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The guilt and the shame of living with aud, Living with liver disease
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You are a gift from God! Keep these videos coming! I am a 53-year-old retired army veteran with PTSD and full blown alcoholism that I have perfected for over 30 years. I recently stopped drinking and you have been my "Daily Meeting" that has given me perspective and kept me from drinking. Right after watching one of your videos, I feel like an elephant has been lifted off my chest! Every video you make seem like you are reading my life manuscript! God Bless you and your family. Much love and I will see you tomorrow!
Keep GOIN Big Sarge! It's so worth it and such a gift! Thank you for your service! - Ryan in San Diego, 5 years free.
Go hard Vet 💪😇👍
@@bigsargecustoms Thank you for your service, sir.
Wow! Thank you so much for saying that! I am so happy to hear that these various have helped so much! We are all different, but have so much in common in our addictions, it's really crazy how much we do. Thank you so much for being here and congratulations on your sobriety!!!! You are doing great! See you shortly my friend! God bless❤❤❤😊😊😊
Thank you for your service as well my friend! God bless you❤
Hi LD I commented on your Live session a few days ago. I was in a bad state. I took your advice and went to hospital. I had a BAC of 0.345. The nurses were astonished I could sit upright and breathing. I stayed overnight and got some medication for possible withdrawal. Well I had withdrawal bad at home with family for 3 days. Made it to the other side. So thankful and have a plan to get outpatient counseling and go to meetings.
@andyriddle7801 good luck to you ,and believe in yourself, you'll be allright
Hey andy! Wow! That's so good to hear that you went and got help! That took a lot of courage! You are very strong for doing that! Good for you for taking the steps in the right direction and taking control of your life! I am so happy for you!!! Keep.me posted on how you are doing please! God bless😊😊😊😊❤❤❤❤
My god, Andy!!! That was so courageous!!! You should be so proud of yourself!! I hope you're doing well, and I'm sending you tons of warm thoughts and prayers!! ❤❤❤🫂🙏🎊🎉
Thanks all, still going strong and staying sober with a plan. The only issue still is a little insomnia but I am sure that will clear up at some point.
God will forgive you if you ask. He has saved you to help others❤😊
Thank you Robert! God bless😊😊
You are not just a normal dude, you are an exceptional human being. You may never see that of yourself but every one of your videos shows it's the truth. You are helping so many people. Your future is so important not just for you also for all those addicts who find your videos. Your life is full of purpose. I do not know you but you fill me with pride. You live a life of worth. ❤
Thank you so much for saying that patricia!!! What a beautiful comment!!! It's so hard to see ourselves from the outside looking in and I can't thank you enough for such nice things that you have said here!!!! God bless you!❤❤❤❤❤
Hey G, I needed to hear this today. It seems like the better I feel being sober, the more I think I can have just a few shots! I'm shaking this feeling off every day. Even as great as I feel, the liquor still haunts me. I'm so glad to have your videos in my life. Your mission is truly a blessing. Love ya and thanks for your powerful message ❤❤❤
Hey Cheryl. Hope you’re doing good I just wanted to stop by and say hello. God bless 💚💚🙏🏼🙏🏼
Hey jersey girl! I'm so glad that I did that video when I did! Seems like there are many who needed to hear this yesterday. I know how the cravings come too, I get them as well. Even after all I have been through.... just shows how powerful this substance really is. I am so happy that you have stayed strong and stayed away!!! Thank you! God bless❤❤❤❤
Hey Mona. Glad to hear from you! I'm a day late today. I missed the live stream 😢 sending love your way today ❤@@MonaYY_Rig
I love you humilty. You are such a kind soul.❤
Thank you Deborah!!! I really appreciate you saying that! God bless❤❤❤❤
Dude you’ve put fear in me and I need it. I drank high end scotch and bourbon for a long time. I don’t like vodka but it’s cheap and it can be concealed so I switched to that to try to cover it up. Thank you for giving me a metaphorical slap in the face. I’m glad I found you. It numbs me from my experiences in combat. Thanks again man. 💜
One day at a time man! It's possible. Thank you for your service!
@@user-cd3bp9pz1q oh thank you very much for that. Yeah I’m trying. I’m prescribed Valium too but I need to get off all this crap and I also want to a more peaceful place. I think I found that place. On vacation last year in Floyd VA with the beautiful scenery I realized I had no desire to drink and colors became more vivid after awhile and it was like going from black and white 720p to beautiful color 4k so I guess I’m not too far gone. Thanks again friend.
