Michael Jackson Memorial Ending

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  • @gabehills2578
    @gabehills2578 8 ปีที่แล้ว +193

    Perhaps the saddest Moment in Music history

    • @johnbreighner5852
      @johnbreighner5852 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      I feel you. R. I. P. Michael Jackson (A. K. A. The King Of Pop) (1958-2009)

    • @moonwalkerjackson_1572
      @moonwalkerjackson_1572 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      I feel the same way I will forever miss you

    • @JoshuaJarvis-c1f
      @JoshuaJarvis-c1f 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      ​@@johnbreighner5852love you kind God bless love you too beautiful 😅😊😊😊😅😅😅😊😅😅😊🎉🎉❤❤❤😅😅😅❤🎉🎉🎉🎉❤😅😂 10 times 18 20 19 10 18 10 123 10 miss you love you too beautiful 😅😅

    • @JoshuaJarvis-c1f
      @JoshuaJarvis-c1f 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      ​@@johnbreighner5852 love you

    • @JoshuaJarvis-c1f
      @JoshuaJarvis-c1f 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Michael Jackson ABC 123

  • @neonprince3548
    @neonprince3548 11 ปีที่แล้ว +159

    never had goosebumps like when i saw this touching video... the microphone is there with the light shining down, but no MJ.. its like the band is just waiting for him to come on stage... rest in peace

    • @jowansamuel4115
      @jowansamuel4115 7 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Walking Wind true

    • @potatospeed
      @potatospeed 5 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Neonprince
      I was waiting for this song in the whole memorial. When the prelude coming but no vocal i cried.
      Then the stage no MJ that so broke my heart.
      The stage was belong to MJ forever...

    • @tashante
      @tashante 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I too!! But I think they should also include his trademark fedora hat on the top of the microphone stand. That would be teardropping!! 😢🎤

  • @Aureren
    @Aureren 11 ปีที่แล้ว +44

    That image of the microphone stand in the end is so powerful. Gives me goosebumps.

  • @eringryffin
    @eringryffin 15 ปีที่แล้ว +51

    For some reason this is the worst part for me too. The mic all alone is just heartbreaking, but just hearing the first chords of Man in The Mirror while his brothers move the coffin...oh my god.

  • @Dank951
    @Dank951 14 ปีที่แล้ว +24

    I was in college class the other night and it was silent for about ten seconds, and then this song came on the radio. I put my book over my head and my sunglasses on because i started crying. Make that change people, let's contribute to Michaels plan...Making the world a better place

  • @Caitlyn_90
    @Caitlyn_90 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    The fact that they played man in the mirror instrumental is heartbreaking in itself. You're expecting to here his beautiful voice, but hes gone. Youre expecting him to walk out into the spotlight, and occupy that mic, but hes gone. The world misses you so much Michael.

  • @Dank951
    @Dank951 15 ปีที่แล้ว +22

    That little girl crying, was so sad, she just stood there, here eyes fixed on the monitor, THAT WAS TRULY one of MJ'S FANS! No crying for attention. Love you michael!

  • @Hero87
    @Hero87 12 ปีที่แล้ว +30

    I kept expecting MJ to walk towards the microphone and start singing. But it remained instrumental and the spotlight just shone on an empty space at the microphone. Very moving!!!

  • @ohninegurl
    @ohninegurl 15 ปีที่แล้ว +29

    Definately the hardest part... I was just waiting to hear "Im gonna make a change, for once in my life.." ...and when he wasn't there to sing it..it just really hit me I broke down.. I miss you michael! :( r.i.p

  • @xtinalin7915
    @xtinalin7915 11 ปีที่แล้ว +49

    Born to amuse...
    To inspire...
    To delight...
    Here one day...
    Gone one night...
    Like a dying sun...
    By the rising moon...
    Gone to soon.
    I love you Michael.

    • @diannemoriarty1549
      @diannemoriarty1549 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      I am the resurrection and the life thus sayth the Lord, whosoever believes in me shall ever die, and whosoever believes in me shall never die, but have everlasting life.

