I've been taking the time to read every single comment. I'm so grateful some of us get to experience this kind of growth together. Love you all, and deepest thank you for all your words of wisdom and encouragement!! 🫶
Back at 27 I thought I screwed up everything, messed up a long term relationship, no direction in career when everyone around me career started taking off. Now I’m 32 and living my best life. Relationship and career everything is so much better!
this gives me hope. i'm 26 right now and after a bad breakup, I became really depressed which messed up professional life. I am trying to get back on track, and hope the universe work things out as well
There's that Korean belief that the ninth year of every decade brings hardships to prepare you for the next one. It's so hard to see you hurting, but I trust that you will prevail through it all! Growing up watching you, i've always known how strong and beautiful you are. I'll never stop rooting for you! ♥︎
I honestly didn’t want to click after reading the title I felt a pit in my stomach like dear God please don’t let it be about her and Gene. In my head I was your chocolate Cyber Auntie from Queens NYC..watching you grow and flourish over the years was/is such a joy. back when it was you Michelle and Esther in NY it was so refreshing to watch. I will not bash Gene or Jean that’s not what I do. It’s going to hurt like hell but you honey are one tough cookie and you will get through this. I am so proud of you and all your accomplishments and your endeavors. Keep your head up baby girl you got this!!!!
Seems that I am the only one who didn’t see it coming even after reading the caption 🤦🏾♀️, I was just excited that the video was longer than usual and was ready to come in and say thanks for making it longer this time.
@@freesiapark Hey baby girl it’s your Chocolate Cyber Auntie from Queens checking in on you. Hope your week went well and that you enjoyed your weekend thus far. *virtual hugs* 🤗 Love ❤️
One of the greatest things of being an adult and aware to be able to end something when it no longer works out. A lot of people can’t just admit when something is no longer working out they end up in toxic relationships. Sending you love during this healing era ..
This! I totally agree that there is a need to end something when it no longer works. And it's great that it ended on great note because if both didn't come to that realization sooner they would just hurt each other more and end up resenting each other. And also I think there is an element of romanticism if they find each other again ❤
Oh man, so many feels from watching this, Freesia. I just started over for similar reasons. I sensed an energy shift on your channel but thought I was projecting. I feel like a lot of people are going through heartbreak rn. I want to say that I think you’re gangsta and creative, and wish you luck in this new era. I’m selfishly excited for your living alone vlogs because they were my fave 💜
I second your comment ..Fresia is gangsta in a good way if there is such a thing…she will bounce back from this but we all must give her all the time and space she needs to do so. She’s going to have her good days and bad and we will all just be here giving her the support and love she needs to push through.
i literally quit my job without a plan and now moving from NY to LA (i don't know anyone there), also decided to start on youtube the past months i've not been working - and i'm 31 and still figuring it out lol. i want you to know that you're not alone, and it can only get better from here! applauding you for your bravery + vulnerability, i know it's not easy to show raw emotion especially to strangers, but this is all demonstrative of the transformation you're already growing through
Long term Auntie/Subbie who's been following you since the very beginning. You've got this. You're smart, wise and hardworking. Just give yourself grace. No need to rush anything. Wishing the best for you.
My heart sank when I saw your notification popped up but what’s meant to be will be. I’m sure it hurts like hell rn but time will heal and you will look back at it with fondness. Sending you the warmest hugs from London
I appreciate your vulnerability and decision to share a private life event. On another note, your place is amazing. I love a great loft space especially with exposed brick and industrial touches.
Girl you can also foster if not ready yet. I went through terrible breakup ended up moving and fostered and my foster pup healed me! After that i did nonstop fostering cuz i loved it so much . Having a dog is a big commitment and even though there are pet insurance but its still alot so if you want some puppy therphy you can foster and its the best and also helping the puppy and making another stop in shelters so you are helping two dogs.
Eyes watering up while freesia was talking at the beginning of the video. Sending love and hugs to you freesia, you’re the most authentic, sweet, caring, feeling and strongest women I’ve come across on youtube xx
I’ve been exactly where you’ve been except I was 30, freshly single and learning to grow by myself. I’m 32 now moving again but this time at my own terms for more growth and happier than ever. You are going to be okay ❤❤
Best of luck with the healing journey, as a viewer I am loving this new vulnerable content and I know it's hard to put it out there, but it feels also like something new is blooming as well. And my leap from 29 to 30 was crazy beautiful - I came out a whole different woman and I'm thankful for it everyday!
Freesia, this is the first video I've ever watched from your channel and I am floored. I'm going through the same exact thing (moving after breaking up from a 3 year relationship with my best friend of 10 years in my 20s, scary parallels) and it just feels so validating to hear you talk about it. It warms my heart to see you come back to yourself as the video progresses and you make your new home cozier, thank you for this. I hope to run into you in LA sometime - sending you all my love!!
