Navigating Love, S*x & Healing with
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 29 มิ.ย. 2024
- 🌷@leahsfieldnotes 🌿Juicy & candid conversations with @HitomiMochizuki222 💐✨Thank you to BetterHelp for sponsoring this video! To get 10% off your first month of therapy, go to betterhelp.com/leahsfieldnotes to sign up today
C H A P T E R S
00:00 welcome to a new series!
00:45 sponsor
01:42 some sisterly love to start the night
02:06 TW: self-harm & how Hitomi stopped
05:30 baking a midnight snack
06:00 have you hooked up w/ any girls?
06:20 re-examining sexuality and attraction
13:20 drunk experiences
15:35 getting in touch w/ your masculine energy
16:30 the energetics of penetrative s*x
18:41 cutting karmic ties
20:30 I forget how to kiss
22:06 forts are just the coolest places to hangout
22:40 how do you know when ur ready to be in a relationship
23:47 what animal represents you
25:01 how do u know when its the right time to engage w/someone intimately
27:31 celibacy??
29:01 reflecting on growth
31:40 friends who brush their teeth together..
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A big thank you to Hitomi for being so supportive of my sleepover series idea! And thank you for spending time to watch this creation🤗 What topics or guests would you like to see in the future?
Maybe some meal ideas? Love u:)
Honesty the same guest. This is the perfect video genre and content we all need esp. this year
would be awesome to see cup of jasmien and you together !!
Hiromi was wonderful and very insightful. I would love Rowena as a guest in the future too.
ashley aka bestdressed 👀
yall don't understand how much we all needed this 😭 thank you leah & hitomiiiiii !!!
omg moya i love your videos too- what a crossover hahaha
Riightt
Literally!! Im so thankful to be able to have found their videos
Omgggg gurl I love your videos too.
I wish you were there in this video too
i love your vids moya! hopefully you and hitomi connect in paris xx
the longing for soft, intense and pure sisterhood is REAL ✨🥺
Me too girl
i feel you
Ditto
seriouslyy!! the LONGING
Same
I love you so much and I’m so happy we met Leah ♥️🥺✨🕊💭 You are truly such a pure reflection of tenderness and I can’t wait to c uuuu and squeeze uuu again in the future
P.S. this editing is soooo goood
I LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH AND IM SO HAPPY YOU GUYS ARE FRIENDS
So so grateful for you & the universe for bringing us together 😭💗🫂🌿✨
My favorite youtubers!!
i just flippin love you SO much, it's unreal!!!!!
Ur both such angels
this makes me have hope in finding like minded people, i crave having translucent conversations on degrees like this with someone who’s open and allows themselves to be vulnerable around me, it’s truly a form of intimacy, i love how both of you made it feel so safe to share anything and everything
i feel you sm and i'm sure those people will come into our lives
You can really see how physically loving Hitomi is in this. She's constantly moving closer to you and trying to connect w you and exist in a space w you. So lovely!
I love that about her too
this video is so beautiful & comforting 🥺 i can’t wait to see future guests in this series!!
Well I do have this really cute n cool n smrt friend called Amanda 😩
@@leahsfieldnotes pls i would be honoured
this aged like fine wine!!
i couldn't stop smiling TT also hitomi's answer about knowing when ur ready to be in a relationship is also a good way to understand if you should carry on in a relationship. i feel like once we start a relationship we just keep going because of inertia but dont stop to think would i choose to enter in the relationship again, does it continue to meet my initial criteria? does it continue to add to my life and make me feel more free and authentic?
Same I was smiling the WHOLE time
this video really made me reexamine how I approach relationships. If I ever had someone like Hitomi in my life, I would read her energy as more romantic than platonic. But having a platonic friend that treats you like that is so beautiful. I once had a friend tell me that I give myself to easily to other people and I think that's true. Boundaries are so important. Thank you Leah and Hitomi for helping me come to this conclusion. My love is sacred and I should see myself as such.
do you mean ‘sacred’ ??
i don’t mean this in a spelling freak sort of way, but your comment is so nice and i just want you to get the message across to everyone :’)))
ミア - m i a Yes! thank you so much
@@katetheworld4053 no problem!
I’ve had conversations about love and exchanging sexual energy with some of my partners before. The look of confusion on their faces.. I believe they saw it as some kinky thing I was into. In reality, I wanted it to be more sacred and feel in-tune with their soul/energy but they didn’t speak my language.
