I can't feel anything -FREE AUDIO
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 29 ก.ย. 2024
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Audio
Psycho
American Horror Story- Coven
The Breakfast Club
American Horror Story- Murder House
Feud
Requiem for a dream
Sharing the Secret
Music- In this Shirt by The irrepressibles
I do not own any of the audio or visuals, just the edit.
"I want to be a pretty girl!"
"Well you're not a pretty girl and you know it!"
That, that hit me so hard that I legit burst into silently crying.
Same OoOf
i had this same argument with my mother
@@rachelpfile2660 I feel sorry for everything everyone is going through
@@alyssaary3455 thank you
@@rachelpfile2660 your welcome 🙃 I'm going through a lot too but life with get better I promise!
I cry but I don’t really feel pain. It’s like my body is responding to what I should be feeling but I can’t actually feel it.
same
My tears flow for no reason sometimes and I don't understand why
This is exactly me, are you still feeling like this or did your situation get better?
I relate so much to this omg
You guys must be hurt so much that you don't even feel it anymore or got numb to it. I think I'm wrong tho but wherever you are I hope the best for u
I'm crying, but I feel so numb. I dont even feel the reason why I'm crying.
same, but update do you feel better now?
🙂
Aswe
U don't even know me, nobody knows me🙂💔
"I would give everything I have, or I will ever have just to feel pain again." that's like SO me.
same
ANYTHING WITH AMERICAN HORROR STORY I CRY DJALUSOAJDBF.
I wish i wass neverr bornn im so sorry every bady 💭
*everybody
*Same*
don't ever say those words. you're deserve in this world, maybe u just haven't find it, I know there's someone out there who would make your life turn into happiness, i believe that. don't ever think about those words anymore, OK?
I wish for myself too🙇🏻♀️
I cant even cry... I have to say how happy I am to those who are around me because they will say "you're just pretending to be liked" and its killing me
I don’t care about anything anymore
Same
"I would give everything I have or will ever have just to feel pain again"🔥
Even when I’m happy, I begin to bring myself down - “Why are you happy?” “How can YOU be happy?” “You don’t deserve to feel happiness”
sometimes i catch myself feeling great, like i could never be better. But then when i realize i have nothing to be happy for, it makes me feel horrible. that’s when it all just goes back to normal and repeats.
You have things to be happy for, you just can't see it. Everyone does.
Dude I am glad I cant feel sadness but I would like to feel "love" "happiness"
My face trough this video: .__.
Honestly same
It's like everyone has their own books, their own chapters to their story. But nobody ever realized the book was nonfiction, until one day when nobody read and listened to that book. Till one day that book disappeared.
I always feel like somethings wrong with me when I dont feel because I know I should but I can't and people say "its not that you can't its that you won't" I want to feel so badly but when I do I burst into tears over the smallest things. I didnt cry when my dad divorced my mom or when we watched a sad movie that had everyone else in tears but I was bawling in the middle of gym because I moved the mat slightly out of place 3 rounds ago. I hate that I'm like this but I hate it so much more when people say "I've been depressed before" its not the same. Its not sadness its like your heart was taken from your chest and you know you should feel a heartbeat under your skin when you hold your hand to the left side of your chest because everyone else does but you don't. Its not willpower or lack of it its a void in your soul that nothing seems to fill but you so desperately want to feel but you can't. Its so horrible and its so horrifying how many people can relate to feeling nothing, then everything all at once. Recently I've been forgetting everything and reacting to things late emotionally. Ex. My best friends boyfriend was talking about how he wanted to die and she cried and I just sat there trying to sort out some of my emotions that weren't there. Took me until the next morning to respond, but I didnt say anything because she already comprehended it. I wish people would stop saying "I've been there" when they haven't because if you haven't been there you dont know what its like dont try to put words in my mouth and emotions in my absent heart. (Sorry for rambling on and on)
same i feel the same emptiness
This music makes me cry so much and this audio just makes me cry more
People listen to these but some dont realize that this is how some of us feel how we are that we feel everything every word hits us hard until eventually we cant feel anything anymore and everytime we get hit we keep walking because we've gotten used to that pain and dont try to fight it anymore...
