In bed,thinking about my life choices,all the good things I've taken for granted,all the opportunities I've missed,all the memories I've made throughout these years. It hurts not only mentally but i feel a sharp pain in my heart when i listen to this music
okay now make a list on only the good things, you can breath, you have air in your lungs,you can hear, you can see, you can feel, you can toucch my point is you only focus on the negative, where ever your attention goes it grows, focus on the good things and more good will appear
Hold your breath and tears. Appreciate everything that you may consider pointless. Appreciate the love you receive from your family, God, Jesus amongst other sources. Appreciate the shelter. Appreciate your bed. Always look at life like the moon. Having a bright and dark side; beaming at its highest moments.
throughout the time we've spent together, all the laughs and all the name calling. i'm so thankful i was able to meet a beautiful and kind soul like you. you we're my everything, and i loved you and i still do. i cherish the memories. your laugh, your smile, ur hair, ur body, ur eyes. i loved everything about you and i still do. you stood out to me and i could never compare you to anyone. the love i had for you felt like no other, the relationship we had, i never experienced with anyone before. you are forever my beautiful sweet boy, i'm so sorry for what i did. it was never any of my intentions to hurt you. when we first met i noticed how hurt you were and i wanted to heal you. from all of your trauma and trust issues. i wanted to fix something i never broke. and when i see that smile or hear that laugh, i am reminded of how blessed i was to have you. if i could just go back one last time when i first told you, i liked you, i wouldn't have ever pressured you into dating me. if i was more patient this wouldn't have ever happened. i will wait for you, take all the time in the world you need. because i never gave you that time for yourself. i will always think back on what i did. i will never forgive myself for it. and words can not describe how deeply sorry i am. if we do ever reunite, just know, i will always be somewhere, waiting for you.
The poison tree, its branches twisted and gnarled, A symbol of love that had turned cold. Once, its leaves were green, its bark was smooth, But now, it stands, a barren, lifeless thing, A reminder of the love that we had known. We met, and I knew he was the one, My heart skipped beats, my soul had begun. Before I knew his name, I knew he was mine, And he, my dear, was my favorite find. We fell in love, deeply, like the tree's roots, Our love was strong, our hearts, it soared. We shared memories, laughs, and sweet embraces, Our love was pure, our bond, unbreakable spaces. But as days passed, he started to fade, Like the leaves that fall, our love did decay. He distanced himself, and I felt the pain, Like a knife that cuts, our love was in vain. The memories linger, they won't go away, Like the scars that won't heal, they stay. The laughs we shared, the moments we had, Are etched in my heart, forever sad. Was it worth it? I'll never know, For love is a risk, we have to grow. But the memories, they'll always remain, A bittersweet reminder of the love we gained. The poison tree, it stands tall and proud, A symbol of love, that's now allowed. I'll cherish the memories, I'll hold them tight, For love, though it hurts, is always worth the fight.
Lyrics: Throwing poison seeds into the wind Make the poison tree to grow in me begin Let your branches fork my veins Let your honey tide in me Blood loving, poison whispering Oh, beautiful poison tree Let your power grow in me Let your sorrow pour in me Take away my blood and bones Make your flowers deep inside of me Least I'll still have company In my insides, tiny poison tree I seal my love in me Tiny beautiful poison tree Oh, beautiful poison tree Let your power grow in me Let your sorrows flow in me Turn me into a poison tree Turn me into a poison tree Make my shadow go away Make my branches strong and hard Make my leaves flower and spread Make me feel like something powerful Is growing deep inside of me Turn me into a poison tree
she’s so fuckin beautiful yet so quiet just makes her even prettier but shes just a damn crush bro cant trust anyone anymore cause my mind wont let me.
It's hard to be an empath. If I help someone who is hurt, they are healed. Yet i am hurt over and over again, in sacrifice to help them again and again. Pierced by the wounds of the past, present and regret, who will never change. All caused by them... Yet I give up my soul to help a filthy flesh in need. For souless they are as they cannot speak. Then, once they are healed by my painful sacrifice, That has caused many tears to shed. They run. They run as fast and far as they can away from me. Because i will help everyone, but nobody will ever help me.
you were undeniably smart. you were astonishingly handsome. you were unbelievably talented in every way. you always made everyone happy. you made me happy. your smile and the way you looked at me. you always took time to hang out with me. you removed all the cacophonies from my head. you took me away from my own mind, a dark and empty space with stars that couldnt shine. you were amazing, and everything ive ever wanted. i wish you were still on this earth to make that happen.
We lost you today, May your lost soul explore the long leeps of land, As the last rose rises There’s always one that falls I can’t change this but I can still feel it ❤️🩹 Those simple moments whipped into memory’s Cause I’ll never see you again Ready easy ☮️ ❤️🩹LLL❤️🩹 Happy birthday man ❤️🔥
@@venubunit gets better u not alone i just did 5gtam of schrooms and intentionaly wanted to feel how i really feel all the pain sadnes betrayel etc etc after i faces it while tripping bals i feel lighter,face it dont pace it and u will heal
It is what strangles you inside, it is the weight and chains that dig you deeper into the bottomless pit of drowning and sorrow. You will not see light. Yet the crystals that dangle like a bright window of hope, yet you decide to keep hurting. As this moment will make what you truly desired. Open peace and inner wealth.
Is this what memories sounds like? If so take me to my happiest one I can only live in bliss for so long Till the sorrows, all these sorrows Start playing my song. My heart isn't hollow but I still feel the echoes They ring in my heart So distorted I can't tell them apart I cry, I smile, I think, I wonder How to get this anger out without causing thunder . . Once i pull the plug its all storm's Storms that can eat me up in one bite.
