@@nadine4745 I disagree …it’s NOT “ok to relapse”. One doesn’t relapse if they truly believe they have a problem and are willing to do whatever it takes to stay clean. He could’ve died while using/relapse. We’d never known what happened to him.
Sending love and prayers your way 🙏🏼. Keep fighting my friend. Lean 110% on the Lord, call out to him he will lift you up-he is close to the broken hearted. Your humbleness and honesty is the critical first step, you’ve got this!
You're not alone. I struggled with pain pills for over 20 years. It was a nightmare of a battle. You have an army behind you, we all support you. It's going to be tough, but you can do it if you can get away for a while. I'm really sorry 💔 I'll be thinking of you.
Oh my gosh, that is the best news! I'm in complete shock. You made it through to the other side and defeated Galith! 🎉🎉🎉 Now, you just have to take it one day at a time. It’s not easy; I still have days where I struggle significantly. This can be very challenging and it never truly leaves your mind. Just remember, our brains can lead us to dark places, but you have to shed light on those thoughts and find a way through them. You deserve only the best. You fought hard to get through this, so never give up the fight! Unfortunately, setbacks can happen so if you fall get back up don't roll around on the ground forever, Lol 😆 You tamed the beast, now you just have to learn how to live with the dam thing. . Take care and stay safe
I relapsed also good brutha went about 6 days then i got a stupid idea in my head that one more time and i feel ashamed aswell, im doing what i need to do now also staying connected man. Lets keep trying man you havr my support
*kidS! you have me and the husband also dad, and you have a grandbaby on the way. we all love you immensely and believe in you.. this breaks my heart. you CAN do this !❤️
I love you so much shylynn....so many times I'd wish you had a better dad than me. Wish I could of gave you the world like you deserve instead you got heartache, disappointment an sadness. Damn me for that... you know the true me and my heart and you know when I make a comeback, I make it big. Hoping this will be my last run too. God has something planned for me and its not to die an addict. I love you shy your my heart and I can't live without my heart. I'll be better soon darlin ❤
It’s so hard bro. Don’t stress about it. Just put the next foot in front of the other and start walking the sober path again. Feeling terrible is what you’re supposed to feel like. You got this man. Look forward not backward and keep trying. It’s all you have.
Daniel, Your active addiction is forcing your son to be the adult. I know you love your son. You can do this but you’ll need some help and accountability. I know it’s hard to live in this world clean and sober but Life will get better when you get clean. Your son is worth it. You are worth it.❤
my uncle died from heroin relapse because hed been off it for a month and couldnt handle his old dose. God gives us free will and we are free to make our own choices. its all up to us to make the right choices. Sounds like you're on the right path! i hope you can get with the right crowd. idk if you know any crisis urge techniques or can talk to a therapist regularly but i wish you all the best
Hey Daniel, you’re telling the truth to yourself and your son most importantly. If this helps. I love you and rooting for you. Keep going. One day at a time. Please make sure you seek out community and not isolate. Community in times like this is critical for your mental health . I would also recommend a book called “dopamine nation”. The author details a lot of clients who were struggling with addiction like you and how they fought to get to the other side.
Hey, everyone makes mistakes and have setbacks, not all start over but here you are, starting over and noting mistakes, and that is how we learn. keep it going no matter what.
Blake, I know what your going through, I grew up in an alcoholic/heroin addicted family, I have 3 siblings, and they too are addicts of both. Its tough as a teenager, all that and the normal teenage things you have to endure. Hope both of you find what your looking for.
Addiction took so much away from me and I still struggle to stay sober EVERY single day, I've relapsed a couple of times but you gotta go through it to get through it and we all knew going to Rehab wasn't going to work when we were there you know, we mainly just wanted it for everyone else to be happy but You are ready and you are going to succeed ❤ Idk you but Addicts know when another Addict is really ready. You got this! I'm so PROUD OF YOU for being so vulnerable and owning your shit! ❤
it perfectly alright to just be still~ just sit and breath. thats the only way i know to stay out of trouble. just be still and recognize your thoughts and let them go.
