🟣 DTFH podcast - Duncan's Mom Part 1 - ReMastered [Midnight Gospel]
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- In loving memory of Deneen Fendig 1947 - 2013
This is episode 43 of the Duncan Trussell Family Hour podcast, featuring Duncan's mom, Part 1.
Part 2 is here: • 🟣 DTFH podcast - Dunca...
The original audio for episode 64 / Part 2 seems to have gone missing from Duncan's website:
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I have remastered the audio for this, mainly to decrease the relative difference between Duncan and Deneen's volume levels. The overall volume has been increased. I tried to preserve as much of the original quality and dynamic range as possible.
Artwork: 'Mouse Of Silver' E08 of The Midnight Gospel:
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A trip report - combining these 2 podcasts with mushrooms:
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Peace ☯
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"Well I love you very much obviously."
"I love you to. And Duncan? That kind of love ain't going anywhere. That's another thing you find, that, I may leave this plane of existence, sooner rather than later; but the love isn't going anywhere. I'm as certain of that as anything."
My buddy and I were both watching midnight gospel on that part and I knew what it was from and I couldn't help but cry.
I love this from the midnight gospel ep I really hope duncan makes more eps
Her love lives on within him, and in turn in the people he loves as well. It endures and persists and as long as we pass it on, it never fades.
1:27:40
“I believe you” 😭😭
Duncan's mom is such a beautiful soul. I'm so grateful that she was willing to share her wisdom like this while she was still in her physical body.
Humans are flesh not souls.
She really is. She is helping me without being here in this physical plane.
@@tom4y5s72 Show me a non-flesh human.
@@williamoarlock8634 I looked ur name up and found you arguing with countless amounts of people for years on end thinking your words hold any weight or value. That is very sad, do you have a job? I saw you bashing rich people who came from nothing so Im gonna guess you're still leaching off unemployment and food stamps calling urself the victim in any scenario possible. Not once in your nearly 50 comments I read did you have a civil conversation or construct points and arguments to push ur point, you just go hurrr durr (quoting you word for word for word from "commentoid" on a joe rogan experience podcast) "Christianty bad" I guess there is no point even replying to you again after you do, you have no knowledge or constructive feedback to give. Simply a sheep with no love in life.
@@williamoarlock8634 you also delete half the comments you post after arguing with people who don't know you exist in real life. I don't get it, are you self projecting, no love in your life, no job, no parents, no friends? How do you literally have years/months on end off free time to "argue" (I use argue lightly, you just hurl insults. No points or arguments) with people who literally have never and will never meet you in real life or care you exist? Have you been leaching unemployment sitting in your moms basements commenting for hours on end? Seriously you're a sad person, go do something with your life.
Growing up my mom would shame me about crying. "Why are you crying? Stop crying". I had so much shame showing vulnerability or crying infront of people. Hearing her say "you cry" makes me sob. Like there is no shame in feeling hurt.
It's very healing for the child I was. She sounds like the kind of mother we'd all have wanted or needed.
That's the kind of mother I had. She was an absolute angel, a beautifull woman, and she died when I was 8. I miss her so much, and this podcast was what I needed to hear.
just like that the world is so fucked,but seeing things like these often makes me feel closure
All the foster homes I was in were very much on the 'stop crying or I'll give you something to cry about' side - even now, it's almost physically impossible for me to cry, even when something awful happens like losing a pet or even a friend. I try really hard, but it's hard for me to process emotions the same way most people do, and harder to show them. But hearing his mom say 'you cry' genuinely made tears fall down my face. I wish I'd had a mom like her.
@@moonstruck8245I’m so sorry, please allow yourself the release, the kind people of the world will want to comfort you, allow you softness, give you a safe space. Anyone who doesn’t do that doesn’t deserve your energy.
You matter, you deserve to feel and were put here to feel every element of the spectrum of human emotion❤️
@@popsssss It's not so much not allowing myself to as much as I physically can't. Like...I will actively *try* to, but that mental block is there and I can't do it physically.
