I've never done any drugs in my life and I can't relate to your stories but I find your stories so fascinating. The things you've been through and survived are just insane. Even though we've never met I feel so proud of you. You've come such a long way and changed your life. Your whole journey is remarkable and it speaks volumes as to who you are as a person and the amount of strength you have.
Renee Turner At least now it’s a stronger push that this life is horrible and actually has been a deterrent to many people! For my friends who watch who can’t relate, they also tell me they are intrigued and empowered of how strong the human psyche can be!
Corpse Husband hey corpse! i really hope you’re doing well! i can’t exactly say i know how what you’re going through feels, and i can’t say it’ll get any better any time soon, but i admire you’re staying strong. and just so you know, whatever you choose to do with your channel whether it’s quitting, staying, or rarely posting, im here for you with full support! i know you probably won’t see this, but i just wanted you to know. stay safe, yeah?
I just have to say that you are an absolutely amazing storyteller. I’m always impressed that you’re able to film and speak without any cuts in between. Not to mention that you create such vivid images with your stories- I really feel like I’m experiencing it with you. You have a gift! Can’t wait to see more from you!
Hey jess- the love of my life died 8 months ago to a heroin overdose 💔 he would have loved your videos as much as I do. You’ve helped me get thru this hard time. Thank you for being you 🙏🏼
You will see him again one day, I promise. In the meanwhile, try your best to live a long life, just as he would want you to, and help as many people as you can.
You seen too have a very strong character Jessica, so many people feel your message, peace and thanks for your story's, stay up, UK sending love to u n your familam
Jess, I have been thru many of the same scenarios in my past, and the Mother and Grandmother in me wants to give you a super warm squeeze right now. So proud of you.
You and Christina always post around the same time, and i end up doing eenie meenie miney mo to decide who i end up watching first 😂😂. I love y'all both 💝
@Crystal King the struggle IS real 😂 great wording! I watch em both ( even driving if I must🙄😎) one after the other , whoever posts first. My top 2 fav TH-camrs.💗💗 Always a good day when they upload videos🏆
As a girl who use to be a teenage dealer this 3 part video series hits so close to home. Damn I went through so many emotions listening to this story...
Jessica you have the biggest heart and courage to share your experiences with everyone to help them! You are making a huge difference in may people's lives because you are so real and authentic! Sending you warmth today from sunny San Diego! (I remember cold, wintery Chicago- grew up in that area.) Peace and love!
Yes the life was so glamorous!! I thought it was all I needed 😭 I’m so obsessed that your story is in the SAME COUNTY as my case and I overcame it and got my child back too, there’s so much hope
For being clean myself I know how much courage it takes to talk about these stories in depth like this. I do the same for my writings and it's tough no matter how long. Much respect girl, were survivors.
I hate that there's a debate regarding EMS carrying Narcan for this reason. People say things like, "Junkies shouldn't be able to OD and be revived by EMS over and over. It's a waste of time, money and services when they could be saving other people". It's such an ignorant point of view... No matter HOW many times an addict relapses and has to receive Narcan, there is always that chance, as long as they wake up, that they can turn their life around. They have the potential to not only become a functional, contributing member of society, but also HELP OTHERS who have been in a similar situation. This is why you're so appreciated, Jessica. You are changing people's ideas of "what a recovering addict looks like", I'm sure. And you are a great reminder that our experiences, no matter how dark or embarrassing, CAN be used to bring light and awareness. Thanks for sharing, as always 👏🏼🥰
Thank you SO much for using your story for good and not allowing shame to stop you from speaking out. It truly gives others the courage to speak out and motivation that they too can get clean. You are amazing!!
"I just didnt like that this had became my life, I remember thinking I just wanted to do a big shot and go to sleep" I felt that in my core. Still in the life here. Im trying to fight by watching you and others who have gotten out. I force myself to believe that I can. Its just starting day 1 thats the problem.
I love that you share your stories. It's so weird, because I lived the "fast life" for a while myself (3 years sober) and your stories remind me of so many good times and bad times and make me so thankful to be where I am today. Anyways thank you for sharing, I appreciate your vibe 💜
You are amazing. You speak with such passion and eloquence, and you are really helping to heal others. A story like this one can give so many different messages to a variety of people, addicts and non-addicts alike. I hope you know how valuable that is. You're truly a bridge-builder.
