Just wanted to thank you again for being open about your pain, it’s so appreciated. I’m one of the people who commented on one of your recent Camino videos about my dad, who was dying of brain cancer. He passed away on Monday. I’ve known since his diagnosis that I’d be joining this club sooner or later, but now it’s actually happened, I’m going through the stages of grief all over again. Only this time I can’t be with my dad for comfort or look after him through his illness, so all my pain has no outlet, it’s just pure grief. But I said before that I’m so grateful that you try to put those feelings into words, and show even in the midst of your own pain that there’s a world outside of it. I needed to remember that today. If you need to delete this later, I completely understand, but just wanted you to know that your words helped me, once again ❤
I remember your story. YOU were genuinely top of my mind when I mentioned comments. I am sooo so sorry for your loss. You must be feeling so raw right now. Sending you suchhh a big hug ❤️ This is definitely the hardest part. It doesn't make sense in the moment, but it'll eventually get lighter as time goes on. "Grief, I've learned, is really just love. It's all the love you want to give, but cannot. All of that unspent love gathers in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in the hollow part of your chest. Grief is just love with no place to go.” I'm so glad that you have a Camino coming up next year so you can devote some time to processing this and focusing on healing 💖 Sending you so much love ❤️
@@StefanieHurtado thank you so much, it’s so so appreciated - and it really feels like your words came at exactly the right time ❤️ it’s all SO raw right now, but it’s a relief to know I’m not the only person who’s been through this. And I feel weirdly like the Camino suddenly has some kind of purpose I didn’t expect it to have when I first planned to go. Thank you again, it’s hard to convey through a TH-cam comment but your words really mean a lot. All my best to you xx
Thank you for this! Was not feeling well today and this helped me a lot especially 8:33 Missing my Mom since January. Feeling better after a good cry. In a week I’ll start the Camino Portuguese. Very excited 😊
Dearest Stefanie, I'm not sure if this is real time but I need you to know that you inspired me to walk again after I walked from Muxia on the Atlantic coast to Barcelona on the Mediterranean. Since then I've walked the Camino Primitivo, Camino del Norte, Camino Português, internal, coastal and spiritual. Two Friends had cancer. I dropped to my knees at every church, every single church, along every Camino I walked in Spain and Portugal. We are all connected. The candle I carried connects every Church. Thank you for being you ❤♾👣
Wow. Makes me flashback to losing my Dad in 2011, and my sister in 2006. I didn't realize it had been that long. Your point about exercise during grief hits home. The week my dad died I ran 100 miles. Running has always been my outlet, and it was one thing that made sense that week. I quit my job last year after my brother nearly died. Nothing is guaranteed in this, and if there's something that makes you feel alive, it is your Duty to pursue it! ( Headed to Patagonia 🇦🇷 🇨🇱 next month :)
My beautiful Dad died in 1976 when I was 16. It still hurts and I'm 64, ten years older than he was when he died. But it does become bearable in time, even sweet remembering him. I've lost many family members since, I learned that it's years not months but heading towards year three it stops being scary. We have to keep walking through life, like a Camino. Early days feel like you can't do it.
Oh that’s so young to lose your dad 😢 Thank you for sharing Catherine! I think you’re right, 3 years was when I felt like myself again. Which is a long time, and maybe not comforting to anyone at the beginning of the journey. But I think it’s better to be told the truth and to know the pain isn’t the same forever.
