Congratulations on your new job! It’s actually good to see you eating. I don’t mean that in an Anorexia way. I know if somebody said that to me I’d really panic. What I mean is that your earlier videos you were talking about your diet, but we never saw you eating. I was really worried about you because it seemed like you were talking about what you were eating & the anorexia was still so strong. I hope that makes sense. But now I can see so much has changed. You seem more positive about getting rid of that voice in your head. I know that you’re really struggling right now, but don’t give up. You’re not on an easy journey. I’m 47 & my eating disorder started at the age of 7. I know the cause of my ED as numerous traumas throughout my whole 40 yrs. I really admire you Demi, keep going. sending lots of love, & am supporting you all the way. If you ever need to talk then I’m here. Love you loads 💗xxx
Thankyou so much! I have a looong way to go but I’m definitely doing a lot better than I was with the food. I guess it’s the compensatory behaviours that are the problem. I’m so sorry you have had to endure this pain also, your so strong and I’m proud of you for fighting back I really hope your in a much better place now! Thankyou so much again it means a lot to me, sending you lots of love ❤
@@Demiproudman yes Demi you’re right you do have a long way to go but you’re sticking with it. Watching your journey on TH-cam is a positive thing to do. If you’re struggling you can get support. You have videos to look back on to see how far you have come. It’s easy to think you’re failing when really you’re not. You may have blips but that doesn’t mean you’re failing. Take a look back at where you were & use that as your motivation to keep going. Not only that, but you are helping so many people who are struggling by posting your videos. Unfortunately I’m in the grips of my disorder. Without going into things I did say it’s been due to traumas in my childhood & also as an adult, basically through same things as I went through as a child had continued into my adulthood. I have had therapy but it’s been far too damaging reliving experiences. Even having therapy for C-PTSD. The therapists have even agreed that it’s only making things worse for me. I won’t go into anymore as it’s too distressing. But you keep fighting Demi 💪. I know you’ve got this & people on this page are also with you to keep you going when you’re feeling stuck. Sending you love & hugs 😘💞💕
I’ve been following you since just prior to your inpatient admission. Just wondering if you still see a therapist or dietitian to help you through your recovery process? I know as one who has suffered for so many years we can’t do it by ourselves. Sending heartfelt thoughts your way 🥰❤️
Thankyou so much, currently I don’t but I really think I need the extra support as much as I try and believe I can do it alone I know deep down I can’t. Thankyou it really means a lot ❤
@@Demiproudman I hope you can get that support back that you need at this very difficult time. Please for your sake and your recovery get all the help you no need. I wouldn’t want you as the beautiful lady that you are to waste more and more time with this illness. I can tell you from my experience of having it for decades that life becomes just full of regrets and lost opportunities. That’s what this illness takes from you and gives nothing back in return except a body that we prefer. 🥲
You're putting a lot of unnecessary external pressure on yourself. No one is demanding anything of you Demi, just focus on recovery for now. Everything else will wait!
The video where you ate like your IP meal plan.. do you think you could follow that again to get things moving and make some progress? I really just want to see you get better and thrive!!!Do your team think that going IP again may be the way forward if you aren't progressing? Sending lots of love.
Heyy, that would be good I think I should do it again too thank you for the idea ☺️ they haven’t spoken of it and I’m hoping that they don’t but at this point I don’t know what will make me make the necessary changes :( I need to dig deeper and fight back. Thank you so much ❤
Hey Demi, so lovely to have an update. Sorry things are so difficult at the moment 😞 Are you receiving any outpatient support? It might be worth getting some input & it could take some of the pressure off you having to deal with everything alone. Sending lots of love ❤ you’re stronger than you think
Heyyy, thankyou so much! I was attending weekly observation appointments but I’ve requested to have extra support so I’m hoping in the next few weeks it will help, I have been very stubborn this whole time to accepting further help but I know that it’s just the ed convincing me I don’t need it when I do, thank you so so much it really means a lot ❤
@@Demiproudman you’re making the right decision Demi - that is so brave of you. Just remember that your ED is going to be pissed off but that just shows you’re doing the right thing. Fully support you 🩷
100% disagree. Can serve as a major source of distraction when recovery needs to be THE full-time job. Depending on how physical the job is, can be taking away much-needed energy and burning calories. We are enough as we are, without needing to be working or studying. Taking time for INTEGRAL rest is key. I worked three jobs and did full time studies at uni whilst juggling an eating disorder for three years, and you know where that got me? In a treatment facility
@@bellawagstaff6371I'm completely entitled to my lived experience opinion because it is that. If you believe one cannot have purpose outside of work or study, you've just judged a whole lot of people, many of whom are far too sick to be doing either
I also have lived experience and when I did not have anything in life going for me apart from my eating disorder that is when I became stuck in its depths. when you care about things in life external to food/body that is when things free up for one. but I won't bother having this argument with you because I couldn't really care less tbh.@@snacktivist
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we're so proud of u demi sweetheart
Thankyou so much it really does mean a lot ❤
Another good one Demi, congrats on the job.