I came across your channel about a week ago. I’m 22 and have a little over a year clean. Seeing and hearing all your stories and what you went through and seeing how happy you are now, gives me so much hope. So happy I found your channel man
Love your story times, they remind me of so many similar situations I’ve been in too. Im celebrating one year of sobriety in a weeks time! I’m so proud, happy and lucky to be away from all that shit. Love you Jess!! ❤️
Spending thanksgiving alone and have binged watched so many of your videos. Thanks for being so open and honest, I feel like I’ve spent all day with you!
I was recently introduced to your channel from a suggested video on TH-cam, I’m obsessed. I’ve been on a binge for 2 days. I absolutely love your strength and success after everything you’ve been through. You have a new fan for life 💗
You know I listen to your stories and like when you said and once we got high it's like all that never happened I totally connected with that cuz if you have drugs nothing else matters right?... at least in miy disfunctional relationship nothing else mattered if we had drugs everything was gravy.... I'm so glad that I'm out of that situation and I'm sober haven't touched heroin in over 3 years and now tapering off methadone I'm so proud of myself and hearing your stories oddly enough helps keep me on my toes and keeps me on the right path so I thank you very much for shearing your journey
I relate to you so much... Such a dark world. When you said I got high and everything was normal wow... It's so real and so sad. Im so happy to hear you are sober and living a normal life. xo
You are the best you tuber out there, this is content people need to see and you explain everything in a way that really gets to people, it is the best thing and everyone needs to understand these things, you are so strong and I love you for your inspiration
You are such a beacon of light for recovering addicts. It's hard to watch the people you love deteriorate from addiction and it's hard to be the person people love and have to watch deteriorate, and ive been both. In some of your videos I'll hear you refer to yourself when you were in active addiction as a "evil" Or "bad" Person and I'm here to tell you your not evil or bad. You may have made decisions that were bad but you are not a bad person. I don't believe addicts are bad people, just people who are lost or struggling with their mental health and need help not judgement. I hope one day more people will feel as I do and want to help those who need it instead of ridicule them. Your channel is a great way to help people who may not understand, understand. Proud supporter of you girl! 🤗🤗🤗
That is so scary..! I'm so happy you made it out alive. ❤️ At the same time makes you think how many people end up in similar situations and don't make it out. 😢
I am so proud of you, I'm 23 I have never done drugs but my brother have and still doing them and their in their 30's late 30's they will never get clean in and out of prison and hospitals I haven't seen them since I was around 17lish!! I'm so glad you changed your life for the better girl!! And you're beautiful as ever!!
I just wanna tell you I love you and I'm proud of everything you've got through and the person you've become. Your children are so blessed to have you as their mother. Thank you for making these videos and helping people get out of/avoid that lifestyle and being so encouraging to others. You are an absolute diamond ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️
I can't imagine how hard this story is to tell again thank you for being so open an honest an raw!!!! Your doing amazing things. XoXo sending all my love
Oh gods nooooo.... NOOOOOOO!!!! I was pissed it was like 50 the other night. I’m an LA bitch, valley, 818, til I die cos NO SNOW 😹😹😹😹😹 we cool off our cars cos they are ovens!! Got to open all the doors and the back hatch and wait a few minutes to not burn 😹😹😹😹😹
Amanda Grosse maybe you saw my reply or not, but in LA it’s like the opposite, you have to vent your car from the heat or you suffocate. And don’t wear shorts if the seats are leather 😹 you burn! It’s like a real problem getting into an oven car. But I’ll take oven over snow, no offense 😹
You went from him telling you “what you Bagged up is your re up” and then you said “idk what he’s gonna do next take me out and shoot me? WHEN HE JUST GAVE YOU DRUGS.?! Wtf that doesn’t even add up I’m so lost
Out of all your videos I think this one hit me the hardest. I’ve been 5 1/2 years clean from H and have so many of my own stories very similar to this one. I was also a dealer. I was also in a very toxic relationship. “Everything’s good now because we have drugs” I remember constantly saying that, feeling that, thinking that. So constant that it became a “joke” between me and my boyfriend back then. So sick. So devastatingly heartbreaking. This whole story is. God bless you for all the changes you have made to get where you are now, Jessica. Much love, xoxo.