Freesia, these things that happen in life are blessings. Truly. It's redirecting you to a truer path. Feel everything you need to feel, learn what you need to learn and keep being you! This life is for you and you only! Dedicate every moment to your own happiness. You're already equipped with everything you need.
it's your saturn return babe! change can be so difficult, but becoming comfortable with being uncomfortable will help you move forward towards making room for what's yours. hoping the days ahead are kind to you
Thank you for sharing and being so vulnerable! This is my first time coming across your channel and I'm glad it was this video because I'm also going through a breakup and life changes. This really helped me in many ways, and I can't thank you enough. Wishing you the best and we'll all be okay :)
I haven’t gone through a breakup in over a decade now but I can feel your sorrow and grief through the screen. Especially when you were brushing your teeth. Cuz I remember doing the same, many times before. I’m so sorry, I know it hurts. So much. But you will get through it. The new space will help you too to clear your mind. Things can only go up from here
Hi Freesia, just remember that what is for you will be for you whether it's relationships, work,etc..I really missed your weekly videos, but I am glad you're back. I wish you nothing but the best on this new single journey. 🥰
I'm so happy you've returned! I was wondering what's been going on since you weren't as active on social media. I totally understand what you're going through as I've gone through it when I was 27 and calling off my wedding. The hardest thing is to pick yourself up and really know you are worth it. But, once you find yourself and tell yourself you deserve happiness and keep that good support around you, it's an AMAZING feeling! I wish you the best and I look forward to your new adventures and what is meant for you! :) Welcome back!
As an Aquarius gal who had the WORST TIME OF MY life in my 29th year. I'm now 30 and things are better now. It will get better Freesia, stay strong !!! Also 29th year is our SATURN RETURN :) It's chaotic.
Hey! Could you do a blog about your growth since you moved from New York to LA? I’ve noticed how much you’ve grown and how you’re glowing these days. I’m curious about how your new environment has influenced you and if you’ve thought about returning to NYC 😊
Keep smiling girl! You are so strong🫰🏻I have 2 dogs and I can definitely say I do not regret getting them. Puppy phase is the hardest 2-6months (chewing your house esp) but after that they adjust to your lifestyle. My second pup just turned 1 and I must say its been super easy lately! Also dog insurance is a thing! Definitely get one it’ll save your bank💞
Hey girl 💛 This sucks to hear but I’m glad you’re able to heal and move forward with ease. IMO you seem very well put together. You have a solid career, you have your own place thousands of miles away from home. You have plenty of people in your life that love and care about you, a long, loving relationship that ended on a friendly note! Can’t say the same for other 29yo peeps…like myself. I will essentially be starting my life from scratch next year. 😬 keep pushing forward girl! You have so many good things coming your way! 🎉
This is so validating as a 29-year-old, who’s had a doozy of a year. But I’m actually really excited for whatever the future holds, I’ll make it. You’ll make it… We’ll make it!
I've been going through a breakup that sounds a lot like yours this past month - even though nothing bad happened, it's still heartbreaking in a way and a huge adjustment I really hope we can both rebuild that internal happiness💕
I am proud of you! You are choosing yourself and if this is what you need, than you do you! Believe me.. I am 32 now and when you hitting almost the 30, things will be diverent. Its like a new era. Like when you hit your 16, 21 and now the 30’s. Just let time get to you and take it a step at a time! Bigggg huggs from the other side of the world 💗🫶🏼
I went through so many emotions watching this and all I can say is that you’re doing great and we’re here for you! I hope you can get soon your ikea wardrobe so you can feel more put together with your things 🩷 sending you a big hug 🫂
I had a feeling something was amiss. I feel your pain. You two made a very mature decision in acknowledging that you are growing in different directions and to rather end a beautiful relationship and still be able to be good friends, than to destroy each other Freesia, I have daughters older than you and myblife was turned upside down a few times. But your faith will pull you through. Ride the waves but don't stay down too long. Be kind to yourself. Thank you for being authentic. It may feel dark all around but the sun will shine again and you will be amazed how you got through this. Strength to you. Keep being a creator whether it's making videos or pottery. Or your first love - cooking. It's your therapy.
Hey gurl! Stay strong and remember to give yourself time to heal! I went a bad breakup where we loved each other and was going to get married. It was a very intense love that I haven't felt with anyone but here I am and it will get better. It's been almost 1 year and 6 months since then. I do sometimes want to buy him things or miss the feeling of being together. I know therapy works wonders and working on yourself really does help! I love LOVE and each day I'm giving myself that love! You're doing amazing and remember YOU ARE A STRONG ASS WOMEN💖💖
a year of change for so many of us! very very excited for whats to come and i just know with your thoughtfulness and creativity you will be just fine (':
Freesia, although your heart is broken right now, but you are looking much better and at peace. I had been noticing from your previous blogs from many months that you looked dull and not happy. Maybe you had a lot of expectations from the relationship but welcome to change and I wish you a lot of love ❤
Sending you so much love and light right now!! 💛I’m sorry about your breakup with Gene 😔 my heart was breaking inside when you shared the news, literally heart sank. But keep your head up ✨ I’m so proud of you with getting your own space and making it your own- I’ve watched all your videos since you started and I love your content :) you’re awesome Freesia!
Hey Freesia, I'm going through a very similar breakup right now so thank you so much for sharing your experience and being so vunerable! I'm pretty new to your channel and I think you are such an inspiring person so I'm sure there is only greatness in your future.
