The Biggest Loss From Opiate Addiction
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Man I watch your videos every day. I remember them sleepless nights almost 5 months ago now (I am 5 months clean on the 8th feb) and I watched all your videos to keep me going and keep me motivated through all the pain and suffering I went through, I am feel sad that you aren't here any more, when I was two weeks in and I found out you passed away it made me cry. I know exactly what you are saying too as I'm an emotional person too I'm also autistic too so I find it hard to articulate how I am and because of you I'm clean and my brother and work mates, and my best friend, all because of you guys I did it so thank you, rest in peace, you are still making miracles happen Ryan, God bless your soul ❤💙
They also gave me a false sense of accomplishment. I felt like I was taking care of so many task yet at the end of the day, nothing was done.
My soul is starting to be like, "Dude, I'm back. Let me live." Wow. Silly but powerful if you're an addict that has experienced that.
dude I know you videos are old but I just found them they are still helping me today!! thanks for kepping it real and not holding anything back!!!
Im sorry you’re gone brother, but I still watch your videos cuz they always help me. They remind me why I stopped when I forget...thanks brother and rip.
It’s sad watching you knowing you passed away
I just found this video tonight and sad to hear that he passed.
Just discovered you a few days ago Ryan., and I busted into tears when I found out you died. I had watched maybe a half a dozen of your videos, was finishing another and went to read some comments and saw RIP’s.
I was shocked. I don’t know how you left us but only hope it wasn’t an overdose or something related. If you can hear or somehow see my comment (s) please know you are so inspiring. It’s time for me to put this addiction to bed for good this time. I did so well the first time.
I took a snapshot of that smile on your face at the very end (10:09) and will keep it as inspiration in this last go to get my life back where it belongs.
I’m getting up there age wise, and i want to enjoy retirement and be able to travel without a monkey on my back.
Bless you and your family Ryan.
Wow, I am a musician and it really did take away my love for music. I want to feel the natural high of music again.
Thanks Ryan I truly do believe what you are saying. Thanks for the care you give.
I can relate. I used to love using either opiates or stimulants when i would go to the studio or just playing at home. Now that im clean i do not have that passion anymore. Scares me a little lol
Takes away you're love for everything that means anything to you. We all hit that point where we worry well never be able to enjoy the things we love again without drugs
Huey Love Same...
Me too brotha, exactly the same.... even if you posted this 4 years ago... And always Ryan, RIP, Friend... You made a big difference in this world... Peace....
One dr said to me “your brain was hijacked” that was 10 years ago never forget love u Ryan RIP
I miss this man so much.! Thank you again brother for all your dedication.
Foxwell Trent-Jones what happened to him ?
@@bigL591 He sadly passed away 😢
That bit about forgetting how amazing music can be, hits really close to home.
One of your best videos.
dude I hear u with the music thing as well as the sneezing thing..lol. and I too stopped listening to music, and started to listen to talk radio...
funny u mention the music thing. ive been on opiates for 12 yrs. Every time id go into withdrawl because i didnt have money or nothing was avail, every time id hear music, even stuff id hear every day always sounded so much better. so much more meaningful. Btw im 30hrs clean and will make it! been watching your vids all day. Thx so much for what you do!
It's been 3 years, how is it going?
30 hours...then no response back...I hope your alive still....TITZ MCGEE.....hahaha
Just laughing cause I didn’t realize the name till I went to type it. Really hope you made it but 99% chance you’ve relapsed Atleast 10 times since then since u didn’t reply or make your own recovery videos showing your journey....
Still that 1% is all you need
I get goosebumps over everything now that I'm in sobriety; it feels amazing.
Discover you today 😢 and today is my first day and it’s hell but man you gave me motivation I will continue to watch your videos
Hope you're doing good brother.. I know how it is when you're first trying to quit.
You are not lying bro. Thanks for your videos!!
Your a legend you fully know what ur taking about. This video is so spot on im going to watch it everyday now till im clean. Im in day 2 so im not feeling so good but im fully inspired now to push through the sickness feelings. Thanks for ur videos ur helping so many people.
