journaling through heartbreak

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  • Hey everyone. This is obviously a very different video than what I typically upload, but I decided to make it in hopes of helping anyone that's going through something similar. This is an extremely difficult video to share with the world, and I ask that you please don't leave any hateful comments on this video or others. I also wanted to thank you all in advance for respecting my privacy moving forward.
    The first half of this video has a lot of narrating/explanation since I hadn't thought to make this video yet, and the second half turns into more of a vlog-style video.
    For anyone going through a breakup or any other hard time, I'm sending so much love and support your way. I truly hope that this video can be of some benefit to you whether it helps make you feel less alone, gives you a little bit of advice, or shows you a way that you can journal through heartbreak.
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  • @CarrieWalker
    @CarrieWalker  2 ปีที่แล้ว +295

    Hey guys, I’m reading every one of your comments, and I appreciate it all very much! I do want to clarify that I don’t think he’s a bad guy at all. We’re at different stages right now, and I don’t want any negativity directed towards him! I love you all lots, and thanks again for all of the thoughtful comments and support❤️❤️

    • @aliyaazad3018
      @aliyaazad3018 2 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      You are so welcome ❤️. I promise that we are all here for you. I can’t speak from experience because I have never been in a relationship, but I hope you feel better. We luv you so much!!

    • @Galaxygirl-tg5mb
      @Galaxygirl-tg5mb 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      th-cam.com/video/9vDdx1dba6c/w-d-xo.html&ab_channel=dodieVEVO

    • @winkywinko8272
      @winkywinko8272 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      You have an army of support always to have your back ❤️
      From the colonels, to the lieutenants, we all give you our support ❤️ vive le journaling army!

    • @KahliaRoberts2639
      @KahliaRoberts2639 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Your welcome Carrie ❤️we all love you ❤️

    • @yomama745
      @yomama745 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      stay strong carrie!!!❤️

  • @parisgbrl
    @parisgbrl 2 ปีที่แล้ว +275

    Guys can we please drop a “virtual hug” chain for Carrie?👇

  • @lisaberberian4062
    @lisaberberian4062 2 ปีที่แล้ว +180

    My son lost his battle to cancer 16 months ago. He was 21. Journaling is definitely a way to process our pain. Wish my words were a balm for your heart, but pain is something we learn to live with. Love you!! ❤️

    • @CarrieWalker
      @CarrieWalker  2 ปีที่แล้ว +68

      Wow, thank you so much for sharing. I can’t even begin to imagine sheer amount of pain you and your family have. I’m sending so much love to you!❤️

    • @josephinbindhu2099
      @josephinbindhu2099 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I am feeling sorry

    • @Forest_fairy710
      @Forest_fairy710 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I hope you are healing

    • @NicolieWebby
      @NicolieWebby 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      I am so sry

    • @bunnyose
      @bunnyose 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I'm so sorry. Please continue to heal.

  • @jazzy1120
    @jazzy1120 2 ปีที่แล้ว +45

    Listen she showed apart of herself today, it is beautiful. Do not take advantage of her in an toxic way.

  • @joleneblake7807
    @joleneblake7807 ปีที่แล้ว +35

    My sister was murdered when I was 7 and journaling popped into my life then. I pretended my journal was my sister and this was my way of talking to her but I didn't journal daily at all. I suck at that but coming across your channel makes me want to try because journaling is so powerful. I hope your doing okay Carrie

    • @mialulli5767
      @mialulli5767 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      ❤❤❤

    • @Lucyyyyyy23
      @Lucyyyyyy23 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I can’t even imagine the trauma you went through at such a young age I hope that you have mostly healed and hope the monster that done that to your sister is locked away so they cannot hurt anyone else I’m sending love to you and hope you are ok now 🫶🏻

    • @joleneblake7807
      @joleneblake7807 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@Lucyyyyyy23 I'm as ok as I can be I miss her greatly still and holidays hurt but I'm living

    • @Lucyyyyyy23
      @Lucyyyyyy23 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@joleneblake7807 I'm sending love to you and your family and wish you well in your journey of healing 🫶🏻

