Cotard Delusion: The Mental Illness that Makes You Believe you are Dead
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@@Evelyn_2401Came here to ask the same thing
What is the function of a ring?
Okay.
But what if you really had died before?
It can be full-time job, constantly telling yourself that you were saved, that you survived.
To put on your finger. Ridge is another scam, I'm not surprised anymore. Simon is a money grabbing posh boy
That guy who said "I guess I am dead, I would like your expert opinion" ... absolute chad.
A hanging Chad.
@@rock-bottom2023 4,000 of them
for a delusion, that is a very rational response.
edit: though i suppose, i automatically assumed they would be irrational in other aspects, which was wrong on my part.
@@YourPalKindred yeah, the problem is people with dilusions aren't necessarily stupid. You could probably talk to someone like that and have a real conversation assuming you don't know them that much, and everything would be just fine. I'm basing this on absolutely nothing, just speculation and my own brand of logic based on 27 years of observation. This assumes the dilusion is about something you wouldn't notice. Constantly being hunted by a dinosaur would be quite different to having a fly buzzing around your ear.
I once knew a guy with this disorder. He spent the rest of his life in a State hospital praying to get out of purgatory and refusing to bathe or eat. He flipped a lid when his mother became a nun.
"He flipped a lid when his mother became a nun."
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I genuinely don't know what that means. Can someone explain?
@@_Eric._
Flipped a lid?
I've always heard it in terms of a temper tantrum, but I suppose in this context it sounds like losing grip on reality
How did you know him? This seems like a complex story.
I need to know more about this story
As someone with this, it is absolutely fucking terrifying. Before I finally got help I'd try to cut my chest open almost every other day because I thought I was rotting on the inside and had died in 2019. I could _feel_ it, like a sickening pain in my chest. Thankfully, antipsychotics almost make it disappear for as long as I keep taking them.
Sending love to whoever else out there has to deal with this.
P.S: Thank you so much for keeping this video respectful and not sensualized. Feels like a breath of fresh air when I see videos about it that don't treat it like some freak thing for people to use as shock content.
Bless you, that's so terrifying! Thank you for bearing witness to your experience, it's so important and you are paving the way for others suffering from this to find help and support. You are so strong, and I'm so proud of you! Sending you love, prayers and hugs, friend 💚🙏🕊
Im so sorry..😢
Wow that sounds horrifying. Personally, I've never heard of this before and I always appreciate learning. Thank you for sharing your experience and I'm glad you have found something that works for you
Thank you for sharing your story! Any real, honest and respectful conversation about the myriad of ways that mental health deviations present is a positive. The more we understand as a society, that people with intensely different brain functions can be ‘normal’ (whatever that means) and aren’t scary or someone to fear, the more we collectively can move forward with addressing mental health endemics seriously and without stigma. Best of luck you!
I hope you always feel better and I’m happy that it actually can be effectively treated.
So not Cotards syndrome but I suffered a traumatic brain injury in a car accident about a year ago and for the first 3 weeks being in hospital every time I'd wake up from a sleep or a nap my first thoughts were always that I'd died and was waking up in the "next" stage of life. It was the most terrifying part of the whole experience.
I had a similar experience, 44 years ago I was hit by a car while crossing a crosswalk. I was in a barbiturate induced coma for a month and when I finally regained consciousness I was convinced that I was dead.
More too fam
@@johnyoung9091 yeah so what the doctors told me was that believing that you'd died is pretty common with post traumatic amnesia.
Yeah, I too had a TBI from a car accident decades ago. When I first woke up in the hospital, I thought I was in the midst of a dream. Later, I thought I'd died, and I was in something like purgatory. I've still got a thought that I'm actually dead.
Nearly got Isekai'd
I developed this after my heart attack/surgery. It's been almost 4yrs and I still occasionally have to remind myself that the world is real and I am alive. I've lost touch with almost everyone in my life because I forget that we live in the same world. I've gotten past the stage of constantly asking if I'm really alive (although, sometimes I think my sons are just an illusion that I've created to fill the void of limbo). There are still days where I feel like I smell slightly decayed; but it's very wispy, not tangible, fleeting. It dulls the senses, or rather, the sensibility. I don't react to events (good, bad, fabulous, horrific) like I used to because the often just don't seem real or that they can't affect me. It's hard to put into words, but it's getting better with time.
Damn, good luck, man!
