I Need to Be Honest With You
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 17 ก.ย. 2024
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Recently I have been feeling very lost in life. There is so much going on and I have felt for such a long time that I need to keep it all tucked away - but it's getting in the way of creating. So I need to be honest with you.
This video is just something I need to make for myself so I can feel comfortable and start again. I hope you are well and thank you for sticking around!
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Being on the internet fucking sucks sometimes. People are assholes over literally EVERYTHING, and they have no idea how much turmoil it creates within the creator and what they create. It’s so hard to go back and forth deciding what is worth sharing with the world and what isn’t.
You’re the best Annie, and Im lucky as hell to know you. Im so so excited to see everything else you create and share.
Hey Olivia! Wow you are reading my mind :) I was just thinking about how similar experience you had I think last year you felt stuck with your channel and work and wanted to change and experiment with new formats to your channel creativity! You and Annie are my favorite Witch Duo! I love it when you both collab together! You and Annie's friendship is so powerful and strong! It is really inspirational! Sending you and Annie both positivity and blessings!
I agree, you both and the witches cookery helpt me so much. Being out there in front, you take the most hits. I hope you have enough people that are really always respect you beautiful creators. Thank you. ♥️ Woeze wood witch Belgium
100% that.
Olivia, you're right. People are mostly presenting the worst of themselves these days and I'm truly sorry for this. Especially for creators, artists, and all of us who exist in the fringes...like witches. I am a follower and send you only my BEST. It's a matter of personal integrity and courage that has been learned because in my younger years I was presented with the same kind of challenges that you face each day, but in a different way as it was a different time. But what I now know is that without those challenges, abandonments, attacks, etc. I would not have been forced to dive deep into myself and become rock solid in my own strength and who I chose and choose to be. As Wayne Dyer once said...Become independent of the opinion of others...both the praise and the insults, the good and the bad. A life lesson that few endeavor to truly take on...but it is worth the work and will pay off in droves later. From my heart, I am sending you much kindness, a no-judgment zone and wishing you an energetic respite from the pressure you feel and the negativity you endure.
SHITGURL! My Daughter who lives there in CastleRock Ws now..A southern gurl Gone Mountain so.to.speak AND I Love Your work. We r fans Amd Yeah People.Can be mean and They Suck Know that u r loved
I actually loved when you cut your hair and opened up about some of your personal life (I could tell you seemed much happier and more you.) So sorry some people can't deal with their idols not fitting into thier headcannon, but seeing you grow as a person and witch has been really awesome for me, and I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels that way.
Yes!! Fully agree
Seconded.
Yes! Really short hair looks so cute on her!
Amen, to this!!
This ^
Short hair, long hair, dresses, jeans, evolve however you need to evolve! Snoring dogs, health battles, style changes, housing struggles, changing relationships with yourself and others... it's all part of life and its lovely that you share your journey with us. YOU ARE AWESOME Annabel Margaret!
🌲🍀🐾💚Yep, she sure is!💚🐾🍀🌲.
So very well stated! And that's only the stuff she's shared. Annie's waters truly run deep. I also feel the need to commend the majority of her community as being pretty awesome, such as yourself. I've often held my tongue out of respect in the comment section as no creator likes their forum to become a battlefield. Honestly though I may have swung too far in the other direction. I find myself wishing I'd said more. Perhaps going forward, I will -- tactfully, of course. And personally I LOVE the sound of a snoring dog. When my beagle snores it has a calming effect on me greater than any drug. Especially when he wakes himself up -- Oxytocin for days.
Your channel is about YOU -- not a perceived notion of you. Don't ever feel nervous or hesitant to be true to yourself!
I love both of your channels. Please just be you. Am 62, a widow, learning to be on my own after 38 years of marriage. I did not know how to be just me, to hide that I was a witch. I love watching you figure out who you are and I figure if you can do it I sure the hell can to. Where you live, what you wear and who you love is none of my business. Please take care of yourself and do what you need to heal yourself. Much love.
Hello how are you doing?
I hope you are well @belinda8174, and thank you for voicing being a widow. I am also a widow, my sweet one passed at the end of last August, and I have rather avoided many of the channels I loved "before" as I try to figure this new "me" out. All of us need gentleness (sometimes, just to be gentle to ourselves!) and Annie has a nice way of reminding us of that.
For every person who judged you for changing your image, there are several more people who are quietly admiring you and gaining courage from seeing you set an example of trying to be more yourself.
Firstly, I can't believe you got backlash over something like cutting your hair or wearing jeans??? what the hell is with that. You do you, the internet doesn't own you simply because you're on it.
Along with other chronic illnesses, I also have Gastropareses and I know how exhausting and painful it can be and I'm constantly in awe of how much you achieve; your drive to constantly do is inspiring. It an illness that can totally take an unpredictable toll on your everyday life. You are amazing, strong and beautiful - always look after you first. If that means taking a break, take a break. If that means being more open, be more open. There will always be people who have an idealise vison of who you are, but there are also those who are adaptable, flexible and respect growth. And we love you.
Watching your videos allowed me to reopen myself up to a path I left behind years ago because of pressure from certain peoples. It was like part of me was missing and then I found your channels and I was like, why did I cut part of myself away? I can follow the path, be open and out So I had some difficult conversations and started practicing again. Slowly and not rushing. Always follow your own path and thank you for being who you are and I thank you so much for your gift of sharing and taking us on your journey.
I'm feeling exactly the same. Extremely burn out and I'm just starting to get sick because I've reached my limit, I'm currently in bed with a migraine and painful stomachache due to gastritis. I hope that you feel better eventually and take time to rest, don't feel pressure about filming if you don't feel like it, your health is more important.