A true mother’s voice may be the most grounding sound in our existence.
This woman, may whatever god force that exists, bless her beautiful soul. Mother energy on maximum dude, the most wise motherly words I’ve ever known. I envy Duncan 🕉
@@Jaaaackjack you can feel the love for him in her tone it’s so naturally spiritually positive
😭❤
I wish I had a mom like her 😢
Rest amongst the stars Deneen.
12:30 that makes me tear up I can’t imagine the heart break Duncan feels listening to his moms welcoming voice after her passing
RIP Deneen. I think it's the anniversary of her passing right now. Also Terence McKenna.
@@spiritlevelstudios big respects, may they rest in paradise
1:17:28 the "you cry" bit
The most simple statement, yet it is one of the most profound things I've ever heard. Everyone always has some long winded explanation of how to deal with heartbreak, and she found a way to turn all of it into two words......
The silence afterwards is heartbreaking
And he really did cry
Holding back tears for this part. I’m heartbroken
Thank you. This moment was hard for me, but I can't imagine how hard it must have been for Duncan
She has the sweetest and most comforting voice.
Anyone else think the teacher he's looking for is right in front of him and he just can't realise, the way they communicate back and forth is just perfect
I think he knew very well.
I also felt like he was talking alot to try to make sense of things. I wanted to hear more of what his mom had to say
Thanks to Duncan for doing this impossibly hard and intimate thing.
1:17:30 is so fucking heartbreaking but so true....his moms wisdom and serenity is so powerful. Im so happy they recorded this. This actually helped me personally through grieving.
You're not the only one man don't feel alone. Ever.
I'm just weeping, and I'm so so grateful that this audio file exists in my lifetime
I just lost my mother three days ago very happy to have listened to this podcast really appreciate this content
I'm so sorry 🫂
12:32 “Hi Duncan!! 😊😊” killed me and it’s only like 3 seconds in
Every 1-2 years since it dropped, I listen to part 1 and 2 of this podcast. To be honest I cry through most of it. But, it’s like medicine for me. It recharges me and resets my priorities. I thank god for Duncan’s mom. Has there ever been a more beautiful soul?
"Yeah cause im your mama"
-Starts to tear up-
"You cry"
-breaks down and cries-
This, is the greatest podcast of all time.
Interesting to get the context for the 'inside of your hand' conversation that's in Midnight Gospel.
I love how articulate and descriptive her speech is it’s strangely comforting
This conversation means a lot to me. I listen to it probably once a year since my own mom died. I wish I could’ve done something similar with her. She was a wild lady and I miss her every day.
When she said the part about being called big when you're small as the oldest sibling...that hit. I've had to be the "mature" sister, friend, & partner my whole life.
For me 1:27:40 is so difficult, when you lose a parent theres that bond that cant be explained that just ends, but it doesn't really end, you still feel the same way for them until your own death, its hard living after losing but somehow you still feel that love, and always will.
Dawg I’m trying hard not to think about taking my own life after my moms loss. Shits so fucking hard bro…
@@Error-vy9iwlive for her
@@Error-vy9iwI’m really sorry for your loss.
I’ve never seen the show, I’ve never listened to this episode. I know the scene from the episode where they die and are reborn together over and over. And it just makes me weep, I’m not emotionally prepared for this but I want to hear, I want to listen to her and him.
Thank you Duncan and Duncan’s mom! It’s 2024 and I’m still re listening to this beautiful space podcast I love you guys immensely and I can’t wait to re connect with you guys when we are one source after life. one love♥︎♥︎♥︎
me too
I wish my relationship with my mother was anywhere close to this.
I hope i can have this with my future kids
Had it with my Grandma. Rip. Wish/ hoping someday me and my mom can be somewhere close
Yea I hear you, it is certainly not the norm
Duncan's mother's voice is soothing and Angelic
Duncan's mom is what the World needs more of in so many ways
That guided meditation bit for future reference: 54:25
Thank you, friend.