The things we do in active addiction are mind boggling when we look at it clear headed. I understand when people say it’s like two different people. I’m so proud of you Jess💛 you help me and many other every single day🌟👏💛
Thank you for being so strong and being able to relive these memories and situations. Your videos will save someone's life if they haven't already. Keep them comming 🔥🔥
Omg I can currently relate to how your life was and you give me so much hope. I am currently living a hectic messed up life and am addicted to heroin. I am going to treatment tomorrow and my dad just took me in yesterday after so long of not seeing him because of my lifestyle choices. One of your videos popped up while scrolling through facebook and I'm so glad I watched it and found your channel. You are so amazing and should be so proud. You just gave me so much hope! I can't wait to start the beginning of the rest of my life tomorrow! I'm going to watch all of your videos from now until I go into treatment tomorrow! You are proof there is light at the end of the tunnel and that people can change and to not give up. You. Are. Awesome!
Jessica! I love how you use your story to encourage. I have never taken drugs but have a history of depression and you encourage me so much, I'm 45 years old, I think you are a blessing to youth, your age mates and all ages. Much gratitude for being real and sharing things that aren't glamorous to help others 💖💖 P.S I live in England and it's cold here too, it's about 6 degrees now though it's night time, my brother lives in Texas and said it's 6 degrees too, in the day. You and your beautiful family, stay warm Xxx
Damn girl, dark days are right. This story and all your stories pull at my heart strings. You must have been so far and debt and sinking yourself into a deeper dark hole, each time u seen your guy. So proud of the person u are now though. U let that life go. And moved forward. Most don't. And they struggle. Addiction is hard, and scary. And u made it out. Keep your head up, keep shinning and keep smiling 💗 positive vibes sent your way 💛
I got pushed once and I smashed against a parked car with the back of my head. I was knocked out for a few moments. A pedestrian, a woman said: she’s hurt, she’s bleeding. The guy who pushed me, reached down to help me up and help me get away, before the lady could call the ambulance. I was badly hurt, we had to go to the hospital and I had to get 7 stitches. I still got a scar. I had to puke, it hurt so bad. All the time I listen to Jess, I remember episodes from my own life, wich have been similar in a way. Jessica, thank you so much for sharing your stories, your experiences and your ❤️!!
You're so dang strong. Looking at you now I couldn't imagine what you went through and how you were as a person back in the day. You're still a hustler with a strong personality, but now you're using it right. So much respect for you! ❤️
Your storytelling skills are top notch. I'm so glad I came across your channel. I was living in the Downtown Eastside of Vancouver, Canada which if you Google is known notoriously for free dealing and and free using, safe sites, and these days (and the 5 years I was an addict) a HUGE amount of Fentanyl. Did you know that 92% of what is sold as H is actually a Fentanyl analogue or a stronger research chemical in Canada? We don't even have real H anymore. That's a true stat. I'm surprised I made it alive. Though I was never incarcerated (they only catch the big fish due to the extremes in the neighbourhood), your stories help me stay grounded and remind me that I've got to keep up. Over 1 year sober now. Respect!
i relate to your stories too much. i’ve thankfully been able to escape the life i once knew, but it seems to get harder everyday. the fast life is a slippery slope and it’s hard to stay on top of.
I wonder how many lives this channel has saved. With almost 1 million subscribers I am sure at least a few will avoid the dark path after learning of Jessica's experiences. I bet a few more have expedited their exit from the "underworld".
You are one of the best story tellers. I listen to your videos while I am editing photos (I'm a wedding photographer) and it keeps me so interested and helps me concentrate! Love it, keep it up!!
You are amazingly inspirational. You have such a postive outlook and you pulled youreself up from the worst life I could imagine. You managed to create a family and I'm sure you are giving your daughter a better life than your mother gave you. This is the epitome of human progress. Love your videos and thanks for the inspiration!
Thank god you are alive from this situation. You truly have put in the work and it shows and the pain that you have to go through to bring up the stories I could totally relate so I really commend you for going on the Internet and sharing everything that you do the good the bad the ugly, I love it all 🖤
Hey BEAUTIFUL GIRL!!!!! I found you on accident, looking for the show prison wives club. I'm pretty sure I'm now your biggest fan! Your raw honesty has me sobbing and watching video after video. God bless you for what you are doing and I'm sure you are helping more people than you will ever be aware of! I'm so happy you are sober and strong and thriving! A beautiful family with Reece and your two girls. You are such a beautiful girl I'm glad you didn't lose that from the drugs!
Omg! I've watched this story before, but I remember watching Randy tell this story and this is when Randy said he almost shot you because he thought dude was driving and that when he saw u that he was seconds away from shooting you....you are so blessed to be alive.