I'm so sorry that you are also in this boat - I hope you are able to heal and feel better soon, but I know that it is much easier said than done! I hope you are able to take the time for yourself that you need and thank you for your kind words
@@AnnabelMargaretGreen 🌲🍀🐾💚THERE! . . . That's what I'm talking about! You're always looking after other's well being, even when you're own health isn't the best! That's why I call You Dr. ANNABEL MARGARET, Green Witch Forest & PEOPLE Protector & Goddess! The "Real Deal". ONLY Someone with that kind of "KINDNESS"(even after the way you've been treated), can fill that title. You are living "PROOF" that MAGICK comes from "WITHIN"! 😉💘💚🐾🍀🌲.
@@AnnabelMargaretGreen maybe you'd feel better if you went completely off the grid I know things can get tiresome and you come from a nature based religion so maybe nature is calling you to move to a more nature grounded foundation Gaia is always crying out for her children to come back home to and she's always showing us how much better we feel when we are connected to her she is the earth she's not mad at us and she loves and misses us we are her children
ANNA BELL
@@kingadam9675 🌲🍀🐾🌎🐻🦌 sounds 'bout right 🦉😎🌎🐾🍀🌲.
As a recently out queer person and as a beginning practitioner of witchcraft, finding this channel has been one of the best guides, and that comes down to you being your unapologetic self! You are worthy of all your achievements past, present, and yet to come, even when you are resting!
Lately you have seemed tense and apprehensive. When you relax and just flow… you are simply enchanting. Just your shots of nature and the pups are enough to change the energy of my day. You often bring peace to my troubled spirit when I need it most. Your journey is so personal. Please don’t feel pressured to create anything that brings stress to your beautiful spirit. Don’t feel you need to share more for the sake of content. You are enough. You are amazing. Thank you. Sending you loving, healing, positive energies. 💗
I feel same way about Annie and her content☮️❤️❤️
Burn out is real. I heard from so many who are burned out right now. As a content creator you encourage people to be OK when they are burned out. So thank you for your transparency xxx you are amazing!
I prefer watching people who discuss the messiness and uncertainty of life than those who try to pretend they are perfect. I can’t relate to perfect. I hope you feel comfortable sharing whatever you want.
I’ve watched you for years and I am very proud of you and the woman you’ve become. You’ve taught me so much. And I am just so happy seeing you grow. I know how much feeling extremely burnt out is just awful. We love you, we accept you. You are amazing Annie🥰
"I'm just going to be unapologetically myself." Yes, Annie, so happy to hear this! 👏I don't know what it's like to be a content creator and to have every choice judged by your audience, but it always depresses me to hear the way creators receive backlash for the decisions they make for themselves. I, personally, have loved watching you grow into yourself -- and your hair looks amazing! I think people put creators on a pedestal as something that maybe they're missing from their life, or wish they could be, and so anything that falls out of that ideal vision is perceived as negative -- and that is SO unhealthy. You are a person, and I think *most* of your audience appreciates you for who you are. I'm so sorry about your burnout and wish I could offer any insight, but I've been dragging myself along the floor for what feels like years as well, so the best I can do is commiserate. 😅
Burnout hit me like a ton of bricks, sleep and yoga got me through. Sleep was a minimum of 9 hours in a bid to get my energy back, and yoga was very gentle yoga as soon as I woke up in the morning for just 15 minutes to help feel more in my body again but also to feel like I was doing something for myself. Both those things became my ritual and really helped me. Wishing you lots of peace and healing as you navigate your way through. You’re videos and content are amazing, but only because of you. You are the most important thing here and so many of us will support you for exactly who you are.
You have my full support, Annie.
I was attacked a few years ago, temporarily died, and have had invisible disability (as a result of Traumatic Brain Injury) ever since.
I've always suffered with chronic anxiety and depression before brain injury.
You are courageous. I know this, as I'm one of your kind. You have done the right thing - being honest about your struggles with mental health etc. It is a deepening of the way (the right way) deepening one's commitment to being honest as regards all of our struggles (particularly when we feel intrinsically that this is needed.)
Keep being amazing. Please take as long a pause as you needs if needs be.
We won't go anywhere. 👏💪
Here's me - giving your video an extra like and an extra comment from my other channel (as I am *both* a 'Dead Man Vlogging' *and* the V.O actor / audiobook narrator who goes by 'Audio Bard'.
Please don't let the burn out go too far. Please have a pause, a rest (which is not stopping.)
Maybe go back to the drawing board, if you need to. If anyone can conjure the necessary new balance? It's you.
All the best
Audio Bard / Dead Man Vlogging.
me too!
I burnt out hard 3 years ago. I had a full time job, two houses, and so many other things that complicated life. I quit my job, moved to the country home, and have been working on healing. I started a Reiki practice in a place where I need to constantly explain to deaf ears, and it's been a challenge in its own right. I am just ultimately so much happier with my life at the pace I'm going now. Most don't understand these shifts...most never will. But living authentically is the only path I can even see anymore. I wish it hadn't taken 39 years to get here, but it's better late than never!
Just keep on trucking at your own pace, on your own winding path. You are doing wonderful things and bringing so much light and beauty in your work. Thank You for being authentically YOU, Annabelle!
Fighting to be yourself is a relatable feat for a lot of us. It's exhausting, but keep it up. I'm going to go harvest lilacs today now because you inspired me and I hope you keep going and that you stay on TH-cam once in a while and just be yourself here and everywhere
Annie, take it from a 49 year old straight mum. It doesn’t matter what your sexuality is, I think people just like to judge EVERYTHING! You do you and just please you and your girlfriend and gorgeous pups. I love your energy and who you are, all of you! Please remember most of us appreciate you for you. Much love from Australia 😘🇦🇺🌈
My guess would be that since aesthetics is such a big part of the online witchcraft community, there's a greater risk of the viewers focus to move away from the actual content and instead land on the physical expression of the creator. This is of course not unique to the witchcraft community, but in my personal experience it is a greater issue here than for example in the gaming community.