You're not alone. My own experience with Cotards like symptoms is very similar to what you've described here. its not something i consiously think about very often anymore, but i still feel so out of touch with the world, with my peers, my emotions... Videos like this are hard for me to watch. its such an isolating delusion. its always really scared me that someone might find out. either find out that I'm that crazy.. or find out that I'm really dead and rotten. anyway, lest not to trigger you or myself.
My heart goes out to you and everyone who might find themselves struggling with anything like this. Good luck, you are here, we are alive, the world loves and will care for us. We are in this together 🫂
I'm sorry to hear that. You are alive, and I'm grateful for that 😊
We are real. You are real. Enjoy what you still have and bring light in ways you can.
The cure is Jesus. He can make you born again through believing in Him. Don't believe me? Ask Him. Call on the name and Jesus Christ and ask him to set you free.
It’s amazing how horribly wrong things can go with our minds and body
Yes. It's a wonder something doesn't go wrong more often!
idk... the majority of these illness come from abuse of some kind... drugs, sex, sport, work...
and car accident or medical intervention...
we just don't take care of ourselves... we want to make money and have fun...
Terrible!😮_
I once knew this woman that was convinced she was dead. She used to make me check her heartbeat and say “see, no heartbeat” but there was one, albeit slow. She had ED’s, low blood pressure and was always cold, I think that played into it immensely. Also, she used to say “can you smell that?” She explained it as a rotting smell, that her insides were rotting away.
I never knew the name of this disorder, it’s all very interesting.
EDITING ERROR: The beginning of the cold open seems to be missing. Simon begins "In 1880 he coined the term... Tragically he had no way to treat her..." From context he was speaking about Cotard and Madamoiselle X, but they're never actually introduced.
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How is this not the top comment it is very obvious and jarring.
Thank you! I re-watched it twice trying to see if I'd missed something. Guessing the ad roll cut back at the wrong point so we don't have the very beginning 🤔
He also refers to it as Capgras instead of Cotard’s in the middle of the video. Lazy writing/editing. I hope the channel doesn’t go downhill.
@@iloveyertle he was actually talking about Capgras for a minute during the video and compared it to Cotard's.
The line at which mental illness goes from bizarre and whimsical to extreme and terrifying is very fine indeed! Just remember that however bizarre and whimsical the symptoms sound to healthy and rational minds that the suffering the unfortunate patients are feeling is very real, to them, and can lead to tragedy.
It's demonic.
Feelings can easily overwhelm the mind.
Consider an amputee who feels phantom pain, you can tell them, "It's all in your head so ignore it" but they will feel the tingling, or even burning pain, while knowing very well that the limb is gone. Feelings cannot be reasoned with or turned off.
@@GregMoress I'm a transtibial (below the knee) amputee myself. From experience, phantom limb sensitivity is indeed the part of the brain responsible for processing sensory input from the missing limb reporting sensations in the absence of input from the nerves, which are no longer there. Surprisingly, doing something as simple as massaging the remaining foot is often enough to get the brain to report the correct situation. I was taught this by a nurse the night after my surgery, and it still works for me most of the time.
Fmri have showed it seems to be physical problems in the corresponding parts of the brain responsible for conditions such as these.
Mental illness is not whimsical or bizarre. There is nothing funny about it. Were just trying to get by day by day.
I've got a psychosis, but this is something else. It sounds like a living hell.
No, like a dead Hell.
Because its not a real syndrome you probably did die severe trauma this is a joke video these people are sick
@@DIDmyOSDDshine-oq3cgdare I say an undead hell
I had a similar problem when i was kidnapped and they refused to interact with me. I wondered if I had died and didn't notice. Spent a lot of time trying to figure it out and very uncomfortable.
That sounds absolutely terrifying :(
I'm so so sorry...Jesus truly does love you. Ask Him to heal you.
Oh my gosh..
That would have been the most terrifying psychological torture ever:/
I genuinely feel bad for those suffering from this delusion.
I had this or something extremely similar back in my 20s. I had been fired from what had been a low level dream job at the time and after eight months, I still couldn't get even a basic job and I was in debt with no end in sight. I was very despairing and depressed, not seeing any future for myself. It's worth mentioning I wasn't on anything medical or drug related. One day, I came to a strange conclusion that I had died some time ago and that what remained was just some physical ghost that was waiting to break apart. For the next four days or so, I stopped eating, just occasionally drinking water and just waited to waste away. I would wander around town during the day, feeling extremely peaceful for some reason, and would often just stare at the sun, like I was waiting for it call me away. This never hurt and neither did hunger pangs. I felt absolutely unfettered and at peace with it all. Then on the fifth day, with no explanation, it just stopped, like I came out of a waking dream.
