Another quick message I had a tarot reading it worked out really well tonight tonight. It says I’m going through a transformation in love, it mentions involvement in the past. My companion is an Aries, it mentions unresolved issues, awakening. It mentions I’m between worlds a brand new journey starting and it says stop and smell the roses, it mentions red flags - Negativity ~ Into the unknown, the cards mentioned have faith and take that courage, wow so true the feelings I’m been going through - self doubt - I didn’t feel good enough and I need to believe in myself and follow my heart. It also did mention both parties have lustful energy for each other, I need to trust journey and move forward. I found it to be the best reading yet and I needed to share with everyone. Thank you and I wish you all a good night
My note. Poem lyrics I needed to include. So the clocks are on time thurs? it seems a long time till then, do you feel the timing will be right, a few days to catch up on myself, until the new moon approaches I wait patiently, for my loving arms to hold tight, I love you. Maybe include some more notes tomorrow. Thank you for listening everyone I wish you a good night
My notes. Had tarot reading today, it says it’s all in my hands. And That, They Love You. You Love Them. It’s Time To Talk. It made me smile it was really nice, I have been listening to my music mostly today, feeling relaxed and calmer, I need to take son to work 7. 30 tonight, then my time to relax for the evening, I might have a pamper myself night and have some smokes!
My daily log. I worked this morning for the first time in 7 years, only did 3 hours but it really lifted my spirits. In the event of today someone managed to kick it all down. Someone who I thought liked me apparently doesn’t. Heartbroken and bewildered it just feels so s..t . I will pull myself together after a couple of smokes sat in garden where it is my quiet place. Thank you for listening everyone and have a good evening
Still really enjoying listening to your beat it does sound so nice. I listened to a poem earlier today I thought I would share with everyone. It’s a soul poem - i take that leap of faith now , I put my trust in you, I will do what’s right and believe in myself. Thank you for listening I wish you a good night
My notes a couple of poem lyrics. You mean on thurs the clocks go back, If you can come outside I’ll bring the warm drinks, deal or bargain it works both ways. Will include some more poem lyrics soon thank you for listening
Had a nice evening enjoying listening to my music and your beat still sounds great. Referring to a part in the book I was reading, I forgot to mention it talked about her life after her break up, she went deep into depression, years later her disability, years on her own loosing all zest in life just melted away. Unaware she had been secretly trying hoping to catch a look of his face, feeling he would reject her all over again, which ended with bad consequences basically, unaware she didn’t realise he did have feelings for her, you see without talking the signs can be misleading. I thought I would include this part as I found it interesting. Thank you for listening and wish everyone a good night
My daily log in for today it has felt a pleasant day overall, did enjoy sitting in the garden today and did some chores. I managed to have another tarot reading, which is interesting I feel that I needed to share. It states the obvious the twin flame they felt their connection is very strong. It does mention the struggles between the two flames, their stubbornness and ego,s. It also mentions - Boundaries - Standing Grounds - The Magician - Mind Games, it also did forecast of putting a set motion together and coming to a completion if working together anything can be accomplished. My transformation is already in progress, I need to focus more on self care and balance to make a stable connection when the flames do intertwined and are aligned. In the cards my twin flame has apparently concerns about a third party involved, with saying this it did mention it a few times on previous readings thought. No third party is involved not for two months prior ( one night, home the next) I wouldn’t say it was classed as bf. Having a nice night enjoying the quietness and feeling deep in thought. Thank you for listening everyone and I wish you a good evening
Where have you gone I cannot go another weekend, I appreciate the music you do it as definitely brightened my days and lifted my spirits high I thank you for that. Just beautiful
To be honest I can’t stop thinking about you today, but definitely still enjoying these vibes it really helps keeping my spirits up, I would like to thank you for definitely achieving that, looking forward to hearing a new tune
I really owe you and everyone apologies for all the nonsense I’ve been saying and rambling away sometimes, but I do appreciate your music I could listen all day in fact it cheers me up
Really enjoying this beat I do listen to it often I like it a lot. I needed to discuss yesterday’s feelings. I have so much to say it helps writing it down on paper, it helps me to deal with my emotions and daily stresses. Deep down I felt so gutted and shattered, things didn’t work out as planned. Reoccurrence of same old stuff, ie - frets - photos - mention statements - telling me you can’t stand me. These things if I haven’t mentioned before always makes me feel less confident and do have self doubt, I always believe what you say is real, I need a gentle approach, you need to show at-least you like me, all I feel is that you hate me, that’s how it makes me feel, do you not know by now as you did mention I’ve been coming for months, for god sake I love you. I want to spend my life with you. Yes I am scared and petrified but only of being rejected. These years living alone makes a person feel useless, weak and vulnerable of depression and self worth. I drove by just before 4 today, was really scared of parking up today with how yesterday’s went. You do not realise how much I want you, I imagine my life with you, and that is all I want, a chance to prove my love for you, give me a chance and help me along, that’s all I ask. Do not leave me please, I felt better today than I have for years. I’ve thought about you none stop, I want you. Thank you everyone for listening and I wish you all a good night
I need to see you right now I thought you were here and now another long weekend on my own, but I suppose I have you music to listen to I do really appreciate it, beautiful vibes as always you have lifted my spirits so high lately your music sounds beautiful
I’ve not listened to your beat in few days and really enjoyed the vibes sounded great. Not commented on here for a few days was preoccupied with tasks etc, although I will be starting reading another book over the weekend and will surely let everyone know which one I will choose to read, I was probably thinking about another love story but with a bit of a twist. Thank you listening everyone wish you all a good night
I think I remember the title of that song I mentioned previously it might be called obsession, now that has a catchy beat and vibes, I look forward to hearing a new beat when you have the time, thank you for listening
I thought I would write something in my diary tonight. It’s been quiet but nice have been busy catching up with chores and spending time sat outside in the garden, I find that’s my quiet place and time to gather my thoughts. I have had a couple tarot reading in the last couple of days, it mentions similar to the other tarot readings, but some things may be different for instance, my hesitation of uncertainty of a current situation, it also mentions my struggles of self doubt and believing in myself, general chit chat etc, it apparently says I am on the right path, the current is already taking me and there’s no stopping it no matter what, it mentions it is already meant to be, I do somewhere have a soulmate and our love was written in the stars, it also mentions I am meant to do this, I am foretold to reach my destination and say yes, I am sure when the time arises I got this. Thank you for listening everyone and I wish you all a good night
Where have you gone been thinking about all weekend, the songs you do are beautiful they always brighten my day and lifts my spirits I thank you for that. Beautiful beat
@@JBThisTheOne I needed to mention though little worried there is a stick now, still enjoying the vibes it still definitely brightens my days and I would like to thank you for achieving that. Still sounds fantastic
Still like this beat it has great vibes it sounds great. Feeling in brighter spirits this evening for some particular reason. Maybe it’s the start of a beautiful summer and the start of my next chapter. I will be updating everyone when I’ve fished reading the conclusion of the love triangle. Up to now it’s getting rather interesting it’s all about to get in full swing. Things will hopefully work out how it should be. Love always finds a way in the end. Being honest is the best policy in any relationship. Thank you for listening everyone wish you all a good evening
Once I get you I’m not letting you go always be mine and I yours, will be looking forward to some more songs very soon if you have time, I appreciate all you do with gratitude your music will always be a favourite. Thank you I do appreciate you
Hopefully I hear another beat very soon, wondering what your next beat will sound like the others you made are wonderful I always like listening to nice music, I really appreciate what you do and the work put in to making these, hopefully the sun brings warmth I’m perished today cannot get warm I think I need my blood needs warming but do some chores that might help, really appreciate you listening and of course your reply’s means a lot. Thank you
I was just wondering when you should be releasing another beat I’ve not heard one for a few days, I apologise for being forward just curious, till liking the vibes very much and really appreciate it
Still really enjoy listening to this beat it really sounds nice. I thought I would write in early today, it’s been a fairly decent day quiet but nice, thoughts on my mind I needed to clear and mention, depending how tomorrow turns out, make me feel at ease and wanted right, I’ve done this for months, doesn’t that say enough, all I know I can’t stop thinking about you, if it is real show me signs of confirmation, I don’t have much trust in myself and always have self doubt, i want this to happen more than anything, the thought of kissing you, I feel petrified just thinking about it, all I know I want to spend my life with you. That’s my natter and thoughts mentioned I feel better. Thank you for listening everyone
Had a lovely night enjoying your vibes still sounds excellent. Been a few days since reading my new book another love story with a twist, enjoying chilling had a manic day and stressful it’s nice just to relax sometimes. Still adore your catchy beat
I apologise for my earlier comment. That’s how I felt then but my spirits are lifting slowly and I am enjoying listening to great music and especially your beat they always sound brilliant
Still enjoying listening to this beat really does sound nice. A quick update on the book I’ve been reading: was very interesting, today they met it such a wonderful feeling, especially their first kiss, looking into each others eyes they were drawn, they talked for hours hugging and kissing, finally worked everything out and walked hand in hand, after months of waiting what a long chapter, at least love won that’s a bonus. Hopefully I choose a better love story next time, that maybe contains some passion or romance! Thank you for listening and I wish you all a good night
Hi everyone I thought I would write my usual thoughts early today, sat in the garden enjoying this beautiful weather it feels so relaxing. Actually feeling more better in spirits today, than I have for a very long time, I wonder sometimes how you managed to do it but I must say it worked, after yesterdays events I can see more clearer today, the photo then you disappear why, are you scared of me or, is it something else, well I tell you I’m feeling more obsessive everyday, I’m not able to hold u as yet give me time though, feeling “scandalous”watch out I’m nearly back, you did that I am so proud what you did, i really appreciate that. One thought about that though, maybe sort the bills if you don’t, sometimes I need to see it to believe. I managed to do a tarot reading past few days I did forget to mention. I will maybe discuss that in tomorrows update. Thank you for listening everyone and I wish you a good night
My notes. You had gone in yesterday when I walked round, it’s not for trying I do it often, language always makes me feel nervous and not wanted and unloved.
