Burnt Out At 19
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I love you so much more than words can convey
Chris Klemens AWWWW
Here for you always and so proud of your honesty and vulnerability. Love from all of us
pls collab 😍
When Elle feels she's ready to come back to TH-cam, I really think a collab would be awesome .
I love you!!!
Yasss
yes theory. 💙😭💙💙💙💙
“im sorry i don’t believe you” i cried.
Damn that hit hard.
I cried as well.
I didn’t get your comment til I got to that part. Didn’t cry but felt a sharp pain in my chest.
i'm crying right now
wait she’s only nineteen? what a hard working wonderful human being
Yeah a lot of people work hard at 19, she's not special
ohIcanChangeMyNameIDKthat (op on a different acc) are all nineteen year olds internet famous? she’s kinda living in the limelight and it must be extra stressful since she’s barely an adult.
@@femaleserialkiller no but that's not my point. The person I replied to focused on "hard working" when there are heaps of people who work harder or as hard as her at her age.
@@femaleserialkiller also sorry I'm an idiot didn't read that first part of your second comment properly
ohIcanChangeMyNameIDKthat idk. i’ve always been taught not to compare struggles of other people. everybody’s got issues, even if hers aren’t the worst of the worst or she’s not the craziest workaholic,, doesn’t make her less strong and hardworking. her independence is impressive nonetheless.
"You're just saying words Dodie" broke my heart
im glad to nothave recordings of my wine induced panic attacks, I know it would have been wayy too simlar :-( love u elle ur not alone
Sondelll fr:(
Sondelll same
Sondelll sameeeee, I’m still cryingggg
I teared up so bad
you don't upload videos... you upload WORKS OF ART
Kevin and Lill YES!
Kevin and Lill Truth
*Best comment ever :)*
true that
oh hey nice to see you over here
Elle - the level of transparency in this film was extremely powerful. Sending love to you! :)
Omg ur s0 deeep
...youtube video....... film............................ they are not the same. calling it a film doesn't magically make it more important. this is digital, not film.
How does she not have like 10 million subscribers
Like omg like
Because she's a joke of a person, who doesn't have the foresight to realise how lucky she is, omg it must be so hard to be a youtuber, I thought people struggling to pay the bills at a shitty minimum wage job, had it bad, I totally forgot about poor elle, omg let me go donate money to her right now, cos earning tons of cash doing a job you love, is a horrible way to live, she must be so stressed, I'm surprised she hasn't took her own life with how bad her life is.......FFS!!!
@@JoJo-jk4jm An actual guy/girl with an actual functioning brain. Hallellujah!
JoJo 33 Mental health issues can effect anyone. ANYONE. Doesn’t matter what your income is or if you are doing the job you love. You can’t control depression, stress or anxiety. Especially depression since it’s a chemical imbalance. Nothing to do with your lifestyle. Stop being such a nasty cow and live your life how you want but don’t bring others down doing so. She is 19 she is still a teenager and has probably achieved more in the past year that you have achieved in your whole life time because your a sorry excuse of a person who must drag other people down to actually feel validated in life
@@khloestorey4146 Just like you are doing right now? Hypocrite.
You know what's the difference between a depressed guy with money and a depressed guy without money?
The depressed guy with no money can't even get help at all, while the depressed guy with money not only can cover all the needed medication, he also can come to TH-cam to get EVEN more money, and also con out people with this BetterHelp shit.
Always making me so emotional, stay strong. Wish you the best.
I’m glad more creators are talking about their struggles and their mental health. There is a lot that goes down when the camera goes off. Being a TH-camr is often over glamorized in an unhealthy way.
People don’t realize that success comes with unexpected pressures you may not be fully prepared to deal with...
Roberto Blake that's why I don't want to be a celebrity or a big youtuber. A small TH-cam channel would be great for me
Well said!!
Is being a "small" TH-cam channel even possible? I hope I'm wrong but it seems like it's all or nothing?
Depends, if you have content that isn't super universal and it demands a specific audience then yes it is possible.
That makes sense, David, thanks!
