Bill is an employer and its a vessel. He can't knowingly employ a drug user on a vessel at sea as there's agencies governing them that will ream him out goodstyle! So operationally & legally, Bill is best not to see anything. But having a tv crew film everything on board will alter Bill's viewpoint.
I was addicted to opiates from 16 to about 22. Im now 8+ years clean. I can tell you that the withdrawal is worse than i could ever explain. I feel for any addict. Basically what happens is the person you know, is a shell. Because their body is essentially hijacked. There’s no one home anymore. Unfortunately Nick paid the ultimate consequence. I feel for him. Rest in peace buddy.
Or it was all just so he could get back to port and score from someone he knows and only went to the doctor because bill drove him and had to keep up the bs
"Glad there is nothing looming over you that is the end of you......." What a tragic foreshadow. There are times when I look at addicts who died from OD'ing. And there are times when you see people who strive so hard to get and stay clean. And that addiction eventually gets the better of them. Those are the ones that break my heart.
Im a recovering addict and been sober 3 years this time. I cannot imagine the brutality of being on a boat hundreds of miles from anything and then going through withdrawals.
Same! Except I'd have never put myself in that position! Because I'd never have passed the physical in the first place. Let alone the pre-hire UA and blood test! I hate seeing that the poor guy ultimately lost to the dope. May he rest in peace. Its so easy for people to judge addicts, even I find myself guilty of it sometimes! And I'm in Recovery myself! I just passed my 6 months of going without getting high on opiates! And I've been in my M.A.T. Program for a year! I know that some people feel that's not the way to go.. But it was, and is, for me! Especially when a major, underlying base for my addiction was in needing to manage the severe chronic pain that I live in, due to the spinal conditions that I was born with. But the M.A.T. also helps a lot with the pain, as a sort of bonus effect! Ironically, doctors seem more keen than ever to prescribe me opiates, when Im in Recovery, and actually, finally don't want them.. At least most times. But to know that I can even take them in low doses, as prescribed, or less, now, is another amazing thing! Because that was definitely not the case before! Anyone who took the time to read this freakin dissertation that I ended up writing, please be careful with your body, your health and your life! And if you are in active addiction, please realize that you deserve better for, and from, yourself! And know if a fiend like me can do it, anyone can!!! ♥️🤍💙
Wild Bill is true to his words-a proper gentleman who cares deeply about his crew! Mental health and addiction go hand in hand! The scary thing is, like a book... you never know what's going on in their mind! One minute you're here, everything seemly normal and just like a bomb, they'll gone! In this case, Wild Bill knew something up and wouldn't leave it go...this, at that time, saved Nick's life. A father type figure to Nick...RIP brother, you're in the arms of angles now!
nah golfing and having a few beers and hitting some dabs is 100000x better, ur just sayin that cuz u couldnt control urself and do it casually so now u cant do it at all or u will go back to ur ways.
nice one buddy! keep it going , admitting you are powerless to it is not conceding defeat , its defeating the enemy, oh and don't listen to the sad acts trolling, they obviously hate themselves , big love
Bill resents his son. As well as having guilt for not being around. And they look like Twins, just with different last names. If it wasn’t for crabbing, Bill probably would still be estranged from his son.
Opiate addiction is a nightmare. Even if you want to get well, the withdrawals are so unbearable, and it’s generally hard to get enough time off work to cold turkey it out so the cycle unfortunately keeps continuing…
The thing about WDs is they take too long. If you go total abstinence you're determined for the first 18hrs but as it goes on and on it wears you down until you're too tired to fight it, if you follow.
I was an opiate addict for over 10 years. Been clean since I was 26, celebrating 8 years sober this past August. I feel for everyone in this situation, and wish that people would educate themselves more on the subject. Addiction is POWERFUL thing. However, recovery is possible. Be strong, be vigilant, be humble, be willing and change can happen. RIP, my man.
@danlam9906 couldn't agree more. Addiction is a depressing, lonely existence. It isolates you from everything and everyone and preys on your vulnerabilities and insecurities. Recovering addicts helping other addicts recover is a beautiful and powerful thing. I just hope everyone out there going through it knows that recovery is possible, and there's always someone willing to listen and help! Proud to be a part of the 2%.
The saddest and most infuriating part of having someone you love be an addict is the lying and manipulation of your emotions. Bills reaction reminded me of my experiences. They come to you for help and you do everything you can only to find out it was just a way to get sympathy to continue their habits. That’s why it’s important to not immediately judge parents or family for choosing to no longer enable an addict. At a certain point you start to see the emotional games used to play on your sympathies.
A drug addiction, self-inflicted, is the most selfish activity anyone can engage in. With all the warnings and information available, today, and STILL wanting to do drugs? No sympathy... you're already dead in my view.
