super depressed cooking + packing the rest of his stuff + loneliness
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 15 ต.ค. 2024
- Having a rough time in today's vlog. Welcome back to Cindy's Super Depressed Cooking Show - episode 2. I'm dealing with loneliness, and finally packing up all of Andrew's stuff in the office. It was hard. I cried a lot. But I got it done and now his possessions don't haunt me every time I walk in the room. Success. Thank you so much for watching.
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It’s healthy to sit with your feelings. Which also means that ignoring texts to create boundaries is perfectly fine. ❤
I totally agree with that
This!
I actually appreciate you filming the hard moments. It's much more genuine to the experience to show the vulnerable sad parts about a marriage ending. It would be unrealistic to portray that you are constantly fine if your not. Love you ❤️
You should try physically writing down what you want to say to Andrew when you feel like messaging him, it helps you get your feelings off your chest but you won’t actually be in contact with him. The hard days are rough but it’s a sign you’re healing! You’ve come so far in such a short space of time ❤️
Yeah great idea I always write in my notes app when I don't wanna bother a friend or can't spam my crush or whatever 💀
I had a therapist suggest this to me. Write that letter and spill your guts. It doesn’t mean you have to send it. I’m not trying to make things worse for you, but try ZERO. A million times better than Diet Coke! 🙏🏼♥️🌸🕊
This is such one of the best suggestions. I this when I went through my divorce. I put everything down sometimes every single day... but made myself wait until the next day before I sent it and every time I was thankful I got it out but also grateful I didn't send it. I got to get my emotions out of my head and chest but kept safe from making contact I'd regret.
What helped me personally is reminding myself of what my partner did. Every time i missed him and thought about the good times, i reminded myself that those good times meant nothing to him while he was out sleeping and flirting with other women.
Doesn’t matter how many times he apologised to me or said he regretted it or changed… I meant nothing to him while he was sleeping with all these women. I realised no matter how much I missed the good times, that wasn’t enough to take him back.
This is just my personal way i eventually got over it, might not be the same for everyone but worked for me. I was married for almost 20 years but still try to see the bright side of things, I could have wasted my whole life with a cheater in a fake marriage.
Edit: I also took up new hobbies which helped A LOT.
Deffinitely helps with perspective.
You don't need a men to help you with furniture. You're strong by yourself, Cindy, and you're doing great.
Exactly, it’s
So rewarding doing things like putting together furniture on your own!
This video reminds me of myself when I left my baby’s father and trying to literally put one foot in front of the other. Having to feed us was a struggle. Having to do everything like normal and pretend to others that everything was fine. We are here with you in this tough times.
Hun, you're going to have days that fluctuate between good & bad. Do what you feel is best because life will happen regardless.
YOU GOT THIS!!
Hey Cindy, about Andrew getting his stuff...when my sister's ex came to her house to pick up his stuff, she had my brother over, not to face him alone. If you are afraid you would get a weak moment meeting him alone, maybe have your friend over when the time comes. Sending hugs, stay strong!
Hi Cindy, I've recently read a quote saying, "it's okay if the only thing you've done today was just breathe" and I think it's important to remind us that sometimes we just want to do nothing all day long, and that is also healthy. Sending you so much love, you're doing great
"Fuck you egg." Is a total mood. This is so relatable. Lol thanks for being so real. Honestly, I love your channel because I can relate to so much of what you're going through.
The Diet Coke struggle is real. If there’s none in the fridge I start fiending😂 having autism I’ve had to accept that I can’t always function at the same level everyday. I only tell u this because I think people like ourselves who struggle with mental health always expect ourselves to keep the same pace, which isn’t realistic. Somedays it’s perfectly fine to do nothing
@Maureen Smith it’s exactly the same for me so I can totally relate
I have a Coke Zero addiction and literally don't care...it is what it is.
@@champagnesupernova4081 love that you own it! Lol well there’s much worse addictions to have these days
Allowing yourself to feel sad (or angry or disappointed or whatever else you may feel) is its own kind of strength, Cindy. Letting ourselves truly be vulnerable and taking the time to process the complexities of our feelings takes immense courage, grit, and above all, resilience.
Cindy, never hold back your tears. Just cry cry and cry until there's nothing left. You don't have to pretend to be strong, you have the right to feel sad. Rome wasn't built in a week and 15 years of marriage can't be erased in a week.