Hi Elle. I wanted to say that I'm so incredibly happy and proud of you for posting this video. Struggling with mental health is so incredibly difficult and I'm so glad that you're seeking help and talking about it. I hope that things continue to get better for you and that you find a good balance in your life. Here for you any time you need ❤️
“Hey who’s this..
Oh it’s me!”
Awww so cute😭😍❤️
Your honesty is a breath of fresh air into a very dishonest world. This was beautiful.
Oliver J Hughes totally agree. she framed the whole thing so well
Your mental health always comes first. That doesn't go just for you, Elle, but anyone reading this. We're youtubers as well, and the pressure can be unreal sometimes. There's absolutely _nothing_ wrong with stepping back and really making sure you're giving yourself a chance to breathe, get help if you need it, and reach out to your supportive networks. Mental health _is_ health. And when your health isn't there, it's really, really difficult to claw your way out of it. You got this Elle. ❤️
💯💯💯
Well said...
that shot of dodie taking out her retainer im dying
but seriously i hope you're alright and I love you
“You’re just saying words Dodie” that broke me.
i cried at the last bit with the convo with dodie cause i really related, cause those are the feelings i feel as well. it helps to know that other understand and go through the same experiences, even if it doesnt make you feel better. you never walk alone, because there are others always there beside you, even if you dont see it
wildchild491 nothing ever stays bad. Things always get better. You need to be patient. You Are much stronger than you think
i don’t know you personally but holy shit do i relate to this. i hope you start to feel better soon because you’re a wonderful person and i admire your courage. see u at sitc x
❤️
I'm only a minute into the video and I have goosebumps. You really know how to capture the viewers attention
Sorsha love your channel! You were my inspiration to eat a plant based life style and raise my boy vegan:)
I had never heard of you before today. Just by watching this one video, I can tell that you're amazing. When I was 22 I fulfilled my lifelong dream and when you achieve that it's an amazing feeling, but then it settles in. "What do I do next? I've achieved my dream already." I asked this to a stranger on a plane and she gave me the dumbest, simplest advice - "Find a new dream" . She was right. I've lived so many dreams it's hard for me to fathom. Things that would blow the mind of high school me. I think you make great videos and I think that TH-cam is better for having you. I hope you'll continue to do it because I can tell that you inspire people and make them happy. One of the greatest feelings is to know that you make a person's day better, even if just for a moment. Those are my favorite comments on videos. I hope you're well soon. Take all the time you need, TH-cam will always be here.
jojopetv you're so sweet
Is that her problem though? She DID ask what to do when you achieve your dream so young, but she didn't go into it; mostly she's talking about your run-of-the-mills TH-cam-burnout stuff. Pressure, anxiety, depression...Not so much that she achieved her dream but the shit that comes with the kind of dream she had.
After disappearing from TH-cam at around age 18 and 100k subs, Pupinia eventually claimed that she couldn't handle the attention, and that it takes a special person to be able to. This Elle girl definitely has the talent and personality for this; she's not average at all. But even she couldn't handle it. That says something pretty despairing about this as a career.
I know the feeling of accomplishing your dream, I'm 24 and am doing the job I always wanted plus done a lot more and I never thought I would accomplish any of it and have been told by numerous people I never would. Now I don't know what to do
Dude, even I feel better after that :D
Elle should reach out to Shane 😭 or Shane should reach out to Elle WE NEED THAT COLLAB 😭
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Edit: Since I’m getting to many likes y’all should subscribe to my TH-cam channel 😬😂 get me to 200 please 😭😭💛
YESS
Collab
YES
yay it's yvette g YEEEEEESSSS
THAT IS A FUCKING YES FROM ME HELLO
You’re doing the right thing Elle! Put yourself first! Put your own oxygen mask first before assisting others. TH-cam will still be here :) love from Chile! ❤️
this video is really amazing
Never realized how many people on TH-cam are fucjin rude. She's allowed to feel sad, it's called depression. There doesn't have to be a reason. And we know 19 is young to be a burnout, I'm sure she used it cause that's the best word she could use to describe going from a success idea filled channel to losing motivation thus losing viewers.
she makes money off this. A ton of money. Burnt out at 19 because she's on TH-cam too often? Bullshit.