    • @taliw7736
      @taliw7736 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Wow so glad you have been able to journal to help 😢

  • @P_Unicorn
    @P_Unicorn 2 ปีที่แล้ว +256

    Your future husband could be balling his eyes out to because he also went through a break up. You’ll find each other and you will know it is meant to be. God always has a reason on why these things happen, and if you ever feel lonely, he is always with you. He loves you, he created you. And you also have over 60k people who love you no matter what. Stay strong ❤️💕

    • @BluPickles_
      @BluPickles_ 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I should probably be focusing on the video but now I can’t get the image of “balling eyes out” out of My head…

    • @thunderwolf4155
      @thunderwolf4155 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Yes, Jesus always had a plan! Our God loves you, me and everyone. I will pray for you

    • @CocoWoof
      @CocoWoof 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Yeah you go girl! 😄💖

    • @p.l.5531
      @p.l.5531 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      U r so right thank u for helping her

    • @diary1998
      @diary1998 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@paulwoodford1984 wtf that's not cringed at all what do you expect. To hold her emotions

  • @siesiehaycraft4699
    @siesiehaycraft4699 2 ปีที่แล้ว +143

    are you ok? Sorry you're going through something really tough. we love you

  • @GroovingFlowerChild
    @GroovingFlowerChild 2 ปีที่แล้ว +46

    Your vulnerability in this video is so raw and open and beautiful. It is so selfless of you to put something like this out there in hopes to help even one person. You are such an inspiration in SO MANY ways. You are going to find someone equally as wonderful and beautiful as you!!

  • @zamimus1c
    @zamimus1c 2 ปีที่แล้ว +37

    I just got over a friend "breakup" that happened about a year ago and it really helped me even more to see that I'm not the only one who's been through this pain. For most of the time I was trying to get over it I felt like my feelings weren't valid and that I was just trying to get attention but now that I'm mostly over it I'm thinking "why did I think that? Literally no one knew I was suffering. I told no one." I really wish I had a video like this when I was working through emotions because it would've been so helpful. (:

  • @crxft1ue416
    @crxft1ue416 2 ปีที่แล้ว +42

    I know exactly how it feels, I went through such an extremely hard breakup, that was so very toxic, so controlling, and everything that was said still hurts me months after it all happened. I struggled with my mental health after we broke up, he kept me together for so long, and that’s when everything truly went downhill. He started being toxic and controlling, and I started spiraling. I couldn’t hold the weight on my heart together anymore. I became depressed, had major anxiety, and it was a nightmare. It felt impossible to do anything. Slowly, I started to heal. Another guy came into my life surprisingly quickly, and he taught me to love again. He started healing my heart, and even though I still have anxiety, I’ve been doing a lot better. I’m still trying to control my bad habits I had developed, and I’m still healing. But I got through it. I got through hiding my feelings. I got through the long days of feeling lonely.
    And you know what, I’m okay. And you are going to be okay. Take every little thing you do as an accomplishment. Every morning you get out of bed. Every day you eat one meal. Every sip of water you drink.
    Trust me, you can get through this. Even if you do it by yourself, learn to be proud of those small accomplishments. Every two steps forward might equal a step backwards, but even if you feel like everything is impossible, and the world is against you, you have to find something to be proud of yourself for every day.
    Don’t focus on the negative things, but the positive sunny days, the pretty way the sun shines through the trees, sunsets, the smell after it rains. You got this okay? Trust me.
    Comment down below the one thing you’ve done today that you are proud of. And please if you need to vent, DM me. Talk to a friend, don’t have any friends…? Here’s my Instagram (@liliagerlach) I’ll be your friend. I’ll check up on you. I’ll send you cute posts to make you smile. Thanks for reading all of this, never forget that you matter. 🦋🤍

    • @coconutwaffle4999
      @coconutwaffle4999 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      You’re so lovely🥺❤️🤧

    • @crxft1ue416
      @crxft1ue416 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@coconutwaffle4999 aw thank you