I had very rough years around that point from poverty and frequently going hungry, but things eventually got better. I never felt that way again but I still remember how surreal it was to exist like that.
Interesting man but I'm glad youre better
@@EuanWhitehead Thank you. It was a very strange and thankfully brief event in my life.
Sounds like you dissociated or derealized for an oddly long amount of time
@@Filthnails did you find Jesus?
I once thought I was dead. I experienced severe adhedonia but it turns out that it was schizophrenic psychosis.
I developed this after being socially isolated as a child- and had a tuberculosis scare. The belief that I’m dead, possibly decaying sometimes is crazy, On top of depression and occasional delusions. I think I have it lightly as it comes and goes. I’ve been coping with it with something kinda funny, I dress up as /play the character of a vampire. Gotta make it fun instead of suffering, you know? My friends even got me a birthday cake with 150 on it last year. Which is how old the vampire persona is. You might be concerned that my friends are playing into my delusions but on that end I Know it’s something I made up for fun. After leaning into the persona, my cotards hasn’t been as strong. You just gotta learn how to cope in ways that aren’t damaging to yourself or others. I might be a little weird and dress spooky but it makes me happy and is a more healthy way to process it .
Heck yeah keep functioning!
Is Griffith your vampire persona?
That's awesome. Thank you for sharing my friend and much luv.
It's your way of rationalise the issue. I like it!
It reminds me of an experiment some psychiatrists did with people having schizophrenia who tend to hear voices. They created a 3D avatar of the character speaking to them.
For the first time they could see and answer back. Their hallucinations dramatically decreased after that.
Clever. If you're a vampire, after all, then being dead wouldn't be harmful to you. So I guess rationalizing it that way can make it easier to cope with
I don't believe that I'm physically dead or anything. But the hamster wheel of waking up, going to a soul-crushing job, coming home and trying to disassociate for a few hours before going to bed only to start the process all over again makes me feel dead inside.
We were meant for more than this, but we've fooled ourselves into slavery.
Burnout rots!
Follow the white rabbit 🐇
@@blancasonora714 Do what now?
@@dutchplanderlinde8883 it sounds like @TheRunningHalfling has burnout.
Holy shit, this confirmed so many things. I used to think I was dead and the people around me were replaced when I was a kid and struggle with face recognition even my own, and I've had Ms, since I was a kid. Damn, I feel validated for real now
There is a psychiatric syndrome called facial blindness. You don't recognize people's faces, even your own. I think it's actually caused by small damages in the parts of the brain that gives us the ability to recognize others. I read of one poor man who couldn't recognize family/friends/self but recognized each of his sheep. Human brains are deep wells of wonder and weirdness.
@@pfadiva I don't have facial blindness like that, I can definitely see faces very well and easily compare them but only if I'm seeing them. If I have to remember it's a lot more difficult, but I can remember other things visually in great detail
I'm with you on this, most of my life I've thought either I wasn't really alive.. Not dead.. But hollow. It's hard to explain.
Even now I often find myself just going through the motions of a day, a week without feeling like I'm part of it.. I only remember to eat because I have 2 cats and set alarms to remind me to feed them and myself.
This video is reassuring..
Hi, fellow sufferer. I have this too, but just about me being dead, not other stuff. Frightening. I am sorry.
Not recognising people's faces, 'face blindness' is prosopagnosia.
Sometimes I feel like in another dimension I did die, and the reality from that bleeds over into my life now and I feel like I dont exsist anymore and this is all a dream. I've had two head injuries front and back, and I see constant visual snow and had an anxiety disorder that has gone away but is now Depression.
I had surgery a few years ago and when i woke in the recovery room a nurse came over to me and said, " we couldnt wake you up " and simply turned and walked away. That messed with me for awhile.
I wonder what psychedelics would do to someone suffering from this. They are being used for Alcoholism and chronic medication resistent depression
I was just wondering the same thing because I had a very strange experience of falling asleep and dying multiple times only to wake up each time until I really woke up and almost had a fkn panic attack.... It took me a few days and a long mushroom trip to realize that I might be seeing the universe from a unique perspective so I better enjoy it while I can, so now I feel like I have died in multiple different universes then continued in a different universe but I remember the previous one. Scary as hell when you wake up w/ all your family members that have passed away just sitting around talking like normal then I realized something was wrong and was ripped out of that reality then shoved into a different one.... Only to realize something else was wrong then I got ripped out and shoved in ANOTHER reality, until I actually woke up in my original life freaking out.
