Yeah - the night of fun is over and you are just laying in bed messing with your phone trying to sleep but fully knowing that you ain’t getting any sleep until the next night. Worst feeling ever
@@nairdah2c800 I was a coke head for around 15 years. It takes total commitment but it can definitely be done. I’m happy to impart my experience to anyone who thinks it will help them.
@@TonyKeepingItCleanweekend coke head here for the last decade. Age 33. Found a good girl i want to start a life with.. i would really love any tips.. financial.. or otherwise… i can go 2-3 weeks without but then ill blow up and spend $400 in one night…
@@User-5amk1m0 hello and thanks for reaching out. You can definitely crack this, and here is what I would do. You need to make some changes. Your girlfriend is your motivation and you are saying right here and now that you want to change. Do not forget that. Stay away from the triggers. Friends and pubs and parties etc that will put you in difficult situations. Try NA. There are meeting’s everywhere and I found them very useful. Can seem a bit weird at first but if it keeps you clean, it’s got to be good. It’s also good to be working towards something as well as running away from something. I would suggest starting the Couch25k and/or joining a gym. New priorities will definitely help. Save the money you would have spent, and watch it mount up. Maybe put it towards a weekend away with your girl. Goals are good. I hope that helps and if I can assist in any way, let me know. Good luck and God bless.
thank you for the video. Her words like "i didn't want to but i had to take it" illustrate how much social pressure there is under this addiction, all she wanted was to be accepted and although went through a horrible road she does realize that this way is an obstacle that ruins lives.
My friend is like this now, it’s heartbreaking for everyone around, she meets up with random men of any age, lies to everyone, doesn’t get out of bed. We have tried everything but nothing gets through, we are all completely heart broken
Thank you for saying that talking to your peer is much easier then talking to the therapist. I have just cancelled my therapy because I know right now, I need a meeting. I need to speak to those that understand what I am going through.🥰❤🙏🏿
I’ve done it almost weekly for 3 years and I’ve lost my girlfriend and job due to the usage. I’m pretty much at an all time low watching this video @ 3:30 am truly trying to figure out what I need to do to once and for all beat this without being able to afford rehab or any type of therapy.
Chin up my friend. And I know it’s hard but go tell someone who you trust and will listen. It can all be corrected if that’s what you really want. Peace and good luck ❤
Get rid of all your user friends, delete and block your dealers. Don’t go to places where you know you can score. Fill your time with other things. This is very important don’t have empty time when you usually would be doing blow. Make sure that time is filled with something else. Then when you’re ready try mushrooms. I know that sounds like druggie alternative talk but when your ready mushrooms can begin to rewire your brain and also give you insight into how better to quit. You don’t need to do mushrooms more than once or twice. It’s a long path to get away. It takes time. Relapse it’s part of the process but it’s also not an excuse to stop. Good luck Brandon.
Just made a call to a counselor for help myself. Something i wanted to do for a long time, but something made act on it after years of my addiction. It was that or completely crumble. Can relate to a many parts of your experience said here except I spent most my time doing it alone. Best advice I can give to anyone in a similar situation whether it's drugs, drink, gambling, depression or anything is to talk to someone. Anyone you can. I'm only on the start of this journey (35yo) but I've been on this path before in my mid 20s after a breakdown with a gambling addiction which is why I'm acting now before it's too late. I have suffered with trauma, but it just goes to show that this can affect anyone regardless.of trauma. Thank you for sharing this. I believe in myself and feel deeply this is the start of a new path in Ive deeply needed.
Hi. I'm very grateful that people share their stories. I'm having problem with coke myself and I feel there's noone who is willing to hear my silent scream for help. Please help me to get out of this cycle of addiction. Just talk and understanding would help a lot. Thanks
I understand I’m going through the same problems with coke, I’m desperate to stop as it’s ruining my life but I just can’t get that willpower, the cravings get me every time
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@@garethoconnell4894 are you cravings a result of alcohol or do you face temptation throughout your sober everyday life? It alcohol is a contributing factor, you need to realize that the socially accepted drug that is alcohol is the most toxic factor and contributor to your addiction problem. Contrary to popular belief, alcohol is the number one gateway drug. It aids in convincing the mind that bad decisions can be suppressed and that the temporary euphoria of drug use is more important than the Emirates psychological after effects such as anxiety, depression, lack of self worth, and disassociation from the real world. Life is so much better from a Sober, appreciative outlook on the magnificence of the natural world devoid of an impaired, artificial state of mind. Heed me words and appreciate the gift of life and remember that drugs are man made solutions to unexplainable conditions of the human mind. Mindfulness and self healing are possible for any individual strong enough to face the greatest of our existence. This is coming from a non drug user who sympathizes the with power of addition and hopes to aid in the strengthening of the human condition through science and a love and interest of the natural world
I feel so hopeless right now. I know the consequences my usage has, and yet I cannot stop. I don’t know what to do anymore. My mental health has deteriorated so much and I feel I can barely keep going
The cocaine is brain drug simple things keep u wanting try to move from where u are don’t go or hang out where u do be around people u respect where u can’t , one lady dealer sold her coce in frozen Elsa bag so every time she sees Elsa she wants cocaine it’s crazy me just before taking it and wanting it I have digestive system that make me like diarrhea let me know how u doing . We help each other my Januaryresolution is cut down every two weeks a month in one day a weekend . Tell me how u feel before after . I’m opening channel on TH-cam talking about psychological and mental control on humans o was hesitated but I see that slot of people doing stuff in secret or public and scared to share my channel will push me up helping myself and others . What u need to know is the mind plays the addication of drug and to control it you need specific techniques to overcome it
@@dr.beckyspelman hello i just want to say that in cocaine consumption clinic or rehab is not enough because the drug will be routine in mind u can get clean but once u get far from the rehab place you can fall unless ur mind and brain is changed it’s setting like computer program it’s not like meth or heroine or alcohol
I remember being 21 and sober my life was so much better once i got into addiction my life was ruined wish I could go back and never made my decision of trying drugs is so not worth it don't do it it will ruin ur life
Get into to CA if you can, I’ve been doing it for 12 days and it’s already completely changed my life. If you don’t have the time to go, you can find online meetings on zoom too. I promise your life will completely change.