It is so wild how you can go from the one messaging the person while they ignore you to them realizing you don't need them anymore and you become the one ignoring their texts. Keep it up, you are so strong and he deserves your silence after all he's done to you and what he's put you thru.
Your vlog did not suck at all. I appreciate the authenticity. You’re going through a rough time and it is normal that there are ups and downs. Be patient with yourself. You’re a natural entertainer that even if you do mundane stuff, it was still interesting to watch. You’ve come so far and we have seen you improved in such a short period of time. You’ve got this!
Your emotions are going to be all over for awhile. It's ok, it happens, I've been there. You are stronger than you think. You can get through these down days, just breathe and tell yourself one day at a time. It's only a bad day not a bad life. We love you and we are here for you girl.
Yup, it's a roller coaster.
I know you said you don't feel strong, but you are - you overcame the mental exhaustion, made yourself a meal and were realistic about your relationship with Andrew. We can't control how we feel, but we can control how we act and I think you did great. P.S. You mentioned in one of your streams you enjoy some songs by Shakira, maybe her latest music can put you in a better mood, she was cheated on by her husband and is letting everything out in her music right now, it's really empowering (Music Session vol. 53 and TQG with English lyrics).
Just be upfront with him. That as of now you don’t want any back and forth and just want him to pick up his items. You need to have him pick them up outside the door and have him return your key at the same time. Allowing him inside leaves or open for discussion and to try and persuade you into listening to him gaslight you into submission. Don’t allow it . I’m In your corner and wishing you the strength you need to get through this. YOU GOT THIS!!! Talking to him is definitely the wrong thing as it will accomplish nothing except him trying to convince you to go against your thoughts now and how far you’ve come . Don’t let him. Your marriage ended long ago it’s only a week he left. This time. Don’t forget the time before which started all this. And he left when he began cheating with multiple women with the potential to bringing you home any number of diseases. Remember those things to remain strong.
Sound advice.. ❤
@@asabovesobelow7981 Ty 😃✨
Cindy, you got this! The fact you're having a bad day just shows you're human- you went through a major life event. It's really positive that you have good days too. Sometimes you need time to wallow and process what has happened.
Don’t forget the stages of grief are cyclical and it’s OK to feel these stages in random orders, and in different ways throughout this healing process, you are still succeeding in your recovery, your still making steps forward!
When I went through this (20+ year marriage) it helped me to make a short little list before I went to sleep at night of the things I needed to do 1st thing in the morning to get my day started on the right foot. Nothing incredibly involved or thought provoking, just busy work. Stuff like take a shower, eat the leftover food from last night, walk the dog around the block, tidy up kitchen counter that collects mail. It's important to check off once tasks are finished. This seems ridiculous but a sense of accomplishment and not having to think how to start the day is huge. My therapist taught me this tool and I still use it if I'm feeling overwhelmed.
20 years? you're incredibly strong, I hope you're in a better place now❤🩹
Hi Cindy, I found you through Zachary Michael & really felt connected to you when I found out you also have BPD & PCOS. I’ve been binge watching all of your old videos in addition to watching your new uploads so I can keep up with you. I’m so sorry you’re going through all of this. In a way I, & I’m sure a lot of others, feel like we’re going through this along with you. Obviously not to the extent you actually are, would never want to minimize how you feel. But we all know you’re strong & courageous & you will get through this. This, too, shall pass. ❤
cindy, never apologise for having a hard moment. we all appreciate you!
It’s amazing to be able to witness the growth and strength that you’ve gained. Having to remove and ignore someone who was a major part of your life is soooooo hard. It’s also showing how much you love Cindy. She comes first before anyone. You are giving yourself the love you’ve always NEEDED & DESERVED. Your heart may hurt now but it’ll thank you later❤ Sending positivity and healing your way.
Sending you all the love and support to you Cindy. Depression and grief are like waves, it makes sense that some days you’ll do great and others you won’t be. You’re grieving the loss of a relationship, of your old life, and of what you dreamed your life would be. Your feelings are valid. Let yourself feel your grief fully so you can move past it and not have any regrets. Sending hugs and good vibes.
Relationships can be addictive. Talking to Andrew probably gave you a little high but like a drug, it only works for a short time. And in the long run, we know its not good for us.
Protect your heart and soul Cindy.
Just wanted to give you a big hug when you saw inside the closet. You will always be August's mommy and you made his time on Earth full of love and happiness. Nothing can tarnish that time you had with him.
You are doing so very well. You're incredible, Cindy.