Thank you for this my friend! I was right there with you. I'm sorry that you have been through so much, but I just want to thank you for your service!!! God bless you❤❤❤❤
@@liverdisease-qb6rk thank you sir! I’ve never been through anything like you. Looking forward to your next video. I could listen to you talk for hours so I’m binge watching you. I’ve had dreams of being a chef. I think it’s too much stress and I used to be in the airborne ranger reconnaissance detachment. You’re strong willed. I hope you get through this.
@@liverdisease-qb6rk oh and not to be a pest but did you start getting tinnitus when you stopped? I’ve suddenly developed a serious case of it just 5 days sober after discovering you
Life will ALWAYS be better sober no matter how hard it gets. LFG!!!
Absolutely!!!! 💯 God bless 😊
I drank and told myself that I could stop if it gets bad. Then it got bad and told myself I couldn't be normal if I stopped. Then I ended up in the hospital half dead. Then I quit.
I did the exact same thing. It’s a serious poison and it’s a tough habit to stop. I’m so happy that you made it out of that. Take good care!
@CMoore8539 thanks so much Cindy!! I hope your doing well also
Paul.... I'm right there with you. I'm so sorry that you went through that. But, I'm happy to hear that you are doing well now. Thank you for being here! God bless😊😊😊😊
@@paulandrew4415 Thank you! I’m almost two months sober and everything is getting better every single day! Thank you for asking!!💞
Thanks for helping people. There is a great quote by Confusius: He who conquers himself is the greatest of warriors. Another good quote is 'know thyself'.
“We must do the one thing we think we cannot “
You are so welcome! Thank you for adding these quotes! They definitely apply! God bless❤❤❤❤
I’m on day 17 and feeling strong! If I can do it anyone can. I was deep in the bottle but, the anxiety, dry heaves every morning and heart pounding is a strong deterrent. I felt like I was possessed. went through medical detox and rehab a couple years ago this time I think I got it! never give up. It’s so amazing to feel❤
interesting that you said you felt possessed because I felt that exact same way in my drinking. I had no control over myself.
I was at day 17 when I relapsed on July 3rd..been drinking every day since ..going in circles
Keep trying 🙏🙏🙏
@@SpottedCow1604never stop trying, naltrexone is helping me. ask your dr❤
I am absolutely so happy for you olives! It's amazing how much different our lives become after removing this substance. Congratulations on day 17!!!! You are doing great!!! God bless😊😊❤
LD, this may be one of your best videos ever!, I was struggling a lot yesterday, idealizing how beer would make me feel great and forget the shitty week I had at work, that I deserved a good moment, but thanks God I listened to this, and now I'm feeling much stronger again, thank you so, so, much for that. As someone else mentionned , you truly are a gift from God. I'm keeping this video in my favorites list and will listen to it whenever a stupid thought that booze will solve my problems, arrive. Meantime, I need to find strategies on stress management, I work in Finances and the end of the year will arrive, and I need to be prepared. I'm almost 5 months sober thanks to your videos, and I really dont want to go back :-(
Awe! Thank you laura! You are too kind! That's so awesome to hear that you are going to save this video and rewatch it when you get that feeling! Never in a million years, did I ever think that I would be making videos on sobriety!!! Never! But, here I am and here you are and we are doing so much better TOGETHER!!! We are all different, but so much alike at the same time. Together we can do this!!! Thank you for being a part of this community, it's so much better with you here!!! Thank you!!!! God bless ❤❤❤❤❤
Congratulations on 5 months too!!!🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉❤❤❤❤
@@liverdisease-qb6rk I agree. You are a gift from God, and I hope this helps others to stop drinking.
I totally feel you on the journey from “I’m embarrassed I can’t keep up with my friend’s drinking nights” to “oh shit, I’m a full blown alcoholic and that was a pretty dumb reason to start drinking” but by then it’s too late, and now you “love” (ugh) the stuff too much to stop.
Thanks again and again for your honesty and your stories. Have a great day brother.
Thank you my friend! I'm sorry that you can relate to what I said. It's crazy how that works out. God bless😊😊
There's no shame my fren, you just self medicated just like all of us. We should all be taught CBT or Stoicism to deal with our emotions except we're taught absolute crap to hate each other.
Couldn't have said it better myself.
