Man. My childhood best friend turned out to be a rampant pedophile that may have touched my sister when she was sleeping. He's in prison now thankfully. World is so fucked up
@@severren1095 I'd certainly hope never again. Idk what the sentence was/is. But I know it's gonna be for at least 7-10, years minimum. All I can say is even prisoners don't like knowing someone is a pedo. I hope the prisoners find out and he never feels safe.
I had the pleasure of running across Azeal in a public world recently after having found his channel a couple years ago. He's genuinely a kind and friendly person : ) I got to thank him in person for providing people a space to share their stories like this. theyre important. Thank you, Azeal
I can sympathize with the anger of having someone you care about victimized or assaulted, and have the person get away with it. But I can't imagine planning something like this out, and following through with it. A lot of people imagine doing horrible things to those who have wronged them, but acting it out is another thing entirely. I hope everyone involved has finds peace.
same i thought about it but it was pointless so i told them to never go to my house or mess with us ever again i knew what he did and could not promise i would not have hurt him so he left us alone and would avoid us the few times that we saw each other which was probably the best outcome
everyone here is so brave for sharing they're stories, thank you for sharing them! and thank you for giving everyone a safe place to share the stories Azeal ❤ Edit: 228 likes!? i did not expect that at all. I hope all of you guys are having a great day and are safe! Here are some snacks for you to snack on while you watch Azeal videos! 🍿🍫🍭, (and here are tissues in case you cry while watching any of his vids--> 🧻)
I kinda know what this girl is going through. I had a friend from high school who murdered his uncle, and then drove to the next town over, and killed again. He was arrested for capital murder, and could be facing the death penalty because of it. I heard his name in a news segment, and I just prayed like “Please let this be someone else who shares his name.” But there was another news station that covered the same thing, and it had his mugshot on it. I broke down crying because I grew up with this man. My late granddad - god rest his soul - he coached the both of us in football (american). We were on the same team, same age, same school. It devastated me. The arresting officer confirmed that he was under the influence of drugs, and it was just salt to the wound.
Subtext (only half way through) is she quietly organised this. Shits on bounty hunter dude for wanting to watch over his friend while it goes on and sympathised with all the wrong (objectively) people in the scenario. Detached and cold narrative framing. I'd take with a grain of salt.
This channel has inspired me to to take action in my life for the things that are wrong this channel started out as a goofy funny vr chat story channel but it has evolved into a place to inform people of the misgivings in the world send much love from a Random closet thank you for everything you do azeal 🧡🧡🧡
Y'know, this story kinda remembers me of a conundrum I ask myself: Is it ok to love a bad person? Imagine your mother (or a good mother, I know a lot of people here had bad childhoods). She is tender, caring and understanding. She has always loved you, and you loved her. And then one day you discover she has done and/or still does terrible things. She has no remorse or care, but she still loves you more than anything. Would you still be able to love her? You may make her stop, but you know her insides are not going to change. Would you still be able? How about an homofobic grandma (closeted queers that might love a family member that happens to be that, please share)? Or a son that took the life of someone just for pleasure? The things she had to experience are nothing short of horrific, and I wouldn't wish them upon my worst enemy. I'm glad she is better now, and I wish her the best.
my father loved me and was always kind to me. he abused my mother and sexually assaulted one of my tías. he stalked my sisters boyfriend. there were allegations that he also SA'd a little girl, but i never found out what happened with that court case. i cut contact with him as soon as i was able to. i don't care that he was good to me when he was so awful to others. i do believe this story is different from mine because claire's intentions were to protect another person. my fathers actions were possessive.
As someone queer with a transphobic older sister (who I grew up on good terms with), it creates the feeling of a rift. She's still my sister and we're still amicable, but I can't see her in the same way anymore. I have a hard time seeing how someone could love someone the same without either willfully ignoring that dark part of them or being kinda messed up themselves. I think you can still be compassionate to the person, but I think that knowledge about them will remain like a scar.
@@SkylarThompson-mu1qs yeah, she's okay. i dont think she thinks about it very much. my mom is the one who told me it happened. he had grabbed her inappropriately without her consent. she's my fathers cousin which makes it more gross.
Sorry if this comes off as cold but as someone who was assaulted in childhood I would be relieved if this happened to my abuser. Better he’s not around hurting anyone else. Sympathies with the person telling the story though and I can respect her not wanting to stay in contact
_'getting rid of'_ a bad person? that isn't a bad thing. the only major issue with this whole thing (broadly, not specifically) is the person doing the justice is likely going to face some harsh trauma for it. man, youtube censorship makes talking about certain things a nightmare.
I'm glad she's okay now, and learnt to overcome the long-reaching impacts of something like this. This story is a fascinating look into how far reaching the impact of someone's actions can really be, and the people you'd never think about being affected. I gotta say though, this is a weird video to see directly after having a conversation with an old friend i haven't really spoken to in years and talking about how things have changed since we were kids playing minecraft together every day.
Your videos genuinely uplift me and make my days so much better. Its so amazing to see how you benefit the lives of others through this platform. Thank you, Azeal
I also had my best friend murder someone,she had bpd,and I knew in the deepest of my heart that she was a tickling bomb.I helped her going through it,multiple times I prevented her for commiting suicide,yet she ended up killing someone...and later killing herself.I feel conflicted because I think that if maybe I helped her more,she might never done that,but at the same time,feeling that maybe if I didn't helped her,that innocent person would be alive today.I knew the man who she killed,and he didn't deserve to die.