    • @annieray5747
      @annieray5747 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Plzzz stop making me crying 😭😭😭

  • @LILLEXYBOO
    @LILLEXYBOO 14 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    This was the most heartbreaking moment of his death. That empty spotlight and microphone was confirmation that the King Of Pop is gone. This is when it really hit me that he was the best and nobody could ever touch him. This was the day my heart shattered.
    "And when the groove is dead and gone. You know that L.O.V.E survives. So we can rock forever"
    -Michael Jackson 1958-[Forever Rockin]

  • @ganrella7908
    @ganrella7908 14 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    I will NEVER, EVER, EVER forget this moment... I was in tears for the whole duration of the memorial, but I could barely breathe from the point Paris started to speak... and then hearing Man In The Mirror was something almost ripped my heart in two pieces. This was the last time, anyone out of the Jackson family would be in the same room as Michael
    I miss you, Michael.

  • @Mickey200916
    @Mickey200916 11 ปีที่แล้ว +27

    Still to this day I cannot believe he is gone...will love MJ till the day I die. Missing you always and forever MJ.

  • @whitneywilliams1836
    @whitneywilliams1836 5 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    I can't watch this without crying like a baby. It feels like someone from you're family died... Agree? 😢

  • @dianariverjackson5123
    @dianariverjackson5123 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    After so many years this still breaks my heart

  • @HomeworkEntertainment
    @HomeworkEntertainment 15 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    The single most touching moment in TV history... An empty stage, mic and spotlight ready... but sadly no more Michael to shine. RIP MJ...

  • @4LYFENENE
    @4LYFENENE 14 ปีที่แล้ว +34

    omg the empty stage and mic cryin like crazy

    • @kathymoriarty1441
      @kathymoriarty1441 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I had to go through over a dozen tissues, 11 Years ago today since Michael Jackson's Passing, when I heard on the news that he had been taking to the hospital, i got down on my knees, and started praying for him with all of my might, i was in a quiet bedroom, and had the door closed, until after i was done praying, i found out that he had died.

  • @dildoentilmor
    @dildoentilmor 13 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    It's so emotionaly to see the microphone and the spotlight there all by it's self, its like im just waiting to see michael there.

  • @rodeostruerager
    @rodeostruerager 7 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    Michael I Love You So Much, My King ! We miss you Michael, I know you're in a better place right now.

  • @alicedelgado955
    @alicedelgado955 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    i was half-expecting them to sing one last time. "we thank you for the joy you have given us. we thank you"

  • @Coolgurl098
    @Coolgurl098 11 ปีที่แล้ว +48

    As soon as they carried him out, I thought his body will never be above ground he won't be here, I instantly bursts out crying

    • @kayeforbes4089
      @kayeforbes4089 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Michelin/0pppljjhx. Hey everyone uses it

    • @theraiden1018
      @theraiden1018 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      He’s in a mausoleum. He’s above ground on an elevated floor if that makes you happy

  • @abelmantor7557
    @abelmantor7557 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    Still crying to this day.

  • @sccall1024
    @sccall1024 6 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    It’s been years and this still makes me tear up. That spotlight on the mic and that music smh

    • @yazzy03
      @yazzy03 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      sccall1024 and even though he’s gone , i still see him there

  • @jrcanimation
    @jrcanimation 8 ปีที่แล้ว +34

    7 years without my King!!!! There's no one day that I let to think about you Mike!!! I love you....FOREVER!!!

  • @gabby-et6ui
    @gabby-et6ui 6 ปีที่แล้ว +39

    This is so sad when they put the light down but MJ isn't there

    • @potatospeed
      @potatospeed 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      gabby the saddest part.

  • @devilslax7
    @devilslax7 14 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    still brings tears to my eyes...the way they did this memorial was amazing!

  • @showstopper98
    @showstopper98 15 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Yeah this is when you realize that he's really gone. The spotlight on the microphone and him not standing there. MJ lived on stage and we'll never see him there again. Man in the mirror.....It's so hard to watch is videos and then after they're done you just sit there an think he's not here anymore. He's not here....

  • @Samoriking
    @Samoriking 5 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    2009 was the most highlighted of my life smh

  • @rayraygunner
    @rayraygunner 15 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    Throughout the whole memorial service I didn't have a single tear in my eye until this part where they were taking his casket away to my favourite song of Michael's, but without his voice =(... Oh crap, im tearing up as I'm typing this...
    RIP

  • @hedi01
    @hedi01 8 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    we miss michael we really do
    allah bless you

  • @liamholton8937
    @liamholton8937 4 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    The way they played "Man In The Mirror" you'd imagine the song was crying. Such a sad version of the song :(

    • @annieray5747
      @annieray5747 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I've never heard Man in the mirror like this that too without Michael😭😭😭

  • @blackbeauty8006
    @blackbeauty8006 4 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Why am I still crying in 2020😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