@@schrodingersdog100 you put all ypur good ideas out at once, you havr nothing left to put out.
@@schrodingersdog100 and money doesn't fix everyones problem
I have no sympathy, especially as she was out and about having the time of her life just a few weeks later with all that holiday money she earned. You fall for it if you want, I'll stay suspicious until I meet her in person.
@@schrodingersdog100 sad people are allowed tp have fun
Okay but her editing is SO good
Ok but grammar
Ok but hamburgers
Ok but pandas
I loooooooooove the ending!!
Annikazion ommgmggmggmmgg du bist ja hier
Uhhh! Hallöchen Annika :D
ok hallo Annika :D
I’m burnt out from school and going through the same thing, same age just different situations, you’re strong Elle hang in there
And I am even more convinced that dodie and her friends are the best people ever...!
Sending you those positive vibes 🌹 your health comes first
Tia Bhatia i live for your videos
You honestly are a gift to this world Elle. I wanna take a moment to celebrate the fact that you are here with us in this wild and wacky existence, and not only that but the fact that you have such a brilliant mind for filmmaking, you really really do. Take the time that you need, prioritize you and yourself fully.
The struggle with one's mental health is never easy, and I have a deep, deep respect for your willingness to be so candid with your audience. I (as well as the many others who love your work) will be here to celebrate you when you return, I just know it. Love and light to you and yours
Music and editing is on point as always, it’s good to have you back! Take things at your pace! We’ll be waiting
She needs to meet Shane Dawson like RIGHT NOW!!!!
YIKES... this did not age well.
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Also
#saveourchildren
Ikr
Shonshea Begay YES
YES
Shonshea Begay yesssss he would help her so too mush even now
They need to make a video together!
Elle, you are so incredible and your beautiful mind is worth putting first. We're sending you all our love.
VidCon ❤️
Tanas after you lol
Tana already snatched yo' weave, ur irrelevant
TANACON
it’s okay not to be okay. thank you so much for sharing this, elle. you really are my favorite person on the internet. your courage will always be someone else’s inspiration to live their true self.
I FEEL THIS, you start to become a product, a character, a competitor, to deliver & deliver constantly. Even tv shows go on break between seasons 🙌🏽
She’s only 19 but her mind is older :/
20 now.
these New York city streets get colder
@Elisa Castro you dont get it do you
21 now
And it will forever be.
Elle, we will always be here to support you!! Stay strong ❤️
Kristine dOLAN TWINS
keep on rockin Elle! I've become a huge fan since we met last month and this is my favorite of all your videos because it shows how real you are and gives people a better understanding of the shit we go through. I can relate to a bunch of stuff you were saying and its refreshing to hear these struggles coming from another creator.
Wil Dasovich This is so true. We all have this struggle at times, because of the fact that we are always trying to entertain everyone else as a creator, but at the same time compromising our mental health in the process...
Where did you meet??
Kirame @ Shorty
I know it must be hard for you to put yourself out there but I really appreciate you doing this because it makes me feel less shitty because of my depression. I cried through this video.
I love you and stay strong Elle.
We can do this.
I legit cried through the whole video I thought it broke my heart to see u struggling like this 😭😭idk just take the time u need we don’t mind
i love u! wow! can’t believe u deserve the world! thank u for being so open with us! really! take all the time you need!
ELLE IS MY IDOL
Hannah Forcier ily hannah
Hannah Forcier mine too ❤️❤️❤️❤️♥️♥️♥️♥️
I feel like this is a common thread amongst TH-camrs/freelancers. "Oh you get to work from home, how lucky" Yeah I'm alone basically all the time and I hate it. "Oh you get to work whenever you want" Yeah, so I have to actually motivate myself to do work or else I can't make a living. There's all these negatives which can cripple you if you feel forced to hide them away for the sake of a crafted persona/vibe. The best thing to do is this and just be open about it, because tons of people have these problems to varying degrees. Mentally it's like a breath of fresh air and can result in friends reaching out in a way you wouldn't expect. Fuck professionalism, that's just a word synonymous to being dead inside. Everyone just needs to be real.
Lashan everybody just wants to be a student of life.
