Hi Maddie! Listen, if you ever give Fig a good old snuggle and a bunch of fur comes off, ball it up and pop it on the outer branches of a tree. Birds use it for nest linings, amongst other things, it’s a really nice way to help them :) my favourite plant is cannabis 😁✌️
*Examples of quick meals:* - Microwaved pancake bowl - Burger - Yogurt with granola and fruits - Smoothie/Smoothie bowl - Any type of cereal with milk - Rusk or crackers with topping of choice - French toast - Baked potato - Baked veggies with rice - Mediterranean pasta salad
I think another sneaky one is comparison to other people for me. If I see the people around me (fam, roommates, etc) eating less or working out more, or skipping breakfast, I'm like "Oh, I'm recovered now so I can be a normal person and I should do stuff like them!" And then it makes me want to skip breakfast too, eat less, etc. But comparison is never the way to satisfaction or happiness, and I have to remember everyone's body is soooo different with different needs and different histories. Thanks for the video, Maddie! Right now my favorite plant is my peace lily. Her leaves have been drooping so I'm trying to revive her atm.
Oh yeah, definitely the comparison aspect. I find myself struggling with that as well. Also comparing what I eat to boys because society has made us believe that girls should eat less than boys so I always feel bad if I eat the same amount or more as my guy friends or brothers. Peace lilies are beautiful but I have never been able to keep one alive 😂 I hope you have a good week!
I think you and I should make our ED sides of our brains watch this video over and over! It’s crazy how crazy the ED voice makes me. It’s literally is like chasing my tail. Thank you for putting these experiences into words.💗💗💗
Also, as I watch people that I respect, admire or look up to, my opinion is not influenced by their weight. In fact the women that I admire the most live in larger bodies. Crazy how I measure my value by my weight instead of intelligence, accomplishments, skills, kindness, generosity… I love roses, hydrangeas, irises, peonies, dahlias, ageratum and more!!!! I love cut flowers🌸💗🌸
These are such great points. I feel like everyone just expects you to be completely ‘normal’ after a certain period of time, like you will just wake up suddenly and never have a single ED thought ever again. When in reality, recovery looks like recognizing and challenging over and over and over again for years… EDs are so so sneaky and they show up in little ways that are so easy to either not recognize or flat out ignore. Awareness is key so thank you for helping us all to do just that. :) The only thing I would disagree on is I don’t think weighing yourself is inherently an ‘ED’ behaviour. I think it’s the reason behind it that makes or breaks it. I don’t really know anyone who doesn’t weigh themselves actually and I think it can be helpful to just have an overall picture of what’s going on with your weight. Again, more of the intention behind it rather than the action itself.
You are so right about recovery being challenging over and over again for years. And they are so fricken sneaky…. In terms of weighing yourself, I think it can be a challenge depending on how you see the scale. I would like to get to a point where I can look at the number neutrally and not care. Hope you have a great week!
Everything in this video was 100% relatable. Trying to tell the difference between my thoughts and the anorexia thoughts is something I am really struggling with, so thank you for sharing that you also have that issue. My team and I are hoping to get my NG out on Monday and your videos have helped me keep focused on the end goal and knowing recovery is possible. I can not thank you enough for all your help and support through this journey. You should be so proud of how far you have come and your continued strength even in the tough moments. You've got this Maddie 🙂❤ My favourite plant is tulips 🌷
Thank you so much! And I am so proud of you for continuing to fight 💪 It’s a hard battle but SO worth it. There is a life behind the eating disorder and it is possible to get there, I believe in you. Keep going! ❤️
Thank you for pointing these things out! I seem to let myself eat “more” or allow myself to eat more “fun foods” on days that I run versus days that I don’t run. I think that has something to do with allowing/not allowing myself to eat. This stupid disorder is so sneaky…it seems to get more sneaky the further into recovery you go. Anywaaaays, have you looked into therapy yet? I had an appointment a couple weeks ago, and as much as I hate going, it was super helpful. My favorite plant is probably a red cedar, since they are so much fun to climb😊 I understand shedding animals…I have a lab and two cats….
I can totally relate to being more relaxed about "fun foods" when I have had more movement... but in reality, we deserve whatever food whenever we want regardless of our activity. I have looked into therapy but haven't quite found the right person yet. Plus things are very busy with work but I know that's not an excuse 😂 I love cedars as well! I am actually currently writing a story about a giant red cedar that was recently discovered in Vancouver! Animals are the best but I can do without the shedding lol. I hope you have a good week!