1 Throw away your phone and all dealers and coke taking friends contact details. 2 move to a hot country 3 don’t drink alcohol 4 start to get fit lots of exercise 5 6 to 12 months and you will be fine
@@dublinsfaircity it dose not cost that much. And you can skip that step if you want And we allways find the money for coke don’t we. ? The point I’m making is the heat helps you quit. You don’t want to get high on class a drugs in hot weather because your body is already working hard handeling the heat.
I love hearing her story I can relate. And it mades me feel like I’m not the only one that has gone throw a similar experience, and really she give me motivation to change my ways.
Cocaine is a nightmare drug because it's so moorish. Luckily for me it never got out of hand, but because of my moral compass I exaggerated my dilemma, which always made me keep a check on things. I had an habit and was not addicted, but there were times like, this is gonna get a grip if not careful PARANOIA springs to mind. I'm from a council estate in Manchester, 80s was our time weed, e, acid, etc but to us it was just part of life, but coke that's a creeper. Even now I avoid old haunts and people.Keep fit, eat well, read, and own what you've been through, it's a battle but we will win the war.❤️ You're very welcome. ⭐☀️😀👋🏾🙏🏾🎊👍🏾
Ive realized I have a problem and have opened up to a couple friends and my father about it. Every part of me hates it, I don't enjoy doing it. Even after talking to friends and family, and feeling those ways about it, I still do it. Almost feels like I'm subconsciously sabotaging myself. I have people that have said I can call them if I am ever getting the urge but I don't call. Feels like I have no control over myself which is terrifying and causing high social anxiety. Has anyone felt this way?
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I totally empathise .kudos and good on you for getting out early. Its not a moralistic failing ,the need for anxiety to go away is extremely addictive itself .for some people having anxiety is horrible .It destroys your quality of life ,then we find a substance to self medicate and its bliss at times but never worth it for a second long term . It took me years before i realised why i was self medicating with substances . .a good few years sober myself ,i have PTSD and flashbacks from my carry on and self hatred . These substances are never going away ,its up to governments to think outside the box for solutions ,,the criminal element involved makes the problem far worse. Thank god ive got the rest of my life away from the world of Alcohol and substances . Great interview . Thanks.
That girl is amazing. I can relate to every thing she said .. I love how openly honest she is I'm not even that honest with myself ..she is a absolutely amazing shes the realist woman I've ever heard speak she so beautiful aswell
ive been on this merry go round for 15yrs, slowley battled each addiction. drink the first was goinfg to kill me and lead me into herion, i was at age 27 i knew i was going to kill myself unlees i made changes. now im 8yrs soba from drink and hard drugs, my life has been so much better since then but im struugling with cannibis feel i just cant completley let go. thank u for your share lauren :)
I wish all women thought like her. Perfect wife. 99.9999999% of girls drink and encourage drinking. After years of “peaks and valleys” the relationships end anyways. Hard finding sober women on this earth. Much respect to these two women for sharing this to help others. It’s real talk and very relatable. Thank you and hope you have a great sober life 👍
Very true, there’s a common overlooked problem within household alcohol addiction. Of course men have always lead statistically when it comes to domestic problems with addiction but more recently in America, alcoholism amongst married women has increased 100 percent. Can anyone shed light on what their theory is on why this might be?
It's a very easy slope to slip down especially if mental health disorders exist like ptsd or anxiety cocaine is a big draw but in the end there is only you and it. It'll will take everything away from you. Friends, house family, kids, jobs and eventually your life
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I just admitted to my sister that I am an addict. I hate this term as there are so many stereotypes associated with it, but I think my resistance to identifying with this label reinforced why it applies to me. At the end of the day, I was using, I was unhappy and I wanted to change but didnt know how. If that makes me an addict, then so be it. This video helped humanize this label. I need help and I am currently looking for help, but dont know how to move forward. If someone can help, that would be great.
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@beth williamson I feel you. I am now over 9 months drug/alcohol-free. I am following a 12-step program, which has helped me enormously. The first few months are a blur, but the fog is starting to clear, and I am feeling better about myself and have more hope. There is hope for you too.