Worst part about opioid addiction is a lot of people didn’t go out and choose that way they were prescribed it from doctors thinking if a doctor says it’s ok then I’m doing nothing wrong then it slowly takes over your life
I'm old enough to remembered the oxy commercials where they said the pills were IN NO WAY addictive and all the great stories of people on them.. Then 10 years later they were all addicted, in rehab or dead. It was horrible.
Rip Nick. I was addicted to hydrocodone after getting some major dental work done. Couldn't sleep, sweating, just felt horrible and nothing would make me feel better, except more pills.. Glad to be free from that. It was a struggle and took a full week of constant withdrawals and barely any sleep. I feel bad for anyone who inadvertently gets hooked on medications. It's a terrible terrible course of events.
Yup. I got hooked on em to after a bad auto accident. Dr just fed em to me, but it was my choice to take em. Almost ruined my life, the withdrawl was horrid.
@@Manbunmen65 I wish I had done that.. I had 30 teeth done in 2 sittings, it was horrible. But, the after pain wasn't anything near the pain of an actual toothache. I had never experienced narcotics prior to then, so I honestly had no idea what addiction even was until I stopped taking them. I'll never take them again, don't care if they lop off a limb
I know from experience of both using opioids and now being a substance use counselor, being strung out on Heroin is selfish and destructive. Bill could have lost his boat but when you're doing junk you just don't want to be sick so you continue the cycle or get help. Nick got help but his addiction took his life. Fentanyl is so destructive, my patient's who are using Fentanyl tell me they can't get high on Heroin anymore it doesn't work, so they continue to use Fentanyl. Its sad.
@@myleslong5584oh I wish, at least here in TX, fetty was BEAUTIFUL when I lived in LA, moved here a year ago and the only thing I could find was H and like OP said, it doesn't get me high AT ALL, just not sick which sucks. Fetty all day everyday
And now fentanyl is being replaced with the $10 a kilo xylazine farm animals tranquilizer. Like the person above said i heroin is hard to find and if you find it 9 times out of 10 it's going to have fentanyl already put in it before it even reached the state's.
An addict will never get sober for anyone else except themselves, that’s just how it is and how it works, Nick seemed to never hit his bottom maybe because he had enablers all around him, sometimes hitting your bottom is what it takes, never get between and addict and their bottom, rip my guy
I was addicted to hydromorphcotins, went on methadone program and got off of it (on my own) there is nothing worse then withdrawals from opiates. When people joke about withdrawing from something stupid, I take absolute offence to it because they never endured what I experienced. Respect to every single person who kicked this habit and is sober today
Really sad loss for bill, nick was by far one of the hardest working crew members ive seen on the show, to go to work on the ocean in the states nick must have been in, would have been such an up hill struggle to battle his own demons aswell as holding his job, true grit
I remember doing "base" a few times, a peasants cocaine, even cheaper than normal speed or amphetamine. I was awake for 2 days and the comedown on that...wow...I've used to do MDMA and cocaine, mushrooms on a regular basis, whilst you get a comedown on most, it's never brutal. But that base comedown...just felt like this empty husk and I could smell the speed leaching out of every pore. Was like the worst depressive episode x100. So I can imagine heroin/opioid withdrawal is x1000 that.
Opioid withdrawal is painful and the lack of sleep is so mentally draining. You’re to tired to stay awake but to restless to sleep. I got clean of a 10 year heroin addiction in July 1999 and I got cravings for a good 5 years after getting clean.
It's bloody heartbreaking to rewatch this, knowing it's what ultimately killed him. I'm an addict with 12 years recovery, and this hits right in the gut.
The best thing you can do for addiction is never start. Alcohol is probably the worst drug because people socially accept it. It's madness that it's legal.
Nah it's madness anything is illegal. The war on drugs is dumb and we tried to banned alcohol....how did that turn out?drinking went up and the mob ruled cities. Prohibition doesn't work
All drugs should be legal just regulated and taxed. We gain absolutely nothing from fighting the war on drugs. All it does it produce billions of dollars for criminals.
I was addicted to opiates for about 27 years and have been off of them for about 5 years now..... but i haven't been myself since i stopped taking them.. i keep trying to get back to the person i once was but i think he's gone..
Truly a shame. No many men can do that Job. It just proves the power drugs can have on people. He was slurring when he was talking to bill in that first flashback. There’s no way they didn’t, at least, have an inkling. It sucks because you don’t want it to be the truth, and you don’t want to ask. asking can be a flashpoint, but if you don’t ask, it festers until the end result. I’m sure he had a hell of an entrance when he got to the gates, RIP.
