I’m only a couple minutes in, but I get the impression, with how quickly she talks and how willing she is to share, that she doesn’t have anyone to really talk to. She seems like a nice woman. I hope she finds sobriety. She’s clearly smart and well spoken. She could do so much still with her life.
Seems nice. But i kinda wondered how nice a person is that knowingly has hiv & still workibg the sex trade. Tripped me out. Hardly mentions her kids too. I bet they hate her so much....
She is not a nice person. She has led a life of crime and she ruined the lives of her children. She is doing dates with HIV. These are facts. Truly sad.
@SuperTooncesthecat Someone gave it to her, please critically think and be compassionate. What would you do in her position? Judge not yet ye be judged. Be kind. She's a human being and a woman. People are losing their humanity thinking they're better than someone.
This woman's memory is phenomenal, l've never taken drugs in my life and l couldn't recall my childhood in half the detail she has. She's incredibly lucid and you know it's all true because she doesn't hesitate or get muddled. Very interesting person.
They say (therapists) that if you can’t recall most of your childhood it’s a defense mechanism your brain did to try and forget abuse and pain from your childhood. I can only remember a few things, I remember my teens but my childhood is blank. lol
I was thinking the exact same thing !!! I wish my memory was half that good. And she is intelligent as well. I hate where drugs take good people. So sad.
@@kimlittleton4943 HER MEMORY IS NOT GOOD. SHE IS A LIAR!!! She just makes shit up. It’s called being a hard core drug addict. It’s what they do. Grow up. You people are so naive.
Mark I don’t think you hear this enough but thank you so much for giving these people a platform to share their stories. Some people talk bad about what you’re doing but still they watch. Go figure. Some people don’t have anything better to do than to criticize others. Keep the faith. You are truly an angel.
Lesley's extremely together for someone who's lived the life she has. I commend her for having the fortitude to survive, no matter what. I hope she is able to find someone who'll look after her, properly. She deserves it.
Thank you, Mark for not listening to all the people complaining about your drug addict uploads. please continue to post them. You don’t know how important of a service you’re doing.❤❤
Well we completely understand that most of the people around his area are drug addicts but I mean damn. It's all the same shit. I don't hardly watch anymore unless the title says something else besides "addict" or "prostitute". It just gets old. There's more to this life than people throwing their lives away for dope.
@@lindagee8724 LMFAO yep. I'm an addict in recovery. I spent literally MORE than half my life on drugs. If I can do it so can they. You have to WANT to be clean and sober. Period.
@@KansasCityRonC i get it but I think most are forgetting that his literal channel name is “underbelly” as in the “isolated” and “unpleasant” part of society. He is just doing what his channel is literally meant to do. Anything other than addicts or prostitutes should be treated as a “bonus” or “treat”. Plus, if you look at the numbers, you’ll see that he really doesn’t post many addicts anymore as when his channel 1st started… so I’m not sure where all this complaining is coming from. No one is asking you to feel sorry for them.
Being a military brat tends to create polar extremes in social skills. I grew up on bases around the world, having to create a new set of friends every couple of years and always being the new kid in class. In my case, it helped developed the skills to easily adapt to new situations and new people. It has given me both comfort and a desire to seek out the new and the different. On the other hand, I have seen the opposite effect in other people. They have both a lifetime search for stability and a tendency to sabotage it before they obtain it. I don't know why some thrive and some don't.
Childhood trauma they don't remember, or just too much confusion when mothers change a few boyfriends, or husbands who are willing to kill for no good reason (in my opinon) when ordered to do it. We had such families when Yugoslavia fell apart, their children were often a lot more damaged than our usual drug user.
Plus a father who was violent in her early years. These things stay with a child for the rest of their lives and affect the relationships they then go into as their self worth has been damaged
The title implies that she is addicted to Fentanyl, but she says she is addicted to crack. I pray that she gets better. I am in Recovery. I have been Clean/Sober for almost 5 and a half years. The Programs only kept me Clean/Sober for about 2 years. I got straight on my own this time, and I am never looking back. GOD BLESS. 😇
Congrats ❤ 9 years here after a decade as a pill junkie.. it took nearly losing my 3 babies and I said ENOUGH. I had to lean on suboxone the mental part for me was the WORST. You couldn't pay me to go backward into that spiral of hell. I still have so many regrets, I miss the people who didn't make it, including my eldest brother. My heart aches for ppl who still struggle but I know if we can do it she can buy boy, I'm it's tough. 😢 Stay strong ❤
@@LynnAgain83 Congrats to you as well. I went through the Suboxone and Social Services thing also. It is truly awful. My kids turned out to be amazing people. Thank the Lord. Stay strong, yourself, and I am proud of you.