LD I say this from a real place and I think you know it’s true, but you were and maybe still are a stubborn man. I am too. Very stubborn. I think that stubbornness is what keeps us in the pit. You’ve found a way to manage it. And battle it. Battle more so than manage. This video revealed that to me. Thanks for that.
Thank you bryan! You couldn't be more right with this statement! I'm about as Stubborn as it gets and it's gotten me into a lot of trouble over the years. Glad to hear that you are battling yours as well! It's a daily struggle. Thank you! God bless😊😊😊
Mad props to you for your honesty, dude. My uncle died at a young age, from mixing alcohol with the white stuff. Stories like his and yours really inspire me not to fall into addiction, thank you!
Thank you so much my friend! I'm really sorry to hear about your uncle. May he rest in peace. God bless😊😊
LD my friend. I read the comments and it’s so heat warming to see how many folks have gotten sober bc you helped them. It feels so good to see that. They have so much in common with you snd they can relate how it feels, the struggle. Doing Gods work by giving yourself as a service to others. I’m so proud of you. You are positive and honest. You are such a good good man. God Bless you LD. What a struggle it must have been. I’m glad you’re resting yourself up. I know this heat doesn’t help the situation with the Diabetes and liver disease 💚💚💚💚💚💪🏻💪🏻🙏🏼 Mona
Wow! Thank you so much for saying that mona! You have been here for so long and I can't thank you enough for your continued heart warming support! This community wouldn't be the same without you! You are such a kind soul! Thank you! God bless❤❤❤❤❤
I really hope you're feeling better today.
I just want to say a massive thank you again. I'd just given up drinking when I found your channel but was carrying so much guilt and shame for letting myself get addicted, the embarrassment, harm and wasted time I'd inflicted on myself. You (and some of your wonderful viewers) gave me the strength to get out there and get my liver tested, also you helped me get the drive and incentive not to relapse and the confidence to finally forgive myself after all these years. I might be speaking too soon but I swear my red palms are beginning to fade.
Hey donna! I am so happy to hear this! Thank you for saying that, but you did the hard work. It's not easy to do, kudos to you for sticking through those tough times and keeping your eyes on the prize!!! God bless❤❤❤❤❤
Thanks LD for bringing u the fentanyl crisis. It's terrible
You are welcome Angela! Thank you so much for being here! God bless❤❤❤❤
Some great encouraging words again. I'm up early on a Saturday morning in Australia. I'm feeling good, hangover free. It's been that way for 20 years. We're off to do a bit of grandchildren/house/dog sitting for a couple of days.
That just made me think that I've been sober for all the years that we've had grandchildren.
The thought always occurs to me, could I really be responsible for my grandchildren while I'm drinking. How am I going to act when there's an emergency? what if I have to drive somewhere urgently? Just feels good to know that I'm going to be totally capable all the time. All the best to you, thank you for all your encouraging words. We're all behind you. Regards.
Thank you Jeff! Right? Being able to drive anywhere at anytime, it's absolutely priceless!!!! I remember doing everything around my drinking schedule. Once I started, I wasn't going anywhere. I'm so happy for you my friend! God bless😊😊
Thank You So Much For The Video!!
Thumbs Up 👍 and shared out.❤
Thank you so much cindy!!!! You are so awesome!!! I hope that you are doing well today! You are so welcome btw, it's an honor to have you here!!! God bless❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
@@liverdisease-qb6rkThank You!!💞 & God Bless You!!!🙏 I’m recovering ❤️🩹 and getting stronger every day. I almost died. I honestly don’t think I would have reached out for help if it wasn’t for you!!
Your words are so kind and compassionate man
Thank you for saying that my friend! And thanks for being here! God bless😊😊😊
So great to listen to this. I know so many people I have worked with that did make poor decisions when drunk. That being said, numbing is a big reason people use are drink. Many people want to numb out. That you for this wonderful share and thanks for your prayers for me.
God bless you. You have no idea about how many people you're helping. Including me.