Growth is often found in the cracks of change. I pray and hope that you find love and strength in your vulnerability. Rooting for you all the way from Kenya ︎ ❤
There will be plenty of other dogs! And if you ever get the itch again you can always consider fostering :) 29yo myself and I relate to the feels of this video. Keep your head up gurl we have grown ass women lives to live ✊🏼✨ it’ll all be okay 😊
Keep your head up Freesia and remember that the healing is not linear! Proud of you and wish to see you continue creating magic :) Love all your videos, big cheers! - R
You’re sooo pretty! The lash extension you have fits your eye shape really well - but on a serious note, I hope you’re doing ok. I’m going through the something similar thing actually: Freshly single, 30, just moved from NY to Seattle last month into a loft (also used roadway lol). Going through the motion but getting better every day. Time heals! You’re gonna be ok 🙌
♥♥ Been cheering you on since you started this channel and loved it when you joined us here in LA. You are such a strong girl, and you are going to move through this moment and please know, it gets better as you progress towards your new normal. You are my "Internet Niece" and I wish you all the best!
Hiiiii beauty! 💕sending you lots of love and healing! Thank you for being so vulnerable and just being transparent about how challenging this stage is. I'm also 29, and can definitely attest to all the girlies GOING THRUUUUU IT at this age. Something that helped me when I was going through a challenging breakup was a quote, "If something is destined for you, never in a million years will it be for somebody else." Whether that's your person, your career, whatever it may be! What's for you won't miss you. Rooting for you! 💐✨
Its soo comforting,going through breakup we've been together for almost 9 yrs,n idk feelings changed or things happened,still trying to progress it,june was really a depressing month,i couldn't feel myself,life is not the same anymore,a world once revolves around each other finally becomes a stranger,i feel the whole world collapse but maybe God knows better,i thought im the only one going through it,n so sorry for u fressia,i know how much it hurts too,but stay strong i hope we'll be fine n heal someday❤
Wishing you the best on this new journey, Freesia!! I’m the same age as you are and I feel like no matter what season we currently are in our lives, it’ll be a constant exploration and learning.
I feel for you Freesia 😔 I remember how excited you were in the beginning to meet someone like him. I was honestly shocked when I saw him in this video - no offense to him but I remember him looking like a normal dude. Now hair, fashion, and everything has changed… full player look 😅 maybe changing his teeth gave him that confidence.. I was wondering what was going on in the background, could feel the difference. Thank you for sharing your hardship with us, I know you’ll find your peace and happiness within yourself 🫶🏼
Sending you love, light, peace and strength in this new chapter of your life. Thank you for sharing these delicate and vulnerable moments with us. I’m going through something very similar so watching this made me feel less alone. Thank you. ✨
Im so sorry Freesia ❤️ i just went through the same thing in April and it's definitely hard at first, but im healing and getting better. Everything will turn out the way its suppose to ❤️
Freesia you are a strong, loving and a hardworking woman. ❤ Im really happy that you got to experience such a beautiful relationship. I wish you a lot of strength and love ❤
Freesia, I'm so sorry to hear about your breakup. You are such a wonderful person from what I've seen so far, and I wish you the best in this time of healing. Breakups are so hard, but I hope you know that you have so many people on your side, rooting for you. Thank you for sharing such an intimate and difficult topic with us. I look forward to your future content 💕
Freesia I've been watching you since your old makeup tutorial days NYC :') your fans are always cheering you on! Excited for this new chapter for you. I have a feeling it's going to be a good one :)
Freesia, sending lots of love and hugs❤️ You’re doing great, you’ve been my role model for such a long time🥹 I have seen how you have grown over the past few years, how you keep putting tons of effort into everything that you do!!! Future has only good things in store for you🫂🫂❤️❤️
26 was amazing for me and then 29...into 30 was a fucking earthquake sending you sooo much love mama this is all growth and will be sooooo sweet when you look back on it
U got this girl! I'm glad that u have great circles of friends in time like these. I was there in the same situations with no friends to relied on and at that time all I wish is for no one to feel the same way I do. When things get tough find a friend to confide in and don't bottle it all up. Slowly but surely you'll be in a great space of positivity. Wishing for a brighter future for u girl, sending hugs ❤
Big hugs ❤ and vet insurance when you do rescue a dog 🐶. Maybe a tiny chihuahua who can ride in a backpack to start. I fostered a cute one and taught her a million tricks. Fun!!
Sending you love Freesia. Honestly, the GOOD break ups are sometimes harder than the bad ones because your head doesn’t understand why, but your heart just knows what’s right. Sending you both so much love to grow and heal. 💕💕
Dear Freesia, I go through a breakup, he never experience true love, he’s independent and he got scared a bit, seeing me so warm and loving, but I know that he needs space and it takes time. In the mean while, I learnt a lot about myself, going through unknown reactions from him, hiding his feelings, doing the opposite of what is good for a healthy relation, yet I saw the light at the end of the tunnel, realizing that I don’t want to forget about my peace and happiness, that I am strong and I am creative. In life we really need to be prepared for anything no matter how hard it is, crying is therapy for me, feeling what I feel means maturity, but never forget about yourself, happiness is within yourself, enjoy that coffee, enjoy the music the movies you like, an end always means new opportunities. Remember that. Hugs 🙏🏻✨🕊️🌸
Thank you for sharing your vulnerabilities with us, hope you're surrounding yourself with friends & family to go through this difficult time. There will be a great and bright future await you
I'm your new subscriber. I saw you in michelle's vlog when michelle was in her break up era too. All the best for you. God bless. I will always watch your videos from now on.