Как бы плохо тебе не было, как бы сильно ты не устал - сражайся. Борись за свою жизнь. Не выживай а живи. Кайфуй. Отстаивай своё право быть счастливым. Только когда начинается дождь ты понимаешь всю ценность ясного неба. Если сдашься легче не станет. Всем нужна поддержка, но ты не все, ты можешь и без нее. Делай. Иди к мечте. Живи
through the memories, through the calls, through every moment i have with you, they have always been my moments. you have always made me feel like a person. always cared for me and always showed me that i truly matter in this world. i will always appreciate you for every little thing you do. thank you.
“Glowing tree” Frail and brittle, the leaves fall with the poison Stale and still the roots no longer support the leaves Sad and gone is the wind that use to blow with the tree It’s poison, a strangely familiar taste Almost a blend of green brown and gold All the same feelings but with a different tone Still it reminds me Of a dream I dreamt But the dream wasn’t about me It only showed the poison tree But once I woke up I missed seeing that tree Because in the dream I wasn’t the tree, I was the poison Erasing its glowing energy
this dosent relax me, it brings me back to the times where i genuinely thought id end it all, but its weirdly peaceful though i cry everytime i hear it. lol i aint ever gonna be truly happy
Run the risks darling And bind getting us caught For the wait in jail will be heavy on our hearts The red moon will rise with our blood in mind And we'll grasp hook of life and death Yin and yang Until they tear us apart Of now we both are trapped In a endless love of sorrows and hate I can feel each shred of pain.
They were friends before me, But I felt like I fit in They were so nice and kind to me But I’m the problem I have kindness to give but not for myself I think of ways to help everybody else.. Cause I can’t stand knowing that there suffering But I know I can’t fix it And i won’t stop trying But please let me in I’m begging, I wanna be there for u thru thick and thin The thought of u leaving crushes me harder then everything I rather my house burn down then lose you and you smile I wanna see the way you see the world I wanna travel I wanna say “I love you” But I’ll just fuck it up I’m sorry, I’ve caused myself such sorrows If u knew you’d probably say “I love you too” But some how that makes it worse.. Why drop everything for me when I can barely plant my feet Why wonder thru the woods if I’m the one running Why me How? And what will this change? What’s worse is, this is the only thing keeping me grounded . So I need to put you on pause and come back.. . But that’s not how this works, And there’s nothing i can do.. But I still cry And I still care to ask why, And I haven’t gone completely cold So I still have that humanity to hold But it’s burning low like a torch And I’m running low on fuel.. Scared to ask And reach my hand out To say “Help” Without the whispers Or the doubts
"🖤" Distractions arent always that bad They sometimes help when things get mad. When i get lost in my head They bring me back out again, Or rather, Smother what i want to cover & hide what i hate In the far backs of my mind To get caught up and lose track of time, To be busy and have those distractions Is like a blessing is disguise . To let out my emotions not with my lips but the feelings in my brain I cant even try to decipher the words anymore there just screams . My head feels so loud and heavy But then i relise the rooms actually quite and im the one thats unsteady Not ready to move or change Trying to make patterns out of nothing.
This sound helps me a lot I think about things that I went through and try and heal to this, it’s been so hard lately all I do is cry and haven’t had much appetite in two weeks I’ve lost almost 20lbs from not eating I can’t eat I don’t get hungry all I do is sleep..
I miss her, all the text, all the time i have spent with her idk what i did wrong she just left me i am feeling empty but i cant be a dead brother, a dead son i am very tired if you read this thank you for your time.
I experienced the first love with this song.. then I found out that a person communicates with me out of politeness, I stopped communicating immediately. the next day I find out that he is dating some girl and I was telling me that he is not in a relationship, I still love him, but he does not know it and let me not break the relationship for the happiness of myself, let him live happily with this girl
to anyone that needs to hear this hey i just wanted to remind you, you only live once ur not immortal or live forver so please go pray go be happy go tell them you love them dont let anyone bring u down dont even think abt them at all because at the end u wasted ur whole day thinking abt how they hurt u when u could be healing and please hug ur mum or dad or even both of them its there frist time living so please be nice to them live everyday like its ur last bc who knows it could be if you want to let out ur anger/sadness u can ventill try my very best to help you stay strong you got this
":🕓:" One of my biggest fears is for my negative thoughts to be correct My negative feeling to become a indefinite reality. . . . I can say im uneasy But not having a ground to walk on is truly frightening . New year, new air But yet i still hold my breath And have a tight chest And hope for you to come back To maybe poison me Or maybe i want revenge for all the scrutiny All the shit we've been thru Or maybe i just cut contact.. . What dose time try to measure? periods between past present and future They say not to waste it But is that really the correct way to say it What dose "waste" even mean?
"Ok" . Why fight the words when they wont stop flowing Why stich the wound if its not exploding Why do extra when you can barly keep up Why not take a rest? . I dont think im the issues, All because i mess up Its the way you see the world and group me in with everyone else Why cant you see me as an individual *** . I want this exhilarating happy life That makes me excited like Christmas eve night . I wonder what kid me would think, We wanted to be the biggest and the best But "thats just how kids think" Well what if i really stuck with that goal Would i still be where i dont wanna be? Where i am today doesn't reflect all the years ive lived And i cant explain how unreasonable my mind is My expectations shatter me.. And im the only one that feels it .
To whoever reads this, i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
My daughter can never sleep with this song, she has inomina (am not sure if i spelt that right.) Thank you for making this. my daughter can sleep a little more better.
''yu-kno'' i adore you yet sometimes i cant stand you but i love to stand by you even if there's nothing going on i like how you pop in and out of the blue like a poppy shifting in the wind i shall not forget but i wont want to dwell on it its only a page in my book now compare the chapters one after another you think you have one up on me but that's false what i do is not something you can control i hope this path is bright
"Beauty is pain" So then why is there sorrow in my life Is there someone who sees me as beautiful As astonishing as the stars For dose this person (or persons) wish to cause me pain? maybe harm? Cause that's all I feel I'd say I'm numb but even that numbness has that bitter cold feel to it. The taste of hate. I like to write poems, dont mean I'm good at em For what I say is true. Spoken by my present? past or future? Maybe my words even speak for you?