I really apologise for ranting tonight those lyrics what i mentioned are a song but forgotten what it’s called rather particular, the night turned out beautiful especially listening to fab music it cheers me up, hoping to hear another excellent tune soon, many thanks
My notes. All falls down. I never felt stupid for loving you, I never knew you loved me, I never stopped loving you, I want you in my arms right now, no more time wasting, I want you back.
I just have something quick to say at minute, you’ve made me feel like you’ve hated me, through this entire time it was always the same, every I try you push me away further and further like it’s me that shouldn’t be there, I just peace either you want me or you don’t, I won’t stop fighting for what I want, I am sobbing writing this feeling shite because I know it’s nearly to try again to see what I get maybe more shouting, today is a low day so I’ll sit in the car, and hopefully hear a nice tune later to lift my spirits. Thank you everyone to listening and a good day
Really feeling nervous about today wondering how things will be, feeling anxiety and anxious feeling quite nausea to be truthful , I will certainly do my best to pluck up the courage. Prior appointment everyone will comment as usual later!
Just listening to your beat again enjoying the vibes it sounds beautiful. The book I have been reading I have some news, the last chapter will be tomorrow the final conclusion, keep everyone wondering about that intense feeling, I am longing to find out what that moment will feel like, hopefully they have each other once again, hope it’s a happy ending, maybe true love can win in the end. I hope everyone enjoyed listening and I would like to wish you all a nice night
Still enjoying the vibes in this beat. I have been reading a book it’s about a love affair but the tale of the story nether party never knew and what a triangle it was, the pipeline is yet to follow. She kind of sussed his tactics though words or songs, managed to bring them back together again. Wondering and bewildered she thought am I going crazy imagining the words the music it’s ringing in her head the voice she heard before, in her years apart she tried to reconnect but he turned her away which was sad. Did I forget to mention they were already lovers a while back, it went back and forth for months two stubborn people but I suppose if people do not talk how can you know what’s going off in other peoples minds. The sad thing is in their time apart she has mobility problems he a strapping man now she thought why would he still want her, mobility car and walking stick, yes that’s why she walks slow unfortunately she wouldn’t be able to cross the road safely without her stick. Nearly finished the book but hoping it’s a happy ending and he still loves her the same he used to. I will obviously update you more when the book is completed. Thank you for listening and I wish everyone a good night
Forgot to mention something important while I was putting a note down for my diary, deep down I knew, sometimes it makes sense, mixed signs and signals, could have been easier, all restrictions were put in place, confusion of the mask man, lessons I needed to learn, but I didn’t just want a quick fix, I’ve never felt like this for anyone, I’ve never stopped thinking about you, I know what we did in the past, didn’t have feelings in it then, would you just find it in your heart, to meet me along a path at least , I will give you then what you want, (my heart) you didn’t know but it’s already yours, if you don’t help, our fate lays in god hands, god sake god help us, please don’t let us part. Thank you for listening everyone and wish all a good evening
I still like listening to this beat it does have a catchy beat sounds really fab. I thought I would log in early to discuss my thoughts of today I think it’s important. I didn’t expect this to happen today, gutted and shattered feeling heartbroken, I thought you meant it, it hurt when you said you couldn’t stand me, it ripped my heart again, I know you won’t talk to me again, I do love you, I always have I never just wanted your groin, I wanted a relationship, can we try again please, I love you babes. Thank you everyone for listening and wish you all a good evening
My thoughts of today been a reasonable day overall. I listened to a song today thought I would mention some lyrics, sat outside redline waiting for you, feeling scared and anxious not knowing what to expect, feeling so scared of rejection that’s how it makes me feel, I know I want you only you, your the one I think about, I even see you in my dreams, when I wake I cry because your not there, I cry every night it’s tearing me apart, I hear the same old thing everyday, swearing and abuse I feel all the time you hate me, with my feelings for you is so real, I would jump into fire to be with you, I am not feeling strong enough yet, please will you wait. I thought it did sound so nice. Thank you everyone for listening and I wish you a nice evening
I forgot to mention something I will wait if something is worth waiting for, I am sure your not getting rid of me that easy does everyone agree, I would of course miss your fabulous music if I did and that’s not an option, still liking the vibes what a nice beat
My note poem lyrics. Sat in the garden thinking of you, I can’t stop wanting you right now, I can’t till thurs it’s a long time away, I need you now I can’t breathe, I just want you in my arm soon to hold you tight, do you still want me, I’ve felt you’ve been quiet, are you still with me, I love truly love you. Thank you for reading everyone I wish you a nice day
A quick message today I thought I would clear my thoughts. I didn’t know you did a beat called tonight I just realised. So I take it you’ve already gone you didn’t waste any time or give me the chance. From the start it was all mixed signs and signals so it looks like you’ve gone. It was always blundered from the start lack of communication and thanks for not waiting. You did it again you broke my heart in pieces. I remember a song or beat you did saying you won’t ever leave. Thank you everyone for listening I wish you all a happy weekend
My notes. Sometimes I can never do right for doing wrong, you need to know all the fighting constant confusion thinking you never cared, now after finally realising you do, then you turn the tables round and say I don’t care, all weekend it’s been shit so tired without holding you that’s all I want and you doubt my feelings for you, god sake I love you I really do I always always have, I’ve felt you so low how I’m feeling because I only want you, I thought you knew why would I keep coming back otherwise, feeling heartbroken tonight feeling very hurt, especially how you treated me over these months believing it was in my head, if you don’t want me there tell me now. I was feeling a little brighter today knowing I would be holding you soon, now I’m crying because I love you.
Notes for my poem. I’m sat here thinking of you, I couldn’t catch up to you I tried, I can’t run anymore or I would of done, just to put my arms round you that’s all I wanted to do, you never gave me a chance, I won’t ever leave, you’ve got me one way or the other, all I know I just want to hug and cuddle you, I miss you so much our closeness, that would be enough we don’t need to do the other, all I know I want you, you might think I’m after something else, it’s just the closeness kissing cuddling holding hands, going on a date see if we connect, learning about each other and just affection, all I know I want you back, I’m tired of fighting I want to hold you so bad, I’m already yours unless you chose to go, I won’t leave unless I’m stoped completely, I love you. Cannot think of any more poem lyrics as yet. Thank you for listening everyone and a good night
Good morning everyone I thought I would write something in especially today I needed to clear my thoughts. Feeling better today than what I have for months things clearer today and brighter spirits. I’m not too sure where my head as been so puzzled. I am working on that poem and really it’s coming together. I need to go to work now until 1.30pm today and I picked the son up from work so my duty is done. My poem, you’ve gone very quiet on me, fully complete now, you did that I am so happy, feeling joyful but sad, I feel I have lost you, please do not leave I beg, I want you back please, give me a second chance, don’t just leave for hid sake, I know what I want, I am a hundred percent, just let me know either way, I truly love you. Thank you for listening everyone and I wish you all a good day
I need a few days off to be completely ready for you do not think I’m strong enough yet with yesterday’s episode I need to be a hundred percent whole I’m nearly there once I am I come and rescue you into my loving arms and cherish you forever and ever. That is a beautiful poem I heard I thought I would share with everyone. Thank you for listening and wish everyone a beautiful day
Thought I would write something early today. You know I get the feeling that I’m not wanted what’s it all been about just my thoughts today nothing directly spoken about anyone who you know only myself. Sat in the garden feeling quite rubbish deep in thought, especially being told by someone that you’re disgusting. I believe it’s all been in my head all the feelings I have for someone then knowing they don’t want you. So who would want me then I must be disgusting ugly and no self worth it makes me feel low in spirits. I always take people at face value but I know his eyes said it all I must try and stop but always for some strange I find myself keep going back, and every time I do it’s like a knife punching and stabbing my heart. That’s all I can say today and thank you everyone for reading and I wish you all a good evening
I thought I would write something in my diary but although it’s been a quiet day. Been so deep in thoughts today all weekend, it’s felt so unbearable missing you more everyday, I do not know how much I can take without seeing you, do you know all I’ve done is cry for you all weekend, I feel so drained longing to be with you, I’ve felt your vibes you are low low, I feel your soul and mine is wanting yours, I won’t be holding back anymore I promise, give me another chance that’s all I want, I won’t stop fighter for what I want, no one matters only you, why won’t you believe me, I’ve changed in these years sometimes I feel so unworthy of myself that’s my weakness, your my strength give me the support and encouragement to tell me I got this, I truly want you, I trust you completely alright, it’s making me sick being without you. Thank you for listening to my thought tonight and I wish you all a good night