Being a creator of witchy content comes with certain aesthetic expectations and sadly sometimes the viewer feel an ownership of the content they've invested time in, including the looks of the creator.
In my view, this is something we need to adress and talk about, so I very grateful that you are doing this while being open and direct about it in your communication. Thank you!
You are by far my favorite creator on all of the internet. I resonate with all the things that your said. You are amazing and a true gift for us here. Do whatever it is that makes you heart happy and soul fulfilled, we will be here showing our support and cheering you on
How very serendipitous! I just learned yesterday how to use glycerine and alcohol to make a fragrant and medicinal lilac tincture.
Love and healing from my garden to yours 💜
What perfect timing!
I just watched this. I am a 50-year old crone who has been practicing for half of my life. I found your work last year, and it is something I like to have on when I drink my tea in the morning.
One of the best aspects of being a witch is tapping into who you TRULY are, unapologetically. No one - even me - has an opinion that should ever be more important than the ones you have for yourself. Being authentic is the best gift anyone could ever give themselves, it is freeing and necessary for the work we are called to do.
I applaud your honestly, vulnerability, and the beauty that you bring to an area that is often filled with egos and misinformation.
I love your voice, its so calming. I could listen to you all day ! I wish you happiness and please just be yourself and forget about the haters. If they critisize you, its because they are not happy with themselves and this does not belong to you :)
Glad you feel you can open up, the majority of us are here for you 💜💜💜💜💜💜
I am in the process of recovering from burnout right now. The side effects from it were severe stomach and bowel issues, headaches, exhaustion and weight gain. I finally got to the point where I looked at everything going on in my life and asked myself "why so much?" Anything that I could not explain as a necessary part of my life got dropped out of it. I lost over half the balls I had in the air. I'm calmer now. More clear minded. I'm taking more time for myself. Although I'm a single parent, they are now a teen (almost 16) and pointed out that I don't need to stress quite so much over their care. :) I bought myself four new plants for inside my home and planted so many outside. My soul sighed in relief at that. I had been so busy trying to find a full time job instead of three part time jobs, getting my car fixed, paying my rent and basic bills and trying to educate my autistic teen, that I had nothing left for me. As the parent of a queer child, I'mtelling you from the heart, You Be You. No one has the right to judge you. Be yourself and love yourself. I tell my baby that every day. They are perfect the way they are and so are you. I adore your videos. I've been watching you for a couple of years so I've seen the changes in your journey. You are simply becoming you. Life is about change. Sometimes big. Sometimes small. Keep making the beautiful content that you do because you are the "down time" or "personal care" to some of us. I watch your video and feel your very calming presence and it makes me calm and happy. Continue to be the fantastic human being that you are.
I love that you cut your hair and felt comfortable enough with us to unveil bits of your private life… and I’ve always been fine with you in jeans! It’s a shame that others don’t see you fit their expectations… you just need to be honest with yourself and ignore the Internet trolls…your adoring crowd of friends and followers will be right beside you every step! Take whatever time you need… I and others will continue to support you on Patreon! I’m a better witch, Annie, for following you and learning from your awesome content! Thanks!
Thank you for sharing your struggle, Annie. In my experience, the cure to burnout is rest. It’s difficult for me because there’s so much I want to do and be apart of, but my energy is a finite resource and I must invest it wisely. Sometimes I just have to choose what matters most and what I let go of for a while.
Thank you for being yourself and for introducing me to herbal magic. I found your Green Witch channel early in my witchcraft journey and it’s shown me a side of myself I longed for but didn’t know. Kitchen witchery and working a garden made me feel connected to my mom (she died when I was eleven) and revived old traditions that I’d forgotten.
Stay true to you, Annie! Blessed be!
I've followed your other channel for a couple of years, but just learned of this one. I'm 60 years old, and a practicing Witch for 47 years. I am so delighted to see young people, especially women, being "unapologetically" themselves. It is exactly what needs to happen in order to boost human kind into the next dimension. If anyone had told me that the spiritual practice of Witchcraft would be so widely accepted, and the fastest growing spiritual practice in the world, I could not have believed it! You, and brave souls like you, are rising to the task of mentoring folks who aren't quite "there" yet. May you be blessed with all of the courage, resourcefulness and prosperity to carry on this mission 💜
I love you. Haters aren’t likely to pay for Patreon so I’m sure that helps over there. Be honest! Block the haters! Keep on pushin boo!
I think a lot of people are living vicariously through you, but that doesn't mean you have a responsibility to live up to their expectations. You need to be you and this is one of the toughest lessons in life. As for still figuring things out? I'm 53 and still figuring stuff out. My Mom is 84 and still figuring things out. Figuring things out IS life! It might not be fun, but it's important. I watch your videos just because I want to see you. Following your move, following your opening up your sexuality, following your new styles, etc., these are all things I enjoy hearing from you. And if it helps, you coming out actually encouraged me to figure out myself. Right now all I know is I'm ace, I haven't figured out the rest, I just lived my life doing what I thought I should and I don't wish that upon you, my kids, or anyone. Thank you for being you.
We love you, Annie ❤️ You have helped me more than you know. I appreciate the work you’re doing and for leading out front.
I love and respect when you share your whole, queer, imperfect self- and I love and respect when you decide what you need to keep or not keep to yourself. Who you are will not be for some people- and those people should probably like...just go somewhere else instead of sticking around and demanding you not wear jeans. Thank you for sharing you with us! It's an honour.
👏🏼 👏🏼 exactly this
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You nailed it, Mango. It *is* an honor. Especially when considering the haters are the very same people we tend to be surrounded with in our own daily lives. It's not that they're necessarily bad people, just lazy about the way they think of others. Or possibly even too emotionally exhausted themselves to notice. Whatever, it's time for them to step up their own game.