  • @ella1196
    @ella1196 2 ปีที่แล้ว +76

    Stay strong carrie you will find someone great just like you. We are all with you ❤️❤️❤️

  • @courtney5686
    @courtney5686 2 ปีที่แล้ว +53

    Carrie, thank you for sharing such a personal and emotional experience. Heartbreak is such a private and lonely thing and I'm so glad you have a coping mechanism to help you through it. You've always been here for all of us and now it's our turn to help you. You aren't alone; we're all here for you. Take as much time as you need and take care of yourself. We're proud of you

  • @GothicSarah543
    @GothicSarah543 2 ปีที่แล้ว +37

    I am sorry to hear that hun.
    stay strong.

  • @badgerbadger-badger-Poppy
    @badgerbadger-badger-Poppy 2 ปีที่แล้ว +28

    Keep your head up. Heartbreaks happen all the time. You will get through this. I believe in you.

  • @ainsleyallen2617
    @ainsleyallen2617 2 ปีที่แล้ว +33

    I havent been in any relationship or breakup but I hope that you get past this heartbreak and im sending love

  • @SJanzen1985
    @SJanzen1985 2 ปีที่แล้ว +29

    When I went through a heartbreak listening to music and watching your videos help me feel better as well as journaling. Hopefully you find someone better I'm sorry to hear that stay strong Carrie.

  • @KahliaRoberts2639
    @KahliaRoberts2639 2 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    I am sorry Carrie I had a break down before I write stuff like this in my diary and I am sorry 😢 I respect your privates honestly

  • @luna_balloona09
    @luna_balloona09 2 ปีที่แล้ว +30

    girlie,, i want to cry for you. i don't have any experience with breakups but i can feel your pain. i hope you can stay strong and just know that you have so many people who are cheering for you. we love you SO SO much, more than you could imagine, and i know you'll get thru this awful time and you'll come out stronger than you ever were before ❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @_Byeol27
    @_Byeol27 2 ปีที่แล้ว +39

    Carrie, don’t cry and don’t worry. Life isn’t perfect, and we all have ups and downs,highs and lows..Know that if you’re loved and that you have your TH-cam family here. We all know how you feel and we understand you..I know how hard this might feel, but don’t better and I know you can get through this and you are going to be stronger! ❤️

  • @a.rosegulick
    @a.rosegulick ปีที่แล้ว +5

    For some reason this video popped up in my feed during my own heartbreak. You are so unbelievably strong for being vulnerable. I know it's been a year, healing is not always linear, but I hope you're doing better.

  • @WriterforLife416
    @WriterforLife416 2 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    It's hard to watch you cry, especially the person who gave me inspiration to write. I hope you'll be okay. Love your inspirational videos. You got this Carrie❤❤❤❤😢

  • @NotKloi
    @NotKloi 2 ปีที่แล้ว +28

    I hope everything gets better for you, and we are always here with you!

  • @malrichmand7815
    @malrichmand7815 2 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    I'm glad you're doing better now. You have helped me see that it is okay not to be okay. Many things have helped me in that department, but this video was truly amazing and so raw. I am so glad you made it! I've never broken up with someone, been in a relationship, but I have been in a very one sided love with my best friend. So I can't imagine what you went through. But thank you Carrie for aiding me in realizing my feelings are valid. It can be very hard sometimes for everyone. I hope you are doing better and keep moving forward, like my favorite quote: "sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest step of your life. Tip toe if you must, but take the step"

  • @xannajanex
    @xannajanex 2 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    You are soooooo sweet and kind like even at your lowest you still think to make a video ro help others ♡ dont push yourself too hard we love you

  • @rosieleaverton
    @rosieleaverton 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I've never gone through a break-up yet, so I can't fully empathize, but I've gone through things that caused me to feel denial and hopelessness and anger and grief, and I know first-hand that it's very hard to keep going. Life can be hard, but it's worth it to try your best and be who you are. I have a hard time asking for help, too, because I feel like I'll be a burden or that people will just see me and help without me asking. But it really does help to talk about it.
    You are a very strong person and I wish you the best.