Your bedroom looks so nice!! You should do a house tour. Also I’d love to hear you talk about how you’re going to tell your kids about your past, like what age, what you want them to know, etc.
oh my god this is the time that Randy was talking about how he was about to shoot you through the car right? like the windows were tinted and he didnt see you. gosh that is terrifying. I am SO glad youre okay and doing better now. You are a true inspiration Jessica, tthankyou for sharing your story
You are a good person and a strong woman a lot of respect for you. That friend I told you about your video's helping her with her addiction she is finally in rehab decided to go herself 😃
i felt like i was actually there when you were telling this story! awesome video jess. you are so fucking strong. i say it all the time but you really really are. i know damn well i would’ve balled my eyes out if that happened to me and you held that shit in and stood your ground. i love you jess and im so happy you are living your best life now. ❤️
Damn girl thank God you are still here. You are reaching so many people! You are awesome and I know so many people love you and you are inspirational. Giving hope to a lot of people who need to take their first step towards sobriety!! Much love to ya sweetheart! Keep pushing. And it’s totally okay to shed some tears cause you made it and you deserve all the happiness that life has to offer. ♥️🙏♥️🙏♥️🙏♥️
So happy that you were able to get out of that life cause you have a beautiful life now with Reese and your two girls. I have so many things things in common with you and I'm on my 5th year of sobriety . It was a hard road to here but very much worth it. Thanks for sharing your stories.
I love watching and getting lost in these videos Jess, i relate so much to your journey. ❤ your beautiful soul, keep doin what you doin, it looks good on you. Thank you for great videos
Bless your heart ! I just happened across this. I know what pain is, mine is different, from major physical wounds. PTSD, I see it in you. I've dealt with it for over 23 years. I was on the opposite side of the fence from where you were(retired now), but pain and suffering is pain and suffering. Loved the story. Don't ever take a step back. Keep moving forward and take care of yourself! Congrats on 8 yrs ,it'll be 20 before you know it.
I've never done any drugs in my life and I can't relate to your stories but I find your stories so fascinating. The things you've been through and survived are just insane. Even though we've never met I feel so proud of you. You've come such a long way and changed your life. Your whole journey is remarkable and it speaks volumes as to who you are as a person and the amount of strength you have.
Renee Turner At least now it’s a stronger push that this life is horrible and actually has been a deterrent to many people! For my friends who watch who can’t relate, they also tell me they are intrigued and empowered of how strong the human psyche can be!
Same.
Same here
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Renee Turner people that
🖤 thanks for sharing everything you have
Thank you for watching! 🙏
Corpse Husband
hey corpse! i really hope you’re doing well! i can’t exactly say i know how what you’re going through feels, and i can’t say it’ll get any better any time soon, but i admire you’re staying strong. and just so you know, whatever you choose to do with your channel whether it’s quitting, staying, or rarely posting, im here for you with full support! i know you probably won’t see this, but i just wanted you to know. stay safe, yeah?
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Oh shit its corpse xD
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I just have to say that you are an absolutely amazing storyteller. I’m always impressed that you’re able to film and speak without any cuts in between. Not to mention that you create such vivid images with your stories- I really feel like I’m experiencing it with you. You have a gift! Can’t wait to see more from you!
Agree!!!
Was gonna comment the exact same thing. Her ability to tell a story is amazing. Had my full attention from start to finish.
Hey jess- the love of my life died 8 months ago to a heroin overdose 💔 he would have loved your videos as much as I do. You’ve helped me get thru this hard time. Thank you for being you 🙏🏼
I'm so sorry for your loss. 💔
You will see him again one day, I promise. In the meanwhile, try your best to live a long life, just as he would want you to, and help as many people as you can.
You seen too have a very strong character Jessica, so many people feel your message, peace and thanks for your story's, stay up, UK sending love to u n your familam
Very good video. This may be your "calling" . You are helping many people, many don't say how much you help.
Jess, I have been thru many of the same scenarios in my past, and the Mother and Grandmother in me wants to give you a super warm squeeze right now. So proud of you.
You and Christina always post around the same time, and i end up doing eenie meenie miney mo to decide who i end up watching first 😂😂. I love y'all both 💝
LovelyTavy Davis lmao dude I know I usually rotate
Like one day I’ll do xtina first. Then Jess. Then Jess first then xtina. Ok I’m a loser lol
Same! 😂
For real lol!!!!