If I had to be on a boat In those conditions, then at least short term, opiates would defiantly be a tempting short cut to feeling warm and insulated against the stinging swell, wind, hail and anything else the sea has to offer. I think some Sherpas use opium for similar climactic reasons. Obviously this can quickly become an issue in the real world if done a lot, but short term.🙂
I respect these hardworking guys because I know I'd be fcked up on everything 24/7. Probably stimulants to keep me going. There's nothing there! Constant darkness and staring at a pulsing ocean wave. Sensory deprivation in a way
The human body can only take so much it can't handle work and drugs. It's one or the other or you're going to have a breakdown or a loss of life and that's exactly what happened. Nick, great spirit, great worker but somewhere along the way somebody failed him. Now your worries are over and you're at peace😢❤
I was addicted for 10 years. It started innocently as I was put on Vicodin 10mg for shoulder pain. After that, it was all downhill. I ended up overdosing twice. It took my family's intervention to bring it to an end. I'm 6 years clean now, and I refuse the meds when my shoulder flairs up. I keep it iced and Tylenol is all I'll take. 2 pills. No more.
Hell yeah! It was one of the most difficult thing to tell my doctor "no I don't want any meds" when I slipped and fractured some ribs but it was a damn good feeling to refuse the pain meds
Rest in peace Nick. He was a real fisherman. He had the respect of his Capt and crew. Addiction can take down the toughest of people. It's a lifelong fight, a chemical compulsion that never leaves.
@@kendo7964 no it literally hijacks the synapses in your brain and rewires it. It changes the reptilian part of the brain.... The part that tells you that you need water, food and shelter to survive. It makes your brain crave drugs before water, food and shelter. Also affects dopamine and serotonin production. If it was a choice, ppl would stop. Being an addict is miserable. Who wants to lose everything? Family, your girl, your job, home, friends, car, etc. Addiction takes everything from you, most addicts are miserable and want to stop but can't. I hope you never have kids who deal with addiction. It's a nightmare. There's plenty of ppl that call it a choice until they experience it first hand in your personal life.
@@kendo7964It's not always a choice either. You could be in an accident and be unconscious when you are given your first dose of dope. So many addicts start at the doctor's office. They think they're doing what they're supposed to. Those drugs are extremely addicting. People don't realize that many prescription painkillers are a form of heroin.
Anyone who gets off opioids deserves much respect. I managed eight months but relapsed and am digging fentanyl and nitazenes now and I get ill if I don't use every three hours or so. DON'T use opioids!
As a opiods victim imagine you haven't eaten 7 days,,drank water in 5 days,no opiods in 12 hours and someone offers you only one of the above,,,your choosing opiods. Thats the grip it instils.
It's all the extremely labor intensive jobs...it starts w an injury then u take them to mask the pain and to wor thru it then it becomes a habit and u can't do it without it...went thru it for more than 10 yrs.. and crabbers work extreme conditions and crazy hours so drug problems fit well
They work around the clock, sometimes for days on end. Plus it's freezing, wet, the boat is pitching like crazy, windy, completely uncomfortable and grueling. It's a way to make good money, but it's one of the toughest jobs out there.
It’s not polite to speak ill of the dead so I won’t be passing any judgements. I know Nick’s not in anymore pain anymore. I hope his child has the best life and if I’m ever in any position to help them I will. God bless
Hunters most likely his connect on the boat. “Hunter bum me a cig real quick and make sure to slide the Percocet to me real subtle like under the cig.”
Thank god they blurred out the picture of the drugs. I might have wet my pants if I saw a picture of drugs, or I might want to go get some drugs for myself. Close one!
Bill always cut Nick way more slack and made more excuses for him, than he ever did his own son. Zak always looked battered and broken to me, it was sad to see.
I'm 32 and addicted to opiates now for 13 year's and I can't get off it men but I would never ever and never did put my life or anybody's life in danger
if he was really having (breathing difficulties) its not uncommon for heavy opiods users to feel as though they are short of breath, because of the way the drug works not to mention hes a massive smoker.
Junkies dress a certain way, nice and comfy lol if someone you love starts wearing basketball shorts and socks n slides every day they’re most likely on that stuff
By calling addiction a "sickness" or acting like it's some kind of affliction that's out of the user's control, you only give them another reason to not take responsibility. It's the attitude that got America where it is today in terms of addiction.
I used to work on fishing boat s to catch sardins and anchovies in Croatia we would all including capitan take brown coke and speed the older ones alkohol one guy drunk set him self on fire in the small kitchen crazy times
Bill knew exactly what it was. Just didn't want to believe it himself.
well, he did say that he blames himself because he gave Nick the benefit of the doubt numerous times.
No he knew. We always know. It's not a secret
Bill said ive had it nomore so its not first time🤦♂️💯
Everyone knows it. I'm sorry some peopl3 may be naive but when it's close to you you know damn well.