Or ketamine.
@@kitkakittehwhy ketamine, bc it's dissociative?
They might help. I think the person would need a guide so they don't have a bad trip.
Ketamine has been used to treat PTSD and depression. I'm not sure that a dissociative would help these people. I wonder about something like MDMA though that increases brain activity given it sounds like their brains are hypoactive.
Alarmed that Simon didn't mention the commonly accepted theory that Per "Dead" Ohlin, of the band Mayhem, was afflicted by this disorder. RIP Dead
I was going to mention this
I was waiting for him to mention him. I wouldn’t call it a theory the bandmates he played with said he would say it himself that he was dead and why he was obsessed with it since he had a accident that almost killed him as a kid. Why he loved putting dead birds under his bed to “smell death” and even buried his clothes to get that dead look he even asked his bandmates to bury him. He was just crazy and these people need help it makes no sense so you believe you are already dead would be be so terrible to just “live” as a dead person and go on and do what feels natural like eating or showering? I mean if zombies for example where a real thing i’d like to not smell and not starve I’d bathe and eat animal brains to survive
@@lucoakanrogithe2ahashira509 I say theory because he was never clinically diagnosed, but yeah, it really is all there.
Great wikipedia article, it contains the phrase "In 1992, Dead was found dead..."
He was the first person I thought of
Though he was never diagnosed, I do believe Dead from Mayhem had Cotard. After almost dying in hospital, he seemed to think he had actually died, starving himself and self harming among other things, right up until he committed suicide. 😔
yeah i totally believe that as well, this disorder reminded me of him instantly😭
@@ahgwsn he might’ve gotten help had Euronymous not egged him on to kill himself 😭
Yea he did, the famous story about him huffing dead crows in a bag and slashing himself on stage to be closer to death.
This subject fascinates me because I had a brief experience (maybe 10-20 minutes?..) during a severely stressful time in my life where I woke up fully believing I was dead. Didnt know this was a disorder until way later, and somehow that makes that experience a whole lot scarier.
Do you suffer or have been diagnosed from any mental illnesses such as adhd, bpd etc? Did you find communicating with your family has always had a double bind theme where no matter what you did there was just no way for you to "win" a lose lose communication style.. is the relationship dynamic between your parents pathological.. ie one narcissistic other a supporter or enabler of narcissism.?
In my opinion all these different manifestations of mental illnesses ie bpd aspd npd add odd adhd etc are all cptsd manifestations with their roots in your relationship to your family and the kind of role you played to enable /sustain your pathological family dynamics.
I went through something like this for a while after a particularly bad trip. Hallucinated my death, it was pretty surreal. Took alot of mental homework to rationalize my own existence and work past that particular self inflicted trauma.
So you experienced an ego death, but did not handle it well? Curious, have you tripped since this experience? I have not ever experienced ego death, just the "oneness with the universe" sensations.
@jenniferj5324 no, and no. I find this world to be less than it should be. I got exactly the answer I was looking for. It just took time and age to understand that for myself.
Good for you, I'd have been happier if my experience were the same. Unfortunately my mind doesn't operate that way.
I knew someone that occationally had this delusion during psychosis, often having hallucinations to back it up like small wounds on her body that continuously bled and dead people wispering under her floorboards wanting to take her back to her grave. Its a "fascinating syndrome" until you have to deal with it and then its horrifying and isolating.
9:24 LOL, the police didn’t stop to think that, with the exception of a nosebleed or menstruation, blood doesn’t just leak out of your body. If it was that much blood they should have at least called paramedics
Lmao that got me too. “Whose blood is that?” “Uh, mine. It fell out”
I went through an episode of this many years ago- it was set off by a number of factors. I was already suffering from depression for years. A few weeks before it hit, I held my dead friend's hand to say goodbye. She literally clenched my hand, although she'd been dead for about 12 hours at this point. I was also leaving my religion, Wicca, and my friends weren't as friendly to me anymore. Then I had a dream I took my heart out of my chest and gave it to someone
When I woke up I couldn't feel my heartbeat but I still had a pulse. It didn't make any sense, I thought I might be dead. I wondered if when you die, you just go on living like you were alive. Or maybe I was a zombie. I didn't want to go to the doctor for fear they would dissect me. I kept my condition secret. After three days, my heartbeat returned, but it felt very weak. I shared my problem with a close friend and he agreed it was too weak. Finally, I went to my doctor and again, he agreed it was weaker than normal. My other friends started ignoring me, treating me like I wasn't there half the time which only exacerbated the situation. I consider myself a fairly rational person and I kept analyzing and reanalyzing my situation, trying to figure it out, unable to shake the idea I was dead. I was able to get away from my old friends and I went into a deep state of solitude. It took two years of intense self counseling, but I managed to talk myself out of this silly notion. The whole thing finally ended when I passed some blue urine, and suddenly it all fell away. A few years later I was diagnosed with porphyria, which I think was the cause of it. I've never heard of acyclovir setting it off before your video, but oddly enough I was being treated with it at the time for severe coldsores. So I can say, this condition is curable if the person doesn't want to feel that way. But it isn't easy. Great video. Thank you.