1:15 breakfest club 💓
I am the kind of person who makes people happy. The girl who everyone turns to when they're having problems and being in their worse time in their lives. The girl who seems to have a happy nd joyous life. The girl who has no major problem in her life. I am that girl. Little did everybody know, I'm not real. That girl they rely on, is just an act. I've pretended to be a person who I'm notn that I don't even know myself anymore. I don't know who I really am. My life is fucked up and no one knows that. My parents, they both cheat. My dad has other families. I found out about it last year. I met a girl named carmen at a camp. We became very close because we had so much in common. Our dads were absent in our lives even when he was there, but we never felt his presence. On the last day of the camp, she showed me her family photo and saw my dad in it. That day, I knew that my dad didn't only cheat on my mom, but on his children too. When I confronted him about it, which was last month, he confessed the truth. My mom didn't care. It sucks. All of my siblings are depressed. My parents abused us too... verbally, physically. My mom often beat us up and my dad always say harsh words to us. It just sucks, a lot. I want this to end. And I was molested when I was 4 years old, I lost my virginity. It was a horrifying memory. My mom's brother molested me. He died in a car crash after his engagement party. I did said to him that i hoped for him to never get married. And it happened. I feel guilty about it, until now. My mom kept blaming me for his death. I hate this. I feel so fucking worthless. So fucking useless. I just want to die. Can I please just die? I'm tired of being someone I'm not. Every night I'd cry myself to sleep. Nobody was there to make me feel better. My sister was the one who made me feel better when I feel like shit. But now, she's far away from me. She's in college now... and it's so far away from here. I just feel like ending everything. It could not get better. It will never get better. Because, just when I thought things were getting better, it ends with a disaster. Since then, I've never had high expectations out of everything. I don't want to look forward to anything. Because all of those are just temporary. I had good times in my life, but I never get to enjoy those times fully. When I'm in those times, I just know that when it ends, everything will turn back to how it used to be. Bad and sad.
I'm just over reacting... Maybe it's not as worse as I thought. I'm just another whiny "depressed" bitch who's looking for attention, I guess. Because that's what everybody thinks that I am when I tell them this. It just makes me hate myself more. Because I think they're right. They're fucking right. I should just fucking die and not exist at all.
I'm so sorry
I feel everything but I’m completely numb at the same time... I’m surrounded by so many people but I am so lonely, I want to be loved but I reject everyone who loves me, I feel weak, tired and fed up I don’t know I am just suffering in this lonely mind of mine 😞 sometimes I think I’m happy but It’s all seems like an illusion and it goes away far too quickly.
“I hate pretending” made me cry..
When she said that numbness is worst then pain i broke down
Do you ever just cry until you can’t feel anything anymore, but you keep crying hopping that maybe you’ll feel a bit better afterwards but you don’t so when one person says something negative you’re crying for the rest of the night or crying yourself to sleep... yeah me neither...
At this point i feel like everyone and everything has left me behind, even when i get happy i somehow burst into tears because i just feel lonely all the time. All my friends that i know are people i know online. I am 11th grade and 14
Sometimes when I am having fun with my friends, there is a voice inside me telling me that I’m faking it, or when I am crying the same voice tells me that I’m faking it.
The first one reminds me of something I read : who decided demons are bad and angels are good, I used to be bothered by my demons but now I value my demons, they’ve been with me through the good and the bad, they don’t lie to me, they don’t betray me, and they stay with me
Pain is important but sometimes I wish I didn’t feel anything
not feeling anything is the death , is the worst ! try to get out of your pain because if you dont do anything about it it will grow and ur gonna get empty.
I‘m so numb that I can’t even cry now ..