@@v4nilla20 I was kinda her emitional support...and I messed up sometimes.I didn't knew what to Say to her when she started drugs(please..just don't do drugs),and I treated her kinda harshly during those times.She was kind of emotionally abusive sometimes,towards the end,she pushed me back for a very stupid thing(I forgot her birthday,we only knew eachother via text,and the las time she mentioned something about it was a few months before)said cruel things to me,and I was truly hurt by that,and she never apologized)I must say,but I always tried to help her,because I believed that there would be a happy ending in the end,but I couldn't save her.I think that what putted her over the edge was when she was sent to a "rehablitation Center" by her family,the place wasn't "Bad",but it was plainly incopentent,the inmates did drugs and partys in the rooms, there wasn't 1 to 1 therapy,ect.I think that sending her there was a mistake, it really didn't help her,and made her think that she couldn't be helped,because the "oficial helper guys" couldn't help her.
@@InkSams9386 ah... i see... thank you so much for sharing... my best friend and i both have bpd and we are kind of addicted to drugs already... well i was addicted to weed and nicotine (vapes and cigs) then i quit nic so its just an addiction to weed now but my best friend is seemingly falling farther into the drugs... shrooms and stuff... and he's been to wards a handful of times and now he's been to jail... i've known him for so long i see the good underneath he just can't stop harming himself i guess... Idk this is deep but I just want to try anything to help him and save myself..
@@InkSams9386 Bit late, but maybe you still read this: You are not a professional and your friend was sick. It wasn't cancer but it was something at least as complicated as that. If she had cancer, would you feel guilty if you were unable to heal it? You wouldn't, right? Because you are not an expert on that. Even most medical doctors are not an expert on this. The same goes for BPD and whatever other problems she likely had as well. You couldn't have changed anything. How? My advice would be: Let it go. You did not study Psychology with emphasis on personality disorders and you did not study at Howarts. And if I understood correctly: You never even met her in person. Let it go.
@@florianopolis6299 thankfully I have internalized that mentality,but still,we always daydream about a miraculous alternate ending that could have happened,even if I rationally know that there wasn't more that I could have done for her.
I grew up around the cartel as well as my family being involved so I get what this is like, my mom ran us out into America where we properly remade our lives thank God
“He considered himself a bounty hunters” is disturbingly vague. I’m not sure if info was left out to protect the innocent but if there is more detail than I don’t need to know it.
Can't imagine how that feels. To hear your friend killing someone first "oh car accident" but... premeditated murders are very serious. Looking up what that means for a murder charge is a First Degree murder charge. Which means either Life in Prison without parole.... Or the Death Penalty Second degree is more it happened during a Felony. That one is more Life in prison without parole and Third Degree is stuff that doesn't fall under that. This must have been rather traumatic I hope things are better but Damn.... That isn't something you can forget. That's something you may get therapy for. I don't know. Context is very important for stuff like this. Figure out why. I dont know how to word this.
I wish I had the time to listen to more of these, I don't really know how to describe what I feel listening to them, but its very strong. Hindsight is something terrible, it can be amazing learning, but when something traumatic happens to you and the only thing you can think of is "If only I did this, everything would be fine" is an awful feeling, and it sticks with you for a long time before you recover. I hope she's doing okay, and from the sounds of it, she is now
These videos always make me think, what if i had been in any of these situations? Well, id prefer not to think about it. But, thanks for these videos, and i hope the people who share these stories are happy
My partner of two plus years turned out to be a child predator in May of this year, and I'm still broken up about it. Our friend group kind of fragmented, and I don't talk to many of those people anymore. It's incredibly hard to process something like that. To endure that much stress. I have good days and bad days. Days where I feel like I'm on the top of the world, and others where I hope to never wake up. Going about my day to day, I never know when something will trigger a memory. It's a horribly experience that I wish upon no one, and I can't help but feel immense sadness to see someone go through a similarly trautic loss. Much love. ❤️
Crazy story, everyone interviewed on this channel (mostly, there are some silly stories) are very brave I also noticed it looks like you were looking directly at the camera the entire time, which I think is new, usually they look at Azeal. I guess now I know how it feels to be the small boi interviewer.
I swear i feel bad laughing during this video, but just as 14:51 comes around, LITERaly AN AD of like an online D&D game comes up, thats such bad timing like im not joking
(Prepare for a long text from the heart) This lady’s a good person, reason why is because she doesn’t like how her friend did the hanging in jail, cuz most people like that person who thought that was good news, there’s way too many people that are like that, I will say though I’m no better myself, she’s better than I am, she stayed out of a situation she’s with a loving husband and that’s great to hear
Absolutely agreed. It's just sad, that nobody wanted to hear the whole abuse story of the person that hanged herself. This whole tragedy probably could've been avoided, if there were more voices willing to listen to her and help her out. Instead, only the voices encouraging murder listened. And that sealed her fate. :(
I used to be a full blown drug addict and completely ruined my entire existence. If I had vr I'd do a story time. That's all anyone wants to hear from me is my stories irl anyway lol
When you think you know someone for a long time and just out of know where they do something so bad to the point of someone is going to die just shows that, who a person is on the outside isn't who they are in the inside. Always be aware of what a person is on the inside instead of the outside and I've learned this myself because of me observing other people and my friends that I had and for people out there, always remain vigilant and observant of people and friends and if it takes a turn for the worst don't be afraid to do what must be done.