The word fake means something is not real Dose that mean that word and others are all fake to Why do some words have more power over others And some have stronger meanings than most And why when i close my eyes night I always fight my demons the most
This tiered feeling is unfortunately comforting i cant think rn only feel and i feel lost, but i have no where to be particularly but to be so relaxed is like paranoia to me over and over and over again and the cycle repeats ... ofc i think of how things could have ended up much differently but i already came up with 1000 scenarios in my head . . . _ _ _ . . . if you have questions at least try to listen why explain myself to someone who wouldn't care to be there, minutes turn into hours, hours turn into days days weeks, weeks years some months i can remember every detail but most are an autopilot daze ` i crave love, affectionate, & attention but i am, i.. i am indeed scared if i reach out into the darkness and get my hand cut off is it my fault??? or the thing that slashes it is darkness after all..
if you never take risks.. how do u learn? and if you always take risks... you would be dead. ... what they dont tell you is 1 risky risk is all it takes to really change you
it wont just change you, ittle plunge a thorn of guilt and misery into your ill-kept and barely beating heart. Ittle clench its tethers and steer you into a distant horison of mystery. No matter how bright the flames are.
conrad i wish you would be able to see through your past fears and trauma and understand that someone out there whether it's across the country has loved you all this time i miss all our crazy shenanigans and even though it's been 2 years i can't move on and i don't know why. i know i have moved on because i sense that both my mind and heart are in a different place but i'm not ready to end that chapter with you. it's like my heart is tied into strings despite our distant past and faded memories, i've never stopped loving you even after we ended our relationship i wish i had the courage to say this to your face but i just can't force myself to. it's because i'm scared and i fear that you may not feel the same way, even if you don't, i wouldn't want to ruin what we have as friends because i'm content and happy with being your friend if it means that i can stay by your side and watch you grow as a person like you have done so all this time
I live everyday, or do these days live me. I feel like im watching my life behind a screen And sometimes i wish to turn off that tv To take the whole thing and dump it all away. Just to feel free But those feelings wont last and the static comes back Biting me hard like a bitter cold night. I wish to be free.. But what will i do if i really was free Would i really stay relived Or would i continue wishing and get lost in a fake reality.
@@venubun keep fighting so one day you can share ur story and everything you've fought for, no one knows u better than urself, take a rest day u deserve it 🙏🏾
i know i shouldn't miss you, i know you hurt me, and your scar's left on me, it hurts but i need you, i really miss you dearly, i can't believe you did this to me, why can't i stop thinking about you? i know you're gonna hurt me, again. but i love you.
it’s been 5 months. why cant i move on. i dont love him anymore but i cry over him every once in a while. i dont know what ive done that made you fell out of love, but u fucking changed my perspective on love. you were my everything, after every bad day all i wanted was to talk to you. what did i do that i was undeserving of love. why do you get to be happy with another girl when i am destroyed. god, why does he get to be happy when i am over here struggling to even form a basic romantic thought on someone. why did this have to happen to me this way.
“🏁Start” I try and try But I can’t win the fight How do you expect so much out of me if you don’t even believe in me Support is something that should be easy, or at least common But support is what I lack Self hate is what I have Simply because of how some people wanna act They yell at every chance they get I won’t dwell on it much longer Cause I won’t get any farther Almost like there holding me back
“Womp womp” I feel like no one takes me seriously But is that there fault? Or the lack of stride and dignity in me Simply a reflection on the water Got my askn myself why bother . When the right one comes I hope they see past my refection And glimpse into the real me Womp womp.
As a shifter, this song reminds me of my dr a lot. I really hope "shifting" isn't some sort of joke becouse i really hate it here. It's crazy how people find so much peace in fictional characters. I wake up and all i think about is the world i actually wanna live it. I hate this reality so danm much and i rlly rllt hope i get to see him one day. (call me delulu but this man saved my life)
Bom essa e minha história Meu nome é Luiz tenho 15 anos, a alguns anos atrás descobrimos que meu irmão tinha câncer no fígado, e eu princípio de epilepsia, foi uma época difícil pra minha é pra minha família, meu irmão precisava de tratamento em outro estado e minha mãe foi com ele , deixando eu e meu pai em casa sozinhos por dois meses, mas antes deles irem e antes de descobrimos isso eu comecei a sofrer bullyng na escola eu não ligava tanto , mas quando isso aconteceu tudo mudou , tudo me afetava era um simples ato e eu chorava , poxa não é fácil pra uma criança ver a mãe chorando a noite com medo de perder os filhos, não é fácil pra uma criança se deitar a noite e ter medo de morrer engasgado com a própria babá, o tempo passou e nós curamos , tentei pedir ajuda pra minha mãe sobre o bullyng mas ela sempre disse que era besteira, poxa eu só queria ouvir uma palavra amiga, mas isso não aconteceu, e até hoje penso nisso após anos . Fim in English Well, that's my story My name is Luiz, I'm 15 years old, a few years ago we discovered that my brother had liver cancer, and I had epilepsy, it was a difficult time for me and my family, my brother needed treatment elsewhere state and my mother went with him, leaving me and my father at home alone for two months, but before they went and before we found out about this I started to suffer bullying at school I didn't care so much, but when that happened everything changed, everything changed for me. It was a simple act and I cried, well, it's not easy for a child to see their mother crying at night for fear of losing her children, it's not easy for a child to go to bed at night and be afraid of choking to death on their own nanny, Time passed and we healed, I tried to ask my mother for help about the bullying but she always said it was nonsense, hey I just wanted to hear a friendly word, but that didn't happen, and I still think about it today after years. End
"Nice" What dose being nice even mean? Being a basic nice human being Helping someone when there in need, Or being nice to the mean? If everyone was nice we would see it as normal and if everyone were mean we'd see it as normal If everyone was normal we'd see it as normal And even if everyone was different we'd see it as normal But still not treat it as Normal ? Normal doesn't actually fucking exist It's a made up word like "perfect" Cause everyone's "perfect" is not the same And even if it was not much would change still an endless dream to chase away And hope you get a grasp of a break . It doesn't matter, but it actually dose. It's the reason it hurts so fucking much . I am done wishing, if people chose to stay that's on them not on me Don't cry when u get hurt from fake dreams . I'm not your safety blanket . . But it really truly seems like they don't care . Gosh I'm losing it. ... . .. .