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I am really in need of help. I struggle with coke and alcohol addiction and I know I have a problem. I need help yes. I just don't know what to do now in order to get that help
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I've fallen in love with her, that's all there is to it. I'm sorry I am unable to be of much more assistance here. Actually I can add that the counsellor is very elegant, but I can't help imagining her living in the Middle Ages perhaps in Hever Castle married to Henry 8th? Or rather as a muse in the ornamental gardens of the castle playing a viola for the pleasure of the king? (This might look like an insult but is in fact some kind of demented compliment). OK I am nuts. My final more relevant edit is that I also had a similar history so I am not just here to make stupid comments
I find this so hard to understand. Lost my husband to drugs. Before we got married (5 months) wants divorce had affairs and I’m also pregnant with our second child which is due in 9 days. Seeing him give up and become a monster breaks my heart. I wish I could understand why people would throw their life away and lose everything but I struggle to.
Sorry for your loss... he will have known you wouldn't understand that why he will have not been able come to you to talk about or ask for help.. he will have been fighting demons he didnt turn into a monster ..its hard to explain let alone understand if you not been there. It makes you self destruct basically
@@killerki5777 I truly would of helped if he had told me though. I had no idea that’s the scary thing. My son is 4 weeks old now and he’s just not interested. He’s a attracted to the new girl (dog) but loves me and definitely regrets what he has done but doesn’t know how to make it right 🤷🏻♀️
@@molliemckellar yeah he doesn't feel he deserves you it's hard to explain but I been there I been that guy. I pushed away everyone i loved and went into self destruct mode
@@killerki5777 I’ve been told his rock bottom will be when ‘it’s too late’ I want to understand that’s the problem. I want to help. I know my husband is in there somewhere that’s the sad thing :’(
WOW WHAT A BEAUTIFUL SISTER ALLAAH BLESS HER MY SISTER IS GREEDY FAT SHIT NEVER DO THAT FOR ME IM ON THE VERGE OF DEATH MY NECK IS STIFF MY EYE FEELS ITS ABOUT TO EXPLODE I GOT FLUID IN MY BRAIN IM IN SO MUCH PAIN I CANT STOP AND MY NOSE IS BURNT FROM INSIDE XHUNKS COMING OUT CANT EXPLAIN THIS PAIN JUST WISH I COULD GET OUT OF LONDON
i’m a real cocaine addict, struggling myself, i feel like the way she described everything about it is phoney. can be true but most of it wasnt. but hey i guess everyone is different but congratulations on becoming sober, i cant wait til i can say the same!
Alcohol is the gateway to everything. People really need to stop allowing society dictate what is their culture. Don't pass to your children, it cuts out so much nonsense
I was lucky... I never got addicted to cocaine. That's the drug that really takes you to the poor house... because there's no ceiling. With heroin... eventually you nod out and fall asleep. You get your fill, so to speak. With cocaine... you're never satisfied. Then there's me... A dumb MF'er that tried and tried cocaine 100 times. Crack, too. I just never experienced this high everyone else speaks of. And I'd be there smoking crack and watching everyone around me ascend in to euphoria... but me... 'Huh, what's so pleasurable about this?' I literally never felt a high off cocaine once... and I used it so many times. I used it because I was a compulsive addict and was desperately LOOKING for something pleasurable. I was a heroin addict for 10 years. Loved that. But eventually heroin gets really boring. The 'high' isn't even an issue eventually... you just need it to stop withdrawals. It's not how fun or good heroin is.. it's how bad it is when you DON'T have it. But with cocaine, luckily there's no physical withdrawal or dependence... and luckily for me.... there wasn't even any mental dependence because I never could feel any 'high' from cocaine. And I always got great quality coke, too. My gf would love it. My friends would love it. But I never felt a 'high' from cocaine. And thank god. Because I never went broke thanks to that. I only did it here and there when others had it. I never spent a dime on it. For some reason, my brain and my body's receptors just never reacted to cocaine. It always did nothing to me. Nothing bad, nothing good. I never could feel cocaine. I wish I knew the science behind why my brain was immune to cocaine. It's interesting. And it saved my life. Everyone I used cocaine with eventually succumbed to it... and went broke for a bit... except me. Because cocaine addiction is like burning your money. It's the habit that breaks you, financially speaking. So I thank my lucky stars, that for whatever reason, I never felt a cocaine 'high'. I mean I'd feel a boost of energy. Sure. But pleasure or euphoria... I never felt even the slightest bit of that from cocaine. And I tried well over 100 times... 50 of them smoking crack.
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@@sharynjohnston530 Never took them. I'm lucky I never needed them. But I wouldn't take them even if I did need them. The overwhelming majority of people that are convinced to take them and get on those shit pills.... they aren't depressed for any 'chemical imbalance'. They're depressed.... because their lives suck. There are very good reasons they're depressed. It's healthy, actually. Because it's the body screaming from within.... this sucks, you need to make changes... For instance, just being single is shit. You meet someone amazing... you're dancing. Because being alone sucks. Of course anyone would eventually be sad as hell alone. Same with career/job/money/friends etc. If these things are crappy.... who the hell wouldn't be depressed? Everyone would be. You'd be a nut if you were happy with a lousy or just unfulfilled life. So...... That's why I'd never take anti-depressants. And I think they're way over prescribed. Sure, some need them. But tens of millions of scripts in the USA annually is just absurd. But to each his own. That was a ramble. Sorry. Nm.