  • @MmM_0105
    @MmM_0105 11 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Even after all these years, it's so hard to believe that he's gone. I was still young back when he passed that I didn't pay attention to any of this. Three years later, I realized how great of a man he was. When they carried his casket out, it hit me that he was really gone. He was never coming back to that spotlight. I hate saying that I'll never be able to see him, hear his voice, or see him dance again. He became my inspiration and my hero. RIP MJ. Forever the King of Pop in my heart

  • @THACK14
    @THACK14 11 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    Michael nearly 4 years later you are still missed by millions, they say time heals all wounds but in reality I will never get over your death just learn to live with it. I will miss you dearly until The Lord calls me home

  • @alishawilliams9370
    @alishawilliams9370 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    2009 was meant to be the end of a decade but instead it turned out to be the end of Michael Jackson’s life😢

    • @anime_weeb436
      @anime_weeb436 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      That Summer of 2009 was hard for all us Michael Jackson fans especially returning to school from our Summer Vacation.

  • @birtneyspearschristmas.sum8825
    @birtneyspearschristmas.sum8825 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    You’re Michael for being my best friend I will miss you forever since you came to this world I still 🎧 to you a lot

  • @jLoPe23335
    @jLoPe23335 6 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    RIP Michael Jackson, and RIP Joe Jackson too 👼.

  • @monaewmw
    @monaewmw 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I’m still hurt from this Rest In Peace Michael

  • @ilUvmEh
    @ilUvmEh 15 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    While watching this part, I was sooo ready for Michael's foot to step in the spotlight getting ready to do Billie Jean =(
    I still can't believe he's gone.!
    Atleast he's in a better place.
    Rest well and in peace Michael Jackson!!

  • @anime_weeb436
    @anime_weeb436 10 ปีที่แล้ว +25

    This brought me tears :'(
    I miss you so much Michael. I love you forever and ever

    • @hi-ml3rh
      @hi-ml3rh 7 ปีที่แล้ว

      Kill_ ZONE347 ikr! 😭😭

  • @arlenedower9410
    @arlenedower9410 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    It was only in death that people saw him as human. Thank you for my happy childhood through your music🎶❤️😭

  • @WeLoveYouMJ4ever
    @WeLoveYouMJ4ever 15 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I cry everyday, still.
    Michael can never be replaced. There will never be another one like him. I will miss him until the end of time.

  • @devilscry
    @devilscry 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    8 years later and this still fucking hurts.
    Gone before your time.
    RIP MJ

  • @LucasTeschOfficial
    @LucasTeschOfficial 6 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    RIP Michael Jackson!! :'( #foreverking

  • @Mickey200916
    @Mickey200916 13 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Happy New Year in heaven Michael. I still cry watching this and it is two and a half years after his death. It still pulls my heartstrings. Will always love you. Always be a fan 4life.

  • @ChavaunYoung
    @ChavaunYoung 11 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    i cant believe its almost been 4 yrs since michael passing it seem like he's nvr been gon i guess thats how it feel to leave an enormous legacy behing, Michael u were our inspiration and Role model ubtaught us so much in the years you've been on this earth, u r truly the only will ever be known.as the King of Pop, Rest well Michael we love you

    • @artisticallyjay1806
      @artisticallyjay1806 7 ปีที่แล้ว

      Chavaun Young since it's 2017, it's going to be 8 years now 😭😭😭

  • @gailt1956
    @gailt1956 13 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Taking a moment to remember the genius that was Michael Jackson as he lived, while a lot of folks are focusing on the way he died. He is missed..

  • @tarnishak99
    @tarnishak99 15 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    this is the part that really makes me cry.. Rest EAsy MJ! LOVE YOU!!!

  • @CameronHotspurs
    @CameronHotspurs 13 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    It's a massive shame it took 13 years and his death to clear his name forever. R.I.P Michael - King of Pop, Legend and Master of Music. You will live forever.

  • @Imkicelee
    @Imkicelee 5 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    No one can take place his place on that spotlight.....

    • @ispvencer954
      @ispvencer954 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      ImKiceLee and no one will ever 💔

  • @FlawedCoil82
    @FlawedCoil82 6 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    After getting into hard rock and metal music in the mid to late 90s (and still loving it to this day), I drifted away from Michael Jackson (although still love many of his songs like "Give In To Me", "Dirty Diana", "Human Nature", etc.). Yet, when he died, I knew that I was witnessing the death of great original music as well. But I remember watching this full memorial on TV and I don't think it really hit me until the haunting intro to "Man In The Mirror" started playing at the very end. It was the first time since I heard of his death that tears ran down my face. It was such a heartbreaking reality to realize at that exact moment that we will never again see another musician and entertainer like him and to also regretfully remember just how poorly people treated him in his later years.