  • @theperidoritos9086
    @theperidoritos9086 2 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    Hey Carrie! Even though I am aromantic (no romantic feelings or desires), I feel so so sorry for you. I definitely have no idea how it feels, but I just want you to know that everythings going to be okay. Youll find a guy as great as him in the future. You showing us your bad experiences helps us so so much. It makes me feel less alone when im dealing with negative emotions. Stay strong, carrie. 💜

  • @Thanmayalili
    @Thanmayalili 2 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    I don't know how to console someone but I believe in you 🥰 you can do this here is a heart from me because I love you ❤️

  • @fozzco1515
    @fozzco1515 2 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    Love sent from everyone who watches this vid💙 We will always be by your side❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @tarotmumma56
    @tarotmumma56 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Hope you are OK. I went through a bad break up after 6 years. It gets better. You will be ok and find someone perfect for you.

  • @puppylover5621
    @puppylover5621 2 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    Carrie, I am so sorry for your breakup, don't worry, we are all here for you to cheer you up!

  • @akayziarutling7555
    @akayziarutling7555 2 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    It’s okay. We’re all in this together and you’re never alone. I’m always here to support you.

  • @uknown_505
    @uknown_505 2 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    Everyone goes through this at least once in their life time.. Stay strong queen and know that we all love you and will no matter what 💕❤️

  • @mothyclothy849
    @mothyclothy849 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    i hope you’re ok in the end ❤️ make sure you take care of yourself :(

  • @tallulahpauline3327
    @tallulahpauline3327 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    I’m sorry Carrie that you’re going through this, I’m also having a hard time with life. My attackers (brother and his wife) came to finally apologize to me after two years (because my parents made them). It was hard for me to get through that today. I told them what I thought (in a harsh way), but I accepted their “apologies”. I’ve been crying and journaling most of my night. I know about protecting yourself and your heart, I’ve been fighting that for a long time. I still feel like I’m fighting for myself but it’s hard when you feel like everyone is against you.
    Ps: I remember my first break up, it was awfully messy. He is a nice guy, but it didn’t work out. I cried for a week straight, my friends really helped. Eventually you’ll find someone for you. For me, I started talking to a guy recently, and he’s been really good to me. I talked to him today about everything that happened and he made me feel better about myself. Everything is going okay now, but I’m still hurting and that part will be there for a bit. Takes time to heal.

  • @emmmmas
    @emmmmas 2 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Hi Carrie, I hope you know we'll be here with you the whole way. I can't speak from experience, but I know how difficult it must be. Thank you for sharing this and other emotional experiences with us. It really shows what might be going on in other peoples' lives outside of what they show on camera. I love you so much. Stay strong Carrie, you _will_ get through this.

  • @Teiyun
    @Teiyun 2 ปีที่แล้ว +50

    Lets all appreciate that she still makes videos thru this . We love you Carrie

  • @Duckling863
    @Duckling863 2 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    I'm so happy that you shared this to us and I just want you to know we're in this with you 🙂❤️.

  • @lillyhope7
    @lillyhope7 2 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    I cried right there with you. This came at the perfect time. Your pain is so valid and I just want to let you know that you are helping so many people. This helped me so much.

  • @islaizzy
    @islaizzy 2 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    carrie, just know that we all support you in your journey and all that you go through. you are not alone, and I really hope that you feel better soon

  • @wolfgirl3677
    @wolfgirl3677 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Aww Carrie❤ I have had my heart broken many times before, not just by my exes. You are a strong women and you will get through this ❤ You will get through this and I know the feeling that you will never be happy again but you will! Hope you feel better, and I am thinking of you❤❤❤❤❤

  • @adriancoyle4701
    @adriancoyle4701 2 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    We’re right here with you I hope you get trough this. ❤️❤️❤️ stay strong

  • @drunktatoe
    @drunktatoe 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    hope you are doing better now, i know this must have been so hard but you still remembered to take care of yourself and took your time to heal. sending much much love and hugs

  • @randomburntbeans2243
    @randomburntbeans2243 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I was journaling and it helped me realize how toxic my past relationship was. I realized it wasn’t good for me so I left. Journaling really helps me see my problems from a different perspective and look back on the way I felt.