A lot of people don't believe in these concepts or haven't even heared of them. Imo their reaction shouldn't be too surprising
I relate to this so much
people think you're so over-invested when you talk like this but it's just the most logical thing to me!
you're very brave for doing that, truly hope you can bond with someone the way you wish to
I had to stop watching this halfway through because of my longterm inability to make and maintain friendships of any kind, especially like this. I don't know why I constantly retreat into such chronic self-isolation and so it hurts so deeply seeing others build platonic connections so effortlessly. This sort of bond and conversation feels completely unattainable for me.
Thank you for sharing this. I relate so much. But I know it’s not unattainable for you or for me, because things change and our hearts can heal. Sending you so much tenderness and love 💓
I too feel like you and honestly at this level I don't know what to do. I feel kind of lost
this is so true
I feel you on the difficulty of knowing your sexuality with all the external influences and pressures. I was sure that I must be straight even though a lot of things didn’t add up and it took being in a relationship for a year and my boyfriend suggesting it for me to realise that I was asexual. Even though people are becoming more open, I think the world still doesn’t really consider the lack of sexual attraction to be a valid thing.
Same here! I never really understood why none of my relationships surpassed a few months (I’m almost 21), but it was because that is typically when sex is suggested in relationships. I finally found out that I am asexual once I was talking to one of my friends and said, “I’m not sure if I want to have sex because I genuinely want to, or if I feel like I want to because society wants me to.” Usually when I tell people I’m asexual, they look at me with pity or will hint at abuse because the concept of not wanting sex is so foreign, which I can understand but the questions asked are still highly inappropriate.
I always felt like there were more influences towards the opposite of heterosexuality, to be honest (more a marker of modern times imo). I also think there is a lot of pull towards things being more sexual in nature, when that is not always necessary or right. I am probably more asexual like you, but that doesn’t mean that that is wrong. It doesn’t mean you can’t or don’t want to have children or are avoidant of and not able to be attracted to other human beings, or that you will be less likely to seek out a relationship. I used to think asexual people were like that (maybe there are different types of asexual people... probably... but I guess I just don’t want to paint it or even those individuals I disagree with, with a bad brushstroke anymore... maybe that’s what their aim is, too). Companionship really is important, and I value hugs and snuggles. Just because I value that though, doesn’t mean that there isn’t a time and place for more sexual things.
Eh, idk. We can say whatever we want, but it doesn’t necessarily mean we will go through life in that way. I prefer not to think so deeply about it. Just have to try your best to go through life and figure it out as you go. Both things that we want and things that we don’t want (doesn’t necessarily mean those things are even bad... and sometimes even if they are they can build character) will happen. That’s my philosophy I think.
Maybe I just don’t like painting things in a sexual or asexual light. I just don’t want to think about it that much. I just want to be left alone.
@@winterfall4028 I think it’s more because you feel pressure from the other person, and that it doesn’t necessarily boil down to society (at least not in full or even majority... I do think that individuals are more important in comparison). It is natural to feel those things and it isn’t necessarily wrong on their part, though I kinda wish waiting till marriage was more of a thing still myself. But it’s cool that you were able to navigate your relationships in that way if you didn’t feel comfortable doing that. A lot of people regret not opting out like that I think. I wish you the best of luck in your future. Just keep at it and eventually you should get closer to something that you want. :) I don’t think long, drawn out relationships are necessary most of the time, and that people tend to steer towards them more out of convenience. It’s better to meet more people. You have a greater chance of finding the right person that way. So yeah, keep at it! Sounds like you are doing the right thing (do what feels right to you though) :)
@@winterfall4028 I feel the same way! But if it's any consolation, I've read some reddit posts and comments where people stated they believed they were fully asexual for years....until one person changed their concept of "love" and "attraction". For some people, it just takes the right person to be sexually (or physically) attracted to; the right person to click with. And it doesn't mean that it's only narrowed down to one person. Call it connecting of souls, mind, energy- whatever you would like to call it. I think sexual attraction and the reasons behind one's desire to have sex differs for everyone. You just may discover yours :)) (And if not then that's okay too! Just saying this because I know plenty of people who kept their sexualities open/open for interpretation. We're here to explore, might as well make the most of it ^~^)
leah is my safe space, i feel so much better just watching her videos, i love them sm😭
same!
YES
как с тобой можно связаться?
