A fantastic segment. Very well written ... Very well read. Doug, you are an integral part of my continued being and I cannot thank you enough for all you do. Happy New Year kind Sir.
The part that blew my mind in this episode is "You have to fall apart to be put back together" I wish you a safe and healthy new year Douglas, and thank you so much for yet another wonderful video that I love to just sit back and listen to, I save these to a new folder here on TH-cam so I can listen to them later, this is wonderful to me to know that I am not alone in my fight. Bless your heart, and I'm so glad I found your channel 🥰👍🙏
@@DouglasBloch No, I don't have the printed copy, I've thought about buying it, but, honestly, I like the narrator you found to read your book to us. I have it on my "wish list" though on Amazon 😎🥰
This year (2020) I have experienced the loss of every friendship I had been relying on for companionship, reprieve from my toxic household, and connection. My best friend of 10+ years ended our friendship in October over a fight about making plans that I had nothing to do with. This drama happened so many times this year that I no longer feel like I am able to fix the relationship. My other two girl friends ghosted me after I followed one of their boyfriends on instagram (and they attacked me for it and cut me off). My only guy friend (my coworker) blocked me on all social media accounts on my 21st birthday, which was very painful for me. I had recently rejected him romantically but I had invested years into our friendship. I think he chose to cut me off on my birthday to hurt me on purpose, and that felt even worse because I would never do anything like that to him. A guy I was seeing told me "I can't make you happy I would only hurt you" after going on dates for a few months. And lastly, a girl I had met through work a few years back with whom I used to hangout with weekly slowly faded me this fall, until I never heard from her again. Clearly, the common denominator is me, and I desperately want to find out what I am doing wrong and where I've gone wrong. I know my depression has impacted a lot, but I've made concerted efforts not to burden my friendships with my depression and always focused on being in a positive mindset around others. Additionally, my parents separated when I was 9. The divorce wasn't finalized until I was 14. I am the oldest of 3 children. As a result, I saw a lot of things that my younger sisters did not, and I was placed in the unique position of surrogate mother / housewife in the absence of our real mother. This caused a shattering effect on my psyche I am still trying to piece together today. My dad never remarried, never dated, and he emotionally shut down. He is a doctor. My mother is emotionally unavailable and bounces in and out of my life. Now at 21, I have had the ability to reflect on my childhood and see that my mother was not the only monster in my childhood. Both of my parents were emotionally unavailable, although my mom was an overt narcissistic type with her own trauma, my father was passive and allowed my emotionally abusive mother to step all over his children. As the oldest child, I have had to bear each parent pitting one against the other, weaponizing information, and triangulation. I have learned stand up for my boundaries but I am now the black sheep of the family. I am the outcast, the family reject, the one who doesn’t fit in. I am uncomfortable in my own home and I cannot breathe in my father’s house. As a college student, I was not supported by my father in my college aspirations and am currently living at home paying for school by myself. I hold resentment for both parents. I raised myself. I thought I was turning a new leaf connection wise this year, but I have lost everyone I ever cared about outside of my family. I am truly at a loss of how to make new friends / connections now that I have been rejected so many times. I feel like a shell of myself in the wake of these losses, and on top of more losses I have had to recover from within the past 2 years (ex boyfriend, career ending sports injuries and surgery, realizing I have never had an emotionally available mother, severe depression and anhedonia since childhood, etc). I don't know what to do or where to go I am a college student trapped in a toxic house and my classes next semester are all online again. I feel like I have nothing going for me. I can't see the way out. I have no support. I have been in hell for as long as I can remember even as a child I was severely anhedonic depressed and crying myself to sleep
Thank you for sharing your pain. You do have a lot that has gone wrong. And the other hand you are only 21 (I am 71) and you have lots of time to experience healing in your life. The first step would be to find a really good therapist or counselor who can be an advocate and who could validate and support you and your pain.
C C you have basically wrote my entire life so far, except I cannot work and I had to accept my parents projects for university. As result, I enrolled in a university I had no intention to attend, studying things I hate and inevitably failing semesters and semesters of exams, which exacerbates the abuse I was already enduring previously. Sometimes I pray some angel come and take my soul, because Idk if I cant do this anymore.
I'm having depression and anxiety attacks for about a year now, and from 6 months I started smoking cigarettes and I can't stop because if I didn't smoke my anxiety and depression increases a lot till I can't breathe and my body shakes, I went to a psychiatrist but this didn't help much, only gave me some coping techniques and awareness and talking therapy..... That's it but I'm not getting better + do you recommend me to start taking medications???
That is something you should talk about with your psychiatrist. If you give me your email address I can send you a slideshow I did on overcoming anxiety
Douglas,im suffering much,finding so helpless,praying every second for death,i need an angel like u to save,otherwise...o God..no one is around... 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭plzzz... contact..
What part of the world do you live in? If you let me know, I can perhaps connect you with some resources in your area. You can also call Silent Unity at 1-81-6-969-2000 to get instant prayer support
@@DouglasBloch . Plzzzz,,,ask someone to meet,take me away,m Living in Islamabad,pakistan, plz ask someone to meet me,i m alone in very severe condition, need someone to take me along..