4:14 I am 28 and I felt like this ‘awkward transformation’ phase is happening in my life also… suddenly I feel lost in life, when a year ago, at 27 I didn’t feel that way… the ‘scattered’ feeling is so real
Gosh, I dont know where to start. First of all, I shed a tear when Freesia started to cry and not because of the break up but I'm currently also in the strange phase of my life where I just dont know what's really wrong and gotten into me. I pull myself away from people surrounds me., I feel like I am no longer comfortable even with my own circle, sometimes I cry over small things but feel so much comfortable when I'm alone at home. Seeing you and your ex to be able to seat together and be for one another is another privilege I would say becasue to be able to open up and acknowlegde the feeling is another stage to embrace with and most important thing would be that put ourself first ︎︎︎︎︎︎:) btw I'm 29 myself LOL so probably its the hardest time for the biggest plan once we hit 30. Manifesting
Sending you lots of love Freesia, thank you for being vulnerable and still wanting to share difficult parts of your life with us. Wishing you all the best in this new chapter ❤
Having gone through the same situation and choosing to stay. I'm so proud of you for making the right decision. A person can be so perfect and still not the right person for you. And choosing yourself will prevent ypu guys from hurting eachother further in the future. And if you two end up finding a way back to each other then it will happen naturally. I wish I could just hug you!!!🫂
You are such a strong girl , I have seen your journey through TH-cam, and seen your growth over the years, I strongly believe that you will be fine with time. I wish you good health, and happiness and peace ❤
Hey new subscriber here! I'm going thru this right now as well. Except they moved out. Nothing but love there but it hurts so much! Gotta adjust to being alone. It's rough and I have cried so much but I'm making it.❤ We got this girl!
Ok writing this after seeing you and Gene crying together as you ended… I’m 37 now, and 1) YES 29 is a PIVOTAL year for many, it is when I left my successful career and boyfriend I was supposed to marry and freaking moved all over the world and 2) when you look back at this vlog and moment you will be sooo proud of yourself. I don’t know many people who can hold such sacred and kind space for the love they shared, at a time where celebs are using their exes for virality and hit songs… cough. It’s just so beautiful. Thanks for showing the beautiful and delicate human experience, as you said. Im crying with you. 💕🙏🏽 much because I know, these are the moments that break you, but they always inevitably make you, if you so choose 🥰 so much good to come. (PS my ex boyfriend and I reunited a year+ later and have the best marriage now after our growth apart. Not that this goes for your relaysh but that that growth period was needed and good things came out of it)!! 💕💕
I am so sorry for what you are going through. I know how you feel. I was with my high school sweetheart for 3 years and he was my first love. We parted on good terms with no hard feelings. A few years later we started talking again and ended up being best friends until his passing of Covid two years ago and it ended up being a 30 year friendship . I know it is hard but it does get easier and you will get through it. You’ve got this.
wow I thought I was sensing something was up esp. with your sporadic posting, but tbh did not think it was the relationship. I feel like you grew so much with Gene and that was an essential part of your 20s/life. Selfishly I'm looking forward to more Freesia-centered vlogs!
I've been taking the time to read every single comment. I'm so grateful some of us get to experience this kind of growth together. Love you all, and deepest thank you for all your words of wisdom and encouragement!! 🫶
성장의 계기로 삼으시다니, 존경스럽습니다.
Back at 27 I thought I screwed up everything, messed up a long term relationship, no direction in career when everyone around me career started taking off. Now I’m 32 and living my best life. Relationship and career everything is so much better!
this gives me hope. i'm 26 right now and after a bad breakup, I became really depressed which messed up professional life. I am trying to get back on track, and hope the universe work things out as well
That "I'm just going through change, but I'm ok" while starting to brush your teeth and crying is too real. So, so real.
There's that Korean belief that the ninth year of every decade brings hardships to prepare you for the next one. It's so hard to see you hurting, but I trust that you will prevail through it all! Growing up watching you, i've always known how strong and beautiful you are. I'll never stop rooting for you! ♥︎
I honestly didn’t want to click after reading the title I felt a pit in my stomach like dear God please don’t let it be about her and Gene. In my head I was your chocolate Cyber Auntie from Queens NYC..watching you grow and flourish over the years was/is such a joy. back when it was you Michelle and Esther in NY it was so refreshing to watch. I will not bash Gene or Jean that’s not what I do. It’s going to hurt like hell but you honey are one tough cookie and you will get through this. I am so proud of you and all your accomplishments and your endeavors. Keep your head up baby girl you got this!!!!
Not the chocolate cyber auntie! 😭🫶
@@freesiapark yes baby girl YOUR CHOCOLATE CYBER AUNTIE!!! Period!! Sending virtual hugs !! 🤗
HUHUHUHUH SAME SIS! Took me awhile to hit play wew
Seems that I am the only one who didn’t see it coming even after reading the caption 🤦🏾♀️, I was just excited that the video was longer than usual and was ready to come in and say thanks for making it longer this time.