Lesley,you and I are about the same age. I also have 3 sons. I never used drugs or alcohol,but I have many other regrets. I've made too many mistakes to count. And even though I devoted my time to stay at home with my children, my middle son is an addict and our family does our best to hang on . At this age, we are naturally looking to be able to slow down,heal our wounds, forgive ourselves, and hope to have a good 3rd quarter. Please be done with this way of life that doesn't serve you,I'm not sure it ever did serve you. Please choose yourself and get help now,today. I have found that there isn't time for a bunch of introspection and hitting walls......the time is now.
I feel speechless Lesley. Not a word You said didn't sound right, just straight talking as it was and is. I wish You all the best and send a huge warming hug.
Hi Mark, last night I watched the video of Rebecca. I seen where you felt like you had to explain because of comments. Please don't let the people's comments that are negative get to you. I can only imagine how hard that could be but you have followers that truly love and enjoy your work and are bothered to see you struggle are have to explain yourself. Thanks!
There is a level of trust that these unfortunate people develop with Mark, and it's not given easily. I'm a recovering addict myself sober since June 29th 2017 and I relate to these people. Mark doing what he does with these people is good..and they are not smoking or putting a needle in their arm while spending time with Mark. And their are successes from this for people,
it’s amazing how you give people a chance to share their stories! i feel that the topic around addiction and being an addict is so stigmatized and i love how they’re able to share their stories without being judged.
I love when people reply to "Thank you" with "You're welcome". She's just five and some days older than me. And for this month my food-stamp card wasn't reloaded, due to my casework's not certifying my review, which was done in April. And she was late because she was overloaded with cases. I'm lucky I bought out my brother's share of the house I live in now after my mom died. Otherwise, my son and I would be homeless. Lesley, I hope you stay strong and get clean, because you are worth it. Trust a weird white lady who' quit alcohol over 35 years ago (though now I'm addicted to coffee, lol), okay? Please?
I think she can get better with the right help. Her honesty about using and how sometimes she likes it is different than so many who can’t admit it. Wishing her the best of luck. 🙏🏻
@FLBeautyQueenI feel where you're coming from. These people who kiss Rebecca's ass when they have contributed nothing to the cause think they're special. Those who have contributed have a right to say "enough ", "I'm out" it's time for tough love". He obviously doesn't want help, he just wants the money for drugs. People who donated wanted to help him get help,not support his drug habit. Mark said one thing and then caved and did another. That's fine for Mark. He wants to support him no matter what it seems. Fine. He can afford to do that with his own money. I'd rather donate to the ones who truly want the help but just don't have the means to do it for themselves. There's nothing wrong with wanting your donation to be spent wisely and not thrown away for his next high.
Lesley, I am in your corner. I, too, have been through hell and back with heroin. I pray that someone helps you get into a program. No one can do it for you...hang in there
Hi my story is very similar to yours. I went to 11 different grammar schools and 3 different high schools every 2 3years like a military family. Always the new kids and trying to fit in. I ended up a heroine addict also and finally went away to a residential rehabilitation facility for about 4 months. Then l continued with AA meetings every day for years. I worked the program and have been clean and sober for decades now. But I will always be an addict. Thanks for sharing. 😊❤
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Ive made the decision to go this route with my anxiety and high-strung behavior - im lost though about how to search for the right provider. Please, can you share a few links and talk to me about it
I can instantly that she's a Crack addict. I was for 20 years. It's not hard at all to get off Crack. The hardest thing is finding other things to take up your time. It sure felt hard at the time. I haven't done cocaine for a year now. I used to cry on my way to the dealer because i didn't want it, but i couldn't say no
So true what you said. It is easier to get off Crack than Fentanyl. And we all have to decide for ourselves when and how we are going to do it. Nobody can do it for us. We have to train ourselves to focus on other activities, as you stated, filling the time. She needs to make better bad decisions or start making good ones. I've watched some interviews where the person would go from hard core drug use, to going cold turkey and then switching to intense body building as a way to keep busy and stay clean. They trade one obsession for another, but at least they got clean. I just hope she wants help and can get it if she's serious about wanting to stop.
The fact that u urself claiming having cried while heading back to the dealer although not wanting to use again, is proof enough that it is terribly hard to quit smoking crack. I am trying since years….
She’s seems like a smart lady but keeps making really bad decisions for herself. She wasn’t a good provider to her babies so I’m thankful that they were taken away from her. She can barely survive night after night on her own as it is. She has to want to stay off drugs for good. No one else can make that decision for her.