Lashan true.. I believe Elle's honesty is step one in the treatment
Once you meet the depression, it's always with you, sometimes you feel better but it's a permanent shadow behind you all telnet time .
Exactly. It never truly leaves you. Its just waiting for the right time strike.
This is not true, I was deeply depressed most of my high school years, I tried to find happiness in a man, had kids, and now I’m headed for a divorce after he left me for another girl. A part of me feels like that depression wants to creep back in, it wants me to not care, to give up on my dreams and blessings. I reencountered God though, he told me my worth was not to be found in any man, any profession, my appearance, etc etc. Our worth is found in him who gave us life, his word says that we are fearfully and wonderfully made! He gives peace to the anxious and joy/comfort to the broken-hearted.
spongiibebi not everyone believes in god, everyone has a different religion. And for certain people, depressing will always be there. It happens.
Not true.
spongiibebi tru tbh with men’s strength it’ll never rly go away. But only with God have I truly Overcome depression.
omg i could actually relate to this at some degree... just without all the fame, but getting burnout even though you should be happy because you're doing something you enjoy and having panic attacks for what you might look back on as silly.
I hope you too can find the strength to seek help ❤ we live in such a stressful society, there are so many things that are hard to deal with... I hope you and elle and everyone else commenting things like this can find a way to deal with that!
The thing is what you think is silly isn’t silly to her it’s probably terrifying and scary af like I remember getting panic attacks over girls talking about me consistently and walking into room knowing people were already talking badly about me and honestly it was silly to all adults around me but to me it had an effect to my mental health. No hate just don’t say something you don’t know personally is silly. Because even though she’ has a nice life can travel and is famous doesn’t make her struggles and less silly
Linda Ramirez nah but for example I would panic and it’s hard to describe the feeling but you’re always down, sad, negative thoughts and just become so unproductive and not movitated to do even things you’d normally love. But sometimes... and I know it’s different for anyone, if you can get out of it and look back at what was really happening you’ll feel that what you went through could be small compared to other situations. Everyone has to remember that they ain’t the only going through what they are going through. Sorry for the vague message it’s just that it can get deep. Silly was probably not the best word to use.
I cried so much! The pressure of being a youtuber is INSANE when you’re blowing up. I’m a smaller youtuber but I’ve been on that roller coaster... best wishes to you Elle! You’re extremely talented and people will happily wait for you to be ready to come back so take your time coz good mental health (or managed) is the most important thing in the world!
My heart just broke
Kylie's Corner literally cried lol im a sap
I don't get American culture. Even tho you know that money/success is a source of sustainability, not happiness. You still have your ideas messed up.
“I” not same, disgusting culture you have
Chriss Re she’s Canadian..........
She’s not in America.
@@parabellum1002 She lives in Canada and that is where? North America continent.
@@weskridge I didn't say USA. I said America. Canada is in North America.
When the middle started playing I started sobbing my eyes out
Thank you Elle for sharing this amazing story with us
These types of videos make me really happy cause it makes me realize I'm not alone. I've gone through depression and Elle is right talking to someone helps a lot.
This is a good sentiment, and not to hate or anything but the wording of your comment could have been better
A video most TH-camrs could have made at one point in there careers.
SammieSpeaks their
SammieSpeaks their*
*Should have made
i wanna be a POLICE
Theo Taylor are you talking about the guy in the video?
ME TOO *lol*
Domen Dolinar I’m in the video
This did not age well.....
PERRO FUNKY oh no i hate cops i think i was quoting the video
Elle is always awesome and amazing♡ stay strong. Elle burnt out twice now *we are here for you*
I love you and will be here even if you upload once a year.
Why do I feel more connected with you than my own sister?
Mr. Someone me too!
Bella oh hi gorgeous
Because you do?
Omg I LOVE YOU
You shouldn’t feel that way, you should probably start talking to her lmao
I’ve never seen anything so genuinely relatable ever in my life. It creates the sense of a safe zone for those of us going through the same thing.
Petition for Shane Dawson to do a video with Elle? (The collaboration would be fantastic anyways). But Shane’s got a special spark for helping TH-camrs.