I wonder how many of those jeans and haircut haters are out there reading what assholes they've been...right now? I wonder if they realize Yes, we are talking about them -- or if they're just so clueless that they just make a mental note to not mention those specific things again and find another way to whinge and criticize?
Hey out there, if it sounds like I'm in your head, I've got two more examples for ya: FOREST and TREES.
But deep down I think we all love what Annie creates for us, even those of us who grumble at times. Or they wouldn't be here at all. They should just shut up and keep their heads down until the storm of stupidity passes.
My uncles are both gone but they were in a long term relationsip with each other, although they never spoke about this. They came of age in the 1950's and I can't imagine the shame they must have felt. I loved them so much. They were silly and loved both my brother and me. Mom explained to me at a young age that they were my uncles and they loved and cared for each other. Maybe so 70's but she said that love is love and that's what matterred. I just accepted this it was always just normal. Love is just that, love.
I don't think I've ever commented before, but I love this journey you've been on. I love seeing you unfold and become more yourself - it's so empowering and lightening. I experience a similar pattern. When I feel like this, I try to remember that things don't have to always be separate. It's so freeing to let things flow easily, like reading because you love it, because it heals you, because it helps you grow AND because you're learning, or making work that helps several projects at once. For me, that's how life feels it should be, and when I grow the most 💜✨
Annie, I can relate to pretty much everything you´ve said here. I get stuck and struggle and close off then stop creating and feel blocked up, because I am. Thank you for showing me and being a beautiful example of the strength of vulnerability and how it can flow along with everything else that we want to embrace. Thank you so much
I’ve recently restarted my practice after a very difficult 2 years. Your videos have helped lift my energy and rediscover my love of the craft. I’ve been the queer witch, moving constantly in a rural area. You are not alone, and you deserve the patience and love that I’m positive you’d give to others during their burnout. Take care of yourself. We’ll be here waiting
Your Video is such a great motivation for my shy, introvert, queer witch self, because I hold myself back from creating too. Count me in as a person on your channel to hold your back, love all the changes and personal growth, cheer when you are open and be yourself and looove this haircut so much! Thank you for beeing here!
And burnout I experienced three times my life, and tips are difficult because it is so individual. But my tip is: take yourself a lot of time in nature. Don’t push yourself if possible. Don’t force creativity, she is shy, she will definitely come back. Sleep enought and take care of yourself. Burnout is a form of depression, which is exactly a state of exhaustion. For myself I like to see depressions not as an illness but more as a symptom, a warning signal from your body and mind, that something is not right. It helps me to not fight against it, like you wouldn’t fight on your broken leg, but you would take care of it.
Get well soon and take care of you.
I am relieved that you are sharing your struggles because life is challenging and when I watch some video channels that are exclusively dedicated to nature, plants, farming/home skills/crafts it leaves me wondering if these folks have any sense of compassion or even recognize the same struggles in life that many of us are dealing with. We all are dealing with processing horrific events around the world along with our own personal struggles. I feel that when folks share the fact they are stressed then I pay more attention to the teaching and sharing that are in these videos because they arise from people who are indeed emotional, compassionate, and in touch with issues that I am also dealing with at age 70. Thank you for your videos. You help to validate my own feelings and I hope we can do the same for you.
I enjoy your talky videos! I'm excited to see how that manifests in the future!
Just remember, unless a person is a part of your daily life, what we think about your life changes (good or bad) isn't that important at the end of the day. I've been watching both of your channels for more than 2 years now and seeing you push through the tough times and grow and learn from them is super inspiring. It's also nice to be able to celebrate the good things that you share with us.
You got this, and we got your back. ❤
Hello dear how are you doing?
I'm so glad this was the topic of the video. I have also been on the verge of a burnout. I have been living at my job since February and have basically been 'ON' 24/7. My personal life and process of finding my new home have been slowed by everyone constantly expecting from me. I should be moving into my new place on Saturday and I'm taking almost 2 weeks off of work for that process. I hope we all start to come out of our burnouts soon and feeling g better and more positive as soon as we are able. Love for everyone going through the rough stuff.
Hello 👋 beautiful how are you doing?
Thank you for being you and for being brave enough to share yourself with the world. Your beautiful kind soul just radiates through, I always feel very connected and peaceful when watching your videos so thank you for all of your effort and time in creating them. You are perfectly you, ever-changing and growing, as we all should be and if there are some people out there that have a problem with that then they should really be looking inwards to see what they have to work through. Looking forward to seeing more of your creations and sharings. Sending lots of love to you from Tasmania, Australia.
Hello how are you doing?
My burnout comes in huge waves. I get physically Ill and so fatigued. What helps me is a shift in my focus I force myself to spend some time working on a craft or project that I’ve drifted from, I spend time outdoors, I shift my diet and exclude sugars and carbs, and I give myself a day of grace. One day to just lounge, cuddle my pets, and just basically do a lot of nothing. I hope you find a way to be more at ease here. People can be so cruel. I for one am here for every bit of your journey.
100% here for all the realness, all the queerness, and all that you feel inspired to share with us. ❤️
You could turn into a toad and I would still watch. Your videos bring me so much joy and peace. You are not obligated to put on a show for anyone. Thank you for being so open and honest. 💕
No worries! You do you! The world will adjust or fall away, just as in nature. Those of us who jive with your vibe will remain because that’s where we’re at. Good on you for putting more of yourself out there. Our planet needs more authentic folks on it who put themselves out there, just being who they are. Thanks for sharing! 🎉
You are beautiful inside and out, Anna! I recently conquered mental illness that has been tormenting me for over a decade now, and a main part of that was relearning how to love myself, to become me again. And when I started to heal I was amazed at how many people it irritated. It kinda surprised me because I was like "I'm feeling better, I'm no longer depressed and anxious. Why are you not happy for me?" I believe now it was probably jealousy on their part. They want to be happy as well, but seeing my improvement when they themselves weren't willing to make the changes irritated them and they responded in a negative way. Anyhow, you keep being you! I love your videos, you are a joy to watch.