Thankyou😊
You're welcome, also you might not think so, but when your hair was messy I thought you looked very pretty.@@Demiproudman
Congratulations on your new job! It’s actually good to see you eating. I don’t mean that in an Anorexia way. I know if somebody said that to me I’d really panic. What I mean is that your earlier videos you were talking about your diet, but we never saw you eating. I was really worried about you because it seemed like you were talking about what you were eating & the anorexia was still so strong. I hope that makes sense. But now I can see so much has changed. You seem more positive about getting rid of that voice in your head. I know that you’re really struggling right now, but don’t give up. You’re not on an easy journey. I’m 47 & my eating disorder started at the age of 7. I know the cause of my ED as numerous traumas throughout my whole 40 yrs. I really admire you Demi, keep going. sending lots of love, & am supporting you all the way. If you ever need to talk then I’m here. Love you loads 💗xxx
Thankyou so much! I have a looong way to go but I’m definitely doing a lot better than I was with the food. I guess it’s the compensatory behaviours that are the problem. I’m so sorry you have had to endure this pain also, your so strong and I’m proud of you for fighting back I really hope your in a much better place now! Thankyou so much again it means a lot to me, sending you lots of love ❤
@@Demiproudman yes Demi you’re right you do have a long way to go but you’re sticking with it. Watching your journey on TH-cam is a positive thing to do. If you’re struggling you can get support. You have videos to look back on to see how far you have come. It’s easy to think you’re failing when really you’re not. You may have blips but that doesn’t mean you’re failing. Take a look back at where you were & use that as your motivation to keep going.
Not only that, but you are helping so many people who are struggling by posting your videos.
Unfortunately I’m in the grips of my disorder.
Without going into things I did say it’s been due to traumas in my childhood & also as an adult, basically through same things as I went through as a child had continued into my adulthood.
I have had therapy but it’s been far too damaging reliving experiences.
Even having therapy for C-PTSD.
The therapists have even agreed that it’s only making things worse for me.
I won’t go into anymore as it’s too distressing.
But you keep fighting Demi 💪.
I know you’ve got this & people on this page are also with you to keep you going when you’re feeling stuck.
Sending you love & hugs 😘💞💕
Eating with others and at an unusual time is a huge challenge! Well done you ❤
I’ve been following you since just prior to your inpatient admission. Just wondering if you still see a therapist or dietitian to help you through your recovery process? I know as one who has suffered for so many years we can’t do it by ourselves. Sending heartfelt thoughts your way 🥰❤️
Thankyou so much, currently I don’t but I really think I need the extra support as much as I try and believe I can do it alone I know deep down I can’t. Thankyou it really means a lot ❤
@@Demiproudman I hope you can get that support back that you need at this very difficult time. Please for your sake and your recovery get all the help you no need. I wouldn’t want you as the beautiful lady that you are to waste more and more time with this illness. I can tell you from my experience of having it for decades that life becomes just full of regrets and lost opportunities. That’s what this illness takes from you and gives nothing back in return except a body that we prefer. 🥲
@@Demiproudmanif what you had wasn't working, look for something else. Support comes in many forms xo
So glad someone else has the same thoughts as me re ‘eating out’! You’ve made me realise it’s not just me, thank you 😊 xx
Your never alone ❤️
Congratulations on your new job👏
Thankyou 😊
send you lots strength to recovery
thank you very much 🫶🏻 I’m working as a receptionist x
You're putting a lot of unnecessary external pressure on yourself. No one is demanding anything of you Demi, just focus on recovery for now. Everything else will wait!
Thankyou so much!!!
@@Demiproudmanjust let go of all that shit💩 Recovery is today
The video where you ate like your IP meal plan.. do you think you could follow that again to get things moving and make some progress? I really just want to see you get better and thrive!!!Do your team think that going IP again may be the way forward if you aren't progressing? Sending lots of love.
Heyy, that would be good I think I should do it again too thank you for the idea ☺️ they haven’t spoken of it and I’m hoping that they don’t but at this point I don’t know what will make me make the necessary changes :( I need to dig deeper and fight back. Thank you so much ❤
Hey demi how are you ? I have missed you so much so glad your back also today was my first day back at college.😍
Heyyy!! Im good thank you how are you doing?? I hope your first day back went well ❤
@@Demiproudman it was ok 👍
Hey Demi, so lovely to have an update. Sorry things are so difficult at the moment 😞 Are you receiving any outpatient support? It might be worth getting some input & it could take some of the pressure off you having to deal with everything alone. Sending lots of love ❤ you’re stronger than you think
Heyyy, thankyou so much! I was attending weekly observation appointments but I’ve requested to have extra support so I’m hoping in the next few weeks it will help, I have been very stubborn this whole time to accepting further help but I know that it’s just the ed convincing me I don’t need it when I do, thank you so so much it really means a lot ❤
@@Demiproudman you’re making the right decision Demi - that is so brave of you. Just remember that your ED is going to be pissed off but that just shows you’re doing the right thing. Fully support you 🩷
Work/study INTEGRAL to enabling purpose and focus outside of an eating disorder.
100% disagree. Can serve as a major source of distraction when recovery needs to be THE full-time job. Depending on how physical the job is, can be taking away much-needed energy and burning calories. We are enough as we are, without needing to be working or studying. Taking time for INTEGRAL rest is key. I worked three jobs and did full time studies at uni whilst juggling an eating disorder for three years, and you know where that got me? In a treatment facility
you are completely entitled to your wrong opinion ☺@@snacktivist
@@bellawagstaff6371I'm completely entitled to my lived experience opinion because it is that. If you believe one cannot have purpose outside of work or study, you've just judged a whole lot of people, many of whom are far too sick to be doing either
I also have lived experience and when I did not have anything in life going for me apart from my eating disorder that is when I became stuck in its depths. when you care about things in life external to food/body that is when things free up for one. but I won't bother having this argument with you because I couldn't really care less tbh.@@snacktivist
great, positive update 😊
Thankyou 😊