Your videos has saved my life. Much love. Rip 😢
You are truley a blessing..So many people across the world feel there is no hope and you have given them more encouragement and hope than they have ever had
i like this guy. im an old addict from the early 70's. listen to him
Over $11,000.00 I have spent on Oxycodone this year alone . I am getting ready to quit and I am making a list of the negative things and I'm going to look at it every time I want to give up . Ryan , I feel you should make/asking (lol) a video that really explains your happiness in better detail . That is what I believe will help me and maybe others . I know you have made a few of them but your videos are my only inspiration at the moment . I have went through W/D and I notice when there is a goal set and a reassurance that happiness is there on the other side waiting , it motivates . Thanks for caring , Ryan .
***** Hey Ryan I was reading about how inflammation in the body could cause depression which leads to drug use in some cases . I know you're a active runner and need quality fruits and veggies . Just some ideas . Thanks for everything !
I been watching your videos for couple years now and your a great human...
I'm very low at using actually so low that people can't tell I use...but I want to start my week now.
I just used my last bit
Calmsupport you are on point. I am a current user trying to get away from them. I've damaged aspects of my life from a relationship to a possible relationship to my job my family. It does nothing but destroy everything in your life. Your definitely helping me through this. I appreciate everything your doing.
I use to love reading. Not anymore. Now I talk like a dullard because my mind forgets all those beautiful words that are in books.
All you've said is what I am experiencing right now... been of codeine for 5 days and this I think is one of the best videos I've seen about this topic... thanks Ryan!
Same! I've danced so much today I've had to wash!!
R.I.P. Ryan helped me thru. this is one of his best videos.
Recently watched ur videos Kno ur gone bro but still commenting coz uve really inspire me to get clean tho m not yet fully clean but ur wishes n ur luv support to us addicts will surely get us the prize n that's getting n be clean till v r alive.
Will always pray fr u man.
Cuz I Kno u still pray for us too..GOD will always be with you n with your family and your love ones..ty so much man...
You speak the truth. I'm just starting to get my emotions back and claiming small victories. I love music now too! Thanks Ryan.
U talk so much sense. ..I see myself when u speak. Still trying to beat my addiction though.ive watched 2 hours of your videos.i really am looking for some motivation to start.thank u
I wish I had been more informed. I just lost my boyfriend of 5 years due to an overdose. I did not know he had a problem. I suspected and asked him but he lied. I never saw any drugs. I feel really stupid and heartbroken that I didn't have the chance to save him. I am learning a lot by watching these types of videos. This problem is growing at an alarming rate in this country and it's the type of problem you never think will affect a loved one. Thank you for your honesty and information. God bless you.
Been watching your videos and you have been helping me out a ton. I'm a month clean an everyday is getting a little better. Never intended on commenting I signed up an account after hearing you mention how all you would listen to is talk radio and music faded away while using .when hearing you say this it was like a spitting image of me and just spot on your videos all are. Since being clean most of what's been helping me mentally when I'm feeling vulnerable is playing an listening to music and doing so does give me those little victories because I feel like I'm slowly getting my "soul" back and getting back to my true roots clarity it's a scary but beautiful thing.
Thanks again man keep killing it!
I wish I had met you.. but the lord called your name... I just want to say thank you for everything you have done..! You are 💯 percent on everything you have said from music to getting the chills while hearing music, you brought me life again. I’m 16 days clean. And never loved music so much tell I got clean. WOW!!! You will be missed by so many, but inspired so many. R.I.P 🙏🏼
Luve you man. These days i'm still healing from opiate addiction after the acute withdrawal phase from hell, i had a dream today of my mother,(i don't even remember dreaming while on opiates), i now enjoy listening to music , my bad habit of daydreaming has came back, my motivation to live and work showed up again, but some guilt about what i've done to myself and people also suddenly showed up. YES, I START TO FEEL AGAIN, ( the good and the bad), after a 2 years of emotional and spiritual death, i'm resuscitated. THANKS, you're helping people more than you think.
This video sums up opiate addiction in it's entirety. Probably your best video Ryan.
this is easily one of your greatest messages! dh
Great video very informative I found support from it just like every video, now that ive been off for a month it is easier now thanks man your videos helped me a lot. Keep up the work
these videos are so helpful with understanding my husbands battles. thank you for sharing!
