation but I'm 32 and my life is a mess too, I hope things improve for you
hi just found your video.. I just want to say thank you for posting this, sorry for my writing because english is not my native language but I deeply understand what you are saying because I also in the same boat.. struggling everyday with life.. I know the feelings.. your video made me not feel alone
Hi Wing, I have watched some of your videos since you have started this channel.
I am Japanese, and I study English. I don't have confidence that if I understand what you say perfectly, but I have been encouraged the fact there is a person who struggles with social anxiety like me. I feel I am not alone.
I turned 30 on March as well, and I will join a working holiday in the UK this year. It is very scary.
Living with social anxiety is very tough, but I hope our futre is bright. Sorry for my bad English. I just want to say thank you for upload videos.
Thank you so much. Your english is perfect and you'll be fine in the UK. I've thought about doing a working holiday program in Japan before but I was too scared to speak Japanese during the interview. Hope you have fun there.
Right there in the same boat. Being Schizoid and Schizotypal on top of generalized anxiety disorder and major depression makes getting from one day to the next a big challenge. Trying to work, socialize, and "act like an adult", despite being 28, feels next to impossible. Living with family, because you kinda have to at present, while also feeling like they're going to drive you insane is definitely a precarious state. A mom who doesn't understand how she affects others is a familiar tune... I guess the consolation is that, even if they're few and far between, there are other folks who get it.
idk your videos are so therapeutic. I can listen to your videos from start to finish without getting bored. I wish you all the best. I can see you are taking baby steps in overcoming your personal hurdles. I'm doing the same as well. oh yeah I also just turned 30.
I've binged every single one of your videos and I'm sure I'm just repeating what everyone is saying. But I relate so much with you. Social anxiety has definitely been the single biggest thing that's held me back. Please keep making these video!
Saw your video from 6 years ago, it's so cool to see a recent update. Thanks for posting these, they're depressingly relatable ✌️
I just discovered your channel and subscribed. Wing, I definitely relate to so much of what you talk about! I really appreciate your honesty about your experiences and am sorry that things have been extra stressful for you lately. You have a lot of insight about yourself, and life, that most people don't. I just wanted you to know that your videos are meaningful to me and I'm thankful I came across them.
I think it’s awesome you create these videos Wing. I feel similar in a lot of ways… I’m 27 right now and still feel like a child living in an adults body. Anyway, well wishes to you and your parents. Sounds like there are some complicated feelings there
I don’t know. I’m in a similar situation, early twenties. I know one day I can’t be fully dependent on them because they’ll be gone. I don’t know what the fuck I’m going to do. I can barely live. Any job recommendations?
I've only worked in cafes because I don't have any professional skills so I can't give you any recommendations, sorry.
Hey Wing, I love this video (sorry!). I've never watched a channel before that I related so closely to. I'm a similar age (29), also have social anxiety, and also have a weird relationship with my mother where we don't talk. I hated the environment at home, and finally moved out 2 months ago to a new job. I'm struggling more now that I'm out on my own (job is easy but the people make it hard), but I've at least got my independence and I'm growing more as a person. Here's hoping that we keep on keeping on and things will get better! Best wishes :-)
I haven't finished watching your video yet, but I can't help myself.
I know exactly how you feel. I, myself have mental illnesses.. Depression, anxiety, and I'm on the spectrum. And more stuff.. And I have suicidal thoughts. Every minute of every day.
Life is tough. It really is. Your life is tough. I just found out about you a couple of minutes ago. Sometimes, it doesn't get better.. For a lot of people, it doesn't. But what you have here, on your channel.. You speaking your mind, and people feeling a connection with you (albeit through a screen) is something special.
So, yes your life is a mess. Yes you're probably in pain some of the time. But to get through the next day, what I've seen, is that you have to hold onto the things that make you... Complete.
I hope this isn't your last video.
Thanks for uploading wing. My mom also deals with depression and is a constant struggle for me and my siblings who live with her. I relate to a lot of what you say, its hard to interact with others sometimes and it's really detrimental to my ability to be independent, even finding a job. Thankfully, I found a program to place young people into employment.
Thanks. Sometimes I wonder how I'm able to even have a job but I think I've just been lucky that I never had to deal with really shitty people at work.
I think using these videos as a release is healthy and smart. I hope you’and your family are well!
I have been in the exact same situation as you.. It can hurt your ability to find and do work. My mom passed away from health issues a few years ago. My parents knew about my SA and they knew that it was holding me back in life. I have a college degree but struggled to get jobs because I didn't really network and my degree requires networking and connections to find work. It also took me a long time to get my driver's license. I failed 3 times over the course of several years because I was a nervous driver and the testers could see that. So i spent a lot of time with my parents as a young adult as well. I feel that I missed out on a lot of things in life because of that. I do currently have a job in a factory (not using my degree) but I have also recently started doing contract work (using my degree). I'm working on my socialization so that I can make connections.
It's hard for me to network with people because I suck at making small talk. My facial expressions and body language don't help either. I fidget, go for my phone, and have trouble smiling when I'm with groups of people. I feel that I do better when I'm one on one with a person. I can also relate on not to not knowing what to say but being able to think of everything you would have said after the fact. I think the anxiety kind of puts me in a state of brain fog.