@@freesiapark Hey baby girl it’s your Chocolate Cyber Auntie from Queens checking in on you. Hope your week went well and that you enjoyed your weekend thus far. *virtual hugs* 🤗 Love ❤️
One of the greatest things of being an adult and aware to be able to end something when it no longer works out. A lot of people can’t just admit when something is no longer working out they end up in toxic relationships. Sending you love during this healing era ..
I agree with that 😊
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Thank God she's able to make a decision about it 🙏 🙌
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This! I totally agree that there is a need to end something when it no longer works. And it's great that it ended on great note because if both didn't come to that realization sooner they would just hurt each other more and end up resenting each other. And also I think there is an element of romanticism if they find each other again ❤
Oh man, so many feels from watching this, Freesia. I just started over for similar reasons. I sensed an energy shift on your channel but thought I was projecting. I feel like a lot of people are going through heartbreak rn. I want to say that I think you’re gangsta and creative, and wish you luck in this new era. I’m selfishly excited for your living alone vlogs because they were my fave 💜
I second your comment ..Fresia is gangsta in a good way if there is such a thing…she will bounce back from this but we all must give her all the time and space she needs to do so. She’s going to have her good days and bad and we will all just be here giving her the support and love she needs to push through.
i literally quit my job without a plan and now moving from NY to LA (i don't know anyone there), also decided to start on youtube the past months i've not been working - and i'm 31 and still figuring it out lol. i want you to know that you're not alone, and it can only get better from here! applauding you for your bravery + vulnerability, i know it's not easy to show raw emotion especially to strangers, but this is all demonstrative of the transformation you're already growing through
seeing someone around my age go through these types of things helps knowing im not the only one, thank you for being real and vulnerable!! ❤️
Long term Auntie/Subbie who's been following you since the very beginning. You've got this. You're smart, wise and hardworking. Just give yourself grace. No need to rush anything. Wishing the best for you.
My heart sank when I saw your notification popped up but what’s meant to be will be. I’m sure it hurts like hell rn but time will heal and you will look back at it with fondness. Sending you the warmest hugs from London
I appreciate your vulnerability and decision to share a private life event. On another note, your place is amazing. I love a great loft space especially with exposed brick and industrial touches.
Girl you can also foster if not ready yet. I went through terrible breakup ended up moving and fostered and my foster pup healed me! After that i did nonstop fostering cuz i loved it so much . Having a dog is a big commitment and even though there are pet insurance but its still alot so if you want some puppy therphy you can foster and its the best and also helping the puppy and making another stop in shelters so you are helping two dogs.
Eyes watering up while freesia was talking at the beginning of the video. Sending love and hugs to you freesia, you’re the most authentic, sweet, caring, feeling and strongest women I’ve come across on youtube xx
I’ve been exactly where you’ve been except I was 30, freshly single and learning to grow by myself. I’m 32 now moving again but this time at my own terms for more growth and happier than ever. You are going to be okay ❤❤
Best of luck with the healing journey, as a viewer I am loving this new vulnerable content and I know it's hard to put it out there, but it feels also like something new is blooming as well. And my leap from 29 to 30 was crazy beautiful - I came out a whole different woman and I'm thankful for it everyday!
I had the Pax wardrobe for a couple of years - it’s a great wardrobe and relatively simple to put together.
Freesia, this is the first video I've ever watched from your channel and I am floored. I'm going through the same exact thing (moving after breaking up from a 3 year relationship with my best friend of 10 years in my 20s, scary parallels) and it just feels so validating to hear you talk about it. It warms my heart to see you come back to yourself as the video progresses and you make your new home cozier, thank you for this. I hope to run into you in LA sometime - sending you all my love!!
Freesia, these things that happen in life are blessings. Truly. It's redirecting you to a truer path. Feel everything you need to feel, learn what you need to learn and keep being you! This life is for you and you only! Dedicate every moment to your own happiness. You're already equipped with everything you need.
I’m crying, literally. I’ve been following you from the start and always looked up to you and your relationship. Hugssss!
You articulated the break up very well. Seems like you both care about each other enough to want the other to be happy . ❤
it's your saturn return babe! change can be so difficult, but becoming comfortable with being uncomfortable will help you move forward towards making room for what's yours. hoping the days ahead are kind to you
Thank you for sharing and being so vulnerable! This is my first time coming across your channel and I'm glad it was this video because I'm also going through a breakup and life changes. This really helped me in many ways, and I can't thank you enough. Wishing you the best and we'll all be okay :)
oh freesia, we love the way you carry yourself ♡ hoping that life grants you the time and space for lots of healing/grieving, love, and growth.
I haven’t gone through a breakup in over a decade now but I can feel your sorrow and grief through the screen. Especially when you were brushing your teeth. Cuz I remember doing the same, many times before. I’m so sorry, I know it hurts. So much. But you will get through it. The new space will help you too to clear your mind. Things can only go up from here
Hi Freesia, just remember that what is for you will be for you whether it's relationships, work,etc..I really missed your weekly videos, but I am glad you're back. I wish you nothing but the best on this new single journey. 🥰
I'm so happy you've returned! I was wondering what's been going on since you weren't as active on social media. I totally understand what you're going through as I've gone through it when I was 27 and calling off my wedding. The hardest thing is to pick yourself up and really know you are worth it. But, once you find yourself and tell yourself you deserve happiness and keep that good support around you, it's an AMAZING feeling! I wish you the best and I look forward to your new adventures and what is meant for you! :) Welcome back!