@@DouglasBloch . Sounds strange to request u again,If u take special interest in taking me at ur place then i cud recover. Otherwise,My death day will be the happiest day😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭, Waiting for sm1 but Without anyone true support,im drowing v deep,you r in an advanced,established country where u had facilities to recover,otherwise,life is hell,
@@DouglasBloch . Sounds strange to request u again,If u take special interest in taking me at ur place then i cud recover. Otherwise,My death day will be the happiest day😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭, Waiting for sm1 but Without anyone true support,im drowing v deep,you r in an advanced,established country where u had facilities to recover,otherwise,life is hell,
Healthy body healthy mind remember everyone eat well. Low fat and low sugar foods, eat brown bread instead of white bread, lactose free milk instead of full fat, fruit and vegetables etc.
@@DTvidsx20 No but beef did cure my psoriasis and bring my blood sugar down and I'm no longer a type 2 diabetic. My energy level is up and I feel 10 years younger. Their are many ways to heal. Consider the Eskimos and cattlemen of Africa. The ancients knew and the healthiest people on Earth know beef heals. Check out Joe Rogan and CARNIVORE. You'll discover and know it soon. Thx
Will u please guide???When u r totally alone ,& become totally dependent then only miracles can recover u,in a european country,they inject such serious cases with a medicine to get rid of such horrible life,.... otherwise u remain in hell every second ,the most horrible mental state...
@@DouglasBloch . My condition is geting worse. God knows that if i l b with,i ll recover, I beg/request u please take me away at ur place. It,s not difficult for u,i need u,help me😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
@@DouglasBloch . Need ur personal support,God knows how im suffering, I keep on standing at 1 place,cant decide anything,try to please contact me,im v helpless,i will b recovered if u take me away,plzzzz😭😭😭😭😭😭😭,,, help
A fantastic segment. Very well written ... Very well read.
Doug, you are an integral part of my continued being and I cannot thank you enough for all you do.
Happy New Year kind Sir.
You’re more than welcome. I’m glad you’re enjoying the book
I appreciate your honesty Douglas. I am excited to hear how you started recovering💕
Thank you.
The part that blew my mind in this episode is "You have to fall apart to be put back together"
I wish you a safe and healthy new year Douglas, and thank you so much for yet another wonderful video that I love to just sit back and listen to, I save these to a new folder here on TH-cam so I can listen to them later, this is wonderful to me to know that I am not alone in my fight. Bless your heart, and I'm so glad I found your channel 🥰👍🙏
Thanks Chris. That’s very kind of you. Do you have the print book of when going through hell don’t stop?
@@DouglasBloch No, I don't have the printed copy, I've thought about buying it, but, honestly, I like the narrator you found to read your book to us. I have it on my "wish list" though on Amazon 😎🥰
This year (2020) I have experienced the loss of every friendship I had been relying on for companionship, reprieve from my toxic household, and connection. My best friend of 10+ years ended our friendship in October over a fight about making plans that I had nothing to do with. This drama happened so many times this year that I no longer feel like I am able to fix the relationship. My other two girl friends ghosted me after I followed one of their boyfriends on instagram (and they attacked me for it and cut me off). My only guy friend (my coworker) blocked me on all social media accounts on my 21st birthday, which was very painful for me. I had recently rejected him romantically but I had invested years into our friendship. I think he chose to cut me off on my birthday to hurt me on purpose, and that felt even worse because I would never do anything like that to him. A guy I was seeing told me "I can't make you happy I would only hurt you" after going on dates for a few months. And lastly, a girl I had met through work a few years back with whom I used to hangout with weekly slowly faded me this fall, until I never heard from her again. Clearly, the common denominator is me, and I desperately want to find out what I am doing wrong and where I've gone wrong. I know my depression has impacted a lot, but I've made concerted efforts not to burden my friendships with my depression and always focused on being in a positive mindset around others.
Additionally, my parents separated when I was 9. The divorce wasn't finalized until I was 14. I am the oldest of 3 children. As a result, I saw a lot of things that my younger sisters did not, and I was placed in the unique position of surrogate mother / housewife in the absence of our real mother. This caused a shattering effect on my psyche I am still trying to piece together today. My dad never remarried, never dated, and he emotionally shut down. He is a doctor. My mother is emotionally unavailable and bounces in and out of my life. Now at 21, I have had the ability to reflect on my childhood and see that my mother was not the only monster in my childhood. Both of my parents were emotionally unavailable, although my mom was an overt narcissistic type with her own trauma, my father was passive and allowed my emotionally abusive mother to step all over his children. As the oldest child, I have had to bear each parent pitting one against the other, weaponizing information, and triangulation. I have learned stand up for my boundaries but I am now the black sheep of the family. I am the outcast, the family reject, the one who doesn’t fit in. I am uncomfortable in my own home and I cannot breathe in my father’s house. As a college student, I was not supported by my father in my college aspirations and am currently living at home paying for school by myself. I hold resentment for both parents. I raised myself.