I lost my Dad just over a year ago, grief is different for me, just like you said, I haven’t really been able to grieve properly yet or is this my grieving process? I don’t know…. The best part of how I remember our Dad’s is how they invested in us, what they taught us, the routes through life they guided us. One things for certain, your Dad guided you to the Camino, I don’t think it was an accident that happened, especially when you have needed it so much, another thing is when it comes to choices…. WWDD What Would Dad Do? Love to you muchly… continue being precious to others, don’t specifically change for anyone, you’re just perfect as you are…❤️🧡❤️
Wow, thanks for sharing that Timmy. It really is different for everyone. Don’t feel pressured to navigate it a certain way. And yes, I think my Dad led me to the Camino on purpose. It totally changed my life. Proof that a Dad’s influence and advice is always with us 🥲
I relate to you because I lost my dad a couple years ago, in my early 30s, and I don’t know anyone irl who has lost a parent. I remember finding your videos and it gave me hope that you mentioned it started to feel a little more normal several years on. I am still not feeling totally normal but I can say that 2 years is a massive difference from 1 year. Hoping our lives expand to make the box bigger around the pain button ❤
Sending you a big hug ✨ Your sense of normal will just be different. But everything will get lighter over time. I’m grateful for the internet helping us relate to each other and feel less alone 💖
Thank you so much for displaying and sharing your raw honesty and genuine feelings Stephanie! ❤some how your videos are helping many people, (including myself) on how dealing with those feelings and the many questions we have or not about grief and ourselves. I’ve made some life changing decisions in the past 6 months and finding your amazing videos are helping me make some goals for myself for the new year. 😊 you are a very special human being who is touching the lives of many while figuring things out for yourself! Thank you again and look forward to seeing all your videos sweet Stephanie ❤
Stefanie, now we will all grief with you. In your honor, I turned off the lights and listened to “Upon this Rock” by Jocelyn Pook and cried a little bit. Buen Camino, girl.
A very thoughtful video Stefanie! I lost my mom before I turned 20. We were very close and it really affected me. It did however force me to live my life to the fullest. My youngest brother was only 7 so when I had kids I spent all of my spare time with them because you never know what life will bring! They are about your age now and we are all very close. I lost my dad a few years ago and even though we weren’t as close and he was well into his 90’s it was still difficult. I’ve always been the emotional one in a family of 4 boys but I always excepted that. Thank you for this video.
Thank you so much for sharing, Stephanie. I lost my dad 2 years ago on September 10th, and it's been really stressful, especially these last few months as we work hard to wrap up so much of his life - lots of stuff still. I have saved some of his ashes to bring along on my upcoming Camino... I know he would be so happy and proud that I'm finally on a solid path to make that journey. I first learned of the Camino through an album by Oliver Schroer, a Canadian violinist/fiddler, composer, and music producer (for neo-folk artist Loreena McKennit, among others). He walked the Camino back in about 2008? and recorded (often surreptitiously!) himself playing in various churches and other places along the Camino, hauntingly beautiful. My dad was a deep classical musical fan, and so gifting him the album was a way to bridge our interests, but he and Schroer also shared a common cancer battle. Ever since, I've been wanting to walk the Camino myself, but have been raising two high-needs boys this whole time, and they are only just getting old enough where I can leave them (with family) for the length of the Camino. If you ever need music to listen to during your grief, or bittersweet memories, or experience in some way another's camino, or just transcend with its haunting beauty, definitely check out Oliver Schroer's Camino. Peace and love
Wowww Anne! This is so moving, thank you for sharing. I feel like no one ever talks about how stressful the logistics are immediately after losing a loved one. Straight away, there are so many decisions to be made and paperwork and things, which makes the whole experience soooo surreal. I am SO glad to hear you’ll be doing the Camino to help process everything 💖 And what a beautiful connection to have to it with your dad 🥲 Ahhh I’d love to hear about your experience-keep me updated!
I love your videos. I hope I get to meet you someday. You seem like an amazing person. I’ve been listening to your videos at work mentally preparing for my short Camino from Irún to Bilbao. Thank you for all the content you put out here. You are helping many people in many different ways.