In life there are storms, but without the rain, the flowers won’t grow 🌸 Cindy cheer up please. You don’t even realize how good you’re doing from an outside perspective. One day at a time 💯 Me and my husband of 17 years divorced and I been on my own for a year. EVERYTHING you’re going through, I did as well. I promise you, tomorrow will be better. Do something that occupies your mind and makes you happy at home. You are so inspiring and wonderful. I watched you for Sims videos for 5+ yrs but you feel more like family now. You are so loved by everyone in the comments. I know it’s just words, but everyone means what they say to you. We just want to hug you and tell you it will be okay.
I’m really sorry you’re feeling down. When I’m alone, bored or just said. I always pour up a cup of coffee and play video games. It just makes everything better to play Animal Crossing or Sims. It honestly just takes your mind off the stuff in your head. ❤️
I think grief counseling would do you so much good. Part of this sadness could be related to the loss of your baby too not just Andrew. It definitely helped me and still is helping me. ❤ love your channel so much!
Highly recommend putting on that Kinks record for an instant mood boost!!! 🥰
Hate to see you sad especially since your Sims videos would bring me so much joy! You randomly came up in my mind today and you've been through so many positives and negatives, you look great👍🏾and learning the events you've gone through I can tell your strength and beauty are more than skin deep. I wish you the best girl!
The bad days may feel like a setback, but you made it through, and I'm so proud of you!
I’m a newer viewer (found you a couple weeks ago through a reaction channel who was giving recommendations for vloggers to watch) but you’re so relatable it feels like I’m watching an old friend.
I hope that things get easier for you soon. ❤
Your Dogs wanting to comfort you is the sweetest ❤
coming from someone who was in the same situation a few years ago, it gets better. years sounds like a long time, but thats because the days are so long. the years are super short. it will pass. being betrayed by someone youve spent so much time with sucks but bpd makes it all the worse. the urges to text back and run to the person you were comforted by might plague your mind now, but everyday will get marginally better. i always tell myself their humanity and the good times doesnt matter because they didnt care about mine. i make it a point to myself to do myself well even when its tough because i deserve the love i was looking for in them and who better to give it to myself than me? please stay strong and thanks for keeping it real.
Growth begins outside of your comfort zone, it may be painful but you are growing and getting stronger everyday. You've got this!
There are days when I start watching one of your videos and feel as though your depression is giving my depression a warm and validating hug.
Today is one of those days. I am so sorry that you are so sad and lost right now. Just know that not only are you not alone in this sad and depressing world. But also that your bravery to be so candid and raw with everything that you are moving through is so heartwarming and inspiring!!
Whether you feel it or recognize it if you do, your ability to turn on your camera and vlog the ups and downs of not only your BPD. But also navigating your heartbreak and loneliness. And the effect that has on your BPD is so helpful to so many.
Your willingness to come on here and say "I am depressed and struggling and I want others to not only feel less alone, also to see little by little that you can do it and it's okay!" Little by little, Cindy... You've got this and we've got you!
That is me today. Feeling less alone. And more validated in feeling like it's okay to struggle sometimes.
Thanks Cindy! I see you too!
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Cindy, buy yourself a toolbox so you always have the needed screwdrivers, wrenches, a hammer and nails, screws, what have you. My own toolbox makes me at least feel in charge, like I technically can do stuff around the house by myself if needed. Plus mine is green and that's one of my favorite colors, so having green tools for me brings me extra joy. Just something I kept thinking when you put the cabinet handles on.
This is the most real video i have watched in a long time , thank you for sharing that healing isn't linear
I also lost a child. I'm sorry you're going through that. That had to be very difficult for you. ❤
You are doing it girl!! ❤ my husband just walked in and asked me why I am watching someone crying when I am having problems on my own? I said to him that I feel like we are friends and you support your friends in good and in bad moments of their life❤
i was waiting for your video to get posted this morning- watching your videos is like hanging out with a friend. feeling similarly lonely lately and wish we could be friends in real life! wishing you the best
15:32 ❤ I almost love the “transitions I know you love them” saying that you do as much as the transitions themselves 😂 💜💚
Cindy putting together the filing cabinet is me doing literally anything on my own.
Way to go Cindy- you are rocking it.