we ain't making it out depression and emotional detachment issues with this one😂😂😂😂😂😂😂💯💯💯💯💯💯🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️❤️🔥❤️🔥🥃🥃
this is what my mind sounds like, I find comfort in this
real :3
dont mind the pfp my mom lol but yeah fr tho i find peace in this it sounds so sad but it feels so right
In bed,thinking about my life choices,all the good things I've taken for granted,all the opportunities I've missed,all the memories I've made throughout these years. It hurts not only mentally but i feel a sharp pain in my heart when i listen to this music
okay now make a list on only the good things, you can breath, you have air in your lungs,you can hear, you can see, you can feel, you can toucch my point is you only focus on the negative, where ever your attention goes it grows, focus on the good things and more good will appear
Hold your breath and tears. Appreciate everything that you may consider pointless. Appreciate the love you receive from your family, God, Jesus amongst other sources. Appreciate the shelter. Appreciate your bed. Always look at life like the moon. Having a bright and dark side; beaming at its highest moments.
Fr
They say in heaven you get anything you wish for.
Im gonna wish for all the lives i could've had.
throughout the time we've spent together, all the laughs and all the name calling. i'm so thankful i was able to meet a beautiful and kind soul like you. you we're my everything, and i loved you and i still do. i cherish the memories. your laugh, your smile, ur hair, ur body, ur eyes. i loved everything about you and i still do. you stood out to me and i could never compare you to anyone. the love i had for you felt like no other, the relationship we had, i never experienced with anyone before. you are forever my beautiful sweet boy, i'm so sorry for what i did. it was never any of my intentions to hurt you. when we first met i noticed how hurt you were and i wanted to heal you. from all of your trauma and trust issues. i wanted to fix something i never broke. and when i see that smile or hear that laugh, i am reminded of how blessed i was to have you. if i could just go back one last time when i first told you, i liked you, i wouldn't have ever pressured you into dating me. if i was more patient this wouldn't have ever happened. i will wait for you, take all the time in the world you need. because i never gave you that time for yourself. i will always think back on what i did. i will never forgive myself for it. and words can not describe how deeply sorry i am. if we do ever reunite, just know, i will always be somewhere, waiting for you.
I really miss her too
Sorry homie, I just felt like I want to say something to someone who understands my feelings, I'm dying bro/:
lmao bro down hysterically
I’m so sorry for you sweetheart I hope he comeback you really have a pure soul stay strong cutie❤
I’m sorry Man. It really be like that Fr :(
@@venubunEverything dies, nothing will exist forever.
we aint making it out of the bed with this one😂😂😂😂😂😂🔥🔥🔥🔥🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣
😭
hit the gym and stfu for once
😭 🙏🏻
rs
Real shit
People don’t know where u started
They just see who you are now
Show them yours strengths
Don’t be afraid to fail
Learn from your mistakes
The poison tree, its branches twisted and gnarled,
A symbol of love that had turned cold.
Once, its leaves were green, its bark was smooth,
But now, it stands, a barren, lifeless thing,
A reminder of the love that we had known.
We met, and I knew he was the one,
My heart skipped beats, my soul had begun.
Before I knew his name, I knew he was mine,
And he, my dear, was my favorite find.
We fell in love, deeply, like the tree's roots,
Our love was strong, our hearts, it soared.
We shared memories, laughs, and sweet embraces,
Our love was pure, our bond, unbreakable spaces.
But as days passed, he started to fade,
Like the leaves that fall, our love did decay.
He distanced himself, and I felt the pain,
Like a knife that cuts, our love was in vain.
The memories linger, they won't go away,
Like the scars that won't heal, they stay.
The laughs we shared, the moments we had,
Are etched in my heart, forever sad.
Was it worth it? I'll never know,
For love is a risk, we have to grow.
But the memories, they'll always remain,
A bittersweet reminder of the love we gained.
The poison tree, it stands tall and proud,
A symbol of love, that's now allowed.
I'll cherish the memories, I'll hold them tight,
For love, though it hurts, is always worth the fight.
The Poison Tree.
thats so beautiful.
this typa music is the cure for depression or the reason for it.
i think ur up 2 no good buckaroo
Lyrics:
Throwing poison seeds into the wind
Make the poison tree to grow in me begin
Let your branches fork my veins
Let your honey tide in me
Blood loving, poison whispering
Oh, beautiful poison tree
Let your power grow in me
Let your sorrow pour in me
Take away my blood and bones
Make your flowers deep inside of me
Least I'll still have company In my insides, tiny poison tree
I seal my love in me
Tiny beautiful poison tree
Oh, beautiful poison tree
Let your power grow in me
Let your sorrows flow in me
Turn me into a poison tree
Turn me into a poison tree
Make my shadow go away
Make my branches strong and hard
Make my leaves flower and spread
Make me feel like something powerful
Is growing deep inside of me
Turn me into a poison tree
Idk I can't hear anything but dundundundundudndundundundun
@@meow_mcjj real 🕯️
she’s so fuckin beautiful yet so quiet
just makes her even prettier but shes just a damn crush bro
cant trust anyone anymore cause my mind wont let me.