You had me at “I thought my tongue was going to fall off” 😂😂The duo I didn’t know I needed. You guys are so funny 😂❤️
your discussion was so nice to listen to, it felt like i was with friends tbh and reminded me a lot of conversations i would have with my own friends esp being queer. i found some of the convo about "being the man" when being with women to be too reliant on gender norms that can be a reductive way of viewing wlw relations as still heteronormative in a way, being forward and more dominant in a sexual relationship can be feminine energy too. i know you two were just speaking candidly and from experience, but i figured i wanted to contribute to this space too from my experiences! thank you for opening up this dialogue and being so open and vulnerable
Thank you so much for this reflection, I feel like there is so much heteronormativity as well as gender norms in our society and much as I try not to perpetuate those paradigms, they can still come out in internalized ways. I think I’m still learning new language to explain how it feels to be in my power when dating other femmes. Grateful to keep learning, I take full accountability that still I don’t get things 100% right all the time. Sending love to your sweet heart ♥️
@@HitomiMochizuki222 Love the original comment, and love your classy response! Thanks for being open to listening and learning.
I am so glad you mentioned this. As a lesbian it made me uneasy hearing that framing of sapphic dynamics and hearing penetrative sex being called more intimate and vulnerable. But I appreciate the conversation and Hitomi's response :)
i love how we women have such a big potential of sisterhood i could sit with my girlfriends and talk with hours like this i hope i can experience more of this kind of thing trough my life!!!!
dear leah, i really appreciate the honesty and the pureness I can feel in this video. It made me really emotional and I am grateful for being part of your feelings. I would really appreciate a trigger warning next time, especially during parts regarding self-harm. It was a bit overwhelming, since I wasn’t really prepared. 💜🥺🍓
ahhhh I’m sorry about that! I put one before we started reading the poem but I’ll work on making it more visible next time & audible! Thank you for letting me know 🙏
at 4:30 i sobbed with you guys. i’ve been struggling with self harm and i’ve never really heard anyone talk about their self harming in any way before and this really hit deep for me. ❤️
leah is such a good listener while hitomi is a wonderful storyteller/teacher
and you can tell they have such a mature and powerful relationship :)
when i saw that you two did a video I was so excited !!
who wouldve thought that a 33-min video would still feel so short!! Gosh, never knew we needed this sleepover with you guys until you did it!! Hope to see more!! Love you leah and hitomi 💗✨
Omg I didn’t even realize it was that long!!
Thought I was the only one feeling this way … it really felt short lol
the ending scene of you two brushing your teeth together made me feel so nostalgic and safe for some reason. I have an identical twin sister and we always brush our teeth together/sing together and Banana Pancakes is one of the songs we have sung. your friendship is so authentic and pure. i love you both so much❤🥺
I truly wish my late teen-early/twenty year old self had more opportunities to have time like this with people who listen & share ideas.
wow. the importance of feeling SAFE. for creativity, for intimacy, for not feeling shame because I honored my body.
this video came to me at the perfect time. cherishing female friendships above all right now when i’m 20 has proved to me to be the next step in my life. i am claiming this video as a sign to follow that calling. I LOVE FRIENDSHIPS! WOW! THANK YOU FOR THE BEAUTIFUL DEPICTION!!!!
What a refreshing collab! I literally felt like I was listening to you gals in the room. Female friendships are so powerful
Ughhh, this video brought me so much joy. My husband walked in and asked me why I’m smiling so much. It brought tears to my eyes because I could feel the love through the screen. I hope to find a connection with friends like this one day💕
What a synergy of female energy, loved this 💛
i just can't believe my 2 favorite women in yt where i find comfort in their videos are united and having such a great conversation. i also want to be surrounded with people who are just so open and supportive to each other. i love you both so much 😭
Thank you leah for sharing with us this precious moment and making us feel like we're all at the sleepover 🥰
Living for these consistent videos! Leah i can tell you’re putting so much effort into these, and I appreciate it❤️
my HEARTT aahhh this video is everything i needed and more, like hanging out with my 2 big sisters, been watching hitomi for years and you guys together are so comforting! i adore you both
Thank you so much for letting me be a part of this! It’s like I’m sitting with you guys and chatting! Your videos mean a lot to me 🙏🏼😊
I am so happy you guys finally met and had the chance to have these wonderful talks
this sleepover series idea is the best!! cant wait to see more!
you two are such a power duo 😭❤️❤️ thank u for sharing these moments with us
It's so hard to find people who truly understand you and who can really be a safe place. To feel comfortable enough and trust someone enough to be able to be your most authentic self is a blessing. I feel gratitude for my relationships but I also tend to feel a longing for deep love, compassion, growth and sisterhood.
Omg I already love this video!! It's so soothing thank you so much for such heartfelt content Leah! I feel like I've learned so much listening to you two ! I hope you have a nice day 💕 big hugs 😘
i'm crying and so happy, their energy and conversations are literally healing me on so many ways. thank you thank you thank you. lots and lots of love for you two
This is so good. I watch you and Hitomi individually and seeing you both grow your friendship together is so healing and such a beautiful thing to watch! Also this feels like a podcast and I love it.