I'm so proud of you. You are a total inspiration to me. After my sister committed suicide 2 years on May 10th after speaking 3 times that day, it has been hard to find ways to go on. You are not alone ❤❤
Hey... It wasn't hard to watch. I have an anxiety-depressive disorder, and right now I'm going through another depressive episode. This video helped me remember that I'm not alone in my pain and sadness. I love you so much❤ you will definitely have so much more in the future than you've lost. I like keeping in touch with you❤
Your feelings are totally valid Cindy ❤ thanks for sharing both the ups and the downs
The fact that you put that file cabinet down and picked it up again TWICE to do those transitions cracked me up already but hitting the doorframe on your way into the office absolutely sent me 😂 Glad to see you having a bit of fun despite the heavier days ❤️
Healing is never a linear path and in the beginning there will always be plenty of bad days. You're allowed to have bad days. And bad days never last. It's never comfortable to sit and deal with those feelings of loneliness and sadness, and the grief of closing a big chapter of your life. And it's especially tearing to have to deal with those when having to sort though his stuff and all those memories. You did what was best, while trying your best.
And I am so sorry about the loss of your child. I understand your pain, I lost a set of twins myself a few years back. I still haven't been able to part with the clothes or the little stuffies we had bought for them either. The pain of that I don't think ever fully goes away. It gets easier as time moves on, but the hurt sometimes sneaks in and still stings. You might not have been able to have him even though you wanted him, but that doesn't make you any less of a mother if you don't want it to. But damn if those moments don't hit hard when they come and I am so sorry, and I'm sending you the biggest virtual hugs I can.
But also you don't have to apologize for the bad days and the bad moments. You don't have to feel bad for setting up boundaries for yourself, such as not wanting to text him back like that. Never let anyone ever tell you otherwise.
Also side note here, but your handwriting is very pretty.
Hi Cindy! I'm a day late, but I finally found the time to watch the vid.
So many things I wanna say, but I don't even know where to start.
To me, you are getting prettier every time I see a new video, even on the bad days you glow and it gets me excited about your next move on your journey. Your hair was really pretty in this vlog, it looked shiny and like it had more volume. Your makeup was really pretty as well. Just the whole you looked amazing.
You're making progress and so much of it. To you it may seem small, but to me you're taking big steps and I love that. I'm rooting for you every day and I think of you every day at least once a day and wonder "oh how is Cindy doing rn? I wonder what she's up to rn. I hope she's okay". You don't have to force yourself to make videos daily or to get a video out on time. If you don't feel like recording on a bad day, just don't, take a break and heal. It's okay if it helps you to talk to the camera or give yourself something to do, but if you have to force yourself to record, we will understand if you decide to skip.
I know this comment might be all over the place and I probably didn't say all the things I wanted to, but anyways, sending lots of hugs and comfort your way. Love you so so much
The less busy days are definitely harder - too much time to think! I can relate. You’re doing a great job, Cindy! ❤
I felt this video on another level. Especially when you opened that door and you broke down. There will be good and bad days but you got this cindy
you have to go through grief. It sucks but its healing to process and see that you are going to be fine and better when done with this. You have people who support you in this. you are doing amazing with making positive changes and moving forward for a better today and tomorrow. Take each step as it comes there is no right or wrong way to grieve there is only whats best for Cindy and what she can handle today. What she is conquering today to be better
I've been through something very similar. I also have depression. It helped me to get out of the house a little each day. I also had to keep myself busy when I was at home. Nighttime was the worst, but I sat with the emotions. It really did help me out a lot. You're doing great, Cindy.
A few years ago I went through a terrible breakup with a man I had a toxic relationship with. It’s hard for other people to understand how you can not want the relationship anymore and know what’s best for you but still want to run into their arms. I’m grateful that chapter closed because now I’m engaged to the love of my life. But if you asked me at the time I wouldn’t have seen that for myself in the future. Sitting with your feelings and letting yourself process the hard moments is healthy and will help you heal in the long run. You’re doing great Cindy; be as patient and kind with yourself as you would be if it were a loved one dealing with this.
Girl, you are killing it! We all have ups and downs. You are so strong and resilient. You are doing fantastic, keep up the good work! ❤
“It’s supposed to be a smile and I put it on like a frown” made me laugh so hard. You’re adorable.