This is exactly what I’ve been looking for just with the rain was louder
"What makes you at peace?"
Me sitting in my room at night listening to this while the memories and thoughts pass throughout my brain
It's hard to be an empath.
If I help someone who is hurt, they are healed.
Yet i am hurt over and over again, in sacrifice to help them again and again.
Pierced by the wounds of the past, present and regret, who will never change.
All caused by them...
Yet I give up my soul to help a filthy flesh in need.
For souless they are as they cannot speak.
Then, once they are healed by my painful sacrifice,
That has caused many tears to shed.
They run.
They run as fast and far as they can away from me.
Because i will help everyone, but nobody will ever help me.
who the hell poisoned the tree
Humans probably 😊
Go dDdy
I did
I ate the tree…
@@MochiQuackjerk😢
Bro I snoozed immediately lmao them for making this
i really can't sleep without this song
me neither
same
Fr, It has come to a point where I can only go to sleep with this song on, or anything like this
This is the only way I can sleep
@@loukang5468Same frr
I want to feel happiness one last time, But that'll never come back.
play minecraft
give yourself a chance
I hope u find your happiness
Ohhh man
Belive in yourself
Love yourself
Have a time to talk with yourself
Happeniss never came with people or lonely
Now get up and have afun
omg thank you,you’re the first who do it in slowed + reverb + rain and 1hour and instrumental only ,i will sleep in listening this
Damn are you okay
@@svn_urpreal
@@serokun5351I'm not😀
you were undeniably smart. you were astonishingly handsome. you were unbelievably talented in every way. you always made everyone happy. you made me happy. your smile and the way you looked at me. you always took time to hang out with me. you removed all the cacophonies from my head. you took me away from my own mind, a dark and empty space with stars that couldnt shine. you were amazing, and everything ive ever wanted. i wish you were still on this earth to make that happen.
I don’t know how to sleep without this song.
I miss my days with u
It was the happiest, quietest, loveliest, safest days I lived in my whole life):
isnt it pathetic how we waste so much time on a certain person and in the end they prove that they werent even worth a second of it.
@@kayla-yf7hhspending time on a person you loved is never a waste
@@kayla-yf7hh u r right
I understand this now
@@kayla-yf7hh And I'll never love anyone like this again, it's just bc nobody deserves it.
We lost you today,
May your lost soul explore the long leeps of land,
As the last rose rises
There’s always one that falls
I can’t change this but I can still feel it ❤️🩹
Those simple moments whipped into memory’s
Cause I’ll never see you again
Ready easy ☮️
❤️🩹LLL❤️🩹
Happy birthday man ❤️🔥
I can't even begin
to describe how
I'm feeling right now
but all I can say is that
it hurts a lot
nigga delete this corny ass shit rn😭😭🙏
It’ll get better, time heals all wounds my friend.
@@MKProsDthx bro
@@venubunit gets better u not alone i just did 5gtam of schrooms and intentionaly wanted to feel how i really feel all the pain sadnes betrayel etc etc after i faces it while tripping bals i feel lighter,face it dont pace it and u will heal
It is what strangles you inside, it is the weight and chains that dig you deeper into the bottomless pit of drowning and sorrow. You will not see light. Yet the crystals that dangle like a bright window of hope, yet you decide to keep hurting. As this moment will make what you truly desired. Open peace and inner wealth.
Everytime I pass by that place, past memories of our bond flood my mind…I miss her so much
Is this what memories sounds like?
If so take me to my happiest one
I can only live in bliss for so long
Till the sorrows, all these sorrows
Start playing my song.
My heart isn't hollow but I still feel the echoes
They ring in my heart
So distorted I can't tell them apart
I cry, I smile, I think, I wonder
How to get this anger out without causing thunder
.
.
Once i pull the plug its all storm's
Storms that can eat me up in one bite.
This song lowkey fire
i get sleep paralysis if i don't listen to grouper at night
liz harris, thank you for everything
me too
Как бы плохо тебе не было, как бы сильно ты не устал - сражайся. Борись за свою жизнь. Не выживай а живи. Кайфуй. Отстаивай своё право быть счастливым. Только когда начинается дождь ты понимаешь всю ценность ясного неба. Если сдашься легче не станет. Всем нужна поддержка, но ты не все, ты можешь и без нее. Делай. Иди к мечте. Живи
Real bro
through the memories, through the calls, through every moment i have with you, they have always been my moments. you have always made me feel like a person. always cared for me and always showed me that i truly matter in this world. i will always appreciate you for every little thing you do. thank you.
“Glowing tree”
Frail and brittle, the leaves fall with the poison
Stale and still the roots no longer support the leaves
Sad and gone is the wind that use to blow with the tree
It’s poison, a strangely familiar taste
Almost a blend of green brown and gold
All the same feelings but with a different tone
Still it reminds me
Of a dream I dreamt
But the dream wasn’t about me
It only showed the poison tree
But once I woke up
I missed seeing that tree
Because in the dream I wasn’t the tree, I was the poison
Erasing its glowing energy
i dont even like poetry but damn this is fye
@@nottez-hl9vd Thank you ♥️
@@nottez-hl9vd Thank you !
this dosent relax me, it brings me back to the times where i genuinely thought id end it all, but its weirdly peaceful though i cry everytime i hear it. lol i aint ever gonna be truly happy
perfect version
Run the risks darling
And bind getting us caught
For the wait in jail will be heavy on our hearts
The red moon will rise with our blood in mind
And we'll grasp hook of life and death
Yin and yang
Until they tear us apart
Of now we both are trapped In a endless love of sorrows and hate
I can feel each shred of pain.