As an Aquarius gal who had the WORST TIME OF MY life in my 29th year. I'm now 30 and things are better now. It will get better Freesia, stay strong !!! Also 29th year is our SATURN RETURN :) It's chaotic.
Hey! Could you do a blog about your growth since you moved from New York to LA? I’ve noticed how much you’ve grown and how you’re glowing these days. I’m curious about how your new environment has influenced you and if you’ve thought about returning to NYC 😊
Keep smiling girl! You are so strong🫰🏻I have 2 dogs and I can definitely say I do not regret getting them. Puppy phase is the hardest 2-6months (chewing your house esp) but after that they adjust to your lifestyle. My second pup just turned 1 and I must say its been super easy lately! Also dog insurance is a thing! Definitely get one it’ll save your bank💞
Hey girl 💛 This sucks to hear but I’m glad you’re able to heal and move forward with ease. IMO you seem very well put together. You have a solid career, you have your own place thousands of miles away from home. You have plenty of people in your life that love and care about you, a long, loving relationship that ended on a friendly note! Can’t say the same for other 29yo peeps…like myself. I will essentially be starting my life from scratch next year. 😬 keep pushing forward girl! You have so many good things coming your way! 🎉
This is so validating as a 29-year-old, who’s had a doozy of a year. But I’m actually really excited for whatever the future holds, I’ll make it. You’ll make it… We’ll make it!
I've been going through a breakup that sounds a lot like yours this past month - even though nothing bad happened, it's still heartbreaking in a way and a huge adjustment
I really hope we can both rebuild that internal happiness💕
“It’s not that serious” while crying is such an Aquarius thing Freesia 😂 wishing you love and healing girly cause same
I am proud of you! You are choosing yourself and if this is what you need, than you do you! Believe me.. I am 32 now and when you hitting almost the 30, things will be diverent. Its like a new era. Like when you hit your 16, 21 and now the 30’s. Just let time get to you and take it a step at a time! Bigggg huggs from the other side of the world 💗🫶🏼
Missed seeing your videos, but I'm glad you had the time/energy/courage to give us another one. Wishing you all the best in this new chapter!
I went through so many emotions watching this and all I can say is that you’re doing great and we’re here for you! I hope you can get soon your ikea wardrobe so you can feel more put together with your things 🩷 sending you a big hug 🫂
You will be perfectly fine. Changes for the better and growth. Lots of pleasant surprises and fun coming your way! The world is huge! ❤
I had a feeling something was amiss. I feel your pain. You two made a very mature decision in acknowledging that you are growing in different directions and to rather end a beautiful relationship and still be able to be good friends, than to destroy each other Freesia, I have daughters older than you and myblife was turned upside down a few times. But your faith will pull you through. Ride the waves but don't stay down too long. Be kind to yourself. Thank you for being authentic. It may feel dark all around but the sun will shine again and you will be amazed how you got through this. Strength to you. Keep being a creator whether it's making videos or pottery. Or your first love - cooking. It's your therapy.
Hey gurl! Stay strong and remember to give yourself time to heal! I went a bad breakup where we loved each other and was going to get married. It was a very intense love that I haven't felt with anyone but here I am and it will get better. It's been almost 1 year and 6 months since then. I do sometimes want to buy him things or miss the feeling of being together. I know therapy works wonders and working on yourself really does help! I love LOVE and each day I'm giving myself that love! You're doing amazing and remember YOU ARE A STRONG ASS WOMEN💖💖
a year of change for so many of us! very very excited for whats to come and i just know with your thoughtfulness and creativity you will be just fine (':
Freesia, although your heart is broken right now, but you are looking much better and at peace. I had been noticing from your previous blogs from many months that you looked dull and not happy. Maybe you had a lot of expectations from the relationship but welcome to change and I wish you a lot of love ❤
Sending you so much love and light right now!! 💛I’m sorry about your breakup with Gene 😔 my heart was breaking inside when you shared the news, literally heart sank. But keep your head up ✨ I’m so proud of you with getting your own space and making it your own- I’ve watched all your videos since you started and I love your content :) you’re awesome Freesia!
Freesia, sending you so much love! I hope you have a wonderful, transformative time in LA to heal and enjoy your new space!
I always come to your channel to escape. Today I could feel very very emotional. Hope things fall into place for you. Sending lots of love.
Wishing you all the best in the world girl! You are so strong. I believe in you 🫶🏼.
Found you through David So during lockdown and rediscovered you now as a late 20s girl. Loved this vlog ❤
Hey Freesia, I'm going through a very similar breakup right now so thank you so much for sharing your experience and being so vunerable! I'm pretty new to your channel and I think you are such an inspiring person so I'm sure there is only greatness in your future.