Stefanie I admire you for sharing all you’re going through. Thank you. Your TH-cam videos have been very therapeutic and I wish you could know how helpful they’ve been for those of us who have experienced similar life events 😢 I haven’t came across anything like your narrating and amazing combination of videos and music. The world needs more people like you 😊
Stephanie, just because your dad is not here the in a physical way doesn't mean he is not here and he will always be your rock and the person you go to. That will never change. He is your person and he will always guide you. Ask for signs and just talk to him, writte letters and keep honoring him as you have been doing. ❤ A big hug from Portugal
Thank you so much beautiful Stefanie. I’ve been cracked open by grief and you have been a massive light and help in my healing journey, my Camino, my life. Sending love to your heart 🪽
When I lost my Dad I walked in Spain 2017 Camino del Santiago. I had a stone from his grave and left it at the Crux near foncebon. Once there I was going to take a picture and I had no charge on my battery. A fellow saw my grieve and offered to take a picture when I placed the stone, but I said no tanks. It was just the way it is. Since then I lost mum and never grieved it has been two years will go back for another walk soon. So my thoughts are with you
UGHHHHH, now I'm bawling! Not from pure grief but because I know that your dad had a hand in you finding that neighborhood festival so that you could be reminded to live. As a daddy's girl who had the strongest, funniest best friend in my father, losing him in 2005 will be the deepest grief that I will ever experience. I miss his protection and his listening ear the most. No man will ever come close to replacing that feeling. Just know that you are not alone and because you "cried in the internet", you allowed our energies to now look out for each other. To celebrate with you and to cry with you. Thank you so much for being open. You help us more than we could ever express. Sending you so much love right now, Stefanie!
No because I am sobbing rn reading your comment over and over 😭 Ahhhh thank you so much for this!! ❤️ Only the daddy's girls know. You're so right, nothing could replace it. It's funny you say that about the festival. Today, I had to go to Autozone to replace my windshield wipers (something I've never done before because I went so many years not driving). As I was struggling outside my van trying to figure it out, I just wished I could call my dad. Then, a Latino man got out of his nearby car to help me lol... he did both of the windshield wipers for me. Even though I'm still not sure what I think about the afterlife, if there is one, that was def from my dad ❤️
Dear Stefanie, I just finished watching your reaction video to It's a Wonderful Life and was so taken by it that I thought to check out your site and this was the video I zeroed in on first... I'm 67 years old and perhaps in the vicinity of your dad's age group. Listening to you speak of him and the enormous loss you are suffering because he was such a great father had me imagining myself in your dad's situation. No really good father wants to hold back on giving his child the very best of himself, but like you hinted to; that comes with an enormous risk in the event of your death... it's a cruel reality of life that the better our relationship with our parents the harder it is to survive their loss. I take care of homeless cats (many) and my greatest fear is wondering what they would go through if I suddenly died and how they might suffer. I might love that they loved me but hate that my death caused them any pain... I'm sure your dad would hate that his death did you any harm... You seem like a beautiful spirit, who brings joy to so many others (no doubt)... please do your father a favor by easing the pain of his death on you while continuing to miss him and adore him as you do... he was a lucky father in life. I'm one who believes that your not suffering anymore on his behalf will bring give him peace in the after life... I hope I didn't overstep my bounds... Take Care, ❤
Truly sorry for your loss,i know that pain,i lost my old man in 93, and still hurts, but it gets easier
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Just wanted to thank you again for being open about your pain, it’s so appreciated. I’m one of the people who commented on one of your recent Camino videos about my dad, who was dying of brain cancer. He passed away on Monday.
I’ve known since his diagnosis that I’d be joining this club sooner or later, but now it’s actually happened, I’m going through the stages of grief all over again. Only this time I can’t be with my dad for comfort or look after him through his illness, so all my pain has no outlet, it’s just pure grief.