They were friends before me,
But I felt like I fit in
They were so nice and kind to me
But I’m the problem
I have kindness to give but not for myself
I think of ways to help everybody else..
Cause I can’t stand knowing that there suffering
But I know I can’t fix it
And i won’t stop trying
But please let me in
I’m begging,
I wanna be there for u thru thick and thin
The thought of u leaving crushes me harder then everything
I rather my house burn down then lose you and you smile
I wanna see the way you see the world
I wanna travel
I wanna say “I love you”
But I’ll just fuck it up
I’m sorry,
I’ve caused myself such sorrows
If u knew you’d probably say “I love you too”
But some how that makes it worse..
Why drop everything for me when I can barely plant my feet
Why wonder thru the woods if I’m the one running
Why me
How?
And what will this change?
What’s worse is, this is the only thing keeping me grounded
.
So I need to put you on pause and come back..
.
But that’s not how this works,
And there’s nothing i can do..
But I still cry
And I still care to ask why,
And I haven’t gone completely cold
So I still have that humanity to hold
But it’s burning low like a torch
And I’m running low on fuel..
Scared to ask
And reach my hand out
To say “Help”
Without the whispers
Or the doubts
People be going through this shit and say; “real”
I’m People 😹
real
real
Crazy how friends can turn into enemies quickly..
WE CRYING OURSELVES TO SLEEP TONIGHT WITH THIS ONE❗❗❗🗣🗣🗣
"🖤"
Distractions arent always that bad
They sometimes help when things get mad.
When i get lost in my head
They bring me back out again,
Or rather,
Smother what i want to cover
& hide what i hate
In the far backs of my mind
To get caught up and lose track of time,
To be busy and have those distractions
Is like a blessing is disguise
.
To let out my emotions not with my lips but the feelings in my brain
I cant even try to decipher the words anymore there just screams
.
My head feels so loud and heavy
But then i relise the rooms actually quite and im the one thats unsteady
Not ready to move or change
Trying to make patterns out of nothing.
This sound helps me a lot I think about things that I went through and try and heal to this, it’s been so hard lately all I do is cry and haven’t had much appetite in two weeks I’ve lost almost 20lbs from not eating I can’t eat I don’t get hungry all I do is sleep..
I miss her, all the text, all the time i have spent with her idk what i did wrong she just left me i am feeling empty but i cant be a dead brother, a dead son i am very tired if you read this thank you for your time.
I experienced the first love with this song.. then I found out that a person communicates with me out of politeness, I stopped communicating immediately. the next day I find out that he is dating some girl and I was telling me that he is not in a relationship, I still love him, but he does not know it and let me not break the relationship for the happiness of myself, let him live happily with this girl
i still sleep listening this song bro
same
to anyone that needs to hear this
hey i just wanted to remind you, you only live once ur not immortal or live forver so please go pray go be happy go tell them you love them dont let anyone bring u down dont even think abt them at all because at the end u wasted ur whole day thinking abt how they hurt u when u could be healing and please hug ur mum or dad or even both of them its there frist time living so please be nice to them live everyday like its ur last bc who knows it could be if you want to let out ur anger/sadness u can ventill try my very best to help you stay strong you got this
":🕓:"
One of my biggest fears is for my negative thoughts to be correct
My negative feeling to become a indefinite reality. . . .
I can say im uneasy
But not having a ground to walk on is truly frightening
.
New year, new air
But yet i still hold my breath
And have a tight chest
And hope for you to come back
To maybe poison me
Or maybe i want revenge for all the scrutiny
All the shit we've been thru
Or maybe i just cut contact..
.
What dose time try to measure?
periods between past present and future
They say not to waste it
But is that really the correct way to say it
What dose "waste" even mean?
"Ok"
.
Why fight the words when they wont stop flowing
Why stich the wound if its not exploding
Why do extra when you can barly keep up
Why not take a rest?
.
I dont think im the issues,
All because i mess up
Its the way you see the world and group me in with everyone else
Why cant you see me as an individual ***
.
I want this exhilarating happy life
That makes me excited like Christmas eve night
.
I wonder what kid me would think,
We wanted to be the biggest and the best
But "thats just how kids think"
Well what if i really stuck with that goal
Would i still be where i dont wanna be?
Where i am today doesn't reflect all the years ive lived
And i cant explain how unreasonable my mind is
My expectations shatter me..
And im the only one that feels it
.
Thanks for your hard work sir
@@MKProsD❤️
“Name a song that has helped you at you’re lowest”
Me:
You were my favourite memory, but now you’re my favourite nightmare.