So mature and beautiful. Thank you for sharing... You're helping a lot of us dealing with similar situations.
hang in there, you're going through your saturn return
Thanks for sharing this Freesia and sharing the real bts of your life. Wishing you the best on your next chapter
Growth is often found in the cracks of change. I pray and hope that you find love and strength in your vulnerability. Rooting for you all the way from Kenya ︎ ❤
There will be plenty of other dogs! And if you ever get the itch again you can always consider fostering :) 29yo myself and I relate to the feels of this video. Keep your head up gurl we have grown ass women lives to live ✊🏼✨ it’ll all be okay 😊
Unrelated but your eyebrows look really great in this video! Rooting for you, Freesia!
Keep your head up Freesia and remember that the healing is not linear! Proud of you and wish to see you continue creating magic :) Love all your videos, big cheers! - R
You’re sooo pretty! The lash extension you have fits your eye shape really well - but on a serious note, I hope you’re doing ok. I’m going through the something similar thing actually: Freshly single, 30, just moved from NY to Seattle last month into a loft (also used roadway lol). Going through the motion but getting better every day. Time heals! You’re gonna be ok 🙌
♥♥ Been cheering you on since you started this channel and loved it when you joined us here in LA. You are such a strong girl, and you are going to move through this moment and please know, it gets better as you progress towards your new normal. You are my "Internet Niece" and I wish you all the best!
Hiiiii beauty! 💕sending you lots of love and healing! Thank you for being so vulnerable and just being transparent about how challenging this stage is. I'm also 29, and can definitely attest to all the girlies GOING THRUUUUU IT at this age. Something that helped me when I was going through a challenging breakup was a quote, "If something is destined for you, never in a million years will it be for somebody else." Whether that's your person, your career, whatever it may be! What's for you won't miss you. Rooting for you! 💐✨
Its soo comforting,going through breakup we've been together for almost 9 yrs,n idk feelings changed or things happened,still trying to progress it,june was really a depressing month,i couldn't feel myself,life is not the same anymore,a world once revolves around each other finally becomes a stranger,i feel the whole world collapse but maybe God knows better,i thought im the only one going through it,n so sorry for u fressia,i know how much it hurts too,but stay strong i hope we'll be fine n heal someday❤
Wishing you the best on this new journey, Freesia!! I’m the same age as you are and I feel like no matter what season we currently are in our lives, it’ll be a constant exploration and learning.
I feel for you Freesia 😔 I remember how excited you were in the beginning to meet someone like him. I was honestly shocked when I saw him in this video - no offense to him but I remember him looking like a normal dude. Now hair, fashion, and everything has changed… full player look 😅 maybe changing his teeth gave him that confidence.. I was wondering what was going on in the background, could feel the difference. Thank you for sharing your hardship with us, I know you’ll find your peace and happiness within yourself 🫶🏼
Sending you love, light, peace and strength in this new chapter of your life. Thank you for sharing these delicate and vulnerable moments with us. I’m going through something very similar so watching this made me feel less alone. Thank you. ✨
Im so sorry Freesia ❤️ i just went through the same thing in April and it's definitely hard at first, but im healing and getting better. Everything will turn out the way its suppose to ❤️
Aww babes I’m a sorry. Sending you so much love healing, growth, and strength.
Freesia you are a strong, loving and a hardworking woman. ❤
Im really happy that you got to experience such a beautiful relationship.
I wish you a lot of strength and love ❤
I love you Freesia! You're so strong and bright things are coming. Your videos have gotten me thru hard times and you will get through this 💛
Freesia, I'm so sorry to hear about your breakup. You are such a wonderful person from what I've seen so far, and I wish you the best in this time of healing. Breakups are so hard, but I hope you know that you have so many people on your side, rooting for you. Thank you for sharing such an intimate and difficult topic with us. I look forward to your future content 💕
Freesia I've been watching you since your old makeup tutorial days NYC :') your fans are always cheering you on! Excited for this new chapter for you. I have a feeling it's going to be a good one :)
It will be OK! I know you WILL. Time will heal. No need to rush.
Freesia, sending lots of love and hugs❤️ You’re doing great, you’ve been my role model for such a long time🥹 I have seen how you have grown over the past few years, how you keep putting tons of effort into everything that you do!!! Future has only good things in store for you🫂🫂❤️❤️
same, wishing you all the best, Freesia♥
26 was amazing for me and then 29...into 30 was a fucking earthquake sending you sooo much love mama this is all growth and will be sooooo sweet when you look back on it
U got this girl! I'm glad that u have great circles of friends in time like these. I was there in the same situations with no friends to relied on and at that time all I wish is for no one to feel the same way I do. When things get tough find a friend to confide in and don't bottle it all up. Slowly but surely you'll be in a great space of positivity. Wishing for a brighter future for u girl, sending hugs ❤
Big hugs ❤ and vet insurance when you do rescue a dog 🐶. Maybe a tiny chihuahua who can ride in a backpack to start. I fostered a cute one and taught her a million tricks. Fun!!
it’s brave to share this vulnerable situation to the world❤ hang in there you’ll spark again
LA freesia is sooo pretty your beauty is thriving each day you go girl
Hey Freesia! I have been following you for years and I am sorry about your breakup. Hope you’re doing better. Sending you a lot of hugs!