You tell this woman is super smart. Just one wrong turn. If she could get clean, i really believe she could do good things with her life. It's never too late. I'd love to see a follow-up. I wish her the very best
I feel for her children. I hope that they receive all the love and support and whatever else it takes to grow strong, solid of character. Sometimes just the knowledge of your mother's lifestyle can deal a life shattering blow. May they be able to overcome this if they are affected this way. I wish the best to Lesley. I cannot determine from the interview what in her life put her on such a self-destructive course. One recent interviewee said something like ' you can't pull yourself up by your boot straps when you don't even have boots.' The frustration is that when these people have 'boots' (good jobs or relationships), they throw them away. Makes me realize, life is a slippery ledge where you can suddenly lose your footing. Actually, you can never let go. Always stay in control, responsible. And then, you still can fall - or just be put in a poor 'nest.' Again, my best to her children.
She never thought of the future, she never thought about when she would be 60 years old and addicted to crack, have HIV, and homeless. She never thought what she would be doing when old, no job, and addicted to drugs. 28 years is a long time to live on the streets addicted to drugs. Like she said, all the ppl she use to know is dead. That’s crazy!
It matters big time that your Clean at least your not enslaved to drugs and dont have to rob all around you to get money just so your not sick . Stay clean it gives you a chance to sort things out . Its Hard . Stay Hard put up a fight do not quit on yourself . .
Thank god for small miracles that help you get by for another day like the old man who takes you out to eat once in awhile and gives you money for a place to stay and the youngsters who took pity on you and let you sleep in their van.'m glad you're still alive and I hope you're able to get out before it's too late!
People complaining about Mark posting only videos about addicts. Well then dont watch??? Simple. Every face has a completely different backstory. They are all interesting to listen to.
Its a vicious cycle. Its up to them to get tired of spinning in circles to get off the hamster wheel. I thank God I never was lead down that long dark winding road.
I liked this woman right away. She’s smart and cute. I hope she can get sober and find her way. I have struggled with drugs & alcohol. I’ve been sober for 3 years. It’s was hard but so worth it. I pray she will have a great life. I could sense she was smart and strong. 😅💜
Came to the comments looking for this question! My exact thoughts. Did nobody else catch that? 'Oh poor Mother was traumatized cuz she wasn't allowed to smoke crack around her baby and raise him in Crack hotels' 🙄
Agreed ❤ amazing ppl watch a upload then complain 😂 im pretty sure the content is in the title? Can't be more simpler . If you don't like something don't watch no need to complain.😢 lot's of different subject matter to choose from. Worst case unsubscribe Mark does a great job interviewing all walks of life
@@Robertarelli666 what's this marks deal ? The floors are filthy where he does the "interviews" 🤔 and the girls talk like he's a john are these hotel rooms and why so dirty thx
Oh my goodness …rolling up the skirts in Catholic school. Same here. Drove the nuns crazy! You never know what you share in common with people. Still listening but appreciate the dignified moments you allow these individuals in all your podcasts.
This woman has been given multiple chances but has sabotaged them all. She’s definitely her own worst enemy and the creator of her own suffering. She definitely has demonic powers attached to her. I hope she gets out but the longer this goes on the more her chances run out.
I really hope she can get back on track. I finally stopped taking pain meds (i was prescribed by my dr after breaking my back) but somedays...the pain is surreal between physically and mental pain from my son and husband dying and loosing my home and things l so i watch so i remember it would NOT be a good choice. I pray everyone thats struggling with addiction gets the help they need.
On one hand, this breaks my heart. You can tell at one time she was a beautiful woman that had the whole world in front of her. She is still pretty even after all the drugs and rough life. And she is not like so many other addicts Mark has on here. She is still quick witted and sharp. But on the other hand, she is willingly spreading HIV all around. She knows what she is doing. All of the bad things she has done in life, and this just adds to it. This makes me both sad and angry at the same time.
The reason they can take your children is because they don't belong to you. Once a guardian signs your Birth Cirtificate they have just put your child into the property of the State
I hope the best for you Lesley my family and some of my friends are Star alumni and some grew up on 44th in the Sunset. To many people never got past the party coke era of the times.
As a drug addict who has been homeless and had no one to talk to, most of these people NEED to have this human interaction. It’s the only thing they have left to associate themselves with being Human.
Leslie is so intricate when she speaks, and she has a memory that nobody even somebody never using a drug in their life could ever remember the details that she uses to make us understand her and her life better Leslie please get off the crack too pretty and too nice and too smartto be addicted like this I’m praying for you girlfriend
Man ppl call me heartless for not having empathy for addicts . I don’t hate them I just don’t pity them. I have addiction in my family but I feel like it’s a choice. We all have trauma and we all have choices on how we deal with it.
As a former addict, I somewhat agree with you. I made every choice on my own, fully aware of the consequences. I have empathy for people who are driven to drugs due to intense psychological pain. Unfortunately it’s the only thing that gives you peace sometimes.