Look yall. You all are worth it. Trust me. I been thru a lot too. ok, Roll your eyes and be like what do you know? But you can't judge that. You don't even know who I am or what I have been thru. So yes I am telling you to never give up and that you are worth it. And If your thinking I have not been through what you been through. Mabey not. But I can have sympathy or least understand alittle or a lot. I can tell you a fact that you should keep going. And Do what helps you get better thats is GOOD for You!
"nobody knows me" hits very hard...
"It's a reason to lose weight"
"Its a reason to fit in the red dress"
That hit me into a new feeling of not being confident about my weight but I know deep down that no body is perfect not even God
If anybody is reading this right now please if there is any time that you have to hear this or at least read this, I'm speaking from a history of suicide attempts and a history of dark moments that I never thought I could ever get out of. I promise you Jesus Christ is the only way the only truth and the only life that will take away that empty eternal feeling you try so hard to let go of and get rid of out of your life. You try so many things to fill it you try so many ways you try so many places you try so many people you try so many things over and over and nothing helps and I'm here to tell you today that the more you plug into Jesus Christ and his word and start talking to him and praying to him and listening to what the pastor says and stay around godly people in the church even though nobody's perfect we all make mistakes but it's better for us to be around godly people than it is for us to be around ungodly broken people. I've lost too many people in my life and I just lost my girlfriend to drug overdose and she was very serious about Jesus but she was also very broken during her recovery as a recovering addict of 10 months in recovery and she was holding in a lot that I didn't know. Ladies and gentlemen there's a lot that we hold in that hardly anybody knows about and that's the very thing that will kill us if we keep holding it in and not give it to Jesus. Jesus said for us to cast our cares upon Him because he is near to the brokenhearted and crushed in spirit. I am praying for everyone who reads this. I pray that there's at least one person that comes to Jesus after reading this and is hungry for him and tired of everything they've been trying to fix in their life. Because I'm tired too
Amen, please Jesús guide me the right way.
I feel like I suffer with social anxiety just cause I can't stand being the centre of attention, I can't stand big crowds and i find it hard to talk and express myself to someone and look at them in the eye. Then comes the problem of not wanting to eat or secretly trying to throw il but it never seems to work, I cry for hours and feel useless when I don't manage to throw up. Because I know I can never be enough.
I then feel depressed because their comes days were I fantasise about what it would be like if in not here, I feel a void in my stomach and barley talk.
Noatter how hard I try I can never be enough for someone to stick around and its only a matter of time when my friemdd ditch me because I can never be the perfect person they want nor need...
Idk if anyone is gonna read this you’re worth it maybe u may feel like ur not but I love you god loves you just know that it’s gonna be okay whatever ur feeling rn, you can do this I believe in you:))
sometimes its like you feel nothing and everything at the same time and its exhausting
"I could disappear forever, and it wouldn't make a difference" that hit me..... cause thats how I feel everyday.....
This is.. disturbingly relatable..
I don’t have any words....
The feeling of none worthyness is very strong. Numb, but can feel everything crashing down. Scared to speak, but I say my thoughts out loud. Scared to walk so I find a different way to travle. On my toes, fearing the ground will creek. Not knowing, not understanding, and not caring. Tired, but can never seem to fall asleep. Lookin into a mirror becomes scary. Not knowing witch path is the right one, I turn back. Hiding behind closed doors, that will never be opened, bc I hid the key from my demons.
I agree you wanna feel something again but not pain!!!
This is the brother using the same account I agree
Sometimes it gets so bad I wanna laugh
Last voice hit home
i can’t cry anymore. I don’t feel pain and i am not in hardest situation but i just don’t feel anything. I search things to do to feel things but it’s just empty inside. Even the happiest moment turns into nothing. i am bored of how i live. Its empty...