  • @narnia-mazerunner-fan
    @narnia-mazerunner-fan 2 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    I'm so sorry Carrie stay strong 😁hope you feel better soon

  • @Nora-qb7op
    @Nora-qb7op 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Hey Carrie I've been your silent viewer since last year. Sending you lots of hugs and love. You're indeed beautiful and loved. You'll get through this, i believe you will. Anyway i have been journaling since march 29 last year, all because of you and it has been great, going through life with pen and paper. Take care, i love you🤍

  • @Sanjhi_07
    @Sanjhi_07 2 ปีที่แล้ว +22

    Journaling is an emotion 🥺💜

    • @Zainahhassan__
      @Zainahhassan__ ปีที่แล้ว

      I like that but can you explain it more

    • @morriii.
      @morriii. ปีที่แล้ว

      @@Zainahhassan__ i think they might have meant that journaling can get so rooted into your routines that it can almost feel like a mindset. Either that or possibly journaling is a way to process your emotions

  • @chenellelamb5164
    @chenellelamb5164 2 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    I'm so sorry Carrie about what happened.

  • @g0rem00ns
    @g0rem00ns ปีที่แล้ว +3

    i felt soo bad watching her cry and journal, this hurt my heart. YOU ARE STRONGER THAN YOU THINK CARRIE!!!

  • @UnderTheHem
    @UnderTheHem 2 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    I love you so much!!!! I am so sorry!!!! We are here for you!❤️❤️❤️ I love that you are showing how you are getting better.

    • @UnderTheHem
      @UnderTheHem 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      “It takes time to grow.” -Carrie Walker. The best advice for anyone.

  • @Natalie-ym8pj
    @Natalie-ym8pj ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I'm 53. My daughter is 22 and going through her first heartbreak. I can't believe how it has brought us closer. I always tell her it's just a different heartache. You feel like you are dying and you want to. But you WILL get past it. It's a part of life for most people. And it never gets any easier no matter our age. But sometimes better things happen.

  • @Galaxygirl-tg5mb
    @Galaxygirl-tg5mb 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I'm sorry you're going through this. You are so much stronger than you think you are. I had covid a few months back and that's when I found your videos

  • @Imacoquetterat
    @Imacoquetterat 2 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Don't worry I know this is tough but we are here with you and we love you :)

  • @jazlucy
    @jazlucy 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    this will make you stronger! much love

  • @claudiah.2736
    @claudiah.2736 2 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    Carrie, I appreciate you sharing something so vulnerable.❤️ I’m sorry you had such a tough time.

  • @Ella-diy722
    @Ella-diy722 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I'm so sorry Carrie, I hope you feel better soon! We all love You!!!
    And more importantly God loves you SO MUCH and that will never change!
    I'll be praying for you!!

  • @mylaabellana5004
    @mylaabellana5004 2 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    We are all here with you don't worry

  • @isamezz
    @isamezz 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    I'm so sorry Carrie, I hope you get better and have a normal life and not sad
    I felt that you had a sad voice and it just broke me. I just want to say that we love you ❤

  • @annathompson3034
    @annathompson3034 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability in this video, Carrie. I’m so sorry you have gone through this tough time. Heartbreak is awful. But you are starting to come out the other side with grace, healing, and strength. I wish you the best as you continue to heal. ❤️