Azeal is the archetype of Luna, for he visits people and consoles them in the dream realm. He gives a voice to the voiceless and extends friendship to the lonely. Nay, he is more for he allows those who experienced trauma of the highest order to convey the experience in a way that, as fantastical as it is, is still relatable and garners empathy along with a level of understanding not seen in other online spaces. Under Azeal's starlit tapestry whilst the broken may not un-break per se they still have someone to share in said brokeness with and perhaps not feel as such, if only for a while.
Getting so upset you punch a wall... I know what thats like I've done it a few times. Got anger management therapy and impulse control to help with that. Coping skills also useful but damn...
I'm sorry this happened to you and your friends, I can't believe you got judged for being friends with that person before it happened. hope you're doing well and that the rest of your life will be good
another video that gives me insight into trauma... yay.... I guess. honestly though Azeal your videos helped me alot personally. even thought now days after getting better mentally, I can't watch some of your videos anymore cause they are too heavy now. thankyou
That sucks. That's life though. Experience has taught me that no matter how much suffering someone has gone through, some folks are just trouble and you find out the hard way how to identify... I am referring to Tanya, of course.
I haven't seen any of your videos in forever, I don't always seek out videos because I kind of expect new uploads from channels I'm subscribed to be in my feed. I know a while back you had a pretty big video taken down for bringing things to light that certain people didn't want exposed and I feel like your videos disappeared from my feed around that same time. I'll need to keep a closer eye on your uploads. Love you and your work, my friend!
Oh my God, this just reminded me of something I've purposefully forgotten or at least do my best to not think about. I hung out/hooked up with a guy that later killed a friend's (from high-school) little sister, I won't say how, but it was super fucked up.
Someone I was friends with from ages 7 to 10 ended up stabbing someone to death over an argument about drugs a couple of years back. Hadn't been friends with them in a while but man was it sobering
just a by stander here. also not a therapist. but i do know if your bothered by something so terribly. that you cant let go of. please please find something to do that you enjoy. moving on just means looking for better things. find a different kind of destraction to be addicted to. and obv not drugs! lately ive been taking long hot baths. working out and just apreciating what i have. dont think to hard on things that make you crazy. -as a crazy paranoid person myself..
First off Azeal it’s been a WHILE second off, Hi! It’s me from the raid stream, the guy who submitted a story, third:holy shit dude these new thumbnails are EPIC *and you still can’t convince me your not an ARG lmao*
Listening to these stories makes me think what I would do if these kind of things ever happened to me which I doubt they would but the chances can be low but never 0.
I found out my best friend had a plan to shoot up the school before we met. Absolutely shocked me when he told me one night 5 years into our friendship.
It definitely feels like relationships of convenience to a certain extent and if you live like that do you truly know them that is a major takeaway from the story I get.
I've had people ik die, and that affected me. But I honestly don't know if in your shoes what I would do temmie On a happier note your avi is really cute.
Too early to comment on the video, but I gotta get this out now, DUDE your thumbnail is so gooooood! Who does your thumbnail and why isn't there a link in your description!?
Thank you!! Her name is Luyorin, she hasn't really expressed desire to be credited in the description but if that changes (I can ask her directly in fact) I can absolutely update it. She is usually pretty busy with just my thumbnails nowadays so other commissions are hard to get from her 😅
What @@notoriousgoblin83 said There is the form that's used but also the community there is people who may experience something recently or will that may be a suitable topic. He also still plays alot of vrc so he is able to find people by just exploring public lobbies, like the bounty hunter.
Im curious if the being assaulted was true or just a ploy to gather sympathy from the jury and peers for a horrible crime. Idk that just seems like a likely scenario because people do messed up stuff then try to gather the most sympathy they can when caught. Idk i just don't see how this would have been the first route they decided to take from a logical standpoint. I have seen people murdered for 5$ or even just insulting somebody or embarasses somebody. And the amount of time people want revenge on a ex is insanely high even if the ex didn't actually do anything very wrong. Not trying to discredit them but im also not gonna discredit the victim here.
Way I understood it, she mentioned the assault, long before this heinous crime was hatched. So no, my suspicion is that she did get assaulted. But everyone dismissed it as a joke or being dramatic. And the only ones believing her, encouraged murder.
basically clare and tanya both should've been given the option to rehabilitate themselves. with the right therapy, and mental health treatment, on top of job training, im sure they'll lead productive lives. our court system refuses to recognize rehabilitation and giving people training and mental health services is better than giving them life in jail. it sucks, but what can you do. to be honest, i feel for the girl who committed suicide, and i hope she found peace whereever she ended up in spirit. as for everyone else involved, i hope everyone else involved finds peace and love within themselves, including all victims. my hearts go out to the families who lost family members from suicide and murder in this story. either way, nothing is what it seems, and there was clearly some underlying issues going on. much love to everyone, especially to azeal for allowing the individual to share her story within a safe space on vrchat. as a side note, it seems my previous comment was censored by youtube themselves, nothing in it was really bad, just expressing mixed feelings on the matter and all of that, but it did have some words that youtube seems to hate for whatever reason. regardless, i had no idea it was censored till recently, so hopefully this one sticks. edit: yea it stuck. in the comment that got deleted by youtube i expressed mixed feelings and was prepared to update the comment with my final thoughts. and here i am making a new comment because again, a few words were said that youtube hates for some reason. so my final thoughts are in the first 2 paragraphs.