My notes. I have had a nice evening listening to my music and having some smokes, you say I don’t show you that I love you, maybe your tactics how you handled might of been easier and it confused me, for a long time really it felt like you didn’t even like me, like I keep telling you over and over again that I do love you, I will show you that I only want you, I’ve done nothing but think of you and longing to be with you, I want us to bond again, i promise I will show you the love, have faith in me just give me the chance right. Some poem lyrics I wrote down. Good evening everyone
I just need to clear my head tonight it helps to see things clearer if written I might ramble on in a moment but it’s nothing to do with my favourite artist I just like his music I like the best. In the previous comment I said while I meant to say whole lol, I know you don’t want me you make it clear, won’t talk or even look at me without sniggering, not sure if you playing or serious, maybe get the bills sorted then everything will be final if thats what you want, hurting all over again I cannot seem just to hold you would have been enough! Thank you listening everyone and a goodnight
I thought I would mention my mixed communication today - Making something clear, it’s been so chaotic these months back and forth - songs, then throwing stones unkind words, - Loads of information that I know and loads that I don’t needed more information - I’ve been patient, when I came near it’s always abuse - Do you know how it makes me feel? But I don’t suppose you do, it feels like I’m begging all the time just to reconnect we don’t need to sleep together that is not a problem at all, I just feel so shite so tired of fighting I just peace, you handled it all wrong but that is my opinion, I’m sure you would disagree but that’s just you, do you know I was waiting for bills for month, being told everyday that you can’t stand me and constant swearing, then you turn round and blame me, well thanks a lot for that. Thank you for listening everyone and I wish you a good evening
A little ratty earlier, a day that didn’t turn out how it was expected, feeling more relaxed had quiet time of meditation, feeling calmer and in brighter spirits, I must go through phases sometimes ups and downs. Tarot reading tonight was very interesting, it says I am still processing things which is foretold, with my twin flame it is nearly aligning, I am in the process of the rebirth - Transformation into a Butterfly, it will be a new version of me, I have apparently so much magnetic energy and I need to do what’s right, lovers card again and it mentions blessings, revelations in July. Thank you for reading everyone and I wish you a good night
Good evening everyone I am very late at logging in tonight I had a pamper night it was well deserved. I will start by letting you all know about a couple tarot readings I have done lately. It confirms all my questioning or concerns coming to light. In my reading it mentions - someone wants me back that they know they f..ked up in the past, but in my eyes it always takes two no one is innocent, he is supposed to be my Prince Charming, it also mentions we have unfinished business, it also says our connection is rare, the lovers card again, my soulmate is Aries, it has mentioned that plenty of times - it also says the masculine as invested a lot of time and effort into this, it mentions his hard work pays off - the mask man hiding his true feelings - I forgot to mention in a couple of other readings it did mention fire flies - I wonder what that signifies hopefully it’s something important, it mentions about the struggles of confusion - self doubt - worthlessness - the transformation of myself feeling between worlds - becoming stronger - my fight for true love isn’t over yet. To be continued at another day. Thank you everyone for listening and I wish you a good night
I thought I needed to write in early today. I have a lot on my mind and it helps writing it down. I am working on another template maybe for a song or poem not so sure yet what I have chosen to do. I came today earlier you never even managed an appearance, I’ve been told that many times to stay away, when bills came through the door, I was in no short terms, that you didn’t want me there at all, songs then other words used, I had weeks of councillors due to stalking, my life is a shite, I’m living in my bedroom because our Mat occupies my lounge, I can’t remember last time I sat in my lounge to watch tv or just eat on a table I sit on my bed, then I live in a one bedroom bungalow, I’m also looking after our David’s dog for nearly a year, I’ve felt so shite and run down, everything has over my life, at Christmas I wanted to end it all, you were the bit of happiness in my life, all the shouting and swearing I can’t take anymore, it’s different the songs to what your saying verbally, I’m sat crying in the garden having smokes, two years prior in 2022 I lost my dog and mam in same year, I looked after my man for 3 years 7 days a week, I’ve worked hard then in 2016 I was diagnosed with osteoporosis that was hard, I walked with 2 crutches for a while, that’s why I needed to finish my cleaning which I enjoyed, for many years I never even had a date nether a boyfriend I didn’t want anyone, I never got over losing you, somehow I even buggered that up too, I have struggled and thought all my life but these months I’ve just been going round in circles and it won’t stop, it’s not too much the loneliness I miss the closeness with someone often, just to have someone who loves me for me and vice Vera, I’ve wanted you everyday I’ve never stopped thinking about you, I remember after my split I worked in a pub, I always hoped you would walk through the door, I was told you were happy living with someone, I tried a couple of times to connect with you, you turned me away which I don’t blame you in any part of this, sometimes on I wake and cry because I’m still here, I have savings and funeral paid for and I managed and get by, I’m sat in the garden trying to breathe, all my emotions are because I’m scared to take that leap incase your not there to catch me, incase I’ve imagined it that’s where I am at this moment, I’m not sure of self all I know I am drawn to you, I want to badly kiss you and hold you, but you might not want me, I’m so upset and cried so much with not even any contact of seeing you all I imagine and want is you, I wanted a relationship I wanted the next level of what we had, how many times do I need to say I truly love you even if any of this isn’t real then I’m truly then going nuts. Thank you for listening everyone and have a good evening
My notes. I failed miserably again today, my feelings are already a 100 percent for you without any doubt, that wasn’t the problem it my own self doubt and confidence, it’s the thing that’s letting me down, it’s not that that I don’t want you, my heart is feeling the feelings, I am dieing to taste your lips, I want to hold you so bad, I’m shaking sometimes with fear, I only want to be with you, I am no lies in love with you, driving to the shops you should have seen the beautiful moon tonight, a full moon and so yellow, I feel it is time now, I don’t want to wait much longer. Earlier I was scared to look incase anyone came out and told me off, I only hoped you had come out so I could do that leap.
My notes. Late up don’t worry I’m not ever leaving I promise you that, I won’t let you go, I know for sure I feel so happy, knowing I am yours, your mine and I want you back, I love you really, the thoughts of you makes my heart beat so fast, I want what’s mine, I will love and cherish you forever, I won’t ever let you go I promise.
I apologise there where more to had to my comment I made it my reminder for a poem I am working on. My thoughts for today it’s been a quiet day but was alright I managed some gardening and enjoying the peace and quiet, it’s nice because it’s my quiet place to breathe and it helps me to think the birds do sound lovely today. I have listened to a poem I thought I would share with everyone. The love I feel for you is so real, felt run down now got a swollen eye, looks unsightly and very sore too, I didn’t know for sure, that’s why the hesitation, I feel the same way as you, i promise to hold you and make you mine, just a few days or do you want me before, I know what I want and it’s you, your my everything and more, no lies I tell I swear, I promise I will give you my heart. Thank you for listening everyone and I wish you a beautiful day
My notes of a poem. I needed to have my say seen as it was all one sided, from the beginning I always doubted, songs but different language used, abbreviations fs and blinds, always abuse was not you hated me not allowed to park bills twice when I came near you always pushed me away, I was confused like in the past mixed signs and signals that’s how we broke up before, now you think I don’t care I love you I was always scared it made me nervous shaking and then you walk away, I was told by someone years ago that you wouldn’t be seen dead walking down the street with me and i thought you were only teasing that you didn’t really want, it just feels like last time I’m heartbroken because you never gave me a chance or walk towards me I would of done the rest. All I can say is THANKS A LOT
Be ready on Monday, I have some song request if can sort them please with you on mon I would really appreciate that, still listening to that sample you sent me over it sounds great
My notes. My thoughts for today I might include some poem lyrics. It feels absolutely like I’m standing on cotton candy today the feeling nervousness and believing in self doubts, I’m taking some fresh in the rain my head is pounding. Poem, I feel sometimes it’s make believe, my lover I’m thinking of you all the time, thinking if you really love me, that’s my doubts I’m having, please meet me half way, if you truly mean it, I will do the rest, all I know I want you, these months hasn’t been exactly easy, but I continued because my heart wants what it wants, that is you your my one.
I apologise everyone I forgot to include some important. I remember how I felt about you you never knew, I did hold my feelings and I didn’t, the feeling I had for rubbing your feet, I have never done for anyone, I loved our closeness we were together then, that’s why I ended my marriage, to be with you I didn’t just want sex alone, you thought I did you were wrong, I love you way you talk and walk that alone really turns me on, I know I just want to hold you so tight and never let you go, now my feelings are at this moment I’m up and down, if it real and not fantasy please let me know, or a sign my head hurts so much I’ve not stopped crying yet, you have nothing to be sorry for or guilty I just apologise I let the one person I’ve ever wanted, in all these I need to later phone dieing!
My notes. I will be early today, if I miss you for some reason. I will be am tomo for sure, just don’t give up, stay positive I know what I want, I am ready for what is to come, I trust in us I’m ready to take that leap, feeling so happy today, I won’t let you go, I am in love with you.