the moment i realized my childhood was the best part of my life and was over before i knew i had one
This is so perfect
To whoever reads this,
i love you
i love your smile
i love your laugh
i love your personality
i love your hair (or lack thereof)
i love your insecurities
i love your accomplishments
i love your failures
i love your eyes
i love your beauty
i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate)
i love the way you dance
i love you on your happy days
i love you on your sad days
i love you on the days you feel lonely
i love you on the days you feel helpless
i love you on the days you feel like no one cares
i love you on the days you feel forgotten
i love you on the days you feel unmotivated
i love you on the days you feel loved
i love you on the days you feel sick
i love you on the days you feel motivated
i love you on the days you feel depressed
i love you on the days you feel stresses
i love you on the days you feel crazy
i love you on the days you feel hopeful
i love you on the days you feel cuddly
i love you on the days you feel clingy
i love you on the days you feel amazing
i love you on the days you feel beautiful
i love you on the days you feel like a failure
i love you on the days you feel angry
i love you on the days you feel aggressive
i love you on the days you feel horrible
i love you on the days you feel safe
i love you on the days you feel unsafe
i love you on the days you feel vulnerable
i love you on the days you feel weird
i love you on the days you feel ok
i love you when you're healthy
i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music)
i love your taste in music
i love your taste in movies
i love your taste in tv shows
i love the way you move
i love the way you act
i love you when you cry
i love you when you're kind
i love you when you're mean
i love you when you're alone
i love you when you can't feel
i love you when you feel too much
i love you when you can't take life anymore
i love you when you feel like it's too much
i love you when you're asleep
i love you when you have nightmares
i love you when you have dreams
i love how you believe
i love you when you believe in yourself
i love you when you don't believe in yourself
i love you when you hate yourself
i love you when you love yourself
i love the way you think
i love you problems
i love your solutions
i love how you support
i love you when you're in pain
i love you when you're hurt
i love your promises
i love your secrets
i love your attitude
i love you sass
i love your creativity
i love your voice (or lack thereof)
i love you hand gestures
i love your stories
i love your wounds
i love your scars
i love your face
i love your past
i love your future
i love your present
i love your outfits
i love your style
i love your art
i love your honesty
i love you when you lie
i love you when you're tired
i love you when you're energetic
i love how you look
i love how you cook
i love you when you're adventurous
i love you when you're scared
i love your imperfections
i love your perfections
i love you when you worry
i love you when you talk (or communicate)
i love your opinions
i love you when you have a headache
i love you when you have a stomach ache
i love you when you help others
i love you when you need help
i love you when you're mature
i love you when you're immature
i love you in the hard times
i love you in the easy times
i love you when life is meh
i love you when you're responsible
i love you when you're irresponsible
i love you when you fight
i love you in your darkest moments
i love you in your brightest moments
i love your heart
i love you in the day
i love you in the night
i love you at midnight
i love you at 3 am
i love you at all times
i love you at your best
i love you at your worst
i love the little things you do
i love all of you
i love you when you're you
i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
I love you. Too.
I thank you for your time that you put in this comment. I wish you all the best in life.
i love you too :sob:
I was never loved
can't believe I haven't read or heard those words in person until now
i needed this
I miss him ‼️‼️
you knew i was going to get attached yet you still did me like that
My daughter can never sleep with this song, she has inomina (am not sure if i spelt that right.) Thank you for making this. my daughter can sleep a little more better.
This is how I feel like when I stop talking or when no one listens…. ha …l’m invisibly to the people I love
best music to sleep to 💫
This song...
Its really peacefull and quiet in the backrooms...
i wish i could fall into that labyrnth of horror and insanity, it sounds so beautiful
this is the sound of my soul
tysm
go to a therapist❌ listen to music ✅✅♂🔥🔥🤌👌❤🔥💪🫀🗣🗣🗣🔥
''yu-kno''
i adore you
yet sometimes i cant stand you
but i love to stand by you
even if there's nothing going on
i like how you pop in and out of the blue
like a poppy
shifting in the wind
i shall not forget
but i wont want to dwell on it
its only a page in my book
now compare the chapters
one after another
you think you have one up on me but that's false
what i do is not something you can control
i hope this path is bright
"Beauty is pain"
So then why is there sorrow in my life
Is there someone who sees me as beautiful
As astonishing as the stars
For dose this person (or persons) wish to cause me pain? maybe harm?
Cause that's all I feel
I'd say I'm numb but even that numbness has that bitter cold feel to it.
The taste of hate.
I like to write poems, dont mean I'm good at em
For what I say is true. Spoken by my present? past or future?
Maybe my words even speak for you?
Yo dude that was fireeeee 🤟🏾
Broo thanks bro 🏄🏾♂️🤙🏾
@@koolaid.suffer9348 It really was :)
@@koolaid.suffer9348 yes thanks bro
can u make more its really nice no pressure ofc
The word fake means something is not real
Dose that mean that word and others are all fake to
Why do some words have more power over others
And some have stronger meanings than most
And why when i close my eyes night
I always fight my demons the most
I want out
@dr.najlaakareem6290
So, we are strangers now?
TY!!!
you are the best
This tiered feeling is unfortunately comforting
i cant think rn only feel
and i feel lost, but i have no where to be particularly
but to be so relaxed is like paranoia to me
over and over and over again
and the cycle repeats
...
ofc i think of how things could have ended up
much differently
but i already came up with 1000 scenarios in my head . . . _ _ _ . . .
if you have questions at least try to listen
why explain myself to someone who wouldn't care to be there,
minutes turn into hours, hours turn into days
days weeks, weeks years
some months i can remember every detail
but most are an autopilot daze `
i crave love, affectionate, & attention but i am, i..
i am indeed scared
if i reach out into the darkness and get my hand cut off
is it my fault???
or the thing that slashes
it is darkness after all..
Dont be scared, be angry. Please. It will save you.
Come back here any time you need to. It’s safe here.
Thank you ❤️
My tears..
perfect for silent hill 2
if you never take risks.. how do u learn?
and if you always take risks... you would be dead.
...
what they dont tell you is 1 risky risk is all it takes to really change you
it wont just change you, ittle plunge a thorn of guilt and misery into your ill-kept and barely beating heart. Ittle clench its tethers and steer you into a distant horison of mystery. No matter how bright the flames are.
I wish I could consume the sun
11 months i listen this
amazing i saw
thank you…
im still loving it
Nao se preocupe, tudo vai ficar bem e vai dar certo
The smell of rain and soil reaches my nose.
