WHERE HAVE I BEEN? Internship, Should I Be a Dr?, Depression, Am I Still Relevant? | Nosipho Mhlanga
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Hey 'Nos Fam'
Ninjani bakwethu, I've missed you all so so much, I really have. I'm so sorry for disappearing.. I really have been going through it, I have been struggling. I'm trying to find myself again, trying to find my feet again please bear with me. Take a moment to please share some positive light in the comments, share your affirmations, you never know who they will help.
I Love You...
Welcome back Dr Nosi ♥️♥️♥️ sending love from 🇧🇼🇧🇼🇧🇼
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I love you Nosipho, you should have your reality TV, nationwide. We need more women like you
We loove you sis. Thanks for sharing, it’s really good to see you
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YOU ARE VERY WELL SPOKEN!!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😍😍😍
Thank you so much ❤️
I finished my internship at Bara last year, this video brought back so many memories! Well done for getting through surgery and almost medicine!! Ward calls are the worst. Keep your head up, just keep swimming, internship will pass. Also you speaking up about mental health struggles makes me so hopefully for our generation of doctors 🙌
God bless you Alison
I remember internship. Did Internal Medicine as my first rotation and I was 6 weeks post partum. I didn't qualify for paid Maternity leave so I had to work so I could support myself and my family (m husband was unemployed at the time.)
I ended up needing emergency leave twice in the span of the 2 year internship. The last time I broke down during call (after doing Night Call and morning rounds back to back the whole weekend and still being a mom to a toddler and a wife). I was incredibly suicidal and cried for 3 hours straight (I had to put my baby to sleep while sobbing still). My husband had to come fetch me from work 2 hours before his business flight to another province.
Medicine is not easy and I can't say it gets better. What helps is being attuned to your feelings and having a good support system❤
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You made it through all that, you are strong and so powerful, I can imagine your children hearing your story when they are grown and being in awe of how you are a wonder woman!
Ok, totally irrelevant here but can we just note the doctors of colour in these comments.....👏👏👏👏 love to see it.... this is great content. I've been an attorney for a some time & just at the peak of my career depression and anxiety hit me so badly . So it's good to come across such content. If you're going through this...Please know it's not permanent...it comes to pass
Love to see it t too ♥️♥️♥️
Never heard such a perspective on our health care system from a health care / Doctor perspective. God knows your purpose 🙏🏾
internal medicine is a lot. it was my first block this year and it got me depressed. Love and Light Motase
Watching this video made me tear up because I'm going through the same thing😔 Feeling incompetent when you are trying your best is not nice😭. But if you dealt with it Nosipho, so can I. Depression is beatable
Love and light , it doesnt get better but you do. Praying for all of you
Hey Dr Mhlanga, I'm a 5th year medical student and there are days I've always questioned if this is what I've been really called for, will I ever be as good as that one doctor I see at the hospital, will I be able to do all the things they do alone. How will I be during internship, is this really what I want. But there are days where I come back from hospitals and I feel so much joy and happiness and I accomplish so many things I didn't think I can. I'd just like to let you know that you've come this far Nosipho and this is exactly where you are suppose to be you will make great Doctor and you will survive through internship too, many have done it before us, so can you. I've had days when I struggle to wake up in from bed in the mornings, try to make excuses but I always remember that God has chosen me to go through this, out of all the children who wanted to get into medicine, he chose me for a reason and this applies to you too. I know it's difficult now but know that this is what you have been called to Do and you are exactly where you are supposed to be, you've accomplished so much so far, girl you've graduated from med school, you can do this too. You have come so far you can do this!! Even taking this video and speaking About your journey of depression just shows how much you are capable of, the devil loves to feed us negative thoughts because he knows you are destined for greatness. Believe it babe this is what you have been called for and God would have not given this to you if he knew you wouldn't be able to handle it. He is with you even now the same way he was with you through med school, he will never leave you and he will see you through this too. Trust him. You can do this!!! ❤️❤️ You inspire me and I'm proud of you sis❤️
Affirmations are so important, especially in times when we’re hit the most. I’m proud of you for realizing yourself and your capabilities. You’re such an amazing and inspirational woman. Praying for the remaining 14 days to be a growing curve that will shape you into being the best version of yourself. You’re appreciated, Dr! ❤️
This video made me get out of bed, stop letting the bad weather affect my mood and sit back at my desk after I’d been procrastinating all day. Thank you for your honesty♥️
Love this comment. I’m the exact same , the weather hampers me a lot but I guess we have to push through
I feel like giving you a tight hug right now 🥺 love & light to you Nosipho. Remember you're a daughter of the most High God ❤️ You're worthy & valuable.