@@johnqpublic2718 it’s plenty of ppl who had injuries that were prescribed opiates for the pain . I’m not into making excuses but like I said everyone has a choice . I heard the stories and seen it first person but addiction is like everything else to me ..a choice. Will power is real. People find excuses on why they are dependent on substance and it’s the same ole story . Boss up and take control or don’t but it’s ultimately up to you . I won’t pity you or hate you for whatever decision you make .
@@klizzyykicks1712 there are plenty*. I never said there weren't. But you've got a very naive idea of addiction, almost like it's a conscious choice someone does or doesn't make one day. Therefore I pray, that it never happens to you.
@@johnqpublic2718 I don't agree with this person. I have empathy for almost everybody, but I do not believe that a week of opiates send you into a life of addiction. During my cancer treatments, I had Dilaudid for 30 days and when the prescription was over done. I didn't have any withdraw. I was taking two a day like the prescription instruction. That was it. I didn't crave, my pain was manageable with Advil and I was done. everybody blamed everything on opiates for pain is the reason it became so difficult for people that need them,
People are arguing in the comments on whether she’s a good person or not. The point is: she’s just a person. Even with her addiction and her choices, she’s just a person. She’s human. All humans are fallible. We are all capable of good and bad. Stop arguing and just listen.
I’m only a couple minutes in, but I get the impression, with how quickly she talks and how willing she is to share, that she doesn’t have anyone to really talk to. She seems like a nice woman. I hope she finds sobriety. She’s clearly smart and well spoken. She could do so much still with her life.
Seems nice. But i kinda wondered how nice a person is that knowingly has hiv & still workibg the sex trade. Tripped me out. Hardly mentions her kids too. I bet they hate her so much....
All women are like this
That's 90% of these folks... They can't show their real emotions/feelings on the street. This is more of a therapy session 4 them
She is not a nice person. She has led a life of crime and she ruined the lives of her children. She is doing dates with HIV. These are facts. Truly sad.
@SuperTooncesthecat Someone gave it to her, please critically think and be compassionate. What would you do in her position? Judge not yet ye be judged. Be kind. She's a human being and a woman. People are losing their humanity thinking they're better than someone.
This woman's memory is phenomenal, l've never taken drugs in my life and l couldn't recall my childhood in half the detail she has. She's incredibly lucid and you know it's all true because she doesn't hesitate or get muddled. Very interesting person.
She’s lying about everything she says. 😂😂😂 she does not have an amazing memory. Grow up. 😂😂😂
@@NickWixxyou grow up.
They say (therapists) that if you can’t recall most of your childhood it’s a defense mechanism your brain did to try and forget abuse and pain from your childhood.
I can only remember a few things, I remember my teens but my childhood is blank. lol
I was thinking the exact same thing !!! I wish my memory was half that good. And she is intelligent as well. I hate where drugs take good people. So sad.
@@kimlittleton4943 HER MEMORY IS NOT GOOD. SHE IS A LIAR!!! She just makes shit up. It’s called being a hard core drug addict. It’s what they do. Grow up. You people are so naive.
Mark I don’t think you hear this enough but thank you so much for giving these people a platform to share their stories. Some people talk bad about what you’re doing but still they watch. Go figure. Some people don’t have anything better to do than to criticize others. Keep the faith. You are truly an angel.
Agreed
Lesley's extremely together for someone who's lived the life she has. I commend her for having the fortitude to survive, no matter what. I hope she is able to find someone who'll look after her, properly. She deserves it.
Thank you, Mark for not listening to all the people complaining about your drug addict uploads. please continue to post them. You don’t know how important of a service you’re doing.❤❤
Well we completely understand that most of the people around his area are drug addicts but I mean damn. It's all the same shit. I don't hardly watch anymore unless the title says something else besides "addict" or "prostitute". It just gets old. There's more to this life than people throwing their lives away for dope.
Keeping Foreign Nationalism alive and well 🐍💬📡🔧
So you think these distressing life stories are for your entertainment@KansasCityBadazz
@@lindagee8724 LMFAO yep. I'm an addict in recovery. I spent literally MORE than half my life on drugs. If I can do it so can they. You have to WANT to be clean and sober. Period.
@@KansasCityRonC i get it but I think most are forgetting that his literal channel name is “underbelly” as in the “isolated” and “unpleasant” part of society. He is just doing what his channel is literally meant to do. Anything other than addicts or prostitutes should be treated as a “bonus” or “treat”.
Plus, if you look at the numbers, you’ll see that he really doesn’t post many addicts anymore as when his channel 1st started… so I’m not sure where all this complaining is coming from. No one is asking you to feel sorry for them.
My heart goes out to this woman. I can see that this woman is lonely and truly lost. Very articulate as well. I’m praying for her.