This video was so helpful. I have been trying to identify the behavior of using extra energy for exercise for weeks! I wasn't able to articulate it, and I'm so happy you brought it up.
I know that I’m slipping back into bulimia if I weigh myself, and if I feel heavier, I remind myself “there is more to me and my life than my relationship with gravity.” Also, if I plan to exercise I don’t do it. All meals, snacks and movement should be spontaneous. “If it takes effort to maintain, you’re not meant to be there.”
I think if it’s not spontaneous then your motivation is coming from the wrong place and you’re doing things to please your eating disorder rather than to make progress in your recovery.
I definitely struggle with eating disorder thoughts! I'm 18 months into recovery but still resort to ED behaviour. Knowing your triggers really helps! If I know I'm gonna be triggered then I can prepare myself (anxiety caused by feeling not in control of a situation is my biggest trigger) I think your amazing, ppl expect recovery to take 6 months maximum but it can take years, it would be easy to give up on recovery but that is not the answer, so I'm fighting with you, we all are ❤️ xx
Knowing your tiggers is definitely key in recovery so you know how to handle anxious/uncomfortable thoughts. And you are right about the timing of recovery, it's been almost two years for me and although I am better I clearly still have some intrusive thoughts. We can get through this together 💪❤️
Hey Maddie We have had such a cold winter in Australia which has made me less motivated to change from warm clothes into exercise gear which is crazy because it only takes a few minutes to warm up. I need to exercise to stay fit and healthy, don't need to lose weight. I also weigh myself every morning after stepping out of the shower, just out of habit. I also go back and forth some nights on whether I should have a dessert. No ED but still have some of your thoughts. It is hard to know which side of your brain to which you should listen to without going to extremes. Interesting video. Fig looks so cuddly and looks well fed. ❤️🐰
Hey Dianne! Sorry to hear that it's so cold in Australia at the moment, I am sending you some warmth virtually. It's very hot here in Toronto right now. I appreciate the comment, as always. Love to you from Fig and I ❤️🐰
If your period is not back yet, you should stop weighing yourself. I had to wait two years after I went all in to get my period back. It wasn't until I stopped worrying about my weight that I felt less stress, and my body sorted everything out. If you keep eating consistently, you'll be fine. Greetings from Colombia!
Ohh I understand that Hun ,mine is too! You are still beautiful and keep going- and yes thank you for bringing it up because it's made me readdress it 😘 X
Mijn gewicht bepaalt helaas nog steeds mijn humeur. Dat is al jaren en ik leer er mee leven en eet er niet minder om. Afleiding zoeken en gewoon doorgaan dan word je vanzelf weer vrolijk. Je bent goed bezig en ik vind je een zeer prettige vrouw die al heel veel geleerd heeft en veel kracht laat zien. En de vlogs zijn leuk. Have a nice day and keep going. Favourite plant: magnolia.
Finding a distraction is definitely helpful! As well as the reminder to just keep going! It takes a lot of practice to push away negative thoughts but it is possible. I appreciate the comment ❤️ Sending love to you!
Wow! I’m impressed… not long ago it wouldn’t have mattered to you at all if “Maddie wanted…” to go for a walk!!! Challenging those thoughts is huge because it shows that you actually care what “Maddie” wants more than what ED wants… if Maddie doesn’t want to walk she doesn’t have to… she has a choice… ED is not in control… think about the ramifications of that… Maddie is not a slave to Ed… HUGE! Maybe you want to walk… maybe you want to sit on the porch… you have a choice. Keep in mind that eating disorders are about the thoughts and behaviors surrounding food and not the food itself…
This is true! Distinguishing the “MADDIE” voice from the “ED” voice has been key. You are right about the ED being about the thoughts as opposed to the foods. I need to remind myself of this more. Thanks Emily, have a great week!