This is so accurate iv been clean 1 year 2 months and I'm still trying to find myself again thank u for posting this!!
man the shit you said was a reality check for me it felt awesome to hear it from someone else
Is it normal for a person addicted to pain killers pretty badly to cut their significant other out of their life completely and without warning or a goodbye? The last time I heard from him was over a month ago and the last thing he said to me was I miss you and can't wait to see you, and I've never heard from him again. He has cut other's out of his life as well and there was a rumor he was dating someone else at the same time as he was dating me that I knew nothing about. It was really hard on me. Now he refuses to speak to me and I have no idea what happened or why he's treating me this way. I've tried to reach out and be supportive and ask him just to let me know what happened and still no response. We used to talk every day and about the future. Any words to help me understand would be helpful. Thank you so much
This video explained how it is he was on point on how it takes yourself away and you want to be yourself again so bad you miss yourself you want him back and not leave ever again
5 years clean is beyond amazing! I've been an addict for 10 years. Started when I was 19 & worked for a well respected doctor. Long story short he would just hand out prescriptions to me for migraines. I slowly became addicted before I had even realized it. I can stay clean for about a month... Then cave because like you said I don't want to feel or care about anything. I don't think I know how to cope anymore.
good thing you stopped. they are charging 35 for pills and 30 for dope unless you have a better connect. I'm gonna start kicking tomorrow. I did my last shot today and got rid of all my points and I've had enough so I have no anxiety about quitting. I had a year clean and relapsed about 7 months ago. herion is horrible and the people that sell it think they own you.
cloud chaser Exactly...
Thank you for your videos Ryan. It helps to know that I'm not alone in this. I'm on 14 days cold turkey. I spent 3 years abusing oxy's (about 10x30's a day minimum) and fentenyl patches ( 100's). Hardest damned thing I've ever done.
You are so right about losing yourself/everything. It basically happened to me. I'm really searching for the person I used to be. It's going to take time I know, but that's one of the things I still have left. Also, funny about the music/talk radio....too true. I've been a musician since I was a teenager....now it's one of the things that's helping me find my way home.
Cheers!
Thanks for your video's Ryan! I personally struggled with opiate addiction for 6 yrs. It got to 600 mg plus daily, and still struggled to keep with drawls away! Your video's are spot on!! I happened to have a Dr. that cared about my future, unlike one of my Dr. who kept me supplied with pills. I asked, he gave! I went to detox, and was put on Suboxone, 12mg daily! You think only 12 mg, from 600 mg plus of oxy! IT FRICKEN WORKS!! My ups and downs are gone, no more suffering through withdrawls every three hours! After 4 months of gradually tapering down, and made it to 1/2 mg a day. I was transferred to Clonidine, it took away all the left over symptoms! 5 months clean, and I have yet to have one craving! I too was thinking about suicide! I just didn't see away out of this hell! If you need help, please talk to your Dr about Suboxone!
Thank you so much for this video and sharing your thoughts. I came across it by accident but I was/am in that place you described. Again, thanks for sharing!
Thank you. This video kept me from using again and to gain control over my cravings. At least for tonight. It is a never ending fight.
I've watched so many of your videos and this one is my favorite. Thanks for being a source of support when I need it.
Hello, Id like to start off by saying your videos are outstanding and they are extremely informative I was shocked to see the small amount of views Secondly I do not have an opiate addiction, I do however struggle with smoking weed. Now I know a lot of people are going to laugh at this but I dont care. I see many cases where I feel very similar to how you describe the feelings of withdrawal. However I never graduated to anything else. I now see the problems with even smoking weed but ive been smoking for almost 5 years now. Its not difficult to stop, seeing as how my symtoms arent as severe as opiate withdrawal however it remains an issue to stay away from it. I just dont like the feeling of living sober all the time. But perhaps thats because im still currently smoking. Anyways this might seem like some complete bullshit to you but you made some great points and I dont want my life to remain in limbo any longer. Thank you so much for putting your story out there and telling people the truth about all this! You're a life saver
I got off meds and now I get chills with my favorite songs. You helped me so much and ur not even here anymore. But for some reason I feel like up there watching down on me, us. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. 2nd week of withdrawal of methadone and Norco :(
feel you so hard on that music thing. not just hearing it but actually able to feel it again
I've also noticed the music thing. Now I'm on Suboxone and It's just not the same. I rarely even turn the radio on in my car. It takes over your whole life.