I’m rooting for you Lesley. Thank you for sharing your story. Please take good care of yourself ❤
She has left a wake of ruined lives behind her. She has led a life of crime. Sad.
Being a military brat tends to create polar extremes in social skills. I grew up on bases around the world, having to create a new set of friends every couple of years and always being the new kid in class.
In my case, it helped developed the skills to easily adapt to new situations and new people. It has given me both comfort and a desire to seek out the new and the different.
On the other hand, I have seen the opposite effect in other people. They have both a lifetime search for stability and a tendency to sabotage it before they obtain it.
I don't know why some thrive and some don't.
Childhood trauma they don't remember, or just too much confusion when mothers change a few boyfriends, or husbands who are willing to kill for no good reason (in my opinon) when ordered to do it. We had such families when Yugoslavia fell apart, their children were often a lot more damaged than our usual drug user.
Plus a father who was violent in her early years. These things stay with a child for the rest of their lives and affect the relationships they then go into as their self worth has been damaged
That is interesting. Sort of like some of the foster children, now adults that I have encountered
I’m guessing it depends on both the parents overall well being and the childs natural personality to determine if they’ll thrive or suffer.
Her mom wouldn’t let her dress “normal “ & was strict so that created another barrier, she was most likely always looking for acceptance.
The title implies that she is addicted to Fentanyl, but she says she is addicted to crack. I pray that she gets better. I am in Recovery. I have been Clean/Sober for almost 5 and a half years. The Programs only kept me Clean/Sober for about 2 years. I got straight on my own this time, and I am never looking back. GOD BLESS. 😇
GOOD FOR YOU! That's AWESOME! As the saying goes, the worst day sober is a million times better than the best day using. Take care
@@binaryfairy4197 Thank you so much, and that saying is 💯% true. You, take care as well. 😊
Congrats ❤
9 years here after a decade as a pill junkie.. it took nearly losing my 3 babies and I said ENOUGH.
I had to lean on suboxone the mental part for me was the WORST.
You couldn't pay me to go backward into that spiral of hell.
I still have so many regrets, I miss the people who didn't make it, including my eldest brother.
My heart aches for ppl who still struggle but I know if we can do it she can buy boy, I'm it's tough. 😢
Stay strong ❤
@@LynnAgain83 Congrats to you as well. I went through the Suboxone and Social Services thing also. It is truly awful. My kids turned out to be amazing people. Thank the Lord. Stay strong, yourself, and I am proud of you.
Well done! I’m nearly 5 years clean. Life is so much better isn’t it. I hope you are living the best life you can. X
Lesley,you and I are about the same age. I also have 3 sons. I never used drugs or alcohol,but I have many other regrets. I've made too many mistakes to count. And even though I devoted my time to stay at home with my children, my middle son is an addict and our family does our best to hang on . At this age, we are naturally looking to be able to slow down,heal our wounds, forgive ourselves, and hope to have a good 3rd quarter. Please be done with this way of life that doesn't serve you,I'm not sure it ever did serve you. Please choose yourself and get help now,today. I have found that there isn't time for a bunch of introspection and hitting walls......the time is now.
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This ladies story had me locked in. Keep trying, for YOU, sweetie... you deserve another chance. ❤
Appreciate you Mark for doing the hard work. Thank you for giving us a peek into these people's lives.
Her smile at the end was pure gold.
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Thank you for your story Lesley and thank you Mark for doing these videos, the telling of one's story is empowering, we are all Blessed from these.
I feel speechless Lesley.
Not a word You said didn't sound right, just straight talking as it was and is.
I wish You all the best and send a huge warming hug.
Hi Mark, last night I watched the video of Rebecca. I seen where you felt like you had to explain because of comments. Please don't let the people's comments that are negative get to you. I can only imagine how hard that could be but you have followers that truly love and enjoy your work and are bothered to see you struggle are have to explain yourself. Thanks!
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100% agreed, Mark is bringing these real life , flesh and blood people for the world to see. It makes people think about the need for change ❤
There is a level of trust that these unfortunate people develop with Mark, and it's not given easily. I'm a recovering addict myself sober since June 29th 2017 and I relate to these people. Mark doing what he does with these people is good..and they are not smoking or putting a needle in their arm while spending time with Mark. And their are successes from this for people,
If you don't like what he has then don't watch. No one is making you listen to these stories.
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Thank you Mark, for all you do ❤
it’s amazing how you give people a chance to share their stories! i feel that the topic around addiction and being an addict is so stigmatized and i love how they’re able to share their stories without being judged.
You are a gentle soul Lesley, I hope you find a way out ❤
The actual age of this woman, how she carried all that situations and her smile just make this video really inspiring.