"there was clearly some underlying issues going on" That is my suspicion as well. The passing mention of the suicide-victim having mentioned being abused and r*ped a lot of times, might be the cornerstone behind this whole ordeal. I cannot imagine someone going so far over mere black humor. So my strong suspicion is, that she was right about all of the things she said, but nobody took it seriously and dismissed it as a joke or being dramatic. While the only voices who did believe her, encouraged murder. So yeah, she was doomed from the start. And I think that even if the murder never happened, the suicide probably would've happened regardless. Unless someone in her life finally decided to take her seriously and handle it all in a healthy, productive way.
@@Zeakthecat Yeah. I feel like we can blame manipulative women, falsely accusing other men, for that. It's one thing that disgusts me to this day and sadly negatively affects the credibility of genuine victims as well. It's a vicious cycle. :(
@paragonyoshi4237 I don't believe all the blame should be placed on the very, VERY few people who lie about SA. Society has always viewed the word of women as inferior to men. We live in a patriarchal hierarchy that laughs off, ignores, and covers up violence against women (and any vulnerable group). SA is not taken seriously just because sometimes people lie, but because the entire system is built to shield men from responsibility.
@@ChromaClio I don't believe it's the whole truth, that the system is built to shield men from responsibility. Manipulative women seem to get away with their shite just as easily. :( And it honestly just seems like a natural consequence to me, that SA victims aren't taken seriously by many, because of those witches.
The murder stuff was fucked up, but the social discussion really stung because as a weird person people have cut ties with me for being concerning. EDIT: not for murder, but like, su****e planning and activities. More lore, because where else to dump: I had a classmate that invited me to a gc with her friends. I tried so hard to become friends with the others, but they only had a time once a year or so to include me via the @everyone ping. Nobody knew me, I one one tether in a group of dozens of close friends. I was hopeful, but it didn't work out because I wasn't really included in the really course of their true friendships. They would hang out. I would not hang out with them even if I tried. I'm now struggling to figure out how to talk to people in class about stuff, I am locked up in terms of creativity, and I am suicidal. They are hanging out without me. I'm always the unwanted weird one.
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Man. My childhood best friend turned out to be a rampant pedophile that may have touched my sister when she was sleeping. He's in prison now thankfully. World is so fucked up
yikes...
@@Azealvery much so.
Damn... well atleast they are in prison where they can't harm anyone ever again.
@@severren1095 I'd certainly hope never again. Idk what the sentence was/is. But I know it's gonna be for at least 7-10, years minimum. All I can say is even prisoners don't like knowing someone is a pedo. I hope the prisoners find out and he never feels safe.
I hope your okay, I had a similar situation to what you described. Hope you and your sister are better now.
I had the pleasure of running across Azeal in a public world recently after having found his channel a couple years ago. He's genuinely a kind and friendly person : )
I got to thank him in person for providing people a space to share their stories like this. theyre important. Thank you, Azeal
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How do you even know what he looks like
his avatar is featured in many videos and his channel icon@@cjadventures8840
@@cjadventures8840 A public world in vr chat, not in real life lolsies
@@cjadventures8840because they met him?? 💀
I can already tell this is gonna be a rough one
As per usual
Azeal comin in with the depression fuel once again
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@@Azealdamn right as it should be
@Azeal Drinking game: take a shot for every azael video that leaves you profoundly disappointed in humanity
I can sympathize with the anger of having someone you care about victimized or assaulted, and have the person get away with it. But I can't imagine planning something like this out, and following through with it. A lot of people imagine doing horrible things to those who have wronged them, but acting it out is another thing entirely.
I hope everyone involved has finds peace.
I know it to, its tough. I hope your okay and I hope whoever it was that you know is okay.
Welp, if the only voices that believe you encourage murder...
Yeah, it's a very dire position to be in, that can easily corrupt you.
same i thought about it but it was pointless so i told them to never go to my house or mess with us ever again i knew what he did and could not promise i would not have hurt him so he left us alone and would avoid us the few times that we saw each other which was probably the best outcome
everyone here is so brave for sharing they're stories, thank you for sharing them! and thank you for giving everyone a safe place to share the stories Azeal ❤
Edit: 228 likes!? i did not expect that at all. I hope all of you guys are having a great day and are safe! Here are some snacks for you to snack on while you watch Azeal videos! 🍿🍫🍭, (and here are tissues in case you cry while watching any of his vids--> 🧻)
Thank you for the kind words! 🧡
I kinda know what this girl is going through. I had a friend from high school who murdered his uncle, and then drove to the next town over, and killed again. He was arrested for capital murder, and could be facing the death penalty because of it. I heard his name in a news segment, and I just prayed like “Please let this be someone else who shares his name.” But there was another news station that covered the same thing, and it had his mugshot on it. I broke down crying because I grew up with this man. My late granddad - god rest his soul - he coached the both of us in football (american). We were on the same team, same age, same school. It devastated me. The arresting officer confirmed that he was under the influence of drugs, and it was just salt to the wound.
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Killing someone because of drugs and killing someone because they raped you/your friend are two entirely different things
Wow that sounds hard, proud of the storyteller that they did not take joy in the misfortune of people that hurt them and theirs.
Yeah, that was a moment in the recording where I gained a lot of respect for her.
I respect her for it, even if I don’t always share that sentiment.
Subtext (only half way through) is she quietly organised this. Shits on bounty hunter dude for wanting to watch over his friend while it goes on and sympathised with all the wrong (objectively) people in the scenario. Detached and cold narrative framing. I'd take with a grain of salt.