God bless you too! I am so happy to hear that! Thank you for letting me know that these videos are helping! God bless❤❤❤❤
I'm 8mins. in and I wanted to share something that is so shameful, but it was my reality and it happened. When I started replacing alcohol for food, I also was taking care of 4 children, children of kids I grew up with. Long story short.... I drank and drove one day, go into a wreck. Car was totaled but Thank God the children were perfectly fine. If not, I'd be in jail for vehicular manslaughter. I do have a felony and it does make things incredibly difficult work wise. That was 25yrs ago and I'm blessed to have those children and parents in my life still. I was forgiven. I continued to drink because of shame. Glad to be sober now but I really wanted to share this for any that think this won't happen to them. Sorry so long LD. Thank You for your Candor. Maybe I'll make a video soon about it Much Love always Brother♥
Alcohol makes people do things that they’d never do sober. That’s wonderful that you’re in recovery now!! Congrats!!💞
@@CMoore8539 So many things!! Thank You so much for Your kind words ❤️
@emnotreal..
Congratulations on that long sobriety. Quite an accomplishment! Our children sometimes can be the ones that cause us to consider sobriety. My grandson's face when I was intoxicated....such guilt! Wishing you all the best!
@RonsMom40-pu1en2gj4p Thank you very much, but I have only been sober for 3 years. I continued to drink, unfortunately, but like LD, I waited until I physically couldn't.
@Emnotreal123 oooops my dyslexia is showing. I saw the 25 years ago....and my bad.
What a qt.
I've been getting strong urges of going back to drinking lately after a year of being sober, I appreciate your videos and how they help me stay sober. Thankyou
Hey Matt! Sorry that you you are having the urges. I'm right there with you. I'm so happy to hear that these video are helping! Thank you! God bless😊😊
Don't forget why you got sober, the anxiety and regret that comes with relapse is not worth it
Looking good at that age and diagnosis.. Id ignore the 1 year prognosis as long as alcohol is out of the picture, I'm sure you have many years to come!
13:28 sounds like me when running out of cocaine. Going through the car looking for that rock that I remembered fell down earlier.
Don’t Forget L.D.’s Livestream Tomorrow At 10:00 AM. EST.
Thank you cindy! See you in a few! God bless❤❤❤❤
@@liverdisease-qb6rk I’m trying to!😊
You're right LD! - - - - "Jesus said to him, "No one having laid the hand upon the plow, and looking on the things behind, is fit for the kingdom of God." (luke 9:32).
Diff context, but the principle is the same
Don't be haunted by past regrets, but look forward ...like you said, one day at a time, even if tomorrow has its own hurdles.
I like your comment , Craig. Nice words . Hope all is good in your life friend. God bless and take care 💚🙏🏼
Thank you Craig! I love your comment here! So very true! I really does apply to this conversation! Hope you are doing well today and hope to see you in the live!!! Thank you! God bless😊😊😊❤❤
THOSE DAYS ARE OVER AND YUR LUCKY YUR STILL ALIVE!!!
Good video
I have been watching your video's for a bit now. Everything you say I have lived. It is crazy how that works.. Anyway, you have helped me quite a bit. I recently quit alcohol. Its been about 5 weeks now. I have done that many times in the past for a few days but never because I really wanted to. It was always after something bad happened but after a few days I would be right back into it. This time I quit for the same reason but this time I truly wanted it to end. That is the only difference. It was not fun those first two weeks. Felt like complete shit, I was cranky, my thinking was horrible and I knew all I needed to do was make a drink and everything would be golden. I somehow managed to get through those two weeks and things started really changing. I felt better, my attitude was better and my sense of humor came back. I found out that I didn't need to drink to feel "right" or to laugh. Two weeks ago I started working out, going on walks and went on a low carb high protein diet. I am down 12 pounds in that two weeks and feel effin fantastic. I never thought any of this was possible but what you have had to say is an exact clone of who I was. It was you that really spoke to me and got me here. Thank You!!!
Congratulations!! Great achievement!!
Hey there Jamey! That's so awesome to hear! I'm sorry that you have been through so much. Kudos to you for sticking through those tough times! I know how hard it is, but the rewards are so worth it! Glad to hear that your life has improved so much! Thank you for sharing your story!!! They all help! God bless😊😊😊
Thank you for sharing, and so many people of guilt and shame about many areas of their lives. I will keep praying for you. This is one great video to help people who drink to stop. Although this is no my issue, guilt and shame are universal to many of us.