  • @quackwackers3621
    @quackwackers3621 2 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    Girl girl girl ughhh heart break hearts it really does. I went through one last year it’s been 1year and a couple months. It was so hard. I’ll be so honest with you I cried for months. I stopped crying only after the 10month mark. It was day and night. I remember I actually cried at work. It was my 2week being there aswell. It felt like I had no control over myself. I stopped eating I was truly living off of my tears. I dropped 14kg. Breakups don’t only break your heart but honestly break a part of your soul. It feels like such an over dramatic thing to say. It fucking changes you from the inside out. Staying awake was so hard for me aswell. Sleeping was my only escape from the pain, but I learnt the hard way you can’t sleep through pain and trauma. It’s got to be felt otherwise it just builds up and up until bang a million and more feelings wash over you that you avoided.
    Heartbreak pain is not like any physical pain I’ve ever experienced. You can’t take painkillers for it you can’t put a plaster on it. It’s just there…the only thing you can do is cry and accept the days as they come. You’ll have days where you feel like you’re completely over it and that if your ex fell down and broke his nose you’d feel absolutely nothing and other days you actually just want to die as dramatic as it does sound. You’ll probably question why and how. Just know everything happens for a reason.
    You’ll most certainly go through the 7 stages.Denial and bargaining are usually the hardest to pass. You may circle back to it a couple times and that’s okay. It’s also okay to be angry, fuck it even write a pros and cons list about them. Things they did that made you furious but you never spoke about to them completely trash them if you must. Then ask yourself if all the cons about them you tolerated was worth the pros.
    You will have questions you’ll probably never have answers to and that’s okay do not under ANY CIRCUMSTANCE go and ask him the whys or ask him any questions. It honestly doesn’t matter what they say it’ll hurt. Talking to your ex is like walking back into a house that was on fire that you had already escaped from and expecting to not get burnt and hurt again. Now I’m not sure the circumstances of the breakup I honestly don’t think it matters because a breakup hurts regardless of how it happened. Don’t let anyone tell you to just get over it or try and invalidate your very much so valid feelings. Move at your own pace. You will honestly appreciate your alone time more and will have so much more of an appreciation for it.
    Remember journaling comes in many different forms. I found it so hard to journal on paper. My mind was moving so much quicker then my hand could write. You should dabble in video diaries. It gives your wrist a bit of rest too lol. I know you included a few snippets of you talking but it was more directed at us. Try talking to the camera like you’re talking to the future you a year from now that no longer cries herself to sleep and no longer has him as a first thought when she wakes up. It’s “self therapy” I guess. Also block them on like everything. It’s okay if you stalk them here and there on a burner account. You will stop eventually. It’s like a form of self harm if you think about it. No matter what you see it will hurt. If they are happy and posting it it will hurt. If you see they’re posting their sad you’ll be pissed there’s no winning.
    It is hard to not reach out to them. Separating from someone you loved or love isn’t only saying goodbye there and then, but removing them from your future plans that you imagined doing with them and forfeiting all the future plans you made with them. Letting go of the things you never had sucks. The future house,kids and just any plans. They don’t exist yet and now you’ve got accept it actually never will be now. It is so painful. You don’t really realise how intertwined they are in your life until its over.
    Take it easy on yourself. I made a playlist as I was going through my breakup it’s on my TH-cam account. I’ll make it public for you. Please please please use it. I honestly wish I had something like that when I was going through my breakup. Love you girl 💛
    If you do want a friend I’m here for you just let me know if you wanna email back and forward. I’m literally here to listen if you need it

  • @rcasp
    @rcasp 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Oh Carrie ❤️ I know exactly how you feel. I went through a breakup a year ago from a relationship that lasted 5 and a half years. So if I can tell you anything, let yourself feel this pain, let it all out. The pain is meant to be felt. You will be okay, just take all the time you need to process and feel your emotions

  • @siimply_ammii7682
    @siimply_ammii7682 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Stay strong girly, I think you'll be able to get through it. Just remember it takes time to grow :) Love you

  • @julieee5668
    @julieee5668 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Im so sorry carrie. I love u. We’re all with you carrie, i wish i could give you a hug right now❤️❤️ i really hope you get better! You have helped me so much when i was going thru a hard times journaling reall6 helped me. I would never have started journaling if it wasn’t for you.

  • @thenortheastcity2317
    @thenortheastcity2317 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I want to give u the biggest hug!
    I have always picked at my acne too. Such a bad habit but could never break it.