Rachel Starz *signs the petition with all of her limbs*
YESSSS
Omgggg yessssssssss
Rachel Starz my god YESSSS
Rachel Starz as long as he doesn't bring the squad and squeal me and ew every 5 seconds.
It Takes a lot of courage to Put your Vulnerability out to the world... Stay strong ❤️
That phone call broke me. I've been in that exact same spot. Sometimes it's really hard to believe it'll get better. For me it took surrounding myself with good, truly caring friends. For you it'll probably be something else since you already seem to have friends that care deeply. There isn't a cure-all but once you find what you need, the world will open up and you'll feel free.
Awesome sauce. Depression is a life long struggle and it never goes away. The key is to learn to cope with it and do the things that make you happy and if youtube is becoming too much then you should probably give it up. And I don’t mean that in a negative context but if it’s effecting your mental health then you need to cut out the venom before it takes over. I hope you find happiness in your life. You seem like such a sweet soul.
i agree with most of what you said except for the part where you said that depression is a life long struggle. it isn’t and you can get over it.
It never goes away?? No sorry don’t say that . It WILL. it DOES .
If your depression never goes away, it might be Persistent Depressive Disorder rather than Major Depressive Disorder ("common depression"), and you should get further help.
you obviously have no understanding of mental health at all
All of these people who are saying "it does go away" are the ones who don't understand the medical, chemical side of depression. I've wrestled with it since I was 8 years old, and I'm 33 now. It gets easier, yes, but you still have a lifelong fight ahead of you.
Stay strong Elle. Stay strong, all of TH-cam is here for you.
WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU.
I feel like everyone had burned out this year , I know myself I have too . Glad you took your break and are back and ready ! TH-cam doesn’t have hours or weekends off so I know it’s not easy .
I'm no psychiatrist, but I'm pretty sure the reason you're so unhappy is that you're not getting any feedback. You're just speaking into a camera. There's no facial expressions to read as you see their reactions to what you're saying, there's no voice other than yours to break the monotony and there's no new information coming in from another person to get a fresh point of view. It's just you talking to yourself and don't get me wrong, everybody needs some alone time every now and then, but human beings are not supposed to be alone constantly and talking into your camera or just staring at your phone reading a text is not going to fulfill the need for human contact and when you're making a video, the people who are watching. They're not friends they're fans, so you're not having a casual conversation. You're on a stage, acting for the crowd, waiting for them to criticize your performance as they boo or cheer and that's where the anxiety comes in as you wait to see which way it goes. Believe it or not, acting takes a lot of energy and will slowly wear you down over time. TH-cam is just a job, do not let your entire life revolve around it.
I know it's a year later , but yeah that makes me feel like a weird person for enjoying the feeling of being alone and talking to myself rather than seeing others. Kind of odd how people say that they need the relationships of others to survive when, I personally never saw it necessary for most of my own life.
Brilliant point.
lol no, its not. stop giving people advice based on nothing. you have no idea what you're babbling about. stop just making stuff up.
@@twsartadventures3660 Yes, it is.
Look up "Maslow's hierarchy of needs" and maybe you'll understand then.
@@lunacron Maslow's hierarchy is not science, it's theory and it's a bullsh*t. Happiness isn't connected to any need. But that's true that human needs interaction with people, not success/job/money/whatever, to stay healthy.
you don't have to please anybody - creating is something that you love .... keep doing what you love, just do it for the heck that you love doing it rather than the pressure that you get from your fans or subscriber or whatever you wall them ... we are here for you Elle ...
I don't know if you'll see this Elle but my Dad was severely depressed for a year and even attempted taking his life. It was extremely tough and like you, we thought it was a never ending cycle and he was never going to get better. I promise that with dedication to your mental health and having a great support group around you, you will be better. I really love your videos and although I shall be upset that we may not see one in a while, I feel extremely proud that another creator has addressed mental health and is finding time to get better. Lots of love xx
This broke my heart. I dont want someone to feel pressured. I suffer with anxiety so i know how it feels. You are not alone
This is so raw and overwhelming. Mental health is not a joke, I really wish you all the best on coping with it now and as the years go by. It can take anyone over at any point and every step you make forward will be worth it.
this video breaks my heart. I can't even come to imagine what this is doing to you but you seem so incredibly strong and I'm sure with time everything will be fine! I just met you in Toronto the other day and Elle, you are seriously so beautiful and kind. Thank you for taking the time out of your day EVEN when you're going through such a rough patch to see us. you are truly amazing.