You are so welcome Erica! Thank you for being here and thank you for the prayers!!! God bless❤❤❤😂
I started drinking whisky when I found out I had Type 2. Thought the beer had to much carbs and the liquor had none. I drank on the rocks no mixers. Taking a break now
I did the same thing because of carbs. Vodka and bourbon on weekends. I quit all alcohol over 4 months ago. I didn’t lose weight because it didn’t cause weight gain, but my allergies I thought were due to pollen are gone and I feel great and have fun without a buzz!❤
@@FitforLife2024 I’m m on day 5 lol
Sorry to hear you have type 2. I know how you feel my friend. That's good to hear that you are taking a break! Good for you! Thank you! God bless😊😊😊
Thank you for sharing your experiences with alcohol.
Another awesome video. Everyone can see how sincere you are and how much you wanna help other people. I love your videos and I hope you feel better today.
Thank you so much cheri! I really appreciate you saying that! Thank you for being here! God bless❤❤❤❤
Proud of you! You’re helping so many people. Prayers for continued healing ❤
Thank you so much paula!!! And thank you for the prayers! God bless❤❤❤❤
Happy to see your feeling a little better
Hello sweet friend Kristen. How are you today ? Good I hope. I’m thinking about you. Love n hugs. Mona
@@MonaYY_Rig 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻
Thank you so much Kristen! I was really getting worried about it, but I got some rest and I am feeling much better. I have to listen to my body. God bless❤❤❤❤
@@MonaYY_Rig hey sweetie!!! Mona I’m good ☺️.. busy putting and cleaning the house after not having air for days. Cleaning all the bedding and washing stuff down.
I’d take a freeze over no air anytime.
Hope you are well Mona ⭐️
Took Goose out for an off lead run this am. I found a place! The school in our neighborhood has a playground with tons of portables (learning classrooms). The bunnies love to hide. Goose flushes em out. lol He is fast like a 🚀
Boys are up north this week.. just Goose and I.
God bless you!!!
God bless you too! 😊😊😊
Been there done that too😞. Hugs my friend ❤️🫂🙏
Chef glad you’re feeling better today. Anxiety 😬 had to be horrible for you. You are now enjoying your life. Bless !!! ❤❤❤ by the way I have managed to loose 8 pounds. And my exercising is going well, on my sixth week now. BP is lower, and asthma is better too. DR. Was happy with my results. I still have a lot of weight to lose, but it’s a start. Not sure if you remember but I wanted to share some good news. I watch your videos to help me understand my husband who over drinks…
I don't think anyone who hasn't experienced it can understand that feeling of watching your own body going trough the motions of getting more substance to use while thinking "what am I doing?". Feeling shameful and happy at the same time because the decision to use has been taken. To be 100% convinced of sobriety one minute, the next 100% convinced to consume, not understanding how the switch happened, feeling sad and excited simultanously. It is so weird.
I too am convinced that this is something that just happens, just like some of us happen to become teachers, others become plumbers. Or that some people like playing golf, others gravitate towards religion. It's something the unique makeup of each individual just happens to tend towards. To realize that a lot of our actions, thoughts and emotions is out of our control, and so let go of the guilt, can take time. But it truly is an important step on the way to getting better. We have to forgive ourselves for who we are. After all, we didn't choose any of the aspects that make up our subconscious. It's a bad hand to be dealt, and we work with what we have.
Thanks for making these videos brother, people need to hear stuff like this.
Hey LD such a powerful message. You’re so right the shame in failing is one of the pain points of this journey. All we can do is keep getting back up and face a new day. I hope you’re feeling better and as always I appreciate your insight. Take care friend. 💜 ❤️🩹 😊
@micru! Hello there friend! Just wanted to check on you. I hope you are having a happy Friday. Blessings to you. Mona ❤
@@MonaYY_Rig hey Mona all is good here, hope you and your family are doing well too. Sending you peaceful and positive energy your way. Take it easy my friend and stay cool out there the heat is on!!!
Hey micru866! Thank you! The shame was horrible, and tge guilt. I'm feeling much better today! Thank you so much for saying that! Hope to catch you in the live today! God bless❤❤❤❤❤
I got yur back homie the mirror is who judges us nobody else! We all love you
Thank you so much my friend! Love you too!❤❤❤❤ God bless😊
I am with you on the guilt and shame. I think everyone knows my story. You know, small town and whatnot. Everyone at work knows and my boss at my journalism gig knows. For me now, I am just grateful I held onto those jobs throughout this chaos. Whenever I went on a run everything would fall apart. I would neglect my jobs and find myself dangling by a thread. Enough was indeed enough. I am not ashamed to have AUD anymore. With sobriety you can rebuild everything. My life since I recovered this last time has already done a 180. Glad you are feeling better. I finshed an upcoming video on hangxiety. Later, LD.