Psychosis can make you believe a whole lot of strange things. I went through it myself and believed I was other people(including fictional characters), believed I was in a spiritual waiting room that was like limbo, believed I had to die soon(and might’ve even taken action towards it had I not been hospitalized), and those are just a few. It’s terrifying and left me with PTSD. I feel for anyone who has suffered from psychosis or anything similar; it’s hell.
Agreeeed
No idea how i missed Richard Chase having Cotards. I always wondered why he "behaved" like a vampire (he considered unlock doors and invitation) and the cannibalism clicks now. Baffling that they let him go after the rabbit blood issue.
My brother had this. He had a grand mal seizure after being taken off of klonopin by his doctor cold turkey. He believed that his brain had died and he could see and smell the putrefaction. It was terrifying for him.
I feel like the most famous person to suffer from this was Dead from Mayhem.
Came here to say this lol. RIP Dead
I'd say Richard chase is rather famous
This disorder fascinates me more than any other. I don’t really know why. I guess it’s just that the thought of genuinely believing you’re dead and rotting and belong in a morgue sounds so much more devastating and horrifying than I could imagine. I feel truly terrible for anyone who’s ever dealt with this. I’m not exactly mentally stable myself and suffer at the hand of paranoid delusions, but nothing like this.
i was in a psych ward with a woman with this syndrome earlier this year, she asked for the undertaker every. single. day.
In the series Hannibal theres a girl with Cotards she believed she was dead and couldn't see faces.
The actress was the woman from Dead like me cancelled in about 2015 along with Reaper. Another writers strike.
Bit of a tangent there, it was real sad, she killed her friend because she thought she was an imposter. Hannibal was fantastic, seriously underrated. 😮
Dead Like Me was similarly underrated. At least they tied up many of the loose ends with the movie Dead Like Me: Life After Death.
Another example of Capgras Syndrome is in Criminal Minds Season 7 "Dorado Falls" A spree killer, one-time mass murderer, one-time cop killer, and one-time abductor whose Capgras was triggered after a car crash caused him brain damage, leading to a psychotic break. His delusions led to him believing that impostors had abducted his family and were conspiring against him, thus causing him to go on a killing spree, believing he was on a mission to 'save' his family from the 'impostors'.
I didn't know about Reaper, but I found it kinda funny both of her characters in Dead Like Me and Hannibal were Georgia. Always wondered if it was a nod to DLM
I’ve been trying to remember the name of Dead Like Me for months now. You’ve made me very happy!
@@emperatricemusic8229 😉
As I start playing this I’m saying to myself, now don’t go thinking you have this disorder just watch and enjoy learning. Stage one: huh. . . sure sounds like how I feel all the time. Stage two: ok def not me, phew. Wait, a medication I just so happen to take every day can cause this? Great. Now I have to email my doctor and ask if I can lower the dose cause now I’m afraid I’m going to become a corpse. Thanks.
Lol 😂 pretty much me every time I use web md to try and diagnose my symptoms
@@No1_Inpa_Ticular same! even for the most basic things they're like ''in most cases this is totally harmless, but sometimes it can lead to literally all your skin falling off and your organs sliding out'' O_O ..which just leads one straight down the road of harcore paranoia lol
fun fact - theres a song about this disorder! it's called Cotard's Solution and it's by Will Wood and the Tapeworms!
I still have to smile when remembering a friend from 50 yrs. ago who woke up as a passenger in a car after taking illicit substances saying “Am I dead?”
I like how you end every video. No goodbyes, no final thoughts or squashed summary. I mostly do the same with phone calls and it upsets nearly everyone.