You’re at the bottom which is good. You can definitely do this. I relapsed several times before finally giving up, going back to meetings and working a Program. Hope you have better news next video. ❤
Addiction is a disease, you dont need to hate yourself for being sick. You’re a good man and you being so tough on yourself is proof of it, keep on fighting.
Hey bubba! Just saw your new video and first I want to let you know that it's ok that you relapsed bro, it happens. I relapsed for years until I got on methadone (or subs). If recovering was easy everyone would be doing it but it's not and it takes time. Don't beat yourself up bro just pick yourself back up and keep gettin it. You got to find what works for you. If you need anything reach out bubba. Much love hommie and tell the son I said what's up!
Listen man, you and I will probably never meet in life, but shit I'm rooting for you man. I've been following you for months now, you gotta be a pretty strong person to be this honest about what you're going through with so many strangers. Just wanted to show some love and not be a stranger.
I haven't watched you before, but hey, you spoke the truth. That's the best "new beginning" you can have. Relapsing isn't the end. This is not easy! How do i know?? Because I too am an addict 😢. Was diagnosed with fibromyalgia and the pills have got me. Hang in there and I'm praying for you 🙏💜
I was concerned about that very much. It's understandable, That shit is a true monster and you know it. Shake it off, forgive yourself and get back on track. You can do it!
You just got a fight through every struggle, brother no matter how bad it hurts how much your body is telling you that you gotta have it you have to make that decision to say fuck you and suffer through the pain man at the end of that road it’ll be worth all the fucking pain you went through
You're being honest with yourself now and everyone else and accepting accountability... That's a great step in the right direction! You can do this, man! You got it in you! Go to your AA or NA meetings. Talk to your sponsor. If you don't have one, get one!
I'm personal friends with Dan and I know he is trying. Just scared to go through what most of us have been through sobriety is very tough with the world in its current shape .
You’re holding yourself accountable now. That’s what matters. Go to detox. Get in treatment, iop or 90 meetings in 90 days. And find a sponsor. It’s hard. I’m with ya. I’m doing my best too. I’ve been away from my kids and now I’m working my way back. Get yourself help before you have to get your kid back or die. Life is too short. You got this. Don’t be afraid of detox. Don’t suffer through withdrawals. There is no point. Let the professionals help. You gotta surrender to sobriety. Good luck. There is life after addiction!
Don't dwell on it, get up and try again, we appreciate ya honesty. Sadly God does not take away addiction... He wants you to give it up to show you love him more. Yu can do it... I am still trying to aswell.
Dude, I honestly thought of not watching anymore because of political shit but for whatever reason you popped up on the feed and I saw relapse and my heart broke. Listening to you though, you have such a good heart and I truly believe what you say about wanting to be better. I just can't turn my back when I feel you need all the support you can get right now. I think you are right about the medication and time away. I still believe you can do this and you are still an inspiration to me for being a man and admitting you faults and trying like hell to be more for your son. You are so lucky he hasn't turn his back on you because that is truly the worst pain I've ever felt. Please be strong for yourself but most important that boy.
Ashley, I am very sorry for lying. You've been very supportive for a minute and was worried about y'all thats been there... even if our political views are different that's okay!!!! We all should STILL love each regardless...you see how something brings us together as friends despite different views?!?! THATS what we need to do.... is find the commonality between us instead of differences. Extremely blessed to have your support and not to have lost ya!! Thank you my friend
@@danielbradford1501 you are so right, and I'm very happy to call you my friend despite differences, finding those similarities. You are in my thoughts and I look forward to witnessing you conquer this beast, cause I know you can.
Man, it happens. The important thing is not to let it beat you down! you are in control of your life. The only way this shit is going to win is if you allow it you have the strength to overcome this and you will be successful regardless what you think everyone else thinks that’s not even important believe in yourself you can do this shit get up on that motherfucking horse again, this shit!