Yes, for chronic back pain.
Wow it did that to me too I had to turn radio off and no interstate for years
Suboxone which was my drug of choice numbed as well as every other opiode. It may not be as powerful as full agonists like H or Oxycodon but for sure suboxone creates a filter between you and your emotions.
Finally someone who KNOWS WHAT THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT
I have friends and family and I just want to help everyone around me RIP even in heaven you Still helping everyone. And people in the medical field yiu r helping us as well to learn how patients react as well.
I was fighting my demons while dancing with demons ; Opiate Addiction
cant believe ryan is dead.. wow rip
I love this video . I'm curious myself now to see who and what I am after hiding under the influence of opiates for 20 years. you are great Ryan!
Guys I've been playing music before and through my addiction. Some things are lost don't get me wrong but if you did lose it it wasn't meant for you. Find a new passion. I was addicted for like 8 years. Seek therapy because you might be experiencing anxiety so you can't pay attention to the present. I learned I abused because it helped my anxiety, until the negative side effects ruined my life in those 8 years. Infinite waters TH-cam channel helps immensely.
finaly someone that makes sense and can relate to what im going through
Great video! Great help! Remember we are all learning! Don't judge yourselves!
music and opiates are amazing, you are different than most people then
I've recently relapsed on IVing meth and heroin. I've noticed that my sweets spot 30mg of each went up to 80mg. Once I'm done, it's going to be my offdays for the next 2 days, My last dose was today. Thankfully it hasn't been too long(2 1/2 weeks), so hopefully withdrawals aren't going to be too bad, but the last two times when I did get hooked on meth or heroin on separate events in my life, I was going downhill faster than gravity.
I went ahead and subbed, feels good to relate as a reminder why we hated being stuck on it in the first place.
God bless u brother
Thank you so much for that story brother I been on pills for over 5yrs and it my first day of not taking them and it so hard not too when you have them right next too you but after hearing what you said it like you just described my life and I don't don't want that in my life anymore so thanks for the story again
In one of you're video's i just watched you said people who get clean arnt special, theyre just like anybody else. I'm almost on day 4 and as simple as that sentance was, you really helped. Thank you.
Opiates tried to kill me!
Okay so I just want to tell you how thankful I am for finding this video. thank you for being honest. really wish I could private message or at least talk to you personally but not sure how. I am 21 and really struggling right now. I just ordered calm support I DO NOT WANT TO BE AN ADDICT ANYMORE. I am trying so hard to keep it together. this video touched my heart truly. not trying to be all emotional but I am a 21 year old woman who is in college. I desperately want to make something of myself and I am so close I absolutely agree 150% with everything you said in this video. thank you again. hope I get the chance to talk to you one day. God bless
I understand you 1000%. I had a very rough time.
dude you are so on point glad I found these videos I'm gonna watch all them.. thank you
Hey Ryan im now clean from opiates for about 3 weeks and your videos been really helpfull for me,can you do a video of living without opiates/living with opiates comparaison like the good points that addicts dont realise about living without their opiates.Thanks a lot :)
yeah I remember the music part. every time I get strung out I quit writing songs
Thank you sooo much im about to start my process tommorow im scared because ive tried before and the pain is horrible and i work so much but watching your videos is pumping me up to get tru it
shovel shit all day and be happy haha, I love it
I need to talk to u my husband is a addict of pills and i want to leave with my 5 kids but i feel guilty for leaving but i feel like a prisoner
You speak the truth , i got into using because i wanted to be numb. I know exactly what you mean when you say it feels good to "feel" or be alive again . You are a good guy, i am still new to this channel but i will explore a little more haha.
Thank you for these videos - much needed!!