I had a very odd nightmare where it felt like this syndrome. I became aware that I was in a massive crypt, little or no light, and hundreds of thousands of other sleeping bodies. I felt incredibly cold, ice cold, incredible apathy, and I could feel rotted voids throughout my body, particularly in my arms. If anyone knows their Jewish mythology it essentially felt like waking up in Sheol. Weird considering that I grew up in a Christian household.
Fortunately once I woke up I was fine. But damn that was a crazy dream.
Beliefs like this, granted to a much lesser degree, are more common than you think. I have schizophrenia, and when I’m in an episode, I sometimes believe my hands don’t belong to me.
OMG I had this! Or something that sounds very much like it; For one night, about 15 years ago, after eating FAR too many mushrooms. I was convinced I had ended my life (saw myself do it, felt it) and that i was a rotting corpse, but I couldn't move on because my best friend wouldn't let me. I ended up convincing her I was dead and she needed to let me go because i was starting to stink, she started hysterically crying while my other friends laughed at us... by the early hours of the morning I had decayed into dust, then I was just a purple glittering mist if sorts in space. It felt like a century, but was only one night.
Man. The absolute pause I did when you mentioned the not being able to recognize faces. I've never been able to recognize faces, even my own and it was distressing when I learned that and trying to come to terms with it (mainly my own face and how I actively avoided mirrors for years cause I couldn't stand looking at the reflection I felt so distant from). I don't really know what it's like to recognize faces but I'd imagine it'd be incredibly distressing to suddenly lose that. Especially if you've always recognized yourself before. Seeing that stranger in the mirror is kind if a lot and not having the ability to reel your brain back in that it's you just sounds absolutely terrifying.
Brains are truly something else.
On a sillier note though, this reminded me of how ants can think they're dead if you put the smell of death on them. They'll hang out in their ant cemetery until the smell fades from them when they remember that they're alive all of a sudden and go back to their ant chores.
I wonder if there are other animals who can think they're dead sometimes
I've had thoughts about being dead ever since I did a suicide attempt 10 years ago. It was never as severe as this but when my depressive episodes come back the feeling gets stronger. I think one part of my psyche accepted my death in that moment and that's why that feeling still lingers... It's almost as if my brain thinks it's wrong that I'm not dead! "I should be dead" is the thought I get alot. It's like survivors guilt but directed towards myself, which is so bizzare. I think my brain has split myself into two people, the person I was before, that died, and the person who I am after.
I can't believe staff at a mental hospital nicknamed a patient Dracula. Of all the nerve! How could they do such a thing?! Based on his behavior, any true Dracula fan would have known Renfield would have been a much more appropriate nickname!
I don’t have this disorder and I never reached a point of being genuinely deluded, but I have wondered a lot of times I was actually dead.
I’ve had some very close calls on my life between violence (shootings) and health events (cardiac issues), and sometimes I would genuinely wonder if I died and split into another “branch” of the universe or something. Usually I felt this way in the moment and not as much later on.
Can’t imagine actually fully believing that I am dead like that on a normal ass day though, gotta suck
This kinda reminds me of fatal frame:mask of the solar eclipse game.
It’s a horror story, but it’s based on psychology. People start to forget who they are and their own face. It even has a blooming stage. I wonder if their inspiration was from theses cases.
The TV series Hannibal featured this illness as a plot device for an defining episode in the series. Scary ʇıɥs.
Should have mentioned Dead from Mayhem
I only clicked on this to see if he'd mention him lol
@jj66123 I watch most of his stuff but deffo was sat waiting for the name drop
Lmao came here to say this. RIP Dead
After the accident that killed my bf at 17 I spent weeks convinced i was actually dead in purgatory and he had lived. I wasnt taking care of myself and developed some cutting issues but my family forced me to go back to work 2 weeks after the accident and I kind of snapped out of it on my own. I think I just didnt want to deal with the survivors guilt (which i still deal with at 33). I still miss him and wonder what his life would be like now.
Matt Elliott’s Cotard Syndrome is a haunting piece of music available on streaming platforms like youtube
Absolutely love Matt Elliott.
I hate Matt Elliot
@@silvaskiproductions3937 Really? What about the music don't you like?
Who?
@@jenniferj5324 Check out Matt Elliotts album "Drinking Songs" it's so good
i had this following 2 NDExperiences 2021, i fell through an old floor and mashed up a foot, then after getting up, fell again from collapse cracked my skull on the deck, i was unconscious for some time each time, internal bleeding for a few days bruised for months afterward i had these terrifyinh thoughts i was in some limbo, blurry disconnections, people talking about me in same room but not able to hear me , not in same dimension as the the people bustling and traffic around me, and my balance and sense of touch in my feet faded, like cant feel the floor, its still not entirely worn off yet.