Bless you sweet Annabel 🌹. You may not know but you being authentically you; as hard as it is, really helps others, more than you know. Do not fear your power in that and thank you for sharing your fierce gracefulness ❤️🦋🌸🌷
You create such beautiful content on your channels and on Patreon. Top that off with your monthly workshops (which I love by the way), writing a book, multiple moves and life in general, it's no wonder you're feeling exhausted! Since you asked for tips, I'd like to offer a couple:
1. People judging you or worrying about people judging you - When you feel that jolt of upset, or that tinge of anxiety that blocks you, ask yourself, observe the feeling and then ask yourself: "Is this mine?" If it is not, you will feel lighter. Then say "Return to sender." and imagine it blowing away from you. Then ask to replace it with love. If the feeling is coming from you then you can clear it - either mentally or using your excellent clearing salve.
2. To raise your energy physically and clear your head: Go for a 15-20 minute brisk walk first thing in the morning - alone and in silence (no headphones and also without dogs). You need to be able to let the thoughts just race and flow without having to pay attention to anyone/anything else. You will return home feeling physically energised, distressed and clearheaded. And this feeling will last you the whole day. It's really a miracle. I've been doing this myself for years and years, and I recommend it to all of my coaching clients!
Hope this helps! ❤️
Hello 👋 how are you doing?
Dear Annabel Margaret,
What a beautiful and calming video! Embracing our selves and stepping into our own, is, I believe, a lifetime work.
Venturing into the internet is brave, most definitely. Hold your value and allow yourself the space you need.
It was truly relaxing to watch as you placed each tiny lilac blossom into the fat. What a work of art, and so it should be with your journey through and out of burn out.
May Grace provide you comfort with each step forward . Be gentle with your soul.
A beautiful book that I’m still working through:
Self Compassion written by Kristin Neff, may help.
Yes self compassion!!! I've been practicing for years and finally I live in self love space ❤️🌟❤️🌟❤️
Annie. Thank you for sharing your inner thoughts with us all. Your transparency speaks volumes. You are an inspiration to me and I often share your videos on my facebook group for other natural practioners. You have inspired me to work on myself even before this video. I am not happy in my career and struggle with chronic issues as well. I was intrigued by your videos to continue my education with herbalism and natural healing. If you ever do see this... Bless you, your practice, and your online productions, thank you for helping me to find new drive to continue with my passion. 🙏
In 2018 I moved from Idaho (Full of natural hot springs, rocks and minerals galore, endless beautiful crystal clear waters,etc..) to the East Coast. A lot happened within six months of me moving. I felt so lost, like I was back in grieving for some thing… Long story short,I ended up shaving my head completely. And with every little thing that grows from my head, I feel like I’ve been bringing in more and more blessings, like the more it grows the more I pulled out of my darkness. My spiritual practice has skyrocketed, I’ve dove deep into different types of spell work, all under the guidance of my ancestors/guides. That intuitive communication has skyrocketed… as difficult as the transition is, it’s so beautiful to watch you in this process. I know you don’t post everything that happens within you and around you, but one can definitely see changes on the screen. The more and more you grow, the more you have to share. And your ability to share is precious to a lot of people who just may be growing right along with you in their own special ways. Always do what you feel comfortable with, because that’s your intuition guiding you to where you’re meant to be. …The process in which Our manifestations reveal themselves is an awkward phase..but trust it. ❤️🔥🕯🔥🌱
You are a beautiful person - inside and out. Be true to who you are- we each have our own journey- i wish for you abundant joy with yours❤
I think sometimes we think we need permission for things that we really don’t. I am relatively new to your channels and I don’t know what it’s like to be a content creator, but for what it’s worth, I’d like to offer you this:
Being exactly who you are, will always attract the people who are meant to be with you. It will also filter out the people who don’t. (& We send them our blessings on their way out.)
Your energy is so good & you never need to perform or filter to have a tribe. ❤️ And side notes: girl- wear the damn jeans, you good 👍🏼 😉 and you & your hair are gorgeous regardless of length.
From a silent watcher.... We Love You!!!!
You have taught me so much about being true to myself and my craft. This video reminds me that showing appreciation is VERY IMOORTANT! So from all the silent watchers, who don't say much, WE APPRECIATE YOU!!!!!
I’ve been following you for a little over a year now (right around the time you cut your hair I believe) and have had the chance to see you grow and develop as a person. At the end of the day, you’re freaking awesome. I love your older videos, and your new ones are just as amazing. You’ve helped me a lot on my personal path and I just wanted you to know that a lot of people appreciate you and what you do. Keep on being the coolest witch on TH-cam!
One of the most valuable things o learned in grad school (for my Master's in Costume Design) was the Artist Date. This is a way to "fill your well" because burnout is your well of creativity running dry. To do an artist date ypu take yourself (and only yourself- no friends or partners or cameras) somewhere that is inspiring to you. It can be a museum, a beach for a picnic, a bookstore. And just spend time with other people's art or nature's art. Relax and allow yourself to become inspired again.