I am a human physiology student at the university of Pretoria and doing my final year this year, still trying to get into medicine. This video has genuinely helped me in a sense that I became aware of what I will be getting myself into. Even after watching, i still want to become a doctor and thank you so much for sharing your story. I was literally crying throughout this video because it's too sad. I will keep you in my prayers and may you heal 100%. You are capable and you have what it takes. We love you Nosipho.
Thank you so much for watching, really glad that you found this helpful ❤️. Keep working towards your dream, it's worth it.
Nokukhanya Mphuthi I got emotional too🥺🤧
I didn’t know what I was going through lately until I watched this video. I don’t think I’m depressed but I have been fighting against myself. But knowledge is power and I can now do better. Thank you.
This happened to me when I started articles. I gave up after three months and I was completely scarred. I gave up on my dream of becoming a chartered accountant, and it is my deepest regret. I wish I was as strong as you ❤️
Even as a student internal medicine depresses me, it's emotionally and physically taxing
Hey. I have a question. I'm studying N.Dip in Biomedical technology at Uj. Can I get into medicine with it or I need a Btech first ??...
@@mercymckay8274 | BTech will put you in a better competitive state in your application
Me too 😭
Internal Med is so taxing.
I am not in Medicine, however I went through the very same thing during my internship. 😢😢
Oh man thank you for this video, I did not speak about my experience. However I must say, I am slowly coming out of that dark space.
Your self awareness is amazing, to be able to reflect and understand all this about yourself and within such a short amount of time shows amazing discernment❤️hope you only get better from here onwards.
Glad you came out of this journey stronger hey. I was in the same situation for 2 years. I eventually checked myself into a mental institution. A year later I'm happier and I've gained weight. It gets better sis
May God bless you Phingoshe🌻🌺🌻🌺
Hey, I'm a Speech Therapist 😊.
I affirm that I am enough for my role, I am fully equipped with knowledge to know what's best for my patients. Although I don't have all the resources I need to practice, I can still go above and beyond with what I currently have been provided with. God is good, God is within me. Sickness and failure will never reside in me.
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You’ve got this my love. Thank you for sharing your story with us. The fact that you were able to get up and go to work, even when it was difficult, shows how much of a strong person you are. You are enough
So glad that you’re feeling better 💕 and thank you for sharing your experiences. Praying for you ❤️❤️❤️❤️
I really needed to see this. Thank you for being vulnerable and reminding us to check our mental health esp with everything that's happening in our country and world. Thanks sis.
I love how vulnerable you were in this video. Thank you for encouraging so many people. Thank you, thank you for fighting for your mental health, thank you for going through the hard times and being brave, look how far you've come now. Congratulations
Keep pushing. We totally understand hey. All the greatest Nosipho
Oh Nosi ❤️..
I hope everything gets better .. you’re so so worthy ! You’re a great doctor and a phenomenal woman 😘
Thank you for sharing Dr. Nosi. We love you and appreciate you! You are where you need to be in life and this is indeed a stepping stone. ❤
Thank you so much for this video. I needed to be reminded of constantly affirming my worth and seeking things that I used to enjoy. I'm struggling to let down my walls and accept my support system back in, but this was a helpful reminder.
Stay strong Nosipho♥️
Thank you for sharing. I will pray for you. Thank you for the advices.
Thank you for opening up ❤️.
Seeing and knowing someone can pick themselves up after being in such a dark space gives me hope.