I came to the comments to say that this was a very interesting video for me, and that it must be a horrible experience to live in/through.
Now I’m thinking how crazy it is that there are only a couple hundred documented cases, and it seems like ALL of them are your viewers! Crazy! 🤯
If you ever searched it in google the algorithm will send this to your TH-cam if you have it you prob know and click it
Lots of people confuse this with dissociation. It's one thing to dissociate and think you're not real/in limbo, it's another to think that you're dead, to smell your rotting flesh, to feel how your organs rot or are not there at all. I suffer from dissociation, and although I can understand the feeling of thinking nothing is real, the rest of the symptoms don't match at all. Seems like a lot of people heard "feeling like you're not real" and run with it. I doubt there's one single person with this condition in the comments, they suffer from dissociation/depersonalization/a psychotic episode etc.
I was worried this was gonna be to macabre but it was quite well and respectfully done.
Simon's stuff usually is.
i've survived a solid amount of near death experiences, several of which include traumatic injuries to the head that involved physical violence and cars. it definitely did some damange but i have yet to get a full eval via MRIs and whatnot. i read about something called quantum immortality theory. the idea is that every time you have a close call with death, the universes timeline splits. if you make it out alive, it's because your consciousness wanted to perservere and so you wind up in the universe in which you did not die, rather than the one where you are gone. sometimes i feel like i'm only here because my soul chose to be in the world where it survived, but as a result of the timeline split, i am not quire in the same place that i was before the accident. it's probably just a trauma response, but now i'm quesstioning whether this feeling is a result of reading about quantum immortality theory, or i have this disorder. food for thought i guess. ima def get a brain scan when the opportunity presents itself.
I have a similar background with TBIs and all - and have had full evals. I've considered quantum immortality theory. The timeline splits. You will always make it out alive, because the part that split off that you died in - well, you're not conscious there - you're dead.
Some things appear slightly different in the post-trauma world.
Please do seek psychiatric and neurological evaluation. Good luck!
I’ve wondered the same thing too. I had a brief obe as a child when my dad was spinning me around the living room by my ankles. I wonder if what I experienced was death in one timeline of the multiverse and I’m currently experiencing this different reality now. Perhaps I wasn’t supposed to have any memories of that happening but somehow took just a small piece with me here. 🤔 makes me wonder. It was a very bizarre surreal experience when it happened
Interesting theory. Anything involving multiverses is mind boggling. You sound like you know you are alive in this universe, so you probably don't have this condition.
This is starting to look like shrodingers 🐈
It’s amazing how much we know about what is above our head compared to how little we know about what is inside our head
That what I wish more people realized is that a tbi is essentially you scrambling a part of or parts of your brain in the way that changes things. I have a tbi that thankfully hasn't changed me into a more angry person but has caused loads of other issues. If you hit your head and black out go to the doctor please because you need to be on concussion protocol. It's not fun forgetting your wallet and driving with no id (thankfully the trooper near my house is a friend and a fellow veteran and knows I have one and allowed my father to bring my id to me) it's not fun forgetting your parents birthdays or even how to spell your own last name.
And I didn't even know it could cause cotards syndrome
Great episode!
They nicknamed him Dracula when he exhibits clearly Renfield behavior?
Fact boy with another banger
“She said she needed to be taken to the morgue to be with other dead people”
“…They called 911 instead” lol
I love the style of the new intro/titles, nice!
I guess this is the ultimate “f you” to Descartes’ “I think therefore I am.”
This brings a whole new meaning to zombie apocalypse.. some schizophrenics experienced something similar. as hard to understand as this syndrome is prayers for everyone experiencing it
to quote days n daze:
“somebody please call in the coroner. just because i’m moving doesn’t mean i’m not a corpse”
Yay! A channel still hosted by Simon.
I seen people in Kensington Philadelphia that are walking dead some got flesh rotting on there body’s (no joke Tranq drug) I could see were those shells might start believing they are already dead.it’s sad and scary that some mental conditions can cause you to feel like that when your relatively healthy
I died once, still not sure i woke up, but like still gotta work so this afterlife kinda blows
I only heard about this condition once because the former singer of Mayhem, Per Yngve Ohlin, was said to had it. Never would I have thought that it's a teal thing 😮
I was wondering if you've heard of or possibly done a video on the Norwegian black metal band Mayhem? It seems like something you'd be interested in as the vocalist was believed to possibly have Cotard's syndrome eventually committing suicide. When his bandmate found him he made a decision to take pictures and collecting fragments of skull before calling police. This band mate was eventually murdered by a third band mate. They also went on sprees of arsen burning down churches and taking credit. Their story is a pretty extreme one that triggered my intense desire to try and understand the cognitive and personality issues that are all to common.