Bill is an employer and its a vessel. He can't knowingly employ a drug user on a vessel at sea as there's agencies governing them that will ream him out goodstyle!
So operationally & legally, Bill is best not to see anything. But having a tv crew film everything on board will alter Bill's viewpoint.
I was addicted to opiates from 16 to about 22. Im now 8+ years clean. I can tell you that the withdrawal is worse than i could ever explain. I feel for any addict. Basically what happens is the person you know, is a shell. Because their body is essentially hijacked. There’s no one home anymore. Unfortunately Nick paid the ultimate consequence. I feel for him. Rest in peace buddy.
It's hell for sure
Keep up the good work
I was on opiates for almost 20 years .. I always knew when those withdrawal were coming like all addicts
@@sleigh4019 damn. Coming off had to be crazy rough for ya.
Your choice to start it not a disease your choice
Bill knew once Nicks results came back fine, his comment “what the hell is my buddy up to” tells the story.
He knew before he just didn’t wanna believe it. He thought more of Nick than his own son.
He went to the dr trying to score more opioids...and was turned away because he was healthy!
Doc prolly saw his jaw all janked up, offered him addiciton services then kicked him out when he declined.
Or it was all just so he could get back to port and score from someone he knows and only went to the doctor because bill drove him and had to keep up the bs
@@stunter2875 With a tv crew on board they have to say something to explain Nicks behaviour (if it showed? I don't watch it)
@@TeddyBear-ii4yc If I remember correctly the camera crew aren't supposed to intervene, only to be a fly on the wall.
Been there lol
They all knew what was going on they just needed proof before confronting him which i respect.
"Glad there is nothing looming over you that is the end of you......." What a tragic foreshadow. There are times when I look at addicts who died from OD'ing. And there are times when you see people who strive so hard to get and stay clean. And that addiction eventually gets the better of them. Those are the ones that break my heart.
if i am right around 75% go back to drugs within 6 months, so sad
Im a recovering addict and been sober 3 years this time. I cannot imagine the brutality of being on a boat hundreds of miles from anything and then going through withdrawals.
“This time.” Ain’t it the truth. The struggle is real. Hang in there.
I always thought prison would be the worst place to go through wds, but you're right, on a crab boat in the bering sea would be worse, I think!
im going on like 10 years and still have pain in my knees cant sit still restless. it never ends once you go down that road.
And I think it's bad when the dealer says he'll be 45 mins, your looking at weeks sometimes on a crab boat. RIP Nick, you where a real one.
Same! Except I'd have never put myself in that position! Because I'd never have passed the physical in the first place. Let alone the pre-hire UA and blood test! I hate seeing that the poor guy ultimately lost to the dope. May he rest in peace. Its so easy for people to judge addicts, even I find myself guilty of it sometimes! And I'm in Recovery myself! I just passed my 6 months of going without getting high on opiates! And I've been in my M.A.T. Program for a year! I know that some people feel that's not the way to go.. But it was, and is, for me! Especially when a major, underlying base for my addiction was in needing to manage the severe chronic pain that I live in, due to the spinal conditions that I was born with. But the M.A.T. also helps a lot with the pain, as a sort of bonus effect! Ironically, doctors seem more keen than ever to prescribe me opiates, when Im in Recovery, and actually, finally don't want them.. At least most times. But to know that I can even take them in low doses, as prescribed, or less, now, is another amazing thing! Because that was definitely not the case before! Anyone who took the time to read this freakin dissertation that I ended up writing, please be careful with your body, your health and your life! And if you are in active addiction, please realize that you deserve better for, and from, yourself! And know if a fiend like me can do it, anyone can!!! ♥️🤍💙
Wild Bill is true to his words-a proper gentleman who cares deeply about his crew! Mental health and addiction go hand in hand! The scary thing is, like a book... you never know what's going on in their mind! One minute you're here, everything seemly normal and just like a bomb, they'll gone! In this case, Wild Bill knew something up and wouldn't leave it go...this, at that time, saved Nick's life. A father type figure to Nick...RIP brother, you're in the arms of angles now!
Been off of fentanyl do two years now and will never go back. Being sober had changed my life and feels better than any drug out there.
nah golfing and having a few beers and hitting some dabs is 100000x better, ur just sayin that cuz u couldnt control urself and do it casually so now u cant do it at all or u will go back to ur ways.
2 years? We’ll see
@morallybankrupt1461 - Good job. Don’t listen to what these idiot trolls 🧌 say. It’s not easy and two years off the junk is a huge accomplishment.