My notes. You call me crazy everyday day, that you don’t want me there, f and blinds, then turn the tables, and say lost time, and that I don’t care, how dare you blame me, and then walk away, it’s obvious you don’t want me there, someone called mick for my address, so my thoughts is it in my head, if it’s you why won’t you say, your throwing my feelings for you, you say I broke your heart in the past, mine were broken too, I never moved on from wanting you, I didn’t have a relationship until a year ago, all these years on my own, because I wanted you, now it looks like your doing a runner, well thanks a lot for that.
My note. You have no intentions of making it easy, do I need to beg or pray more, I know maybe you have doubts about me, I can assure you my words are my truth, you take the photo in a distance, just promise me you’ll go easy, I won’t stop trying I fight for your love back, I’ll get stronger then when I do you won’t stop me, I might have a few days left, the longer you keep me from you is making me angry, anyways I get to see your face to fight another day, I love you it’s the truth. I can’t think of anymore to document today. Peace and happiness to all I wish you a good evening
My Notes. Sometimes I don’t understand people and yourself are telling me otherwise that’s my thoughts you need to come outside to me please I’ll pull you to me I really love you.
My notes to a poem I am still working on. All the time it doesn’t feel like you even like me, all the time it’s threats, calling names and abuse constantly, no lie yours show me no signals that the like me, you need to know your sending wrong signs to me, it’s makes me feel you don’t want me there, when I approached you I felt you pull away, I’m shaking and crying because I feel scared just in case you reject me, if you don’t then let me know, it just feels like your pushing me away all the time, of course I’m going to keep coming back, I can’t stop because I want you, that moment I see you each day lifts my spirits just to see you, the thought of kissing I can’t I keep thinking about all the time, it’s getting harder everyday, I always come home and cry, just push us away or leave, but it’s up to you I only know I want you no one else, I always have, not just a quick fix, I want something more, I can’t imagine making love to you. Hopefully soon everyone I will have time to finish the poem completely. Thank you for reading and have a good evening
My thoughts and achievements for today I thought I would share. It’s been a fairly pleasant day, I must apologise for my previous 2 comments. Today I worked it was nice, I do every Thursday now, haven’t worked for prior 7 years. I also will be collecting my new car on Sunday, really looking so forward to that. I thought I would mention a poem that I heard. Masks and blindfolds hiding true emotions, so thats how you did that, it only confused like crazy I feel, losing my mind in all its glory, now in the process of transformation, a new better me is almost, be careful watch out, a vixen you’ll see, she’ll take your collar so follow her lead, she’ll be stronger than ever, so take your mask off open your eyes, you’ll clearly see me a vixen I’ll be. Thank you everyone for listening and I wish all a good night
I thought I would write in early today I’ve not logged in for a few days. I haven’t been feeling well very run down and a tasty eye infection even though I’ve managed to continue my daily chores. I have thoughts on my mind what I needed to clear it always helps writing it down on paper, it’s absolutely pouring down today so unable to sit in the garden shame about that. A poem I thought I would mention it kind of was amazing to read thought I would share. You’ve been monitoring me all the time, testing my mind set, my appearance how I look and what I say, I know there camera facing my way, no one communicates, just lets me sit there unconcerned, you know my persistence and yours, I am proud to be yours, I wont leave, I will prove my love is real, I have deep feelings for you, and I know you have for me its clearer and true, I feel you more every day, I long to caress, i miss you more, i miss your voice, your smell and how close we used to be, I want it all, the love the romance, I long for your touch, to wake up cuddling, is a dream come true, I thought it did sound really amazing I wanted to share. Thank you for listening every one and I wish you all a beautiful day
I finished everything again like I did in the past, I took a leap of faith to be told I shouldn’t be here, so it looks like I’ve imagined it again feeling totally rubbish now, thank you for listening and wish you all good evening
I forgot to mention something in the previous comment I made about my feelings and thoughts. I have never needed a man since my split, I have asked no one for anything neither sex or money, I manage alright I get by, it’s not those things I’ve missed in life since my separation, it’s the love and affection and the closeness with someone enjoying there company spending time together and loving in a way that sacred. I might look happy and bubbly on the outside, but deep down my soul feels like it’s slowly fading away no love or lust for me. The one I want to have a relationship with doesn’t want me… I live everyday just plodding along trying to make the most of the shit that surrounds us all. The shit that I get from my family, can’t they make your life miserable and unbearable if you let them. I’ve been standing my ground and feeling stronger than I have for years. Who I mention in the other comment he makes me feel alive. I love him deeply. Thank you everyone for listening
I thought I would write in early today incase I don’t get a chance later. Where I’ve been lately so confused and heartbroken today it looks like I’ve finally gone nuts, I have feelings for someone I thought he cared but apparently he hates me, I’m sat waiting for the bills in tears what a start of the day, I’m not sure what will be happening now it looks like I’ve imagined it so it’s looks like I’m screwed either way I can’t have the person I really love and he literally hates me. Thank you for listening everyone and wish you a blessed day
I thought I needed to write something tonight it’s been a few days since I logged in. It’s been a quiet few days I have felt so extremely felt low in sprits. I have something important to say, please do not leave me, promise you won’t let us split, I’m sat here in tears crying for you, I promise to give my heart, your all I want and ever will, I want something so special with you, god sake I would marry you over and over again, I love you more than life, I would sacrifice anything for you, my love and feelings for You Is So Pure. Promise me do not leave me, I beg you. I’m feeling so sad all I want is to be with you. Thank you everyone for listening I wish you all a good night
The more I think I’m loosing my mind the more it draws me in like a magnet. Am I going crazy that is my question. Does anyone know? I still like the vibes I listen to it often still sounds amazing
To be honest you have me questioning again if it’s all in my head. And you don’t really want me, all I want to do is love you that’s all, it feels so hard sometimes it feels like I’m fighting and getting no where, why won’t you believe me, it’s all the time I’m tired of crying for you, that’s all I do is longing to connect with you, form a bond if you’ll let me in or even near, maybe it’s all in my head after, I need direction or some kind of sign, I feel that you still hate me most of the time.
And by the way I was never getting rid of you that wasn’t my intentions I want what’s mine and I wouldn’t want you to change for anything we are perfect who we are, another thing I’m all in I shouldn’t be too long now almost an hundred then you won’t stop me from taking what’s mine
You never gave me a chance, it was always mixed signs and signals. The songs said one and you said the other. You told me over and over again to stop coming - sorted the bills twice - photos - frets - abusive. So now you’ve left and it wasn’t my fault. Thank you for leaving a mark then you buggered off and blame me. Well a big thanks to that……….
I feel I need to write in early today feeling slightly pi..ed off and upset. I am not sure who I thought it was speaking too on here, but it turns out I’ve made the biggest mistake of my like. I feel crazy now all these months going somewhere, and finally realising no one was talking or playing songs for me. May god strike me down and give me your worst. Useless and crazy I’ve losing my mind, how could I think that someone wanted me, I need to get my head out of the clouds urgently, before trouble finds me I will take what is frown at me I really deserve the worst. Thank you everyone for listening to my thoughts of today. Take care and have a beautiful night ahead
My notes. I feel I can’t win either way. Where is my support it’s always the same. Something needs to make me feel easy that’s all. It looks like it’s not you because you hate me.
My note. I was waiting for you not someone else who talks and looks at me like dirt saying he was reporting me, it brought me feeling doubtful feelings confused, so why didn’t you come out I asked you nice, now about you blame me for not being like you, I can’t win this unless you just come out, it looks like you’ve given in and thanks a lot for your help of support.
Please do not leave me promise you won’t, I feel the same I miss everything about you, your voice your smell I miss how close we were I want you, only you I’ve missed so many years being without you I know it took two, I was messed up and listened to what other people told me, there were no communication that’s what split us up, I was coming to get you on Monday I’m feeling so terrible this morning I’m longing for you, to caress to touch to walk hand in hand, if you don’t already I’m madly in love with you, I can’t let you go but I feel you walking away, why, please stay I want only you to give my heart, I’ve never told anyone I love them, I want to spend my remainder of my left with you, please please don’t leave me please I beg. Thank you for listening everyone have a nice day
To be honest I am not feeling unhappy because I know you’ll be missing me too does everyone agree, still enjoying my music it really sound great liking the vibes
I had a nice drive round tonight enjoying this beautiful evening looking for you, another weekend without holding you again, quite miffed I just want to kiss you so bad, another Fri night without you again, where have you disappeared to
Another quick message I had a tarot reading it worked out really well tonight tonight. It says I’m going through a transformation in love, it mentions involvement in the past. My companion is an Aries, it mentions unresolved issues, awakening. It mentions I’m between worlds a brand new journey starting and it says stop and smell the roses, it mentions red flags - Negativity ~ Into the unknown, the cards mentioned have faith and take that courage, wow so true the feelings I’m been going through - self doubt - I didn’t feel good enough and I need to believe in myself and follow my heart. It also did mention both parties have lustful energy for each other, I need to trust journey and move forward. I found it to be the best reading yet and I needed to share with everyone. Thank you and I wish you all a good night
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My note. Poem lyrics I needed to include. So the clocks are on time thurs? it seems a long time till then, do you feel the timing will be right, a few days to catch up on myself, until the new moon approaches I wait patiently, for my loving arms to hold tight, I love you. Maybe include some more notes tomorrow. Thank you for listening everyone I wish you a good night
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My notes. Had tarot reading today, it says it’s all in my hands. And That, They Love You. You Love Them. It’s Time To Talk. It made me smile it was really nice, I have been listening to my music mostly today, feeling relaxed and calmer, I need to take son to work 7. 30 tonight, then my time to relax for the evening, I might have a pamper myself night and have some smokes!