I tend to feel more comfortable around people that I'm around daily. I feel more socially comfortable around my co-workers than I do my actual family because of that. I only see my extended family once or twice a year during the holidays. With that said, I can still be reserved when I talk to my coworkers because I don't feel comfortable talking about my life and my history. I also don't want to say anything too interesting because that might require more dialogue. Sometimes I'm chattier than others. Mood plays a factor in my anxiety level and how social I am. If I'm happy or excited about something, I will be more confident and chatty about it. When I'm depressed, I tend to shut down.
I think that the situation with your mom might just be from the stress of your family situation. I think you understand that already. Stress can cause existing tensions to get worse. When you add money to it, things even get worse. Consider yourself fortunate to have enough parents that are willing to be there for you. I know that in the US, a lot of parents expect their children to be completely independent by a certain age. I was also fortunate in that respect because I wasn't able to move out as soon as I graduated high school or college either for that matter. It's rough out there and most jobs don't pay enough for you to be independent. You have to live with other people until you're able to go on your own and that's hard to do if you have SA.
Eventually, I do think that you should try to make up with your mom or at least show her that you understand that life is stressful now. You could offer a kind gesture of understanding. but still, keep your distance if you need to. You could buy her flowers and a card or something and have it sent to her if you can't do it yourself.
I think you should also consider joining a civic organization or some kind of interest group. You can make friends that way. It has worked for me. You can find people with similar interests as you and that could give you something to bond with them over.
I hope your situation gets better. I wish the best for your dad. Take care of yourself and get out when you can.
Wing, I think you're a very beautiful human being.
Turned 30 myself recently, broke up with old friends, struggling between staying in the country, where it seems like there will be no future, but there is my family, and relocation to places like Canada with the help from employer to become an immigrant, which is the whole other story. What is happening to you is at the same time normal and not normal. Not normal because you are not happy and don't see your place in the world, like the barista you mentioned, who seems to accepting who he is and where here is and just having fun. And normal, because there are objective things like very high housing prices, wage growth stalled, societies, communities and human interaction in general are broken and the world order is broken across the globe, probability of huge world war is waving around. All the people in the world are being confused. But I'm really glad to see that you are still around and able to express your feelings, that definitely made my day better :)
Thanks :) As I get older I feel like I get more and more confused with what's normal and what isn't. Just gotta push through I guess.
hey wing, you're still popping up in my suggestions. You should post more content. It can be stress relief. Hope you're feeling better about things.
you seem like a really nice person and your videos are so comforting like I can relate to all the things you say. I turned 18 a few months ago and I feel terrified about life, I have no idea what’s my future going to look like, I feel like I’m wasting time If it makes sense. I have the same problems with anxiety and depression and also with my parents. I’m so scared every time I apply for a job
I found peace in your videos and I wish you well. You have beautiful voice btw, I’m waiting for more covers if it’s possible for you to make,I feel like you have very much potential
Sorry for my bad english ☠️ just felt like I must to write this comment
I love watching these videos, hope you are doing well! Looking forward to an update from you soon :D
Thanks Ian. I do feel like I've been gone for quite a while now so I might make an update soon
Where are you!!?? LOL I just found your channel, in my recommend feed, and I feel a close relation to a lot of things you say. I hope you're doing well and will continue to make content that I can actually relate to. All my love and prayers for you and yours, always 💙
thanks for your video 💓 always good to hear how u are going. would talking to you dad about the situation with ur mom help? he sounds like he could be the mediator.
He could be a mediator but we never talk about our feelings in our family. Good thing I can talk to my sister about it though.
Have you looked into getting professional help? Like therapy? Sounds like you have a lot you want to express and figure out. Sometimes we can't think ourselves into solutions. Sometimes we need someone to help guide us through and give us a different perspective than our own hardened one.
I hope you are doing well.
Hey I just heard your sinatra cover, and I just wanted to say it was really beautiful. Actually brought me to tears listening knowing your struggles with anxiety, and hearing you perform so well. :)
Wing 🤗 I hope your doing ok, I completely understand it feel as much as possible what your going through. People small talk 😴 😂 it never has interested me. What do you like to do if you don't mind me asking.
Thanks Wesley. In terms of hobbies, I like to sing and dance. Nothing career wise though.
@@Wing-wh5ih now I need to hear you sing 😂 nice That's cool. 🤗
Sorry to hear of your dad illness. Is very hard. Counselling could be beneficial.
Hello Wing Happy belated 30th birthday 🎂 🥳
Thanks Jessica! 🤗
@@Wing-wh5ih how have you been doing ?
I've been doing ok. How have you been?
@@Wing-wh5ih I am doing ok as well just been working alot and helping my mother
Have u tought about sign urself inna sportclub fitness take group lessons.
Ask the time , or location u need to stramngers on street to practise talk
Take a therapist or meditate self improvement try to excersize
Hope u fwill do better
I know this is tired
i think you should prepare financially , you hate working souse your channel to make money off of whatever you love, ifyou ever need any help with business stuff you could ask me
its good that youre eating healthy
I'm definitely actively saving money instead of recklessly spending it now. I don't think I can make money off of youtube so I'll just have to live frugally I guess. Thanks
nice ass view what canera you using
Fuji XS10
@@Wing-wh5ih expensive as hell, sheesh you bigtime
have you ever attempted exposure therapy? for your social anxiety?
Art therapy can be helpful.
thats weird, how you cant do all those things. yet you can post a video of yourself to the whole world.
Talking to a camera is like talking to a wall. The wall doesn't judge you, your talk back, or show any emotions.