Daniel, I’m sorry i haven’t been on much I’m dealing w/ health issues. But you’re being honest now. I could neverrrr hate u. It’s ok that u relapsed it’s apart of “ the struggle “. I feel horrible for u. This is one of the HARDEST THINGS TO DO!!!!!!!!! This is a BATTLE. DO NOT BE ASHAMED!! Plse no. Being an addict is EXTREMELY DIFFICULT. PLSE DONT BE TO HARD ON YOURSELF. We love u. And plse NEVER EVER call yourself a junkie. No you are not Junkie. You’re human. Some people don’t get that addiction is a disease. You’re holding yourself accountable that’s speaks volumes. I wish I could send u a hug 🫂. It will be alright. No need to apologize. Oh Blake buddy you are so mature. You’re understanding & I love the way you think & talk. I get it too Blake. I hear u!!! It’s tough. Change for me is scary & im 50. Stay strong & positive. I’m sending loving vibes, strength, & prayers 🙏from NJ 🫂💜
its alright brother opiod addiction is a real battle ive been here since pretty much the beginning and still havent got sober but you got a reason too i dont i support you bro your ready to quit
I totaly get your comment❤I've been a heroin addict since I was 25yrs old&I was 51yrs old on the 20th of July, In all my 20+yrs of addiction I've worked in my family business,I own my own home but have no money as I spend most of what i earn on my addiction,Up until the end of February the only person that knew of my addiction was my brother who lived with me for 20yrs&was also a heroin addict since he was 18yrs old&if he hadn't of died on the 18th of March he would of been 47yrs old on the 14th of July,he collapsed at home&I had to give him CPR till the paramedics arrived,our mum lives a mile away&she got here just b4 the paramedics &due to the seriousness of Martins condition I had to tell them that he was a heroin addict&had been snorting due to fucking up his lungs thru smoking it to start with&then 10yrs of intravenous use,so I had to tell my mum about my addiction to it as well,so whatever your reason for saying you don't have the reasons to get sober that Daniel does,I get why u say that,I'm childless &also think like u...much love being sent Yr way...❤🥰🇬🇧
My brother, I will be praying for you every damn day for you to beat this demon. You can't fight these demons if you still enjoy the company though. I promise on everything I love the 34 days I have sober today I couldn't feel any better. I know exactly what you're feeling and what you're going through my friend. And you do have a reason. Maybe you just don't know it yet. But you've been alive this long for a reason maybe it's to save others from addiction with your story. To help get you in a detox or rehab if you ever
We had a slight setback getting up there due to poor planning so we are right outside the mountains in the last towns Safeway parking lot waiting for a few more bucksbto hit my account then we'll have a bit more fuel money to hit the road!! Love y'all!!
ok. thats bad. you screwed us but you mostly screwed yourself. but you know what, now you did the right thing and told it how it is, now you were honest, that was your choice in the end here, to be honest. you still have the will to do it, you just gotta find a way that works. but as you said, the fight is not 3 days, not at all, the fight will be alot longer. but it's worth it.
You have nothing to be sorry about addiction is a bitch. I battled it for 10 years you owe nobody an apology. This is about you and you only you can do this shit brother.
I'm here for you! You need to come to Oregon and stay for a couple weeks If you can. I have a couple acres. It's a special place for any and all who wants to be better today than yesterday. That's all we can do. Take it one day at a time. Don't hate yourself. Do me a favor.. I would like for you to look at yourself in a mirror in your eyes and say I love you and do it once in the morning and before bedtime. It works. I had to do that. It's hard at first but you keep on doing that and it will get easier. You know love yourself, God loves you. Don't feel ashamed. Love and respect yourself ! It will help you! I'm here for you! I've been around all types of addiction all my life. But you are hurting and know that you're not alone. Come to Oregon, and we will support you. I had to with my older two while they dealt with their addiction. I have 3 kids, and 2 were addicts or are. It's hard, but i love them.Then there were others. God loves you! One day at a time. Remember that. Love and Peace and prayers to you!