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My daily log. I worked this morning for the first time in 7 years, only did 3 hours but it really lifted my spirits. In the event of today someone managed to kick it all down. Someone who I thought liked me apparently doesn’t. Heartbroken and bewildered it just feels so s..t . I will pull myself together after a couple of smokes sat in garden where it is my quiet place. Thank you for listening everyone and have a good evening
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Still really enjoying listening to your beat it does sound so nice. I listened to a poem earlier today I thought I would share with everyone. It’s a soul poem - i take that leap of faith now , I put my trust in you, I will do what’s right and believe in myself. Thank you for listening I wish you a good night
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My notes a couple of poem lyrics. You mean on thurs the clocks go back, If you can come outside I’ll bring the warm drinks, deal or bargain it works both ways. Will include some more poem lyrics soon thank you for listening
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Had a nice evening enjoying listening to my music and your beat still sounds great. Referring to a part in the book I was reading, I forgot to mention it talked about her life after her break up, she went deep into depression, years later her disability, years on her own loosing all zest in life just melted away. Unaware she had been secretly trying hoping to catch a look of his face, feeling he would reject her all over again, which ended with bad consequences basically, unaware she didn’t realise he did have feelings for her, you see without talking the signs can be misleading. I thought I would include this part as I found it interesting. Thank you for listening and wish everyone a good night
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My daily log in for today it has felt a pleasant day overall, did enjoy sitting in the garden today and did some chores. I managed to have another tarot reading, which is interesting I feel that I needed to share. It states the obvious the twin flame they felt their connection is very strong. It does mention the struggles between the two flames, their stubbornness and ego,s. It also mentions - Boundaries - Standing Grounds - The Magician - Mind Games, it also did forecast of putting a set motion together and coming to a completion if working together anything can be accomplished. My transformation is already in progress, I need to focus more on self care and balance to make a stable connection when the flames do intertwined and are aligned. In the cards my twin flame has apparently concerns about a third party involved, with saying this it did mention it a few times on previous readings thought. No third party is involved not for two months prior ( one night, home the next) I wouldn’t say it was classed as bf. Having a nice night enjoying the quietness and feeling deep in thought. Thank you for listening everyone and I wish you a good evening
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Where have you gone I cannot go another weekend, I appreciate the music you do it as definitely brightened my days and lifted my spirits high I thank you for that. Just beautiful
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To be honest I can’t stop thinking about you today, but definitely still enjoying these vibes it really helps keeping my spirits up, I would like to thank you for definitely achieving that, looking forward to hearing a new tune
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I really owe you and everyone apologies for all the nonsense I’ve been saying and rambling away sometimes, but I do appreciate your music I could listen all day in fact it cheers me up
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Really enjoying this beat I do listen to it often I like it a lot. I needed to discuss yesterday’s feelings. I have so much to say it helps writing it down on paper, it helps me to deal with my emotions and daily stresses. Deep down I felt so gutted and shattered, things didn’t work out as planned. Reoccurrence of same old stuff, ie - frets - photos - mention statements - telling me you can’t stand me. These things if I haven’t mentioned before always makes me feel less confident and do have self doubt, I always believe what you say is real, I need a gentle approach, you need to show at-least you like me, all I feel is that you hate me, that’s how it makes me feel, do you not know by now as you did mention I’ve been coming for months, for god sake I love you. I want to spend my life with you. Yes I am scared and petrified but only of being rejected. These years living alone makes a person feel useless, weak and vulnerable of depression and self worth. I drove by just before 4 today, was really scared of parking up today with how yesterday’s went. You do not realise how much I want you, I imagine my life with you, and that is all I want, a chance to prove my love for you, give me a chance and help me along, that’s all I ask. Do not leave me please, I felt better today than I have for years. I’ve thought about you none stop, I want you. Thank you everyone for listening and I wish you all a good night
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I need to see you right now I thought you were here and now another long weekend on my own, but I suppose I have you music to listen to I do really appreciate it, beautiful vibes as always you have lifted my spirits so high lately your music sounds beautiful
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I’ve not listened to your beat in few days and really enjoyed the vibes sounded great. Not commented on here for a few days was preoccupied with tasks etc, although I will be starting reading another book over the weekend and will surely let everyone know which one I will choose to read, I was probably thinking about another love story but with a bit of a twist. Thank you listening everyone wish you all a good night
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I think I remember the title of that song I mentioned previously it might be called obsession, now that has a catchy beat and vibes, I look forward to hearing a new beat when you have the time, thank you for listening
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I thought I would write something in my diary tonight. It’s been quiet but nice have been busy catching up with chores and spending time sat outside in the garden, I find that’s my quiet place and time to gather my thoughts. I have had a couple tarot reading in the last couple of days, it mentions similar to the other tarot readings, but some things may be different for instance, my hesitation of uncertainty of a current situation, it also mentions my struggles of self doubt and believing in myself, general chit chat etc, it apparently says I am on the right path, the current is already taking me and there’s no stopping it no matter what, it mentions it is already meant to be, I do somewhere have a soulmate and our love was written in the stars, it also mentions I am meant to do this, I am foretold to reach my destination and say yes, I am sure when the time arises I got this. Thank you for listening everyone and I wish you all a good night
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Where have you gone been thinking about all weekend, the songs you do are beautiful they always brighten my day and lifts my spirits I thank you for that. Beautiful beat
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@@JBThisTheOne I needed to mention though little worried there is a stick now, still enjoying the vibes it still definitely brightens my days and I would like to thank you for achieving that. Still sounds fantastic
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Still like this beat it has great vibes it sounds great. Feeling in brighter spirits this evening for some particular reason. Maybe it’s the start of a beautiful summer and the start of my next chapter. I will be updating everyone when I’ve fished reading the conclusion of the love triangle. Up to now it’s getting rather interesting it’s all about to get in full swing. Things will hopefully work out how it should be. Love always finds a way in the end. Being honest is the best policy in any relationship. Thank you for listening everyone wish you all a good evening
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Do you know I cry every night, listening to your music brightens my day I appreciate it
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Beautiful beat. What can I say other than I totally adore this! To be honest this is the one I like the best
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I do apologise about the previous comment I forgot to mention they were some song lyrics I needed to write down. Good night everyone
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Once I get you I’m not letting you go always be mine and I yours, will be looking forward to some more songs very soon if you have time, I appreciate all you do with gratitude your music will always be a favourite. Thank you I do appreciate you
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Hopefully I hear another beat very soon, wondering what your next beat will sound like the others you made are wonderful I always like listening to nice music, I really appreciate what you do and the work put in to making these, hopefully the sun brings warmth I’m perished today cannot get warm I think I need my blood needs warming but do some chores that might help, really appreciate you listening and of course your reply’s means a lot. Thank you
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@@JBThisTheOne That’s brilliant I cannot wait to listen,, I appreciate that
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I was just wondering when you should be releasing another beat I’ve not heard one for a few days, I apologise for being forward just curious, till liking the vibes very much and really appreciate it
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Still really enjoy listening to this beat it really sounds nice. I thought I would write in early today, it’s been a fairly decent day quiet but nice, thoughts on my mind I needed to clear and mention, depending how tomorrow turns out, make me feel at ease and wanted right, I’ve done this for months, doesn’t that say enough, all I know I can’t stop thinking about you, if it is real show me signs of confirmation, I don’t have much trust in myself and always have self doubt, i want this to happen more than anything, the thought of kissing you, I feel petrified just thinking about it, all I know I want to spend my life with you. That’s my natter and thoughts mentioned I feel better. Thank you for listening everyone
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Had a lovely night enjoying your vibes still sounds excellent. Been a few days since reading my new book another love story with a twist, enjoying chilling had a manic day and stressful it’s nice just to relax sometimes. Still adore your catchy beat
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My notes. Your my real one.
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My notes. I won’t ever let you go. I won’t it all back. I love you
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I apologise for my earlier comment. That’s how I felt then but my spirits are lifting slowly and I am enjoying listening to great music and especially your beat they always sound brilliant
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Still enjoying listening to this beat really does sound nice. A quick update on the book I’ve been reading: was very interesting, today they met it such a wonderful feeling, especially their first kiss, looking into each others eyes they were drawn, they talked for hours hugging and kissing, finally worked everything out and walked hand in hand, after months of waiting what a long chapter, at least love won that’s a bonus. Hopefully I choose a better love story next time, that maybe contains some passion or romance! Thank you for listening and I wish you all a good night
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I apologise tired and stressed didn’t deserve rambling or anyone reading. Apologies
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You know I know right! Thought I would let you know
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I really do apologise I forgot to mention. New Rules. Stop all the usual stuff and make me feel at ease and wanted myself. Deal or no deal?