It's hard to understand how people can believe these things until you've experienced delusions/psychosis. It feels real and it can come on gradually enough that even if it's obvious to everyone else, you're convinced it's real and makes sense. It's very hard to get an objective grip on the delusion vs reality. I've only had the delusion once of "I died and this isn't real" which was thankfully short lived.
i don’t see him mentioned here, but Pelle or ‘Dead’ from the band Mayhem had this as well. his story is so sad, knowing how his band mates took advantage of his condition until it worsened to the point of his death, which they found a way to profit off of as well
Wow! Thanks for the tip! I want to write a song about this syndrome and am still researching. Pelle's life is a "good opportunity" to dive into the mind of a sufferer!
Wow that was an awesome video! I have never heard of cotard.
Watch how many people who've never heard of this before start claiming they have it in order to get attention and seem unique 😂
Dead from Mayhem was a very good example of cotards syndrome, brilliant vocalist unfortunately taken from us.
Body without content sounds like me when I tried to start a TH-cam channel.
Good grief! Chase wasn’t Dracula, but behaving like Renfield. How interesting.
When i was on droogs i thought my family went to france without me and they were replaced with identical but not my real family people. It went away after the trip...definitely crazy.
One of the old singers for the metal band Mayhem. He ended up killing himself. Lords of Chaos, great movie!!!
I was ignored as punishment when a very small child... this explains some things.
With the brain scan showing that the guy's brain had the same activity as someone in a vegetative state kinda sounds like something in the brain knows the body shouldn't be able to move around and do things. But somehow it still can which is causing signals to send making the person feel like they are dead because of the weakened brain activity?
Like the new intro
Nice work
Huh, I didn't understand this mental illness at all. Thank you for your explanation, Simon!
There’s so much that can just break inside of someone
When you described the ring my brain immediately went "wasn't the Titan made of that?" And I hate it
I think the connection with acylovir is interesting. But what if the reason isn't the medicine itself but the herpes virus which destroys parts of the brain.
I developed this a few years ago. I came out of it after a few days. I thought i was having seizures and one killed me. I was scared and confused, thinking that i was going to exist just roaming around unrecognized by the life i had before. I thought that's what happened after dying.
I have struggled with dissociation and I have at times believed that I am not real and do not exist, although I have never felt that I was rotting away or missing organs.
First heard about this on the show Scrubs. I've been fascinated by it ever since.
I need these videos to be LONGER
I got to know this syndrome thanks to a song, and wow. This is terrifyingly fascinating. Thank you for explaining it
2:00 - Chapter 1 - The stages of cotard's syndrome
3:50 - Chapter 2 - The causes of cotard's
6:40 - Chapter 3 - Living with being dead
8:45 - Chapter 4 - The vampire killer
10:45 - Chapter 5 - Can cotard's be cured
This reminds me of the chemical ants give off when they've died, so other ants know to take them away to their graveyard area. Apparently if you rub a live ant with the chemical, it will think itself dead and try to go to the dead section. I think it resolves once the chemical scent wears off.
Just thinking how the difference between a stable mind and any form of insanity is like a landslide. The greater the change, the harder the impact.
I've had this when I had psychosis from anti-psychotics and antidepressants. Moat of the time I just thought I was in a coma, though, caused by ECT.
Ive been seriously affected recently by thoughts that all of my joints are dissapearing and that one day my limbs will just fall ( not detach but just not be connected inside) because the sockets and joints are just gone. I know it sounds crazy and i tell myself that but i cant help but think its happening. It gets worse alone at night . Im not saying i have this syndrome but this gives me a direction to look i guess
"To give some semblance of an explanation: I'm not a human, this is just a dream and soon I will wake."
The pit of my stomach dropped when you said acyclovir. I've had shingles more than once and struggled with cold sores when I was little, so I was immediately familiar with the drug.
this story JUST KEPT GETTING WORSE
First time I ever heard of this a young teenager was suffering from this and Disney movies fixed the cause
In the Dead Rabbit Radio podcast, per chance?
This one was a wild ride.