Thank you for sharing your story with us Temmie ❤
I can’t imagine what going through something like that would be like. I’m glad you’re ok.
This channel has inspired me to to take action in my life for the things that are wrong this channel started out as a goofy funny vr chat story channel but it has evolved into a place to inform people of the misgivings in the world send much love from a Random closet thank you for everything you do azeal 🧡🧡🧡
This is exactly why this channel exists. Thank you for your comment
@@Azeal no problem thank you for the video 🧡
Y'know, this story kinda remembers me of a conundrum I ask myself: Is it ok to love a bad person? Imagine your mother (or a good mother, I know a lot of people here had bad childhoods). She is tender, caring and understanding. She has always loved you, and you loved her. And then one day you discover she has done and/or still does terrible things. She has no remorse or care, but she still loves you more than anything. Would you still be able to love her? You may make her stop, but you know her insides are not going to change. Would you still be able? How about an homofobic grandma (closeted queers that might love a family member that happens to be that, please share)? Or a son that took the life of someone just for pleasure?
The things she had to experience are nothing short of horrific, and I wouldn't wish them upon my worst enemy. I'm glad she is better now, and I wish her the best.
my father loved me and was always kind to me. he abused my mother and sexually assaulted one of my tías. he stalked my sisters boyfriend. there were allegations that he also SA'd a little girl, but i never found out what happened with that court case. i cut contact with him as soon as i was able to. i don't care that he was good to me when he was so awful to others. i do believe this story is different from mine because claire's intentions were to protect another person. my fathers actions were possessive.
As someone queer with a transphobic older sister (who I grew up on good terms with), it creates the feeling of a rift. She's still my sister and we're still amicable, but I can't see her in the same way anymore.
I have a hard time seeing how someone could love someone the same without either willfully ignoring that dark part of them or being kinda messed up themselves.
I think you can still be compassionate to the person, but I think that knowledge about them will remain like a scar.
@@_eIIiotare your tias okay?
@@SkylarThompson-mu1qs yeah, she's okay. i dont think she thinks about it very much. my mom is the one who told me it happened. he had grabbed her inappropriately without her consent. she's my fathers cousin which makes it more gross.
@@_eIIiot I'm happy to hear she is ok.
Sorry if this comes off as cold but as someone who was assaulted in childhood I would be relieved if this happened to my abuser. Better he’s not around hurting anyone else. Sympathies with the person telling the story though and I can respect her not wanting to stay in contact
i completely agree
Same here
_'getting rid of'_ a bad person? that isn't a bad thing. the only major issue with this whole thing (broadly, not specifically) is the person doing the justice is likely going to face some harsh trauma for it.
man, youtube censorship makes talking about certain things a nightmare.
I'm glad she's okay now, and learnt to overcome the long-reaching impacts of something like this. This story is a fascinating look into how far reaching the impact of someone's actions can really be, and the people you'd never think about being affected.
I gotta say though, this is a weird video to see directly after having a conversation with an old friend i haven't really spoken to in years and talking about how things have changed since we were kids playing minecraft together every day.
Your videos genuinely uplift me and make my days so much better. Its so amazing to see how you benefit the lives of others through this platform. Thank you, Azeal
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I also had my best friend murder someone,she had bpd,and I knew in the deepest of my heart that she was a tickling bomb.I helped her going through it,multiple times I prevented her for commiting suicide,yet she ended up killing someone...and later killing herself.I feel conflicted because I think that if maybe I helped her more,she might never done that,but at the same time,feeling that maybe if I didn't helped her,that innocent person would be alive today.I knew the man who she killed,and he didn't deserve to die.
my best friend and i both have bpd. is there somewhere i can contact you? im just simply curious on what you would have done different...
@@v4nilla20 I was kinda her emitional support...and I messed up sometimes.I didn't knew what to Say to her when she started drugs(please..just don't do drugs),and I treated her kinda harshly during those times.She was kind of emotionally abusive sometimes,towards the end,she pushed me back for a very stupid thing(I forgot her birthday,we only knew eachother via text,and the las time she mentioned something about it was a few months before)said cruel things to me,and I was truly hurt by that,and she never apologized)I must say,but I always tried to help her,because I believed that there would be a happy ending in the end,but I couldn't save her.I think that what putted her over the edge was when she was sent to a "rehablitation Center" by her family,the place wasn't "Bad",but it was plainly incopentent,the inmates did drugs and partys in the rooms, there wasn't 1 to 1 therapy,ect.I think that sending her there was a mistake, it really didn't help her,and made her think that she couldn't be helped,because the "oficial helper guys" couldn't help her.
@@InkSams9386 ah... i see... thank you so much for sharing... my best friend and i both have bpd and we are kind of addicted to drugs already... well i was addicted to weed and nicotine (vapes and cigs) then i quit nic so its just an addiction to weed now but my best friend is seemingly falling farther into the drugs... shrooms and stuff... and he's been to wards a handful of times and now he's been to jail... i've known him for so long i see the good underneath he just can't stop harming himself i guess... Idk this is deep but I just want to try anything to help him and save myself..
@@InkSams9386 Bit late, but maybe you still read this: You are not a professional and your friend was sick. It wasn't cancer but it was something at least as complicated as that. If she had cancer, would you feel guilty if you were unable to heal it? You wouldn't, right? Because you are not an expert on that. Even most medical doctors are not an expert on this. The same goes for BPD and whatever other problems she likely had as well.