You sound like a highly motivated person naturally. You suffered from FOMO. You're in fact the lucky few who doesn't have physical addiction but obviously it's psychological. I think you may need to look at your circle, who are the people you're trying to keep up with? What is this high and why? What you're running from. Maybe sitting in the feeling, there really isn't anything you can take extrinsically and it is inside you
I’m watching this while wasted on blow lol I usually do it on the weekend then I’m grossed out all week because I was only planning on doing a gram but did little 10 . What a waste of money. But it’s good at the time
The interviewer was really bad. Let the woman talk! We’re interested in what she has to say, not the interviewer! There were so many times where she was about to say something interesting and was cut off. Really annoying.
Currently laid in bed at 6pm curled up trying to avoid a relapse. First thing I thought when I pressed play was 'man iv love a gram and a couple sex toys with her' shit isn't easy
I just wanna say that first rule is accepting u are addicted try to cut down no matter how . Cocaine is different kind of drug because it’s mental and brain drug with simple recording or look at stuff u do around coca makes u take it maybe straw 1 dollar bill plate card song or even place where u do it . So second rule is exclude and get new environment new apartment new stuff and everything I’m opening channel I will update when I upload hopefully I will help and getting push up u can follow me and we can beat it up . Everyone story is different never get shy we are all humans that did shit with experience
22:49 just utterly gorgeous. Look, I'm not a dangerous nutter, I have simply fallen in love lol. I can't stop watching this. Lauren, if I were 15 years younger and unattached, then...probably nothing would happen whatsoever. Ah well, I can dream can't I?
That bit about hearing the birds and knowing you'd stayed up and messed up again is gut wrenching :(
😂😂😂 it’s not funny but had to laugh gave me the horrors I sure don’t miss them birds tweating in the morning
Day 6 clean and the birds are still a little bit of a trigger 😅🤦🏻♀️
Worst thing is lying in bed trying to sleep saying to yourself why why why
Indeed
Or thinking suicide would cure the issue
Yeah - the night of fun is over and you are just laying in bed messing with your phone trying to sleep but fully knowing that you ain’t getting any sleep until the next night. Worst feeling ever
This!!
Straight up
I’ve been clean for almost 4 years now. Thank God 🙏
How long did you use for ?
@@nairdah2c800 I was a coke head for around 15 years. It takes total commitment but it can definitely be done. I’m happy to impart my experience to anyone who thinks it will help them.
@@TonyKeepingItClean thanks! I really appreciate it.
@@TonyKeepingItCleanweekend coke head here for the last decade. Age 33. Found a good girl i want to start a life with.. i would really love any tips.. financial.. or otherwise… i can go 2-3 weeks without but then ill blow up and spend $400 in one night…
@@User-5amk1m0 hello and thanks for reaching out. You can definitely crack this, and here is what I would do.
You need to make some changes. Your girlfriend is your motivation and you are saying right here and now that you want to change. Do not forget that.
Stay away from the triggers. Friends and pubs and parties etc that will put you in difficult situations.
Try NA. There are meeting’s everywhere and I found them very useful. Can seem a bit weird at first but if it keeps you clean, it’s got to be good.
It’s also good to be working towards something as well as running away from something. I would suggest starting the Couch25k and/or joining a gym. New priorities will definitely help.
Save the money you would have spent, and watch it mount up. Maybe put it towards a weekend away with your girl. Goals are good.
I hope that helps and if I can assist in any way, let me know. Good luck and God bless.
thank you for the video. Her words like "i didn't want to but i had to take it" illustrate how much social pressure there is under this addiction, all she wanted was to be accepted and although went through a horrible road she does realize that this way is an obstacle that ruins lives.
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Sober for 35 days!!! Thanks 🙏
My friend is like this now, it’s heartbreaking for everyone around, she meets up with random men of any age, lies to everyone, doesn’t get out of bed. We have tried everything but nothing gets through, we are all completely heart broken
Thank you for saying that talking to your peer is much easier then talking to the therapist. I have just cancelled my therapy because I know right now, I need a meeting. I need to speak to those that understand what I am going through.🥰❤🙏🏿
I’ve done it almost weekly for 3 years and I’ve lost my girlfriend and job due to the usage. I’m pretty much at an all time low watching this video @ 3:30 am truly trying to figure out what I need to do to once and for all beat this without being able to afford rehab or any type of therapy.
Chin up my friend. And I know it’s hard but go tell someone who you trust and will listen. It can all be corrected if that’s what you really want. Peace and good luck ❤
Been there my brother. It sounds so stupid but believe me man. Things really do get better.
Get rid of all your user friends, delete and block your dealers. Don’t go to places where you know you can score. Fill your time with other things. This is very important don’t have empty time when you usually would be doing blow. Make sure that time is filled with something else.
Then when you’re ready try mushrooms. I know that sounds like druggie alternative talk but when your ready mushrooms can begin to rewire your brain and also give you insight into how better to quit. You don’t need to do mushrooms more than once or twice.
It’s a long path to get away. It takes time.
Relapse it’s part of the process but it’s also not an excuse to stop.
Good luck Brandon.
Go to AA or NA everyday to start. It's free and you'll be around people that have been in your situation.
Relatable. Look at it as a bad relationship you and cocaine and need to break up because it's unhealthy.