😭😭😭 I was getting depressed after My brake up 💔 so my mom Motivate me to go back to the Gym I Had really bad eating disorders Now I am not anymore I eat and I am just like you sometimes w ups and downs So I went and comments omg I knew they were going to be a lot like what happen.? U gained weight ? Negative comments and I look in the mirror 🪞 and I told myself I know what I wen through and I also know I am stronger mentally now and I feel good w myself and people is always going to comment cuz I remembered back then they were “worry” about my eating disorders and now about my weight I am in a healthy weight too not over but I am not the skinny girl 👧🏻 anymore and also I was like oh I need to go back In shape or I should do more than just an hour but then like u said is not me in this case is my ed good thing I still have my counselors w me and I keep taking my medications
I’m sorry to hear that you have gone through a rough time. It is so difficult to recover when our mind is constantly telling us the wrong thing. You’ve got this 💪❤️ Keep fighting!
@@maddiejaneec yes and for people I’d do easy to say or why so skinny why so fat? The good thing I been w my counselor but I told one lady b careful I don’t mind if I gained but is an easy comment for any age u never know what people is going through
have you ever been to residential treatment? what was your experience if you did. im going soon and am so nervous, especially about the weight gain aspect
I have been. I was in one for three months a few years ago. I made a video about it a while ago but think I might do an update. It’s a hard choice to make but definitely worth it in the long run. I am proud of you for taking that step :) you’ve got this 💪❤️
Self worth is key. I think, it always is. Deserving and loving yourself.
I agree. Thank you ❤️
Hi Maddie! Listen, if you ever give Fig a good old snuggle and a bunch of fur comes off, ball it up and pop it on the outer branches of a tree. Birds use it for nest linings, amongst other things, it’s a really nice way to help them :) my favourite plant is cannabis 😁✌️
Haha that’s a good idea! I’m sure the birds would love it - definitely soft :) and I love your favourite plant as well ;)
*Examples of quick meals:*
- Microwaved pancake bowl
- Burger
- Yogurt with granola and fruits
- Smoothie/Smoothie bowl
- Any type of cereal with milk
- Rusk or crackers with topping of choice
- French toast
- Baked potato
- Baked veggies with rice
- Mediterranean pasta salad
Thank you for the suggestions. I appreciate it 😊
I think another sneaky one is comparison to other people for me. If I see the people around me (fam, roommates, etc) eating less or working out more, or skipping breakfast, I'm like "Oh, I'm recovered now so I can be a normal person and I should do stuff like them!" And then it makes me want to skip breakfast too, eat less, etc. But comparison is never the way to satisfaction or happiness, and I have to remember everyone's body is soooo different with different needs and different histories. Thanks for the video, Maddie! Right now my favorite plant is my peace lily. Her leaves have been drooping so I'm trying to revive her atm.
Oh yeah, definitely the comparison aspect. I find myself struggling with that as well. Also comparing what I eat to boys because society has made us believe that girls should eat less than boys so I always feel bad if I eat the same amount or more as my guy friends or brothers. Peace lilies are beautiful but I have never been able to keep one alive 😂 I hope you have a good week!
I think you and I should make our ED sides of our brains watch this video over and over! It’s crazy how crazy the ED voice makes me. It’s literally is like chasing my tail. Thank you for putting these experiences into words.💗💗💗
Also, as I watch people that I respect, admire or look up to, my opinion is not influenced by their weight. In fact the women that I admire the most live in larger bodies. Crazy how I measure my value by my weight instead of intelligence, accomplishments, skills, kindness, generosity…
I love roses, hydrangeas, irises, peonies, dahlias, ageratum and more!!!! I love cut flowers🌸💗🌸
We should! Haha it is so crazy how much our EDs can make us think the most annoying things… glad you enjoyed the video!
That’s a great observation and I often think the same! I also love roses :) take care!
hello maddie🤍remember you’re so strong and powerful, sending so much love🥰
Thank you! Sending love back to you ❤️
These are such great points. I feel like everyone just expects you to be completely ‘normal’ after a certain period of time, like you will just wake up suddenly and never have a single ED thought ever again. When in reality, recovery looks like recognizing and challenging over and over and over again for years…
EDs are so so sneaky and they show up in little ways that are so easy to either not recognize or flat out ignore. Awareness is key so thank you for helping us all to do just that. :)
The only thing I would disagree on is I don’t think weighing yourself is inherently an ‘ED’ behaviour. I think it’s the reason behind it that makes or breaks it. I don’t really know anyone who doesn’t weigh themselves actually and I think it can be helpful to just have an overall picture of what’s going on with your weight. Again, more of the intention behind it rather than the action itself.