@Crystal King the struggle IS real 😂 great wording! I watch em both ( even driving if I must🙄😎) one after the other , whoever posts first. My top 2 fav TH-camrs.💗💗 Always a good day when they upload videos🏆
As a girl who use to be a teenage dealer this 3 part video series hits so close to home. Damn I went through so many emotions listening to this story...
Jessica you have the biggest heart and courage to share your experiences with everyone to help them! You are making a huge difference in may people's lives because you are so real and authentic! Sending you warmth today from sunny San Diego! (I remember cold, wintery Chicago- grew up in that area.) Peace and love!
Yes the life was so glamorous!! I thought it was all I needed 😭 I’m so obsessed that your story is in the SAME COUNTY as my case and I overcame it and got my child back too, there’s so much hope
For being clean myself I know how much courage it takes to talk about these stories in depth like this. I do the same for my writings and it's tough no matter how long. Much respect girl, were survivors.
I hate that there's a debate regarding EMS carrying Narcan for this reason. People say things like, "Junkies shouldn't be able to OD and be revived by EMS over and over. It's a waste of time, money and services when they could be saving other people". It's such an ignorant point of view... No matter HOW many times an addict relapses and has to receive Narcan, there is always that chance, as long as they wake up, that they can turn their life around. They have the potential to not only become a functional, contributing member of society, but also HELP OTHERS who have been in a similar situation. This is why you're so appreciated, Jessica. You are changing people's ideas of "what a recovering addict looks like", I'm sure. And you are a great reminder that our experiences, no matter how dark or embarrassing, CAN be used to bring light and awareness. Thanks for sharing, as always 👏🏼🥰
Thank you SO much for using your story for good and not allowing shame to stop you from speaking out. It truly gives others the courage to speak out and motivation that they too can get clean. You are amazing!!
I watched Christina and now I get to watch you!!!
jessica you bring tears to my eyes from the emotion you show. you get much LOVE from me.
You're so strong for sharing these stories. There's not a lot of people have balls like you and Reese to tell the hell you went through
"I just didnt like that this had became my life, I remember thinking I just wanted to do a big shot and go to sleep" I felt that in my core. Still in the life here. Im trying to fight by watching you and others who have gotten out. I force myself to believe that I can. Its just starting day 1 thats the problem.
How you doing now?
I love that you share your stories. It's so weird, because I lived the "fast life" for a while myself (3 years sober) and your stories remind me of so many good times and bad times and make me so thankful to be where I am today. Anyways thank you for sharing, I appreciate your vibe 💜
You are amazing. You speak with such passion and eloquence, and you are really helping to heal others. A story like this one can give so many different messages to a variety of people, addicts and non-addicts alike. I hope you know how valuable that is. You're truly a bridge-builder.
i'm glad you survived those dark times in your life because now you are helping others out of their dark times, you are a healer and a positive power
I felt your pain, stay up girl.
I came across your channel about a week ago. I’m 22 and have a little over a year clean. Seeing and hearing all your stories and what you went through and seeing how happy you are now, gives me so much hope. So happy I found your channel man
Love your story times, they remind me of so many similar situations I’ve been in too. Im celebrating one year of sobriety in a weeks time! I’m so proud, happy and lucky to be away from all that shit. Love you Jess!! ❤️
Spending thanksgiving alone and have binged watched so many of your videos. Thanks for being so open and honest, I feel like I’ve spent all day with you!
I was recently introduced to your channel from a suggested video on TH-cam, I’m obsessed. I’ve been on a binge for 2 days. I absolutely love your strength and success after everything you’ve been through. You have a new fan for life 💗
Jenn Martin cousin 🙂💕 love Jess too! She’s so tough
You know I listen to your stories and like when you said and once we got high it's like all that never happened I totally connected with that cuz if you have drugs nothing else matters right?... at least in miy disfunctional relationship nothing else mattered if we had drugs everything was gravy.... I'm so glad that I'm out of that situation and I'm sober haven't touched heroin in over 3 years and now tapering off methadone I'm so proud of myself and hearing your stories oddly enough helps keep me on my toes and keeps me on the right path so I thank you very much for shearing your journey
You're doing amazing!!!! You should be proud!!! 🖤🖤
I relate to you so much... Such a dark world. When you said I got high and everything was normal wow... It's so real and so sad. Im so happy to hear you are sober and living a normal life. xo
“No matter how bad life gets, no matter how many mistakes you have made. You can always bounce back” So profound and uplifting. 😍👍
I love watching you tell your story, there is so much emotion in your face. Proud of you girl.