@@billdavis6900Thank you ♥️. It means a lot.
nice one buddy! keep it going , admitting you are powerless to it is not conceding defeat , its defeating the enemy, oh and don't listen to the sad acts trolling, they obviously hate themselves , big love
6 months clean off heroin. So happy w life
Keep going....made it 18 months first time then went 2 yrs and went back out....the third time I got clean it's been 5 yrs
Keep going bros I’m fighting same battle. Proud of y’all
Keep it up. Never thought I’d be able to quit. Have 2 years clean
I hope you it that one year brotha🤙
@@GDQ949 I’m almost there. One month
RIP Nick. Bill treated him like his own son.
He treated him better than he treated his own son.
@@frojd1990well his own son literally had no emotions and had hate for his dad because he was never there when he was growing up.
He treated his son like trash lol
@@Rizzbulla well his son was kind of a d bag
Bill resents his son. As well as having guilt for not being around. And they look like Twins, just with different last names. If it wasn’t for crabbing, Bill probably would still be estranged from his son.
Opiate addiction is a nightmare. Even if you want to get well, the withdrawals are so unbearable, and it’s generally hard to get enough time off work to cold turkey it out so the cycle unfortunately keeps continuing…
The thing about WDs is they take too long. If you go total abstinence you're determined for the first 18hrs but as it goes on and on it wears you down until you're too tired to fight it, if you follow.
I was an opiate addict for over 10 years. Been clean since I was 26, celebrating 8 years sober this past August. I feel for everyone in this situation, and wish that people would educate themselves more on the subject. Addiction is POWERFUL thing. However, recovery is possible. Be strong, be vigilant, be humble, be willing and change can happen. RIP, my man.
Congrats man,keep strong, proud of you.
Just hit 6 in August myself!! Congrats, a lot of us didnt make it this far.
Me too, it’s good to let others know you been there, some people just need to see and here us to know it is possible and within reach.
@danlam9906 couldn't agree more. Addiction is a depressing, lonely existence. It isolates you from everything and everyone and preys on your vulnerabilities and insecurities. Recovering addicts helping other addicts recover is a beautiful and powerful thing. I just hope everyone out there going through it knows that recovery is possible, and there's always someone willing to listen and help! Proud to be a part of the 2%.
@@hurleycapetown8420 thank you. The sentiment is very much appreciated!
The saddest and most infuriating part of having someone you love be an addict is the lying and manipulation of your emotions. Bills reaction reminded me of my experiences. They come to you for help and you do everything you can only to find out it was just a way to get sympathy to continue their habits.
That’s why it’s important to not immediately judge parents or family for choosing to no longer enable an addict. At a certain point you start to see the emotional games used to play on your sympathies.
A drug addiction, self-inflicted, is the most selfish activity anyone can engage in. With all the warnings and information available, today, and STILL wanting to do drugs? No sympathy... you're already dead in my view.
😢 Nick seamed like such a decent bloke… Hope his family are ok❤❤❤
Worst part about opioid addiction is a lot of people didn’t go out and choose that way they were prescribed it from doctors thinking if a doctor says it’s ok then I’m doing nothing wrong then it slowly takes over your life
nah, I'm an addict... been sober for close to 20 years. It gets bad because you like it, not because you didn't know.
Continued use when it drives you to become a de m o n
@@horatiohornbie7395shit I got addicted at 15 I honestly had zero clue about addiction
I'm old enough to remembered the oxy commercials where they said the pills were IN NO WAY addictive and all the great stories of people on them..
Then 10 years later they were all addicted, in rehab or dead. It was horrible.
RIP Nick, so sad to hear he lost in the end. Bill truly loved him and cared for him, sad all the way around ❤
Rip Nick. I was addicted to hydrocodone after getting some major dental work done. Couldn't sleep, sweating, just felt horrible and nothing would make me feel better, except more pills.. Glad to be free from that. It was a struggle and took a full week of constant withdrawals and barely any sleep. I feel bad for anyone who inadvertently gets hooked on medications. It's a terrible terrible course of events.
Yup. I got hooked on em to after a bad auto accident. Dr just fed em to me, but it was my choice to take em. Almost ruined my life, the withdrawl was horrid.
I had eight teeth pulled and root canal 4 times on the same tooth and I never took any of the meds.
@@Manbunmen65 I wish I had done that.. I had 30 teeth done in 2 sittings, it was horrible. But, the after pain wasn't anything near the pain of an actual toothache. I had never experienced narcotics prior to then, so I honestly had no idea what addiction even was until I stopped taking them. I'll never take them again, don't care if they lop off a limb
@Halcyon1861 so why don't you shut your cockholster.
You’re weak!
I know from experience of both using opioids and now being a substance use counselor, being strung out on Heroin is selfish and destructive. Bill could have lost his boat but when you're doing junk you just don't want to be sick so you continue the cycle or get help. Nick got help but his addiction took his life. Fentanyl is so destructive, my patient's who are using Fentanyl tell me they can't get high on Heroin anymore it doesn't work, so they continue to use Fentanyl. Its sad.