@danielbradford1501 remember you always sisters and brothers in Christ. We should always be there to help those who want and need help. Love one another as we love ourselves. It's a beautiful piece of property we have. No drama and lots of love and acceptance. Just to keep that in your thoughts, if you need a place to go, just to regroup and grow within yourself for the better. If you need anyone to talk to or you are overwhelmed, I am here!
Hey man don’t beat yourself up It’s a fucking hard mental ride to do the totally clean road Believe me l know how hard it is Bro the best way l have found to not use is the sub route
I knew that was way too easy for you. I’ve detoxed 3 times and transitioned to Subs and had to be hospitalized each time because they were so bad. Vomiting, shitting myself and anxiety from hell. Not good for your son to see you that sick and will scare him.i jumped on methadone and it’s way easier and BETTER than subs. Subs were intended for oxys and hydrocodone. Not for the massive monster called fentanyl. When I saw your video of how good you were doing I was like WTF it took me a fuking month to get adjusted where methadone no withdrawals nearly dying switching over.
Brother I get it. U don't know me but I mean it when I say ur first videos I saw hit when I needed most. I'll help in anyway i can. Let me know what u need. My heart hurts for u and I rarely care for strangers cuz im so selfish
Back at you brother....I don't know any of you but those that have been by my side like ya I actually do care.... That's why it also hurt to do this video because I hated lying to u guys and letting you guys down... As well as my son and myself.... Keep your head up buddy. We're all going to be okay
The shame and the guilt is the hardest part. I don't think u let anybody on here down. The opposite actually. It takes real strength to b honest and admit ur fuck ups. Whether u let yourself and Blake down is another question and between u guys. If u need anything reach out
I know exactly what you're saying rhett.... You've helped me more than you know my friend and you got a friend for life and if you need to bounce anything off me or just chat or you feel like using brother please reach out to somebody if not me
Right now the thing you love more is your drugs. Not your son. Go to AA. You don’t need a crutch…suboxone…it’s a deterrent too. Surrender to the fact that you are powerless over drugs. Ask for God’s help. Walk the walk, don’t talk the talk. Go to at least one meeting a day. Your life depends on it. This is no joke. Listen at meetings. Admit you broke your sobriety. Make a commitment to go to any length to stay clean. No exceptions.
@ so happy for you! One day at a time. I know your son is so happy too. Please understand he will still be scared for awhile due to your relapse. Maybe ask him to join you at open meetings so he can attend. And let us know how you are doing. I wish you the best recovery.
I love watching your videos. It takes a real man to admit he has slipped up. Have faith real friends don't leave when things are tough. Love ya man
Hey, you got this. I know how hard this is, please don't give up. It's okay to relapse, just don't stop fighting. ❤
@@nadine4745 I disagree …it’s NOT “ok to relapse”. One doesn’t relapse if they truly believe they have a problem and are willing to do whatever it takes to stay clean. He could’ve died while using/relapse. We’d never known what happened to him.
Accountability is the best thing for personal growth. Hang in there dude. I’ve been where your at 7 months ago.
We all make mistakes. You are taking ownership now and hopefully getting support. ❤
Sending love and prayers your way 🙏🏼. Keep fighting my friend. Lean 110% on the Lord, call out to him he will lift you up-he is close to the broken hearted. Your humbleness and honesty is the critical first step, you’ve got this!
Wow.... watching this with 64 days sober breaks my heart... reminds me of the absolute pain I was in... fuck...😢
Blake, you are an amazing young man.
You're not alone. I struggled with pain pills for over 20 years. It was a nightmare of a battle. You have an army behind you, we all support you. It's going to be tough, but you can do it if you can get away for a while. I'm really sorry 💔 I'll be thinking of you.
I appreciate you...
106 days sober today!! thank you for your support!!
Oh my gosh, that is the best news! I'm in complete shock. You made it through to the other side and defeated Galith! 🎉🎉🎉 Now, you just have to take it one day at a time. It’s not easy; I still have days where I struggle significantly. This can be very challenging and it never truly leaves your mind. Just remember, our brains can lead us to dark places, but you have to shed light on those thoughts and find a way through them.