This story is seriously terrifying, I’m so glad you got through that
I love hearing your stories! I used H Intravenously too and now have 2 years clean!
Congratulations!
You are the best you tuber out there, this is content people need to see and you explain everything in a way that really gets to people, it is the best thing and everyone needs to understand these things, you are so strong and I love you for your inspiration
It is so weird that while I was a happy eight years old kid was playing, you had such a hard lifetime ❤️❤️
Fave female prison channel by far! I just relate to u sm 💕
And look at you now! You’re so awesome to be able to talk about this and be healthy! Congrats girl keep doing you
You are such a beacon of light for recovering addicts. It's hard to watch the people you love deteriorate from addiction and it's hard to be the person people love and have to watch deteriorate, and ive been both.
In some of your videos I'll hear you refer to yourself when you were in active addiction as a "evil" Or "bad" Person and I'm here to tell you your not evil or bad. You may have made decisions that were bad but you are not a bad person.
I don't believe addicts are bad people, just people who are lost or struggling with their mental health and need help not judgement. I hope one day more people will feel as I do and want to help those who need it instead of ridicule them. Your channel is a great way to help people who may not understand, understand. Proud supporter of you girl! 🤗🤗🤗
That is so scary..! I'm so happy you made it out alive. ❤️ At the same time makes you think how many people end up in similar situations and don't make it out. 😢
I am so proud of you, I'm 23 I have never done drugs but my brother have and still doing them and their in their 30's late 30's they will never get clean in and out of prison and hospitals I haven't seen them since I was around 17lish!! I'm so glad you changed your life for the better girl!! And you're beautiful as ever!!
Thank you so much for being so real and so vulnerable. Your videos give me strength to keep going and pushing to stay sober.
I just wanna tell you I love you and I'm proud of everything you've got through and the person you've become. Your children are so blessed to have you as their mother. Thank you for making these videos and helping people get out of/avoid that lifestyle and being so encouraging to others. You are an absolute diamond ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️
Another heart tugging story. Powerful and eye opening
I can't imagine how hard this story is to tell again thank you for being so open an honest an raw!!!! Your doing amazing things. XoXo sending all my love
Girl it’s 80 degrees in la I can’t imagine having to warm the car up
Imagine that and having to scrape snow and ice off all the windows and windsheild at 7am🤣😭 lol
Oh gods nooooo.... NOOOOOOO!!!! I was pissed it was like 50 the other night. I’m an LA bitch, valley, 818, til I die cos NO SNOW 😹😹😹😹😹 we cool off our cars cos they are ovens!! Got to open all the doors and the back hatch and wait a few minutes to not burn 😹😹😹😹😹
Amanda Grosse maybe you saw my reply or not, but in LA it’s like the opposite, you have to vent your car from the heat or you suffocate. And don’t wear shorts if the seats are leather 😹 you burn! It’s like a real problem getting into an oven car. But I’ll take oven over snow, no offense 😹
@@anniegeiger1031 hahaha oh trust me i know, you are lucky. Its no joke in the north
Amanda Grosse I can’t even imagine!!!😳
You are so so lucky to still be on this Earth. Sharing your stories is bound to save lives. Maybe a book is in order.
You went from him telling you “what you Bagged up is your re up” and then you said “idk what he’s gonna do next take me out and shoot me? WHEN HE JUST GAVE YOU DRUGS.?! Wtf that doesn’t even add up I’m so lost
Out of all your videos I think this one hit me the hardest. I’ve been 5 1/2 years clean from H and have so many of my own stories very similar to this one. I was also a dealer. I was also in a very toxic relationship. “Everything’s good now because we have drugs” I remember constantly saying that, feeling that, thinking that. So constant that it became a “joke” between me and my boyfriend back then. So sick. So devastatingly heartbreaking. This whole story is. God bless you for all the changes you have made to get where you are now, Jessica. Much love, xoxo.
Jess, you are becoming such a great storyteller! Thanks for sharing.