I'm finished. No way I can get off. Didn't take it to get a good feeling. My doctor is my drug dealer now. I took it to keep working for my family. I had two back surgeries. I'm still on it and can't get off. My wife divorced me,not over yet lucky I bought that big house for us cause she's still in it. I take morning afternoon and night now. I'm tired. It beats me up. My whole day is about pills. It's killing me. I work for Michelin they send people to a rehab called the fellowship hall. I can't go. I was just off work for 10 months with my back. I can't take another month off. I always have a pill on me,always. My doctor writes me out prescriptions 3 months in advance. He says I don't know how to get you off. People just want more he said. He said nobody wants off. I told him I can't make it only taking twice a day anymore since back to work. He said what you want me to do. I said I need extra for the afternoon and he did that. I'm lost anymore. I'm lonely. I have overdosed twice.
Wow! Let me tell you that your story mirrors that of mine... Everything about your situation, minus the surgery, is basically the same. In fact, my back is so bad from a bike/car accident that spinal surgeons will not touch it. They told me that my discs are pressing so close to the spinal nerve canal that going into that area is a serious risk. I even have to avoid jolts/bumps when riding in vehicles. Work is an impossibility for me, even with pills... I say all this just to tell you, you are NOT alone. I weaned myself off my oxy(prescribed only, nothing illegal) and am now 8 days clean. Pain or no pain, life is so much more vivid and colorful without the opes. My sense of natural joy is back, my sense of humor and I have a hunger to help my family and others... When you've been on opiates as long as I have then come out, I cannot describe what is waiting! When I was taking my medication, the only real sense of satisfaction was 20 minutes after I took the pill. The rush of warmth, pain relief and satisfaction you get from them requires no buildup. After a while, it destroys your drive to do anything other than your pills. Think about it... Opiates release 10-16x the dopamine of a sexual orgasm. How long can you receive that kind of a reward before it becomes "your everything"?
We're both in the same boat medically brother... Just don't give up, it only gets darker the longer you go.
I'll be praying for you...
Don't give up never give up on yourself. You are worth living!!!
Go on subs ..
better than being on methadone. Some people (most addicts) cannot go through life without opiates. So if u are going to take an opiate for maintenance. Subs are the best options.
I know exactly what you mean... The person I was before I used opiates always dealt with my problems head on face to face. After 2 years with opiates I can't deal with a damn thing without them.
Btw your story gave me goosebumps! Ha!
Amazing advice! Ur an amazing inspiration
Ryan Donnelly I'm nervous I have 2 7s and have at times taken 30 a day ....plz be there and help
Thank you brother, that was a great video it really hit home.
Ha ha,I always used to say that after a few days detoxing.I can hear music again!!!!
you doing a good job keep up my man
Yes I agree by possession, I totally agree. In the end how it just takes over the mind and it controls everything . Yes I was very sick in the end so horrible
Great inspiring video, love the raw emotion!
I like this video, honest, to the point. Thank you.
I lost my soul,,, please Jesus help me
Hey buddy I want to let you know, you really seem to know your stuff health and spirituality. Your Aura is strong.
its really the best video i ever watched thank u
So helpful! Thank you🙏
RIP Ryan...
Thanks your video are very inspiring
so right,its been a fight of my like from this poisin,been off opiates since feb 2 2009,took me a year to get right.possesed is so right.
I feel like taking the pills have helped me a lot in my job - because they take away all the negativity from my brain, and allow me to have a better attitude towards my job and get things done ! I was able to achieve a lot while taking the pills. However - my liver is getting messed up and I don't want liver failure. So I have got to stop taking the pills.
second best video. thanks so much.
it's depersonalisation ,when you alter how your body brain chemistry works ..your not having your personal natural feelings .....so over time you loose the original characteristics that help define you
you are 100% correct!!
That music shit is so true. I haven't listened to music in years besides dumb shit on the radio. I use to be so into it...fuck man.
Thanks man!
I was hooked for years started with the OxyContin 40 and 80 mg then went to heroin I’m from Massachusetts and we have a thing called section 35 where someone can put you in treatment and you go in front of a judge and they put u in a rehab center which my sister did to me I was really upset at first but once I spent 35 days in there and got clean it was the best thing she ever did for me coming up on a year clean and just the thought of going through those horrific withdrawals keeps me away from it very hard to do but possible if u keep your mind to it
Omg ur right sooooooo right!!
Thank you
clean 3 months as of yesterday!! screw those things!! I'm not looking back, soo not worth going over those withdrawls again :)