I already done my crying just feel no pain in my heart it's numb it's like my heart was beating full of happiness joy love until the person you loved broken me completely & boom your heart stops and broken into millions of pieces and will never b the same person I was
1:15- 1:40 The Breakfast Club
2:50-3:10 Requiem for a dream
sometimes im scared to tell people anything..i just..feel like they wont understand it like i do they wont care or accept it they just..........dont see it like i do
I'd rather feel the pain of a heart attack than to feel the pain of depression. I feel that right now.
Thinking that reading how other people go trough the same helps... Is wrong... They may understand you yes... But it's even worse it hurts even more knowing that people have the same pain as you... Knowing you cant help them... Knowing you cant even help yourself
To quote nf
,, you look so understood and I wish I could help but it's hard when I hate myself,,
I sadly think of too much people when I hear this
They all feel so small in a big world and don't be happy with the selves but they dont see the got 20things to be happy for/_looks doesn't matter but your heart to smile every time when u wake up u find the joy inside of u and if someone really loves u they love u form your heart and not your looks...😸
people know me as a really happy positive funny athletic always has smile on face girl..but it hurts a lot inside the other place Im not happy is my room outside of my room I’m happy bc nobody cares bout how I feel.
Is it strange that now i'm getting better and don't have these dark thoughts occur as often I feel strange? Now I search up depressing things and wish for myself to cry like I used to, but I don't. I got so used to having this dark bubble surround me for 3 years, now that it's gone I feel strange, I feel like i need it back. Now that the feeling of pain isn't always around, what do I feel? This darkness used to tell me that I needed it, that it was my only friend, I came to believe that and that's why I stuck to it for so long. But now that it's gone, who's my friend now? Who am I? I feel as if it defined me. It was like a label that followed me around wherever I go, "the depressed girl". Now what am I? " the happy girl?" No, "The strange girl?" Maybe? I don't know anymore. It's all strange and it was even hard for me to describe this, i'm not sure if anything iv'e just written made any sense. This whole situation/feeling doesn't make sense. I longed to have this darkness disappear but now that it's gone I feel like I need it back? Was it right for the darkness to say I needed it to survive? Because when I was trying to feel better I would tell myself that I don't need it to survive, or do anything. But did I?
American horror story do hit hard..
Season 1 and 3 I think
I cry when they are not around
I smile and say I'm fine
I hated myself for the way i look
I hated they way i feel
I hated everything around me
The only thing keeping me alive is not myself but someone who truly loves me
But love cannot heal me
It never did and it never will
To the person who feels bad, unloved, ugly and so much more ...
Idk u, I'm a stranger among so many others ! But, if u were searching for something and that u're reading this.
Just know that, it's okay to feel bad, but you're amazing. You're so fucking amzing ... Beautiful and much more. So please, if u're crying, just remember how awesome u are.
I may not know you.
But I want u to know that you're not alone, and even if this world can be cruel, u're here. You're a fighter, and just for that u deserve to be happy.
If u need to talk, let's talk.
Hope you'll have an amazing day/night, my dear stranger 💖
I cry, but and I know it hurts but I don’t care. Crying doesn’t mean your sad, it means your in pain and you don’t know how to express your feelings to people. So you keep it inside, and you act like your fine until you don’t care anymore and you don’t feel anything anymore, and your body freaks out so. then. You cry. And you can’t understand why, because nothing bothers you anymore.
this is the moment when no-one can beat the depression.
I forgot what its like to feel things ...
This hit hard because I'm just so broken...
I don't feel...human
I hope you're okay now
@@notusedanymore2181 Not really. I'm getting there though.
Last year, somebody asked me, "How are you so happy?"
That's when I knew I could be a actor.
It’s like I’m living in a blur . Days pass by so fast . I know something is wrong with me but I don’t know what. I want to be truly happy like...everyone but how do I fix myself when I don t even know what to fix . So I cry and it makes me want to scream and I cry so much that my head feels like it’s going to explode . And I want to help people but how can I help others when I’m the one that needs help.