You are so right about recovery being challenging over and over again for years. And they are so fricken sneaky…. In terms of weighing yourself, I think it can be a challenge depending on how you see the scale. I would like to get to a point where I can look at the number neutrally and not care. Hope you have a great week!
Everything in this video was 100% relatable. Trying to tell the difference between my thoughts and the anorexia thoughts is something I am really struggling with, so thank you for sharing that you also have that issue. My team and I are hoping to get my NG out on Monday and your videos have helped me keep focused on the end goal and knowing recovery is possible. I can not thank you enough for all your help and support through this journey. You should be so proud of how far you have come and your continued strength even in the tough moments. You've got this Maddie 🙂❤ My favourite plant is tulips 🌷
Thank you so much! And I am so proud of you for continuing to fight 💪 It’s a hard battle but SO worth it. There is a life behind the eating disorder and it is possible to get there, I believe in you. Keep going! ❤️
Orchids, but the cactus is the only plant I can keep alive…. I currently blame a hot summer, going on holiday and nobody to water them.
Orchids are so difficult to take care of! I have found ivy and succulents to be the easiest :)
Lady!! You had me at invisible any. I day im going to go up a mountain dig a hole install a door and refuse to come back down. ❤
Thank you for pointing these things out! I seem to let myself eat “more” or allow myself to eat more “fun foods” on days that I run versus days that I don’t run. I think that has something to do with allowing/not allowing myself to eat. This stupid disorder is so sneaky…it seems to get more sneaky the further into recovery you go. Anywaaaays, have you looked into therapy yet? I had an appointment a couple weeks ago, and as much as I hate going, it was super helpful. My favorite plant is probably a red cedar, since they are so much fun to climb😊 I understand shedding animals…I have a lab and two cats….
I can totally relate to being more relaxed about "fun foods" when I have had more movement... but in reality, we deserve whatever food whenever we want regardless of our activity. I have looked into therapy but haven't quite found the right person yet. Plus things are very busy with work but I know that's not an excuse 😂 I love cedars as well! I am actually currently writing a story about a giant red cedar that was recently discovered in Vancouver! Animals are the best but I can do without the shedding lol. I hope you have a good week!
What was helpful to you in therapy?
New subscriber 😊 I like your personality and what you had to say and how you said it. I'm not ready to recover but understand you.❤
This video was so helpful. I have been trying to identify the behavior of using extra energy for exercise for weeks! I wasn't able to articulate it, and I'm so happy you brought it up.
I’m glad you found the video helpful! I am proud of you for continuing to fight! You’ve got this ❤️💪
I know that I’m slipping back into bulimia if I weigh myself, and if I feel heavier, I remind myself “there is more to me and my life than my relationship with gravity.”
Also, if I plan to exercise I don’t do it. All meals, snacks and movement should be spontaneous.
“If it takes effort to maintain, you’re not meant to be there.”
There’s more to life than your relationship with gravity. I love that!!!!!!!!
You are so right. I love that quote! I like what you said about things being spontaneous - I think life is more fun that way ❤️
Right? Such a good quote!
I think if it’s not spontaneous then your motivation is coming from the wrong place and you’re doing things to please your eating disorder rather than to make progress in your recovery.
@@hannahcollardgray4448 agreed!
This all made TOTAL sense to me. I can relate to ALL of this video. Hydrangeas are my fav! Thanks for another good one Maddie! 👊🏻
Hydrangeas are beautiful! We used to grow them in my childhood garden ❤️ Hope you have a great week, Deb!
@@maddiejaneec
can we get a tattoo tour! especially the ones on your arm !!
Yeah! I actually posted a Q&A video a few weeks ago where I show all of my tattoos :)
I definitely struggle with eating disorder thoughts! I'm 18 months into recovery but still resort to ED behaviour. Knowing your triggers really helps! If I know I'm gonna be triggered then I can prepare myself (anxiety caused by feeling not in control of a situation is my biggest trigger) I think your amazing, ppl expect recovery to take 6 months maximum but it can take years, it would be easy to give up on recovery but that is not the answer, so I'm fighting with you, we all are ❤️ xx
Knowing your tiggers is definitely key in recovery so you know how to handle anxious/uncomfortable thoughts. And you are right about the timing of recovery, it's been almost two years for me and although I am better I clearly still have some intrusive thoughts. We can get through this together 💪❤️
Hey Maddie We have had such a cold winter in Australia which has made me less motivated to change from warm clothes into exercise gear which is crazy because it only takes a few minutes to warm up. I need to exercise to stay fit and healthy, don't need to lose weight. I also weigh myself every morning after stepping out of the shower, just out of habit. I also go back and forth some nights on whether I should have a dessert. No ED but still have some of your thoughts. It is hard to know which side of your brain to which you should listen to without going to extremes. Interesting video. Fig looks so cuddly and looks well fed. ❤️🐰
Hey Dianne! Sorry to hear that it's so cold in Australia at the moment, I am sending you some warmth virtually. It's very hot here in Toronto right now. I appreciate the comment, as always. Love to you from Fig and I ❤️🐰
If your period is not back yet, you should stop weighing yourself. I had to wait two years after I went all in to get my period back. It wasn't until I stopped worrying about my weight that I felt less stress, and my body sorted everything out. If you keep eating consistently, you'll be fine. Greetings from Colombia!