  • @StarDust-pn7ex
    @StarDust-pn7ex 2 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    I want to hug you so badly right now and say that everything will be alright

    • @ezzyr9959
      @ezzyr9959 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@paulwoodford1984 shut up

    • @loloabass1133
      @loloabass1133 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@paulwoodford1984 its not cringe you are cringe

    • @diary1998
      @diary1998 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      ​@@paulwoodford1984 ok and ? Like you have no idea what she was going through.

  • @saradarwish8418
    @saradarwish8418 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Oh my dear carrie .I'm so sorry for you . Please take a break from reading comments trust me it's best for you and feel free to have as much food as you like 😉💞 remember we're all here for you . Dont feel like you MUST post all the time take a long break 💕 you deserve it 💕💕

  • @ryleagafford1712
    @ryleagafford1712 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I’ve been through it too. :( I’m so sorry that ur going through this. Just know that ur not alone and that we are here for u. I’ve been sad for Years from this heartbreak, so I definitely know how u feel. But just know that ur a strong person, u got this, u can get through this. We’re here for u ❤️💕. Btw: Also Hope u get better through Covid , I’ve also been through that too.

  • @CouchPotat_IsGay
    @CouchPotat_IsGay 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I have also experienced a heartbreak before, and its okay to feel lonely. Its not always easy to be able to accept the fact that you have broken up with someone, but no matter what, we are always here for you if you need/want help or support. We love you ❤️

  • @Daughter_of_Neptune
    @Daughter_of_Neptune 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I’m so sorry. You are such an amazing person. I hope you get thru this. ❤️❤️❤️

  • @SageH-xl8iu
    @SageH-xl8iu 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This is the first video of yours I've seen, and coincidentally, I also just went through a breakup. My ex partner and I were only together for 2 months so it was by no means as bad as your experience, but it still hurts. Your video is really helping me through this. You're already dealing with this WAY more maturely than I dealt with my first huge heartbreak in high school. I know I'm a stranger, but I just wanted to tell you I'm so proud of you. For coping as healthily as you're coping, and especially for being so honest with your audience, because your genuineness REALLY helps. It helps all of us realize that we really aren't alone, because often people on the internet only share their highest, proudest, most productive moments. You are a beautiful soul and you deserve to be loved by you, first and foremost, but by others too. It might help to think of your ex as just a stepping stone to prepare you for the type of relationship that is really right for you. Sending love and healing vibes. ❤️❤️❤️

  • @Pearlh2k
    @Pearlh2k 2 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    I hope ur ok. We r here for u! ❤️

  • @yashaviupwanshi9104
    @yashaviupwanshi9104 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    So sorry it going through all of this but everything will be okay so pls take care❤️

  • @thebookreviewmania4960
    @thebookreviewmania4960 2 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    Dw sis we're with you! ❤️

  • @sarahkallbrier5734
    @sarahkallbrier5734 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I feel your pain. I’m currently dealing the loss of a breakup. I loved him but, things weren’t meant to bed. I started journaling a day or so after we broke up. I know with time we will heal. Keep it up!

  • @noelle5268
    @noelle5268 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I am so sorry Carrie!! We all love you and we’re here for you 🤍🤍

  • @kirbygirldiamond7582
    @kirbygirldiamond7582 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Thx so much for taking the time to make this video despite the rough time your going through. We’re with you always, and no hatred goes to anyone. Sometimes it happens and we’ll be here for you every step of the way.

  • @juliamccormack7273
    @juliamccormack7273 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    remember not getting what you want can be a wonderful stroke of luck
    love u so much saty strong

  • @annikakampe08
    @annikakampe08 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I am so so so sorry Carrie, you are an amazing person and I know that you will find somebody so so perfect for you. You don't always find them first try.
    We all love and appreciate you Carrie, and no matter what you're going through, just know that 60,000+ people love and care about you.
    WE LOVE YOU CARRIE!

  • @akayziarutling7555
    @akayziarutling7555 2 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    I’ve never been through a break up but someday I will & I know how hard it is. You guys are look so cute together but always be friends.