You broke me
But I'll put myself back together.
conrad i wish you would be able to see through your past fears and trauma and understand that someone out there whether it's across the country has loved you all this time
i miss all our crazy shenanigans and even though it's been 2 years i can't move on and i don't know why. i know i have moved on because i sense that both my mind and heart are in a different place but i'm not ready to end that chapter with you. it's like my heart is tied into strings
despite our distant past and faded memories, i've never stopped loving you even after we ended our relationship
i wish i had the courage to say this to your face but i just can't force myself to. it's because i'm scared and i fear that you may not feel the same way, even if you don't, i wouldn't want to ruin what we have as friends because i'm content and happy with being your friend if it means that i can stay by your side and watch you grow as a person like you have done so all this time
If one day u can see this
I want u to know that I really loved u
Nigga at this point text her
I live everyday, or do these days live me.
I feel like im watching my life behind a screen
And sometimes i wish to turn off that tv
To take the whole thing and dump it all away.
Just to feel free
But those feelings wont last and the static comes back
Biting me hard like a bitter cold night.
I wish to be free..
But what will i do if i really was free
Would i really stay relived
Or would i continue wishing and get lost in a fake reality.
@dr.najlaakareem6290
):
It hurts bro
I don't have any idea about what should I do/:
@@venubun keep fighting so one day you can share ur story and everything you've fought for, no one knows u better than urself, take a rest day u deserve it 🙏🏾
sempre venho aqui a procura de conforto..
This video together with the song reminds me of the Chernobyl disaster
i wish i was there
i know i shouldn't miss you, i know you hurt me, and your scar's left on me, it hurts but i need you, i really miss you dearly, i can't believe you did this to me, why can't i stop thinking about you? i know you're gonna hurt me, again. but i love you.
it’s been 5 months. why cant i move on. i dont love him anymore but i cry over him every once in a while. i dont know what ive done that made you fell out of love, but u fucking changed my perspective on love. you were my everything, after every bad day all i wanted was to talk to you. what did i do that i was undeserving of love. why do you get to be happy with another girl when i am destroyed. god, why does he get to be happy when i am over here struggling to even form a basic romantic thought on someone. why did this have to happen to me this way.
i wish i was my old self again.
“🏁Start”
I try and try
But I can’t win the fight
How do you expect so much out of me if you don’t even believe in me
Support is something that should be easy, or at least common
But support is what I lack
Self hate is what I have
Simply because of how some people wanna act
They yell at every chance they get
I won’t dwell on it much longer
Cause I won’t get any farther
Almost like there holding me back
“Womp womp”
I feel like no one takes me seriously
But is that there fault?
Or the lack of stride and dignity in me
Simply a reflection on the water
Got my askn myself why bother
.
When the right one comes I hope they see past my refection
And glimpse into the real me
Womp womp.
Womp womp im single 😭
i sit here wondering what wouldve been different if i just said im sorry.
i played dota2 wish it, it was the calmest game i ever had..
i really wish i could go to sleep and never wake up again
dont give up soldier❤🩹
As a shifter, this song reminds me of my dr a lot. I really hope "shifting" isn't some sort of joke becouse i really hate it here. It's crazy how people find so much peace in fictional characters. I wake up and all i think about is the world i actually wanna live it. I hate this reality so danm much and i rlly rllt hope i get to see him one day. (call me delulu but this man saved my life)
Bom essa e minha história
Meu nome é Luiz tenho 15 anos, a alguns anos atrás descobrimos que meu irmão tinha câncer no fígado, e eu princípio de epilepsia, foi uma época difícil pra minha é pra minha família, meu irmão precisava de tratamento em outro estado e minha mãe foi com ele , deixando eu e meu pai em casa sozinhos por dois meses, mas antes deles irem e antes de descobrimos isso eu comecei a sofrer bullyng na escola eu não ligava tanto , mas quando isso aconteceu tudo mudou , tudo me afetava era um simples ato e eu chorava , poxa não é fácil pra uma criança ver a mãe chorando a noite com medo de perder os filhos, não é fácil pra uma criança se deitar a noite e ter medo de morrer engasgado com a própria babá, o tempo passou e nós curamos , tentei pedir ajuda pra minha mãe sobre o bullyng mas ela sempre disse que era besteira, poxa eu só queria ouvir uma palavra amiga, mas isso não aconteceu, e até hoje penso nisso após anos . Fim
in English
Well, that's my story My name is Luiz, I'm 15 years old, a few years ago we discovered that my brother had liver cancer, and I had epilepsy, it was a difficult time for me and my family, my brother needed treatment elsewhere state and my mother went with him, leaving me and my father at home alone for two months, but before they went and before we found out about this I started to suffer bullying at school I didn't care so much, but when that happened everything changed, everything changed for me. It was a simple act and I cried, well, it's not easy for a child to see their mother crying at night for fear of losing her children, it's not easy for a child to go to bed at night and be afraid of choking to death on their own nanny, Time passed and we healed, I tried to ask my mother for help about the bullying but she always said it was nonsense, hey I just wanted to hear a friendly word, but that didn't happen, and I still think about it today after years. End
🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺Sinto muito por você
my brain.
This song makes me have depression
The world is little blurry or maybe it's my eyes 💔
tired to live but scared to die
Right
"Nice"
What dose being nice even mean?
Being a basic nice human being
Helping someone when there in need,
Or being nice to the mean?
If everyone was nice we would see it as normal and if everyone were mean we'd see it as normal
If everyone was normal we'd see it as normal
And even if everyone was different we'd see it as normal
But still not treat it as Normal
?
Normal doesn't actually fucking exist
It's a made up word like "perfect"
Cause everyone's "perfect" is not the same
And even if it was not much would change still an endless dream to chase away
And hope you get a grasp of a break
.
It doesn't matter, but it actually dose.
It's the reason it hurts so fucking much
.
I am done wishing, if people chose to stay that's on them not on me
Don't cry when u get hurt from fake dreams
.
I'm not your safety blanket .
.
But it really truly seems like they don't care
.
Gosh I'm losing it.
...
.
..
.
corny asf
This sounds like the beginning and the end
ready to end it all just tired