  • @bRebRe812
    @bRebRe812 15 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    This was the hardest part for me because at this moment i realized that the he was gone. The mic stand witht he light casted down on it was heartbreaking.

  • @Lauren-xj1ye
    @Lauren-xj1ye 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    10 years without u Michael I miss you wish we could have ran around Neverland just one last time

  • @sydneyjackson3347
    @sydneyjackson3347 11 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    I am still crazy about him when he still gone its been 4 years he is still gone I never stop crying and still i am not ready to say goodbye to him :"(

  • @beacute11
    @beacute11 14 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    goosebumps!!!! R.I.P. MJ!!!

  • @terrichastain8434
    @terrichastain8434 7 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I so don't want him to be gone. I have watched the funeral video several times throughout these past 8+ years and I sob everytime. Why did he have to go...it just isn't right. I miss him and will always love him.

  • @Dyana4
    @Dyana4 15 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    this.... 1:30 - 2:20 .. this really hurts.
    the stage is so empty. and i guess its because michael belongs to the stage.. and the stage belongs to michael. things will never be the same out there without him. we miss you so!

  • @raviq11
    @raviq11 15 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I don't cry... but I did, when I saw spotlight and microphone with no Michael... and heard this beutiful song... When people like him die Im less afraid of death, i know they're there, in better world...
    R.I.P MJ

  • @insid3rkill3r
    @insid3rkill3r 15 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Such a beautiful song,,,, the emotion is incridible,,, its really sad..
    Its only when we loose something that we realise how important it was ,,,, this is when we start regretting,,, but sadly its part of us,, this is why we must think before we act,,, before judging and laughing at ppl take a second to think before that, sometimes we dont stop to think what kind of impact our actions could have on other ppl's live, even tho its meaningless to us, it does not mean it will be the same for others

  • @MJ4everTheKing
    @MJ4everTheKing 14 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    How can anybody hate this HUMAN?! watching this made me feel the pain i felt the day he died, it made me remember how much we all love him.... LETS MAKE THAT CHANGE!!

  • @litoaz
    @litoaz 15 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Bye bye mr Jackson...
    You are always in our heart!

  • @KK872
    @KK872 15 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    He cared and loved for a world he was way to good for

  • @MiaUcey34
    @MiaUcey34 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    @1:50 I couldn’t hold my tears in when his picture showed💔💔💔💔😢😢😢

  • @ispvencer954
    @ispvencer954 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    10 years later my heart is still breaking,I’m still crying, I know we will never recover from his death .......God there is no day that goes by that I miss this beautiful soul.........ever since he died it feels like there world is so empty without him when he was here it felt complete like nothing was missing ,...but now he’s gone and we can’t do nothing to bring him back . I miss you so so much Michael May u Rest In Peace ❤️💔

  • @moonwalkerjackson_1572
    @moonwalkerjackson_1572 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Michael Jackson is in a better place now it will still hurt that he's gone but we gotta move on and remember the Good things Michael did for the children

  • @sabinehornungfan7371
    @sabinehornungfan7371 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    This is emotional

  • @Loneman1
    @Loneman1 14 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Damn.......every time I see the ending of the memorial just makes me tear up. Such an appropriate choice for the closing of that sad event.

  • @Diniitah
    @Diniitah 15 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    everybody remmember him
    the king of pop forever will be in our hearts
    the king of pop doesn't died he died the day when we let foget him but we never foget him

  • @TheVelvetButterfly
    @TheVelvetButterfly 8 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Farewell king

  • @MEHEDImj18
    @MEHEDImj18 6 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    2018 ? Miss him

  • @Dank951
    @Dank951 15 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Almost 2 months later and it's so saddening to watch. I wasn't a huge fan of michael, but i was somewhat of a fan. A few of his songs always got to me. Man in the mirror caused me to get out of a immature pathetic personality and i'm glad. Thank you michael, most people know by now that your songs had a specific meaning to them. Forever will you live, legends never die.
    Rest atlast.