You deserve only the best. You fought hard to get through this, so never give up the fight! Unfortunately, setbacks can happen so if you fall get back up don't roll around on the ground forever, Lol 😆
You tamed the beast, now you just have to learn how to live with the dam thing.
. Take care and stay safe
I relapsed also good brutha went about 6 days then i got a stupid idea in my head that one more time and i feel ashamed aswell, im doing what i need to do now also staying connected man. Lets keep trying man you havr my support
*kidS! you have me and the husband also dad, and you have a grandbaby on the way. we all love you immensely and believe in you.. this breaks my heart. you CAN do this !❤️
I love you so much shylynn....so many times I'd wish you had a better dad than me. Wish I could of gave you the world like you deserve instead you got heartache, disappointment an sadness. Damn me for that... you know the true me and my heart and you know when I make a comeback, I make it big. Hoping this will be my last run too. God has something planned for me and its not to die an addict. I love you shy your my heart and I can't live without my heart. I'll be better soon darlin ❤
I’m proud of you Dan. ❤️
Aaww thank you my friend!!
It’s so hard bro. Don’t stress about it. Just put the next foot in front of the other and start walking the sober path again. Feeling terrible is what you’re supposed to feel like. You got this man. Look forward not backward and keep trying. It’s all you have.
Daniel, Your active addiction is forcing your son to be the adult. I know you love your son. You can do this but you’ll need some help and accountability. I know it’s hard to live in this world clean and sober but Life will get better when you get clean. Your son is worth it. You are worth it.❤
Thank you my friend
my uncle died from heroin relapse because hed been off it for a month and couldnt handle his old dose. God gives us free will and we are free to make our own choices. its all up to us to make the right choices. Sounds like you're on the right path! i hope you can get with the right crowd. idk if you know any crisis urge techniques or can talk to a therapist regularly but i wish you all the best
I appreciate that brother
Hey Daniel, you’re telling the truth to yourself and your son most importantly. If this helps. I love you and rooting for you. Keep going. One day at a time. Please make sure you seek out community and not isolate. Community in times like this is critical for your mental health .
I would also recommend a book called “dopamine nation”. The author details a lot of clients who were struggling with addiction like you and how they fought to get to the other side.
Thank you my friend and I love you back
Hey, everyone makes mistakes and have setbacks, not all start over but here you are, starting over and noting mistakes, and that is how we learn. keep it going no matter what.
Blake, I know what your going through, I grew up in an alcoholic/heroin addicted family, I have 3 siblings, and they too are addicts of both. Its tough as a teenager, all that and the normal teenage things you have to endure. Hope both of you find what your looking for.
Addiction took so much away from me and I still struggle to stay sober EVERY single day, I've relapsed a couple of times but you gotta go through it to get through it and we all knew going to Rehab wasn't going to work when we were there you know, we mainly just wanted it for everyone else to be happy but You are ready and you are going to succeed ❤ Idk you but Addicts know when another Addict is really ready. You got this! I'm so PROUD OF YOU for being so vulnerable and owning your shit! ❤
Yes!!! What she said ⬆️⬆️⬆️
Sending love and prayers to you and your son. Take it one day at a time. Do this for your son and show him you can beat this!
it perfectly alright to just be still~ just sit and breath. thats the only way i know to stay out of trouble. just be still and recognize your thoughts and let them go.
You’re at the bottom which is good. You can definitely do this. I relapsed several times before finally giving up, going back to meetings and working a Program. Hope you have better news next video. ❤
106 days sober today!!
Addiction is a disease, you dont need to hate yourself for being sick. You’re a good man and you being so tough on yourself is proof of it, keep on fighting.
Hey bubba! Just saw your new video and first I want to let you know that it's ok that you relapsed bro, it happens. I relapsed for years until I got on methadone (or subs). If recovering was easy everyone would be doing it but it's not and it takes time. Don't beat yourself up bro just pick yourself back up and keep gettin it. You got to find what works for you. If you need anything reach out bubba. Much love hommie and tell the son I said what's up!