Where,in the U.S.,would anyone find heroin,anymore? Fetty is king of the street-level,opiate market.
@@myleslong5584oh I wish, at least here in TX, fetty was BEAUTIFUL when I lived in LA, moved here a year ago and the only thing I could find was H and like OP said, it doesn't get me high AT ALL, just not sick which sucks. Fetty all day everyday
And now fentanyl is being replaced with the $10 a kilo xylazine farm animals tranquilizer. Like the person above said i heroin is hard to find and if you find it 9 times out of 10 it's going to have fentanyl already put in it before it even reached the state's.
An addict will never get sober for anyone else except themselves, that’s just how it is and how it works, Nick seemed to never hit his bottom maybe because he had enablers all around him, sometimes hitting your bottom is what it takes, never get between and addict and their bottom, rip my guy
I was addicted to hydromorphcotins, went on methadone program and got off of it (on my own) there is nothing worse then withdrawals from opiates. When people joke about withdrawing from something stupid, I take absolute offence to it because they never endured what I experienced. Respect to every single person who kicked this habit and is sober today
Withdrawal is a nightmare
Why should anyone care if you are offended you did it to yourself...
That's not on your own lol that's just trading addictions
@@AngryDad. When people go on methadone to try kick their habit the withdrawal's from methadone can be and usually are worse than the dope itself.
@@eamonnbyrne8400 yup
Sad no one could reach him. RIP nick
He’s the dumbass who injected drugs into his body
Our lives are our own responsibility no one else’s. Nick failed himself.
It’s sad to see the demise of so many of these guys on the show from drugs! I really liked Nick and Eliot!
Yes it is. Long hours and Pyshical labor causes many guys to use drugs to cope.
Eliot Neese isn't dead.
@@Peg-zl9lr I didn’t say he was but drugs killed his captain career!
@@Peg-zl9lr nope seen him in homer alaska this summer
Really sad loss for bill, nick was by far one of the hardest working crew members ive seen on the show, to go to work on the ocean in the states nick must have been in, would have been such an up hill struggle to battle his own demons aswell as holding his job, true grit
RIP Nick!! He was a good dude and battled his addiction until the end!
He died?
@@jakejonas7366 yes
@@jakejonas7366obviously
@@jakejonas7366
In 2021
Better him than me
I remember doing "base" a few times, a peasants cocaine, even cheaper than normal speed or amphetamine. I was awake for 2 days and the comedown on that...wow...I've used to do MDMA and cocaine, mushrooms on a regular basis, whilst you get a comedown on most, it's never brutal. But that base comedown...just felt like this empty husk and I could smell the speed leaching out of every pore. Was like the worst depressive episode x100. So I can imagine heroin/opioid withdrawal is x1000 that.
Opioid withdrawal is painful and the lack of sleep is so mentally draining. You’re to tired to stay awake but to restless to sleep. I got clean of a 10 year heroin addiction in July 1999 and I got cravings for a good 5 years after getting clean.
You spelled "leaching" correctly. You don't see that much these days, good one.
Between Wild Bill and Jake Anderson, I’m not sure whose crew has higher turnover rates because of legal issues and substance abuse.
And yet morons with “addictions” sign up to go 600 miles away from their “dealer/hookups” 😂😂😂😂
You know it’s serious when Bill goes back to the wheelhouse to put his hair in a ponytail tail lol. I though he was going to punch him out
It's bloody heartbreaking to rewatch this, knowing it's what ultimately killed him. I'm an addict with 12 years recovery, and this hits right in the gut.
His demons finally won. He passed from an OD a couple years ago. Hopefully he finds the peace in death he never found in life.
He’s dead. He’s worm food.
Bill handled that a lot better than I thought he would.
The best thing you can do for addiction is never start. Alcohol is probably the worst drug because people socially accept it. It's madness that it's legal.
Nah it's madness anything is illegal. The war on drugs is dumb and we tried to banned alcohol....how did that turn out?drinking went up and the mob ruled cities. Prohibition doesn't work
Make alcohol illegal! It works for drugs.
@@danielhova7826 yeah that worked great the first time
All drugs should be legal just regulated and taxed. We gain absolutely nothing from fighting the war on drugs. All it does it produce billions of dollars for criminals.
@@JosephWalker-ip7pd l.a. would look 10 times worse then now. You know thats true
bill was the healthiest most genuine captain that cared for his crew, when people crossed the line he would discipline them but it was always just
I loved Nick... It explains Bills reaction when he's dead. Sometimes you can't take words back after they are spoken.