I feel everything yet I don’t
Because those feelings will never make up for the one missing empty thing inside that I never knew left me
I have no tears
my father is an abusive narcissist. "Sometimes we deliberately step into those traps" reminds me of the mind games he plays on me, every sing fvcking day. he makes me feel worthless, and it's like he doesn't think we have feelings. "I could disappear forever and it wouldn't make a difference." is what i feel towards my life. i don't give up, though. i know i have a life to live. and you all go too. i am 12 years old, named saige. i am called names like "b!+ch" "f@gg0t" "dvmb@$$" and more. i've been called a slvt because i try to test out new styles because i don't know myself yet. "Nobody knows me" is said in this video at the end... and that's how i feel.
What can worst what i no is loses best friend you can be pretty no matter you are ugly or pretty just keep going no matter what💕💕
A Girl i love who i cannot be with as our lives are too complicated and fucked up at the moment just sent me this . I cannot stop loving her all i wish for is to make her world beautiful again . With or without her i wont stop
thanks for this video from all my heart
I'm constantly forcing my self to feel I'm forcing everything tears pain happiness laughter anger.....every damn thing
I cry but without tears
I'm here for you
“ I’m Just Tired “
Don’t we all say that
Omg..... American horror story 😍😭
i used to listen and watch each and every spoken words and speech u update and post on TH-cam. that helps me alot to press forwad in this hard life. BUT I REQUEST YOU TO PUT/write "THE LYRICS ON THE DESCRIPTION " Whenver you post on TH-cam it will help me and aome other Viewers more understanding as engliah is not the first language for many viewes of your video and spoken word+great specch you made on youtube. i hope you read my comment... if you care for people like us
*starts sobbing*
*Hears the American Horror Story Audio*
*Does peace sign while crying*
My depression used to cripple me now I feel absolutely nothing. I feel numb inside
I know what happines fells like but i cant be happy.
i'm here to cry but fck there's nothing coming out, every day it's just emptiness
The video : is sad I think*
Me the whole video : confused noises* WTF did I just clicked on!?
1:28 my parents compare me to my friends saying there better.
Mine too
I was so empty for so long. Then I met someone I was so scared of losing, so I felt that for months. I felt love and fear. Then I lost them, and it was so fucked up. Like, I knew it would happen, and I nearly killed myself trying to stop it, but in the end I was completely helpless. Again. I was completely helpless again. I lost someone else and I couldn't do shit. And it was my fault. And I just cried for weeks. Fuck, I'm crying right now. There are little moments, when it breaks and I'm numb enough to do what I gotta do. But I just want it to end before I let it happen again.
You ever notice how everyone says the same damn thing- you'll never lose me. I'll never be mad at you. I'd never hurt you. I won't lie to you. I'm different.
But you all say the same fucking thing and the only thing that keeps me trusting you is the look on your face if I say I don't. Because I can't be the reason you're in pain. I said I would do anything to protect you. So I'll rebuild my heart so I can break it for you again. But I need to give up. I have to give up. Please someone just kill me already because I don't have the balls to do it myself. I promise you that I deserve it. I'm not human, so don't respect me like one.
I can't feel a thing anymore
I wanna cry oh wait i am.
I'm sorry you went through that my heart hurts for you i love you
1:20 *This Is What I Wonder ALL THE TIME...*
sometimes i just want everything to stop
I cry but I don't know why I'm not living I'm just trying to make it through another day without killing myself I'm always numb
Idk why.. but this made me think about how it would be if I was standing on something high.. and jumped off..
Prettey girl is only whose mind is pretty and clean for others n whose heart is pure... Who never decieved anyone n paak
I haven't slepted for 5 days and I feel fine and I have only eaten toast for 5 days and am not hungry 🥺
i either feel nothing at all or completely everything but now I kinda just feel nothing
"I hate pretending." Me too..
You don't need to be pretending! Be yourself ❤️
@@Izabella.N that's hard
@@kaizley2748 I know it is Hard, but you don't need to pretend you are someone else, Try to be yourself
@@Izabella.N thanks.. (:
Please try to be yourself
sometimes I feel.... fake happy? I guess that is what you could call it. I convince myself that I am happy, but then I realize that I have to fake smile, and now its just normal for me.
this is me almost every day of my life
Same
I feel the same
That's me every day
Same..