Your vulnerability is strength.. Thank you for this video this is why we love you! You are ENOUGH and YOU CAN DO THIS 🙏🏾
May God bless you and your craft. I’m so glad you’re much better though♥️♥️♥️❤️❤️❤️❤️sending lots of love
🥺❤️❤️❤️. I want to like this video a thousand times over. This video was so vulnerable, thank you and I’m sorry that that was the position you were in. I do hope that things get better for you and that things feel lighter, you’re so so amazing. Also please don’t feel bad about taking a break from certain spaces when you know you need to, you’re brave for doing that. Also love listening to you, this was heartwarming. You’re definitely capable and where you’re meant to be.❤️❤️
I could listen to you all day... so graceful and soooooo well spoken..❤
Sis, you are human. We understand that time off to recuperate is important. Love and light ❤️
The level of honesty🙌🏾❤
❤❤ you are a champion Nosi,you got this!!,sending lots of love and hugs.
Such a beautiful honest video. Thank u so much for sharing this with us Nos. It’s such a scary thing when you realize what u doin is not fulfilling you which happened 2me. I’m so happy that you got back on ur feet n realized that THIS IS 4 u n u brilliant at it. Sending love and healing to you❤️Mental health is so so important.
I can relate. I am not a person who suffers from mental health problems but this year I suffered a lot but with God's grace my mental health was restored.
I’m so glad I got to watch this. I’m exactly where you are mentally.
I hope we get through it❤️❤️
I relate to this so much...I went through the same thing in 2018 when I was an intern in science research, sadly I bit myself to the end and I couldn't figure out that I was depressed.
I'm sooo happy u managed to pick up yourself so quick❤❤❤
Thank you for this, you have been missed ❤️
This is so emotional. I do hope you get better soon dear.
I also went through the same for almost 4 months during my Psychology internship, it was really hard especially since some people were expecting me to "contain" myself since I am a psychologist. But then, I am happy you getting better.
Love & Light.
I know how this feels. The key is holding on and taking it one day at the time. You are beautiful and strong, you will pull through. LOVE AND LIGHT INDEED.
Thank you so much for sharing, conversations about mental health are incredibly important and you inspire me as a future medical doctor, this has given me insight on what life might look like post med school. Good luck with your journey, keep being the magnificent queen that you are🙌❤
I’m so glad you made this video, Dr Nosi. The true reality of things is often hidden from us. Doctors are human! And it’s sad that your patients didn’t get to experience your best work. I’m glad you’re slowly getting back into the hang of things. I hope you keep well!❤️
Thank you so much for doing this video! It’s courageous to talk about this with so much vulnerability ❤️ mental health is a very big issue in the health sector and I’m praying for you and I hope your next rotation goes well xx
Best video I've ever seen on TH-cam! So relatable, I will definitely start thinking of ways to best support my husband when he starts internship in 2022.
Missed you, welcome back❤️
We love you so much Dr Nosi ❤️ You can do this!
Yoh Sis i appreciate how you’ve shown us the different side of medicine. You’ve truly taken us on a journey. From how you studied a different course in order for you to get into school of medicine, to how much you enjoyed it and your “study with me” videos , your sleepless nights to showing us the unfamiliar side or less spoken about side of studying medicine. You’ve showing that this degree is not only a joy ride but that one will encounter shmuch money’s of doubt and depression. You are truly god sent sis Nosi❤️😭🙏🏾.
Thank you for being so vulnerable, highly appreciate the insight of what could possible come, but through your experience we can learn how to cope when faced with the same situation. LOVE AND LIGHT ....
I love how you are so honest with yourself, you’re doing well sis and may God carry you through this. Love and light sis ♥️
I loved this video.I relate to it as I am going through a similar situation.Thamk you for being vulnerable and not only sharing your successes.I really appreciated as someone who looks up to you.
Am so glad you feeling better Nosi... Love and light sis ❤️
You're a breath of fresh air.... Thank you for sharing❤
Wow! Nosipho you really brought tears in my eyes whilst watching this video. I am very proud of you, I can see the passion in your eyes when you speak about your profession. This country needs young women like you to make a huge difference in the medical profession.