But I said before that I’m so grateful that you try to put those feelings into words, and show even in the midst of your own pain that there’s a world outside of it. I needed to remember that today. If you need to delete this later, I completely understand, but just wanted you to know that your words helped me, once again ❤
I remember your story. YOU were genuinely top of my mind when I mentioned comments. I am sooo so sorry for your loss. You must be feeling so raw right now. Sending you suchhh a big hug ❤️
This is definitely the hardest part. It doesn't make sense in the moment, but it'll eventually get lighter as time goes on. "Grief, I've learned, is really just love. It's all the love you want to give, but cannot. All of that unspent love gathers in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in the hollow part of your chest. Grief is just love with no place to go.”
I'm so glad that you have a Camino coming up next year so you can devote some time to processing this and focusing on healing 💖 Sending you so much love ❤️
@@StefanieHurtado thank you so much, it’s so so appreciated - and it really feels like your words came at exactly the right time ❤️ it’s all SO raw right now, but it’s a relief to know I’m not the only person who’s been through this. And I feel weirdly like the Camino suddenly has some kind of purpose I didn’t expect it to have when I first planned to go.
Thank you again, it’s hard to convey through a TH-cam comment but your words really mean a lot. All my best to you xx
I feel like grief is a way of honoring the memory of our loved ones. They still live as long as they are remembered. Big hugs.
hope you're doing all right! Im sending you best wishes!
You are so sweet for checking in 😭 Thank you soooo much!! I’m doing good now and am back to making videos ❤ I hope you’re well Connie! ✨
Thank you for this! Was not feeling well today and this helped me a lot especially 8:33 Missing my Mom since January. Feeling better after a good cry. In a week I’ll start the Camino Portuguese. Very excited 😊
Lena I’m sending you such a big hug! 💖 Your mom must’ve been so special. I’m sooo glad you were able to do the Camino!! How did it go?!
Dearest Stefanie, I'm not sure if this is real time but I need you to know that you inspired me to walk again after I walked from Muxia on the Atlantic coast to Barcelona on the Mediterranean.
Since then I've walked the Camino Primitivo, Camino del Norte, Camino Português, internal, coastal and spiritual.
Two Friends had cancer. I dropped to my knees at every church, every single church, along every Camino I walked in Spain and Portugal.
We are all connected. The candle I carried connects every Church.
Thank you for being you ❤♾👣
This is so beautiful ❤ You have done some amazing things!! Thank you for being here, I really appreciate it.
Wow. Makes me flashback to losing my Dad in 2011, and my sister in 2006. I didn't realize it had been that long. Your point about exercise during grief hits home. The week my dad died I ran 100 miles. Running has always been my outlet, and it was one thing that made sense that week. I quit my job last year after my brother nearly died. Nothing is guaranteed in this, and if there's something that makes you feel alive, it is your Duty to pursue it! ( Headed to Patagonia 🇦🇷 🇨🇱 next month :)
Wowwww William! I REALLY needed to hear that last bit today. Thank you so much for sharing ✨ Have the most amazing time in Patagonia!! I’m inspired.
My beautiful Dad died in 1976 when I was 16. It still hurts and I'm 64, ten years older than he was when he died. But it does become bearable in time, even sweet remembering him. I've lost many family members since, I learned that it's years not months but heading towards year three it stops being scary. We have to keep walking through life, like a Camino. Early days feel like you can't do it.
Oh that’s so young to lose your dad 😢 Thank you for sharing Catherine! I think you’re right, 3 years was when I felt like myself again. Which is a long time, and maybe not comforting to anyone at the beginning of the journey. But I think it’s better to be told the truth and to know the pain isn’t the same forever.
I lost my Dad just over a year ago, grief is different for me, just like you said, I haven’t really been able to grieve properly yet or is this my grieving process? I don’t know….