I know it was probably so hard for him but it helped so many of us normalize the conversation around death. This episode helped me realize I wanted to be a death doula. And it helped me cope with my own grief.
You definitely won the mum lotto. I remember watching this episode on Netflix last year. Made me sob and I'm a grown man. When I first was introduced to Trussel years ago on JRE, I'm ashamed to say I was irrationally irritated by the pitch of his voice. It's pathetic but I only mention it because from about 1hr in he became one of my fav online personalities. I love your energy and this pod!
Quite a few interesting people have strange voices. McKenna for one.
@@spiritlevelstudios- V.true, my point was though that my initial reaction was based on my preconceived notions of what a serious individual sounded like, and the sheer breadth of wisdom Trussel has on so many areas completely disillusioned me of that idea. It's a small thing really, but one that's stayed with me.
thank you for sharing your story. this is all of us with some little thing.
This is so beautiful to hear his mother talk to him with so much love.
My friend is dying, and even though some of it is from her perspective, it is really helping me try to come to peace, because I say goodbye tomorrow.
Listen to part 2 also. Peace and strength to you ☮️💪🏻☯️💙
I hope you’re okay
Thank you for doing this. This is exactly what I was looking for after I saw the last episode of midnight gospel. It sounds great. You gotta do part 2 man!
You're most welcome, glad to hear that. Thanks for the encouragement : )
Just finished Part 2: th-cam.com/video/DwWQKvOauPU/w-d-xo.html
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Love it man, good to hear the whole audio between him and his mom and what really matters in this world👍
I have cried more times than i will ever admit to your last episode on Netflix,I'm already emotional just started this,such a beautiful soul no wonder your so amazing man 😭❤
Man I just recently lost my mom suddenly and horribly, I’m only 16 but I do remember watching this awhile ago and telling her about it, I wasn’t ready and it was unexpected, hoping this can ground me in ways.
@@Goreified patience and strength to you 🫂
There's a part 2 on this channel, and an unofficial part 3, if you just search for East Forest & Duncan Trussell, which completes the circle.
Many blessings. May you find ways to stay connected with your mother's essence and so find peace within your self 🙏🏻
I lost my mother in 2021 and my grandma is not doing very well, I have been listening to this to help with the unfathomable amount of grief trying to exist in my puny human body.
Losing your mom is every mans worst nightmare. I’m glad Duncan found resolve in this conversation through his mother’s wisdom 😌😌😌
Just finished watching midnight gospel and damn was that an emotional ride. Had to call my mom after this one. Loved this episode. The shrooms def upped the experience. Tears and laughs the whole way. Thank you for this seriously
Most welcome bud, enjoy part 2
The first podcast I ever listened to was Joe Rogan featuring Duncan Trussel. He's truly a beautiful person on the inside and his outlook has touched my life. The most beautiful thing I've ever listened to. Thank you for posting this it's truly enlightening.
“I can feel this feeling like a nail in my hand - I’m Jesus! Nah I’m kidding” that’s hilarious
Crying , pretending this is my mother who’s currently also dying 😢
I definitely needed to hear this because pretending nothing happening is soul crushing .
52:00 to practice presence. It brings tears to my eyes. I dont want to stop practicing this now. Even if it hurts.
Thank you for introducing us to such an amazing person duncan
I lost my mother to cancer Xmas eve 2019. My heart is breaking and I was brought here by intuition. This is exactly the rapport my mum and I had 😢 it's fucking painful and beautiful at once to listen to such transmission of pure love
I don’t know if his heavy breaths are a sign of him trying to hold back his emotions, but he seems to do it more in this podcast than any other. Having lost my mother to the literal same exact thing (metastatic breast cancer), I can imagine as innocent as some of the topics seem, they do bring some strong emotions in his situation.
I lost my mother when I was eight. She was an amazing person, she loved me very much, and was always there to hug me and remember me that I was loved. I miss her so much...