  • @shawnacarter946
    @shawnacarter946 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I'm going through a breakup myself right now. Journaling is so helping me to get through this right now. I so understand how you are feeling. We will get through this. Prayers up for you and me.

  • @munchroom9214
    @munchroom9214 2 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Don't worry Carrie we're with you!

    • @munchroom9214
      @munchroom9214 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Atlast shes still sllighly smileing right now

  • @journaltime8323
    @journaltime8323 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Its ok. We are all here for and we will keep supporting you. Hope you get better💖

  • @ChrissyCrossing412
    @ChrissyCrossing412 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    You have been so very brave through all this and I’m so proud of you. Heartbreak is hard, it being honest really sucks and to share this takes so much courage. You are the reason i bullet journal, have a diary, and started a blog/vlog channel. You’ve inspired me so much and I wouldn’t be who i am without your influence. Never forget all the good you do with your videos, you are strong and we love you so so much. Now go out there and show the world who’s boss! {and keep making wonderful videos and inspiring us your loyal fans} Love, Theloveleyjane
    P.s you’ve got this

  • @daniela68349
    @daniela68349 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Awh I hope u will find the true love of your life

  • @rachel.20117
    @rachel.20117 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Its okay Carrie even though youre sad youll get better and just know we're here for you💖
    Edit: 4 months later I hope you recovered💗

  • @BBAmazing
    @BBAmazing 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    You are Strong and brave you will get through this

  • @fatimafarooqi7985
    @fatimafarooqi7985 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    It's ok carrie I'm sad for u 😔 but were with u dont worry

  • @cutiespie6759
    @cutiespie6759 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Carrie it's totally ok to break down when u get imotional sad and i hope u heal fast without any more sadness i have never been in a realitionship so i dont know how it feels but i hope the breakup was the best desicion for u both so u guys choose it i really really hope u heal over the breakup we always luv u and are by ur side💜💫

  • @coolperson5515
    @coolperson5515 2 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    STAY STRONG 💪
    carrie!!

  • @iskakayippieyaya1700
    @iskakayippieyaya1700 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Oh my gosh I feel so bad I hope everything gets better for you Carrie and just know you are amazing ❤❤❤

  • @shannonnordhaus838
    @shannonnordhaus838 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thank you for sharing. You are one beautiful young woman. You’ll find your Prince Charming one day. ☺️

  • @wolfthing13
    @wolfthing13 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Stay strong Carrie, we love you sm 💜

  • @cozyari4521
    @cozyari4521 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    how could he break up with you? its his loss. stay strong carrie.💗💗

  • @georgie2334
    @georgie2334 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Thank you for being so honest Carrie. You are a strong, beautiful person. You have a journaling army behind you. You can get through this and we love you. Stay strong ❤️

  • @aniekeee
    @aniekeee 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    The way you are handling this is so mature and strong. I am so sorry for your heartbreak and wish you the best. You are going to be okay!

  • @siriuslyblack27
    @siriuslyblack27 2 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    Omg , I'm so sorry Carrie . I don't really know what this feels like coz I've never had a boyfriend ( probably coz I'm still only 11 ) . But I really , really, really hope u feel okay soon . Love u

    • @saturn6563
      @saturn6563 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Yeah I really hope you don’t date anytime soon

  • @mr.batman_xoxo.
    @mr.batman_xoxo. 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    im so sorry hun im glad u r staying strong through such a tough time i will be praying for u ❤ and listing to taylor swift helps

  • @Anna-cn1il
    @Anna-cn1il 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    You’re doing so great Carrie and I hope you feel better soon- you deserve the world ❤️

  • @Keerthipatil
    @Keerthipatil 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Loooove u Carrie. It’s soooo sad that u had to go through all that. ❤️❤️❤️

  • @sophiewillis3008
    @sophiewillis3008 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    love you girl stay strong💖💖

  • @GalaxyEditor.x
    @GalaxyEditor.x 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Omg Carrie I really hope you okay. You will get through it. Me and all your fans are here for you. You have made me feel amazing in days I didn’t think I could feel even the slightest bit okay. We all love you and know your aren’t going through this alone ❤️