Hey sis so glad that you are back, your content is amazing and I'm pretty sure that I speak for most of us following your channel. I'm in a completely different field but I happen to be following a lot of doctors and most of our health workers go through this. I hope you get out of this even stronger. Much love!!!
U are such an inspiration,u have taught me so much in your videos,your advise and positively help me so much. Your subscribers might not be physically there with u but we always keep u in our hearts. Feel better soon doc❤️
Thank you for this amazing video Doc. Honestly I cannot think of anyway you could have captured this better.. You spoke for yourself but your words and experiences echo through soo many of us.. For the first time I can refer to someone and say this is what I meant using your video... That moment when your dream/passion becomes your worst nightmare and that first time you say to yourself I don't think I can show up for myself and make this work is honestly the worst... It's a rough road up but you're on your way. All the best on your your healing❤️
Loved this video - first video i've ever watched so informative!!! Get well Doc
Thank you so much Nosipho for sharing this with us.Even though I’m studying civil engineering I do strongly relate to the things you were going through at that point.Love and Light wishing all the best ❤️
This was such a beautiful video!🥺🌹thank you for your vulnerability and candor. Wishing you so much of the best! Keeping you in my prayers
I can relate so so mich to this video and I'm so glad you decided to do this. Thank you and I wish you all the beat beautiful 💕
Thank you for being so real. You are so strong. Keep up the fight. You can make it girl. God is your strength
This made me so emotional😩. I am currently going through a hard time in my life and having to pull myself out of this dark place is so challenging❤️ sending love and lights to everybody going through a difficult time.
Thank you for this video, and I’m glad you made it through 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾 I’m starting with internal medicine July 1st 😢
You just said everything i needed to hear. You well spoke God's massage to us exactly how he intended it to be. U delivered well. I am so grateful that at some point i find u. Thank you! Glory to God.
This is so big and brave of you Nosi. Related with you when you spoke about feeling as though perhaps you're in the wrong profession all together, I've had that dark cloud loom over me for a very long time and this was encouraging and enlightening. We love and support you. You are doing amazing! God protect always! ❤️
Heyy love..thank you for taking the time to share your journey thus far, you are a step closer to healing every day you choose what you'll fix your eyes on. In the hardship, something greater time will come out of it in due time. Take this time to grow and be patient with yourself.
Really enjoyed this video, Thanks for opening up and sharing your journey with us.
Dr Mhlanga, you did that🙌. I relate so much and thank you for this. Love and light Sisi❤❤
Hey Nozi, welcome back! Love your energy and how organic you are! Gang Gang we are here !
thank you so much for this. I'm one of those that asked you to share your experience as an intern as I am considering coming to work at Bara next year . this video was very useful and I am sure it was not easy for you to do. wishing you the best with the rest of your internship, sending you love and light
You are so well spoken and articulate. This by no means is not a skill that many can say hold. You explain and draw in your audience and make them understand you very well. I hope you are in a better place now, thank you for sharing such sensitive details about your experience so honestly and genuinely. I felt like this you did last year, I relate so well to everything you feel. Take care of yourself and thank you for everything you are currently doing. We sincerely appreciate it.
Thank you so much for your vulnerability. Thank you for your services too💕🤗.
Oh I love how passionate you are about Med,truly is a calling.In the thick of it all,it still crossed your mind to want to do better for your patients.
Got into med, pressured by my parents and HS teachers.U was so depressed and I knew I wanted to be a CA...ended up dropping out. That's what I am doing r.n and needless to say,it's hectic and at times I even question if I'm even good enough or I'm in the right path or should have continued with med.(NO,lol)
I am glad we're having these conversations and touching base on matters that come with being in our respective career fields.Also this vid made me really appreciate Dr's (and health-workers) even more. Y'all rock!❤
Thank you so much for this. I related so much to everything you shared. May things eventually get back to normal for you ♥️
You are AMAZING!!😭😍
Related so much to this video. I was literally going through the same thing just a month ago 😣 so proud of you coming back on TH-cam. It really helped me a lot, doing things that you love will definitely make you feel better.