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Hi everyone I thought I would write my usual thoughts early today, sat in the garden enjoying this beautiful weather it feels so relaxing. Actually feeling more better in spirits today, than I have for a very long time, I wonder sometimes how you managed to do it but I must say it worked, after yesterdays events I can see more clearer today, the photo then you disappear why, are you scared of me or, is it something else, well I tell you I’m feeling more obsessive everyday, I’m not able to hold u as yet give me time though, feeling “scandalous”watch out I’m nearly back, you did that I am so proud what you did, i really appreciate that. One thought about that though, maybe sort the bills if you don’t, sometimes I need to see it to believe. I managed to do a tarot reading past few days I did forget to mention. I will maybe discuss that in tomorrows update. Thank you for listening everyone and I wish you a good night
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My notes. You had gone in yesterday when I walked round, it’s not for trying I do it often, language always makes me feel nervous and not wanted and unloved.
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I really apologise for ranting tonight those lyrics what i mentioned are a song but forgotten what it’s called rather particular, the night turned out beautiful especially listening to fab music it cheers me up, hoping to hear another excellent tune soon, many thanks
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My notes. All falls down. I never felt stupid for loving you, I never knew you loved me, I never stopped loving you, I want you in my arms right now, no more time wasting, I want you back.
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I just have something quick to say at minute, you’ve made me feel like you’ve hated me, through this entire time it was always the same, every I try you push me away further and further like it’s me that shouldn’t be there, I just peace either you want me or you don’t, I won’t stop fighting for what I want, I am sobbing writing this feeling shite because I know it’s nearly to try again to see what I get maybe more shouting, today is a low day so I’ll sit in the car, and hopefully hear a nice tune later to lift my spirits. Thank you everyone to listening and a good day
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Really feeling nervous about today wondering how things will be, feeling anxiety and anxious feeling quite nausea to be truthful , I will certainly do my best to pluck up the courage. Prior appointment everyone will comment as usual later!
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Just listening to your beat again enjoying the vibes it sounds beautiful. The book I have been reading I have some news, the last chapter will be tomorrow the final conclusion, keep everyone wondering about that intense feeling, I am longing to find out what that moment will feel like, hopefully they have each other once again, hope it’s a happy ending, maybe true love can win in the end. I hope everyone enjoyed listening and I would like to wish you all a nice night
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My notes. I got direction into my arms.
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I cannot believe you left early will be on time tomorrow! Such a perfect beat to.
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My notes. I was going to wait till Tuesday but I can’t wait right.
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Still enjoying the vibes in this beat. I have been reading a book it’s about a love affair but the tale of the story nether party never knew and what a triangle it was, the pipeline is yet to follow. She kind of sussed his tactics though words or songs, managed to bring them back together again. Wondering and bewildered she thought am I going crazy imagining the words the music it’s ringing in her head the voice she heard before, in her years apart she tried to reconnect but he turned her away which was sad. Did I forget to mention they were already lovers a while back, it went back and forth for months two stubborn people but I suppose if people do not talk how can you know what’s going off in other peoples minds. The sad thing is in their time apart she has mobility problems he a strapping man now she thought why would he still want her, mobility car and walking stick, yes that’s why she walks slow unfortunately she wouldn’t be able to cross the road safely without her stick. Nearly finished the book but hoping it’s a happy ending and he still loves her the same he used to. I will obviously update you more when the book is completed. Thank you for listening and I wish everyone a good night
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Forgot to mention something important while I was putting a note down for my diary, deep down I knew, sometimes it makes sense, mixed signs and signals, could have been easier, all restrictions were put in place, confusion of the mask man, lessons I needed to learn, but I didn’t just want a quick fix, I’ve never felt like this for anyone, I’ve never stopped thinking about you, I know what we did in the past, didn’t have feelings in it then, would you just find it in your heart, to meet me along a path at least , I will give you then what you want, (my heart) you didn’t know but it’s already yours, if you don’t help, our fate lays in god hands, god sake god help us, please don’t let us part. Thank you for listening everyone and wish all a good evening
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I need to pick Matt up from work I’ll be here later!
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I still like listening to this beat it does have a catchy beat sounds really fab. I thought I would log in early to discuss my thoughts of today I think it’s important. I didn’t expect this to happen today, gutted and shattered feeling heartbroken, I thought you meant it, it hurt when you said you couldn’t stand me, it ripped my heart again, I know you won’t talk to me again, I do love you, I always have I never just wanted your groin, I wanted a relationship, can we try again please, I love you babes. Thank you everyone for listening and wish you all a good evening
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My thoughts of today been a reasonable day overall. I listened to a song today thought I would mention some lyrics, sat outside redline waiting for you, feeling scared and anxious not knowing what to expect, feeling so scared of rejection that’s how it makes me feel, I know I want you only you, your the one I think about, I even see you in my dreams, when I wake I cry because your not there, I cry every night it’s tearing me apart, I hear the same old thing everyday, swearing and abuse I feel all the time you hate me, with my feelings for you is so real, I would jump into fire to be with you, I am not feeling strong enough yet, please will you wait. I thought it did sound so nice. Thank you everyone for listening and I wish you a nice evening
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I forgot to mention something I will wait if something is worth waiting for, I am sure your not getting rid of me that easy does everyone agree, I would of course miss your fabulous music if I did and that’s not an option, still liking the vibes what a nice beat
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My note poem lyrics. Sat in the garden thinking of you, I can’t stop wanting you right now, I can’t till thurs it’s a long time away, I need you now I can’t breathe, I just want you in my arm soon to hold you tight, do you still want me, I’ve felt you’ve been quiet, are you still with me, I love truly love you. Thank you for reading everyone I wish you a nice day
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A quick message today I thought I would clear my thoughts. I didn’t know you did a beat called tonight I just realised. So I take it you’ve already gone you didn’t waste any time or give me the chance. From the start it was all mixed signs and signals so it looks like you’ve gone. It was always blundered from the start lack of communication and thanks for not waiting. You did it again you broke my heart in pieces. I remember a song or beat you did saying you won’t ever leave. Thank you everyone for listening I wish you all a happy weekend
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My notes. Sometimes I can never do right for doing wrong, you need to know all the fighting constant confusion thinking you never cared, now after finally realising you do, then you turn the tables round and say I don’t care, all weekend it’s been shit so tired without holding you that’s all I want and you doubt my feelings for you, god sake I love you I really do I always always have, I’ve felt you so low how I’m feeling because I only want you, I thought you knew why would I keep coming back otherwise, feeling heartbroken tonight feeling very hurt, especially how you treated me over these months believing it was in my head, if you don’t want me there tell me now. I was feeling a little brighter today knowing I would be holding you soon, now I’m crying because I love you.
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Notes for my poem. I’m sat here thinking of you, I couldn’t catch up to you I tried, I can’t run anymore or I would of done, just to put my arms round you that’s all I wanted to do, you never gave me a chance, I won’t ever leave, you’ve got me one way or the other, all I know I just want to hug and cuddle you, I miss you so much our closeness, that would be enough we don’t need to do the other, all I know I want you, you might think I’m after something else, it’s just the closeness kissing cuddling holding hands, going on a date see if we connect, learning about each other and just affection, all I know I want you back, I’m tired of fighting I want to hold you so bad, I’m already yours unless you chose to go, I won’t leave unless I’m stoped completely, I love you. Cannot think of any more poem lyrics as yet. Thank you for listening everyone and a good night
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My note. Do you love me even. Sometimes it feels you don’t, all I want to do is hold you and nothing. You never give me a chance.
Good morning everyone I thought I would write something in especially today I needed to clear my thoughts. Feeling better today than what I have for months things clearer today and brighter spirits. I’m not too sure where my head as been so puzzled. I am working on that poem and really it’s coming together. I need to go to work now until 1.30pm today and I picked the son up from work so my duty is done. My poem, you’ve gone very quiet on me, fully complete now, you did that I am so happy, feeling joyful but sad, I feel I have lost you, please do not leave I beg, I want you back please, give me a second chance, don’t just leave for hid sake, I know what I want, I am a hundred percent, just let me know either way, I truly love you. Thank you for listening everyone and I wish you all a good day
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I need a few days off to be completely ready for you do not think I’m strong enough yet with yesterday’s episode I need to be a hundred percent whole I’m nearly there once I am I come and rescue you into my loving arms and cherish you forever and ever. That is a beautiful poem I heard I thought I would share with everyone. Thank you for listening and wish everyone a beautiful day
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Thought I would write something early today. You know I get the feeling that I’m not wanted what’s it all been about just my thoughts today nothing directly spoken about anyone who you know only myself. Sat in the garden feeling quite rubbish deep in thought, especially being told by someone that you’re disgusting. I believe it’s all been in my head all the feelings I have for someone then knowing they don’t want you. So who would want me then I must be disgusting ugly and no self worth it makes me feel low in spirits. I always take people at face value but I know his eyes said it all I must try and stop but always for some strange I find myself keep going back, and every time I do it’s like a knife punching and stabbing my heart. That’s all I can say today and thank you everyone for reading and I wish you all a good evening
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I thought I would write something in my diary but although it’s been a quiet day. Been so deep in thoughts today all weekend, it’s felt so unbearable missing you more everyday, I do not know how much I can take without seeing you, do you know all I’ve done is cry for you all weekend, I feel so drained longing to be with you, I’ve felt your vibes you are low low, I feel your soul and mine is wanting yours, I won’t be holding back anymore I promise, give me another chance that’s all I want, I won’t stop fighter for what I want, no one matters only you, why won’t you believe me, I’ve changed in these years sometimes I feel so unworthy of myself that’s my weakness, your my strength give me the support and encouragement to tell me I got this, I truly want you, I trust you completely alright, it’s making me sick being without you. Thank you for listening to my thought tonight and I wish you all a good night
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My Note. I have a terrible eye infection looks unsightly a couple of days or do u want before!