Even when I’m happy I just walk into a room by myself and burst into tears
you are not alone, it is not happiness, it is emty sadness
Alexis Brianna me too you are not alone
Alexis Brianna same
Alexis Brianna I feel exactly the same
I feel like same too
"Y O U D O N ' T E V E N K N O W M E"
"N O B O D Y E V E N K N O W S M E"
Your pic make u look drunk xD
i totally forgot i commented on this
@@urmom-kb8jf xD please don't hate but you just look drunk
please watch my videos and subscribe to me well in not lol
@@urmom-kb8jf ok lol no hate
I cant feel anything some days but other days I feel everything at oncr
erianna that’s probably the most relatable thing I’ve ever read
Story of my life summed up in one sentence
Same but mostly I don’t feel anything...it’s so fuckin annoying
@@mirandanubbynubnub1497 waking up numb and wanting to feel. Bored out of your mind, and then you go to bed.... Just to wake up and feel the exact same. Differwnt events but the same feel.
So true
everyone I know thinks they know me
But I am the greatest actor ever and no one knows it
I can relate 100%
I knew that
Yeah I think ik someone that’s exactly like that.
Same
I can’t relate *insert sarcasm*
1: Hey
2: Yeah..?
1: Do you cry most of the time?
2: No.
1: Do you feel okay?
2: Always.
1: Ever have any suicidal thoughts?
2: No, not one.
1: Do you have any friends?
2: So many i cant even count them.
1: Do you have any scars of cutting yourself?
2: What? No, of course not.
1: Did you feel any love this year?
2: Yeah, a lot.
1: Did you lost people?
2: No, they never left.
1: Did your depressed feelings ever went away?
2: Yeah, they did.
1: Did people ever threatened you
2: ...
Everybody that reads this...this is my story but upside down. It's an original one, i wrote this. I hope you like it.
I read it From the bottom to the top
No Name oh .. woah
So how long did it take you to make this?
Same with me
I didn't realize I relate to a lot of ppl 😒😔
"I cant feel anything"
Well i feel everything.
Nazly Ghoneim I used to feel the same but now I can't feel anything
I feel everything then feel absolutely nothing...
Feeling everything is the road to feeling nothing..
Nazly Ghoneim I wish
It's been 6 months since your comment, I hope your okay
I used to be a bright and happy child when I was young... and 11 years later here I am starving myself, trying to fit in, acting like I care, crying myself to sleep, cutting myself and loving dark colors.....
Chalyssa Forever same here I’m only 11
Chalyssa Forever same thing when i was your age but you will get over it just stop trying to fit in, eat, smile, dont hurt yourself, and think every single Day you will get over it
I’m only 11 and. Pretend I’m happy but when I’m alone and cry and wonder why I’m still here
xAly_XoXox Forever my mom thinks she can just pull me out of this " Phase " But it's no a phase its depression and she won't take me to her help so it's just get worse
xAly_XoXox Forever
That moment when you realize most of this stuff is from American Horror Story
Jenna Pullum YESSSS
🙁
Omg yesss
Jenna Pullum omg my fav show
Sameeeeee
"We all have our little private traps."
Some of us are lucky to get out...
Some of us die in the process...
But being stuck in a trap slowly kills you...
I smile with no reason
I cry with no tears
Im scared with no emotions
Im jealous for someone who wouldn’t do anything for me
There is no point so i just give up and let everyday just be another day. Waking up is a nightmare that came true. There is no point of anything. No matter how hard i try, i just end up hurting myself more everyday. Its like a continuous cycle that will never end unless i find something worth living for then maybe i will be happy. Knowing it will not last long.
I wish I could sleep forever
Never wake up sounds so good
Me too
I feel the same way 😥😥
I feel the same...💔