Sending all the hugs love and support! It's normal to be sad, angry and disappointed all normal thing will get better YOU CAN DO THIS!
it hit me watching you open up your file cabinet to put it together cindy... i feel so happy and hopeful for you. you can build a life for yourself and it CAN get better. it can get so much better. it can be different from what it ever was before. you can have a life that is safe, where you are in relationships youre proud to be in, where you are a person your proud to be. you deserve to be comfortable with who you are and be with people you enjoy
When you're ready, take those baby clothes to someone or some place that will do good. Take them to a women's shelter, or a similar charity. Take all that love and hope those clothes were bought with and give that to someone who needs that love and support. It's okay to hold on to them for as long as you need, but when you're ready to let go, pass them with love. It will hurt, and it will be sad, but then at least you'll honor your little girl's memory. It will help heal too.
Also, there will be days where you won't be able to move, you'll be paralyzed with emotions. It's okay to honor yourself on those days. To lay on the kitchen floor and stare at the ceiling, to lay in the grass and watch the clouds. Honor yourself and acknowledge the journey these emotions are taking you on. Then wake up the next day, and try again. One day, one hour, one minute at a time you'll walk through this, and you'll come out the other side. I haven't walked the road you're on, but during a trial in my life, someone once told me to make room in my day, no matter how miserable I felt, to do one nice thing for someone else in the world and that will be more than enough. Remember that you're capable of inspiring love and kindness. I used to leave postcards in bathrooms with inspirational quotes, give compliments to strangers, and leave notes on cars when I had no energy to give.
Good luck Cindy, lately I’ve been having bad days as well let’s stay strong together !!!
Cindy I have never been more inspired by anything than your ‘fuck you egg!’ Taking care of yourself and doing any activities are so hard when you’re going through something. And doing it angrily is still getting it done. So proud of you. ❤❤
Me and my boyfriend have just split up too, watching your videos makes me feel like I have a friend to share the pain with.
Thank you for sharing these moments Cindy you’re so brave ❤️
i’m so sorry to see you depressed again, but it’s really impressive that you’re staying strong through the difficult thoughts and feelings ❤ that’s growth!!
We are all here for you through good and the bad days ❤ your going through the journey of healing, this is so vulnerable, honest and personally inspiring to see you still try to get through each day. I appreciate your realness ❤
Thank you for being so strong that you do not only show your best side but also when you are feeling worse. It is really inspiring and empowering to watch that you can be vulnerable. Its more brave than most people sharing their life on social media. Bravo!
It’s healthy to feel your feelings. You’re doing great Cindy, even when you don’t feel like it. Change is hard, even when you want it. Big hugs x
I love you Cindy! Good job with the consistent uploads ❤️❤️
You’ve made so much progress and everyone is cheering you on! Remember that when things get lonely God is always there 🤍
We are here for you. Good days, bad days, neutral days, no matter what. Just talk to us and we've got your back. Sending you love!
Thumbs up 👍 crew here.. I try my damndest to make sure all your comments are acknowledged lol.. hugs from Illinois.. and much luv n healin light headin your way.. 💛✌️
You can do it ❤
You deserve better ❤
I can tell your dog is trying to comfort you. ❤❤❤
Relationships need trust. You can smooth out a piece of paper after wadding it up but it won't ever be the same again.
you are making so, so much progress. that said, you are allowed to just sit with your feelings and assess your emotions even the bad ones! but don't let the bad days define _all_ of you cindy 💗 my favourite quote: when you fall 7 times, get back up 8 times!
That recliner is such a cozy little reading space. I love it!
Girl i just watched a vlog from a month ago and the changes in ur face is so drastic! You’ve lost so much weight good job ❤
You've got this gorgeous 💜 little steps make a big difference even though it might not seem like it 😊
These ups and downs are totally normal! Especially when we’re living with BPD, but that you’re feeling these low feelings and still staying strong and still doing the things you need to do is absolutely incredible progress and I’m so proud of you!!!
It is ok to have sad days,, you are grieving and you cant heal without it,, you are doing great!
Remember it's a marathon and not a sprint ❤ This is a process, you will have ups and downs but eventually.. it will become so much easier. That's when you suddenly look back and can really see how far you've come.
Every day will be different and some are easier than others but every day is a step forward. One step closer to getting through it. Sending all the love, you’re so strong Cindy!
I do love the transitions! 15:34 made me LOL!
Thanks for showing your ups and downs. You are so strong and independent! Keep it up!!
It should be a “if you don’t come get your stuff I am trashing it.” And then give him a reasonable amount of time. He needs to be responsible for his own things. You are doing great though. It’s healthy to feel your feelings!
Agree. My soon to be ex husband has 4 months to come get his things.