You couldn't have changed anything. How?
My advice would be: Let it go. You did not study Psychology with emphasis on personality disorders and you did not study at Howarts. And if I understood correctly: You never even met her in person. Let it go.
@@florianopolis6299 thankfully I have internalized that mentality,but still,we always daydream about a miraculous alternate ending that could have happened,even if I rationally know that there wasn't more that I could have done for her.
I grew up around the cartel as well as my family being involved so I get what this is like, my mom ran us out into America where we properly remade our lives thank God
“He considered himself a bounty hunters” is disturbingly vague. I’m not sure if info was left out to protect the innocent but if there is more detail than I don’t need to know it.
he's probably whats known as a bail bondsman, this same guy made a really good video interviewing one on his channel
Can't imagine how that feels. To hear your friend killing someone first "oh car accident" but...
premeditated murders are very serious. Looking up what that means for a murder charge is a First Degree murder charge. Which means either Life in Prison without parole.... Or the Death Penalty
Second degree is more it happened during a Felony. That one is more Life in prison without parole and Third Degree is stuff that doesn't fall under that.
This must have been rather traumatic I hope things are better but Damn.... That isn't something you can forget. That's something you may get therapy for. I don't know.
Context is very important for stuff like this. Figure out why. I dont know how to word this.
I wish I had the time to listen to more of these, I don't really know how to describe what I feel listening to them, but its very strong. Hindsight is something terrible, it can be amazing learning, but when something traumatic happens to you and the only thing you can think of is "If only I did this, everything would be fine" is an awful feeling, and it sticks with you for a long time before you recover. I hope she's doing okay, and from the sounds of it, she is now
These videos always make me think, what if i had been in any of these situations? Well, id prefer not to think about it. But, thanks for these videos, and i hope the people who share these stories are happy
My partner of two plus years turned out to be a child predator in May of this year, and I'm still broken up about it.
Our friend group kind of fragmented, and I don't talk to many of those people anymore.
It's incredibly hard to process something like that. To endure that much stress.
I have good days and bad days.
Days where I feel like I'm on the top of the world, and others where I hope to never wake up.
Going about my day to day, I never know when something will trigger a memory.
It's a horribly experience that I wish upon no one, and I can't help but feel immense sadness to see someone go through a similarly trautic loss.
Much love. ❤️
I'm so sorry to hear that. I can't imagine going through such a thing. Hope you're doing well.
Crazy story, everyone interviewed on this channel (mostly, there are some silly stories) are very brave
I also noticed it looks like you were looking directly at the camera the entire time, which I think is new, usually they look at Azeal. I guess now I know how it feels to be the small boi interviewer.
already know I'm going to love it❤Love you Azeal!
I swear i feel bad laughing during this video, but just as 14:51 comes around, LITERaly AN AD of like an online D&D game comes up, thats such bad timing like im not joking
LOL oof
You could almost say that's how the dice rolls
*crickets*
I'll see myself out
@@clawedmoss9030 lollll
@@clawedmoss9030 *insert that one drum sound effect that plays in a cartoon when character makes a joke*
Bu dum tss
I'm not home right now but I'm putting this on my watch later. Definitely want to hear her perspective
I hope you enjoy when you see it later! ^^
(Prepare for a long text from the heart) This lady’s a good person, reason why is because she doesn’t like how her friend did the hanging in jail, cuz most people like that person who thought that was good news, there’s way too many people that are like that, I will say though I’m no better myself, she’s better than I am, she stayed out of a situation she’s with a loving husband and that’s great to hear
Absolutely agreed.
It's just sad, that nobody wanted to hear the whole abuse story of the person that hanged herself.
This whole tragedy probably could've been avoided, if there were more voices willing to listen to her and help her out.
Instead, only the voices encouraging murder listened.
And that sealed her fate. :(
I used to be a full blown drug addict and completely ruined my entire existence. If I had vr I'd do a story time. That's all anyone wants to hear from me is my stories irl anyway lol
Your videos always make my day Azeal ❤
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When you think you know someone for a long time and just out of know where they do something so bad to the point of someone is going to die just shows that, who a person is on the outside isn't who they are in the inside. Always be aware of what a person is on the inside instead of the outside and I've learned this myself because of me observing other people and my friends that I had and for people out there, always remain vigilant and observant of people and friends and if it takes a turn for the worst don't be afraid to do what must be done.
You're doing great work, Azeal. I really look forward to these videos. ☮🙏♥
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i knew a guy who tried to kill his brother
that was like... 3 years ago... wow
I've always found it weird how... in a single day everything about someone's life can change completely.
I hope everyone is doing okay
as the joker put it. All it takes is one bad day....
Very intriguing story. Thank you for sharing!
I really wasn't expecting to hear a story like this one coming from a Ganyu wearing a frog onesie.
This channel in a nutshell, interviewing people with rough stories while their playermodel is something outlandish
Azeal is the archetype of Luna, for he visits people and consoles them in the dream realm. He gives a voice to the voiceless and extends friendship to the lonely. Nay, he is more for he allows those who experienced trauma of the highest order to convey the experience in a way that, as fantastical as it is, is still relatable and garners empathy along with a level of understanding not seen in other online spaces. Under Azeal's starlit tapestry whilst the broken may not un-break per se they still have someone to share in said brokeness with and perhaps not feel as such, if only for a while.