Gurl take care of yourself and then come back hard, your health should always come first ❤️ we support you no matter what
It's human nature. Suppose you like this chocolate and you barely got any of it. But, than bam 1000 in one go. You will get sick n tired of eating them. The right way is to pace yourself. Enjoy it on a weekend or with friends. And keep updating your goals once you achieve them.
wow...elle...thank you for being you
SHANE DAWSON... where you at??? is she next????????????????????????????????
I kinda hope so
Kayarel Pi shane started doing a thing where he helps out youtubers who feel down and uninspired. he did it for bunny (graveyardgirl) and her views did much better after. you should check it out
i'm not sure if shane officially announced that he will now start a series wherein he helps people who are struggling.
this is not an opportunity for another series for shane neither a collab. This is a serious matter and i hope your empathy is not conflicted
Zessa yes he did
I had goosebumps the entire video...
Seneca Kupfer me too
Seneca Kupfer same. i cried.
I have never watched another TH-cam that makes me feel so many different emotions in 10 minutes or less
Sending you the BIGGEST OF HUGS! i understand you, you're not alone.
Even tho I am a small TH-camr I can relate so much. Elle don‘t be too hard on yourself. You are by far one of the most inspiring and creative people I can think of!
Here's an obligatory I'm 19 and this video was recommended to me comment..
Also being a person with "only thing I've ever wanted" goals and mentality is bad for health. Everyone is allowed to change goals and lifestyles, one should never put themeselves in such tiny boxes.
I’m 19 too,,,and I always feel like I’ve been caged in my mind,,,I want set myself free for just once,,,I can’t handle this anymore
@@silviyamaitra9311 Bad for you, I guess
Avocado Fruit true tho (for me personally), I get into a lot of stuff all by myself because I tend to branch out to a lot of interests and I'm going really well.
Posting this is the first step in the right directon, it is normal to kind of crumble down the presure after such a fast raise, take your time and you are going to come back stronger :)
We love you, you're the best :) !
I’ve never related to something more.
“You’re just saying words, Dodie.”
A lot of people struggling with their mental health can relate to that.
PLEASE HIT UP SHANE DAWSON
Dude I was thinking the same thing
YES, DO IT KNOW
I think its a lot more deep than that, unfortunately.
Zoe Riley YES but shane can relate he has been thought almost the same thing" but everybody is different "
shit Shane still is! you're probably right..
This video gives me chills. I love you elle!
this was one of the most raw videos i have ever seen and i am so thankful that you shared that with the world to see an insite to not everything you see is glam and gold i strugle with mental health and i understand this so much pls take as much time as you need to heal you wont get better right away it takes long time to heal those wounds you a brave kind soul and i hope this reachs to you and warms you up and sends you a smile you will get better
Hay soooo.....
You know this TH-camr Shane Dawson well he is doing this new series were he helps TH-camrs struggling with mental health or doesn’t know what to do with there channel and I just thought that he might be able to help
Elle you are the best TH-camr by far and I really hope you feel better soon
Your fans are here for you and will love you no matter what
squirellyGirl 17 he isn’t making a series, his series was just helping Bunny but maybe he can still collaborate with her
omg yes
he said he wanted to make a series at some point
I hope you understand that you can't expect Shane to help ElleMills just to have another series. Elle needs professional help and this is not an opportunity for a collab.
Zoë-Mai Shardlow I didn’t know that
you need to TAKE A BREAK.
say YES to this.
TAKE A BREAK! DONT FEEL BAD! YOUR HEALTH IS MORE IMPORTANT
eliza is that u?
Yeet
nraidah an that's how views drop. When u give up. An that's when money disappears. Facts of content creation.