You are right. It's a bad habit I still have that I definitely need to break... Greetings back to you from Toronto ❤️🌞
Ohh I understand that Hun ,mine is too! You are still beautiful and keep going- and yes thank you for bringing it up because it's made me readdress it 😘 X
Thank you! We can fight through this together! 💪❤️
Mijn gewicht bepaalt helaas nog steeds mijn humeur. Dat is al jaren en ik leer er mee leven en eet er niet minder om. Afleiding zoeken en gewoon doorgaan dan word je vanzelf weer vrolijk. Je bent goed bezig en ik vind je een zeer prettige vrouw die al heel veel geleerd heeft en veel kracht laat zien. En de vlogs zijn leuk. Have a nice day and keep going. Favourite plant: magnolia.
Finding a distraction is definitely helpful! As well as the reminder to just keep going! It takes a lot of practice to push away negative thoughts but it is possible. I appreciate the comment ❤️ Sending love to you!
@@maddiejaneec ❤️
Wow! I’m impressed… not long ago it wouldn’t have mattered to you at all if “Maddie wanted…” to go for a walk!!! Challenging those thoughts is huge because it shows that you actually care what “Maddie” wants more than what ED wants… if Maddie doesn’t want to walk she doesn’t have to… she has a choice… ED is not in control… think about the ramifications of that… Maddie is not a slave to Ed… HUGE! Maybe you want to walk… maybe you want to sit on the porch… you have a choice.
Keep in mind that eating disorders are about the thoughts and behaviors surrounding food and not the food itself…
This is true! Distinguishing the “MADDIE” voice from the “ED” voice has been key. You are right about the ED being about the thoughts as opposed to the foods. I need to remind myself of this more. Thanks Emily, have a great week!
❤bunny is so cutteee. How come she doesnt move?
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I was getting depressed after
My brake up 💔 so my mom
Motivate me to go back to the Gym I
Had really bad eating disorders
Now I am not anymore I eat and I am just like you sometimes w ups and downs
So I went and comments omg I knew they were going to be a lot like what happen.? U gained weight ? Negative comments and I look in the mirror 🪞 and I told myself I know what I wen through and I also know I am stronger mentally now and I feel good w myself and people is always going to comment cuz I remembered back then they were “worry” about my eating disorders and now about my weight I am in a healthy weight too not over but I am not the skinny girl 👧🏻 anymore and also
I was like oh I need to go back In shape or I should do more than just an hour but then like u said is not me in this case is my ed good thing I still have my counselors w me and I keep taking my medications
I’m sorry to hear that you have gone through a rough time. It is so difficult to recover when our mind is constantly telling us the wrong thing. You’ve got this 💪❤️ Keep fighting!
@@maddiejaneec yes and for people I’d do easy to say or why so skinny why so fat? The good thing I been w my counselor but I told one lady b careful I don’t mind if I gained but is an easy comment for any age u never know what people is going through
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have you ever been to residential treatment? what was your experience if you did. im going soon and am so nervous, especially about the weight gain aspect
I have been. I was in one for three months a few years ago. I made a video about it a while ago but think I might do an update. It’s a hard choice to make but definitely worth it in the long run. I am proud of you for taking that step :) you’ve got this 💪❤️
Snowdrops!
Love those!
I would have to say I love pansies!
Do you still weigh yourself? Screw the scale, it makes everything soooo much easier 🙏
I do still weigh myself but I know I need to stop… it’s just self-sabotage… But you’re right, screw the scale ❤️