I am feeling weak and this video came up. This video is perfect before I go to my meeting later on. Thank you so much for sharing.🙏🏿❤🥰
#1 way to stop. Avoid clubs, parties and the night life.
Just made a call to a counselor for help myself. Something i wanted to do for a long time, but something made act on it after years of my addiction. It was that or completely crumble. Can relate to a many parts of your experience said here except I spent most my time doing it alone. Best advice I can give to anyone in a similar situation whether it's drugs, drink, gambling, depression or anything is to talk to someone. Anyone you can. I'm only on the start of this journey (35yo) but I've been on this path before in my mid 20s after a breakdown with a gambling addiction which is why I'm acting now before it's too late. I have suffered with trauma, but it just goes to show that this can affect anyone regardless.of trauma. Thank you for sharing this. I believe in myself and feel deeply this is the start of a new path in Ive deeply needed.
Thank you for sharing this
Yea I’ll
God bless you! You are on the right track! You will soon be helping others! God bless you!
Hi. I'm very grateful that people share their stories. I'm having problem with coke myself and I feel there's noone who is willing to hear my silent scream for help. Please help me to get out of this cycle of addiction. Just talk and understanding would help a lot. Thanks
I understand I’m going through the same problems with coke, I’m desperate to stop as it’s ruining my life but I just can’t get that willpower, the cravings get me every time
I hope you're doing okay maybe if no one hears your screams you are not loud enough reach out and ask for help from others please
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@@garethoconnell4894 are you cravings a result of alcohol or do you face temptation throughout your sober everyday life? It alcohol is a contributing factor, you need to realize that the socially accepted drug that is alcohol is the most toxic factor and contributor to your addiction problem. Contrary to popular belief, alcohol is the number one gateway drug. It aids in convincing the mind that bad decisions can be suppressed and that the temporary euphoria of drug use is more important than the Emirates psychological after effects such as anxiety, depression, lack of self worth, and disassociation from the real world. Life is so much better from a Sober, appreciative outlook on the magnificence of the natural world devoid of an impaired, artificial state of mind. Heed me words and appreciate the gift of life and remember that drugs are man made solutions to unexplainable conditions of the human mind. Mindfulness and self healing are possible for any individual strong enough to face the greatest of our existence. This is coming from a non drug user who sympathizes the with power of addition and hopes to aid in the strengthening of the human condition through science and a love and interest of the natural world
This was really comforting, thanks for sharing!
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Wow what an amazing story. Thank you Lauren for being so strong and vulnerable in sharing your experience. You're really a testament to recovery!
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I feel so hopeless right now. I know the consequences my usage has, and yet I cannot stop. I don’t know what to do anymore. My mental health has deteriorated so much and I feel I can barely keep going
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The cocaine is brain drug simple things keep u wanting try to move from where u are don’t go or hang out where u do be around people u respect where u can’t , one lady dealer sold her coce in frozen Elsa bag so every time she sees Elsa she wants cocaine it’s crazy me just before taking it and wanting it I have digestive system that make me like diarrhea let me know how u doing . We help each other my Januaryresolution is cut down every two weeks a month in one day a weekend . Tell me how u feel before after . I’m opening channel on TH-cam talking about psychological and mental control on humans o was hesitated but I see that slot of people doing stuff in secret or public and scared to share my channel will push me up helping myself and others . What u need to know is the mind plays the addication of drug and to control it you need specific techniques to overcome it
@@dr.beckyspelman hello i just want to say that in cocaine consumption clinic or rehab is not enough because the drug will be routine in mind u can get clean but once u get far from the rehab place you can fall unless ur mind and brain is changed it’s setting like computer program it’s not like meth or heroine or alcohol
I remember being 21 and sober my life was so much better once i got into addiction my life was ruined wish I could go back and never made my decision of trying drugs is so not worth it don't do it it will ruin ur life
I wish the interviewer would stop interrupting!
Just came to say this.
I thought she was good, and gave it structure and direction. She asked things that may have be left out and needed to be answered
3 months pregnant and I quit as soon as I found out yet I’m struggling can’t catch a meeting so I’m here I hope this helps
Get into to CA if you can, I’ve been doing it for 12 days and it’s already completely changed my life. If you don’t have the time to go, you can find online meetings on zoom too. I promise your life will completely change.
1 Throw away your phone and all dealers and coke taking friends contact details.
2 move to a hot country
3 don’t drink alcohol
4 start to get fit lots of exercise
5 6 to 12 months and you will be fine
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Move to a hot country? Yea that's so easy to do for most of us.
@@dublinsfaircity it dose not cost that much. And you can skip that step if you want And we allways find the money for coke don’t we. ? The point I’m making is the heat helps you quit. You don’t want to get high on class a drugs in hot weather because your body is already working hard handeling the heat.
@@dr.beckyspelman wow you deleted my comment 😢can I ask why ? It was all compleatly true
Move to a hot country???
Theres more cocaine in hot countries than in cold ones.
Powerful and relatable. I am trying to rid drink and coke from my life for good 🙏
Amen brother
@@jamesisaacson2188 I understand. I don’t think we can recover unless we hit rock bottom. What do you think?
I love hearing her story I can relate. And it mades me feel like I’m not the only one that has gone throw a similar experience, and really she give me motivation to change my ways.