I love when people reply to "Thank you" with "You're welcome". She's just five and some days older than me. And for this month my food-stamp card wasn't reloaded, due to my casework's not certifying my review, which was done in April. And she was late because she was overloaded with cases. I'm lucky I bought out my brother's share of the house I live in now after my mom died. Otherwise, my son and I would be homeless. Lesley, I hope you stay strong and get clean, because you are worth it. Trust a weird white lady who' quit alcohol over 35 years ago (though now I'm addicted to coffee, lol), okay? Please?
She's beautiful. 60??? And years of drugs? I enjoyed listening to her. She's a good story teller.
I was thinking the same. I would have expected a 60 y.o. crack addict to look way rougher. She's a pretty lady!
I know you care Mark. Ignore the negatives.
I think she can get better with the right help. Her honesty about using and how sometimes she likes it is different than so many who can’t admit it. Wishing her the best of luck. 🙏🏻
Buenos Dias Mark, put Rebecca on whenever you want & help with whatever you want. I do have hope things will change for the better💜💜💜
@FLBeautyQueencalm down.. plus, you don’t know if she does or not
@FLBeautyQueenI feel where you're coming from. These people who kiss Rebecca's ass when they have contributed nothing to the cause think they're special. Those who have contributed have a right to say "enough ", "I'm out" it's time for tough love". He obviously doesn't want help, he just wants the money for drugs. People who donated wanted to help him get help,not support his drug habit. Mark said one thing and then caved and did another. That's fine for Mark. He wants to support him no matter what it seems. Fine. He can afford to do that with his own money. I'd rather donate to the ones who truly want the help but just don't have the means to do it for themselves. There's nothing wrong with wanting your donation to be spent wisely and not thrown away for his next high.
So many of these women need that birth control that goes under the skin. Stops from getting pregnant for longer time.
Love these human stories Mark. Shout out to your guest and wishing her the best ❤
Lesley, I am in your corner. I, too, have been through hell and back with heroin. I pray that someone helps you get into a program. No one can do it for you...hang in there
Hi my story is very similar to yours. I went to 11 different grammar schools and 3 different high schools every 2 3years like a military family. Always the new kids and trying to fit in. I ended up a heroine addict also and finally went away to a residential rehabilitation facility for about 4 months. Then l continued with AA meetings every day for years. I worked the program and have been clean and sober for decades now. But I will always be an addict. Thanks for sharing. 😊❤
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Ive made the decision to go this route with my anxiety and high-strung behavior - im lost though about how to search for the right provider. Please, can you share a few links and talk to me about it
Interesting. I'm so happy for you ❤
Thank you Mark for everything that you do to help.
The things these people do to children for drugs is frightening.
I’m praying for an outcome greater than you can imagine for yourself. ❤
My heart aches for you Lesley, if you can’t do it for yourself just do it for your loved ones.
Good morning beautiful people! Hope you have an excellent day Mark! ❤
Lots of love from Southwest VA!
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Greetings from southeast Virginia
I can instantly that she's a Crack addict. I was for 20 years. It's not hard at all to get off Crack. The hardest thing is finding other things to take up your time. It sure felt hard at the time. I haven't done cocaine for a year now. I used to cry on my way to the dealer because i didn't want it, but i couldn't say no
So true what you said. It is easier to get off Crack than Fentanyl. And we all have to decide for ourselves when and how we are going to do it. Nobody can do it for us. We have to train ourselves to focus on other activities, as you stated, filling the time. She needs to make better bad decisions or start making good ones. I've watched some interviews where the person would go from hard core drug use, to going cold turkey and then switching to intense body building as a way to keep busy and stay clean. They trade one obsession for another, but at least they got clean. I just hope she wants help and can get it if she's serious about wanting to stop.
The fact that u urself claiming having cried while heading back to the dealer although not wanting to use again, is proof enough that it is terribly hard to quit smoking crack. I am trying since years….
How sad. Drugs have swallowed up this lady’s entire life.
Thank you for the interview Lesley and SWU
Lesley, I really want the best for you. You are a great person. I hope you get well soon. ❤
She’s seems like a smart lady but keeps making really bad decisions for herself. She wasn’t a good provider to her babies so I’m thankful that they were taken away from her. She can barely survive night after night on her own as it is. She has to want to stay off drugs for good. No one else can make that decision for her.
You tell this woman is super smart. Just one wrong turn. If she could get clean, i really believe she could do good things with her life. It's never too late. I'd love to see a follow-up. I wish her the very best
Praying for you, Lesley 🙏
Thank you for sharing your story
OMG! It's one bad decision after another. It's too much.