Annabel Margaret ~ I appreciate you! Any which way you are, I appreciate you. I myself am in the process of trying to heal and recover from both burnout and chronic complex PTSD. So much of what you say really speaks to my heart. I have felt in something of a stasis where I have been unable to engage in pleasurable activities, such as my own witchy practices and in many forms of artistic expression. So what you’ve said really speaks to me, and I’m so very glad I found your channel at this time. I know you made this video a while back but I really hope to see more of your videos and celebrate you from this side of the Internet as you journey on your path of being authentically yourself and discovering your own way. Your honesty is so beautiful and is appreciated.❤
It takes a lot of courage to admit that you have just "had it", for a lack of any other words! I cannot imagine how it feels to have people that you don't even know, comment about your hair, or what you wear! I know that when you decide to put yourself out there on TH-cam you open yourself up to all sorts of opinions. I am fascinated by your work and enjoy watching your channel. As you said, you have gone through a LOT in these past few years and just moving across the country and then moving again, several times is exhausting! I hope you will take the time to heal and relax and create just what you want this channel to be! You are so talented, and beautiful, and I love your genuiness! YES, embrace who you are! You are PRECIOUS and so very talented! Sending you lots of love and blessings my dear one!
I am so proud of you. Be totally, unapologetically you. You are so Beautiful, inside and out. Thank you so much for showing your vulnerability and imperfectness! It's been so hard in this world right now. We are all going through it right now. I've got some issues with mental health and the meds and being stuck and I miss so much of feeling inspired to go outside let alone create anything. Your videos give that much needed boost. I respect you way more for being real. Can't wait to see how you grow. And your hair is super cute! Cutting my hair is a great way to feel control in a world the wants to take it away. I hope I've made some since. Anyways, until then. Grow On Beautiful!🔥🌹🥰
Thank you for being so frank in this video. Very powerful. I'm proud to say I'm from Rhode island, acceptance is commanded here.
As someone who has been here since pretty early on, it's been an honor to watch you evolve not only as a person but as a witch. There should not be some exclusiveness in regards to the witchcraft community. You changing your hair is not something anyone else should have any opinion or hate on. You wearing what you feel like isn't you not being genuine to yourself. You coming out to us was an honor for us that you felt safe enough to be your genuine self and open with us. I don't know about the reason others watch and follow you, but for me it's not your aesthetic, it's you. Your knowledge is so valuable to me and others. I am not someone who comments a lot, I follow you on all your channels and am happily a patron. You are an amazing teacher, and I have learned so much about herbs and magic and I've been a practitioner for years. You have encouraged me to grow my garden, to expand my knowledge in more open ways and I am so thankful for that. I am also beyond excited about your book. I know it's hard to ignore them, but the haters are not worth the space they take up in your mind.
Annie, I have enjoyed and followed your videos for many years now. The first video of you and Olivia was when you were still the "Daughter of Old" and I remember her saying exactly what I felt too. "Daughter of Old" is who you are. The name changed and your look changed and that is a very necessary part of life. The two of you (Olivia) are very old souls. Your wisdom and understanding of life does not come from meeting certain events for the first time. You two are being re-acquainted with the deepness of life. Your video followers have watched you grow. Through growth there is necessary change...change in the physical...change in the emotional...most importantly change in the spiritual. Young lady you are a very rare and beautiful soul. The depth of life you see not just through your eyes but with your heart and then being able to express those feelings and emotions through the gorgeous structure of words you lovingly blend together in a tapestry that is un mistakeably YOU! You are so beautiful in every way possible whether you're in jeans, dresses, tee shirts with your hair short, long or in-between. If you weren't genuine, you wouldn't worry about the comments.
I'm experiencing extreme burn out, myself, to the point of I am getting physically sick (already have a couple autoimmune disorders/diseases so it only makes it worse). I feel where you are coming from. I have to say, the world likes to dictate who we all should be and who we are....I can only imagine it is even harder being on the internet and open to even more assholes. Excuse my language. I personally want to see a more relaxed you, and want to see you be comfortable to share more of what you want to share. I know it's easier said then done, but ignore the idiots. Because that is what they are, idiots who think they have a say in other people's lives and that just shouldn't be the case. Thank you for being honest and sharing.
Thanks for sharing. Please just be you. Watching you grow is that makes your channel special.
I was wondering about your deeper struggles. I found your channel recently, it’s been very relaxing to watch and hear from you. Your channel is a very beautiful art form, displaying your art and herbal work along with your dogs, adventures and stories. I have been through burn out, my mum helped a lot to bounce back from serious burn out and an overall unsureness about my direction, healthy - simple organic food. Rest and Sunshine, along with not just throwing myself at any project or adventure helped me immensely. Lots of Hugs
I get burnt out a lot because I have autism. I take that time of healing as my time to just be me for me. I make it a conscious effort to not be someone for someone else during this. I am a lot more gentle on my body as well. I love to read but I switch over to audiobooks. I continue to do my projects but I don't put time limits on them. Also give yourself grace. I heard you stumbling a little over your words at the end of the video. That's okay. That's a beauty we have in ourselves that we often apologize to ourselves for. The biggest thing is rest. Make sure you take breaks and get food and drink into you. Lay in the grass around the floor and do absolutely nothing for periods of the day. I do this in meditate gently. It's so important to me. I hope you have nice days ahead. That's another big thing. Everyone wants to make a great day every single day. I stopped wanting that when I wanted to burn out. That's a lot of pressure. I just want nice days. Nothing special.