I was addicted to opiates for about 27 years and have been off of them for about 5 years now..... but i haven't been myself since i stopped taking them.. i keep trying to get back to the person i once was but i think he's gone..
Stay with it ! You are still there , it’s just gonna take a while.
It takes awhile man for your brain to heal keep at it homie
Rest up Nick.
Bill probably tried to save him but you can’t make someone get clean.
Truly a shame. No many men can do that Job. It just proves the power drugs can have on people. He was slurring when he was talking to bill in that first flashback. There’s no way they didn’t, at least, have an inkling. It sucks because you don’t want it to be the truth, and you don’t want to ask. asking can be a flashpoint, but if you don’t ask, it festers until the end result. I’m sure he had a hell of an entrance when he got to the gates, RIP.
Addiction is vicious and unrelenting.
If I had to be on a boat In those conditions, then at least short term, opiates would defiantly be a tempting short cut to feeling warm and insulated against the stinging swell, wind, hail and anything else the sea has to offer. I think some Sherpas use opium for similar climactic reasons. Obviously this can quickly become an issue in the real world if done a lot, but short term.🙂
I respect these hardworking guys because I know I'd be fcked up on everything 24/7. Probably stimulants to keep me going. There's nothing there! Constant darkness and staring at a pulsing ocean wave. Sensory deprivation in a way
You’d have to be able to stock up before each venture prolly would spend your while check just to make sure you can get high everyday
Not for the weak.
The human body can only take so much it can't handle work and drugs. It's one or the other or you're going to have a breakdown or a loss of life and that's exactly what happened. Nick, great spirit, great worker but somewhere along the way somebody failed him. Now your worries are over and you're at peace😢❤
Hunter passed homeboy a "cigarette". 🙄
lol
Man bad to post this after he died. Granted this was from years ago but just bad timing
I was addicted for 10 years. It started innocently as I was put on Vicodin 10mg for shoulder pain. After that, it was all downhill. I ended up overdosing twice. It took my family's intervention to bring it to an end. I'm 6 years clean now, and I refuse the meds when my shoulder flairs up. I keep it iced and Tylenol is all I'll take. 2 pills. No more.
Good job...😊
Hell yeah! It was one of the most difficult thing to tell my doctor "no I don't want any meds" when I slipped and fractured some ribs but it was a damn good feeling to refuse the pain meds
I love it "dock in the box."
I lost two great friends and co workers to overdoses. It breaks my hear to this day u can only keep going
This was so hard to watch. Hang in there Wild Bill, we have some prayers headed your way.
I was addicted to rich tea biscuits but now I have skimmed milk,tea,no sugar and I'm on 25 kit kats a day,so I've improved big time.
You junkies make me sick
Lmao
Stay away from the wagon wheels mate
Good, now go get some MnM's in there
I’m glad you’re clean and sober brother keep it up. 2.3 hours clean myself
Rest in peace Nick. He was a real fisherman. He had the respect of his Capt and crew. Addiction can take down the toughest of people. It's a lifelong fight, a chemical compulsion that never leaves.
No it isn't that's a damn lie. It's a choice you're just making excuses.
@@kendo7964 no it literally hijacks the synapses in your brain and rewires it. It changes the reptilian part of the brain.... The part that tells you that you need water, food and shelter to survive. It makes your brain crave drugs before water, food and shelter. Also affects dopamine and serotonin production. If it was a choice, ppl would stop. Being an addict is miserable. Who wants to lose everything? Family, your girl, your job, home, friends, car, etc. Addiction takes everything from you, most addicts are miserable and want to stop but can't.
I hope you never have kids who deal with addiction. It's a nightmare. There's plenty of ppl that call it a choice until they experience it first hand in your personal life.
@@kendo7964If you've never lived it or studied it, you'll never understand.
@@kendo7964It's not always a choice either. You could be in an accident and be unconscious when you are given your first dose of dope. So many addicts start at the doctor's office. They think they're doing what they're supposed to. Those drugs are extremely addicting. People don't realize that many prescription painkillers are a form of heroin.
@@kendo7964👏👏👏👏
He probably stopped but the withdrawal is too much. Cant just stop opiates cold turkey.
Yes you can. I did after 19yrs the week I found out I was gonna be a father
Yes you can I did it after 7 years. I dealed them too so had access 24 7. I was on 160 mils a day
Most people can't quit cold turkey.
@@rickyhits6547 I feel sorry for the weak
@@AngryDad. its possible but some people can die like that. My friend couldn’t even work a basic work day after stopping one day. Dope sick.
Rest in Peace Nick.
Brought to you by the good people at Purdue Pharma!!
“It’s your fault!! We just make ‘em!!
Anyone who gets off opioids deserves much respect. I managed eight months but relapsed and am digging fentanyl and nitazenes now and I get ill if I don't use every three hours or so. DON'T use opioids!