Thanks for sharing listening to this In the gym over a year sober now and this was what i needed 😇 love from Finland
Thank you for sharing
Cocaine is a nightmare drug because it's so moorish. Luckily for me it never got out of hand, but because of my moral compass I exaggerated my dilemma, which always made me keep a check on things. I had an habit and was not addicted, but there were times like, this is gonna get a grip if not careful PARANOIA springs to mind.
I'm from a council estate in Manchester, 80s was our time weed, e, acid, etc but to us it was just part of life, but coke that's a creeper.
Even now I avoid old haunts and people.Keep fit, eat well, read, and own what you've been through, it's a battle but we will win the war.❤️
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Thank you for sharing your experience
What does moorish mean in that context?
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Very nice and wanting more.🙏🏾
@@BARLEYSWORLDMANCHESTER okay, thank you!
isn't the spelling moreish?
Ive realized I have a problem and have opened up to a couple friends and my father about it. Every part of me hates it, I don't enjoy doing it. Even after talking to friends and family, and feeling those ways about it, I still do it. Almost feels like I'm subconsciously sabotaging myself. I have people that have said I can call them if I am ever getting the urge but I don't call. Feels like I have no control over myself which is terrifying and causing high social anxiety. Has anyone felt this way?
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Do you pursue cocaine regardless of whether or not you’re drinking? In other words, do you crave the drug while sober?
I feel you brother :/
Hi, I see this an old post. How is your journey going? I'm at that point now. Literally this weekend. I hate it.
@@albirondyL1814yes. It’s gotten to that point
I totally empathise .kudos and good on you for getting out early.
Its not a moralistic failing ,the need for anxiety to go away is extremely addictive itself .for some people having anxiety is horrible .It destroys your quality of life ,then we find a substance to self medicate and its bliss at times but never worth it for a second long term .
It took me years before i realised why i was self medicating with substances . .a good few years sober myself ,i have PTSD and flashbacks from my carry on and self hatred .
These substances are never going away ,its up to governments to think outside the box for solutions ,,the criminal element involved makes the problem far worse.
Thank god ive got the rest of my life away from the world of Alcohol and substances .
Great interview .
Thanks.
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That girl is so lovely and can explain herself so well, I understand some of my stuff through her. She has such kind and empathetic vibe, love her:)
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That girl is amazing. I can relate to every thing she said .. I love how openly honest she is I'm not even that honest with myself ..she is a absolutely amazing shes the realist woman I've ever heard speak she so beautiful aswell
I remember I was on it and I smoked about 20 cigarettes in like 2 hours and picking little bits off the floor hoping there was some
Thank you for sharing
I don’t even smoke when not on coke soon as I have coke I smoke cigs one after the other
I burn my mouth smoking the bits hoping you a speedy recovery
ive been on this merry go round for 15yrs, slowley battled each addiction. drink the first was goinfg to kill me and lead me into herion, i was at age 27 i knew i was going to kill myself unlees i made changes. now im 8yrs soba from drink and hard drugs, my life has been so much better since then but im struugling with cannibis feel i just cant completley let go. thank u for your share lauren :)
I wish all women thought like her. Perfect wife. 99.9999999% of girls drink and encourage drinking. After years of “peaks and valleys” the relationships end anyways. Hard finding sober women on this earth. Much respect to these two women for sharing this to help others. It’s real talk and very relatable. Thank you and hope you have a great sober life 👍
Very true, there’s a common overlooked problem within household alcohol addiction. Of course men have always lead statistically when it comes to domestic problems with addiction but more recently in America, alcoholism amongst married women has increased 100 percent. Can anyone shed light on what their theory is on why this might be?
It's a very easy slope to slip down especially if mental health disorders exist like ptsd or anxiety cocaine is a big draw but in the end there is only you and it. It'll will take everything away from you. Friends, house family, kids, jobs and eventually your life
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I love being able to talk to people again. The best gift of being free
Omg everything you have said I certainly relate to.👏🏿👏🏿👏🏿👏🏿
Wow that was amazing honesty, thank you for this video it really resonated with me
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Any number of years, is not good, but, It's amazing just 3 years. Congratulations! 😊🙏
Subscribed thanks for Sharing, still fighting my demons, but I'm working at a beautiful future..
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I just admitted to my sister that I am an addict. I hate this term as there are so many stereotypes associated with it, but I think my resistance to identifying with this label reinforced why it applies to me. At the end of the day, I was using, I was unhappy and I wanted to change but didnt know how. If that makes me an addict, then so be it. This video helped humanize this label. I need help and I am currently looking for help, but dont know how to move forward. If someone can help, that would be great.
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@beth williamson how long have you been taking it and how much per day?
When I came clean to my family , they turned their backs on me
@beth williamson I feel you. I am now over 9 months drug/alcohol-free. I am following a 12-step program, which has helped me enormously. The first few months are a blur, but the fog is starting to clear, and I am feeling better about myself and have more hope. There is hope for you too.
This is my new favorite channel, just when I needed mental health, i find your channel, gonna binge watch all night 🧠🤓
Wow thank you, I’m so glad you like it.
Please, not all night get 3 hours at least. Xx
This video help me so much I just relapses 30 days clean 1st timer answers all my questions
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Incredibly informative and honest, thank you.