Listen man, you and I will probably never meet in life, but shit I'm rooting for you man. I've been following you for months now, you gotta be a pretty strong person to be this honest about what you're going through with so many strangers. Just wanted to show some love and not be a stranger.
Thank you brother
I appreciate you my friend... 106 days today!!
I haven't watched you before, but hey, you spoke the truth. That's the best "new beginning" you can have. Relapsing isn't the end. This is not easy! How do i know?? Because I too am an addict 😢. Was diagnosed with fibromyalgia and the pills have got me. Hang in there and I'm praying for you 🙏💜
I appreciate your kind words and support... from the bottom of my heart...thank you my friend
You can do this. Don’t beat yourself up. One day at a time.
I was concerned about that very much. It's understandable, That shit is a true monster and you know it. Shake it off, forgive yourself and get back on track. You can do it!
One day at a time you got this brother!!!!!
The devil finds every opportunity to take you down. Look to God to fight the ways of the devil. Blake loves you. Stating your truth is honorable.
Thumbs Up 👍 and shared out. I knew something was wrong. I appreciate your honesty now. Your son depends on you. What are you going to do now?
Only gotta change one thing, everything lol. Going today to detox
You just got a fight through every struggle, brother no matter how bad it hurts how much your body is telling you that you gotta have it you have to make that decision to say fuck you and suffer through the pain man at the end of that road it’ll be worth all the fucking pain you went through
Thank you my dude I appreciate your comment & kind words.!
You're being honest with yourself now and everyone else and accepting accountability... That's a great step in the right direction! You can do this, man! You got it in you! Go to your AA or NA meetings. Talk to your sponsor. If you don't have one, get one!
I do now!! 106 days sober!!
I'm personal friends with Dan and I know he is trying. Just scared to go through what most of us have been through sobriety is very tough with the world in its current shape .
I appreciate you ray... one of my only real friends. Hope your surgery went ok
You’re holding yourself accountable now. That’s what matters. Go to detox. Get in treatment, iop or 90 meetings in 90 days. And find a sponsor. It’s hard. I’m with ya. I’m doing my best too. I’ve been away from my kids and now I’m working my way back. Get yourself help before you have to get your kid back or die. Life is too short. You got this. Don’t be afraid of detox. Don’t suffer through withdrawals. There is no point. Let the professionals help. You gotta surrender to sobriety. Good luck. There is life after addiction!
Don't dwell on it, get up and try again, we appreciate ya honesty. Sadly God does not take away addiction... He wants you to give it up to show you love him more. Yu can do it... I am still trying to aswell.
Thank you my brother
@danielbradford1501 love from Australia cobber xo
Dude, I honestly thought of not watching anymore because of political shit but for whatever reason you popped up on the feed and I saw relapse and my heart broke. Listening to you though, you have such a good heart and I truly believe what you say about wanting to be better. I just can't turn my back when I feel you need all the support you can get right now. I think you are right about the medication and time away. I still believe you can do this and you are still an inspiration to me for being a man and admitting you faults and trying like hell to be more for your son. You are so lucky he hasn't turn his back on you because that is truly the worst pain I've ever felt. Please be strong for yourself but most important that boy.
Ashley, I am very sorry for lying. You've been very supportive for a minute and was worried about y'all thats been there... even if our political views are different that's okay!!!! We all should STILL love each regardless...you see how something brings us together as friends despite different views?!?! THATS what we need to do.... is find the commonality between us instead of differences. Extremely blessed to have your support and not to have lost ya!! Thank you my friend
@@danielbradford1501 you are so right, and I'm very happy to call you my friend despite differences, finding those similarities. You are in my thoughts and I look forward to witnessing you conquer this beast, cause I know you can.
❤
You got this you gotta believe in your soul that you can do this believe in yourself man and you will fucking conquer this addiction
Man, it happens. The important thing is not to let it beat you down! you are in control of your life. The only way this shit is going to win is if you allow it you have the strength to overcome this and you will be successful regardless what you think everyone else thinks that’s not even important believe in yourself you can do this shit get up on that motherfucking horse again, this shit!