The best part of how I remember our Dad’s is how they invested in us, what they taught us, the routes through life they guided us. One things for certain, your Dad guided you to the Camino, I don’t think it was an accident that happened, especially when you have needed it so much, another thing is when it comes to choices…. WWDD What Would Dad Do? Love to you muchly… continue being precious to others, don’t specifically change for anyone, you’re just perfect as you are…❤️🧡❤️
Wow, thanks for sharing that Timmy. It really is different for everyone. Don’t feel pressured to navigate it a certain way. And yes, I think my Dad led me to the Camino on purpose. It totally changed my life. Proof that a Dad’s influence and advice is always with us 🥲
I relate to you because I lost my dad a couple years ago, in my early 30s, and I don’t know anyone irl who has lost a parent. I remember finding your videos and it gave me hope that you mentioned it started to feel a little more normal several years on. I am still not feeling totally normal but I can say that 2 years is a massive difference from 1 year. Hoping our lives expand to make the box bigger around the pain button ❤
Sending you a big hug ✨ Your sense of normal will just be different. But everything will get lighter over time. I’m grateful for the internet helping us relate to each other and feel less alone 💖
Thank you so much for displaying and sharing your raw honesty and genuine feelings Stephanie! ❤some how your videos are helping many people, (including myself) on how dealing with those feelings and the many questions we have or not about grief and ourselves. I’ve made some life changing decisions in the past 6 months and finding your amazing videos are helping me make some goals for myself for the new year. 😊 you are a very special human being who is touching the lives of many while figuring things out for yourself! Thank you again and look forward to seeing all your videos sweet Stephanie ❤
Stefanie, now we will all grief with you. In your honor, I turned off the lights and listened to “Upon this Rock” by Jocelyn Pook and cried a little bit. Buen Camino, girl.
😢 You’re the best, thank you 💙
A very thoughtful video Stefanie! I lost my mom before I turned 20. We were very close and it really affected me. It did however force me to live my life to the fullest. My youngest brother was only 7 so when I had kids I spent all of my spare time with them because you never know what life will bring! They are about your age now and we are all very close. I lost my dad a few years ago and even though we weren’t as close and he was well into his 90’s it was still difficult. I’ve always been the emotional one in a family of 4 boys but I always excepted that. Thank you for this video.
Thank you so much for sharing, Stephanie. I lost my dad 2 years ago on September 10th, and it's been really stressful, especially these last few months as we work hard to wrap up so much of his life - lots of stuff still. I have saved some of his ashes to bring along on my upcoming Camino... I know he would be so happy and proud that I'm finally on a solid path to make that journey. I first learned of the Camino through an album by
Oliver Schroer, a Canadian violinist/fiddler, composer, and music producer (for neo-folk artist Loreena McKennit, among others). He walked the Camino back in about 2008? and recorded (often surreptitiously!) himself playing in various churches and other places along the Camino, hauntingly beautiful. My dad was a deep classical musical fan, and so gifting him the album was a way to bridge our interests, but he and Schroer also shared a common cancer battle. Ever since, I've been wanting to walk the Camino myself, but have been raising two high-needs boys this whole time, and they are only just getting old enough where I can leave them (with family) for the length of the Camino. If you ever need music to listen to during your grief, or bittersweet memories, or experience in some way another's camino, or just transcend with its haunting beauty, definitely check out Oliver Schroer's Camino. Peace and love
Wowww Anne! This is so moving, thank you for sharing. I feel like no one ever talks about how stressful the logistics are immediately after losing a loved one. Straight away, there are so many decisions to be made and paperwork and things, which makes the whole experience soooo surreal. I am SO glad to hear you’ll be doing the Camino to help process everything 💖 And what a beautiful connection to have to it with your dad 🥲 Ahhh I’d love to hear about your experience-keep me updated!
I love your videos. I hope I get to meet you someday. You seem like an amazing person. I’ve been listening to your videos at work mentally preparing for my short Camino from Irún to Bilbao. Thank you for all the content you put out here. You are helping many people in many different ways.
That is so sweet 😭 Thank you Christian!!