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The things we do in active addiction are mind boggling when we look at it clear headed. I understand when people say it’s like two different people. I’m so proud of you Jess💛 you help me and many other every single day🌟👏💛
I’m so glad you’re here with us today. I heard the sadness and you gulping from trying not to cry. I love you 💕
Thank you for being so strong and being able to relive these memories and situations. Your videos will save someone's life if they haven't already. Keep them comming 🔥🔥
We are so pleased that you have survived to tell us about your life ❤️
Love from UK xx
Omg I can currently relate to how your life was and you give me so much hope. I am currently living a hectic messed up life and am addicted to heroin. I am going to treatment tomorrow and my dad just took me in yesterday after so long of not seeing him because of my lifestyle choices. One of your videos popped up while scrolling through facebook and I'm so glad I watched it and found your channel. You are so amazing and should be so proud. You just gave me so much hope! I can't wait to start the beginning of the rest of my life tomorrow! I'm going to watch all of your videos from now until I go into treatment tomorrow! You are proof there is light at the end of the tunnel and that people can change and to not give up. You. Are. Awesome!
Just sat down with a cuppa and one of your videos has come up thankyou
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Your videos are so inspiring. I'm in the UK and suffer with my mental health your positive vlog's are really helping me. Thankyou xx
I felt the last 5 minutes of this deep in my soul! Lots of love 💜💙🖤
Jessica! I love how you use your story to encourage. I have never taken drugs but have a history of depression and you encourage me so much, I'm 45 years old, I think you are a blessing to youth, your age mates and all ages. Much gratitude for being real and sharing things that aren't glamorous to help others 💖💖
P.S I live in England and it's cold here too, it's about 6 degrees now though it's night time, my brother lives in Texas and said it's 6 degrees too, in the day. You and your beautiful family, stay warm Xxx
I had to Google the meaning of re up day, I hadn’t heard of it.
Damn girl, dark days are right. This story and all your stories pull at my heart strings. You must have been so far and debt and sinking yourself into a deeper dark hole, each time u seen your guy. So proud of the person u are now though. U let that life go. And moved forward. Most don't. And they struggle. Addiction is hard, and scary. And u made it out. Keep your head up, keep shinning and keep smiling 💗 positive vibes sent your way 💛
This sounds absolutely terrifying. I'm so glad that you're still here. 💙
Jess Thank you for letting your triggers support others thru their triggers... I dig your honesty and your soul! xox
I got pushed once and I smashed against a parked car with the back of my head. I was knocked out for a few moments. A pedestrian, a woman said: she’s hurt, she’s bleeding. The guy who pushed me, reached down to help me up and help me get away, before the lady could call the ambulance.
I was badly hurt, we had to go to the hospital and I had to get 7 stitches. I still got a scar. I had to puke, it hurt so bad.
All the time I listen to Jess, I remember episodes from my own life, wich have been similar in a way.
Jessica, thank you so much for sharing your stories, your experiences and your ❤️!!
I romanticized the shit out of addiction & selling drugs. It’s not cool, but I was so proud of it at the time.
You're so dang strong. Looking at you now I couldn't imagine what you went through and how you were as a person back in the day. You're still a hustler with a strong personality, but now you're using it right. So much respect for you! ❤️
Your storytelling skills are top notch. I'm so glad I came across your channel. I was living in the Downtown Eastside of Vancouver, Canada which if you Google is known notoriously for free dealing and and free using, safe sites, and these days (and the 5 years I was an addict) a HUGE amount of Fentanyl. Did you know that 92% of what is sold as H is actually a Fentanyl analogue or a stronger research chemical in Canada? We don't even have real H anymore. That's a true stat. I'm surprised I made it alive. Though I was never incarcerated (they only catch the big fish due to the extremes in the neighbourhood), your stories help me stay grounded and remind me that I've got to keep up. Over 1 year sober now. Respect!
This sounds like a scene from a Quentin Tarantino film.
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i relate to your stories too much. i’ve thankfully been able to escape the life i once knew, but it seems to get harder everyday. the fast life is a slippery slope and it’s hard to stay on top of.
I thank god you make it out of that lifestyle...I seen too many of my friends that has committed suicide because of drugs....it so sad.
I wonder how many lives this channel has saved. With almost 1 million subscribers I am sure at least a few will avoid the dark path after learning of Jessica's experiences. I bet a few more have expedited their exit from the "underworld".
She doesn't have a million. SHe buys subs. It's been proven multiple times
You are one of the best story tellers. I listen to your videos while I am editing photos (I'm a wedding photographer) and it keeps me so interested and helps me concentrate! Love it, keep it up!!
Omg I am so excited about This video. You are so strong to share this story with us. ❤️
You tell your stories like it happen yesterday. I love listening to your stories. I'm just in awe Jessica!! You are amazing. 🖤 love always 🖤
I love your videos and it is so comforting to know someone else has gone through these things as female in this lifestyle thank you so much
ayyyyynd also, I'm sooo here for a Netflix series of your life story.