After reading all of these comments, I’ve come to the conclusion that there needs to be a recovery for cocaine ONLY
I was hooked for 2 years and I can begin to tell you the large amount of different people I did it with it many different places .
Attachment trauma is a real thing.
This made me feel less alone
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Same here. Addicted to crack.
Iv just stared at na and doing my step 1 found this very useful thanks 🙏
This was when Coke wasn’t Fetty. She got in under the wire, thank God! Beautiful story of Gods grace and mercy!
Alcohol is the gateway to sniffing. If you’re serious about getting off the bag, stop drinking. There’s no shame in this despite what anyone says.
Alcohol is the WORST drug. Ever. And with cocaine it makes another compound
the worst is being high-functioning addict. with unlimited money. so hard to stop
You think you're high functioning but you're not anymore. Get off and stay off of cocaine, it's the devil's drug.
This was really good to watch.
What about doing cocaine in modernization? ( once a week)
I feel So Lost, so done, such a POS.
Its So good to hear that I'm not alone.
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What a breath of fresh air 👍
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dangers of kids interreacting who one of their parents has heart disease keeps cut plants in home or does not open doors and windows to oxygenate home
"If drugs weren't pleasurable no one would do them" -Naeem Tull.
Cutting her off all the time like that
Good interview. Bravo!
I can relate to this story ,, fair play to her saying off it👍👍
I wish the psychologist had interrupted less... But this was very interesting.
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I am really in need of help. I struggle with coke and alcohol addiction and I know I have a problem. I need help yes. I just don't know what to do now in order to get that help
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Get ya self to meetings mate your not aloan and will not be judged. Stay positive
So so helpful , thank you x
Thanks for sharing.
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God I relate to her so much.
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I've fallen in love with her, that's all there is to it. I'm sorry I am unable to be of much more assistance here. Actually I can add that the counsellor is very elegant, but I can't help imagining her living in the Middle Ages perhaps in Hever Castle married to Henry 8th? Or rather as a muse in the ornamental gardens of the castle playing a viola for the pleasure of the king? (This might look like an insult but is in fact some kind of demented compliment). OK I am nuts. My final more relevant edit is that I also had a similar history so I am not just here to make stupid comments
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Hahahha what. I can’t decide if I find this comment weirdly wholesome or kinda creepy
I have been hooked on cocaine & alcohol for 35 yrs now. Don't know now if I'll ever be able to stop.
I find this so hard to understand. Lost my husband to drugs. Before we got married (5 months) wants divorce had affairs and I’m also pregnant with our second child which is due in 9 days. Seeing him give up and become a monster breaks my heart. I wish I could understand why people would throw their life away and lose everything but I struggle to.
You’d understand if you were addicted. It’s not a choice unfortunately.
Sorry for your loss... he will have known you wouldn't understand that why he will have not been able come to you to talk about or ask for help.. he will have been fighting demons he didnt turn into a monster ..its hard to explain let alone understand if you not been there. It makes you self destruct basically
@@killerki5777 I truly would of helped if he had told me though. I had no idea that’s the scary thing. My son is 4 weeks old now and he’s just not interested. He’s a attracted to the new girl (dog) but loves me and definitely regrets what he has done but doesn’t know how to make it right 🤷🏻♀️
@@molliemckellar yeah he doesn't feel he deserves you it's hard to explain but I been there I been that guy. I pushed away everyone i loved and went into self destruct mode
@@killerki5777 I’ve been told his rock bottom will be when ‘it’s too late’ I want to understand that’s the problem. I want to help. I know my husband is in there somewhere that’s the sad thing :’(
If you're addicted to cocaine stay away from Miami.
this is why i stay away from drugs
Hahaha yup . Where I live is like the Miami of Canada. Coke everywhere
So true. My wife and I along with some friends have been to Miami 3 times. Just wow. 24hr party
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WOW WHAT A BEAUTIFUL SISTER ALLAAH BLESS HER MY SISTER IS GREEDY FAT SHIT NEVER DO THAT FOR ME IM ON THE VERGE OF DEATH MY NECK IS STIFF MY EYE FEELS ITS ABOUT TO EXPLODE I GOT FLUID IN MY BRAIN IM IN SO MUCH PAIN I CANT STOP AND MY NOSE IS BURNT FROM INSIDE XHUNKS COMING OUT CANT EXPLAIN THIS PAIN JUST WISH I COULD GET OUT OF LONDON
i’m a real cocaine addict, struggling myself, i feel like the way she described everything about it is phoney. can be true but most of it wasnt. but hey i guess everyone is different but congratulations on becoming sober, i cant wait til i can say the same!
Define a real cocaine addict? Everyone's journey is different... I hope you can get out of the spiral anyways.
@@dnbraver7856 ah wrong choice of words, withut the “real” bc yes everyone’s journey is different.
I’m so bad I don’t know what to do anymore
@@elliedean4468 Get help it's the first step the rest will fall into place if you keep that mentally
@@elliedean4468 If you need someone to talk to who understands I'm here btw.
I’m 19, go to a lot of raves n free parties n what not it’s become a habit, especially when I’ve had a few beers
6 years and 2 months!? Thats brazzyyy
This is better then anything I listen to befote it's so real it's a blessing to your gonna be okay some day well hopefully rip to the fallen
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Does cocaine addiction affect libido?