  • @GOLDENBOYROMANZA2
    @GOLDENBOYROMANZA2 13 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    i cry like a baby!!! when the brothers of michael and michael leave the stage with the song "MAN IN THE MIRROR"

  • @chandzalo
    @chandzalo 14 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    never forget you michael, THE KING OF KINGS :,(

  • @aksileb
    @aksileb 15 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I did the same... it was such a strong moment. And I couldn't say I was a mad fan - I just liked his music. I was OK throught the whole thinng but at this moment I just burst into tears...

  • @HahaLame101
    @HahaLame101 12 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    This is the reason why I haven't listend to man in the mirror for a long time....

  • @grill.daddy_3433
    @grill.daddy_3433 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I miss you Michael. Can't believe you are gone.

  • @ashakur1347
    @ashakur1347 7 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    1:10 i cried at that part

    • @hi-ml3rh
      @hi-ml3rh 7 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Anissa Ouro-Longa me too!! 😭😭😭 it's Soooo sad that he died but at least he's up in heaven with God 🌸 r.i.p. Jackson 🌌

  • @Sarahlovestoby
    @Sarahlovestoby 15 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I lost it when Paris spoke, and again when they were taking him away. That too is my favorite song, and not hearing MJ's voice made it real for the first time. My heart is broken.

  • @maryemx3
    @maryemx3 14 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Crying like crazy . Sad to see that he's not on that mic :T .

  • @victorZGZ97
    @victorZGZ97 11 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Cada vez que veo este momento solo me sale llorar....uno de los dias mas tristes de mi vida, vi como se iva parte de mi vida :(

  • @50centthetruerapgod47
    @50centthetruerapgod47 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I remember the day I was watching MJ’s funeral was when I was living in my foreclosure house and the bank was knocking hard on my door. I was so young and scared. These people work any day , even when the whole world is mourning the kings death.

  • @llthejokerll1
    @llthejokerll1 14 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    le mejor cancion del rey del pop, fuiste el rey del pop, eres el rey del pop y seras el rey del pop por siempre michael jackson RIP

  • @xbox0615
    @xbox0615 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Music is playing, 1 light, 1 microphone, and no singer is up on stage singing to us

  • @enzatamburro4250
    @enzatamburro4250 ปีที่แล้ว

    Beautiful we miss him
    😢😢 👑

  • @Arquive
    @Arquive 15 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    This was a hard part! OMG!!! I downloaded Man in The Mirror instrumental... and it reminds me of this scene. Now... there's nobody to sing this song.

  • @Jorge819449
    @Jorge819449 12 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I can't stop crying. forgive us Michael.

  • @StargatehjRose12
    @StargatehjRose12 12 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I Love You Michael And Miss You So Much. =(....

  • @pcfaulkner
    @pcfaulkner 12 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    i am with you :( heavan has just got back one of its precious angels, such a good soul i love mj.... lets keep his spirit alive

  • @marinagold9749
    @marinagold9749 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Love you forever Michael

  • @stryker1707
    @stryker1707 15 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    i kno man, its so hard, fuck its like I lost a brother, I grew up with him too, during the bad/dangerous era, when his brothers took his casket away, i cried so much i couldn't take it.

  • @GeorgeRoxJazzsSox
    @GeorgeRoxJazzsSox 15 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    evertime I hear this song now, I cry.....

  • @jadp1979
    @jadp1979 14 ปีที่แล้ว

    and even more when they focus the little girl crying...aww!!!so moving

  • @ivanbitancurt9253
    @ivanbitancurt9253 6 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    El peor dia de mi vida

  • @ispvencer954
    @ispvencer954 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    People say ur going to heal slowly after someone’s death ,that’s not true till this day I’m still healing from Michael’s death and seeing that coffin start moving mad the first cords of man in the mirror play .......God Why? I just ...I miss him Sm ....,how is it ? How is it possible to live in a world without man ???? I just I wish I went with him 💔 I miss him Sm

  • @brandondenver4331
    @brandondenver4331 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    I remember watching that empty mic and bawling my eyes out. Damn, man. Damn...

  • @ronmiller5390
    @ronmiller5390 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thank you so much Mj Rip!!

  • @tammyblaszkiewicz9250
    @tammyblaszkiewicz9250 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Now thay can leave michal Jackson along rest in heaven michal we love you bless by ever body know saw all his movies yup

  • @brandpross.u.552
    @brandpross.u.552 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    GRACIAS MICHAEL!

  • @davonsmith3721
    @davonsmith3721 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Happy Birthday Michael You Are My Idol Forever

  • @malqinwinn1803
    @malqinwinn1803 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    In the future if God let me live long, this is how I want my memorial to be if I ever leave this world.