There's ALWAYS hope.I was lost.6 yrs clean last month, and life is amazing .Don't ever give up. Peace
R.I.P. Nick.
Drug addicts will lie about and manipulate just about anyone and everything. Cut your losses and give the opportunity to someone more deserving
Gee that's so nice . Very heartwarming
@@billbally4419 It's the truth.
@@billbally4419 facts hurt huh?
Sad but true
That smirk said enough 😅
This video was posted 6 months ago. Nick died a few years ago. 🥺
As a opiods victim imagine you haven't eaten 7 days,,drank water in 5 days,no opiods in 12 hours and someone offers you only one of the above,,,your choosing opiods. Thats the grip it instils.
Bill and Nick was one of the more tragic storylines in this series. Bill loved Nick like a son
Bill loved Nick more than both his sons.
Damn… These crabber dudes have all kinds of addictions. Must be the stress or something.
It's all the extremely labor intensive jobs...it starts w an injury then u take them to mask the pain and to wor thru it then it becomes a habit and u can't do it without it...went thru it for more than 10 yrs.. and crabbers work extreme conditions and crazy hours so drug problems fit well
Also high paying hard working jobs
They work around the clock, sometimes for days on end. Plus it's freezing, wet, the boat is pitching like crazy, windy, completely uncomfortable and grueling. It's a way to make good money, but it's one of the toughest jobs out there.
Getting paid lump sums only increases the rich or a pauper circle
Title should say opiates not opium
He’s gone alright
🙏
Bill suspected what the problem was when he said “what’s my buddy up to”
Opiates and opium r very different. When i saw this i was wondering who the hell does opium.
very different?..... no
A fisherman using drugs and alcohol....what a shock
It’s not polite to speak ill of the dead so I won’t be passing any judgements.
I know Nick’s not in anymore pain anymore.
I hope his child has the best life and if I’m ever in any position to help them I will.
God bless
Why dont the captains force their crews to do a drugs and alcohol test before setting off?
Wouldn't have any workers lol
He was born in 1987 that's just sad. Seek help if you're struggling it's worth it.
Bill knew right away. Please.
Nick died from a fentanyl overdose
Thumbnail said “opium”, I figured that wasn’t right
What season was this
13
WOW these are really old NIck passed away a few years ago.
Keep voting D for more
Maybe Bill should have given HIS OWN SON MORE LOVE…👋🏽
So many of these fishermen have drug abuse/addiction problems.
No wonder Nick was so good at his job
Hunter at 0:55 looks totally out of it too.
Hunters most likely his connect on the boat. “Hunter bum me a cig real quick and make sure to slide the Percocet to me real subtle like under the cig.”
Hay great job
Does he actually fire nick?
That Nick dude used to also be on the bearing sea gold, he worked for Emily reidel
Thank god they blurred out the picture of the drugs. I might have wet my pants if I saw a picture of drugs, or I might want to go get some drugs for myself. Close one!
really? fishing boats have drugs on board . i never knew
❤❤❤Nick
Sad stuff 😢
damn, that dude was the best out there, pretty sad what happened.
Bill always cut Nick way more slack and made more excuses for him, than he ever did his own son. Zak always looked battered and broken to me, it was sad to see.
Pretty sure Bill didn't know how bad fentanyl is..
Bills got medical experience so I’m sure he knows.
@@zacharyradford5552Even most doctors were ignorant to how destructive opiates were less then 15 years ago and they've been around a long time
I'm 32 and addicted to opiates now for 13 year's and I can't get off it men but I would never ever and never did put my life or anybody's life in danger
Could've the doctor suggested a drug test?
Nick in his natural habit
if he was really having (breathing difficulties) its not uncommon for heavy opiods users to feel as though they are short of breath, because of the way the drug works not to mention hes a massive smoker.
I just don't know how people couldn't see it sooner
Junkies dress a certain way, nice and comfy lol if someone you love starts wearing basketball shorts and socks n slides every day they’re most likely on that stuff
i have an addiction to opium u just can’t go wrong with the rages beats they got goin on
By calling addiction a "sickness" or acting like it's some kind of affliction that's out of the user's control, you only give them another reason to not take responsibility.
It's the attitude that got America where it is today in terms of addiction.
Exactly. Perfectly stated
boomer take
Ok doctor
I used to work on fishing boat s to catch sardins and anchovies in Croatia we would all including capitan take brown coke and speed the older ones alkohol one guy drunk set him self on fire in the small kitchen crazy times
I am a recovering alcoholic.. 3 years no alcohol.. I am allergic to opioids.. otherwise I am sure I would’ve ended up on it too for sure
RIP Nick
Its a common in this job description, really is.