I've been following you for a good while now, have never commented, but without getting to much into my own problems, financially I'm below poverty level, and I can't do patreon with anyone because it costs and I can't make ends meet as it is.so I'm very happy you are here, thank you so much for being you and making these videos, I learn so much from you and I'm 62 on June 1st ☺. I admire you, I suffer a lot of diabetes issues and my body is slowly painfully falling apart, but I find joy watching and learning from you with whatever time is left for me, you are appreciated 🦋💖
I felt so many emotions watching this from you from complete anger that so many people on the internet feel like watching someone on any form of social media not only entitles them, but obligates them to voice their unfiltered opinions with zero regard to how they affect others. To just sadness that when you take a chance and share something vulnerable or something that makes you uncomfortable you're met with judgement. Plus a multitude of feelings in between those. I would like to say THANK YOU for doing all that you do and continuing because with your skill and talent you could very easily choose to go a different path behind the scenes. Thank you for having enough courage and kindness to to stay the path because there are SO MANY of us that LOVE you just the way you are...regardless of the length of your hair, your sexual orientation and identity, where you choose to live or how you document it. We're happy to be a small part of it and along for the ride. Your videos are an escape that is always available when I feel anxious or overwhelmed. They're the perfect length that I can grab my lunch and watch while I take a break from work and just feel a little peace. Your content to include your videography, photography, content and even the gentle cadence of your voice has been more helpful to me than you know both in my own practice and separately with my own mental health. My baby is now 8 months old, but that last pregnancy was harder than I ever expected and watching your videos on my lunch at work was the only thing that got me through some of those days. Thank YOU for being YOU and I hope that you continue these channels in a way that serves you too ❤️
I’m now 67 years old. Took many years but now I’m me. I speak my mind, dress and act the way I truly am. Some might not like it, but now I actually don’t care. I’m a good person like me or not. You seem a very caring person and kind. Don’t ever lose yourself for the crazies out here. You be you. Blessings on you and yours.
Lovely. Thank you for your vulnerablity. I appreciate your authenticity and value you bringing all parts of yourself here if it feels right to you.
I cried watching this cause I identify. Thank you for being honest with us. I admire you! And it inspires me. I get burned out so much faster when I’m trying to hide parts of myself in order to please others or avoid conflict. Sending you so much love and good luck wishes! You are powerful, even in your gentleness and your “imperfections”. You’re like nature! Nature doesn’t fit in straight lines, and it’s even more beautiful that way!
Well said girl 👏👏👏
I always find it attractive when someone is opening up. It brings people closer.
I really like this video format of you chatting while keeping your hands busy. When I watch videos like these it feels like I'm just hanging out and chatting with a friend. It's very relaxing. 🙂
Gosh, hugs and sending love to you. Queerness is beautiful. Short hair is gorgeous - if I may say so for myself, which I have defended fiercely since I was 11 years old. Why would anyone be so vitrolic against jeans?! Life is messy, and especially because of that this space here that I've stmbled into makes so much intuitive sense - thank you Annie. Tying up creativity with the public self and sustaining a living is challenging, and the way you are doing this shows so much sincerity and gentleness for yourself and for the people who are gathered here.
Thank you for sharing this! I received my first hater yesterday..: and my goodness it hurt like heck… I’m learning to let it go and for it to not hinder me and what I’m doing. 💙
One of your videos opened to me 3 days ago and, your energy was so peaceful. I will say hearing you out and, not feeling comfortable one sided. Be yourself, your true self, forget who's watching and what people think. I don't show myself on camera because i don't like looking at myself, when reading other's energies it can interfere in many ways. Healing is the way you look foward and, put effort no matter what obstacles are in your way. Putting strength and knowing there's always something that will burden you, as life is moving forward. But, mostly knowing everything will be OK! Being a witch, initiated in Santeria/Yoruba being gifted since i was born, being a starseed is so much for me. I lost a Son out of six children, hurts everyday and, it's a daily struggle. Everyone has different struggles and healing to do on this earth, it's the way we approach it, confront it and, put strength to make it a lil better everyday. Go day by day even if you over think, take a breath and bring your energy back. What's yours cannot be taken and, unfortunately this life will take a bit of us as we go. We have to set our intentions everyday to be able to move just a lil bit better. Your energy is bright let it shine how you want it too. I enjoyed your humble words, looking foward to seeing more of you hun. bless it be 🖤
Hello Annabel Margaret. I found your channel this morning. I'm a spiritual monopole. I'm a great listener and I get addicted easily. Forgive the wave, my emotions always get the best of me...today that's you. Thank you for being you.
I’ve had long hair all my life and I recently cut mine short. It felt like an awakening. Like I was letting go of something weighing me down. It felt great. I love your hair. I love the way dress. I love you being you.
You are such a Beautiful Soul! I noticed when you cut your hair and understood. I wondered how you were going to integrate your authentic self on this channel. You are more relaxed and yourself on the The Green Witch. I love both channels and how you’ve evolved as I binged all your uploads from years ago. I love you, I support you, I see you! Continue to shine your light. ♥️♥️♥️
I too loved the haircut! 🙂 As for burnout - try resting the instant you start to feel tired, and not a moment later. Rest until you feel like getting up again, however long that is. In the beginning this might feel frustratingly slow, but it builds quickly and before you know it, those rests will be shorter and further apart. Sounds silly but the results are incredible! I'm a veteran of many burnouts (and serious illness) and this has proved the most effective antidote by far. I can't believe people get angry when you wear jeans!! Wtf. Looking forward to the extra honesty, whatever form it takes. Be well.
If you want to shave your head, wear jeans and a grey sweatshirt while metaphorically eating a cheeseburger, your core supporters aren't going to abandon you. Be your authentic self, and create what brings you joy. We are just the lucky ones who get to watch. Share what you want to share with us, not what you think we want to see. No obligations, only love. And always take care of yourself first. ❤️
Really glad you're sharing that, being into a state of burn out for the past months now i would look at people on the Internet and be very confused as to how they would be taking on so many projets seamlessly and posting all the time on social media etc when i don't even have the energy to brush my teeth everyday, it's really reassuring to see you talking abt something so real. We are all human beings and all need to take some time to take care of ourselves once in a while. I wish you all the best !