THANK YOU SO MUCHHHH! I'm crying so much just because I'm so happy to live on this earth while you two also exist there. Two beautiful gentle and powerful souls
that's soooo sweet
i've never gone to a sleepover, thank you for invating all of us!! it surely thought me a lot and made my heart warm
oh my gooooood you two are the sweetest people 🥺 just watching you feels like the warmest hug ever
This is actually so real. I thought this video was going to be more casual but I loved the realness. Thank you to both of you!!
This may be one of my favorite videos of yours. I really needed to hear both of your relatable takes on sexuality and relationships. It’s great to see vulnerable content creators like y’all
this is the series we needed!! Feels like a whole girl talk session so comforting
thank you both for being so openly vulnerable
it's been so long since i've been able to have a heart to hear / deep convo with my girlfriends and this was such a nice reminder and at the same time made me miss my besties! thank you for being open and allowing us to watch! what a great idea :)
finally had the time to see this video and it's so wonderful being able to see the two of you create such a loving, accepting, and warm space together!
i’ve watched you and hitomi separately for years. both of you guys really helped me navigate growing up and healing and seeing u guys together literally brings tears to my eyes. forever inspired by you both🖤
I didn't want this video to end!! So fun and revealing, sending lots of love
I absolutely loved this! You should definitely go on with the sleepovers series, this video felt so real and it really does feel like we’re there while watching. I really appreciated listening to such authentic conversation about real life things
You don't know you need to hear something until it's said. Feeling all sorts of ways after this, this is already such a beautiful series ❤
i just started watching and i already love this series >.
definitely enjoyed every second of this and i was really laughing through and learning as well. didn't even realize it was 33 minutes long!
god this was so nice to witness, there are so many things I relate to regarding relationships and sexuality which I was feeling kinda guilty for, but knowing that other people experience the same things makes me feel so safe
Both of you are my comfort space on the internet. Thank you for sharing your lives and energies with us. So grateful. Sending love and light!
the vulnerability and candidness and love and space being held in this is a work of art, you're both poetry in motion and i thank you for sharing this with us
i love both of your channels sm. i already know this video is going to be so healing. 🥺
Hitomi x Leah duo is the best!!! Would love to see more videos featuring you both hanging out 😊
I'm not even halfway through this and it's just so comforting and soothing. 💗😤✨
Thank you both to Leah and Hiromi. It felt like I was a part of the sleepover too. And all the discussion were so enlightening. It helped me learn a bit about myself as well. All the best to both of you for your future life journey.
Ohhh girls. This video gave me so much, it provoked so many realisations about my own life. I truly thank you for opening up from the bottom of my heart
thanks for filming this absolutely beautiful, intimate video. made me realize it's been way too long since i've had a sleepover and also to see it as a ritual in nourishing sacred sisterhood love. my heart is all kinds of mush now
related so much to Hitomi's perspective on masculine energy, hearing you both talk about this was so eye opening to my own feelings that i didn't really understand.
Seeing you two find each other has made me sooo happy 🥰 I really feel like I'm growing with you guys, I've recently really gone through some low moments and feeling so lost, and I cannot express how grateful I am for having you two as a sort of guidance (no pressure) but also just as a sort of comfort. I really love your energy and maybe feel like if we'd be in another timeline and I didn't live in Belgium we'd maybe could've been friends. I am also doing a lot better now and am really looking forward to grow and learn and be happy and really learn to put up boundaries. Sorry if this was lengthy, I know you get a lot of these. But thank you both for being here for all of us and for spreading the good vibes! much love ♥♥
I love you so much, Leah. You've been in my mind lately and praying that the next coming days will feel better and lighter for you. You inspire me a lot to heal and be a better person. ❤️
I just love this woman energy and the sisterhood! So beautiful!
The energy you guys are radiating is just so wholesome, healing, loving, supporting and I just LOVE it! Definitely going to be my go to comfort video,, also I love how you guys are open to discovering different sexualities and exploring these topics with your friends!! Keep up the good work on your videos and sending hugs, kisses and love to u
my god im literally crying i swear HITOMI AND LEAH I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH.
im speechless im so so so so so so so so so happy your channels are my safe place im so grateful
i love how you are sharing your experiences and trauma and sharing this with us.. all throughout the video i felt like i was there with you..
I think I can understand Hitoshi’s words so much since I’ve been through my hard times these two years, and I feel like I’m cured after watching this video . Hope everything goes well for all of us and become sparkling girls
seeing you and hitomi show up so raw and vulnerably with each other is so so inspiring🥺🥺 Im in a season of my life where I don’t have any friends and this video made me really look forward to when I can one day share such raw and vulnerable love and kindness with another soul again🥺💟💟
gosh this content is so pure and inspiring and it just reminds me of what is possible to experience with friends awwwww 🥺 thank you both!!
leah, the way you listen to people is beautiful.
this was such a delight to watch
felt a bit like I was an actual part of this sleepover! So amazing how honest and deep you talked and let us be a part of it!