I'm 25 now, and I can't believe it took me so long to get to know this podcast. This is the first time I hear it, and I was needing that so much...
i lost my mom when i was 7, my father was alone having to take care of 7 kids. now im 27 and I am thankful that my father was there to take care of us. i know how you feel. Hugs from spain
@@Xaconfull Thank you, Fernando. My father had to take care of me and all my brothers by himself as well.
Hugs from Brazil.
@@Xaconfull same here i lost mine when i was 13, & my father took care of 6 of us. I'm 28 now it's been a roller coaster. I'm forever grateful for what parents do for us 🙏🏼
Oh my god I love how they talk with each other. He's so lucky to have a mom like that
My grandmother died this week. Our relationship was complicated; she raised me but was not nurturing. Coming back to this after she was buried today has been very healing. Deneen was one hell of a woman, thank you for helping me through this complicated grief.
Listening to Duncan and his mother talk, their tone of voices communicate so much. Duncan has such a vibrant, good energy and vibe in his tone of voice. Makes me really think about how I could be a better man. Duncan’s mom has such a soothing and warm voice. The kind of voice I feel safe with, that I could be open and honest with without being judged. Such a great episode ❤
My great grandma just died. It’s not like we were super close or anything but I still love her and she will be missed. It got me thinking about how nothing lasts forever and how hard that is to find peace with
Imagine if great grandmas lasted forever. 🙂
Being attached to things that change is cause for suffering. It's not the change itself, just our attachment which creates the difficulty.
Letting go requires zero effort, and yet we can struggle so much with it. Children seem to still hold the ability to move on quickly and easily, which is worth considering.
Anyway.
May your great grandma rest in peace 🙏🏻
Listening to this reminds me of having a long talk about a month before my mom passed away from addiction. She was sober (which was very rare) and she shared so much wisdom and almost gave me closure before she had even passed. My advice to people who still have their parents is to just sit down and talk from the heart, because you never know what could happen.
My mom was diagnosed with brain cancer in February and is down to her last few days of life. She is comfortable, in a peaceful place with good care, and surrounded by people who love her.
But I want to thank Duncan and Deneen for giving us this remarkable, yet personal interpretation on the cycle of life and death. Their connection and knowledge of the human consciousness make this conversation feel so real and heavy, but also so essential. Also, their willingness to both express and acknowledge their own experiences and opinions. Hearing how Deneen, someone who has tried to understand this truth so deeply, is able to peacefully embrace the unknown is so hauntingly beautiful. This helped me come to terms with the fact that death is simply just a part of life that everyone must go through at some point, and it is just part of our transition from our natural state to something more spiritual. But it still doesn’t make it easier…
Duncan you are the most strongest person I have ever, I wish health and love to every loving mother.
I will always love your mom. After rough work nights like tonight...her words are truly the best. Not just work but in general. I truly love her to the moon and back. With my entire heart.
I am a person who has problems when it comes to crying. But since I saw the eight episode of the midnight gospel now I can cry every time I hear "you cry". This changed me and I'm really grateful to Duncan's mom for showing me that if I allow myself to cry I can make it happen.
That long silence make me Cry 😢😢 every i listen this episode 😭
1:16:37 Literally, I'm crying since yesterday
I keep coming back to this ..such a moment they had together .. can't express into words ..but it's touched me between a mother and son and death .. thank you 🙏
I don't think I've heard this in a long time, since he first released the episode. I watched the Midnight Gospel episode since my dad passed but this came at the right time. Helped me to release a lot of tears. thank you. the love never dies
Her inner growth and physical death connection is what I feel I'm experiencing but I've come to peace with it jus needed this video for clarity
Peace and strength to you : )
I cried liked a fucking baby listening, this was so beautifully spoken its indescribable
Your mom might have the sweetest voice I've ever heard❤🌹
The moment when she says you cry. It hits me so hard in the chest every single time I listen to this episode. The silence afterwards is the hardest silence I’ve ever heard
The midnight gospel episode with this interview makes me cry. Between his mothers beautiful description of the birth life death process and how it applies to how we think and how we love. To the intense artwork that is a moving visual metaphor of what the conversation is about. I can't escape the tears.