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My note. I Love You
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My notes. I have had a nice evening listening to my music and having some smokes, you say I don’t show you that I love you, maybe your tactics how you handled might of been easier and it confused me, for a long time really it felt like you didn’t even like me, like I keep telling you over and over again that I do love you, I will show you that I only want you, I’ve done nothing but think of you and longing to be with you, I want us to bond again, i promise I will show you the love, have faith in me just give me the chance right. Some poem lyrics I wrote down. Good evening everyone
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I just need to clear my head tonight it helps to see things clearer if written I might ramble on in a moment but it’s nothing to do with my favourite artist I just like his music I like the best. In the previous comment I said while I meant to say whole lol, I know you don’t want me you make it clear, won’t talk or even look at me without sniggering, not sure if you playing or serious, maybe get the bills sorted then everything will be final if thats what you want, hurting all over again I cannot seem just to hold you would have been enough! Thank you listening everyone and a goodnight
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I thought I would mention my mixed communication today - Making something clear, it’s been so chaotic these months back and forth - songs, then throwing stones unkind words, - Loads of information that I know and loads that I don’t needed more information - I’ve been patient, when I came near it’s always abuse - Do you know how it makes me feel? But I don’t suppose you do, it feels like I’m begging all the time just to reconnect we don’t need to sleep together that is not a problem at all, I just feel so shite so tired of fighting I just peace, you handled it all wrong but that is my opinion, I’m sure you would disagree but that’s just you, do you know I was waiting for bills for month, being told everyday that you can’t stand me and constant swearing, then you turn round and blame me, well thanks a lot for that. Thank you for listening everyone and I wish you a good evening
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A little ratty earlier, a day that didn’t turn out how it was expected, feeling more relaxed had quiet time of meditation, feeling calmer and in brighter spirits, I must go through phases sometimes ups and downs. Tarot reading tonight was very interesting, it says I am still processing things which is foretold, with my twin flame it is nearly aligning, I am in the process of the rebirth - Transformation into a Butterfly, it will be a new version of me, I have apparently so much magnetic energy and I need to do what’s right, lovers card again and it mentions blessings, revelations in July. Thank you for reading everyone and I wish you a good night
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Good evening everyone I am very late at logging in tonight I had a pamper night it was well deserved. I will start by letting you all know about a couple tarot readings I have done lately. It confirms all my questioning or concerns coming to light. In my reading it mentions - someone wants me back that they know they f..ked up in the past, but in my eyes it always takes two no one is innocent, he is supposed to be my Prince Charming, it also mentions we have unfinished business, it also says our connection is rare, the lovers card again, my soulmate is Aries, it has mentioned that plenty of times - it also says the masculine as invested a lot of time and effort into this, it mentions his hard work pays off - the mask man hiding his true feelings - I forgot to mention in a couple of other readings it did mention fire flies - I wonder what that signifies hopefully it’s something important, it mentions about the struggles of confusion - self doubt - worthlessness - the transformation of myself feeling between worlds - becoming stronger - my fight for true love isn’t over yet. To be continued at another day. Thank you everyone for listening and I wish you a good night
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I thought I needed to write in early today. I have a lot on my mind and it helps writing it down. I am working on another template maybe for a song or poem not so sure yet what I have chosen to do. I came today earlier you never even managed an appearance, I’ve been told that many times to stay away, when bills came through the door, I was in no short terms, that you didn’t want me there at all, songs then other words used, I had weeks of councillors due to stalking, my life is a shite, I’m living in my bedroom because our Mat occupies my lounge, I can’t remember last time I sat in my lounge to watch tv or just eat on a table I sit on my bed, then I live in a one bedroom bungalow, I’m also looking after our David’s dog for nearly a year, I’ve felt so shite and run down, everything has over my life, at Christmas I wanted to end it all, you were the bit of happiness in my life, all the shouting and swearing I can’t take anymore, it’s different the songs to what your saying verbally, I’m sat crying in the garden having smokes, two years prior in 2022 I lost my dog and mam in same year, I looked after my man for 3 years 7 days a week, I’ve worked hard then in 2016 I was diagnosed with osteoporosis that was hard, I walked with 2 crutches for a while, that’s why I needed to finish my cleaning which I enjoyed, for many years I never even had a date nether a boyfriend I didn’t want anyone, I never got over losing you, somehow I even buggered that up too, I have struggled and thought all my life but these months I’ve just been going round in circles and it won’t stop, it’s not too much the loneliness I miss the closeness with someone often, just to have someone who loves me for me and vice Vera, I’ve wanted you everyday I’ve never stopped thinking about you, I remember after my split I worked in a pub, I always hoped you would walk through the door, I was told you were happy living with someone, I tried a couple of times to connect with you, you turned me away which I don’t blame you in any part of this, sometimes on I wake and cry because I’m still here, I have savings and funeral paid for and I managed and get by, I’m sat in the garden trying to breathe, all my emotions are because I’m scared to take that leap incase your not there to catch me, incase I’ve imagined it that’s where I am at this moment, I’m not sure of self all I know I am drawn to you, I want to badly kiss you and hold you, but you might not want me, I’m so upset and cried so much with not even any contact of seeing you all I imagine and want is you, I wanted a relationship I wanted the next level of what we had, how many times do I need to say I truly love you even if any of this isn’t real then I’m truly then going nuts. Thank you for listening everyone and have a good evening
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My notes. I failed miserably again today, my feelings are already a 100 percent for you without any doubt, that wasn’t the problem it my own self doubt and confidence, it’s the thing that’s letting me down, it’s not that that I don’t want you, my heart is feeling the feelings, I am dieing to taste your lips, I want to hold you so bad, I’m shaking sometimes with fear, I only want to be with you, I am no lies in love with you, driving to the shops you should have seen the beautiful moon tonight, a full moon and so yellow, I feel it is time now, I don’t want to wait much longer. Earlier I was scared to look incase anyone came out and told me off, I only hoped you had come out so I could do that leap.
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My notes. Late up don’t worry I’m not ever leaving I promise you that, I won’t let you go, I know for sure I feel so happy, knowing I am yours, your mine and I want you back, I love you really, the thoughts of you makes my heart beat so fast, I want what’s mine, I will love and cherish you forever, I won’t ever let you go I promise.
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I apologise there where more to had to my comment I made it my reminder for a poem I am working on. My thoughts for today it’s been a quiet day but was alright I managed some gardening and enjoying the peace and quiet, it’s nice because it’s my quiet place to breathe and it helps me to think the birds do sound lovely today. I have listened to a poem I thought I would share with everyone. The love I feel for you is so real, felt run down now got a swollen eye, looks unsightly and very sore too, I didn’t know for sure, that’s why the hesitation, I feel the same way as you, i promise to hold you and make you mine, just a few days or do you want me before, I know what I want and it’s you, your my everything and more, no lies I tell I swear, I promise I will give you my heart. Thank you for listening everyone and I wish you a beautiful day
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My notes of a poem. I needed to have my say seen as it was all one sided, from the beginning I always doubted, songs but different language used, abbreviations fs and blinds, always abuse was not you hated me not allowed to park bills twice when I came near you always pushed me away, I was confused like in the past mixed signs and signals that’s how we broke up before, now you think I don’t care I love you I was always scared it made me nervous shaking and then you walk away, I was told by someone years ago that you wouldn’t be seen dead walking down the street with me and i thought you were only teasing that you didn’t really want, it just feels like last time I’m heartbroken because you never gave me a chance or walk towards me I would of done the rest. All I can say is THANKS A LOT
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My notes. Just promise me one thing you don’t leave until I get it right, I really love you.
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Be ready on Monday, I have some song request if can sort them please with you on mon I would really appreciate that, still listening to that sample you sent me over it sounds great
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My notes. My thoughts for today I might include some poem lyrics. It feels absolutely like I’m standing on cotton candy today the feeling nervousness and believing in self doubts, I’m taking some fresh in the rain my head is pounding. Poem, I feel sometimes it’s make believe, my lover I’m thinking of you all the time, thinking if you really love me, that’s my doubts I’m having, please meet me half way, if you truly mean it, I will do the rest, all I know I want you, these months hasn’t been exactly easy, but I continued because my heart wants what it wants, that is you your my one.
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I apologise everyone I forgot to include some important. I remember how I felt about you you never knew, I did hold my feelings and I didn’t, the feeling I had for rubbing your feet, I have never done for anyone, I loved our closeness we were together then, that’s why I ended my marriage, to be with you I didn’t just want sex alone, you thought I did you were wrong, I love you way you talk and walk that alone really turns me on, I know I just want to hold you so tight and never let you go, now my feelings are at this moment I’m up and down, if it real and not fantasy please let me know, or a sign my head hurts so much I’ve not stopped crying yet, you have nothing to be sorry for or guilty I just apologise I let the one person I’ve ever wanted, in all these I need to later phone dieing!