I’ve been struggling lately with opening up to my friends just like you both do in this video but it felt so good watching you discuss all these interesting topics that I now feel more encouraged to reach out and trust the people I love. I adore you two really
thank u for being so vulnerable on the internet. i cherish this video deeply so thank u for sharing
A combo I didn’t know I needed till now, more Hitomi & Leah plz😭❤️❤️❤️
I treasure the honesty in this video soooooo much 🥺🥰
Wow. I'm only halfway through but appreciate this video format! Nice to have a more continuous conversation between two people. Also think your relationship with Hitomi seems so cute. I've watched her for sooooo many years and you for a while, and it was sweet to see you come together. You and Hitomi really feel like sisters, sharing your experiences, knowings and joy. So sweet, really made me happy. Can't wait for more of this series
This video got me on such a more positive and healthier way of looking at my break up that happened 5 days ago. I’ve been in such a depressive slump since but today’s the first time I left the house so thank you x
Honestly I’d love to see you do more of these videos, they feel so genuine and relatable. I felt like I was just hanging out with some friends and having good conversations about life :) I kinda want to see you and jasmine in the future. I’ve been watching her videos for so long and she became one of my favourite TH-camr (with you of course heheh)
This one had me bawling!!! I relate to the self harm healing journey, and to see you embody love rather than continue the cycle of cutting is really powerful. 😭 thank you for being so vulnerable🙏🏼
i haven't finished the vid yet but i just want to say thank you so much for putting this out for us! the editing in this is amazing, it really feels like a close and personal sleepover which is super comforting and much needed right now 🥺 thank you for this and for everything you do, you continue to inspire me everyday
Wow seriously thank you for this . As a woman in her early 20s I am constantly trying to figure out myself and my relationships and all the topics you touched in this video were so valid and relatable. And the advises you and Hitomi gave , were all so nice even though it didn't felt like advise it was like listening to friends talking about their experiences and learning from them . So thank you so much ❤❤
This was such a lovely video, as someone who is in their late 20's w/ no experience It was nice to hear your perspective on relationships, sexuality & sharing your sexual energy w/ partners.
This video was sooo therapeutic and healing like… it was better than all of my therapy sessions I had before 🥲🥺 thank you so much for your authenticity and honesty leah and hitomi 💕
Such a vulnerable yet intimate video, thank you both for making us feel all so warm inside
i love this so much cause its like a sleepover but using no social energy just chilling stoned drinking tea listening to them
I'm soooo lookin forward to seeing the series unravel!!! :-')
literally such a healing experience this video was !! ✨🌷💌 im having a sleepover with my best friend tomorrow night, and i know it's going to be just as vulnerable and sacred and divine as this
Watching these videos of you and Hitomi hangout and support one another really makes me wish I had a friend group or support system like this. It would be so amazing to have a friend I could share thoughts and feelings with and just, talk. These types of videos warm my heart and put a smile on my face. I struggle with vulnerability and trust so much, that I just love seeing these videos where two people can be so vulnerable with each other. It's quite beautiful and I hope to find a friend that I can feel this comfortable with so I can start practicing my own vulnerability.
This is literally like watching my best friends and brought so much comfort to my heart.
so blessed to be able to watch your amazing videos! loving all the content and can't wait for more! you're doing amazing
ok this is really my comfort video of the month
Hi Leah! This is the first video I have watched of yours and I wanted to thank you so much for this. I’ve been healing from very toxic friendships and I find it difficult to trust and receive gestures of friendship. Thank you so much for modeling what I safe space should feel like. I feel less afraid to open myself up to relationships again. Thank you, it’s been a long time coming ❤️
Edit: Hitomi, thank you for your definition on when you believe you’re ready for a relationship. It helped me navigate my readiness for friendships so I don’t feel like I am in a rush to connect again. A reminder to take care of me. Thank you ❤️
I felt this video like a throwback to a youth that could not have existed, a trust or friendship with someone that is much needed. Sistership as you call it ..
Omgggg! The part when you start building the fort!! I’ve forgotten about how fun is building Forts! I loved to do that as a kid, I’m not that old now but I still completely forgot about how much I enjoyed building Forts, and playing inside it! Thank you so much for this video Leah!! 💕🍃 it makes me so happy and remains me of things I’ve forgotten with time and that really made me sooo happy!