Sending you love Freesia. Honestly, the GOOD break ups are sometimes harder than the bad ones because your head doesn’t understand why, but your heart just knows what’s right. Sending you both so much love to grow and heal. 💕💕
Dear Freesia, I go through a breakup, he never experience true love, he’s independent and he got scared a bit, seeing me so warm and loving, but I know that he needs space and it takes time. In the mean while, I learnt a lot about myself, going through unknown reactions from him, hiding his feelings, doing the opposite of what is good for a healthy relation, yet I saw the light at the end of the tunnel, realizing that I don’t want to forget about my peace and happiness, that I am strong and I am creative. In life we really need to be prepared for anything no matter how hard it is, crying is therapy for me, feeling what I feel means maturity, but never forget about yourself, happiness is within yourself, enjoy that coffee, enjoy the music the movies you like, an end always means new opportunities. Remember that. Hugs 🙏🏻✨🕊️🌸
Thank you for sharing your vulnerabilities with us, hope you're surrounding yourself with friends & family to go through this difficult time. There will be a great and bright future await you
Never say never Freesia. Just believe in yourself and you will be completely fine!Sending love and blessings to you from Hong Kong.
I'm your new subscriber. I saw you in michelle's vlog when michelle was in her break up era too. All the best for you. God bless. I will always watch your videos from now on.
4:14 I am 28 and I felt like this ‘awkward transformation’ phase is happening in my life also… suddenly I feel lost in life, when a year ago, at 27 I didn’t feel that way… the ‘scattered’ feeling is so real
You look younger without makeup. Hugs
I am so sorry to hear Freesia.. i can't imagine the pain, sending you a lot of support and strength
Sending love! ❤️ Also, the 29 year old thing is soooo real!
Gosh, I dont know where to start. First of all, I shed a tear when Freesia started to cry and not because of the break up but I'm currently also in the strange phase of my life where I just dont know what's really wrong and gotten into me. I pull myself away from people surrounds me., I feel like I am no longer comfortable even with my own circle, sometimes I cry over small things but feel so much comfortable when I'm alone at home. Seeing you and your ex to be able to seat together and be for one another is another privilege I would say becasue to be able to open up and acknowlegde the feeling is another stage to embrace with and most important thing would be that put ourself first ︎︎︎︎︎︎:) btw I'm 29 myself LOL so probably its the hardest time for the biggest plan once we hit 30. Manifesting
Oh man my heart is crying for you but just glad to know you’re okay… this too shall pass… virtual hugs ❤
Sending you lots of love Freesia, thank you for being vulnerable and still wanting to share difficult parts of your life with us. Wishing you all the best in this new chapter ❤
Having gone through the same situation and choosing to stay. I'm so proud of you for making the right decision. A person can be so perfect and still not the right person for you. And choosing yourself will prevent ypu guys from hurting eachother further in the future. And if you two end up finding a way back to each other then it will happen naturally. I wish I could just hug you!!!🫂
You are such a strong girl , I have seen your journey through TH-cam, and seen your growth over the years, I strongly believe that you will be fine with time. I wish you good health, and happiness and peace ❤
Freesia... thanks for always being real and transparent. It's all painful... grieve well, mourn well 🤍 prayers and thoughts for you 🫂
Hey new subscriber here! I'm going thru this right now as well. Except they moved out. Nothing but love there but it hurts so much! Gotta adjust to being alone. It's rough and I have cried so much but I'm making it.❤ We got this girl!
Ok writing this after seeing you and Gene crying together as you ended… I’m 37 now, and 1) YES 29 is a PIVOTAL year for many, it is when I left my successful career and boyfriend I was supposed to marry and freaking moved all over the world and 2) when you look back at this vlog and moment you will be sooo proud of yourself. I don’t know many people who can hold such sacred and kind space for the love they shared, at a time where celebs are using their exes for virality and hit songs… cough. It’s just so beautiful. Thanks for showing the beautiful and delicate human experience, as you said. Im crying with you. 💕🙏🏽 much because I know, these are the moments that break you, but they always inevitably make you, if you so choose 🥰 so much good to come. (PS my ex boyfriend and I reunited a year+ later and have the best marriage now after our growth apart. Not that this goes for your relaysh but that that growth period was needed and good things came out of it)!! 💕💕
I am so sorry for what you are going through. I know how you feel. I was with my high school sweetheart for 3 years and he was my first love. We parted on good terms with no hard feelings. A few years later we started talking again and ended up being best friends until his passing of Covid two years ago and it ended up being a 30 year friendship . I know it is hard but it does get easier and you will get through it. You’ve got this.
Sending love to both you and Gene
Good luck to both of you guys’ growth individually. Thanks for sharing your relationship with us ❤
good through the same phase as you. sending you a lot of strength and go on to live your best life ❤
U can do this, Freesia! We love you ❤
Big hug Freesia ! Your new apartment looks really cool, I'm sure you'll create your own cozy place. You're so brave ! xoxo
You’re going to the next level of your life❤ stay strong !!!!you got this
wow I thought I was sensing something was up esp. with your sporadic posting, but tbh did not think it was the relationship. I feel like you grew so much with Gene and that was an essential part of your 20s/life. Selfishly I'm looking forward to more Freesia-centered vlogs!