Love and light sis ❤️
Hey palesa. I have a question. I'm studying N.Dip in Biomedical technology at Uj...can I get into medicine or I need to get a btech first?
@@mercymckay8274 Unfortunately you will have to do a Btech first. The minimum considerations for GEMP are a Bachelor's degree or a Bachelor of Technology degree level.
Hey Doctor, This video is somehow motivating me on how to be gentle on myself when I’m having those depressing days and thoughts. I feel like sometimes when you going through something you have to setback and allow yourself to feel the whatever you going through but with you it might have been difficult because it was work related. I’m glad you doing much better Doc♥️🙌🏿
Welcome back Nosipho.Sending you lots of love ♥️
This was so encouraging!🥺🌹 Thank you.
I could listen to you all day. You have a beautiful voice, beautiful heart and you’re such an inspiration. So strong!!!!
"I will never glory my sorrows,I shall always rejoice,You such a blessing Sis May You be Blessed too,
Hi there, I'm new to your channel. I'm inspired by your story of overcoming. I think most of all the pandemic I just toppled all of us and you were/are at the front lines. I wish you all the best with becoming a surgeon. Love and light.
Happy to see you again , take your time Sis ❤️
We will always be here 🤞🏽
❤️😍❤️😍 Get well soon honey, thank you for sharing.
i needed this ❤️ for me its my computer science modules. thank you ❤️
You're so brave and strong. Welcome back sis
Thank you for sharing your truth. I also deal with depression and yes it can be so overwhelming that you don't even want to put on makeup or look nice or have an upbeat attitude. I can totally relate. Be strong and be kind to yourself. Proud of you for endeavoring in your medical career. I think it is important for people, especially people of color, to talk about our mental health struggles so that others know they are not alone and feel like they are not abnormal and can feel empowered. Be blessed!!
@Nosipho Mhlanga - Siyabonga and Askies sisi. Starting somewhere and something new is not always easy. Hang in there maKhabako, hang in there nkosazana. Just know that we are here if you wanna talk, our ears are wide open and we care so much for you. I'm pretty sure you are and will make a very good doctor, your passion and love for the field says it all. Most of us do go through some similar burden just after starting on our loved careers, and it is to my understanding that the medical field is one of the most overtaxing fields. Nosi, please check in your emails or instagram DM or Facebook private msgs, I sent some msgs there. Wishing you all the best hey.
👏🏾True That! 🙌🏽Powerful 🦾Yes Dr Nosipho, you born for this, I agree with Jacob Bush, you definitely are a great caring doctor, the road might be rough now but you've got a smooth one ahead. Powerful message from Jacob Bush👌🏾😊😊
You are worth everything you had achieved and received. We'll always be here for you. Heal you and get yourself great again
Dr Nosipho you are brilliant Doctor. And you will rise from this. Love you ❤
Yoh. So grateful for this video. I think many can relate to this video to some degree. I’m also on Internal Med but I’m a final year student. Also 2 weeks left for me and I’m counting them DOWN 😅 rooting for you 💪🏽 rooting for us 💪🏽❤️
First time on your channel and I can relate to this video so much. I have a constant struggle with anxiety, depression, and mental health in general. My biggest challenge is opening up even to professionals, thank you for sharing this. I'm so glad I decided to be a part of your TH-cam family.
Im glade you're feeling much better doc ❤❤❤, thank you so much for having the courage to film this video even though You're not 100 percent okay ❤❤❤i believe you'll get through this as you're very passionate about your job and you love people❤❤.
Love and light from palesa❤❤❤.
Thank u❤️ I’ve also been facing that same situation, but thank u for the hopeful words and also, all will be well in the end, coz all thing work together for the good of those who love the Lord.
Bbes may God continue to give you strength you will definitely get there, we are praying with you honey ❤️🙏
So brave💖💖💖! Thank you for trusting us with your story. Wishing you strength, you're a badass Dr. When one day we call you an experienced Dr/ consultant.....these will be the experiences that'll have contributed to that.
From a colleague (psychology) to another, it's not you💖💖I promise! It's the journey.....
Love and light,
Zee
Hi Nosi all will be well just keep praying. Love and light❤️