I am so glad that you have a caring and professional therapist to go with you through this process
After moving out of my parents house, it was VERY hard to sit with my feelings and set boundaries but I’m here. Look how far you’ve come Cindy!! Meditation helps, drawing, coloring, gaming, listening to music, or just laying down with the tv on helps me. Wishing you all the best. ❤❤
One day at a time Cindy, unfortunately not every day is going to perfect. What you’re going through and the things you’re feeling are completely normal and you are making amazing progress. Im proud of you 💗
I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. I was diagnosed with BPD in 2012. I have some of the same struggles as you have described. I have not been through all the same stuff. But I understand the feeling of loneliness and feeling like you've pushed everyone away. And having a really good day and then feeling like you are crashing again. I have lost lots of people in my life due to how I am. But it is important that we don't beat ourselves up over it. I just came across your videos, so I don't know to much about you. But what I do see, is a strong person in these videos. You are beautiful and even when you feel alone, look at the positive comments and know you have people who care about you. Even if they are not in the same room. It has been awhile since I spoke with a therapist. So thank you for reminding me tonight, that I need to slow down my thoughts, by not trying to focus on so much at once. Set small goals, and work your way up, one goal at a time. We don't need to accomplish everything in one day. It's ok if we only get one thing done, as long as we keep trying and when needed, its ok to have a bad day and cry. *hugs* You got this! :) And I want to let you know, that you have not lost everything. You are gaining so much more, just take it one step at a time. It will be hard, but it will be worth it. Don't give up. Last reminder, I just found your channel, but I see someone who is strong and determined to get your life back on track. I'm proud of you.
we are all here for you Cindy , please keep ur chin up and look at the good side of things . We are all here for this new chapter in your life :)
You were married for 15 years, so it's going to take you more than a week to go through the emotions. You just have to go through them as best you can and don't feel like you need to hurry up and get over them. Perfectly normal to be going through everything you are going through. It's very much like going through a withdrawal. Some commented that writing down what you would like to say to Andrew would be good, and I agree. Getting the feelings and thoughts out is most important. Even if you burn them later, doesn't matter. You have to get them out. Sending you positive, healing vibes. You got this Cindy! You are much stronger than you think.
I lost my mother 4 months ago, so I understand the ups and downs of grief. It’s like stages and waves of sorrow, interspersed with extreme badassedry. But, I have to say that “what the fuck ever, who cares” bit gave me a chuckle. So, thanks for that. Even in the depths of despair, you’re an amazing, cool, funny badass.
You are doing amazing! I know the bad days are BAD but they will become less and less over time. You are healing by allowing yourself to feel how you need to and creating your boundaries with him is so important for you. ❤❤
Hi! Just wanted to say that I admire that you are doing your best. Keep up!
You’re a lovely human being who is just going through stuff and I am another one, on the other side of the globe, wishing you the best. 💙
Wishing you better days in the future. You deserve so many good things and I hope you find them soon. We’re here for you.
Cindy, this will be a short comment until I can come back and watch the entire video but for now I had to brag on you. While you were cooking your bacon I was blown away at your beauty. The Cindy I first saw when I found your channel and the Cindy today are not the same woman. You look and act like 2 different people. You are gorgeous girl. Your body is banging and your confidence is through the roof. You are not the woman you were and I am so f'in proud of you! Please keep going. You're an inspiration for so many of us and YOU deserve so much better than the hands you've been dealt. This is your time to shine and to rise from the ashes like a Phoenix! 💜💜
Thank you for sharing this journey with us. I think many of us have been through similarly painful life events and we find comfort in seeing you continue to move forward and transform your life for the better.
Hello Cindy sending you a lot of hugs 🤗
Also you learned 1 skill point in handiness! 😃
I wish I were your neighbor.
Not in a creepy way, but I’m 63 and I have preschool memories of visits to a psychiatrist. Almost unheard of in the early 1960’s. It remains with me today. I can’t explain it to those not dealing with it, but I’ve always been this way.
Don’t or haven’t been any other way. The good day/bad day is so familiar to me.
Hang in. I now view it as an addict . I will live with BPD my whole life. I’m okay now, but I’ll always deal with BPD for the rest of my life.
I’m super sensitive, but I always have been.
I think of you every single day.
I’m sorry.
It reminds me I am not alone.
I’m noticing more and more how close your dogs are to you when you’re upset they’re just all all over you looking so concerned I love them!!! 😊❤