Thank you for sharing this shades! I know what you mean. It's crazy how that all works out. I'm so happy that things have improved so much for you lately!!!! I will check your video out later on today, thank you! God bless❤❤😊😊
@@liverdisease-qb6rk I got the idea from watching another sober channel. The guy was talking about hangxiety, he didn't at first know what it was. He also said he came close to a really horrible panic attack. There are a few videos on the condition out there. I think you mention it in your latest video. Anyway, I'll see you on your live chat here in a few.
You look and sound much better today dude! We can feel guilty and live with regret over our aud, but really there's no point in doing that. What's important is that we are sober now and that's all that matters. If only I knew back then what I know now, I would have either quit drinking a long time ago, or just never started in the first place. Unfortunately, you can't change the past. All we can control is the right now, and hopefully we continue making the right decisions in the future. I'm not proud of my alcoholism and I'm not ashamed of it either, at least not anymore. Like everything else whether good or bad, my alcoholism is just another part of my life story; something I can learn from and use to help others too, just like you're doing right now by making these videos. We really do appreciate you LD, much love as always!! ❤❤
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Thank you so much David! I am feeling better! You are so right! It's part of our story now. No reason to feel ashamed at all. We live. We learn. It's when we don't learn from our mistakes, that's when it's a problem. Hope you are doing well and thank you! God bless ❤❤😊😊😊
The muscle memory thing really hit home for me! I won’t even be craving it and before I know it I’m at the store buying it anyways because it just feels routine at this point.
Hey yo LD, great to see ya. I really appreciate this honesty and I'm rooting for you man. Take care and see you next time.
Hey eddy! Thank you so much! Thank you for being here! God bless😊😊😊
Great video take one day at a time!
Thank you Douglas!!!! God bless😊😊😊
100% the guilt, shame and regret have been the hardest issues I have had to work through and it’s still a struggle.
Guilt is the worst for me
Hey Christine! I'm sorry that these things have been hard. It's ok, give yourself a break. It's not your fault! Thank you! God bless❤❤❤❤
wow! you nailed it on this one love you like a Brother
Thank you Matt! Love you too brother! God bless❤❤❤
You speak TOTAL SENSE brother
Alcohol makes me so nauseous I can’t self-medicate with it. Sometimes I feel jealous that other people have that fallback escape from reality…then I watch vlogs like this.
That's good to hear! Thank you for being here! God bless😊😊😊
So sorry you felt like a "horrible human being" because you became an alcoholic. So sorry for all the social forces that pushed you to drink hard in the first place-as if "not being able to drink" is somehow wimpy or unmanly. So sorry for the social forces that made it seem funny or clever or amiable to encourage you to be "the beer guy," thus making alcohol part of your identity. So sorry for all the social forces, stupid customs and supposed friends that took you away from your true self for decades and shoved you down the imprisoning path of alcoholism. I greatly admire how you've taken what can only be called a personal tragedy and transformed it into a powerful and compassionate tool for helping others. Hopefully, seeing how your story has changed others' lives will bring you some peace. Finally, may God grant you decades more in this world and forever bless and keep your extraordinary heart and soul. 🙏❤❤
Thank you so much Kathryn! In the end of it all, it was ultimately my decision to drink the way that I did. I didn't know that I could end up sick the way I did at my age, but that was my lack of knowledge. I should have looked into it. With that said, that's why I am here every day speaking about this. To spread the knowledge about the dangers of alcohol. I want as many people to know as possible that alcohol can and will cause physical harm if consumed in a non moderated way. Thank you so much for everything you said here!!! I hope that I will be around for decades to come as well!!! As long as I can speak, I will continue to make these videos and try to help others not have to go through what I have. Hope your morning is going great! God bless❤❤❤❤❤
@@liverdisease-qb6rkThanks for your long reply. The problem, of course, is that the alcoholic brain sucks at making or executing any decisions that don’t favor continued ingestion of alcohol. So all effort needs to be put on keeping people out of the “alcoholism pipeline” to begin with or, for those who are already alcoholics, somehow getting them away from alcohol long enough to be able to form thoughts and plans to break their addiction to alcohol. (Don’t know if this is correct since I don’t have an insider perspective.)
Coming up on 90!
That's so awesome to hear! Congratulations 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉 thank you for being here! God bless😊😊😊
I believe we know when we are almost gone because it’s at that point you’d rather sit in the depths of hell before you reach out & ask for help.