Wow this makes me love and respect you even more
take as much time as you need. We will be here whenever you decide to come back. Mental health is always a priority and I know you don't believe it but it really does get better. I was at a point where I tried to take my own life because I saw no way out. And now... 3 years later I am really so much better. Yes it's cliche to say "things get better" but its a cliche for a reason. Thank you for being so vulnerable and open with us and with yourself. We love you xx
I know “it will get better” sounds corny and fake, I swear it does. Glad you are getting the help you need, that’s all you can do. This age is really hard for us. I know so many young adults that struggle with this, when I turned 19 I experienced my first panic attack ever, and then the next 30 something back to back to back, I thought I was losing my mind. This is a transitional time in our lives especially with you!!! I’m so much better now, I thought I was going to be stuck like that too. You won’t, I swear it.
Very good video and kudos for putting your mental health first. You need to get yourself to a point where you can feel good before worrying about other stuff.
I am so impressed by you, taking a stand, asking for the help you need, going out putting your mental health and needs first. As someone who has had a lot of medical problems I know how hard that can be. How tempting it is to keep trying to go forward until everything falls apart and the world grinds you to a halt. It’s inspiring and is such an important lesson not only to learn but to teach. You do you hun! Were here to support you in any way we can.
I got you just hit up Shane Dawson
Bad Bunny 4life yess
Shane Dawson is my god
Honestly !
YEEESS!!!
Her and Shane Dawson need to do a video together
Took me two weeks to get the courage to watch this. I love my life. I have a wonderful partner and a beautiful son. I am a good wife and mom. They both love me very much. But inside my head is a very different picture. Inside my head I am overwhelmed with shame and guilt for all the ways I fail them. I am toxic and will make them miserable. They are better off without me.
How delusional is that?!!
But THAT is mental illness. We are not choosing those thoughts. We can't snap out if it. We aren't looking for attention.
It is the lonliest, most unforgiving illness one can have....because you feel no one can help.
It is the good times, when there are no stresses and worries, that I know I am ill. Because I have every reason to be joyous, but I'm lost in a dark cloud of hoplessness in my mind. That is not a choice.
I have no advice to give. Except we are all alone in our struggles, no matter who stands by you. You have to love yourself. Figure out how to do that the best you can and daily struggle from there.
If someone reading this suffers from mental illness.....I'm so sorry. It's just not fair. You don't deserve to suffer like this. You are as valuable as anyone. The Universe loves you unconditional.❤❤❤
Showing that you are worried about how your family feels is really good, it shows that you are a good wife and mother. It shows that your more strong minded than you think and you care about people’s feelings more than yours. 🙂
Holy Namjoon thanks! You know what? I know I am strong. For ten years I have swam through mud with lead filled limbs to be a good mom. It is the people who do not suffer from mental illness..that say to me, "You used to be so strong!".
The ignorants have no idea just how strong I AM!! People need to see a goiter on your face to believe you are ill.
I'm more than mentally ill. Add neurologicaly impaired as well with a couple of learning disabilities.
Juelz906 I'm sorry to hear that. You have so many struggles and it's not fair. They are learning new things all the time and one day you won't have to suffer. Discovering interesting things with probiotics and our guts. Google it, you may get inspired. Hang tough. Remembee this: just cus you don't fit the mould of what society expects, doesn't mean you are any less unique and valuable.❤
So this comment made me sob uncontrollably.
I know I am late and I crying
Not as late as me and not as crying as me
Amazing video. wow. SENDING GOOD VIBES~~~
Danny😍😍😍
Take care of yourself first elle. YOU ARE DOING AMAZING SWEETIE :* hugs and kisses frm the laundry room
Tide Detergent is right. Just get some tide pods and life will be amazing.
this was so heartbreaking, we love you Elle.
Achieving your dreams is not what makes you happy, it’s the journey to getting there.
elle is amazing
Love your channel Elle. I know all too well battling depression and anxiety. It comes in waves of hopelessness and a emptyness. Even at my proudest moments I find myself crying on the inside. You are stronger than you know. Talking to anyone who will listen helps. A quote I go by is
"The devil whispered in my ear, 'You are not strong enough for the storm.' Today I whispered in the devil's ear, 'I am the storm.'" love you Elle and everything you do.