This is such a sweet comment omg thank you 🧡
Getting so upset you punch a wall... I know what thats like I've done it a few times. Got anger management therapy and impulse control to help with that. Coping skills also useful but damn...
Love the new thumbnails! Although there was a simplistic charm to the others these ones add more character to each video
I'm sorry this happened to you and your friends, I can't believe you got judged for being friends with that person before it happened.
hope you're doing well and that the rest of your life will be good
another video that gives me insight into trauma... yay.... I guess.
honestly though Azeal your videos helped me alot personally. even thought now days after getting better mentally, I can't watch some of your videos anymore cause they are too heavy now. thankyou
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The new thumbnails are really good, hope you can get back to your previous level of popularity man, keep up the good work!
Luyorin is an amazing artist and the perfect person for these thumbnails! Also thank youuu
could've probably chosen a better thumbnail for such dark subject matter. Smth else than an anime girl holding a knife
That sucks. That's life though. Experience has taught me that no matter how much suffering someone has gone through, some folks are just trouble and you find out the hard way how to identify... I am referring to Tanya, of course.
wat a story glad your doing okay now and far away from that person glad your safe now
Amazing story always a top tier watch any day
I haven't seen any of your videos in forever, I don't always seek out videos because I kind of expect new uploads from channels I'm subscribed to be in my feed. I know a while back you had a pretty big video taken down for bringing things to light that certain people didn't want exposed and I feel like your videos disappeared from my feed around that same time. I'll need to keep a closer eye on your uploads. Love you and your work, my friend!
Oh my God, this just reminded me of something I've purposefully forgotten or at least do my best to not think about. I hung out/hooked up with a guy that later killed a friend's (from high-school) little sister, I won't say how, but it was super fucked up.
Someone I was friends with from ages 7 to 10 ended up stabbing someone to death over an argument about drugs a couple of years back. Hadn't been friends with them in a while but man was it sobering
I love how it's fucking Ganyu telling this story lol
just a by stander here. also not a therapist. but i do know if your bothered by something so terribly. that you cant let go of. please please find something to do that you enjoy. moving on just means looking for better things. find a different kind of destraction to be addicted to. and obv not drugs! lately ive been taking long hot baths. working out and just apreciating what i have. dont think to hard on things that make you crazy. -as a crazy paranoid person myself..
First off Azeal it’s been a WHILE second off, Hi! It’s me from the raid stream, the guy who submitted a story, third:holy shit dude these new thumbnails are EPIC
*and you still can’t convince me your not an ARG lmao*
I'm glad she's ok
Murder is never the answer 😓
Listening to these stories makes me think what I would do if these kind of things ever happened to me which I doubt they would but the chances can be low but never 0.
I can't think of anything to say, but i comment anyway for the algorithm.
This whole situation sounded like it had to have been hell.
Good souls are "everywhere" but they the truly good ones are hard to find.
This just sounds like a slightly rearranged version of that movie Bully and the case it was based on.
I love how the now thumbnails look
Luyorin did an amazing job with them!! ^^
hey just wanted to let you know that for now this video has not been shadow banned, I got it recommended to me 3 times
I found out my best friend had a plan to shoot up the school before we met. Absolutely shocked me when he told me one night 5 years into our friendship.
I'm sorry to hear that.
But honestly, if he tells you that, he probably needs some serious help. :(
I literally know this person personally wth
Lessson learned: No friends, no problems.
oof
Problems find their way in anyway so what am I saying
It definitely feels like relationships of convenience to a certain extent and if you live like that do you truly know them that is a major takeaway from the story I get.
I've had people ik die, and that affected me. But I honestly don't know if in your shoes what I would do temmie
On a happier note your avi is really cute.
Love your videos. I was just watching falling up by krmal and I saw a comment by you XD
LMAO I forgot I posted that
@@Azealbest music
Man and I thought it was bad my friend was racist.
Too early to comment on the video, but I gotta get this out now, DUDE your thumbnail is so gooooood! Who does your thumbnail and why isn't there a link in your description!?
Thank you!! Her name is Luyorin, she hasn't really expressed desire to be credited in the description but if that changes (I can ask her directly in fact) I can absolutely update it. She is usually pretty busy with just my thumbnails nowadays so other commissions are hard to get from her 😅
I guess as long as she is getting paid well she probably doesn't mind too much
But she does wonderful art.
I hate how I've been so trained that the moment I hear Temmie I think of the artist or the character from undertale.
Hope she can find a better friend
Offtopic but, HOW TF DO U FIND THESE PEOPLE. Every video u post, its someone who had a very sad story, HOW DO YOU ALWAYS FIND THESE PEOPLEEE
If i had to guess, by building a community, which makes it easier to find people who wants people to know their story
There is a submission Google Form. Presumably, some people see the videos and toss their story in, or simply the whole community.
What @@notoriousgoblin83 said
There is the form that's used but also the community there is people who may experience something recently or will that may be a suitable topic.
He also still plays alot of vrc so he is able to find people by just exploring public lobbies, like the bounty hunter.
Jeeez this story was something!! But that was an amazing story!
Im curious if the being assaulted was true or just a ploy to gather sympathy from the jury and peers for a horrible crime. Idk that just seems like a likely scenario because people do messed up stuff then try to gather the most sympathy they can when caught. Idk i just don't see how this would have been the first route they decided to take from a logical standpoint. I have seen people murdered for 5$ or even just insulting somebody or embarasses somebody. And the amount of time people want revenge on a ex is insanely high even if the ex didn't actually do anything very wrong. Not trying to discredit them but im also not gonna discredit the victim here.
at this point lawand justice systems are pretty much "who can gain the most sympathy fastest" and somehow the worst people are the most charismatic
Way I understood it, she mentioned the assault, long before this heinous crime was hatched.