You are amazingly inspirational. You have such a postive outlook and you pulled youreself up from the worst life I could imagine. You managed to create a family and I'm sure you are giving your daughter a better life than your mother gave you. This is the epitome of human progress. Love your videos and thanks for the inspiration!
Just watched your live, now this! Best morning ever 🤍
Thank god you are alive from this situation.
You truly have put in the work and it shows and the pain that you have to go through to bring up the stories I could totally relate so I really commend you for going on the Internet and sharing everything that you do the good the bad the ugly, I love it all 🖤
Thanks for always being open & honest with us!💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜CT scan in the morning.
Good luck with the scan 🤞🤞🙏
I cried so much watching you talk and get emotional💖 you’ve come so far
To all of the people who have overcome challenges in their life I’m so happy you you could beat your problems and live a good life now
Hey BEAUTIFUL GIRL!!!!!
I found you on accident, looking for the show prison wives club.
I'm pretty sure I'm now your biggest fan! Your raw honesty has me sobbing and watching video after video. God bless you for what you are doing and I'm sure you are helping more people than you will ever be aware of!
I'm so happy you are sober and strong and thriving! A beautiful family with Reece and your two girls. You are such a beautiful girl I'm glad you didn't lose that from the drugs!
Strong brave woman . Keeping you in my prayers 💙🙏
Stand proud and tall,not only have you come a long way,but you are putting back,by trying to stop others
Omg! I've watched this story before, but I remember watching Randy tell this story and this is when Randy said he almost shot you because he thought dude was driving and that when he saw u that he was seconds away from shooting you....you are so blessed to be alive.
just got home from work & now i get to relax & watch this!!! i'm so happy
That is so scary! It seems even scarier hearing it all at once vs pieces of the story!
girl i literally love you so much!!!! you’ve been through so much bullshit and you’re still so strong💖💘💗💕💓💞 ur all i watch when i do my makeup😭
Your bedroom looks so nice!! You should do a house tour. Also I’d love to hear you talk about how you’re going to tell your kids about your past, like what age, what you want them to know, etc.
oh my god this is the time that Randy was talking about how he was about to shoot you through the car right? like the windows were tinted and he didnt see you. gosh that is terrifying. I am SO glad youre okay and doing better now. You are a true inspiration Jessica, tthankyou for sharing your story
Yes🖤🙏
You are a good person and a strong woman a lot of respect for you. That friend I told you about your video's helping her with her addiction she is finally in rehab decided to go herself 😃
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i felt like i was actually there when you were telling this story! awesome video jess. you are so fucking strong. i say it all the time but you really really are. i know damn well i would’ve balled my eyes out if that happened to me and you held that shit in and stood your ground. i love you jess and im so happy you are living your best life now. ❤️
Thanks for sharing your real life story..your amazing girl
Yes!! This is what I needed to get out of bed and get ready for work! Thank you ❤️
I love your videos, I’ve literally binge watched them since I found your channel. You’re an amazing person!! 🖤
I am so blessed that i found your channel ..i cant even stress this enough.
Please keep telling your story! You have probably helped more people than you know! Thank you!💜💜💜
YES! I've been waiting for part 2
Damn girl thank God you are still here. You are reaching so many people! You are awesome and I know so many people love you and you are inspirational. Giving hope to a lot of people who need to take their first step towards sobriety!! Much love to ya sweetheart! Keep pushing. And it’s totally okay to shed some tears cause you made it and you deserve all the happiness that life has to offer. ♥️🙏♥️🙏♥️🙏♥️
So happy that you were able to get out of that life cause you have a beautiful life now with Reese and your two girls. I have so many things things in common with you and I'm on my 5th year of sobriety . It was a hard road to here but very much worth it. Thanks for sharing your stories.
Thank you so much for your strength and courage sharing this part of your life.
I love watching and getting lost in these videos Jess, i relate so much to your journey. ❤ your beautiful soul, keep doin what you doin, it looks good on you. Thank you for great videos
when her voice broke, my heart broke. we love you, jess💚
Bless your heart ! I just happened across this. I know what pain is, mine is different, from major physical wounds. PTSD, I see it in you. I've dealt with it for over 23 years. I was on the opposite side of the fence from where you were(retired now), but pain and suffering is pain and suffering. Loved the story.
Don't ever take a step back. Keep moving forward and take care of yourself! Congrats on 8 yrs ,it'll be 20 before you know it.