I really like her. She seems so smart, and she’s beautiful. She has so much potential to do whatever she wants. ❤
I really enjoyed hearing this kind soul's story stay strong ❤
I feel for her children. I hope that they receive all the love and support and whatever else it takes to grow strong, solid of character. Sometimes just the knowledge of your mother's lifestyle can deal a life shattering blow. May they be able to overcome this if they are affected this way. I wish the best to Lesley. I cannot determine from the interview what in her life put her on such a self-destructive course. One recent interviewee said something like ' you can't pull yourself up by your boot straps when you don't even have boots.' The frustration is that when these people have 'boots' (good jobs or relationships), they throw them away. Makes me realize, life is a slippery ledge where you can suddenly lose your footing. Actually, you can never let go. Always stay in control, responsible. And then, you still can fall - or just be put in a poor 'nest.' Again, my best to her children.
She’s a great story teller! Well spoken
Definitely one of my favorite interviews. I pray for her to get better shes too sweet of a soul😔🙏🖤
She never thought of the future, she never thought about when she would be 60 years old and addicted to crack, have HIV, and homeless. She never thought what she would be doing when old, no job, and addicted to drugs. 28 years is a long time to live on the streets addicted to drugs. Like she said, all the ppl she use to know is dead. That’s crazy!
this was a great interview
I'm sober. It breaks my heart to see all these people struggling. I truly hope Lesley gets better. God bless
This reminded me alot of my mother. I'm happy now that I'm older. I have more grace for her. Life is hard and I'm starting to feel/see it now at 29.
My friend Megan did an interview with you a week ago, can’t wait to see it
Oh Lesley. You are a Beautiful Lady!! What a journey you’re traveling. You know you’re Loved Right?❤❤❤ Thank you!!! Awesome Mark! Appreciate Y’all.
It's complicated concerning family and recovery. Anymore, i feel like it doesn't matter if im clean or not! Im 💯 % always freaking wrong!
It matters big time that your Clean at least your not enslaved to drugs and dont have to rob all around you to get money just so your not sick . Stay clean it gives you a chance to sort things out . Its Hard . Stay Hard put up a fight do not quit on yourself . .
YOU MATTER….. please remember that
I feel bad for the kids, what a shame. I hope they won’t go down the rabbit hole either. So many kids born into this messed up life.
Thank god for small miracles that help you get by for another day like the old man who takes you out to eat once in awhile and gives you money for a place to stay and the youngsters who took pity on you and let you sleep in their van.'m glad you're still alive and I hope you're able to get out before it's too late!
What a beautiful, intelligent, interesting human. Praying for you ❤
She is an absolutely remarkable woman.
People complaining about Mark posting only videos about addicts. Well then dont watch??? Simple.
Every face has a completely different backstory. They are all interesting to listen to.
Its a vicious cycle. Its up to them to get tired of spinning in circles to get off the hamster wheel. I thank God I never was lead down that long dark winding road.
I liked this woman right away. She’s smart and cute. I hope she can get sober and find her way. I have struggled with drugs & alcohol. I’ve been sober for 3 years. It’s was hard but so worth it. I pray she will have a great life. I could sense she was smart and strong. 😅💜
Another great interview ❤
Did she just say she isn’t even undetectable but she’s actively turning tricks?
Hi all , watching from the UK
Hi, I'm watching it upside down here in Australia.
They took her son and it traumatized HER? smh.
Came to the comments looking for this question! My exact thoughts. Did nobody else catch that? 'Oh poor Mother was traumatized cuz she wasn't allowed to smoke crack around her baby and raise him in Crack hotels' 🙄
Was thinking the same.
She has a golden heart
She thinks she was taking care of her son.
Yeah..She's a complete mess
Agreed ❤ amazing ppl watch a upload then complain 😂 im pretty sure the content is in the title? Can't be more simpler . If you don't like something don't watch no need to complain.😢 lot's of different subject matter to choose from. Worst case unsubscribe Mark does a great job interviewing all walks of life
Why does it say fent addict when she talked about crack the whole time?
Coz mark is too dumb and not even listening. She's not fentanyl addict. Crack.
@@Robertarelli666 what's this marks deal ? The floors are filthy where he does the "interviews" 🤔 and the girls talk like he's a john are these hotel rooms and why so dirty thx
Good morning from the UK
Good afternoon to you!
Good evening guys from UK 🇬🇧 also!
Oh my goodness …rolling up the skirts in Catholic school. Same here. Drove the nuns crazy!
You never know what you share in common with people.
Still listening but appreciate the dignified moments you allow these individuals in all your podcasts.
What a messed up and ruined life, seemingly void of any possibility for redemption.
This woman has been given multiple chances but has sabotaged them all. She’s definitely her own worst enemy and the creator of her own suffering. She definitely has demonic powers attached to her. I hope she gets out but the longer this goes on the more her chances run out.