Burnout is tough. I resigned from teaching and feel completely wiped out, burnt out. On the positive side, I love lilacs! We had a lilac bush in the backyard growing up. Going out the back door, the scent of lilacs would be the first thing to greet me. That and seeing the park district pool being filled up with water were the 2 signs of summer that I remember most. The smell of lilacs still bring sme home and comforts me. Take care of yourself.
Wishing the most positive energy for you on this new, exciting and beautiful chapter!
I normally don't comment on videos or post, but this really bothered me. Because I have stumbled onto your videos and you have become an important part of my life listening to your videos and learning and watching you grow . You have a light inside of you and a way of making feel calmer. I like to watch you at night when I'm winding down from the day. I think I would really miss you not being you. I'm 59 years old and what I've learned in life is you need to be who you are and enjoy Who You Are. because the only person that you have to agree with is you. I hope this makes sense I tend to ramble . so please don't let the negative people make you try to hide who and what you are. you have a beautiful spirit and a Guiding Light . there's a lot of us that need that right now thank you for being you thank you for having this channel. With love and bright blessings.
You are amazing! Be yourself and Thank You for sharing your life with us! Much ❤️
Thank you for this. You are an amazing and wonderful person, and an inspiration to many of us. You are one of my favorite creators. I know this comment isn't much but hopefully it's enough to let you know there are people out here who love and support you and appreciate for whatever you do.
Thank you for sharing.
I was a stay at home mom of two high School boys. I had nothing to do anymore and I felt kind of lost. Didn't know what to do with myself. I was always interested in Wicca and now gardening. I found your channels so relaxing and calming. l love that I can practice every day. I look forward to your videos every week. Maybe it's the mom in me, but it was hard watching this and seeing you so upset. If you're here watching this channel you should be more understanding and accepting. So many self important people out there just pretending. Life is hard and I'm so sorry you have to deal with this. I like your hair long or short. Hair shouldn't define you or the person you love. Keep making your videos. If I was there I'd give you a hug!
Helping and thinking about others is the way forward xxx
What helps with burnout? The best things I found, for recovering from burnout, were to temporarily reduce my workload; to start doing meditation or guided relaxations every day; and to use slow breathing, muscle relaxation, and self-talk to calm myself, DEEPLY calm myself, when engaging with all the aspects of life or work that stressed me out. We are tense and anxious and uncomfortable at times when we are, in actual fact, safe.... and helping our mind and body to know that, especially at a visceral level, makes all the difference to being able to stay serene, and in that serenity, there will soon be room for creativity and joy.
You are truly a wonderful example girl!!!!! Focus on your happiness! You deserve the best life!!!!
Thank you so much for sharing your journey and creativity. You were one of the first "green witches" I found and resonated with on you tube. I find inspiration and a sense of not being so alone if I watch one of your videos. In relation to burn out its real and common to all of us living in this seemingly unsupportive society. Take time to nap, to rest is something I am learning to do and take pressure of self to compare to others. Much love intrigued as to the lilac perfume comes out. Adore smell of lilac much love and blessings xx
I struggle with auto immune disease and mental health issues, so burnout can hit me quickly and unpredictably. One thing I discovered since the pandemic is to figure out what things either do me the most good or that I would be sad to not do each day. That’s my bar. Then I have kind of a B list of things that I really like to do or that would serve me in some way that I do if I’m having a day with more energy and ability. I think the key to that for me was not just asking what minimum tasks I need to do (e.g. personal hygiene, food shopping) but what would make me feel bad not to do (personal things, like specific elements of my journal or watching the sunset). Those lists are constantly evolving, so I make sure to check in once a month or so, but I noticed a huge shift in my overwhelm when I figure this out about two years ago.
I love the different hair choices !
Just do you girl . If we aren't changing we aren't growing .
If people don't want you to be authentic they don't want you to be mentally , emotionally and spiritually well .
Send them on their way.
As someone who has M.E/chronic fatigue you really have to find ways to balance the stress in your life in order to heal from burn out we can’t cling on to the perfect and really need to let go of lots of things that are not important.
I think being open in this video is a good start at addressing your burn out and struggle to be your beautiful authentic self.
Deep breathing and breath work can be really useful I know your great with getting out in nature just little things incorporates into your day to balance out the stress will really help. Slow down.
Take care your doing great none of this is easy and wear the damn jeans with pride how ridiculous that people would want to dictate someone else’s hair/clothing. Do it for yourself and for the thousands that feel encouraged by you to be themselves and not hide away or fit into a box. ♥️
I appreciate you and you sharing this
i love your authenticity. when i experienced times of overwhelm and exhaustion in the past, i gravitated towards an old standby...naps. everyday.
once your book is finished, i hooe you can just relax into yourself, your life, your dreams. there is something to be said for simplifying one's life. simple is beautiful.
love and support from North Carolina 💜
It's so hard to pretend to be someone else! Please continue to be you, you're amazing! Thank you for sharing I among many other are happy when you share!
You are lovely. Wear jeans , cut your hair, it's just what's on the outside.Your spirit shines through and that 's what is interesting. Your gentle voice , your kindness , your love of nature. And you know , for what it's worth , I think you are a very good writer and I am so happy to hear about a book. Sometimes I am watching one of your video's when you filming the outdoors , such wonderful images and thoughts ! I am listening and thinking -"wow beautiful words, beautiful expression." Truly.
Burnout is something I have been experiencing as well. Working too hard- overwhelmed by the world situation right now- the sadness of it.
Balance is a never ending series of adjustments. Sometimes we loose it, and then regain it. Rest and down time are what work for me. I am concerned that you have not been well. //sometimes we get lots of positive feedback and it's great and then just a couple of bad comments can topple us. Do know, you are appreciated . Yes yes yes. I watch you tube to experience the culture of people, all over the world. Just regular people who have differing views and insights. It's wonderful ! So be yourself Annabel. The world is the better for it.