I thought I was turning a new leaf connection wise this year, but I have lost everyone I ever cared about outside of my family. I am truly at a loss of how to make new friends / connections now that I have been rejected so many times. I feel like a shell of myself in the wake of these losses, and on top of more losses I have had to recover from within the past 2 years (ex boyfriend, career ending sports injuries and surgery, realizing I have never had an emotionally available mother, severe depression and anhedonia since childhood, etc).
I don't know what to do or where to go I am a college student trapped in a toxic house and my classes next semester are all online again. I feel like I have nothing going for me. I can't see the way out. I have no support. I have been in hell for as long as I can remember even as a child I was severely anhedonic depressed and crying myself to sleep
Thank you for sharing your pain. You do have a lot that has gone wrong. And the other hand you are only 21 (I am 71) and you have lots of time to experience healing in your life. The first step would be to find a really good therapist or counselor who can be an advocate and who could validate and support you and your pain.
C C you have basically wrote my entire life so far, except I cannot work and I had to accept my parents projects for university. As result, I enrolled in a university I had no intention to attend, studying things I hate and inevitably failing semesters and semesters of exams, which exacerbates the abuse I was already enduring previously. Sometimes I pray some angel come and take my soul, because Idk if I cant do this anymore.
Thank you and a Happy and Healthy 2021
Happy New Year to you Douglas 💚 and to all your followers - healed mind health to us all
Happy new year Mr. Douglas🎉thank you for all your efforts
You are welcome
Excellent thank you Doug
Glad you enjoyed it
Im going to download and listen while hiking a trail in the coastal mtn range. Currently in banks. Oregon. Matter of factly thanks!.
Do you live in Banks? I’m just down the road in Portland
@@DouglasBloch no, just visiting relatives for the holidays. Then off to kansas for a bit. Hope you've had a good Christmas and new years
Be well thank you 2021
Thanks
Cool haircut 💈
I'm having depression and anxiety attacks for about a year now, and from 6 months I started smoking cigarettes and I can't stop because if I didn't smoke my anxiety and depression increases a lot till I can't breathe and my body shakes, I went to a psychiatrist but this didn't help much, only gave me some coping techniques and awareness and talking therapy..... That's it but I'm not getting better + do you recommend me to start taking medications???
That is something you should talk about with your psychiatrist. If you give me your email address I can send you a slideshow I did on overcoming anxiety
Where r u???
@@malikzafar7232 me?
@@Krispy4real yes. .tell me,which city
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@@malikzafar7232 Abudhabi
Douglas,im suffering much,finding so helpless,praying every second for death,i need an angel like u to save,otherwise...o God..no one is around... 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭plzzz... contact..
What part of the world do you live in? If you let me know, I can perhaps connect you with some resources in your area. You can also call Silent Unity at 1-81-6-969-2000 to get instant prayer support
@@DouglasBloch . Plzzzz,,,ask someone to meet,take me away,m Living in Islamabad,pakistan, plz ask someone to meet me,i m alone in very severe condition, need someone to take me along..
@@DouglasBloch . Sounds strange to request u again,If u take special interest in taking me at ur place then i cud recover. Otherwise,My death day will be the happiest day😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭, Waiting for sm1 but Without anyone true support,im drowing v deep,you r in an advanced,established country where u had facilities to recover,otherwise,life is hell,
@@DouglasBloch . Sounds strange to request u again,If u take special interest in taking me at ur place then i cud recover. Otherwise,My death day will be the happiest day😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭, Waiting for sm1 but Without anyone true support,im drowing v deep,you r in an advanced,established country where u had facilities to recover,otherwise,life is hell,
Healthy body healthy mind remember everyone eat well. Low fat and low sugar foods, eat brown bread instead of white bread, lactose free milk instead of full fat, fruit and vegetables etc.
Eat beef alone for a week and be healed.
Be careful spreading this type of information. You apparently haven’t researched any of Chris Palmers work who is a Harvard Psychologist.
@@DTvidsx20 No but beef did cure my psoriasis and bring my blood sugar down and I'm no longer a type 2 diabetic. My energy level is up and I feel 10 years younger. Their are many ways to heal. Consider the Eskimos and cattlemen of Africa. The ancients knew and the healthiest people on Earth know beef heals. Check out Joe Rogan and CARNIVORE.
You'll discover and know it soon. Thx
I invite you all to share how Keto or CARNIVORE cured your body and mind. Help other to discover healing through beef.
@@Exodus26.13Pi Yes carnivore can certainly heal psychiatric illnesses in certain people.
Will u please guide???When u r totally alone ,& become totally dependent then only miracles can recover u,in a european country,they inject such serious cases with a medicine to get rid of such horrible life,.... otherwise u remain in hell every second ,the most horrible mental state...
Where do you live? Are there people around you can talk to. You have any access to counseling from a counselor therapist
@@DouglasBloch . My condition is geting worse. God knows that if i l b with,i ll recover, I beg/request u please take me away at ur place. It,s not difficult for u,i need u,help me😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
@@DouglasBloch . Need ur personal support,God knows how im suffering, I keep on standing at 1 place,cant decide anything,try to please contact me,im v helpless,i will b recovered if u take me away,plzzzz😭😭😭😭😭😭😭,,, help