Stefanie I admire you for sharing all you’re going through. Thank you. Your TH-cam videos have been very therapeutic and I wish you could know how helpful they’ve been for those of us who have experienced similar life events 😢 I haven’t came across anything like your narrating and amazing combination of videos and music. The world needs more people like you 😊
Can’t even tell you how much I appreciate these kind words ❤ thank you sooooo much!!
Stephanie, just because your dad is not here the in a physical way doesn't mean he is not here and he will always be your rock and the person you go to. That will never change. He is your person and he will always guide you. Ask for signs and just talk to him, writte letters and keep honoring him as you have been doing. ❤ A big hug from Portugal
I love this, thank you so much ❤
Thank you so much beautiful Stefanie. I’ve been cracked open by grief and you have been a massive light and help in my healing journey, my Camino, my life. Sending love to your heart 🪽
❤️😭 Wow. Sending you such a big hug Emmie ✨
Thanks for sharing Stefanie ❤
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thank you for this post. It popped up in a moment when I really needed it.
I’m so glad to hear it ❤ sending you love ✨
When I lost my Dad I walked in Spain 2017 Camino del Santiago. I had a stone from his grave and left it at the Crux near foncebon. Once there I was going to take a picture and I had no charge on my battery. A fellow saw my grieve and offered to take a picture when I placed the stone, but I said no tanks. It was just the way it is. Since then I lost mum and never grieved it has been two years will go back for another walk soon. So my thoughts are with you
Wow, thank you for sharing your story Seamus. I hope you’re able to get back to the Camino soon and process all that you need to ✨
UGHHHHH, now I'm bawling! Not from pure grief but because I know that your dad had a hand in you finding that neighborhood festival so that you could be reminded to live. As a daddy's girl who had the strongest, funniest best friend in my father, losing him in 2005 will be the deepest grief that I will ever experience. I miss his protection and his listening ear the most. No man will ever come close to replacing that feeling. Just know that you are not alone and because you "cried in the internet", you allowed our energies to now look out for each other. To celebrate with you and to cry with you. Thank you so much for being open. You help us more than we could ever express. Sending you so much love right now, Stefanie!
No because I am sobbing rn reading your comment over and over 😭 Ahhhh thank you so much for this!! ❤️ Only the daddy's girls know. You're so right, nothing could replace it. It's funny you say that about the festival. Today, I had to go to Autozone to replace my windshield wipers (something I've never done before because I went so many years not driving). As I was struggling outside my van trying to figure it out, I just wished I could call my dad. Then, a Latino man got out of his nearby car to help me lol... he did both of the windshield wipers for me. Even though I'm still not sure what I think about the afterlife, if there is one, that was def from my dad ❤️
Reading this comment again and crying in my car 😭🥲😂 Obsessed with this sentiment of our energies looking out for each other ✨
...its very tough, to loose someone close... I know that from own experience... sending you many blessings, dear Stephanie 💖
Thank you always Jorn ✨
You know i get it…sending you a big hug 🫶
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Dear Stefanie, I just finished watching your reaction video to It's a Wonderful Life and was so taken by it that I thought to check out your site and this was the video I zeroed in on first... I'm 67 years old and perhaps in the vicinity of your dad's age group. Listening to you speak of him and the enormous loss you are suffering because he was such a great father had me imagining myself in your dad's situation. No really good father wants to hold back on giving his child the very best of himself, but like you hinted to; that comes with an enormous risk in the event of your death... it's a cruel reality of life that the better our relationship with our parents the harder it is to survive their loss. I take care of homeless cats (many) and my greatest fear is wondering what they would go through if I suddenly died and how they might suffer. I might love that they loved me but hate that my death caused them any pain... I'm sure your dad would hate that his death did you any harm... You seem like a beautiful spirit, who brings joy to so many others (no doubt)... please do your father a favor by easing the pain of his death on you while continuing to miss him and adore him as you do... he was a lucky father in life. I'm one who believes that your not suffering anymore on his behalf will bring give him peace in the after life... I hope I didn't overstep my bounds... Take Care, ❤