Shame …
1 emotion that when we “feel” or sit with shame can literally end our life.
One emotion ~ One
One life yet so many family members told me they loved me…
They left me behind ❤
If it were as easy to stop as some believe it to be
why do so many of us die?
“We feel too much”
“Your so sensitive”
However
I’d choose “being too sensitive”
Some numb by
“Never feeling” any negative feelings
I actually feel empathy towards them
We can choose to sit in our shame, wear it like a blanket or coat as we walk blindly looking for our Nxt hit or drink or we can choose to LIVE for the family we have here now.
I choose to live
All I have on my ❤
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What a beautiful and true testimony. I'm feeling good feeling good today. Love ya ❤
@@cheryldeanley2074 love u back friend ❌⭕️❌⭕️🫶🏻🫶🏻
Thank you so much for adding this Kristen! So very true! I hope that your day is going well!!! Hope to catch you in the live today if you can make it! God bless❤❤❤❤❤
@@liverdisease-qb6rk ♥️♥️ try to pop in… still trying to get the house back in order. Wash, grocery store, & cleaning. I won’t b tempting the “u know who” to come at me any time soon again”
Good thing he can’t read my thoughts.
Put on the full Armour of God every am since this hurricane 🌀
Ld is a chill dude.
Thank you so much my friend! God bless😊😊😊❤
Dude I went to a hospital emergency room once for help and they told me to go away to a rehab I couldn't afford. I had been to that same hospital before for detox when I was brought there by the police. Idiots.
@@jimmystrickland1034 they didn't even ask about my money they just told me to bugger off.
I'm so sorry to hear that my friend. That's not ok. Hope you are doing well today. Thank you! God bless😊😊😊
@@liverdisease-qb6rk I know right? I'm ok and I hope you are well god bless bro!
LD, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!! please research and rry svetinorm- a liver peptide for healing
Your videos are really helping me chef. I have verices in my throat and don’t know what to do next. On another topic, do you have a good way to cook a duck breast?
Thank you so much and I am so sorry. I would speak to your Dr about a tips, it helped me alot. Score the duck breast on the skin side, season both sides, get your pan hot, skin side down in the pan and do not move it until you see the sides start to turn brown about 2 minutes and flip for another 2. That's it, med rare to med and slice on the bias. Thank you! God bless😊😊😊
You speak about your anxiety being so bad: my brother is an alcoholic who managed to keep management positions drinking. Never ate breakfast and SMOKED after giant coffee. Just curious if you smoked too?
Oh here is DYD's channel: www.youtube.com/@Disappointingyourdemons And Bat Country's channel: www.youtube.com/@_BatCountry
I have been watching your videos but forgot how long that you’ve been sober?
Thank you for watching! 2 years and 3 months. God bless😊😊
Did they ever say you had a fatty liver leading up to all of this? Also, how do you control unhealthy food cravings?
Try drinking water when you're hungry because sometimes you aren't actually hungry and water will fill up some space in your stomach. Coffee will blunt your appetite. Chewing gum can keep you occupied as well. Trident is great for your teeth.
What helped me.. who used to be the biggest junk food junkie.. was first educating myself on the food I was eating. What's in it? Is it a "whole food" or packaged, processed food? What's the difference between the different kinds of oils/fats? And sugars?
Once I started eating like our ancestors and as close to nature as possible, my cravings started going away. I used to battle an extra 15-20 lbs.. but now I'm naturally thin while eating high fat foods (but healthy fats!) and have stopped even thinking about food, calories, etc.
Go the strict carnivore diet and fasting. Fixes everything. No sugar no seed oils and very light on the carbs 💪😇👍
I did not have any tests done on my liver before going to the hospital. I also have diabetes which I found out about the same time, so I just have to be careful. Thank you for watching! God bless😊😊😊
Does the shame ever present as sarcasm or joking about the drinking? My brother never shows any shame . But lots of making light of it. Maybe it’s to cover the shame?
Maybe he’s covering up the negative feelings with denial and minimizing
ARE you feeling better?
@ron’smom hey friend. Wanted to stop by to say hello and wish you a happy Friday and good weekend. Hugs 🥰
I am ronsmom! Thank you so much for asking! Hope you are doing well today! God bless😊😊😊❤❤❤❤
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Your comments on this channel are crazy lol