I'm so thankful for it.
Listening to Duncan and his mom interact reminds me of my mom and I. I can feel the warmth, calmness and love Deneen has for Duncan and it somehow reminds me of my mom.
Powerful. Everytime I hear it I cry my eyes out.
This conversation may have helped some of us who are more spiritually inclined to seek a good teacher as Duncan's mom says, or the kind of therapist who is as wise as her; wise enough to have shed the skin of "therapist" and rise into the role of teacher. That is why art or media like this is so valuable.
I recommend Ann Shulgin, rest her blessed soul. World class wisdom that was intercepted from human kind at large by the drug war.
Wow his mum what a special soul 💗🦋 beautiful podcast
What a beautiful and heartbreaking gem to stumble upon. His mother's intelligence and personality really highlights some of Duncan's traits we all know and love.
"Embrace the potential" is something everyone needs to hear
This hits my heart strings like no other podcast. Two beautiful souls peace ✌️ and love
U gotta love how she said he was born on 420 barely missing a beat😂 she knows her son and her voice makes my heart feel warm so there’s that too lol r.i.p Deneen
this is such an insane podcast, I came just to listen to the ending but ended up listening to the whole things. What a truly beautiful and intelegent conversation
Thank you for encouraging my son to reach out to me and reconnect with me. It's a beautiful gift 💕
what amazing people....RIP Deneen
I watched my ex's mom die from cancer... not fun but, she said the same thing: "we all gotta die"
@@MrKellyv1 My mum is battling cancer right now. She's in remission but still has at least 6 months of treatment ahead of her. After listening to both podcasts, I called to tell her I love her, and shared the audio with her. Bless her soul, she listened to them and took them to heart. They have taken on a whole new depth, since she was only recently diagnosed.
@@spiritlevelstudios God bless... it's a trying time.
And I wish her the best
@@spiritlevelstudios I pray your mom is doing better xxx
the animation shows how they age together until the eventual death of his mom half way through the episode surrounded by mushrooms (a symbol of decay and rebirth) then duncan gave birth to his own mom as a baby growing up in duncan's arm.
I think this is a metaphor for how our mothers (and/or father) looks after us as child until they no longer act as our caretakers while, us growing older into adulthood, begins to understand the hardship our parents go through for taking care of us. We start to look after our parents and begins to see the child within our parents, their wants, their needs, their sadness and happiness.
Finally duncan's mom transcends into a planet and gets absorbed into a blackhole inside an ouroboros (snake eating itself, a common symbolism for infinity or wholeness). The eventual death of the physical self is inevitable, but the love between generations will continue.
Im gonna go hug my mom now. Thank you duncan, i;ve rewatched this episode so many times.
Thank you Duncan for showing this, for letting us understand.
This is the second complete Duncan's podcast episode that I heard, and I am just fascinating about how they talk of spirituality. Great work.
😂😂😂. Oh God I love this Duncan!!! What a mom ❤️ 😂! This made me start being happy.....I lost my dearest uncle and no one told me he was this sick...because they knew I was very close and people do that...they hide what they think will make you too sad... anyways he was deeply spiritual and did years of meditation....and I am told he said he was seeing a young boy like Mahavatar Babaji many times and asking everyone to let him come in. He was such a gentle saint, that if God had to come to take anyone over personally it will be my fav uncle M......I have always wanted him to come in my dreams and talk to me and he never did. He once appeared in a room which is like a temple , where I stand looking out to the two doors that open into this room . There are stairs coming down either door. and then I see him come in from the right door...walk around me N then I see him walk out of the left door with his younger brother Nd he turns once to clamly look at me. I got worried for that uncle of mine... wondering if his life was in danger so I called mom to check on her brother. He was fine and this vision was years ago, and my fav uncle's younger brother is still around and fine. I keep wondering what that vision ever meant. All I know is I felt sad my favourite uncle did not talk to me and hug me....that it was almost like a stranger quietly passing by. Listening to you and your mummy talk so openly and honestly makes me feel, that it's all ok. My uncle must be fine. In whatever manifestation and realm he now is in. Till I remember him...I will always love him
This is just amazing. It’s the second time I’ve listened to it. Deneen and Duncan are both special gems that have blessed this planet. I’m so grateful to have been able to listen to Duncan’s mum’s wisdom
Just came from the second part of the conversation.