No such thing as demonic powers. It's all human nature, it's all a part of the human experience.
@@tron.44 not true, you clearly don’t understand the spirt world.
I'm afraid you don't understand addiction. Especially of those who are on the streets.
❤ thank you for your story. Your a beautiful person.
Wayyy past time to get your shit together Lesley.
I really hope she can get back on track. I finally stopped taking pain meds (i was prescribed by my dr after breaking my back) but somedays...the pain is surreal between physically and mental pain from my son and husband dying and loosing my home and things l so i watch so i remember it would NOT be a good choice. I pray everyone thats struggling with addiction gets the help they need.
Being born and raised in San Francisco she just took me home with her conversation.
Gentle Blessings Dear Lesley ♥️🙏♥️... Don't give up ❤
Mark please show more tenderloin videos everyone forgets about the Bay Area but we also have a open drug market
Crack and meth has taken down the best people☹️
Addiction is hell. God bless this lady 🙏🙏🙏🫂🫂🫂
On one hand, this breaks my heart. You can tell at one time she was a beautiful woman that had the whole world in front of her. She is still pretty even after all the drugs and rough life. And she is not like so many other addicts Mark has on here. She is still quick witted and sharp. But on the other hand, she is willingly spreading HIV all around. She knows what she is doing. All of the bad things she has done in life, and this just adds to it. This makes me both sad and angry at the same time.
She's bot quit witted and sharp she is literally high doing this interview
Lean towards God Lesley he will lead you to where you are meant to be ! He always has for me ! Sending love !
The reason they can take your children is because they don't belong to you. Once a guardian signs your Birth Cirtificate they have just put your child into the property of the State
I hope the best for you Lesley my family and some of my friends are Star alumni and some grew up on 44th in the Sunset. To many people never got past the party coke era of the times.
She is a mess. Her life is ruined, also her childrens are ruined. She has nothing. So, so sad.
I learn all these new words watching your videos. Boosting? I have to Google often 😂
Praying for this nice lady
She looks sorta like Toni Colette
Hoping one day shell find the road to better choices and saying no to all the things that lead to the street .
I hope you find some peace in your life sweet lady ❤
Lesley looks fantastic , especially considering her age and the life long history of addiction….
As a drug addict who has been homeless and had no one to talk to, most of these people NEED to have this human interaction. It’s the only thing they have left to associate themselves with being Human.
I wish The Best to Her life, She is a Beautyfull Woman 🌹
Lovely interesting lady hope she keeps safe and finds peace x❤
It’s the abused inner child, that Lesley thinks she should continue the roll, it was the only attention she gets, being abused, and abusing.
Leslie is so intricate when she speaks, and she has a memory that nobody even somebody never using a drug in their life could ever remember the details that she uses to make us understand her and her life better Leslie please get off the crack too pretty and too nice and too smartto be addicted like this I’m praying for you girlfriend
Man ppl call me heartless for not having empathy for addicts . I don’t hate them I just don’t pity them. I have addiction in my family but I feel like it’s a choice. We all have trauma and we all have choices on how we deal with it.
As a former addict, I somewhat agree with you. I made every choice on my own, fully aware of the consequences. I have empathy for people who are driven to drugs due to intense psychological pain. Unfortunately it’s the only thing that gives you peace sometimes.
I pray you never have a catastrophic injury, where you're put on opiates without your conscious decision,.for even a week.
@@johnqpublic2718 it’s plenty of ppl who had injuries that were prescribed opiates for the pain . I’m not into making excuses but like I said everyone has a choice . I heard the stories and seen it first person but addiction is like everything else to me ..a choice. Will power is real. People find excuses on why they are dependent on substance and it’s the same ole story . Boss up and take control or don’t but it’s ultimately up to you . I won’t pity you or hate you for whatever decision you make .
@@klizzyykicks1712 there are plenty*. I never said there weren't. But you've got a very naive idea of addiction, almost like it's a conscious choice someone does or doesn't make one day. Therefore I pray, that it never happens to you.
@@johnqpublic2718 I don't agree with this person. I have empathy for almost everybody, but I do not believe that a week of opiates send you into a life of addiction. During my cancer treatments, I had Dilaudid for 30 days and when the prescription was over done. I didn't have any withdraw. I was taking two a day like the prescription instruction. That was it. I didn't crave, my pain was manageable with Advil and I was done. everybody blamed everything on opiates for pain is the reason it became so difficult for people that need them,
Thanks Mark.
So extremely sad😢. Prayers being sent...🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
People are arguing in the comments on whether she’s a good person or not. The point is: she’s just a person. Even with her addiction and her choices, she’s just a person. She’s human. All humans are fallible. We are all capable of good and bad. Stop arguing and just listen.