Daniel, I’m sorry i haven’t been on much I’m dealing w/ health issues. But you’re being honest now. I could neverrrr hate u. It’s ok that u relapsed it’s apart of “ the struggle “. I feel horrible for u. This is one of the HARDEST THINGS TO DO!!!!!!!!! This is a BATTLE. DO NOT BE ASHAMED!! Plse no. Being an addict is EXTREMELY DIFFICULT. PLSE DONT BE TO HARD ON YOURSELF. We love u. And plse NEVER EVER call yourself a junkie. No you are not Junkie. You’re human. Some people don’t get that addiction is a disease. You’re holding yourself accountable that’s speaks volumes. I wish I could send u a hug 🫂. It will be alright. No need to apologize. Oh Blake buddy you are so mature. You’re understanding & I love the way you think & talk. I get it too Blake. I hear u!!! It’s tough. Change for me is scary & im 50. Stay strong & positive. I’m sending loving vibes, strength, & prayers 🙏from NJ 🫂💜
You can do it man!!!
you can do this -get in the group meetings
You got this bro!!!
its alright brother opiod addiction is a real battle ive been here since pretty much the beginning and still havent got sober but you got a reason too i dont i support you bro your ready to quit
Of course u have a reason to my friend... everyone does....just gotta find yours right?!
I totaly get your comment❤I've been a heroin addict since I was 25yrs old&I was 51yrs old on the 20th of July,
In all my 20+yrs of addiction I've worked in my family business,I own my own home but have no money as I spend most of what i earn on my addiction,Up until the end of February the only person that knew of my addiction was my brother who lived with me for 20yrs&was also a heroin addict since he was 18yrs old&if he hadn't of died on the 18th of March he would of been 47yrs old on the 14th of July,he collapsed at home&I had to give him CPR till the paramedics arrived,our mum lives a mile away&she got here just b4 the paramedics &due to the seriousness of Martins condition I had to tell them that he was a heroin addict&had been snorting due to fucking up his lungs thru smoking it to start with&then 10yrs of intravenous use,so I had to tell my mum about my addiction to it as well,so whatever your reason for saying you don't have the reasons to get sober that Daniel does,I get why u say that,I'm childless &also think like u...much love being sent Yr way...❤🥰🇬🇧
My brother, I will be praying for you every damn day for you to beat this demon. You can't fight these demons if you still enjoy the company though. I promise on everything I love the 34 days I have sober today I couldn't feel any better. I know exactly what you're feeling and what you're going through my friend. And you do have a reason. Maybe you just don't know it yet. But you've been alive this long for a reason maybe it's to save others from addiction with your story. To help get you in a detox or rehab if you ever
Dont worry
Shit happens. Just got to try and try again
We had a slight setback getting up there due to poor planning so we are right outside the mountains in the last towns Safeway parking lot waiting for a few more bucksbto hit my account then we'll have a bit more fuel money to hit the road!! Love y'all!!
I think involving Blake in your withdrawal and attempt to sop using is not appropriate. Going with him to a mountain is not good for him.
Yes not doing that
ok. thats bad. you screwed us but you mostly screwed yourself. but you know what, now you did the right thing and told it how it is, now you were honest, that was your choice in the end here, to be honest. you still have the will to do it, you just gotta find a way that works. but as you said, the fight is not 3 days, not at all, the fight will be alot longer. but it's worth it.
8-1-22 I went into a facility and detox off fent and methadone. I only lasted at the place nine days, but I’m still clean using Suboxone.
Go you
How can you be clean if you are on suboxone? Isn’t that just another drug to get addicted to?
You have nothing to be sorry about addiction is a bitch. I battled it for 10 years you owe nobody an apology. This is about you and you only you can do this shit brother.
Just don't wanna see you die brother!!
still alive and kicking!! 106 days sober
Love you
Back at you my friend
Love you cuz.. God did not cause the issues but he is there to help you. As am I. James 4:8
Aww kevin!!! I love you cousin and thank you buddy
Your son has a good head on his shoulders.