So no, my suspicion is that she did get assaulted. But everyone dismissed it as a joke or being dramatic.
And the only ones believing her, encouraged murder.
@@paragonyoshi4237or at least thought she got assaulted
@@alpha_9997 I dunno if someone would go as far as she did, if they weren't dead certain.
@@paragonyoshi4237 i mean their first instinct was to kill, so their critical thinking is in question
Anyone can make wrong choices, but I don’t think the person telling this story made the wrong choice by distancing herself from her friend.
wild story as ever damn
hope you enjoy(ed) ^^
@@Azeal god damn you know i did so keep this up for me please ;p
Love these videos btw
ghostface was surprised watching this.
basically clare and tanya both should've been given the option to rehabilitate themselves. with the right therapy, and mental health treatment, on top of job training, im sure they'll lead productive lives. our court system refuses to recognize rehabilitation and giving people training and mental health services is better than giving them life in jail. it sucks, but what can you do.
to be honest, i feel for the girl who committed suicide, and i hope she found peace whereever she ended up in spirit. as for everyone else involved, i hope everyone else involved finds peace and love within themselves, including all victims. my hearts go out to the families who lost family members from suicide and murder in this story. either way, nothing is what it seems, and there was clearly some underlying issues going on. much love to everyone, especially to azeal for allowing the individual to share her story within a safe space on vrchat.
as a side note, it seems my previous comment was censored by youtube themselves, nothing in it was really bad, just expressing mixed feelings on the matter and all of that, but it did have some words that youtube seems to hate for whatever reason. regardless, i had no idea it was censored till recently, so hopefully this one sticks.
edit: yea it stuck. in the comment that got deleted by youtube i expressed mixed feelings and was prepared to update the comment with my final thoughts. and here i am making a new comment because again, a few words were said that youtube hates for some reason.
so my final thoughts are in the first 2 paragraphs.
"there was clearly some underlying issues going on"
That is my suspicion as well.
The passing mention of the suicide-victim having mentioned being abused and r*ped a lot of times, might be the cornerstone behind this whole ordeal.
I cannot imagine someone going so far over mere black humor.
So my strong suspicion is, that she was right about all of the things she said, but nobody took it seriously and dismissed it as a joke or being dramatic.
While the only voices who did believe her, encouraged murder.
So yeah, she was doomed from the start.
And I think that even if the murder never happened, the suicide probably would've happened regardless.
Unless someone in her life finally decided to take her seriously and handle it all in a healthy, productive way.
@@paragonyoshi4237 that's the sad thing about rape victims, nobody takes em seriously.
@@Zeakthecat Yeah.
I feel like we can blame manipulative women, falsely accusing other men, for that.
It's one thing that disgusts me to this day and sadly negatively affects the credibility of genuine victims as well.
It's a vicious cycle. :(
@paragonyoshi4237 I don't believe all the blame should be placed on the very, VERY few people who lie about SA. Society has always viewed the word of women as inferior to men. We live in a patriarchal hierarchy that laughs off, ignores, and covers up violence against women (and any vulnerable group). SA is not taken seriously just because sometimes people lie, but because the entire system is built to shield men from responsibility.
@@ChromaClio I don't believe it's the whole truth, that the system is built to shield men from responsibility.
Manipulative women seem to get away with their shite just as easily. :(
And it honestly just seems like a natural consequence to me, that SA victims aren't taken seriously by many, because of those witches.
Frightening
The murder stuff was fucked up, but the social discussion really stung because as a weird person people have cut ties with me for being concerning.
EDIT: not for murder, but like, su****e planning and activities.
More lore, because where else to dump:
I had a classmate that invited me to a gc with her friends. I tried so hard to become friends with the others, but they only had a time once a year or so to include me via the @everyone ping. Nobody knew me, I one one tether in a group of dozens of close friends. I was hopeful, but it didn't work out because I wasn't really included in the really course of their true friendships. They would hang out. I would not hang out with them even if I tried.
I'm now struggling to figure out how to talk to people in class about stuff, I am locked up in terms of creativity, and I am suicidal. They are hanging out without me. I'm always the unwanted weird one.
This was a rough one, oof...
Jesus Christ make this a novel
What a horror story...holy crap. :/ All this over money and perceived slights.
Ya'll out here doing the dirty work. Will always support your work Az.
OMG TEMMIE FROM UNDERTAIL
I apologize if this is said somewhere, but is there a video of the whole end credit song? And if so could I get the name?
BRO can next time cam you link the music in the description please?
I wonder what kind of psychopaths click the dislike button on Azeal's videos?
For the algorithm.
Hey I voted for this one!
what world is this
Wow. TH-cam really doesn’t like you. You completely disappeared from my feed and I forgot I was subscribed to you completely.
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Interesting
Rookies
You guys never befriended some one who has killed a man before? Weird
Typical NPC dialogue from Cruelty Squad be like:
Commenting for thw algorithm!!
WE HAVE DISCOVERED THE NEXT TED BUNDY WHICH IS NOT A GOOD THING
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I couldn't agree more
@@coffing45 real
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I fakin can’t watch these videos, I can help people get outta difficult life situations but not watch a video of things going downhill…