Gracias lauren. Bendiciones.
Alcohol is the gateway to everything. People really need to stop allowing society dictate what is their culture. Don't pass to your children, it cuts out so much nonsense
Windle: Differentiated questions lol
It's hard to make a new group of friends.
I was lucky... I never got addicted to cocaine. That's the drug that really takes you to the poor house... because there's no ceiling. With heroin... eventually you nod out and fall asleep. You get your fill, so to speak. With cocaine... you're never satisfied. Then there's me... A dumb MF'er that tried and tried cocaine 100 times. Crack, too. I just never experienced this high everyone else speaks of. And I'd be there smoking crack and watching everyone around me ascend in to euphoria... but me... 'Huh, what's so pleasurable about this?' I literally never felt a high off cocaine once... and I used it so many times. I used it because I was a compulsive addict and was desperately LOOKING for something pleasurable. I was a heroin addict for 10 years. Loved that. But eventually heroin gets really boring. The 'high' isn't even an issue eventually... you just need it to stop withdrawals. It's not how fun or good heroin is.. it's how bad it is when you DON'T have it. But with cocaine, luckily there's no physical withdrawal or dependence... and luckily for me.... there wasn't even any mental dependence because I never could feel any 'high' from cocaine. And I always got great quality coke, too. My gf would love it. My friends would love it. But I never felt a 'high' from cocaine. And thank god. Because I never went broke thanks to that. I only did it here and there when others had it. I never spent a dime on it. For some reason, my brain and my body's receptors just never reacted to cocaine. It always did nothing to me. Nothing bad, nothing good. I never could feel cocaine. I wish I knew the science behind why my brain was immune to cocaine. It's interesting. And it saved my life. Everyone I used cocaine with eventually succumbed to it... and went broke for a bit... except me. Because cocaine addiction is like burning your money. It's the habit that breaks you, financially speaking. So I thank my lucky stars, that for whatever reason, I never felt a cocaine 'high'. I mean I'd feel a boost of energy. Sure. But pleasure or euphoria... I never felt even the slightest bit of that from cocaine. And I tried well over 100 times... 50 of them smoking crack.
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@@dr.beckyspelman Call? For what? I got myself sober years ago and I never looked back once I cleaned up. Ok bye
Are u on antidepressants
@@sharynjohnston530 Never took them. I'm lucky I never needed them. But I wouldn't take them even if I did need them. The overwhelming majority of people that are convinced to take them and get on those shit pills.... they aren't depressed for any 'chemical imbalance'. They're depressed.... because their lives suck. There are very good reasons they're depressed. It's healthy, actually. Because it's the body screaming from within.... this sucks, you need to make changes... For instance, just being single is shit. You meet someone amazing... you're dancing. Because being alone sucks. Of course anyone would eventually be sad as hell alone. Same with career/job/money/friends etc. If these things are crappy.... who the hell wouldn't be depressed? Everyone would be. You'd be a nut if you were happy with a lousy or just unfulfilled life. So......
That's why I'd never take anti-depressants. And I think they're way over prescribed. Sure, some need them. But tens of millions of scripts in the USA annually is just absurd. But to each his own.
That was a ramble. Sorry. Nm.
You sound like a highly motivated person naturally. You suffered from FOMO. You're in fact the lucky few who doesn't have physical addiction but obviously it's psychological. I think you may need to look at your circle, who are the people you're trying to keep up with? What is this high and why? What you're running from. Maybe sitting in the feeling, there really isn't anything you can take extrinsically and it is inside you
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56:11, I object this, as every person is differs from others, therefor each case with each person is different.
I’m watching this while wasted on blow lol I usually do it on the weekend then I’m grossed out all week because I was only planning on doing a gram but did little 10 . What a waste of money. But it’s good at the time
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The interviewer was horrible. She constantly cut off Windle and tried to make silly interjections.
Help me please
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I'm praying for you right now Tim, you will get through this.❤
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The interviewer was really bad. Let the woman talk! We’re interested in what she has to say, not the interviewer! There were so many times where she was about to say something interesting and was cut off. Really annoying.
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"a series of itches I couldnt properly scratch", I feel you
she's sweet
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It's like a you just know who's got she's been fru wow and made it out well doing better am relating a lot it's embarrassing
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coke ,your choice.
Always blame the guy but he left.
Currently laid in bed at 6pm curled up trying to avoid a relapse. First thing I thought when I pressed play was 'man iv love a gram and a couple sex toys with her' shit isn't easy
I just wanna say that first rule is accepting u are addicted try to cut down no matter how . Cocaine is different kind of drug because it’s mental and brain drug with simple recording or look at stuff u do around coca makes u take it maybe straw 1 dollar bill plate card song or even place where u do it . So second rule is exclude and get new environment new apartment new stuff and everything I’m opening channel I will update when I upload hopefully I will help and getting push up u can follow me and we can beat it up . Everyone story is different never get shy we are all humans that did shit with experience
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22:49 just utterly gorgeous. Look, I'm not a dangerous nutter, I have simply fallen in love lol. I can't stop watching this. Lauren, if I were 15 years younger and unattached, then...probably nothing would happen whatsoever. Ah well, I can dream can't I?
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