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My notes. I will be early today, if I miss you for some reason. I will be am tomo for sure, just don’t give up, stay positive I know what I want, I am ready for what is to come, I trust in us I’m ready to take that leap, feeling so happy today, I won’t let you go, I am in love with you.
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My notes. You call me crazy everyday day, that you don’t want me there, f and blinds, then turn the tables, and say lost time, and that I don’t care, how dare you blame me, and then walk away, it’s obvious you don’t want me there, someone called mick for my address, so my thoughts is it in my head, if it’s you why won’t you say, your throwing my feelings for you, you say I broke your heart in the past, mine were broken too, I never moved on from wanting you, I didn’t have a relationship until a year ago, all these years on my own, because I wanted you, now it looks like your doing a runner, well thanks a lot for that.
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My note. You have no intentions of making it easy, do I need to beg or pray more, I know maybe you have doubts about me, I can assure you my words are my truth, you take the photo in a distance, just promise me you’ll go easy, I won’t stop trying I fight for your love back, I’ll get stronger then when I do you won’t stop me, I might have a few days left, the longer you keep me from you is making me angry, anyways I get to see your face to fight another day, I love you it’s the truth. I can’t think of anymore to document today. Peace and happiness to all I wish you a good evening
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My Notes. Sometimes I don’t understand people and yourself are telling me otherwise that’s my thoughts you need to come outside to me please I’ll pull you to me I really love you.
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My notes to a poem I am still working on. All the time it doesn’t feel like you even like me, all the time it’s threats, calling names and abuse constantly, no lie yours show me no signals that the like me, you need to know your sending wrong signs to me, it’s makes me feel you don’t want me there, when I approached you I felt you pull away, I’m shaking and crying because I feel scared just in case you reject me, if you don’t then let me know, it just feels like your pushing me away all the time, of course I’m going to keep coming back, I can’t stop because I want you, that moment I see you each day lifts my spirits just to see you, the thought of kissing I can’t I keep thinking about all the time, it’s getting harder everyday, I always come home and cry, just push us away or leave, but it’s up to you I only know I want you no one else, I always have, not just a quick fix, I want something more, I can’t imagine making love to you. Hopefully soon everyone I will have time to finish the poem completely. Thank you for reading and have a good evening
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My thoughts and achievements for today I thought I would share. It’s been a fairly pleasant day, I must apologise for my previous 2 comments. Today I worked it was nice, I do every Thursday now, haven’t worked for prior 7 years. I also will be collecting my new car on Sunday, really looking so forward to that. I thought I would mention a poem that I heard. Masks and blindfolds hiding true emotions, so thats how you did that, it only confused like crazy I feel, losing my mind in all its glory, now in the process of transformation, a new better me is almost, be careful watch out, a vixen you’ll see, she’ll take your collar so follow her lead, she’ll be stronger than ever, so take your mask off open your eyes, you’ll clearly see me a vixen I’ll be. Thank you everyone for listening and I wish all a good night
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I thought I would write in early today I’ve not logged in for a few days. I haven’t been feeling well very run down and a tasty eye infection even though I’ve managed to continue my daily chores. I have thoughts on my mind what I needed to clear it always helps writing it down on paper, it’s absolutely pouring down today so unable to sit in the garden shame about that. A poem I thought I would mention it kind of was amazing to read thought I would share. You’ve been monitoring me all the time, testing my mind set, my appearance how I look and what I say, I know there camera facing my way, no one communicates, just lets me sit there unconcerned, you know my persistence and yours, I am proud to be yours, I wont leave, I will prove my love is real, I have deep feelings for you, and I know you have for me its clearer and true, I feel you more every day, I long to caress, i miss you more, i miss your voice, your smell and how close we used to be, I want it all, the love the romance, I long for your touch, to wake up cuddling, is a dream come true, I thought it did sound really amazing I wanted to share. Thank you for listening every one and I wish you all a beautiful day
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I finished everything again like I did in the past, I took a leap of faith to be told I shouldn’t be here, so it looks like I’ve imagined it again feeling totally rubbish now, thank you for listening and wish you all good evening
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I forgot to mention something in the previous comment I made about my feelings and thoughts. I have never needed a man since my split, I have asked no one for anything neither sex or money, I manage alright I get by, it’s not those things I’ve missed in life since my separation, it’s the love and affection and the closeness with someone enjoying there company spending time together and loving in a way that sacred. I might look happy and bubbly on the outside, but deep down my soul feels like it’s slowly fading away no love or lust for me. The one I want to have a relationship with doesn’t want me… I live everyday just plodding along trying to make the most of the shit that surrounds us all. The shit that I get from my family, can’t they make your life miserable and unbearable if you let them. I’ve been standing my ground and feeling stronger than I have for years. Who I mention in the other comment he makes me feel alive. I love him deeply. Thank you everyone for listening
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I thought I would write in early today incase I don’t get a chance later. Where I’ve been lately so confused and heartbroken today it looks like I’ve finally gone nuts, I have feelings for someone I thought he cared but apparently he hates me, I’m sat waiting for the bills in tears what a start of the day, I’m not sure what will be happening now it looks like I’ve imagined it so it’s looks like I’m screwed either way I can’t have the person I really love and he literally hates me. Thank you for listening everyone and wish you a blessed day
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I thought I needed to write something tonight it’s been a few days since I logged in. It’s been a quiet few days I have felt so extremely felt low in sprits. I have something important to say, please do not leave me, promise you won’t let us split, I’m sat here in tears crying for you, I promise to give my heart, your all I want and ever will, I want something so special with you, god sake I would marry you over and over again, I love you more than life, I would sacrifice anything for you, my love and feelings for You Is So Pure. Promise me do not leave me, I beg you. I’m feeling so sad all I want is to be with you. Thank you everyone for listening I wish you all a good night
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Please do not walk away
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Do not leave me I beg promise you won’t
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The more I think I’m loosing my mind the more it draws me in like a magnet. Am I going crazy that is my question. Does anyone know? I still like the vibes I listen to it often still sounds amazing
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To be honest you have me questioning again if it’s all in my head. And you don’t really want me, all I want to do is love you that’s all, it feels so hard sometimes it feels like I’m fighting and getting no where, why won’t you believe me, it’s all the time I’m tired of crying for you, that’s all I do is longing to connect with you, form a bond if you’ll let me in or even near, maybe it’s all in my head after, I need direction or some kind of sign, I feel that you still hate me most of the time.
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And by the way I was never getting rid of you that wasn’t my intentions I want what’s mine and I wouldn’t want you to change for anything we are perfect who we are, another thing I’m all in I shouldn’t be too long now almost an hundred then you won’t stop me from taking what’s mine
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You never gave me a chance, it was always mixed signs and signals. The songs said one and you said the other. You told me over and over again to stop coming - sorted the bills twice - photos - frets - abusive. So now you’ve left and it wasn’t my fault. Thank you for leaving a mark then you buggered off and blame me. Well a big thanks to that……….
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I feel I need to write in early today feeling slightly pi..ed off and upset. I am not sure who I thought it was speaking too on here, but it turns out I’ve made the biggest mistake of my like. I feel crazy now all these months going somewhere, and finally realising no one was talking or playing songs for me. May god strike me down and give me your worst. Useless and crazy I’ve losing my mind, how could I think that someone wanted me, I need to get my head out of the clouds urgently, before trouble finds me I will take what is frown at me I really deserve the worst. Thank you everyone for listening to my thoughts of today. Take care and have a beautiful night ahead
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My notes. I feel I can’t win either way. Where is my support it’s always the same. Something needs to make me feel easy that’s all. It looks like it’s not you because you hate me.
My note. I was waiting for you not someone else who talks and looks at me like dirt saying he was reporting me, it brought me feeling doubtful feelings confused, so why didn’t you come out I asked you nice, now about you blame me for not being like you, I can’t win this unless you just come out, it looks like you’ve given in and thanks a lot for your help of support.
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Please do not leave me promise you won’t, I feel the same I miss everything about you, your voice your smell I miss how close we were I want you, only you I’ve missed so many years being without you I know it took two, I was messed up and listened to what other people told me, there were no communication that’s what split us up, I was coming to get you on Monday I’m feeling so terrible this morning I’m longing for you, to caress to touch to walk hand in hand, if you don’t already I’m madly in love with you, I can’t let you go but I feel you walking away, why, please stay I want only you to give my heart, I’ve never told anyone I love them, I want to spend my remainder of my left with you, please please don’t leave me please I beg. Thank you for listening everyone have a nice day
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To be honest I am not feeling unhappy because I know you’ll be missing me too does everyone agree, still enjoying my music it really sound great liking the vibes
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My note. Don’t leave me please.
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My notes. That song all falls down 6 years ago did you do
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I had a nice drive round tonight enjoying this beautiful evening looking for you, another weekend without holding you again, quite miffed I just want to kiss you so bad, another Fri night without you again, where have you disappeared to
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