I'm here for you! You need to come to Oregon and stay for a couple weeks If you can. I have a couple acres. It's a special place for any and all who wants to be better today than yesterday. That's all we can do. Take it one day at a time. Don't hate yourself. Do me a favor.. I would like for you to look at yourself in a mirror in your eyes and say I love you and do it once in the morning and before bedtime. It works. I had to do that. It's hard at first but you keep on doing that and it will get easier. You know love yourself, God loves you. Don't feel ashamed. Love and respect yourself ! It will help you! I'm here for you! I've been around all types of addiction all my life. But you are hurting and know that you're not alone. Come to Oregon, and we will support you. I had to with my older two while they dealt with their addiction. I have 3 kids, and 2 were addicts or are. It's hard, but i love them.Then there were others. God loves you! One day at a time. Remember that. Love and Peace and prayers to you!
Made me cry lol... thank you...
@danielbradford1501 remember you always sisters and brothers in Christ. We should always be there to help those who want and need help. Love one another as we love ourselves. It's a beautiful piece of property we have. No drama and lots of love and acceptance. Just to keep that in your thoughts, if you need a place to go, just to regroup and grow within yourself for the better. If you need anyone to talk to or you are overwhelmed, I am here!
What is this place?? Been thinking alot about it...
@danielbradford1501 it's my property in Oregon. My brother and my friend will be building a home next Summer.
Danielbradford1106@gmail.com if ya wanna email me
Hey man don’t beat yourself up
It’s a fucking hard mental ride to do
the totally clean road
Believe me l know how hard it is
Bro the best way l have found to not use is the sub route
I knew that was way too easy for you. I’ve detoxed 3 times and transitioned to Subs and had to be hospitalized each time because they were so bad.
Vomiting, shitting myself and anxiety from hell.
Not good for your son to see you that sick and will scare him.i jumped on methadone and it’s way easier and BETTER than subs. Subs were intended for oxys and hydrocodone. Not for the massive monster called fentanyl. When I saw your video of how good you were doing I was like WTF it took me a fuking month to get adjusted where methadone no withdrawals nearly dying switching over.
yeah you knew lol... 106 days sober now!!
Brother I get it. U don't know me but I mean it when I say ur first videos I saw hit when I needed most. I'll help in anyway i can. Let me know what u need. My heart hurts for u and I rarely care for strangers cuz im so selfish
Back at you brother....I don't know any of you but those that have been by my side like ya I actually do care.... That's why it also hurt to do this video because I hated lying to u guys and letting you guys down... As well as my son and myself.... Keep your head up buddy. We're all going to be okay
The shame and the guilt is the hardest part. I don't think u let anybody on here down. The opposite actually. It takes real strength to b honest and admit ur fuck ups. Whether u let yourself and Blake down is another question and between u guys. If u need anything reach out
I know exactly what you're saying rhett.... You've helped me more than you know my friend and you got a friend for life and if you need to bounce anything off me or just chat or you feel like using brother please reach out to somebody if not me
Like my guys in treatment told me everyday, give yourself a break.
Stay strong
Thank you my friend
Right now the thing you love more is your drugs. Not your son. Go to AA. You don’t need a crutch…suboxone…it’s a deterrent too. Surrender to the fact that you are powerless over drugs. Ask for God’s help. Walk the walk, don’t talk the talk. Go to at least one meeting a day. Your life depends on it. This is no joke.
Listen at meetings. Admit you broke your sobriety. Make a commitment to go to any length to stay clean. No exceptions.
Thank you!! 106 days sober today... thank you for your advice
@ so happy for you! One day at a time. I know your son is so happy too. Please understand he will still be scared for awhile due to your relapse. Maybe ask him to join you at open meetings so he can attend. And let us know how you are doing. I wish you the best recovery.
I feared you weren’t last vid I saw other day. Go Work on honest program.
I am now 106 days sober!! finally.... can say i am working an honest program!
You can do this. Don’t beat yourself up. One day at a time.