You know, after this podcast I have this... kind of "undescribable" feeling, you know, but the best I can describe it is a sort of "freedom", inside me. For some stuff that I wasn't able to tell myself. What I especially loved was the "presence" part, where listening, feeling, and seeing are included.
I don't know what to say. Just glad I got to meet such beautiful people. Miss Deneen has such freeing methods.
I was listening to the part about her twitter. I thought damn, I should go follow her. Then I realized I couldn't. God speed, Deneen.
It's just make me wanna go and hug my mama . May duncan's mother rest in peace such a beautiful wise soul . loved her without even knowing her that much, imagine if we did know her
i thought she was still alive i feel so sad
Wooow this is the first high vibration podcast ever!
Thank you for sharing this very special, profound and beautiful conversation with the world.
Such a powerful teacher.
Adoro la voz de esta mujer seguro fue un gran ser humano :")
This hit me hard
thank you for posting this. my first time looking into and hearing this voice. i just heard of the show midnight gospel last night.... my father is on his death bed. and im a bad son.... or song. i have a body of work in music that means more to me than my life now. and im so sorry for that. not being the son my or brother or a guy this society wants. im really low but this audio is having me listen and relate like how i want my music to tanslate. thank you
Ngl it hit differently when he said but what do you do and she said "you cry"
And i did.
peak breakthrough, thank you so much for helping me threw my journey.
I came across a short of the show and I decided to actually watch the episode itself.
That meant a lot. Duncan’s mom spent a half hour saying everything I keep inside.
I felt as if I were the only one who actually looked at the universe that way.
It was very beautiful.
I needed that.
This is the way...😭💗🧠 I'm so grateful for this podcast.
ur mom is such a beautiful soul and energy i’m so thankful ur here
Just what I needed honestly the universe really has beautiful way of giving me gifts that I so desperately needed. I truly needed this thank you.
The midnight gospel has helped me through a lot since June 10 I want into a depressive state and I think my mind was death death like never before I questioned everything my existence and I didn’t eat for six days until one of my good friends he told me to watch the midnight Gospel that fixed a lot of things. I’m not afraid of death anymore,. I’m just afraid of losing myself not remembering. I do wanna be enlightened meditate but I’m afraid of what everybody else is afraid of not being them anymore. what if I lose interest in things I like what I’m not me anymore, but I’ll say the midnight gospel is a great for everybody season two though I need it
It’s a joy to hear ya Duncan. It’s a joy to hear your mom too….ugly crying right now love u both
1:28:40 - sorry folks, future me would edit this commercial break trash music out in a heartbeat, but past me wanted to preserve as much originality as possible.
The juxtaposition of emotion is very jarring, but it is for whatever reason, the way Duncan intended it to be. There is no actual commercial or advertisment during the break, just a stupid silly song which ironically runs it's own separate ads on the video.
Peace and strength to you all, glad to see part 1 is nearly up to 100k views. 🙂💙☯️🙏🏻🏵️☮️
Original is good
What a wonderful mother and son
I lost my mother too suicide a while back and i dont think I really ever got over it. I wish our last conversation was more like this and less. Shouting and arguing. Even though she wasn't the world's best person. She was my mother, and it still hurts to this day that our last conversation ended on bad terms.
Revise your conversation on good terms in imagination when you visit her grave / ashes site.
See her as you wished that she was in your mind.
Wish I could listen to this the proper engrossing way without the 50 ad breaks you put in
Thank you Duncan's mom